Hello everyone, I bared my soul with all its cuts and bruises for the world to see. The response has been amazing and I thank you all. To read over and over that this is the "Best interview ever" is quite an honor. May this video help others Break Their Silence and Inspire all who see it. PEACE.
You my new brother, are an incredibly Courageous Man! Your light now shines over the world to help us who still suffer from the abuses of 'ASS CLOWNS' who took our childhood innocence, and replaced it with fear and pain. Thank you for sharing with us. God Bless you, Tommy, Northern Minnesota
Clark, I very rarely watch videos this long all the way through, but your story captivated me so much I couldn't stop once I started. I'm so glad you didn't have to completely lose the rest of your life by bringing justice to that monster--although, as you said, it didn't really fix your problems. As someone who has not experienced abuse and can't relate to it on a personal level, I'm deeply sorry for what you were forced to endure, however I'm glad that the Lord has been able to bring some good out of such evil by using you an an instrument to other abuse survivors. Thanks to testimonies like yours, I'm motivated to always be a person of empathy, understanding, and non-judgementalism to those who have experienced abuse in any way. God Bless you, my friend.
Yes, you are a Humanitarian and you are the face of inspiration. The lifelong commitment to exposing insidious fear made by henious people in the public arena is high order: *G*ood *O*rderly *D*irection. Have a great life. Peace!
Dennis Pegg died in 2012 and his obituary reads like he's an upstanding citizen. These monsters are all around us. Thank you, Clark, I have great respect for you for fighting this monster and winning.
It sounds like he had a lot of enablers... Fellow pigs... Truly disgusting, these guys can't do it alone. They always have people who enable whether they know it or not... Whoever knows where this molesting pig's grave is, please post. This is probably the best SWU episode yet. Thank you!
OMG!!! His obit reads like he is friggin Jesus!! Surely whomever wrote that obit did a lot of research to list alll his 'accomplishments'. (By 'accomplishments' I really mean opportunities he setup to get access to people he could victimize.) No doubt they knew he was raping boys and men. So not only is the world full of monsters, those monsters have people helping them. Grrr. P.S. Check out the "We Need to Talk About Cosby" series to hear more about monsters who rape and the people who help them rape. Grrr.
@@powderandpaint14 As one of the police officers told him, everyone knew but they lacked formal evidence because none of the victims was telling about it.
@@clarkfredericks3309 You’re a great storyteller, Clark. You remind me a bit of my father, he is a great storyteller too. The pauses in between the sentences, the way you describe details, you know when to breathe, the voice tone is also on point. Great video. Thanks for sharing.
Yes... just... what a gift. And what a superb story teller. Just wow. I just have no words that do this man's story justice 🥰🙏🌟✨️✨️💖💖💫 So.glad.he let god in and had soooo many Earth angels around him... to keep him going ❤❤❤❤
I’ll second that. Telling a sexual abuse survivor story is the one that needs to be celebrated. Please tell me that you do talks in school and for social services, child protection services. So all professionals can learn from your experience. X
I am 16 rn and I got SAd at the age of 15 by a neighbour of mine. He was 70 smth. This story made me realise I can actually have a life even if I went trough it. Respect for you Clerk. I hope the best for you
I’m so sorry to hear that, I wish that I could be your big brother and be there for you. Please open up to a loved one even though it might be hard at first it is worth it.
@@Athos1776 it’s ok!!I told my mom about it and we did report the guy. Sadly we didn’t have any evidence and lost the case. Mom asked if I wanted to continue w suing again but it would’ve been just a waste of money. But now I’m pretty good. My friends support me. Sadly I did get made fun of by some kids at school because my mom told everyone so they can be safe and stay away from the creep. But now I am doinf pretty ok, and I am slowly healing
🫂🫂🫂I watched your whole video, as a woman a black woman who’s been raped twice in my life. Once as a teen by gunpoint and once in my early 40’s now at 49 I’m still suffering. I’m just not happy and I’m suffering. Thank you and I send love!
So sorry to hear...Life is a difficult journey + is even harder when things have happened...There is so much to unpack + deal with of how it affects nearly every aspect of life i know...I hope you find support + accept yourself...I am also on the journey...So i can't say what helps, or the end results. But love to you 🫂🖤☯️
Clark and his family lived in my neighborhood growing up and his story shook the whole county to the core.We rallied behind him when he was in court to see that he got leniency getting rid of a sick animal.
@@paulden3158 This way, you can continue living a free, beautiful life and being kind to animals and vulnerable people, and if the opportunity presents, rid the world of even more malignant predators. ; )
Thank you Clark Fredericks. Your story saved me. This kept me from doing the same thing to my 4b$3r. Instead I outed him and now I get to see his world slowly crumble as he’s feeling everything I felt. This is way better and it’s all because you gave me the power to.
The saddest thing is to hear adults who suffered sexual abuse as kids say their biggest regret was not saying anything. Having to live with that level of guilt and shame, processing such complex emotions while being preyed upon and still thinking they should have been stronger or had the courage to speak up is heartbreaking.
@@claireh.7605I think that's a really naive assumption. I would also think it's pretty insulting to victims of sexual abuse. Of course talking to your kids is important but don't you think many victims parents did have that conversation. Did you listen when he described how his abuser deterred him from speaking up?
@@stephanie3336 sure, if you loo up 'contreras divorce court florida deputy arrest' it shows how a court guard would take women for fake drug checks and treat them like the back room of a strip club, then not register their complaints if they spoke up and literally tell them they will be arrested for false complaints and disorderly conduct if they complain about him. Then he blackmails the woman like that on camera, in front of a family judge who stays out like it isn't her business, and his coworker immediately becomes a co-conspirator, then the prosecutor helps them for going after the woman on false charges after they arrest her. It is crazy how everyone just ganged up on her when one incriminated guy was threatened with being reported.
@@stephanie3336I certainly recall that part of the story; do you remember when he said his parents warned him about getting in a stranger’s car, but not about not getting in a car with a person he knew? To be fair to Clark’s parents- we as a society didn’t have the understanding and awareness of how abuse actually happens to children. Today we do know. And that’s part of what proper sex education looks like. Explaining to your children what is and _is not_ appropriate for _any_ adult to do with or to them. Obviously it won’t prevent all assaults (and nobody said that it would) but it would make a dramatic difference Claireh is right.
My nephews abuser was released from prison and my nephew had a break down than committed suicide the same day. Your saving lives with your life story. Thank you! 🙏🏻
The fact that his dog showed more concern for you at 12 speaks volumes. His moral compass was beneath animals. I have watched this three times. Kudos for having the courage to take your power back from that sob.
I'm honored, seriously honored that you have watched this 3 times. My life is a Cautionary Tale. My story of overcoming applies to everyone. Not one of us is going to through life unscathed. How will you handle the punches that life throws at you. I'm telling you that we are all capable of overcoming any hurdle that life puts in our way.
Holyshit you certainly deserve all the love and compassion this world has for you that would horrify me about that dog. I have no words thank you for the courage to tell your story
Most humans are beneath animals consciousness. Most animals kill for survival. In all my years working with wildlife, I've realized that the human condition is comprised of evil.
My heart goes out to this man. My stepdad is a sick bastard and we were forced to live with him for twenty years.... He even went through me, my sisters, their daughters and tried for my girlfriends. He is currently on trial...and I have been sober for a year
I work at a homeless shelter in my small town and, night after night, I see broken men come in and sleep. I know they’ve felt pain, more pain than I can imagine, and so I try to see past that pain. It manifests as drug addiction and mental illness, but I see past it to the man. Your testimony remind me of the beauty hidden under their pain, beautiful boys, hopeful, carefree children who have been chewed up and spit out by murderous humans. Thank you for sharing your life. It takes courage to share our stories, especially a story like yours. I pray that God brings you peace. Bless you.
I appreciate that he called his abusers name - he said his name. He’s telling the truth 100% - so many details and clear description of what grooming looks like . Also a cautionary tale for parents - trusts no one with your precious children.
At times it's hard to trust your own decision making, how can anybody trust a person/brain you have 0 control over when we cant even control our own at times!! 👍🏽
Talk to them about what is abuse and who to tell once they get to a age of understanding. Most people are fine but unfortunately we don't know who , my friends was touched inappropriately by two of her dad's friend when she was asleep to this day she has issue s saying no to men. Another girl family had house parties and she was raped by family friend she went from size 10 healthy to 20 stone within a few year's.
I hope that the times have changed and it's impossible for a predator to have a 40+year reign of terror. There should be no one looking the other way or just wanting to sweep this ugly problem under the rug.
Fr like they should be able to kill their abuser like if the abuser didn’t go to prison for doing that then neither should the guy who killed his abuser the guy just wanted justice since the cops didn’t want to get justice
@Brandon Danielson Brandon, You ate 100% correct. My lawyer told me immediately that he did not want me getting bailed out. He said that I was addicted to drugs, I was in a horrible mental state, and it didn't look good for someone charged with murder to be out in the community going to bars and out to dinners. He also said I needed to be removed from all the negative influences in my life and just concentrate on me. He was right on everything.
The police officer that told him to say the 5th amendment and request a lawyer was truly a proper gentleman. Sometimes you get the right person at the right time.
@@clarkfredericks3309 You're an amazing person and Im glad you survived all of this and are a free man today. I wish I couldve gotten revenge on my abuser but the pathetic coward offed himself. At least he cant hurt anyone else.
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am a 74 year old Black female and I was also tramatized as a child which led me down a dispicable life including prison. I, like you, have completely turned my life around. Thank you for being the calalyst for others to find healing. May God Bless You and keep You in his Loving Care.
Goodmorning Tanya, I've heard from so many people from all walks of life and our stories all seem to mirror each other. The trauma is so great that we all seem to self-destruct in very similar ways. The trauma steers our ship off course and its up to us to finally get back on a new course. Bless you that you survived and found a new course for your life.
@@clarkfredericks3309 Thank you so much for responding. I also shared your trauma with drug addition. After viewing this video, I googled you and I was directed to your day of sentencing and the statement you made to the court. You were so full that you couldn't hold back the tears and anxiety. You were able to say it all OUT LOUD and my guess is: That might have been the start day of your healing. There needs to be a movie chronicling your life. God Bless You and thank you for all you do.
@@clarkfredericks3309God bless you Sir…you are a true testimony. I can relate in many ways, me:female, abuser: uncle/preacher. 😢. Take care be blessed and hang in there.
How absolutely wonderful. . Stick with it,, it gets easier as time goes on. Life gets easier to live when you are sober. All the things that used to trigger you and make you abuse substances suddenly don't bother you as much
I got sexually harassed by gay men for a couple years. I don’t know how but when he was describing being frozen during the predators acts. It unlocked that trauma that I’ve had buried long ago. I’m researching for therapy now because a lot of shit went down after the fact as I was a troubled kid.
@@nightcrawlr1035 Therapy is the right path. Your doctor would be a good source for a referral. Many therapists specialize in childhood sexual abuse survivors. They have the background and experience to help you, and they have heard it all. Your story will not shock them. And they will not ever make you feel shame or embarrassment! They are there to support you on your journey of healing. The more you talk, you will literally feel that burden of trying to deal with it on your own lifting off you. It won't happen overnight, so be patient with yourself. Anything worthwhile takes time. And you are worth it. Sending much love and good vibes. 💛
Clark Fredericks, then 50, was given the minimum sentence of five years for stabbing Dennis Pegg to death in June 2012. I'm so sorry he had to go through that too -- but Clark freed the world of that demon. I'm glad Clark is out of prison and sharing his powerful story...I feel confident it will set others free, physically and emotionally, from their abusers. Thank you Clark! You're a hero.
Being a survivor of childhood sexual molestation i was silent for decades! I was in my late 30's when i learned to speak up about it. Now i am 60 and i have been sober for 30 years. #SpeakUp
Clark’s willingness to be vulnerable saved my life this July when I heard it for the first time. The morning I heard his story I was at the lowest point of my life in the midst of preparing to end my life. I threw on a random Soft White Underbelly video as “background noise” while I started getting my final goodbyes and plans in order. I was fumbling around in a blind fog until I heard this man begin to speak so candidly about what happened to him. The next day I checked myself into a behavioral health facility and was admitted to a trauma treatment program. Next week I graduate from that program and I have a completely new lease on my life that I believed was over 12 weeks ago. Thank you Clark for speaking up and telling your story so that I could find my voice too.
I was raped by a family "friend" when I was 12 yrs old but fortunately it was only once and then he went away. My parents never knew and now they are gone and don't need to feel the pain. I somehow hid the trauma within and just recently came to acceptance and I am okay. I thank you for sharing your story and you are brave to do so. May God Bless you for taking him out so he can no longer harm anyone. I wish I had been as courageous.
You say you wish you had been as courageous....but you ARE courageous... You've just told the world what happened to you as a child.... I'd say that's a very courageous thing to do your better than the person who did you wrong and you have empathy for others ❤
@@clarkfredericks3309 your strong and honesty so much more then the situation you were placed in as someone who was taken advantage of its something well never forget
you are a Hero -- my Hero movve i Will never do but my abusers deserve,,,, i struggle with the anger, i read meditate found a dieta AND spirit system that works wonders we all know there Is no 100-/, healing when lines like this áre crossed
Fact that you got back with your childhood sweetheart put me into tears bro, a 40 year old, miserable lump of a man that's had some of his own struggles through life, in tears, cant remember when that last happened, that part was beautiful. So happy for you
@clarkfredericks3309 wish you all the best mate, these dark days when it's a struggle to lift a limb are tough, you have all these people on these videos hoping you get through them 🤘
As a father, this infuriates me. I can’t believe there’s parents out there who can’t pick up on their kids behavioral changes. It’s stories like this as to why I don’t trust anyone besides 4 or 5 people with my boy. No teacher, no friends parents, no priest, no scout leader, no coach, no body at all.
90% of predators are white heterosexual males, they are also your friends, family or acquaintance. There’s also a long history of “oh kids lie! They just want attention!” Also a view that kids are inherently bad, so this “bad behavior” is almost expected. Instead of figuring out what message these actions are trying to tell us, we “don’t spoil the child by sparing the rod”. As a survivor I’m glad this is coming to light
A child's coping mechanism is to deny the bad things, in hopes it goes away. Parents try but feel hopeless. Seek help if you know something is not right with your child.
I was sexually and physically abused by my dad for 19 years(1968-1987). It destroyed my life, but six months before he died in August, 2014, I forgave him because I had to try and move beyond all the trauma I'd been through. But, he never apologized to me or admitted to what he'd done. To this day(I'm 54), I still can't be in close physical proximity to another man. It paralyzes me with fear. So, I completely understand this.
I am so sorry for what happened to you… you are strong, even just saying this is very brave. Remember you are safe and nobody will hurt you anymore. Sending you love
I wish I could give you a hug. I know how the world looks like its full of demons when you've been betrayed by someone who was supposed to protect you from them. Who did this to you was a monster disguised in human flesh. You're a brave man who was generous enough to forgive him and tell your story here. You've my respect, Sir. I hope you overcome this fear someday and live your life to the fullest. I'm proud of how far you've come. Lots of love ❤️
I'm really sorry Jimmy 💚 . I was never sexually abused but my own mother would physically and mentally abuse me since young. Started out young where she would make me stay up and than I couldn't get up for school. And than it progressed and its still happening. Recently I called my brother to tell him I have to let my parents go . Its for the best for me. I just can't do it anymore. As sad as it is Jimmy anybody that was supposed to be there for you and wasent same thing , let them go. I hope you can have some sort of recovery . I wish you the best 💚.
Cant believe that essay didn't tip off your teacher. I went through the heroin ringer, i managed to get clean by the skin of my teeth. Got diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety and depression. Never told anyone about my abuse (i was 17-18) by a doctor. This story makes me feel less alone
Yep the teacher brushed it off, didnt know how to deal with such a thing. Why is it that people hide and ignore sexual abuse, mainly I would say, its easy to do that to a child. Childrens voices need to be heard !!!! Children need the same respect and justice as an adult.
There is no price tag on this interview, or Clark's testimony. I know the time is coming for me to speak up as well. Proctastination, fear, depression, etc. have kept me from stepping up to the plate. Clark, as well as Mark's entire channel, has brought me one step closer. Thank you both. Mark, your channel is priceless.
This is THE MOST INTENSE AND HEALING testimony I've ever had the pleasure of experiencing. For today, I feel less alone, hopeful and clear. Thank you guys from the bottom of my heart.
@@clarkfredericks3309 thank you. Thank you so much. Your testimony is touched me in so many ways! I am a survivor and so is my brother. He reminds me so much of you. 🧡🧡🧡
@@clarkfredericks3309 The mama bear in me wants to jump through the screen and protect you. I’m so glad you are able to share your story and know you are loved and supported by people you’ll probably never even meet. ❤️🙏🏻🌹
Im a 15yo boy and luckily nothing like this ever happend to me but i could never be as strong as you and tell such a story you are an amazing story teller
I watched this video this morning not realizing the impact it would have on me. I'm so grateful to Clark for telling his story so I could move through mine. I still mostly have an invisible hand over my mouth, but hearing him say his abuser's name made me feel that today is time to speak mine. I'm tired of being as sick as my secrets. R. Gillespie and M. Frasier. I was a child and what you did took so much of my life away from me.
No it's legit interviews with men. And woman on skid row, I haven't seen any in a long time, but just seen this randomly and as usual, it's so well done it's hard to put the phone down. They are heartbreaking stories. @@nildaluzrodriguez
It’s been 38 years since …! and I’ve still not found the courage to speak up. Thankyou Clark for being the voice. This is the most powerful interview I’ve seen on child molestation /rape🙏🏼
I watched a video yesterday. Marilyn Vanberdun (?) Spelling of last may be incorrect. She was Ms America in 1958. I urge all victims to watch her video. Honestly everyone should see it the same as everyone should see Clark's. If we weren't a victim we surely have met many. We can possibly offer help if we're more aware.
That is a dumb statement. He lost the life he deserved to live because of that pos - there was no purpose of this happening to him and this shouldn't have been his "destiny" - his destiny should have been being happy, maybe with that girl who he said was the love of his life. That animal robbed him forever.
His story is so very similar to my husband’s. Unfortunately my husband was in a great deal of denial and self hatred that he never got help. He spent most of his life struggling with his addictions and in prison. We were married for 3 years before he passed away from overdose at the young age of 35. Clark, thank you for sharing your story. It will help more people, especially men, than any of us can imagine. I’m rooting for you. Take care of yourself.
My dad died of alcoholic myocarditis a couple weeks ago after a long and horrific battle with chronic alcoholism. He was raped at age 16 by a family friend. He never told anyone for 40 years. As someone who was groomed and sexually abused in my early 20s by a superior at work early in my career, I can not even begin to imagine the pain of keeping a secret like that for 40 years. Rest in peace Dad. :'(
The reality is absolutely staggering. If people learned more the world would be a kinder place. Some of us were literally tortured and it affects how we see and interact w the world. We don’t want to be broken, we never wanted to be sexually abused or raped as children, but the reality is that we were. I hope people can learn and have empathy. Most addicts were abused as children. Close to 90%. That should be eye opening for people and shocking enough to spread awareness as well as lobby for harsher sentences because the system is a joke and lets these weirdos out to reoffend which is vile and truthfully unacceptable
Someone I've known for 20 years confessed a childhood experience. I had no idea. They asked if anything like that had happened to me, and I said no, never. They were incredulous, and kept asking. I think people have to normalize/rationalize it to make it through 💔 It is so common. I hate that society pretends to protect children while failing in the most important and predictable ways. Epstein don't kill himself
It’s a silent epidemic. It’s way more common than people think. People who haven’t been abused don’t see the signs and red flags like us victims do, so even when you try and point them out, they dismiss you as being paranoid
I immediately felt his pain when he was talking about him beating the dog...my chest got tight and I could feel his anguish. I rescue great danes and horses and I feel like I would have felt and thought just like him in that moment. So very traumatizing, even more so than the rape, says alot of his innocence and childlike love and care for animals, one that was howling for his pain he suffered. Wow, I needed to write to this. You just remember your innocence was there and your love is still there. So sorry you went through ALL of this, but your story is profoundly impactful. Thank you.
I felt the same. And the fact that he had just endured the absolute worst of humanity but was more worried about the dog, and that he was the cause of the dog's anguish, to me says that Clark is the literal opposite of his abuser. He is the absolute best of humanity. Also he told his story with such depth and candor.
I literally took out a mini white board and started writing positive reminders for myself while I listened… haven’t done that in years - he’s inspiring
what can I say- I’m a 63 y/o woman who was molested at 5 ( more than once) and physically abused throughout childhood and have lived a self deprecating life since. A constant battle of drugs, alcohol, non-commital sexual relationships, intimacy problems, seeking abusive men, addictions. It reads like a “how to” list. I hung onto very word that literally describes my own life. I also gave my life to God at 47 and He has become my source for life and healing. Thank you Mark for this interview.
He described being sexually abused so vividly and accurately I had trouble breathing while listening. I had to take a moment, take a breather and comment. The feeling of being utterly and completely frozen when it happens. Like you can’t breathe, and like you are the only person in the world. It does something to your brain. To your soul. You do wonder where God was. My own father and my uncle repeatedly molested me and I too was told to keep it a secret. I did keep it a secret when I was still a kid, but after I moved out… fuck secrets. I confronted both of them. My alcoholic father added insult to injury and was so disgusted that I brought it up. He’s disgusted? 🤯 My uncle is currently in prison as he molested other girls in the family- even his granddaughter. This man from Stillwater, NJ made me feel less alone today. Signed, the woman from Hawthorne, NJ
Woman from Hawthorne, NJ, this woman in Nashville Tennessee wants to cry for you. I feel a little better knowing you don't feel alone this morning because of Clark's bravery. Thinking of you and all the other survivors of rape this morning. Xoxo Kim
Thank you for your kindness, but I don’t want to make this about me. Listening to Clark…so much of it is insanely relatable. That’s the only thing I want to make about me- is that I am also fluent in speaking the language of trauma. The shame, the rage, the lack of coping skills, the inability to connect emotionally…the failed attempts to escape into different addictions…the indescribable bouts of depression…the occasional feeling of longing for it all to be over… I’m so honored that he shared his story and I am even more thrilled about where he stands today. Thank you again for your kind words and I’m also proud to finally be sober! ❤️🩹
I’m speechless, that was probably the best interview off all time. Mark just let you speak the whole time, he didn’t have to ask anything to keep you going. Clark, I’m proud of you. You’re such an inspiration to so many. God bless you!
@Emily Hinkley Watch more of these videos. They have at least a few where Mark doesn't speak at all. This one and Mike Dowd are public speakers, but not all of them are.
@Emily Hinkley your og comment makes it sound like Marc didn't have to ask questions because the guys a professional speaker, which isn't the case, because Mark has plenty of videos where he doesn't ask questions. Sherlock.
I am in my 60th year in this wicked world. I was 5 years old when I was brutally raped. There are several parallels between my experience and yours. Your story has shaken me to my very core and brought tears to my eyes. I'm kinda shook right now. Thank you for sharing your story. In a way I don't understand I think it has helped me somehow. I know how you feel and you know how I feel.
No one should ever go threw anything of the sort , it’s never a victims fault . Be the best person you can be , be proud and love yourself ✌️ people care ❤
i thought this was going to be back round noise while i played tetris online. boy was i wrong. while the subject matter is extremely tough to get through, i found myself fighting back tears several times, these things need to be said and shared. what Clark is doing here is helping people who have suffered childhood abuse began a path of healing by sharing his traumatic story. Clark, i commend you. i am in awe of your courage. well done
Rob, Thanks bro, you nailed it in the head. Our shame keeps us paralyzed and a hostage to the pain we experienced. I wanted to be vulnerable to help others break out of their isolation and torment. Thank you for acknowledging that.
@@clarkfredericks3309 your story touched the deepest parts of my soul and awakened something inside of me. I don’t know what exactly that is but I am extremely grateful you’ve invited the world to see you and hear your story. Thank you Clark.
This man is an amazing story teller. I just wish his story didn't involve such horrific events in his life. I'm grateful he has the courage to share his experience. I hope men and women who have experienced sexual abuse will seek to heal their broken hearts through therapy.
@@jen-ms4xo I agree....also I'm on my 7th therapist in a 18 year spanf and still haven't found one that has helped...plus one ended up causing more trauma by crossing the line in my vulnerability and sexualized me so more trauma and will never see a male therapist again.. that was almost more damage cause I don't trust therapist now also...
ive watched soft white underbelly for years, literally hundreds of hours of interviews, and this is the most impactful one bar none. to be able to share a story like that with so much emotion and honesty inspires me to keep going. thank you clark for sharing, and thank you mark for getting this to us.
@@clarkfredericks3309 This is hands down the most impactful interview I have seen in the past 10 years! And I am really into biographies and interviews! God bless you in your endeavors of reaching victims!
It's too bad we can't dig up Mr. Pegg and kill him again, and again, and again... for Clark, for the dog, for all his victims. How can someone be so fking EVIL?? 😡
@@clarkfredericks3309 Our family dog is half Coonhound, half Boxer. He's lying here on the bed w me as I listen to this.💔💔💔 I want Mr. Pegg to come back to life so I can kill him myself.😡
I literally cried!!! The way that he was telling his story, his face expression, his voice, the pain, the anger, the sorrow!!!! God please help this man to overcome this tragedy& trauma🙏🏻
Anyone here still think drag queen story hour is a good idea.? This is what happens when adults DON"T protect children. And the predators know when children are unprotected. Where's God? Wrong question. Where are the grown ups? Where are the adults? Where is society? Down at the library..? Yeah right...Where is God indeed.?
He has done what most victims dream off. The rage and the pain is still there no matter how many years pass. I could resonate so much to his emotions. It has been 19 years but till this day I still struggle despite therapy, it destroys you.
I am very sorry, Fatima. I too was abused, but what has helped me, is to understand that it is mostly a cycle. I am in no way excusing the abuser!! I am just saying that if you can picture the person(s) who abused you in the same position as you were in, it might give you more understanding of how it could happen. It actually can give you a way to heal.
As a sexual abuse victim myself, I felt Clark's anger and pain. No one but my wife knows the abuse I endured. He is a cousin of mine and I don't know how I would react if I saw him today. His sexual abuse on top of the physical and emotional abuse I endured from my stepdad I believe is the reason why I have zero self esteem. I have lived my entire life doubting the man I am. Thank you Clark for sharing your story.
I used recklessness disguised as fearlessness because I suffered from low self esteem as well. As healing develops and progresses your self esteem will improve as well.
Dear Mike, I'm sorry for what happened to you and I care about you. Do not believe the story that you and others try to fit you in. The truth is that Mike doesn't even exist. You are not who you were years ago and you don't have to be who you are now tomorrow. You are shapeless and limitless and we all love you. Please continue on your journey with pride in what you've managed to live through and know that you're not alone.
@@clarkfredericks3309you are so strong clark, your story has empowered over me & my trauma, you don’t realize how many lives you have saved, your courage will never go unrecognized & i wish you the overall best!!
@@clarkfredericks3309 Of course, my condolences! I hope everything works out for you & i do wish you feel better, your brother must’ve been as great as a guy as you are! :)
@@clarkfredericks3309dude you have saved the lives of THOUSANDS of young kids, just think about it, your testimony has helped thousands of parents pay more attention to their children, you are doing God’s work
@@clarkfredericks3309 dear Clark i bow to you for your bravery. Please watch nde testimonies if you didn't yet. There are thousands of them the majority is authentic. You will understand why you had to go through this. God bless you ❤🙏
I’m in therapy for a number of reasons . Sexual abuse is one of those reasons. Been going for 3 years and still haven’t found the courage to say it out loud. I thank you sir. This will help me
I’m so sorry you had to go through this. Unfortunately, I can relate. I’m glad you’re getting help. I can say from experience that speaking your experience to a caring professional can be liberating and healing. It took me years to do so but when I did it was like a load off my back. I’m now comfortable with it, more or less. Just remember that what you say is not a confession because you did nothing wrong. It reflects negatively on your abuser, not you. I say this as a middle aged man who works in construction and hunts; being a strong, tough man does not mean you have to keep this stuff in, that going to therapy is weakness. Remember to be gentle with yourself and that what you’re doing now is a massing sign of your strength and courage.
I read most of the comments to this video, I’ve dealt with my own trauma but never sexual abuse I have very close friends I grew up with who experienced sexual abuse by a relative I can’t begin to tell you how deep that trauma effected them and when I say how deep I mean their entire life it’s had an effect on, my heart has always hurt for them. You are not alone you have a voice when you feel strong enough for the world to hear your voice or not the world and if u rather vent in a journal to tell your story however you feel comfortable venting or speaking your truth your story what you’ve been through you are loved u did nothing to deserve that it’s not love it’s pain it’s hurt it’s abuse you are not alone in this world many of us feel your pain and are here for you ❤❤ blessings peace and love
Being vulnerable is truly a gift of the Spirit. Time to accept being open about your story. Maybe let it out on this platform. You know we'll love and support you either way.
Never let your kids be ALONE with any adult. Most abusers are trusted, loved, respected by the family. Never leave them alone, not even for a minute. That cool uncle, great coach, youth pastor, babysitter, overnight at a friend's house? NO. ⚠️ -worked in a Sezual Assault Program for 7 years
This happens when parents have friends and don't explain things to children, because my dad had a lot of friends but never took none home and told us that if anyone tried something he'd kill them like a dog, and at 8 -9 he also gave me means of protection and he taught us to not trust anyone period. No one., at 12 I was already carrying my dad's 38.. and everyone knew.
@@karlwalter2242 I had the same kind of Dad! (RlP💜) My Bestie! The .38 he gave me on my 16th bday was a S&W police special. He kept it in his locked gun cabinet. He told my sister and l the same thing -- no one had better touch my daughters...or else.
Dear Clark, I was molested by two half brothers, for quite a few years. I was the object of their depravity as they conjured up perverted acts on me. I have stuffed for years years and years. As you shared your experience with the POS in your life I was bombarded with memories. I am unable to finish right now but want you to know how grateful I am for your compelling honesty and memories.
Sending prayers for your healing. It's good that you shared. It's a step in the right direction. Things that have helped me are Richard Grannon's Emotional Flashback Worksheet and Rewind Therapy by the Human Givens Institute (I was able to use it myself). Just talking about things was retraumatizing, so I think learning to let emotion pass and to calm the body is so important to getting stronger. I have had some common sense counselors that helped me unravel the gaslighting. You'll learn who your people are. And just take the best care of yourself that you can. You are deserving. 🙏
This interview was so brave of him to do. also, his details help to pinpoint specific behaviors abusers do and tactics they use to prey on children which can be really helpful for parents and guardians to look out for.
This channel helps so much for men with sexual trauma to watch other men talk about their struggles so they realize they are not alone . Thank you Mark.
after binging about half a dozen of these interviews, and after many shocking emotional moments, i now know firmly we must do everything we can to protect children
But how? This crime is so prevalent in our society. Everyone it touches hides it in shame-perpetrators, community leaders, even the victims and their family members. How do we stop it when no one wants to speak and break the chain? Clark is doing good work but the magnitude of the problem makes it feel so overwhelming and the work so miniscule.
I am 64 and that was the powerful interview I have ever listened too and his life story will some day be a movie that will heal millions of abuse survivors
This is by far the most riveting and heart wrenching of stories. This man was forced to right an evil done to him and many other boys. Bless him and all those who suffer at the hands of evil men and women. It’s a miracle he’s alive. I’m truly moved.
Yes it's a miracle we are alive, and I am grateful to be alive. 3hat I wish someone would have e told me was that I did not have to identify with what happened to me. Finding out that my identity was so much more then the abuse I suffered or mistakes I made is what brought me back from hell.on earth into heaven on earth. I hope he knows this now too, that he is way more then just a survivor. 🙂💕💨
Hi Clark. I too was molested as a child for three years by my mother's second husband, he did it to my older sister as well. His name is Douglas Santos; he was a photo developer at Paramount Pictures in the early 2000s. I know what it's like to deal with a respected predator. I am 23 now. You're amazing, and I admire your strength. I wish you peace and healing always. Soo happy to hear about the reunion with your college sweetheart 🥺❤❤
It made me cry such happy tears when him and his college sweetheart reconnected and fell back in love after all this time. The whole thing feels like a big circle of despair, anger, hope, and rebirth.
It's amazing that after 30 years I still desired to reach out to her and she was accepting when I did. She always felt that she would hear from me again.
Clark Fredericks......I am glad you decided to LIVE, heal and survive in this horrible journey in the first part of your life. You are a warrior with strength and courage. My heart goes out to you.....the little boy who was violated and the young man who suffered. Thank you for sharing your story with all of us and being an Advocate for survivors of sexual abuse. I'm happy you met your college Sweetheart and found LOVE again for each other and for yourself. I sit hear with tears of sadness and grief for the loss of our innocence but proud we are strong warriors and survivors. I wish you and your family many blessings of Peace and Love ❤️ always.
Almost puts tears in my eyes. I ran up on my SA abuser when i was 18. Was high af on meth and had tripped out at a buddies house down the road. Left with buddies phone and tried to call someone noone answerd so i set it down in the middle of the road for my buddy to find. I slept in a random shed in someones front yard. Next day i ran up to my abuser house i remembered where he lived from when i was 8. And he was also my grandfather.
Wow. What a powerful testimony. I also was a victim of sexual abuse. I was so depressed and self destructive. God healed and delivered me. I’m sober, at peace and love to help others. Thank you so much for sharing your story. You are strong, brave and a warrior for the kingdom . God bless you. 🙌🏾🙌🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
I am too a survivor. I'm sober instead of meds given by Dr. Which is Prozac and Valium sleeping meds. But I don't think anyone gets over it all the way. It changes how you are as a person. You can live with having been through it but it does change you.
Going through DV and nobody knowing the paralysis you go through and how the system itself tries to overpower you, never feeling like you can trust anyone and always feeling alone in the universe - this interview just doubled the population in my world. That sentence is so freeing - we are only as sick as our secrets. And what was a survival mechanism becomes a coping mechanism becomes a crutch until you cant differentiate yourself and your personality from your pain and avoidance, and then you collapse and the cycle begins again. Watching this interview was so inspiring -- it shows that we can come to terms with whatever we've experienced and that the dark entities that haunt us can be dispelled with our truth. Thank you for baring your scars so that we may have the courage to do the same!
I have never been so mesmerized as I was, while watching you Clark. I will agree, that this is the best interview that Mark has done. All I can say is that I truly pray, that the rest of your life is full of love and laughter. I am a few years younger than you, but I am looking at you through a mother’s eyes. I wish I could hug the pain away from the little boy, that I see. Love from Canada.
This was a hard story to listen to but very inspiring about how you overcame such adversity. I’m so sorry you felt you had to keep it in so long but I’m glad you are enjoying a clean, happy, positive life. When you said you had coffee with that girl and fell back in love, I burst into tears of happiness. You deserve to have a happy life. ❤️
My young cat started watching/listening to you somewhere midway through just staring at my phone on the bed as I watched/listened. Mesmerized the cat laid with paws tucked under her chest staring at you then after some time laid her head on the phone listening as if she felt your pain and offering her compassion. Amazing. 🏆
@Leesh, Ty for sharing that. Cats are amazing, l love them dearly. They are so tuned in to their owner. Your cat probably picked up on your vibes and how attentive you were to the video.
As someone who’s who’s fiancé went through similar. The abuse, the drugs, the hate. I watch this video every time I feel angry or saddened by it. I’m so happy you were able to overcome these horrible experiences same as my fiancé. Sending so much love and healing Clark, every victim of abuse deserves that chance.
It happened to me at 3. You never get over it! The dog was an angel killed by the devil. I went down many dark roads in my life but I do believe in God and the power of redemption. I've been scapegoated by my family because I wouldn't keep quiet. Became a stripper because I hated my body. I was angry and used drugs, alcohol and sex to numb the pain. My angel came through my son and I learnt through being a mother, that the power of love heals the pain and brings light into your situation.. I believe in heaven and hell. I believe you reap what you sew in this life or the next. As on earth as in heaven.
For anyone thinking of suicide look at this man. His life seemed over and in complete shambles but little did he know that his life was about to begin on the journey of healing and really take off in a whole new trajectory that would positively impact the lives of others. Don’t give up.
Let's be honest here. You think that if one of the homeless people we see here everyday went back and killed their abuser with no confrontation they would get 5 years and a motivational speaking contract at the end of their sentence? I'm not condemning what he's done, what I'm saying is that these kinds of stories rarely turn out this way. It doesn't give me hope because I'm aware of what an exception all of this is.
If you ever get the chance to see Clark's presentation, please do yourself a favor and don't miss it. It's the most powerful testimonial I've ever seen. His dedication to selflessly helping others is nothing short of amazing. Love literally drips off this man and I'm proud to call him my friend.
@@clarkfredericks3309 watching this has just switched a light on inside of me. I finally understand myself…from 6 years old. Now I’m 59 and finally understand…
@@jojandy1963 I am beyond thrilled to hear that. I'm 57, and feel like life is just starting. It's never too late to heal and it's never too late to take your life in a new direction.
@@clarkfredericks3309 Clark, I'm also a survivor of brutal childhood sexual abuse and torture and I've felt a longing for years to find a way to tell my story and help others find a path to redemption. I'd really like to connect with you and absorb any guidance you could offer me.
I was sitting at the edge of my chair feeling every word Clark spoke during the whole interview. His words spoke to my heart. Bravo to this man for being such an inspirational human being; Because greatness is about how positively we impact other, and this man for sure does it masterfully. Just amazing!
I have ADHD and Clark's story had me captivated from start to finish! My attention didn't waiver, not even once, which is very rare over an 1hr+ video! A terrible story beautifully told! Absolutely outstanding!
I have never been diagnosed with ADHD, but I too have a short attention span. Watched this whole thing and found myself asking if there’s actually a part 2! I am so happy he finally was able to regain everything that was robbed of him at a young, sweet tender age. I wanted to hug him so tight🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
I have 3 small children. Watching these videos helps me to be aware of people and makes me more cautious of who I allow around my kids. I’m sorry this happened to you 😔
Be cautious of the signs of childhood trauma when they are growing up, too. I ruined my life because no one from my family did, and just thought I'm a bad apple. Doesn't have to be sexual abuse, there's alot that can really fuck up a kid out there.
Thats why I watch as well. Many of these stories follow similar scripts. I am learning what to watch out for. I think all the men in our society are really messed up from the violent prn industry and the circumcism (which I see as satanic ritual abuse of the male infant). Throw in the drugs and you have got yourself a real dangerous mess.
I have these conversations with my niece 11 and nephew 8 who I care for. I run through different scenarios and what grooming looks like. We discuss the various types of people that can do these things. We talk about not being desperate for anything like gaming, food, freedom, activities, attention, affection. We talk about how I am always on their side and how they may lie to them that they'll hurt, kill or it'll bring shame. We talk about the effects of abuse and how people may view them as disadvantaged children and use it against them. We talk about how they are never to be alone with their trainers and have secret conversations. Also that they are not allowed to do these types of things as it can be life changing and destroying. We also discuss social media, phones, mental illness, drugs and alcohol, God, cults, homelessness, prison, etc I don't know where they will go in life, it's something I can't determine but I want them to be aware and open with me. I'm not sure if I'm right doing this as it's kind of dark but as a kid my mum spoke to me about life, people and situations that stayed me and has kept me somewhat safe. My sister lived those crucial years with my dad who never spoke wisdom to her and she was felt she was stupid even though she's intelligent. I've been having these conversations with them for almost 5years. Even when my nephew was 3. At 5 his big cousin who was 10 did stuff with him and he was able to tell me. It's was all very emotional for all of us and we spent lots of time talking it through. We took it to my other nephews mum and she was so angry at her son but I was more concerned with why and if someone had done it to him. We put it all in the open and even made family aware of it so it wasn't some secret and my nephew's was given comfort and encouragement. He also had a friend who was curious and was learning things maybe from his dad and my boy stayed there a couple of nights (not anymore) there was another little boy who would stay there as their mothers were friends. My nephew said that he was worried about the younger boy staying there and that I should let the mom know he might not be safe because the friend is a bit weird. I let the kids mother know what my nephew had said. My take is that the darkness won't take my kids by surprise and they recognise this stuff as evil and hopefully be brave and they'll bring anything to the light. Sorry this is long.
I can't really find the words to express how much respect I have for this man. Over time I bet this video is going to help hundreds of thousands, maybe millions of moms, kids and survivors. Men telling their stories of abuse is some of the most important social work happening in society today. All the best to you warrior, you're doing incredible work here.
I've never been so drawn into an interview. I hope this helps so many others speak up, or see signs they wouldn't normally see. I just know this will change lives. I hope you have a great life now sir, i really truly do
I laughed at grown men who cried. But this hit me so personally, I'm in tears. I want so bad to rid myself of my hurt and start healing. I just don't know where to start. Who do I break my silence to? I don't want to have to go to prison or anything tragic like that in order to find strength. I'm just venting. Great interview and I will read/listen to his books.
PRAY to God. daily,, and ask him to led you and guide you on your journey.as to where to start, and who to break your silence to.. Then , THANK Him for these blessing that are on their way . BELIEVE IT TO BE TRUE by THANKING GOD in ADVACE for healing you., even before you are actually healed. because this shows him you have Faith in him to do these things that you ask of him. YOU MUST BELIEVE!!! Believe that God has already heard yours Prayers, and now BLESSINGS are on the way to you! This is having FAITH In GOD. Remember ,,,, GOD WORKS THRUGH FAITH..
I want so badly to hold you and protect the helpless little boy in you. I’m so sorry someone hurt you and damaged your soul. Please seek out a therapist or a group and talk about what happened. Just like this man, you can heal too. I wish you so much love and light and care. 💕💕💕💕
Sending you love and strength. Remember that being silent only allows predators to continue abusing vulnerable children. You deserve to tell your story and you deserve to have closure and healing. I hope you find a way to get through this pain and to heal your heart. ❤️
It feels so whack having to go to therapy to find someone to listen, but it can be so helpful. If you find a therapist who accepts sliding scale payments then you could afford it perhaps
Hey Kris, I’ve read your comment and I can feel your pain. No one should have to remain silent and I’m a strong advocate for giving those without one a voice, to be heard and respected. I’ve been through a traumatic life, and through all of those years I too didn’t have a voice, the demons were invisible to everyone around me, but they were there in my head everyday, screaming, I couldn’t get them to stop! The thing about silence when you suffer, is that the silence becomes your worst enemy, it deafens you, it eats at you, it feeds on your fear.. I can’t say I’ve ever found peace, but I sure as hell have found a voice, and I’m using it not just for myself but for everyone who dreads the minute that you have to be alone in with your thoughts, when you have to do absolutely anything to stay distracted, it’s hard to sleep, it’s hard to concentrate, you always have to be on the go, unless you give up and resign yourself to a life of misery! We can’t do that, we need to use our distractions to do something positive, and the first step is breaking that silence before it breaks you! Please Kris I will leave you my email address, and if you contact me I can give you my number and we can have a chat, it might be easier to open up to a stranger, to someone who will pass no judgment, won’t give unwanted advice, just someone to listen, to truly hear you.. I can and want to do that for you! Helping others helps me to heal too, I know I’m no longer alone. Kris here’s my email address, I’ll keep checking it in the hopes that you message me with your story: maymacbellyoutube@outlook.com Sending so much love 💕
Here I am... Been watching since 530 am.... Listening to this man's story... A grown man with tears rolling down my eyes Heroic story.... We must bring awareness to the demons and monsters around us. Protect our children at all cost.... Thank you for you story!
We are only as sick as our secrets… thank you so much, Clark & God bless you as you give other SA survivors, including myself, the guts to speak out & the chance to turn our entire lives around, not just for the better of ourselves, but others who are doing all they can to just keep their heads above water. Thank you for the life altering hope you have just offered to all of us that life truly can have so much more meaning, in spite of the trauma we endured. Best interview ever, Mark. I love both of you guys’ hearts.
Hello everyone,
I bared my soul with all its cuts and bruises for the world to see. The response has been amazing and I thank you all. To read over and over that this is the "Best interview ever" is quite an honor. May this video help others Break Their Silence and Inspire all who see it. PEACE.
You my new brother, are an incredibly Courageous Man! Your light now shines over the world to help us who still suffer from the abuses of 'ASS CLOWNS' who took our childhood innocence, and replaced it with fear and pain. Thank you for sharing with us. God Bless you, Tommy, Northern Minnesota
Clark,
I very rarely watch videos this long all the way through, but your story captivated me so much I couldn't stop once I started. I'm so glad you didn't have to completely lose the rest of your life by bringing justice to that monster--although, as you said, it didn't really fix your problems. As someone who has not experienced abuse and can't relate to it on a personal level, I'm deeply sorry for what you were forced to endure, however I'm glad that the Lord has been able to bring some good out of such evil by using you an an instrument to other abuse survivors. Thanks to testimonies like yours, I'm motivated to always be a person of empathy, understanding, and non-judgementalism to those who have experienced abuse in any way.
God Bless you, my friend.
I understand the pain you are carrying inside. Thank you for sharing your story. Best wishes to you & your sweetheart. I can’t wait to read your book!
Yes, you are a Humanitarian and you are the face of inspiration. The lifelong commitment to exposing insidious fear made by henious people in the public arena is high order: *G*ood *O*rderly *D*irection.
Have a great life.
Peace!
Thank you so much Clark 💙💚💛💜
Clark should be allowed to speak at as many schools as possible. Kids need to know they can tell someone immediately if they are being abused
Couldn't agree more, but they have shut me out. I would spend the rest of my life speaking g at schools,but they haven't shown any interest
Yes!
Especially for men. A lot of men have shame,bc they don't want to be seen as weak, not believed, gay, etc.
I agree 100%! No one wants to talk about it , but we should talk about it, often!
@@clarkfredericks3309they only remember the bad. Not the good.
Dennis Pegg died in 2012 and his obituary reads like he's an upstanding citizen. These monsters are all around us. Thank you, Clark, I have great respect for you for fighting this monster and winning.
Did no-one ever report him?! It sounds like he had a lot of victims.
It sounds like he had a lot of enablers... Fellow pigs... Truly disgusting, these guys can't do it alone. They always have people who enable whether they know it or not... Whoever knows where this molesting pig's grave is, please post.
This is probably the best SWU episode yet. Thank you!
OMG!!! His obit reads like he is friggin Jesus!! Surely whomever wrote that obit did a lot of research to list alll his 'accomplishments'. (By 'accomplishments' I really mean opportunities he setup to get access to people he could victimize.) No doubt they knew he was raping boys and men. So not only is the world full of monsters, those monsters have people helping them. Grrr. P.S. Check out the "We Need to Talk About Cosby" series to hear more about monsters who rape and the people who help them rape. Grrr.
@@powderandpaint14 As one of the police officers told him, everyone knew but they lacked formal evidence because none of the victims was telling about it.
@@powderandpaint14 Lots of victims but no proof to convict him. His obituary shows it wouldn't have been an easy fight.
Arguably the best soft white underbelly interview I’ve ever seen since its inception
That's quite an honor
@@clarkfredericks3309 You’re a great storyteller, Clark. You remind me a bit of my father, he is a great storyteller too. The pauses in between the sentences, the way you describe details, you know when to breathe, the voice tone is also on point. Great video. Thanks for sharing.
Yes... just... what a gift.
And what a superb story teller. Just wow. I just have no words that do this man's story justice 🥰🙏🌟✨️✨️💖💖💫
So.glad.he let god in and had soooo many Earth angels around him... to keep him going ❤❤❤❤
I’ll second that. Telling a sexual abuse survivor story is the one that needs to be celebrated.
Please tell me that you do talks in school and for social services, child protection services. So all professionals can learn from your experience. X
Mark didn’t say a word throughout Clark’s experience, but his hug at the end says it all.
Mark said one word which sums it up "WOW."
For real!!!
How could he !?! This is riveting !!!!!
So powerful and heartfelt ❤️
A LOT of interviewers on TH-cam should take notes from Mark.
I am 16 rn and I got SAd at the age of 15 by a neighbour of mine. He was 70 smth. This story made me realise I can actually have a life even if I went trough it. Respect for you Clerk. I hope the best for you
I’m so sorry to hear that, I wish that I could be your big brother and be there for you. Please open up to a loved one even though it might be hard at first it is worth it.
Connor, so sorry brother. Life is not over. Use that pain to propel you forward
@@Athos1776 it’s ok!!I told my mom about it and we did report the guy. Sadly we didn’t have any evidence and lost the case. Mom asked if I wanted to continue w suing again but it would’ve been just a waste of money. But now I’m pretty good. My friends support me. Sadly I did get made fun of by some kids at school because my mom told everyone so they can be safe and stay away from the creep. But now I am doinf pretty ok, and I am slowly healing
You certainly can...
Anybody makin fun of a kid for gettin sexually assaulted are fuckin whack jobs so don’t worry bout them. Stay strong kid!
This gentleman is the EXACT reason we "dont judge a book by its cover, We never know what someone is going through"
Truth..........
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It makes me think back to certain classmates in high school. What were they going through? It makes my heart hurt.
Be Kind...EVERYONE is FIGHTING a BATTLE you know nothing about. I wear this t-shirt proudly. It's very true.
@@clarkfredericks3309Murderer you should be in Prison act higher but your no better than your Abuser
🫂🫂🫂I watched your whole video, as a woman a black woman who’s been raped twice in my life. Once as a teen by gunpoint and once in my early 40’s now at 49 I’m still suffering. I’m just not happy and I’m suffering. Thank you and I send love!
So sorry Leslie. Healing is possible. This doesn't have to be a death sentence. You can overcome.
I’m so sorry Leslie. You didn’t deserve what happened to you. You did nothing wrong. Hugs❤️
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@@clarkfredericks3309 yes Leslie, you can overcome those horrible predators.❤
So sorry to hear...Life is a difficult journey + is even harder when things have happened...There is so much to unpack + deal with of how it affects nearly every aspect of life i know...I hope you find support + accept yourself...I am also on the journey...So i can't say what helps, or the end results. But love to you 🫂🖤☯️
Clark and his family lived in my neighborhood growing up and his story shook the whole county to the core.We rallied behind him when he was in court to see that he got leniency getting rid of a sick animal.
When executing a malignant predator, do your best to be discreet.
@@bluest1524 agreed
@@paulden3158 This way, you can continue living a free, beautiful life and being kind to animals and vulnerable people, and if the opportunity presents, rid the world of even more malignant predators. ; )
@@bluest1524 and live with more guilt in private? when talking about taking life, don't be so casual.
@@genesises touché
Thank you Clark Fredericks. Your story saved me. This kept me from doing the same thing to my 4b$3r. Instead I outed him and now I get to see his world slowly crumble as he’s feeling everything I felt. This is way better and it’s all because you gave me the power to.
Yessssssssssssssssss
AWESOME
God for you
You are stronger than the shit that happened to u. It doesn’t define u. How u respond does. Keep going.
I wanna take revenge so bad 😢
The saddest thing is to hear adults who suffered sexual abuse as kids say their biggest regret was not saying anything. Having to live with that level of guilt and shame, processing such complex emotions while being preyed upon and still thinking they should have been stronger or had the courage to speak up is heartbreaking.
Children just need to be explicitly taught about scenarios that happen and that they should tell others and adults
@@claireh.7605I think that's a really naive assumption. I would also think it's pretty insulting to victims of sexual abuse. Of course talking to your kids is important but don't you think many victims parents did have that conversation. Did you listen when he described how his abuser deterred him from speaking up?
@@stephanie3336 sure, if you loo up 'contreras divorce court florida deputy arrest' it shows how a court guard would take women for fake drug checks and treat them like the back room of a strip club, then not register their complaints if they spoke up and literally tell them they will be arrested for false complaints and disorderly conduct if they complain about him. Then he blackmails the woman like that on camera, in front of a family judge who stays out like it isn't her business, and his coworker immediately becomes a co-conspirator, then the prosecutor helps them for going after the woman on false charges after they arrest her. It is crazy how everyone just ganged up on her when one incriminated guy was threatened with being reported.
I really appreciate you. Thank you❤
@@stephanie3336I certainly recall that part of the story; do you remember when he said his parents warned him about getting in a stranger’s car, but not about not getting in a car with a person he knew?
To be fair to Clark’s parents- we as a society didn’t have the understanding and awareness of how abuse actually happens to children.
Today we do know. And that’s part of what proper sex education looks like. Explaining to your children what is and _is not_ appropriate for _any_ adult to do with or to them.
Obviously it won’t prevent all assaults (and nobody said that it would) but it would make a dramatic difference
Claireh is right.
The fact that the dog could sense someone was in trouble and howling to get someone’s attention that there was danger
If only the dog could have stopped the rape
That broke my heart even more , what an evil sob this guy had to face alone.
The dog probably heard the cries of many different boys
@@shannageorge7661 that makes me shiver , what a monster
@@ricksterk7014my Rottweilers always protect me no matter what.
My nephews abuser was released from prison and my nephew had a break down than committed suicide the same day. Your saving lives with your life story. Thank you! 🙏🏻
Oh Lisa,
I am so sorry to hear that, truly I am.
So sorry for your nephew, just heartbreaking beyond words.
I'm so sorry for you loss . I hope his soul gets to have peace in heaven
@@thiziriii thank you
Omg... I am so sorry. These monsters NEED to be eradicated!! Life sentence, no parole. There's NO other way...
The fact that his dog showed more concern for you at 12 speaks volumes. His moral compass was beneath animals. I have watched this three times. Kudos for having the courage to take your power back from that sob.
I'm honored, seriously honored that you have watched this 3 times. My life is a Cautionary Tale. My story of overcoming applies to everyone. Not one of us is going to through life unscathed. How will you handle the punches that life throws at you. I'm telling you that we are all capable of overcoming any hurdle that life puts in our way.
Dogs are the very best. Humans are the very most fucked up, as a group
Holyshit you certainly deserve all the love and compassion this world has for you that would horrify me about that dog. I have no words thank you for the courage to tell your story
@@clarkfredericks3309hey clark, how do you propose i teach my future kids how to evade or combat these horrific monsters?
thanks, ian
Most humans are beneath animals consciousness. Most animals kill for survival. In all my years working with wildlife, I've realized that the human condition is comprised of evil.
My heart goes out to this man.
My stepdad is a sick bastard and we were forced to live with him for twenty years.... He even went through me, my sisters, their daughters and tried for my girlfriends.
He is currently on trial...and I have been sober for a year
Thank u for sharing that with us . I’m so sorry…. And congrats on your sobriety!
Congratulations on your sobriety. I'm sorry for what you and your loved ones have been through. It's good to hear he's going to trial.
Stay strong N. H. You are doing so well. You are amazing.
Stay strong!! My family did the same!!! Entire family are pedophiles except me!!!!!!!!!!!
@@teresag3713 I'm sorry honey. You keep taking care of yourself.❤️
I work at a homeless shelter in my small town and, night after night, I see broken men come in and sleep. I know they’ve felt pain, more pain than I can imagine, and so I try to see past that pain. It manifests as drug addiction and mental illness, but I see past it to the man. Your testimony remind me of the beauty hidden under their pain, beautiful boys, hopeful, carefree children who have been chewed up and spit out by murderous humans. Thank you for sharing your life. It takes courage to share our stories, especially a story like yours. I pray that God brings you peace. Bless you.
I appreciate that he called his abusers name - he said his name. He’s telling the truth 100% - so many details and clear description of what grooming looks like . Also a cautionary tale for parents - trusts no one with your precious children.
You can't trust anyone Lynda
At times it's hard to trust your own decision making, how can anybody trust a person/brain you have 0 control over when we cant even control our own at times!! 👍🏽
@@juancontreras7514 nice leg!
Talk to them about what is abuse and who to tell once they get to a age of understanding. Most people are fine but unfortunately we don't know who , my friends was touched inappropriately by two of her dad's friend when she was asleep to this day she has issue s saying no to men. Another girl family had house parties and she was raped by family friend she went from size 10 healthy to 20 stone within a few year's.
Usually they bleep out the names I’m glad mark didn’t
This was intensely powerful. I don't think anyone that kills their abuser should do a day in jail
I hope that the times have changed and it's impossible for a predator to have a 40+year reign of terror. There should be no one looking the other way or just wanting to sweep this ugly problem under the rug.
Fr like they should be able to kill their abuser like if the abuser didn’t go to prison for doing that then neither should the guy who killed his abuser the guy just wanted justice since the cops didn’t want to get justice
Yes but atleast in jail he could not harm himself or do more drugs and he had the chance to rehabilitate himself and get better
@Brandon Danielson Brandon,
You ate 100% correct. My lawyer told me immediately that he did not want me getting bailed out. He said that I was addicted to drugs, I was in a horrible mental state, and it didn't look good for someone charged with murder to be out in the community going to bars and out to dinners. He also said I needed to be removed from all the negative influences in my life and just concentrate on me. He was right on everything.
Absolutely, in fact If a victim kills his abuser I think they should be awarded.
The police officer that told him to say the 5th amendment and request a lawyer was truly a proper gentleman. Sometimes you get the right person at the right time.
He was the Angel I needed at that time
His life is not just a story for me, its something I can relate too.
Meeting somebody like that at a moment like that. It was a sign.
@@Benemortasia666 Amen
@@clarkfredericks3309 You're an amazing person and Im glad you survived all of this and are a free man today. I wish I couldve gotten revenge on my abuser but the pathetic coward offed himself. At least he cant hurt anyone else.
"All I was trying to do was to stay one step ahead of my pain" Thank you Clark
That was the most impactful statement for me. So powerful! ❤
Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am a 74 year old Black female and I was also tramatized as a child which led me down a dispicable life including prison. I, like you, have completely turned my life around. Thank you for being the calalyst for others to find healing. May God Bless You and keep You in his Loving Care.
Goodmorning Tanya,
I've heard from so many people from all walks of life and our stories all seem to mirror each other. The trauma is so great that we all seem to self-destruct in very similar ways. The trauma steers our ship off course and its up to us to finally get back on a new course. Bless you that you survived and found a new course for your life.
@@clarkfredericks3309 Thank you so much for responding. I also shared your trauma with drug addition. After viewing this video, I googled you and I was directed to your day of sentencing and the statement you made to the court. You were so full that you couldn't hold back the tears and anxiety. You were able to say it all OUT LOUD and my guess is: That might have been the start day of your healing. There needs to be a movie chronicling your life. God Bless You and thank you for all you do.
this is by far the most POWERFUL interview i’ve ever seen
Thank you
@@clarkfredericks3309Thank you for sharing your story, I’m certain it’s helped many other victims of abuse.
Hugs. A very wicked disgusting predator.
@@clarkfredericks3309God bless you Sir…you are a true testimony. I can relate in many ways, me:female, abuser: uncle/preacher. 😢. Take care be blessed and hang in there.
Yessss! This interview is so powerful!!! His story speaks to so many!
This story made me realize I needed help. Thank you Clark. I am 9 days sober now. Thank you Clark.
How absolutely wonderful. . Stick with it,, it gets easier as time goes on. Life gets easier to live when you are sober. All the things that used to trigger you and make you abuse substances suddenly don't bother you as much
I got sexually harassed by gay men for a couple years. I don’t know how but when he was describing being frozen during the predators acts. It unlocked that trauma that I’ve had buried long ago. I’m researching for therapy now because a lot of shit went down after the fact as I was a troubled kid.
Well done my friend. Sending you love ❤️
@@nightcrawlr1035 Therapy is the right path. Your doctor would be a good source for a referral. Many therapists specialize in childhood sexual abuse survivors. They have the background and experience to help you, and they have heard it all. Your story will not shock them. And they will not ever make you feel shame or embarrassment! They are there to support you on your journey of healing. The more you talk, you will literally feel that burden of trying to deal with it on your own lifting off you. It won't happen overnight, so be patient with yourself. Anything worthwhile takes time. And you are worth it.
Sending much love and good vibes. 💛
🍃🌸🍃🙏🏽🍃🌸🍃
May Creator Bless and Guide you on this journey to become sober and succeed!
🍃🦬🍃👵🏽👋🏾
This man’s testimony needs to be heard by the world! ❤
Thanks, let's make it happen
This person has been thru. So much this was one was your best interview ever
Clark Fredericks, then 50, was given the minimum sentence of five years for stabbing Dennis Pegg to death in June 2012. I'm so sorry he had to go through that too -- but Clark freed the world of that demon. I'm glad Clark is out of prison and sharing his powerful story...I feel confident it will set others free, physically and emotionally, from their abusers. Thank you Clark! You're a hero.
👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼 Bravo Clark.
Amen!👍👏👏👏❤️
You are free….liberated…you can’t forget..but YOU ARE MAKING LIFE BETTER FOR OTHERS…I am sorry you have gone through this♥️
@@user-ql5yb2hs2p 👍👏👏👏❤️
The fact he did time is a testament to what’s wrong with the system. The Pedo earned it.
His storytelling is absolutely riveting. What an amazing individual
Much appreciated
@@clarkfredericks3309 your a inspiration mate.. from australia. im so agnry
@James Fogarty Thanks brother. What a journey this life has been
Yes, I hate that I judged this man by his appearance. His everyman aesthetic underscored his amazing story and insights.
@@sikin2023 You're* which is You are- google the difference between Your and You're PLEASE PLEASE. Educate yourself.
Being a survivor of childhood sexual molestation i was silent for decades! I was in my late 30's when i learned to speak up about it. Now i am 60 and i have been sober for 30 years. #SpeakUp
Wow that's awesome 30 yrs sober glad you're free to be you and that you spoke up 30 yrs ago keep on keeping on 🙏
I was 43 before I told anyone….
Don't speak!!.. Like Gwen Stefani said!!
I finally spoke up at 40 and everyone brushed it under the rug
Congratulations on your sobriety 💪💜
Clark’s willingness to be vulnerable saved my life this July when I heard it for the first time. The morning I heard his story I was at the lowest point of my life in the midst of preparing to end my life. I threw on a random Soft White Underbelly video as “background noise” while I started getting my final goodbyes and plans in order. I was fumbling around in a blind fog until I heard this man begin to speak so candidly about what happened to him. The next day I checked myself into a behavioral health facility and was admitted to a trauma treatment program. Next week I graduate from that program and I have a completely new lease on my life that I believed was over 12 weeks ago. Thank you Clark for speaking up and telling your story so that I could find my voice too.
Damn Josie. I am beyond honored if I played any role at all in you still being here with us. I love you.
Hope you're doing well ❤
@@clarkfredericks3309 Your bravery saved my life. No doubt. Thank you for everything you do. Sending love ❤️
@@gyinn I am!! Thank you :)
I was raped by a family "friend" when I was 12 yrs old but fortunately it was only once and then he went away. My parents never knew and now they are gone and don't need to feel the pain. I somehow hid the trauma within and just recently came to acceptance and I am okay. I thank you for sharing your story and you are brave to do so. May God Bless you for taking him out so he can no longer harm anyone. I wish I had been as courageous.
So sorry for the hell you had to experience
Hugs.
Love you friend.
You are so brave 🙏🏼
You say you wish you had been as courageous....but you ARE courageous... You've just told the world what happened to you as a child.... I'd say that's a very courageous thing to do your better than the person who did you wrong and you have empathy for others ❤
From one childhood rape survivor to another, I feel so much love and respect for you. Thank you for sharing your story.
I'm honored that you took the time to listen, thank you. So so sorry that you experienced this hell as well. Peace.
@@clarkfredericks3309 your strong and honesty so much more then the situation you were placed in as someone who was taken advantage of its something well never forget
@@robertmatos6049 thank you Robert
you are a Hero -- my Hero movve i Will never do but my abusers deserve,,,, i struggle with the anger, i read meditate found a dieta AND spirit system that works wonders we all know there Is no 100-/, healing when lines like this áre crossed
@Anti-Narc No, we will never heal 100% . But, 93% is doable.
Fact that you got back with your childhood sweetheart put me into tears bro, a 40 year old, miserable lump of a man that's had some of his own struggles through life, in tears, cant remember when that last happened, that part was beautiful. So happy for you
I'm honored that I could make you cry
@clarkfredericks3309 wish you all the best mate, these dark days when it's a struggle to lift a limb are tough, you have all these people on these videos hoping you get through them 🤘
Made me cry with joy that you found her again. You’re truly remarkable. You’ve helped and inspired me with this video. Thank you.
@@clarkfredericks3309you are so brave!
My heart broke wide open when he said, "I wonder where God is?"
This could've been 5 hours longer and I still never would've wanted it to end. Truly a special person with a special gift.
Maybe Mark will have me back
@@clarkfredericks3309 that would be wonderful
I agree....
....to be continued 😁
Agreed!
As a father, this infuriates me. I can’t believe there’s parents out there who can’t pick up on their kids behavioral changes. It’s stories like this as to why I don’t trust anyone besides 4 or 5 people with my boy. No teacher, no friends parents, no priest, no scout leader, no coach, no body at all.
Sure makes me think.🤔
Me too
We choose the life we are to live, we pick our parents we are born into
90% of predators are white heterosexual males, they are also your friends, family or
acquaintance. There’s also a long history of “oh kids lie! They just want attention!” Also a view that kids are inherently bad, so this “bad behavior” is almost expected. Instead of figuring out what message these actions are trying to tell us, we “don’t spoil the child by sparing the rod”. As a survivor I’m glad this is coming to light
A child's coping mechanism is to deny the bad things, in hopes it goes away. Parents try but feel hopeless. Seek help if you know something is not right with your child.
I was sexually and physically abused by my dad for 19 years(1968-1987). It destroyed my life, but six months before he died in August, 2014, I forgave him because I had to try and move beyond all the trauma I'd been through. But, he never apologized to me or admitted to what he'd done. To this day(I'm 54), I still can't be in close physical proximity to another man. It paralyzes me with fear. So, I completely understand this.
I am so sorry for what happened to you… you are strong, even just saying this is very brave. Remember you are safe and nobody will hurt you anymore. Sending you love
I wish I could give you a hug. I know how the world looks like its full of demons when you've been betrayed by someone who was supposed to protect you from them. Who did this to you was a monster disguised in human flesh.
You're a brave man who was generous enough to forgive him and tell your story here. You've my respect, Sir.
I hope you overcome this fear someday and live your life to the fullest. I'm proud of how far you've come.
Lots of love ❤️
I'm really sorry Jimmy 💚 . I was never sexually abused but my own mother would physically and mentally abuse me since young. Started out young where she would make me stay up and than I couldn't get up for school. And than it progressed and its still happening. Recently I called my brother to tell him I have to let my parents go . Its for the best for me. I just can't do it anymore. As sad as it is Jimmy anybody that was supposed to be there for you and wasent same thing , let them go. I hope you can have some sort of recovery . I wish you the best 💚.
Jimmy, I am so sorry for what happened to you.
GOOD LORD!!! YOU WERE The BETTER MAN🙏😞❤I AM SO SORRY for Your SUFFERING and PAIN🙏GOD Bless You Sir❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏❤🙏
Cant believe that essay didn't tip off your teacher.
I went through the heroin ringer, i managed to get clean by the skin of my teeth. Got diagnosed with PTSD, anxiety and depression.
Never told anyone about my abuse (i was 17-18) by a doctor.
This story makes me feel less alone
That’s terrible. Are you a man or woman?
I'm so sorry you were abused by a doctor 😢
Yep the teacher brushed it off, didnt know how to deal with such a thing. Why is it that people hide and ignore sexual abuse, mainly I would say, its easy to do that to a child. Childrens voices need to be heard !!!! Children need the same respect and justice as an adult.
There is no price tag on this interview, or Clark's testimony. I know the time is coming for me to speak up as well. Proctastination, fear, depression, etc. have kept me from stepping up to the plate. Clark, as well as Mark's entire channel, has brought me one step closer. Thank you both. Mark, your channel is priceless.
I'm honored that I'm inspiring you to break your silence. You can't begin healing until you do
@@clarkfredericks3309 amen!
Stay strong A.I. ! I’ll be praying or you.
Say it. Say it loud. As you can see, people will listen.
❤❤❤
“Staying one step ahead of my pain” and “you are only as sick as your secrets” .. wow. Incredible interview.
Thank you Aubrey
Those words really hit me too. What a powerful and inspirational story - and storyteller.
you are only as sick as your secrets has already been said on Oprah like 25 plus years ago.
❤
This is THE MOST INTENSE AND HEALING testimony I've ever had the pleasure of experiencing. For today, I feel less alone, hopeful and clear. Thank you guys from the bottom of my heart.
My pleasure
@@clarkfredericks3309 thank you. Thank you so much. Your testimony is touched me in so many ways! I am a survivor and so is my brother. He reminds me so much of you. 🧡🧡🧡
@@clarkfredericks3309 The mama bear in me wants to jump through the screen and protect you. I’m so glad you are able to share your story and know you are loved and supported by people you’ll probably never even meet. ❤️🙏🏻🌹
@Clark Fredricks I have two young sons, 11 and 17. Hearing your account today has hit me pretty hard. Take care man, and thanks.
We need healing stories like these
Im a 15yo boy and luckily nothing like this ever happend to me but i could never be as strong as you and tell such a story you are an amazing story teller
Thanks brother
@@clarkfredericks3309man you are so unbelievably strong. nothing but love to you.
Dude's a hero. Ate a lot of pain and misery for a lot of years and he's still here today. Tough as nails. Heart wrenching story.
"Show me a Hero and I'll write you a tragedy"
I watched this video this morning not realizing the impact it would have on me. I'm so grateful to Clark for telling his story so I could move through mine. I still mostly have an invisible hand over my mouth, but hearing him say his abuser's name made me feel that today is time to speak mine. I'm tired of being as sick as my secrets. R. Gillespie and M. Frasier. I was a child and what you did took so much of my life away from me.
Bravo, Bravo, Bravo
Wish you the best !!! Thanks for sharing !
Prayers! Bravo 👏 👏 👏 👏 👏 👏
Your very brave and I hope you will find the peace and happiness you deserve. Much love to you
Say their full names.
This channel needs to win an Emmy!
Yes so beautifully done.
Is it acting?
No it's legit interviews with men. And woman on skid row, I haven't seen any in a long time, but just seen this randomly and as usual, it's so well done it's hard to put the phone down. They are heartbreaking stories. @@nildaluzrodriguez
It’s been 38 years since …! and I’ve still not found the courage to speak up. Thankyou Clark for being the voice. This is the most powerful interview I’ve seen on child molestation /rape🙏🏼
I watched a video yesterday. Marilyn Vanberdun (?) Spelling of last may be incorrect. She was Ms America in 1958. I urge all victims to watch her video. Honestly everyone should see it the same as everyone should see Clark's. If we weren't a victim we surely have met many. We can possibly offer help if we're more aware.
🙏🙏🙏
@@numbernine3436 Thankyou, I’ll look it up and watch it.
Denis Pegg chose the wrong little boy to mess with. This man grew up to be a fierce warrior with a sacred purpose.
Let’s not romanticize this shit
@@calicojack5623 That’s not romanticizing “this shit”, that’s acknowledging someone who turned “this shit” around.
@@cmickie3296 understandable
That is a dumb statement. He lost the life he deserved to live because of that pos - there was no purpose of this happening to him and this shouldn't have been his "destiny" - his destiny should have been being happy, maybe with that girl who he said was the love of his life. That animal robbed him forever.
@@calicojack5623 bruh did you really just fucking say she was romanticizing it wtf is wrong with you
His story is so very similar to my husband’s. Unfortunately my husband was in a great deal of denial and self hatred that he never got help. He spent most of his life struggling with his addictions and in prison. We were married for 3 years before he passed away from overdose at the young age of 35. Clark, thank you for sharing your story. It will help more people, especially men, than any of us can imagine. I’m rooting for you. Take care of yourself.
My dad died of alcoholic myocarditis a couple weeks ago after a long and horrific battle with chronic alcoholism. He was raped at age 16 by a family friend. He never told anyone for 40 years. As someone who was groomed and sexually abused in my early 20s by a superior at work early in my career, I can not even begin to imagine the pain of keeping a secret like that for 40 years. Rest in peace Dad. :'(
@@serenaw7727 ♥️
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I’m so sorry Amy
I am sorry for your loss. Stay Strong 🙌
Rehab said “everyone stand who’s been raped or molested”. 24 people stood. 3 of us sat. I was shocked. 1 was an NBA player. It’s shocking.
The reality is absolutely staggering. If people learned more the world would be a kinder place. Some of us were literally tortured and it affects how we see and interact w the world. We don’t want to be broken, we never wanted to be sexually abused or raped as children, but the reality is that we were. I hope people can learn and have empathy. Most addicts were abused as children. Close to 90%. That should be eye opening for people and shocking enough to spread awareness as well as lobby for harsher sentences because the system is a joke and lets these weirdos out to reoffend which is vile and truthfully unacceptable
Someone I've known for 20 years confessed a childhood experience. I had no idea. They asked if anything like that had happened to me, and I said no, never. They were incredulous, and kept asking. I think people have to normalize/rationalize it to make it through 💔 It is so common. I hate that society pretends to protect children while failing in the most important and predictable ways. Epstein don't kill himself
It’s a silent epidemic. It’s way more common than people think. People who haven’t been abused don’t see the signs and red flags like us victims do, so even when you try and point them out, they dismiss you as being paranoid
I immediately felt his pain when he was talking about him beating the dog...my chest got tight and I could feel his anguish. I rescue great danes and horses and I feel like I would have felt and thought just like him in that moment. So very traumatizing, even more so than the rape, says alot of his innocence and childlike love and care for animals, one that was howling for his pain he suffered. Wow, I needed to write to this. You just remember your innocence was there and your love is still there. So sorry you went through ALL of this, but your story is profoundly impactful. Thank you.
I felt the same. And the fact that he had just endured the absolute worst of humanity but was more worried about the dog, and that he was the cause of the dog's anguish, to me says that Clark is the literal opposite of his abuser. He is the absolute best of humanity.
Also he told his story with such depth and candor.
I too am a victim and man did he just give me HOPE TO HEAL.. GOD BLESS YOU CLARK AND THANK YOU. thank you Mark as well
Let's do it Angela
@@clarkfredericks3309 ....sorry to hear what happened to you man. your story left me speechless.
@@clarkfredericks3309 I'm from Jersey finally a story from our state
I literally took out a mini white board and started writing positive reminders for myself while I listened… haven’t done that in years - he’s inspiring
what can I say- I’m a 63 y/o woman who was molested at 5 ( more than once) and physically abused throughout childhood and have lived a self deprecating life since. A constant battle of drugs, alcohol, non-commital sexual relationships, intimacy problems, seeking abusive men, addictions. It reads like a “how to” list. I hung onto very word that literally describes my own life. I also gave my life to God at 47 and He has become my source for life and healing. Thank you Mark for this interview.
God bless you Barbara, thank you for sharing 🙏🏼
Me too.
If not for the Lord, I wouldn't be here now. Bless you and praise Jesus.
((Hugs))
me too
This is THE most intense interview I've ever heard in my entire life.
An equally intense life
Like wise
The telling of this story is the bravest thing I've ever seen a man do ❤
Thank you for that. I hope it gives strength to others to speak up
@clarkfredericks3309 Thank you, for sharing your story man. Keep healing, I know I will. ✊️
@@lildurpy awesome brother
@lildurpy let's do it
He described being sexually abused so vividly and accurately I had trouble breathing while listening. I had to take a moment, take a breather and comment. The feeling of being utterly and completely frozen when it happens. Like you can’t breathe, and like you are the only person in the world. It does something to your brain. To your soul. You do wonder where God was. My own father and my uncle repeatedly molested me and I too was told to keep it a secret. I did keep it a secret when I was still a kid, but after I moved out… fuck secrets. I confronted both of them. My alcoholic father added insult to injury and was so disgusted that I brought it up. He’s disgusted? 🤯
My uncle is currently in prison as he molested other girls in the family- even his granddaughter.
This man from Stillwater, NJ made me feel less alone today. Signed, the woman from Hawthorne, NJ
Aw Christine, I’m so sorry. 😞
Woman from Hawthorne, NJ,
this woman in Nashville Tennessee wants to cry for you. I feel a little better knowing you don't feel alone this morning because of Clark's bravery.
Thinking of you and all the other survivors of rape this morning.
Xoxo Kim
❤️❤️❤️ proud of you for speaking up 😘😘😘
Thank you for your kindness, but I don’t want to make this about me. Listening to Clark…so much of it is insanely relatable. That’s the only thing I want to make about me- is that I am also fluent in speaking the language of trauma. The shame, the rage, the lack of coping skills, the inability to connect emotionally…the failed attempts to escape into different addictions…the indescribable bouts of depression…the occasional feeling of longing for it all to be over…
I’m so honored that he shared his story and I am even more thrilled about where he stands today. Thank you again for your kind words and I’m also proud to finally be sober! ❤️🩹
God bless you 💜💪
This guy is a hero for all of humanity
Thanks Mike
Like a fairytale with a happy ending
@@ScenekidzrockXD Amen to that
Amen
Yep. LEGEND.
I’m speechless, that was probably the best interview off all time. Mark just let you speak the whole time, he didn’t have to ask anything to keep you going. Clark, I’m proud of you. You’re such an inspiration to so many. God bless you!
Mark would never interupt, Clark telling his life story
@Emily Hinkley Watch more of these videos. They have at least a few where Mark doesn't speak at all. This one and Mike Dowd are public speakers, but not all of them are.
@Emily Hinkley your og comment makes it sound like Marc didn't have to ask questions because the guys a professional speaker, which isn't the case, because Mark has plenty of videos where he doesn't ask questions. Sherlock.
@Emily Hinkley Are you sure? Ok...I'll go work on that. 🙄
Listening to this at work and just cried at my desk for you and that poor dog.
The dog completely felt the pain
I am in my 60th year in this wicked world. I was 5 years old when I was brutally raped. There are several parallels between my experience and yours. Your story has shaken me to my very core and brought tears to my eyes. I'm kinda shook right now. Thank you for sharing your story. In a way I don't understand I think it has helped me somehow. I know how you feel and you know how I feel.
My fondest wish is for your complete healing from trauma. May you be blessed.
Love and light to you ❤
You are Somebody!!!
I did EMDR therapy after I endured abuse like Clark did. It was very helpful to unlock the deep trauma I was holding on to !
No one should ever go threw anything of the sort , it’s never a victims fault . Be the best person you can be , be proud and love yourself ✌️ people care ❤
i thought this was going to be back round noise while i played tetris online. boy was i wrong. while the subject matter is extremely tough to get through, i found myself fighting back tears several times, these things need to be said and shared. what Clark is doing here is helping people who have suffered childhood abuse began a path of healing by sharing his traumatic story. Clark, i commend you. i am in awe of your courage. well done
Rob,
Thanks bro, you nailed it in the head. Our shame keeps us paralyzed and a hostage to the pain we experienced. I wanted to be vulnerable to help others break out of their isolation and torment. Thank you for acknowledging that.
@@clarkfredericks3309 love and healing to you my brother
@@clarkfredericks3309 your story touched the deepest parts of my soul and awakened something inside of me. I don’t know what exactly that is but I am extremely grateful you’ve invited the world to see you and hear your story. Thank you Clark.
@Tee Kay Messages like yours make it all worthwhile. All I can think to say is Thank you.
@@clarkfredericks3309 couldn’t ask for anything more 🙏🏼
This man is an amazing story teller. I just wish his story didn't involve such horrific events in his life. I'm grateful he has the courage to share his experience. I hope men and women who have experienced sexual abuse will seek to heal their broken hearts through therapy.
Sometimes it's not that simple to get into therapy 😕
@@jen-ms4xo I know, hopefully they will find healing in someway. Therapy is expensive and is difficult unfortunately.
@@jen-ms4xo I agree....also I'm on my 7th therapist in a 18 year spanf and still haven't found one that has helped...plus one ended up causing more trauma by crossing the line in my vulnerability and sexualized me so more trauma and will never see a male therapist again.. that was almost more damage cause I don't trust therapist now also...
Going to therapy has been the hardest part for me :(
@@firearmretreat keep trying until the therapist is right one.
This is deep. This man is so strong
ive watched soft white underbelly for years, literally hundreds of hours of interviews, and this is the most impactful one bar none. to be able to share a story like that with so much emotion and honesty inspires me to keep going. thank you clark for sharing, and thank you mark for getting this to us.
My pleasure Maddox, I'm honored that you were so moved
@@clarkfredericks3309 This is hands down the most impactful interview I have seen in the past 10 years! And I am really into biographies and interviews! God bless you in your endeavors of reaching victims!
It's too bad we can't dig up Mr. Pegg and kill him again, and again, and again... for Clark, for the dog, for all his victims. How can someone be so fking EVIL?? 😡
@@clarkfredericks3309 Our family dog is half Coonhound, half Boxer. He's lying here on the bed w me as I listen to this.💔💔💔
I want Mr. Pegg to come back to life so I can kill him myself.😡
@@Mo_Ketchups I try to do the right thing brother
I literally cried!!! The way that he was telling his story, his face expression, his voice, the pain, the anger, the sorrow!!!! God please help this man to overcome this tragedy& trauma🙏🏻
Thank you Eva
Anyone here still think drag queen story hour is a good idea.? This is what happens when adults DON"T protect children. And the predators know when children are unprotected. Where's God? Wrong question. Where are the grown ups? Where are the adults? Where is society? Down at the library..? Yeah right...Where is God indeed.?
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He has done what most victims dream off. The rage and the pain is still there no matter how many years pass. I could resonate so much to his emotions. It has been 19 years but till this day I still struggle despite therapy, it destroys you.
Tell me about it the trauma has stayed with me my whole life I'll be on psychotropic meds for the test of my life
Yes honey, you're right. It's been 49 years and I still am sad, angry. Sending you love from Oklahoma ❤️
I am very sorry, Fatima.
I too was abused, but what has helped me, is to understand that it is mostly a cycle. I am in no way excusing the abuser!! I am just saying that if you can picture the person(s) who abused you in the same position as you were in, it might give you more understanding of how it could happen. It actually can give you a way to heal.
I'm a survivor of molestation. I've wanted to say the same to my abuser!!
Yes, yes, yes! It’s been 33 yrs for me. Know that you’re not alone. My heart goes out to you
This is the most amazing crazy disgusting sad story I’ve ever heard. This guy really knows how to express his feelings and explain a story.
As a sexual abuse victim myself, I felt Clark's anger and pain. No one but my wife knows the abuse I endured. He is a cousin of mine and I don't know how I would react if I saw him today. His sexual abuse on top of the physical and emotional abuse I endured from my stepdad I believe is the reason why I have zero self esteem. I have lived my entire life doubting the man I am. Thank you Clark for sharing your story.
I used recklessness disguised as fearlessness because I suffered from low self esteem as well. As healing develops and progresses your self esteem will improve as well.
If I can do it Mike, so can you.
Keep putting one foot in front of the other, Mike! I wish you all the best!
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Dear Mike, I'm sorry for what happened to you and I care about you. Do not believe the story that you and others try to fit you in. The truth is that Mike doesn't even exist. You are not who you were years ago and you don't have to be who you are now tomorrow. You are shapeless and limitless and we all love you. Please continue on your journey with pride in what you've managed to live through and know that you're not alone.
Your trauma was not in vain. You are helping people. Thank you for your sacrifice.
Thanks Lindsey. I didn't want to go through all that I have and not use it to help others
@@clarkfredericks3309you are so strong clark, your story has empowered over me & my trauma, you don’t realize how many lives you have saved, your courage will never go unrecognized & i wish you the overall best!!
@@clarkfredericks3309 Of course, my condolences! I hope everything works out for you & i do wish you feel better, your brother must’ve been as great as a guy as you are! :)
@@clarkfredericks3309dude you have saved the lives of THOUSANDS of young kids, just think about it, your testimony has helped thousands of parents pay more attention to their children, you are doing God’s work
@@clarkfredericks3309 dear Clark i bow to you for your bravery. Please watch nde testimonies if you didn't yet. There are thousands of them the majority is authentic. You will understand why you had to go through this. God bless you ❤🙏
I’m in therapy for a number of reasons . Sexual abuse is one of those reasons. Been going for 3 years and still haven’t found the courage to say it out loud. I thank you sir. This will help me
Sending you hugs. It's going to be okay. You're going to be okay. I'm sorry you had to go through that but I'm with you ❤
I’m so sorry you had to go through this. Unfortunately, I can relate. I’m glad you’re getting help. I can say from experience that speaking your experience to a caring professional can be liberating and healing. It took me years to do so but when I did it was like a load off my back. I’m now comfortable with it, more or less. Just remember that what you say is not a confession because you did nothing wrong. It reflects negatively on your abuser, not you. I say this as a middle aged man who works in construction and hunts; being a strong, tough man does not mean you have to keep this stuff in, that going to therapy is weakness. Remember to be gentle with yourself and that what you’re doing now is a massing sign of your strength and courage.
I read most of the comments to this video, I’ve dealt with my own trauma but never sexual abuse I have very close friends I grew up with who experienced sexual abuse by a relative I can’t begin to tell you how deep that trauma effected them and when I say how deep I mean their entire life it’s had an effect on, my heart has always hurt for them. You are not alone you have a voice when you feel strong enough for the world to hear your voice or not the world and if u rather vent in a journal to tell your story however you feel comfortable venting or speaking your truth your story what you’ve been through you are loved u did nothing to deserve that it’s not love it’s pain it’s hurt it’s abuse you are not alone in this world many of us feel your pain and are here for you ❤❤ blessings peace and love
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Being vulnerable is truly a gift of the Spirit. Time to accept being open about your story. Maybe let it out on this platform. You know we'll love and support you either way.
The YEARS of grooming this predator put in is crazy. Your story is prompting me to have even more talks with my kids❤ Thankful for you
Teach them that never ever ever should an adult ask a child to keep a secret
Never let your kids be ALONE with any adult. Most abusers are trusted, loved, respected by the family. Never leave them alone, not even for a minute. That cool uncle, great coach, youth pastor, babysitter, overnight at a friend's house? NO. ⚠️
-worked in a Sezual Assault Program for 7 years
@@a.w.3772 100% true
This interview left me speechless, the guy seems so kind & friendly given his horrific experience. God bless him.
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This happens when parents have friends and don't explain things to children, because my dad had a lot of friends but never took none home and told us that if anyone tried something he'd kill them like a dog, and at 8 -9 he also gave me means of protection and he taught us to not trust anyone period. No one., at 12 I was already carrying my dad's 38.. and everyone knew.
@@karlwalter2242 good father he was 🙏🏾
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I had the same kind of Dad! (RlP💜) My Bestie! The .38 he gave me on my 16th bday was a S&W police special. He kept it in his locked gun cabinet. He told my sister and l the same thing -- no one had better touch my daughters...or else.
Dear Clark, I was molested by two half brothers, for quite a few years. I was the object of their depravity as they conjured up perverted acts on me. I have stuffed for years years and years. As you shared your experience with the POS in your life I was bombarded with memories. I am unable to finish right now but want you to know how grateful I am for your compelling honesty and memories.
Thank you so much. I shall. @@clarkfredericks3309
Sending prayers for your healing. It's good that you shared. It's a step in the right direction. Things that have helped me are Richard Grannon's Emotional Flashback Worksheet and Rewind Therapy by the Human Givens Institute (I was able to use it myself). Just talking about things was retraumatizing, so I think learning to let emotion pass and to calm the body is so important to getting stronger. I have had some common sense counselors that helped me unravel the gaslighting. You'll learn who your people are. And just take the best care of yourself that you can. You are deserving. 🙏
This interview was so brave of him to do. also, his details help to pinpoint specific behaviors abusers do and tactics they use to prey on children which can be really helpful for parents and guardians to look out for.
Yes I deed Sara. I want people to look deeper at the story, there is so much to learn about human behavior
It was horrifying that the story he wrote at school wasnt picked up on. It truly sent shivers through me.
This channel helps so much for men with sexual trauma to watch other men talk about their struggles so they realize they are not alone . Thank you Mark.
after binging about half a dozen of these interviews, and after many shocking emotional moments, i now know firmly we must do everything we can to protect children
Exactly. 100%
You just figured this out after a dozen interviews ?
But how? This crime is so prevalent in our society. Everyone it touches hides it in shame-perpetrators, community leaders, even the victims and their family members. How do we stop it when no one wants to speak and break the chain? Clark is doing good work but the magnitude of the problem makes it feel so overwhelming and the work so miniscule.
The sad thing is that people twist what this means for their own sick agenda.
Keep speaking out everywhere and anywhere. Keep talking. They hide in our silence.
I am 64 and that was the powerful interview I have ever listened too and his life story will some day be a movie that will heal millions of abuse survivors
Yes Jim. Any success I have simply means that I am able to reach more people
@@clarkfredericks3309 you are so strong man .
Damn, this has to be the most powerful story I have ever heard. You sir are an actual modern day hero.
Being a victim of SA this helped me heal
I love hearing that
This is by far the most riveting and heart wrenching of stories. This man was forced to right an evil done to him and many other boys. Bless him and all those who suffer at the hands of evil men and women. It’s a miracle he’s alive. I’m truly moved.
Right on Si
Yes it's a miracle we are alive, and I am grateful to be alive. 3hat I wish someone would have e told me was that I did not have to identify with what happened to me. Finding out that my identity was so much more then the abuse I suffered or mistakes I made is what brought me back from hell.on earth into heaven on earth. I hope he knows this now too, that he is way more then just a survivor. 🙂💕💨
@Clarry who even implied a competition??? I don't see that anywhere here
@Clarry I don't think that comment was. Consparing but if it was not my place to tell them what to do.
@Clarry She meant comparing. It's obviously a typo
Hi Clark. I too was molested as a child for three years by my mother's second husband, he did it to my older sister as well. His name is Douglas Santos; he was a photo developer at Paramount Pictures in the early 2000s. I know what it's like to deal with a respected predator. I am 23 now. You're amazing, and I admire your strength. I wish you peace and healing always. Soo happy to hear about the reunion with your college sweetheart 🥺❤❤
thank you for sharing your story
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Did you ever report him?
I am so sorry this happened to you and your sister too.
It made me cry such happy tears when him and his college sweetheart reconnected and fell back in love after all this time. The whole thing feels like a big circle of despair, anger, hope, and rebirth.
It's amazing that after 30 years I still desired to reach out to her and she was accepting when I did. She always felt that she would hear from me again.
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@@clarkfredericks3309 BRO., I am so happy for you. Glad to hear that you are going through a HEALING Process. God is not finished with you yet!!!
@elijah8466 Amen to that. And helping others do the same really progresses your own healing.
Clark Fredericks......I am glad you decided to LIVE, heal and survive in this horrible journey in the first part of your life.
You are a warrior with strength and courage. My heart goes out to you.....the little boy who was violated and the young man who suffered.
Thank you for sharing your story with all of us and being an Advocate for survivors of sexual abuse. I'm happy you met your college Sweetheart and found LOVE again for each other and for yourself.
I sit hear with tears of sadness and grief for the loss of our innocence but proud we are strong warriors and survivors.
I wish you and your family many blessings of Peace and Love ❤️ always.
Almost puts tears in my eyes. I ran up on my SA abuser when i was 18. Was high af on meth and had tripped out at a buddies house down the road. Left with buddies phone and tried to call someone noone answerd so i set it down in the middle of the road for my buddy to find. I slept in a random shed in someones front yard. Next day i ran up to my abuser house i remembered where he lived from when i was 8. And he was also my grandfather.
Sending you love.
I'm so sorry you endured this trauma from someone who was supposed to love you. You are BELIEVED. And it was NEVER YOUR FAULT. EVER. ❤
Im so sorry that happened to you. I pray you are healing 🙏🏻 ❤️ you are seen
Wow. What a powerful testimony. I also was a victim of sexual abuse. I was so depressed and self destructive. God healed and delivered me. I’m sober, at peace and love to help others. Thank you so much for sharing your story. You are strong, brave and a warrior for the kingdom . God bless you. 🙌🏾🙌🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
I am too a survivor. I'm sober instead of meds given by Dr. Which is Prozac and Valium sleeping meds. But I don't think anyone gets over it all the way. It changes how you are as a person. You can live with having been through it but it does change you.
I just have to say how much I appreciate this channel.
Every. Day.
I can only imagine how many children this man has helped. #1 interview on TH-cam
Going through DV and nobody knowing the paralysis you go through and how the system itself tries to overpower you, never feeling like you can trust anyone and always feeling alone in the universe - this interview just doubled the population in my world. That sentence is so freeing - we are only as sick as our secrets. And what was a survival mechanism becomes a coping mechanism becomes a crutch until you cant differentiate yourself and your personality from your pain and avoidance, and then you collapse and the cycle begins again. Watching this interview was so inspiring -- it shows that we can come to terms with whatever we've experienced and that the dark entities that haunt us can be dispelled with our truth. Thank you for baring your scars so that we may have the courage to do the same!
I have never been so mesmerized as I was, while watching you Clark. I will agree, that this is the best interview that Mark has done. All I can say is that I truly pray, that the rest of your life is full of love and laughter. I am a few years younger than you, but I am looking at you through a mother’s eyes. I wish I could hug the pain away from the little boy, that I see. Love from Canada.
Thank you for watching and for your kind words.
God be with you Clark. Thank you for telling your unbelievable story.
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This was a hard story to listen to but very inspiring about how you overcame such adversity. I’m so sorry you felt you had to keep it in so long but I’m glad you are enjoying a clean, happy, positive life. When you said you had coffee with that girl and fell back in love, I burst into tears of happiness. You deserve to have a happy life. ❤️
@emilykepler3761 thank you Emily
I keep thinking these testimonials can't get any better....And here you go again!! I was CAPTIVATED!!! What an incredible incredible story!
Here here!
Me too
God Bless 🙏💒❤️🇺🇲
My young cat started watching/listening to you somewhere midway through just staring at my phone on the bed as I watched/listened. Mesmerized the cat laid with paws tucked under her chest staring at you then after some time laid her head on the phone listening as if she felt your pain and offering her compassion. Amazing. 🏆
Leah,the your cat was probably listening to his mesmerizing voice it got me. The pain Clark went threw is gut wrenching. Have a good day enjoy your 🐱
@Leesh,
Ty for sharing that. Cats are amazing, l love them dearly. They are so tuned in to their owner. Your cat probably picked up on your vibes and how attentive you were to the video.
As someone who’s who’s fiancé went through similar. The abuse, the drugs, the hate. I watch this video every time I feel angry or saddened by it. I’m so happy you were able to overcome these horrible experiences same as my fiancé. Sending so much love and healing Clark, every victim of abuse deserves that chance.
Thank you Ethan
It happened to me at 3.
You never get over it!
The dog was an angel killed by the devil. I went down many dark roads in my life but I do believe in God and the power of redemption. I've been scapegoated by my family because I wouldn't keep quiet. Became a stripper because I hated my body. I was angry and used drugs, alcohol and sex to numb the pain.
My angel came through my son and I learnt through being a mother, that the power of love heals the pain and brings light into your situation.. I believe in heaven and hell.
I believe you reap what you sew in this life or the next.
As on earth as in heaven.
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For anyone thinking of suicide look at this man. His life seemed over and in complete shambles but little did he know that his life was about to begin on the journey of healing and really take off in a whole new trajectory that would positively impact the lives of others. Don’t give up.
Let's be honest here. You think that if one of the homeless people we see here everyday went back and killed their abuser with no confrontation they would get 5 years and a motivational speaking contract at the end of their sentence?
I'm not condemning what he's done, what I'm saying is that these kinds of stories rarely turn out this way. It doesn't give me hope because I'm aware of what an exception all of this is.
I wanna die 💔
@@KevinRodriguez-fg6dn why? I will listen.
He's stronger than most. It just seems not everyone has that in them.
@@KevinRodriguez-fg6dn please don't. You're needed and valued.
If you ever get the chance to see Clark's presentation, please do yourself a favor and don't miss it. It's the most powerful testimonial I've ever seen. His dedication to selflessly helping others is nothing short of amazing. Love literally drips off this man and I'm proud to call him my friend.
Joe, thank you brother.
@@clarkfredericks3309 watching this has just switched a light on inside of me. I finally understand myself…from 6 years old. Now I’m 59 and finally understand…
@@jojandy1963 I am beyond thrilled to hear that. I'm 57, and feel like life is just starting. It's never too late to heal and it's never too late to take your life in a new direction.
@@clarkfredericks3309 Clark, I'm also a survivor of brutal childhood sexual abuse and torture and I've felt a longing for years to find a way to tell my story and help others find a path to redemption. I'd really like to connect with you and absorb any guidance you could offer me.
@@clintwood9472 Clint, just saw thus. Reach out privately on Instagram or ny website
I was sitting at the edge of my chair feeling every word Clark spoke during the whole interview. His words spoke to my heart. Bravo to this man for being such an inspirational human being; Because greatness is about how positively we impact other, and this man for sure does it masterfully. Just amazing!
I have ADHD and Clark's story had me captivated from start to finish! My attention didn't waiver, not even once, which is very rare over an 1hr+ video! A terrible story beautifully told! Absolutely outstanding!
I have never been diagnosed with ADHD, but I too have a short attention span. Watched this whole thing and found myself asking if there’s actually a part 2! I am so happy he finally was able to regain everything that was robbed of him at a young, sweet tender age. I wanted to hug him so tight🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
@@MaryMary-sn7hh You have a wonderful, tender, caring heart. Never change that about yourself.
same!!!
I have 3 small children. Watching these videos helps me to be aware of people and makes me more cautious of who I allow around my kids. I’m sorry this happened to you 😔
Tell your children that never ever ever should an adult ask a child to keep a secret
Be cautious of the signs of childhood trauma when they are growing up, too. I ruined my life because no one from my family did, and just thought I'm a bad apple. Doesn't have to be sexual abuse, there's alot that can really fuck up a kid out there.
Thats why I watch as well. Many of these stories follow similar scripts. I am learning what to watch out for. I think all the men in our society are really messed up from the violent prn industry and the circumcism (which I see as satanic ritual abuse of the male infant). Throw in the drugs and you have got yourself a real dangerous mess.
I have these conversations with my niece 11 and nephew 8 who I care for. I run through different scenarios and what grooming looks like. We discuss the various types of people that can do these things. We talk about not being desperate for anything like gaming, food, freedom, activities, attention, affection. We talk about how I am always on their side and how they may lie to them that they'll hurt, kill or it'll bring shame. We talk about the effects of abuse and how people may view them as disadvantaged children and use it against them. We talk about how they are never to be alone with their trainers and have secret conversations. Also that they are not allowed to do these types of things as it can be life changing and destroying. We also discuss social media, phones, mental illness, drugs and alcohol, God, cults, homelessness, prison, etc I don't know where they will go in life, it's something I can't determine but I want them to be aware and open with me. I'm not sure if I'm right doing this as it's kind of dark but as a kid my mum spoke to me about life, people and situations that stayed me and has kept me somewhat safe. My sister lived those crucial years with my dad who never spoke wisdom to her and she was felt she was stupid even though she's intelligent. I've been having these conversations with them for almost 5years. Even when my nephew was 3. At 5 his big cousin who was 10 did stuff with him and he was able to tell me. It's was all very emotional for all of us and we spent lots of time talking it through. We took it to my other nephews mum and she was so angry at her son but I was more concerned with why and if someone had done it to him. We put it all in the open and even made family aware of it so it wasn't some secret and my nephew's was given comfort and encouragement. He also had a friend who was curious and was learning things maybe from his dad and my boy stayed there a couple of nights (not anymore) there was another little boy who would stay there as their mothers were friends. My nephew said that he was worried about the younger boy staying there and that I should let the mom know he might not be safe because the friend is a bit weird. I let the kids mother know what my nephew had said. My take is that the darkness won't take my kids by surprise and they recognise this stuff as evil and hopefully be brave and they'll bring anything to the light. Sorry this is long.
I can't really find the words to express how much respect I have for this man. Over time I bet this video is going to help hundreds of thousands, maybe millions of moms, kids and survivors. Men telling their stories of abuse is some of the most important social work happening in society today. All the best to you warrior, you're doing incredible work here.
I've never been so drawn into an interview. I hope this helps so many others speak up, or see signs they wouldn't normally see. I just know this will change lives. I hope you have a great life now sir, i really truly do
I laughed at grown men who cried. But this hit me so personally, I'm in tears. I want so bad to rid myself of my hurt and start healing. I just don't know where to start. Who do I break my silence to? I don't want to have to go to prison or anything tragic like that in order to find strength. I'm just venting. Great interview and I will read/listen to his books.
PRAY to God. daily,, and ask him to led you and guide you on your journey.as to where to start, and who to break your silence to.. Then , THANK Him for these blessing that are on their way . BELIEVE IT TO BE TRUE by THANKING GOD in ADVACE for healing you., even before you are actually healed. because this shows him you have Faith in him to do these things that you ask of him. YOU MUST BELIEVE!!! Believe that God has already heard yours Prayers, and now BLESSINGS are on the way to you! This is having FAITH In GOD. Remember ,,,, GOD WORKS THRUGH FAITH..
I want so badly to hold you and protect the helpless little boy in you. I’m so sorry someone hurt you and damaged your soul. Please seek out a therapist or a group and talk about what happened. Just like this man, you can heal too. I wish you so much love and light and care. 💕💕💕💕
Sending you love and strength. Remember that being silent only allows predators to continue abusing vulnerable children. You deserve to tell your story and you deserve to have closure and healing. I hope you find a way to get through this pain and to heal your heart. ❤️
It feels so whack having to go to therapy to find someone to listen, but it can be so helpful. If you find a therapist who accepts sliding scale payments then you could afford it perhaps
Hey Kris, I’ve read your comment and I can feel your pain. No one should have to remain silent and I’m a strong advocate for giving those without one a voice, to be heard and respected. I’ve been through a traumatic life, and through all of those years I too didn’t have a voice, the demons were invisible to everyone around me, but they were there in my head everyday, screaming, I couldn’t get them to stop! The thing about silence when you suffer, is that the silence becomes your worst enemy, it deafens you, it eats at you, it feeds on your fear..
I can’t say I’ve ever found peace, but I sure as hell have found a voice, and I’m using it not just for myself but for everyone who dreads the minute that you have to be alone in with your thoughts, when you have to do absolutely anything to stay distracted, it’s hard to sleep, it’s hard to concentrate, you always have to be on the go, unless you give up and resign yourself to a life of misery! We can’t do that, we need to use our distractions to do something positive, and the first step is breaking that silence before it breaks you!
Please Kris I will leave you my email address, and if you contact me I can give you my number and we can have a chat, it might be easier to open up to a stranger, to someone who will pass no judgment, won’t give unwanted advice, just someone to listen, to truly hear you.. I can and want to do that for you! Helping others helps me to heal too, I know I’m no longer alone.
Kris here’s my email address, I’ll keep checking it in the hopes that you message me with your story:
maymacbellyoutube@outlook.com
Sending so much love 💕
This story is both horrific and remarkable. I just have profound admiration for this man. I've got no more words to describe my feelings.
Those words do just fine by me
I've been trying to write a comment to describe how I feel, and yours was perfect.
@@Ejy64 thanks Sharon
Here I am... Been watching since 530 am.... Listening to this man's story... A grown man with tears rolling down my eyes
Heroic story.... We must bring awareness to the demons and monsters around us. Protect our children at all cost.... Thank you for you story!
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We are only as sick as our secrets… thank you so much, Clark & God bless you as you give other SA survivors, including myself, the guts to speak out & the chance to turn our entire lives around, not just for the better of ourselves, but others who are doing all they can to just keep their heads above water. Thank you for the life altering hope you have just offered to all of us that life truly can have so much more meaning, in spite of the trauma we endured.
Best interview ever, Mark. I love both of you guys’ hearts.