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love music pt 1, 2 and 3!
Hazbin hotel songs please please please
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I find it interesting what would be your reaction to Asaf Avidan's music? Especially In a Box series. This is a man thanks to whom I met Ren.
I don't think a lot of people realise how much time Knox actually spends working his ass off. I'm in awe of it at times.❤
This 🙌 I forgive him. The beef that's going on lately has kept him busy 😂
I've been listening to knox for roughly a year and a half both on his breakdowns 1st then realised I was an idiot for not even checking out him as an artist.
That was my flaw because you easily get caught up in how he deconstructed an artist you dismiss his own art.
I did that until killshot came out. Ever since I've purchased everything. The man is a decent human, a hard working family man and a lyricist (I use lyricist as a very simple comparison)
@emmamarriott there's an old song noone will react to by ren call penitence. If noonensets a precedence, it won't float. But for yourself. Listen, it's an amazing, strange, abstract piece of modern spoken word with rap
@@insidiousbeatz48 Thanks for the recommendation 😀
@emmamarriott if you ever listen to it I'd be very interested to hear your opinion
I have chronic Lyme. That unleashed these demons in my body, and I had to stop law school, I had to ask the judge to turn down the ac during my disability hearing. I can absolutely relate to this song. I have Fibromyalgia and Rheumatoid Arthritis along with a boring list of personal hell. I missed so much of my kids growing up. At 48 now, I cling to music as my therapy because nothing else helps, or my body rejects it. Imagine being allergic to 52 different meds? I pray they find a cure. Thank you, @knox, for introducing me to Rens music. On my darkest days and nights, his music is like a lighthouse guiding me through.
Much love and a big hug to you. You're not alone. ❤❤❤
Good God. Praying 🙏
He is a light for many. 🙏🙏❤ Blessings
Hey Jodi. Thanks for sharing that post and your story. I know it will help others, just by seeing it. I hope that for you, Ren and all others impacted my Lymes, that a cure is found soon. Rens music helps me too but from a severe depression/mental health perspective but physical pain, I don't know if I personally would be as strong and brave as Lyme suffers seem to be. I think Rens music and his outlook on life is so inspirational. Need more like him and less of the ego we see in the majority of industry controlled music, especially in rap and hip hop. Thanks again. I hope you are having a good day, what every that may look and feel like for you.
I’m so sorry for your condition. While I was aware of Lyme disease, I didn’t understand how devastating it was until Ren shared his experience. My heart goes out to you. I wish you the best.
No new Ren release without your reaction...there was something missing. Now it's complete. ❤
Exactly!!! Been waiting for this one like crazy!!😅
Here here!
Just wish he'd do older ren songs like dear God, and depression
"Hope is a dangerous thing. Hope can drive a man insane."
As someone who also struggles with unidentified neurological conditions resulting in severe chronic pain, as well as several other conditions that frequently accompany (such as chronic fatigue), I have had to stop allowing myself to believe in hope. If an angel comes to help me like the stem cell doctor did for Ren, fantastic, but after many, many years of having my hopes raise only to be shattered I cannot continue allowing myself to do that. Like Ren, I have gone insane and lost contact with reality for periods of time. Each time is harder and lasts longer than the last. I'm 29 and feel 92 most days.
I both love and hate Ren. It's amazing to hear someone speak so articulately about so many things I feel and have felt. I love that he found relief from many of his symptoms allowing him to be a global voice for so many. But I also feel a twinge of jealousy that I can't also find relief. But that's not why I find myself hating Ren at times. I discovered Ren at a point in my life where I had given up and was intending to take my life. On the night I had decided to end my suffering I heard How To Be Me and saw the effects taking one's own life has on others and I realized I couldn't force my pain and suffering onto everyone else around me, even if I can see the pain in their lives having to watch me suffer. The pain of losing a loved one in that way is a pain that never goes away. So during particularly bad days, when all I want is to taste the sweet release death will ultimately bring, Ren reminds me I cannot bring it upon myself. Those are the reasons I both love and hate Ren.
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❤🙏❤️🙏❤️🙏 love your honesty, courage and powerful post! Wishing you gentle days ahead❤
Raw and honest...😥 I do hope you find relief one day, sooner than later❤
We suffer In silence ❤
If you want to know how he did that beat, he uploaded a short on his channel. And even more on patreon!
And how he did, it was insanely ingenious!
I'm a member of Ren's Patreon. Why can't I find this?
@@AstralMelody83 Probably because it's on the highest tier.
@@AstralMelody83I believe it was on his Instagram post 👌 Awesome to watch him work his craft 💞
It’s in the video he posted called squelchy
Knox! You’ve had us Renegades feeling like we’re waiting for Christmas! We’ve been checking every 10minute for this! ❤️🔥❤️🔥xx Thanks man!
This!!!!
No lie! 😂
Don't call me out like that haha😂
I thought i was the only one that looks every ten minutes for a new video
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I read the limo pulled up unplanned at just that time and that's why Ren smiles as he turns back ❤
100% agree
I love that little smile when he turns back to the camera and he knows that shot's going in the final edit! 🖤
After watching Chapters 1-8 on RenMakesStuff, this song makes me cry every time now. Ren is a master, forged in the fire and darkness bringing light and hope to everyone. Great reaction Knox, hope you're doing well too. Been a lot lately
Definitely!!! If you find the time those Chapters are a definite watch!
Everyone has been waiting for this!
Thank you!
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Very true! 🖤
Ren hit 1 million views in 5 days last night 🎉🎉🎉🎉 I hope everybody goes and watches it and subscribes to Ren and let's bump that number up 👍👍👍bringing more awareness and spread the message of hope 🌷🌷Ren does so awesomely in this song 🎶🎶👏👏👏💞
Buy the song and download or stream or both😂 and this activate the count for #1. Hurry folks and get Ren to #1 both in Uk and USA!!
Ren's Chapters need exposure, it will save lives.
I’m 35 and was diagnosed with endometriosis and adenomyosis at 24. Four surgeries later, almost a month in the hospital, countless pills , hormones, judgmental and cold doctors and zero kids later and I’m finally throwing in the towel. There is no cure for these conditions and I’ve given up my dreams of carrying a child and am prepping for a hysterectomy. I’ve spent almost two decades in constant and debilitating pain and have lost all my relationships and accomplishments I built and was so proud of. I found Knox as a Swiftie and since watching, have added at least 50 songs to my Therapy playlist and this amazing song as been added - I’m in tears. I am so grateful for being introduced to music that I would have probably never been exposed to, all while this dude is dealing with his own life struggles, raising a family and dropping new music. You truly are the best, I’m so happy you exist and thank you for what you do 🙏🫶🏼
The line about 'carved a hole in my chest just to feel' reminds me of 'Hurt' by NIN and Johnny Cash:
"I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real"
Big up to you Knox for another quality bars breakdown!
There's another internal you may not have caught with the disability benefit bar?
"24 and living on disability benefit, but what's the benefit of disability? It's irrelevant."
You've got the straight meaning of the bar, like disability isn't a benefit. You've also got the colloquial term "dis" as in slang for "this", so the bar also reads-
"24 and living on disability benefit, but what's the benefit of dis(this) ability? It's irrelevant."
So you've got Ren saying "What's the benefit of this ability, it's irrelevant.?" It's saying "what's the point of having this skill when I can't use it, because I'm so sick? It's irrelevant."
So you've definitely got a triple in just that one internal rhyme scheme alone.
Just as some perspective, there is more funding to study male pattern baldness than there is for Lymes disease, ME and fibromyalgia COMBINED.
We as a society place more value on vanity, than we do in helping millions of people who are in genuine pain and suffering terribly.
That, is a very sad situation to be in as a collectiveness.
The limo wasn't part of the plan... It was one of Rens serendipitous moments where an external factor happens at exactly the right time 💕
I'm glad I discovered Ren when I did. I had just been giving a diagnoses of an incurable connective tissue disorder at the age of 27 and my body just started falling apart. His music is such a great and powerful thing, to be able to share the message of invisible illnesses that people who look healthy have to suffer through every day. And I also really appreciate your analysis of his music - it allows someone like me who isn't a big hip hop fan to get a deeper meaning out of his words. Much love to you both ❤
Hammer of Thor works at two levels in terms of freeing Excalibur from the ice. Hammer of Thor and Hammer of Thaw.
I haven't heard anyone catch that he's 23 in his bed *tomb* not room. He's referred to his bed as a grave before and this was a devastating hit
I think some people also don't get why his self harm was so relatable. I have a chronic pain disorder and was on meds for a time that caused intense neuropathy, pins and needles for 8 hours sometimes. The painful kind like when you fall asleep on your arm wrong and the pain wakes you up when the blood flow returns. I've been blessed by never having self harm thoughts or suicidal ideation. One day, I found myself punching my foot repeatedly because it stopped the pins and needles when I was hit.
I went off those meds that next month.
The Lord I forgive you lines are really powerful when you consider the actual function of forgiveness. It isn't to absolve another's soul, its a form of healing for the one who forgives. Forgiving God is about letting go of the blame. For a religious/spiritual person, the idea of forgiving your higher power is heart wrenching and fulfilling. It's the healing of a spiritual wound, of religious trauma.
Phil's wife Susan here. Hearing the "Lord I forgive you" lines helped me realsie that is something I still need to do. I do a lot of online activism for ME/CFS. Sadly, there are too many young people in a bed tomb. They need our help. Society doesn't even realise they are there. The medical profession have often been trained to ignore people with these illnesses. When you are bedridden your unable to get yourself to doctors or a hospital.
After fighting fibromyalgia for over 15 years I can truly relate to the struggles, the highs and lows, with no remedy in sight. I’m struggling now to find that positivity in my life in spite of my illness. REN’s music has been so helpful in that journey. 🥰
Ren is such a great storyteller! Each song is a journey.
Always appreciate your breakdowns Knox! This song is 🔥. I honestly listen to Ren daily…..I find his talent unmatched. I have Fibromyalgia and him bringing attention to his journey with pain is very relatable to me
Amen
As someone who also suffers from fibromyalgia and other Invisible Illnesses I feel for you. After 3-4 years and countless different doctors and tests, when I was 14 they finally just labeled me as having "Some Unknown Neurological Condition Resulting in Episodes of Extreme pain and Muscle Spasms". Apparently in their eyes that justified them throwing narcotics at a teenager and telling the family to stop bothering them. (And yes, this was at the height of doctors over prescribing opioids). About 10 years later they decided to add Fibromyalgia to my diagnosis. I wish I had a dollar for every Doctor who told me I was "Faking it" or, "It's just in your head". I feel like I could make a sizable impact on the funding needed to research these types of illness!
This 🙌
He’s not riding around in a limo. He and Josh were driving around in a snowstorm in a rented truck. 😀 Love the beats n this one. Such clever use of the sample. He was showing how he did it on his Patreon. Incredibly talented producer, is Ren.
This song comes full circle with Hi Ren and Seven Sins, all brilliant, raw, powerful and emotionally describing his journey with Lyme! I identify with all of it and it warms my heart to hear Ren's lyrical message at the end! Keep on making music Knox, you are also on another level ❤🎉
Can't forget Sick Boi
This song alone is absolutely touching and can fit with so many humans even though it’s his story. It’s magical. It hurts. It’s real.
Watching my teen go through this I can relate to every single bar, still waiting for the Lord I forgive you part but it’s a long process. So glad someone was able to put it into words.
Think the limo was actually just a coincidence. Alot of different synchronicities happen in his live videos. Think that why he started smiling. Love looking for them
Like his halftime remix when starts naming old school rappers a school bus drives past
Ren commented , on this serendipitous moment 💞 was not planned
@@jonneateh5815also the crosswalk timer hitting 0 as he got to the other side of the street
@@Courtneyp85 true but that would be easier to plan (if he wanted). Just walk slightly slower across the road.
So happy to see your video. Us Renegades helped Troubles reach 1 million views last night.
One of my top 3 fastest clicks!! Thanks Knox.
Hope you're doing ok Knox ❤ So happy to see this ❤
The way he describes the pain as sophisticated I think is an underappreciated line.
Well it's about time !!!!!!
After having listened to Ren's Chapter Series Intently and multiple times, this track just encapsulates his story so well and serves as musical accompaniment for The Chapters. Ren's experiences are very familiar to me to say the least, as is often the case with many of his supporters. Ren's success is so deserved and I do truly hope it continues. Ren is the medicine many of us need. So raw and vibrant in color, combined with his naturally emotive performance! Indeed Ren....Your Limo has finally arrived. This in my mind one of the best lyrical raps ever written and performed.
That funky noise underneath was the original song but totally reworked by Ren. There is of course a short video of him generating that sound.
I appreciate your reaction. REN describes trying to get to a diagnosis and how pain messes with your head to a tee.
Thank you for supporting Ren ❤ hope your troubles are getting better for you 🙏
Yay, I've been watching for your reaction to this one!
It is truly uplifting when one still has the will to live in harmony with the great forces. After a senseless, cruel and unnecessary experience. Years of lonely suffering, doubts, pain. And finally, unity, devotion, forgiveness. No anger.
You should check out his 8 chapters on renmakesstuff: he tells his story of sickness and struggles. The line about the knife in his chest is all there. I thought the same about guardians: Ren is a messenger, a guardian and he’s been put here to share the message, help people and make the world a better place. That’s his mission. ❤️🙏
"Best Of Myself" Beautiful, love it!!!
Thank you. I hope all is well in your world.
That intro is from Moby !!! What a legend ! Wonder if we'll ever hear a colab between Ren and Moby! That would be EPIC indeed !
The reaction on Ren's face when the limo arrives behind him tells me that, that wasn't planned and was a happy accident.
With great power comes great responsibility, and Ren is truly a hero! He is using his growing powers and platform for so much more than simply creating brilliant music. Ren has said that he always had this feeling that he was meant to change the world for the better. So much that he defiantly yelled a challenge to evil into an empty room. And then he got sick…
Ren has now shared the full story of his health journey in 8 video chapters leading up to the release of this song and what a journey it has been. If anyone hasn’t already watched them, I highly recommend you do. With all the chapters he is showing immense strength in sharing his story that is so hard to tell, being vulnerable and telling it because he hopes it will help others and raise awareness. And here he is with another rendition of that story, now told through music with a fire beat and delivering a message of hope. A beautiful hero that the world needs ❤️🐰🕳️
Hope you’re okay, Knox. Between Best of Myself and you not dropping a Ren reaction a few minutes after release, you’ve had me worrying. Hopefully things are getting better for you and your family ❤
Been waiting for this
Thanks Knox! Glad your here!
i have watched this one from Ren quite a few times,
still surprised at how must i miss, when knox points things out!
Thanks for all you do and for the love you have for REN.
Ren with another absolute banger, and incredible story. We all cheering for him to get 100% well
I love how that back sample sounds like a Jimi Hendricks guitar rift. Idk if it was intentional but damn it sounds good.
I just commented on your last video asking where the REN reacrion was lol now its here, nice! Ren went though this shit which makes the music more powerful because he understands the pain. Ren is a MOVEMENT. Protect him at all cost.
Thank you 🖤 Knox Hill 🤍 for your 🐷 Ren - Troubles reaction! #ren #verahall #troublesohard #troubles #slaughterhouse #calgary
Ren is a modern day Mozart. Write lyrics and play so many instruments. Crazy. Plus glad to see you doing so well. You deserve it. You have one of the most intricate break downs. My channel will start soon. It would be awesome if you keep an eye out for my reactions. peace!
It took my mom 10 years to get diagnosed with fibromyalgia. For years, she had doctors telling her nothing was wrong and it was all in her head, then she even started doubting herself and wondering if they were right. Luckily, one dcotor got her on a list to see a specialist, and after a few years of seeing the specialist, they figured out what she had. Watched my mom goto work for years tired, in pain with no help in sight. Truly a strong woman.
Idk how Scru can have such an issue with you when you constantly come out with wholesome videos like this. You have a big heart and a lot of talent, kick that haters butt! ❤
I've been waiting for you to react to this and you definitely didn't disappoint. The stretch limo at the end was actually a coincidence and if you listen you can hear Ren almost chuckle because when he turned his head it caught him by surprise. Ren mentioned it in a short bts he put out with Josh about scouting the locations during a blizzard. Then he put out a great bts on his patreon showing him mixing the beats that is amazing. Thanks for another great reaction. Love your new song as well and hope your wife is doing well.
You're a legend Knox - you deserve a clone Knox Hill who could break down your own tracks the same way. Love your BBL Drizzy Freestyle by the way - had it on a Spotify playlist with Ren's Troubles and Romaine's The Radios killed the Blues pretty much non stop for the last few days. Appreciate you man, hope you're doing OK and don't let the bastards get you down!
Knox - brilliant breakdown as always.
As someone who has lived most of my life with an autoimmune disorder, Ren's courage is awesome. I hope he inspires all who have this horrible battle - and teaches compassion to those who don't understand how hard it is for people with good and bad days.
Whether you react or not, Ren's chapters are a must. Also still many Ren songs you havent reacted to, will blow your mind bcz so unique ie bongo bong, chilren of the moon, etc.
Hope you are well.
Big love from Boulder, Colorado
3:31 WOW! What an unbelievably superhuman ear you have! Thats exactly what he revealed that he did. He manipulated Vera Hall's vocal for that sound. Sherlock Holmes couldn't have figured that out so quickly. Amazing.
Have been waiting for the Knox hill breakdown of this.😊
Yes I was hoping you'd react to this! Such an important song! What a week with his chapters! Thank you Knox!😊 #Unrest #RenMakesStuff
There is a very good documentary on the D C Documentary channel. Called "Lyme disease and the fight for recognition" In it they talk to people who suffer from it.
And it's the same as what Ren says.
Worth watching for anyone who wants to know how hard it is to live with. When chronic Lyme disease is not recognized as a real thing.
The story's they tell are very moving.
Highly recommend
Viewing for anyone wanting to understand more.
#ren #troubles #verahall #lymedisease ❣️
Adore this man! Deserves all the success & happiness
Ren is our inspirational angel of hope
Never give up, never give in 🙏🖤💗
I am so glad to see you got to this one! I love the song and the beautiful message of hope from Ren. I hope you are doing well. Knox . Sending light and love ❤️
Yes!
And when I heard it for the first time, the "Lord I forgive you" part - I thought about you man... Hope you're seeing the light at the end of the tunnel and can forgive the torment...
God bless
Fantastic reaction..i love your appreciation of the genius of ren. What a beautiful soul he is
The flip on lord i forgive "you"
I've been really looking forward to your reaction to this song! What a masterpiece.
❤❤❤ I totally can feel a billboard song in the near future with you and Ren. 🎉 With the friendship, love for music and using your individual strengths to help the other grow. It just has to be it's written in the stars...
Knox is the 🐐 of breakdown's
Many, many thanks to Ren for being able and willing to put his horrendous struggles into such an incredibly, amazing piece of art!! This song isn't only fire it's so important and truly needs to be heard by so many!!!
Love how much different music styles Ren can produce. I would love to hear him express his pain and emotions through a Heavy Metal piece. He plays guitar so he would have no problem with a heavy rhythm and even a riff or lead would be dope.
He has covered some Black Sabbath while busking 😊
Thanks Knox for the breakdown, just entering the world of REN now.
Oh thank heaven! Finally something I care about. A real Artist with something to actually say and says it so well. Been waiting for this reaction.
“The weather of a cold soul.” Man, Knox. ❤ I love you make space for both feeling it and breaking it down. And you highlighted one of my favorite “sounds” right after the “superstition” bar!! That thing feels good to belt out alone in the apartment lol. Love and strength to you on you and your family’s own journey, friend. 🫶🙏🕯️💚
I always appreciate the lyricism more after your breakdown! Thanks Knox! This song is 🔥🔥🥰
Ren is such an amazing artist. Been waiting for this one 💜💜
Was waiting for this reaction. I knew it was coming ❤He just passed 1M views on this one today. For anyone that doesn't know, he also told his story of his sickness and hope, in 8 different chapter videos in the days before the release of this song. This song is a culmination of those chapters. For anyone interested in watching those chapters(1-8), they are on his @RenMakesStuff TH-cam channel. www.youtube.com/@RenMakesStuff/videos
This 100%
Still! Peace!
Yay a break from the beef with a little bit of hope 🧡🧡🧡🧡
Yes 👍 We need a good messages of hope & awareness not all the fighting 🙄 I hope this song blows up more than the million it hit last night 🎊🎊🎊🎊changes things around. ,👍👍
Saved the best for last! Glad to see the twinkle back in your eyes!
Thank you Knox… always great! ❤️🫶🏻❤️
Limo... Serendipity, again
Finally! I was not complaining, knowing you are busy, but I was actually waiting for this since the drop 😄. Great as always. ❤🔥❤🔥One thing I am not sure you heard was "in my bedtomb" instead of "bedroom"
Love your breakdown!❤
Thanks for another great reaction, Knox - we appreciate you!
I have MCAS, POTS and several other things, I feel this so deeply. I’m currently mostly bedbound receiving 6 hours of IVs every other day to just try to function. Thank you @renmakesmusic for putting it all into words ♥️♥️
much love to your wife and family ❤
Knox you are the GOAT of reactions. Fact. Loved it. Thank you!
Iam a 49 year Old German and my english in writing and speaking is not so good. I understand a lot. But with your reacting Videos Knox i understand so much more. Especely the meaning behind. Thank you very much.
And i love Ren
This was deep young man is amazing sending positive messages threw his music ❤❤❤
Knox you are so good at breaking down Rens songs. You're great at doing lots of other artists too but seriously, you just get Ren! I look forward to your reactions to Rens music ALMOST as much as I look forward to Rens new releases ❤️😅
Your reactions are always worth waiting for. ❤ Hope life is being kinder to your family this week.
Thank you Knox you’re a fave reactor of mine. I love the way you tune into every part of RENs genius, paralleled with your own. ❤
Welcome back Knox - Ren posted on his Facebook and his other channels how he made that vocal frequency. It's really cool to watch
I saw a clip on Tik Tok of Ren making this track and playing with the sample was dope
An absolute masterpiece. I have so many pages of poetry of my suffering through my journey of 10 years undiagnosed lyme and another three before I healed. I'm not talented, I could never put everything in the right words. To see Ren articulate things I've felt so deeply in my heart, to have a story that so similarly parallels my own troubles expressed in this art so brilliantly is a gift. I appreciate it deeply. I found healing. I'm eternally greatful to God for all the lessons I learned and the resilience I now have through my suffering. Any where Lyme or autoimmunity are mentioned I like to share I was bedridden and now I have my life back thanks to the New York Center for Innovative Medicine in New York by Dr. Thomas Schulz. I will always share that in case someone else can find their remedy there as well. God Bless. Pushing through was worth it.
“Table tennis game that has no end”, oh how I relate to this line. I have a chronic therapy resistant depression, spent several months in a mental hospital, but it brought nothing in the long term, even though I tried many medications and even last resort methods like ketamine and ECT. I am trying unsuccessfully to find an ambulatory psychotherapist, it’s very hard where I live, even the crisis services couldn’t help me find one. “Sorry, we have no places available, write again in several months”, “sorry, your symptoms are too severe for our staff, we can’t help you” and so on. My psychiatrist also can’t do anything, because I have already tried literally every available antidepressant with zero results, even with lithium.
Back to the topic of the song, Lyme’s disease, tick encephalitis, malaria and so on are just so f*cking terrifying. One random bite from a tiny creature is enough to ruin lives.
Hey Knox! 💜 So glad to see you getting to this one. Spot on analysis, as usual. Not necessarily as a reaction, but you gotta try to watch the 8 chapters Ren released on his renmakesmusic channel. They really go into his story in detail. This song is like the cliff notes version. Bring your tissues, it's an incredible journey.