It really is. I recall the very place and time when I read that section of the manga. Its a masterful display of sheer despair. It left such a strong impression on myself and many readers for good reason.
@@TheMickellPickell I planned on reading a few chapters when I read that part and then read all the rest the same night, next few days weren't too happy
With regards to ugly intrusive thoughts, I went through this a lot and something that my therapist suggested that helped me out a lot is instead of trying to correct these thoughts right away, one should instead just acknowledge they exist and move forward with whatever you were doing. I understand this can seem impossible or not at all the right thing to do, but I've found that it's a lot like internet drama or attention seeking people. If you give them any sort of attention, negative or positive, you'll only be feeding their fire. So instead if your mind goes "What if I push someone into traffic >:)" try saying "Huh that's crazy bro" and try to just coexist with that thought instead of trying to punish yourself or correct yourself for it.
This is how I used to live, and it worked. Its how I grew up even. But now the weight is for too overbearing. So much so that I can’t think before I speak, my mind is too scrambled to make any sense of anything so I stutter and freeze. Then I feel like a fool conversing with people I care about, not wanting to tell them that I need a moment to think because then it will become habit. I don’t want those I love to be pushed away because I can’t say the right thing. And now the most important person to me wants distance from me because I said the wrong thing when I meant a whole other thing.
Ayy as a person with paranoid schizofrenia, this is what I realized I had to do with my sound and visual hallucinations lol - I’m off meds, yet feel much better now, and I only started doing this like a year ago The voices would talk about, and even worse, show me hellraiser levels of psychotic symptoms and episodes
Oof, easier said than done. I have ADHD and PTSD, intrusive thoughts are often just me reliving the worst moments of my life. I can't just "acknowledge it and move on". God, I wish I could. I'm in therapy for my PTSD, but not my ADHD. Both of them seem to make the other so much harder to live with. But god I'm trying. I guess all we can do is keep trying.
It’s basically like anxiety, my therapist told me to just repeat “I’m not ok but I’m ok”. Yeah maybe I’m currently feeling my heart race because I have an ominous feeling someone just died but if I look at my surroundings everything is fine. Basically accepting the anxiety keeps it from further escalating. Fighting it makes it worse. At the same time you have to find moments when the anxiety isn’t hitting you and take deep slow breathes so that you have a healthy habit of relaxing and have that kick in every now and then when anxiety comes again. I compare it to being ok with constantly wearing an itchy sweater. If you don’t pay too much attention then it becomes bearable at the least
Finished Punpun 10 years ago and it has stuck with me all this time. No story has made me feel the way it did. It's like looking into a mirror and confronting your most negative aspects. Despite how disturbing it is, there's something beautiful in it.
Couldn't agree more. Its a manga that confronts the deepest and darkest part of ourselves that we continue to conceal, but we know exist within us. I love that it essentially is a perspective into what happens if we truly gave into those thoughts.
I don't relate to punpun but he sure reminds me of some people close to me and it was fascinating to see a peak into their thought processes. His uncles struggles felt like that mirror.
It's one of those stories I'm glad I read, but wish not to read again. I had to almost take a break halfway through due to the content. I didn't realize how bad it would actually get though towards the end. I'm glad I read it but it definitely left me very empty it's an emotional rollercoaster to say the least
Man, that last section really got to me. Unlike most people I always thought of the ending as an hopeful future offered to Punpun instead of what most people called "the worst ending" for him. "It's ok to try and it's even more ok to fail" are words that stuck with me. It's really the feeling I got with the ending. Thanks for this video, it was amazing.
Thank you for letting me rave and rant about this incredible piece of art :') I'm so glad that it resonated with you so strongly. I am a huge fan of its incredibly bittersweet, surreal but still hopeful ending. Shame that not everyone can appreciate it but again, the whole work is very interpretative. Everyone's perception of it is different, but THAT is the beauty of art
truly as someone that sees a lot of myself in punpun, i see the ending as legit my worst nightmare, a bad outcome that could have happened to me and i narrowly missed. It served me a reminder im not far off from becoming much worse and worse, living a life thats become my own personal hell, usually death would be a mercy in this case which is why punpun living to slowly forget the one he loves and lose himself completely, no mercy of death yet forced to live as a shell of himself and nothing more. the worst part is the ending where the kids doing the thing he did as a kid, showing how they may very well go down the same path he had, and the cycle repeats...its terrifying how close this hits home and how the worst reality for us aint far off than we like to think
Same here, seeing everyone standing there in the last few panels and just seeing what he actually looks like from behind shows that he grew out of is immaturity and despite all the terrible things that happen we all have skeletons in the closet and are just trying to be better people each day. It's also reflecting the writer going through massive amounts of depression and finally working through his issues
Honestly that last part of the video fucked me up. The biggest issue I have with myself is not assuming everyone sees the version of me in my own head in theirs. I feel selfish relying on people even when I know I need help. Thanks this was a good video.
You encapsulated one of the biggest personal faults of my own. Its so easy to assume people's view of ourselves is based on the aspects of us we don't personally like. Thank you for your honesty and for your viewership
At 10:45 there is a whole sequence with PunPun's inner dialogue shown to readers with the use of text in the detached square boxes, and after the kiss a hard-cut to PunPun lying alone on the gymnasium floor. I think even so early into the first part of PunPun, Asano was playing mindgames with his audience and making them question whether what they were seeing was playing out in their universe, or simply PunPun's mind.
That sounds like Asano in a nutshell. The amount of times you're second-guessing yourself in this reading like this is unfathomable. He is honestly a genius of his craft and knows how to utilise every aspect of the manga medium to its fullest. Such a warped and strange brain, but one that I admire tenfold
My mom was a complete narcissist and was fairly abusive to me as a kid, she didnt hit me, mainly because she was so god damn frail for someone in her 20's at the time, shed just insult me and yell at me, sometimes throw things. To say that mentally fucked me up is a understatement. I did have people i could talk to and rant, but most of them would say "shes your mom, you should try to have a relationship with her." It just made my blood boil. even people who have met my mom and seen how she is would say "ya i dont ever wanna see her again but you should try talking to her." I definitely had alot of spite as a kid, but i kept myself fairly restrained. I channeled alot of that spite into being a much better person than her. I have a job, i have a house and a girlfriend and am fairly happy in life. But theres always that little gnawing in the back of my mind that reminds me of the amount of resentment i held, and i end up wishing i took it out somewhere, but i can feel somewhat content that my mom will live and die alone as she end up choosing for herself. Ya see im an only child, and i dont talk to her, so when i have kids, my mom will never meet them, and thats all the solace i need. To live a good life can be the best revenge youll ever have.
"To live a good life can be the best revenge youll ever have" without question, one of the most profound, honest and coolest things I have ever read. What a great example of cutting off negative ties to live the life you truly deserve. Its tough when it comes to family, but the fact you were able to move forward from that is really powerful and you should absolutely be proud of yourself for that.
@@TheMickellPickell its certainly a good quote, not sure exactly where i first heard it. I do just wish i could forget the whole ordeal, but i feel like it drives me to be a better person. I want to work hard and have a good life and good relationships. I go to work everyday and work overtime to save money. I got a girlfriend and would eventually wanna have kids and raise them with her. I hate arguing but im also not willing to let people walk over me. Ive been on and off with working out but i wanna start doing that consistently. I just wanna be my best self so i dont end up somewhere i dont wanna be.
Spite can only serve as fuel for so long. Once she dies, what will fuel you then? She won't be alive anymore to hate you for being better than her, so, what then?
As someone else who grew up with a verbally and psychologically abusive alcoholic mother, it’s oddly comforting to see someone who went through similar. A lot of people don’t get it when I say “I completely disconnected from half my family.” They don’t understand why or how I could do that. They don’t know how manipulative of a human I had to live with for the first half of my life. Even when I no longer lived with her, she found methods to control and manipulate me. They would just go “well it’s your mother, you should try to talk things out.” Sometimes you can’t talk things out. Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to think about yourself and love yourself.
@@FreeJazzEnthusiast i know man, thats what really stung me the most, not the fact my mom was horrible but the fact most people wouldnt stick up for how i felt about the situation. Thats probably why im so close with my grandma and great grandma on my dads side. they were the only ones that didnt tell me to just put up with my mom which for me as a kid was just nice i could have someone to talk to and have someone agree that yes your mom is horrible and you shouldnt have to deal with her. Most people said my mom was horrible but i should have to deal with her, which just made my blood boil. Most people have shut their traps about the whole situation because ive told them off about it and they know they aint gonna change my mind but it does sting thinking some of them still think lesser of me for not wanting to deal with my mom. I think to many people are willing to die on the hill saying family is the most important thing in life. It certainly can be, but as i like to tell people in return, you dont hug a cactus.
I'm the kind of person who subconsciously immerses themselves into the role of the main character of every form of fiction they consume. This manga was a gauntlet for me. I was 15 when I first read it. I never applied for school for that year, and was a couple weeks into the school year when I began reading. I had spent my entire summer in my bedroom, and stayed like that. I wasn't great mentally. It took me a full week to finish reading Punpun, and it was quite literally all I was doing. All I was thinking about. I came out of it in an even darker place, and spent the next week after deep in catharsis. Then I recovered. I spent a few weeks after getting back out and enrolled in school properly 9 weeks into the year. I can't say I grew as a person after reading Punpun. But I can say I have gained a true appreciation and love for sadness and depression. I've come to understand that sometimes, even inexplicably, I can be sent to a dark place, and that I'll come out of it seeing the world a little brighter. I'll be 21 soon. I don't regret any part of that time of my life or any of the mistakes I'd made. Punpun will always be one of my favorite fictions in existence.
Thank you so much for sharing such a profound and personal experience. I totally understand what you mean. Finishing this series, I felt different, I'd argue most people are different after their first read of this story. Its an unveiling of the despair that feels both so distant, and so close to home. I'm happy to hear that you're hitting the big 21 soon. Enjoy your twenties to their fullest as they do go by quickly~ Keep making meaning out of your life 🙏
the one scene where they showed a part of his face while the cops were interrigating him made me scared because he looked just like me, after finishing this manga I layed down and cried till I fell to sleep.
Really love how even til the end, Asano-sensei wanted to ensure punpun's face was still unrecognisable. I'm certain the point of that was to allow readers to see themselves in some of what punpun has gone through. It really is a masterful work of immersive fiction
@@TheMickellPickell agreed I never read manga before and this was the first manga I was introduced to at a very dark point in my life which made the purpose of the book hit even harder at the time.
Thanks so much for watching and saying that! Means a lot to me :) Punpun is an intense read, but my god does it stick with you well after you finish it. There is so much packed into this story that its impossible to talk about it in full. Its definitely an experience unlike any other! *I hope its not too traumatic a read for you!*
"Have you ever had thoughts that don't feel like your own" I have OCD (not the "omg i like it when my room is neat and i arange my pencils!!" thing some people think it is, the horrifying mind hijacking intrusive thoughts and reality warping fear and feeling like one has to do compulsions to stave it off) this is my 24/7 reality Also really well made video
Thank you for sharing your experiences with these types if thoughts and feelings. I'm sorry to hear about their frequency as a result of your OCD. I only hope that you're holding up okay and feeling better as the days go by 🙏
I have ocd too and it truly is horrible. I would highly reccomend imp of the mind by Lee baer. It really helped me to not internalize my intrusive thoughts and use them against myself. It's a pretty short read and it's on audible and in some library's
17:00 Being a vet is a horrible life. You rack up $200k in student debt, only for a career that rarely pays over $50k for the first decade. You're surrounded by animals, but you're also surrounded by death. You get screamed at by pet owners for not being able to perform miracles. There's a reason veterinarians have one of the highest Self Crit rates of any other career. Those smiles you see on her social media is a veneer, just like the rest of us do when we post on social media. We're all struggling.
Yeah that is the point I was making near the end of that segment. Everything online are the more desirable aspects of one-self on full display. I am certain she would have experienced more dark and grey days as opposed to the happy ones I see online. It can however be hard to see through the veil when pessimism and self-destructive-comparison takes hold of your brain. That was something I was struggling with and still continue to, which is why I wanted to talk about it in this video. Being a veterinarian is such a profound and honorable line of work, but I'm aware it comes with intensity. I have so much respect for all of those in the field, regardless if its their dream job or not, it is such a stressful and important occupation that not everyone can stomach.
"If you relate with pun pun all the way, please fr seek professional help." i didn't think you were serious at first, but Lord, you are so genuinely right 😬 i've been so afraid of reading punpun and i'm glad i waited until i was an adult (i just started) because if i read this as a teen i genuinely wouldn't have been able to understand it as well and the potential for damage is much higher
God I can't imagine a young teen reading this. Surprises me that I even see this in bookstores here in Australia right next to shounen manga for anyone to just pick up.
I Read punpun while i was 21, not long after my first serious girlfriend broke up with me. I felt too much like punpun in ways that i hated, my inability to express myself and connect with the people i care for, and the masks that i hid behind. Goodnight punpun was a coutionary tale to me, a a story about how easy it is to mess up everything even though you dont know what you did wrong. Now i Find it somewhat easier to accept myself and the depths of my own darkness, and be more open and honest, even if that brings its own pains. Your video was beautiful in its sadness, and reminded me of one of the stories that helped mold who i am, and what i could have ended up.
Thank you for being so open about your experiences Albert! Its good that you were able to relate to some of the core themes of the series and find solace in knowing that those horrible moments and thoughts are ones that people from time to time will come to face. It sounds like you took the right path in the end despite how scary it may have been. Such a beautiful comment, thank you for watching
The genius behind Punpun’s bird design isn’t just a quirk, its to make him faceless and easy for the reader to transpose themselves on Punpun, so that when we finally see his true self, it’s not just Punpun that disgusts the audience, its themselves
@@tulip811punpun is not a villain he is just a broken person that hurts himself as much as he hurts others there is meaning behind the actions of a villain and the same cannot be said about punpun
I'm only just finishing up the intro and I think that you hit the nail on the head about the manga for me. Sexual assault, depression, suicide and hopelessness are recurring themes in my own life, as oppressive as it sounds. I was forced to think about them constantly as a preteen and adolescent even when it had nothing to do with me, and to this day I'm the one who has to mediate between people and their emotions when they can't deal with anything because they have been hurt. And I have been hurt and I don't know if I will just break them more or the the reason they keep going, even when I am too hurt. The manga hits me too realistically in multiple ways to the point the manga is about the worse parts of myself and the challenges I have endured without fulling being myself, without knowing who I am. And I wouldn't recommend it to anyone despite it being a masterpiece because it's a manga designed to break you. There are bits of everyone in the manga and they will never be unbroken.
Thank you for being so open and honest about what you have been through. Cannot imagine how that must have been like. Its cool seeing you still out here taking small steps forward. Punpun really is a deep dive into the human condition that can be painfully uncomfortable. Though I am so proud of Inio Asano for divulging into topics as traumatic and intense as those throughout Punpun, as these stories are important stories to tell. Even if not one that can be recommended, its a work of art that deserves the praise it gets.
Absolutely love this series and love this video! Couple of interesting points are that there's a very strong theory that Aiko was SA'd in her childhood, due to the repeated bed-wetting nightmares she has throughout the story as well as her general attitude towards romantic and sexual relationships. Also the ending, while bittersweet, Asano has said in interviews is Punpun's "bad ending". Even though a lot of readers found it hopeful, it can also be read that Sachi has trapped Punpun now in a life he hates but feels obligated to stay in/feels there's no way out of. Sachi did say during the manga that she sees Punpun more like a pet (either she said it or another character told her she treats him like that and she didn't refute it, can't remember exactly which) so I think both a hopeful and tragic reading of the ending are valid.
It definitely is an ambiguous ending with no definitive outcome. I'm not surprised if Asano has said that just to leave readers with a false sense of security. I mean it makes sense, even Uncle Yuichi's child bears features to punpun and even the very last few words of the manga alludes to a misery that's doomed to repeat. It really is up to interpretation, I really love that about his writing ❤️ Thanks so much for watching! I appreciate your time 😊
If I'm recalling, Asano (the mangaka) was asked to create a happy masterpiece, the likes of Solanin. He pulled an Uno reverse card and won, creating perhaps the most impressionable, relatably depressing, and brutally real coming of age story in the industry.
I was reading this as it was coming out… I picked up smoking cigarettes more or less because of how this manga made me feel… do not read this amazing manga. On another note- I pray this manga never gets an anime. Not only would it absolutely devastate, and possibly even save, many people but simply the way the art conveys feelings on the page can not be replicated. I imagine a good passionate director could do it justice although I just do not want to see this animated. Thank you for being there for me when I needed you, PunPun. I do think about you a lot still. Best of wishes dearly beloved friend.
I don't think it will honestly. Mostly due to the themes. But in some sense I think it would be good if it did. I fully also believe that manga is the best medium for something like this. But some people Will never see this due to that. And being that I disagree with not recomending it... It's kinda sad, but anyhow
Awesome animation as always my dude! You really work wonders! As an actual "animation" would only feel lacking as a result to me you really hit that perfect sweet spot with your style! As a someone who loves psychology and philosophy and also works and a psychiatric Nurse, PunPun always stood out to me. Same as for you (and many others) the relationship between Aiko and Punpun was what really captured me. The story really encapsulates how a single event or a presumingly altruistic person can't just miraculously "heal" someone as it is often depicted in modern media. A good mental health is hard to establish and keep, but as it often times gets neglected for the fear of getting rejected for having "faults" and "defects" you can't handle yourself most people tend to keep those bottled up. Also that even having someone hear and understand these negative parts won't necessarily make you feel any better. And there is a certain dejection that comes with this realisation. So to everyone: Start talking and seek help even if you feel that your Problems aren't big enough! As with somatic diseases it is best to cut them while they are small! And even if they already grew to enormous proportions. Though may it be hard work, I personaly believe that there is always a way to get better! *SPOILER* (though nothing you haven't touched upon in your video :P) While it started with Aiko and Punpun yearning for each other in hope for a steady and loving companion and and as some sort salvation it quickly deteriorates (especially for punpun) as he start yearning for someone who detests life, society, fate and himself as much as he does instead of anything positve. So at the end it is that macabre dance of them hating and loving each other. Knowing that the other can't offer what each of them craves for and therby realising that their last hope to which both of them held on was a lie as well. And obviously the quiet despair following. No onion cutting Ninjas....... just me crying
Perfectly presented Noctem! I couldn't agree more with your points. I think as is the pattern of Asano's work, he despises the cliches of "truth-telling-stories". The idea of suddenly meeting your "fated-encounter" or that others can "change your life" to him, isn't the truth at all. Solanin is a manga (with MUCH LIGHTER tones in it) that understands the realities and complexities regarding self-worth. You can't just meet someone who accepts and loves every part of you, and suddenly feel like *you matter*. You need to carve that truth out for yourself, but there is NEVER an easy way to do that, in fact, there isn't a way, it just...sometimes happens. People will help you feel better, but they can't just *heal you*. I think as you have stated, Aiko and Punpun are shining examples of this. Both being dependent on one another but never having exactly what the other needs to save them. And by the end of the manga...you really don't know exactly what either of the two needed from one another. You don't know how much they truly mean to one another either. I think that biter-sweetness is beautiful as it is tragic. Only Asano's wicked mind could come up with such a realistic and painful concept.
not to sound like the average edgy teenager but, i’ve always been tired of people saying certain anime/manga was “too messed up” and they always pull out Madoka, Grave of the Fireflies, I Want To Eat Your Pancreas, or Evangelion (though i still love these manga/anime) but i always thought that shit was tame as hell. i have wanted to read a manga or watch an anime where it tore me apart to read it and witness it with my own eyes. i wanted something that would most likely mentally scare me for the rest of my life. and that was Goodnight Punpun, the shit that didn’t hold back. and i love that, not only for the main character to be relatable but also not that good of a person either, having many faults. though, i have only read through volume 1-2 and know it only gets darker and darker, i love the manga and probably still will after reading through them all. i actively choose to avoid all videos about Goodnight Punpun because i choose to go in completely blind even if there are relatively no spoilers, and i only clicked this video to comment on it and leave a like. so, 10/10, i can’t even talk about the manga with my friends without getting weird stares and being gawked at
I understand where you're coming from, but everyone however has a different level of tolerance. Some people would feel nothing at all when reading something like punpun, whilst people like myself are swayed by narratives as intense as this. People also have different triggers as well, its different for everyone. Though I feel most people who read punpun, feel like a different person by the end of it.
@@TheMickellPickellFinally, the first time I saw someone just acknowleding that people can sometimes just react nothing no matter what type of intense emotions the material had. Through my youtube life, I saw interesting comparisons of types of media I never knew triggered them. Thank you for voicing this out.
Its just preference. Madoka focuses much more on fictional character relationships being torn apart, its not really a story you could "relate" to but rather "empathize" with (except for Sayaka, that hurt alot) Evangelion is much more focused on symbolism. There is alot of angelic and technological things going on but the main premise is not even about them, its about how you as a person views the world and ones around it. And i think Shinji is an amazing character not because of its feats but because of its "closeness" despite the scifi nature of the anime. There isnt something called "more dark/edgy/serious" in fiction. Anybody can relate and feel bad for anything and thats espiecelly the case in fiction. Its not really the "genra" that determines this but rather how you channel your issues to the fiction you are reading. Dont take this as a insult or attack! I just wrote this to explain how different types of dark content exist and cater to different people
@@kyarumomochi5146 oh no i understand completely about evangelion and ig i didn’t put my point across, ig putting anime/manga that are more fantasy based was a bad idea, but what i meant to say was that i appreciate how goodnight punpun shows the complete harshness of reality (and just reality in general).
As a person with OCD, I can relate to having intrusive thoughts on the constant basis. What doesn't help is the stigma surrounding those thoughts, the idea that having intrusive thoughts at all makes you evil. It doesn't. What does is acting upon them, in the same way I presume Pun Pun does [Havent read it and only going off the content warnings and vague event depictions here]. Before I learned about OCD and even now, years later, I struggle immensely with internalizing that it doesnt make me a bad person. It brings a type of despair that is... extremely painful. It helps when you learn youre not alone. I think I might enjoy this manga, when I'm in a better place mentally. Great video. PS; whats the music you used around 2 minutes in? It sounds SO familiar, I could swear its from Hollow Knight but I might be wrong
Thank you for sharing your experience with these intrusive thoughts. I agree with you on every concievable level. Those thoughts don't define a person, but more-so how we choose to respond to those thoughts. Punpun throughout the story succeeds in fighting against them, but sometimes completely falls victim to them, and that is the horror of this manga. I'm so glad you had such a good-takeaway from this video and I'm glad you enjoyed! PS: your ears didn't deceive you! That is the "Crystal Peak" track from Hollow Knight
I'm really glad you liked that moment! Thank you so much for watching so far through :) Really appreciate the kind words so, thank you for letting my work be a part of your day!
This manga broke me and its scary how much i related to punpun. the last year fucked me over and it was also the year i read this manga. I was at rock bottom and even tho this manga broke me it was also kinda comforting. After my attempt at the end of last year im slowly trying to get myself on the right track. This is my favorite video about this manga thank u for this review. This comment is all over the place but thats just my headspace rn haha. Awesome content :)
I am so fucking proud of you for picking yourself back up. I know its not easy, I know your fight isn't over, but I know, above all else, that you deserve to be here. There is nothing wrong with taking your time and taking small steps towards your personal and mental health. Last year was an awful year for you I'm sure, but that doesn't mean 2023 will be. Keep your head up, because tomorrow always awaits you
Damn bro, the music choices for some of the scenes you animated was inserted so perfectly. Lol I just finished an emotionally taxing series last night and now wake up to the life of pun pun. Is this a sign I wonder? The quality of your craftsmanship is unmatched mickell, I felt sucked into this world you were displaying. And I'm on the other side of the world lol. Truly thankful for the mickell pickell shenanigans in my life. Another video that makes me think. 🤘
I really like how Sachi and Punpun's relationship develops, that's the aspect of hope that I really clung to on my first read. I think the main point of the series is like a lot of realistic fiction, where there's always light even in the darkest of worlds. Great video! You understand the work in the same way I do.
It really is a realistic relationship as well. They have their qualms and fights, nothing is exactly perfect. Both are emotionally broken people who find solace in each other's company, I really like how it doesn't feel like co-dependency but instead, feels realistic and honest. Thank you so much for watching! Its nice to know we had a similar time with it the manga!
As I was watching this video, of how it broke people, I couldn't help but think back to Osamu Dazai's No Longer Human. I saw myself in Yōzō, and that terrified me. I couldn't withstand that terror; I hid away in my room for the rest of the day after finishing it. That fear grew into obsession. I know I will relate to PunPun. I know it will hurt me if I read it. Yet, a part of me wishes to be proved wrong. To read it, to qwell my fears, even though I know well that they will only be proven right. No matter how much I tell myself it's a horrible idea, my mind wishes to seek out and read Goodnight PunPun.
While I have read No Longer Human, I felt Punpun was a story that hits a little closer to home (though it doesn't help that Punpun is based in a very contemporary setting). That being said, neither read is an easy one. I only ask that if you choose to pursue punpun, you do so with a healthy mindset. If you're scared of getting emotionally attached, take breaks and read at a pace that makes it easier to digest. While I don't think you'll relate on every level, there are aspects that do hit a bit close to home so be wary and enjoy this terribly beautiful time
I was a drug addict for many years and severly depressed (am sober and healthy now and doing way better). I'm also a huge manga fan and draw manga myself. After hearing of this Manga the first time, I directly had to read it. It's horrid, but beautiful. Somehow bitterweet and melancholic. The way Punpuns depression is shown and how he progressively becomes more and more detached from reality, spiraling downwords is beautifully shown, but slow burning. Probably one of the best depictions of depression in manga in my opinion. I could relate to Punpun a lot, which blew my mind. When I was at my lowest point in life: binging on speed for days, while drinking booze, doing acid, and other drugs at the same time, I was so dead inside and suicidal. Drawing my despair in form of depressing manga art was one of the few things, that kept me from breaking because at the time I didn't tell my family I was suffering. I was trapped in the darkest parts of my mind, delusional and completly out of touch with reality. This may sound crazy, but that time period of my life awoke in me a strong sense of artistic beauty in human suffering and despair(not in a sadistic way, but in a way of the strength of human resilience through suffering). Because I was suffering in silence it gave me comfort drawing "tortured souls" and depressed Manga fantasy characters, kind of like misunderstood monsters if you will, because I felt like one myself. Anway I'm ranting a lot now.. sorry.. Goodnight Punpun beautifully captured Punpuns beauty and despair. It really sucks you in, because you're basically seeing everything from his perspective. This Manga is a one of a kind 10/10 masterpiece, because it deals with the human struggles in life so well and personal. That's why it holds a special place in my heart. I wouldn't normally recommend it, nor will I probably ever read it again, because it literally made me sad for days. Though I think stuff like this is generally missing in manga. I really wanna draw a personal manga story with a charcter being addicted to drugs(and recovering from it), because it's not really shown in the media Manga often because it's a taboo subject in Japan. Anyway great video! Much love from germany! Peace😊❤
Thank you for sharing your story. It sounds like you truly have been through some of the darkest pits of despair, and yet you somehow found light through art. That is such a beautiful take-away from such a depressing experience. The fact you were able to turn what seemed like complete bleakness into a chance to create something passionate and honest, whilst also opening up conversation about mental health is such a cool thing. You should be so proud, what an honestly fantastic example of human virtue
Reading the manga back in 2020 was like reading my life. Broken family, Failures, Despair, Depression, Addiction. Man it was life changing. Thank you for this analysis. Also Aiko deserves better.
It sounds like despite everything, you've been pulling through. Be proud, that is an incredible feat. Thank you for sharing and for watching this video :)
Okay, second comment time now I've finished watching. You've outdone yourself again Mickell. The editing and song choices are of course the first things that stick out to me to show off your skill and effort into what you do, so I applaud you again for it; but I can't say that's where it stops. There were also the efforts of all the voice actors in the video and my god did they all perform. The defined breakdowns (no Pun(pun) intended... twice) of the video really keep engagement for the entire time but also are refined and well focused. Another point I would like to make too, maybe more so for those who haven't read the manga, Mickell has done an amazing job covering themes in this video but there are also many more to explore among several characters from Punpun's school friend circle and those he meets along the way. While it is hard to recommend such a raw, explicit, gut-punching piece of literature, I'll do it anyway. For me, Punpun is not JUST a manga, but an experience. Oh, and Asano draws some seriously cool panels. I'll finish up with saying, Mickell, you absolute dog, don't get me tearing up over Punpun for the Nth time... I've probably filled an olympic swimming pool with my tears from it already. The final minute, knowing the context of the last 27 minutes of points presented and discussed, and of course the manga itself, had me having goosebumps and that love-hate feeling yet again. Love your stuff man, stay awesome. Oh and dear reader, as Mickell says: "Life isn't remotely fair at all, but you aren't the only who that feels that way. So wake up tomorrow morning and seek what the day has to offer you with your own eyes." Oyasumi, Punpun.
Thanks so much for saying that North! I'm glad to see some recognition for the insanely talented voice actors in this! So many people just stepped up to the plate and gave it a crack and...my GOD did they do such a good job with it
This is such a beautiful video. Totally relatable despite feelings of low self esteem or imposter syndrome sometimes only the people around you can see those positive qualities and it lifts you up but you need to practice gratitude self care and just make the effort to give yourself the best life you can. Great work bud.
I love that Asano cuts through the bullshit and essentially says "people can't cure you, nobody can just make your dreams come true" and implies that its up to us to make the effort to make our lives worth living. Its never easy and everyone has different circumstances, but its totally okay to try and make things better. Thanks so much for watching!
this was an absolutely beautiful video!! i loved the addition of voice acting, it really made it stand out!! i first read punpun in around 2014, when it was blowing up on tumblr, and i remember somewhere around chapter 106; i had been completely hyper-focused while reading it, and suddenly my mom called me and it snapped me out of it. i went and helped her with something, but then when i came back and it was time to read again, i just cried. i cried and cried and cried and kept crying. and im the type of person that isnt normally swayed by media, i dont cry often while watching or reading things. but something about punpun was so deeply impactful that i was sobbing my eyes out after just taking a 10 minute break from reading it. i think my favorite part of this video is the ending. i love how you ended it on a happy, more hopeful note. i hope life finds you well!!!
Beautiful comment that I absolutely could relate to. While my experience with Punpun doesn't quite date that far back, my investment in the original story was similar. Its a beautiful and stressful read that I adore so much and it makes me incredibly happy hearing people have such unique and different experiences with its contents. I'm so glad to hear! Thank you for watching the whole way through :) Your words mean a lot!
Aye thanks Riku! So glad my emotions made it through this video! Punpun is a manga that means so much to me, I thank you for taking the time to hear my thoughts
Thanks so much! Glad you enjoyed those little additions :) I love to express my love for the medium through those little animations, so I'm glad that even if their minor edits, they have that kind of effect on viewers :) Appreciate you taking the time to have look at some of my other stuff~!
Oh my god, watching this video at 2 am wasn't a good idea at all. I couldn't sleep so guess what I did? I started reading this manga and finished it in a day. Those ending chapters man, too cruel :( I got goosebumbs when I answered yes to most of those questions you mentioned in the video. As always, another amazing video Mickel!
Punpun is a very cruel read but its bitter-sweetness and rawness is truly what makes it the masterpiece that it is. Its so painful but weirdly hopeful at times, which just *feels like life*. Its never easy, but there are moments within it that make it worth the struggle. Thank you for watching Tannny and being such an active person in the community! May your 2023 be filled with curses and blessings!
I’m sorry that you haven’t got the traction on TH-cam you would prefer but you are obviously a beautiful thinker. Thank you for sharing your work and keep doing what lights you up.
You're very kind :) I will say, over time, I have gotten better at dealing with the parts of my brain that I've come to wish wouldn't present itself. Specifically the envious part of my brain. Its thanks to comments like these, I begin to remember why I love doing what I do. Thank you for aiding in that reminder.
I read punpun (perhaps foolishly) during a time where I was in a really dark place. It felt uncomfortably relatable. There were moments where, for my own mental health, I reconsidered if I should continue. I'm so happy I did, because those last few chapters go from the biggest low to the biggest sense of release and hopefulness. I still bawl my eyes out thinking about that moment on the roof. It's a hard series to recommend but the payoff, if you can make it, is worth it.
Beautifully said. Its really intense and gut-wrenching at times, but that perfectly encapsulates what life is. Harsh and cruel, but there are moments of light which make gritting your teeth and baring it all the more worth it. I really like how Inio Asano both wrote and illustrated that idea so beautifully.
Terrific job you did with the video and narration! I am actually at a loss for words from the impact. Happy New Year to you. More of you in 2023, and less of a few others :)
There are a lot of things awesome about not only manga, but also about your personal engagement in the video. Thank you for opening up. Be sure that there are many people who you have never seen but who would gladly give you a hug. (And rewarch MiA for XXX's time). Great job, dear and special Pickell ❤
Thanks so much for saying that dude! Really appreciate it! That’s why I love this medium so much, it really lets you take your time to process things and a story like PunPun, which forces you to think about this very deep and honest things are insanely rare. Really needed a place to let loose my emotions and TH-cam has always been perfect for that! I’m always open to hugs, 24/7, 365 🙏 Thanks for being here brother! May your 2023 be filled with curses and blessings!
Started reading Oyasumi Punpun it a few weeks ago and havent quite finished it yet, but from what I´ve seen it really is something special. The only story I can think of off the top of my head that me compareble feelings was bojack horseman and I loved show. Now I really wanna finish the manga soon (right after finishing some other stuff, Goddamnit why are there so many great stories coming out recently) Thanks for the great video, Mickell!
Bojack Horseman is a pretty solid comparison! Well...to start....Punpun goes A LOT harder the further it goes on and its honestly no way near as "friendly" a series as Bojack is (which says a lot because BOJACK IS DEPRESSINGLY REALISTIC). Hope to hear your thoughts once you someday finish it! :') Thanks for watching Bonedrewd! Thank you for a magnificent 2022! 🥂
The part where you talked about you comparing yourself to others really hit home for me. I left my old high school in 8th grade (small town school, 6 to 12 highschool) and it was a good decision in the long run for my mental health. I was horribly bullied my entire childhood by these people. But I can't say that I don't miss it, I grew up with those people, despite how they treated me I feel like I missed out. I look at them now and see how they're doing and wonder "did i give up? why arent i like them?" despite the fact that I don't even know them anymore. My life feels a bit aimless, im in uni and have a job that barely pays me enough to pay my bills, and its hard not to look on my past with nostalgia, despite the trauma of it.
Thank you for sharing your past. I am sorry go hear about the bullying you've received over your time at highschool as well. It's a weird trap to be caught in, missing those times because they were simpler, at times I find myself in a similar mindset. That being said, even if life feels aimless right now, that doesn't mean you're doing life wrong. I think it's strange that we are basically told to have plans and our lives completely sorted by highschool, but that's not how things work. Not having it all figured out, it's totally normal and okay ❤️ I hope things look up for you 🙏
Marvelous video. Loved the story telling. There's a weird relief yet shameful feeling that I related to much of this despite being a condensation of the manga. I'm both excited and hesitant to read for myself. I'm fearful of feeling exposed with how deep I may relate but perhaps seeing this characters journey through could help me with mine. Absolutely earned my subscribe.
You're so kind! Thank you so much for letting my work affect you ❤ Its a tough read as when you find yourself relating to aspects of the characters and themes within this narrative, it explores those ideas to their absolute fullest. Though at the same time, while it doesn't tell you explicitly how to deal with those horrible moments, seeing someone work through them (even if they are morally quite grey) is inspiring in its own way.
It is a series that hits in a very different way depending on the mindset you choose to tackle it with. Even though I was given some warning prior to the read, I felt like a different person by the end of this manga.
THANK YOU for using Zankyou No Terror OST at the very beginning. That anime is severely underrated with its unique plot, beautiful animation, and music ahead of its time.
The last song touched me so much I cried. I started this video about 2 months ago and stopped in the middle because I found Punpun disgusting, Even though his experience seemed realistic, I was afraid of becoming like him one day... but I was still intrigued by his story and so I decided to come back and finish your video, it was a great choice, I was sad that day but when I heard the moral at the end it was like it was meant for me... I have so much respect for your work 🙂
Thank you for letting my work affect you and thank you for coming back to finish this video. It makes me happy knowing viewers like you resonated so strongly with my video :) Its a tough read because the central character isn't likeable and the situation is constantly snowballing and become more and more dire. Both due to his decisions and sometimes his lack of...but whats so powerful about it, is despite the intensity of the subject matter, you continue to push through, and Asano in a way, almost rewards you for it by showcasing to you that even horrible people can change for the better.
i love the video, defenitly need to give punpun a read. i really like how you stage yourself into the video, really high quality on this part, and once again same as all your video. watching it gave me energy and motivation. happy new year in advance !
@@TheMickellPickell i love self-reflection, and hearing you talk about the inner/forbiden though caught my attention. i think with such a selft-reflecftion aspect about pun-pun (that i can gather for now), you have to put your personal experience when talking about it, or else it will just be a random review with no emotions. hoping to see you stream soon man ! also at 17:17 everytime you feel down just watch stream 14 of binary star, and remember we, your comunity, will be here for you. yes we are not friends, since you can't befriend know and trust a 100 or 1 000 of people, yet we are here and ready to support you and help you, like your helping us by bringing joy into our life, never forget that ! take care.
Ah perfect, I was just looking for a manga to read to break me, as someone new to the comics! Thanks for the (not) recommendation I will definitely read
THANK YOU DRAGON! I definitely will in the near future! This medium is so powerful in its own right and gets overlooked plentiful, so I'm glad I can help bring awareness to just how deep themes and ideas can be translated in this unique type of storytelling.
I really appreciate that you took the time in the video to talk about negative thought patterns and intrusive thoughts and how it's a normal part of living. Cheers on a great vid!
I only started playing this video so that I could have something playing in the background while doing my chores. I haven't even read Oyasumi Punpun, but this video had me hooked to the point I had to sit down and watch, not just listen. The animations and music choices were great. The whole experience was epic, honestly. I also want to thank you for putting my feelings and thoughts into words, as I've never been able to do that myself ❤
You are far too kind! This is such a sweet comment ♥ Thank you so much for making my work a part of your day today 😊 So glad to hear that this video had such a gripping effect and that you were able to relate to some of my words. Makes me so happy to hear that despite the intense subject matter, people are still willing to hear my thoughts and feelings and feel somewhat connected by them. Thanks for watching! PS. I hope all your chores went well 🙏
That was incredible, honestly I'm speechless. I must say, that's not what I was expecting to see, but oh I was I pleasantly surprised. I swear I had to turn the heater on this video gave me so many chills haha. Absolutely fantastic video, thank you so much.
Thanks for another great video Mickell! This one was really something special. Amazing work on what is definitely not the easiest of manga and themes to chew on. I think you made great point in that even though Punpun isn’t necessarily a projection character, a lot of us still see certain parts of ourselves in Punpun in some shape or form. Seeing life take him to those truly dark places really makes an impression that few other works of fiction can, and in that sense just making it all feel that much more real. The 28 minutes of this video just flew by making you really feel every moment on display here, just incredible work on the editing and all those great reflections! Props to the voice actors for the fantastic work in bringing the panels to life, and along with the on-point editing really taking things to the next level! Keep doing what inspires you :)
Thank you for watching and hearing me out :) This manga means a lot to me so I'm happy to hear people are resonating with my love for it. I hope you someday get to enjoy the brilliant despair that is Punpun
@@TheMickellPickell I can totally see why, I’m a hundred chapters in now thanks to your video! It’s a beautifully illustrated manga and often holds a mirror back up to the reader - even the first few chapters illustrate thar childlike wonder of having your first tea group of friends; this is such a beautiful manga, and I’m grateful for your video my friend :)
I remember turning into ch. 139 and where I was like a flashbulb memory. I legitimately read the rest completely transfixed and shook, then just stared into the ceiling for hours from 5am. Back when it was only fan translations, reading on Manga rock on my ipad. Later that summer I bought all the books in Japanese whilst on grad trip, with a few friends, in Kyoto. What a period in my life. Probably one of the most genuinely constructive and flourishing points I've had so far. In many ways I've grown into myself further since, in many ways I regressed from where I was then, between then and now. But I'm back in a decent place after going through a lot these 8 years. In some ways mirroring PunPun himself oddly. Descending into a world internal and engulfed in negative self talk and perception, then making it out and seeing the value others have seen in me all along has been one of the most harrowing and enlightening experiences. This work depicts it wonderfully well, in all its vivid horrors and blissful beauty. There's a real sense of growth, although not directly quantifiable, or outwardly visible, without careful and intimate observation of someone, that they gain through strife and suffering. A sort of wisdom or soul I feel. Its costly and I feel why a lot of people see a certain beauty to a tortured soul. At least I feel so, call it a cope or something, I don't care. There is something to be gained through braving the pits of despair this world and its people can drag you to. It comes at a great cost, which never fully leaves you, but it isn't fully worth it, nor fully not. With true happiness comes profound sadness I have come to learn, and its all worth it eventually if you don't succumb. Punpun speaks to this more vividly than any other literary work I've encountered, and I love it for that.
"It comes at a great cost, which never fully leaves you, but it isn't fully worth it, nor fully not" Literally speaking into my soul with this. Beautifully said and a truly poetic take-away from a series like this. Loved reading every second of this comment
Saw this video two or three weeks ago and not even watched the first minute and started to read the manga. Just finished it a few minutes ago. Yeah, I definitely need some time to process that.
Fantastic video! Thanks! Don't think I'll read the manga though, for a fear of feeling the "literarily me"-effect. I am horrified of such introspection rn.
Totally understandable. While I do think the character of Punpun is HEAVILY exaugurated, there are some more somber and honest moments that I find are weirdly the most intense. To each of their own! Thanks for watching, I appreciate your time!
I've known about Good Night Punpun for like years now, I've read a spoiler or two. But I never really read it. I guess I'm scared? Most of the spoilers I've seen reminds me of how I act in my own life. Locking myself up in my room, limiting the amount of time I spent with my family cause I don't know how to properly converse with them. Having a "second voice" in my mind (in Punpun's case his "god") that is too toxic, and yet I still hold on to it. That sense of loneliness that makes me feel like I'm not really part of the friend groups I'm in, that I'm easily replaceable. I've had dark thoughts, but somehow I always managed to calm them down by writing them out. My facebook is filled with posts of my inner thoughts whenever I lapse, all of them posted set with "Only Me" so no one else can read it. I'm just afraid that if I ever read Punpun, I'd end up seeing more similarities. Don't get me wrong, I do somehow manages to go by. But I constantly feel lost. I've never really got the chance to dream nor explore a talent. I've always just done what my parents told me. I studied electrical engineering cause my parents told me. I somehow passed from elementary till college through sheer luck. My thesis paper wasn't even defended properly, but I managed to pass because our department's head just allowed everyone who managed to finish a paper to pass. Most of the stuff I've accomplished and have are merely due to luck. I've never really felt happy about my own accomplishments. It's that constant thought of "I passed cause I was lucky". And everytime I would beat myself up for it. My second voice exists to remind me "you can't kill yourself, you haven't even paid back a single penny to your parents". When I do want to cry, I have to force it out and if I were to stop forcing it, it'd just stop and I'll just feel calm and normal again. As time passes by, the loneliness just gets heavier. My parents would get angry at me for because they want me to be more normal. To be more outgoing. But I just don't know how to do it. They aren't really the type to listen to anything I say unless it's about a topic they like. They consider the stuff I like as just a waste of time. Even when I do attempt to strike up a normal conversation, they'll raise their voice and say something along the line of "that's because you are like this" or "It's because you don't do this". They always have a problem with my physical appearance. They even dictate my relationships, wanting me to be romantically involved with someone that is up to their standards. Goodnight Punpun is a series I'm scared to read because I don't want to know how similar I am to Punpun. I know I'm selfish and unfair, but sometimes I wish I didn't. I hate the fact that I tend to look at the bigger picture to try and understand both sides. Cause it prevents me from actually picking a side. I hate the fact that I am self-aware. I don't know... maybe I wrote this comment cause it just reminded me again of all that stuff.
I appreciate you being so open and honest about your life experiences. Thank you for speaking up, I'm sure there are lots of people who can relate to your experience. Be proud that you're still here, because despite everything, you're still here. I think its totally fair to be afraid of the subject matter throughout Punpun. Its a rather hopeful read despite the consistent pessimism, but that doesn't make it any easier to digest. Especially when you start seeing links between yourself and the themes within it. Hang in there, and stay strong
God. At around the 18-19 minute mark that "God, im pathetic" hit me hard. I see everyone I know doing everything in their power to do well in college yet i just cant bring myself to do anymore than the bare minimum and even now im only falling behind. Thank you for this video. I dont even know if i'll pass college, i just dont have the mental energy to face reality like everyone else i know. Just like Punpun's facade, my "life" i live really only exists in the fake online worlds where i escape reality even if it hurts me in real life. If im still here years later, i want to know if i'm doing well and if things might be better or at least im on a better path than i am now. God, im not just pathetic, but tired of all this too.
Thank you for being so open about your experience. I'm sure this is a story that many people are actively living. Its hard to find a purpose when you lack drive, and after a while, the days begin to blend and things feel pointless. Though life isn't always like that. Whether you pass college or not, and whether you find a dream or don't, as cliche as it sounds, just keep moving forward, you never know what awaits you. I hope to hear from you someday in the future when you are in a better place mentally.
I think you toed the line of descriptive explaination to provide context of your analysis and spoiler limitation well. Well enough to intrigue me and put the manga on my must read list!
Very glad to hear that! It makes me happy knowing that it built enough intrigue in you without me having to outright spoil things. I only really covered surface level stuff and even then, I would say I only told about 25% of the overall story. Meaning there is plenty of new things to uncover when you get around to reading it for yourself.
Punpun really is something special. 9/10 people who have read it tell me that they are a different person by the end of it and I absolutely agree with them.
I definitely am. When I finished it I laid and just kinda thought about for awhile. Opens your eyes about a lot and such an amazing way to visually show pun pun's descent. Would still read it again but boy did it break me xD
I was way too young when I read this story: well, young enough that I felt particularly small and sad when I finished reading. I was depressed for 3 days afterwards but oh boy is it such a good story... really hard-hitting piece of media.
It really is such a unique and beautiful piece of fiction. Its not for everyone, but those it resonates with never truly forget their first ever experience with it. Years have gone past and I still think about it consistently.
I have intrusive thoughts exacerbated by my ocd and my therapist reccomended Imp of the mind by Lee baer. It doesn't just apply to those with ocd but it's a short read and written by a doctor who treats people from various backgrounds and mental health issues who deal with intrusive thoughts. It really helped me not internalize the thoughts I was having as a deep disgusting part of myself terrified it's something I might want, but as something my brain is doing against my will with part of the definition of intrusive thoughts being distressing, unwanted, and revolting to the person having them. He talks about how when talking to patients he often says the people who are so distressed about those kinds of thoughts are the people almost never likely to act on them. I would highly reccomend this book!
Felt so many emotions watching this video, though I haven't read PunPun, could fully feel the grief and the many emotions thru the screen and the voice acting, the questions segment was truly amazing, can't say I'd pick up punpun cuz I'm not in a great place mentally, but it would be nice someday, it really seems like a masterpiece from the visuals to the storytelling, LOVED THE MUSIC CHOICE AT THE END great video ❤ came for the recc left with great feels 💯
I had heard of this series, but never knew anything about it, and thank you for making this. I hate that punpun so heavily represents me, but i love how perfectly some of this was represented and described.
I am glad I could give you an INCREDIBLY BRIEF explanation into some of its contents and the type of vibe this series is and it seemingly peak your interest. Its an intense and raw read, but an absolutely fantastic one at that.
although i may be late, it could still help someone reading the comments. I too struggle with intrusive thoughts, and the way that i like to think of it is like this "Its not the first thought that defines you , its the second thought ." because when you think to yourself "drive off the road, do it" Thats usually followed up with. "uhh wtf no?? why would i do that?"
This very personal and real video about punPun it's the best review i've ever seen. I've read the manga during 2021, the world was just getting out of a terrible collective trauma, my life was complicated, a toxic relationship was destroying me, my life and my marriage , my mental health was deteriorating and i started struggling again with weight. It was a terrible choice reading this but i was drawn to it so hard. It definitely helped me break and left me sobbing several times. But then i decided to go on and overcome all of that. I think everyone can relate to Punpun because of how terribly brutally honest it is and because deep down, we all have terrible moments and very rough patches. Loneliness is a collective experience, despair too. If i learned something out of it, it's: YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE. And that gave me the strenght. Thanks for this review. Now i wanna read it again and i can't wait to hate you for this. :)
What an incredibly powerful comment. Thank you for sharing your experience here in the comment section. Its incredible how despite the pessimism that tends to envelope this manga, there are aspects of it that provide a really positive and profound message. That notion of loneliness being a collective experience is a really beautiful take--away. I'm glad to hear that you're still walking your path despite how tough it has been. Wishing you nothing but the best
Aiko is like the personification of the the past which you can't move on from ,and just like how punpun blames Aiko for every failure he faces, alot of us also blames our past/traumas for our failures, while it may be a valid reason for now its not gonna lead us to anything ...........Whereas Sanchi on the other hand represents the future or the new found dreams and hopes that comes our way, that will push us out of our comfort zones and make us a better person, just like how Aiko had to die inorder for punpun to move on with sanchi (while still acknowledging the past)..... Also a fun detail i noticed: Aiko seems to be missing the same teeth at the end of the story as she did when she's first introduced to us(maybe because when punpun meets aiko after the long separation ,Aiko seems to be a totally changed person but turns out shes still the same as she was)
hey , this video was one of the most well made and well written videos i have ever seen , f@*k youtube's algorithm cause this video deserves so much more so please keep making videos like this one. Thank you for the glimmer of hope you gave through the ending of this video , it was beautiful. Thank you and Goodnight punpun.
You are far too kind :') Thank you so much for watching the whole way through, I appreciate you leaving such a kind comment and making my work a part of your day! I'm also really happy to hear that you gained something out of watching this, means a lot. Note: I've got another video in the works in a similar vein to this video that should be out in April, I hope to see you there!
Great essay. Thank you for the veiled, open questions everybody might ask themselves at some point. I heard of punpun only in a sidenote until now, mentioning it is worth a read. You made me interested in it but also concerned about if I should actually read it. I hope your essays and videos will get a lot more views, upvotes and interaction. I truly enjoyed the few I have seen so far, though not having thought I had nearly enough meaningful things to type a comment (... So here's a wall of text I guess) There is a certain.. Dunno, aura? Je ne sais quoi? Feel?... to your videos I enjoy. Maybe sometimes in weird ways I cannot quite grasp. Best of luck for the success that can come due to your ambitions.
Wow thanks so much for saying that Tiefsee! That really means a lot to me to hear! I'm glad that my words resonated with you in such a way :) I try to make these video essays as personal as possible, so I'm glad its not too off-putting 😅 Appreciate it! Hope to see you again in the future!
The most decraped thing about reading oyasumi punpun is the complete lack of closure. I remember the night i finished reading it. I didn't cry I felt raw devastation.
I think that's part of what makes this series so "human" though. Because its not like there wont be even worse days ahead. Nothing in this life is certain, all we can really do is just roll with whatever the world throws at us and cherish the good times. I love this manga too much lmao
Basicly 10/10 wouldn’t recommend
The best way to summarise the reading experience of oyasumi punpun.
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@@Mr_Lifolofbro that’s a 10/10 would 98% recommend
Which is even more intriguing than a 10/10 would recommend somehow
The made in abyss pfp
This man has seen things
The good morning punpun scene is one of the most brilliant and terrifying instances of writing ive seen in any media
It really is. I recall the very place and time when I read that section of the manga. Its a masterful display of sheer despair. It left such a strong impression on myself and many readers for good reason.
@@TheMickellPickell I planned on reading a few chapters when I read that part and then read all the rest the same night, next few days weren't too happy
She had it coming.
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With regards to ugly intrusive thoughts, I went through this a lot and something that my therapist suggested that helped me out a lot is instead of trying to correct these thoughts right away, one should instead just acknowledge they exist and move forward with whatever you were doing. I understand this can seem impossible or not at all the right thing to do, but I've found that it's a lot like internet drama or attention seeking people. If you give them any sort of attention, negative or positive, you'll only be feeding their fire. So instead if your mind goes "What if I push someone into traffic >:)" try saying "Huh that's crazy bro" and try to just coexist with that thought instead of trying to punish yourself or correct yourself for it.
Thats a really cool way to look at those thoughts, so much respect to your therapist
This is how I used to live, and it worked. Its how I grew up even. But now the weight is for too overbearing. So much so that I can’t think before I speak, my mind is too scrambled to make any sense of anything so I stutter and freeze. Then I feel like a fool conversing with people I care about, not wanting to tell them that I need a moment to think because then it will become habit. I don’t want those I love to be pushed away because I can’t say the right thing. And now the most important person to me wants distance from me because I said the wrong thing when I meant a whole other thing.
Ayy as a person with paranoid schizofrenia, this is what I realized I had to do with my sound and visual hallucinations lol - I’m off meds, yet feel much better now, and I only started doing this like a year ago
The voices would talk about, and even worse, show me hellraiser levels of psychotic symptoms and episodes
Oof, easier said than done. I have ADHD and PTSD, intrusive thoughts are often just me reliving the worst moments of my life. I can't just "acknowledge it and move on". God, I wish I could.
I'm in therapy for my PTSD, but not my ADHD. Both of them seem to make the other so much harder to live with. But god I'm trying. I guess all we can do is keep trying.
It’s basically like anxiety, my therapist told me to just repeat “I’m not ok but I’m ok”. Yeah maybe I’m currently feeling my heart race because I have an ominous feeling someone just died but if I look at my surroundings everything is fine. Basically accepting the anxiety keeps it from further escalating. Fighting it makes it worse. At the same time you have to find moments when the anxiety isn’t hitting you and take deep slow breathes so that you have a healthy habit of relaxing and have that kick in every now and then when anxiety comes again. I compare it to being ok with constantly wearing an itchy sweater. If you don’t pay too much attention then it becomes bearable at the least
the internal aiko scream at 14:10 will stay with me forever that was such a good rendition of his current mental state great voice acting
The person who voiced that can be found here: twitter.com/AHOZ__
Honestly an exceptional talent!!
Good morning punpun
That was so amazing. Gave me goosebumps.
I was thinking the exact same
Finished Punpun 10 years ago and it has stuck with me all this time. No story has made me feel the way it did. It's like looking into a mirror and confronting your most negative aspects. Despite how disturbing it is, there's something beautiful in it.
Couldn't agree more. Its a manga that confronts the deepest and darkest part of ourselves that we continue to conceal, but we know exist within us. I love that it essentially is a perspective into what happens if we truly gave into those thoughts.
I don't relate to punpun but he sure reminds me of some people close to me and it was fascinating to see a peak into their thought processes. His uncles struggles felt like that mirror.
It's one of those stories I'm glad I read, but wish not to read again. I had to almost take a break halfway through due to the content. I didn't realize how bad it would actually get though towards the end. I'm glad I read it but it definitely left me very empty it's an emotional rollercoaster to say the least
Man, that last section really got to me. Unlike most people I always thought of the ending as an hopeful future offered to Punpun instead of what most people called "the worst ending" for him.
"It's ok to try and it's even more ok to fail" are words that stuck with me. It's really the feeling I got with the ending. Thanks for this video, it was amazing.
Thank you for letting me rave and rant about this incredible piece of art :') I'm so glad that it resonated with you so strongly.
I am a huge fan of its incredibly bittersweet, surreal but still hopeful ending. Shame that not everyone can appreciate it but again, the whole work is very interpretative. Everyone's perception of it is different, but THAT is the beauty of art
truly as someone that sees a lot of myself in punpun, i see the ending as legit my worst nightmare, a bad outcome that could have happened to me and i narrowly missed. It served me a reminder im not far off from becoming much worse and worse, living a life thats become my own personal hell, usually death would be a mercy in this case which is why punpun living to slowly forget the one he loves and lose himself completely, no mercy of death yet forced to live as a shell of himself and nothing more.
the worst part is the ending where the kids doing the thing he did as a kid, showing how they may very well go down the same path he had, and the cycle repeats...its terrifying how close this hits home and how the worst reality for us aint far off than we like to think
Same here, seeing everyone standing there in the last few panels and just seeing what he actually looks like from behind shows that he grew out of is immaturity and despite all the terrible things that happen we all have skeletons in the closet and are just trying to be better people each day. It's also reflecting the writer going through massive amounts of depression and finally working through his issues
Honestly that last part of the video fucked me up. The biggest issue I have with myself is not assuming everyone sees the version of me in my own head in theirs. I feel selfish relying on people even when I know I need help.
Thanks this was a good video.
You encapsulated one of the biggest personal faults of my own. Its so easy to assume people's view of ourselves is based on the aspects of us we don't personally like. Thank you for your honesty and for your viewership
At 10:45 there is a whole sequence with PunPun's inner dialogue shown to readers with the use of text in the detached square boxes, and after the kiss a hard-cut to PunPun lying alone on the gymnasium floor.
I think even so early into the first part of PunPun, Asano was playing mindgames with his audience and making them question whether what they were seeing was playing out in their universe, or simply PunPun's mind.
That sounds like Asano in a nutshell. The amount of times you're second-guessing yourself in this reading like this is unfathomable. He is honestly a genius of his craft and knows how to utilise every aspect of the manga medium to its fullest. Such a warped and strange brain, but one that I admire tenfold
My mom was a complete narcissist and was fairly abusive to me as a kid, she didnt hit me, mainly because she was so god damn frail for someone in her 20's at the time, shed just insult me and yell at me, sometimes throw things. To say that mentally fucked me up is a understatement. I did have people i could talk to and rant, but most of them would say "shes your mom, you should try to have a relationship with her." It just made my blood boil. even people who have met my mom and seen how she is would say "ya i dont ever wanna see her again but you should try talking to her."
I definitely had alot of spite as a kid, but i kept myself fairly restrained. I channeled alot of that spite into being a much better person than her. I have a job, i have a house and a girlfriend and am fairly happy in life. But theres always that little gnawing in the back of my mind that reminds me of the amount of resentment i held, and i end up wishing i took it out somewhere, but i can feel somewhat content that my mom will live and die alone as she end up choosing for herself. Ya see im an only child, and i dont talk to her, so when i have kids, my mom will never meet them, and thats all the solace i need. To live a good life can be the best revenge youll ever have.
"To live a good life can be the best revenge youll ever have" without question, one of the most profound, honest and coolest things I have ever read. What a great example of cutting off negative ties to live the life you truly deserve. Its tough when it comes to family, but the fact you were able to move forward from that is really powerful and you should absolutely be proud of yourself for that.
@@TheMickellPickell its certainly a good quote, not sure exactly where i first heard it.
I do just wish i could forget the whole ordeal, but i feel like it drives me to be a better person. I want to work hard and have a good life and good relationships. I go to work everyday and work overtime to save money. I got a girlfriend and would eventually wanna have kids and raise them with her. I hate arguing but im also not willing to let people walk over me. Ive been on and off with working out but i wanna start doing that consistently. I just wanna be my best self so i dont end up somewhere i dont wanna be.
Spite can only serve as fuel for so long.
Once she dies, what will fuel you then?
She won't be alive anymore to hate you for being better than her, so, what then?
As someone else who grew up with a verbally and psychologically abusive alcoholic mother, it’s oddly comforting to see someone who went through similar. A lot of people don’t get it when I say “I completely disconnected from half my family.” They don’t understand why or how I could do that. They don’t know how manipulative of a human I had to live with for the first half of my life. Even when I no longer lived with her, she found methods to control and manipulate me. They would just go “well it’s your mother, you should try to talk things out.”
Sometimes you can’t talk things out. Sometimes you have to give yourself permission to think about yourself and love yourself.
@@FreeJazzEnthusiast i know man, thats what really stung me the most, not the fact my mom was horrible but the fact most people wouldnt stick up for how i felt about the situation. Thats probably why im so close with my grandma and great grandma on my dads side. they were the only ones that didnt tell me to just put up with my mom which for me as a kid was just nice i could have someone to talk to and have someone agree that yes your mom is horrible and you shouldnt have to deal with her. Most people said my mom was horrible but i should have to deal with her, which just made my blood boil. Most people have shut their traps about the whole situation because ive told them off about it and they know they aint gonna change my mind but it does sting thinking some of them still think lesser of me for not wanting to deal with my mom. I think to many people are willing to die on the hill saying family is the most important thing in life. It certainly can be, but as i like to tell people in return, you dont hug a cactus.
I'm the kind of person who subconsciously immerses themselves into the role of the main character of every form of fiction they consume. This manga was a gauntlet for me. I was 15 when I first read it. I never applied for school for that year, and was a couple weeks into the school year when I began reading. I had spent my entire summer in my bedroom, and stayed like that. I wasn't great mentally. It took me a full week to finish reading Punpun, and it was quite literally all I was doing. All I was thinking about. I came out of it in an even darker place, and spent the next week after deep in catharsis. Then I recovered. I spent a few weeks after getting back out and enrolled in school properly 9 weeks into the year.
I can't say I grew as a person after reading Punpun. But I can say I have gained a true appreciation and love for sadness and depression. I've come to understand that sometimes, even inexplicably, I can be sent to a dark place, and that I'll come out of it seeing the world a little brighter. I'll be 21 soon. I don't regret any part of that time of my life or any of the mistakes I'd made. Punpun will always be one of my favorite fictions in existence.
Thank you so much for sharing such a profound and personal experience. I totally understand what you mean. Finishing this series, I felt different, I'd argue most people are different after their first read of this story. Its an unveiling of the despair that feels both so distant, and so close to home.
I'm happy to hear that you're hitting the big 21 soon. Enjoy your twenties to their fullest as they do go by quickly~ Keep making meaning out of your life 🙏
too deep in lol
the one scene where they showed a part of his face while the cops were interrigating him made me scared because he looked just like me, after finishing this manga I layed down and cried till I fell to sleep.
Really love how even til the end, Asano-sensei wanted to ensure punpun's face was still unrecognisable. I'm certain the point of that was to allow readers to see themselves in some of what punpun has gone through. It really is a masterful work of immersive fiction
@@TheMickellPickell agreed I never read manga before and this was the first manga I was introduced to at a very dark point in my life which made the purpose of the book hit even harder at the time.
The manga animation is very amazing and that is some great explanation you definitely got me wanting to read this.
Thanks so much for watching and saying that! Means a lot to me :) Punpun is an intense read, but my god does it stick with you well after you finish it. There is so much packed into this story that its impossible to talk about it in full. Its definitely an experience unlike any other! *I hope its not too traumatic a read for you!*
"Have you ever had thoughts that don't feel like your own" I have OCD (not the "omg i like it when my room is neat and i arange my pencils!!" thing some people think it is, the horrifying mind hijacking intrusive thoughts and reality warping fear and feeling like one has to do compulsions to stave it off) this is my 24/7 reality
Also really well made video
Thank you for sharing your experiences with these types if thoughts and feelings. I'm sorry to hear about their frequency as a result of your OCD. I only hope that you're holding up okay and feeling better as the days go by 🙏
I have ocd too and it truly is horrible. I would highly reccomend imp of the mind by Lee baer. It really helped me to not internalize my intrusive thoughts and use them against myself. It's a pretty short read and it's on audible and in some library's
17:00 Being a vet is a horrible life. You rack up $200k in student debt, only for a career that rarely pays over $50k for the first decade. You're surrounded by animals, but you're also surrounded by death. You get screamed at by pet owners for not being able to perform miracles.
There's a reason veterinarians have one of the highest Self Crit rates of any other career.
Those smiles you see on her social media is a veneer, just like the rest of us do when we post on social media. We're all struggling.
Yeah that is the point I was making near the end of that segment. Everything online are the more desirable aspects of one-self on full display. I am certain she would have experienced more dark and grey days as opposed to the happy ones I see online. It can however be hard to see through the veil when pessimism and self-destructive-comparison takes hold of your brain. That was something I was struggling with and still continue to, which is why I wanted to talk about it in this video.
Being a veterinarian is such a profound and honorable line of work, but I'm aware it comes with intensity. I have so much respect for all of those in the field, regardless if its their dream job or not, it is such a stressful and important occupation that not everyone can stomach.
Animal vets ain't got nothing on army suicide rates. Let's gooooooo.
"If you relate with pun pun all the way, please fr seek professional help." i didn't think you were serious at first, but Lord, you are so genuinely right 😬 i've been so afraid of reading punpun and i'm glad i waited until i was an adult (i just started) because if i read this as a teen i genuinely wouldn't have been able to understand it as well and the potential for damage is much higher
God I can't imagine a young teen reading this. Surprises me that I even see this in bookstores here in Australia right next to shounen manga for anyone to just pick up.
I Read punpun while i was 21, not long after my first serious girlfriend broke up with me. I felt too much like punpun in ways that i hated, my inability to express myself and connect with the people i care for, and the masks that i hid behind. Goodnight punpun was a coutionary tale to me, a a story about how easy it is to mess up everything even though you dont know what you did wrong.
Now i Find it somewhat easier to accept myself and the depths of my own darkness, and be more open and honest, even if that brings its own pains.
Your video was beautiful in its sadness, and reminded me of one of the stories that helped mold who i am, and what i could have ended up.
Thank you for being so open about your experiences Albert! Its good that you were able to relate to some of the core themes of the series and find solace in knowing that those horrible moments and thoughts are ones that people from time to time will come to face. It sounds like you took the right path in the end despite how scary it may have been.
Such a beautiful comment, thank you for watching
I feel like nothing has understood me better than this manga. This isn’t some “literally me” joke; I am Punpun, and it scares me
Yeah thats Punpun...Any moment I could somehow relate to him, I felt uncomfortable and thats the brilliance of Asano's work.
The genius behind Punpun’s bird design isn’t just a quirk, its to make him faceless and easy for the reader to transpose themselves on Punpun, so that when we finally see his true self, it’s not just Punpun that disgusts the audience, its themselves
Same over here this manga felt like talking to myself in a spiritual way and it's horrifying
Punpun is the villain, if you relate to him, do something about it :/
@@tulip811punpun is not a villain he is just a broken person that hurts himself as much as he hurts others there is meaning behind the actions of a villain and the same cannot be said about punpun
I'm only just finishing up the intro and I think that you hit the nail on the head about the manga for me. Sexual assault, depression, suicide and hopelessness are recurring themes in my own life, as oppressive as it sounds. I was forced to think about them constantly as a preteen and adolescent even when it had nothing to do with me, and to this day I'm the one who has to mediate between people and their emotions when they can't deal with anything because they have been hurt. And I have been hurt and I don't know if I will just break them more or the the reason they keep going, even when I am too hurt. The manga hits me too realistically in multiple ways to the point the manga is about the worse parts of myself and the challenges I have endured without fulling being myself, without knowing who I am. And I wouldn't recommend it to anyone despite it being a masterpiece because it's a manga designed to break you. There are bits of everyone in the manga and they will never be unbroken.
Thank you for being so open and honest about what you have been through. Cannot imagine how that must have been like. Its cool seeing you still out here taking small steps forward.
Punpun really is a deep dive into the human condition that can be painfully uncomfortable. Though I am so proud of Inio Asano for divulging into topics as traumatic and intense as those throughout Punpun, as these stories are important stories to tell. Even if not one that can be recommended, its a work of art that deserves the praise it gets.
Absolutely love this series and love this video!
Couple of interesting points are that there's a very strong theory that Aiko was SA'd in her childhood, due to the repeated bed-wetting nightmares she has throughout the story as well as her general attitude towards romantic and sexual relationships.
Also the ending, while bittersweet, Asano has said in interviews is Punpun's "bad ending". Even though a lot of readers found it hopeful, it can also be read that Sachi has trapped Punpun now in a life he hates but feels obligated to stay in/feels there's no way out of. Sachi did say during the manga that she sees Punpun more like a pet (either she said it or another character told her she treats him like that and she didn't refute it, can't remember exactly which) so I think both a hopeful and tragic reading of the ending are valid.
It definitely is an ambiguous ending with no definitive outcome. I'm not surprised if Asano has said that just to leave readers with a false sense of security. I mean it makes sense, even Uncle Yuichi's child bears features to punpun and even the very last few words of the manga alludes to a misery that's doomed to repeat. It really is up to interpretation, I really love that about his writing ❤️
Thanks so much for watching! I appreciate your time 😊
If I'm recalling, Asano (the mangaka) was asked to create a happy masterpiece, the likes of Solanin.
He pulled an Uno reverse card and won, creating perhaps the most impressionable, relatably depressing, and brutally real coming of age story in the industry.
That sounds like something Asona would do lmao. You truly cannot ever guess where his intentions are.
17:10
“My friend has turned his mental health around and joined the navy.”
Don’t worry big navy will make sure that he completes a full 180 again
my thoughts too😭 I hope he makes it out alright and happy tho
If you’re going to be traumatized by any anime or manga let it be this one
^^^ This right here
I was reading this as it was coming out… I picked up smoking cigarettes more or less because of how this manga made me feel… do not read this amazing manga.
On another note- I pray this manga never gets an anime.
Not only would it absolutely devastate, and possibly even save, many people but simply the way the art conveys feelings on the page can not be replicated.
I imagine a good passionate director could do it justice although I just do not want to see this animated.
Thank you for being there for me when I needed you, PunPun.
I do think about you a lot still.
Best of wishes dearly beloved friend.
I don't think it will honestly. Mostly due to the themes. But in some sense I think it would be good if it did. I fully also believe that manga is the best medium for something like this. But some people Will never see this due to that. And being that I disagree with not recomending it... It's kinda sad, but anyhow
Awesome animation as always my dude! You really work wonders!
As an actual "animation" would only feel lacking as a result to me you really hit that perfect sweet spot with your style!
As a someone who loves psychology and philosophy and also works and a psychiatric Nurse, PunPun always stood out to me.
Same as for you (and many others) the relationship between Aiko and Punpun was what really captured me.
The story really encapsulates how a single event or a presumingly altruistic person can't just miraculously "heal" someone as it is often depicted in modern media.
A good mental health is hard to establish and keep, but as it often times gets neglected for the fear of getting rejected for having "faults" and "defects" you can't handle yourself most people tend to keep those bottled up.
Also that even having someone hear and understand these negative parts won't necessarily make you feel any better.
And there is a certain dejection that comes with this realisation.
So to everyone: Start talking and seek help even if you feel that your Problems aren't big enough! As with somatic diseases it is best to cut them while they are small!
And even if they already grew to enormous proportions. Though may it be hard work, I personaly believe that there is always a way to get better!
*SPOILER* (though nothing you haven't touched upon in your video :P)
While it started with Aiko and Punpun yearning for each other in hope for a steady and loving companion and and as some sort salvation
it quickly deteriorates (especially for punpun) as he start yearning for someone who detests life, society, fate and himself as much as he does instead of anything positve.
So at the end it is that macabre dance of them hating and loving each other. Knowing that the other can't offer what each of them craves for and therby realising that their last hope to which
both of them held on was a lie as well. And obviously the quiet despair following.
No onion cutting Ninjas....... just me crying
Perfectly presented Noctem! I couldn't agree more with your points. I think as is the pattern of Asano's work, he despises the cliches of "truth-telling-stories". The idea of suddenly meeting your "fated-encounter" or that others can "change your life" to him, isn't the truth at all.
Solanin is a manga (with MUCH LIGHTER tones in it) that understands the realities and complexities regarding self-worth. You can't just meet someone who accepts and loves every part of you, and suddenly feel like *you matter*. You need to carve that truth out for yourself, but there is NEVER an easy way to do that, in fact, there isn't a way, it just...sometimes happens.
People will help you feel better, but they can't just *heal you*. I think as you have stated, Aiko and Punpun are shining examples of this. Both being dependent on one another but never having exactly what the other needs to save them. And by the end of the manga...you really don't know exactly what either of the two needed from one another. You don't know how much they truly mean to one another either.
I think that biter-sweetness is beautiful as it is tragic. Only Asano's wicked mind could come up with such a realistic and painful concept.
not to sound like the average edgy teenager but, i’ve always been tired of people saying certain anime/manga was “too messed up” and they always pull out Madoka, Grave of the Fireflies, I Want To Eat Your Pancreas, or Evangelion (though i still love these manga/anime) but i always thought that shit was tame as hell.
i have wanted to read a manga or watch an anime where it tore me apart to read it and witness it with my own eyes. i wanted something that would most likely mentally scare me for the rest of my life. and that was Goodnight Punpun, the shit that didn’t hold back. and i love that, not only for the main character to be relatable but also not that good of a person either, having many faults. though, i have only read through volume 1-2 and know it only gets darker and darker, i love the manga and probably still will after reading through them all. i actively choose to avoid all videos about Goodnight Punpun because i choose to go in completely blind even if there are relatively no spoilers, and i only clicked this video to comment on it and leave a like.
so, 10/10, i can’t even talk about the manga with my friends without getting weird stares and being gawked at
I understand where you're coming from, but everyone however has a different level of tolerance. Some people would feel nothing at all when reading something like punpun, whilst people like myself are swayed by narratives as intense as this. People also have different triggers as well, its different for everyone. Though I feel most people who read punpun, feel like a different person by the end of it.
@@TheMickellPickellFinally, the first time I saw someone just acknowleding that people can sometimes just react nothing no matter what type of intense emotions the material had. Through my youtube life, I saw interesting comparisons of types of media I never knew triggered them. Thank you for voicing this out.
Its just preference. Madoka focuses much more on fictional character relationships being torn apart, its not really a story you could "relate" to but rather "empathize" with (except for Sayaka, that hurt alot)
Evangelion is much more focused on symbolism. There is alot of angelic and technological things going on but the main premise is not even about them, its about how you as a person views the world and ones around it. And i think Shinji is an amazing character not because of its feats but because of its "closeness" despite the scifi nature of the anime.
There isnt something called "more dark/edgy/serious" in fiction. Anybody can relate and feel bad for anything and thats espiecelly the case in fiction. Its not really the "genra" that determines this but rather how you channel your issues to the fiction you are reading.
Dont take this as a insult or attack! I just wrote this to explain how different types of dark content exist and cater to different people
@@kyarumomochi5146 oh no i understand completely about evangelion and ig i didn’t put my point across, ig putting anime/manga that are more fantasy based was a bad idea, but what i meant to say was that i appreciate how goodnight punpun shows the complete harshness of reality (and just reality in general).
No one has ever said EVA is messed up. Just like Berserk and Lain, they touch on serious matters but they’re not fucked up.
As a person with OCD, I can relate to having intrusive thoughts on the constant basis. What doesn't help is the stigma surrounding those thoughts, the idea that having intrusive thoughts at all makes you evil. It doesn't. What does is acting upon them, in the same way I presume Pun Pun does [Havent read it and only going off the content warnings and vague event depictions here]. Before I learned about OCD and even now, years later, I struggle immensely with internalizing that it doesnt make me a bad person. It brings a type of despair that is... extremely painful. It helps when you learn youre not alone. I think I might enjoy this manga, when I'm in a better place mentally. Great video.
PS; whats the music you used around 2 minutes in? It sounds SO familiar, I could swear its from Hollow Knight but I might be wrong
Thank you for sharing your experience with these intrusive thoughts. I agree with you on every concievable level. Those thoughts don't define a person, but more-so how we choose to respond to those thoughts. Punpun throughout the story succeeds in fighting against them, but sometimes completely falls victim to them, and that is the horror of this manga. I'm so glad you had such a good-takeaway from this video and I'm glad you enjoyed!
PS: your ears didn't deceive you! That is the "Crystal Peak" track from Hollow Knight
"Tomorrowland" from Made In Abyss playing to Sachi's key moment is fitting beyond words. It just works. Great music choices overall honestly.
I'm really glad you liked that moment! Thank you so much for watching so far through :)
Really appreciate the kind words so, thank you for letting my work be a part of your day!
This manga broke me and its scary how much i related to punpun. the last year fucked me over and it was also the year i read this manga. I was at rock bottom and even tho this manga broke me it was also kinda comforting. After my attempt at the end of last year im slowly trying to get myself on the right track. This is my favorite video about this manga thank u for this review. This comment is all over the place but thats just my headspace rn haha. Awesome content :)
I am so fucking proud of you for picking yourself back up. I know its not easy, I know your fight isn't over, but I know, above all else, that you deserve to be here.
There is nothing wrong with taking your time and taking small steps towards your personal and mental health. Last year was an awful year for you I'm sure, but that doesn't mean 2023 will be. Keep your head up, because tomorrow always awaits you
holy fuck this might be one of my favorite videos on this platform ever.
holy fuck this might be one of my favourite people on this platform ever.
Damn bro, the music choices for some of the scenes you animated was inserted so perfectly. Lol I just finished an emotionally taxing series last night and now wake up to the life of pun pun. Is this a sign I wonder? The quality of your craftsmanship is unmatched mickell, I felt sucked into this world you were displaying. And I'm on the other side of the world lol. Truly thankful for the mickell pickell shenanigans in my life. Another video that makes me think. 🤘
Appreciate you Jake! You're a fucking star
I really like how Sachi and Punpun's relationship develops, that's the aspect of hope that I really clung to on my first read. I think the main point of the series is like a lot of realistic fiction, where there's always light even in the darkest of worlds. Great video! You understand the work in the same way I do.
It really is a realistic relationship as well. They have their qualms and fights, nothing is exactly perfect. Both are emotionally broken people who find solace in each other's company, I really like how it doesn't feel like co-dependency but instead, feels realistic and honest.
Thank you so much for watching! Its nice to know we had a similar time with it the manga!
As I was watching this video, of how it broke people, I couldn't help but think back to Osamu Dazai's No Longer Human. I saw myself in Yōzō, and that terrified me. I couldn't withstand that terror; I hid away in my room for the rest of the day after finishing it. That fear grew into obsession.
I know I will relate to PunPun. I know it will hurt me if I read it. Yet, a part of me wishes to be proved wrong. To read it, to qwell my fears, even though I know well that they will only be proven right.
No matter how much I tell myself it's a horrible idea, my mind wishes to seek out and read Goodnight PunPun.
While I have read No Longer Human, I felt Punpun was a story that hits a little closer to home (though it doesn't help that Punpun is based in a very contemporary setting).
That being said, neither read is an easy one. I only ask that if you choose to pursue punpun, you do so with a healthy mindset. If you're scared of getting emotionally attached, take breaks and read at a pace that makes it easier to digest. While I don't think you'll relate on every level, there are aspects that do hit a bit close to home so be wary and enjoy this terribly beautiful time
I was a drug addict for many years and severly depressed (am sober and healthy now and doing way better). I'm also a huge manga fan and draw manga myself. After hearing of this Manga the first time, I directly had to read it.
It's horrid, but beautiful. Somehow bitterweet and melancholic. The way Punpuns depression is shown and how he progressively becomes more and more detached from reality, spiraling downwords is beautifully shown, but slow burning.
Probably one of the best depictions of depression in manga in my opinion. I could relate to Punpun a lot, which blew my mind.
When I was at my lowest point in life: binging on speed for days, while drinking booze, doing acid, and other drugs at the same time, I was so dead inside and suicidal. Drawing my despair in form of depressing manga art was one of the few things, that kept me from breaking because at the time I didn't tell my family I was suffering.
I was trapped in the darkest parts of my mind, delusional and completly out of touch with reality. This may sound crazy, but that time period of my life awoke in me a strong sense of artistic beauty in human suffering and despair(not in a sadistic way, but in a way of the strength of human resilience through suffering). Because I was suffering in silence it gave me comfort drawing "tortured souls" and depressed Manga fantasy characters, kind of like misunderstood monsters if you will, because I felt like one myself.
Anway I'm ranting a lot now.. sorry..
Goodnight Punpun beautifully captured Punpuns beauty and despair. It really sucks you in, because you're basically seeing everything from his perspective.
This Manga is a one of a kind 10/10 masterpiece, because it deals with the human struggles in life so well and personal.
That's why it holds a special place in my heart.
I wouldn't normally recommend it, nor will I probably ever read it again, because it literally made me sad for days.
Though I think stuff like this is generally missing in manga.
I really wanna draw a personal manga story with a charcter being addicted to drugs(and recovering from it), because it's not really shown in the media Manga often because it's a taboo subject in Japan.
Anyway great video!
Much love from germany! Peace😊❤
Thank you for sharing your story. It sounds like you truly have been through some of the darkest pits of despair, and yet you somehow found light through art. That is such a beautiful take-away from such a depressing experience. The fact you were able to turn what seemed like complete bleakness into a chance to create something passionate and honest, whilst also opening up conversation about mental health is such a cool thing. You should be so proud, what an honestly fantastic example of human virtue
Reading the manga back in 2020 was like reading my life. Broken family, Failures, Despair, Depression, Addiction. Man it was life changing. Thank you for this analysis. Also Aiko deserves better.
It sounds like despite everything, you've been pulling through. Be proud, that is an incredible feat. Thank you for sharing and for watching this video :)
Okay, second comment time now I've finished watching.
You've outdone yourself again Mickell. The editing and song choices are of course the first things that stick out to me to show off your skill and effort into what you do, so I applaud you again for it; but I can't say that's where it stops. There were also the efforts of all the voice actors in the video and my god did they all perform. The defined breakdowns (no Pun(pun) intended... twice) of the video really keep engagement for the entire time but also are refined and well focused.
Another point I would like to make too, maybe more so for those who haven't read the manga, Mickell has done an amazing job covering themes in this video but there are also many more to explore among several characters from Punpun's school friend circle and those he meets along the way. While it is hard to recommend such a raw, explicit, gut-punching piece of literature, I'll do it anyway. For me, Punpun is not JUST a manga, but an experience. Oh, and Asano draws some seriously cool panels.
I'll finish up with saying, Mickell, you absolute dog, don't get me tearing up over Punpun for the Nth time... I've probably filled an olympic swimming pool with my tears from it already. The final minute, knowing the context of the last 27 minutes of points presented and discussed, and of course the manga itself, had me having goosebumps and that love-hate feeling yet again.
Love your stuff man, stay awesome. Oh and dear reader, as Mickell says: "Life isn't remotely fair at all, but you aren't the only who that feels that way. So wake up tomorrow morning and seek what the day has to offer you with your own eyes."
Oyasumi, Punpun.
Thanks so much for saying that North! I'm glad to see some recognition for the insanely talented voice actors in this! So many people just stepped up to the plate and gave it a crack and...my GOD did they do such a good job with it
This is such a beautiful video. Totally relatable despite feelings of low self esteem or imposter syndrome sometimes only the people around you can see those positive qualities and it lifts you up but you need to practice gratitude self care and just make the effort to give yourself the best life you can. Great work bud.
I love that Asano cuts through the bullshit and essentially says "people can't cure you, nobody can just make your dreams come true" and implies that its up to us to make the effort to make our lives worth living. Its never easy and everyone has different circumstances, but its totally okay to try and make things better.
Thanks so much for watching!
I saw the title of this video, accidentally started reading it and relapsed back into a depression thanks man /hj
I appreciate you're viewership and I'm also sorry lmao
i saw a lot of essays of this manga but yours is the best analysis
Thanks so much! There are plenty of ways to interpret this reading so I'm glad my perception of it stands out in its own way :) Thanks for being here!
this was an absolutely beautiful video!! i loved the addition of voice acting, it really made it stand out!! i first read punpun in around 2014, when it was blowing up on tumblr, and i remember somewhere around chapter 106; i had been completely hyper-focused while reading it, and suddenly my mom called me and it snapped me out of it. i went and helped her with something, but then when i came back and it was time to read again, i just cried. i cried and cried and cried and kept crying. and im the type of person that isnt normally swayed by media, i dont cry often while watching or reading things. but something about punpun was so deeply impactful that i was sobbing my eyes out after just taking a 10 minute break from reading it.
i think my favorite part of this video is the ending. i love how you ended it on a happy, more hopeful note. i hope life finds you well!!!
Beautiful comment that I absolutely could relate to. While my experience with Punpun doesn't quite date that far back, my investment in the original story was similar. Its a beautiful and stressful read that I adore so much and it makes me incredibly happy hearing people have such unique and different experiences with its contents.
I'm so glad to hear! Thank you for watching the whole way through :) Your words mean a lot!
Damn this was so well edited, I could feel your emotion while you talked through punpun's journey, great work as always
Aye thanks Riku! So glad my emotions made it through this video! Punpun is a manga that means so much to me, I thank you for taking the time to hear my thoughts
I love the animations, it really adds to to video instead of just static images. Found you through the Bibliomania mmv 💚
Thanks so much! Glad you enjoyed those little additions :) I love to express my love for the medium through those little animations, so I'm glad that even if their minor edits, they have that kind of effect on viewers :)
Appreciate you taking the time to have look at some of my other stuff~!
Oh my god, watching this video at 2 am wasn't a good idea at all. I couldn't sleep so guess what I did? I started reading this manga and finished it in a day.
Those ending chapters man, too cruel :(
I got goosebumbs when I answered yes to most of those questions you mentioned in the video. As always, another amazing video Mickel!
Punpun is a very cruel read but its bitter-sweetness and rawness is truly what makes it the masterpiece that it is. Its so painful but weirdly hopeful at times, which just *feels like life*. Its never easy, but there are moments within it that make it worth the struggle.
Thank you for watching Tannny and being such an active person in the community! May your 2023 be filled with curses and blessings!
This has saved my outlook on life after finishing oyasumi pun pun. Thank you
Thank you for reading Oyasumi Punpun 🙏
I’m sorry that you haven’t got the traction on TH-cam you would prefer but you are obviously a beautiful thinker. Thank you for sharing your work and keep doing what lights you up.
You're very kind :) I will say, over time, I have gotten better at dealing with the parts of my brain that I've come to wish wouldn't present itself. Specifically the envious part of my brain. Its thanks to comments like these, I begin to remember why I love doing what I do. Thank you for aiding in that reminder.
Fantastic video essay
Thank you so much ❤️
I read punpun (perhaps foolishly) during a time where I was in a really dark place. It felt uncomfortably relatable. There were moments where, for my own mental health, I reconsidered if I should continue. I'm so happy I did, because those last few chapters go from the biggest low to the biggest sense of release and hopefulness. I still bawl my eyes out thinking about that moment on the roof.
It's a hard series to recommend but the payoff, if you can make it, is worth it.
Beautifully said. Its really intense and gut-wrenching at times, but that perfectly encapsulates what life is. Harsh and cruel, but there are moments of light which make gritting your teeth and baring it all the more worth it.
I really like how Inio Asano both wrote and illustrated that idea so beautifully.
Terrific job you did with the video and narration! I am actually at a loss for words from the impact. Happy New Year to you. More of you in 2023, and less of a few others :)
Glad to hear that this video had such an impact on you Tarkus! Its always good seeing you here in the comments brother
First video I've seen of yours. Absolutely amazing!
Sorry my response is so late!
Thanks so much for the kind words!
There are a lot of things awesome about not only manga, but also about your personal engagement in the video. Thank you for opening up.
Be sure that there are many people who you have never seen but who would gladly give you a hug. (And rewarch MiA for XXX's time).
Great job, dear and special Pickell ❤
Thanks so much for saying that dude! Really appreciate it! That’s why I love this medium so much, it really lets you take your time to process things and a story like PunPun, which forces you to think about this very deep and honest things are insanely rare. Really needed a place to let loose my emotions and TH-cam has always been perfect for that!
I’m always open to hugs, 24/7, 365 🙏
Thanks for being here brother! May your 2023 be filled with curses and blessings!
Started reading Oyasumi Punpun it a few weeks ago and havent quite finished it yet, but from what I´ve seen it really is something special. The only story I can think of off the top of my head that me compareble feelings was bojack horseman and I loved show. Now I really wanna finish the manga soon (right after finishing some other stuff, Goddamnit why are there so many great stories coming out recently)
Thanks for the great video, Mickell!
Bojack Horseman is a pretty solid comparison! Well...to start....Punpun goes A LOT harder the further it goes on and its honestly no way near as "friendly" a series as Bojack is (which says a lot because BOJACK IS DEPRESSINGLY REALISTIC). Hope to hear your thoughts once you someday finish it! :')
Thanks for watching Bonedrewd! Thank you for a magnificent 2022! 🥂
The part where you talked about you comparing yourself to others really hit home for me. I left my old high school in 8th grade (small town school, 6 to 12 highschool) and it was a good decision in the long run for my mental health. I was horribly bullied my entire childhood by these people. But I can't say that I don't miss it, I grew up with those people, despite how they treated me I feel like I missed out. I look at them now and see how they're doing and wonder "did i give up? why arent i like them?" despite the fact that I don't even know them anymore. My life feels a bit aimless, im in uni and have a job that barely pays me enough to pay my bills, and its hard not to look on my past with nostalgia, despite the trauma of it.
Thank you for sharing your past. I am sorry go hear about the bullying you've received over your time at highschool as well. It's a weird trap to be caught in, missing those times because they were simpler, at times I find myself in a similar mindset.
That being said, even if life feels aimless right now, that doesn't mean you're doing life wrong. I think it's strange that we are basically told to have plans and our lives completely sorted by highschool, but that's not how things work.
Not having it all figured out, it's totally normal and okay ❤️ I hope things look up for you 🙏
Marvelous video. Loved the story telling. There's a weird relief yet shameful feeling that I related to much of this despite being a condensation of the manga. I'm both excited and hesitant to read for myself. I'm fearful of feeling exposed with how deep I may relate but perhaps seeing this characters journey through could help me with mine. Absolutely earned my subscribe.
You're so kind! Thank you so much for letting my work affect you ❤
Its a tough read as when you find yourself relating to aspects of the characters and themes within this narrative, it explores those ideas to their absolute fullest. Though at the same time, while it doesn't tell you explicitly how to deal with those horrible moments, seeing someone work through them (even if they are morally quite grey) is inspiring in its own way.
Crazy how a video on a manga I'll probably never read has touched me on a level far deeper than anything I've seen in a while.
Thank you for letting my work affect you on an emotional level 🙇♂️ Makes me really happy knowing that people are resonating with it!
I couldn't finish it since it made me feel SO bad. If you suffer from depression and anxiety, this manga is a hell of a ride.
It is a series that hits in a very different way depending on the mindset you choose to tackle it with. Even though I was given some warning prior to the read, I felt like a different person by the end of this manga.
THANK YOU for using Zankyou No Terror OST at the very beginning. That anime is severely underrated with its unique plot, beautiful animation, and music ahead of its time.
The last song touched me so much I cried.
I started this video about 2 months ago and stopped in the middle because I found Punpun disgusting,
Even though his experience seemed realistic, I was afraid of becoming like him one day...
but I was still intrigued by his story and so I decided to come back and finish your video, it was a great choice, I was sad that day but when I heard the moral at the end it was like it was meant for me... I have so much respect for your work
🙂
Thank you for letting my work affect you and thank you for coming back to finish this video.
It makes me happy knowing viewers like you resonated so strongly with my video :)
Its a tough read because the central character isn't likeable and the situation is constantly snowballing and become more and more dire. Both due to his decisions and sometimes his lack of...but whats so powerful about it, is despite the intensity of the subject matter, you continue to push through, and Asano in a way, almost rewards you for it by showcasing to you that even horrible people can change for the better.
i love the video, defenitly need to give punpun a read.
i really like how you stage yourself into the video, really high quality on this part, and once again same as all your video.
watching it gave me energy and motivation.
happy new year in advance !
Aye good to see ya here Ekal! Loved your theory video
@@TheMickellPickell i love self-reflection, and hearing you talk about the inner/forbiden though caught my attention.
i think with such a selft-reflecftion aspect about pun-pun (that i can gather for now), you have to put your personal experience when talking about it, or else it will just be a random review with no emotions.
hoping to see you stream soon man ! also at 17:17 everytime you feel down just watch stream 14 of binary star, and remember we, your comunity, will be here for you.
yes we are not friends, since you can't befriend know and trust a 100 or 1 000 of people, yet we are here and ready to support you and help you, like your helping us by bringing joy into our life, never forget that !
take care.
Ah perfect, I was just looking for a manga to read to break me, as someone new to the comics! Thanks for the (not) recommendation I will definitely read
Welcome to the wonderfully horrible world of Oyasumi Punpun! Thanks for watching and I hope its not too traumatizing an experience!
I watch this knowing i cant relate to any of this once so ever, still a good book without having to see yourself through the characters
Glad to hear that it was an enjoyable read, even if you couldn't relate to its subject matter.
NEEDS MORE VIEWS! Daddy Pickell, you need to talk about more manga. You got an awesome way with giving a deep dive into a manga.
THANK YOU DRAGON! I definitely will in the near future! This medium is so powerful in its own right and gets overlooked plentiful, so I'm glad I can help bring awareness to just how deep themes and ideas can be translated in this unique type of storytelling.
Beautiful video, thank you
Thank you for watching!
thank you for this video, i've never heard of pun pun, but must check it out after watching this...
My pleasure! Thank you so much for watching :')
I really appreciate that you took the time in the video to talk about negative thought patterns and intrusive thoughts and how it's a normal part of living. Cheers on a great vid!
I really appreciate you taking the time to watch my video! I'm so glad to hear you enjoyed :)
I only started playing this video so that I could have something playing in the background while doing my chores. I haven't even read Oyasumi Punpun, but this video had me hooked to the point I had to sit down and watch, not just listen. The animations and music choices were great. The whole experience was epic, honestly.
I also want to thank you for putting my feelings and thoughts into words, as I've never been able to do that myself ❤
You are far too kind! This is such a sweet comment ♥ Thank you so much for making my work a part of your day today 😊
So glad to hear that this video had such a gripping effect and that you were able to relate to some of my words. Makes me so happy to hear that despite the intense subject matter, people are still willing to hear my thoughts and feelings and feel somewhat connected by them. Thanks for watching!
PS. I hope all your chores went well 🙏
bro, i couldn't read past third of the way. even watching your video gave me a dull ache in my chest.
Such is the Punpun experience. Totally understand why you would feel that way. This series is emotionally exhausting 😅
That was incredible, honestly I'm speechless. I must say, that's not what I was expecting to see, but oh I was I pleasantly surprised. I swear I had to turn the heater on this video gave me so many chills haha. Absolutely fantastic video, thank you so much.
Ayeeeee in my 10 years on this platform, I've never heard the phrase "turn the heater on because of the chills"
This is an incredible video with god tier editing!! i may read this manga someday
Thank you so much for saying that! I appreciate the kind words and support :')
I really love your review on Goodnight Punpun, and I appreciate your vulnerability
Thank you for hearing me out and letting me be vulnerable :)
Thanks for another great video Mickell! This one was really something special. Amazing work on what is definitely not the easiest of manga and themes to chew on. I think you made great point in that even though Punpun isn’t necessarily a projection character, a lot of us still see certain parts of ourselves in Punpun in some shape or form. Seeing life take him to those truly dark places really makes an impression that few other works of fiction can, and in that sense just making it all feel that much more real.
The 28 minutes of this video just flew by making you really feel every moment on display here, just incredible work on the editing and all those great reflections! Props to the voice actors for the fantastic work in bringing the panels to life, and along with the on-point editing really taking things to the next level! Keep doing what inspires you :)
Thank you so much for watching and saying that Squirtle! This has got to be one of my absolute favourite comments I've ever read ;n;
The way you ended the video was so unexpected and beautiful
Aww thanks for watching all the way through! Appreciate you listening and letting me speak my thoughts in this video :')
I just finished reading this you broke it down incredibly‼️‼️‼️
Thank you so much for saying that!
This was such an emotionally impactful essay, and I feel like I absolutely need to read this manga
Thank you for watching and hearing me out :) This manga means a lot to me so I'm happy to hear people are resonating with my love for it.
I hope you someday get to enjoy the brilliant despair that is Punpun
@@TheMickellPickell I can totally see why, I’m a hundred chapters in now thanks to your video! It’s a beautifully illustrated manga and often holds a mirror back up to the reader - even the first few chapters illustrate thar childlike wonder of having your first tea group of friends; this is such a beautiful manga, and I’m grateful for your video my friend :)
I remember turning into ch. 139 and where I was like a flashbulb memory. I legitimately read the rest completely transfixed and shook, then just stared into the ceiling for hours from 5am. Back when it was only fan translations, reading on Manga rock on my ipad. Later that summer I bought all the books in Japanese whilst on grad trip, with a few friends, in Kyoto.
What a period in my life. Probably one of the most genuinely constructive and flourishing points I've had so far. In many ways I've grown into myself further since, in many ways I regressed from where I was then, between then and now. But I'm back in a decent place after going through a lot these 8 years. In some ways mirroring PunPun himself oddly.
Descending into a world internal and engulfed in negative self talk and perception, then making it out and seeing the value others have seen in me all along has been one of the most harrowing and enlightening experiences. This work depicts it wonderfully well, in all its vivid horrors and blissful beauty.
There's a real sense of growth, although not directly quantifiable, or outwardly visible, without careful and intimate observation of someone, that they gain through strife and suffering. A sort of wisdom or soul I feel. Its costly and I feel why a lot of people see a certain beauty to a tortured soul. At least I feel so, call it a cope or something, I don't care. There is something to be gained through braving the pits of despair this world and its people can drag you to. It comes at a great cost, which never fully leaves you, but it isn't fully worth it, nor fully not. With true happiness comes profound sadness I have come to learn, and its all worth it eventually if you don't succumb. Punpun speaks to this more vividly than any other literary work I've encountered, and I love it for that.
"It comes at a great cost, which never fully leaves you, but it isn't fully worth it, nor fully not"
Literally speaking into my soul with this.
Beautifully said and a truly poetic take-away from a series like this. Loved reading every second of this comment
Saw this video two or three weeks ago and not even watched the first minute and started to read the manga. Just finished it a few minutes ago. Yeah, I definitely need some time to process that.
Punpun readers gotta support each other
Your channel is so underrated. Thanks for giving us this absolute masterpiece of an analysis that this manga has to offer.
You are far too kind! Thank you so much for saying that and making my words a part of your day! :')
Fantastic video! Thanks! Don't think I'll read the manga though, for a fear of feeling the "literarily me"-effect. I am horrified of such introspection rn.
Totally understandable. While I do think the character of Punpun is HEAVILY exaugurated, there are some more somber and honest moments that I find are weirdly the most intense. To each of their own!
Thanks for watching, I appreciate your time!
I've known about Good Night Punpun for like years now, I've read a spoiler or two. But I never really read it. I guess I'm scared? Most of the spoilers I've seen reminds me of how I act in my own life. Locking myself up in my room, limiting the amount of time I spent with my family cause I don't know how to properly converse with them. Having a "second voice" in my mind (in Punpun's case his "god") that is too toxic, and yet I still hold on to it. That sense of loneliness that makes me feel like I'm not really part of the friend groups I'm in, that I'm easily replaceable. I've had dark thoughts, but somehow I always managed to calm them down by writing them out. My facebook is filled with posts of my inner thoughts whenever I lapse, all of them posted set with "Only Me" so no one else can read it. I'm just afraid that if I ever read Punpun, I'd end up seeing more similarities.
Don't get me wrong, I do somehow manages to go by. But I constantly feel lost. I've never really got the chance to dream nor explore a talent. I've always just done what my parents told me. I studied electrical engineering cause my parents told me. I somehow passed from elementary till college through sheer luck. My thesis paper wasn't even defended properly, but I managed to pass because our department's head just allowed everyone who managed to finish a paper to pass. Most of the stuff I've accomplished and have are merely due to luck. I've never really felt happy about my own accomplishments. It's that constant thought of "I passed cause I was lucky". And everytime I would beat myself up for it. My second voice exists to remind me "you can't kill yourself, you haven't even paid back a single penny to your parents". When I do want to cry, I have to force it out and if I were to stop forcing it, it'd just stop and I'll just feel calm and normal again.
As time passes by, the loneliness just gets heavier. My parents would get angry at me for because they want me to be more normal. To be more outgoing. But I just don't know how to do it. They aren't really the type to listen to anything I say unless it's about a topic they like. They consider the stuff I like as just a waste of time. Even when I do attempt to strike up a normal conversation, they'll raise their voice and say something along the line of "that's because you are like this" or "It's because you don't do this". They always have a problem with my physical appearance. They even dictate my relationships, wanting me to be romantically involved with someone that is up to their standards.
Goodnight Punpun is a series I'm scared to read because I don't want to know how similar I am to Punpun. I know I'm selfish and unfair, but sometimes I wish I didn't. I hate the fact that I tend to look at the bigger picture to try and understand both sides. Cause it prevents me from actually picking a side. I hate the fact that I am self-aware. I don't know... maybe I wrote this comment cause it just reminded me again of all that stuff.
I appreciate you being so open and honest about your life experiences. Thank you for speaking up, I'm sure there are lots of people who can relate to your experience. Be proud that you're still here, because despite everything, you're still here.
I think its totally fair to be afraid of the subject matter throughout Punpun. Its a rather hopeful read despite the consistent pessimism, but that doesn't make it any easier to digest. Especially when you start seeing links between yourself and the themes within it.
Hang in there, and stay strong
God. At around the 18-19 minute mark that "God, im pathetic" hit me hard. I see everyone I know doing everything in their power to do well in college yet i just cant bring myself to do anymore than the bare minimum and even now im only falling behind. Thank you for this video. I dont even know if i'll pass college, i just dont have the mental energy to face reality like everyone else i know. Just like Punpun's facade, my "life" i live really only exists in the fake online worlds where i escape reality even if it hurts me in real life. If im still here years later, i want to know if i'm doing well and if things might be better or at least im on a better path than i am now.
God, im not just pathetic, but tired of all this too.
Thank you for being so open about your experience. I'm sure this is a story that many people are actively living. Its hard to find a purpose when you lack drive, and after a while, the days begin to blend and things feel pointless. Though life isn't always like that. Whether you pass college or not, and whether you find a dream or don't, as cliche as it sounds, just keep moving forward, you never know what awaits you. I hope to hear from you someday in the future when you are in a better place mentally.
The editing in this absolutely crazy. Such a good job!
Thank you so much! I appreciate the kind words :)
I think you toed the line of descriptive explaination to provide context of your analysis and spoiler limitation well. Well enough to intrigue me and put the manga on my must read list!
Very glad to hear that! It makes me happy knowing that it built enough intrigue in you without me having to outright spoil things.
I only really covered surface level stuff and even then, I would say I only told about 25% of the overall story. Meaning there is plenty of new things to uncover when you get around to reading it for yourself.
Keep up the variety content Mickell you got this!
Thanks Olli! Appreciate your support of this channel's consistent changes in its content :)
I read this back in freshman year and years later still holds a place in my brain and heart
Punpun really is something special. 9/10 people who have read it tell me that they are a different person by the end of it and I absolutely agree with them.
I definitely am. When I finished it I laid and just kinda thought about for awhile. Opens your eyes about a lot and such an amazing way to visually show pun pun's descent. Would still read it again but boy did it break me xD
I was way too young when I read this story: well, young enough that I felt particularly small and sad when I finished reading. I was depressed for 3 days afterwards but oh boy is it such a good story... really hard-hitting piece of media.
It really is such a unique and beautiful piece of fiction. Its not for everyone, but those it resonates with never truly forget their first ever experience with it. Years have gone past and I still think about it consistently.
I have intrusive thoughts exacerbated by my ocd and my therapist reccomended Imp of the mind by Lee baer. It doesn't just apply to those with ocd but it's a short read and written by a doctor who treats people from various backgrounds and mental health issues who deal with intrusive thoughts. It really helped me not internalize the thoughts I was having as a deep disgusting part of myself terrified it's something I might want, but as something my brain is doing against my will with part of the definition of intrusive thoughts being distressing, unwanted, and revolting to the person having them. He talks about how when talking to patients he often says the people who are so distressed about those kinds of thoughts are the people almost never likely to act on them. I would highly reccomend this book!
Didn't realize this exsisted. Thanks for the hard work master mickell.
You're too bloody precious Jake, oh my god! Seriously brother, you spoil me rotten! Thanks so much for your generosity 😭♥
What a solid video. Almost made me cry a couple of times. Instant sub from me. Keep up the good fight my dude!
You're so kind! Thank you for letting my work affect you ❤️
Felt so many emotions watching this video, though I haven't read PunPun, could fully feel the grief and the many emotions thru the screen and the voice acting, the questions segment was truly amazing, can't say I'd pick up punpun cuz I'm not in a great place mentally, but it would be nice someday, it really seems like a masterpiece from the visuals to the storytelling, LOVED THE MUSIC CHOICE AT THE END great video ❤ came for the recc left with great feels 💯
Thank you for taking the time to watch this video in full! That is such a kind sentiment, I appreciate you letting my work become a part of your day
I had heard of this series, but never knew anything about it, and thank you for making this. I hate that punpun so heavily represents me, but i love how perfectly some of this was represented and described.
I am glad I could give you an INCREDIBLY BRIEF explanation into some of its contents and the type of vibe this series is and it seemingly peak your interest. Its an intense and raw read, but an absolutely fantastic one at that.
although i may be late, it could still help someone reading the comments.
I too struggle with intrusive thoughts, and the way that i like to think of it is like this
"Its not the first thought that defines you , its the second thought ."
because when you think to yourself "drive off the road, do it" Thats usually followed up with. "uhh wtf no?? why would i do that?"
Really great way of looking at it. Perfect example of how reflection is always necessary when battling one's problems. Beautifully said!
Gets worse when it hit you with a "no balls".
This very personal and real video about punPun it's the best review i've ever seen.
I've read the manga during 2021, the world was just getting out of a terrible collective trauma, my life was complicated, a toxic relationship was destroying me, my life and my marriage , my mental health was deteriorating and i started struggling again with weight.
It was a terrible choice reading this but i was drawn to it so hard. It definitely helped me break and left me sobbing several times. But then i decided to go on and overcome all of that.
I think everyone can relate to Punpun because of how terribly brutally honest it is and because deep down, we all have terrible moments and very rough patches.
Loneliness is a collective experience, despair too. If i learned something out of it, it's: YOU ARE NOT THE ONLY ONE. And that gave me the strenght.
Thanks for this review. Now i wanna read it again and i can't wait to hate you for this. :)
What an incredibly powerful comment. Thank you for sharing your experience here in the comment section. Its incredible how despite the pessimism that tends to envelope this manga, there are aspects of it that provide a really positive and profound message. That notion of loneliness being a collective experience is a really beautiful take--away. I'm glad to hear that you're still walking your path despite how tough it has been.
Wishing you nothing but the best
Aiko is like the personification of the the past which you can't move on from ,and just like how punpun blames Aiko for every failure he faces, alot of us also blames our past/traumas for our failures, while it may be a valid reason for now its not gonna lead us to anything ...........Whereas Sanchi on the other hand represents the future or the new found dreams and hopes that comes our way, that will push us out of our comfort zones and make us a better person, just like how Aiko had to die inorder for punpun to move on with sanchi (while still acknowledging the past).....
Also a fun detail i noticed: Aiko seems to be missing the same teeth at the end of the story as she did when she's first introduced to us(maybe because when punpun meets aiko after the long separation ,Aiko seems to be a totally changed person but turns out shes still the same as she was)
I shouldn’t related this much to punpun. Definitely seeking help
Seeking help is a great start, I hope you find the solace you are looking for~
hey , this video was one of the most well made and well written videos i have ever seen , f@*k youtube's algorithm cause this video deserves so much more so please keep making videos like this one. Thank you for the glimmer of hope you gave through the ending of this video , it was beautiful.
Thank you and Goodnight punpun.
You are far too kind :') Thank you so much for watching the whole way through, I appreciate you leaving such a kind comment and making my work a part of your day! I'm also really happy to hear that you gained something out of watching this, means a lot.
Note: I've got another video in the works in a similar vein to this video that should be out in April, I hope to see you there!
i will be waiting @@TheMickellPickell
Shows how deep good night punpun is or can become according to your own way of understanding things .
Agreed. Its an experience that is completely different with each person. Its been really fun reading people's comments (especially the negative ones)
love your choice of background, all absolute bangers
Aye I appreciate that 🙏 Thanks for watching
I read the thumbnail as "Goodnight PutinPun" bc I thought there were letters behind PunPun and Girl (not)PunPun
That would be...a VERY different video lol
Great essay. Thank you for the veiled, open questions everybody might ask themselves at some point.
I heard of punpun only in a sidenote until now, mentioning it is worth a read. You made me interested in it but also concerned about if I should actually read it.
I hope your essays and videos will get a lot more views, upvotes and interaction. I truly enjoyed the few I have seen so far, though not having thought I had nearly enough meaningful things to type a comment (... So here's a wall of text I guess)
There is a certain.. Dunno, aura? Je ne sais quoi? Feel?... to your videos I enjoy. Maybe sometimes in weird ways I cannot quite grasp.
Best of luck for the success that can come due to your ambitions.
Wow thanks so much for saying that Tiefsee! That really means a lot to me to hear!
I'm glad that my words resonated with you in such a way :) I try to make these video essays as personal as possible, so I'm glad its not too off-putting 😅 Appreciate it! Hope to see you again in the future!
@@TheMickellPickell aww and you are truly so nice to answer to this and so nicely and fast too. I love your work and you just made my day better. =)
The most decraped thing about reading oyasumi punpun is the complete lack of closure. I remember the night i finished reading it. I didn't cry I felt raw devastation.
I think that's part of what makes this series so "human" though. Because its not like there wont be even worse days ahead. Nothing in this life is certain, all we can really do is just roll with whatever the world throws at us and cherish the good times. I love this manga too much lmao
Solid video, i wish you all the success, all those animations really add to the emotion. Now regretfully I'm going to read pun pun
I appreciate the kind words! And I wish you the best on your beautiful tragic journey through Punpun
I didn't even watch this video yet and I can already know that I should read this.
Oyasumi Punpun is honestly such a treasure. Its not a read everyone will enjoy but it is an experience unlike anything else I've ever read.