Anxiety - My Battlefield, My Story.

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  • @TheBrokenMachine
    @TheBrokenMachine  5 ปีที่แล้ว +1263

    Tough video to make for various reasons - hope you'll sit and listen, hope it's valuable in some way for some. I'm in a much better place since that stream, not perfect, but hey, that's fine.
    You guys seriously have meant a lot over the years, truly truly have - lot's of things I didn't mention, not because they aren't important or never mattered, it's just not the right time - maybe I'll never talk about other stuff, that's fine too.
    Mental health is important - take care of yourselves.
    Lot's of help out there, should you need it. Don't be a stranger, talk to someone.
    www.reddit.com/r/SuicideWatch/wiki/hotlines
    Thank You.
    - TheBrokenMachine.

    • @TacticalScottish
      @TacticalScottish 5 ปีที่แล้ว +19

      Respect buddy 💙

    • @rustypterodactyl
      @rustypterodactyl 5 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      Love you man! We are two of the same. Worrying about everything and everyone and putting off yourself until you burst. I’m not fixed as of yet either but any improvement is good. Hang in there brother, I’m told it gets better.

    • @ZVWVVZ
      @ZVWVVZ 5 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      We here for you Broke. Life is hell at times. You win some you loose some. Your still alive and breathing! Don't give up

    • @goldfishgirl2179
      @goldfishgirl2179 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Opening up is hard, I opened up to all the issues I was having with school and the people there. I’m glad you were able to express yourself because that is very important. Great job TBM! 🙌

    • @darthtwerk6899
      @darthtwerk6899 5 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      I appreciate the courage it took to make this video tbm!! I've experienced the same issues myself and I'm sure the video will help out a lot of others! And, yeah, if someone ever needs to escape somewhere, Norway is the place to go!!!

  • @mb6412
    @mb6412 5 ปีที่แล้ว +907

    The moment you realize that TBM teaches you something far more important than how to play Battlefield.....:
    Take care of your self

    • @8__oimarco474
      @8__oimarco474 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      Yes that So True bro and thank u for that ❤️(TBM)❤️

    • @1asdf2jklasdf31
      @1asdf2jklasdf31 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @IRISH LAD I hope you have never go through things like this.

    • @marjanbatic2913
      @marjanbatic2913 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      Take care and god bless you fellow gamer😎

    • @maximus7863
      @maximus7863 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Amen

  • @Kembole
    @Kembole 5 ปีที่แล้ว +357

    "Not my proudest moment." Being human is something to be proud of. Being a man, out of the toxic box, being able to be vulnerable is something to be proud of.

    • @wesleywalker1629
      @wesleywalker1629 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      Closurefin word!

    • @Demoniizerr
      @Demoniizerr 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Being a human is something to be proud of??? WTF r u talking about humans r the worst till now they only leave pollution, destruction, inhuman acts, and wars noone can be proud of something like that

    • @bobby_c07
      @bobby_c07 4 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      @@Demoniizerr your days must be hard to go through with everyone you meet doing that to you lol

    • @bobby_c07
      @bobby_c07 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@Poon1312 making vague assertions and being right aren't the same thing but sure. human beings aren't a singular entity, and most individuals are doing the best with what they got. blaming the masses for the actions of corporations, governments or militaries is quite frankly, bullshit. there is much to be proud of in human history and I just feel bad for anyone that is so jaded they don't notice the good that's all around them.

    • @dazfx
      @dazfx 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@Demoniizerr Not all humans are equal, speak for yourself!

  • @TBAG
    @TBAG 5 ปีที่แล้ว +630

    I haven't fully watched the video yet, but I can see the title and I know what you're gonna talk about - I just wanna say you're a freaking legend dude

    • @Cyprus_Is_Greek
      @Cyprus_Is_Greek 5 ปีที่แล้ว +24

      You are a good man too tbag. Lots of support brother

    • @Ctrl_Alt_Elite
      @Ctrl_Alt_Elite 5 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      Yes! TBM is a legend, and so are you! ❤ You've both helped me through (what has been) a *very* rough year for me. Stay strong 💪🏽👊🏽

    • @Ba11leFieldAce
      @Ba11leFieldAce 5 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Battlefield community is next level.

    • @FFF034
      @FFF034 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I hope you are doing really well Tbag ! Know that a lot of people care for you and absolutely adore your content !

    • @robertortiz773
      @robertortiz773 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Your a legend TBAG 😍

  • @ianradford502
    @ianradford502 5 ปีที่แล้ว +239

    It's ok bro. Tacos fall apart and we still love them.

  • @gavaskew2719
    @gavaskew2719 5 ปีที่แล้ว +86

    This popped up in my recommendations, I watched the vid , huge respect for opening up. Mental health on any level is not easy to live with. Look after yourself and try and stay strong, you have gained a new subscriber.

  • @riderdiver1
    @riderdiver1 5 ปีที่แล้ว +212

    You're a good man TBM, one of the best out there. I was a soldier and while I wasn't really suffering any mental problems but many of my friends did, some taking their lives.
    Thank you for sharing mate, it takes courage.. remember - we got your back bro

  • @happygoluckywalton5183
    @happygoluckywalton5183 5 ปีที่แล้ว +59

    My friend I've suffered from chronic and social anxiety for over 16 years. I've been at a point I've been to terrified to leave my home. I sit in the bathroom door locked for hours on end. I've no real life friends and no outlet to talk to anyone and it's very lonely How you face your issues is nothing short of admirable. Keep your head up. People like us are fighters and not many understand our struggles

    • @Agradecido72
      @Agradecido72 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Eu sou assim a cada dia uma nova batalha...

    • @someguy8798
      @someguy8798 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      How you doing Johnboy? Hope you're doing good. I dealt with some similar issues

    • @happygoluckywalton5183
      @happygoluckywalton5183 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@someguy8798 not to bad. Good days and bad days just. It's a never ending battle but i just get on with it best i can

    • @someguy8798
      @someguy8798 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@happygoluckywalton5183 It's good to know that you're having some good days at least. I haven't dealt with depression much lately, but before I started college, it was awful. Sorta like Broken and his thing with the university and people going on to do whatever they're doing while he didn't do much I guess.

  • @Jamez-vl6hk
    @Jamez-vl6hk 5 ปีที่แล้ว +212

    As someone else with anxiety, id just like to say that youv got this. We all have ups and downs but you will get through this. You got this bro.

    • @mryoung0412
      @mryoung0412 5 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      I've struggled with anxiety too, it's a tough world to stay confident and strong all the time. Finding a balance between what things we can control and things we cant is the key to managing SAD. The highs and lows come and go, never dwell too much on either!

    • @francisco9947
      @francisco9947 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      th-cam.com/video/zTZAKN87l4E/w-d-xo.html your support would really help me! Insane headshots in BfV. Thank you 👍🏽

    • @arianas0714
      @arianas0714 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@francisco9947 Fuck off

  • @derekbrown4649
    @derekbrown4649 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    You are an amazing person. Dont ever forget that. We are here for you when you need us. Just like you are for us. Tons of respect for putting yourself out there. We have all been there and you did the right thing. Hope the best for you. Thank you for this video, it means a lot.

  • @jeffgachihi8225
    @jeffgachihi8225 5 ปีที่แล้ว +233

    Can we have some mega-love in the chat for Broken?!

    • @zetasong
      @zetasong 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      much

  • @beatsondrums500
    @beatsondrums500 7 วันที่ผ่านมา +3

    Hey Broken,
    I’ve been watching your streams for a few years and just saw this and man I can relate on so many levels because I have severe anxiety and depression as well and have fought it for years.
    I just went through a rough time with a girl(second time with this one) who I trusted and helped in every way I could but in the end she manipulated me and threw me out of her life. I got so upset when I found out the details that I had a major meltdown at the bar 5 days ago and had to play a show there the next night..
    As someone who also lives in his head, I had a bad feeling about her and I should’ve trusted my gut and friends. But I tried to see the good in someone and got burned.
    I let this person influence me in negative ways for the past year and it’s affected my school, employment, drive and passion, on top of derailing me from the progress I’ve made on myself by going to therapy and being a healthier human.
    It’s been very hard for me to bounce back but watching your vids helps me escape.
    I’m thankful for this video, thanks buddy 🦃

  • @notashamedgaming5036
    @notashamedgaming5036 5 ปีที่แล้ว +138

    "Anxiety in a man's heart weighs him down, but a good word makes him glad." - Proverbs 12:25
    Thank you for pouring out your heart and mind. Not sure where you are at, as far as faith is concerned, but standing up like you have and admitting that LOVE helped bring you through the dark is a major victory. Like this verse says, the weight of stress is heavy, and it seems like your community was your "good word". Stay strong brother and if you need to pour out again, let it loose. Don't ever be embarrassed by it. God Bless you!

    • @jamesclemons1419
      @jamesclemons1419 5 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Yes Broken. God is sufficient in all ways. Psalms 23 is a great verse for life issues. God bless you brother!

    • @IndelibleHD
      @IndelibleHD 5 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Amen brother

    • @carlospalacios1422
      @carlospalacios1422 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Amen...

    • @jonathankhalil9458
      @jonathankhalil9458 5 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      Man you are just a solid dude with a big heart. God is really getting you in a place where you need to call out to Him for help because He won’t force Himself on you. He cares for you so so much bro. I am not here commenting about religion, God is not in a religion. He longs for relationship with you. He’s all you need.

    • @KENNETHCARNIE
      @KENNETHCARNIE 5 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Amen

  • @TRB02ss
    @TRB02ss 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I respect you for opening up you are not alone ive lived with axiety depression for 10yrs already . Best thing is to vent out and try exercise it works best when you exhaust your self working out . Exercise works best in mornings and try venting out more often with someone that will hear you out and not tell you its all in you head and just get over it . BRAVE MAN takes alot to do what you just did . Find your self everything will be fine .

  • @peppylilly
    @peppylilly 5 ปีที่แล้ว +67

    Thank you TBM ❤️ We are here for you 🤗 Take care of yourself, YOU are important

  • @Flakfire
    @Flakfire 5 ปีที่แล้ว +65

    00:01 *strokes mustache*

    • @Flakfire
      @Flakfire 5 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Also, heart you bud.

  • @richardnorman1158
    @richardnorman1158 5 ปีที่แล้ว +121

    One thing that was your proudest moment crying and saying how you feel live on stream
    Anxiety makes you hide your emotions in front of people because u feel ashamed and embarrassed but let me tell you one thing mate ur not embarrassing anyone
    And anyone with anxiety like you and myself only know what utter hell it is to deal with
    You have good days and bad days and the hardest thing is concentrating as your mind is fixed on how you are feeling not the reality what’s going on around you
    So broken I just wanna say that was a Very proud time and people seeing it will know that
    Much love dude

  • @giggslow
    @giggslow 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    The philosopher inside you is starting to shine.
    You have all the tools to help yourself.
    You need the pain to reveal those tools

  • @NobesBLO13
    @NobesBLO13 5 ปีที่แล้ว +128

    I’m a newer fan, and after this video I’m a fan for life. As someone else who suffers from anxiety and depression hearing from other people is so helpful. Thank you Machine.

    • @a.t.2112
      @a.t.2112 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      NobesBLO13 wussgood fellow 13 year old?

    • @КириллГанин-э4ы
      @КириллГанин-э4ы 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      NobesBLO13 agreed! I’m a new fan too but this video makes a lot. Now I’m going to watch not just a streamer but a great person!

  • @lnbfishing8856
    @lnbfishing8856 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    You should be very proud yourself for putting your feelings out there and for the channel you have created, you are doing amazing things - you must keep telling yourself!

  • @tst367
    @tst367 5 ปีที่แล้ว +62

    It takes courage to open up like this, nothing but respect for this legend.
    Good to hear you’re doing better.
    Thank you for your time and effort to make all the great content.
    Tom

  • @ToxicPancake88
    @ToxicPancake88 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Man your voice is so soothing, I could listen to it all day. Much respect to you my friend, anxiety is a horribly restrictive condition, hope you’re feeling better

  • @jyahirrr
    @jyahirrr 5 ปีที่แล้ว +103

    "If was'nt you guys, I don't think will still here"
    *No comments :'(*

  • @im-fr0sty72
    @im-fr0sty72 5 ปีที่แล้ว +50

    Stay strong broken. We are a big family under the name of "Battlefield Community" ❤❤

  • @TheMindfulSkater
    @TheMindfulSkater 5 ปีที่แล้ว +60

    I've always had this issue and when my mom passed 1/1/2019. I've struggled every day. At 60 she decided life was to much and decided to end her life.ive been broken But ur videos and your personality helped me get through it. You are loved and treasured dude please dont forget that. You have a huge community that would do anything for u.

    • @RyanAlanOne
      @RyanAlanOne 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I'm sorry to hear that you lost your mother. Remember the good.

    • @CCChicken
      @CCChicken 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I lost my dad about a year and a half ago now. And my grandma about 3 months after. Its really hard, and I'm sure you know that. Keep on going strong man!

    • @TheMindfulSkater
      @TheMindfulSkater 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@CCChicken I'm sorry for your loss.yes it's very hard.all we can do is kick ass everyday! Sending positivity your way

    • @Ikarus43
      @Ikarus43 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Lost my sister..committed suicide as well. Life is strange sometimes..

  • @BO0OTNECK
    @BO0OTNECK ปีที่แล้ว +1

    total respect. please don't feel you need apologise. mental health is no joke. I suffer the same. I feel your pain.

  • @cla3189
    @cla3189 5 ปีที่แล้ว +27

    What a trooper for making this video. Your streams helped me when I was sick and out of action. Thanks, man. Take care of yourself as you would someone else 💪

  • @RUfrikkinkiddinME
    @RUfrikkinkiddinME 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Everything in this world feels fake and bullshit and stage managed. This was real and raw and honest. Thank you for sharing with us.

  • @Rhodanide
    @Rhodanide 5 ปีที่แล้ว +76

    Damn dude, I feel with this. Always had trouble with severe anxiety and depression. It's impossible to choose when and where you break down. It just seems that it happened on stream. It's great that you're recognizing what's going on and working on it. This year has been the hardest, most painful, and most degrading one I've ever had. I relate to what you're saying on so many levels and thank you for talking about it. Much love, dude. You got this.

    • @An_Dulachan
      @An_Dulachan 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      It is impossible to know when your going to break down. Probably a good thing, because if we knew when we would try, and maybe succeed in stopping it.
      Breaking down needs to happen. It is important to let those feelings out, and also to let us know we need to take further action in our recovery.
      Thanks.

  • @BACzero
    @BACzero 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Just recently been watching your content. This video popped up this morning and I wanted to say... thank you. Thank you for the content, and thank you for being open and honest enough to create this video. Sharing your vulnerabilities helps people more than you know. Some of us struggle with anxiety issues, and it helps to know that you're not alone.

  • @drunkenbatdraws
    @drunkenbatdraws 5 ปีที่แล้ว +31

    Dude, when I see someone say, at the point they are living truly honest, that it’s not their proudest moment then I have to call them out.
    I’m a long time viewer, occasional donator, and doing what you just did is brutal, brave, painful and utterly uncompromising.
    I’ve had bad times, suicidal times, utterly brilliant times. All of those best times have come whilst living honest. Your stream just embodied that, in front of 100 times more people than I will ever have to.
    Respect. And if you’re ever in the north east, look me up.

  • @Mya_516
    @Mya_516 5 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    I’m so proud of you & thankful for you. For whatever it’s worth coming from me.. I just want you to know that you have people always here for you. Even if you have no where to turn, I am here for you. We love you, Broken. ❤️

  • @kongstrong89
    @kongstrong89 5 ปีที่แล้ว +28

    Broken, stay strong. We all love you

  • @ryantodd8852
    @ryantodd8852 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Honestly I can fully appreciate where you coming from it's the most hardest thing to make yourself so vulnerable but like you said you have to get to that point to get to the better side of it . I suffer a lot of health issues that have left me with many surgeries and more to come so depression and anxiety are a massive part of my life. Stay strong and carry on being the absolute legend you are

  • @VpKing
    @VpKing 5 ปีที่แล้ว +38

    The past 3-4 years have been rough for me. I lost 3 family members, I quit sports, starting loose my hair , some friends betrayed me but you know what this made me more wise and I gained some wisdom that others haven't I am ahead of people in life and this will help me succeed in life 💙💙💙💯💯💯

    • @blammo8208
      @blammo8208 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      cheers mate! good on ya

    • @VpKing
      @VpKing 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@blammo8208 thx

    • @mihaipislaru5598
      @mihaipislaru5598 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      Wow man you've a pretty rough time haven't you

  • @deaner975
    @deaner975 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Yea, very late to this. It suddenly appeared in my suggestions. That said.. classy, VERY Classy. Honest, open and truthful. A rare trait in a lot of individuals these days. I feel your pain BM.. took me until I was 42 l, after just having ripped apart and destroyed my life, marriage and all, due to what I felt, did not understand, which was depression, anxiety, ADD, huge social anxiety. Had no idea the damage I caused myself and others. Been there, felt all as you described (not negative, but triggering) and took me a good 4+ years of Therapy and self care, love, etc - to get back to who I was, I had no idea. Thank you SO much for all your courage, work and just bleeding truth. It hurt me to hear you speak as you did, cause I get it, but for someone who does not know you, I'm VERY Proud of your professional actions in addressing and handling the situation. We all love you, your streams. Killer contributor, humble and to me, and all round good dude. As everyone said, we all got ya'.. Appreciate you and everything you do for everyone else.

  • @joshuaweiner7183
    @joshuaweiner7183 5 ปีที่แล้ว +61

    How does this man only have 200k sub's he is a legend

  • @LostinFrance626
    @LostinFrance626 5 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    You're awesome Machine. It's important that we have moments like, because we are here in this life to help one another. We love you Machine. We love you very much.

  • @joshwilson4168
    @joshwilson4168 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    ❤️❤️Thank you for this. Seriously thank you. I was diagnosed with rapid cycling (type 1) bipolar disorder when I was 26 and crushing anxiety and depression controlled my life. I admitted myself several times to hospitals because I knew I was no longer in control. I had to ask for help time and time again.
    I didn’t know at the time that there is no reason to be ashamed for asking or needing help. I had over 12 years of psychotherapy before I was diagnosed because I was ashamed of my mind. It wasn’t until I broke down and looked at my life objectively and assertively to find what was happening. I had to be brutally honest with myself without demonizing myself. Only then could I begin the healing process.
    I cannot recommend psychotherapy enough. It has saved my life more times than I care to think about. Mental health is a continuous maintenance issue. I still have rapid cycling bipolar disorder and that will never change but getting a handle on my anxiety and depression changed my outlook and perspective on day to day life. It shifted my reality from worries and fears to hope and understanding.
    Information is key to understanding so I highly encourage you to speak with others that use medical cannabis for anxiety and depression. Depression is often a vail over the eyes that makes us believe we are seeing things clearly for the first time when in fact it is nothing but a distortion of the truth.
    Take care of yourself FIRST. That’s one of the hardest lessons I’ve had to learn. There’s been days when your videos have distracted me from myself and doing something I’d truly regret. Again, thank you for opening up about your struggles with mental health. I’m happy you’re in a better place now. If there’s anything I can do to help keep it that way, do not hesitate to ask. Love you man, and there’s not a damn thing you can do about it.

  • @JensWitzig
    @JensWitzig 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    How can someone dislike such an honest and real video? I mean what is wrong with those guys?

  • @turcopole.
    @turcopole. 5 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    Take care of yourself dude.
    We love you.
    We are all going through rough things.

  • @joshh.5325
    @joshh.5325 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    We all support you here, no judgement, and absolutely nothing to be embarrassed about. If you ever want to visit Canada, you have a spot here my friend.

  • @VpKing
    @VpKing 5 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    My life hasn't been so good lately , family etc but this tought me that when I will have kids I will talk them I love them and give them the best life I can

  • @Xplicit_ll
    @Xplicit_ll 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I have been battling the same things you have been for the past couple years as well. My dad died when I was 14 and it really shattered my life. Left me with depression, anxiety and social anxiety but now I am learning to cope with it. It has cost me friends, my high school diploma late and a shitty relationship with my family. I really hope more ppl talk about mental health because it’s huge and ppl can’t get through it alone.

  • @IndelibleHD
    @IndelibleHD 5 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    Broken, I have struggled with anxiety disorder for over 20 years and can relate to you on many levels. The simplest things in life for most people have been mountains for me to climb. My dear wife has helped me tremendously and my faith has given me a pillar to lean on in times of darkness. While I still need to take my Xanax from time to time I have gotten better at handling things on my own and making victorys for myself and my family. I wish you the very best with your challenges and struggles! On a side note thank you for hours upon hours of entertainment and education on the Battlefield. Blessings, J.b.

    • @rlsjunior797
      @rlsjunior797 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Xanax is addictive man, be careful. I struggle with anxiety and I’m a recovering addict so valerian root helps me a lot. If the anxiety is bad I’ll take double the dose.

    • @IndelibleHD
      @IndelibleHD 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@rlsjunior797 Thanks for looking out man. I do watch my doses. I do not take it daily and sometimes can go weeks without it. Blessings, J.b.

    • @Alex.cabinets.carpentry
      @Alex.cabinets.carpentry 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Same my wife helps me a lot on my anxietys a lot if it wasn’t for her I wouldn’t know if I would still be here

    • @craigydcraig
      @craigydcraig 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@rlsjunior797 does valerian root really work? If so in what form do you take it? I had a massive op last year and have found that since then at really random times I'll start having anxiety attack so been looking for something to help me out without prescription drugs.

    • @rlsjunior797
      @rlsjunior797 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@craigydcraig I can only speak for myself, but I’ve had major stressors in multiple aspects of life this year, causing panic attacks. It was new to me, I had never really experienced anything beyond social anxiety before that. I’ve tried most herbal supplements and valerian is the best. Haven’t had a panic attack since. Capsule form is the only form I’ve tried. The bottle will most likely recommend 2,000mg, which works great most of the time. If I’m extra anxious I’ll take a little more. I usually take it about every 5 hours, you can tell when it’s wearing off. Also 1 capsule of ashwaganda in the morning. Lithium orotate is also a natural supplement for depression, I usually take 5mg in the morning and 5mg at night. I try to avoid any pharmaceuticals at all costs, as I had a painkiller addiction for 10 years.

  • @alexbabyfella3750
    @alexbabyfella3750 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I honestly hope you get well, this year you have become my favorite Battlefield youtuber and I really look up to you and appreciate your cool demeanor, always stay chill bro

  • @terrybeckwith6913
    @terrybeckwith6913 5 ปีที่แล้ว +29

    Your streams and videos: "can you see that cheeky devil?" "Not today!" "That's how we do it." Always felt like you know IM watching, you were talking directly to me and there was nobody else watching, that's what always made your videos and streams feel so personal and I really appreciate your ability to give that. I hope to carry on accompanying you through many battles to come both digitally and personally. Really hope you find some inner peace and you can carry on doing what you love and are obviously very good at. Thanks again big un. 👊🎮

    • @nickfan6666
      @nickfan6666 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Terry Beckwith I always consider Broken’s streaming is like the ASMR of Battlefield. I always envy Broken could be a streamer with such beautiful voice and Battlefield skills at the same time. He is really my hero

  • @hoax_requim
    @hoax_requim 5 ปีที่แล้ว +38

    The hardest battle you'll ever have is a battle with your own mind. Brave guy ❤️👆

  • @Sad-gj7lz
    @Sad-gj7lz 5 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    We still love you and your content keep it up and remember that you have a head on your shoulders.😃😃😃

  • @bernardjaniga1360
    @bernardjaniga1360 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Broken thumbs up! I’ve been watching your videos for years now and now I respect you even more. Keep it going and make sure you take break anytime you feel like you need one!

  • @Venom-nc3ph
    @Venom-nc3ph 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    When the going gets tough the tough get going. We are all here to love and support you man, and if we arnt always the change starts with you and you want for the future. Take a break even and just think about how you can be happy and about how good life can be. We are here for u man, and u are so much more that any problem

  • @niedzikinietrener4383
    @niedzikinietrener4383 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Good luck man. I watch you for a many years. Love you and your games :)

  • @esketitesketit1658
    @esketitesketit1658 5 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    Respect bro. You the only reason I ever bought bf5.

    • @065moe
      @065moe 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      Facts

    • @Mr.ABFAHRT
      @Mr.ABFAHRT 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      same

    • @yankiv2640
      @yankiv2640 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      That's a good reason

  • @TheCadWoman
    @TheCadWoman 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    As someone who‘s struggling with anxiety and depressions as well I gotta say: Thank you for that video and thank you for talking so honest about this. It may help others to gain the strength to talk about it as well.
    Keep on fighting. There will always be brighter and darker times, but there‘s also always something to live for. And there are always people that love and care about you. Life is precious. Never give up.

  • @mikepetruccelli4177
    @mikepetruccelli4177 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    We love u Broken !! Anxiety is real ... i feel u completely

  • @GS-vb3zn
    @GS-vb3zn 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thanks for doing this, Broken. It helped me this morning. Had another rough anxiety ridden night, got up and was making my coffee and watched this. It moved me right out of my head. I needed this more than I knew. Keep working on yourself and move forward. You just inspired me to do that. I’m here for you.

  • @johnatanyankelevich4942
    @johnatanyankelevich4942 5 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    You incredible man to share thing like that I'm dealing with anxiety by my self be strong the more you practice the less you feel it. Day after day is important

  • @alienbash4590
    @alienbash4590 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I have so much respect for you opening up like that, broken! That takes a lot of courage, especially since it makes one even more vulnerable in some way. You can be proud of yourself to be able to do what you love for a living and entertain thousands of people every day. Keep it up man, the community loves you!

  • @benjoyce5853
    @benjoyce5853 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    This resonates with me so much Broken. I've suffered with anxiety and depression since I was a kid, the past few years have seen it manifest in a tick disorder and pretty intense agoraphobia. Like you, uni saw me. Go down a fucking dark path to self-harm and suicidal thoughts. This has been one of my toughest years too, but we're still here fighting! I had a few similar emotional meltdowns at work from trying to fight off panic attacks etc. So much fucking respect for you sharing this man, well done for recognising your victories, I think that's key to moving forward. We're all with you TBM 💙💙💙💙

  • @kayzhookz2053
    @kayzhookz2053 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Just stumbled onto your videos in the last 2 months and been using it to zone out and relax. I've recently been dealing with anxiety lately and so much of what you said has connected with my situation. Doing too much, not taking care of myself, not getting out of my own head, etc. Thank you for making this video and sharing. As much as your fans helped you during your journey, I hope you realize how much you help others with your content.

  • @Drugo81
    @Drugo81 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I feel you in many ways,as others probably, beside the gaming which ive enjoyed since your beginning in bf1. I knew you were struggling ,i felt that because i deal with it myself but let me tell you form my heart you are a fantastic streamer but mostly a nice soul. Keep in mind that youre not alone even when you are,we
    are a community and im far away from you,dont know you personally and never will but im with you,like many others. Thanks for this video,it means a lot for you but trust also for us. Take care man,bless you

  • @dr.porkchops6054
    @dr.porkchops6054 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Man I actually love broken. I'm pretty much in the same boat and gaming is my escape. My social anxiety is all over the place some days. It's so nice to hear someone relatable and to see that your are coming out the other end. Such an inspiration my guy

  • @alecweeman7279
    @alecweeman7279 5 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    This is very touching, I’m dealing with similar things like you. I even have doubts, and it took a huge toll on me especially in high school. I actually ended up in a hospital because of my bad depression, and i was not in a good place. We all love you broken, mega love ❤️❤️❤️

  • @Earth616Batman
    @Earth616Batman 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I have been watching your channel for a long time and you’ve always been my favorite gamer. You’re the only reason I still even play battlefield anymore. Seeing you on screen... I could see in your eyes every stream and every video even before you said anything... I knew because I myself am there too. I’ve been watching your channel not just because of how amazing you are at the game but it inspires me seeing someone struggling with the same things and feelings about themselves as I am be so successful and so true to himself in front of a camera which I can only imagine how stressful that must be. I see a guy just like me putting himself out there. I know what it’s like. Maybe we go through different things but I don’t remember the last day I had where I didn’t think about just giving up. I found your channel at the toughest time in my life. And seeing you and knowing I’m not alone..it really helped. And I’m sure it’s helped a lot of people. I’m proud of you not just for opening up to us but even pushing yourself to do what you’re passionate about and succeed like you have. We all love you and are rooting for you bro.

  • @liambrown5668
    @liambrown5668 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Hey man, this must of been super hard to do and I've got the up most respect for you doing it. I've been dealing with very similar issues for more than 5 years now. Honestly one of the first things that started to help me were your streams with bf1. I'd stopped working, I'd couldn't go out to see friends or go out with my now ex girlfriend or see family. But your streams were a safe place for me and I cant thankyou enough for giving me that retreat. I feel that I've turned a corner and I feel like my life finally getting back in track. So thankyou for being you and doing what you do man and also for opening up like this its gotta be so tough man but these stories are what help others keep going so honestly well done and thankyou.

  • @s_lim9455
    @s_lim9455 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    No need to apologise or be ashamed. You are a rock for doing this video. Good example for many of us I think.
    So many times your videos help me just empty my head and stop overthinking for a while.
    Thanks for sharing.

  • @rotesgarados6475
    @rotesgarados6475 5 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I am diagnosed with Depression, Borderline and ptsd. I feel you.

  • @ryanscott8549
    @ryanscott8549 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I’m so proud of you. You have been a blessing for this community. Much love!

  • @davidbarrettjr5534
    @davidbarrettjr5534 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    We Love you my Friend.Help is out there!My thoughts,and prayers are with you 🙌🙏🙌

  • @jimmywilson1388
    @jimmywilson1388 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I have anxiety and depression too man. I’m glad to hear you’re doing better. Try to get out in the sun everyday, outdoor activities seem like they really help me.. Love ya man, hang in there and keep your head up!

  • @terdferguson2653
    @terdferguson2653 5 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    My legit favorite streamer.

  • @joshwilson4168
    @joshwilson4168 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    rewatching this in sept 2020 after coming down from a manic episode. I did alot of damage to the people most important in my life. Thank you for giving me hope once again. I hope you are well my friend.

  • @danielevans8910
    @danielevans8910 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Damn, if every Semi-major youtuber treated their fans like you treat yours, this site would be a whole better place.
    Have a great day man, and don’t forget to take care of yourself.

  • @bluestorm777
    @bluestorm777 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I also have social anxiety. You helped me through some really difficult times two years ago and i couldn't open up like you in front of thousand peoples.. Take care

  • @harryleth5681
    @harryleth5681 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I just watched your "I love cheesecake" video and if I'm being honest it was the first video I've ever seen from you. I've been having a rough time myself recently too, but that video made me smile for the first time today, so thankyou. I can tell already why you've got over 600 comments on such a recent video, because people care about genuine people like yourself. No doubt I've much to learn from your other battlefield videos and I'll be sure to drop in on a stream too, take care of yourself mate

  • @dylberto7128
    @dylberto7128 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Broken, I've come to love watching your streams, but what I love more is your honesty and integrity. Keep doing what you're doing and stay strong. We've all got your back bro.

  • @dealwithithooman8691
    @dealwithithooman8691 5 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    GGeeees Broken. You have my respect. Struggling is human, take care of yourself

  • @violatedbeauty5085
    @violatedbeauty5085 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Man you are strong!!
    It takes a giant pair of balls to open up like this.

  • @75steelstrings
    @75steelstrings 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    You do realise what it takes to make a video like this? Nowadays with all the cynicism and trolls all around? I respect the courage you had, deeply.
    It's a mutual thing, the community loves and helps you and you do the same.
    The important thing though is to find the right balance, to take care of what you love, find things to free your mind (like the photography you love) and your job.
    Life will punch you, it always does, we're here for you and thanks to you.
    Oh and hey, don't be sorry, it's ok, you got this.
    Cheers from Italy dude, stay strong and think to all the people that love you.

  • @anthonyfinnerty4129
    @anthonyfinnerty4129 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Having a loved one who suffered with severe depression and anxiety, this video is a very brave and incredibly honest thing to do.
    Wishing you all the best. If you haven't come across it, cognitive therapy could be of interest. It's more of a way learning to understand how your mind works than anything too intense. Helps understand how mood, situations and environment can have an impact. Good luck going forward!

  • @mr.blueitachi5258
    @mr.blueitachi5258 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I feel proud of myself to be part of TBM gang , u tought me alot about btf games (especially btf 1) and i appreciate it👍🏻

  • @VasilyShine
    @VasilyShine 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    After one year watching your incredible streams and highlights videos YT recommended me this clip. And it’s literally made my day, man! Thank you so much for your sincerity! You are the great gamer, streamer and first of all -person! We’ve all been there and thanks god we have such a brave man to share it with audience!

  • @quentin3520
    @quentin3520 5 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Stay strong my friend!!!
    Much love from Germany

    • @Maximumman88
      @Maximumman88 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      Was hat broken,kann kein Englisch,hoffe du kannst mir helfen

    • @PickeldieMZ
      @PickeldieMZ 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@Maximumman88 Depressionen, Angstzustände, Panikattacken! Er hatte bei einem seiner Streams einen Zusammenbruch und erklärt sich hier nun

  • @uckBayNguyen
    @uckBayNguyen 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Broken, sincerity speaks for itself. Take a break, you don't have to answer to anyone but yourself. We all know our Broken Machine will always be THE Broken Machine. Life doesn't have to evolve Battlefield. In fact, Battlefield evolve around you. Take care of yourself and get your shit in order. It's always a treat to get your feed. The longer the wait, the grander the enjoyment.

  • @aminou2953
    @aminou2953 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Much Love to you Broken, keep being a beast 👊❤️

  • @rkoubik
    @rkoubik 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Huge respect, TBM. I´ve been sruggling with anxiety and depression for the last two years, and seeing your videos makes my mind stay away from bad thoughts. Keep doing a great job entertaining us!

  • @luissimental6191
    @luissimental6191 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Your a strong man, for opening up too us, I know it's hard at times trust me, but a day at a time and all things will fall into place TBM, your doing awesome work and keep your head up, the whole community loves you machine, chest out and head up high Machine, peace brotha. 💪😁👍

  • @escricco
    @escricco 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Dude, been there, done that. Thanks for sharing. What I learned from my anxiety and depression experiences, is that we all need to really listen to our body, our feelings, and accept we can't do everything. Our brain needs breaks as much as our muscles. Also, our minds are really complex, thoughts are not something you can control, neither feelings, neither body sensations. So the basic tips are silly but they work: just take more time for yourself, meditate, exercise, eat better, sleep well, feel grateful for other people, for yourself, and have fun always. And don't be afraid to ask for help!!

  • @bjoroy87
    @bjoroy87 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Much love from norway man 😘👌 you could really hear how real those feelings were during the live stream. ❤️
    Great video man 💪🏽
    Hope the trip to Ålesund was nice for u 💜
    Go strong 🤝🤲🏽

  • @davidfraser3447
    @davidfraser3447 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    You got my respect bro iknow all too well the nightmare of anxiety/social anxiety and how it can destroy every aspect of your life,takes a lot of courage to open up to the whole world like that

  • @peteshepherd15
    @peteshepherd15 5 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    Sometimes you just need to make a change for you. For example, shaving your dome. 😉 Stay strong Mate! Life is worth living and you only get one go at it. Take care of yourself.

  • @MarioGomez-kj5bc
    @MarioGomez-kj5bc 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I love your videos and you are brave for putting yourself out like that, you look like an awesome person and you have a lot of emotional intelligence. Wish you the best from here man!

  • @thevirusboy32
    @thevirusboy32 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    This motivated made me and mustered up enough courage to resolve and come clean about a big thing in my life.
    The world needs more brave people like you.
    Thank you Broken!

  • @afella1129
    @afella1129 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Breakups suck man. Ive come to realize that everything happens for a reason and anytime I think I have complete control, thats usually when I have zero control. And the times when everything fell apart before my eyes, they were the hardest for me because I felt like the entire world was sitting on my chest. Luckily I found some very good friends who got me to start coming around and it built my confidence. I hope your sucesses have built your c9nfidence as well. I know Im not the only one, but your channel is the one I find myself coming back to the most.
    Mad respect brother, people like us are the strongest of the bunch. Keep what you love close to your heart, and flood your head with good memories.
    Rock on Broken!!!!

  • @Jwe12
    @Jwe12 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I understand my friend I really do be strong

  • @optimise1724
    @optimise1724 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Love you broken 💗💗 as a new subscriber I teared up listening that such an honest person like yourself suffered silently for so long,
    Love you Buddy , you make my day.

  • @safeengaming8309
    @safeengaming8309 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    It must've been really hard to pull out this video. I just wanna say it's time for the community to thank this great legend for all the efforts and struggles!!
    Keep your head up! And keep your heart strong!!
    S.G

  • @andrzejzajac6122
    @andrzejzajac6122 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    support from Poland, po polsku dodam że najważniejszy jesteś Ty i o tym pamiętaj, dbaj o siebie, trudne czasy przejdą i wszystko będzie dobrze, cierpliwości, każdy wiek rządzi się swoimi problemami, to przejdzie wielu ludzi jest z Tobą i pamiętaj że jesteś i na zawsze będziesz dobrym człowiekiem i super Gościem.

  • @JMac-
    @JMac- 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Never seen that stream mate but wow hope you’re good man. I’ve been feeling the same for last couple of months. I’ve never felt this way and I don’t know what or how to deal with it.
    Chin up my man and take it easy.

  • @danbrown5009
    @danbrown5009 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hi Broken. I completely relate to everything that you have said. I have struggled with anxiety for over 5 years and I’m just finally starting to get myself back on track from where my life was not really worth living. You’ve helped me on numerous occasions when I’ve been having an attack and one of the best distractions was watching you so I want to thank you for that. Keep up the good work my brother.