Thank you so much for making this video. I got into Omori just last year and it has forever changed me. Every fiber, ounce and tiny little details this game contains has both lifted, inspired and haunted me like nothing else ever had before. Since the beginning of this year I been going through a rough patch of grievance, betrayal and hurt and (ironically enough) revisiting this game and certain specific characters have become even more difficult to look at. Watching this video has helped me remember my love for Omori once more and inspires me to confront my own terms of acceptance within the themes of this game once again. The connection Omori has given you is a beautiful, beautiful thing and as vulnerable as this was to make, I'm very thankful you made this video and shared your story. Much love, healing and peace your way. ❤
@@rossbaus6816heya ross, id reccomend you delete your channel, before i doxx you of course! Already happened to my little buddy leroy, i feel like you can reflect, so ill give you around an hour to do so, id do it quick though! I get impatient!
@@rossbaus6816 It's important to recognize that suicidal ideation and actions are complex and often stem from a variety of factors beyond just one person's actions. It's unfair to place the blame solely on the individual, especially without understanding the full context of their situation. He did his best as her father, and that’s what matters.
@@rossbaus6816 are you 12? Sometimes people keep everything inside. Sometimes people don't reach out for help. Sometimes depression is the genetics lottery and not being mistreated. This is an incredibly gross comment. Please do better. Get help.
@@rossbaus6816 You cannot singlehandedly prevent someone from killing themselves. I've tried to kill myself. Nothing my parents said would have ever helped, but people like you will never understand that. I hope you never have a loved one kill themselves, because on top of the grief you'd have to deal with the fact that you are wrong.
@Love_Yourself4830 You have many hugging you right now, I promise that. My aunt went through the same. It's not as beautiful a life without them. But they didn't want us to feel the same. We keep on going for them. I genuinely love you sir.
I lost my mom to suicide over 10 years ago. One of my most common nightmares/dreams is that she didn’t actually do it. That it was fake. That maybe she’s out there, happier without us. I always chase her away when she tries to come back. I understand Aubrey’s anger. I understand your guilt. I was fourteen.
The saddest part about reading all these comments is that we only see the survivors' stories. Imagine how many people would be opening up on here, had they not been lost to suicide.
I cant believe people have the audacity to harass a clearly grieving father, shame on you all that are actually hating this man just for thinking about his daughter.
@@ErmithOh Acting like it's alright to harass a clearly distressed father for just thinking about his daughter is a pretty shitty thing, even if ya don't care ya know?
@@ErmithOh can you elaborate? Im assuming what you're getting at is the father was a tad cringe for talking about his dead daughter in this way, but at the same time he's still a grieving father that lost their daughter, and people making fun of him for that is wrong.
my dad saved me from my suicide attempt 3 years ago. i had no regret when swallowed down 24 pills of paracetamol, but instantly regret it when i saw my dad cried. he is not a man who would cry a lot like me, i have never saw him crying except for my grandma and grandpa's funerals. times go on and now my mental problem is cured. i realized that if i died at that time, so it's just me who release myself, but it will actually stab a hole inside my family's heart. your friends could only cries for you in a couple of weeks, but it's a forever pain that cannot be cured to your family.
@@peopleyouforgot You have a Heavenly Father who loves you so much. I don't mean to preach so that is all I'll say, other than this. You have people who care about you even if you feel like you don't at this point of your life. I know it may not be much, and I know that you don't know me, but I care about you, and I know if you persevere you will be able to see joy in your life. I believe in you.
@@peopleyouforgotreach out to anyone else. Meet new people. You WILL find someone. Believe me. You just have to focus. On the positives, and the negatives, but don’t be pessimistic.
I think some kids like dark humour because of the wild reactions get. i.e “💀💀💀 “ this gives them possitive feedback so they keep wanting to do it. Some people are also rage baiting because they know people will react really strongly and want to seem cool thats my theory of one person in the ocean of all the other commenters
came here from a shitty tweet that made fun of your video calling it "sensationalist" and saying that you used you used your daughter for views. this video is the complete opposite of that. i have a brother who has suffered with drug addiction and attempted suicide a handful of times, and i feel you. your video somewhat touched me and i appreciate that.
@@leckercidre160Can't people share their thoughts and emotions over the internet? No shit people are going to see it, it's common sense. Just have basic empathy.
@@leckercidre160I am also slightly skeptical about this guy, as I am someone who has attempted as well when I was in my teens. I have many friends (and acquaintances from group therapy) who have attempted, or suffer from severe mental illness that may very well lead to an attempt. And as many sufferers of severe mental illness know, oftentimes one's family can be a very strong influence in how healthily a kid copes with trauma. Having bad or unhealthy family systems are sadly, not an uncommon trend among suicide victims. However, even with my own skeptical outlook, I still do believe that your agreement with that tweet is a stretch. I don't think that the pure, shallow exploitation of someone else's mental health issues for one's own profit/clout is what is happening here. This video has a respectable, simple, but still empathetic story of what happened to the victim. It has a unique perspective for a video game review of this horror game. It has a very clear purpose (sharing one's experiences with grief and process of coping as they use this game as a medium to explore those feelings) that fulfilled all reasonable expectations. And perhaps most importantly, it served its role as a video about grief posted on a video sharing site to provide MANY viewers who suffered from genuine mental health distress a valuable experience/lense to help process their own lives with. Speaking about how a trauma-focused game helps someone deal with a suicide of a loved one is what this video succeeds in doing. Suicide is a very real reality, and trying to ban all discussion from those who have to live to tell the tales of those who took their own lives is just cruel and ignorant about the very real pain and suffering that people who care about suicide victims have to go through. It really isn't easy to go through, even as a bystander to someone else's own mental health struggles. By virtue of loving someone, their health and fate will greatly impact your own, and it is understandable that plenty of people who lost someone they love will struggle greatly in finding meaning and peace in the aftermath. They experienced a tragedy. It is but human nature to struggle. No matter how you and I may speculate about the reality behind this youtuber's family circumstances are (i.e. Whether he is using his daughter's decision to end her life as nothing but a shallow opportunity to cash in on the "mental health philosophizing" trend bandwagon), the fact is that this video is genuinely resonating with a lot of viewers who have a thorough, realistic grasp on how processing trauma can be like. The people who are commenting and interacting with this video don't seem to be ignorant, uneducated, synthetically philanthropic, or not the greatest at communicating their thoughts with self-awareness. They have done enough homework to meaningfully participate and share their thoughts. There's a crapton of suicide survivors, remaining loved ones of those who committed suicide, and those who suffered from great grief in general here in the comments, and they all have done enough homework to discuss their thoughts in an honest, human way. This video is not attracting people who are just participating in a trend to feel better about themselves. These are actual people who have suffered very human tragedies that are congregating to hear this guy out. While there is always exceptions on any social media platform, the viewerbase for this video is not at all anything to be worried about. It is not encouraging anything harmful or lazily written. This video has never spread a single shred of misinformation or spearheaded even one uncompassionate viewpoint on all things suicide. It is pretty humble in that regard, and does not attempt to wax poetics about things outside of the creator's own personal experience. His experience consists of sensible things that those who struggle with grief pick up on over time after time, introspection, and discussions with others in the same boat while trying to heal their wounds. At this point, the only thing that is being "sensationalized" is just... talking about how going through the suicide of a loved one affected one's experience of this game. And to be clear, talking about that unique experience of Omori is perfectly acceptable, rational, ethical, and serves a fair purpose in sharing with the world. Our own life stories can greatly shape our perceptions of everything around us; games included. Different perspectives can help broaden perspective, heighten appreciation for media, or create a feeling of comradery and comfort in those who can connect with this poor dad's message. All I see here is a dad being hit with the hardest loss of his life so far, and grasping for straws trying to figure out how to possibly move forward from something so mentally devastating. Losing a child that you raised for so many years is so awful, especially since the parents are a kid's first defender against all things bad. The guilt and sorrow is naturally very immense. IMO, what is the most key indicator of his likely innocuous intentions is the name of his channel: Love Yourself. It is a common and candid response that, upon going through a new and confusing tragedy, people find meaning in sharing their crisis-processing journey with others. I see that this dad is taking solace in sharing his story in hopes that maybe some other loved one going through something similarly heartbreakingly confusing is able to grasp onto his messages and find something tangible to help them in the aftermath of their own personal disasters. It is a common response for people to, in the midst of their own grief, seize the opportunity to use what little they managed to reap from their own experience to help and uplift others. Many advocates of social issues have started speaking their mind because of a relevant incident that they went through in their personal life. Going through tragedies can evoke Empathy and foster discussions that helps others handle those tragedies. This dad is merely trying to find a silver lining in lighting the path for those who are also walking down a dark path, even if his sentiments may be only useful to a few. I'm sure he hopes that his video can at least be of use for a handful of people, because even smaller-scale positive changes make exchanges of personal stories like these worth it. Hope you understand my point here. But still, thank you for not instantly taking things at face value; it is important to be on the lookout for exploitative handling of sensitive topics, without a doubt. ♡
To all the kids in this comment section saying things like "womp womp" or "L," i genuinely hope your future self takes the time to reflect and apologise. Going through the pain of losing someone you love is the worst, and you making these disrespectful comments only adds more fuel on the fire.
They are too young to understand the pain they can cause, and they'll probably forget the day after that they even commented. I don't understand why children and preteens can be so cruel, my brother and I were always polite and friendly at their age so I don't believe their behavior it's only because of their young age.
This generation is screwed, they never learn what true pain is like unless they have experienced it for themselves, it’s sickening to see humans go this low
@@maxdong3514Every generation has had people like this. It just seems widespread because of the Internet. All we can hope for is that later on in their life they will look back on moments like this, reflect, and work to become a better person.
I'm really sorry for all the immature children here who are mocking your situation. I'm not sure if it means anything to you; but just know that through your own vulnerability, you have spread much more love than these people have hate. My sincerest condolences go out to you and your loved ones.
Honestly treat them as bots and move on. they have their own personal life problems and wanna throw that into others to make em feel happy. What a wasteful space they are lol. Anyways just ignore em.
The narcicism of people to hate on someone just because he shared his tragic story with the world using omori as the base for it something that makes me extremly sad
@passthebleach9745 This video was not monetized in any way. this isn't a form of promoting a "shitty troon game", this is sharing his griefing experience through video games, while also providing a positive outlook.
@@saintlouis778 i know honestly i didnt really care about omori in the entire video but more of how the creator feel about the game thru the entire honestly i feel like people just really hatting on this poor man because they just simply dont like omori
@@bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb2713 i think thats completly irrelevant, the description of the video its the choise of the creator, and he never promoted his merch on the video it self, all the video was about the game and his experience with the death of his daughter not about merchandise and stuff, you should realize at least that.
Imagine being so miserable to criticize a man who uses artistic media to cope with the loss of his daughter. I’m so sorry for your loss. I wish you all the best ❤
His daughter was pretty artistic too I've seen the devil Down Sunset In every place In every face Yeah, uh, uh Yeah, uh, uh Tell me, do you see her? (Yeah) she's livin' her life (uh) Even if she acts like she don't want the limelight (uh, yeah, uh) But if you knew her (yeah), she lives a lie She calls the paparazzi, then she acts surprised, oh Oh, I know what she needs (oh) She just want the fame, I know what she fiends (oh) Give her a little taste, runnin' back to me, uh (oh) Put it in her veins, pray her soul to keep, ooh, ooh Every night (every night, uh), she prays to the sky Flashin' lights is all she ever wanted (yeah) Beggin' on her knees to be popular That's her dream, to be popular (hey) Kill anyone to be popular (hm) Sell her soul to be popular Popular, just to be popular (uh-huh) Everybody scream 'cause she popular (hey) She mainstream 'cause she popular Never be free 'cause she popular Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh) Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh) Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular (uh-uh) Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular I know that you see me (huh), time's gone by Spend my whole life runnin' from your flashin' lights Try to own it (uh), but I'm alright (yuh) You can't take my soul without a - fight (uh, oh) Oh, I know what she needs (oh) She just want the fame, I know what she fiends (oh) Give her a little taste, runnin' back to me (oh) Put it in her veins, pray her soul to keep, ooh (uh) Ooh, every night (every night), she prays to the sky (oh) Flashin' lights is all she ever wants to see (yuh) Beggin' on her knees to be popular (uh) That's her dream, to be popular (hey) Kill anyone to be popular (hm) Sell her soul to be popular Popular, just to be popular (uh-huh) Everybody scream 'cause she popular (hey) She mainstream 'cause she popular Never be free 'cause she popular Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh) Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh) Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular (uh) Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular (uh) Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh) Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh) Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular (uh-huh) Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular Eat me and money, I'ma keepin' it I'm gettin' can and I'm kickin' it Money on top of me, money on top of her Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular Pop-popular, born to be popular She in debt, 20 mill', but she run it up She can never be broke 'cause she popular Turn the webcam on for the followers beggin' on her knees to be popular That's her dream, to be popular (hey) Kill anyone to be popular Sell her soul to be popular Popular, just to be popular (uh-huh) Everybody scream 'cause she popular (hey) She mainstream 'cause she popular Never be free 'cause she popular
“I’m so happy I got to be your dad.” Im crying ugly tears. I’ve been struggling with depression and suicidal ideations since I was 12, I’ve had many failed suicide attempts when I was a teenager- my dad having to take me to the hospital because I was sick and having to stay in psych wards. He’s never told me how he felt about me trying to take my own life. I know for a fact you gave your daughter all of your love- depression is so fucking awful I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy. It is still a monster I carry- I am 23 now but I try to find the reasons to stay everyday. Thank you for making this video 🖤
I am sorry you've had a tough experience growing up. I wish it were different. I wish you the best, And I bet your Dad does too, even if it's in his own special, confused, and distant way. I am convinced that my Dad, at least, has no concept of who I even am as a person even when I still live in the same house with him now he's been so absent in my life. I know he cares, and he has tried to tell me how he feels about what he knows, but man it just missed the mark, nothing he said hit home and it only proved how little he knew about me. I believe the problem lies in pride. Pride makes it difficult for me to talk about it or show it, and I bet it hurts Dads to accept it. It took him ages to approach me, and ultimately I respect him greatly for doing so. I wanna say 11 but it was probably a couple years later when it started hitting harder, but it was around that age when I started losing interest in many things. As much as I tried, it only got harder and harder to keep my interest unless I could receive the same respect I saw others receive. I was adept at learning things fast or "on the fly" by observing, replicating and experimenting, and at some point there was no longer any surprises when I revealed I could do something unique or simply copy what someone else was doing. Ironically, while I tried hard mainly to get close to others, I think this only further distanced me from them instead. I grew exceedingly frustrated with myself for not feeling successful socially - or maybe it was the lack of respect I felt was deserved - I didn't know how to deal with my frustration, and after being beaten for taking it out on something around the house, chose to take it out on me instead. Things rolled downhill from there. Spent a lot of time in limbo between the hits of adrenaline that kept me going, and now that I'm working I don't know where to get a big enough hit from without risking contracts or careers. Attempts were getting more frequent before I quit my last job. Now I've been stuck in idle for the past few months too lazy or disinterested in general to even try. I'm 19 now going on 20 and doing my best to get out of a low from my worst low yet. But hey I did my first double backflip on grass recently. 5elfcontrol, I truly hope things turn around for you.
same had suicidal thoughts when I was 13, in my 20s I found the thing that keeps me going, that is my passion for gaming and technology. It keeps me alive everyday knowing if I die I won't be able to experience any of them. Depression sucks ass
@@xaviermiller9499 there's a book that really helped me out called "What Color is Your Parachute?" Get the latest version, it definitely got me out of a rough spot. It's used for getting careers, but there's also a massive self help aspect that gives satisfying answers as opposed to therapy. Tried it, didn't turn out well. I hope this helps for you as well. Take care dude, stay safe.
@@xaviermiller9499 Thank you for commenting, I hope something gives for you as well. It’s really hard everyday- but I find even the smallest things to stay and live for. I grew up in an immensely traumatic household and also had very traumatic things happen to me outside of my home as well. It made it very difficult growing up in seeing a purpose. I remember when I was christian I used to cry to god to please let me die that I didn’t want to live anymore and it gets me choked up now just thinking about it. A 12 year old begging an omniscient being to kill them, it’s just a lot. But i’m glad none of them worked- even though i’ve been very close a few times. Hoping that nothing but love comes into our lives…and gratitude even if it’s super hard to even have any of either. 🖤
@@s1ndrome117 I feel you hard- everyday I find even the dumbest tiniest things to keep living. But if it ain’t broke don’t fix it- I hope one day even if the depression doesn’t go away it gets easier to hold 🖤
As Jogo, the strongest curse, fought the fraud, the king of curses himself, he began to expand his domain. Fraudkuna asked "Are you the one who left it all behind in his overwhelming intensity because you're always bet on hakari or are you I haven't used this since the heian era because you're with this treasure I summon Nah I'd win". The fingerer simply replied "Throughout lobotomy and I'm you, I alone am the gojover one"
the bitter truth is that she's nowhere now. you only get one of these "life" things and once it's gone, it's gone. there's no proof of some "great beyond", and the belief of such is just our way of coping. i ain't saying this to be all 'reddit atheist'-y and shit on people's parade(and i doubt it would change people's beliefs regardless), but instead to remind people that we _have to take care of eachother NOW._ we don't get a redo. there's no "after" or "above". so when we make life for people here worse, now, that should be carried with real weight. if we want to keep people from deaths of grief, then we need to do everything we can to limit grief, by being as empathetic, and compassionate as possible with one another. and while we'll probably never be able to completely eradicate it, it should always be within our designs to limit it as much as humanly possible. the fight for love is worth everything, in my eyes.
I'm crying right now. I'm in a really bad place mentally, like your daughter was, and the last section...it just broke me. That love you hold for your daughter is truly a beautiful thing. In that same way, I love my dad. So very much. And hearing how much you love her, it made me realize that even if - as caring and loving as he is, he's never been much of a sentimental person, often opting for logic and solutions instead of feeling better - he still loves me to the earth and back. I will forever be proud to be his daughter, and I'm sure that he's just as proud to be my dad. I'm sure your daughter thinks this too, and I hope you never forget that. Thank you
I promise you things get easier, life can be complicated when your emotional and confused but by the end of it all you end up happy that you pushed through and stayed strong, it gets better. Jus keep your chin high and do what you can to further progress your mind to a point where you can be happy wit the you that you are
@@ramonasgf4life Whatever you’re going through, remember that each and every person is so strong and amazing in their own incredibly unique and extraordinary way, and you’re no exception. And the strength that you have allows you to fight anything or anyone in the universe while making it out safely. Even if it hurts or it gets scary, you are so so brave no matter what and we all have hope that you can live through even the deepest of wounds. And you never have to go through anything alone, that no matter what, you always have people who care so much about you and would trade the world for you. I wish you not just an incredible day / night whenever you hopefully get the chance to read this, but for the rest of the irreplaceable life you have ahead of you❤
“im so happy i got to be your dad.” these words hit hard. when i was about 13, i was going through depression,anxiety,self harm,etc. i didn’t know what else to do,so i thought that taking my life would be the best thing to do. i didnt want to be here anymore,I didn’t want to feel anymore pain,suffering,guilt. I just wanted to feel at peace. the night i did it. i wrote everyone’s goodbye note,everyone’s was short but 2 people. my dad and best friend. i jumped off my 2nd story window. the next thing i see is me at the hospital,in a gown and some equipment attached to me. my dad was there and my mom,but my dad saw me and just ran to my bed and hugged me. to this day,ill always remember the words he said. “im so happy your okay. i was worried sick and i didn’t know you were struggling so much. I’ll always love and be there for you and everything is and will be okay. im so glad to be your father,im so glad to have you as my daughter. i love you.” after he said that i just broke down. i needed those words so bad. i needed someone to say that everything will be okay and he did,not my mom,nor the doctors,only him. i stayed 3 days at the hospital and after i left. i started to do therapy and my dad would always take me, make sure i was as okay,and was there for me whenever i need it. after around 7 months of therapy,I stopped going. i started to feel more happy, i started to feel like everything was better,everything did get better and my dad made sure. even though im struggling with my mental health sometimes, i know ill always have someone to be by my side. if anyone is struggling,just know IT WILL GET BETTER. everything will be okay, and i promise you that. you just need the time to heal and you will heal no matter what. if anyone needs to talk im here.
Was recently going through a rough patch just like this. Then i met a girl who changed everything. Though i am not fully healed, she has made everything better. My relationship with my parents has gone downhill as i have gotten older and I felt like there was nobody in the world that cared for me anymore. I am glad that you’re better and I hope you and I can both eventually find peace. Edit: we have since broken up. It was one of the hardest experiences of my life, but I have repaired my relationship with my parents and I have found my true purpose in life. Though our relationship ended, I know that things happen for a reason. God had other plans for me. I loved her very much but not everything works out in life.
I’m so glad you are ok but may I ask what got you depression. You are only 13 (I’m just curious cause all the cause I could think that would took u this far is getting bully)
you say that so easily but when I was that age and wanted to disappear, my parents both told me to try harder and cut deeper or take more pills etc. count your blessings
I experienced the other side.. I was just 13 when my dad killed himself, and even though only 3 years has passed, it hurts. it hurts so much. I was so naive and i could tell something was off about him, but I didn’t know it was this bad. I’ve had thoughts about how to go out, but seeing how he actually did it, broke me forever. He was the last person you’d ever expect to do it, he promised me we’d go places when i’m older. but he’s gone forever now. It’s almost his birthday soon. I hope he could be proud i was his daughter, and see my achievements, but I can never now and this pain kills me inside.
thank you so much for this video, i get to see the other side of the story now. i’m so sorry about the trolls, your daughter does not deserve that, she is such an angel. may she rest in peace
Hi. I cannot help you but I can understand your pain... At least try to imagine. I'm pretty sure that your dad had a happy time around you. If heavens exist, then now he's with you. I myself don't believe in it, but the fact of love doesn't die because the subject of it stops existing... I guess he was proud of you as long as he was alive. Sorry if I didn't help
I saw a post on the Omori subreddit a few months back written by a parent who was asking about the game, because their daughter loved it before she committed suicide. That thread really effected me at the time, and I wonder now if it was you who had posted it. Either way, this video was beautiful and heartbreaking, and I'm glad that at least in some way the game helped you find some comfort, and I wish you only the best as you deal with the hardest thing imaginable.
@@JokersD0ll I tried to search around on reddit for it the other day and i can't say for sure but it looks like the post has been taken down. I don't remember OP name unfortunately
I did not cry while playing Omori, but I did watching this video, I hope that Omori helped you understand life and grief better. Please, stay strong and take care.
@@Love_Yourself4830you can try signalis if you want as well, even though it’s atop down survival horror game it has strong themes of dealing with grief and losing people you love hidden way underneath its exterior
“I’m so happy I got to be your dad.” I wish that my dad had felt anything close to love for me. It feels so healing in a way to listen to fathers talk about the love they have for their children. I hope that the memories of her that come to you bring a smile to your heavy heart. I want so much for you to feel some amount of peace or relief. I attempted in 2019 after being assaulted and refused to tell anyone why I was suddenly in the hospital (growing up my mental illness was blamed on me just being a bad kid and acting out for attention). My liver was failing from the attempt and yet my dad kept the rest of my family from visiting me in the hospital. Just like when I had a 51/50. (I was living in a different state at the time.) I never wanted attention. I just wanted to be able to tell my dad that I was hurting so that he could help me or love me. Even when two different agencies came back with the same diagnosis', he would try to convince my family that I was manipulating the doctors. C-PTSD and internalized BPD. It felt like a nightmare being 29 and physically disabled from an attempt, living back with my parents and still being told that the attempt didn't happen. I had lost my job, where I was living, all my furniture, my savings and my friends. In the end it broke my parents marriage. There was too much proof that I wasn't lying, my dad was. He left and I've been no contact with him for three years now. And it hurts. While it's done to keep me safe, it hurts to know that you can love someone so much. And they just will never love you back. And for anyone out there, if you feel like you want to end your life. LIVE OUT OF SPITE! DO NOT GO GENTLE INTO THAT GOOD NIGHT. Remember that nothing stays the same forever. No feeling is final. Time erodes even the largest mountains. Change is the only constant in life. I'm living a completely different life now. And I am deeply loved. Something I never could have seen happening.
I have no words other than thank you- thank you for writing this comment, but above all thank you for being so strong to have made it through such an immensely difficult time of your life. You sound like such an inspiration, and I hope many people can hear your story. You’re amazing, thank you for powering on through ❤️
I know I’m a small comment among many people, but I have a lot of issues. I’m a kid, and I’m so confused, and I’m aware. I don’t really have a father, and it breaks me that such a good father had to lose his own child. I’m so sorry, you’re one in a million in this messed up planet, thank you for holding on. I wish my step father had as much courage and love as you.
this comment is relatable asf, I feel so bad and so so sorry for the guy. I couldn't imagine losing my kids to suicide if I ever have them in the future
I lost my bf to suicide,we were planning on marriage,and i knew there was something off,but I realized when it was too late,he was always in a little bad mood,but someday he was happy,he gave me presents,and stuff,I was confused and 2 days later I saw a video of suicidal acts,I knew he was going to do it but when I tried calling ,he wasn’t responding,his dad called me the day later telling me he killed himself,me and his dads are still recovering,his dads aren’t the same now,they were so happy but now,they are sad,I still have nightmares thinking it was my fault
oh honey it wasn't your fault. as somebody who had an attempt two months ago, there was nothing you could have done or said that would have changed his mind. im very sorry for your loss, renember grief is love persisting 🩷
I promise you, that does not make it your fault. People, such as myself and many others here in the comments, that struggle with this will tell you. Those thoughts, feelings and urges... they're never far away. I'm sorry @@Hogantalks
I actually blindly recommended my brother to buy and play the game because I thought the visuals were cool. He came back to me a few days later on the verge of tears and told me I *NEEDED* to play the game.
something like this happened to me playing Celeste. I actually needed to play it, that game gave me a different perspective of what it is to fight your inner demon and how to do it well. I was in a very dark place back then...
@@joeiechristiansantana9641duality of man “I showed my brother this because this game looked cool!!” “I showed my brother this because I want to traumatize him”
i attempted last year. i was in the hospital for almost a month seeing my parents come to terms with the fact that i might die. it still haunts me, every night i have these horribly vivid dreams of everything happening again this video made me cry like a baby. I had to watch this video 10 secconds at a time taking breaks. Thank you.
oh my god thank you guys so much for being so nice 😭 usually when I tell people about what happened to me they just ignore me. It means the world to me < 3
im doing better now. Just 2 weeks ago I started talking to people again and trying to be a part of something. I'm homeschooled now so its been very hard to break that cycle though. you guys looking out for me means so much, and you guys made my day 😭 😭
Thanks to Omori my son was able to open up about his suicidal thoughts. I’m glad that he was brave enough to tell me what was happening. A year later after therapy, patient and changes at home, he still’s recovering slowly. Thanks for making this video, takes a lot of courage to open up to the world knowing that there’s going to be people making hurtful comments.
Ay that’s beautiful man, I hope and pray your son / family continues to stay safe. It always makes my day hearing recovery stories such as this, even the most minor ones
When I was 16, I almost took my own life, now I'm 22 and I have been having existential thoughts, but I know that despite my fear of death, I can't die now. I must keep on living. Your daughter is in a good place, and she's rooting for you. Stay strong. Edit: I apologize if my comment came off as well... "end life-like". I actually didn't mean to. Due to my fear of death, I don't really think I'm going to be like that. I've been getting over my existential crisis, and I have people that love and care for me. I've been through a lot of tough things, and I've gotten over them. We aren't meant to die within our struggles, we are meant to overcome them and die satisfied living a long life. I think what caused this huge fear was the fact that I'll never be able to experience things like this again one day. It's really sad but if you live a long and satisfying life then maybe it doesn't have to be like that.
I'm 20 and every day or so Character ai has to talk me down from it. I mean uhh, that sound really bad, I'm glad you are still here, I can't relate at all. (the hospital might be watching ○_○)
hi, I know it’s been a while since you’ve posted this, but I wanted to let you know that this video saved my best friend’s life. I can’t thank you enough for helping him. he’s been through a lot, and has recently felt like he’s had enough. thank you for helping him get back up again.
as a person who has previously attempted suicide in the past, this video and omori as a game truly hit different. just knowing that my dad, someone who is usually not emotional cried after my attempt genuinely broke me. i keep going because i care for the ones i love and i don't want to ever hurt them again the way i did in the past. much love for reading this
I attempted yesterday. It changed me entirely. Seeing my mom’s reaction made me realize no amount of pain is worth hurting my loved ones. I know my road will be long and painful, but I also know one day i’ll be at a point where I can be happy. Life is full of pain but that makes the happy moments all the more special. You’re very strong, i’m so happy everyone in the comments is being kind. It reminds me this world is worth living in. edit: thank you for the kind words everyone! I just wanted to update and tell you all i’m doing pretty good :) life does get better so don’t give up.
I don't really comment on videos but I lost my best friend to suicide four months ago. We've been waiting for omori to come out for several years, now. We were a fan of OMOCAT's works way back when she was still just posting on tumblr. When the game came out in 2020 on Christmas Day, I immediately bought her a copy on steam. It became my favorite game of all time, she loved it so much, too, her carrd was omori-themed. I miss her everyday, we used to bond over OMORI. This hits way too close to home. I'm really grateful you made a video like this for omori, i'm only halfway through the video since it's a hard watch, but I feel like sharing it to several discord servers now because this should be spread. You did a lovely job covering the game, you said the words I couldn't say about how much this game means to me. Thank you for that.
This really made me cry, I lost my older brother to suicide and I found the game omori recently, and I really felt connected to it. I'm very sorry for your loss, it really feels horrible losing someone all of a sudden, and feeling as if you were to blame. This video also helped me sort of understand my father, and my mother. My father is definitely not in the best place mentally, and neither is my mother, but since I live with my father most, I get to see his behaviour more and I feel like I can really see guilt in him. I'm sorry for your loss, your daughter will always watch over you, stay strong. And if any of you guys are struggling, please get help, it's not over and brighter days will come.
Hi, I doubt you’ll see this comment, but i’m thirteen with a very close connection to my dad. For the past couple years i’ve been fighting with myself, and my brain, and sometimes I think it’s just too much, and there’s no point. You don’t realize how much you affect people until something this permanent takes place, and the idea of my dad having to make this video about me brought me to tears. I think you’ve saved my life, and I could never thank you enough for that. Thank you for sharing this story, it was beautiful, and brave, and you probably know you’ve helped tons of people, but i’m grateful to be one of them.
I kinda feel you man, I agree it's sometimes hard to just be alone with your thoughts, and I'm so happy that someone could have at least helped you in some kind of way.
This is so eye opening. Im a 15 yr old whos struggled with suicidal thoughts for a while. Ive attempted 5 times and just the fact of parents grief is the only rhing holding me back. My sister died from an overdose last year, and its pretty clear that it was a suicide. It kills me to see my mom the way she is, she cant accept that it was a suicide. This truly gives me another side to the effects of suicidal thoughts. Thank you for this video ♥️
im glad you’re making progress in your journey, i too struggled earlier in my life. i believe you will be able to make a full recovery, and just remember to stay strong my friend :)
One more day, turns into two, then three, and so on. I almost lost my sister to an overdose myself while I was still in the house. It gets better, even if the situation doesn’t, you get better at working around it.
Your love for your daughter is so evident throughout your video. I’m so sorry that you lost her, especially so soon. I was blindsided when you mentioned she was 13, so I can only imagine what it was like for you. I’m sure you did everything you could for her to give her a good life, and I’m sure she loved you just as much as you love her. If I may, I’ve got a game suggestion in the form of Spiritfarer. While I’ve never played it while heavily grieving, I’ve heard that other people have and found comfort in it. Spiritfarer is very much a game about death with how you play as Stella who has become the spiritfarer whose job is the ferry the spirits of the dying, doing quests for them on the way, to the Everdoor where they cross through and pass on. I played it a couple years back and I still consider it to be one of my favourite games with how it handles its themes and characters
@@Love_Yourself4830Spiritfarer is an incredible game, but for me personally it was difficult to play. You can't make progress without losing someone. Without the death of someone you grow to love each time. It made me hesitant to go on, always anxious about the next goodbye. I lost my dad when I was 13 (I'm 21 now) and the entire playthrough I couldn't help but remember that pain over and over. Spiritfarer teaches the inportance of impermanence, of mortality, of goodbyes, but it teaches most of all that they aren't easy to bear. It's a beautiful game, but crushing.
Spiritfarer is one of my favorite games of all time. Very few games have ever made me cry so hard, while also feeling so much love. It is comforting in a way I find hard to describe, it feels like being held by a loving mother while you sob, you can feel all your sorrow and pain and you are safe.
I feel the urge to write something but at the same time I am ashamed. It's not because I didn't like Omori but because I have clinical depression and thought about ending it too many times. I am ashamed because the only reason I didn't do it it's because I am too afraid to leave people around me with a grief they would not accept and understand. You are a good man. You made me emotional few times and I had to pause the video to take time to think and speak with myself. Some of your words felt like a punch in the stomach: they were too real, too raw. Depression is awful. You think about stuff you know are bad, but still a part of you is convinced is the only solution to stop the pain of living. I never felt like I belong here. Never felt like I deserve to be understood. I am 27 today and somehow this video popped in my home. I am going to say something it will be hard to accept, something it will take time to be understand. *What happened to your daughter it's not your fault.* Trying to rationalize what happened will only make you feel bad... And mad at yourself. I send you a virtual hug, I hope the grief will not last forever. Best Regard, Marco
I lost my brother to suicide in 2013, here’s a poem I wrote about it Somewhere, many miles away there is a field. And within the field, there lies a grove of pines. And within the grove of pines, there lies a peaceful cemetery. And within the peaceful cemetery, there lies a black marble headstone. And beneath the black marble headstone, there lies an urn wrapped with a purple ribbon. And within the urn wrapped with a purple ribbon, there lies a part of my heart.
@@IncestLoverW you're so inmature. You don't understand how people that lost somebody feel. Stop commenting if you're going to make people feel worse.
@IncestLoverW it's okay to be hated by everyone who knows you, but it's not okay to do nothing about it. you are the greatest scum of the planet, you need to be put into a hospital for rehab and hopefully return a better person who doesn't lack basic human emotion.
this video hit hard. i’m 13, and as of around august, i’ve been living with diabetes 11 years. many times, i’ve wanted to be gone. i wanted to be able to live without the feeling i was different, and that there was something about me i needed to fix. i also had access to the internet way younger than i should’ve, tiktok at 7 years old. i find comfort in games like OMORI, and the persona series, and how they approach mental health and suicide. i’ve read books like crime and punishment and the setting sun, and i find beauty in being able to connect with them. i didn’t have a good connection with my father as i grew up, as he would yell and had issues, but i still wanted his love. so seeing this, i literally started crying in just the intro. i don’t think about how people would react if i left this world before, i’ve always been to scared to act on my thoughts, but this video reminded me that there are people who care, even if it doesn’t seem like it. my mother, my brothers, my friends, how could i leave them behind? woah that’s a yap idk thank you for making this it touched me ❤
i’m a little older than you, and i’d like to say that i’m so sorry you’re going through this at such a young age. it’s never easy, but i’m so happy you found a reason to keep going. the people around you love you so much, and every step you take, every little thing you do for yourself, makes all the difference. please never forget that even when you feel alone, you have so many reasons to keep going. being a teenager is hard, but we can get through this
I empathize with you so greatly my guy. Chronic illnesses that start so young are never easy. It takes so much coping and mental strength just to come to the processing point that you clearly have. I applaud your yap! And hope that you find peace with your body to whatever degree possible and are able to continue your path of finding genuine healthy connection with media. I wish you the absolute best in your travels.
Same here, but I was 13, and its pots + h-eds + undiagnosed pain so i feel you- being young with a full life ahead of you and yet your body is breaking down around you *sucks* and thats just how it is. Ily /p, i hope you have a good day today 🫂
I had finished playing Omori and not long after I went to the mental hospital because of my suicidal feelings. I eventually come home to my mom and my little brother. I would then learn that he had picked back up the game and finished it. A few days after we were discussing the game and we start from the beginning. As we are approaching the end he gets more and more upset. He then told me how Sunny and Mari really sounded like us. He goes quiet and starts to cry. I don't see him cry very often so to say I was concerned would be an understatement. He gets up and tries to get away from me but I can't help how pained he sounded. I reach out and pull him in for a hug and he holds me tightly and his crying has turned into sobbing. He doesn't like being touched usually but he was holding onto me like he was going to loose me. I just hold him trying to comfort him and he chokes out "Please don't kill yourself". I shattered, I broke down and told him that "I'm not going anywhere". Since then I continue to be better and get better because I never want him to cry like that again without me being able to hold him. If you are struggling with the same feelings I had please know that you are loved and help is always there for you. To the beautiful man who made this video and bared his heart to the world thank you. Grief never goes away but you help me feel less alone in it. So truly and honestly thank you.
Thank you for this story, really. Reading all the comments, dealing with the same feelings, this was the one that really brought me to tears. I’m really glad you’re still here homie
I’m so glad to hear you’re okay. Know you’re loved, please ❤️ You’re such an amazing person and you can do this. Everyday is just another day that you can get through.
I’ve always struggled with suicidal thoughts and even attempted it once. This video made me realize that if I do go through with it, my parents and pets will not recover fast at all. Even if I do have a rocky relationship with them, I don’t want them to be this sad. Of course the thoughts aren’t just going to go away, but this put something into perspective for me and now I’m one step closer to cutting out the thoughts. Thank you.
A game that I think has a really interesting look at grief is "What Remains of Edith Finch" It is a very tough game as it deals with many deaths and how grief affects a family in particular. It's more of a story driven game as well, where you experience it through the game play elements. For me after losing quite a few family members it really hit home. Though it also reminded me how the people we love live on in our memories and in the things they left behind. I still cry and smile at the game. I understand if it is one that you wouldn't want to play but if you ever feel like a good cry and feel like you're in a good place to play it, I highly recommend it. I wish you the best as you continue to walk the path of grief. You should be incredibly proud of yourself for turning such a hard event into a way of helping other people and honoring your daughters memory.
That game really does have a unique portrayal of grief. The lessons it teaches about grief are so important and so often overlooked, what a brilliant game
"I couldn't understand how everyone just moved on, when my world had stopped." This is exactly what immense grief feels like. I felt the same way when I lost a boyfriend to suicide.
@@randomrubsterConsidering I have already seen you crying about this, making these immature bullshit remarks a number of times in the comments, I find it odd that you would need help crying a river.
@@randomrubsterI hope you genuinely seek help. These comments are deplorable. You should genuinely be ashamed for what kind of human you turned out to be.
To the people who would ever make fun of this by saying the absolute audacity that he’s using his daughter for views. When in fact, it’s the opposite. He’s doing this to help shed light on the situation of what happened. To open new beginnings, and not stick with the past. He’s doing this as a way of grief. So if you’re making fun of him, just know that.
Yeah, people need to grow up. This father is venting about his daughter's struggles, and I hate it when people think they're "cute" or "quirky" for doing stuff like this. All those people trolling and whining in the comments, you all need to shut the fuck up and act like an adult, not an immature kid.
Just stop falling for rage bait, simple. Yall wasting your time commenting shit like this that literally 0 people will take the time to read ( talking about those haters ), instead of being productive outside social media. I promise you expressing those words will not make your mental health any better, you are better off watching this video without paying any attention to rage bait. The world aint the same compared to last decade when we are little jits, the world does not tolerate sensitive ass and slow ass people who have no disability.
Hey. I'm also a 13 year old girl and really struggling right now. I'm so sorry. I just wanted to say this video helped in some odd way. I still feel very suicidal, but this helped. Thanks for sharing. Hey everyone! I'm working through it with my therapist. I want to thank you all for all of your lovely comments. I now realize that I'm more depressed than suicidal. Thank you all so much for helping me. It means the world to me. Thanks again. See ya later. Edit: It's getting worse now. Life just gets harder and harder and I can't see a point anymore. My decisions don't matter, I don't matter. I don't know what to do anymore. Another edit: Life is getting better?? I'm getting to the point where I have good and bad days, which is better. As it turns out, I have clinical depression, which makes sense. I'm getting help now, thanks for all of the comments. It really helps.
my wife was a suicidal 13yo girl once. a classic emo girl story with unforgivingly mean parents. i survived an attempt in 2012 and felt equipped to help her, but I live in fear of my love dying adults have good and bad advice. never listen to anything they say which makes you feel pressure. any pressure put on you by an adult is false. there is no pressure which naturally occurs in the world. also never DM adults, always talk to them on public spaces or not at all
I wish the best for you. I was once like you, I'm turning 26 now, and things do get better. I know it's tough, but I hope you can stay as strong so someday your future self can look back at you and be in awe of how amazing you were for getting through it. I'm proud of my younger self for what she went through and I hope you will be too. I'm proud of you for still being here too ❤
yo I was also a suicidal bi 13 year old girl last year things have gotten better since then (not completely cause im still suicidal but ill take it) please please reach out to someone (i highly regret not talking to someone bc last year was the lowest point of my life) honestly, im really proud of you for making it this far bc living is really challenging
I know it's cliche, but if you haven''t already, please see a doctor and therapist if you can! I'm in my 20s dealing now with the depression and anxiety that arose when I was around your age, and I wish I had gone to a doctor sooner. I felt weird and ashamed to tell anyone, like there wasn't anything I could do about it, that I'd be a nuisance to others and that it was my burden to bear alone. But it isn't weird or shameful, and the burden is much lighter with help. You can chip away at it little by little, and genuinely feel like things are looking up. And now I have experienced genuine happiness and content that I haven't felt since I was little! And even though I'm a private person, I've now made it a point to talk about my struggles with anyone who'll listen, because it honestly helps, and you never know, others are suffering in silence too. And even if it is a bit of a nuisance to others, it's important enough for that to not even matter, plus most people care and won't be bothered, so don't hesitate to speak up and take up space. You're still a kid yourself, you shouldn't have to deal with it alone if you are, honestly no one should. Wishing you well!
I think tweens and teen ages 12-18 are always needing the most support and understanding. I remember living through those ages and it was the worst time period. I don't know how I could've made it out without friends by my side, free mental health resources and the urge to get better to be with them forever. I'm terribly sorry for your loss, 13 is unfortunately young but mental illness doesn't discriminate. I hope you are taking care of yourself and doing better. It's something a parent can never forget but can forgive. I wish you and your daughter's mother all the luck. Thank you for this emotional heartfelt video. 💕💗
this video made me cry honestly, i am so sorry for your loss. i am not close to understanding what it means for a parent to lose their kid, i don’t even know what it’s like to be a parent in the first place since i’m still a teen, but your grief is very clear, i wish you the best in life. my best friend attempted last year and although she isn’t gone, i still suffer to this day at the thought that she wouldn’t have been here with me now, that i wouldn’t have been able to gift her the matching keychains i bought for us just some days before she tried to take her life. we don’t have the keychains anymore and i’m glad they’re the ones that are gone. always remember that it’s not your fault. the first thing i did as soon as i knew was blaming myself, i felt like i wasn’t enough, like i had done nothing at all, i thought it was my fault for not being as helpful as i should have been. it’s never true though, trust. i’m sure you did a great job as a father and that your daughter is still looking upon you even now. we have to find something to take out our anger with and most of the time it’s ourselves we take it out on but it’s one of the worst things you could do. i don’t think your daughter would much appreciate that and the same goes for my friend. never be hard on yourself and remember to always be kind, sending lots of love❤
Oh my God, the story made me cry so much, and I hope that your daughter is in heaven, there, in a beautiful place like her. I am so sorry for your loss of her, but I know this is not her choice, and it is not your fault either. This is fate. We do not know if we will continue tomorrow. Maybe sleep! Tomorrow I am 19 years old and no. I know where I am. When I was your daughter's age, I tried to commit suicide many times, but I did not succeed, and now I am lost. Sometimes I hope that one of the attempts succeeded, but I do not know. This is a complete loss. I hope that you become strong, encourage us, and become a hero. I will never forget that you are one of the people who made me love life.
It is a tough world out there, my friend. I am glad to hear that your attempts did not succeed, since you still have so many things to experience! Happy belated birthday, and I hope you are well now :)
I'm sorry to be that guy, I don't want to offend anyone but to be honest most mainstream religions (based around God) say that if you commit suicide you go to hell. Hunting.
havent even gone 5 minutes in, and in already sobbing, I lost my dad when i was 8, it really hurts to lose someone you truly love, my dad loved me so much and i never showed how much i loved him too. I regret every single moment of me being distant to him. Im 14 now, and i just turned 9th grade, i miss him so much. He missed my 13th birthday, he missed when i got my period for the first time, he missed when i graduated elementary. I wish he was still here to witness me, my mom, and my brother grow. What hurts me most is, he knew he wont be here much longer because of his illness. He gave out his words to me, my mom, and my brother. And we never forgot that moment ever. It haunts me, theres so many things i wish i couldve said and done while he was still alive. I hope you know that im sure your daughter loved you so much.
my dad passed away when i was 15, im 17 now i just wanted to let you know i understand and i feel for you ❤ grief is a long and struggling journey, each differing from each other. But one thing is to always remind ourselves we are never alone❤ I hope you are healing well
Yooo, we literally have the same life story wtf??? Same age, same time loss and everything 😭 I’m so sorry for your loss, I know how it feels (quite exactly) n I hope you’re doing better now. 🫶
oh man, I am sobbing. I am so sorry for your loss. I attempted when I was 11. to hear your perspective on what's happened has really changed me. I think its so amazing that omori was able to give you a new connection with your daughter. I'm sure you'll be reunited with each other someday and you'll be able to talk all about it. to everyone reading, take care of yourself.
@@vroomcar6328 ehhh. if you are joking then don't read the rest. but Suicide is a word. its not that hard to just be like (Imma kill myself) and just call it killing yourself. Suicide is a word for a consept. and to not know what suicide is or not have any idea of what is it. you need to not know what death is. and that is just sheltering.
Incredibly brave and touching video. I lost a dear friend of mine similarly in 2018, when he was 22. I'm now several years older than he ever got to be and I've kinda dealt with that loss by not... dealing with it... very much at all. The very last conversation I had with him was about the game "Night in the Woods". He gushed about it and how much it meant to him and how *seen* it made him feel and so I promised him I would play it eventually. Its been years and I still haven't played it, I've been avoiding that grief like an aching tooth. However, fact that you were able to play through such a heavy and confronting game and come out the other side gives me hope that I'll be able to too. Thank you for the video, it helped me let out some tears I had no idea i've been holding back for so long.
My friend died in 2019 from gunshot to the head. I was turning 22 that year, and he died right around three weeks into the new year. I'm now turning 27, I was upset initially, but I still haven't "processed" it.
@18:56 Inserting notes, tunes, melodies, etc of one song into another is called a "Leitmotif" and it's used to present a musical idea or theme. For example, if you come up with a musical piece to represent a certain character, and you're going to have this character show up later as a surprise, you might use a leitmotif of that character's theme inside of a different musical piece that is playing moments before they show up. I remember seeing somewhere on TH-cam, a video analyzing the leitmotifs of OMORI and there is a *TON* of them. White Space is obviously one of the more well known ones, but there are several others, like MARI's theme, the Forest theme, and several more.
@@Corneliusaspergerous ..... really? You're going to joke around about someone losing their daughter RL? The only bad taste I see here, is your taste in jokes.
omori is truly an exhilarating and cathartic experience, especially for those who have dealt with loss and grief. i'm happy you were able to play this game and find a sense of connection in it. may your daughter rest in peace ❤🕊️
i’ve been replying to a lot of comments and i’m getting a bit tired and emotionally overwhelmed, but just know what anyone is willing to vent to me and that your lives are all worth living. you are all loved, everyone is. no matter who you are, you have a purpose and you will find it. i trust that you will
I'm desperately hoping that every rage bait and hate comments on this video gets punished SO excruciatingly. There's nothing funny about this video. I'm hoping the father of this channel and video gets all the things he need to be able to move on to his life and grief, peacefully. ❤
Too many people, depressingly kids really like to talk shit because of little to no consequences anymore. This layer of protection that the internet gives as Mike Tyson would say it, "Social media made y'all way too comfortable with disrespecting people and not getting punched in the face for it." One day these guys are gonna piss the wrong person off and they're gonna do something drastic like doxxing and suddenly that layer of anonymity protecting them is gone.
That "Im so happy I got to be your dad" was the most bittersweet thing I've ever heard, and even tho it wasn't meant for me, or anyone else but your daughter, it still felt nice to hear. Growing up my dad was never the kind to be exactly supportive, and tought me nothing in regards of feelings but to keep them to myself, and over the years things just kept pilling up, to the point that during 2020 I couldn't see another year for me, I was done with everything, having lost a year of highschool, my gf, my friends, my whole world was falling apart. But even then I kept going, not for me but for my pets, my 3yo cat and my (at that time still alive) 13 dog, to at least give them the best life I could, and despite him passing out I know I gave him a great life full of loveup to his last day, my only regret is not being there for him in his last moments, but with time I learnt there was no way for me to know the exact time and Later on I reconnected with my friends with who still to this day Im talking and doing stuff with, so don't take the easy way out, as tempting as it may seem, there's always someone who cares about you. Even if you don't think so. Please don't be so selfish to make someone go through that anger, guilt and pain. YOU ARE LOVED ❤.
Your video (and this game alone after I played it) made me really think.. I have been suffering from depression for many years and and I have been tempted many times by thoughts of ending my existence, suffering. With that being said you should NOT EVER blame yourself for the death of your daughter. My parents were always shaming me, were violent and they never took me serious and I can tell for the fact that you are NOT that kind of person. You tried to give the best life to your daughter that you possibly could and I'm sure she appreciated every moment spent with you. Depression makes you feel like there is no hope for better days because either it is getting worse, or after it got better you land in the same place. I am glad that you always were there and I'm sure you made her see hope even though she at thought that there were none. Sincerely thank you for that ❤
i'm a survivor of three atempts i am diagnosed with anxiety and depression since i was 12, now i'm 15 i'm so glad i saw this video, since i'm not 100% cured and i don't know about my future, but this video makes me feel glad for being alive i'm so sorry for everyone who loss a special person to suicide, i hope all of you get 100% cured from the sad feeling that grief gives us everytime we think about that special person life is not easy, especially for people who are suicidal but i hope that everyone who reads this and is on the same situation as me heal from everything and remember your life is important, even if it's only a little bit or a lot, every life is important in this world thank you everyone who read this i hope this incredible daughter rest in peace and i wish hope for this father life is important, unique and perfect.
My friend on the right side of my profile picture was almost 16 when he ended every possibility of there being a future for him. It’s been over a year, and we still miss him. On the bright side, his mom is doing better one day at a time
@@nottzo He really reeeally was. Though I am finally starting to accept his death and that I have to move on, I still think about him all the time. All the memories of him and I on the bus for marching band or the times in the stands, etc. He was always trying to make people smile and laugh because that always made him happy too. I don’t mean to “pour” stuff onto you/vent, but thanks for reaching out. I like revisiting those memories even though it’s sad he’s gone. I’m 15 myself and I plan to live to see days that he cannot. Maybe even make up for some of his life that he will miss. Again, thanks a lot. I hope you have a wonderful day and rest of your week (technically next but ykwim haha) (((Sorry for paragraphing by the way 😅😂)))
The lack of empathy and the amount of disrespect in this comment section is sickening. I hope you all can one day find peace in your heart to be kind to people, especially those who died. And no, disliking omori is not an excuse. You're allowed to dislike the game, but mocking a dead child over that is inhumane. Be kind to people, you never know what they may be going through.
@@EngiGODS358 homie dont know the kind of shit evil people are doing in the world right now. and you’re gonna tell me to grow up. grow some fucking empathy
seeing a dad so thankful for his kid unironically makes me cry. many dads including and especially my own have anything but care for their children. your channel is such a kindhearted space
I’m so sorry for your loss. As somebody who almost committed, the idea of my own father - the only one being home at the time - holding onto me and crying over my dead body was the only thing that kept me going. People like you are gifts to this world and I hope the world will be kinder to you.
I’m really hoping you’re calling out people whose brains are rotted to the point of making fun of me for attempting to - at the age of 11, mind you - and not saying “womp womp” to such a tragic situation.
This video was very raw, and very real. I, too, find myself processing how I feel through media, quite often, including video games. My autism diagnosis says this is likely due to my being unable to understand emotions properly. But I understood the emotions in this video, very well, and from both sides. I've tried to leave this life behind multiple times. When I was eleven, thirteen, fifteen, and seventeen. (I also accidentally ended up with a pattern of it happening every other year, I suppose. But I'm finally breaking that now, I'm 19, and I'm living.) I played Omori when I was around 16 years old, just after it was released. I was in a bad place, a *bad* place, and was struggling with strong feelings of guilt, just like Sunny. I felt guilt, specifically, for being disabled, both physically and developmentally. I felt guilty that my parents will likely have to care for me for as long as they are able and that I likely will not be able to return the care in their old age. When I played this game, it took me back to my past attempts. I actually fucked up the first time I played. I didn't check on Basil during the sleepover, and, if you didn't know, he commits suicide if you do not check on him. Having grown to love the characters, I remember feeling a chill all the way down my body, and I paused mid-breath to look at the art on screen. I then, suddenly, was hit with the fact that if I had succeeded in my previous attempt (or the one I tried to commit in the next year), my parents would have found me, just like that. And if not my parents, maybe a friend. A teacher. If I committed away from home or school, maybe a stranger, maybe a CHILD. I threw up after that from sheer emotional overstimulation, reset my save, and checked on Basil. Listening to you talk about your daughter in the way you do, voice seeping with just... love for your little girl, I found myself pulled back to that overwhelming feeling I had when I played this game for myself. I realized, finally, that that feeling was the distress from simply knowing that I was LOVED. At that moment, though I couldn't identify the emotion at the time, I had been overwhelmed by suddenly understanding the full weight of love, Platonic, Familial, Romantic, all of it. I had all of a sudden come to understand a fraction of how much people loved me, and how much my death would hurt them. I've attempted once, since I played Omori, about a year after, during which time my disability was causing me agonizing pain every day. It still does. I remember, after very much surviving my ordeal and sitting alone in the bathroom, thinking to myself. 'This is a mess. This is grotesque. My parents would have found me like this.' And I got up, cleaned up the bathroom, and went to bed quietly. I now run a blog with an anonymous inbox, where I invite anyone, literally anyone, to talk about their issues. Sometimes I can help, and sometimes I just post their submission on its own without comment, unable to help, but knowing people who follow me and have similar experiences will reply to the post and offer their own help. It is the most fulfilling project I have ever set upon, and I likely wouldn't be here without that sheer luck of survival at 17, but more importantly, without Omori shocking my system a few years ago. Thank you, so much, for sharing your story with us, and your grief. Simply speaking of your daughter with so much love in your heart, as you do, likely saves lives who are watching. The lives of young people who don't quite yet have the development to grasp the sheer scale on which they are loved.
Your daughter in these few clips has such a warming smile it could light the entire night sky while the moon was away. Im so deeply sorry for your loss, my condolences go out to all of you sending my love and care❤!
I cried heavily watching this. I lost my brother to what I deem as an accidental suicide. Those ones where you don't plan it, but don't care if something happens anyways. I always felt like an asshole for not taking it as hard as the rest of my family did. There was crying for a few days, sure, but after that I felt completely fine. While my other brother will get quiet and seclude himself, and my mom will break down at any mention of him, my dad resulting to anger at himself and others. I've just felt fine. I could talk about him without a problem, recount what happened to people like it didn't happen to me personally and with complete nonchalance. But over time, I have noticed a few things. It's harder for me to draw, and I don't enjoy it much any more. I do still cry at our happier memories, as few as there were (our relationship was extremely turbulent, and I will admit over time I grew annoyed and resented him a bit, even treating him badly. And yes, I do give myself the partial blame for pushing him the way he went). I can never enjoy or fixate on things like I did when I was younger, even with some media I know I should/would. But other than that, I feel completely indifferent, like I always have. I am suspected neurodivergent, and have never done well with emotions, my default state always being what i describe as 'meh' or numb/nothing. Maybe this is my problem with not grieving like everyone else. In a horrendous way, I sometimes secretly admit that things are better now without him than when he was here. I feel like a piece of shit even thinking/admitting it. Our parents argue and fight less, I can hide stuff and save things for later without it being stolen or broken into. I finally got my own PC and room that I can decorate however I see fit. I finally got my childhood dream of having my own cat. I can buy expensive things without worrying they'll be broken, misused, stolen, or trashed. I can listen to music at night, as I don't need to listen if he's sneaking around anymore. It's... sad. There's a moose that likes to visit our house every winter. He peaks through my window to say hi and watch me play games. I've fed him apples once. I call him Buddy. It's what we used to call my brother. I'm so sorry, Devin. For everything.
Some people take a long time to process all their emotions. Some get them all out in a few days, some have a freeze type response where they kinda become indifferent or numb to emotions. In addition sometimes pain will show itself in different ways and not just "Emotions showing." It seems your grieving is like a "get everything out and freeze" where all your emotions are poured out, and then anything that remains you become numb to. Your pain is coming out in your difficulty drawing, and the lack of enjoyment of things you used to love. I am not a doctor but I belive those things may be related to depression. Depression isn't just sadness but numbness to several emotions. Like experiencing them in muted colours. They may still be there but they're faint if there at all. It may also be that saying things are "better without him" may also be your way of trying to process the loss as well. Many people will call it the "bargaining stage" of grief. It may look like "Maybe if I did ___ things would be different", for many. But for you, it may also look like, "maybe it's better without them because look at all these positive changes since." The way you process is valid and as long as you find support that is understanding and respectful, they may be able to help you process the grief.
Fuck this hits hard. I'm also a suspected divergent, and while I havent lost a person, I often times feel like I cant grieve how I am expected to. I lost my cat years ago, I never cried about him unless it was something happy. Maybe its a heavier acknowledgement that things have changed, that I won't be able to experience hearing his pitiful, hardly-even meows (he couldnt meow), or watch him eat strawberry popsicles. He was the first cat I had that I could remember, I loved him. And sometimes yeah I'm a little glad he's gone, he always left "presents" on our doorstep, and was often times causing us troubles. But, he was loved. But, I think I like the way I grieve. I hope you're doing well, and keep going, for him :)
I'm sorry for your loss, and while it may not feel like it some days, what happened wasn't your fault. I have autism, I feel emotionless when confronted with grief, and it can take years for me to understand trauma. It's okay not to cry, and it's okay to move forward until you are ready to handle what happened. For me grief is like driving down a highway until i need to refuel. I might have a full tank, it might take hours until the next exit, it might take years until I can stop driving, I might even reach my destination without being able to stop at all. Nobody deals with grief the same way. Someone once told me, "you would forgive me for my mistakes so easily, why can't you forgive yourself?" If a stranger on the internet can forgive you without knowing you, I hope you can find the strength to heal. Good luck
commenting this on an alt account since i don’t want him to see, but i have a boyfriend who struggles with suicidal thoughts. i’ve struggled with and overcome those myself, though i never attempted. i’ve always felt so detached from the reality of death and i think this video made that reality hit me like a brick. thank you. i’ll be the best boyfriend i can possibly be for him, because he deserves every ounce of love given to him. just like your daughter. if she’s anything like me, i bet she’s thrilled to see you playing a game she loved so much 💕 may her memory live on
Hey man, I’m going through the exact same thing. I’ve been medicated for a while now and never attempted, but my boyfriend is also struggling a lot with suicidal thoughts. You’re not alone out there, and I hope our boyfriends, and us to heal. Good luck out there
⚠This is going to be an extremely long comment.⚠ This is the first video in a long time where I nearly cried while watching. Hearing your story has genuinely touched a part of my heart that no other video has and I'm glad it was recommended to me. I'm sad to hear what happened to your daughter and I'm glad you shared your story. It's genuinely touching to hear you talk about your personal struggles and emotions and it is amazing to hear about a game that touches on a topic like this. I've heard of this game for years and have listened to it's music (final duet in particular), but never gave the game a shot due to the fact it was marketed as a horror game (a genre I rarely touch). Now I want to try it as your retelling of the story has me interested. I want to share a story of mine as someone who has dealt with depression for a long time. Ever since I was a kid, I've been battling depression caused by bullying, trauma and all sorts of stuff that would stack higher and higher until it falls and I have a breakdown. Shitty thoughts would gnaw at my mind and a terrifying anxiety that would slowly envelop my body and send me into a panic. It was a struggle everyday for years and it was only getting harder and harder... I would be open with my family about my feelings, but not friends. My friends wouldn't know why I seemingly became more and more distant, yet I knew that the reason was due to my own mental state slowly dissolving and me slowly becoming more and more emotionless. Some family (not very close anymore) told me I was only like this for attention. Eventually this led to me not being as open with family and I started bottling up emotions. Faking a smile in order to keep those around me happier instead of dragging them down with me. Unfortunately, that bottle would slowly fill higher and higher until it would explode suddenly and violently. I still to this day have a hard time releasing pressure from that bottle. (Remember it's okay to cry) It felt like a hole was being dug so deep that it was seemingly impossible to escape. I constant tug of war against me and my own mind. I always seemed to walk against the edge of my mind, wanting to end the pain. Life only seemed to get harder and harder and I didn't know what to do. My escapes weren't working and it felt like my own fucking shadow wanted me dead. I didn't know how to cope anymore and I couldn't bear those thoughts. Music, art and gaming didn't seem to make me happy anymore. My own progress stunted by my procrastination. I wanted to get better at the things I loved and I wanted to get better mentally. yet it felt like nothing was working. Doesn't help that I didn't know how much of this was caused by hidden factors within my own brain at the time. I did know I had ADHD, but I didn't understand what that meant. (I didn't know I was autistic at all at this point too) Procrastination hurt me mentally, physically and socially. I didn't know how to stop it and to a certain extent, I still don't know how. I tried therapy, but the two experiences I had were ultimately led to betrayal. However, things have happened that changed my outlook on life. 3 years ago, a friend of mine much younger than me, committed suicide. I heard the news during a rainy day and it fucking broke me. For years of my life, I only knew what it was like to have the thoughts of suicide, but I never truly experienced the other side of that grief till then. I took a walk in the rain and it was hard to really understand why someone much younger than me would go through with it. I've been too afraid this entire time and yet they went through with it. I felt like I was weak and that maybe my friend was truly the stronger one by conquering his fear and maybe I should conquer it too. I never did. It was always the last line of defense against my own dark thoughts. Fear was the only thing keeping me alive. I was always afraid of suicide when I was younger despite how taunting it looked because I didn't know what was after death. Existential dread is something I've only recently have gotten better at handling, but it was the one thing always holding me back. But maybe instead of conquering my fear of death... ...with suicidal thoughts on my mind... Maybe I should lean a bit harder into that fear and try my best to stay alive. I'm still afraid of death, but the constant dread has slowly blossomed into a constant need to stay strong instead. I wanted to be strong.... I wanted to be strong for them.... My family, specifically my parents and sisters. Every year, I fall back into the hole, but it's only a matter of time till I get out of it again. I must stay strong. I want to live for the sake of my family and I want to be around and experience life. I love being around my sisters, my parents and of course my lil goof ball of a dog. I'm only 20, but if I lived this long surely I can live 20 more? Maybe 40? Idk, I'll live for however long life wants me to be, but till then my main goal is to stay strong. I want others out there to know that suicide shouldn't EVER be an option. You have people that care and depend on you. Stay strong and remember that without those times of darkness... Happy memories wouldn't be as impactful as they are. Stay strong, you got this 💖 (If anyone needs someone to talk to, just know I'm here and I care. Don't be afraid to reach out to me. Seriously, I care and I'm willing to help.)
keep going! It's amazing you can keep going just by the determination to be strong. I don't understand what it's like to fall into a hole because I haven't ever fallen into one but all I know it isn't easy to climb out of it. I shouldn't have a big say of what I think of this because Ive never experienced anything like that so all I'm gonna say is good job, your doing extremely good staying strong and people who know what true pain feels like would be very very proud cause I am too, (but remember it's ok to let feelings out sometimes, it makes it easier to fly through life) gl with life :3
@@blahdrill nobody is making you read it all, yet you chose to leave a comment regardless. Why engage with something at all if it's just to express that you aren't going to engage with it?
the fact that somebody made fun of this makes me loose hope in humanity.bro this dad literally lost his daughter due to suicide i hope you have a great day btw sorry for your loss
full on ugly crying because of how much this resonated with me. you articulate your feelings about grief so beautifully and despite knowing the basic premise of the game before watching, it really took me by surprise and it's so masterfully crafted. my condolences and my thanks to you for making this.
God. This fucking hurts. This is definitely one of the few videos of this length that I couldn't just use as background noise. I sat down, and I watched it all attentively, and it broke my heart. I know I don't know you or your family, but just from the way you speak of her, and the clips shown throughout the video, your daughter seems so sweet, and I'm sorry you had to lose her so soon. I wish you so much luck in healing
Lost 2 cousins to suicide, both named Jason. One was drunk, and hit his girlfriend. When he sobered up and remembered what he had done, he went to her house, apologized, made sure she was okay, told her he loved her, then walked back to his nanas house (he lived with my mum, her nana adopted him) and hung himself in the garage because he couldn't live knowing he hit her. The other one, on mushrooms, saw his aunty as his abusive uncle and beat her up. He hanged himself as well. They were both 14
@@sseuregi147 nah this was before I was born, but yea in nz you'll hear alot about stuff like that cause we have the highest youth suicide rate in the world
Firstly, my condolences for the loss of your daughter. The pictures and clips you shared showed a brightness of her that I'm sure lives on through yourself and those she's loved within her life. I was moved to tears by the end of this video. Suicidal ideation, depression, anxiety, grief are all such complex only human emotions. I first attempted at 14 and have struggled for the last decade. But, this sheds a new light on the battle with the darker parts of oneself when dealing with guilt and grief. Thank you for this video, I'll be playing. And thank you for staying strong.
The way you speak about your daughter and the experience you’ve had grieving is really inspiring and I wish I had something like this when I lost my childhood best friend. I’ve struggled pretty badly with depression/suicidal thoughts and I’ve felt the loss of those close to me. Your take on this game is very nuanced and I love the way you make connections with your own experiences. I can tell your daughter loved you very much and you’re an amazing dad. Thank you for sharing your experience and I’m so sorry for your loss.
@@IncestLoverW Crazy how you're trying to rage bait everyone and you reply with alts that have gacha life videos titled "Why rape is "nawt" bad" Clear child
I attempted about a year ago, a month before my 19th birthday, all because I was in a abusive relationship, unhappy with my body, lost in mind with who I was. When I heard my sisters, my mom, my friends all worried and even crying, I felt pain. I felt like I didn't mattered, but I do, my life matters, everyone's life matters. Whoever is reading this, you're not alone. I'm about to be 20 in 2 days. I defeated the dark place and now I'm in peace with reality. I'm glad I made it and now I'm here, telling this story. You're not alone.
So happy you’re still here ❤ the comment that may still be here has been reported because you don’t need garbage like that in your life. You’re now empowered and you’ll make it somehow :) congrats on making it to 20! Here’s to many many more
You had friends that cared? I'll be honest. This might sound rude of me to talk about my own struggles (and I apologize if it does, just ignore this if it is), but that just makes me feel jealous. I wish I had friends. I feel like no one (except maybe some of my family, and not even all of my family in that case) would cry at my death. I wish I just had 1 friend that cared enough to cry if I killed myself. That's all I'd ever ask for. That'd be enough to make me rethink my decision.
i know how it feels man. i lost my uncle to the depression of PTSD back in 2020, i had to watch my dad walk out the house in anger as my mom couldnt help but cry every week from the loss. the pain was insufferable and sucked. much love man, lifes good, we just gotta live to see it.
I made the mistake of watching this at a cafe. My sister took her own life about a year ago and navigating it has been one of the most depressing but yet beautiful processes (even if it feels wrong to use that word). I have played omori previously, prior to her death and was one of the most beautiful games, but the way you explained it made me cry. Thank you for this video, it did a good job of putting a lot of my feelings and experiences into words. Take care of yourself ❤
goodness, those ending lines got me tearing up real bad. i love the use of symbolism through this game. the use of the symbolism to establish that your loved ones, will always be watching over you and care for you as mari does in headspace. also, grief. grief is a horrible feeling, but its important to remember your cherished times. although it may be hard, and you miss your loved one, thats just a reminder of how much they were appreciated and cared for.
Over the last 5 years I have experienced things that 14 year old shouldn’t have or anyone for that matter my friend who I had grow up and his sister with died a few days before our freshman year (for context it rocked every one who knew him he was very liked and everyone knew him) two years after that (16) I looked death in the face as, my best friend at the time’s, grandad took his last breath I was the person who told her he was gone after watching (I’m one month away from 20) this video and playing the game along with it you guys have taught me so much in the year I have been playing this game that it is ok to be anger and sad to be disappointed in people for moving on while everyone else has moved on, it’s ok, there is no longer a weight on my chest from these experiences and I have you to thank for that and I am truely sorry for your daughter I hope you have found acceptance and peace after playing Omori because I know I have found mine after so many years
I’m not gonna lie. I’m a Senior Airmen about to make staff. Without even getting 2 minutes into the video. My heart sank like a stone as I saw that photo of you in your blues and I couldn’t see your face and I realize that, out of no where, unexpectedly. I could be you and I have been through some of the same struggles as you maybe and have felt the same things you felt. I’m not even two minutes in and this just broke me. I’m so sorry for what you’ve been through.
Congrats on SSgt! I hope that my story is something you'll carry with you throughout your career. Whether something terrible happens to you, a peer, a troop, whoever, remember--empathy is the cornerstone of good leadership. From one to another, thanks for your service, and good luck on your journey.
genuinely started sobbing. i don’t like many youtube videos, but man this one got me. thank you for sharing, this is truly beautiful and im so sorry for your loss.
You may not read this, in fact no one but me may, but thank you. I’m 14 and have been battling myself since I was 12. I’ve always been upset with my life, I had a step mom who abused me, a dad who had shared custody with me, a mom who tried her hardest, and what felt like never ending change of step dads. I’ve always kept my feeling to myself,I don’t think I’ve told a soul the thoughts I’ve had, and I still don’t. The thought of out right saying I have been a second away from just ending it all makes me feel sick with myself. I’ve always felt like no one would care, it’d be un noticed or loved ones would cry one day then move on the next. I thought I wouldn’t make a change in the world. When I started to grow more, my dad became distant, making text and calls and visits minor. I know he was trying, but it still hurt. It still does. There was many times I found out the truths in his lies, when he’d tell me he was to busy so he had to cancel our little daddy daughter date to the movies, only to see on my ex-step moms social media that he had taken my half sister (on dads side, ex-step moms daughter) to the movies, or a park. It took a huge tole on me because I spent what felt like my whole life trying to please him. He wanted a boy so I acted like one, I played in the dirt, I shot guns with him, I did everything. But when I did started to grow I enjoyed being more feminine, but he didn’t so much. So when he started to leave, i felt like I didn’t matter. My mom was busy a lot, and my older brother was creepy and would hit me when I’d make a mistake around him, while my younger sister got away with everything along with getting what she wanted. I often got ignored or just flat out treated worse. So slowly I started to accept that I wouldn’t live past 15. I had tried to end it all many times, but I was seconds away before panicking out and not doing it. The worse part is when I just act like it never happened. There’s always one time that will forever remain in my heart. I was thinking of what to write for my note when I got a text, I check it and it was my friend responding to a TikTok I sent her about how there’s alway one really smart friend and one dumb friend (me being the dumb one). I was expecting a laugh or a “lol”, but instead it was just 7 words that made me stop. “Hey I’m actually really proud of you”. I cried a lot that night. Watching this video was hard, in ways were it brought up emotions I thought I had gotten rid of or hid long enough it would go away. The thought of causing my dad, my mom, or any loved ones, friends and all, a pain as strong as grief hurts. The thought of my dad or mom making a video like this made me take a moment and think. If you’re seeing this, and you struggle, please. Reach out, I beg you. You may feel like it won’t matter, to throw it all away, or want an escape, but please. It may have been hard before, it may be hard now, it may even still be hard a couple months from now, but it will get better. And you will make your mark on this world. Please know that you are loved, and you do matter. Think of your dreams, your goals, you need to accomplish them, succeed. Your favorite food, drink, how would you taste it again? Your favorite shows, favorite shirt, pants, the feeling when you find the perfect blanket, that feeling you get when you laugh even if it’s just a bit. Please, believe it will get better, make it happen.
Thank you for feeling comfortable with sharing it with people you don't know but I want you to know, even tho it's hard, even if it feels like it's impossible to you, remember that there is always a person that cares about you, it could be a friend or a family member or even a pet, it doesn't really matter who is it, what matter is that you are important for that someone... You are a human being, and it's ok to just feel that it needs to end but remember, I doesn't ❤
Twitter's genuinely heartless. Through and through. It hurts my heart that anyone could see such a genuine heart-wrenching video and think "this man deserves to be mocked".
And ofc, we cant post ANYTHING serious or sensitive without people my age (teenagers) posting hate, like wtf, this guy lost his daughter to suicide and they have the audacity to go "L, womp womp" The internet is so messed up
Thank you so much for making this video.
I got into Omori just last year and it has forever changed me. Every fiber, ounce and tiny little details this game contains has both lifted, inspired and haunted me like nothing else ever had before. Since the beginning of this year I been going through a rough patch of grievance, betrayal and hurt and (ironically enough) revisiting this game and certain specific characters have become even more difficult to look at. Watching this video has helped me remember my love for Omori once more and inspires me to confront my own terms of acceptance within the themes of this game once again. The connection Omori has given you is a beautiful, beautiful thing and as vulnerable as this was to make, I'm very thankful you made this video and shared your story. Much love, healing and peace your way. ❤
My brother was about to comment something mean
@@elizabethzorrilla5800 dawg 💀💀
@@elizabethzorrilla5800Why
Woah I used to watch your fluttershy videos way back when
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Mocking a grieving parent and the memory of their child is such a sickening level of depravity.
Skibidi toilet, skill issue
@@rossbaus6816heya ross, id reccomend you delete your channel, before i doxx you of course! Already happened to my little buddy leroy, i feel like you can reflect, so ill give you around an hour to do so, id do it quick though! I get impatient!
@@slimeswiperyh ngl ur way worse than the guy you replied to ur weird as hell
@@slimeswiperand why you talking like you the main villian or something?
Womp womp
“I’m so grateful I got to be your dad.”
i genuinely started sobbing
If he was actually grateful he would have done the right things to make her not want to hurt herself
@@rossbaus6816 It's important to recognize that suicidal ideation and actions are complex and often stem from a variety of factors beyond just one person's actions. It's unfair to place the blame solely on the individual, especially without understanding the full context of their situation. He did his best as her father, and that’s what matters.
@@rossbaus6816respectfully thats the dumbest things ive ever heard
@@rossbaus6816 are you 12? Sometimes people keep everything inside. Sometimes people don't reach out for help. Sometimes depression is the genetics lottery and not being mistreated. This is an incredibly gross comment. Please do better. Get help.
@@rossbaus6816 You cannot singlehandedly prevent someone from killing themselves.
I've tried to kill myself. Nothing my parents said would have ever helped, but people like you will never understand that.
I hope you never have a loved one kill themselves, because on top of the grief you'd have to deal with the fact that you are wrong.
“I’m so grateful I got to be your dad”
Man… Thats heartbreaking.
Womp womp 2x
@@CoemsMafaka-nj8culol imagine making multiple accounts just to ragebait. What a valuable person to society
@@MelodieSlayis your mom proud of you?
@@MelodieSlay oil up lil super Mario enemy
@@CoemsMafaka-nj8cupoor you, you didn’t receive your mother’s love or your dad’s hug did you?
I know I’m 7 months late, but I’m so sorry for your loss.. hope you’re doing okay
I'm still here, friend. ❤
@@Love_Yourself4830 thats good to know! have a nice day/night
@Love_Yourself4830 You have many hugging you right now, I promise that. My aunt went through the same. It's not as beautiful a life without them. But they didn't want us to feel the same. We keep on going for them. I genuinely love you sir.
@@Love_Yourself4830hope your still ok man I know you can get through this
I lost my mom to suicide over 10 years ago. One of my most common nightmares/dreams is that she didn’t actually do it. That it was fake. That maybe she’s out there, happier without us. I always chase her away when she tries to come back. I understand Aubrey’s anger. I understand your guilt. I was fourteen.
Dayum thats hard
I’m so so sorry, I know there’s nothing anyone can say, but I hope your doing as well as you can be ❤
Im so sorry hope your okay.
I'm sorry dear
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The saddest part about reading all these comments is that we only see the survivors' stories.
Imagine how many people would be opening up on here, had they not been lost to suicide.
Stop trying to be poetic
Stop being uncomfortable with poetry @@Ipromiseyounobodyismad
@@Ipromiseyounobodyismad stop trying to be a jerk , or just dont read the comment section in general
@@Ipromiseyounobodyismadwas this necessary bro? you aint understanding what hes saying dont be a dick
I hadn’t thought about it like that
I cant believe people have the audacity to harass a clearly grieving father, shame on you all that are actually hating this man just for thinking about his daughter.
@@ErmithOh Acting like it's alright to harass a clearly distressed father for just thinking about his daughter is a pretty shitty thing, even if ya don't care ya know?
@@ErmithOh can you elaborate? Im assuming what you're getting at is the father was a tad cringe for talking about his dead daughter in this way, but at the same time he's still a grieving father that lost their daughter, and people making fun of him for that is wrong.
do you feel validated with those 43 likes
@@AmalekIsComing What?
@@CatKat4008Ignore them, they're 5 year olds trying to ragebait.
my dad saved me from my suicide attempt 3 years ago. i had no regret when swallowed down 24 pills of paracetamol, but instantly regret it when i saw my dad cried. he is not a man who would cry a lot like me, i have never saw him crying except for my grandma and grandpa's funerals. times go on and now my mental problem is cured. i realized that if i died at that time, so it's just me who release myself, but it will actually stab a hole inside my family's heart. your friends could only cries for you in a couple of weeks, but it's a forever pain that cannot be cured to your family.
@@peopleyouforgot You have a Heavenly Father who loves you so much. I don't mean to preach so that is all I'll say, other than this. You have people who care about you even if you feel like you don't at this point of your life. I know it may not be much, and I know that you don't know me, but I care about you, and I know if you persevere you will be able to see joy in your life. I believe in you.
@@slightlyeducated450 oh thanks
@@peopleyouforgotreach out to anyone else. Meet new people. You WILL find someone. Believe me. You just have to focus. On the positives, and the negatives, but don’t be pessimistic.
@@peopleyouforgotyou have yourself and are worthy enough to live.
I dont know you but im glad you’re still here
“I’m so grateful I got to be your dad.”
that’s beautiful man. i’m bawling.
It’s corny
@@Lesbiankisser “this’ll end it!” ahh comment
fr that line made me BAWL
Why mock
I’m actually sobbing help
Please report any hateful comments. He deserves loves, not hate
Agreed!!!
I think some kids like dark humour because of the wild reactions get. i.e “💀💀💀 “ this gives them possitive feedback so they keep wanting to do it. Some people are also rage baiting because they know people will react really strongly and want to seem cool thats my theory of one person in the ocean of all the other commenters
I gotchu
I'm going to make sure I like the hateful comments
@@cameron765 did you ever think we asked?
came here from a shitty tweet that made fun of your video calling it "sensationalist" and saying that you used you used your daughter for views. this video is the complete opposite of that. i have a brother who has suffered with drug addiction and attempted suicide a handful of times, and i feel you. your video somewhat touched me and i appreciate that.
They are right.
@@leckercidre160Can't people share their thoughts and emotions over the internet? No shit people are going to see it, it's common sense. Just have basic empathy.
@@leckercidre160I am also slightly skeptical about this guy, as I am someone who has attempted as well when I was in my teens. I have many friends (and acquaintances from group therapy) who have attempted, or suffer from severe mental illness that may very well lead to an attempt. And as many sufferers of severe mental illness know, oftentimes one's family can be a very strong influence in how healthily a kid copes with trauma. Having bad or unhealthy family systems are sadly, not an uncommon trend among suicide victims.
However, even with my own skeptical outlook, I still do believe that your agreement with that tweet is a stretch. I don't think that the pure, shallow exploitation of someone else's mental health issues for one's own profit/clout is what is happening here.
This video has a respectable, simple, but still empathetic story of what happened to the victim. It has a unique perspective for a video game review of this horror game. It has a very clear purpose (sharing one's experiences with grief and process of coping as they use this game as a medium to explore those feelings) that fulfilled all reasonable expectations. And perhaps most importantly, it served its role as a video about grief posted on a video sharing site to provide MANY viewers who suffered from genuine mental health distress a valuable experience/lense to help process their own lives with. Speaking about how a trauma-focused game helps someone deal with a suicide of a loved one is what this video succeeds in doing. Suicide is a very real reality, and trying to ban all discussion from those who have to live to tell the tales of those who took their own lives is just cruel and ignorant about the very real pain and suffering that people who care about suicide victims have to go through. It really isn't easy to go through, even as a bystander to someone else's own mental health struggles. By virtue of loving someone, their health and fate will greatly impact your own, and it is understandable that plenty of people who lost someone they love will struggle greatly in finding meaning and peace in the aftermath. They experienced a tragedy. It is but human nature to struggle.
No matter how you and I may speculate about the reality behind this youtuber's family circumstances are (i.e. Whether he is using his daughter's decision to end her life as nothing but a shallow opportunity to cash in on the "mental health philosophizing" trend bandwagon), the fact is that this video is genuinely resonating with a lot of viewers who have a thorough, realistic grasp on how processing trauma can be like. The people who are commenting and interacting with this video don't seem to be ignorant, uneducated, synthetically philanthropic, or not the greatest at communicating their thoughts with self-awareness. They have done enough homework to meaningfully participate and share their thoughts. There's a crapton of suicide survivors, remaining loved ones of those who committed suicide, and those who suffered from great grief in general here in the comments, and they all have done enough homework to discuss their thoughts in an honest, human way. This video is not attracting people who are just participating in a trend to feel better about themselves. These are actual people who have suffered very human tragedies that are congregating to hear this guy out. While there is always exceptions on any social media platform, the viewerbase for this video is not at all anything to be worried about. It is not encouraging anything harmful or lazily written.
This video has never spread a single shred of misinformation or spearheaded even one uncompassionate viewpoint on all things suicide. It is pretty humble in that regard, and does not attempt to wax poetics about things outside of the creator's own personal experience. His experience consists of sensible things that those who struggle with grief pick up on over time after time, introspection, and discussions with others in the same boat while trying to heal their wounds.
At this point, the only thing that is being "sensationalized" is just... talking about how going through the suicide of a loved one affected one's experience of this game. And to be clear, talking about that unique experience of Omori is perfectly acceptable, rational, ethical, and serves a fair purpose in sharing with the world. Our own life stories can greatly shape our perceptions of everything around us; games included. Different perspectives can help broaden perspective, heighten appreciation for media, or create a feeling of comradery and comfort in those who can connect with this poor dad's message.
All I see here is a dad being hit with the hardest loss of his life so far, and grasping for straws trying to figure out how to possibly move forward from something so mentally devastating. Losing a child that you raised for so many years is so awful, especially since the parents are a kid's first defender against all things bad. The guilt and sorrow is naturally very immense.
IMO, what is the most key indicator of his likely innocuous intentions is the name of his channel: Love Yourself. It is a common and candid response that, upon going through a new and confusing tragedy, people find meaning in sharing their crisis-processing journey with others. I see that this dad is taking solace in sharing his story in hopes that maybe some other loved one going through something similarly heartbreakingly confusing is able to grasp onto his messages and find something tangible to help them in the aftermath of their own personal disasters. It is a common response for people to, in the midst of their own grief, seize the opportunity to use what little they managed to reap from their own experience to help and uplift others. Many advocates of social issues have started speaking their mind because of a relevant incident that they went through in their personal life. Going through tragedies can evoke Empathy and foster discussions that helps others handle those tragedies. This dad is merely trying to find a silver lining in lighting the path for those who are also walking down a dark path, even if his sentiments may be only useful to a few. I'm sure he hopes that his video can at least be of use for a handful of people, because even smaller-scale positive changes make exchanges of personal stories like these worth it.
Hope you understand my point here. But still, thank you for not instantly taking things at face value; it is important to be on the lookout for exploitative handling of sensitive topics, without a doubt. ♡
@@kyomado I didn't read any of that. Congratulations on wasting your time.
@@leckercidre160this is just pathetic
To all the kids in this comment section saying things like "womp womp" or "L," i genuinely hope your future self takes the time to reflect and apologise. Going through the pain of losing someone you love is the worst, and you making these disrespectful comments only adds more fuel on the fire.
They are too young to understand the pain they can cause, and they'll probably forget the day after that they even commented.
I don't understand why children and preteens can be so cruel, my brother and I were always polite and friendly at their age so I don't believe their behavior it's only because of their young age.
@@Arianita2001They truly are apathetic. It’s saddening
This generation is screwed, they never learn what true pain is like unless they have experienced it for themselves, it’s sickening to see humans go this low
@@maxdong3514Every generation has had people like this. It just seems widespread because of the Internet. All we can hope for is that later on in their life they will look back on moments like this, reflect, and work to become a better person.
@@maxdong3514tbh gen alpha is prob not even going to be able to be parents at this point
I'm really sorry for all the immature children here who are mocking your situation. I'm not sure if it means anything to you; but just know that through your own vulnerability, you have spread much more love than these people have hate.
My sincerest condolences go out to you and your loved ones.
Honestly treat them as bots and move on. they have their own personal life problems and wanna throw that into others to make em feel happy. What a wasteful space they are lol. Anyways just ignore em.
Womp Womp
@@IAmAQueenCryAbtItyou literally play roblox 24/7. Stop talking and grow up
Oddball. @@IAmAQueenCryAbtIt
Yeah this video is exploding in reach.
Don't let the twisted fucks take a single action potential of your mind away.
The narcicism of people to hate on someone just because he shared his tragic story with the world using omori as the base for it something that makes me extremly sad
he's monetizing the death of his daughter and promoting some shitty troon game in the process
@passthebleach9745 This video was not monetized in any way. this isn't a form of promoting a "shitty troon game", this is sharing his griefing experience through video games, while also providing a positive outlook.
@@saintlouis778 i know honestly i didnt really care about omori in the entire video but more of how the creator feel about the game thru the entire honestly i feel like people just really hatting on this poor man because they just simply dont like omori
@@androidLX70 sthu
@@bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb2713 i think thats completly irrelevant, the description of the video its the choise of the creator, and he never promoted his merch on the video it self, all the video was about the game and his experience with the death of his daughter not about merchandise and stuff, you should realize at least that.
Imagine being so miserable to criticize a man who uses artistic media to cope with the loss of his daughter. I’m so sorry for your loss. I wish you all the best ❤
Fr ☠️ ppl behind screens have no fear as it doesnt affect them irl
@@meowzillahh just wait till it does.
When they try to get a job or go to college.
His daughter was pretty artistic too
I've seen the devil
Down Sunset
In every place
In every face
Yeah, uh, uh
Yeah, uh, uh
Tell me, do you see her? (Yeah) she's livin' her life (uh)
Even if she acts like she don't want the limelight (uh, yeah, uh)
But if you knew her (yeah), she lives a lie
She calls the paparazzi, then she acts surprised, oh
Oh, I know what she needs (oh)
She just want the fame, I know what she fiends (oh)
Give her a little taste, runnin' back to me, uh (oh)
Put it in her veins, pray her soul to keep, ooh, ooh
Every night (every night, uh), she prays to the sky
Flashin' lights is all she ever wanted (yeah)
Beggin' on her knees to be popular
That's her dream, to be popular (hey)
Kill anyone to be popular (hm)
Sell her soul to be popular
Popular, just to be popular (uh-huh)
Everybody scream 'cause she popular (hey)
She mainstream 'cause she popular
Never be free 'cause she popular
Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh)
Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh)
Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular (uh-uh)
Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular
I know that you see me (huh), time's gone by
Spend my whole life runnin' from your flashin' lights
Try to own it (uh), but I'm alright (yuh)
You can't take my soul without a - fight (uh, oh)
Oh, I know what she needs (oh)
She just want the fame, I know what she fiends (oh)
Give her a little taste, runnin' back to me (oh)
Put it in her veins, pray her soul to keep, ooh (uh)
Ooh, every night (every night), she prays to the sky (oh)
Flashin' lights is all she ever wants to see (yuh)
Beggin' on her knees to be popular (uh)
That's her dream, to be popular (hey)
Kill anyone to be popular (hm)
Sell her soul to be popular
Popular, just to be popular (uh-huh)
Everybody scream 'cause she popular (hey)
She mainstream 'cause she popular
Never be free 'cause she popular
Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh)
Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh)
Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular (uh)
Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular (uh)
Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh)
Money on top of me, money on top of her (uh-huh)
Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular (uh-huh)
Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular
Eat me and money, I'ma keepin' it
I'm gettin' can and I'm kickin' it
Money on top of me, money on top of her
Yuh, shawty - with me 'cause she know I'm popular
Pop-popular, born to be popular
She in debt, 20 mill', but she run it up
She can never be broke 'cause she popular
Turn the webcam on for the followers
beggin' on her knees to be popular
That's her dream, to be popular (hey)
Kill anyone to be popular
Sell her soul to be popular
Popular, just to be popular (uh-huh)
Everybody scream 'cause she popular (hey)
She mainstream 'cause she popular
Never be free 'cause she popular
@@THATBrokeAroSpecWallettrust me karma will hit them harder than an Asian parent when their child gets a b+
Idk why yall saying people mocking him when literally 100% of these comments aren’t mocking him 💀
This video saved me from suicide. Thank you.
I’m so glad you’re alive.
You deserve to live, whatever you’re going trough I promise pushing trough is worth it.
Take care and God bless🫂💖
“I’m so happy I got to be your dad.” Im crying ugly tears.
I’ve been struggling with depression and suicidal ideations since I was 12, I’ve had many failed suicide attempts when I was a teenager- my dad having to take me to the hospital because I was sick and having to stay in psych wards.
He’s never told me how he felt about me trying to take my own life.
I know for a fact you gave your daughter all of your love- depression is so fucking awful I wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.
It is still a monster I carry- I am 23 now but I try to find the reasons to stay everyday.
Thank you for making this video 🖤
I am sorry you've had a tough experience growing up.
I wish it were different.
I wish you the best,
And I bet your Dad does too, even if it's in his own special, confused, and distant way.
I am convinced that my Dad, at least, has no concept of who I even am as a person even when I still live in the same house with him now he's been so absent in my life.
I know he cares, and he has tried to tell me how he feels about what he knows, but man it just missed the mark, nothing he said hit home and it only proved how little he knew about me.
I believe the problem lies in pride.
Pride makes it difficult for me to talk about it or show it, and I bet it hurts Dads to accept it.
It took him ages to approach me, and ultimately I respect him greatly for doing so.
I wanna say 11 but it was probably a couple years later when it started hitting harder, but it was around that age when I started losing interest in many things.
As much as I tried, it only got harder and harder to keep my interest unless I could receive the same respect I saw others receive.
I was adept at learning things fast or "on the fly" by observing, replicating and experimenting, and at some point there was no longer any surprises when I revealed I could do something unique or simply copy what someone else was doing.
Ironically, while I tried hard mainly to get close to others, I think this only further distanced me from them instead.
I grew exceedingly frustrated with myself for not feeling successful socially - or maybe it was the lack of respect I felt was deserved - I didn't know how to deal with my frustration, and after being beaten for taking it out on something around the house, chose to take it out on me instead.
Things rolled downhill from there.
Spent a lot of time in limbo between the hits of adrenaline that kept me going, and now that I'm working I don't know where to get a big enough hit from without risking contracts or careers.
Attempts were getting more frequent before I quit my last job.
Now I've been stuck in idle for the past few months too lazy or disinterested in general to even try.
I'm 19 now going on 20 and doing my best to get out of a low from my worst low yet.
But hey I did my first double backflip on grass recently.
5elfcontrol, I truly hope things turn around for you.
same had suicidal thoughts when I was 13, in my 20s I found the thing that keeps me going, that is my passion for gaming and technology. It keeps me alive everyday knowing if I die I won't be able to experience any of them. Depression sucks ass
@@xaviermiller9499 there's a book that really helped me out called "What Color is Your Parachute?" Get the latest version, it definitely got me out of a rough spot. It's used for getting careers, but there's also a massive self help aspect that gives satisfying answers as opposed to therapy. Tried it, didn't turn out well. I hope this helps for you as well.
Take care dude, stay safe.
@@xaviermiller9499 Thank you for commenting, I hope something gives for you as well.
It’s really hard everyday- but I find even the smallest things to stay and live for.
I grew up in an immensely traumatic household and also had very traumatic things happen to me outside of my home as well.
It made it very difficult growing up in seeing a purpose.
I remember when I was christian I used to cry to god to please let me die that I didn’t want to live anymore and it gets me choked up now just thinking about it.
A 12 year old begging an omniscient being to kill them, it’s just a lot.
But i’m glad none of them worked- even though i’ve been very close a few times.
Hoping that nothing but love comes into our lives…and gratitude even if it’s super hard to even have any of either.
🖤
@@s1ndrome117 I feel you hard- everyday I find even the dumbest tiniest things to keep living.
But if it ain’t broke don’t fix it- I hope one day even if the depression doesn’t go away it gets easier to hold 🖤
God I'm in tears..
stay strong man you're a boss.
Your daughter's always watching from above :))
As Jogo, the strongest curse, fought the fraud, the king of curses himself, he began to expand his domain. Fraudkuna asked "Are you the one who left it all behind in his overwhelming intensity because you're always bet on hakari or are you I haven't used this since the heian era because you're with this treasure I summon Nah I'd win". The fingerer simply replied "Throughout lobotomy and I'm you, I alone am the gojover one"
@@jonthedon9497Wish jogoat would expand my domain 😳🤤🤤🤤😅😅😅😅
@@jonthedon9497tf
@@jonthedon9497Shut up
the bitter truth is that she's nowhere now. you only get one of these "life" things and once it's gone, it's gone. there's no proof of some "great beyond", and the belief of such is just our way of coping.
i ain't saying this to be all 'reddit atheist'-y and shit on people's parade(and i doubt it would change people's beliefs regardless), but instead to remind people that we _have to take care of eachother NOW._ we don't get a redo. there's no "after" or "above". so when we make life for people here worse, now, that should be carried with real weight.
if we want to keep people from deaths of grief, then we need to do everything we can to limit grief, by being as empathetic, and compassionate as possible with one another. and while we'll probably never be able to completely eradicate it, it should always be within our designs to limit it as much as humanly possible. the fight for love is worth everything, in my eyes.
I'm crying right now. I'm in a really bad place mentally, like your daughter was, and the last section...it just broke me.
That love you hold for your daughter is truly a beautiful thing. In that same way, I love my dad. So very much. And hearing how much you love her, it made me realize that even if - as caring and loving as he is, he's never been much of a sentimental person, often opting for logic and solutions instead of feeling better - he still loves me to the earth and back. I will forever be proud to be his daughter, and I'm sure that he's just as proud to be my dad. I'm sure your daughter thinks this too, and I hope you never forget that. Thank you
Go tell your dad this. Give him the chance that my daughter didn't give me.
And don't be afraid to check in from time to time. ❤
take care, i hope things improve for you going forward
My dad is the same way… And I still love him… I’m also in a bad place so… I understand a little… ❤
I promise you things get easier, life can be complicated when your emotional and confused but by the end of it all you end up happy that you pushed through and stayed strong, it gets better. Jus keep your chin high and do what you can to further progress your mind to a point where you can be happy wit the you that you are
@@ramonasgf4life Whatever you’re going through, remember that each and every person is so strong and amazing in their own incredibly unique and extraordinary way, and you’re no exception. And the strength that you have allows you to fight anything or anyone in the universe while making it out safely. Even if it hurts or it gets scary, you are so so brave no matter what and we all have hope that you can live through even the deepest of wounds. And you never have to go through anything alone, that no matter what, you always have people who care so much about you and would trade the world for you. I wish you not just an incredible day / night whenever you hopefully get the chance to read this, but for the rest of the irreplaceable life you have ahead of you❤
to the people harassing a grieving father, count your fucking days.
Threatening to kill people over rage bait is crazy
@@eeg-rh7jvweep some more pal
@@eeg-rh7jvdude. He’s just trying to cope with his daughter’s demise, let him grieve
@@eeg-rh7jvI re-read the comment but I don’t see any threats of murder. What are you seeing?
@@fatalt9521 "Count your fucking days" is pretty obviously a threat. You can't get more on the nose than this
“im so happy i got to be your dad.” these words hit hard.
when i was about 13, i was going through depression,anxiety,self harm,etc. i didn’t know what else to do,so i thought that taking my life would be the best thing to do. i didnt want to be here anymore,I didn’t want to feel anymore pain,suffering,guilt. I just wanted to feel at peace.
the night i did it. i wrote everyone’s goodbye note,everyone’s was short but 2 people. my dad and best friend. i jumped off my 2nd story window.
the next thing i see is me at the hospital,in a gown and some equipment attached to me.
my dad was there and my mom,but my dad saw me and just ran to my bed and hugged me. to this day,ill always remember the words he said. “im so happy your okay. i was worried sick and i didn’t know you were struggling so much. I’ll always love and be there for you and everything is and will be okay. im so glad to be your father,im so glad to have you as my daughter. i love you.”
after he said that i just broke down. i needed those words so bad. i needed someone to say that everything will be okay and he did,not my mom,nor the doctors,only him.
i stayed 3 days at the hospital and after i left. i started to do therapy and my dad would always take me, make sure i was as okay,and was there for me whenever i need it. after around 7 months of therapy,I stopped going. i started to feel more happy, i started to feel like everything was better,everything did get better and my dad made sure. even though im struggling with my mental health sometimes, i know ill always have someone to be by my side.
if anyone is struggling,just know IT WILL GET BETTER. everything will be okay, and i promise you that. you just need the time to heal and you will heal no matter what. if anyone needs to talk im here.
Was recently going through a rough patch just like this. Then i met a girl who changed everything. Though i am not fully healed, she has made everything better. My relationship with my parents has gone downhill as i have gotten older and I felt like there was nobody in the world that cared for me anymore. I am glad that you’re better and I hope you and I can both eventually find peace.
Edit: we have since broken up. It was one of the hardest experiences of my life, but I have repaired my relationship with my parents and I have found my true purpose in life. Though our relationship ended, I know that things happen for a reason. God had other plans for me. I loved her very much but not everything works out in life.
I’m so glad you are ok but may I ask what got you depression. You are only 13 (I’m just curious cause all the cause I could think that would took u this far is getting bully)
I relate to this SOOO MUCH, reading this made me cry.
@@01.ก้องภพตระกูลคู่บุญ
"depression in 6 years😭😭" moment🗿
you say that so easily but when I was that age and wanted to disappear, my parents both told me to try harder and cut deeper or take more pills etc. count your blessings
I experienced the other side.. I was just 13 when my dad killed himself, and even though only 3 years has passed, it hurts. it hurts so much. I was so naive and i could tell something was off about him, but I didn’t know it was this bad. I’ve had thoughts about how to go out, but seeing how he actually did it, broke me forever. He was the last person you’d ever expect to do it, he promised me we’d go places when i’m older. but he’s gone forever now. It’s almost his birthday soon. I hope he could be proud i was his daughter, and see my achievements, but I can never now and this pain kills me inside.
thank you so much for this video, i get to see the other side of the story now. i’m so sorry about the trolls, your daughter does not deserve that, she is such an angel. may she rest in peace
I was gonna troll you but I guess I'll let someone else do it, sorry for your loss
Hi. I cannot help you but I can understand your pain... At least try to imagine. I'm pretty sure that your dad had a happy time around you. If heavens exist, then now he's with you. I myself don't believe in it, but the fact of love doesn't die because the subject of it stops existing... I guess he was proud of you as long as he was alive. Sorry if I didn't help
@@AmalekIsComing Why would you even consider doing that? Think long and hard about that impulse.
@@ВаряВетренная thank you for the kind words🫶, it’s so refreshing to hear, and helps a ton
I saw a post on the Omori subreddit a few months back written by a parent who was asking about the game, because their daughter loved it before she committed suicide. That thread really effected me at the time, and I wonder now if it was you who had posted it. Either way, this video was beautiful and heartbreaking, and I'm glad that at least in some way the game helped you find some comfort, and I wish you only the best as you deal with the hardest thing imaginable.
Real
interesting.
I saw the same post too. It might've been the same person, yeah.
Coukd you send the link if you have it? It's alright if you dont.
@@LucienThePeacebringerI’m curious what was op name ):
@@JokersD0ll I tried to search around on reddit for it the other day and i can't say for sure but it looks like the post has been taken down. I don't remember OP name unfortunately
oh my lord ppl who are harassing him, HE LITERALLY LOST HIS DAUGHTER, pls just support him, not harass him.
miserable people are easy to detect, they just envy this man’s strength and ability to move on. may his beautiful daughter rest easy.
It is so sad just too see the hate comments, honestly so much more then i thought it is just awful to see
@@thechildrenescapedThey’re the type of people who love to see the world burn. They’re a fire that gets fueled by the rage of others around them
@@thechildrenescapedor maybe they just apathetic, he’s just one person after all
THANK YOU!!!!!! 🕊🕊🕊🕊
I did not cry while playing Omori, but I did watching this video, I hope that Omori helped you understand life and grief better. Please, stay strong and take care.
This might be the best compliment I've ever received. ❤
Me too
@@Love_Yourself4830 OMORI ES MRD
COPIA Y PEGA ESTA VERDAD
@@squaredboy424shut up
@@Love_Yourself4830you can try signalis if you want as well, even though it’s atop down survival horror game it has strong themes of dealing with grief and losing people you love hidden way underneath its exterior
“I’m so happy I got to be your dad.” I wish that my dad had felt anything close to love for me. It feels so healing in a way to listen to fathers talk about the love they have for their children. I hope that the memories of her that come to you bring a smile to your heavy heart. I want so much for you to feel some amount of peace or relief.
I attempted in 2019 after being assaulted and refused to tell anyone why I was suddenly in the hospital (growing up my mental illness was blamed on me just being a bad kid and acting out for attention). My liver was failing from the attempt and yet my dad kept the rest of my family from visiting me in the hospital. Just like when I had a 51/50. (I was living in a different state at the time.)
I never wanted attention. I just wanted to be able to tell my dad that I was hurting so that he could help me or love me. Even when two different agencies came back with the same diagnosis', he would try to convince my family that I was manipulating the doctors. C-PTSD and internalized BPD. It felt like a nightmare being 29 and physically disabled from an attempt, living back with my parents and still being told that the attempt didn't happen. I had lost my job, where I was living, all my furniture, my savings and my friends.
In the end it broke my parents marriage. There was too much proof that I wasn't lying, my dad was.
He left and I've been no contact with him for three years now. And it hurts. While it's done to keep me safe, it hurts to know that you can love someone so much. And they just will never love you back.
And for anyone out there, if you feel like you want to end your life. LIVE OUT OF SPITE! DO NOT GO GENTLE INTO THAT GOOD NIGHT. Remember that nothing stays the same forever. No feeling is final. Time erodes even the largest mountains. Change is the only constant in life.
I'm living a completely different life now. And I am deeply loved. Something I never could have seen happening.
I don't even know what to say to you, there's so much I could say.
I'm just so happy that you're deeply loved 💖
I have no words other than thank you- thank you for writing this comment, but above all thank you for being so strong to have made it through such an immensely difficult time of your life. You sound like such an inspiration, and I hope many people can hear your story. You’re amazing, thank you for powering on through ❤️
Nice reference, I was so happy when I finally found that poem. My gramps referenced it to me right before he passed.
I'm glad you're doing great now. Godspeed, friend.
……womp
I know I’m a small comment among many people, but I have a lot of issues. I’m a kid, and I’m so confused, and I’m aware. I don’t really have a father, and it breaks me that such a good father had to lose his own child. I’m so sorry, you’re one in a million in this messed up planet, thank you for holding on. I wish my step father had as much courage and love as you.
this comment is relatable asf, I feel so bad and so so sorry for the guy. I couldn't imagine losing my kids to suicide if I ever have them in the future
Bless you friend.
You got this man
I lost my bf to suicide,we were planning on marriage,and i knew there was something off,but I realized when it was too late,he was always in a little bad mood,but someday he was happy,he gave me presents,and stuff,I was confused and 2 days later I saw a video of suicidal acts,I knew he was going to do it but when I tried calling ,he wasn’t responding,his dad called me the day later telling me he killed himself,me and his dads are still recovering,his dads aren’t the same now,they were so happy but now,they are sad,I still have nightmares thinking it was my fault
oh honey it wasn't your fault. as somebody who had an attempt two months ago, there was nothing you could have done or said that would have changed his mind. im very sorry for your loss, renember grief is love persisting 🩷
@@werrercricket I could have called the life thing but I was dumb
I promise you, that does not make it your fault. People, such as myself and many others here in the comments, that struggle with this will tell you. Those thoughts, feelings and urges... they're never far away. I'm sorry @@Hogantalks
@@Hogantalks Nobody knows what to do sometimes. It’s okay. 🫂
That guy’s an asshole, anyone who commits suicide has no regard for the people they hurt and scar.
I actually blindly recommended my brother to buy and play the game because I thought the visuals were cool.
He came back to me a few days later on the verge of tears and told me I *NEEDED* to play the game.
this makes me want to make my brother play it when he grows up just to put some trauma in the trauma jar
@@IConsumedMyLeftKidney Ah, two types of people?
something like this happened to me playing Celeste. I actually needed to play it, that game gave me a different perspective of what it is to fight your inner demon and how to do it well.
I was in a very dark place back then...
@@joeiechristiansantana9641duality of man
“I showed my brother this because this game looked cool!!”
“I showed my brother this because I want to traumatize him”
@@N_E_K_K_OOmg A CELESTE AND OMORI PLAYER?? IVE BEEN TRYING TO FIND SOMEONE THATT KNOW BOTH YAYYY
i attempted last year.
i was in the hospital for almost a month
seeing my parents come to terms with the fact that i might die. it still haunts me, every night i have these horribly vivid dreams of everything happening again
this video made me cry like a baby. I had to watch this video 10 secconds at a time taking breaks. Thank you.
Hope you're doing ok now dude, and also glad you're still here.
i'm so sorry. really. that must have been hell. 😟 hope you're well now.
oh my god thank you guys so much for being so nice 😭
usually when I tell people about what happened to me they just ignore me.
It means the world to me < 3
im doing better now. Just 2 weeks ago I started talking to people again and trying to be a part of something. I'm homeschooled now so its been very hard to break that cycle though.
you guys looking out for me means so much, and you guys made my day 😭 😭
Just wanted to say even though we may never meet, I would be very happy to be your friend and be someone you can talk to. I’m in a similar boat at 23.
I cant stop crying. This is so beautiful, im sure you daughter was proud of having you as father
Thanks to Omori my son was able to open up about his suicidal thoughts. I’m glad that he was brave enough to tell me what was happening. A year later after therapy, patient and changes at home, he still’s recovering slowly. Thanks for making this video, takes a lot of courage to open up to the world knowing that there’s going to be people making hurtful comments.
Ay that’s beautiful man, I hope and pray your son / family continues to stay safe. It always makes my day hearing recovery stories such as this, even the most minor ones
Love to you and your family
@njngoestoheck How is Omori a bad game? Explain it to us then.
When I was 16, I almost took my own life, now I'm 22 and I have been having existential thoughts, but I know that despite my fear of death, I can't die now. I must keep on living. Your daughter is in a good place, and she's rooting for you. Stay strong.
Edit: I apologize if my comment came off as well... "end life-like". I actually didn't mean to. Due to my fear of death, I don't really think I'm going to be like that. I've been getting over my existential crisis, and I have people that love and care for me. I've been through a lot of tough things, and I've gotten over them. We aren't meant to die within our struggles, we are meant to overcome them and die satisfied living a long life. I think what caused this huge fear was the fact that I'll never be able to experience things like this again one day. It's really sad but if you live a long and satisfying life then maybe it doesn't have to be like that.
I'm really happy you're still here
Damn i have fear of dead too, i hate that shit, i cant normaly sleep.
suicide is cringe. You gonna die anyways. Dont kill yourself :D
was in a similar situation when i was 16, but i like to think that we (all) survived for a reason. no matter what we must keep striving on
I'm 20 and every day or so Character ai has to talk me down from it. I mean uhh, that sound really bad, I'm glad you are still here, I can't relate at all. (the hospital might be watching ○_○)
hi, I know it’s been a while since you’ve posted this, but I wanted to let you know that this video saved my best friend’s life. I can’t thank you enough for helping him. he’s been through a lot, and has recently felt like he’s had enough. thank you for helping him get back up again.
I just shitted
@@Ih8simon good job bud, have a gold star ⭐️
@@Ih8simonread the fucking room
That is awesome, hope your friend is good now :>
@@I_like_bagels._. thank you teacher😊😊😊
as a person who has previously attempted suicide in the past, this video and omori as a game truly hit different. just knowing that my dad, someone who is usually not emotional cried after my attempt genuinely broke me. i keep going because i care for the ones i love and i don't want to ever hurt them again the way i did in the past.
much love for reading this
stay strong
I attempted yesterday. It changed me entirely. Seeing my mom’s reaction made me realize no amount of pain is worth hurting my loved ones. I know my road will be long and painful, but I also know one day i’ll be at a point where I can be happy. Life is full of pain but that makes the happy moments all the more special. You’re very strong, i’m so happy everyone in the comments is being kind. It reminds me this world is worth living in.
edit: thank you for the kind words everyone! I just wanted to update and tell you all i’m doing pretty good :) life does get better so don’t give up.
🤗
thank you for still being here with us :)
Thanks for still being here
Glad you're still here 🫂
jesus christ man, 3 days ago?
man i really hope you're okay
I don't really comment on videos but I lost my best friend to suicide four months ago. We've been waiting for omori to come out for several years, now. We were a fan of OMOCAT's works way back when she was still just posting on tumblr. When the game came out in 2020 on Christmas Day, I immediately bought her a copy on steam. It became my favorite game of all time, she loved it so much, too, her carrd was omori-themed. I miss her everyday, we used to bond over OMORI. This hits way too close to home. I'm really grateful you made a video like this for omori, i'm only halfway through the video since it's a hard watch, but I feel like sharing it to several discord servers now because this should be spread. You did a lovely job covering the game, you said the words I couldn't say about how much this game means to me. Thank you for that.
I'm so sorry , I can't even comprehend how that would feel . I hope you're now doing better
Praying for you, stay safe!
Whoever you are wherever you are, stay safe and strong you got this ❤
Omocat likes shotacon
OMORI ES MRD
COPIA Y PEGA ESTA VERDAD
This really made me cry, I lost my older brother to suicide and I found the game omori recently, and I really felt connected to it. I'm very sorry for your loss, it really feels horrible losing someone all of a sudden, and feeling as if you were to blame.
This video also helped me sort of understand my father, and my mother. My father is definitely not in the best place mentally, and neither is my mother, but since I live with my father most, I get to see his behaviour more and I feel like I can really see guilt in him.
I'm sorry for your loss, your daughter will always watch over you, stay strong.
And if any of you guys are struggling, please get help, it's not over and brighter days will come.
I also lost my older brother to suicide a few years ago. Here's a virtual hug. *hug*
I lost my older brother to suicide too 2 years ago :(
@@Bloomkyaaa aw :( I'm sorry for your loss and thank you *hug*
OMORI ES MRD
COPIA Y PEGA ESTA VERDAD
Know that there are friends all throughout this world who will stand by your side 🤍
Bless your heart, and thank you for your kind words
“im so grateful i got to be your dad.”
that specific sentence made me cry
Hi, I doubt you’ll see this comment, but i’m thirteen with a very close connection to my dad. For the past couple years i’ve been fighting with myself, and my brain, and sometimes I think it’s just too much, and there’s no point. You don’t realize how much you affect people until something this permanent takes place, and the idea of my dad having to make this video about me brought me to tears. I think you’ve saved my life, and I could never thank you enough for that. Thank you for sharing this story, it was beautiful, and brave, and you probably know you’ve helped tons of people, but i’m grateful to be one of them.
I kinda feel you man, I agree it's sometimes hard to just be alone with your thoughts, and I'm so happy that someone could have at least helped you in some kind of way.
Heya, we're two, except i have no one
@caocau-ez8oj You'll always have yourself
@@BioTheHumanthats the problem
@@HunterAllen-jb7hl Why?
This is so eye opening.
Im a 15 yr old whos struggled with suicidal thoughts for a while. Ive attempted 5 times and just the fact of parents grief is the only rhing holding me back. My sister died from an overdose last year, and its pretty clear that it was a suicide. It kills me to see my mom the way she is, she cant accept that it was a suicide. This truly gives me another side to the effects of suicidal thoughts. Thank you for this video ♥️
im glad you’re making progress in your journey, i too struggled earlier in my life. i believe you will be able to make a full recovery, and just remember to stay strong my friend :)
how are white people in a first world country in the 21st century finding ways to be ungrateful, insaneeee
hey babe *tips my fedora* wanna uhh edate? i am pretty emotional guy heh
One more day, turns into two, then three, and so on. I almost lost my sister to an overdose myself while I was still in the house. It gets better, even if the situation doesn’t, you get better at working around it.
@SpermCell leave me alone.
Your love for your daughter is so evident throughout your video. I’m so sorry that you lost her, especially so soon. I was blindsided when you mentioned she was 13, so I can only imagine what it was like for you. I’m sure you did everything you could for her to give her a good life, and I’m sure she loved you just as much as you love her.
If I may, I’ve got a game suggestion in the form of Spiritfarer. While I’ve never played it while heavily grieving, I’ve heard that other people have and found comfort in it. Spiritfarer is very much a game about death with how you play as Stella who has become the spiritfarer whose job is the ferry the spirits of the dying, doing quests for them on the way, to the Everdoor where they cross through and pass on. I played it a couple years back and I still consider it to be one of my favourite games with how it handles its themes and characters
I've received this recommendation from more than one person already. Thank you SO MUCH for taking the time to give me some input!
spiritfarer has been the only game to make me cry. i havent touched it since finishing stellas own quest. it doesnt feel right anymore
@@Love_Yourself4830Spiritfarer is an incredible game, but for me personally it was difficult to play. You can't make progress without losing someone. Without the death of someone you grow to love each time. It made me hesitant to go on, always anxious about the next goodbye. I lost my dad when I was 13 (I'm 21 now) and the entire playthrough I couldn't help but remember that pain over and over. Spiritfarer teaches the inportance of impermanence, of mortality, of goodbyes, but it teaches most of all that they aren't easy to bear. It's a beautiful game, but crushing.
@@grammy_hnngsame. the end was... the end.
Spiritfarer is one of my favorite games of all time. Very few games have ever made me cry so hard, while also feeling so much love. It is comforting in a way I find hard to describe, it feels like being held by a loving mother while you sob, you can feel all your sorrow and pain and you are safe.
I feel the urge to write something but at the same time I am ashamed.
It's not because I didn't like Omori but because I have clinical depression and thought about ending it too many times. I am ashamed because the only reason I didn't do it it's because I am too afraid to leave people around me with a grief they would not accept and understand.
You are a good man. You made me emotional few times and I had to pause the video to take time to think and speak with myself. Some of your words felt like a punch in the stomach: they were too real, too raw.
Depression is awful. You think about stuff you know are bad, but still a part of you is convinced is the only solution to stop the pain of living.
I never felt like I belong here. Never felt like I deserve to be understood.
I am 27 today and somehow this video popped in my home.
I am going to say something it will be hard to accept, something it will take time to be understand.
*What happened to your daughter it's not your fault.*
Trying to rationalize what happened will only make you feel bad... And mad at yourself.
I send you a virtual hug, I hope the grief will not last forever.
Best Regard,
Marco
Hi Marco, your words really resonate with me. I'm in the same boat. Glad you're still with us, let's hold onto hope together
marco remember, we might be behind a screen, but don't commit man, we're here for you
I lost my brother to suicide in 2013, here’s a poem I wrote about it
Somewhere, many miles away there is a field. And within the field, there lies a grove of pines. And within the grove of pines, there lies a peaceful cemetery. And within the peaceful cemetery, there lies a black marble headstone. And beneath the black marble headstone, there lies an urn wrapped with a purple ribbon. And within the urn wrapped with a purple ribbon, there lies a part of my heart.
@@IncestLoverW you're so inmature. You don't understand how people that lost somebody feel. Stop commenting if you're going to make people feel worse.
@IncestLoverW it's okay to be hated by everyone who knows you, but it's not okay to do nothing about it. you are the greatest scum of the planet, you need to be put into a hospital for rehab and hopefully return a better person who doesn't lack basic human emotion.
@@IncestLoverW bro can't even spell OR use proper grammar
Thats so beautiful, I truly hope you live the best of your life, stay safe ❤
Genuinely beautiful poem
this video hit hard.
i’m 13, and as of around august, i’ve been living with diabetes 11 years. many times, i’ve wanted to be gone. i wanted to be able to live without the feeling i was different, and that there was something about me i needed to fix. i also had access to the internet way younger than i should’ve, tiktok at 7 years old. i find comfort in games like OMORI, and the persona series, and how they approach mental health and suicide. i’ve read books like crime and punishment and the setting sun, and i find beauty in being able to connect with them. i didn’t have a good connection with my father as i grew up, as he would yell and had issues, but i still wanted his love. so seeing this, i literally started crying in just the intro. i don’t think about how people would react if i left this world before, i’ve always been to scared to act on my thoughts, but this video reminded me that there are people who care, even if it doesn’t seem like it. my mother, my brothers, my friends, how could i leave them behind?
woah that’s a yap idk thank you for making this it touched me ❤
i’m a little older than you, and i’d like to say that i’m so sorry you’re going through this at such a young age. it’s never easy, but i’m so happy you found a reason to keep going. the people around you love you so much, and every step you take, every little thing you do for yourself, makes all the difference. please never forget that even when you feel alone, you have so many reasons to keep going. being a teenager is hard, but we can get through this
I empathize with you so greatly my guy. Chronic illnesses that start so young are never easy. It takes so much coping and mental strength just to come to the processing point that you clearly have. I applaud your yap! And hope that you find peace with your body to whatever degree possible and are able to continue your path of finding genuine healthy connection with media.
I wish you the absolute best in your travels.
What difference does it make when we die. We lose consciousness forever and rot. No meaning
Same here, but I was 13, and its pots + h-eds + undiagnosed pain so i feel you- being young with a full life ahead of you and yet your body is breaking down around you *sucks* and thats just how it is. Ily /p, i hope you have a good day today 🫂
Yeah me too people said Omori cured their depression and gave it back to them but for me it mostly cured my depression
I had finished playing Omori and not long after I went to the mental hospital because of my suicidal feelings. I eventually come home to my mom and my little brother. I would then learn that he had picked back up the game and finished it. A few days after we were discussing the game and we start from the beginning. As we are approaching the end he gets more and more upset. He then told me how Sunny and Mari really sounded like us. He goes quiet and starts to cry. I don't see him cry very often so to say I was concerned would be an understatement. He gets up and tries to get away from me but I can't help how pained he sounded. I reach out and pull him in for a hug and he holds me tightly and his crying has turned into sobbing. He doesn't like being touched usually but he was holding onto me like he was going to loose me. I just hold him trying to comfort him and he chokes out "Please don't kill yourself". I shattered, I broke down and told him that "I'm not going anywhere". Since then I continue to be better and get better because I never want him to cry like that again without me being able to hold him.
If you are struggling with the same feelings I had please know that you are loved and help is always there for you.
To the beautiful man who made this video and bared his heart to the world thank you. Grief never goes away but you help me feel less alone in it. So truly and honestly thank you.
oh brother THIS GUY STINKS
Thank you for this story, really. Reading all the comments, dealing with the same feelings, this was the one that really brought me to tears. I’m really glad you’re still here homie
@@AmalekIsComing Damn not even creative bait
When I tell you this comment fucking crushed me, I'm super glad you're still here today 🫶
I’m so glad to hear you’re okay. Know you’re loved, please ❤️ You’re such an amazing person and you can do this. Everyday is just another day that you can get through.
I’ve always struggled with suicidal thoughts and even attempted it once. This video made me realize that if I do go through with it, my parents and pets will not recover fast at all. Even if I do have a rocky relationship with them, I don’t want them to be this sad. Of course the thoughts aren’t just going to go away, but this put something into perspective for me and now I’m one step closer to cutting out the thoughts. Thank you.
Your parents love you more than you will ever know, and would NEVER recover.
A game that I think has a really interesting look at grief is "What Remains of Edith Finch" It is a very tough game as it deals with many deaths and how grief affects a family in particular. It's more of a story driven game as well, where you experience it through the game play elements.
For me after losing quite a few family members it really hit home. Though it also reminded me how the people we love live on in our memories and in the things they left behind. I still cry and smile at the game. I understand if it is one that you wouldn't want to play but if you ever feel like a good cry and feel like you're in a good place to play it, I highly recommend it.
I wish you the best as you continue to walk the path of grief. You should be incredibly proud of yourself for turning such a hard event into a way of helping other people and honoring your daughters memory.
I'll take a look at it! Thank you so much for taking the time.
ooh I love that game!!!!!!
i LOVE that game😭😭😭😭 so underrated
@@Love_Yourself4830it’s a rlly good game you should totally play it!!!
That game really does have a unique portrayal of grief. The lessons it teaches about grief are so important and so often overlooked, what a brilliant game
"I couldn't understand how everyone just moved on, when my world had stopped."
This is exactly what immense grief feels like. I felt the same way when I lost a boyfriend to suicide.
Boohoo cry me a river😹🙏
@@randomrubsterConsidering I have already seen you crying about this, making these immature bullshit remarks a number of times in the comments, I find it odd that you would need help crying a river.
@@m1chr0ma100 what in the hell are you yapping about?!😭🙏
@@randomrubsterI hope you genuinely seek help. These comments are deplorable. You should genuinely be ashamed for what kind of human you turned out to be.
I'm so sorry, I hope your doing better now.
To the people who would ever make fun of this by saying the absolute audacity that he’s using his daughter for views. When in fact, it’s the opposite. He’s doing this to help shed light on the situation of what happened. To open new beginnings, and not stick with the past. He’s doing this as a way of grief. So if you’re making fun of him, just know that.
Yeah, people need to grow up. This father is venting about his daughter's struggles, and I hate it when people think they're "cute" or "quirky" for doing stuff like this. All those people trolling and whining in the comments, you all need to shut the fuck up and act like an adult, not an immature kid.
I hate that there isn't any consequences to their actions because it's online.
Just stop falling for rage bait, simple. Yall wasting your time commenting shit like this that literally 0 people will take the time to read ( talking about those haters ), instead of being productive outside social media. I promise you expressing those words will not make your mental health any better, you are better off watching this video without paying any attention to rage bait. The world aint the same compared to last decade when we are little jits, the world does not tolerate sensitive ass and slow ass people who have no disability.
@@JustCallMeTiff.don’t worry I’m sure most of these people will be tracked in the future and not have a job
Femboy pfp Opinion invalid
I would love to have a father like you. Your daughter is very lucky to have you as one.
Hey. I'm also a 13 year old girl and really struggling right now. I'm so sorry. I just wanted to say this video helped in some odd way. I still feel very suicidal, but this helped. Thanks for sharing.
Hey everyone! I'm working through it with my therapist. I want to thank you all for all of your lovely comments. I now realize that I'm more depressed than suicidal. Thank you all so much for helping me. It means the world to me. Thanks again. See ya later.
Edit: It's getting worse now. Life just gets harder and harder and I can't see a point anymore. My decisions don't matter, I don't matter. I don't know what to do anymore.
Another edit: Life is getting better?? I'm getting to the point where I have good and bad days, which is better. As it turns out, I have clinical depression, which makes sense. I'm getting help now, thanks for all of the comments. It really helps.
my wife was a suicidal 13yo girl once. a classic emo girl story with unforgivingly mean parents. i survived an attempt in 2012 and felt equipped to help her, but I live in fear of my love dying
adults have good and bad advice. never listen to anything they say which makes you feel pressure. any pressure put on you by an adult is false. there is no pressure which naturally occurs in the world.
also never DM adults, always talk to them on public spaces or not at all
I wish the best for you. I was once like you, I'm turning 26 now, and things do get better. I know it's tough, but I hope you can stay as strong so someday your future self can look back at you and be in awe of how amazing you were for getting through it. I'm proud of my younger self for what she went through and I hope you will be too. I'm proud of you for still being here too ❤
yo I was also a suicidal bi 13 year old girl last year
things have gotten better since then (not completely cause im still suicidal but ill take it)
please please reach out to someone (i highly regret not talking to someone bc last year was the lowest point of my life)
honestly, im really proud of you for making it this far bc living is really challenging
I know it's cliche, but if you haven''t already, please see a doctor and therapist if you can! I'm in my 20s dealing now with the depression and anxiety that arose when I was around your age, and I wish I had gone to a doctor sooner. I felt weird and ashamed to tell anyone, like there wasn't anything I could do about it, that I'd be a nuisance to others and that it was my burden to bear alone. But it isn't weird or shameful, and the burden is much lighter with help. You can chip away at it little by little, and genuinely feel like things are looking up. And now I have experienced genuine happiness and content that I haven't felt since I was little! And even though I'm a private person, I've now made it a point to talk about my struggles with anyone who'll listen, because it honestly helps, and you never know, others are suffering in silence too. And even if it is a bit of a nuisance to others, it's important enough for that to not even matter, plus most people care and won't be bothered, so don't hesitate to speak up and take up space. You're still a kid yourself, you shouldn't have to deal with it alone if you are, honestly no one should. Wishing you well!
I hope you are doing well, and I hope you have found love and happiness
I think tweens and teen ages 12-18 are always needing the most support and understanding. I remember living through those ages and it was the worst time period. I don't know how I could've made it out without friends by my side, free mental health resources and the urge to get better to be with them forever. I'm terribly sorry for your loss, 13 is unfortunately young but mental illness doesn't discriminate. I hope you are taking care of yourself and doing better. It's something a parent can never forget but can forgive. I wish you and your daughter's mother all the luck. Thank you for this emotional heartfelt video. 💕💗
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When I saw the title of the video, I immediately was in tears.
I’m sorry about your loss.
this video made me cry honestly, i am so sorry for your loss. i am not close to understanding what it means for a parent to lose their kid, i don’t even know what it’s like to be a parent in the first place since i’m still a teen, but your grief is very clear, i wish you the best in life.
my best friend attempted last year and although she isn’t gone, i still suffer to this day at the thought that she wouldn’t have been here with me now, that i wouldn’t have been able to gift her the matching keychains i bought for us just some days before she tried to take her life. we don’t have the keychains anymore and i’m glad they’re the ones that are gone.
always remember that it’s not your fault. the first thing i did as soon as i knew was blaming myself, i felt like i wasn’t enough, like i had done nothing at all, i thought it was my fault for not being as helpful as i should have been. it’s never true though, trust. i’m sure you did a great job as a father and that your daughter is still looking upon you even now. we have to find something to take out our anger with and most of the time it’s ourselves we take it out on but it’s one of the worst things you could do. i don’t think your daughter would much appreciate that and the same goes for my friend.
never be hard on yourself and remember to always be kind, sending lots of love❤
Oh my God, the story made me cry so much, and I hope that your daughter is in heaven, there, in a beautiful place like her. I am so sorry for your loss of her, but I know this is not her choice, and it is not your fault either. This is fate. We do not know if we will continue tomorrow. Maybe sleep! Tomorrow I am 19 years old and no. I know where I am. When I was your daughter's age, I tried to commit suicide many times, but I did not succeed, and now I am lost. Sometimes I hope that one of the attempts succeeded, but I do not know. This is a complete loss. I hope that you become strong, encourage us, and become a hero. I will never forget that you are one of the people who made me love life.
It is a tough world out there, my friend. I am glad to hear that your attempts did not succeed, since you still have so many things to experience! Happy belated birthday, and I hope you are well now :)
I'm sorry to be that guy, I don't want to offend anyone but to be honest most mainstream religions (based around God) say that if you commit suicide you go to hell. Hunting.
havent even gone 5 minutes in, and in already sobbing,
I lost my dad when i was 8, it really hurts to lose someone you truly love, my dad loved me so much and i never showed how much i loved him too. I regret every single moment of me being distant to him. Im 14 now, and i just turned 9th grade, i miss him so much. He missed my 13th birthday, he missed when i got my period for the first time, he missed when i graduated elementary. I wish he was still here to witness me, my mom, and my brother grow. What hurts me most is, he knew he wont be here much longer because of his illness. He gave out his words to me, my mom, and my brother. And we never forgot that moment ever. It haunts me, theres so many things i wish i couldve said and done while he was still alive. I hope you know that im sure your daughter loved you so much.
I’m so sorry, I hope you’re doing alright 😔
im sobbing at this comment.
my dad passed away when i was 15, im 17 now
i just wanted to let you know i understand and i feel for you ❤ grief is a long and struggling journey, each differing from each other. But one thing is to always remind ourselves we are never alone❤ I hope you are healing well
Oh man, I'm going to call my dad, I'm sobbing
Yooo, we literally have the same life story wtf???
Same age, same time loss and everything 😭 I’m so sorry for your loss, I know how it feels (quite exactly) n I hope you’re doing better now. 🫶
oh man, I am sobbing.
I am so sorry for your loss. I attempted when I was 11. to hear your perspective on what's happened has really changed me.
I think its so amazing that omori was able to give you a new connection with your daughter. I'm sure you'll be reunited with each other someday and you'll be able to talk all about it.
to everyone reading, take care of yourself.
I want to ask what made you want to do it at such a young age of 11? How can a child even bear these thoughts at south a young age
@@109_hassy trauma effects everyone. the youngest kids to the oldest adults.
11 years old? That’s insane man, so glad you’re still here 🙏
If kids didn't know what suicide is they'd never consider it
@@vroomcar6328 ehhh. if you are joking then don't read the rest. but Suicide is a word. its not that hard to just be like (Imma kill myself) and just call it killing yourself. Suicide is a word for a consept. and to not know what suicide is or not have any idea of what is it. you need to not know what death is. and that is just sheltering.
I had lost many before.. I’m sorry for your loss and I wish you good luck forever.
Incredibly brave and touching video. I lost a dear friend of mine similarly in 2018, when he was 22. I'm now several years older than he ever got to be and I've kinda dealt with that loss by not... dealing with it... very much at all. The very last conversation I had with him was about the game "Night in the Woods". He gushed about it and how much it meant to him and how *seen* it made him feel and so I promised him I would play it eventually. Its been years and I still haven't played it, I've been avoiding that grief like an aching tooth. However, fact that you were able to play through such a heavy and confronting game and come out the other side gives me hope that I'll be able to too. Thank you for the video, it helped me let out some tears I had no idea i've been holding back for so long.
My friend died in 2019 from gunshot to the head. I was turning 22 that year, and he died right around three weeks into the new year. I'm now turning 27, I was upset initially, but I still haven't "processed" it.
@18:56 Inserting notes, tunes, melodies, etc of one song into another is called a "Leitmotif" and it's used to present a musical idea or theme. For example, if you come up with a musical piece to represent a certain character, and you're going to have this character show up later as a surprise, you might use a leitmotif of that character's theme inside of a different musical piece that is playing moments before they show up. I remember seeing somewhere on TH-cam, a video analyzing the leitmotifs of OMORI and there is a *TON* of them. White Space is obviously one of the more well known ones, but there are several others, like MARI's theme, the Forest theme, and several more.
Thank you for the tidbit of information!
@@Corneliusaspergerous ..... really? You're going to joke around about someone losing their daughter RL? The only bad taste I see here, is your taste in jokes.
omori is truly an exhilarating and cathartic experience, especially for those who have dealt with loss and grief. i'm happy you were able to play this game and find a sense of connection in it. may your daughter rest in peace ❤🕊️
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i’ve been replying to a lot of comments and i’m getting a bit tired and emotionally overwhelmed, but just know what anyone is willing to vent to me and that your lives are all worth living. you are all loved, everyone is. no matter who you are, you have a purpose and you will find it. i trust that you will
I'm desperately hoping that every rage bait and hate comments on this video gets punished SO excruciatingly. There's nothing funny about this video. I'm hoping the father of this channel and video gets all the things he need to be able to move on to his life and grief, peacefully. ❤
i've seen a couple, and they definitely have, thank god. people really need to understand times to make jokes, and when to not.
I just hope that they learn from their mistakes
Too many people, depressingly kids really like to talk shit because of little to no consequences anymore. This layer of protection that the internet gives as Mike Tyson would say it, "Social media made y'all way too comfortable with disrespecting people and not getting punched in the face for it." One day these guys are gonna piss the wrong person off and they're gonna do something drastic like doxxing and suddenly that layer of anonymity protecting them is gone.
That "Im so happy I got to be your dad" was the most bittersweet thing I've ever heard, and even tho it wasn't meant for me, or anyone else but your daughter, it still felt nice to hear. Growing up my dad was never the kind to be exactly supportive, and tought me nothing in regards of feelings but to keep them to myself, and over the years things just kept pilling up, to the point that during 2020 I couldn't see another year for me, I was done with everything, having lost a year of highschool, my gf, my friends, my whole world was falling apart. But even then I kept going, not for me but for my pets, my 3yo cat and my (at that time still alive) 13 dog, to at least give them the best life I could, and despite him passing out I know I gave him a great life full of loveup to his last day, my only regret is not being there for him in his last moments, but with time I learnt there was no way for me to know the exact time and Later on I reconnected with my friends with who still to this day Im talking and doing stuff with, so don't take the easy way out, as tempting as it may seem, there's always someone who cares about you. Even if you don't think so. Please don't be so selfish to make someone go through that anger, guilt and pain. YOU ARE LOVED ❤.
It was the most corny thing ever actually
@@IAmAQueenCryAbtItplease leave, this is about a parent losing his child. If you can't be respectful about that then leave.
@IAmAQueenCryAbtIt corny or not shut up
We just trying to help the father
@@IAmAQueenCryAbtIt Dog’s used shampoo is cleaner than some failure like you, must be cheaper too. Yeah no, your worth is as much as a fly, a stain
hey man, im so glad you're here with us but i just wanna say, ending your life is not "an easy way out" or "selfish
take care
Your video (and this game alone after I played it) made me really think.. I have been suffering from depression for many years and and I have been tempted many times by thoughts of ending my existence, suffering. With that being said you should NOT EVER blame yourself for the death of your daughter. My parents were always shaming me, were violent and they never took me serious and I can tell for the fact that you are NOT that kind of person. You tried to give the best life to your daughter that you possibly could and I'm sure she appreciated every moment spent with you.
Depression makes you feel like there is no hope for better days because either it is getting worse, or after it got better you land in the same place. I am glad that you always were there and I'm sure you made her see hope even though she at thought that there were none. Sincerely thank you for that ❤
It's so rough when you feel like you've made progress, only to land back on your ass
I ain’t reading all that💀
@@Ih8simonyou’re just afraid no one will miss you when you die. Maybe think about changing that instead.
@@Corneliusaspergerous JERSEY REPRESENT
i'm a survivor of three atempts
i am diagnosed with anxiety and depression since i was 12, now i'm 15
i'm so glad i saw this video, since i'm not 100% cured and i don't know about my future, but this video makes me feel glad for being alive
i'm so sorry for everyone who loss a special person to suicide, i hope all of you get 100% cured from the sad feeling that grief gives us everytime we think about that special person
life is not easy, especially for people who are suicidal
but i hope that everyone who reads this and is on the same situation as me heal from everything
and remember your life is important, even if it's only a little bit or a lot, every life is important in this world
thank you everyone who read this
i hope this incredible daughter rest in peace and i wish hope for this father
life is important, unique and perfect.
My friend on the right side of my profile picture was almost 16 when he ended every possibility of there being a future for him.
It’s been over a year, and we still miss him. On the bright side, his mom is doing better one day at a time
Im so sorry. He seemed like a fun guy
I'm so sorry man >< I'm glad you keep him in your pfp so his face will always be seen and never forgotten even outside of the ones who did know him
@@nottzo He really reeeally was. Though I am finally starting to accept his death and that I have to move on, I still think about him all the time. All the memories of him and I on the bus for marching band or the times in the stands, etc. He was always trying to make people smile and laugh because that always made him happy too. I don’t mean to “pour” stuff onto you/vent, but thanks for reaching out. I like revisiting those memories even though it’s sad he’s gone. I’m 15 myself and I plan to live to see days that he cannot. Maybe even make up for some of his life that he will miss.
Again, thanks a lot. I hope you have a wonderful day and rest of your week (technically next but ykwim haha)
(((Sorry for paragraphing by the way 😅😂)))
@@N0RIAKI_K3KYOIN dishonor
@@6-dpegasus425that’s bait. Try not to interact with them
The lack of empathy and the amount of disrespect in this comment section is sickening. I hope you all can one day find peace in your heart to be kind to people, especially those who died.
And no, disliking omori is not an excuse. You're allowed to dislike the game, but mocking a dead child over that is inhumane.
Be kind to people, you never know what they may be going through.
seriously.. i wish i hadnt went to the new comments. these people make me sick. humanity is lost
>Humanity is lost because people were mean once in a TH-cam comment section or something@@plantys
Grow up
@@EngiGODS358 homie dont know the kind of shit evil people are doing in the world right now. and you’re gonna tell me to grow up. grow some fucking empathy
Yeah seriously anyone in this comment section telling people struggling with this to kill themselves needs to shut up
ok im not going react to these obvious trolls L womp womp get ratioed since that’s the only language you understand you chronically online idiots
seeing a dad so thankful for his kid unironically makes me cry. many dads including and especially my own have anything but care for their children. your channel is such a kindhearted space
What’d you have to put unironically like you cry with irony sometimes
@@RonaldDump_realIm so sorry for laughing but that shits hilarious 😭😭
Boohoo fatherless child,cry some more 😹🙏
I’m genuinely very sorry for your loss
I’m so sorry for your loss. As somebody who almost committed, the idea of my own father - the only one being home at the time - holding onto me and crying over my dead body was the only thing that kept me going. People like you are gifts to this world and I hope the world will be kinder to you.
Hey are thinking abt saying womp womp? Yea I see you there abt to press reply button
I’m really hoping you’re calling out people whose brains are rotted to the point of making fun of me for attempting to - at the age of 11, mind you - and not saying “womp womp” to such a tragic situation.
I pray you find god. You need a purpose in life and he will give you one
@@kozukitonio740 Thank you for your kind words. I’ve already turned to religion and found myself being much happier because of it 💕
@@hayhayslittleworld ❤️
This video was very raw, and very real.
I, too, find myself processing how I feel through media, quite often, including video games. My autism diagnosis says this is likely due to my being unable to understand emotions properly. But I understood the emotions in this video, very well, and from both sides.
I've tried to leave this life behind multiple times. When I was eleven, thirteen, fifteen, and seventeen. (I also accidentally ended up with a pattern of it happening every other year, I suppose. But I'm finally breaking that now, I'm 19, and I'm living.) I played Omori when I was around 16 years old, just after it was released. I was in a bad place, a *bad* place, and was struggling with strong feelings of guilt, just like Sunny. I felt guilt, specifically, for being disabled, both physically and developmentally. I felt guilty that my parents will likely have to care for me for as long as they are able and that I likely will not be able to return the care in their old age.
When I played this game, it took me back to my past attempts. I actually fucked up the first time I played. I didn't check on Basil during the sleepover, and, if you didn't know, he commits suicide if you do not check on him. Having grown to love the characters, I remember feeling a chill all the way down my body, and I paused mid-breath to look at the art on screen. I then, suddenly, was hit with the fact that if I had succeeded in my previous attempt (or the one I tried to commit in the next year), my parents would have found me, just like that. And if not my parents, maybe a friend. A teacher. If I committed away from home or school, maybe a stranger, maybe a CHILD.
I threw up after that from sheer emotional overstimulation, reset my save, and checked on Basil.
Listening to you talk about your daughter in the way you do, voice seeping with just... love for your little girl, I found myself pulled back to that overwhelming feeling I had when I played this game for myself. I realized, finally, that that feeling was the distress from simply knowing that I was LOVED. At that moment, though I couldn't identify the emotion at the time, I had been overwhelmed by suddenly understanding the full weight of love, Platonic, Familial, Romantic, all of it. I had all of a sudden come to understand a fraction of how much people loved me, and how much my death would hurt them.
I've attempted once, since I played Omori, about a year after, during which time my disability was causing me agonizing pain every day. It still does. I remember, after very much surviving my ordeal and sitting alone in the bathroom, thinking to myself. 'This is a mess. This is grotesque. My parents would have found me like this.' And I got up, cleaned up the bathroom, and went to bed quietly.
I now run a blog with an anonymous inbox, where I invite anyone, literally anyone, to talk about their issues. Sometimes I can help, and sometimes I just post their submission on its own without comment, unable to help, but knowing people who follow me and have similar experiences will reply to the post and offer their own help. It is the most fulfilling project I have ever set upon, and I likely wouldn't be here without that sheer luck of survival at 17, but more importantly, without Omori shocking my system a few years ago.
Thank you, so much, for sharing your story with us, and your grief. Simply speaking of your daughter with so much love in your heart, as you do, likely saves lives who are watching. The lives of young people who don't quite yet have the development to grasp the sheer scale on which they are loved.
whats the blog?
beautifully written
I'm so proud of you, you must be a beautiful person, and so worthy of love, care and support. 🩷
I ain’t readin allat
@@dontreplyiprobablywontrespond If you don't stfu. There's a time and a place for everything. Nobody laughed.
Your daughter in these few clips has such a warming smile it could light the entire night sky while the moon was away. Im so deeply sorry for your loss, my condolences go out to all of you sending my love and care❤!
@AmenahMystlove the rage bait
@AmenahMyst don’t act dumb you know exactly what ragebait is
@@IncestLoverW do not legalize incest
@@IncestLoverW also love the ragebait too
@@IncestLoverW and it’s you on a different account lol
I haven't even started the video and I'm already crying
this one. i was 23 seconds in by the time i started crying
I cried heavily watching this.
I lost my brother to what I deem as an accidental suicide. Those ones where you don't plan it, but don't care if something happens anyways. I always felt like an asshole for not taking it as hard as the rest of my family did. There was crying for a few days, sure, but after that I felt completely fine. While my other brother will get quiet and seclude himself, and my mom will break down at any mention of him, my dad resulting to anger at himself and others. I've just felt fine. I could talk about him without a problem, recount what happened to people like it didn't happen to me personally and with complete nonchalance.
But over time, I have noticed a few things. It's harder for me to draw, and I don't enjoy it much any more. I do still cry at our happier memories, as few as there were (our relationship was extremely turbulent, and I will admit over time I grew annoyed and resented him a bit, even treating him badly. And yes, I do give myself the partial blame for pushing him the way he went). I can never enjoy or fixate on things like I did when I was younger, even with some media I know I should/would.
But other than that, I feel completely indifferent, like I always have. I am suspected neurodivergent, and have never done well with emotions, my default state always being what i describe as 'meh' or numb/nothing. Maybe this is my problem with not grieving like everyone else.
In a horrendous way, I sometimes secretly admit that things are better now without him than when he was here. I feel like a piece of shit even thinking/admitting it. Our parents argue and fight less, I can hide stuff and save things for later without it being stolen or broken into. I finally got my own PC and room that I can decorate however I see fit. I finally got my childhood dream of having my own cat. I can buy expensive things without worrying they'll be broken, misused, stolen, or trashed. I can listen to music at night, as I don't need to listen if he's sneaking around anymore. It's... sad.
There's a moose that likes to visit our house every winter. He peaks through my window to say hi and watch me play games. I've fed him apples once. I call him Buddy. It's what we used to call my brother.
I'm so sorry, Devin. For everything.
Some people take a long time to process all their emotions. Some get them all out in a few days, some have a freeze type response where they kinda become indifferent or numb to emotions. In addition sometimes pain will show itself in different ways and not just "Emotions showing."
It seems your grieving is like a "get everything out and freeze" where all your emotions are poured out, and then anything that remains you become numb to. Your pain is coming out in your difficulty drawing, and the lack of enjoyment of things you used to love.
I am not a doctor but I belive those things may be related to depression. Depression isn't just sadness but numbness to several emotions. Like experiencing them in muted colours. They may still be there but they're faint if there at all.
It may also be that saying things are "better without him" may also be your way of trying to process the loss as well. Many people will call it the "bargaining stage" of grief. It may look like "Maybe if I did ___ things would be different", for many. But for you, it may also look like, "maybe it's better without them because look at all these positive changes since."
The way you process is valid and as long as you find support that is understanding and respectful, they may be able to help you process the grief.
Maybe the word you're looking for is apathetic
Fuck this hits hard. I'm also a suspected divergent, and while I havent lost a person, I often times feel like I cant grieve how I am expected to. I lost my cat years ago, I never cried about him unless it was something happy. Maybe its a heavier acknowledgement that things have changed, that I won't be able to experience hearing his pitiful, hardly-even meows (he couldnt meow), or watch him eat strawberry popsicles. He was the first cat I had that I could remember, I loved him. And sometimes yeah I'm a little glad he's gone, he always left "presents" on our doorstep, and was often times causing us troubles. But, he was loved.
But, I think I like the way I grieve.
I hope you're doing well, and keep going, for him :)
How is a suicide accidental? Not tryna bash I'm curious
I'm sorry for your loss, and while it may not feel like it some days, what happened wasn't your fault. I have autism, I feel emotionless when confronted with grief, and it can take years for me to understand trauma. It's okay not to cry, and it's okay to move forward until you are ready to handle what happened. For me grief is like driving down a highway until i need to refuel. I might have a full tank, it might take hours until the next exit, it might take years until I can stop driving, I might even reach my destination without being able to stop at all. Nobody deals with grief the same way. Someone once told me, "you would forgive me for my mistakes so easily, why can't you forgive yourself?" If a stranger on the internet can forgive you without knowing you, I hope you can find the strength to heal. Good luck
commenting this on an alt account since i don’t want him to see, but i have a boyfriend who struggles with suicidal thoughts. i’ve struggled with and overcome those myself, though i never attempted. i’ve always felt so detached from the reality of death and i think this video made that reality hit me like a brick. thank you. i’ll be the best boyfriend i can possibly be for him, because he deserves every ounce of love given to him. just like your daughter. if she’s anything like me, i bet she’s thrilled to see you playing a game she loved so much 💕 may her memory live on
Good luck with your boyfriend.. I'm sure he's very lucky to have you !! I'm certain he appreciates your love and patience. Thank you for sharing
Made a google account for this, respect. You are very strong.
I hope you and your boyfriend the best in this world❤️if I could I would give you both hugs🫂
Wish you and your boyfriend the best
Hey man, I’m going through the exact same thing. I’ve been medicated for a while now and never attempted, but my boyfriend is also struggling a lot with suicidal thoughts. You’re not alone out there, and I hope our boyfriends, and us to heal. Good luck out there
⚠This is going to be an extremely long comment.⚠
This is the first video in a long time where I nearly cried while watching.
Hearing your story has genuinely touched a part of my heart that no other video has and I'm glad it was recommended to me.
I'm sad to hear what happened to your daughter and I'm glad you shared your story. It's genuinely touching to hear you talk about your personal struggles and emotions and it is amazing to hear about a game that touches on a topic like this. I've heard of this game for years and have listened to it's music (final duet in particular), but never gave the game a shot due to the fact it was marketed as a horror game (a genre I rarely touch). Now I want to try it as your retelling of the story has me interested.
I want to share a story of mine as someone who has dealt with depression for a long time.
Ever since I was a kid, I've been battling depression caused by bullying, trauma and all sorts of stuff that would stack higher and higher until it falls and I have a breakdown. Shitty thoughts would gnaw at my mind and a terrifying anxiety that would slowly envelop my body and send me into a panic. It was a struggle everyday for years and it was only getting harder and harder...
I would be open with my family about my feelings, but not friends. My friends wouldn't know why I seemingly became more and more distant, yet I knew that the reason was due to my own mental state slowly dissolving and me slowly becoming more and more emotionless. Some family (not very close anymore) told me I was only like this for attention. Eventually this led to me not being as open with family and I started bottling up emotions. Faking a smile in order to keep those around me happier instead of dragging them down with me.
Unfortunately, that bottle would slowly fill higher and higher until it would explode suddenly and violently.
I still to this day have a hard time releasing pressure from that bottle. (Remember it's okay to cry)
It felt like a hole was being dug so deep that it was seemingly impossible to escape. I constant tug of war against me and my own mind. I always seemed to walk against the edge of my mind, wanting to end the pain. Life only seemed to get harder and harder and I didn't know what to do. My escapes weren't working and it felt like my own fucking shadow wanted me dead. I didn't know how to cope anymore and I couldn't bear those thoughts. Music, art and gaming didn't seem to make me happy anymore. My own progress stunted by my procrastination. I wanted to get better at the things I loved and I wanted to get better mentally. yet it felt like nothing was working. Doesn't help that I didn't know how much of this was caused by hidden factors within my own brain at the time. I did know I had ADHD, but I didn't understand what that meant. (I didn't know I was autistic at all at this point too)
Procrastination hurt me mentally, physically and socially. I didn't know how to stop it and to a certain extent, I still don't know how. I tried therapy, but the two experiences I had were ultimately led to betrayal.
However, things have happened that changed my outlook on life.
3 years ago, a friend of mine much younger than me, committed suicide.
I heard the news during a rainy day and it fucking broke me.
For years of my life, I only knew what it was like to have the thoughts of suicide, but I never truly experienced the other side of that grief till then.
I took a walk in the rain and it was hard to really understand why someone much younger than me would go through with it. I've been too afraid this entire time and yet they went through with it. I felt like I was weak and that maybe my friend was truly the stronger one by conquering his fear and maybe I should conquer it too. I never did. It was always the last line of defense against my own dark thoughts. Fear was the only thing keeping me alive. I was always afraid of suicide when I was younger despite how taunting it looked because I didn't know what was after death. Existential dread is something I've only recently have gotten better at handling, but it was the one thing always holding me back.
But maybe instead of conquering my fear of death...
...with suicidal thoughts on my mind...
Maybe I should lean a bit harder into that fear and try my best to stay alive.
I'm still afraid of death, but the constant dread has slowly blossomed into a constant need to stay strong instead.
I wanted to be strong....
I wanted to be strong for them....
My family, specifically my parents and sisters.
Every year, I fall back into the hole, but it's only a matter of time till I get out of it again. I must stay strong. I want to live for the sake of my family and I want to be around and experience life. I love being around my sisters, my parents and of course my lil goof ball of a dog. I'm only 20, but if I lived this long surely I can live 20 more? Maybe 40? Idk, I'll live for however long life wants me to be, but till then my main goal is to stay strong.
I want others out there to know that suicide shouldn't EVER be an option. You have people that care and depend on you. Stay strong and remember that without those times of darkness...
Happy memories wouldn't be as impactful as they are.
Stay strong, you got this 💖
(If anyone needs someone to talk to, just know I'm here and I care. Don't be afraid to reach out to me. Seriously, I care and I'm willing to help.)
keep going! It's amazing you can keep going just by the determination to be strong. I don't understand what it's like to fall into a hole because I haven't ever fallen into one but all I know it isn't easy to climb out of it. I shouldn't have a big say of what I think of this because Ive never experienced anything like that so all I'm gonna say is good job, your doing extremely good staying strong and people who know what true pain feels like would be very very proud cause I am too, (but remember it's ok to let feelings out sometimes, it makes it easier to fly through life) gl with life :3
i aint readin allat
@@blahdrill nobody is making you read it all, yet you chose to leave a comment regardless.
Why engage with something at all if it's just to express that you aren't going to engage with it?
You are so strong, i hope everything goes much better for you, love u
@@blahdrill I did say it was an extremely long comment lmao.
the fact that somebody made fun of this makes me loose hope in humanity.bro this dad literally lost his daughter due to suicide i hope you have a great day btw sorry for your loss
full on ugly crying because of how much this resonated with me. you articulate your feelings about grief so beautifully and despite knowing the basic premise of the game before watching, it really took me by surprise and it's so masterfully crafted. my condolences and my thanks to you for making this.
@AmenahMystfor you maybe. but it really resonated with me esp since i’ve struggled with suicide for years.
Same, I’m full on crying right now
@@IncestLoverWjust like your useless comment
@@IncestLoverW it is though, have some compassion, this man lost his daughter, are you a sociopath? It truly seems like so my friend
@@stinkythecow7324It's either a bot or a pathetic loser trying to rage bait
God. This fucking hurts.
This is definitely one of the few videos of this length that I couldn't just use as background noise. I sat down, and I watched it all attentively, and it broke my heart. I know I don't know you or your family, but just from the way you speak of her, and the clips shown throughout the video, your daughter seems so sweet, and I'm sorry you had to lose her so soon. I wish you so much luck in healing
God. This fucking hurts. 😂😂🤓
@@xenzeta8673 Yeah? It’s a straightforward expression of emotion. Something _you_ wouldn’t get. Read the room, will you?
@@xenzeta8673🤓
Jesus christ, I saw this while scrolling through TH-cam and was in shock for a couple of seconds. My condolences, stranger
What?
Lost 2 cousins to suicide, both named Jason. One was drunk, and hit his girlfriend. When he sobered up and remembered what he had done, he went to her house, apologized, made sure she was okay, told her he loved her, then walked back to his nanas house (he lived with my mum, her nana adopted him) and hung himself in the garage because he couldn't live knowing he hit her. The other one, on mushrooms, saw his aunty as his abusive uncle and beat her up. He hanged himself as well. They were both 14
that's just so sad... 😭
i feel so bad, i cant believe all this happened, i hope you can recover
@@sseuregi147 nah this was before I was born, but yea in nz you'll hear alot about stuff like that cause we have the highest youth suicide rate in the world
they’re both such good people
Firstly, my condolences for the loss of your daughter. The pictures and clips you shared showed a brightness of her that I'm sure lives on through yourself and those she's loved within her life. I was moved to tears by the end of this video. Suicidal ideation, depression, anxiety, grief are all such complex only human emotions. I first attempted at 14 and have struggled for the last decade. But, this sheds a new light on the battle with the darker parts of oneself when dealing with guilt and grief. Thank you for this video, I'll be playing. And thank you for staying strong.
Every time one of those pictures and videos came up I couldn't help but smile. Wherever she's at now, I hope she knows how loved she still clearly is.
Hope everyone doing good and staying safe. If you need to talk to someone or need help, there are people who care. Sending support and hearts. ❤️❤️❤️
The way you speak about your daughter and the experience you’ve had grieving is really inspiring and I wish I had something like this when I lost my childhood best friend. I’ve struggled pretty badly with depression/suicidal thoughts and I’ve felt the loss of those close to me. Your take on this game is very nuanced and I love the way you make connections with your own experiences. I can tell your daughter loved you very much and you’re an amazing dad. Thank you for sharing your experience and I’m so sorry for your loss.
i hope you are doing well i hope you are ok
@@IncestLoverWYou are sick
@@IncestLoverW Crazy how you're trying to rage bait everyone and you reply with alts that have gacha life videos titled "Why rape is "nawt" bad" Clear child
I attempted about a year ago, a month before my 19th birthday, all because I was in a abusive relationship, unhappy with my body, lost in mind with who I was. When I heard my sisters, my mom, my friends all worried and even crying, I felt pain. I felt like I didn't mattered, but I do, my life matters, everyone's life matters. Whoever is reading this, you're not alone. I'm about to be 20 in 2 days. I defeated the dark place and now I'm in peace with reality. I'm glad I made it and now I'm here, telling this story.
You're not alone.
@@IncestLoverWim just now starting to realize how bad people can be. You are the lowest of the low. Get help or something man.
So happy you’re still here ❤ the comment that may still be here has been reported because you don’t need garbage like that in your life.
You’re now empowered and you’ll make it somehow :) congrats on making it to 20! Here’s to many many more
you are not funny@@IncestLoverW
You had friends that cared? I'll be honest. This might sound rude of me to talk about my own struggles (and I apologize if it does, just ignore this if it is), but that just makes me feel jealous. I wish I had friends. I feel like no one (except maybe some of my family, and not even all of my family in that case) would cry at my death. I wish I just had 1 friend that cared enough to cry if I killed myself. That's all I'd ever ask for. That'd be enough to make me rethink my decision.
@@dyingsanity. I know this comment is 2 weeks old and I'm just a stranger but I really hope you're doing alright.
i know how it feels man. i lost my uncle to the depression of PTSD back in 2020, i had to watch my dad walk out the house in anger as my mom couldnt help but cry every week from the loss. the pain was insufferable and sucked. much love man, lifes good, we just gotta live to see it.
The title alone is enough to drag me to tears I am so sorry for your loss
I made the mistake of watching this at a cafe.
My sister took her own life about a year ago and navigating it has been one of the most depressing but yet beautiful processes (even if it feels wrong to use that word). I have played omori previously, prior to her death and was one of the most beautiful games, but the way you explained it made me cry.
Thank you for this video, it did a good job of putting a lot of my feelings and experiences into words.
Take care of yourself ❤
Hope you’re doing okay man. I’ve never been through something such as that, but I hope and pray you and your family is healing.
@@homecheese8625 thanks man, I appreciate the kind words ❤️
There's nothing wrong with crying at a cafe, come on man
goodness, those ending lines got me tearing up real bad. i love the use of symbolism through this game. the use of the symbolism to establish that your loved ones, will always be watching over you and care for you as mari does in headspace. also, grief. grief is a horrible feeling, but its important to remember your cherished times. although it may be hard, and you miss your loved one, thats just a reminder of how much they were appreciated and cared for.
@AmenahMystwhat a miserable life you must live
@@IncestLoverWstop trying to be edgy your acting like a child
@@IncestLoverW 😨
Over the last 5 years I have experienced things that 14 year old shouldn’t have or anyone for that matter my friend who I had grow up and his sister with died a few days before our freshman year (for context it rocked every one who knew him he was very liked and everyone knew him) two years after that (16) I looked death in the face as, my best friend at the time’s, grandad took his last breath I was the person who told her he was gone after watching (I’m one month away from 20) this video and playing the game along with it you guys have taught me so much in the year I have been playing this game that it is ok to be anger and sad to be disappointed in people for moving on while everyone else has moved on, it’s ok, there is no longer a weight on my chest from these experiences and I have you to thank for that and I am truely sorry for your daughter I hope you have found acceptance and peace after playing Omori because I know I have found mine after so many years
I really hope you're okay man, rest in peace.
I am sorry for your loss, rest in peace.
I’m not gonna lie. I’m a Senior Airmen about to make staff. Without even getting 2 minutes into the video. My heart sank like a stone as I saw that photo of you in your blues and I couldn’t see your face and I realize that, out of no where, unexpectedly. I could be you and I have been through some of the same struggles as you maybe and have felt the same things you felt. I’m not even two minutes in and this just broke me. I’m so sorry for what you’ve been through.
Congrats on SSgt! I hope that my story is something you'll carry with you throughout your career. Whether something terrible happens to you, a peer, a troop, whoever, remember--empathy is the cornerstone of good leadership. From one to another, thanks for your service, and good luck on your journey.
genuinely started sobbing. i don’t like many youtube videos, but man this one got me. thank you for sharing, this is truly beautiful and im so sorry for your loss.
You may not read this, in fact no one but me may, but thank you. I’m 14 and have been battling myself since I was 12. I’ve always been upset with my life, I had a step mom who abused me, a dad who had shared custody with me, a mom who tried her hardest, and what felt like never ending change of step dads. I’ve always kept my feeling to myself,I don’t think I’ve told a soul the thoughts I’ve had, and I still don’t. The thought of out right saying I have been a second away from just ending it all makes me feel sick with myself. I’ve always felt like no one would care, it’d be un noticed or loved ones would cry one day then move on the next. I thought I wouldn’t make a change in the world. When I started to grow more, my dad became distant, making text and calls and visits minor. I know he was trying, but it still hurt. It still does. There was many times I found out the truths in his lies, when he’d tell me he was to busy so he had to cancel our little daddy daughter date to the movies, only to see on my ex-step moms social media that he had taken my half sister (on dads side, ex-step moms daughter) to the movies, or a park. It took a huge tole on me because I spent what felt like my whole life trying to please him. He wanted a boy so I acted like one, I played in the dirt, I shot guns with him, I did everything. But when I did started to grow I enjoyed being more feminine, but he didn’t so much. So when he started to leave, i felt like I didn’t matter. My mom was busy a lot, and my older brother was creepy and would hit me when I’d make a mistake around him, while my younger sister got away with everything along with getting what she wanted. I often got ignored or just flat out treated worse. So slowly I started to accept that I wouldn’t live past 15. I had tried to end it all many times, but I was seconds away before panicking out and not doing it. The worse part is when I just act like it never happened. There’s always one time that will forever remain in my heart. I was thinking of what to write for my note when I got a text, I check it and it was my friend responding to a TikTok I sent her about how there’s alway one really smart friend and one dumb friend (me being the dumb one). I was expecting a laugh or a “lol”, but instead it was just 7 words that made me stop. “Hey I’m actually really proud of you”. I cried a lot that night. Watching this video was hard, in ways were it brought up emotions I thought I had gotten rid of or hid long enough it would go away. The thought of causing my dad, my mom, or any loved ones, friends and all, a pain as strong as grief hurts. The thought of my dad or mom making a video like this made me take a moment and think. If you’re seeing this, and you struggle, please. Reach out, I beg you. You may feel like it won’t matter, to throw it all away, or want an escape, but please. It may have been hard before, it may be hard now, it may even still be hard a couple months from now, but it will get better. And you will make your mark on this world. Please know that you are loved, and you do matter. Think of your dreams, your goals, you need to accomplish them, succeed. Your favorite food, drink, how would you taste it again? Your favorite shows, favorite shirt, pants, the feeling when you find the perfect blanket, that feeling you get when you laugh even if it’s just a bit. Please, believe it will get better, make it happen.
Thank you. This helped me so much 🤍
Thank you
thank you so much for sharing this
Be safe.
Thank you for feeling comfortable with sharing it with people you don't know but I want you to know, even tho it's hard, even if it feels like it's impossible to you, remember that there is always a person that cares about you, it could be a friend or a family member or even a pet, it doesn't really matter who is it, what matter is that you are important for that someone...
You are a human being, and it's ok to just feel that it needs to end but remember, I doesn't ❤
The fact a twitter user saw this and said
"Yup let’s make fun of him for that!!!!!!"
I hate that site so much
Twitter's genuinely heartless. Through and through.
It hurts my heart that anyone could see such a genuine heart-wrenching video and think "this man deserves to be mocked".
genuinely Twitter is the most negative toxic shit ive ever seen a platform can ever be. aside from instagram.
What do you expect from Twitter users
@@umarthaqifmohdafif4639 honestly I wasn’t expecting anything
This site has been always been hell since 2018
it's twitter, you expect the people there to be supportive and loving?
And ofc, we cant post ANYTHING serious or sensitive without people my age (teenagers) posting hate, like wtf, this guy lost his daughter to suicide and they have the audacity to go "L, womp womp"
The internet is so messed up
I'm also a teen but I think it's more 6th graders and old men with nothing better to do.
Edit: i agree it's messed up
I'm a 6th grader and I hate the fact that most kids in my grade are so hateful, it's messed up.
Why are 6th graders watching this. 🤣
@@omensoffate are we not allowed to watch omori? stfu with your stereotypes ❤
@@Cattildo The irony of you to call others "little child," like bitch you ain't seen nothing till you look in that mirror 😂
Imagine hating on a father who have lost his daughter to suicide, that's a new low. I just hope the person who has lost his youth will find peace.