Hello everyone, I bared my soul with all its cuts and bruises for the world to see. The response has been amazing and I thank you all. To read over and over that this is the "Best interview ever" is quite an honor. May this video help others Break Their Silence and Inspire all who see it. PEACE.
You my new brother, are an incredibly Courageous Man! Your light now shines over the world to help us who still suffer from the abuses of 'ASS CLOWNS' who took our childhood innocence, and replaced it with fear and pain. Thank you for sharing with us. God Bless you, Tommy, Northern Minnesota
Clark, I very rarely watch videos this long all the way through, but your story captivated me so much I couldn't stop once I started. I'm so glad you didn't have to completely lose the rest of your life by bringing justice to that monster--although, as you said, it didn't really fix your problems. As someone who has not experienced abuse and can't relate to it on a personal level, I'm deeply sorry for what you were forced to endure, however I'm glad that the Lord has been able to bring some good out of such evil by using you an an instrument to other abuse survivors. Thanks to testimonies like yours, I'm motivated to always be a person of empathy, understanding, and non-judgementalism to those who have experienced abuse in any way. God Bless you, my friend.
Yes, you are a Humanitarian and you are the face of inspiration. The lifelong commitment to exposing insidious fear made by henious people in the public arena is high order: *G*ood *O*rderly *D*irection. Have a great life. Peace!
Dennis Pegg died in 2012 and his obituary reads like he's an upstanding citizen. These monsters are all around us. Thank you, Clark, I have great respect for you for fighting this monster and winning.
It sounds like he had a lot of enablers... Fellow pigs... Truly disgusting, these guys can't do it alone. They always have people who enable whether they know it or not... Whoever knows where this molesting pig's grave is, please post. This is probably the best SWU episode yet. Thank you!
OMG!!! His obit reads like he is friggin Jesus!! Surely whomever wrote that obit did a lot of research to list alll his 'accomplishments'. (By 'accomplishments' I really mean opportunities he setup to get access to people he could victimize.) No doubt they knew he was raping boys and men. So not only is the world full of monsters, those monsters have people helping them. Grrr. P.S. Check out the "We Need to Talk About Cosby" series to hear more about monsters who rape and the people who help them rape. Grrr.
@@powderandpaint14 As one of the police officers told him, everyone knew but they lacked formal evidence because none of the victims was telling about it.
🫂🫂🫂I watched your whole video, as a woman a black woman who’s been raped twice in my life. Once as a teen by gunpoint and once in my early 40’s now at 49 I’m still suffering. I’m just not happy and I’m suffering. Thank you and I send love!
So sorry to hear...Life is a difficult journey + is even harder when things have happened...There is so much to unpack + deal with of how it affects nearly every aspect of life i know...I hope you find support + accept yourself...I am also on the journey...So i can't say what helps, or the end results. But love to you 🫂🖤☯️
I am 16 rn and I got SAd at the age of 15 by a neighbour of mine. He was 70 smth. This story made me realise I can actually have a life even if I went trough it. Respect for you Clerk. I hope the best for you
I’m so sorry to hear that, I wish that I could be your big brother and be there for you. Please open up to a loved one even though it might be hard at first it is worth it.
@@Athos1776 it’s ok!!I told my mom about it and we did report the guy. Sadly we didn’t have any evidence and lost the case. Mom asked if I wanted to continue w suing again but it would’ve been just a waste of money. But now I’m pretty good. My friends support me. Sadly I did get made fun of by some kids at school because my mom told everyone so they can be safe and stay away from the creep. But now I am doinf pretty ok, and I am slowly healing
Thank you Clark Fredericks. Your story saved me. This kept me from doing the same thing to my 4b$3r. Instead I outed him and now I get to see his world slowly crumble as he’s feeling everything I felt. This is way better and it’s all because you gave me the power to.
Clark and his family lived in my neighborhood growing up and his story shook the whole county to the core.We rallied behind him when he was in court to see that he got leniency getting rid of a sick animal.
@@paulden3158 This way, you can continue living a free, beautiful life and being kind to animals and vulnerable people, and if the opportunity presents, rid the world of even more malignant predators. ; )
The saddest thing is to hear adults who suffered sexual abuse as kids say their biggest regret was not saying anything. Having to live with that level of guilt and shame, processing such complex emotions while being preyed upon and still thinking they should have been stronger or had the courage to speak up is heartbreaking.
@@claireh.7605I think that's a really naive assumption. I would also think it's pretty insulting to victims of sexual abuse. Of course talking to your kids is important but don't you think many victims parents did have that conversation. Did you listen when he described how his abuser deterred him from speaking up?
@@stephanie3336 sure, if you loo up 'contreras divorce court florida deputy arrest' it shows how a court guard would take women for fake drug checks and treat them like the back room of a strip club, then not register their complaints if they spoke up and literally tell them they will be arrested for false complaints and disorderly conduct if they complain about him. Then he blackmails the woman like that on camera, in front of a family judge who stays out like it isn't her business, and his coworker immediately becomes a co-conspirator, then the prosecutor helps them for going after the woman on false charges after they arrest her. It is crazy how everyone just ganged up on her when one incriminated guy was threatened with being reported.
@@stephanie3336I certainly recall that part of the story; do you remember when he said his parents warned him about getting in a stranger’s car, but not about not getting in a car with a person he knew? To be fair to Clark’s parents- we as a society didn’t have the understanding and awareness of how abuse actually happens to children. Today we do know. And that’s part of what proper sex education looks like. Explaining to your children what is and _is not_ appropriate for _any_ adult to do with or to them. Obviously it won’t prevent all assaults (and nobody said that it would) but it would make a dramatic difference Claireh is right.
I hope that the times have changed and it's impossible for a predator to have a 40+year reign of terror. There should be no one looking the other way or just wanting to sweep this ugly problem under the rug.
Fr like they should be able to kill their abuser like if the abuser didn’t go to prison for doing that then neither should the guy who killed his abuser the guy just wanted justice since the cops didn’t want to get justice
@Brandon Danielson Brandon, You ate 100% correct. My lawyer told me immediately that he did not want me getting bailed out. He said that I was addicted to drugs, I was in a horrible mental state, and it didn't look good for someone charged with murder to be out in the community going to bars and out to dinners. He also said I needed to be removed from all the negative influences in my life and just concentrate on me. He was right on everything.
My nephews abuser was released from prison and my nephew had a break down than committed suicide the same day. Your saving lives with your life story. Thank you! 🙏🏻
The police officer that told him to say the 5th amendment and request a lawyer was truly a proper gentleman. Sometimes you get the right person at the right time.
@@clarkfredericks3309 You're an amazing person and Im glad you survived all of this and are a free man today. I wish I couldve gotten revenge on my abuser but the pathetic coward offed himself. At least he cant hurt anyone else.
It’s been 38 years since …! and I’ve still not found the courage to speak up. Thankyou Clark for being the voice. This is the most powerful interview I’ve seen on child molestation /rape🙏🏼
I watched a video yesterday. Marilyn Vanberdun (?) Spelling of last may be incorrect. She was Ms America in 1958. I urge all victims to watch her video. Honestly everyone should see it the same as everyone should see Clark's. If we weren't a victim we surely have met many. We can possibly offer help if we're more aware.
I appreciate that he called his abusers name - he said his name. He’s telling the truth 100% - so many details and clear description of what grooming looks like . Also a cautionary tale for parents - trusts no one with your precious children.
At times it's hard to trust your own decision making, how can anybody trust a person/brain you have 0 control over when we cant even control our own at times!! 👍🏽
Talk to them about what is abuse and who to tell once they get to a age of understanding. Most people are fine but unfortunately we don't know who , my friends was touched inappropriately by two of her dad's friend when she was asleep to this day she has issue s saying no to men. Another girl family had house parties and she was raped by family friend she went from size 10 healthy to 20 stone within a few year's.
@@clarkfredericks3309God bless you Sir…you are a true testimony. I can relate in many ways, me:female, abuser: uncle/preacher. 😢. Take care be blessed and hang in there.
The fact that his dog showed more concern for you at 12 speaks volumes. His moral compass was beneath animals. I have watched this three times. Kudos for having the courage to take your power back from that sob.
I'm honored, seriously honored that you have watched this 3 times. My life is a Cautionary Tale. My story of overcoming applies to everyone. Not one of us is going to through life unscathed. How will you handle the punches that life throws at you. I'm telling you that we are all capable of overcoming any hurdle that life puts in our way.
Holyshit you certainly deserve all the love and compassion this world has for you that would horrify me about that dog. I have no words thank you for the courage to tell your story
Most humans are beneath animals consciousness. Most animals kill for survival. In all my years working with wildlife, I've realized that the human condition is comprised of evil.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am a 74 year old Black female and I was also tramatized as a child which led me down a dispicable life including prison. I, like you, have completely turned my life around. Thank you for being the calalyst for others to find healing. May God Bless You and keep You in his Loving Care.
Goodmorning Tanya, I've heard from so many people from all walks of life and our stories all seem to mirror each other. The trauma is so great that we all seem to self-destruct in very similar ways. The trauma steers our ship off course and its up to us to finally get back on a new course. Bless you that you survived and found a new course for your life.
@@clarkfredericks3309 Thank you so much for responding. I also shared your trauma with drug addition. After viewing this video, I googled you and I was directed to your day of sentencing and the statement you made to the court. You were so full that you couldn't hold back the tears and anxiety. You were able to say it all OUT LOUD and my guess is: That might have been the start day of your healing. There needs to be a movie chronicling your life. God Bless You and thank you for all you do.
My heart goes out to this man. My stepdad is a sick bastard and we were forced to live with him for twenty years.... He even went through me, my sisters, their daughters and tried for my girlfriends. He is currently on trial...and I have been sober for a year
He described being sexually abused so vividly and accurately I had trouble breathing while listening. I had to take a moment, take a breather and comment. The feeling of being utterly and completely frozen when it happens. Like you can’t breathe, and like you are the only person in the world. It does something to your brain. To your soul. You do wonder where God was. My own father and my uncle repeatedly molested me and I too was told to keep it a secret. I did keep it a secret when I was still a kid, but after I moved out… fuck secrets. I confronted both of them. My alcoholic father added insult to injury and was so disgusted that I brought it up. He’s disgusted? 🤯 My uncle is currently in prison as he molested other girls in the family- even his granddaughter. This man from Stillwater, NJ made me feel less alone today. Signed, the woman from Hawthorne, NJ
Woman from Hawthorne, NJ, this woman in Nashville Tennessee wants to cry for you. I feel a little better knowing you don't feel alone this morning because of Clark's bravery. Thinking of you and all the other survivors of rape this morning. Xoxo Kim
Thank you for your kindness, but I don’t want to make this about me. Listening to Clark…so much of it is insanely relatable. That’s the only thing I want to make about me- is that I am also fluent in speaking the language of trauma. The shame, the rage, the lack of coping skills, the inability to connect emotionally…the failed attempts to escape into different addictions…the indescribable bouts of depression…the occasional feeling of longing for it all to be over… I’m so honored that he shared his story and I am even more thrilled about where he stands today. Thank you again for your kind words and I’m also proud to finally be sober! ❤️🩹
Im a 15yo boy and luckily nothing like this ever happend to me but i could never be as strong as you and tell such a story you are an amazing story teller
How absolutely wonderful. . Stick with it,, it gets easier as time goes on. Life gets easier to live when you are sober. All the things that used to trigger you and make you abuse substances suddenly don't bother you as much
I got sexually harassed by gay men for a couple years. I don’t know how but when he was describing being frozen during the predators acts. It unlocked that trauma that I’ve had buried long ago. I’m researching for therapy now because a lot of shit went down after the fact as I was a troubled kid.
@@nightcrawlr1035 Therapy is the right path. Your doctor would be a good source for a referral. Many therapists specialize in childhood sexual abuse survivors. They have the background and experience to help you, and they have heard it all. Your story will not shock them. And they will not ever make you feel shame or embarrassment! They are there to support you on your journey of healing. The more you talk, you will literally feel that burden of trying to deal with it on your own lifting off you. It won't happen overnight, so be patient with yourself. Anything worthwhile takes time. And you are worth it. Sending much love and good vibes. 💛
As a father, this infuriates me. I can’t believe there’s parents out there who can’t pick up on their kids behavioral changes. It’s stories like this as to why I don’t trust anyone besides 4 or 5 people with my boy. No teacher, no friends parents, no priest, no scout leader, no coach, no body at all.
90% of predators are white heterosexual males, they are also your friends, family or acquaintance. There’s also a long history of “oh kids lie! They just want attention!” Also a view that kids are inherently bad, so this “bad behavior” is almost expected. Instead of figuring out what message these actions are trying to tell us, we “don’t spoil the child by sparing the rod”. As a survivor I’m glad this is coming to light
A child's coping mechanism is to deny the bad things, in hopes it goes away. Parents try but feel hopeless. Seek help if you know something is not right with your child.
Clark Fredericks, then 50, was given the minimum sentence of five years for stabbing Dennis Pegg to death in June 2012. I'm so sorry he had to go through that too -- but Clark freed the world of that demon. I'm glad Clark is out of prison and sharing his powerful story...I feel confident it will set others free, physically and emotionally, from their abusers. Thank you Clark! You're a hero.
Cant believe that essay didn't tip off your teacher. I went through the heroin ringer, i managed to get clean by the skin of my teeth. Got diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety and depression. Never told anyone about my abuse (i was 17-18) by a doctor. This story makes me feel less alone
I was raped by a family "friend" when I was 12 yrs old but fortunately it was only once and then he went away. My parents never knew and now they are gone and don't need to feel the pain. I somehow hid the trauma within and just recently came to acceptance and I am okay. I thank you for sharing your story and you are brave to do so. May God Bless you for taking him out so he can no longer harm anyone. I wish I had been as courageous.
You say you wish you had been as courageous....but you ARE courageous... You've just told the world what happened to you as a child.... I'd say that's a very courageous thing to do your better than the person who did you wrong and you have empathy for others ❤
The reality is absolutely staggering. If people learned more the world would be a kinder place. Some of us were literally tortured and it affects how we see and interact w the world. We don’t want to be broken, we never wanted to be sexually abused or raped as children, but the reality is that we were. I hope people can learn and have empathy. Most addicts were abused as children. Close to 90%. That should be eye opening for people and shocking enough to spread awareness as well as lobby for harsher sentences because the system is a joke and lets these weirdos out to reoffend which is vile and truthfully unacceptable
Someone I've known for 20 years confessed a childhood experience. I had no idea. They asked if anything like that had happened to me, and I said no, never. They were incredulous, and kept asking. I think people have to normalize/rationalize it to make it through 💔 It is so common. I hate that society pretends to protect children while failing in the most important and predictable ways. Epstein don't kill himself
Being a survivor of childhood sexual molestation i was silent for decades! I was in my late 30's when i learned to speak up about it. Now i am 60 and i have been sober for 30 years. #SpeakUp
I immediately felt his pain when he was talking about him beating the dog...my chest got tight and I could feel his anguish. I rescue great danes and horses and I feel like I would have felt and thought just like him in that moment. So very traumatizing, even more so than the rape, says alot of his innocence and childlike love and care for animals, one that was howling for his pain he suffered. Wow, I needed to write to this. You just remember your innocence was there and your love is still there. So sorry you went through ALL of this, but your story is profoundly impactful. Thank you.
I felt the same. And the fact that he had just endured the absolute worst of humanity but was more worried about the dog, and that he was the cause of the dog's anguish, to me says that Clark is the literal opposite of his abuser. He is the absolute best of humanity. Also he told his story with such depth and candor.
I was sexually and physically abused by my dad for 19 years(1968-1987). It destroyed my life, but six months before he died in August, 2014, I forgave him because I had to try and move beyond all the trauma I'd been through. But, he never apologized to me or admitted to what he'd done. To this day(I'm 54), I still can't be in close physical proximity to another man. It paralyzes me with fear. So, I completely understand this.
I am so sorry for what happened to you… you are strong, even just saying this is very brave. Remember you are safe and nobody will hurt you anymore. Sending you love
I wish I could give you a hug. I know how the world looks like its full of demons when you've been betrayed by someone who was supposed to protect you from them. Who did this to you was a monster disguised in human flesh. You're a brave man who was generous enough to forgive him and tell your story here. You've my respect, Sir. I hope you overcome this fear someday and live your life to the fullest. I'm proud of how far you've come. Lots of love ❤️
I'm really sorry Jimmy 💚 . I was never sexually abused but my own mother would physically and mentally abuse me since young. Started out young where she would make me stay up and than I couldn't get up for school. And than it progressed and its still happening. Recently I called my brother to tell him I have to let my parents go . Its for the best for me. I just can't do it anymore. As sad as it is Jimmy anybody that was supposed to be there for you and wasent same thing , let them go. I hope you can have some sort of recovery . I wish you the best 💚.
That is a dumb statement. He lost the life he deserved to live because of that pos - there was no purpose of this happening to him and this shouldn't have been his "destiny" - his destiny should have been being happy, maybe with that girl who he said was the love of his life. That animal robbed him forever.
@@clarkfredericks3309 your strong and honesty so much more then the situation you were placed in as someone who was taken advantage of its something well never forget
you are a Hero -- my Hero movve i Will never do but my abusers deserve,,,, i struggle with the anger, i read meditate found a dieta AND spirit system that works wonders we all know there Is no 100-/, healing when lines like this áre crossed
Fact that you got back with your childhood sweetheart put me into tears bro, a 40 year old, miserable lump of a man that's had some of his own struggles through life, in tears, cant remember when that last happened, that part was beautiful. So happy for you
@clarkfredericks3309 wish you all the best mate, these dark days when it's a struggle to lift a limb are tough, you have all these people on these videos hoping you get through them 🤘
His story is so very similar to my husband’s. Unfortunately my husband was in a great deal of denial and self hatred that he never got help. He spent most of his life struggling with his addictions and in prison. We were married for 3 years before he passed away from overdose at the young age of 35. Clark, thank you for sharing your story. It will help more people, especially men, than any of us can imagine. I’m rooting for you. Take care of yourself.
My dad died of alcoholic myocarditis a couple weeks ago after a long and horrific battle with chronic alcoholism. He was raped at age 16 by a family friend. He never told anyone for 40 years. As someone who was groomed and sexually abused in my early 20s by a superior at work early in my career, I can not even begin to imagine the pain of keeping a secret like that for 40 years. Rest in peace Dad. :'(
This is THE MOST INTENSE AND HEALING testimony I've ever had the pleasure of experiencing. For today, I feel less alone, hopeful and clear. Thank you guys from the bottom of my heart.
@@clarkfredericks3309 thank you. Thank you so much. Your testimony is touched me in so many ways! I am a survivor and so is my brother. He reminds me so much of you. 🧡🧡🧡
@@clarkfredericks3309 The mama bear in me wants to jump through the screen and protect you. I’m so glad you are able to share your story and know you are loved and supported by people you’ll probably never even meet. ❤️🙏🏻🌹
Hi Clark. I too was molested as a child for three years by my mother's second husband, he did it to my older sister as well. His name is Douglas Santos; he was a photo developer at Paramount Pictures in the early 2000s. I know what it's like to deal with a respected predator. I am 23 now. You're amazing, and I admire your strength. I wish you peace and healing always. Soo happy to hear about the reunion with your college sweetheart 🥺❤❤
I watched this video this morning not realizing the impact it would have on me. I'm so grateful to Clark for telling his story so I could move through mine. I still mostly have an invisible hand over my mouth, but hearing him say his abuser's name made me feel that today is time to speak mine. I'm tired of being as sick as my secrets. R. Gillespie and M. Frasier. I was a child and what you did took so much of my life away from me.
My heart resonates with you Clark. I was abused by my aunt’s son when I was 7-11 years old as well. He was 8 years older than me. It started off as a game too. Thank you for sharing your story. You have given me so much hope in healing and to not feel so alone in my own trauma. I’m so sorry you had to endure this. No child should have to go through this. Not you, not me, not anyone. That man will pay in the afterlife. He’ll answer to God and justice will be survived. God bless you Clark. May you continue healing on your journey and keeping that peace within
There is no price tag on this interview, or Clark's testimony. I know the time is coming for me to speak up as well. Proctastination, fear, depression, etc. have kept me from stepping up to the plate. Clark, as well as Mark's entire channel, has brought me one step closer. Thank you both. Mark, your channel is priceless.
For anyone thinking of suicide look at this man. His life seemed over and in complete shambles but little did he know that his life was about to begin on the journey of healing and really take off in a whole new trajectory that would positively impact the lives of others. Don’t give up.
Let's be honest here. You think that if one of the homeless people we see here everyday went back and killed their abuser with no confrontation they would get 5 years and a motivational speaking contract at the end of their sentence? I'm not condemning what he's done, what I'm saying is that these kinds of stories rarely turn out this way. It doesn't give me hope because I'm aware of what an exception all of this is.
what can I say- I’m a 63 y/o woman who was molested at 5 ( more than once) and physically abused throughout childhood and have lived a self deprecating life since. A constant battle of drugs, alcohol, non-commital sexual relationships, intimacy problems, seeking abusive men, addictions. It reads like a “how to” list. I hung onto very word that literally describes my own life. I also gave my life to God at 47 and He has become my source for life and healing. Thank you Mark for this interview.
As a sexual abuse victim myself, I felt Clark's anger and pain. No one but my wife knows the abuse I endured. He is a cousin of mine and I don't know how I would react if I saw him today. His sexual abuse on top of the physical and emotional abuse I endured from my stepdad I believe is the reason why I have zero self esteem. I have lived my entire life doubting the man I am. Thank you Clark for sharing your story.
I used recklessness disguised as fearlessness because I suffered from low self esteem as well. As healing develops and progresses your self esteem will improve as well.
Dear Mike, I'm sorry for what happened to you and I care about you. Do not believe the story that you and others try to fit you in. The truth is that Mike doesn't even exist. You are not who you were years ago and you don't have to be who you are now tomorrow. You are shapeless and limitless and we all love you. Please continue on your journey with pride in what you've managed to live through and know that you're not alone.
This man is an amazing story teller. I just wish his story didn't involve such horrific events in his life. I'm grateful he has the courage to share his experience. I hope men and women who have experienced sexual abuse will seek to heal their broken hearts through therapy.
@@jen-ms4xo I agree....also I'm on my 7th therapist in a 18 year spanf and still haven't found one that has helped...plus one ended up causing more trauma by crossing the line in my vulnerability and sexualized me so more trauma and will never see a male therapist again.. that was almost more damage cause I don't trust therapist now also...
I am in my 60th year in this wicked world. I was 5 years old when I was brutally raped. There are several parallels between my experience and yours. Your story has shaken me to my very core and brought tears to my eyes. I'm kinda shook right now. Thank you for sharing your story. In a way I don't understand I think it has helped me somehow. I know how you feel and you know how I feel.
No one should ever go threw anything of the sort , it’s never a victims fault . Be the best person you can be , be proud and love yourself ✌️ people care ❤
I am so angry for that poor child and for the man who fought his way back so bravely from the brink. I'm so so sorry you went through everything you suffered. What an incredible, tragic, inspirational story, thank you so much for sharing, you are just an amazing person.
I literally took out a mini white board and started writing positive reminders for myself while I listened… haven’t done that in years - he’s inspiring
This interview was so brave of him to do. also, his details help to pinpoint specific behaviors abusers do and tactics they use to prey on children which can be really helpful for parents and guardians to look out for.
i thought this was going to be back round noise while i played tetris online. boy was i wrong. while the subject matter is extremely tough to get through, i found myself fighting back tears several times, these things need to be said and shared. what Clark is doing here is helping people who have suffered childhood abuse began a path of healing by sharing his traumatic story. Clark, i commend you. i am in awe of your courage. well done
Rob, Thanks bro, you nailed it in the head. Our shame keeps us paralyzed and a hostage to the pain we experienced. I wanted to be vulnerable to help others break out of their isolation and torment. Thank you for acknowledging that.
@@clarkfredericks3309 your story touched the deepest parts of my soul and awakened something inside of me. I don’t know what exactly that is but I am extremely grateful you’ve invited the world to see you and hear your story. Thank you Clark.
I cried when he talked about how he used to love lighting things on fire as a kid because I use to do the same thing and be very destructive, but I never connected that to my abuse
I got ENRAGED just listening to his painful story, let alone living it. WE HEAR YOU CLARK. That devil deserved everything that he got. I hope you find peace, you are a true survivor. ♥️
i would like to know what Clark's impression is of the look in the eyes in that man just b4 his throat was slit - was it worth it bad guy ? I guess some would say yes and some would say no.... idk. Intense vid. God bless
I’m in therapy for a number of reasons . Sexual abuse is one of those reasons. Been going for 3 years and still haven’t found the courage to say it out loud. I thank you sir. This will help me
I’m so sorry you had to go through this. Unfortunately, I can relate. I’m glad you’re getting help. I can say from experience that speaking your experience to a caring professional can be liberating and healing. It took me years to do so but when I did it was like a load off my back. I’m now comfortable with it, more or less. Just remember that what you say is not a confession because you did nothing wrong. It reflects negatively on your abuser, not you. I say this as a middle aged man who works in construction and hunts; being a strong, tough man does not mean you have to keep this stuff in, that going to therapy is weakness. Remember to be gentle with yourself and that what you’re doing now is a massing sign of your strength and courage.
I read most of the comments to this video, I’ve dealt with my own trauma but never sexual abuse I have very close friends I grew up with who experienced sexual abuse by a relative I can’t begin to tell you how deep that trauma effected them and when I say how deep I mean their entire life it’s had an effect on, my heart has always hurt for them. You are not alone you have a voice when you feel strong enough for the world to hear your voice or not the world and if u rather vent in a journal to tell your story however you feel comfortable venting or speaking your truth your story what you’ve been through you are loved u did nothing to deserve that it’s not love it’s pain it’s hurt it’s abuse you are not alone in this world many of us feel your pain and are here for you ❤❤ blessings peace and love
Being vulnerable is truly a gift of the Spirit. Time to accept being open about your story. Maybe let it out on this platform. You know we'll love and support you either way.
after binging about half a dozen of these interviews, and after many shocking emotional moments, i now know firmly we must do everything we can to protect children
But how? This crime is so prevalent in our society. Everyone it touches hides it in shame-perpetrators, community leaders, even the victims and their family members. How do we stop it when no one wants to speak and break the chain? Clark is doing good work but the magnitude of the problem makes it feel so overwhelming and the work so miniscule.
I have never in my life felt such awe and respect for someone before. This is earthshattering. Things like this are indescribably important for everyone to hear.
He has done what most victims dream off. The rage and the pain is still there no matter how many years pass. I could resonate so much to his emotions. It has been 19 years but till this day I still struggle despite therapy, it destroys you.
I am very sorry, Fatima. I too was abused, but what has helped me, is to understand that it is mostly a cycle. I am in no way excusing the abuser!! I am just saying that if you can picture the person(s) who abused you in the same position as you were in, it might give you more understanding of how it could happen. It actually can give you a way to heal.
I am 64 and that was the powerful interview I have ever listened too and his life story will some day be a movie that will heal millions of abuse survivors
Dear Clark, I was molested by two half brothers, for quite a few years. I was the object of their depravity as they conjured up perverted acts on me. I have stuffed for years years and years. As you shared your experience with the POS in your life I was bombarded with memories. I am unable to finish right now but want you to know how grateful I am for your compelling honesty and memories.
Sending prayers for your healing. It's good that you shared. It's a step in the right direction. Things that have helped me are Richard Grannon's Emotional Flashback Worksheet and Rewind Therapy by the Human Givens Institute (I was able to use it myself). Just talking about things was retraumatizing, so I think learning to let emotion pass and to calm the body is so important to getting stronger. I have had some common sense counselors that helped me unravel the gaslighting. You'll learn who your people are. And just take the best care of yourself that you can. You are deserving. 🙏
This is by far the most riveting and heart wrenching of stories. This man was forced to right an evil done to him and many other boys. Bless him and all those who suffer at the hands of evil men and women. It’s a miracle he’s alive. I’m truly moved.
Yes it's a miracle we are alive, and I am grateful to be alive. 3hat I wish someone would have e told me was that I did not have to identify with what happened to me. Finding out that my identity was so much more then the abuse I suffered or mistakes I made is what brought me back from hell.on earth into heaven on earth. I hope he knows this now too, that he is way more then just a survivor. 🙂💕💨
I literally cried!!! The way that he was telling his story, his face expression, his voice, the pain, the anger, the sorrow!!!! God please help this man to overcome this tragedy& trauma🙏🏻
Anyone here still think drag queen story hour is a good idea.? This is what happens when adults DON"T protect children. And the predators know when children are unprotected. Where's God? Wrong question. Where are the grown ups? Where are the adults? Where is society? Down at the library..? Yeah right...Where is God indeed.?
Wow. What a powerful testimony. I also was a victim of sexual abuse. I was so depressed and self destructive. God healed and delivered me. I’m sober, at peace and love to help others. Thank you so much for sharing your story. You are strong, brave and a warrior for the kingdom . God bless you. 🙌🏾🙌🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
I am too a survivor. I'm sober instead of meds given by Dr. Which is Prozac and Valium sleeping meds. But I don't think anyone gets over it all the way. It changes how you are as a person. You can live with having been through it but it does change you.
Never let your kids be ALONE with any adult. Most abusers are trusted, loved, respected by the family. Never leave them alone, not even for a minute. That cool uncle, great coach, youth pastor, babysitter, overnight at a friend's house? NO. ⚠️ -worked in a Sezual Assault Program for 7 years
I’m speechless, that was probably the best interview off all time. Mark just let you speak the whole time, he didn’t have to ask anything to keep you going. Clark, I’m proud of you. You’re such an inspiration to so many. God bless you!
@Emily Hinkley Watch more of these videos. They have at least a few where Mark doesn't speak at all. This one and Mike Dowd are public speakers, but not all of them are.
@Emily Hinkley your og comment makes it sound like Marc didn't have to ask questions because the guys a professional speaker, which isn't the case, because Mark has plenty of videos where he doesn't ask questions. Sherlock.
I can't really find the words to express how much respect I have for this man. Over time I bet this video is going to help hundreds of thousands, maybe millions of moms, kids and survivors. Men telling their stories of abuse is some of the most important social work happening in society today. All the best to you warrior, you're doing incredible work here.
No it's legit interviews with men. And woman on skid row, I haven't seen any in a long time, but just seen this randomly and as usual, it's so well done it's hard to put the phone down. They are heartbreaking stories. @@nildaluzrodriguez
Clark, I just want to give you a hug, man. This story WILL save so many lives, and I’m so glad I came across it. I’m a father of two and dealing with some struggles. Your story gave me so much hope, and clarity. Makes me want to be a better man. I hope to see more of your journey in the future
@@clarkfredericks3309you are so strong clark, your story has empowered over me & my trauma, you don’t realize how many lives you have saved, your courage will never go unrecognized & i wish you the overall best!!
@@clarkfredericks3309 Of course, my condolences! I hope everything works out for you & i do wish you feel better, your brother must’ve been as great as a guy as you are! :)
@@clarkfredericks3309 i wish you all the best with dealing with the loss of your brother. I want you to know god made you go through it because he knows your one of the strong ones. I was molested at 6 and your story is helping me get through it.
@@clarkfredericks3309dude you have saved the lives of THOUSANDS of young kids, just think about it, your testimony has helped thousands of parents pay more attention to their children, you are doing God’s work
I have never been so mesmerized as I was, while watching you Clark. I will agree, that this is the best interview that Mark has done. All I can say is that I truly pray, that the rest of your life is full of love and laughter. I am a few years younger than you, but I am looking at you through a mother’s eyes. I wish I could hug the pain away from the little boy, that I see. Love from Canada.
This was a hard story to listen to but very inspiring about how you overcame such adversity. I’m so sorry you felt you had to keep it in so long but I’m glad you are enjoying a clean, happy, positive life. When you said you had coffee with that girl and fell back in love, I burst into tears of happiness. You deserve to have a happy life. ❤️
ive watched soft white underbelly for years, literally hundreds of hours of interviews, and this is the most impactful one bar none. to be able to share a story like that with so much emotion and honesty inspires me to keep going. thank you clark for sharing, and thank you mark for getting this to us.
@@clarkfredericks3309 This is hands down the most impactful interview I have seen in the past 10 years! And I am really into biographies and interviews! God bless you in your endeavors of reaching victims!
It's too bad we can't dig up Mr. Pegg and kill him again, and again, and again... for Clark, for the dog, for all his victims. How can someone be so fking EVIL?? 😡
@@clarkfredericks3309 Our family dog is half Coonhound, half Boxer. He's lying here on the bed w me as I listen to this.💔💔💔 I want Mr. Pegg to come back to life so I can kill him myself.😡
As a child molestation survivor of over 30 years, it was truly like looking in a mirror watching Clark share his story, when Mark stood up and said nothing and gave Clark a hug at the end, goosebumps and tears🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿
@@clarkfredericks3309 It's crazy the lives people live, I'm sorry some of this was your story. Just checked out your channel and subscribed, looking forward to what you having coming out. Off topic but you're so attractive, inside and out just a beautiful person and spirit.
@@clarkfredericks3309 this made me suddenly cry for half an hour…….what a shock…..what a gift to be truly heard….Mark bearing witness….and your story going to those that need it….and need to hear it…….to be made aware of the long term effects………..I cried happy tears for you Clark and Mark……I also cried sad tears for my 10 year old self…..that I was repeatedly dismissed and abandoned when I told and was dismissed……….uncared for……..and unprotected…….and the daily rapes continued…………..Those years and years of utter hell….affected….every part of my life……and still does 48 years later. I too found books with the themes and messages you discussed very helpful (about Nelson Mandela, Mahatma Gandhi , Natascha Kampusch, Yazidi sex slaves under ISIS . I have done 5 x 22 day live in Vipassiona meditation courses….very helpful……yoga Nidra meditations….very helpful…..being in nature…singing, theatre and the arts,…the unconditional love of my pets and visiting wildlife all very helpful……but I still feel alone and the ongoing torment is real……..I just started doing Trauma Therapy for CPTSD, so hard…... Thank you so much for being so open and speaking about these incredibly difficult parts of your life Clark ….the part about the lead up and the grooming…(omg….chilling…what a child does not know……and needs to be protected and watched over benevolently)…..like a slow train wreck…..This grooming was so important to say….so impactful……if other people (parents, teachers) can grasp….the grooming tactic’s paedophiles use…..how a paedophile is a antisocial sadist and cunning psychopath….the part when that coon dog howled as you cried whilst being raped , and how he slowly beat it to death in front of you is….so harrowing…..so cruel…”Grooming in depth”would be a vitally important topic to discuss next time on SWU…(I saw your reply that you would like to come on again). Thank you so much Clark.
Almost puts tears in my eyes. I ran up on my SA abuser when i was 18. Was high af on meth and had tripped out at a buddies house down the road. Left with buddies phone and tried to call someone noone answerd so i set it down in the middle of the road for my buddy to find. I slept in a random shed in someones front yard. Next day i ran up to my abuser house i remembered where he lived from when i was 8. And he was also my grandfather.
I have 3 small children. Watching these videos helps me to be aware of people and makes me more cautious of who I allow around my kids. I’m sorry this happened to you 😔
Be cautious of the signs of childhood trauma when they are growing up, too. I ruined my life because no one from my family did, and just thought I'm a bad apple. Doesn't have to be sexual abuse, there's alot that can really fuck up a kid out there.
Thats why I watch as well. Many of these stories follow similar scripts. I am learning what to watch out for. I think all the men in our society are really messed up from the violent prn industry and the circumcism (which I see as satanic ritual abuse of the male infant). Throw in the drugs and you have got yourself a real dangerous mess.
I have these conversations with my niece 11 and nephew 8 who I care for. I run through different scenarios and what grooming looks like. We discuss the various types of people that can do these things. We talk about not being desperate for anything like gaming, food, freedom, activities, attention, affection. We talk about how I am always on their side and how they may lie to them that they'll hurt, kill or it'll bring shame. We talk about the effects of abuse and how people may view them as disadvantaged children and use it against them. We talk about how they are never to be alone with their trainers and have secret conversations. Also that they are not allowed to do these types of things as it can be life changing and destroying. We also discuss social media, phones, mental illness, drugs and alcohol, God, cults, homelessness, prison, etc I don't know where they will go in life, it's something I can't determine but I want them to be aware and open with me. I'm not sure if I'm right doing this as it's kind of dark but as a kid my mum spoke to me about life, people and situations that stayed me and has kept me somewhat safe. My sister lived those crucial years with my dad who never spoke wisdom to her and she was felt she was stupid even though she's intelligent. I've been having these conversations with them for almost 5years. Even when my nephew was 3. At 5 his big cousin who was 10 did stuff with him and he was able to tell me. It's was all very emotional for all of us and we spent lots of time talking it through. We took it to my other nephews mum and she was so angry at her son but I was more concerned with why and if someone had done it to him. We put it all in the open and even made family aware of it so it wasn't some secret and my nephew's was given comfort and encouragement. He also had a friend who was curious and was learning things maybe from his dad and my boy stayed there a couple of nights (not anymore) there was another little boy who would stay there as their mothers were friends. My nephew said that he was worried about the younger boy staying there and that I should let the mom know he might not be safe because the friend is a bit weird. I let the kids mother know what my nephew had said. My take is that the darkness won't take my kids by surprise and they recognise this stuff as evil and hopefully be brave and they'll bring anything to the light. Sorry this is long.
It made me cry such happy tears when him and his college sweetheart reconnected and fell back in love after all this time. The whole thing feels like a big circle of despair, anger, hope, and rebirth.
It's amazing that after 30 years I still desired to reach out to her and she was accepting when I did. She always felt that she would hear from me again.
Clark Fredericks......I am glad you decided to LIVE, heal and survive in this horrible journey in the first part of your life. You are a warrior with strength and courage. My heart goes out to you.....the little boy who was violated and the young man who suffered. Thank you for sharing your story with all of us and being an Advocate for survivors of sexual abuse. I'm happy you met your college Sweetheart and found LOVE again for each other and for yourself. I sit hear with tears of sadness and grief for the loss of our innocence but proud we are strong warriors and survivors. I wish you and your family many blessings of Peace and Love ❤️ always.
I've never been so drawn into an interview. I hope this helps so many others speak up, or see signs they wouldn't normally see. I just know this will change lives. I hope you have a great life now sir, i really truly do
It scares me how good his abuser was at psychologically breaking him down and taking things step by step. Nothing was rushed, everything was timed and calculated like a person who was good at their craft. What a monster that guy is 😢😡 I salute you sir for even sharing this nightmare ❤🙌🏾
The crazy thing is like I can have some level of sympathy for someone who can't control their sexual desires right, obviously it doesn't make it right either way but this guy was spending years to gain trust and to build relationships with his victims whether it was the kids or the prisoners he was raping. He was enjoying the torture and the chase as much or more than just the act itself. And that's a reminder for people out there especially ones with kids, a lot of these people aren't just kidnapping children from the playground they're building relationships with them and even you for years and years before anything happens. You really have to stay vigilant and present in your kids life, and I think going back into this story when his dad asked if he was a victim of the guy, I think his dad would have probably killed him. If father and son were anything alike I think he would have done that and we'd have a totally different story, but here we are instead. I don't think he should've spent a single day in jail either, and for all of the other cops around him that knew, you're a bunch of pussies for not doing it yourself. They'll shoot a kid with a airsoft gun and not go to prison for it but oh they need evidence to bring down a pedophile that's bullshit just kill the dude in a training accident and use the corruption of the police union for good, but that'll never happen.
@@dedalliance1 this was very well said! Esp the part about cops needing so much evidence for pedophiles and most times they only go away for 3 yrs or something
I laughed at grown men who cried. But this hit me so personally, I'm in tears. I want so bad to rid myself of my hurt and start healing. I just don't know where to start. Who do I break my silence to? I don't want to have to go to prison or anything tragic like that in order to find strength. I'm just venting. Great interview and I will read/listen to his books.
PRAY to God. daily,, and ask him to led you and guide you on your journey.as to where to start, and who to break your silence to.. Then , THANK Him for these blessing that are on their way . BELIEVE IT TO BE TRUE by THANKING GOD in ADVACE for healing you., even before you are actually healed. because this shows him you have Faith in him to do these things that you ask of him. YOU MUST BELIEVE!!! Believe that God has already heard yours Prayers, and now BLESSINGS are on the way to you! This is having FAITH In GOD. Remember ,,,, GOD WORKS THRUGH FAITH..
I want so badly to hold you and protect the helpless little boy in you. I’m so sorry someone hurt you and damaged your soul. Please seek out a therapist or a group and talk about what happened. Just like this man, you can heal too. I wish you so much love and light and care. 💕💕💕💕
Sending you love and strength. Remember that being silent only allows predators to continue abusing vulnerable children. You deserve to tell your story and you deserve to have closure and healing. I hope you find a way to get through this pain and to heal your heart. ❤️
It feels so whack having to go to therapy to find someone to listen, but it can be so helpful. If you find a therapist who accepts sliding scale payments then you could afford it perhaps
Hey Kris, I’ve read your comment and I can feel your pain. No one should have to remain silent and I’m a strong advocate for giving those without one a voice, to be heard and respected. I’ve been through a traumatic life, and through all of those years I too didn’t have a voice, the demons were invisible to everyone around me, but they were there in my head everyday, screaming, I couldn’t get them to stop! The thing about silence when you suffer, is that the silence becomes your worst enemy, it deafens you, it eats at you, it feeds on your fear.. I can’t say I’ve ever found peace, but I sure as hell have found a voice, and I’m using it not just for myself but for everyone who dreads the minute that you have to be alone in with your thoughts, when you have to do absolutely anything to stay distracted, it’s hard to sleep, it’s hard to concentrate, you always have to be on the go, unless you give up and resign yourself to a life of misery! We can’t do that, we need to use our distractions to do something positive, and the first step is breaking that silence before it breaks you! Please Kris I will leave you my email address, and if you contact me I can give you my number and we can have a chat, it might be easier to open up to a stranger, to someone who will pass no judgment, won’t give unwanted advice, just someone to listen, to truly hear you.. I can and want to do that for you! Helping others helps me to heal too, I know I’m no longer alone. Kris here’s my email address, I’ll keep checking it in the hopes that you message me with your story: maymacbellyoutube@outlook.com Sending so much love 💕
He gave up many, many times. It was his inner strength which kept him around in his vulnerable states to eventually blossom into an absolute inspiration. What a great guy.
Going through DV and nobody knowing the paralysis you go through and how the system itself tries to overpower you, never feeling like you can trust anyone and always feeling alone in the universe - this interview just doubled the population in my world. That sentence is so freeing - we are only as sick as our secrets. And what was a survival mechanism becomes a coping mechanism becomes a crutch until you cant differentiate yourself and your personality from your pain and avoidance, and then you collapse and the cycle begins again. Watching this interview was so inspiring -- it shows that we can come to terms with whatever we've experienced and that the dark entities that haunt us can be dispelled with our truth. Thank you for baring your scars so that we may have the courage to do the same!
It happened to me at 3. You never get over it! The dog was an angel killed by the devil. I went down many dark roads in my life but I do believe in God and the power of redemption. I've been scapegoated by my family because I wouldn't keep quiet. Became a stripper because I hated my body. I was angry and used drugs, alcohol and sex to numb the pain. My angel came through my son and I learnt through being a mother, that the power of love heals the pain and brings light into your situation.. I believe in heaven and hell. I believe you reap what you sew in this life or the next. As on earth as in heaven.
Here I am... Been watching since 530 am.... Listening to this man's story... A grown man with tears rolling down my eyes Heroic story.... We must bring awareness to the demons and monsters around us. Protect our children at all cost.... Thank you for you story!
Hello everyone,
I bared my soul with all its cuts and bruises for the world to see. The response has been amazing and I thank you all. To read over and over that this is the "Best interview ever" is quite an honor. May this video help others Break Their Silence and Inspire all who see it. PEACE.
You my new brother, are an incredibly Courageous Man! Your light now shines over the world to help us who still suffer from the abuses of 'ASS CLOWNS' who took our childhood innocence, and replaced it with fear and pain. Thank you for sharing with us. God Bless you, Tommy, Northern Minnesota
Clark,
I very rarely watch videos this long all the way through, but your story captivated me so much I couldn't stop once I started. I'm so glad you didn't have to completely lose the rest of your life by bringing justice to that monster--although, as you said, it didn't really fix your problems. As someone who has not experienced abuse and can't relate to it on a personal level, I'm deeply sorry for what you were forced to endure, however I'm glad that the Lord has been able to bring some good out of such evil by using you an an instrument to other abuse survivors. Thanks to testimonies like yours, I'm motivated to always be a person of empathy, understanding, and non-judgementalism to those who have experienced abuse in any way.
God Bless you, my friend.
I understand the pain you are carrying inside. Thank you for sharing your story. Best wishes to you & your sweetheart. I can’t wait to read your book!
Yes, you are a Humanitarian and you are the face of inspiration. The lifelong commitment to exposing insidious fear made by henious people in the public arena is high order: *G*ood *O*rderly *D*irection.
Have a great life.
Peace!
Thank you so much Clark 💙💚💛💜
Clark should be allowed to speak at as many schools as possible. Kids need to know they can tell someone immediately if they are being abused
Couldn't agree more, but they have shut me out. I would spend the rest of my life speaking g at schools,but they haven't shown any interest
Yes!
Especially for men. A lot of men have shame,bc they don't want to be seen as weak, not believed, gay, etc.
I agree 100%! No one wants to talk about it , but we should talk about it, often!
@@clarkfredericks3309they only remember the bad. Not the good.
Dennis Pegg died in 2012 and his obituary reads like he's an upstanding citizen. These monsters are all around us. Thank you, Clark, I have great respect for you for fighting this monster and winning.
Did no-one ever report him?! It sounds like he had a lot of victims.
It sounds like he had a lot of enablers... Fellow pigs... Truly disgusting, these guys can't do it alone. They always have people who enable whether they know it or not... Whoever knows where this molesting pig's grave is, please post.
This is probably the best SWU episode yet. Thank you!
OMG!!! His obit reads like he is friggin Jesus!! Surely whomever wrote that obit did a lot of research to list alll his 'accomplishments'. (By 'accomplishments' I really mean opportunities he setup to get access to people he could victimize.) No doubt they knew he was raping boys and men. So not only is the world full of monsters, those monsters have people helping them. Grrr. P.S. Check out the "We Need to Talk About Cosby" series to hear more about monsters who rape and the people who help them rape. Grrr.
@@powderandpaint14 As one of the police officers told him, everyone knew but they lacked formal evidence because none of the victims was telling about it.
@@powderandpaint14 Lots of victims but no proof to convict him. His obituary shows it wouldn't have been an easy fight.
🫂🫂🫂I watched your whole video, as a woman a black woman who’s been raped twice in my life. Once as a teen by gunpoint and once in my early 40’s now at 49 I’m still suffering. I’m just not happy and I’m suffering. Thank you and I send love!
So sorry Leslie. Healing is possible. This doesn't have to be a death sentence. You can overcome.
I’m so sorry Leslie. You didn’t deserve what happened to you. You did nothing wrong. Hugs❤️
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@@clarkfredericks3309 yes Leslie, you can overcome those horrible predators.❤
So sorry to hear...Life is a difficult journey + is even harder when things have happened...There is so much to unpack + deal with of how it affects nearly every aspect of life i know...I hope you find support + accept yourself...I am also on the journey...So i can't say what helps, or the end results. But love to you 🫂🖤☯️
This gentleman is the EXACT reason we "dont judge a book by its cover, We never know what someone is going through"
Truth..........
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It makes me think back to certain classmates in high school. What were they going through? It makes my heart hurt.
Be Kind...EVERYONE is FIGHTING a BATTLE you know nothing about. I wear this t-shirt proudly. It's very true.
@@clarkfredericks3309Murderer you should be in Prison act higher but your no better than your Abuser
Mark didn’t say a word throughout Clark’s experience, but his hug at the end says it all.
Mark said one word which sums it up "WOW."
For real!!!
How could he !?! This is riveting !!!!!
So powerful and heartfelt ❤️
A LOT of interviewers on TH-cam should take notes from Mark.
I am 16 rn and I got SAd at the age of 15 by a neighbour of mine. He was 70 smth. This story made me realise I can actually have a life even if I went trough it. Respect for you Clerk. I hope the best for you
I’m so sorry to hear that, I wish that I could be your big brother and be there for you. Please open up to a loved one even though it might be hard at first it is worth it.
Connor, so sorry brother. Life is not over. Use that pain to propel you forward
@@Athos1776 it’s ok!!I told my mom about it and we did report the guy. Sadly we didn’t have any evidence and lost the case. Mom asked if I wanted to continue w suing again but it would’ve been just a waste of money. But now I’m pretty good. My friends support me. Sadly I did get made fun of by some kids at school because my mom told everyone so they can be safe and stay away from the creep. But now I am doinf pretty ok, and I am slowly healing
You certainly can...
Anybody makin fun of a kid for gettin sexually assaulted are fuckin whack jobs so don’t worry bout them. Stay strong kid!
The fact that the dog could sense someone was in trouble and howling to get someone’s attention that there was danger
If only the dog could have stopped the rape
That broke my heart even more , what an evil sob this guy had to face alone.
The dog probably heard the cries of many different boys
@@shannageorge7661 that makes me shiver , what a monster
Thank you Clark Fredericks. Your story saved me. This kept me from doing the same thing to my 4b$3r. Instead I outed him and now I get to see his world slowly crumble as he’s feeling everything I felt. This is way better and it’s all because you gave me the power to.
Yessssssssssssssssss
AWESOME
God for you
You are stronger than the shit that happened to u. It doesn’t define u. How u respond does. Keep going.
I wanna take revenge so bad 😢
Clark and his family lived in my neighborhood growing up and his story shook the whole county to the core.We rallied behind him when he was in court to see that he got leniency getting rid of a sick animal.
When executing a malignant predator, do your best to be discreet.
@@bluest1524 agreed
@@paulden3158 This way, you can continue living a free, beautiful life and being kind to animals and vulnerable people, and if the opportunity presents, rid the world of even more malignant predators. ; )
@@bluest1524 and live with more guilt in private? when talking about taking life, don't be so casual.
@@genesises touché
The saddest thing is to hear adults who suffered sexual abuse as kids say their biggest regret was not saying anything. Having to live with that level of guilt and shame, processing such complex emotions while being preyed upon and still thinking they should have been stronger or had the courage to speak up is heartbreaking.
Children just need to be explicitly taught about scenarios that happen and that they should tell others and adults
@@claireh.7605I think that's a really naive assumption. I would also think it's pretty insulting to victims of sexual abuse. Of course talking to your kids is important but don't you think many victims parents did have that conversation. Did you listen when he described how his abuser deterred him from speaking up?
@@stephanie3336 sure, if you loo up 'contreras divorce court florida deputy arrest' it shows how a court guard would take women for fake drug checks and treat them like the back room of a strip club, then not register their complaints if they spoke up and literally tell them they will be arrested for false complaints and disorderly conduct if they complain about him. Then he blackmails the woman like that on camera, in front of a family judge who stays out like it isn't her business, and his coworker immediately becomes a co-conspirator, then the prosecutor helps them for going after the woman on false charges after they arrest her. It is crazy how everyone just ganged up on her when one incriminated guy was threatened with being reported.
I really appreciate you. Thank you❤
@@stephanie3336I certainly recall that part of the story; do you remember when he said his parents warned him about getting in a stranger’s car, but not about not getting in a car with a person he knew?
To be fair to Clark’s parents- we as a society didn’t have the understanding and awareness of how abuse actually happens to children.
Today we do know. And that’s part of what proper sex education looks like. Explaining to your children what is and _is not_ appropriate for _any_ adult to do with or to them.
Obviously it won’t prevent all assaults (and nobody said that it would) but it would make a dramatic difference
Claireh is right.
This man’s testimony needs to be heard by the world! ❤
Thanks, let's make it happen
This person has been thru. So much this was one was your best interview ever
This was intensely powerful. I don't think anyone that kills their abuser should do a day in jail
I hope that the times have changed and it's impossible for a predator to have a 40+year reign of terror. There should be no one looking the other way or just wanting to sweep this ugly problem under the rug.
Fr like they should be able to kill their abuser like if the abuser didn’t go to prison for doing that then neither should the guy who killed his abuser the guy just wanted justice since the cops didn’t want to get justice
Yes but atleast in jail he could not harm himself or do more drugs and he had the chance to rehabilitate himself and get better
@Brandon Danielson Brandon,
You ate 100% correct. My lawyer told me immediately that he did not want me getting bailed out. He said that I was addicted to drugs, I was in a horrible mental state, and it didn't look good for someone charged with murder to be out in the community going to bars and out to dinners. He also said I needed to be removed from all the negative influences in my life and just concentrate on me. He was right on everything.
Absolutely, in fact If a victim kills his abuser I think they should be awarded.
My nephews abuser was released from prison and my nephew had a break down than committed suicide the same day. Your saving lives with your life story. Thank you! 🙏🏻
Oh Lisa,
I am so sorry to hear that, truly I am.
So sorry for your nephew, just heartbreaking beyond words.
I'm so sorry for you loss . I hope his soul gets to have peace in heaven
@@thiziriii thank you
Omg... I am so sorry. These monsters NEED to be eradicated!! Life sentence, no parole. There's NO other way...
The police officer that told him to say the 5th amendment and request a lawyer was truly a proper gentleman. Sometimes you get the right person at the right time.
He was the Angel I needed at that time
His life is not just a story for me, its something I can relate too.
Meeting somebody like that at a moment like that. It was a sign.
@@Benemortasia666 Amen
@@clarkfredericks3309 You're an amazing person and Im glad you survived all of this and are a free man today. I wish I couldve gotten revenge on my abuser but the pathetic coward offed himself. At least he cant hurt anyone else.
It’s been 38 years since …! and I’ve still not found the courage to speak up. Thankyou Clark for being the voice. This is the most powerful interview I’ve seen on child molestation /rape🙏🏼
I watched a video yesterday. Marilyn Vanberdun (?) Spelling of last may be incorrect. She was Ms America in 1958. I urge all victims to watch her video. Honestly everyone should see it the same as everyone should see Clark's. If we weren't a victim we surely have met many. We can possibly offer help if we're more aware.
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@@numbernine3436 Thankyou, I’ll look it up and watch it.
I appreciate that he called his abusers name - he said his name. He’s telling the truth 100% - so many details and clear description of what grooming looks like . Also a cautionary tale for parents - trusts no one with your precious children.
You can't trust anyone Lynda
At times it's hard to trust your own decision making, how can anybody trust a person/brain you have 0 control over when we cant even control our own at times!! 👍🏽
@@juancontreras7514 nice leg!
Talk to them about what is abuse and who to tell once they get to a age of understanding. Most people are fine but unfortunately we don't know who , my friends was touched inappropriately by two of her dad's friend when she was asleep to this day she has issue s saying no to men. Another girl family had house parties and she was raped by family friend she went from size 10 healthy to 20 stone within a few year's.
Usually they bleep out the names I’m glad mark didn’t
this is by far the most POWERFUL interview i’ve ever seen
Thank you
@@clarkfredericks3309Thank you for sharing your story, I’m certain it’s helped many other victims of abuse.
Hugs. A very wicked disgusting predator.
@@clarkfredericks3309God bless you Sir…you are a true testimony. I can relate in many ways, me:female, abuser: uncle/preacher. 😢. Take care be blessed and hang in there.
Yessss! This interview is so powerful!!! His story speaks to so many!
The fact that his dog showed more concern for you at 12 speaks volumes. His moral compass was beneath animals. I have watched this three times. Kudos for having the courage to take your power back from that sob.
I'm honored, seriously honored that you have watched this 3 times. My life is a Cautionary Tale. My story of overcoming applies to everyone. Not one of us is going to through life unscathed. How will you handle the punches that life throws at you. I'm telling you that we are all capable of overcoming any hurdle that life puts in our way.
Dogs are the very best. Humans are the very most fucked up, as a group
Holyshit you certainly deserve all the love and compassion this world has for you that would horrify me about that dog. I have no words thank you for the courage to tell your story
@@clarkfredericks3309hey clark, how do you propose i teach my future kids how to evade or combat these horrific monsters?
thanks, ian
Most humans are beneath animals consciousness. Most animals kill for survival. In all my years working with wildlife, I've realized that the human condition is comprised of evil.
"All I was trying to do was to stay one step ahead of my pain" Thank you Clark
That was the most impactful statement for me. So powerful! ❤
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am a 74 year old Black female and I was also tramatized as a child which led me down a dispicable life including prison. I, like you, have completely turned my life around. Thank you for being the calalyst for others to find healing. May God Bless You and keep You in his Loving Care.
Goodmorning Tanya,
I've heard from so many people from all walks of life and our stories all seem to mirror each other. The trauma is so great that we all seem to self-destruct in very similar ways. The trauma steers our ship off course and its up to us to finally get back on a new course. Bless you that you survived and found a new course for your life.
@@clarkfredericks3309 Thank you so much for responding. I also shared your trauma with drug addition. After viewing this video, I googled you and I was directed to your day of sentencing and the statement you made to the court. You were so full that you couldn't hold back the tears and anxiety. You were able to say it all OUT LOUD and my guess is: That might have been the start day of your healing. There needs to be a movie chronicling your life. God Bless You and thank you for all you do.
My heart goes out to this man.
My stepdad is a sick bastard and we were forced to live with him for twenty years.... He even went through me, my sisters, their daughters and tried for my girlfriends.
He is currently on trial...and I have been sober for a year
Thank u for sharing that with us . I’m so sorry…. And congrats on your sobriety!
Congratulations on your sobriety. I'm sorry for what you and your loved ones have been through. It's good to hear he's going to trial.
Stay strong N. H. You are doing so well. You are amazing.
Stay strong!! My family did the same!!! Entire family are pedophiles except me!!!!!!!!!!!
@@teresag3713 I'm sorry honey. You keep taking care of yourself.❤️
He described being sexually abused so vividly and accurately I had trouble breathing while listening. I had to take a moment, take a breather and comment. The feeling of being utterly and completely frozen when it happens. Like you can’t breathe, and like you are the only person in the world. It does something to your brain. To your soul. You do wonder where God was. My own father and my uncle repeatedly molested me and I too was told to keep it a secret. I did keep it a secret when I was still a kid, but after I moved out… fuck secrets. I confronted both of them. My alcoholic father added insult to injury and was so disgusted that I brought it up. He’s disgusted? 🤯
My uncle is currently in prison as he molested other girls in the family- even his granddaughter.
This man from Stillwater, NJ made me feel less alone today. Signed, the woman from Hawthorne, NJ
Aw Christine, I’m so sorry. 😞
Woman from Hawthorne, NJ,
this woman in Nashville Tennessee wants to cry for you. I feel a little better knowing you don't feel alone this morning because of Clark's bravery.
Thinking of you and all the other survivors of rape this morning.
Xoxo Kim
❤️❤️❤️ proud of you for speaking up 😘😘😘
Thank you for your kindness, but I don’t want to make this about me. Listening to Clark…so much of it is insanely relatable. That’s the only thing I want to make about me- is that I am also fluent in speaking the language of trauma. The shame, the rage, the lack of coping skills, the inability to connect emotionally…the failed attempts to escape into different addictions…the indescribable bouts of depression…the occasional feeling of longing for it all to be over…
I’m so honored that he shared his story and I am even more thrilled about where he stands today. Thank you again for your kind words and I’m also proud to finally be sober! ❤️🩹
God bless you 💜💪
Im a 15yo boy and luckily nothing like this ever happend to me but i could never be as strong as you and tell such a story you are an amazing story teller
Thanks brother
@@clarkfredericks3309man you are so unbelievably strong. nothing but love to you.
This story made me realize I needed help. Thank you Clark. I am 9 days sober now. Thank you Clark.
How absolutely wonderful. . Stick with it,, it gets easier as time goes on. Life gets easier to live when you are sober. All the things that used to trigger you and make you abuse substances suddenly don't bother you as much
I got sexually harassed by gay men for a couple years. I don’t know how but when he was describing being frozen during the predators acts. It unlocked that trauma that I’ve had buried long ago. I’m researching for therapy now because a lot of shit went down after the fact as I was a troubled kid.
Well done my friend. Sending you love ❤️
@@nightcrawlr1035 Therapy is the right path. Your doctor would be a good source for a referral. Many therapists specialize in childhood sexual abuse survivors. They have the background and experience to help you, and they have heard it all. Your story will not shock them. And they will not ever make you feel shame or embarrassment! They are there to support you on your journey of healing. The more you talk, you will literally feel that burden of trying to deal with it on your own lifting off you. It won't happen overnight, so be patient with yourself. Anything worthwhile takes time. And you are worth it.
Sending much love and good vibes. 💛
🍃🌸🍃🙏🏽🍃🌸🍃
May Creator Bless and Guide you on this journey to become sober and succeed!
🍃🦬🍃👵🏽👋🏾
As a father, this infuriates me. I can’t believe there’s parents out there who can’t pick up on their kids behavioral changes. It’s stories like this as to why I don’t trust anyone besides 4 or 5 people with my boy. No teacher, no friends parents, no priest, no scout leader, no coach, no body at all.
Sure makes me think.🤔
Me too
We choose the life we are to live, we pick our parents we are born into
90% of predators are white heterosexual males, they are also your friends, family or
acquaintance. There’s also a long history of “oh kids lie! They just want attention!” Also a view that kids are inherently bad, so this “bad behavior” is almost expected. Instead of figuring out what message these actions are trying to tell us, we “don’t spoil the child by sparing the rod”. As a survivor I’m glad this is coming to light
A child's coping mechanism is to deny the bad things, in hopes it goes away. Parents try but feel hopeless. Seek help if you know something is not right with your child.
Clark Fredericks, then 50, was given the minimum sentence of five years for stabbing Dennis Pegg to death in June 2012. I'm so sorry he had to go through that too -- but Clark freed the world of that demon. I'm glad Clark is out of prison and sharing his powerful story...I feel confident it will set others free, physically and emotionally, from their abusers. Thank you Clark! You're a hero.
👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 Bravo Clark.
Amen!👍👏👏👏❤️
You are free….liberated…you can’t forget..but YOU ARE MAKING LIFE BETTER FOR OTHERS…I am sorry you have gone through this♥️
@@user-ql5yb2hs2p 👍👏👏👏❤️
The fact he did time is a testament to what’s wrong with the system. The Pedo earned it.
Cant believe that essay didn't tip off your teacher.
I went through the heroin ringer, i managed to get clean by the skin of my teeth. Got diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety and depression.
Never told anyone about my abuse (i was 17-18) by a doctor.
This story makes me feel less alone
That’s terrible. Are you a man or woman?
I'm so sorry you were abused by a doctor 😢
I was raped by a family "friend" when I was 12 yrs old but fortunately it was only once and then he went away. My parents never knew and now they are gone and don't need to feel the pain. I somehow hid the trauma within and just recently came to acceptance and I am okay. I thank you for sharing your story and you are brave to do so. May God Bless you for taking him out so he can no longer harm anyone. I wish I had been as courageous.
So sorry for the hell you had to experience
Hugs.
Love you friend.
You are so brave 🙏🏼
You say you wish you had been as courageous....but you ARE courageous... You've just told the world what happened to you as a child.... I'd say that's a very courageous thing to do your better than the person who did you wrong and you have empathy for others ❤
Rehab said “everyone stand who’s been raped or molested”. 24 people stood. 3 of us sat. I was shocked. 1 was an NBA player. It’s shocking.
The reality is absolutely staggering. If people learned more the world would be a kinder place. Some of us were literally tortured and it affects how we see and interact w the world. We don’t want to be broken, we never wanted to be sexually abused or raped as children, but the reality is that we were. I hope people can learn and have empathy. Most addicts were abused as children. Close to 90%. That should be eye opening for people and shocking enough to spread awareness as well as lobby for harsher sentences because the system is a joke and lets these weirdos out to reoffend which is vile and truthfully unacceptable
Someone I've known for 20 years confessed a childhood experience. I had no idea. They asked if anything like that had happened to me, and I said no, never. They were incredulous, and kept asking. I think people have to normalize/rationalize it to make it through 💔 It is so common. I hate that society pretends to protect children while failing in the most important and predictable ways. Epstein don't kill himself
Being a survivor of childhood sexual molestation i was silent for decades! I was in my late 30's when i learned to speak up about it. Now i am 60 and i have been sober for 30 years. #SpeakUp
Wow that's awesome 30 yrs sober glad you're free to be you and that you spoke up 30 yrs ago keep on keeping on 🙏
I was 43 before I told anyone….
Don't speak!!.. Like Gwen Stefani said!!
I finally spoke up at 40 and everyone brushed it under the rug
Congratulations on your sobriety 💪💜
I immediately felt his pain when he was talking about him beating the dog...my chest got tight and I could feel his anguish. I rescue great danes and horses and I feel like I would have felt and thought just like him in that moment. So very traumatizing, even more so than the rape, says alot of his innocence and childlike love and care for animals, one that was howling for his pain he suffered. Wow, I needed to write to this. You just remember your innocence was there and your love is still there. So sorry you went through ALL of this, but your story is profoundly impactful. Thank you.
I felt the same. And the fact that he had just endured the absolute worst of humanity but was more worried about the dog, and that he was the cause of the dog's anguish, to me says that Clark is the literal opposite of his abuser. He is the absolute best of humanity.
Also he told his story with such depth and candor.
I was sexually and physically abused by my dad for 19 years(1968-1987). It destroyed my life, but six months before he died in August, 2014, I forgave him because I had to try and move beyond all the trauma I'd been through. But, he never apologized to me or admitted to what he'd done. To this day(I'm 54), I still can't be in close physical proximity to another man. It paralyzes me with fear. So, I completely understand this.
I am so sorry for what happened to you… you are strong, even just saying this is very brave. Remember you are safe and nobody will hurt you anymore. Sending you love
I wish I could give you a hug. I know how the world looks like its full of demons when you've been betrayed by someone who was supposed to protect you from them. Who did this to you was a monster disguised in human flesh.
You're a brave man who was generous enough to forgive him and tell your story here. You've my respect, Sir.
I hope you overcome this fear someday and live your life to the fullest. I'm proud of how far you've come.
Lots of love ❤️
I'm really sorry Jimmy 💚 . I was never sexually abused but my own mother would physically and mentally abuse me since young. Started out young where she would make me stay up and than I couldn't get up for school. And than it progressed and its still happening. Recently I called my brother to tell him I have to let my parents go . Its for the best for me. I just can't do it anymore. As sad as it is Jimmy anybody that was supposed to be there for you and wasent same thing , let them go. I hope you can have some sort of recovery . I wish you the best 💚.
Jimmy, I am so sorry for what happened to you.
GOOD LORD!!! YOU WERE The BETTER MAN🙏😞❤I AM SO SORRY for Your SUFFERING and PAIN🙏GOD Bless You Sir❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏
Denis Pegg chose the wrong little boy to mess with. This man grew up to be a fierce warrior with a sacred purpose.
Let’s not romanticize this shit
@@calicojack5623 That’s not romanticizing “this shit”, that’s acknowledging someone who turned “this shit” around.
@@cmickie3296 understandable
That is a dumb statement. He lost the life he deserved to live because of that pos - there was no purpose of this happening to him and this shouldn't have been his "destiny" - his destiny should have been being happy, maybe with that girl who he said was the love of his life. That animal robbed him forever.
@@calicojack5623 bruh did you really just fucking say she was romanticizing it wtf is wrong with you
His storytelling is absolutely riveting. What an amazing individual
Much appreciated
@@clarkfredericks3309 your a inspiration mate.. from australia. im so agnry
@James Fogarty Thanks brother. What a journey this life has been
Yes, I hate that I judged this man by his appearance. His everyman aesthetic underscored his amazing story and insights.
@@sikin2023 You're* which is You are- google the difference between Your and You're PLEASE PLEASE. Educate yourself.
The telling of this story is the bravest thing I've ever seen a man do ❤
Thank you for that. I hope it gives strength to others to speak up
@clarkfredericks3309 Thank you, for sharing your story man. Keep healing, I know I will. ✊️
@@lildurpy awesome brother
@lildurpy let's do it
From one childhood rape survivor to another, I feel so much love and respect for you. Thank you for sharing your story.
I'm honored that you took the time to listen, thank you. So so sorry that you experienced this hell as well. Peace.
@@clarkfredericks3309 your strong and honesty so much more then the situation you were placed in as someone who was taken advantage of its something well never forget
@@robertmatos6049 thank you Robert
you are a Hero -- my Hero movve i Will never do but my abusers deserve,,,, i struggle with the anger, i read meditate found a dieta AND spirit system that works wonders we all know there Is no 100-/, healing when lines like this áre crossed
@Anti-Narc No, we will never heal 100% . But, 93% is doable.
Fact that you got back with your childhood sweetheart put me into tears bro, a 40 year old, miserable lump of a man that's had some of his own struggles through life, in tears, cant remember when that last happened, that part was beautiful. So happy for you
I'm honored that I could make you cry
@clarkfredericks3309 wish you all the best mate, these dark days when it's a struggle to lift a limb are tough, you have all these people on these videos hoping you get through them 🤘
Made me cry with joy that you found her again. You’re truly remarkable. You’ve helped and inspired me with this video. Thank you.
This could've been 5 hours longer and I still never would've wanted it to end. Truly a special person with a special gift.
Maybe Mark will have me back
@@clarkfredericks3309 that would be wonderful
I agree....
....to be continued 😁
Agreed!
Listening to this at work and just cried at my desk for you and that poor dog.
The dog completely felt the pain
His story is so very similar to my husband’s. Unfortunately my husband was in a great deal of denial and self hatred that he never got help. He spent most of his life struggling with his addictions and in prison. We were married for 3 years before he passed away from overdose at the young age of 35. Clark, thank you for sharing your story. It will help more people, especially men, than any of us can imagine. I’m rooting for you. Take care of yourself.
My dad died of alcoholic myocarditis a couple weeks ago after a long and horrific battle with chronic alcoholism. He was raped at age 16 by a family friend. He never told anyone for 40 years. As someone who was groomed and sexually abused in my early 20s by a superior at work early in my career, I can not even begin to imagine the pain of keeping a secret like that for 40 years. Rest in peace Dad. :'(
@@serenaw7727 ♥️
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I’m so sorry Amy
I am sorry for your loss. Stay Strong 🙌
This is THE MOST INTENSE AND HEALING testimony I've ever had the pleasure of experiencing. For today, I feel less alone, hopeful and clear. Thank you guys from the bottom of my heart.
My pleasure
@@clarkfredericks3309 thank you. Thank you so much. Your testimony is touched me in so many ways! I am a survivor and so is my brother. He reminds me so much of you. 🧡🧡🧡
@@clarkfredericks3309 The mama bear in me wants to jump through the screen and protect you. I’m so glad you are able to share your story and know you are loved and supported by people you’ll probably never even meet. ❤️🙏🏻🌹
@Clark Fredricks I have two young sons, 11 and 17. Hearing your account today has hit me pretty hard. Take care man, and thanks.
We need healing stories like these
Hi Clark. I too was molested as a child for three years by my mother's second husband, he did it to my older sister as well. His name is Douglas Santos; he was a photo developer at Paramount Pictures in the early 2000s. I know what it's like to deal with a respected predator. I am 23 now. You're amazing, and I admire your strength. I wish you peace and healing always. Soo happy to hear about the reunion with your college sweetheart 🥺❤❤
thank you for sharing your story
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Did you ever report him?
I am so sorry this happened to you and your sister too.
This is the most amazing crazy disgusting sad story I’ve ever heard. This guy really knows how to express his feelings and explain a story.
man talked this whole thing without crying
tough as fuck
Thanks for that
My life is so F'd up from what happened in Boy Scouts that I can start crying at any place at any time.
@@Chez8922-kf6cy crying is okay ‘ its the child in you who’s still in pain. But talk it out or write it out and face the horror .Have strenght 🪬✌🏾
@@Chez8922-kf6cyIm sorry
Have you talked to anyone about it?
I watched this video this morning not realizing the impact it would have on me. I'm so grateful to Clark for telling his story so I could move through mine. I still mostly have an invisible hand over my mouth, but hearing him say his abuser's name made me feel that today is time to speak mine. I'm tired of being as sick as my secrets. R. Gillespie and M. Frasier. I was a child and what you did took so much of my life away from me.
Bravo, Bravo, Bravo
Wish you the best !!! Thanks for sharing !
Prayers! Bravo 👏 👏 👏 👏 👏 👏
Your very brave and I hope you will find the peace and happiness you deserve. Much love to you
Say their full names.
Dude's a hero. Ate a lot of pain and misery for a lot of years and he's still here today. Tough as nails. Heart wrenching story.
"Show me a Hero and I'll write you a tragedy"
My heart resonates with you Clark. I was abused by my aunt’s son when I was 7-11 years old as well. He was 8 years older than me. It started off as a game too. Thank you for sharing your story. You have given me so much hope in healing and to not feel so alone in my own trauma. I’m so sorry you had to endure this. No child should have to go through this. Not you, not me, not anyone. That man will pay in the afterlife. He’ll answer to God and justice will be survived. God bless you Clark. May you continue healing on your journey and keeping that peace within
So sorry that you had to endure this hell as well
That’s awful. I’m so sorry. Did you not realize that he was doing something wrong?
There is no price tag on this interview, or Clark's testimony. I know the time is coming for me to speak up as well. Proctastination, fear, depression, etc. have kept me from stepping up to the plate. Clark, as well as Mark's entire channel, has brought me one step closer. Thank you both. Mark, your channel is priceless.
I'm honored that I'm inspiring you to break your silence. You can't begin healing until you do
@@clarkfredericks3309 amen!
Stay strong A.I. ! I’ll be praying or you.
Say it. Say it loud. As you can see, people will listen.
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For anyone thinking of suicide look at this man. His life seemed over and in complete shambles but little did he know that his life was about to begin on the journey of healing and really take off in a whole new trajectory that would positively impact the lives of others. Don’t give up.
Let's be honest here. You think that if one of the homeless people we see here everyday went back and killed their abuser with no confrontation they would get 5 years and a motivational speaking contract at the end of their sentence?
I'm not condemning what he's done, what I'm saying is that these kinds of stories rarely turn out this way. It doesn't give me hope because I'm aware of what an exception all of this is.
I wanna die 💔
@@KevinRodriguez-fg6dn why? I will listen.
He's stronger than most. It just seems not everyone has that in them.
@@KevinRodriguez-fg6dn please don't. You're needed and valued.
what can I say- I’m a 63 y/o woman who was molested at 5 ( more than once) and physically abused throughout childhood and have lived a self deprecating life since. A constant battle of drugs, alcohol, non-commital sexual relationships, intimacy problems, seeking abusive men, addictions. It reads like a “how to” list. I hung onto very word that literally describes my own life. I also gave my life to God at 47 and He has become my source for life and healing. Thank you Mark for this interview.
God bless you Barbara, thank you for sharing 🙏🏼
Me too.
If not for the Lord, I wouldn't be here now. Bless you and praise Jesus.
((Hugs))
me too
I hope someone makes a movie of this. Thank you for being courageous enough to talk and do something for all the little children out there!
As a sexual abuse victim myself, I felt Clark's anger and pain. No one but my wife knows the abuse I endured. He is a cousin of mine and I don't know how I would react if I saw him today. His sexual abuse on top of the physical and emotional abuse I endured from my stepdad I believe is the reason why I have zero self esteem. I have lived my entire life doubting the man I am. Thank you Clark for sharing your story.
I used recklessness disguised as fearlessness because I suffered from low self esteem as well. As healing develops and progresses your self esteem will improve as well.
If I can do it Mike, so can you.
Keep putting one foot in front of the other, Mike! I wish you all the best!
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Dear Mike, I'm sorry for what happened to you and I care about you. Do not believe the story that you and others try to fit you in. The truth is that Mike doesn't even exist. You are not who you were years ago and you don't have to be who you are now tomorrow. You are shapeless and limitless and we all love you. Please continue on your journey with pride in what you've managed to live through and know that you're not alone.
This man is an amazing story teller. I just wish his story didn't involve such horrific events in his life. I'm grateful he has the courage to share his experience. I hope men and women who have experienced sexual abuse will seek to heal their broken hearts through therapy.
Sometimes it's not that simple to get into therapy 😕
@@jen-ms4xo I know, hopefully they will find healing in someway. Therapy is expensive and is difficult unfortunately.
@@jen-ms4xo I agree....also I'm on my 7th therapist in a 18 year spanf and still haven't found one that has helped...plus one ended up causing more trauma by crossing the line in my vulnerability and sexualized me so more trauma and will never see a male therapist again.. that was almost more damage cause I don't trust therapist now also...
Going to therapy has been the hardest part for me :(
@@firearmretreat keep trying until the therapist is right one.
I am in my 60th year in this wicked world. I was 5 years old when I was brutally raped. There are several parallels between my experience and yours. Your story has shaken me to my very core and brought tears to my eyes. I'm kinda shook right now. Thank you for sharing your story. In a way I don't understand I think it has helped me somehow. I know how you feel and you know how I feel.
My fondest wish is for your complete healing from trauma. May you be blessed.
Love and light to you ❤
You are Somebody!!!
I did EMDR therapy after I endured abuse like Clark did. It was very helpful to unlock the deep trauma I was holding on to !
No one should ever go threw anything of the sort , it’s never a victims fault . Be the best person you can be , be proud and love yourself ✌️ people care ❤
I am so angry for that poor child and for the man who fought his way back so bravely from the brink. I'm so so sorry you went through everything you suffered. What an incredible, tragic, inspirational story, thank you so much for sharing, you are just an amazing person.
I too am a victim and man did he just give me HOPE TO HEAL.. GOD BLESS YOU CLARK AND THANK YOU. thank you Mark as well
Let's do it Angela
@@clarkfredericks3309 ....sorry to hear what happened to you man. your story left me speechless.
@@clarkfredericks3309 I'm from Jersey finally a story from our state
I literally took out a mini white board and started writing positive reminders for myself while I listened… haven’t done that in years - he’s inspiring
This interview was so brave of him to do. also, his details help to pinpoint specific behaviors abusers do and tactics they use to prey on children which can be really helpful for parents and guardians to look out for.
Yes I deed Sara. I want people to look deeper at the story, there is so much to learn about human behavior
It was horrifying that the story he wrote at school wasnt picked up on. It truly sent shivers through me.
i thought this was going to be back round noise while i played tetris online. boy was i wrong. while the subject matter is extremely tough to get through, i found myself fighting back tears several times, these things need to be said and shared. what Clark is doing here is helping people who have suffered childhood abuse began a path of healing by sharing his traumatic story. Clark, i commend you. i am in awe of your courage. well done
Rob,
Thanks bro, you nailed it in the head. Our shame keeps us paralyzed and a hostage to the pain we experienced. I wanted to be vulnerable to help others break out of their isolation and torment. Thank you for acknowledging that.
@@clarkfredericks3309 love and healing to you my brother
@@clarkfredericks3309 your story touched the deepest parts of my soul and awakened something inside of me. I don’t know what exactly that is but I am extremely grateful you’ve invited the world to see you and hear your story. Thank you Clark.
@Tee Kay Messages like yours make it all worthwhile. All I can think to say is Thank you.
@@clarkfredericks3309 couldn’t ask for anything more 🙏🏼
I cried when he talked about how he used to love lighting things on fire as a kid because I use to do the same thing and be very destructive, but I never connected that to my abuse
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Yes, there were so many illuminating things he mentioned that help people be more aware about themselves and others. I appreciate that so much.
I got ENRAGED just listening to his painful story, let alone living it. WE HEAR YOU CLARK. That devil deserved everything that he got. I hope you find peace, you are a true survivor. ♥️
Thank you Millie
i would like to know what Clark's impression is of the look in the eyes in that man just b4 his throat was slit - was it worth it bad guy ? I guess some would say yes and some would say no.... idk. Intense vid. God bless
@@Anonymous-km5pj He makes it clear early on: "I just flushed my life . . ."
I think that speaks clearly, and loudly enough to answer your question.
@@Earthdogbonzo3 his trauma recall is top notch, natch, like time stops
I’m in therapy for a number of reasons . Sexual abuse is one of those reasons. Been going for 3 years and still haven’t found the courage to say it out loud. I thank you sir. This will help me
Sending you hugs. It's going to be okay. You're going to be okay. I'm sorry you had to go through that but I'm with you ❤
I’m so sorry you had to go through this. Unfortunately, I can relate. I’m glad you’re getting help. I can say from experience that speaking your experience to a caring professional can be liberating and healing. It took me years to do so but when I did it was like a load off my back. I’m now comfortable with it, more or less. Just remember that what you say is not a confession because you did nothing wrong. It reflects negatively on your abuser, not you. I say this as a middle aged man who works in construction and hunts; being a strong, tough man does not mean you have to keep this stuff in, that going to therapy is weakness. Remember to be gentle with yourself and that what you’re doing now is a massing sign of your strength and courage.
I read most of the comments to this video, I’ve dealt with my own trauma but never sexual abuse I have very close friends I grew up with who experienced sexual abuse by a relative I can’t begin to tell you how deep that trauma effected them and when I say how deep I mean their entire life it’s had an effect on, my heart has always hurt for them. You are not alone you have a voice when you feel strong enough for the world to hear your voice or not the world and if u rather vent in a journal to tell your story however you feel comfortable venting or speaking your truth your story what you’ve been through you are loved u did nothing to deserve that it’s not love it’s pain it’s hurt it’s abuse you are not alone in this world many of us feel your pain and are here for you ❤❤ blessings peace and love
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Being vulnerable is truly a gift of the Spirit. Time to accept being open about your story. Maybe let it out on this platform. You know we'll love and support you either way.
after binging about half a dozen of these interviews, and after many shocking emotional moments, i now know firmly we must do everything we can to protect children
Exactly. 100%
You just figured this out after a dozen interviews ?
But how? This crime is so prevalent in our society. Everyone it touches hides it in shame-perpetrators, community leaders, even the victims and their family members. How do we stop it when no one wants to speak and break the chain? Clark is doing good work but the magnitude of the problem makes it feel so overwhelming and the work so miniscule.
The sad thing is that people twist what this means for their own sick agenda.
Keep speaking out everywhere and anywhere. Keep talking. They hide in our silence.
I have never in my life felt such awe and respect for someone before. This is earthshattering. Things like this are indescribably important for everyone to hear.
I greatly appreciate that
“Staying one step ahead of my pain” and “you are only as sick as your secrets” .. wow. Incredible interview.
Thank you Aubrey
Those words really hit me too. What a powerful and inspirational story - and storyteller.
you are only as sick as your secrets has already been said on Oprah like 25 plus years ago.
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He has done what most victims dream off. The rage and the pain is still there no matter how many years pass. I could resonate so much to his emotions. It has been 19 years but till this day I still struggle despite therapy, it destroys you.
Tell me about it the trauma has stayed with me my whole life I'll be on psychotropic meds for the test of my life
Yes honey, you're right. It's been 49 years and I still am sad, angry. Sending you love from Oklahoma ❤️
I am very sorry, Fatima.
I too was abused, but what has helped me, is to understand that it is mostly a cycle. I am in no way excusing the abuser!! I am just saying that if you can picture the person(s) who abused you in the same position as you were in, it might give you more understanding of how it could happen. It actually can give you a way to heal.
I'm a survivor of molestation. I've wanted to say the same to my abuser!!
Yes, yes, yes! It’s been 33 yrs for me. Know that you’re not alone. My heart goes out to you
I am 64 and that was the powerful interview I have ever listened too and his life story will some day be a movie that will heal millions of abuse survivors
Yes Jim. Any success I have simply means that I am able to reach more people
@@clarkfredericks3309 you are so strong man .
My heart broke wide open when he said, "I wonder where God is?"
Dear Clark, I was molested by two half brothers, for quite a few years. I was the object of their depravity as they conjured up perverted acts on me. I have stuffed for years years and years. As you shared your experience with the POS in your life I was bombarded with memories. I am unable to finish right now but want you to know how grateful I am for your compelling honesty and memories.
Thank you so much. I shall. @@clarkfredericks3309
Sending prayers for your healing. It's good that you shared. It's a step in the right direction. Things that have helped me are Richard Grannon's Emotional Flashback Worksheet and Rewind Therapy by the Human Givens Institute (I was able to use it myself). Just talking about things was retraumatizing, so I think learning to let emotion pass and to calm the body is so important to getting stronger. I have had some common sense counselors that helped me unravel the gaslighting. You'll learn who your people are. And just take the best care of yourself that you can. You are deserving. 🙏
This is by far the most riveting and heart wrenching of stories. This man was forced to right an evil done to him and many other boys. Bless him and all those who suffer at the hands of evil men and women. It’s a miracle he’s alive. I’m truly moved.
Right on Si
Yes it's a miracle we are alive, and I am grateful to be alive. 3hat I wish someone would have e told me was that I did not have to identify with what happened to me. Finding out that my identity was so much more then the abuse I suffered or mistakes I made is what brought me back from hell.on earth into heaven on earth. I hope he knows this now too, that he is way more then just a survivor. 🙂💕💨
@Clarry who even implied a competition??? I don't see that anywhere here
@Clarry I don't think that comment was. Consparing but if it was not my place to tell them what to do.
@Clarry She meant comparing. It's obviously a typo
I literally cried!!! The way that he was telling his story, his face expression, his voice, the pain, the anger, the sorrow!!!! God please help this man to overcome this tragedy& trauma🙏🏻
Thank you Eva
Anyone here still think drag queen story hour is a good idea.? This is what happens when adults DON"T protect children. And the predators know when children are unprotected. Where's God? Wrong question. Where are the grown ups? Where are the adults? Where is society? Down at the library..? Yeah right...Where is God indeed.?
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Wow. What a powerful testimony. I also was a victim of sexual abuse. I was so depressed and self destructive. God healed and delivered me. I’m sober, at peace and love to help others. Thank you so much for sharing your story. You are strong, brave and a warrior for the kingdom . God bless you. 🙌🏾🙌🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
I am too a survivor. I'm sober instead of meds given by Dr. Which is Prozac and Valium sleeping meds. But I don't think anyone gets over it all the way. It changes how you are as a person. You can live with having been through it but it does change you.
This guy is a hero for all of humanity
Thanks Mike
Like a fairytale with a happy ending
@@ScenekidzrockXD Amen to that
Amen
Yep. LEGEND.
I keep thinking these testimonials can't get any better....And here you go again!! I was CAPTIVATED!!! What an incredible incredible story!
Here here!
Me too
God Bless 🙏💒❤️🇺🇲
The YEARS of grooming this predator put in is crazy. Your story is prompting me to have even more talks with my kids❤ Thankful for you
Teach them that never ever ever should an adult ask a child to keep a secret
Never let your kids be ALONE with any adult. Most abusers are trusted, loved, respected by the family. Never leave them alone, not even for a minute. That cool uncle, great coach, youth pastor, babysitter, overnight at a friend's house? NO. ⚠️
-worked in a Sezual Assault Program for 7 years
@@a.w.3772 100% true
I’m speechless, that was probably the best interview off all time. Mark just let you speak the whole time, he didn’t have to ask anything to keep you going. Clark, I’m proud of you. You’re such an inspiration to so many. God bless you!
Mark would never interupt, Clark telling his life story
@Emily Hinkley Watch more of these videos. They have at least a few where Mark doesn't speak at all. This one and Mike Dowd are public speakers, but not all of them are.
@Emily Hinkley your og comment makes it sound like Marc didn't have to ask questions because the guys a professional speaker, which isn't the case, because Mark has plenty of videos where he doesn't ask questions. Sherlock.
@Emily Hinkley Are you sure? Ok...I'll go work on that. 🙄
I can't really find the words to express how much respect I have for this man. Over time I bet this video is going to help hundreds of thousands, maybe millions of moms, kids and survivors. Men telling their stories of abuse is some of the most important social work happening in society today. All the best to you warrior, you're doing incredible work here.
This channel needs to win an Emmy!
Yes so beautifully done.
Is it acting?
No it's legit interviews with men. And woman on skid row, I haven't seen any in a long time, but just seen this randomly and as usual, it's so well done it's hard to put the phone down. They are heartbreaking stories. @@nildaluzrodriguez
Clark, I just want to give you a hug, man. This story WILL save so many lives, and I’m so glad I came across it. I’m a father of two and dealing with some struggles. Your story gave me so much hope, and clarity. Makes me want to be a better man. I hope to see more of your journey in the future
Damn, this has to be the most powerful story I have ever heard. You sir are an actual modern day hero.
I can only imagine how many children this man has helped. #1 interview on TH-cam
Your trauma was not in vain. You are helping people. Thank you for your sacrifice.
Thanks Lindsey. I didn't want to go through all that I have and not use it to help others
@@clarkfredericks3309you are so strong clark, your story has empowered over me & my trauma, you don’t realize how many lives you have saved, your courage will never go unrecognized & i wish you the overall best!!
@@clarkfredericks3309 Of course, my condolences! I hope everything works out for you & i do wish you feel better, your brother must’ve been as great as a guy as you are! :)
@@clarkfredericks3309 i wish you all the best with dealing with the loss of your brother. I want you to know god made you go through it because he knows your one of the strong ones. I was molested at 6 and your story is helping me get through it.
@@clarkfredericks3309dude you have saved the lives of THOUSANDS of young kids, just think about it, your testimony has helped thousands of parents pay more attention to their children, you are doing God’s work
Literally eye opening about friends that drank alot
I have never been so mesmerized as I was, while watching you Clark. I will agree, that this is the best interview that Mark has done. All I can say is that I truly pray, that the rest of your life is full of love and laughter. I am a few years younger than you, but I am looking at you through a mother’s eyes. I wish I could hug the pain away from the little boy, that I see. Love from Canada.
Thank you for watching and for your kind words.
God be with you Clark. Thank you for telling your unbelievable story.
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This was a hard story to listen to but very inspiring about how you overcame such adversity. I’m so sorry you felt you had to keep it in so long but I’m glad you are enjoying a clean, happy, positive life. When you said you had coffee with that girl and fell back in love, I burst into tears of happiness. You deserve to have a happy life. ❤️
@emilykepler3761 thank you Emily
ive watched soft white underbelly for years, literally hundreds of hours of interviews, and this is the most impactful one bar none. to be able to share a story like that with so much emotion and honesty inspires me to keep going. thank you clark for sharing, and thank you mark for getting this to us.
My pleasure Maddox, I'm honored that you were so moved
@@clarkfredericks3309 This is hands down the most impactful interview I have seen in the past 10 years! And I am really into biographies and interviews! God bless you in your endeavors of reaching victims!
It's too bad we can't dig up Mr. Pegg and kill him again, and again, and again... for Clark, for the dog, for all his victims. How can someone be so fking EVIL?? 😡
@@clarkfredericks3309 Our family dog is half Coonhound, half Boxer. He's lying here on the bed w me as I listen to this.💔💔💔
I want Mr. Pegg to come back to life so I can kill him myself.😡
@@Mo_Ketchups I try to do the right thing brother
As a child molestation survivor of over 30 years, it was truly like looking in a mirror watching Clark share his story, when Mark stood up and said nothing and gave Clark a hug at the end, goosebumps and tears🙏🏿🙏🏿🙏🏿
Mark was crying throughout
@@clarkfredericks3309 not surprised, Mark is an empathetic man
Seriously, it wasn't until that hug did all the feels hit (him sharing and in control of his story/experience too).
@@clarkfredericks3309 It's crazy the lives people live, I'm sorry some of this was your story. Just checked out your channel and subscribed, looking forward to what you having coming out. Off topic but you're so attractive, inside and out just a beautiful person and spirit.
@@clarkfredericks3309 this made me suddenly cry for half an hour…….what a shock…..what a gift to be truly heard….Mark bearing witness….and your story going to those that need it….and need to hear it…….to be made aware of the long term effects………..I cried happy tears for you Clark and Mark……I also cried sad tears for my 10 year old self…..that I was repeatedly dismissed and abandoned when I told and was dismissed……….uncared for……..and unprotected…….and the daily rapes continued…………..Those years and years of utter hell….affected….every part of my life……and still does 48 years later. I too found books with the themes and messages you discussed very helpful (about Nelson Mandela, Mahatma Gandhi , Natascha Kampusch, Yazidi sex slaves under ISIS . I have done 5 x 22 day live in Vipassiona meditation courses….very helpful……yoga Nidra meditations….very helpful…..being in nature…singing, theatre and the arts,…the unconditional love of my pets and visiting wildlife all very helpful……but I still feel alone and the ongoing torment is real……..I just started doing Trauma Therapy for CPTSD, so hard…... Thank you so much for being so open and speaking about these incredibly difficult parts of your life Clark ….the part about the lead up and the grooming…(omg….chilling…what a child does not know……and needs to be protected and watched over benevolently)…..like a slow train wreck…..This grooming was so important to say….so impactful……if other people (parents, teachers) can grasp….the grooming tactic’s paedophiles use…..how a paedophile is a antisocial sadist and cunning psychopath….the part when that coon dog howled as you cried whilst being raped , and how he slowly beat it to death in front of you is….so harrowing…..so cruel…”Grooming in depth”would be a vitally important topic to discuss next time on SWU…(I saw your reply that you would like to come on again). Thank you so much Clark.
Almost puts tears in my eyes. I ran up on my SA abuser when i was 18. Was high af on meth and had tripped out at a buddies house down the road. Left with buddies phone and tried to call someone noone answerd so i set it down in the middle of the road for my buddy to find. I slept in a random shed in someones front yard. Next day i ran up to my abuser house i remembered where he lived from when i was 8. And he was also my grandfather.
Sending you love.
I'm so sorry you endured this trauma from someone who was supposed to love you. You are BELIEVED. And it was NEVER YOUR FAULT. EVER. ❤
This story is both horrific and remarkable. I just have profound admiration for this man. I've got no more words to describe my feelings.
Those words do just fine by me
I've been trying to write a comment to describe how I feel, and yours was perfect.
@@Ejy64 thanks Sharon
I have 3 small children. Watching these videos helps me to be aware of people and makes me more cautious of who I allow around my kids. I’m sorry this happened to you 😔
Tell your children that never ever ever should an adult ask a child to keep a secret
Be cautious of the signs of childhood trauma when they are growing up, too. I ruined my life because no one from my family did, and just thought I'm a bad apple. Doesn't have to be sexual abuse, there's alot that can really fuck up a kid out there.
Thats why I watch as well. Many of these stories follow similar scripts. I am learning what to watch out for. I think all the men in our society are really messed up from the violent prn industry and the circumcism (which I see as satanic ritual abuse of the male infant). Throw in the drugs and you have got yourself a real dangerous mess.
I have these conversations with my niece 11 and nephew 8 who I care for. I run through different scenarios and what grooming looks like. We discuss the various types of people that can do these things. We talk about not being desperate for anything like gaming, food, freedom, activities, attention, affection. We talk about how I am always on their side and how they may lie to them that they'll hurt, kill or it'll bring shame. We talk about the effects of abuse and how people may view them as disadvantaged children and use it against them. We talk about how they are never to be alone with their trainers and have secret conversations. Also that they are not allowed to do these types of things as it can be life changing and destroying. We also discuss social media, phones, mental illness, drugs and alcohol, God, cults, homelessness, prison, etc I don't know where they will go in life, it's something I can't determine but I want them to be aware and open with me. I'm not sure if I'm right doing this as it's kind of dark but as a kid my mum spoke to me about life, people and situations that stayed me and has kept me somewhat safe. My sister lived those crucial years with my dad who never spoke wisdom to her and she was felt she was stupid even though she's intelligent. I've been having these conversations with them for almost 5years. Even when my nephew was 3. At 5 his big cousin who was 10 did stuff with him and he was able to tell me. It's was all very emotional for all of us and we spent lots of time talking it through. We took it to my other nephews mum and she was so angry at her son but I was more concerned with why and if someone had done it to him. We put it all in the open and even made family aware of it so it wasn't some secret and my nephew's was given comfort and encouragement. He also had a friend who was curious and was learning things maybe from his dad and my boy stayed there a couple of nights (not anymore) there was another little boy who would stay there as their mothers were friends. My nephew said that he was worried about the younger boy staying there and that I should let the mom know he might not be safe because the friend is a bit weird. I let the kids mother know what my nephew had said. My take is that the darkness won't take my kids by surprise and they recognise this stuff as evil and hopefully be brave and they'll bring anything to the light. Sorry this is long.
It made me cry such happy tears when him and his college sweetheart reconnected and fell back in love after all this time. The whole thing feels like a big circle of despair, anger, hope, and rebirth.
It's amazing that after 30 years I still desired to reach out to her and she was accepting when I did. She always felt that she would hear from me again.
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@@clarkfredericks3309 BRO., I am so happy for you. Glad to hear that you are going through a HEALING Process. God is not finished with you yet!!!
@elijah8466 Amen to that. And helping others do the same really progresses your own healing.
Clark Fredericks......I am glad you decided to LIVE, heal and survive in this horrible journey in the first part of your life.
You are a warrior with strength and courage. My heart goes out to you.....the little boy who was violated and the young man who suffered.
Thank you for sharing your story with all of us and being an Advocate for survivors of sexual abuse. I'm happy you met your college Sweetheart and found LOVE again for each other and for yourself.
I sit hear with tears of sadness and grief for the loss of our innocence but proud we are strong warriors and survivors.
I wish you and your family many blessings of Peace and Love ❤️ always.
I've never been so drawn into an interview. I hope this helps so many others speak up, or see signs they wouldn't normally see. I just know this will change lives. I hope you have a great life now sir, i really truly do
It scares me how good his abuser was at psychologically breaking him down and taking things step by step. Nothing was rushed, everything was timed and calculated like a person who was good at their craft. What a monster that guy is 😢😡 I salute you sir for even sharing this nightmare ❤🙌🏾
Predators are methodical and cunning and patient. He probably had numerous children in his pipeline at all times at various stages of grooming
he had been doing it for 30 years
I had this thought too I'm like wow he really had it all planned out, it's horrifying
The crazy thing is like I can have some level of sympathy for someone who can't control their sexual desires right, obviously it doesn't make it right either way but this guy was spending years to gain trust and to build relationships with his victims whether it was the kids or the prisoners he was raping. He was enjoying the torture and the chase as much or more than just the act itself.
And that's a reminder for people out there especially ones with kids, a lot of these people aren't just kidnapping children from the playground they're building relationships with them and even you for years and years before anything happens. You really have to stay vigilant and present in your kids life, and I think going back into this story when his dad asked if he was a victim of the guy, I think his dad would have probably killed him. If father and son were anything alike I think he would have done that and we'd have a totally different story, but here we are instead. I don't think he should've spent a single day in jail either, and for all of the other cops around him that knew, you're a bunch of pussies for not doing it yourself. They'll shoot a kid with a airsoft gun and not go to prison for it but oh they need evidence to bring down a pedophile that's bullshit just kill the dude in a training accident and use the corruption of the police union for good, but that'll never happen.
@@dedalliance1 this was very well said! Esp the part about cops needing so much evidence for pedophiles and most times they only go away for 3 yrs or something
I laughed at grown men who cried. But this hit me so personally, I'm in tears. I want so bad to rid myself of my hurt and start healing. I just don't know where to start. Who do I break my silence to? I don't want to have to go to prison or anything tragic like that in order to find strength. I'm just venting. Great interview and I will read/listen to his books.
PRAY to God. daily,, and ask him to led you and guide you on your journey.as to where to start, and who to break your silence to.. Then , THANK Him for these blessing that are on their way . BELIEVE IT TO BE TRUE by THANKING GOD in ADVACE for healing you., even before you are actually healed. because this shows him you have Faith in him to do these things that you ask of him. YOU MUST BELIEVE!!! Believe that God has already heard yours Prayers, and now BLESSINGS are on the way to you! This is having FAITH In GOD. Remember ,,,, GOD WORKS THRUGH FAITH..
I want so badly to hold you and protect the helpless little boy in you. I’m so sorry someone hurt you and damaged your soul. Please seek out a therapist or a group and talk about what happened. Just like this man, you can heal too. I wish you so much love and light and care. 💕💕💕💕
Sending you love and strength. Remember that being silent only allows predators to continue abusing vulnerable children. You deserve to tell your story and you deserve to have closure and healing. I hope you find a way to get through this pain and to heal your heart. ❤️
It feels so whack having to go to therapy to find someone to listen, but it can be so helpful. If you find a therapist who accepts sliding scale payments then you could afford it perhaps
Hey Kris, I’ve read your comment and I can feel your pain. No one should have to remain silent and I’m a strong advocate for giving those without one a voice, to be heard and respected. I’ve been through a traumatic life, and through all of those years I too didn’t have a voice, the demons were invisible to everyone around me, but they were there in my head everyday, screaming, I couldn’t get them to stop! The thing about silence when you suffer, is that the silence becomes your worst enemy, it deafens you, it eats at you, it feeds on your fear..
I can’t say I’ve ever found peace, but I sure as hell have found a voice, and I’m using it not just for myself but for everyone who dreads the minute that you have to be alone in with your thoughts, when you have to do absolutely anything to stay distracted, it’s hard to sleep, it’s hard to concentrate, you always have to be on the go, unless you give up and resign yourself to a life of misery! We can’t do that, we need to use our distractions to do something positive, and the first step is breaking that silence before it breaks you!
Please Kris I will leave you my email address, and if you contact me I can give you my number and we can have a chat, it might be easier to open up to a stranger, to someone who will pass no judgment, won’t give unwanted advice, just someone to listen, to truly hear you.. I can and want to do that for you! Helping others helps me to heal too, I know I’m no longer alone.
Kris here’s my email address, I’ll keep checking it in the hopes that you message me with your story:
maymacbellyoutube@outlook.com
Sending so much love 💕
The amount of pain that some of us go through is incredible…. The fact that this man never gave up is heroic 💪🏼 That’s true strength
Wow! Great story
He gave up many, many times. It was his inner strength which kept him around in his vulnerable states to eventually blossom into an absolute inspiration. What a great guy.
Going through DV and nobody knowing the paralysis you go through and how the system itself tries to overpower you, never feeling like you can trust anyone and always feeling alone in the universe - this interview just doubled the population in my world. That sentence is so freeing - we are only as sick as our secrets. And what was a survival mechanism becomes a coping mechanism becomes a crutch until you cant differentiate yourself and your personality from your pain and avoidance, and then you collapse and the cycle begins again. Watching this interview was so inspiring -- it shows that we can come to terms with whatever we've experienced and that the dark entities that haunt us can be dispelled with our truth. Thank you for baring your scars so that we may have the courage to do the same!
It happened to me at 3.
You never get over it!
The dog was an angel killed by the devil. I went down many dark roads in my life but I do believe in God and the power of redemption. I've been scapegoated by my family because I wouldn't keep quiet. Became a stripper because I hated my body. I was angry and used drugs, alcohol and sex to numb the pain.
My angel came through my son and I learnt through being a mother, that the power of love heals the pain and brings light into your situation.. I believe in heaven and hell.
I believe you reap what you sew in this life or the next.
As on earth as in heaven.
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I just have to say how much I appreciate this channel.
Every. Day.
Here I am... Been watching since 530 am.... Listening to this man's story... A grown man with tears rolling down my eyes
Heroic story.... We must bring awareness to the demons and monsters around us. Protect our children at all cost.... Thank you for you story!
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This is deep. This man is so strong
For this man to share this horror with us so accurately is so courageous I'm just blown away at his courage and strength