I understand... I had a rhinoplasty at 26 and it destroyed my life. People say it's fine but they don't understand and will never know what it feels like to never be able to look in a mirror and see yourself again or to never have a normal feeling or functioning nose again. It's truly a never ending nightmare. I wish people talked more about this instead of glamorizing plastic surgery and making it look easy. I hope we can somehow find peace
Nada Omar I wish I had an answer. I miss myself everyday too. I'm getting a revision next year but I have no idea if it will help or not. I will pray for you and for all of us suffering. Please Don't hate yourself it's the surgeons who have done this to us ❤️
I had a botched nose job and i don’t even like to go out in public besides work. I have never felt so horrible about myself before and this was supposed to help do the opposite. I can’t breath, im in pain and it looks horrible, larger than it was, bumpy and the tip of my nose is so lopsided that my nostrils are completely different sizes
@@ericaesqueda8194 girl same 😢 it destroyed my mental health and I’m hoping it will even. Out because I don’t want to have a revision and go through this again . My nostrils are so uneven and two different sizes ( one of them is up and the other one is down ) . My surgeon said they were uneven before your surgery which is not the case :(
Girl, I think only people that had rhinoplasty will truly understand especially if you don’t get the results you want. There is nothing wrong with wanting to feel pretty in your own eyes no matter what others say. I only had 1 surgery my results weren’t exactly what I wanted, the bump I had it wasn’t fully removed & hangs a little from the front. I understand you, and my heart feels for you, I’m looking to get a revision myself and I am so scared. You are beautiful and I hope you get your beautiful nose the way you want it. 💜
did you get the revision? i was supposed to have a septoplasty… my doctor decided to make it thinner… now i have an extra long and thin nose, i’m scared but I need the revision 😭 it made my functional problems even worse 😭
This is too true. The fact of the matter is you pay a ton of money for an outcome that is thoroughly discussed with a licensed professional. It's supremely disappointing to be botched.
Consider sending this video to E!'s botched and audition. I think Dr. Dubrow could make your last surgery work. There's been a few people who had a similar situation as you and he helped them.
There is a TH-camr called lorry hill and she had the same complications as you or even worse. Her case was very complicated and she details on what sort of doctor you need to look for reconstructive surgery, she has had several nose surgeries as well but her last plastic surgeon that she went to did an amazing job in reconstructing her nose, she links him under her video.
I can totally relate! I’ve had two nose surgeries and preparing for a third. It’s so mentally and emotionally draining that affects everything you do. It’s like a mental loop of thoughts that’s impossible to silence and I’ve felt like I’m the problem too. Thank you for speaking up because those who have been through this are the only ones that understand how it feels. Xx
This is literally what my 20 year old son is going through and he is waiting for another revision. I completely understand what you’re going through. This video was a year ago and I hope you have reached the end of this nightmare journey and you can start enjoying your life without all the pain you’ve been goi no through. This has helped my son feel he is not the only one feeling like this.
I had a really ugly nose and all of society called me ugly to my face (devastating for a child, especially a female entering puberty who knows looks matter) so I got a nose job but then society comes back just to call me shallow for getting PS! There is a war is heaven over ppl like us. Maybe God only chose Lucifer as his favorite because he was the prettiest…
I’ve had 3 nose jobs and am still not happy. I was told if I were to get a 4th Surgery that it would have to be my last. The surgeon said when it comes to Rhinoplasty anything beyond 4 surgeries you risk a continued bad outcome because Of the scar tissue. Just consider the risk in going forward.
I had 4 all together. first and last was open and second and third was closed to fix my breathing. my nose was crocked on the left side. i got the 4th one from the same doctor cuz i was so upset with it and depressed and he offered to fix it cuz it was bad. he gave me wat i wanted and im super happy now. some people get extra scar tissue and have too much collagen so they get weird bumps and stuff. i had that so he had to use steroid injections to get rid of extra scar tissue, So far its still healing since i had the forth one in November 2021. I will wait until 1 year to see if i like it. If not i will get some steroid injections to fix what is left
You kept saying no one understands but I am 24 and looking into getting my 3rd surgery now. My second surgery was supposed to be it and I couldn't of imagined back then how I would feel if my second surgery didn't work out, but here I am. Please know you are not alone. My nose is very botched. I have thought about making a youtube video about it as well, but am so insecure now. I've had people comment about it. I was bullied growing up because of my nose and so badly just wanted a nose that would fit my face since it was too big. I am hopeful my next surgery will fix a majority of the problems. Everything you were saying, I completely understand. Your feelings are valid. Your opinion of yourself is all that matters in the end.
Feeling confliction in your heart/mind is probably one of the hardest feelings ever. I also think going through rhinoplasty personally, good or bad outcome, it’s a very very difficult surgery emotionally. To see your face different , even if it’s a good outcome, is very difficult. It’s also something you cannot explain to someone without them fully understanding that. I read so much on the emotional impact from rhinoplasty and although I mentally understood others saying it was very difficult for them , you can’t feel that until you personally go through it. I hope you find peace in whatever decision you make.
-I’m one month in recovering from my rhinoplasty. I feel for you. You’re not obsessed. You have every right to feel everything you are feeling. You went in to get it fixed multiple times to fix a certain problem, all you wanted was for it to be fine. No one is going to understand your frustration and what your going through it was out your control. I’m glad you’re posting this video because theres a bunch of videos where they don’t show this side of rhinoplasty.
First of all, Allison you have beautiful eyes and very symmetrical features, and are absolutely beautiful. I am sorry your doctor said your looking for "perfection". I totally understand your looking for your own 'perfection' as in what you imagined your nose to look like and after surgery its supposed to fix the concerns and insecurities you have with your nose. I advise you to WAIT!! This is the first video I've seen of you and I thought you looked so pretty I thought this was the final surgery you had and were giving like a past share time thing. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing from the bottom of your heart. I don't know what other concerns you have with your nose now, but if you want to get another surgery, wait. Your nose needs time to heal and recovery and it will take a few years from now to reach the results from the last surgery. This way your nose cartilage and structures are strong enough to undergo another surgery. If your nose is weak now after having a recent surgery and you have one again, it will get worse because your bones are too weak right now. I have done a lot of research! Also have had a similar experience to you.... Remember your beautiful and to be thankful for all that you do have!! Stay positive. You got this.
I got liposuction on my stomach when I was only 22 years old and got botched. I’ve been wearing a one piece bathing suit ever since. Not to mention, I was skinny (only 119 pounds) and had a very nice body. All I needed was a little fat here and there taken out and he completely destroyed my stomach with bumps. I went through a very dark phase in my 20s. 3 revisions later and it’s still not good. It has taken years to accept it and see light at the end of the tunnel. It takes time and life will get easier. I know it sounds cliche but it could have been a lot worse. Your nose looks fine!! Youre still really beautiful. What helped me out a lot was working on myself. Shifting my attention. At the time, I started going to school and focused on getting my degree and other goals. This helped me heal and be more productive rather than sitting around thinking about what others will think and about my appearance. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise. Many there’s something gods trying to teach you here. Hope you find happiness.
I had a rhinoplasty and an otoplasty in 2017, I was 25 years old too. It has literally ruined my life. First, I developed a debilitating nose condition called Empty Nose Syndrome that causes paradoxical suffocation 24/7. After the cast was taken off, I realized something was wrong with my nose right away. it was too dramatic for me to take in. My nose was collapsed and narrow, and on top of that, it was crooked to one side. I developed depression and anxiety. My ears I miss so much, but now I have "telephone ears" (overdone) and I feel like I look so hideous. This procedure literally took my life away. I miss my old nose and ears. I miss my confidence. I'm getting help from a therapist and I hope to come out stronger after all this adversity. Thank you for making this video. I felt alone for so long, still do, but I'm trying to push through
You are absolutely valid in the way you’re feeling - this isn’t about vanity it’s about recognizing yourself and that doctor was so unprofessional in saying that. I really hope that this final surgery works out for you
I have so much appreciation, love and admiration for those who can be so vulnerable like this. For what it’s worth, you’re beautiful, and you being so raw right now only adds to that beauty.... thank you for this ❤️
You’re so gorgeous girl I would have never known you were having an issue with your nose! Your pain is justified but I want you to know you’re insanely beautiful. I get what it’s like to be self conscious about something beyond your control. It hurts, and it hurts even more when people say things like “it’s not that bad” and “there’s worse things in life”. They’re not wrong, but your pain is valid and people shouldn’t try to take that away from you! You’re gorgeous and I’m sorry you’re going through this. Sending love ❤️
i’ve had an otoplasty and a rhinoplasty 3 months ago and i’m not happy with the results either. i can relate to that feeling so much. i don’t think anyone who doesn’t go through this can actually understand how we feel. hopefully at some point we find some peace and feel happy again. sending you so much love.
You are a super beautiful woman. You are more beautiful than the 90% of the population. Just see it. I had a nose job 2 days ago. The closing documentation mentioned the cause was nasal deformities. Which is true, I was born with a very asymmetrical thing one cartilage is way bigger then the other pointing down one nostril rotated deviated septum.. I always got away with it, but I also only could see my nose in the pictures. I know what you mean, trust me your nose still looks way more natural and symmetrical, than what mine was. I don't know how it will turn out for me yet, but this is it, I'm already going to be 32, lived half of my life like this, someone could ask why did I need this... still, just because I always felt insecure and I gave it a chance.. I didn't want to grow old not even trying. Trust yourself, you are very pretty. If I were you I would give it some time, and if you decide to go again, definitely go to a totally different guy. I know it doesn't matter what people say, and you only can see how it makes you feel, but I must say it is really good the state of your nose.
I totally can’t even imagine or comprehend the extent to which you feel around your nose. I just wish that you can give yourself time to heal from all the botched rhinoplasties you have endured and reconcile with yourself. Give yourself time and when you begin to feel more comfortable and confident make your decision. Just don’t rush into another surgery and let yourself heal first.
i found out two weeks ago that my nose was broken as a child from my parents’ neglect. i repressed the trauma. i lived with a hockey nose it over 30 years before i even had time to get a break from working my whole life to ask a surgeon why my nose and septum were warped and deviated. trust me, i understand. but i have to say, being an ‘influencer’ and a ‘media personality’ and a ‘vlogger’ or what not, you are 100% externally focused. you are young. stop getting surgery. go inward. go forward. focus on something positive. if you don’t have breathing problems, especially, get over your nose.
Exactly . I want my god given nose back every day . I was convinced to change it for breathing and it didn’t work . Literally so many people tell me it’s not bad and to get over it . They don’t understand the weight
Baby. I can’t even imagine what you’re feeling. No one will ever understand how you feel because no one has walked in your shoes. We are our worst critics, and having this insecurity as a woman breaks my heart for you. I know you won’t believe us, but you’re beautiful. I TOTALLY get what you mean by not liking your nose because it’s not natural. I know it’s unbearable, and I am sending so much love to you.
The hardest thing is to have others discredit the way you feel about your own body. If a doctor says it is safe and it is something that will make YOU feel good about yourself, then do what you need to do baby girl. It was exhausting for me to try to explain to people my insecurities after i broke my nose and why I was choosing to fix it. You will always feel better doing what’s going to make you happy 🥺 I’m sorry this process has been so hard for you
She is beautiful of course! But she feels like she doesn’t look like herself now because of her nose break which lead to her surgeries. It’s so upsetting, I can only imagine it would be an extremely dissociating experience. Dissociation is such a bad thing, you feel lost and not like yourself. It makes you depressed and nothing can really help it, to feel this Everytime you look at yourself, I can only imagine would be horrible, I only hope you can get a nose job that will make you feel like you, even though it won’t be exactly the same as your old nose.
It’s one of the worst things fathomable..honestly you can’t actually fathom it without living it. Even being naturally less physically attractive beats being unacceptably and unnaturally altered. Now imagine being both..(in my case).
Is there a reason why there’s so many complications :( I’ve had one nose job and I can’t imagine having to have five, emotionally draining. Are they making it more of a point to fix your problems with breathing rather then the cosmetic part of it? Do they at least explain to you why you’re not seeing the results you want, i know some ppl have thicker skin on their nose but I doubt that’s the problem?? I’m sorry you have to go through this, everything will align
My heart ached watching this video. Only people who have had rhinoplasties before will know what it feels like to have your nose become such a central point in your life. I am so sorry for everything you've been going through. I am not sure if you have already proceeded with a 5th revision, but I would recommend looking into Turkish surgeons as I have seen a lot of people in similar situations get great results with them. There are some who specialize in revisions and often have patients who have been operated on even up to 6 times before. Dr Huseyin Balikci is one that comes to mind. Plus they are way cheaper and way more experienced. To be clear, I have not had any experiences with this doctor personally but there are lots of videos on his Instagram and many accounts sharing their journey, and there are many many other skilled surgeons as well. I wish you the best with whatever decision you make, and I hope one day you are able to look at yourself past your nose and see the beauty others see in you!
i got my nose done in turkiye as well!! i am 1 month post op and it is getting better and better. I am starting to fall in love with my nose and feel more confident.
Don’t feel bad for what you’re feeling. Please don’t apologize for feeling what you’re feeling. This is a big deal don’t let anyone make you feel like it’s a small thing when it’s clearly a big part of your life. Praying for you and that this passes and you’re able to move forward.
Hi babe, this bad part in your life will pass.. Not today maby but you can work on your thoughts. I went trough the same. And have also chronic pain a operation. And pain is soo bad. Another thing to work on. Stay more relaxt.. try to feel peace in how it is now. I do understand you but you are not the only one that goes to bad things in life. Remember it can be worse. Think about carr accident, depression, leggs amputations, woman who goes trough bad vagina surgery with a lot of pain. Maybe you can think about that. Work on your thoughts. You are still looking beautifull with this nose. Come on girl you can be happy. Talk to a therapist and see what you will do surgery wise... that are two diffrent things.
I’m only 3:41 into this video but I needed to comment. Babe I’m so sorry you went through this. I had my nose done in 2017 and I still sit and analyze it. I hate seeing you upset, you’re gorgeous and I can tell you are beautiful on the inside as well. Ily and I hope you get all this mess worked out 🖤
Must be uneven. A beautiful nose you would not analyze. They sometimes tell us swelling takes one year but you can absolutely tell unevenness (for example) as soon as the cast comes off! These PS who botch us and their fellow union members who protect them will face God one day and boy am I glad I’m not them.
They’re apathetic and evil people the majority of the time..think about it, you have to have a screw loose to feel confident messing around with peoples’ faces day in and day out..
Thank you for making this video, I recently got a nose job in November and regret doing it so so much, your video made me cry because I can relate to you in the way where I don’t feel comfortable in my own skin anymore and want my old nose back. It’s so difficult to deal with, i hate looking in the mirror. I can’t even begin to imagine how your feeling though, thank you again for making this so others don’t feel as alone.
I feel you girl. I was born with a cleft lip and palate and have had over 20 surgeries... still not quite right but I’m learning to live with it. Having all these ops on your face can really affect how you see yourself and I feel your pain 💞 stay strong xx
Have you see Lorry Hills nose job video? She talked about her botched nose jobs and how she was finally able to get her dream nose doing alot of research through actual doctors and not online reviews.
Girl, I completely understand where you're coming from. My initial surgery was botched beyond measure. The surgeon cut out all supporting cartilage, gave me a deviated septum, and sliced my nostril, which resulted in caving in and a scar. I had to wait the year and am recovering from my second, but it may appear I need a third. I ended up catching a rare bacteria in my second surgery and it started to eat and affect the cartilage in my nose! I wish I NEVER had a rhinoplasty to begin with, biggest regret of my life. I, too, have to worry about camera placement and different profiles on each side of my face. I also have people telling me I never needed it, yadda yadda. They don't get how this affects the every day life. I feel you girl and I'm praying for you. 🙏
Give you all the strength you have. Happend to me. A surgeon of Milan fixed it thanks got. But… my youth years are gone… modelling career destroyed, me depressed, and I’ll never will have the nose I could have had… I hug you with all my strength. Wish you all the best.
I broke my nose three years ago and I got indications for surgical operation. I had a surgery 6 months ago and I can't breathe right now cause doctor cut off my nostrils without my knowledge and said that "it will looks better". But it's not. I'm a singer and for me it's a tragedy. Every day I don't want to wake up and I don't want to live in this nightmare..
I know how you feel my doctor went different than what I wanted , I wanted a “natural” nose to match my face but he gave me an upturned nose and my nostrils are so much bigger I miss how I looked from the front🥺
Whatever// I didn’t really take my time I kinda rushed into the doctor because I wanted my nose done so bad... so it’s my fault. I went to Mexico and he seemed to have a lot of experience, I seen his work and I really liked it... but he went against what I asked for... and I’ve already a year post-op ... I think I’m probably gonna see if I’m able to get revision done here In the US☹️
If you’re in Mexico try searching for Otorrinolaringologos. They’re specialized surgeons in nose, ear and throat. I know that sounds silly but they are specialists and they know your nose should fit your face and will definitely not leave you with breathing problems. They know best.
I completely understand your sentiments. My initial surgeon ruined my nose. Despite undergoing two additional nose surgeries, my nose still appears deformed, as if I were in a car accident or something similar. Facing the mirror every morning has become unbearable. Instead of seeing myself, I see the results of these operations. I feel as though I am trapped in the wrong body.
Interesting that you feel trapped in the wrong body. I’m ‘fortunate’ I have bad eyesight which no ophthalmologist will address bc what I see in the mirror is far better than what it is pics! In HD pics I’ve rarely seen someone uglier. Even when I tell psychs I have low self esteem and that affects my major depression and mental health, they don’t care. I guess bc they’re glad someone looks worse than they do. Life can be very challenging for ppl like us.
Hey, I've had a similar experience with my third nose job. I feel for you, I decided not to go with another surgery considering I was obsessing over my insecurity. I know that's easier said than done but I found comfort outside social media and selfies. I started talking to a therapist and think that's another path you should consider as things aren't always black and white "nose job or no nose job" consider talking to a mental health professional it can at least guide you on to what's next for you. Take care
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I feel you, nobody understands only who goes trough this. I had 3 botched nosejobs, and gonna need a 4th one. I'm 25 years old, and it's the worst nightmare. Everyone judges me and say it's in my head only but I have bumps and everything in my nose. I. went trough a lot and spent a fortune already. Nightmare!!
You are so STRONG and brave for posting about this! Give yourself time to heal even though you are upset about it. This is the first video I've seen by you, and you are so beautiful. You got this
I hope nobody comes for me and says i'm jealous but i need to say this and i hope i help her and she wakes up because she is not botched at all when you put her next to the really obviously botched ones. It's just that it's not her nose pre accident. First of all she needs a hug because my comment may be a bit harsh but it's the truth. I want to understand but i just can't😣She keeps on saying she wants to go back but yet here she is on her way to a 5th nose surgery. Who knows she might be regretting it again and making another video and on the way to her 6th nose job. She needs to know when to stop and seek counselling. She needs to understand she had an accident and she cannot get the SAME nose.She should see Christina Villegas' botched nose, now you can see where a nostril is deflated and her presurgery nose was perfect. That is what i call botched. I first saw the video where she was on her way to her 4th surgery and at that point i thought she was pretty and her nose was ok to me and wayyy better than mine but she was still not happy. I was literally screaming 'Darling don't do it!!' What if the 5th surgery really botches her nose for real and she cannot breathe this time😣 This part is going to sound harsh but she needs to understand that people are going through much more disfiguring accudents than just breaking a nose and they come to terms with it. Some are burn victims,Some are having another persons face sewn onto where their face used to be, some have horrible scarring etc. Pls Darling im talking to you as a 40 yr old lady to a younger beautiful one. Learn to appreciate that you are blessed with a nose that can smell and that you atleast have a nose. Pls seek counselling instead of a 6th surgery.
A plastic surgeon who specialized in faces once told me, carving a nose is not like carving a dead tree as the nose continues to change organically and because of this the outcome cannot be certain. I thought it was a really good analogy and that everyone considering plastic surgery should hear that because there's no guarantee that you're going to like the result. Not only that but living with a new face that you cannot accept as your own or see yourself as so unrecognizable, the psychological issues that can pursue it's often not worth the risk. I had all kinds of issues with my nose at 17, so my adenoids were completely removed. I literally could not breathe through my nose, looks-wise my nose was nice I had a slight bump that I wasn't too happy about that developed when I was older but that's about it. All the parts that were taken out didn't actually fix the reason that caused them in first place. Having the surgery at seventeen to fix my breathing became a nightmare as the air would now burn my nose, as if you were cutting onions. My eyes would tear up every time I go outside, by the time I was 22, I developed extreme Sinusitis and allergies. When I went back to visit him & see what I could do, I discovered that he had done things that he had no permission to do. In fact I was really strict about not wanting any other alterations. At that point so many years had passed there's nothing I could have really done about it. Knowing what I know now and what I experienced, I would have never done the surgery but I think as a teenager you're not really thinking about all this stuff as you do when you're older & many take advantage of that.
Hey Allie ❤️ I obviously don’t know what your exact situation feels like. But I do know how lonely it feels to be going through something like this that no one else can understand. I also know how frustrating it can be when people try to minimize it or shame you for what they perceive as caring too much about looks. I genuinely hope your next surgery results in everything you’ve been wanting. Good luck girl 💕
I get it. I broke my nose years ago and finally one day decided to get it fixed. I never liked my nose to begin with. I asked the doctor to make my nose nice and straight. That was all I asked for. He cut off the tip of my nose and twisted the tip. My face looks disproportionate because my nose is too short and my nostrils are prominent. I haven't felt attractive since my surgery.
I understand how you feel. I hate taking pictures and seeing it. You said “Someone elses mistake” I felt that. I try to block it out. Avoid mirrors on days I don’t feel confident. Especially when my phone camera flips the image and I see something different that what I’m seeing in the mirror. It hurts me inside.
This is the first time I've watched your channel. I'm sure you won't see this comment, but I just had to say: you're awesome and very beautiful. No really...you're AWESOME and BEAUTIFUL!! I know what it's like to almost obsess over something nobody else understands or sees. I'm sorry you had a shitty experience. That doctor who said that was wrong. Who is he to determine your happiness? Or anyone? You've had a traumatic experience, and your feelings are validated! Four surgeries is a lot for anyone. And you didn't ask for this to begin with. I know it's pointless to hear from a stranger, but it's not only your looks that make you stunning. Best part about you is, you have BOTH. I promise you, nobody looks at you and thinks you're not beautiful. I just want you to end up happy. No matter what that means. I hope you find it, and I'm confident that you will. You're still so young. My advice (you didn't ask for lol) is just to wait a bit longer. Then make a decision.
all your feelings are valid, try not to worry what other people will say about how you shouldnt care or that youre obsessing over it, its your face youre allowed to feel what youre feeling. you are not striving for perfection you are striving for something thats adequate and something that you wont HATE. you are striving for happiness and thats it
I understand where you are coming from totally , your feelings are super valid and don't let anyone make you feel otherwise ! I got a rhinoplasty in 2017 when I was 21 and it was botched ! I have had to live with a botched nose for 3 years. During this 3 years my self esteem has been shot, I don't take pictures and the thought of taking pictures gives me so much anxiety. Sometimes have to take pictures for like my school ID or other various reasons where its a must and I am just heartbroken. Last year I didn't got to thanksgiving dinner because I didn't want to be forced by my family to take pictures because none of them know what I am going through. I have gotten distant from so many really god people in my life because of the insecurities I face with my nose. I am getting a revision next month and I am super nervous not even of the pain just of like what if it does not turn out right what will I do ? if it doesn't turn out right I wont be able to take pictures at my graduation , wedding pictures , pictures with my future kids, of happy times in my life! I understand you to the fullest. I am praying for you ! sending you light and love ... thanks for making this video I don't feel as alone!
@@itssssj Not worse ... but just not as neat of work that it should be given the amount of money I had to pay .. the surgeon I went to is very well known for their work and they just did not deliver the kind of results they claim they do
Came across this channel (and video) sorta late. About a third of the way through the video and I just have to say... when I was in high school, I went to get a hair perm to make my hair straighter (which I'd get regularly once a year) and bc the stylist wasn't paying attention, it was left on for too long and literally half of my hair was burnt to a crisp. I walked into that salon to make my slightly wavy hair straighter and walked out with crunchy, breaking hair. Some might think it's first-world problems (and it is...) but I became so depressed that I couldn't even attend school anymore. The salon gaslit me by saying my hair was probably too dry for the treatment (no it wasn't) and bc I was young, I accepted their gift bag of moisturizing products and walked out. I can't imagine a DOCTOR using those same gaslighting techniques for a permanent surgical procedure. To say you were striving for perfection instead of owning up to it... ugh that just hit a nerve.
I’m going through the same thing .. exactly as you are. I’m worried and scared and some days want to crawl in a hole. But we have to be hopeful . I think you are beautiful and I don’t want you to feel bad that you are getting your 5th surgery.. if it’s something you need. .You need it to feel at peace . I’m sending my love to you 🙏🏻
You're completely right that no one knows or will understand what you're going through. I had no idea that your last nose job didn't turn out the way you expected. I was so happy that you were gonna get your surgery last year because I have watched you for about 3ish years and have seen you talk about how much it has been a burden on you. Everyone deserves to feel comfortable in their own skin. I do hope you will be able to be happier and more confident in the future. For now I hope you have a support system and they're there for you. Sending love
Strive for perfection, there is nothing wrong with wanting the nose that u want when ur the one paying for it. Take ur time & look till u know it's the right surgeon for u. My nose is broken too so I sort of understand where u are coming from & u will get what I want at the right time just take it easy. Regardless of how u feel about how u look beauty really does come from the inside.✨
Girl I felt your pain in this video...I'm so sorry what youre going through. No one needs to understand how or why you feel the way you do for your feelings to matter and be valid. This is YOUR face, YOUR decision and what you want matters. I am here for you!!!! Girl you are so much stronger than you may think. -xoxo youre not alone
I’ve had two rhinoplasties so I can totally relate to this video. There really aren’t many people out there that can relate to us. After my first rhinoplasty, I was devastated and after the second, I also was devastated until the swelling went down about 6 months later and now I’m okay with it. My nose is NOT perfect, I don’t love the way it looks from one side and I have a small bump on one side. But overall, I am grateful that I look normal, it’s such a big improvement from my first surgery and I also don’t want to go through surgery again because I know how easy things can go wrong. I think you look beautiful but I know how it feels to just feel like your nose just isn’t “you”, to look in the mirror and feel like you’re looking at a stranger. Hang in there and you never know if your nose will continue to change over time. If you decide to go through with another surgery, I travelled to a very experienced surgeon in south FL for my revision and he was great.
Hi! I know this is 3 years old but I am hoping you see this. Who did you see in South Florida to have fix it? I live😮 down here and looking into revision myself.
I understand entirely what you mean by this video. I went through almost the exact same thing as you! I had broken my nose as a kid and it healed with a huge bump in the middle so i looked like a rhino, so i got it fixed when i graduated high school. The doctor took the hump down way too much and it left me with a swoop which i hated more than the bump. So i had a revision and it was almost exactly the same. Finally i got a third surgery with a different doctor where he took a piece of rib cartilage and used it to prop the bridge back up and it took a few years to heal and finally i’m satisfied. Im 27 now and my first surgery was when I was 18 so it took 9 years to get right. What’s frustrating is everyone else didn’t see the problem, or to them it looked fine but it wasn’t fine to me. I was obsessed and i couldn’t move past it. I wasted my college years fretting over it. I get why you’re so frustrated when everyone else thinks it’s all in your head.
i completely relate, i broke my nose when i was 7 years old and i had to have an operation to have it fixed, but now i’m 16 and my nose has grown a lot since then and it’s like bent to the side and has a bump on the tip, it’s horrible i hate it, i really want rhinoplasty but i’m so scared about ruining it even further. like you, i hate seeing my nose in pictures that i haven’t taken, i always have to pose a certain way for it to look decent, it’s so hard to accept. i’m so sorry love
I'm walking around with someone else's mistakes on my face :( I'm so sorry. I really hope you find a solution and are at peace soon. I've heard Turkey is a great place for Rhinoplasty.
Not quite the same, but in March I got a large chunk of my lower lip bitten off in a dog attack. I totally get what you mean about just wanting your original face back. My face healed better than I ever expected it to, but I definitely miss the old me. The attack also broke my nose and has left a big lump on the bridge of my nose. I've thought about trying to get it fixed with a nose job, but honestly hearing your experience... I can't even imagine. I wish you the best of luck, and I hope that if you decide to go through with the next one that you get the results you wanted all along.
The same thing happened to me and it's hard to get my head around it. I don't want to do anything. I'm so angry at my doctor. I want him to be ruined just like he destroyed me and my life.
I had a nose job because I had a broken nose and I thought I did a great research but the result is depressing! My nostrils are uneven, it goes to one side, one nostril is a lot higher than the other, and I can’t breath through one side :(
I don’t think you’re crazy or asking for anything that’s too much. I think all of your concerns are valid. And I know it probably doesn’t matter but your nose looks entirely normal to me and doesn’t look like you’ve had any surgeries or need any.
I feel so so so bad for you ): I can just FEEL your pain. I may not understand, but I can totally feel how hurt you are. If you do go through, please, please, find someone who specializes in RHINOPLASTY RECONSTRUCTION. do NOT go back to any of the same people. Find someone well known, who has great work, and look at any pictures of other patients they have. Don’t go to just one consultations, go to MANY. Don’t rush into this, I know you’re in pain and it’s hard, but take your time on finding the right doctor. I’m sending you every once of love and good vibes. You are INCREDIBLY STRONG.
I feel ur pain, I've had 2 nose jobs and of course, I'm still very dissatisfied with my nose as well, and I find that whatever is happening in my life that's not going my way, like no current girlfriend my girlfriend of 4 years just left me or having trouble with my career etc... I always find it very easy to blame my botched nose job. I feel I used to have a beautiful refined pointed nose, but now it's kind of round and lacks shape & refinement, I too wish id just have my original nose from birth. I would go for a 3rd but I'm too afraid of the General Anesthesia & also of the results not meeting my expectations. thank you Allison for your testimonial it's helping me to tolerate my botched nose.
That surgeon should put in front of a panel and questioned. How dare he undermine you. Would you say which surgeon it was ? So sorry your going through this and people who judge should pxxs off. Perfection, listen it’s your nose your entitled to your perfection honestly. Sending you love xx
I hope your revision rhinoplasty is with Dr. Aaron Kosins, from the things I’ve read and seen on his page, he really looks like he’s the best. Best of luck!
🥺🥺ugh love, I feel for you. I understand completely.. I think if you’re really struggling with the appearance of your nose and if you have it in you mentally to go through another surgery then do it. Like you said coming out of this it will only make you stronger and more confident. I feel like this has already forced you to be more vulnerable and raw and that is a beautiful thing. Sending my love to you. Remember that despite all, you’re incredibly beautiful and whatever you decide is the right decision.
I 100% can relate to how you're feeling. I broke cartilage in my nose when I was 12 or so and got my first nose job to fix it when I was 21 by a prominent surgeon. It looked beautiful for a month or so, then my nose started getting swollen and crooked. I struggled with it for years then got the strength to do it again. Got my second a few years ago. It looked amazing, then the crookedness came back (not as bad as the first time). I also had pain for a year because of scar tissue. The doctors that are so nice and welcoming initially change personalities when you have a problem with "their work." My profile looks different on both sides. I wish I could have undone what happened originally and have my natural nose back. Nobody notices it more than us. We are our own worst critics. I know it may not help much, but you look beautiful. It looks natural. Your video really helped me and I hope you find peace❤️
I completely understand, I recently had a rhinoplasty in Istanbul turkey, it completely ruined my semester so far, I had it done last winter break, and is been a month of recovery I realized I cannot breath properly as my nose bridge is sliding to the left side of my nose.
@@Ambersworld03 wait that’s actually crazy that that happened because he’s ENT certified. I have a appointment with a diff doctor in turkey but I’ve done a lot of research on him.
My nose has been my biggest embarrassment my whole life. I'm a black woman and was born with this thing on my face. I've always been scared of surgery but I'm in the right mind place to go for it now and I need help finding a good doctor for ethnic rhinoplasty. Please feel free to recommend me few. I'm so sorry for what you are going through but I know that all too well.
I think you should feel lucky and appreciative that you are a beautiful person, inside and out. There is no need to focus small portions of your body. This is the time to let go and start loving yourself for who you are and what you have.
Hi Allison, Thank you for this video. Your story strikes a cord with me because although our stories aren't quite the same, there are some similarities. I've hated my nose ever since I was 13. Now looking back at pictures, my nose had a tiny bump, but there was really nothing wrong with my nose. When I was 15, I thought I could fix it myself. It's one of my worst regrets. I grabbed a hammer, put a towel in my mouth, and went to town trying to "fix" my nose. I broke it and left it pretty bad. It healed up bad. It was left very bumpy and crooked and I hated it even more. I understand some of your pain because, I too, feel like I can't close this chapter in my life. I just want to look in the mirror and see my nose and be fine with it. I just wish my nose didn't consume my everyday life, but it does because I hate it so much. I am struggling so much with my nose, especially right now. I got a nose job last August when I was 23...and here I am... still miserable. Almost a year later, and I still hate my nose. My worst fear came true. I was so afraid of getting out of surgery and still hating my nose because the whole point of getting plastic surgery is to "fix" the concerns I had and it's like a never ending circle of pain that never ends. There's this little bump on the right side of my nose bridge that is bothering so much and I've gone to get it filed down, but it;s still there and I just feel so discouraged about my nose in general. You explained it best -- I just want this chapter to be over so I can move on and enjoy my life without having to always be consumed on my nose. I wish you the absolute best and do what you feel is right for your sanity and happiness. I hope you will be able to move on from this pain.
I do understand you! I also have issues with my nose. Seeing this video made me feel like im not alone on this feeling. I think we all have that one thing we want to change, but the risk is so big and the effort so huge its so scary to even think or try. Ive been having a breakdown and I think I can grasp the idea of how you felt here, i know ive been feeling hopeless for some time now. Hope you are feeling better now, considering this video is kinda old.
Seriously my nose was really awful and i got my nose job in Iran (the capital of nose job surgery in the world) it was cheap and now i have the best nose believe me,it’s smaller ,no bump and also natural contouring on my nose...if u wanted more info I’ll be glad to help you out...
I completely understand you because I have been through the same thing and I just want to have a normal nose. I finally decided to get a fourth surgery but I am terrified it will not improve.
Some surgeon just see patients as bags of money. Even when they can't fix it they say they can. I got botched too by the butcher Bart Van de Ven so I know how you're feeling.
I’m sorry for all this!! I had septoplasty in February and after the surgeon said “I made it smaller, you’ll be really happy”. I didn’t want a cosmetic change, I wanted to breathe. Plus, she gave me a fatter tip and I feel like it took away all my ethnicity and character. I want to get it fixed and look like myself again (and this was at a university hospital). I understand you 😘😘
Your feelings are valid, I get it. Thank you for sharing such a vulnerable n honest part of urself. We’re judged for being “vain” or “superficial” but we’re only human. We all wanna feel attractive, loved, confident, and just good in general. I wish u the absolute best✨✨✨💕🥰
I understand, perhaps not to the same extent.. but I have had 2 rhino-septoplasties by the same doctor and both of them turned out terrible. I know many people who have gone to him to fix their noses and deviated septums, as he is an ENT and Plastic surgeon facial specialist. So of course I thought he would be perfect. Wrong. I've come out having a completely different nose in which parts of my nose that I told him not to touch, are changed. My septum is still deviated and impacts my breathing, my nose is crooked, and my tip, which use to be my most favorite thing about my nose, is asymmetrical and the shape is ruined. It feels terrible every day knowing that this was my decision to have the surgery at the age of 15/16, just to regret it for the rest of my life. I like the way I look, but I cannot get past this terrible nose. It feels like it haunts me every day and has caused me extreme anxiety. Even if my nose wasn't the best before, I would rather have THAT knowing that it is MINE than have to go through all of this just to hate it and be depressed every day because of it. I understand when you say it is embarrassing to come to terms with all of this plastic surgery and STILL be so unhappy. It went from wanting to fix my breathing and reduce a hump on my nose to literally feeling like a plastic surgery addict when I don't even want this! I honestly just want to feel NORMAL again. It has been 5 years since my last nose job and I am terrified to do anything more. I have decided not to go to the same doctor and am currently searching for someone who can fix this mess. After this experience, It may take years before I finally can find someone I trust to touch my face. I am now 21 years old and have never been more self-conscious in my life, it is not the way for a young woman to be living life. While you are a beautiful young woman, it really does not matter what anyone thinks about your appearance. What matters is what YOU think. It is obviously causing you significant distress and that Is why I think you should keep moving forward and do whatever you can to finally get the results that you DESERVE so that you can feel comfortable with yourself. Please do what you think is best for you and do not let anyone tell you otherwise. Thank you for sharing your story with us.
Hope whatever decision you make brings you peace and comfort in the future. You are allowed to feel how you feel and don't need anyone's approval to validate the stress you are under. You are beautiful and we hope you get the results you desire in your next video, sending you lots of love !!
I know what you mean. When I look in the mirror I don’t see myself anymore. It’s like my face just change and I don’t think I look like a girl anymore. It ruins my whole day
I'm sorry you are going through this. You have every right to want to fix something on your body that makes you feel badly about yourself. People will say things like "i didn't even notice" or "you're so pretty you don't need to change anything" or "you need to stop obsessing about it" Etc. It's your face. It's your nose. Dr's will agree to work on your nose and make you feel like they can fix whatever is bothering you and even give you simulations. As soon as you start to see that there is no improvement they become cold and distant and act totally different. I had 2 surgeries by the same dr to fix asymmetrical nostrils and a crooked columella and here i am post op almost 4 weeks after my second surgery and i can clearly see my columella is still crooked. In fact, it looks the same. He told me last time and this time that it's just swelling. I'm not dumb though. So i undertand the sadness you are feeling because i will most likely need a 3rd surgery. Not going back to him though. It starts to get expensive and people start to think we are obsessing over it when in actuality we never got the results we were promised. I hope the next Doctor can get it fixed so you can move on from this emotionally draining situation.
Just watched your vid after your 3rd surgery and going into the 4th one. Your nose looks better after the 3rd surgery than after the 4th. With so many surgeries, I’m afraid it is only going to get worse. I wouldn’t do a 5th one bc the odds of it looking better than now is slim.
So many ppl always have the same story of “I broke my nose & needed a nose job” my sister used that excuse to get a nose job even tho she NEVER broke her nose
8:52 "So hard being a girl in today's age". I'm not sure why people say this so frequently. It must be that men are much more secretive about their insecurities. It makes sense though; no one in my family knows how I feel. My grotesque appearance, which could be altered with surgery, have completely ruined my life. I have not made a friend in over 10 years and I have about 5 conversations with people a year. Why? Because I cannot bear showing my face to anyone. Add on that I can go from 0-60 without notice if someone indirectly makes a comment (happens anytime I talk to someone more than 30 seconds). This causes me to avoid all people as I do not want to end up in jail. And, no, I do not have money for surgery. I live in my car... I am incapable of working until it's fixed, but I cannot fix it until I save, which would take years regardless. It's a catch-22. I completed my bachelor's degree while being homeless, but anyways, good luck to all that are a burden to other people.
I can relate to Your story completely. I am going through something very similar right now. You are not alone. You are not crazy. But I believe at some stage, we will have to stop. And accept our new face. Easier said than done. The emotions are so strong and it is easy to feel lonely and desperate. Life is going on right now though. We have to keep in mind what we are missing out on because of this. I will go to therapy because regardless of how The nose looks, Its alot about emotions. And the emotions in regards to that nose and that face needs to change. You do not have to love your face. In the end you just have to accept it. Sending you hugs of understanding and strength. For what its worth :)
I understand... I had a rhinoplasty at 26 and it destroyed my life. People say it's fine but they don't understand and will never know what it feels like to never be able to look in a mirror and see yourself again or to never have a normal feeling or functioning nose again. It's truly a never ending nightmare. I wish people talked more about this instead of glamorizing plastic surgery and making it look easy. I hope we can somehow find peace
Gypsy Grrrl SAMEEEE HAPPENED TO ME AT 30!!!! And people don t see the functionality of the nose! My nose is hard as a rock!!
Nada Omar I wish I had an answer. I miss myself everyday too. I'm getting a revision next year but I have no idea if it will help or not. I will pray for you and for all of us suffering. Please Don't hate yourself it's the surgeons who have done this to us ❤️
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@@nadaomar4779 please talk with someone 🙏🏼
@@nadaomar4779 I think it is the swelling that is making it bad, cause you just got your rhinoplasty like 3 months ago?
Surgeons gaslighting patients is a real thing. Thankyou for sharing your story!
I had a botched nose job and i don’t even like to go out in public besides work. I have never felt so horrible about myself before and this was supposed to help do the opposite. I can’t breath, im in pain and it looks horrible, larger than it was, bumpy and the tip of my nose is so lopsided that my nostrils are completely different sizes
@@ericaesqueda8194 My heart breaks for you
@@ericaesqueda8194 girl same 😢 it destroyed my mental health and I’m hoping it will even. Out because I don’t want to have a revision and go through this again . My nostrils are so uneven and two different sizes ( one of them is up and the other one is down ) . My surgeon said they were uneven before your surgery which is not the case :(
Yup. And the rest of society follows suit.
Not their face not their problem.
It’s horrible.
My life is over thanks to this procedure. Which is sandwiched between other hells to boot.
Girl, I think only people that had rhinoplasty will truly understand especially if you don’t get the results you want. There is nothing wrong with wanting to feel pretty in your own eyes no matter what others say. I only had 1 surgery my results weren’t exactly what I wanted, the bump I had it wasn’t fully removed & hangs a little from the front. I understand you, and my heart feels for you, I’m looking to get a revision myself and I am so scared. You are beautiful and I hope you get your beautiful nose the way you want it. 💜
did you get the revision? i was supposed to have a septoplasty… my doctor decided to make it thinner… now i have an extra long and thin nose, i’m scared but I need the revision 😭 it made my functional problems even worse 😭
Same here. Nightmare.
This is too true. The fact of the matter is you pay a ton of money for an outcome that is thoroughly discussed with a licensed professional. It's supremely disappointing to be botched.
Consider sending this video to E!'s botched and audition. I think Dr. Dubrow could make your last surgery work. There's been a few people who had a similar situation as you and he helped them.
Yes!
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wow me thinking dr. nassif was the nose guy
@@sierrarosie Def Dr Nassif ... nose god!
There is a TH-camr called lorry hill and she had the same complications as you or even worse. Her case was very complicated and she details on what sort of doctor you need to look for reconstructive surgery, she has had several nose surgeries as well but her last plastic surgeon that she went to did an amazing job in reconstructing her nose, she links him under her video.
Yes!
I was just thinking maybe Lorry Hills doctor could help when I saw this girls video
I can totally relate! I’ve had two nose surgeries and preparing for a third. It’s so mentally and emotionally draining that affects everything you do. It’s like a mental loop of thoughts that’s impossible to silence and I’ve felt like I’m the problem too. Thank you for speaking up because those who have been through this are the only ones that understand how it feels. Xx
This is literally what my 20 year old son is going through and he is waiting for another revision. I completely understand what you’re going through. This video was a year ago and I hope you have reached the end of this nightmare journey and you can start enjoying your life without all the pain you’ve been goi no through. This has helped my son feel he is not the only one feeling like this.
I had a really ugly nose and all of society called me ugly to my face (devastating for a child, especially a female entering puberty who knows looks matter) so I got a nose job but then society comes back just to call me shallow for getting PS! There is a war is heaven over ppl like us. Maybe God only chose Lucifer as his favorite because he was the prettiest…
I’m glad you seem so supportive of your son.
I wish my parents were the same.
I’ve had 3 nose jobs and am still not happy. I was told if I were to get a 4th
Surgery that it would have to be my last. The surgeon said when it comes to
Rhinoplasty anything beyond 4 surgeries you risk a continued bad outcome because
Of the scar tissue. Just consider the risk in going forward.
May I please ask why you are unhappy -- what happened? x
Fix it in Turkey 🇹🇷
I had 4 all together. first and last was open and second and third was closed to fix my breathing. my nose was crocked on the left side. i got the 4th one from the same doctor cuz i was so upset with it and depressed and he offered to fix it cuz it was bad. he gave me wat i wanted and im super happy now. some people get extra scar tissue and have too much collagen so they get weird bumps and stuff. i had that so he had to use steroid injections to get rid of extra scar tissue, So far its still healing since i had the forth one in November 2021. I will wait until 1 year to see if i like it. If not i will get some steroid injections to fix what is left
Sell out
You kept saying no one understands but I am 24 and looking into getting my 3rd surgery now. My second surgery was supposed to be it and I couldn't of imagined back then how I would feel if my second surgery didn't work out, but here I am. Please know you are not alone. My nose is very botched. I have thought about making a youtube video about it as well, but am so insecure now. I've had people comment about it. I was bullied growing up because of my nose and so badly just wanted a nose that would fit my face since it was too big. I am hopeful my next surgery will fix a majority of the problems. Everything you were saying, I completely understand. Your feelings are valid. Your opinion of yourself is all that matters in the end.
Please made a video
I'm 24 about to get my 4th sutgery now. Hopefully, this one works
Feeling confliction in your heart/mind is probably one of the hardest feelings ever. I also think going through rhinoplasty personally, good or bad outcome, it’s a very very difficult surgery emotionally. To see your face different , even if it’s a good outcome, is very difficult. It’s also something you cannot explain to someone without them fully understanding that. I read so much on the emotional impact from rhinoplasty and although I mentally understood others saying it was very difficult for them , you can’t feel that until you personally go through it. I hope you find peace in whatever decision you make.
Exactly.
-I’m one month in recovering from my rhinoplasty.
I feel for you. You’re not obsessed. You have every right to feel everything you are feeling. You went in to get it fixed multiple times to fix a certain problem, all you wanted was for it to be fine.
No one is going to understand your frustration and what your going through it was out your control. I’m glad you’re posting this video because theres a bunch of videos where they don’t show this side of rhinoplasty.
First of all, Allison you have beautiful eyes and very symmetrical features, and are absolutely beautiful. I am sorry your doctor said your looking for "perfection". I totally understand your looking for your own 'perfection' as in what you imagined your nose to look like and after surgery its supposed to fix the concerns and insecurities you have with your nose. I advise you to WAIT!! This is the first video I've seen of you and I thought you looked so pretty I thought this was the final surgery you had and were giving like a past share time thing. Thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing from the bottom of your heart.
I don't know what other concerns you have with your nose now, but if you want to get another surgery, wait. Your nose needs time to heal and recovery and it will take a few years from now to reach the results from the last surgery. This way your nose cartilage and structures are strong enough to undergo another surgery. If your nose is weak now after having a recent surgery and you have one again, it will get worse because your bones are too weak right now. I have done a lot of research! Also have had a similar experience to you.... Remember your beautiful and to be thankful for all that you do have!! Stay positive. You got this.
I got liposuction on my stomach when I was only 22 years old and got botched. I’ve been wearing a one piece bathing suit ever since. Not to mention, I was skinny (only 119 pounds) and had a very nice body. All I needed was a little fat here and there taken out and he completely destroyed my stomach with bumps. I went through a very dark phase in my 20s. 3 revisions later and it’s still not good. It has taken years to accept it and see light at the end of the tunnel. It takes time and life will get easier. I know it sounds cliche but it could have been a lot worse. Your nose looks fine!! Youre still really beautiful. What helped me out a lot was working on myself. Shifting my attention. At the time, I started going to school and focused on getting my degree and other goals. This helped me heal and be more productive rather than sitting around thinking about what others will think and about my appearance. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise. Many there’s something gods trying to teach you here. Hope you find happiness.
I had a rhinoplasty and an otoplasty in 2017, I was 25 years old too. It has literally ruined my life.
First, I developed a debilitating nose condition called Empty Nose Syndrome that causes paradoxical suffocation 24/7. After the cast was taken off, I realized something was wrong with my nose right away. it was too dramatic for me to take in. My nose was collapsed and narrow, and on top of that, it was crooked to one side. I developed depression and anxiety.
My ears I miss so much, but now I have "telephone ears" (overdone) and I feel like I look so hideous. This procedure literally took my life away.
I miss my old nose and ears.
I miss my confidence. I'm getting help from a therapist and I hope to come out stronger after all this adversity.
Thank you for making this video. I felt alone for so long, still do, but I'm trying to push through
Same thing happened to me can’t breath and a Lopsided nose deformed
I also had empty nose syndrome. I went to Dr. Rod Rohrich in Dallas TX for my revision surgery. I think he did a great job.
You are absolutely valid in the way you’re feeling - this isn’t about vanity it’s about recognizing yourself and that doctor was so unprofessional in saying that. I really hope that this final surgery works out for you
I have so much appreciation, love and admiration for those who can be so vulnerable like this. For what it’s worth, you’re beautiful, and you being so raw right now only adds to that beauty.... thank you for this ❤️
You’re so gorgeous girl I would have never known you were having an issue with your nose! Your pain is justified but I want you to know you’re insanely beautiful. I get what it’s like to be self conscious about something beyond your control. It hurts, and it hurts even more when people say things like “it’s not that bad” and “there’s worse things in life”. They’re not wrong, but your pain is valid and people shouldn’t try to take that away from you! You’re gorgeous and I’m sorry you’re going through this. Sending love ❤️
They are wrong. This ends so many lives in a most inhuman manner..where other things people make out to be “worse” wouldn’t.
i’ve had an otoplasty and a rhinoplasty 3 months ago and i’m not happy with the results either. i can relate to that feeling so much. i don’t think anyone who doesn’t go through this can actually understand how we feel. hopefully at some point we find some peace and feel happy again.
sending you so much love.
Hi what doctor?
3 months is still very swollen
3 months is nothing girl.. I remember my nose after 3 months, I hated it and wanted to cry every day
You are a super beautiful woman. You are more beautiful than the 90% of the population. Just see it. I had a nose job 2 days ago. The closing documentation mentioned the cause was nasal deformities. Which is true, I was born with a very asymmetrical thing one cartilage is way bigger then the other pointing down one nostril rotated deviated septum.. I always got away with it, but I also only could see my nose in the pictures. I know what you mean, trust me your nose still looks way more natural and symmetrical, than what mine was. I don't know how it will turn out for me yet, but this is it, I'm already going to be 32, lived half of my life like this, someone could ask why did I need this... still, just because I always felt insecure and I gave it a chance.. I didn't want to grow old not even trying. Trust yourself, you are very pretty. If I were you I would give it some time, and if you decide to go again, definitely go to a totally different guy. I know it doesn't matter what people say, and you only can see how it makes you feel, but I must say it is really good the state of your nose.
Found myself watching this while randomly surfing TH-cam, and genuinelly wish I could reach through the screen and give you a hug.
I totally can’t even imagine or comprehend the extent to which you feel around your nose. I just wish that you can give yourself time to heal from all the botched rhinoplasties you have endured and reconcile with yourself. Give yourself time and when you begin to feel more comfortable and confident make your decision. Just don’t rush into another surgery and let yourself heal first.
Don’t do another surgery. Give yourself some time.
no it's botched. I had 3 nose jobs ... it's obviously done healing . only swelling takes time not misshaped nostrils .
My sisters was botched also she’s on a third nose job
@@iTzShakenJoE sell out
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i found out two weeks ago that my nose was broken as a child from my parents’ neglect. i repressed the trauma. i lived with a hockey nose it over 30 years before i even had time to get a break from working my whole life to ask a surgeon why my nose and septum were warped and deviated. trust me, i understand. but i have to say, being an ‘influencer’ and a ‘media personality’ and a ‘vlogger’ or what not, you are 100% externally focused. you are young. stop getting surgery. go inward. go forward. focus on something positive. if you don’t have breathing problems, especially, get over your nose.
thank you for putting this out there, as a society we need more truth-tellers. I think this video is really brave and I absolutely salute you.
Exactly . I want my god given nose back every day . I was convinced to change it for breathing and it didn’t work . Literally so many people tell me it’s not bad and to get over it . They don’t understand the weight
Baby. I can’t even imagine what you’re feeling. No one will ever understand how you feel because no one has walked in your shoes. We are our worst critics, and having this insecurity as a woman breaks my heart for you. I know you won’t believe us, but you’re beautiful. I TOTALLY get what you mean by not liking your nose because it’s not natural. I know it’s unbearable, and I am sending so much love to you.
She's with a.black guy who you know will take white women however they are 🧿
The hardest thing is to have others discredit the way you feel about your own body. If a doctor says it is safe and it is something that will make YOU feel good about yourself, then do what you need to do baby girl. It was exhausting for me to try to explain to people my insecurities after i broke my nose and why I was choosing to fix it. You will always feel better doing what’s going to make you happy 🥺 I’m sorry this process has been so hard for you
She is beautiful of course! But she feels like she doesn’t look like herself now because of her nose break which lead to her surgeries. It’s so upsetting, I can only imagine it would be an extremely dissociating experience. Dissociation is such a bad thing, you feel lost and not like yourself. It makes you depressed and nothing can really help it, to feel this Everytime you look at yourself, I can only imagine would be horrible, I only hope you can get a nose job that will make you feel like you, even though it won’t be exactly the same as your old nose.
It’s one of the worst things fathomable..honestly you can’t actually fathom it without living it.
Even being naturally less physically attractive beats being unacceptably and unnaturally altered.
Now imagine being both..(in my case).
Is there a reason why there’s so many complications :( I’ve had one nose job and I can’t imagine having to have five, emotionally draining. Are they making it more of a point to fix your problems with breathing rather then the cosmetic part of it? Do they at least explain to you why you’re not seeing the results you want, i know some ppl have thicker skin on their nose but I doubt that’s the problem?? I’m sorry you have to go through this, everything will align
My heart ached watching this video. Only people who have had rhinoplasties before will know what it feels like to have your nose become such a central point in your life. I am so sorry for everything you've been going through. I am not sure if you have already proceeded with a 5th revision, but I would recommend looking into Turkish surgeons as I have seen a lot of people in similar situations get great results with them. There are some who specialize in revisions and often have patients who have been operated on even up to 6 times before. Dr Huseyin Balikci is one that comes to mind. Plus they are way cheaper and way more experienced. To be clear, I have not had any experiences with this doctor personally but there are lots of videos on his Instagram and many accounts sharing their journey, and there are many many other skilled surgeons as well. I wish you the best with whatever decision you make, and I hope one day you are able to look at yourself past your nose and see the beauty others see in you!
i got my nose done in turkiye as well!! i am 1 month post op and it is getting better and better. I am starting to fall in love with my nose and feel more confident.
Don’t feel bad for what you’re feeling. Please don’t apologize for feeling what you’re feeling. This is a big deal don’t let anyone make you feel like it’s a small thing when it’s clearly a big part of your life. Praying for you and that this passes and you’re able to move forward.
Hi babe, this bad part in your life will pass.. Not today maby but you can work on your thoughts. I went trough the same. And have also chronic pain a operation. And pain is soo bad. Another thing to work on. Stay more relaxt.. try to feel peace in how it is now. I do understand you but you are not the only one that goes to bad things in life. Remember it can be worse. Think about carr accident, depression, leggs amputations, woman who goes trough bad vagina surgery with a lot of pain. Maybe you can think about that. Work on your thoughts. You are still looking beautifull with this nose. Come on girl you can be happy. Talk to a therapist and see what you will do surgery wise... that are two diffrent things.
Correct. It’s a HUGE deal.
I’m only 3:41 into this video but I needed to comment. Babe I’m so sorry you went through this. I had my nose done in 2017 and I still sit and analyze it. I hate seeing you upset, you’re gorgeous and I can tell you are beautiful on the inside as well. Ily and I hope you get all this mess worked out 🖤
Must be uneven. A beautiful nose you would not analyze. They sometimes tell us swelling takes one year but you can absolutely tell unevenness (for example) as soon as the cast comes off! These PS who botch us and their fellow union members who protect them will face God one day and boy am I glad I’m not them.
They’re apathetic and evil people the majority of the time..think about it, you have to have a screw loose to feel confident messing around with peoples’ faces day in and day out..
Thank you for making this video, I recently got a nose job in November and regret doing it so so much, your video made me cry because I can relate to you in the way where I don’t feel comfortable in my own skin anymore and want my old nose back. It’s so difficult to deal with, i hate looking in the mirror. I can’t even begin to imagine how your feeling though, thank you again for making this so others don’t feel as alone.
Same. It’s so hard. 😢Message me if you want to talk!
I feel you girl. I was born with a cleft lip and palate and have had over 20 surgeries... still not quite right but I’m learning to live with it. Having all these ops on your face can really affect how you see yourself and I feel your pain 💞 stay strong xx
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Me too
Same I just had a surgery bc I had a cleft lip and my nostrils are still imperfect I feel like literally offing myself
Have you see Lorry Hills nose job video? She talked about her botched nose jobs and how she was finally able to get her dream nose doing alot of research through actual doctors and not online reviews.
Girl, I completely understand where you're coming from. My initial surgery was botched beyond measure. The surgeon cut out all supporting cartilage, gave me a deviated septum, and sliced my nostril, which resulted in caving in and a scar. I had to wait the year and am recovering from my second, but it may appear I need a third. I ended up catching a rare bacteria in my second surgery and it started to eat and affect the cartilage in my nose! I wish I NEVER had a rhinoplasty to begin with, biggest regret of my life. I, too, have to worry about camera placement and different profiles on each side of my face. I also have people telling me I never needed it, yadda yadda. They don't get how this affects the every day life. I feel you girl and I'm praying for you. 🙏
Ofmggg 😭😭 same
Same I wish I had just stayed with ny first nose job😭
had a rhinoplasty and am really disappointed now :( it makes me so sad and i regret getting my surgery at all
Kelly how did you heal from the bacteria infection? Did it resolve or did you have to get a new revision?
Where did you guys get your nose jobs?
Give you all the strength you have. Happend to me. A surgeon of Milan fixed it thanks got. But… my youth years are gone… modelling career destroyed, me depressed, and I’ll never will have the nose I could have had… I hug you with all my strength. Wish you all the best.
I broke my nose three years ago and I got indications for surgical operation. I had a surgery 6 months ago and I can't breathe right now cause doctor cut off my nostrils without my knowledge and said that "it will looks better". But it's not. I'm a singer and for me it's a tragedy. Every day I don't want to wake up and I don't want to live in this nightmare..
Proud of you G
I know how you feel my doctor went different than what I wanted , I wanted a “natural” nose to match my face but he gave me an upturned nose and my nostrils are so much bigger I miss how I looked from the front🥺
Omg Im really scared this will happen. Did you go to an experienced surgeon? Did you just recently get your surgery or you’ve had it for a while?
Whatever// I didn’t really take my time I kinda rushed into the doctor because I wanted my nose done so bad... so it’s my fault. I went to Mexico and he seemed to have a lot of experience, I seen his work and I really liked it... but he went against what I asked for... and I’ve already a year post-op ... I think I’m probably gonna see if I’m able to get revision done here In the US☹️
Angelaa oh ok thank you. And if you do get a revision surgery I hope everything works out and that you’re happy with your nose in the end!
do you mind sharing the surgeon you went to?
If you’re in Mexico try searching for Otorrinolaringologos. They’re specialized surgeons in nose, ear and throat. I know that sounds silly but they are specialists and they know your nose should fit your face and will definitely not leave you with breathing problems. They know best.
I completely understand your sentiments. My initial surgeon ruined my nose. Despite undergoing two additional nose surgeries, my nose still appears deformed, as if I were in a car accident or something similar. Facing the mirror every morning has become unbearable. Instead of seeing myself, I see the results of these operations. I feel as though I am trapped in the wrong body.
Interesting that you feel trapped in the wrong body. I’m ‘fortunate’ I have bad eyesight which no ophthalmologist will address bc what I see in the mirror is far better than what it is pics! In HD pics I’ve rarely seen someone uglier. Even when I tell psychs I have low self esteem and that affects my major depression and mental health, they don’t care. I guess bc they’re glad someone looks worse than they do. Life can be very challenging for ppl like us.
Hey, I've had a similar experience with my third nose job. I feel for you, I decided not to go with another surgery considering I was obsessing over my insecurity. I know that's easier said than done but I found comfort outside social media and selfies. I started talking to a therapist and think that's another path you should consider as things aren't always black and white "nose job or no nose job" consider talking to a mental health professional it can at least guide you on to what's next for you. Take care
I feel you, nobody understands only who goes trough this. I had 3 botched nosejobs, and gonna need a 4th one. I'm 25 years old, and it's the worst nightmare. Everyone judges me and say it's in my head only but I have bumps and everything in my nose. I. went trough a lot and spent a fortune already. Nightmare!!
You are so STRONG and brave for posting about this! Give yourself time to heal even though you are upset about it. This is the first video I've seen by you, and you are so beautiful. You got this
Things will get better, give your body and mind time to heal 💗 soon you’ll know the right decision to make. You’re beautiful 😍
I hope nobody comes for me and says i'm jealous but i need to say this and i hope i help her and she wakes up because she is not botched at all when you put her next to the really obviously botched ones. It's just that it's not her nose pre accident.
First of all she needs a hug because my comment may be a bit harsh but it's the truth.
I want to understand but i just can't😣She keeps on saying she wants to go back but yet here she is on her way to a 5th nose surgery. Who knows she might be regretting it again and making another video and on the way to her 6th nose job. She needs to know when to stop and seek counselling. She needs to understand she had an accident and she cannot get the SAME nose.She should see Christina Villegas' botched nose, now you can see where a nostril is deflated and her presurgery nose was perfect. That is what i call botched.
I first saw the video where she was on her way to her 4th surgery and at that point i thought she was pretty and her nose was ok to me and wayyy better than mine but she was still not happy. I was literally screaming 'Darling don't do it!!' What if the 5th surgery really botches her nose for real and she cannot breathe this time😣 This part is going to sound harsh but she needs to understand that people are going through much more disfiguring accudents than just breaking a nose and they come to terms with it. Some are burn victims,Some are having another persons face sewn onto where their face used to be, some have horrible scarring etc. Pls Darling im talking to you as a 40 yr old lady to a younger beautiful one. Learn to appreciate that you are blessed with a nose that can smell and that you atleast have a nose. Pls seek counselling instead of a 6th surgery.
A plastic surgeon who specialized in faces once told me, carving a nose is not like carving a dead tree as the nose continues to change organically and because of this the outcome cannot be certain. I thought it was a really good analogy and that everyone considering plastic surgery should hear that because there's no guarantee that you're going to like the result. Not only that but living with a new face that you cannot accept as your own or see yourself as so unrecognizable, the psychological issues that can pursue it's often not worth the risk.
I had all kinds of issues with my nose at 17, so my adenoids were completely removed. I literally could not breathe through my nose, looks-wise my nose was nice I had a slight bump that I wasn't too happy about that developed when I was older but that's about it. All the parts that were taken out didn't actually fix the reason that caused them in first place. Having the surgery at seventeen to fix my breathing became a nightmare as the air would now burn my nose, as if you were cutting onions. My eyes would tear up every time I go outside, by the time I was 22, I developed extreme Sinusitis and allergies. When I went back to visit him & see what I could do, I discovered that he had done things that he had no permission to do. In fact I was really strict about not wanting any other alterations. At that point so many years had passed there's nothing I could have really done about it. Knowing what I know now and what I experienced, I would have never done the surgery but I think as a teenager you're not really thinking about all this stuff as you do when you're older & many take advantage of that.
Hey Allie ❤️ I obviously don’t know what your exact situation feels like. But I do know how lonely it feels to be going through something like this that no one else can understand. I also know how frustrating it can be when people try to minimize it or shame you for what they perceive as caring too much about looks. I genuinely hope your next surgery results in everything you’ve been wanting. Good luck girl 💕
I get it. I broke my nose years ago and finally one day decided to get it fixed. I never liked my nose to begin with. I asked the doctor to make my nose nice and straight. That was all I asked for. He cut off the tip of my nose and twisted the tip. My face looks disproportionate because my nose is too short and my nostrils are prominent. I haven't felt attractive since my surgery.
I understand how you feel. I hate taking pictures and seeing it. You said “Someone elses mistake” I felt that. I try to block it out. Avoid mirrors on days I don’t feel confident. Especially when my phone camera flips the image and I see something different that what I’m seeing in the mirror. It hurts me inside.
This is the first time I've watched your channel. I'm sure you won't see this comment, but I just had to say: you're awesome and very beautiful. No really...you're AWESOME and BEAUTIFUL!! I know what it's like to almost obsess over something nobody else understands or sees. I'm sorry you had a shitty experience. That doctor who said that was wrong. Who is he to determine your happiness? Or anyone? You've had a traumatic experience, and your feelings are validated! Four surgeries is a lot for anyone. And you didn't ask for this to begin with.
I know it's pointless to hear from a stranger, but it's not only your looks that make you stunning. Best part about you is, you have BOTH. I promise you, nobody looks at you and thinks you're not beautiful. I just want you to end up happy. No matter what that means. I hope you find it, and I'm confident that you will. You're still so young. My advice (you didn't ask for lol) is just to wait a bit longer. Then make a decision.
You’re a strong woman 🤍 everything is going to be okay love
all your feelings are valid, try not to worry what other people will say about how you shouldnt care or that youre obsessing over it, its your face youre allowed to feel what youre feeling. you are not striving for perfection you are striving for something thats adequate and something that you wont HATE. you are striving for happiness and thats it
I understand where you are coming from totally , your feelings are super valid and don't let anyone make you feel otherwise ! I got a rhinoplasty in 2017 when I was 21 and it was botched ! I have had to live with a botched nose for 3 years. During this 3 years my self esteem has been shot, I don't take pictures and the thought of taking pictures gives me so much anxiety. Sometimes have to take pictures for like my school ID or other various reasons where its a must and I am just heartbroken. Last year I didn't got to thanksgiving dinner because I didn't want to be forced by my family to take pictures because none of them know what I am going through. I have gotten distant from so many really god people in my life because of the insecurities I face with my nose. I am getting a revision next month and I am super nervous not even of the pain just of like what if it does not turn out right what will I do ? if it doesn't turn out right I wont be able to take pictures at my graduation , wedding pictures , pictures with my future kids, of happy times in my life! I understand you to the fullest. I am praying for you ! sending you light and love ... thanks for making this video I don't feel as alone!
alex wall how did your revision turn out?
@@itssssj i actually hate it.....im going to get another in the summer by another Dr.....
alex wall omg what happened? is it worse?
@@itssssj Not worse ... but just not as neat of work that it should be given the amount of money I had to pay .. the surgeon I went to is very well known for their work and they just did not deliver the kind of results they claim they do
alex wall see yeah, i hear it’s not about the instafamous doctors cus they have so many clients that they don’t care to take the time
Wow, I lost my desire to get my nose surgery done
Came across this channel (and video) sorta late. About a third of the way through the video and I just have to say... when I was in high school, I went to get a hair perm to make my hair straighter (which I'd get regularly once a year) and bc the stylist wasn't paying attention, it was left on for too long and literally half of my hair was burnt to a crisp. I walked into that salon to make my slightly wavy hair straighter and walked out with crunchy, breaking hair. Some might think it's first-world problems (and it is...) but I became so depressed that I couldn't even attend school anymore. The salon gaslit me by saying my hair was probably too dry for the treatment (no it wasn't) and bc I was young, I accepted their gift bag of moisturizing products and walked out. I can't imagine a DOCTOR using those same gaslighting techniques for a permanent surgical procedure. To say you were striving for perfection instead of owning up to it... ugh that just hit a nerve.
I’m going through the same thing .. exactly as you are. I’m worried and scared and some days want to crawl in a hole. But we have to be hopeful . I think you are beautiful and I don’t want you to feel bad that you are getting your 5th surgery.. if it’s something you need. .You need it to feel at peace . I’m sending my love to you 🙏🏻
Sending strength as well!
I am sorry you beautiful women had to go through this
You're completely right that no one knows or will understand what you're going through. I had no idea that your last nose job didn't turn out the way you expected. I was so happy that you were gonna get your surgery last year because I have watched you for about 3ish years and have seen you talk about how much it has been a burden on you. Everyone deserves to feel comfortable in their own skin. I do hope you will be able to be happier and more confident in the future. For now I hope you have a support system and they're there for you. Sending love
Strive for perfection, there is nothing wrong with wanting the nose that u want when ur the one paying for it. Take ur time & look till u know it's the right surgeon for u. My nose is broken too so I sort of understand where u are coming from & u will get what I want at the right time just take it easy. Regardless of how u feel about how u look beauty really does come from the inside.✨
Girl I felt your pain in this video...I'm so sorry what youre going through. No one needs to understand how or why you feel the way you do for your feelings to matter and be valid. This is YOUR face, YOUR decision and what you want matters. I am here for you!!!! Girl you are so much stronger than you may think. -xoxo youre not alone
I’ve had two rhinoplasties so I can totally relate to this video. There really aren’t many people out there that can relate to us. After my first rhinoplasty, I was devastated and after the second, I also was devastated until the swelling went down about 6 months later and now I’m okay with it. My nose is NOT perfect, I don’t love the way it looks from one side and I have a small bump on one side. But overall, I am grateful that I look normal, it’s such a big improvement from my first surgery and I also don’t want to go through surgery again because I know how easy things can go wrong. I think you look beautiful but I know how it feels to just feel like your nose just isn’t “you”, to look in the mirror and feel like you’re looking at a stranger. Hang in there and you never know if your nose will continue to change over time. If you decide to go through with another surgery, I travelled to a very experienced surgeon in south FL for my revision and he was great.
Who did your revision? I'm thinking of getting mine fixed I've been saving for a couple years now but not sure which doctor to trust
Hi! I know this is 3 years old but I am hoping you see this. Who did you see in South Florida to have fix it? I live😮 down here and looking into revision myself.
I understand entirely what you mean by this video. I went through almost the exact same thing as you! I had broken my nose as a kid and it healed with a huge bump in the middle so i looked like a rhino, so i got it fixed when i graduated high school. The doctor took the hump down way too much and it left me with a swoop which i hated more than the bump. So i had a revision and it was almost exactly the same. Finally i got a third surgery with a different doctor where he took a piece of rib cartilage and used it to prop the bridge back up and it took a few years to heal and finally i’m satisfied. Im 27 now and my first surgery was when I was 18 so it took 9 years to get right. What’s frustrating is everyone else didn’t see the problem, or to them it looked fine but it wasn’t fine to me. I was obsessed and i couldn’t move past it. I wasted my college years fretting over it. I get why you’re so frustrated when everyone else thinks it’s all in your head.
i completely relate, i broke my nose when i was 7 years old and i had to have an operation to have it fixed, but now i’m 16 and my nose has grown a lot since then and it’s like bent to the side and has a bump on the tip, it’s horrible i hate it, i really want rhinoplasty but i’m so scared about ruining it even further. like you, i hate seeing my nose in pictures that i haven’t taken, i always have to pose a certain way for it to look decent, it’s so hard to accept. i’m so sorry love
I'm walking around with someone else's mistakes on my face :( I'm so sorry. I really hope you find a solution and are at peace soon. I've heard Turkey is a great place for Rhinoplasty.
there’s no such place as a good place for rhinoplasty. i was severely botched in turkey and know many others from revision groups who were too :(
@@gg21410cab i ask who your surgeon was?
Not quite the same, but in March I got a large chunk of my lower lip bitten off in a dog attack. I totally get what you mean about just wanting your original face back. My face healed better than I ever expected it to, but I definitely miss the old me. The attack also broke my nose and has left a big lump on the bridge of my nose. I've thought about trying to get it fixed with a nose job, but honestly hearing your experience... I can't even imagine. I wish you the best of luck, and I hope that if you decide to go through with the next one that you get the results you wanted all along.
My natural nose was way prettier
:(
I don't know what he has done to make my nose so fat
The same thing happened to me and it's hard to get my head around it. I don't want to do anything. I'm so angry at my doctor. I want him to be ruined just like he destroyed me and my life.
@@Letgoodthingshappeninmylifenow :(
I had a nose job because I had a broken nose and I thought I did a great research but the result is depressing! My nostrils are uneven, it goes to one side, one nostril is a lot higher than the other, and I can’t breath through one side :(
I don’t think you’re crazy or asking for anything that’s too much. I think all of your concerns are valid. And I know it probably doesn’t matter but your nose looks entirely normal to me and doesn’t look like you’ve had any surgeries or need any.
I feel so so so bad for you ): I can just FEEL your pain. I may not understand, but I can totally feel how hurt you are. If you do go through, please, please, find someone who specializes in RHINOPLASTY RECONSTRUCTION. do NOT go back to any of the same people. Find someone well known, who has great work, and look at any pictures of other patients they have. Don’t go to just one consultations, go to MANY. Don’t rush into this, I know you’re in pain and it’s hard, but take your time on finding the right doctor. I’m sending you every once of love and good vibes. You are INCREDIBLY STRONG.
I feel ur pain, I've had 2 nose jobs and of course, I'm still very dissatisfied with my nose as well,
and I find that whatever is happening in my life that's not going my way, like no current girlfriend my girlfriend of 4 years just left me or
having trouble with my career etc... I always find it very easy to blame my botched nose job. I feel I used to have a beautiful refined pointed nose,
but now it's kind of round and lacks shape & refinement, I too wish id just have my original nose from birth.
I would go for a 3rd but I'm too afraid of the General Anesthesia & also of the results not meeting my expectations.
thank you Allison for your testimonial it's helping me to tolerate my botched nose.
That surgeon should put in front of a panel and questioned. How dare he undermine you. Would you say which surgeon it was ? So sorry your going through this and people who judge should pxxs off. Perfection, listen it’s your nose your entitled to your perfection honestly. Sending you love xx
I hope your revision rhinoplasty is with Dr. Aaron Kosins, from the things I’ve read and seen on his page, he really looks like he’s the best. Best of luck!
🥺🥺ugh love, I feel for you. I understand completely.. I think if you’re really struggling with the appearance of your nose and if you have it in you mentally to go through another surgery then do it. Like you said coming out of this it will only make you stronger and more confident. I feel like this has already forced you to be more vulnerable and raw and that is a beautiful thing. Sending my love to you. Remember that despite all, you’re incredibly beautiful and whatever you decide is the right decision.
I 100% can relate to how you're feeling. I broke cartilage in my nose when I was 12 or so and got my first nose job to fix it when I was 21 by a prominent surgeon. It looked beautiful for a month or so, then my nose started getting swollen and crooked. I struggled with it for years then got the strength to do it again. Got my second a few years ago. It looked amazing, then the crookedness came back (not as bad as the first time). I also had pain for a year because of scar tissue. The doctors that are so nice and welcoming initially change personalities when you have a problem with "their work." My profile looks different on both sides. I wish I could have undone what happened originally and have my natural nose back. Nobody notices it more than us. We are our own worst critics. I know it may not help much, but you look beautiful. It looks natural. Your video really helped me and I hope you find peace❤️
Cartilage has memory and can shift back to the original shape. It's an unfortunate reality.
I completely understand, I recently had a rhinoplasty in Istanbul turkey, it completely ruined my semester so far, I had it done last winter break, and is been a month of recovery I realized I cannot breath properly as my nose bridge is sliding to the left side of my nose.
Who was ur surgeon
@@shuddup3618 Dr. Ali Kahraman. Yeah found out he was a charlatan who wasn't even a board certified plastic surgeon to Began with lol
@@Ambersworld03 wait that’s actually crazy that that happened because he’s ENT certified. I have a appointment with a diff doctor in turkey but I’ve done a lot of research on him.
@@shuddup3618 Wait what ? How do you know, and I heard that he isn't a plastic surgeon
Who was your surgeon?
I know we're our own worst critics, but honestly, your nose looks good now.
My nose has been my biggest embarrassment my whole life. I'm a black woman and was born with this thing on my face. I've always been scared of surgery but I'm in the right mind place to go for it now and I need help finding a good doctor for ethnic rhinoplasty. Please feel free to recommend me few. I'm so sorry for what you are going through but I know that all too well.
I think you should feel lucky and appreciative that you are a beautiful person, inside and out. There is no need to focus small portions of your body. This is the time to let go and start loving yourself for who you are and what you have.
Hi Allison,
Thank you for this video. Your story strikes a cord with me because although our stories aren't quite the same, there are some similarities. I've hated my nose ever since I was 13. Now looking back at pictures, my nose had a tiny bump, but there was really nothing wrong with my nose. When I was 15, I thought I could fix it myself. It's one of my worst regrets. I grabbed a hammer, put a towel in my mouth, and went to town trying to "fix" my nose. I broke it and left it pretty bad. It healed up bad. It was left very bumpy and crooked and I hated it even more. I understand some of your pain because, I too, feel like I can't close this chapter in my life. I just want to look in the mirror and see my nose and be fine with it. I just wish my nose didn't consume my everyday life, but it does because I hate it so much. I am struggling so much with my nose, especially right now. I got a nose job last August when I was 23...and here I am... still miserable. Almost a year later, and I still hate my nose. My worst fear came true. I was so afraid of getting out of surgery and still hating my nose because the whole point of getting plastic surgery is to "fix" the concerns I had and it's like a never ending circle of pain that never ends. There's this little bump on the right side of my nose bridge that is bothering so much and I've gone to get it filed down, but it;s still there and I just feel so discouraged about my nose in general. You explained it best -- I just want this chapter to be over so I can move on and enjoy my life without having to always be consumed on my nose. I wish you the absolute best and do what you feel is right for your sanity and happiness. I hope you will be able to move on from this pain.
So sorry to hear this, I hope you can find some peace or maybe try to fix it again. Where did you get your nose job at?
I dont know if you are telling the truth. Why would you hit your nose with a hammer. I feel like you're lying.
I do understand you! I also have issues with my nose. Seeing this video made me feel like im not alone on this feeling. I think we all have that one thing we want to change, but the risk is so big and the effort so huge its so scary to even think or try. Ive been having a breakdown and I think I can grasp the idea of how you felt here, i know ive been feeling hopeless for some time now. Hope you are feeling better now, considering this video is kinda old.
Seriously my nose was really awful and i got my nose job in Iran (the capital of nose job surgery in the world) it was cheap and now i have the best nose believe me,it’s smaller ,no bump and also natural contouring on my nose...if u wanted more info I’ll be glad to help you out...
I 100% feel you and I'm sending you so much love. You are allowed to feel how you feel and screw anyone who tells you otherwise.
Can you please explain what is “f’d” up? Does it not function or are there issues with breathing still? Or is it all physical?
I completely understand you because I have been through the same thing and I just want to have a normal nose. I finally decided to get a fourth surgery but I am terrified it will not improve.
Some surgeon just see patients as bags of money. Even when they can't fix it they say they can. I got botched too by the butcher Bart Van de Ven so I know how you're feeling.
You’re a strong girl, look how far you’ve come. Everything will be okay dear ❤️
I’m sorry for all this!! I had septoplasty in February and after the surgeon said “I made it smaller, you’ll be really happy”. I didn’t want a cosmetic change, I wanted to breathe. Plus, she gave me a fatter tip and I feel like it took away all my ethnicity and character. I want to get it fixed and look like myself again (and this was at a university hospital). I understand you 😘😘
i’m in the same situation… did you get revision.?
@@noemimeza9697 cant you sue? its kinda hard to believe that a surgeon would do extra work without asking the patients permission
Your feelings are valid, I get it. Thank you for sharing such a vulnerable n honest part of urself. We’re judged for being “vain” or “superficial” but we’re only human. We all wanna feel attractive, loved, confident, and just good in general. I wish u the absolute best✨✨✨💕🥰
I understand, perhaps not to the same extent.. but I have had 2 rhino-septoplasties by the same doctor and both of them turned out terrible. I know many people who have gone to him to fix their noses and deviated septums, as he is an ENT and Plastic surgeon facial specialist. So of course I thought he would be perfect. Wrong. I've come out having a completely different nose in which parts of my nose that I told him not to touch, are changed. My septum is still deviated and impacts my breathing, my nose is crooked, and my tip, which use to be my most favorite thing about my nose, is asymmetrical and the shape is ruined. It feels terrible every day knowing that this was my decision to have the surgery at the age of 15/16, just to regret it for the rest of my life. I like the way I look, but I cannot get past this terrible nose. It feels like it haunts me every day and has caused me extreme anxiety. Even if my nose wasn't the best before, I would rather have THAT knowing that it is MINE than have to go through all of this just to hate it and be depressed every day because of it. I understand when you say it is embarrassing to come to terms with all of this plastic surgery and STILL be so unhappy. It went from wanting to fix my breathing and reduce a hump on my nose to literally feeling like a plastic surgery addict when I don't even want this! I honestly just want to feel NORMAL again. It has been 5 years since my last nose job and I am terrified to do anything more. I have decided not to go to the same doctor and am currently searching for someone who can fix this mess. After this experience, It may take years before I finally can find someone I trust to touch my face. I am now 21 years old and have never been more self-conscious in my life, it is not the way for a young woman to be living life. While you are a beautiful young woman, it really does not matter what anyone thinks about your appearance. What matters is what YOU think. It is obviously causing you significant distress and that Is why I think you should keep moving forward and do whatever you can to finally get the results that you DESERVE so that you can feel comfortable with yourself. Please do what you think is best for you and do not let anyone tell you otherwise. Thank you for sharing your story with us.
Just giving you some advice...just leave your nose alone trust me your good.💯
Hope whatever decision you make brings you peace and comfort in the future. You are allowed to feel how you feel and don't need anyone's approval to validate the stress you are under. You are beautiful and we hope you get the results you desire in your next video, sending you lots of love !!
girl u are so beautiful. i’m so sorry this happened to you but I appreciate you for sharing your story.
I know what you mean. When I look in the mirror I don’t see myself anymore. It’s like my face just change and I don’t think I look like a girl anymore. It ruins my whole day
It took me 2 years for my swelling to go down just fyi. Not sure if that matters now since this video is old, but yeah!
I'm sorry you are going through this. You have every right to want to fix something on your body that makes you feel badly about yourself. People will say things like "i didn't even notice" or "you're so pretty you don't need to change anything" or "you need to stop obsessing about it" Etc. It's your face. It's your nose. Dr's will agree to work on your nose and make you feel like they can fix whatever is bothering you and even give you simulations. As soon as you start to see that there is no improvement they become cold and distant and act totally different. I had 2 surgeries by the same dr to fix asymmetrical nostrils and a crooked columella and here i am post op almost 4 weeks after my second surgery and i can clearly see my columella is still crooked. In fact, it looks the same. He told me last time and this time that it's just swelling. I'm not dumb though. So i undertand the sadness you are feeling because i will most likely need a 3rd surgery. Not going back to him though. It starts to get expensive and people start to think we are obsessing over it when in actuality we never got the results we were promised. I hope the next Doctor can get it fixed so you can move on from this emotionally draining situation.
Just watched your vid after your 3rd surgery and going into the 4th one. Your nose looks better after the 3rd surgery than after the 4th. With so many surgeries, I’m afraid it is only going to get worse. I wouldn’t do a 5th one bc the odds of it looking better than now is slim.
I want to give you a hug you so bad! I regret my nose job sooooo much. I wish I could take it back
So many ppl always have the same story of “I broke my nose & needed a nose job” my sister used that excuse to get a nose job even tho she NEVER broke her nose
8:52 "So hard being a girl in today's age". I'm not sure why people say this so frequently. It must be that men are much more secretive about their insecurities. It makes sense though; no one in my family knows how I feel. My grotesque appearance, which could be altered with surgery, have completely ruined my life. I have not made a friend in over 10 years and I have about 5 conversations with people a year. Why? Because I cannot bear showing my face to anyone. Add on that I can go from 0-60 without notice if someone indirectly makes a comment (happens anytime I talk to someone more than 30 seconds). This causes me to avoid all people as I do not want to end up in jail.
And, no, I do not have money for surgery. I live in my car... I am incapable of working until it's fixed, but I cannot fix it until I save, which would take years regardless. It's a catch-22. I completed my bachelor's degree while being homeless, but anyways, good luck to all that are a burden to other people.
I can relate to Your story completely. I am going through something very similar right now. You are not alone. You are not crazy. But I believe at some stage, we will have to stop. And accept our new face. Easier said than done. The emotions are so strong and it is easy to feel lonely and desperate. Life is going on right now though. We have to keep in mind what we are missing out on because of this. I will go to therapy because regardless of how The nose looks, Its alot about emotions. And the emotions in regards to that nose and that face needs to change. You do not have to love your face. In the end you just have to accept it. Sending you hugs of understanding and strength. For what its worth :)
So true.