I have been depressed for a long time, but after taking shrooms few months ago, l feel much happier and highly motivated and my ADHD gone , lost a ton of anxiousness and had a few epiphanies about how I should live my life. I decided to buy an ounce for backup, but haven’t yet felt the need to take any more since then.
All I can say is Psychedelic therapy treats mental health issues. Anxiety and depression. Likely to be the most profound experience a human can have in life time.
I have felt depressed since 11 years old and I have CPTSD, but I had magic mushrooms 3 days ago and I’m able to feel joy and genuine optimism for the first time in my adult life! I can’t believe it. It’s changed something in me, and I just feel mentally well
This is beautiful. I took this exact dose in 2021, 4.5g of psilocybin and I had this exact experience... the feeling that nothing can hurt me and physical existence is just a moment in eternity. I felt connected to other beings on earth, knowing that they are connected to me even though we don't really know each other "here". I also came back from the experience willing to enjoy earthly pleasures because we need a physical body to enjoy them.... I felt I am several people at the same time, I also felt the sense of never ever being alone and can relate to the feeling if willing to take other people's pain away but not being able to... the only way is by advocating for psychedelics. I am ready for another heroic dose, I also got some amanita muscaria but haven't tried it yet, waiting for the right moment. Thanks for this, it's great to know that more people are getting "IT"!
That is amazing! Im so happy you had that an amazing experience too 😊 aren’t Amanitas just the most gorgeous mushrooms - I have a painting of them on my wall. I’ve never tried them though. Now that it’s been a year I’m also feeling like it’s almost time again for a booster. Thanks so much fir sharing your story with me, it is lovely to know they’re kindred spirits out there 💜
This is an encouraging story, thank you. Everything you mentioned is a primary source of the fear and terror that fuels my existential OCD - ironically triggered by a horrible trip on way too powerful pot brownies many years ago. I have a tremendous amount of fear around psychedelics despite knowing their potential and feeling stuck and out of options regarding anything else.
You mentioned this being a ridiculous ride, reminds me of the late great comedian Bill Hicks who advocated using mushroom and use to close his sets by pointing out that this is just a ride. He had a wonderful description of a large dose that I imagine you can relate to: “I laid in a field of green grass for four hours going, My God, I love EVERYTHING! The heavens parted, God looked down and rained gifts of forgiveness onto my being healing me on every level; psychically, physically, emotionally, and I realized our true nature as spirit, not body, that we are eternal beings and God's love is unconditional and there's nothing we can ever do to change that. It is only an illusion that we are separate from God or that we are alone. In fact, the reality is that we are one with God and he loves us.” Wonderful to hear that you’re benefiting from this medicine and best of luck in your future trips
"I had a hard time feeling like I belonged anywhere and I just felt awfully alone", I've only watched the very beginning of your video and I couldn't stopped crying. I am hoping psilocybin mushrooms will help me too. I am also feeling very anxious, and have been suffering from "Chronic Fatigue Syndrome" / CPTSD for many years. Chronic stress and childhood traumas are the root cause, definitely. So far, mild/ high doses didn't do much, except for this "peaceful feeling" you described, I will try again with higher doses. Your testimony is boosting me! Thank you for sharing your story ! 🌈
41:13 Have my phone on silent for years now... The mix of having a domineering mother and spam callers just... Demolished any connection I had to using my cell phone as an actual phone. Yup, I see your calls and texts, and will treat them as snail mail! 😂 I'm in the lowest point of my life, lost my dog, my best friend, my only conpanion, on December 18th of 2023... Haven't felt right since... So I have some vacuum sealed away, and I'm thinking about taking a weekend and just buckling down, just worried that I'll go down a bad path, but sometimes that's needed. Have enjoyed the video so far! Hope you are doing well. 🤗🤗🤗🤗
One of the most articulate descripton of the psilosybin trip I have found on the internet. Very nice. I have not tried it yet but I am planning to do it fairly soon. Thanks for sharing
@les2169 absolutely agree! Thank you for this @Chaneldays it’s absolutely spot on! Uncontrollable crying from your report I wish you much love & light moving forward too x
I wasn't planning to listen for an hour but this was inspiring. I've been living in dread and fear my whole life from cptsd so I needed this. I totally get the perspective on so much said. We are all from the same spark of life, every blade of grass and bird is family...even the earth it's self. Nature puts us in awe and feeds our soul but I need a reboot to lose deep self doubt. This gives me hope.
it’s everything everywhere all at once.. this interconnectedness of everything.. how its not black and white, it’s not grey, it’s literally the rainbow… there is no labels, no identity, or attachments.. no molds or ego or limitations. I had this awakening when my soul was shattered and broken.. all the traumas came up and the pain was so debilitating but its allowed me to see the world in such a different perspective . such gratitude and love and peace understanding that this purpose in life is simply to just enjoy.. to be present and to follow that alignment of flow and the path of least resistance.. i am 19 and im still suffering in this constant state of fight or flight.. i have these spasms of bliss and connection with higher consciousness and it’s so beautiful and limitless but then my negative thoughts, trauma, narratives pull me down very low… its been hard because i have tired so much as well.. herbs, medicine, therapy, natural modalities, and i have these moments of pure bliss and understanding that there is something so much more but then it puts me into this existential crisis of then what even is the purpose of this modern life? To wash dishes, to be on the phone.. or anything it’s like for what.. but i feel a deep calling to first heal myself and then help others heal as well.. idk everything you said ur story i felt like i was listening to my own soul mirror and what i’ve experienced without even trying mushrooms yet.. but i want the full healing not just the temporary moments of it. i also read a lot of books about detachment, spirituality, exchart tolle, alan watts, and others.. im just still feeling lost in this fog of disconnection sometimes.. but with this video and everything you said it hit the nail on the head.. i now feel this calling to try mushrooms.. to rewire.. to heal.. transform..
Your story and experiments mirrored my own - I hope you find a longer lasting state of connection and freedom from negative thoughts/feelings Those authors you mentioned are great and can provide temporary moments of peace and a reframed mental perception. If you try shrooms I hope they bring you peace x
Thank you for sharing your amazing journey. I have signed up for a psyllisibin trial in the USA for depression and hope I get accepted. Fingers crossed they choose me.
It's incredible that you were able to articulate your experience so well. From the concepts of 'Is-ness' to eternity, I have been gaining insights from your video journal. This makes me feel like there are experiences beyond the human awareness and I'm very curious about it. Maybe in the future I might even have the privelege of experiencing such states of consciousness. Thank you, Chanel, for being so vulnerable with the whole world and as result have touched people like me who are still searching for answers and insights regarding 'just being'. Much love, and hope you have a very happy 2025 ahead of you.
I've been feeling really drawn lately to nature, God, community and love lately. Ive never tried any mushrooms but I think these things are all so healing. I'm so greatful to realise that. I'm really trying to spend more time in nature and building relationships that truely matter. I appreciate what you spoke of as a mother. I feel I need to give up on trying to impact people and just ride this wave with them instead
I ve been experiencing exactly the same thing except the visuals, after a very long time of deep meditation, ... in the last year almost weekly. but without th elong lasting effects. i became addicted to meditation. in the morning I was feeling like you after 2 hours of "hardcore" meditation, I tried everything, but in the afternoon falling back to depression. Thank you for sharing.
When I went to a weekend workshop with Lynne Roberts for Shamanic Reiki, that was what I got too. Just have fun. Don't be so serious. Don't allow yourself to get stuck in the muck of despair. I try to stay connected to my inner child, but it is hard not to get sucked into the seriousness of life or how we humans view life so seriously. Life isn't meant to be taken seriously. It is literally about living and staying open and curious. I still struggle though even though I know that.
I'm searching for experiences, as someone I love dearly (I'd hope had sparkles on his face 🙂) is trying psilocybin for TR depression. I'm not even at the 20m mark but have to express my gratitude for you authentic and thoughtful share - the many 'unspectacular' trips, your perspective on not closing eyes to force more internal journey or using music to guide experience (things that are very prevalent in the literature for therapeutic purposes), and your wonderful language and examples of "trusting & letting go to the process, and remaining open to letting it lead you" xxx ps. the regal and obstinent nature of the cat was perfect!
I am always surprised (but also not) about how similar these experiences are. I saw myself in your descriptions, and I think just watching this I was transported back to those moments and epiphanies. I was told once that after something like this, we now have a red chord linking us to that knowledge, to that essence and love we "discovered". And I try to remember that chord when I am not in those experiences. This video reconnected me to that chord :)
That is so enriching for me to pondrr.... Thank you for that "cord" comment. I'm 53 and bought some capsules of Golden Teacher and Hillbilly something. They arrive tomorrow. Did you fast? How long until it kicked in? Mine are capsules so if after a half hour or hour, if I don't feel anything, do I take another? I feel like I live under a black cloud. Your comment really resonated with me. Thank you for your comment, 🙏👐🌹🤗 and please advise.
@@EverybodysSister2023 yes I fast so I don’t eat in the morning and normally start trip around 9-10 If you’re not feeling anything after an hour add a little bit more I’d say
Amazing Story Chanel and I can imagine this wasn't easy to talk about. I too was tossed around as a kid, in pretty much every way one can imagine. Spent 25 years drinking, doing drugs and living in anger and depression. I was on anti depressants and 2 sleep meds for years. I spent a year and half doing 2.5-4 grams of dried cubensis mushrooms every 3rd day. I would meditate, exercise, listen to music, play with my dogs, pet my cat and reflect. I would spend hours crying about everything, asking what I did to deserve all this and doing my best to forgive everyone including myself which was wonderful. I still struggle here and there but I don't take any meds. I sleep really well. I'm learning how to move forward in a new way. Leaving my old self behind is very difficult but it seems to get easier every day. Taking large doses every few days is NOT what I recommend! That's just what I felt I needed to do as I had a lot of trauma to sort out. Also, I've been doing mushrooms since I was 15 so I know how to handle feeling when they come up without freaking out. I'm not even saying mushrooms are for everyone but I know how much they love us and want to help. They won't do what you want them to do but they will do what you NEED them to do. One has to give up all expectations of what a trip should looks like. Gotta lean into what comes up and go with the flow...
Thank you for sharing your story You’ve had a rough road and did the hard work - I can’t even imagine having that many trips each week - your strength is astonishing
@@chaneldays It seems crazy and my friends and family thought I had gone completely off the rails. I had one friend, that smokes meth every day say, "dude! you're going to fry your brain!!" WTF? You smoke meth every day and somehow you think mushrooms are the things that are going to burn me out? okay...People drink every day, smoke meth, do coke, smoke week, take pills yet we think tripping once or twice a week is what a crazy person does. It's the change of perspective that seems to scare people the most. The idea that you can learn too much about ourselves, nature and the universe that just seems too overwhelming for one person to handle. It's not
@@harrollcooke I was meaning more of how much energy trips take, I’m always exhausted for a few days after - doing it as regularly as you wouldnt be possible for me, your energy levels are impressive
Ohhh, I got you. Probably because it was the first time, since I was probably 5 years old that I actually felt alive. Didn’t want to waste a second of it😊
Thank you for sharing your story. I havent sat with mushrooms in some years, and, 5 minutes into watching your video, my muscles started to relax and the chronic pain in my body was being alleviated. That's the power of mycelium at work. One human being talking about the beauty of their experience, sharing their light, and helping others catch that light themselves. Thank you ❤
Thank you so much for sharing this. I have been working up to taking that dose for a while. I'm a bit nervous and having anxiety doesn't help, but hearing your experience has given me the courage to go for it. Also everything you spoke about really resonated with me and is exactly what I already felt to be true being a spiritual person. I was wondering if my two cats would freak me out a bit during the trip but now i'm excited to see how they appear to me :D Sending you love and grattitude x
Report back on how it went! Anxious people are the most afraid of these drugs and the most vulnerable to having bad trips, while ironically being those who stand to benefit the most.
Awesome video!I've had Ketamine infusions and had a small "taste" of what you described. I'm so thankful I watched this. It's very reassuring that there's hope for me. As soon as I get ahold of some mushrooms, I'm going to start my healing journey. Best of luck with yours!
@@Mannsy83 I had 6 Ketamine infusions at 3k total and I didn't get the incredible relief many report, but I don't regret it because I did feel something. I'm starting my sessions again next week. Wishing you the best!
Thank you, I have a lot of the same issues you have, but I’m afraid of a mental break down if I try psychedelics, but your lessons help reduce my anxieties, thanks so much for sharing!
Wow your experience sounds amazing Chanel! It sounds like it has truly helped heal you. When I hear experiences like this it always just reconfirms my beliefs on so many levels. Thank you so much for sharing this with us. Sending you tons of love always beautiful soul. 💖
Hello Chanel, loved your video, everything you had to say and how genuine your sharing is. Wanted to suggest microdosing as a way to keep the mind at bay. Thank you for this lovely video, I think it might save some people's lives.
"that's human sh*t man" - ahaha. I"m glad I ended up staying to listen to all of this. What an awesome and enlightening experience you had. I'm so happy to hear your life shifted, too. One small piece of loving unsolicited advice; don't give up on that dream of having your plot of land. Its clearly something you're here to experience
From the bottom of my heart, thank you! It was like you were guiding me. I'm struggling but I know behind this veil there is a way for me in this reinkarnation too. Hugs
Thanks for sharing, sounds like you have a very similar situation to me. I also have this anxiousness and stress that's always turned on and I can't stop it. This leads me to having really poor sleep all the time. I've tried CBT, hypnotherapy, talking therapy and lots of techniques like mindfulness/mediatation, which help but I also feel my brain needs to be rewired. I live in the UK and I decided to pay for a guided Psilocybin therapy session in the netherlands, I leave in 2 weeks! I'm also someone who likes to stay in control, so I hope I can relax and just let it go and not fight it. Your video has given me hope that things can get better.
@@chaneldays I've been back for a few days and at this moment my anxiety is at about 10%. She did say that after a few days it wears off but I just had the best sleep I've had in years. There is definitely something that changes you in these substances. Hopefully this feeling continues
Love your accent and your vibe! Lovely experience you had there. I to am looking forward to moving into nature in the future.. preferably with a wonderful lady like yourself. Try daily meditation to keep your worries at bay ❤
Thank you for your video. I just started my journey with micro dosing. Just two times, and I already feel a change in myself. Hearing your story of a full trip helps me. Maybe sometime in the future, I will do a heroic dose. Peace from Northern California.
im trying to find who i am and why i keep forgetting things. im so depressed. it doesn't make sense how people can be addicts for years and heal. i have some shrooms im gonna try because im so close to giving up.
@derekenlow7607 Dude, don't give up. Sometimes, you need to fight for happiness. Block the negative out focus on the positive. It will start building into change. We need good people in this world. You can do it, I believe, in you.
@@derekenlow7607 I’m sorry you’re going through this crap, I really hope they help, being trapped in a shitty brain is a massive disadvantage in this world
I’ve been microdosing since October and what you said about not jumping into fight or flight when phone rings etc is what I’ve experienced as part of my progress with the mushrooms. Or when my 24 year old gets in her anxiety stuff I used to get triggered and react myself , take it personally, and now I can say oh she’s not feeling good, and just be patient and help instead of hinder. She is also MD ing and I’m hoping she will do a guided large dose (and me too). Thanks for sharing your experience!
Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I am really enjoying listening to you & I needed this. I'm only about half way through your video right now....I was just compelled to say thank you!! I have never tried shrooms & I have battled severe depression, anxiety & PTSD most of my life. I have reached blissful, connected, divine space naturally (without substances) many times, but have not yet found a way to permanently stay in that space.....and i want to , so badly.....more than anything! I have been saying this is my last incarnation on Earth for decades, because it is just too painful & heartbreaking.....so when you said that (along with many other things) I can completely relate to you & your experience. A huge thank you!!!!
Curious, have you went on another journey? If so, have you made another you tube video. I so loved hearing your exp. Gives me and i'm sure others hope! Ty so much for sharing
I take a heroic dose once a year to keep the anxiety and depression at bay - every trip has been very different but I haven’t filmed any of the new ones
Honestly this video really really moved me ❤ I felt like listening g to you before u microdosed is me now and everything made sense ❤ thank you for sharing x
This is really helpful. I have OCD, I struggle with a benzodiazepine dependency not for physical reasons but because of tremendous fear, and have constant doubt and a terror of death ironically triggered by something a powerful, advanced healer said to me in a state of oblivion about how much her words (she's an atrocious verbal communicator) would traumatize me. Everything I've done has failed to truly uproot the deep fear that I live with every day and that controls my life like a prison. I really hope this works; I don't know what else to do anymore, after 17 fucking years of permanently being in crisis and yeah, my poor adrenals must be exhausted.
Thank you Chanel, that was a very open, heartfelt journey to take us through. Thanks for sharing that so deeply and giving people a wonderful insight into the experience. :-)
Hi, thanks for sharing part of your journey with us! I have been curious about this type of therapy and you answered several questions that I had. Blessings to you…❤
@@woolymaple4335 I hope you're okay! don't hesitate to ask for help with integration :) (I took 40 grams of truffles a few days ago, it was underwhelming, I am really getting fed up)
Aw thank you - I felt like it fit the theme lol. And you are very welcome. Before I went on my trip I tried to watch as many peoples experience as possible to help me irritate myself
I can so relate to EVERYTHING you said. We are ONE with EACH OTHER and with this EARTH that we reside “in”. God is such an amazing mysterious and miraculous creator! It’s difficult for one to fully wrap their head around it all. The best advice truly is to just be and to ride these waves of ups and downs, knowing that this too shall pass. Love and be loved 🥰
What an amazing video. I'm so glad that you've had such a long-lasting positive experience. I'm wondering if your connection with universal love was different from your experience of Earthly love. I get the impression that our Earthly love is a pale shadow of universal love. Sometimes I think I think we don't experience true love on Earth only an obsessive need. Do you feel the same way?
Oh it’s very different - universal was without doubt - it was perfect and constant - an infinite state. Human love varies and has difference and fluctuations. Still beautiful though in its own way
All my life I've felt like the fish who's being commanded to climb the tree. I think it's anxiety. Whenever there's a task with any important implications I have this awful discomfort and I hesitate to no end. I really hope mushrooms can do something for me. I'm so tired of pretending to be well. Even if I accomplish something today, tomorrow is going to be the same uphill battle.
brewing in hot water will destroy the actives, thats why you didnt get much from ur 2 g dose or 3 g dose . heat destroy the actives so avoid doing that and youll see the difference . id just macerate it in orange juice if you must , but no heat !
Oh, I’m glad I seen this because I take an SSRI and they say you should take Moore to get an actual result if you are on an SSRI so should I take like 8 mg
Not true, you don't know what strength they were since they were wild foraged. Alot of them contain less than 1 percent of active compounds. If you try something like Psilocybin Natalensis, or Penis Envy, the concentration can be over 2 percent. It depends upon genetics and growing conditions. Also, whether it was fresh or dried.
My mom left recently and it's been hard, but I couldn't explain how she felt closer then she felt in flesh.n how there was a spark of corky ness I developed..like I was extremely myself besides the decontrol I had for food I'm better CA se iv studied fasting and I'm now educated on the healing properties and even more educated on LIFE itself and how my mom is still alive and with me 😭, I so appreciate you for taking the time to shate this with the world it was meant and like some other comments i read u have no idea how your saving people with it .thank you thank you! Im also still going through small feels of everything u were n I want to become a small doser just not in my own home for the psych to b what they can , and I'm glad I know that much cause I've had Simi bad trips so I know how to avoid it. New subb ❤
I've been curious about mushrooms 🍄 & my angels sent this video to me now. Ty!! I tried some, but now i think I need to up the dose incrementally. I came to the conclusion late last year that the purpose of life was to get to the end, Make It, and that's IT. That brought some relief from my thoughts as I was anxious alot too. Learning to 'mind' my own business and some of telling others what they said was 'none of my business' too. I've felt a 'oneness' during church events/activity but not with the universe. That is what we're all working towards feeling. I have a bunch to clear from physical space and body too. I was suicidal and since the increase in energy to my body came this year, I am working on things I didn't or thought I couldn't do before I run out of energy again. As time goes on, I'm realizing that energy is unlimited and so am I😮. I am on the awareness path & learning how to operate in consciousness but it is quite challenging atm cuz there are emotional processes I missed out on. Just knowing this is hopeful for my future outlook as I figure out the damages of what I missed and how to heal✌🏾Excited cuz maybe some mushrooms will manifest for me😊
Oh yep I just mentioned it briefly in one of my vlogs. I’ve had 4 heroic dose trips since then, I do about two a year (they are all very different but all healing) to keep my mind happy
@@jenniferholroyd3676 unfortunately I have no idea. I was lucky my ex knew how to forge and taught me but it’s still dangerous as there are some deadly ones that look exactly alike - but I think some ppl have replied to others comments with IG suppliers
This is such a beautiful story. I really appreciate you sharing your experience. You are helping alot of people with your story. Thank you and much gratitude to you.
Wow! What an experience! This remind me so much of what Matias De Stefano talks about. He remembers all of his past lives and the way he explains life, humans, Earth, the universe, spirituality, all of it, coincides with your experience. How fascinating! Ive struggled with fear & crippling anxiety for so long. I've tried working through my past and all of the trauma. I just feel like I'm beyond repair. Its robbed me of so many years, already. I would love to give this a try. I'm curious, what type of mushies gave you such a powerful experience? I'm only part way through your video but it seems as though this was life changing. Im so happy you were able to find your way through the dark times. I hope this is a new beginning for you. 💚🌱
I’m so glad to hear that they helped you! I have been seriously struggling with anxiety for years. And I have recently been feeling depressed and just lost in life. I feel really called to doing mushrooms, but fear and anxiety is the thing that is stopping me from doing them. Do you have any advice please? Thank you, and God bless 🙏🏼
Yep. I'm gonna get some as soon as I can. I know it may not go well but I'm willing to take the chance. I have severe depression, ptsd and anxiety. I think it's definitely something to try. I've tried all the things recommended like therapy and prescription drugs and meditation and even edmr.. nothings help so far.
I am so glad you got to feel like that; I hope it continues, you are beautiful and young and should be enjoying more, but I understand I have anxiety, depression all my life, this life is hard!❤I didn't know psylocybin is available in Australia, have to look into!
This an awesome video ❤ I also want to say that God is very real, in 2018 my mom passed away and a couple weeks or so me and my brother saw an angel. I was crying out to God to let me know she was going to be ok or know she was going to heaven and then he gave me that sign. The first time I tried mushrooms was in 2022 so I was not using any type of psychedelics or drugs. God bless all ❤
Oh wow, I needed to hear this. Bless. Will consider trying it myself. The desire for total control has held me back. I need a control alt delete system reboot!! A Factory settings reset is so appealing right now. There's just too much noise surrounding me.
I have taken psilocybin many times and all it has given me is more anxiety and harshness towards myself because I am not able to give myself the support I need. I keep beating myself up and feel more anxious than ever. I don't want to exist anymore.
Stop taking yourself so seriously coming from someone who also does the same thing. It’s tough to hear but we are our worst critics. Laugh at yourself daily and do for others forget yourself in the helping others. ❤
Thank you so so much for sharing this, I'm getting close to doing a retreat with some dosing, I've been wanting to do it for some time now, for many of the same reasons, although I'm older and my kids grown. I feel like the time is now ideal, having suffered for some time.. I will report back, many thanks again✌️❤️
It’s interesting that you described your personality disappearing but also knowing you had multiple lives with your partner. I did DMT at 19 and the dissolution of myself left me with awful trauma and panic attacks. I’ve never fully healed that wound and have been too afraid to try mushrooms. I’m 34 now and still struggling so much with my mental health. I’d really like to heal. But the idea of loosing the people I love by my personality dissolving scares the s**t out of me. Could you describe a little more how you understood this in your experience? In my experience I was so afraid of never seeing my daughter again or forgetting her that it traumatised me. I wish I could have had a better understanding of it at the time that it didn’t leave me so full of grief and terror. Thank you for sharing your experience ❤
The feeling of not being beholden to the human personality and gender binary was only temporary and only happened the very first time i took over 4.5g. I have since done many trips, some over 6g and not had that experience again. I am connected to everything but still me. I have never had a negative experience with shrooms but I did with marijuana and lsd (both of which I won’t do again) where, whilst I was still under their influence, feared I’d never come back to being a mother to my children, so I understand your fear. I’m so sorry you had that experience young and that it had a lasting effect. I think what helped me through it is that I knew I have people who love me and would help me no matter what happened _ also set/setting is important. If you have psychiatrist assisted psilocybin treatments where you live I’d recommend those. If you don’t, and you still want to try shrooms to help with the anxiety and triggers I’d recommended starting with a microdose, with someone there, and see how it affects you. Typically shroom trips also don’t last as long as other stuff, for me it’s 4-6 hours. But the anxiety, ocd, ptsd, depression are reset for around 9-12months.
never tried mushrooms but there are lots of mushrooms in the countryside near where I live out in the meadows and forests and there is something really magical about them. Like all of a sudden when they appear its like everything looks Tolkein.
im trying to find who i am and why i keep forgetting things. im so depressed. it doesn't make sense how people can be addicts for years and heal. i have some shrooms im gonna try because im so close to giving up. :(
I have been depressed for a long time, but after taking shrooms few months ago, l feel much happier and highly motivated and my ADHD gone , lost a ton of anxiousness and had a few epiphanies about how I should live my life. I decided to buy an ounce for backup, but haven’t yet felt the need to take any more since then.
Eek I’m autistic too and might wanna try mushrooms. How do I go about it?
Despite the recent research on psychedelics,,there’s no realistic timeline for when,, or if, psychedelic will be approved by FDA..
All I can say is Psychedelic therapy treats mental health issues. Anxiety and depression. Likely to be the most profound experience a human can have in life time.
Doc.brenttt helped me discover alot about psychedelics,healed me of my bipolar disorder & alcohol addiction.
That’s great
I have felt depressed since 11 years old and I have CPTSD, but I had magic mushrooms 3 days ago and I’m able to feel joy and genuine optimism for the first time in my adult life! I can’t believe it. It’s changed something in me, and I just feel mentally well
I’m so happy for you
Did u do it at home or in a safe group??
@@queenbee7074 at home with my partner trip sitting
@@queenbee7074 I was with a safe group ☺️
This is beautiful. I took this exact dose in 2021, 4.5g of psilocybin and I had this exact experience... the feeling that nothing can hurt me and physical existence is just a moment in eternity. I felt connected to other beings on earth, knowing that they are connected to me even though we don't really know each other "here". I also came back from the experience willing to enjoy earthly pleasures because we need a physical body to enjoy them.... I felt I am several people at the same time, I also felt the sense of never ever being alone and can relate to the feeling if willing to take other people's pain away but not being able to... the only way is by advocating for psychedelics. I am ready for another heroic dose, I also got some amanita muscaria but haven't tried it yet, waiting for the right moment. Thanks for this, it's great to know that more people are getting "IT"!
That is amazing! Im so happy you had that an amazing experience too 😊 aren’t Amanitas just the most gorgeous mushrooms - I have a painting of them on my wall. I’ve never tried them though. Now that it’s been a year I’m also feeling like it’s almost time again for a booster. Thanks so much fir sharing your story with me, it is lovely to know they’re kindred spirits out there 💜
This is an encouraging story, thank you. Everything you mentioned is a primary source of the fear and terror that fuels my existential OCD - ironically triggered by a horrible trip on way too powerful pot brownies many years ago. I have a tremendous amount of fear around psychedelics despite knowing their potential and feeling stuck and out of options regarding anything else.
Beautiful, interesting and educational story
Hey have u tried those amanitas yet
haven't tried them@@bali5765
You mentioned this being a ridiculous ride, reminds me of the late great comedian Bill Hicks who advocated using mushroom and use to close his sets by pointing out that this is just a ride. He had a wonderful description of a large dose that I imagine you can relate to: “I laid in a field of green grass for four hours going, My God, I love EVERYTHING! The heavens parted, God looked down and rained gifts of forgiveness onto my being healing me on every level; psychically, physically, emotionally, and I realized our true nature as spirit, not body, that we are eternal beings and God's love is unconditional and there's nothing we can ever do to change that. It is only an illusion that we are separate from God or that we are alone. In fact, the reality is that we are one with God and he loves us.”
Wonderful to hear that you’re benefiting from this medicine and best of luck in your future trips
That’s a beautiful quote
Wow! That sounds so beautiful. Struggling with anxiety and depression I'm going to try them. God bless you❤
"I had a hard time feeling like I belonged anywhere and I just felt awfully alone", I've only watched the very beginning of your video and I couldn't stopped crying. I am hoping psilocybin mushrooms will help me too. I am also feeling very anxious, and have been suffering from "Chronic Fatigue Syndrome" / CPTSD for many years. Chronic stress and childhood traumas are the root cause, definitely.
So far, mild/ high doses didn't do much, except for this "peaceful feeling" you described, I will try again with higher doses. Your testimony is boosting me!
Thank you for sharing your story ! 🌈
Thank you for commenting - I hope it works for you too love x
same, hang in there, there's always light - peaceful feeling is good
You need higher dose like 5g
Psilocybin mushrooms show promise in supporting mental health.
I’ve had a positive experience with mushroom. Trust me it was awesome
Can I get em?
Will he be On instgram?
Can he send to me in NYC ?
He offers anonymous delivery for privacy and safety.
41:13 Have my phone on silent for years now... The mix of having a domineering mother and spam callers just... Demolished any connection I had to using my cell phone as an actual phone. Yup, I see your calls and texts, and will treat them as snail mail! 😂
I'm in the lowest point of my life, lost my dog, my best friend, my only conpanion, on December 18th of 2023... Haven't felt right since...
So I have some vacuum sealed away, and I'm thinking about taking a weekend and just buckling down, just worried that I'll go down a bad path, but sometimes that's needed. Have enjoyed the video so far! Hope you are doing well. 🤗🤗🤗🤗
I’m sorry to hear of your losses
I’m gearing up for another trip myself to process things, hopefully they will help us both x
One of the most articulate descripton of the psilosybin trip I have found on the internet. Very nice. I have not tried it yet but I am planning to do it fairly soon. Thanks for sharing
Glad it was helpful!
@les2169 absolutely agree!
Thank you for this @Chaneldays it’s absolutely spot on!
Uncontrollable crying from your report
I wish you much love & light moving forward too x
how do think is best and safest o try for the first time?
@satriani19751 try. 2g first time
I wasn't planning to listen for an hour but this was inspiring. I've been living in dread and fear my whole life from cptsd so I needed this. I totally get the perspective on so much said. We are all from the same spark of life, every blade of grass and bird is family...even the earth it's self. Nature puts us in awe and feeds our soul but I need a reboot to lose deep self doubt. This gives me hope.
I hope you find something that helps you x
You are the coolest person that I’ve come across in a very long time. Thanks for sharing.
Wow, thank you!
I'm SO happy for you and I see you soul sister. 5g was the most euphoric and transcending experience of my life. I wish you all love and joy 😊
Same to you x
Basking in the radiance of all that is. That's it! Thank you for sharing. ❤💫🍄
You are so welcome
it’s everything everywhere all at once.. this interconnectedness of everything.. how its not black and white, it’s not grey, it’s literally the rainbow… there is no labels, no identity, or attachments.. no molds or ego or limitations. I had this awakening when my soul was shattered and broken.. all the traumas came up and the pain was so debilitating but its allowed me to see the world in such a different perspective . such gratitude and love and peace understanding that this purpose in life is simply to just enjoy.. to be present and to follow that alignment of flow and the path of least resistance.. i am 19 and im still suffering in this constant state of fight or flight.. i have these spasms of bliss and connection with higher consciousness and it’s so beautiful and limitless but then my negative thoughts, trauma, narratives pull me down very low… its been hard because i have tired so much as well.. herbs, medicine, therapy, natural modalities, and i have these moments of pure bliss and understanding that there is something so much more but then it puts me into this existential crisis of then what even is the purpose of this modern life? To wash dishes, to be on the phone.. or anything it’s like for what.. but i feel a deep calling to first heal myself and then help others heal as well.. idk everything you said ur story i felt like i was listening to my own soul mirror and what i’ve experienced without even trying mushrooms yet.. but i want the full healing not just the temporary moments of it. i also read a lot of books about detachment, spirituality, exchart tolle, alan watts, and others.. im just still feeling lost in this fog of disconnection sometimes.. but with this video and everything you said it hit the nail on the head.. i now feel this calling to try mushrooms.. to rewire.. to heal.. transform..
Your story and experiments mirrored my own - I hope you find a longer lasting state of connection and freedom from negative thoughts/feelings
Those authors you mentioned are great and can provide temporary moments of peace and a reframed mental perception. If you try shrooms I hope they bring you peace x
I am crying all the video... Thank you so much for sharing!
You are so welcome!
Thank you for sharing your amazing journey. I have signed up for a psyllisibin trial in the USA for depression and hope I get accepted. Fingers crossed they choose me.
I’m crossing my fingers for you!
Where is this trial? I would also like to inquire and sign up!
@@useurnamehehe5427 albuquerque, nm
It's incredible that you were able to articulate your experience so well. From the concepts of 'Is-ness' to eternity, I have been gaining insights from your video journal. This makes me feel like there are experiences beyond the human awareness and I'm very curious about it. Maybe in the future I might even have the privelege of experiencing such states of consciousness. Thank you, Chanel, for being so vulnerable with the whole world and as result have touched people like me who are still searching for answers and insights regarding 'just being'. Much love, and hope you have a very happy 2025 ahead of you.
Thankyou for your thoughtful comment - I appreciate it x
There are many paths to the same truths friend, i wish you happy seeking. entheogens are just a shortcut ;)
I've been feeling really drawn lately to nature, God, community and love lately. Ive never tried any mushrooms but I think these things are all so healing. I'm so greatful to realise that. I'm really trying to spend more time in nature and building relationships that truely matter. I appreciate what you spoke of as a mother. I feel I need to give up on trying to impact people and just ride this wave with them instead
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I ve been experiencing exactly the same thing except the visuals, after a very long time of deep meditation, ... in the last year almost weekly. but without th elong lasting effects. i became addicted to meditation. in the morning I was feeling like you after 2 hours of "hardcore" meditation, I tried everything, but in the afternoon falling back to depression. Thank you for sharing.
You’re welcome x
When I went to a weekend workshop with Lynne Roberts for Shamanic Reiki, that was what I got too. Just have fun. Don't be so serious. Don't allow yourself to get stuck in the muck of despair. I try to stay connected to my inner child, but it is hard not to get sucked into the seriousness of life or how we humans view life so seriously. Life isn't meant to be taken seriously. It is literally about living and staying open and curious. I still struggle though even though I know that.
It’s so simple isn’t it? But then you fall back into the daily human experience and forget to play and enjoy yourself lol
I'm searching for experiences, as someone I love dearly (I'd hope had sparkles on his face 🙂) is trying psilocybin for TR depression. I'm not even at the 20m mark but have to express my gratitude for you authentic and thoughtful share - the many 'unspectacular' trips, your perspective on not closing eyes to force more internal journey or using music to guide experience (things that are very prevalent in the literature for therapeutic purposes), and your wonderful language and examples of "trusting & letting go to the process, and remaining open to letting it lead you" xxx ps. the regal and obstinent nature of the cat was perfect!
I hope they help your friend! And Thankyou for your kind words
I love this! Thank you so much for such an in depth description of your experience! 🧡
You're so welcome!
You just express all this so wonderfully, so glad that you made this video ❤️🔥
Glad you enjoyed it!
I am always surprised (but also not) about how similar these experiences are. I saw myself in your descriptions, and I think just watching this I was transported back to those moments and epiphanies. I was told once that after something like this, we now have a red chord linking us to that knowledge, to that essence and love we "discovered". And I try to remember that chord when I am not in those experiences. This video reconnected me to that chord :)
I love that chord analogy - Thankyou for sharing it 💓🍄
That is so enriching for me to pondrr.... Thank you for that "cord" comment. I'm 53 and bought some capsules of Golden Teacher and Hillbilly something. They arrive tomorrow. Did you fast? How long until it kicked in? Mine are capsules so if after a half hour or hour, if I don't feel anything, do I take another? I feel like I live under a black cloud. Your comment really resonated with me. Thank you for your comment, 🙏👐🌹🤗 and please advise.
@@EverybodysSister2023 yes I fast so I don’t eat in the morning and normally start trip around 9-10
If you’re not feeling anything after an hour add a little bit more I’d say
Amazing Story Chanel and I can imagine this wasn't easy to talk about. I too was tossed around as a kid, in pretty much every way one can imagine. Spent 25 years drinking, doing drugs and living in anger and depression. I was on anti depressants and 2 sleep meds for years. I spent a year and half doing 2.5-4 grams of dried cubensis mushrooms every 3rd day. I would meditate, exercise, listen to music, play with my dogs, pet my cat and reflect. I would spend hours crying about everything, asking what I did to deserve all this and doing my best to forgive everyone including myself which was wonderful. I still struggle here and there but I don't take any meds. I sleep really well. I'm learning how to move forward in a new way. Leaving my old self behind is very difficult but it seems to get easier every day. Taking large doses every few days is NOT what I recommend! That's just what I felt I needed to do as I had a lot of trauma to sort out. Also, I've been doing mushrooms since I was 15 so I know how to handle feeling when they come up without freaking out. I'm not even saying mushrooms are for everyone but I know how much they love us and want to help. They won't do what you want them to do but they will do what you NEED them to do. One has to give up all expectations of what a trip should looks like. Gotta lean into what comes up and go with the flow...
Thank you for sharing your story
You’ve had a rough road and did the hard work - I can’t even imagine having that many trips each week - your strength is astonishing
@@chaneldays It seems crazy and my friends and family thought I had gone completely off the rails. I had one friend, that smokes meth every day say, "dude! you're going to fry your brain!!" WTF? You smoke meth every day and somehow you think mushrooms are the things that are going to burn me out? okay...People drink every day, smoke meth, do coke, smoke week, take pills yet we think tripping once or twice a week is what a crazy person does. It's the change of perspective that seems to scare people the most. The idea that you can learn too much about ourselves, nature and the universe that just seems too overwhelming for one person to handle. It's not
@@harrollcooke I was meaning more of how much energy trips take, I’m always exhausted for a few days after - doing it as regularly as you wouldnt be possible for me, your energy levels are impressive
Ohhh, I got you. Probably because it was the first time, since I was probably 5 years old that I actually felt alive. Didn’t want to waste a second of it😊
Thank you for sharing your story. I havent sat with mushrooms in some years, and, 5 minutes into watching your video, my muscles started to relax and the chronic pain in my body was being alleviated. That's the power of mycelium at work. One human being talking about the beauty of their experience, sharing their light, and helping others catch that light themselves. Thank you ❤
Thank you for sharing that, it made me smile
amazing that after all you went through it was the mushrooms that actually helped heal you! incredible story, thank you!
Absolutely!
Thank you so much for sharing this. I have been working up to taking that dose for a while. I'm a bit nervous and having anxiety doesn't help, but hearing your experience has given me the courage to go for it. Also everything you spoke about really resonated with me and is exactly what I already felt to be true being a spiritual person. I was wondering if my two cats would freak me out a bit during the trip but now i'm excited to see how they appear to me :D Sending you love and grattitude x
I hope you have a wonderful experience and get the healing you’re hoping for 🌻💛
Report back on how it went! Anxious people are the most afraid of these drugs and the most vulnerable to having bad trips, while ironically being those who stand to benefit the most.
Dont get lost looking into their eyes...or yours
Awesome video!I've had Ketamine infusions and had a small "taste" of what you described. I'm so thankful I watched this. It's very reassuring that there's hope for me. As soon as I get ahold of some mushrooms, I'm going to start my healing journey. Best of luck with yours!
Did ketamine help? It's 6k here I'm considering it for depression
@@Mannsy83 I had 6 Ketamine infusions at 3k total and I didn't get the incredible relief many report, but I don't regret it because I did feel something. I'm starting my sessions again next week. Wishing you the best!
Thank you for sharing your experience sister! 🌻
Thanks for watching! 🖤
Thank you, I have a lot of the same issues you have, but I’m afraid of a mental break down if I try psychedelics, but your lessons help reduce my anxieties, thanks so much for sharing!
Goodluck x
Wow your experience sounds amazing Chanel! It sounds like it has truly helped heal you. When I hear experiences like this it always just reconfirms my beliefs on so many levels. Thank you so much for sharing this with us. Sending you tons of love always beautiful soul. 💖
Aw thanks love. And you thank you for your abundance of kind words and support 💜
Hello Chanel, loved your video, everything you had to say and how genuine your sharing is. Wanted to suggest microdosing as a way to keep the mind at bay. Thank you for this lovely video, I think it might save some people's lives.
Thanks for the tip!
Thank you so much for your wonderful, lovely, inspiring and deep healing journey story dear Chanel ❤
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"that's human sh*t man" - ahaha. I"m glad I ended up staying to listen to all of this. What an awesome and enlightening experience you had. I'm so happy to hear your life shifted, too. One small piece of loving unsolicited advice; don't give up on that dream of having your plot of land. Its clearly something you're here to experience
I’m still working on it ☺️
From the bottom of my heart, thank you! It was like you were guiding me. I'm struggling but I know behind this veil there is a way for me in this reinkarnation too. Hugs
You are so welcome
Thanks for sharing, sounds like you have a very similar situation to me. I also have this anxiousness and stress that's always turned on and I can't stop it. This leads me to having really poor sleep all the time. I've tried CBT, hypnotherapy, talking therapy and lots of techniques like mindfulness/mediatation, which help but I also feel my brain needs to be rewired. I live in the UK and I decided to pay for a guided Psilocybin therapy session in the netherlands, I leave in 2 weeks! I'm also someone who likes to stay in control, so I hope I can relax and just let it go and not fight it. Your video has given me hope that things can get better.
I hope it works for you!
Good luck man, i would highly recommend you try EMDR also in the future if you haven't it really helps to process specific things.
@@chaneldays I've been back for a few days and at this moment my anxiety is at about 10%. She did say that after a few days it wears off but I just had the best sleep I've had in years. There is definitely something that changes you in these substances. Hopefully this feeling continues
What a crack up about what your cat said. That's so typically cat-like.
Thanks so much for sharing beautiful light 😊
You are so welcome! And yes cats are cats lol
Love your accent and your vibe! Lovely experience you had there. I to am looking forward to moving into nature in the future.. preferably with a wonderful lady like yourself. Try daily meditation to keep your worries at bay ❤
Thank you so much!
I am happy that you are happy now and nature gave you something that cleared the clouds away.
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Thank you for your video. I just started my journey with micro dosing. Just two times, and I already feel a change in myself. Hearing your story of a full trip helps me. Maybe sometime in the future, I will do a heroic dose. Peace from Northern California.
You’re welcome love- goodluck x
im trying to find who i am and why i keep forgetting things. im so depressed. it doesn't make sense how people can be addicts for years and heal. i have some shrooms im gonna try because im so close to giving up.
@@derekenlow7607 I hope they help
@derekenlow7607 Dude, don't give up. Sometimes, you need to fight for happiness. Block the negative out focus on the positive. It will start building into change. We need good people in this world. You can do it, I believe, in you.
@@derekenlow7607 I’m sorry you’re going through this crap, I really hope they help, being trapped in a shitty brain is a massive disadvantage in this world
I’ve been microdosing since October and what you said about not jumping into fight or flight when phone rings etc is what I’ve experienced as part of my progress with the mushrooms. Or when my 24 year old gets in her anxiety stuff I used to get triggered and react myself , take it personally, and now I can say oh she’s not feeling good, and just be patient and help instead of hinder. She is also MD ing and I’m hoping she will do a guided large dose (and me too). Thanks for sharing your experience!
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Thank you so much for sharing your experience. I am really enjoying listening to you & I needed this. I'm only about half way through your video right now....I was just compelled to say thank you!!
I have never tried shrooms & I have battled severe depression, anxiety & PTSD most of my life. I have reached blissful, connected, divine space naturally (without substances) many times, but have not yet found a way to permanently stay in that space.....and i want to , so badly.....more than anything!
I have been saying this is my last incarnation on Earth for decades, because it is just too painful & heartbreaking.....so when you said that (along with many other things) I can completely relate to you & your experience. A huge thank you!!!!
💛thank you for sharing your experience x
This was a great video and completely understand how you felt and been through very similar circumstances in life. What a game changer in my life
Glad we both found something that changed our lives x
Curious, have you went on another journey? If so, have you made another you tube video. I so loved hearing your exp. Gives me and i'm sure others hope! Ty so much for sharing
I take a heroic dose once a year to keep the anxiety and depression at bay - every trip has been very different but I haven’t filmed any of the new ones
I need to order, but am nervous about an unknown place. @Waynemike287
Honestly this video really really moved me ❤ I felt like listening g to you before u microdosed is me now and everything made sense ❤ thank you for sharing x
My pleasure 😊
This is really helpful. I have OCD, I struggle with a benzodiazepine dependency not for physical reasons but because of tremendous fear, and have constant doubt and a terror of death ironically triggered by something a powerful, advanced healer said to me in a state of oblivion about how much her words (she's an atrocious verbal communicator) would traumatize me. Everything I've done has failed to truly uproot the deep fear that I live with every day and that controls my life like a prison. I really hope this works; I don't know what else to do anymore, after 17 fucking years of permanently being in crisis and yeah, my poor adrenals must be exhausted.
I feel for you and hope you find a way out of it x
@@chaneldays Your video has helped a lot. I need better tools than the ones I've got, and this definitely is one.
Thank you Chanel, that was a very open, heartfelt journey to take us through. Thanks for sharing that so deeply and giving people a wonderful insight into the experience. :-)
You are so welcome
Hi, thanks for sharing part of your journey with us! I have been curious about this type of therapy and you answered several questions that I had. Blessings to you…❤
You’re very welcome
Taking my first heroic dose tmrw morning🎉Thank you for sharing your beautiful experience with us
Goodluck!
@woolymaple4335 how did it go ? :)
@@Pauline_mrt uhhhh not awesome lol
@@woolymaple4335 I hope you're okay! don't hesitate to ask for help with integration :) (I took 40 grams of truffles a few days ago, it was underwhelming, I am really getting fed up)
@@woolymaple4335what happened? 🙃
Your video helped me a lot, thank you. I really like your t-shirt. 🌻🌼🌱🐝
You talking your experiences helped me.
Aw thank you - I felt like it fit the theme lol. And you are very welcome. Before I went on my trip I tried to watch as many peoples experience as possible to help me irritate myself
I can so relate to EVERYTHING you said. We are ONE with EACH OTHER and with this EARTH that we reside “in”.
God is such an amazing mysterious and miraculous creator!
It’s difficult for one to fully wrap their head around it all. The best advice truly is to just be and to ride these waves of ups and downs, knowing that this too shall pass. Love and be loved 🥰
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What an amazing video. I'm so glad that you've had such a long-lasting positive experience. I'm wondering if your connection with universal love was different from your experience of Earthly love. I get the impression that our Earthly love is a pale shadow of universal love. Sometimes I think I think we don't experience true love on Earth only an obsessive need. Do you feel the same way?
Oh it’s very different - universal was without doubt - it was perfect and constant - an infinite state.
Human love varies and has difference and fluctuations. Still beautiful though in its own way
Mushrooms changed my life…
Me too
Beautiful story and very inspiring. Thank you for your light and wisdom.
You are so welcome
All my life I've felt like the fish who's being commanded to climb the tree. I think it's anxiety. Whenever there's a task with any important implications I have this awful discomfort and I hesitate to no end. I really hope mushrooms can do something for me. I'm so tired of pretending to be well. Even if I accomplish something today, tomorrow is going to be the same uphill battle.
I hope it works for you too x
brewing in hot water will destroy the actives, thats why you didnt get much from ur 2 g dose or 3 g dose . heat destroy the actives so avoid doing that and youll see the difference . id just macerate it in orange juice if you must , but no heat !
Oh, I’m glad I seen this because I take an SSRI and they say you should take Moore to get an actual result if you are on an SSRI so should I take like 8 mg
@@KeishaKiger 8mg or 8 g ? 8 g is too much , 3 to 4 g dried are manageble and more therapeutic
@@aum5359thank you! I have not tried yet , it will be first time , so I’ll try 4 maybe for my first dose ?😜😄
Not true, you don't know what strength they were since they were wild foraged. Alot of them contain less than 1 percent of active compounds. If you try something like Psilocybin Natalensis, or Penis Envy, the concentration can be over 2 percent. It depends upon genetics and growing conditions. Also, whether it was fresh or dried.
What an amazing creature you are.
Thank you for your insight .
A life memory :).
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My mom left recently and it's been hard, but I couldn't explain how she felt closer then she felt in flesh.n how there was a spark of corky ness I developed..like I was extremely myself besides the decontrol I had for food I'm better CA se iv studied fasting and I'm now educated on the healing properties and even more educated on LIFE itself and how my mom is still alive and with me 😭, I so appreciate you for taking the time to shate this with the world it was meant and like some other comments i read u have no idea how your saving people with it .thank you thank you!
Im also still going through small feels of everything u were n I want to become a small doser just not in my own home for the psych to b what they can , and I'm glad I know that much cause I've had Simi bad trips so I know how to avoid it. New subb ❤
Thank you for sharing you story x
I've been curious about mushrooms 🍄 & my angels sent this video to me now. Ty!! I tried some, but now i think I need to up the dose incrementally.
I came to the conclusion late last year that the purpose of life was to get to the end, Make It, and that's IT. That brought some relief from my thoughts as I was anxious alot too. Learning to 'mind' my own business and some of telling others what they said was 'none of my business' too.
I've felt a 'oneness' during church events/activity but not with the universe. That is what we're all working towards feeling. I have a bunch to clear from physical space and body too. I was suicidal and since the increase in energy to my body came this year, I am working on things I didn't or thought I couldn't do before I run out of energy again. As time goes on, I'm realizing that energy is unlimited and so am I😮. I am on the awareness path & learning how to operate in consciousness but it is quite challenging atm cuz there are emotional processes I missed out on. Just knowing this is hopeful for my future outlook as I figure out the damages of what I missed and how to heal✌🏾Excited cuz maybe some mushrooms will manifest for me😊
That’s wonderful to hear - I hope they help you x
What a great video! Thank you! I was looking for the video on your 2nd trip! 😊 I'm dying to know! 🙏🏼
Oh yep I just mentioned it briefly in one of my vlogs. I’ve had 4 heroic dose trips since then, I do about two a year (they are all very different but all healing) to keep my mind happy
@@chaneldaysI would be interested in who you would recommend for mushrooms. That’s the tricky part of this whole thing. Who to trust
@@jenniferholroyd3676 unfortunately I have no idea. I was lucky my ex knew how to forge and taught me but it’s still dangerous as there are some deadly ones that look exactly alike - but I think some ppl have replied to others comments with IG suppliers
This is such a beautiful story. I really appreciate you sharing your experience. You are helping alot of people with your story. Thank you and much gratitude to you.
You are so welcome
one thing it taught me is ... i can i dont think ever be close enough to my mom because i cant simply tell her im going outside for a smoke
Thank you for sharing your story. This sounds amazing.
Thanks for listening
Wow! What an experience! This remind me so much of what Matias De Stefano talks about. He remembers all of his past lives and the way he explains life, humans, Earth, the universe, spirituality, all of it, coincides with your experience. How fascinating!
Ive struggled with fear & crippling anxiety for so long. I've tried working through my past and all of the trauma. I just feel like I'm beyond repair. Its robbed me of so many years, already. I would love to give this a try. I'm curious, what type of mushies gave you such a powerful experience?
I'm only part way through your video but it seems as though this was life changing. Im so happy you were able to find your way through the dark times. I hope this is a new beginning for you. 💚🌱
I felt the same as you - no matter what I did I felt like there was a glass ceiling I couldn’t break through until mushrooms
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This was amazing! Thank you for sharing your experience!
My pleasure!!
Amazing recounting of your experience!
I’m microdosing 200mg right now, wanting to try a higher dose and I appreciate your insights.
Best of luck!
This was an interesting experience. I struggle with depression and anxiety. Thank you for sharing, also I love your room and want that cat pillow😅
Haha I call the cat pillow marmalade
I hope you find something that helps you x
I’m so glad to hear that they helped you! I have been seriously struggling with anxiety for years. And I have recently been feeling depressed and just lost in life. I feel really called to doing mushrooms, but fear and anxiety is the thing that is stopping me from doing them. Do you have any advice please? Thank you, and God bless 🙏🏼
Have someone you trust with you and start with small doses to see how it affects you
okay.. but this gave me goosebumps.... how could you remember everything even your dreams...I am not sure I would have liked that!!!!
Luckily only the good dreams were playing - not the nightmares
Yep. I'm gonna get some as soon as I can. I know it may not go well but I'm willing to take the chance. I have severe depression, ptsd and anxiety. I think it's definitely something to try. I've tried all the things recommended like therapy and prescription drugs and meditation and even edmr.. nothings help so far.
I was in the same boat as you - my desperation paid off and I really hope the mushrooms work for you too
I am so glad you got to feel like that; I hope it continues, you are beautiful and young and should be enjoying more, but I understand I have anxiety, depression all my life, this life is hard!❤I didn't know psylocybin is available in Australia, have to look into!
Thankyou
And yes it is but it’s still being trialled so it’s super expensive but hopefully once it’s mainstream Medicare will subsidise it
This an awesome video ❤ I also want to say that God is very real, in 2018 my mom passed away and a couple weeks or so me and my brother saw an angel. I was crying out to God to let me know she was going to be ok or know she was going to heaven and then he gave me that sign. The first time I tried mushrooms was in 2022 so I was not using any type of psychedelics or drugs. God bless all ❤
Pot isn’t for me either , I can relate a lot to this story , and her life . Thanks for sharing . Very well articulated
Thanks for watching!
Oh wow, I needed to hear this. Bless. Will consider trying it myself. The desire for total control has held me back. I need a control alt delete system reboot!! A Factory settings reset is so appealing right now. There's just too much noise surrounding me.
Sometimes we get the message right when we’re most receptive - if you do it I wish you a magical reboot!
Thank you for sharing your experience! It seriously gave me hope that maybe I can actually get better one day.
I hope so too!
I have taken psilocybin many times and all it has given me is more anxiety and harshness towards myself because I am not able to give myself the support I need. I keep beating myself up and feel more anxious than ever. I don't want to exist anymore.
I’m sorry love - hopefully they find more ways to treat anxiety and one of them will work for you
Stop taking yourself so seriously coming from someone who also does the same thing. It’s tough to hear but we are our worst critics. Laugh at yourself daily and do for others forget yourself in the helping others. ❤
Find a way to open your heart ..usually mushrooms will do that, but if not try another ..ayawascha ?
@@thezendo6746 My heart is wide open. I can't function in this world. I have done Ayahuasca as well, it was hell.
Very Good explanation. I love your detail. Thank you for making this.
Glad it was helpful!
Thank you so so much for sharing this, I'm getting close to doing a retreat with some dosing, I've been wanting to do it for some time now, for many of the same reasons, although I'm older and my kids grown. I feel like the time is now ideal, having suffered for some time.. I will report back, many thanks again✌️❤️
Best of luck!
How did it go for you? I have a retreat planned in a month.
Thank you. This is amazing.
You're very welcome!
How she was able to keep talking and making her video and not stopping to love all over that kitty, is beyond me. 😊😁
Hahaha they get loved on all day but most of the time I do stop for a kitty intermission
I am planning to try them for the first time in a month. Thank you for helping me to be sure of this decision❤
I hope you have a good experience x
Thank you❤@@chaneldays
Thank you so much for sharing. I know that when I experience then for myself I will be free of bondage. ❤
I hope it happens for you x
thank you so much for an amazing description of your experience.
It's my pleasure
It’s interesting that you described your personality disappearing but also knowing you had multiple lives with your partner.
I did DMT at 19 and the dissolution of myself left me with awful trauma and panic attacks. I’ve never fully healed that wound and have been too afraid to try mushrooms. I’m 34 now and still struggling so much with my mental health.
I’d really like to heal. But the idea of loosing the people I love by my personality dissolving scares the s**t out of me. Could you describe a little more how you understood this in your experience?
In my experience I was so afraid of never seeing my daughter again or forgetting her that it traumatised me. I wish I could have had a better understanding of it at the time that it didn’t leave me so full of grief and terror.
Thank you for sharing your experience ❤
The feeling of not being beholden to the human personality and gender binary was only temporary and only happened the very first time i took over 4.5g. I have since done many trips, some over 6g and not had that experience again. I am connected to everything but still me.
I have never had a negative experience with shrooms but I did with marijuana and lsd (both of which I won’t do again) where, whilst I was still under their influence, feared I’d never come back to being a mother to my children, so I understand your fear.
I’m so sorry you had that experience young and that it had a lasting effect.
I think what helped me through it is that I knew I have people who love me and would help me no matter what happened _ also set/setting is important.
If you have psychiatrist assisted psilocybin treatments where you live I’d recommend those.
If you don’t, and you still want to try shrooms to help with the anxiety and triggers I’d recommended starting with a microdose, with someone there, and see how it affects you. Typically shroom trips also don’t last as long as other stuff, for me it’s 4-6 hours. But the anxiety, ocd, ptsd, depression are reset for around 9-12months.
never tried mushrooms but there are lots of mushrooms in the countryside near where I live out in the meadows and forests and there is something really magical about them. Like all of a sudden when they appear its like everything looks Tolkein.
They are very fairytale like 🍄
I truly can’t remember my trip. 7 grams. I was in a video game on another plain
Ready for a holistic approach.
Thank you for sharing.
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Very informative video. Thank you for creating this! I’ve been researching a ton about mushrooms
Glad it was helpful!
Im sorry for the loss of your grandmother❤ life is internal Ameen
Plus if I take a high dose of shrooms I get sick and last strain I was on I had stomach inflammation
Thank you so much for putting into words so beautifully what I have not been able to…. ❤️❤️❤️
You are so welcome 💖
they are doing studies worldwide now how amazing!
It is!
im trying to find who i am and why i keep forgetting things. im so depressed. it doesn't make sense how people can be addicts for years and heal. i have some shrooms im gonna try because im so close to giving up. :(
So beautiful! Thank you for sharing😍❤️🔥🧚🏼♀️✨
You are so welcome!
Could you please share what kind of mushroom did u try?
Psilocybe subaeruginosa
Wow, thanks for sharing 🙏
My pleasure
Thanks for sharing your journey
My pleasure!
YOUR SHIRT OMG PLS TELL ME WHERE TO GET MINE. thank you so much for sharing your story with us❤
It was an op shop but the brand is MOTHER
Thank you for sharing your story. I have had the same experiences.
That’s wonderful!
Thank you for sharing. ❤🙏
Thanks for listening 🧡
Shrooms saved my life ❤ thank you for sharing your experience
Shrooms out there doing the good work
Glad you’re still earthside x