I'm late diagnosed autistic. I highly suspect I'm adhd as well because my attention is just a mess and always has been. I lose my phone multiple times a day, etc. I struggle with organizing anything
I was also diagnosed at age 42, during a period of divorce and unemployment. 49 now. I was heavily in special ed and gifted class, and heavily tested and of course never got diagnosed. I was out of school before they even translated Asperger from the German, 1992. Great channel, I love these channels.
I hope I get to the diagnosis queue soon. I'm being assessed for therapy right now and year ago I realized I have adhd brain and in January I realized I'm autistic as well. I've been crying my eyes out after both realizations. It only took 41 years for me to trying to find what's wrong with me to realize there's nothing wrong with me. The world is wrong for me and should be changed to accommodate neurodivergent better.
@@HigoIndico You are already on a healing journey to see that there is nothing wrong with you and everything wrong with society. I totally understand, I've cried more in the last several months than I have in years. You are not alone.
My speech is a lot worse than you and I thought I had early dementia. I spoke to my doctor and he put me through a bunch of tests to see if I had some memory and speech issues. I was referred to the psychiatrist who diagnosed me at 38 with Autism on the spectrum, adhd, auditory processing disorder and a few other mental health disorders. There are some times where I can act like a child like actually speak and be very childish especially when I'm around people I don't know. Your other video before this one hit home very well. All the things you were trying to explain is me but worse what I feel like. I tried to explain this to my mother and brother, but they kept saying it's just adhd, but they don't know what's going on in my head and I've been putting on a false mask for so long they just think there's a few screws missing if you know what I mean.
I've noticed that my autistic traits change from day to day depending on how stressed I am. Some days if I'm Burnout my speech isn't good enough to even make a video, some days I speak "normally" some days I'm overstimulated and talk really fast, a bit too hyped. It's definitely a range and any one day can be a different experience. ❤️
I got diagnosed at 58. I always felt like I had a dirty secret, and I didn't even know what it was. Learning I was Autistic made all the pieces fall into place.
What you mentioned about autistic conversational styles really hit home for me! wowzuh, I've been trying to put to words why I feel so awkward with people at work but so normal with my friends (who are all neurodivergent in some way (we accidentally-on-purpose self-sorted/found each other through-out life)), and the trading back and forth personal experiences as a way of showing empathy is a key part of why I think my conversations with NT people feel so off, because they don't reciprocate that process but allll my ND friends predominately communicate with this strategy. Thank you for that lovely epiphany!
I understand how it feels ,even though I’m male I wasn’t diagnosed until I was 52,now I understand what my brain was fighting against my whole life.We are unique,we are special and we should be content with that.❤️❤️❤️❤️🤟
I've suspected, especially after my son was born with autism, that I have some kind of developmental thing or autism going on with me too. I'm 54 and I don't feel the need to be officially diagnosed, but just listening to your vlogs it sounds just like you're describing how I've always been. I'd say the things I'm particularly good at was figuring out how to run my own business without any previous experience or schooling on that. And now I'm homeschooling my autistic son and deciding all the curriculum for that without any previous experience. But I'm more and more convinced every day that I do have this. That explains a lot about my childhood experiences too.
Autistic people can really excel at many things, especially when expectations from society aren't put on us. I don't remember if I mentioned it in this video but I homeschooled my autistic twins (pre-diagnosis for all of us!) from prek-8th grade. They now attend an online school.
I was reading before the age of 3 and, when I got into the school system, was given the ‘Gifted’ label. I’m not going to self-diagnose but I relate to so much of what you discuss. As someone who deals with Time Blindness, dyscalculia, and ADHD, being ‘gifted’ made life more difficult. I never “lived up to my potential because I didn’t apply myself.” Thank you for sharing. I appreciate your content.
A lot of "gifted" people crash after school because they are underdiagnosed neurodivergent and school gives structure. After school with structure gone it's a lot of floundering. I used to remember thinking how did people know what to do after college? "Get a job" is WAY too open ended of a statement for me to follow. Lots of executive functioning needs to happen in that statement!
I understand and relate to what you are saying so much! I also wasn’t identifying until 42 either, hypermedia but also still nonverbal in certain situations too. I was in the gifted program in school, written 2 books, and will write people books in text. Yet, I’m bad in conversations. lol. I also relate to people with personal stories and can come off as self-absorbed. 😫. It’s too hard to keep up with all the unspoken “rules” of socialization. I’m glad I found your channel. 🥰
Oh yes, the super long texts or for me Facebook posts just to try to ask a question. But I've got to give all the context. Then the question gets lost. I keep seeing more and more adults who were in the gifted programs at school are actually autistic. I actually got invited to be in the accelerated classes (what my school called them) but I turned it down. Thank goodness my mom let me! I COULD do the work, but not at the pace that the accelerated program taught. Speed does not equal intelligence!
So many autocorrects! I’m so sorry! I was in a rush, but wanted to get it out while it was on my mind. Hypermedia=hyperlexic not even sure what hypermedia is. Lol The worst part about the gifted class, is that l felt like the dumbest person there. lol And yes, I give FULL context. Most want us to just get to to point already, but I can’t make a decision without all the info so I’m just trying to “help”. lol It feels good to see others who do think like me though. Again, thank you for sharing. You are helping people. ❤️
@@TheAwakenedJenn I kinda thought you meant hyperlexic. I'm pretty good at decifering most autocorrects. I've noticed that there are two autistic types. Those of us who reread AFTER we hit publish and those that reread a text 10x before sending. I'm the first. I talk off the cuff and just go with my first instinct in most cases (I think that's my ADHD compensating for my autistic tendency.)
I am so thankful for you making those videos and youtube recommending them to me! I didnt know all those things are signs of autism! over 10 years ago I got into high sensitivity and giftedness, which made so much sense at the time. I always suspected autism in one way or another. it’s a huge relief being diagnosed. I‘m so sick (actual burnout) of trying to fit into society. so, no masking anymore 😊
@@i.am.mindblind yeah, I‘m just beginning to understand all of the entanglements. I was misdiagnosed with depression first. I knew it wasn’t that, but I just wanted peace to heal and get my strength back. well, it’s been 8 month. just a week ago I finally had an appointment with a therapist and she said I had autism. even though it wasn’t a surprise, actually a relief that finally someone sees my problems. but still no word of burn out 😔
Oh my goodness! I just found your channel and I immediately subscribed and fell in love with you and on this third video I've binge-watched (so far), you brought up the PDA profile. I was just diagnosed ASD two weeks ago at 25 (ADHD at 24) and while my assessor doesn't apply any additional profile types (wait...are there any besides PDA?), she agrees that I would fall into that category. All of my most favorite autism TH-camrs have eventually mentioned that's their type as well. I think the "extra social ability" factor of PDA was a big roadblock to someone getting me help sooner, like when I was crashing and burning through the added demands of high school. I was probably labeled a lazy smart kid with wasted potential by my teachers. I relate to so much of your experience. Auditory processing issues, talking about myself, hyperlexia, high IQ, eye contact, task switching, slow processing, taking the traits in a very literal/narrow way. I thought toe walking had to be nearly en pointe like a ballerina, but since I just wear through all the big toes of my shoes first because that's where I put my weight, it doesn't count. I thought "rocking back and forth" had to be front-to-back like you see in movies, but I do it side-to-side, so that doesn't count! Ahaha. It sounds ridiculous to me now all the reasons I had to explain the signs away, afraid I wasn't "autistic enough" to get diagnosed. Now excuse me while I go to my 4th, 5th, 6th video...
❤️❤️❤️😊 Thank you so much Madison! I'm still learning more about PDA profile. I don't remember if it was in my official diagnosis papers (I need to re read those now that I have more understanding of the terms!) but it was easy to see I fit the profile after hearing about it a few times. I'm not sure if there are other profiles. I know there are traits that some autistic people have and others not as much like alexithymia which I relate to somewhat but not sure all the way.
I'm actually afraid of not being diagnosed ....have so many other diagnoses but was also severely abused and traumatized as a child and throughout my life it just kept happening. Seems most of the men I picked for myself did not like women and were and are abusive. Currently this is happening to me now too. I'm gonna play this video for my Dr. You put it into words the way it needs to be put because I always get caught up in so many other things that I often go off track and get away from the original reason, question, subject .
Many people have told me they have shown some of my videos to their doctors or therapists. I'm so glad I'm able to help members of my community this way. ❤️
I’ve noticed that I don’t ask people questions in conversations. If someone tells me something I’ll tell them something I think is connected, but if someone asks me a question I’ll just answer them without asking them the question back which I’ve discovered most neurotypical people want you to ask them a question about themselves if they ask you one.
I too have been diagnosed at 42. I think I was never diagnosed because of a few things. I was an early reader (probably hyperlexic). I have a high IQ. I also was sick as a child and had diabetes and arthritis. This meant I had a lot of strict routines. For example I had to eat certain portions of food at certain times. It also meant I spent a lot of time by myself (and my mom) at the hospital. All of this combined meant it was easier for me to hide that I struggled.
I'm 41, and am only starting to wonder whether I might be autistic, thanks to videos like yours and how strongly I relate to the majority of these experiences. I was diagnosed with ADHD at 25 (to my shock, at the time), and have long thought that this was the end of the story-but it doesn't really explain, for instance, how difficult I found eye contact until I consciously trained myself to do it at age 16 (wanting to avoid the grief I was receiving from adults who mistook my discomfort for rudeness). I also strongly relate to the paradox of coming across as either "shy" or "too much," and I was an early reader who was funneled into "gifted" programs. Anyway, I want to thank you for sharing. I found this video very validating
Yes! The thing about always trying to think of examples of sinilar situations I've been in when conversing, I totally do that. Although I'd been trying to stop it in recent years precisely because I saw other people being criticised for always doing the "how can I make this about me?" type thing and worried people might think I was doing that.
I so appreciate your videos. Your traits are so similar that I am pretty certain we have a lot of the same things. I am 55 and had what I think was a shut down, which led me here, and ultimately to my assessment almost two weeks ago (still waiting). I feel like I am holding my breath and I don't know what the news will do to me, emotionally, but it feels so big and so important.
Very relatable. Thank you. 45 and self-diagnosed after 2 of my 4 kids were diagnosed autistic. Shyness in unfamiliar circumstances, conversation struggles, and eye contact are some of the first things I spotted in myself. The best way to describe the eye contact thing for me is that it feels like when I do it, the person can see into my soul. It's so frightening, it's painful. Also have had some relationships where I get latched on and cling too hard. Looking to hold onto safe people or ones I perceived as safe, perhaps?
I thought for the longest time I couldn't be autistic because I was extroverted. But that isn't a diagnositic criteria. And I think a lot of Autistic people aren't necessarily extroverted it's just that Neurotypical people drain our energy if we have to mask around them, but an Autistic person in a neurodivergent affirming space is more likely to be "extroverted."
It's like I'm you. Everything you just described is me. It's freaking weird. For me, it was "unapprachable" "ice queen" "standoffish" "cruise director" "control freak". I have always wanted to be understood. Thanks foe sharing your experience!
Are you me? Kidding but seriously, so much of your story and your experience resonates with my personal experience. I feel like you could be describing my own life. Down to late diagnoses, older sibling, high masking, auditory processing disorder, educationally and professionally successful -until massive autism burnout that was diagnosed as depression. It’s been such a relief and such a simultaneous frustration to see what I’ve been experiencing my whole life only just now discovering in the last year or two.
Yep. It's a weird experience to have felt like such the outsider so much of my life but now after diagnosis finding a community of people online who totally understand. ❤️
When you add multi layers of divergence and consider the actual range within each one, I understand how it gets hard to diagnose. I am just discovering so many things... & just finding your channel. I am interested in learning more about the ASD/ADHD/Giftedness trifecta & any possible strategies/coping/tool kit/life hacks , etc. I am 48yo & as I was growing up, none of it was diagnosed.
I’m 41, and I’m fairly certain I have autism and ADHD, both of which undiagnosed. I don’t know that there’s any reason for me to go get diagnosed now… I’ve done a good job of making sense of my life and getting things to function for me.
Yes, a formal diagnosis doesn't necessarily benefit a lot of adults. For me (learning I was autistic whether formal or self realized) was vital to my mental health. I was on a path towards a very bad Burnout. Now I'm learning nothing was wrong with me, I'm just autistic and now I'm learning how to accomodate myself.
Not Diagnosed, but I relate to a lot of what you said. I did have a college counselor 'strongly reccomend' testing for 'Adult ADD' at a private religious university about a decade ago, but time and money got in the way. I believe my half brother has an ADHD diagnosis. I was reading early, though not as early as others, but my Mom read to me daily. In first grade, I was reading at a sixth grade level. I LOVE reading, and learning (On my terms). Some of the needing to know/control rang true for me, but that might be trauma talking, I'm not certain. I'm almost 30. I want to get tested for ADHD & Autism for sure... and maybe also figure out what trauma has done to me too.
I also was reading at the 6th grade level when they tested me in first grade. I found the test results one time to confirm my memory of it. Yet I don't remember knowing how to read in kindergarten. It was funny in first grade looking at all the kids books like See Spot Run that the other kids were reading, but I had my own shelf of books lol
I was diagnosed at 57. I think the biggest reason for not being diagnosed earlier was that for so long it wasn't recognized at all that one could be "high-functioning" and autistic. I'm not sure how totally that's changed even among clinicians; certainly some of the general public still makes that assumption.
Hi Amanda, I have gone and am still going through a very similar story: I first noticed autistic traits and behaviours in my daughter (when she was about 1-1.5 years old and more and more since then), so I researched the matter of all the types of neurodivergent brains and the more I read about autism specifically the more I recognised MYSELF AS A CHILD and as an adult as well. Then I found out about masking and I recognised myself in that as well. Now it's two years on, my daughter is 4.5 years old and I am 42, and I am going to receive my evaluation by the specialised neuropsychiatrist in December and my daughter in January and hopefully my husband and I will be able to help our daughter grow up feeling at ease with herself and feeling loved and accepted the way she is, so that she can be who she is and get where she aims in life.
I made it to 59 before my dna test confirmed ADHD, and standardized tests indicate autistic/ADHD. It's videos like yours that have been helping me navigate this stuff big time. Thanks!
I'm a 69 year old woman, finally diagnosed with Asperger's and ADHD last year. Many hypersensitivities, selective mutism when under stress, extremely sensitive to the moods of others. Bad anxiety my whole life from very early (age 2) incest lasting for many years. In 1992 was put on benzos always taken as directed, until I discovered in 2020 from seeing the first half of a Jordan Peterson video that long term benzo use can cause brain damage! I contacted doctor to stop and she said, okay stop. No mention of tapering at all and I didn't know about tapering at all. I stopped cold turkey after 28-1/2 years, nearly died from months and months of insane symptoms. I'm 31 months out now and am a completely different personality with new health issues. I'm no longer a people pleaser (which is great), but gone too far the opposite direction. I'm almost always in a very angry state, ready to explode. The hypersensitivities I've always had are more severe. I loathe being around people, always prefer to be alone. I now have a seemingly permanent ventricular tachycardia. Have been diagnosed with small fiber neuropathy. Very anxious. Hoping time will continually improve my damaged brain and nervous system.
Hmm, I can relate to everything you said. I'm really grateful that the TH-cam algorithm has sent me so many pertinent videos like yours. I was officially diagnosed with adult ADHD in my late 30s, but even though I've researched a lot of resources and worked with several ADHD coaches, it didn't feel like it was getting to the root of my struggles. I follow several autistic adult TH-camrs and relate to much of what they share. Interestingly, the people in my life who I've had the most stable relationships with over the years also have numerous autistic traits, though like me they're undiagnosed. To keep this short(er), I want to add that I appreciate how your videos are more authentic than polished. I don't need a motivational speaker Ted Talk, I need insight. Thank you for sharing your journey! 💞
Ah. Yea. I got diagnosed adhd a couple years ago (I’m 33 now) and as that’s been managed I’ve noticed more and more autistic traits. Listening, this is basically how my childhood went also and definite pda here 🙈 (I actually spotted that after the adhd and before the autism, then was very confused that adhd couldn’t have it. Heh)
This is me, you explain very well, and define situations according to how they apply to autism Probably Audhd with PDA. Looking back: what I thought was depression was actually autistic burnout.
I was diagnosed with ADHD at 41 and ASD at 42. And exactly as you're saying, there just weren't those diagnoses at that time. Especially in my childhood - I am from Czechia, EU and at that time there was communism still in here. We did have a diagnosis for kids with hyperactive portion of ADHD symptoms and it was called mild brain dysfunction lol. But I didn't get it anyway then, I was rather a quiet child.
So much YES to having autonomy over situations... my son is very similar and I'm learning how to come to terms with giving him autonomy while also trying to maintain mine LoL it is a struggle. He is not diagnosed but since his mom is AuDHD its likely...
I talked to my Dr the other day. He is sending me to a place close by that will check and see if I am autistic. I'm over 50 and wondered will it help out at this late in life. Does it make a difference despite being middle aged or older? Thank you for sharing.
I think it can help understand yourself and how to accomodate. I posted a video just a few minutes ago with an example of how knowing I'm autistic helped prevent a meltdown. (whether self diagnosed or medically.) th-cam.com/video/n86dRJSjW_w/w-d-xo.html
I totally know what you mean. I’ve always known something was different about me, but been unable to figure it out. Both of my children are far above their scholastic peers in association with school, but they cannot pick up on social cues and also have an interesting time in describing what they want isn’t exactly what they’ve said they want. They both have different fathers. So clearly there’s only one place it could have been passed on from. Meanwhile, after receiving a second opinion, I’ve been diagnosed with DID, so I understand how frustrating multiple diagnosis is… I just found out last year. I’m in my 50’s. If you don’t understand what to look for, you can’t very well find it. That’s fairly basic.
I'm antedocital noticing a high number of DID systems that are also Autistic. But yes, I'm finally glad to have some answers to why I've always felt different.
I tend to look at people's face, sort of like I'm acting for a camera. It took me many years to realize that I was doing that. Since, I got married to a narcissist, I've become aware of just how often I don't look at her in the eye enough.
Your sentence about being married to a narcissist has thrown me. Is she diagnosed narcissistic and receiving counseling? Are you? I imagine that could be a difficult relationship to navigate. No need to answer, I don't mean to pry. Just wasn't sure how to respond to your comment because I'm lacking so much context. I know that even before diagnosis that there have been some people that I just never could look in the eye and now I know why.
I'm a nail tech that prefers feet to hands. It's farther from their face. I am more comfortable when I don't feel like I have to make eye contact. For the first few years I would recognize my clients from their feet and not their face.
I do have some videos that go into more detail on my evaluation process. I talked to a psychologist to get my diagnosis. You have to find one who will do adult diagnoses and find one who will take women seriously.
So this explains how you came to be diagnosed so late in life. But how did you get diagnosed? Did you start with your family doctor their primary care physician? Did you go to a neurologist? How does one get diagnosed with ADHD?
I went to see a psychologist. Neuropsychologists also can do autism evaluations. Some insurances require you to get a referral, I was able to call my psychologists office directly. They did a wide psych panel on me screening for ASD, ADHD, OCD, Depression, Bipolar, Agoraphobia and more.
I found out I was auDHD & aphantastic this year at 43 yrs and I had the same experience with the eye contact criterion. Yeah, I can make eye contact, I hate and want it to stop, but I do it all the time, so I must not be autistic. I just thought that meant I was shy and weak willed. Now I know that's not it. It's probably no coincidence my wife's eyes are so dark brown I can't see her irises.
Yeah, I've been unable to hang onto friends over the years because I think I come across as way too EXTRA after awhile (and lately my knowledge about COVID is very unwelcome to those who suffer from Urgency of Normal-itis). Oh well, I've learned to live with it and not even seek out friendships. The undiagnosed autism seems to have come out stronger as a middle-aged adult & I've discovered that I really REALLY prefer to be alone or with my very small family unit (mother, twin sister, brother-in-law). Getting some agency over the past decade via gardening & food production has been satisfying - I don't feel as hemmed in by the expectations of normies because I'm doing something that a lot of them in my RL don't even spare a thought about (yet they really should!). It's like having a secret superpower. lol
Good reply. I also like Elyse Meyers who says, "If I'm too much, go find less." (I forgot if I mentioned that in the vide.) It's one of my favorite quotes this year.
Most of the research they perform for anything is on men. That is another subject all together but one of the reasons that women go undiagnosed. We are too "crazy" all over the place because of our hormones. Really they're afraid of us. They can't possibly understand that our hormones and periods don't cloud our judgement on pain and neurodivergence. We need more women in the field for this too.
How did you get diagnosed with your diagnoses and it sounds like you got diagnoses sublevels too? Where do you find a doctor who can help diagnose you to that degree?
I am diagnosed autistic and adhd. I actually almost got diagnosed agoraphobia but was borderline enough he took that off. SDAM and Aphantasia aren't in diagnostic manuals yet as they are still being researched so anyone with them is self diagnosed. A psychologist is the type of doctor that will diagnose autism but not all are qualified to do so, especially in adults. As far as the PDA profile that part I self diagnosised after learning more about autism in general. Also things like alexithymia. These just help me understand my brain a bit more. Hope that helps.
When I was watching you talk I recognized my own quirks that I never realized might be autistic. My therapist thinks I'm either on the ADHD spectrum, ASD spectrum, or both. I'm going to be getting a neuropsychological evaluation soon.
Good luck, it's been a life altering experience for me, to finally understand why my brain works the way it does and the fact I was masking, even from myself.
I'm glad I got a formal diagnosis because imposter syndrome is so real. But I firmly believe for ASD self diagnosis is valid as an adult. Now several months in, the imposter syndrome hasn't shown up again for me. Just the how in the heck did everyone miss this?!
Me atm too. Also how did I DO this, seriously. Really. I so hear you. If I didn't need it for reasons I'd be ok to self identify. I love that unless you need to the autism community are so accepting of adults who self identify as the process is often not even within reach of many. I so hope your channel grows you present your content so well.
ADHD back in 89, but thought I had mostly conquered the ADHD... didn't even consider Autism as possible till 2020 at 38. Starting a WFH job and ADHD Meds helped me go, wait, huh?
Diagnoses really help frame what's going on, right? I just started some adhd meds a little over a week ago. They'll need more tweaking but I think it is going to make a big difference.
More or less the same here, although I had an OCD diagnoses that kind of blocked my ADHD diagnosis until a decade later. And the combination of the two with the schizoaffective diagnosis blocked me from a clean AS diagnosis about 15 years back. I'm going to get reevaluated as it's clear that it's reeking havoc on my life and any effort I put to get some integrity with myself is going to improve my quality of life immensely. It's a bit of a load off the mind knowing, isn't it?
@@i.am.mindblindany suggestions for what to do if you hit burnout at a job you’ve done for a long time that isn’t a good fit…if you self diagnose how in the world do you try and transition to another line of work? Meds cost and no therapy without insurance….what do you do then?
@@i.am.mindblind i may be as well but I’ll have to think on it a bit. I know I can’t ‘picture’ something. I can describe it in great detail and remember colors but not in an imagery way- more in a mixing way. I can identify if a colour is a slight shade off something I saw before because it may have more white pigment or orange pigment… Brains are so neat
Sounds like aphantasia. I can describe stuff but can't see it. I'm usually good at color memory too, but not as good as I used to be. I don't see the color in my mind, but I can often remember if something will match another thing.
@@i.am.mindblind @Heartsmyface Forever this is so interesting to read. I don´t have aphantasia, but also can´t imagine what it is like... the irony huh? Haha
It was life changing for me. It answered so many questions about why life was apparently more difficult in certain areas for me. I could never understand why it seemed like I was doing things other people were doing and getting very different results. Why I've struggled to make friends and why people are always misunderstanding me. Why I got labeled as too much, too shy, too sensitive, too picky, too loud. Nope. Just Autistic. It gives me a chance to learn how to accomodate myself and understand I need recovery time. That it's okay the grocery store is overstimulating. There's nothing wrong with me. Just Autistic. Now I wear earplugs and give myself extra time to shop. These are just some reasons...
I'm at 10:20 or so and I just have to say, my unappreciativeness towards people who are judgy towards others who deviate from the norm in whatsoever way is only growing still. Truly sorry for yoiur lack of capability to understand other people then, pal. Looks like I got one on you there using the power of open mindedness.
I'm not sure I understand your question exactly, but I think you're asking did I realize I was disabled as child? If not, please correct me. As a child, I knew I was different, I always felt like I was on the outside looking in. I had a hard time making friends. I knew my memory was different than other people. I did not know other people could visualize, I always thought people spoke in metaphors when they said, "picture a beach." But I learned about aphantasia when I was 38 and very shortly after that I learned the name for my memory disorder, Severly Deficient autobiographical memory. I was 42 when I got diagnosed with autism and adhd and it made my life all make sense.
![⭐ฮิตในTikTok!! ( มะมะมะหมูเด้ง MooDeng ) Ver. แดนซ์ ReMix BY [ ดีเจกิต รีมิกซ์ ]](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/4noyAoMa7bQ/mqdefault.jpg)
Have you been wondering if you are autistic or adhd? Or are you also late diagnosed like me?
I'm late diagnosed autistic. I highly suspect I'm adhd as well because my attention is just a mess and always has been. I lose my phone multiple times a day, etc. I struggle with organizing anything
I was also diagnosed at age 42, during a period of divorce and unemployment. 49 now. I was heavily in special ed and gifted class, and heavily tested and of course never got diagnosed. I was out of school before they even translated Asperger from the German, 1992. Great channel, I love these channels.
I hope I get to the diagnosis queue soon. I'm being assessed for therapy right now and year ago I realized I have adhd brain and in January I realized I'm autistic as well. I've been crying my eyes out after both realizations. It only took 41 years for me to trying to find what's wrong with me to realize there's nothing wrong with me. The world is wrong for me and should be changed to accommodate neurodivergent better.
@@HigoIndico You are already on a healing journey to see that there is nothing wrong with you and everything wrong with society. I totally understand, I've cried more in the last several months than I have in years. You are not alone.
I’m 35 and in the evaluation process now. These experiences are so relatable, thank you for sharing
My speech is a lot worse than you and I thought I had early dementia. I spoke to my doctor and he put me through a bunch of tests to see if I had some memory and speech issues. I was referred to the psychiatrist who diagnosed me at 38 with Autism on the spectrum, adhd, auditory processing disorder and a few other mental health disorders. There are some times where I can act like a child like actually speak and be very childish especially when I'm around people I don't know. Your other video before this one hit home very well. All the things you were trying to explain is me but worse what I feel like. I tried to explain this to my mother and brother, but they kept saying it's just adhd, but they don't know what's going on in my head and I've been putting on a false mask for so long they just think there's a few screws missing if you know what I mean.
I've noticed that my autistic traits change from day to day depending on how stressed I am. Some days if I'm Burnout my speech isn't good enough to even make a video, some days I speak "normally" some days I'm overstimulated and talk really fast, a bit too hyped. It's definitely a range and any one day can be a different experience. ❤️
I was 41 when I got diagnosed it was wonderful and weird to discover.
Wonderful and weird. I totally relate. 😊
I got diagnosed at 58. I always felt like I had a dirty secret, and I didn't even know what it was. Learning I was Autistic made all the pieces fall into place.
I can so relate to this. I feel huge relief now just starting to understand myself with so much more self compassion at age 42 x all the best to you
What you mentioned about autistic conversational styles really hit home for me! wowzuh, I've been trying to put to words why I feel so awkward with people at work but so normal with my friends (who are all neurodivergent in some way (we accidentally-on-purpose self-sorted/found each other through-out life)), and the trading back and forth personal experiences as a way of showing empathy is a key part of why I think my conversations with NT people feel so off, because they don't reciprocate that process but allll my ND friends predominately communicate with this strategy. Thank you for that lovely epiphany!
It's a big one! And NT people don't get it. They think we are recentering the conversation about us. No, we are relating!
I understand how it feels ,even though I’m male I wasn’t diagnosed until I was 52,now I understand what my brain was fighting against my whole life.We are unique,we are special and we should be content with that.❤️❤️❤️❤️🤟
I've suspected, especially after my son was born with autism, that I have some kind of developmental thing or autism going on with me too. I'm 54 and I don't feel the need to be officially diagnosed, but just listening to your vlogs it sounds just like you're describing how I've always been. I'd say the things I'm particularly good at was figuring out how to run my own business without any previous experience or schooling on that. And now I'm homeschooling my autistic son and deciding all the curriculum for that without any previous experience. But I'm more and more convinced every day that I do have this. That explains a lot about my childhood experiences too.
Autistic people can really excel at many things, especially when expectations from society aren't put on us. I don't remember if I mentioned it in this video but I homeschooled my autistic twins (pre-diagnosis for all of us!) from prek-8th grade. They now attend an online school.
What do you do in your business?
I was reading before the age of 3 and, when I got into the school system, was given the ‘Gifted’ label. I’m not going to self-diagnose but I relate to so much of what you discuss.
As someone who deals with Time Blindness, dyscalculia, and ADHD, being ‘gifted’ made life more difficult. I never “lived up to my potential because I didn’t apply myself.”
Thank you for sharing. I appreciate your content.
A lot of "gifted" people crash after school because they are underdiagnosed neurodivergent and school gives structure. After school with structure gone it's a lot of floundering. I used to remember thinking how did people know what to do after college? "Get a job" is WAY too open ended of a statement for me to follow. Lots of executive functioning needs to happen in that statement!
I understand and relate to what you are saying so much! I also wasn’t identifying until 42 either, hypermedia but also still nonverbal in certain situations too. I was in the gifted program in school, written 2 books, and will write people books in text. Yet, I’m bad in conversations. lol. I also relate to people with personal stories and can come off as self-absorbed. 😫. It’s too hard to keep up with all the unspoken “rules” of socialization.
I’m glad I found your channel. 🥰
Oh yes, the super long texts or for me Facebook posts just to try to ask a question. But I've got to give all the context. Then the question gets lost.
I keep seeing more and more adults who were in the gifted programs at school are actually autistic. I actually got invited to be in the accelerated classes (what my school called them) but I turned it down. Thank goodness my mom let me! I COULD do the work, but not at the pace that the accelerated program taught. Speed does not equal intelligence!
So many autocorrects! I’m so sorry! I was in a rush, but wanted to get it out while it was on my mind.
Hypermedia=hyperlexic not even sure what hypermedia is. Lol
The worst part about the gifted class, is that l felt like the dumbest person there. lol
And yes, I give FULL context. Most want us to just get to to point already, but I can’t make a decision without all the info so I’m just trying to “help”. lol
It feels good to see others who do think like me though. Again, thank you for sharing. You are helping people. ❤️
@@TheAwakenedJenn I kinda thought you meant hyperlexic. I'm pretty good at decifering most autocorrects. I've noticed that there are two autistic types. Those of us who reread AFTER we hit publish and those that reread a text 10x before sending. I'm the first. I talk off the cuff and just go with my first instinct in most cases (I think that's my ADHD compensating for my autistic tendency.)
@@TheAwakenedJenn and yes, I have to give extra info because that's how I want people to talk to me. I need ALL the info! 😊
42 club i was hyperlexic too.
I am so thankful for you making those videos and youtube recommending them to me! I didnt know all those things are signs of autism! over 10 years ago I got into high sensitivity and giftedness, which made so much sense at the time. I always suspected autism in one way or another. it’s a huge relief being diagnosed. I‘m so sick (actual burnout) of trying to fit into society. so, no masking anymore 😊
There is a LOT of people who are in the Gifted and Talented programs that actually are autistic but don't get diagnosed until Burnout.
@@i.am.mindblind yeah, I‘m just beginning to understand all of the entanglements. I was misdiagnosed with depression first. I knew it wasn’t that, but I just wanted peace to heal and get my strength back. well, it’s been 8 month. just a week ago I finally had an appointment with a therapist and she said I had autism. even though it wasn’t a surprise, actually a relief that finally someone sees my problems. but still no word of burn out 😔
Oh my goodness! I just found your channel and I immediately subscribed and fell in love with you and on this third video I've binge-watched (so far), you brought up the PDA profile. I was just diagnosed ASD two weeks ago at 25 (ADHD at 24) and while my assessor doesn't apply any additional profile types (wait...are there any besides PDA?), she agrees that I would fall into that category. All of my most favorite autism TH-camrs have eventually mentioned that's their type as well. I think the "extra social ability" factor of PDA was a big roadblock to someone getting me help sooner, like when I was crashing and burning through the added demands of high school. I was probably labeled a lazy smart kid with wasted potential by my teachers.
I relate to so much of your experience. Auditory processing issues, talking about myself, hyperlexia, high IQ, eye contact, task switching, slow processing, taking the traits in a very literal/narrow way. I thought toe walking had to be nearly en pointe like a ballerina, but since I just wear through all the big toes of my shoes first because that's where I put my weight, it doesn't count. I thought "rocking back and forth" had to be front-to-back like you see in movies, but I do it side-to-side, so that doesn't count! Ahaha. It sounds ridiculous to me now all the reasons I had to explain the signs away, afraid I wasn't "autistic enough" to get diagnosed. Now excuse me while I go to my 4th, 5th, 6th video...
❤️❤️❤️😊 Thank you so much Madison! I'm still learning more about PDA profile. I don't remember if it was in my official diagnosis papers (I need to re read those now that I have more understanding of the terms!) but it was easy to see I fit the profile after hearing about it a few times. I'm not sure if there are other profiles. I know there are traits that some autistic people have and others not as much like alexithymia which I relate to somewhat but not sure all the way.
Omg. You're telling the story of my life. I self identified asd at 60. It's so great to know I'm not alone.
I'm actually afraid of not being diagnosed ....have so many other diagnoses but was also severely abused and traumatized as a child and throughout my life it just kept happening. Seems most of the men I picked for myself did not like women and were and are abusive. Currently this is happening to me now too.
I'm gonna play this video for my Dr. You put it into words the way it needs to be put because I always get caught up in so many other things that I often go off track and get away from the original reason, question, subject .
Many people have told me they have shown some of my videos to their doctors or therapists. I'm so glad I'm able to help members of my community this way. ❤️
I’ve noticed that I don’t ask people questions in conversations. If someone tells me something I’ll tell them something I think is connected, but if someone asks me a question I’ll just answer them without asking them the question back which I’ve discovered most neurotypical people want you to ask them a question about themselves if they ask you one.
Diagnosed at 39 here. I appreciate your videos ❤
I too have been diagnosed at 42. I think I was never diagnosed because of a few things. I was an early reader (probably hyperlexic). I have a high IQ. I also was sick as a child and had diabetes and arthritis. This meant I had a lot of strict routines. For example I had to eat certain portions of food at certain times. It also meant I spent a lot of time by myself (and my mom) at the hospital. All of this combined meant it was easier for me to hide that I struggled.
I'm 41, and am only starting to wonder whether I might be autistic, thanks to videos like yours and how strongly I relate to the majority of these experiences. I was diagnosed with ADHD at 25 (to my shock, at the time), and have long thought that this was the end of the story-but it doesn't really explain, for instance, how difficult I found eye contact until I consciously trained myself to do it at age 16 (wanting to avoid the grief I was receiving from adults who mistook my discomfort for rudeness). I also strongly relate to the paradox of coming across as either "shy" or "too much," and I was an early reader who was funneled into "gifted" programs. Anyway, I want to thank you for sharing. I found this video very validating
Yes! The thing about always trying to think of examples of sinilar situations I've been in when conversing, I totally do that. Although I'd been trying to stop it in recent years precisely because I saw other people being criticised for always doing the "how can I make this about me?" type thing and worried people might think I was doing that.
I so appreciate your videos. Your traits are so similar that I am pretty certain we have a lot of the same things. I am 55 and had what I think was a shut down, which led me here, and ultimately to my assessment almost two weeks ago (still waiting). I feel like I am holding my breath and I don't know what the news will do to me, emotionally, but it feels so big and so important.
Very relatable. Thank you. 45 and self-diagnosed after 2 of my 4 kids were diagnosed autistic. Shyness in unfamiliar circumstances, conversation struggles, and eye contact are some of the first things I spotted in myself. The best way to describe the eye contact thing for me is that it feels like when I do it, the person can see into my soul. It's so frightening, it's painful. Also have had some relationships where I get latched on and cling too hard. Looking to hold onto safe people or ones I perceived as safe, perhaps?
12:34 same! I convinced myself I wasn’t autistic bc I can make great eye contact when I’m masking
I thought for the longest time I couldn't be autistic because I was extroverted. But that isn't a diagnositic criteria. And I think a lot of Autistic people aren't necessarily extroverted it's just that Neurotypical people drain our energy if we have to mask around them, but an Autistic person in a neurodivergent affirming space is more likely to be "extroverted."
It's like I'm you. Everything you just described is me. It's freaking weird. For me, it was "unapprachable" "ice queen" "standoffish" "cruise director" "control freak". I have always wanted to be understood. Thanks foe sharing your experience!
❤️❤️❤️ It's so weird to have grown up feeling so alone but after finding I'm autistic, finding a community of people who get it. ❤️❤️❤️
Are you me? Kidding but seriously, so much of your story and your experience resonates with my personal experience. I feel like you could be describing my own life. Down to late diagnoses, older sibling, high masking, auditory processing disorder, educationally and professionally successful -until massive autism burnout that was diagnosed as depression. It’s been such a relief and such a simultaneous frustration to see what I’ve been experiencing my whole life only just now discovering in the last year or two.
Yep. It's a weird experience to have felt like such the outsider so much of my life but now after diagnosis finding a community of people online who totally understand. ❤️
I'm 53 and my intake appointment for assessment is next month. Wish me luck! 😬
Good luck! I know it's stressful. I took water and even snacks into my assessment.
When you add multi layers of divergence and consider the actual range within each one, I understand how it gets hard to diagnose. I am just discovering so many things... & just finding your channel. I am interested in learning more about the ASD/ADHD/Giftedness trifecta & any possible strategies/coping/tool kit/life hacks , etc. I am 48yo & as I was growing up, none of it was diagnosed.
I’m 41, and I’m fairly certain I have autism and ADHD, both of which undiagnosed. I don’t know that there’s any reason for me to go get diagnosed now… I’ve done a good job of making sense of my life and getting things to function for me.
Yes, a formal diagnosis doesn't necessarily benefit a lot of adults. For me (learning I was autistic whether formal or self realized) was vital to my mental health. I was on a path towards a very bad Burnout. Now I'm learning nothing was wrong with me, I'm just autistic and now I'm learning how to accomodate myself.
Not Diagnosed, but I relate to a lot of what you said. I did have a college counselor 'strongly reccomend' testing for 'Adult ADD' at a private religious university about a decade ago, but time and money got in the way. I believe my half brother has an ADHD diagnosis.
I was reading early, though not as early as others, but my Mom read to me daily. In first grade, I was reading at a sixth grade level. I LOVE reading, and learning (On my terms).
Some of the needing to know/control rang true for me, but that might be trauma talking, I'm not certain.
I'm almost 30. I want to get tested for ADHD & Autism for sure... and maybe also figure out what trauma has done to me too.
Good luck with your diagnosis journey whichever way it goes.
I also was reading at the 6th grade level when they tested me in first grade. I found the test results one time to confirm my memory of it. Yet I don't remember knowing how to read in kindergarten. It was funny in first grade looking at all the kids books like See Spot Run that the other kids were reading, but I had my own shelf of books lol
I was diagnosed at 57. I think the biggest reason for not being diagnosed earlier was that for so long it wasn't recognized at all that one could be "high-functioning" and autistic. I'm not sure how totally that's changed even among clinicians; certainly some of the general public still makes that assumption.
Hi Amanda, I have gone and am still going through a very similar story: I first noticed autistic traits and behaviours in my daughter (when she was about 1-1.5 years old and more and more since then), so I researched the matter of all the types of neurodivergent brains and the more I read about autism specifically the more I recognised MYSELF AS A CHILD and as an adult as well. Then I found out about masking and I recognised myself in that as well. Now it's two years on, my daughter is 4.5 years old and I am 42, and I am going to receive my evaluation by the specialised neuropsychiatrist in December and my daughter in January and hopefully my husband and I will be able to help our daughter grow up feeling at ease with herself and feeling loved and accepted the way she is, so that she can be who she is and get where she aims in life.
Your so relateable to my experiences, thanks for all of this. So much!!
❤️ There's an entire generation of missed autistic women, AFAB and some high masking men out there. It's crazy.
I made it to 59 before my dna test confirmed ADHD, and standardized tests indicate autistic/ADHD. It's videos like yours that have been helping me navigate this stuff big time. Thanks!
I'm a 69 year old woman, finally diagnosed with Asperger's and ADHD last year. Many hypersensitivities, selective mutism when under stress, extremely sensitive to the moods of others. Bad anxiety my whole life from very early (age 2) incest lasting for many years.
In 1992 was put on benzos always taken as directed, until I discovered in 2020 from seeing the first half of a Jordan Peterson video that long term benzo use can cause brain damage! I contacted doctor to stop and she said, okay stop. No mention of tapering at all and I didn't know about tapering at all. I stopped cold turkey after 28-1/2 years, nearly died from months and months of insane symptoms.
I'm 31 months out now and am a completely different personality with new health issues. I'm no longer a people pleaser (which is great), but gone too far the opposite direction. I'm almost always in a very angry state, ready to explode. The hypersensitivities I've always had are more severe. I loathe being around people, always prefer to be alone. I now have a seemingly permanent ventricular tachycardia. Have been diagnosed with small fiber neuropathy. Very anxious.
Hoping time will continually improve my damaged brain and nervous system.
Oh wow, I'm so sorry. Also, shame on that doctor for not being clear. That is definitely their fault!
Hmm, I can relate to everything you said. I'm really grateful that the TH-cam algorithm has sent me so many pertinent videos like yours. I was officially diagnosed with adult ADHD in my late 30s, but even though I've researched a lot of resources and worked with several ADHD coaches, it didn't feel like it was getting to the root of my struggles. I follow several autistic adult TH-camrs and relate to much of what they share. Interestingly, the people in my life who I've had the most stable relationships with over the years also have numerous autistic traits, though like me they're undiagnosed. To keep this short(er), I want to add that I appreciate how your videos are more authentic than polished. I don't need a motivational speaker Ted Talk, I need insight. Thank you for sharing your journey! 💞
Thank you! My son has autism and adhd, your channel helps understand more😊
I'm so this. Glad I'm not the only one who has these types of difficulties
Ah. Yea. I got diagnosed adhd a couple years ago (I’m 33 now) and as that’s been managed I’ve noticed more and more autistic traits. Listening, this is basically how my childhood went also and definite pda here 🙈 (I actually spotted that after the adhd and before the autism, then was very confused that adhd couldn’t have it. Heh)
This is me, you explain very well, and define situations according to how they apply to autism Probably Audhd with PDA. Looking back: what I thought was depression was actually autistic burnout.
I was diagnosed with ADHD at 41 and ASD at 42. And exactly as you're saying, there just weren't those diagnoses at that time. Especially in my childhood - I am from Czechia, EU and at that time there was communism still in here. We did have a diagnosis for kids with hyperactive portion of ADHD symptoms and it was called mild brain dysfunction lol. But I didn't get it anyway then, I was rather a quiet child.
This is making me comfortable thank you
So much YES to having autonomy over situations... my son is very similar and I'm learning how to come to terms with giving him autonomy while also trying to maintain mine LoL it is a struggle. He is not diagnosed but since his mom is AuDHD its likely...
I talked to my Dr the other day. He is sending me to a place close by that will check and see if I am autistic. I'm over 50 and wondered will it help out at this late in life. Does it make a difference despite being middle aged or older? Thank you for sharing.
I think it can help understand yourself and how to accomodate. I posted a video just a few minutes ago with an example of how knowing I'm autistic helped prevent a meltdown. (whether self diagnosed or medically.)
th-cam.com/video/n86dRJSjW_w/w-d-xo.html
I totally know what you mean. I’ve always known something was different about me, but been unable to figure it out. Both of my children are far above their scholastic peers in association with school, but they cannot pick up on social cues and also have an interesting time in describing what they want isn’t exactly what they’ve said they want. They both have different fathers. So clearly there’s only one place it could have been passed on from.
Meanwhile, after receiving a second opinion, I’ve been diagnosed with DID, so I understand how frustrating multiple diagnosis is… I just found out last year. I’m in my 50’s. If you don’t understand what to look for, you can’t very well find it. That’s fairly basic.
I'm antedocital noticing a high number of DID systems that are also Autistic. But yes, I'm finally glad to have some answers to why I've always felt different.
I tend to look at people's face, sort of like I'm acting for a camera. It took me many years to realize that I was doing that. Since, I got married to a narcissist, I've become aware of just how often I don't look at her in the eye enough.
Your sentence about being married to a narcissist has thrown me. Is she diagnosed narcissistic and receiving counseling? Are you? I imagine that could be a difficult relationship to navigate. No need to answer, I don't mean to pry. Just wasn't sure how to respond to your comment because I'm lacking so much context. I know that even before diagnosis that there have been some people that I just never could look in the eye and now I know why.
I relate to so much of this.
Thank you so much by for sharing your experience.
I’m 65 and just now figured it out.
I’ve had to work on it… hold your breath I’d tell myself.. helps
I'm a nail tech that prefers feet to hands. It's farther from their face. I am more comfortable when I don't feel like I have to make eye contact. For the first few years I would recognize my clients from their feet and not their face.
😂 That's funny but I completely understand. ❤️❤️
Thank you for sharing this is very interesting
Soon as some one sees me doing something weird communicating boy oh boy I shut down. Now a days I’m good on my self
Diagnosed ADHD and Autism at 49 (2019)
How do you get diagnosed. How do you start? What kind of specialty do you seek to get a diagnosis for autism?
I do have some videos that go into more detail on my evaluation process. I talked to a psychologist to get my diagnosis. You have to find one who will do adult diagnoses and find one who will take women seriously.
Thank you!
I interrupt conversations… because I’ll forget 😣
So this explains how you came to be diagnosed so late in life. But how did you get diagnosed? Did you start with your family doctor their primary care physician? Did you go to a neurologist? How does one get diagnosed with ADHD?
I went to see a psychologist. Neuropsychologists also can do autism evaluations. Some insurances require you to get a referral, I was able to call my psychologists office directly. They did a wide psych panel on me screening for ASD, ADHD, OCD, Depression, Bipolar, Agoraphobia and more.
53 and actually autistic. I think I'm disappointed that my friends and family haven't been as surprised as I was! 😂😭
I get that! 😂
I was opposite…… quiet, shy not sure, wanted people to walk me thru steps…. Basically hold my hand.. I’ve had it thrown in my face
For me it depended on the situation. I was like how you described in new or unfamiliar situations, usually.
I found out I was auDHD & aphantastic this year at 43 yrs and I had the same experience with the eye contact criterion. Yeah, I can make eye contact, I hate and want it to stop, but I do it all the time, so I must not be autistic. I just thought that meant I was shy and weak willed. Now I know that's not it. It's probably no coincidence my wife's eyes are so dark brown I can't see her irises.
Yes! I have always been too much!
As Elyse Meyers says (and I'm trying to remember) "If I'm too much, go find less!" or all of "too much" people just need to find each other. 😊
Yeah, I've been unable to hang onto friends over the years because I think I come across as way too EXTRA after awhile (and lately my knowledge about COVID is very unwelcome to those who suffer from Urgency of Normal-itis). Oh well, I've learned to live with it and not even seek out friendships. The undiagnosed autism seems to have come out stronger as a middle-aged adult & I've discovered that I really REALLY prefer to be alone or with my very small family unit (mother, twin sister, brother-in-law). Getting some agency over the past decade via gardening & food production has been satisfying - I don't feel as hemmed in by the expectations of normies because I'm doing something that a lot of them in my RL don't even spare a thought about (yet they really should!). It's like having a secret superpower. lol
So many Autistic people seem to eventually give up on making friends after lifetimes of frustration and hurt. 😔
This is what I am now saying to the phrase I am to much is this, ( then maybe your not enough) because I am done with being okay with being to much
Good reply. I also like Elyse Meyers who says, "If I'm too much, go find less." (I forgot if I mentioned that in the vide.) It's one of my favorite quotes this year.
Most of the research they perform for anything is on men. That is another subject all together but one of the reasons that women go undiagnosed. We are too "crazy" all over the place because of our hormones. Really they're afraid of us. They can't possibly understand that our hormones and periods don't cloud our judgement on pain and neurodivergence. We need more women in the field for this too.
spot on!
Love your videos
Thanks so much!♥️
I was 53 when I was diagnosed but all good
How did you get diagnosed with your diagnoses and it sounds like you got diagnoses sublevels too? Where do you find a doctor who can help diagnose you to that degree?
I am diagnosed autistic and adhd. I actually almost got diagnosed agoraphobia but was borderline enough he took that off. SDAM and Aphantasia aren't in diagnostic manuals yet as they are still being researched so anyone with them is self diagnosed. A psychologist is the type of doctor that will diagnose autism but not all are qualified to do so, especially in adults. As far as the PDA profile that part I self diagnosised after learning more about autism in general. Also things like alexithymia. These just help me understand my brain a bit more. Hope that helps.
When I was watching you talk I recognized my own quirks that I never realized might be autistic. My therapist thinks I'm either on the ADHD spectrum, ASD spectrum, or both. I'm going to be getting a neuropsychological evaluation soon.
Good luck, it's been a life altering experience for me, to finally understand why my brain works the way it does and the fact I was masking, even from myself.
Oh your my twin 😇
I'm 42 too, idk how I got this far. About to go through formal Dx soon.
I'm glad I got a formal diagnosis because imposter syndrome is so real. But I firmly believe for ASD self diagnosis is valid as an adult. Now several months in, the imposter syndrome hasn't shown up again for me. Just the how in the heck did everyone miss this?!
Me atm too. Also how did I DO this, seriously. Really. I so hear you.
If I didn't need it for reasons I'd be ok to self identify. I love that unless you need to the autism community are so accepting of adults who self identify as the process is often not even within reach of many. I so hope your channel grows you present your content so well.
@@lolitajade Thank you so much! Support like this keeps me making videos. 😊
🥰 content like this is saving lives. 🌻
ADHD back in 89, but thought I had mostly conquered the ADHD... didn't even consider Autism as possible till 2020 at 38.
Starting a WFH job and ADHD Meds helped me go, wait, huh?
Diagnoses really help frame what's going on, right? I just started some adhd meds a little over a week ago. They'll need more tweaking but I think it is going to make a big difference.
More or less the same here, although I had an OCD diagnoses that kind of blocked my ADHD diagnosis until a decade later. And the combination of the two with the schizoaffective diagnosis blocked me from a clean AS diagnosis about 15 years back. I'm going to get reevaluated as it's clear that it's reeking havoc on my life and any effort I put to get some integrity with myself is going to improve my quality of life immensely.
It's a bit of a load off the mind knowing, isn't it?
I want to seek a diagnosis but I can’t afford it where I live 😢
That is why Self Realized Autism is accepted in the community. Sending hugs. ❤️❤️❤️
@@i.am.mindblindany suggestions for what to do if you hit burnout at a job you’ve done for a long time that isn’t a good fit…if you self diagnose how in the world do you try and transition to another line of work? Meds cost and no therapy without insurance….what do you do then?
Wait, I knew others saw imagery… but they sense things in their mind too?
Yep! Totally wild, right? Like the visualization how strong the other senses are in people vary too. I'm totally a blank in my mind sense wise!
@@i.am.mindblind i may be as well but I’ll have to think on it a bit. I know I can’t ‘picture’ something. I can describe it in great detail and remember colors but not in an imagery way- more in a mixing way. I can identify if a colour is a slight shade off something I saw before because it may have more white pigment or orange pigment…
Brains are so neat
Sounds like aphantasia. I can describe stuff but can't see it. I'm usually good at color memory too, but not as good as I used to be. I don't see the color in my mind, but I can often remember if something will match another thing.
@@i.am.mindblind @Heartsmyface Forever this is so interesting to read. I don´t have aphantasia, but also can´t imagine what it is like... the irony huh? Haha
I live w constantly…. Come again!!! What did you say???????????
What is the purpose in getting an autism 'diagnosis'?
It was life changing for me. It answered so many questions about why life was apparently more difficult in certain areas for me. I could never understand why it seemed like I was doing things other people were doing and getting very different results. Why I've struggled to make friends and why people are always misunderstanding me. Why I got labeled as too much, too shy, too sensitive, too picky, too loud. Nope. Just Autistic. It gives me a chance to learn how to accomodate myself and understand I need recovery time. That it's okay the grocery store is overstimulating. There's nothing wrong with me. Just Autistic. Now I wear earplugs and give myself extra time to shop. These are just some reasons...
I am late diagnosed, too. I was 46. So much makes sense now. 🌻
You look younger to me 🙃
I'm at 10:20 or so and I just have to say, my unappreciativeness towards people who are judgy towards others who deviate from the norm in whatsoever way is only growing still. Truly sorry for yoiur lack of capability to understand other people then, pal. Looks like I got one on you there using the power of open mindedness.
Perhaps I misunderstood, but prolonging young woman who speaks or up for herself is wrong and seems to be a form of misogyny.
I don't understand this comment. Can you elaborate?
When did you realize that you were a kid and you had all these kind of different disabilities in life?
I'm not sure I understand your question exactly, but I think you're asking did I realize I was disabled as child? If not, please correct me.
As a child, I knew I was different, I always felt like I was on the outside looking in. I had a hard time making friends. I knew my memory was different than other people. I did not know other people could visualize, I always thought people spoke in metaphors when they said, "picture a beach."
But I learned about aphantasia when I was 38 and very shortly after that I learned the name for my memory disorder, Severly Deficient autobiographical memory. I was 42 when I got diagnosed with autism and adhd and it made my life all make sense.