This is very relatable for me. Alcoholic as a father. Cheated on my mother and left her and my brother. I went years without speaking to my father. And distance/absence creates an odd emotion for someone you love or felt like your supposed to love. When my father would reach out to me to connect. I felt nothing. No anger or anything like that. It just felt fake to me. It’s hard to describe. Eventually my father died of brain cancer. I was able to step up and be there for him at the end. I was able to be composed about his passing. But now I just wonder what could I have done differently.
This is very relatable for me. Alcoholic as a father. Cheated on my mother and left her and my brother. I went years without speaking to my father. And distance/absence creates an odd emotion for someone you love or felt like your supposed to love. When my father would reach out to me to connect. I felt nothing. No anger or anything like that. It just felt fake to me. It’s hard to describe. Eventually my father died of brain cancer. I was able to step up and be there for him at the end. I was able to be composed about his passing. But now I just wonder what could I have done differently.
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