@@roreo1612 hmm is it your parent whims and desires or i do you believe it is the prophets teachings tell me what happened as there is no compulsion in religion.
@@mgigachad3170 lol what about murder anyone that leaves islam ? do you read the hadith fully ? 3 cases that allows killing : a married person who has sex, if he killed someone , and lastly LEAVING ISLAM
Having mentally ill parents is a fucking trip, especially when they're super overprotective. One minute they're threatening to kill anyone who looks at you wrong, the next minute they're threatening to kill _you._ Half the time you're scuttling to them for comfort and protection because you've been taught to be dependent on them, the other half you're barricading your door and fearing for your life because you've also been taught that there isn't anything they won't do in the throes of an episode. They may not be evil, necessarily, but goddamn are they scary.
This is the most accurate way to describe my mom and I feel a bit nauseous now. One minute she's the "only person who will ever truly have my back and love me no matter what", and the next she's furiously screaming at me to just kms if I want to do it so badly and mocking me when I choke on food.
@@pie1o1morris46 Unfortunately, no. I've recently lost my job and have to get back on my feet. But it's also incredibly expensive to live just about anywhere in FL. I don't know anyone willing to be my roommate. So I'm stuck for a while.
me too and i hate it 😓 its such a good manga and i find it really interesting but if fills me with the most gut wrenching dread and sm anxiety.. i wonder why that is
Realizing that Shuichi’s mother was deliberately trying to ruin his life in every single way the entire time out of some sort of revenge for ruining hers was utterly genius and horrifying at the same time. When she tells Shuichi’s dad she died the day she gave birth to Shuichi in the series she was NOT kidding…I highly recommend MisuMisou (Hepatica Nobilis) by Oshikiri Rensuke btw!
I feel like this manga is essentially "I'm glad my mother died" but it's just fiction... Which is disturbing, considering that the book above tells you the real life experiences of someone who had a possessive, manipulative and absolutely terrifying mother.
As a connosseur of fucked up manga, I'm definitely giving this a read. Reminds me of Oyasumi Punpun (a kid grows up in a dysfunctional environment, becomes a dysfunctional adult) and works of Baka Udon (children growing up with mentally unstable and abusive parents, children committing crimes, lots of uncomfortable topics and sexual violence, a huge emphasis on mental health). Who knows, maybe manga like this can actually make people look at their own lifes in a different light and recognise signs of abuse in themselves and others. I think it's beneficial to make yourself feel uncomfortable and challenged through art sometimes, as long as you are in the right headspace.
@TheManWithToManyEyes I consider myself a regular reader, and I get a lot out of works of art that make me uncomfortable and force me to question my own morality and empathy. How far does one's empathy reach? Could I feel sorry for the mother in this particular manga once we learn her backstory and what drove her to commit the crimes and abuse she did? How much is she to blame, how much is dysfunctional environment she most probably grew up in and trauma she might have gone through to blame? She is responsible for her horrible deeds because she's an adult, but her son also becomes an adult after the timeskip, amd his trauma is still with him. How much is he responsible for acts he might commit in the future? How much is his mother responsible? Should both be jailed, or both be sent to therapy? Is modern psychiatry equipped enough to help them heal? Should their family be morally obliged to support them, or would they be right in completely abandoning both of them? After all, they both caused Shigeru's accidents, leading to him becoming comatose, disabled and then dying. The answers will be very different depending on the reader. As someone who is interested in psychology and has been through therapy myself, I find such questions interesting to think about, and I like to challenge myself. I agree that such works dealing with the sensitive topics of child abuse and mental health might do more harm than good if done badly, but this particular manga looks well-made to me, at least from the video. I think the author did a lot of research before creating it.
This manga absolutely broke me. I actually had to put it down around chapters 83-84 I think. Something about Seichi screaming at the illusion of his mother “why did you have to be miserable? Why couldn’t you be happy for me?” just hit me right in my soul in a way that I can’t really explain. And then the next chapter had Seichi just… accept his psycho mother’s narrative that he’s a ball and chain holding her down, that she was right to attempt to murder him when he was 2 and that he has no right to exist for anything other than her before pushing his cousin down the hill. I couldn’t continue after that.
(spoilers) Just wanted to say, god rest the father's soul. Not only was he the only sane guy in the whole story, he tried so hard to be supportive and keep the family together. That chapter Where the dad died got me hella fucked up
Yeah, I felt really bad for him. He tried to keep the family together and understand them, was still supportive of his son even though his son may not have felt the same, along with the divorce etc; it’s just a tragedy
Reall. I cried so much in that scene. He's the only person who genuinely loves and cares for the mc and then he died. I would've threw hands to everyone I see because of frustrations
i just finished this manga. seiko _and_ seiichi basically wrote him off as just the middle man. a bystander that is a dad & husband..and he _still_ showed up for them because what more _could_ he do? this goes on in a lot of dysfunctional households & i feel like the manga captured this really well
I know this as Blood on the Trail and i just... I got so far until I had to stop. I started thinking about it when I was trying to sleep. Ooshimi is such a good artist and the facial expressions he shows hit such a specific nerve. Not just overprotective but also possessive. It's so so so upsetting and scary.
same. i already have a rocky relationship with my parents, and reading this made me even more paranoid. i swore i could feel them watching me while i slept. when i woke up i thought i could see their shadow out the corners of my eyes. shit was wild
Junji Ito and this is comparing apples to pears. Both are great but in a totally different way. Blood on the tracks is crazy I started reading it about a year ago and it really REALLY hit me. The thrill is amazing
Yeah, Junji Ito is more “what if this happened” (that’s how he described his thought process for creating his stories), and Shuzo is “this happens irl, so let’s make a story about it”. Shuzo is more visceral imo, even if his stories contain a fictional element, because the situations do happen irl. Even “Nora” was visceral to read because the cult situation happens irl, and I thought the high schoolers were depicted realistically as well. Gosho, especially was moving to read. She was well fleshed out, and the ending was perfect.
Junji Itou is more like taking mundane things in real life and eldriching them with some existintial horror thrown in. This is more real world horror because we know there are people like this in real life. The closest story Junji Itou has to something like that is The Bully and No Longer Human which is an adaption of another story about mental illness. Horror grounded in reality.
I wonder if Seichi's mom disowned him on his court date because she finally snapped and declared her duty as a mom over. Did she even want Seichi in the first place or did she just settle down in the role of mom because she got knocked up and just had to stop her life just because she had Seichi? How fucking messed up would that be if that's the case? Your parent blaming you for them not getting the chance to live their own life because they have "responsibilities". Seichi never got a normal life because his overbearing mom believed that she needed to be the living embodiment of Norma Bates from *Psycho.* It's like she believes this, "A parent sacrifices everything when they have to raise a child, especially their mental health."
It's a weird thing, I think she truly does hate him, never wanted a child and such but that conflicts with how a mother should feel right, so she swung completely to the other direction being overprotective to the craziest degree but no matter how much she tries to hide it she hated him, so much she tried to kill him, because her physical act failed when he was 3 she resorted to killing him psychologically his "self", she made him an extension of herself, doesn't see him as his own person. I find it interesting that she changed her whole stance after sei got arrested, before she admitted to killing the shigechi but then once her son did it she changed completely, It's like that scene where sei pushed him off and killed him, with that she finally managed to "Kill" sei because shigechi was representing sei himself during that scene. So now Sei is useless to her, he is no longer a burden for her because he has "metaphorically died"
she reminds me so much of my mother it is unnerving. even in the way her smile is drawn.. my mother is a paranoid schizophrenic and has been since she was young. she did not raise me because of this so when we finally did come together again she will not leave my side and is hostile toward anyone who approaches me. shell sit and stare at me for hours if we are in the same room. love her with my entire heart but she scares me
I literally stopped the video when you mentioned the part where the cousin looks for the protagonist and went straight to read the manga !!! I was so disturbed and surprised by it, this video is one of the best reviews I've seen, I'd made me want to read it so strongly!!!! thank you for making this video, I went though the whole manga in a few hours, it's currently 6 am in my country and I'm going to sleep asking myself soooo many questions, I hope the next chapter comes out soon, I need more !!!
The moments where Seiko discovers Seichi's time with his crush are scary, but there's also a surreal moment that had me seriously creeped out. I think it's during Seichi's imprisonment, but it's a vision of himself naked and walking though the snow, withering and melting and screaming, "MOMMY". Ugh.
I know this comment is a year old, but I completely agree. That panel was the stuff of nightmares for me. It reminded me of Stephen Gammell's art in Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark. It's incredibly unsettling, and I can actually hear Seiichi's harrowing screams being scarily raspy as hell due to his withering - covered in blood. There are just so many terrifying panels in this manga that it sticks with you, even more so than any petrifying Junji Ito panels I've seen.
This didn't disturb me honestly, the only thing I felt worried about was witnessing or hearing about some s_xual ass_ult happening but I didn't. This mother reminds me of my own mother. I've gotten used to the story about a crazy woman making sure her child is dependent on her so they would come to her for comfort and so she could abuse them and toy with them however she likes because they're too scared to do anything about it. It made me think about why people are phased by that but then I realised, yeah, that's not normal. It felt strange. I might give this a read. The fact that the manga continues when the main character is an adult is really interesting to me. And the artstyle is gorgeous.
I feel like I’m going crazy, I’ve definitely read this story in synopsis form before, but I was under the impression it was a novel. No doubt this is an original story, yeah? I can’t believe I didn’t know it was a manga! That art is crazy!
the most terrifying thing about this manga is that is fcking real. its about mental issues and inability to deal with ptsd. I was unable to stop reading it even though i hated every chapter. I feel so tired now because i kept hoping it will get weird enough not to be real, but it didnt. It was super weird but believable, so believable i would say its a true story.
Don’t think I’d be able to read this manga as I grew up in an abusive household and I’m still struggling with the mental scars from my childhood. Thank you for the video though
Oshimi doea this uncanny valley facial expression thing with the mother that's really masterful. Like, how do you draw fake expressions? Its impressive (and unnerving). Amazing use of space too
7:56 this smile looks so innocent, but so fake and unreal. I kept challenging myself to look at it by my God. It gives me this primal fear that I can’t seem to explain. It looks like nothing, yet holds even the darkest intentions.
Honestly throughout the whole reading I never once felt terrified or unsettled by Seiko, I felt very sorry for her :( and Seichi too ofc, I dont find this manga terrifying or unsettling, it's just very sad.
Imagine being a child and having to cover up for your mother's attempted murder. And then she swings between love bombing you, and throwing you out of the house, disowning you when you act the way you believe she'd have wanted you to. That's, to me, is a terrifying situation to picture.
@@SeppukuDoll It is terrifying, but ultimately, I see this as a very sad story. I have certain experiences with family members like this, and I remember that when I was a child that I thought I was in an inescapable hell. I just thought it was so unfair, but as an adult, I just see what happened as sad and doe to people’s unwillingness to admit they have a problem and get help. Instead it was easier blame the people around them because that’s what their parents did and their grandparents and so on. At the same time I fully understand that nothing could have changed the outcome of what happened because ultimately the issue was with the people, and they refused to get help despite being told how damaging they were to themselves and the family. The only person who did get help got it when it was too late and the damage was already cemented into my psyche. I guess you could say I saw every character’s pov in the manga, and felt a sense of unmotivated acceptance to the fate of Seiichi. The ending with an older Seiichi was well done imo, and incredibly spot on.
The ending left me so empty, I mean Seichi finally got to be free from he's mother, but he's alone forever, the part where he meets he's past girlfriend again made me feel horrible, I'm hopeful so in my head he's happier at the end, trauma never really leaves you it just becomes a part of you.
This is my first time hearing of this manga, actually. My God, what a journey this was, and to find out that this was only the start of it had my jaw dropping. Your voice is incredibly soothing to listen to, by the way! Great video.
Regarding the realistic part, as someone’s who’s also suffered abuse from their mother, it honestly hit way too close to me. My own mother isn’t this extreme of course, and this is a horror manga after all, but so many things that Seiiko do are far too terrifyingly real. My mom in particular. She always smiles. They share that in common. The overprotectiveness, isolating you, calling you “dirty” (if you know what scene I am referencing, you know) I moved out and think there is hope for my mom. She may never be perfect, but still. This manga was a dreadful read that spit the most horrifying possibilities of what could have happened to me as a kid, and that as a kid my anxious mind was worried about. It is a wonderful manga, but my god, is it heavy. But in a way, I think we need more stories realistically exploring the horrors of being a child in this environment. People don’t really realize just… How abuse can happen in so many forms. Awareness is important. So even if a horrifying read, I hope some people walked away with sympathy for us abuse victims in their heart at least
The timeskip might be jarring but it's definitely not a first for Shuuzo Oshimi. As a fan of his previous work, Aku No Hana, I might even say that I'm optimistic that Chi No Wadachi will handle its timeskip well. The timeskip in Aku No Hana isn't as extreme as Chi No Wadachi but its tonal shift might be. It went from a pretty screwed up coming-of-age, psychological thriller story with a nihilistic undertone to a somewhat gripping romance. The timeskip also somehow managed to tie up all the loose ends nicely without being too on the nose. Though, truth to be told, I've only read Chi No Wadachi until the 90ish chapter (before the timeskip) and have only been made aware of the timeskip by this video. But now that I know about the timeskip and I know how well Oshimi did it with Aku No Hana, I might start reading Chi No Wadachi again. I really never would have thought that I'd thank someone for spoilers but truly, thanks.
I just finished the entire series and now I am waiting for the 141st chapter and I absolutely loved this manga. so well made and so unsettling the artist is truly a master in his art
wow i got to the point where the mom went to jail and stopped there like a year or two ago. I didn’t realize it was going to go that direction omg you inspired me to reread the whole thing this weekend. The fact it’s only the prologue is crazy aha I cannot wait to see where the story goes
That nephew kinda deserved it. Ever seen The Good Son? That cousin was basically gearing up to be like the lil sh1t from that movie until auntie went psycho first. The whole fam seems effed, pft.
This manga is really similar to the manhwa Bastard, in which the MC's father is a serial killer and forces him to take part in those heinous acts as well
This is why some ppl rly shouldn’t have kids. Like if you know or rly arent in a good mental state (or other circumstances) to love/take care of another life when you can barely help yourself w/o assistance then yea you shouldn’t be having kids. You’ll only force them through things that no kid should ever have to go through. Take care of yourself first
Nice video! I’ve watched the Super Eyepatch Wolf video, so I know about this manga. You seriously have a lot of potential my friend! I wish you great amounts of happiness and success! :)
Just finished this series after a 2 year hiatus. The last book just dropped. It wasn’t a picture book ending; it was bittersweet. Overall, incredible story and art. Fantastic read.
That character type really reminds me of Neumann, one of the main characters of Apocalypse no Toride. It's that same feeling of, like... everyone on the outside looking in and seeing a young boy who loves his mother and a doting mother who is loving and sometimes overbearing... but when you look closer, it's revealed that the mother is fucking nuts and the young son is being put under an insane amount of pressure to keep up appearances and doing anyrhing he can to keep himself or anyone else from upsetting mom because shes an inch away from just, like, completely fucking snapping
@picturethis4903 can I diagnose my own mother as someone who was mentally and physically abused 20 years in a row literally every day just for existing? Thank you A sociopath is a sociopath. I don't care that the term was changed to "antisocial personality disorder" because aww poor abusers' feelings were hurt. You can go and touch grass Also you can go and f**k yourself. My mother had narcissistic personality disorder. You're not the one to decide she didn't. You weren't abused by this person.
@seraphimme no, she was a sociopath and a narcissist. I've been studying these disorders for about a decade and believe me I knew who I lived with for 20 years. And my mother had pretty much every symptom of these disorders. You can't forbid me to call narcissist a narcissist. There's a stigma for a reason. They are sadists who destroy their own children. B cluster (psychopaths, sociopaths and narcissists) don't deserve compassion because they're unable to give it to others in the first place.
@@picturethis4903 thank you I hate when people throw the word narcissistic sociopath psychopath inorder to describe people like These words are attached to personality disorders My sister uses word narcissistic as an adjective at the same time she says that she's not blaming mental illness 🙄 It's sad that these words are thrown here and there creating stigma
"Just the prologue" that cements the horror of this for me, because I've made it up to vol 12 already, and figured the time skip part to come was the downer conclusion. Guess not, tho!
when I got to the part where she shoved him off the cliff I audibly gasped, shuzo is a master of setting up a nice moment then grabbing you by the throat
This manga literally broke me. I read from chapter 20 to 120 in one sitting, nonstop. The entire situation is just messed up, and extremely realistic; the horror being very human and personal. The whole manga is stretched out with the art meant to be read at a slow pace, the framing body language etc is so uncanny but normal. I had a black and white view of the story line like “mom=bad”; until the certain twists, and I just had an entirely different view of the whole thing. I was extremely glad for Sei to finally seem to get happiness around chapter 80 etc; but then it all gets ruined by what he does to shigeru, prolly a boiling up of all the issues and mental illness. Everything literally crashes down, until we fast forward in time. Now the story is at a slower pace, and I just can’t believe what happened. It’s just a whole tragedy, of undiagnosed illness and trauma being passed down, ruining lives intentionally or not, with its victims seemingly out of control. You just hope that sei gets happy at this point, but nothing seems to go right. I was just hoping that he could get any semblance of inner peace with his mother, that the 2 could finally understand their pains and reconcile and etc etc etc. This manga broke me
This manga really proved to me that real people who are fucked up are scarier than ghosts or any other scary characters from horror stories. I literally couldn't sleep that day after finishing this manga. They were right when they said you should be prepared mentally before reading this manga. The creator of this manga really did a great job in terms of the story and the mother's emotional manipulation. Too convincing that I was actually getting gaslit too lmao. And not to mention that the art is excellent too -- the parts where he was in juvenile detention, the art was too disturbing, just as disturbing as his mental state at that moment. I love me some fucked up manga but if you have a heart made of glass, don't read late at night or if you're not mentally okay coz this ruined me for DAYS 💀💀
Oh my god I remember reading this as a 13 year old kid about to be 14 I remember a TH-camr called super eyepatch wolf who talked about it and wanted to give it a go. Reading the thing was horrifying but in such an interesting way that it made me love the story for it’s dark depictions of mother son relationships. It’s really what kickstarted my love for psychological suspense/triller stories. I want to reread it when I’m older ( like mid twenties ) because I know that there’s a possibility some parts of the story flew over my head at that age and want to see if I could find aspects of the story that I previously couldn’t see in my last read though. Another story that It reminded me of was inside Mari. A guy who seems to have swapped bodies with a girl and it’s not really the usual “LHH NOO SUCH QUIRKY STUFF” It really delves deep into the psychology of having your body swap with another person and just having to deal with it. I remember reading it and the ending was like super fucking relatable for reasons I won’t get into cuz I really think it’s worth a read. I tired reading oyasumi pun pun aswell but I feel I’m not old enough to feel the full gravity of the story ( also like I ran out of steam for reading manga during this time ) so I stopped reading it. It really is a good manga and I really wanna pick it back up soon. So yea, thanks supereyepatch wolf. You’ve officially started my spiral into really fucked up manga stories LMAO
Ironically I'm reading this manga with my own mom lol. This series is insane! Just when you think seiichi is out something happens and he's dragged back into the toxicity that is his mother. And sometimes he goes back without being gaslit or blackmailed by his mother, adding an additional layer of tragedy. Making you wonder if he could ever break the terrible cycle that his mother shackled him to. I cannot put this manga down but I am intensely uncomfortable. It's like a train crash I just NEED to know
Read them both, found them absolutely spine snappingly uncomfortable - and will do videos in both 😉 - but there's something so intensely real and personal about this manga that makes it feel so real
I read this manga in a day after being intrigued by your video, initially going through I didn’t think much of the way you described it. It didn’t have much on effect on me… until I went to bed and I can honestly say I was consumed by a feeling of dread. It was like I couldn’t comprehend from my initial read how horrific everything was unfolding and I had just been repressing it but once I was alone trying to sleep and make sense of the story everything just felt awful. Incredible.
My brother pushed me a little in front t of a cliff, I'm terrified of heights so my legs gave out, he had to catch me as I was falling, otherwise I would fell off
I totally forgot about this manga, not because I didn't like it but because I caught up and decided to just let the chapter pile up. So, holy fuck, time to get back to it.
Been reading it so far and agreed. If you want to "elevate" the manga experience even more, pop on your headphones and play those more subtle horror soundtracks like "Hereditary" or "Midsommar" while reading. I did that to help me focus on the manga once & found they uncomfortably fit together well
This seems like a very interesting manga. I personally didn’t find the art terrifying or even scary but maybe I just have to read it for myself to get the full affect. My interest is definitely peaked.
Talking about how you have no idea where the story could go from there just reminds me of when I was reading Oyasumi Punpun, which I originally started reading before the final chapter had been released. My brother and I were both reading it and discussing it, and neither of us had ANY idea how the fuck that series was going to end, because everything leading up to that point was just... so wildly horrifying and heartbreaking. There was just this point of like... what's left? What else could possibly happen? Where do they even go from here?
Like yeah, Junji Ito is definitely master when it comes to very lovecraftian, cosmic horror that is more about the great unknown, brutal gore and body horror. But I've always though that Oshimi Shuzo is the absolute mastermind when it comes to more psychological realistic horror, the type that borders almost supernatural but never crosses the line and ends up being all about you, your emotions and dealing with them. The way he conveys anxiety for example just through his linework is fantastic. I heavily recommend Mari no Naka and Aku no Hana as well.
I was going to write a comment about how I found the manga to be weird af and that I didn't get it. Then I read the chapters I missed. I saw myself in that woman, even though I'm not insane. Just a tiny bit, on how far away things are. The distance. I'm not going to go crazy. But I might be all alone just like her.
It wasn’t until this video that I realized something. I had always watched people review this video from time to time just to test my memory or find new facts since I’ve never read it but time and time again there’s always something at the end of said video that I find out something new. This is probably my 7th or 8th video about it and I just realized that this series is actually not as old as I for some reason thought and it hasn’t finished😭 Idky my mind thinks that manga w that certain type of art style and quality to the story is something that just doesn’t happen anymore bruh lmao
I'm here after reaching chapter 137 and I feel numb and my stomach hurts. Not even Oyasumi Punpun made me feel like this. With Punpun I related to him and felt his pain because almost everyone around him was awful in one way or another it almost felt like... life was hoping for him to fail (I will not say anything more to avoid spoilers) but with this manga I felt everyone's pain. And this feeling came more because everyone's reaction felt too real. They were kind, they were angry, they were sad. The father broke my heart. And the mom... I felt fear. I felt like I was unpacking repressed memories that weren't even mine and just seeing the timeskip and how he is living a normal life with the pain. Just damn. Life just hurts and it hurt me that it was this real. That life is just tragic for many of us.
Super Eyepatch Wolf's video was what got me to read CnW, and at first it was a contender for my favourite manga ever. 130+ chapters in... Yeah it's gotten stale for *me*. A horror manga's strongest aspect is timing and not overplaying the scares it delivers. With CnW getting so long, it reads more like trauma porn and the horror doesn't hit as hard as it did before. I had the same experience with Aku no Hana (another work by the same mangaka) where by the end I was too desensitized to care about the characters like I did initially. I wish CnW was either condensed or ended before the timeskip. Still, I like hearing other people's perspectives on this manga, since there's a lot to unpack there.
I think the difference for me is it feels less like a *horror* manga now and more like a psychological thriller. The fear for me now is the constant undercurrent of uncertainty, wondering where it could go from here. I'm hopeful for a happy ending though, or at least as happy for Seiichi as possible
despite how insane part 1 is, I was STILL caught off guard by the tea scene in part 2 and still so conflicted on it. I absolutely hate seiko and her backstory doesn't make me any more empathetic but I also don't want seiichi to go down an even worse road. god this manga is just so good
I feel like one should be empathetic towards Seiko, especially with the most recent chapters, but being sympathetic would be too much. Generational trauma is no joke.
I enjoy that though, it's a story about trauma. You don't get big dramatic conclusions, if you're lucky you get some closure with the people responsible and you can move on
@@kapiljain5933 shes just really off putting ig, its stressful. i think she was abused or neglected by her parents? my memory is foggy now since its been a while, she like feels like an outcast. its honestly kind of hard for me to place why i find her scary, she just is to me
Have you watched Lars Von Trier's Antichrist? When the whole story is about these heartbroken mother and father after their toddler loses his footing and falls out a window? And they go to a cabin in the countryside so that she can finish her thesis and get some mental peace? And then it turned out the toddler had tripped because mommy had purposely been deforming his feet by switching his feet in hopes of making him fall down the stairs? Remember that feeling of horror when you understood the mother was a monster and planned it all along? Yeah that's this manga's vibe
@@Wanderer8008 I did after writing this comment haha she'd left the window open too and saw he was gonna fall but kept having sex with the father to keep him distracted
I wanted to watch this video but I didn’t want spoilers so I binged 137 chapters in a night…I like what it’s doing. Spoilers below . . . . I don’t know I think based on the conversation he was having with his mother about her own trauma I feel like we are kind of approaching the end? Obviously I could be totally wrong but it kind of feels like a conclusion to the thought process if that makes sense.
Great video from what I saw but I had to stop because the last bit I saw was seiichi having his mental breakdown in court. Didn't know about the time skip. I need to catch up
I don't even know how to feel after I just finished the Manga but what I do know is that it changed me and I cried lot. I've read all of his Manga and one thing I can say is that shuzo knows how to write a good ending just like flowers of evil till date one of the best ending to a series I've seen. You can feel the dread in each chapter the fact that he used rough sketch to decipt some of the art later on in the series is crazy. This Manga fucked me up
If u enjoyed this one (like I did) consider reading his other works like: flowers of evil/ Boku wa Mari no naka/ Happiness/ drifting net cafe/ Okaeri Alice (still being published I think). Idk what it is about this author but everthing he does is incredibly interesting to me. He traps me everytime
Crazy to think the mangas still going to this day. Remember coming across it when MangaPanda was the main thing I'd use for weekly chapters in Jump, never thought itd be a triple digit story. Definitely something that hit me back then, though not as much as it has others for reasons that have probably desensitized me towards the idea of a psychotic mother and family prying for answers. Glad to see non Jump properties like this gain a fanbase without an anime to back it like most do.
I read this in 2020. ***Spoilers ahead*** I got past him helping the police. And then he pushes his cousin. I just noped out. Because I felt like those around him failed him. He's going through trauma and everyone pays it any mind. So of course its gonna build up and blow his top. But the fact, the literal fact that this woman said "lol whoops." And was released?! I know these characters aren't real. But people like this are real. Which is terrifying. Because kids shouldn't experience trauma, manipulation, and love bombing from anyone. Especially a parent. This video was so well done. I hope you do more for the series.
Reading this made me feel anxious as it reminded me of when I was 11 and my mom was on antidepressants after my sisters birth and she would hate seeing us. She was very hostile toward me my and my dad and never came out the room unless it was to use the bathroom and eat. And during those times I would frequently have dreams of going to the room to take the blanket of her face slowly and seeing the expression on her face knowing she wanted to harm me.
I don't know if it's because I've read a lot of uncanny valley manga, movies - hell, horror is my jam, but A trail of blood was eh. Supersniperwolf recommended this as the most scariest manga he ever read, that caught my attention I read it up until the mom confesses and was getting sent to prison and I just dropped it. I just... I don't care. It was interesting until it wasn't.
I haven't read it cuz #mommyissues, but now that I'm moving out i think i'll do to cope with the fact that the "most meaninful" relatioship in my life was so fucked up from the start, but I'm no longer under their rule
I felt like shit after finishing this series. It jumbled my thoughts for a couple days and made me aprecciate my parents with all my heart( even tho Seiichi’s dad wasn’t a bad person at all)
*laughing in middle eastern muslim girl voice*. Seiichi you've seen nothing yet
This comment contains much foreboding and I love it 🤣
damn sister what happend to you
@@mgigachad3170 islam
@@roreo1612 hmm is it your parent whims and desires or i do you believe it is the prophets teachings tell me what happened as there is no compulsion in religion.
@@mgigachad3170 lol what about murder anyone that leaves islam ? do you read the hadith fully ? 3 cases that allows killing : a married person who has sex, if he killed someone , and lastly LEAVING ISLAM
Having mentally ill parents is a fucking trip, especially when they're super overprotective. One minute they're threatening to kill anyone who looks at you wrong, the next minute they're threatening to kill _you._ Half the time you're scuttling to them for comfort and protection because you've been taught to be dependent on them, the other half you're barricading your door and fearing for your life because you've also been taught that there isn't anything they won't do in the throes of an episode.
They may not be evil, necessarily, but goddamn are they scary.
They are evil
Mentally and physically abusing a child is pure evil
This is the most accurate way to describe my mom and I feel a bit nauseous now. One minute she's the "only person who will ever truly have my back and love me no matter what", and the next she's furiously screaming at me to just kms if I want to do it so badly and mocking me when I choke on food.
@@ziigiiziig I'm so sorry you're having to go through that. Do you have anyone you can go to for help/support?
@@pie1o1morris46 Unfortunately, no. I've recently lost my job and have to get back on my feet. But it's also incredibly expensive to live just about anywhere in FL. I don't know anyone willing to be my roommate. So I'm stuck for a while.
@@ziigiiziig I'm sorry that really sucks. I wish you luck in getting out of your situation. I'm available if you need someone to vent to.
This manga made me feel horrible when I was reading it, it filled me with a deep and lingering anxiety
Word.
True
This one and Goodnight Pun Pun both hit me HARD. Incredibly scary and disturbing stories.
same i loved it
me too and i hate it 😓 its such a good manga and i find it really interesting but if fills me with the most gut wrenching dread and sm anxiety.. i wonder why that is
Realizing that Shuichi’s mother was deliberately trying to ruin his life in every single way the entire time out of some sort of revenge for ruining hers was utterly genius and horrifying at the same time.
When she tells Shuichi’s dad she died the day she gave birth to Shuichi in the series she was NOT kidding…I highly recommend MisuMisou (Hepatica Nobilis) by Oshikiri Rensuke btw!
Thanks for spoiling it my guy, hope your house collapses
I feel like this manga is essentially "I'm glad my mother died" but it's just fiction... Which is disturbing, considering that the book above tells you the real life experiences of someone who had a possessive, manipulative and absolutely terrifying mother.
Honestly, I'm thinking about it and I see it, freaky..
by jennette mccurdy?
As a connosseur of fucked up manga, I'm definitely giving this a read. Reminds me of Oyasumi Punpun (a kid grows up in a dysfunctional environment, becomes a dysfunctional adult) and works of Baka Udon (children growing up with mentally unstable and abusive parents, children committing crimes, lots of uncomfortable topics and sexual violence, a huge emphasis on mental health). Who knows, maybe manga like this can actually make people look at their own lifes in a different light and recognise signs of abuse in themselves and others. I think it's beneficial to make yourself feel uncomfortable and challenged through art sometimes, as long as you are in the right headspace.
@TheManWithToManyEyes I consider myself a regular reader, and I get a lot out of works of art that make me uncomfortable and force me to question my own morality and empathy. How far does one's empathy reach? Could I feel sorry for the mother in this particular manga once we learn her backstory and what drove her to commit the crimes and abuse she did? How much is she to blame, how much is dysfunctional environment she most probably grew up in and trauma she might have gone through to blame? She is responsible for her horrible deeds because she's an adult, but her son also becomes an adult after the timeskip, amd his trauma is still with him. How much is he responsible for acts he might commit in the future? How much is his mother responsible? Should both be jailed, or both be sent to therapy? Is modern psychiatry equipped enough to help them heal? Should their family be morally obliged to support them, or would they be right in completely abandoning both of them? After all, they both caused Shigeru's accidents, leading to him becoming comatose, disabled and then dying. The answers will be very different depending on the reader. As someone who is interested in psychology and has been through therapy myself, I find such questions interesting to think about, and I like to challenge myself. I agree that such works dealing with the sensitive topics of child abuse and mental health might do more harm than good if done badly, but this particular manga looks well-made to me, at least from the video. I think the author did a lot of research before creating it.
I’d love to see your message here when you’ve read it, it would be nice to have additional insights into this
This manga absolutely broke me. I actually had to put it down around chapters 83-84 I think. Something about Seichi screaming at the illusion of his mother “why did you have to be miserable? Why couldn’t you be happy for me?” just hit me right in my soul in a way that I can’t really explain. And then the next chapter had Seichi just… accept his psycho mother’s narrative that he’s a ball and chain holding her down, that she was right to attempt to murder him when he was 2 and that he has no right to exist for anything other than her before pushing his cousin down the hill. I couldn’t continue after that.
oh man i hope you do some day. i started 2 days ago already finished. the final third of the story is simply heartbreaking tho :/
new chapter in 2 days apparently
This is one of the mangas I would not want in my book shelf because I just feel a sort of 'evil' seeping from it.
All of Shuzo’s manga are dark and brilliant!
I need to put more of their stuff on my TBR list then!
He is one my fav mangaka!
@@Wanderer8008 he does a vampire story called Happiness I believe
(spoilers) Just wanted to say, god rest the father's soul. Not only was he the only sane guy in the whole story, he tried so hard to be supportive and keep the family together.
That chapter Where the dad died got me hella fucked up
Need refresher what chap is his dad died?
@@stalinsoulz7872 it's after the time skip so yea
Yeah, I felt really bad for him. He tried to keep the family together and understand them, was still supportive of his son even though his son may not have felt the same, along with the divorce etc; it’s just a tragedy
Reall. I cried so much in that scene. He's the only person who genuinely loves and cares for the mc and then he died. I would've threw hands to everyone I see because of frustrations
i just finished this manga. seiko _and_ seiichi basically wrote him off as just the middle man. a bystander that is a dad & husband..and he _still_ showed up for them because what more _could_ he do? this goes on in a lot of dysfunctional households & i feel like the manga captured this really well
I know this as Blood on the Trail and i just... I got so far until I had to stop. I started thinking about it when I was trying to sleep. Ooshimi is such a good artist and the facial expressions he shows hit such a specific nerve. Not just overprotective but also possessive. It's so so so upsetting and scary.
Also, massive warning to anyone if you have specific trauma to do with parental abuse and especially CSA.
Blood on the Tracks not on the trail.
same. i already have a rocky relationship with my parents, and reading this made me even more paranoid. i swore i could feel them watching me while i slept. when i woke up i thought i could see their shadow out the corners of my eyes. shit was wild
This manga reminds me of my grandmother and how she treated my dad. So many parallels.
Man wtf do y mean by that
@Nico2060% it's not that hard to understand
Junji Ito and this is comparing apples to pears. Both are great but in a totally different way.
Blood on the tracks is crazy I started reading it about a year ago and it really REALLY hit me. The thrill is amazing
Yeah, Junji Ito is more “what if this happened” (that’s how he described his thought process for creating his stories), and Shuzo is “this happens irl, so let’s make a story about it”. Shuzo is more visceral imo, even if his stories contain a fictional element, because the situations do happen irl. Even “Nora” was visceral to read because the cult situation happens irl, and I thought the high schoolers were depicted realistically as well. Gosho, especially was moving to read. She was well fleshed out, and the ending was perfect.
Junji Itou is more like taking mundane things in real life and eldriching them with some existintial horror thrown in. This is more real world horror because we know there are people like this in real life. The closest story Junji Itou has to something like that is The Bully and No Longer Human which is an adaption of another story about mental illness. Horror grounded in reality.
I wonder if Seichi's mom disowned him on his court date because she finally snapped and declared her duty as a mom over. Did she even want Seichi in the first place or did she just settle down in the role of mom because she got knocked up and just had to stop her life just because she had Seichi? How fucking messed up would that be if that's the case?
Your parent blaming you for them not getting the chance to live their own life because they have "responsibilities". Seichi never got a normal life because his overbearing mom believed that she needed to be the living embodiment of Norma Bates from *Psycho.* It's like she believes this, "A parent sacrifices everything when they have to raise a child, especially their mental health."
It is, and that's exactly what happens.
@@wyattnorton9784 I guess, the Norma Bates comparison fits like a glove.
It's a weird thing, I think she truly does hate him, never wanted a child and such but that conflicts with how a mother should feel right, so she swung completely to the other direction being overprotective to the craziest degree but no matter how much she tries to hide it she hated him, so much she tried to kill him, because her physical act failed when he was 3 she resorted to killing him psychologically his "self", she made him an extension of herself, doesn't see him as his own person. I find it interesting that she changed her whole stance after sei got arrested, before she admitted to killing the shigechi but then once her son did it she changed completely, It's like that scene where sei pushed him off and killed him, with that she finally managed to "Kill" sei because shigechi was representing sei himself during that scene. So now Sei is useless to her, he is no longer a burden for her because he has "metaphorically died"
she reminds me so much of my mother it is unnerving. even in the way her smile is drawn.. my mother is a paranoid schizophrenic and has been since she was young. she did not raise me because of this so when we finally did come together again she will not leave my side and is hostile toward anyone who approaches me. shell sit and stare at me for hours if we are in the same room. love her with my entire heart but she scares me
I literally stopped the video when you mentioned the part where the cousin looks for the protagonist and went straight to read the manga !!! I was so disturbed and surprised by it, this video is one of the best reviews I've seen, I'd made me want to read it so strongly!!!! thank you for making this video, I went though the whole manga in a few hours, it's currently 6 am in my country and I'm going to sleep asking myself soooo many questions, I hope the next chapter comes out soon, I need more !!!
The moments where Seiko discovers Seichi's time with his crush are scary, but there's also a surreal moment that had me seriously creeped out. I think it's during Seichi's imprisonment, but it's a vision of himself naked and walking though the snow, withering and melting and screaming, "MOMMY". Ugh.
I know this comment is a year old, but I completely agree. That panel was the stuff of nightmares for me. It reminded me of Stephen Gammell's art in Scary Stories to Tell in the Dark. It's incredibly unsettling, and I can actually hear Seiichi's harrowing screams being scarily raspy as hell due to his withering - covered in blood.
There are just so many terrifying panels in this manga that it sticks with you, even more so than any petrifying Junji Ito panels I've seen.
This didn't disturb me honestly, the only thing I felt worried about was witnessing or hearing about some s_xual ass_ult happening but I didn't. This mother reminds me of my own mother. I've gotten used to the story about a crazy woman making sure her child is dependent on her so they would come to her for comfort and so she could abuse them and toy with them however she likes because they're too scared to do anything about it. It made me think about why people are phased by that but then I realised, yeah, that's not normal. It felt strange.
I might give this a read. The fact that the manga continues when the main character is an adult is really interesting to me. And the artstyle is gorgeous.
I feel like I’m going crazy, I’ve definitely read this story in synopsis form before, but I was under the impression it was a novel. No doubt this is an original story, yeah? I can’t believe I didn’t know it was a manga! That art is crazy!
There was another popular video summarizing the manga a few years ago. Maybe you’ve seen it and just don’t remember?
Did you watch the video by Super Eyepatch Wolf?
the most terrifying thing about this manga is that is fcking real. its about mental issues and inability to deal with ptsd. I was unable to stop reading it even though i hated every chapter. I feel so tired now because i kept hoping it will get weird enough not to be real, but it didnt. It was super weird but believable, so believable i would say its a true story.
Don’t think I’d be able to read this manga as I grew up in an abusive household and I’m still struggling with the mental scars from my childhood. Thank you for the video though
“ATONE, FOR HAVING GIVEN BIRTH TO ME. ATONE.”
i had a fucked childhood too. but fucked up media in general is very therapeutic for me
Oshimi doea this uncanny valley facial expression thing with the mother that's really masterful. Like, how do you draw fake expressions? Its impressive (and unnerving). Amazing use of space too
7:56 this smile looks so innocent, but so fake and unreal. I kept challenging myself to look at it by my God. It gives me this primal fear that I can’t seem to explain. It looks like nothing, yet holds even the darkest intentions.
Honestly throughout the whole reading I never once felt terrified or unsettled by Seiko, I felt very sorry for her :( and Seichi too ofc, I dont find this manga terrifying or unsettling, it's just very sad.
Imagine being a child and having to cover up for your mother's attempted murder. And then she swings between love bombing you, and throwing you out of the house, disowning you when you act the way you believe she'd have wanted you to. That's, to me, is a terrifying situation to picture.
@@SeppukuDoll It is terrifying, but ultimately, I see this as a very sad story. I have certain experiences with family members like this, and I remember that when I was a child that I thought I was in an inescapable hell. I just thought it was so unfair, but as an adult, I just see what happened as sad and doe to people’s unwillingness to admit they have a problem and get help. Instead it was easier blame the people around them because that’s what their parents did and their grandparents and so on. At the same time I fully understand that nothing could have changed the outcome of what happened because ultimately the issue was with the people, and they refused to get help despite being told how damaging they were to themselves and the family. The only person who did get help got it when it was too late and the damage was already cemented into my psyche. I guess you could say I saw every character’s pov in the manga, and felt a sense of unmotivated acceptance to the fate of Seiichi. The ending with an older Seiichi was well done imo, and incredibly spot on.
The ending left me so empty, I mean Seichi finally got to be free from he's mother, but he's alone forever, the part where he meets he's past girlfriend again made me feel horrible, I'm hopeful so in my head he's happier at the end, trauma never really leaves you it just becomes a part of you.
This is my first time hearing of this manga, actually. My God, what a journey this was, and to find out that this was only the start of it had my jaw dropping. Your voice is incredibly soothing to listen to, by the way! Great video.
This was a really good watch! I agree so much with everything you said - this manga is so amazing because it’s so fucked up 😭 messed me up for days
I'm still reeling from it, definitely has a place in my top 10 horror manga forever
Regarding the realistic part, as someone’s who’s also suffered abuse from their mother, it honestly hit way too close to me. My own mother isn’t this extreme of course, and this is a horror manga after all, but so many things that Seiiko do are far too terrifyingly real.
My mom in particular. She always smiles. They share that in common. The overprotectiveness, isolating you, calling you “dirty” (if you know what scene I am referencing, you know)
I moved out and think there is hope for my mom. She may never be perfect, but still. This manga was a dreadful read that spit the most horrifying possibilities of what could have happened to me as a kid, and that as a kid my anxious mind was worried about.
It is a wonderful manga, but my god, is it heavy. But in a way, I think we need more stories realistically exploring the horrors of being a child in this environment. People don’t really realize just… How abuse can happen in so many forms. Awareness is important. So even if a horrifying read, I hope some people walked away with sympathy for us abuse victims in their heart at least
The timeskip might be jarring but it's definitely not a first for Shuuzo Oshimi. As a fan of his previous work, Aku No Hana, I might even say that I'm optimistic that Chi No Wadachi will handle its timeskip well.
The timeskip in Aku No Hana isn't as extreme as Chi No Wadachi but its tonal shift might be. It went from a pretty screwed up coming-of-age, psychological thriller story with a nihilistic undertone to a somewhat gripping romance. The timeskip also somehow managed to tie up all the loose ends nicely without being too on the nose.
Though, truth to be told, I've only read Chi No Wadachi until the 90ish chapter (before the timeskip) and have only been made aware of the timeskip by this video. But now that I know about the timeskip and I know how well Oshimi did it with Aku No Hana, I might start reading Chi No Wadachi again. I really never would have thought that I'd thank someone for spoilers but truly, thanks.
I just finished the entire series and now I am waiting for the 141st chapter and I absolutely loved this manga. so well made and so unsettling the artist is truly a master in his art
wow i got to the point where the mom went to jail and stopped there like a year or two ago. I didn’t realize it was going to go that direction omg you inspired me to reread the whole thing this weekend. The fact it’s only the prologue is crazy aha I cannot wait to see where the story goes
I’ve seen it called blood on the tracks from Barnes and nobles, one of my favorite, the art is so beautiful and detailed
Idk if it’s just me but that post-shove smile was actually kind of hilarious. Imagine pushing your nephew to his death just to be like ✨😏✨
Nah it was more like ✨✨😊✨✨
That nephew kinda deserved it. Ever seen The Good Son? That cousin was basically gearing up to be like the lil sh1t from that movie until auntie went psycho first. The whole fam seems effed, pft.
Or like ✨✨✨☺️✨✨✨
This manga is really similar to the manhwa Bastard, in which the MC's father is a serial killer and forces him to take part in those heinous acts as well
Except the writing in Blood on the Tracks is a lot better. Not that Bastard is bad it just had missed potential for me.
Best video I've seen about this so far, you get it spot on! It just keeps getting worse n worse but I'm praying for a happy ending
This is why some ppl rly shouldn’t have kids. Like if you know or rly arent in a good mental state (or other circumstances) to love/take care of another life when you can barely help yourself w/o assistance then yea you shouldn’t be having kids. You’ll only force them through things that no kid should ever have to go through. Take care of yourself first
man I have followed this manga since the first chapter another series I suggest if your looking for something more psychological is boy's abyss
boys abyss is garbage 😭
@@icy7857 W
is it actually
@@ripdito depends on your taste some people think it's to edgy but in my opinion it's not the edgest thing I 've seen.
facts the only manga that kept me invested from start to finish are berserk, trail of blood, and chainsaw man 😂
My aunt spiritually pushed me off a cliff to feed my cousin's narcissism, so Seiko's psychopathy is far from rare.
Nice video! I’ve watched the Super Eyepatch Wolf video, so I know about this manga. You seriously have a lot of potential my friend! I wish you great amounts of happiness and success! :)
Just finished this series after a 2 year hiatus.
The last book just dropped.
It wasn’t a picture book ending; it was bittersweet.
Overall, incredible story and art. Fantastic read.
Terrifying yet my absolute favorite manga read yet … Could not tear myself away from it until there were no pages left to read
I genuinely feel angry why that uncle beat main character mom
Call the cops why take justice on your own hand
That character type really reminds me of Neumann, one of the main characters of Apocalypse no Toride. It's that same feeling of, like... everyone on the outside looking in and seeing a young boy who loves his mother and a doting mother who is loving and sometimes overbearing... but when you look closer, it's revealed that the mother is fucking nuts and the young son is being put under an insane amount of pressure to keep up appearances and doing anyrhing he can to keep himself or anyone else from upsetting mom because shes an inch away from just, like, completely fucking snapping
As a daughter of a sociopath-narcissist mother I can relate
It's so panic inducing
can we not use abliest language (using the term sociopathic and misue of the word narcissist) thank you :(
@picturethis4903 can I diagnose my own mother as someone who was mentally and physically abused 20 years in a row literally every day just for existing? Thank you
A sociopath is a sociopath. I don't care that the term was changed to "antisocial personality disorder" because aww poor abusers' feelings were hurt.
You can go and touch grass
Also you can go and f**k yourself. My mother had narcissistic personality disorder. You're not the one to decide she didn't. You weren't abused by this person.
@@picturethis4903 lol
@seraphimme no, she was a sociopath and a narcissist.
I've been studying these disorders for about a decade and believe me I knew who I lived with for 20 years. And my mother had pretty much every symptom of these disorders.
You can't forbid me to call narcissist a narcissist.
There's a stigma for a reason. They are sadists who destroy their own children. B cluster (psychopaths, sociopaths and narcissists) don't deserve compassion because they're unable to give it to others in the first place.
@@picturethis4903 thank you I hate when people throw the word narcissistic sociopath psychopath inorder to describe people like
These words are attached to personality disorders
My sister uses word narcissistic as an adjective at the same time she says that she's not blaming mental illness 🙄
It's sad that these words are thrown here and there creating stigma
"Just the prologue" that cements the horror of this for me, because I've made it up to vol 12 already, and figured the time skip part to come was the downer conclusion. Guess not, tho!
Probably the best video made about this manga, definitely reading it
Thanks! It's still ongoing and it get's more and more horrifying XD
@@Wanderer8008 I can tell, I was hoping for it to end in the prologue lol
when I got to the part where she shoved him off the cliff I audibly gasped, shuzo is a master of setting up a nice moment then grabbing you by the throat
This manga literally broke me. I read from chapter 20 to 120 in one sitting, nonstop.
The entire situation is just messed up, and extremely realistic; the horror being very human and personal. The whole manga is stretched out with the art meant to be read at a slow pace, the framing body language etc is so uncanny but normal.
I had a black and white view of the story line like “mom=bad”; until the certain twists, and I just had an entirely different view of the whole thing.
I was extremely glad for Sei to finally seem to get happiness around chapter 80 etc; but then it all gets ruined by what he does to shigeru, prolly a boiling up of all the issues and mental illness. Everything literally crashes down, until we fast forward in time. Now the story is at a slower pace, and I just can’t believe what happened.
It’s just a whole tragedy, of undiagnosed illness and trauma being passed down, ruining lives intentionally or not, with its victims seemingly out of control. You just hope that sei gets happy at this point, but nothing seems to go right. I was just hoping that he could get any semblance of inner peace with his mother, that the 2 could finally understand their pains and reconcile and etc etc etc. This manga broke me
This manga really proved to me that real people who are fucked up are scarier than ghosts or any other scary characters from horror stories. I literally couldn't sleep that day after finishing this manga. They were right when they said you should be prepared mentally before reading this manga.
The creator of this manga really did a great job in terms of the story and the mother's emotional manipulation. Too convincing that I was actually getting gaslit too lmao. And not to mention that the art is excellent too -- the parts where he was in juvenile detention, the art was too disturbing, just as disturbing as his mental state at that moment.
I love me some fucked up manga but if you have a heart made of glass, don't read late at night or if you're not mentally okay coz this ruined me for DAYS 💀💀
Oh my god I remember reading this as a 13 year old kid about to be 14
I remember a TH-camr called super eyepatch wolf who talked about it and wanted to give it a go. Reading the thing was horrifying but in such an interesting way that it made me love the story for it’s dark depictions of mother son relationships. It’s really what kickstarted my love for psychological suspense/triller stories.
I want to reread it when I’m older ( like mid twenties ) because I know that there’s a possibility some parts of the story flew over my head at that age and want to see if I could find aspects of the story that I previously couldn’t see in my last read though.
Another story that It reminded me of was inside Mari. A guy who seems to have swapped bodies with a girl and it’s not really the usual “LHH NOO SUCH QUIRKY STUFF”
It really delves deep into the psychology of having your body swap with another person and just having to deal with it. I remember reading it and the ending was like super fucking relatable for reasons I won’t get into cuz I really think it’s worth a read.
I tired reading oyasumi pun pun aswell but I feel I’m not old enough to feel the full gravity of the story ( also like I ran out of steam for reading manga during this time ) so I stopped reading it. It really is a good manga and I really wanna pick it back up soon.
So yea, thanks supereyepatch wolf. You’ve officially started my spiral into really fucked up manga stories LMAO
didn't watch the video.. and went straight to the manga. My lord. It was.. amazing?
Thanks for the recommendation, in Germany there are only 5 volumes so far, that means it's going to be quite easy to catch up with this series.
Ironically I'm reading this manga with my own mom lol.
This series is insane! Just when you think seiichi is out something happens and he's dragged back into the toxicity that is his mother. And sometimes he goes back without being gaslit or blackmailed by his mother, adding an additional layer of tragedy. Making you wonder if he could ever break the terrible cycle that his mother shackled him to.
I cannot put this manga down but I am intensely uncomfortable. It's like a train crash I just NEED to know
"Chi no wadachi is the most f*ucked up manga i ve ever read"
Oyasumi Punpun and Homunculus:You have seen nothing boy
Read them both, found them absolutely spine snappingly uncomfortable - and will do videos in both 😉 - but there's something so intensely real and personal about this manga that makes it feel so real
Had to have so many cautions and warnings before this manga. I’m not even closed to finished with it just yet, but it’s so… viscerally disturbing.
I read this manga in a day after being intrigued by your video, initially going through I didn’t think much of the way you described it. It didn’t have much on effect on me… until I went to bed and I can honestly say I was consumed by a feeling of dread. It was like I couldn’t comprehend from my initial read how horrific everything was unfolding and I had just been repressing it but once I was alone trying to sleep and make sense of the story everything just felt awful. Incredible.
My brother pushed me a little in front t of a cliff, I'm terrified of heights so my legs gave out, he had to catch me as I was falling, otherwise I would fell off
Holy shit, that's fucked up! Glad you're alright though!
I totally forgot about this manga, not because I didn't like it but because I caught up and decided to just let the chapter pile up. So, holy fuck, time to get back to it.
It’s sooo good to hear an Irish accent in the wild! Incredible video
You’re amazing at reviewing manga! Definitely subscribing.
Been reading it so far and agreed. If you want to "elevate" the manga experience even more, pop on your headphones and play those more subtle horror soundtracks like "Hereditary" or "Midsommar" while reading.
I did that to help me focus on the manga once & found they uncomfortably fit together well
I think this is the first I've heard of this one, I am definitely intrigued. Thanks for the great video!
This seems like a very interesting manga. I personally didn’t find the art terrifying or even scary but maybe I just have to read it for myself to get the full affect. My interest is definitely peaked.
You're 100% right, the context surrounding these panels is what makes it so horrible
Talking about how you have no idea where the story could go from there just reminds me of when I was reading Oyasumi Punpun, which I originally started reading before the final chapter had been released. My brother and I were both reading it and discussing it, and neither of us had ANY idea how the fuck that series was going to end, because everything leading up to that point was just... so wildly horrifying and heartbreaking. There was just this point of like... what's left? What else could possibly happen? Where do they even go from here?
and yet the most evil character still manages to be the landlord (in the continuation of the story)
Like yeah, Junji Ito is definitely master when it comes to very lovecraftian, cosmic horror that is more about the great unknown, brutal gore and body horror.
But I've always though that Oshimi Shuzo is the absolute mastermind when it comes to more psychological realistic horror, the type that borders almost supernatural but never crosses the line and ends up being all about you, your emotions and dealing with them. The way he conveys anxiety for example just through his linework is fantastic. I heavily recommend Mari no Naka and Aku no Hana as well.
I was going to write a comment about how I found the manga to be weird af and that I didn't get it. Then I read the chapters I missed. I saw myself in that woman, even though I'm not insane. Just a tiny bit, on how far away things are. The distance. I'm not going to go crazy. But I might be all alone just like her.
dissociation (same)
It wasn’t until this video that I realized something. I had always watched people review this video from time to time just to test my memory or find new facts since I’ve never read it but time and time again there’s always something at the end of said video that I find out something new. This is probably my 7th or 8th video about it and I just realized that this series is actually not as old as I for some reason thought and it hasn’t finished😭 Idky my mind thinks that manga w that certain type of art style and quality to the story is something that just doesn’t happen anymore bruh lmao
This manga literally made me breakout crying on several occasions from how terrified I was
I'm here after reaching chapter 137 and I feel numb and my stomach hurts. Not even Oyasumi Punpun made me feel like this.
With Punpun I related to him and felt his pain because almost everyone around him was awful in one way or another it almost felt like... life was hoping for him to fail (I will not say anything more to avoid spoilers) but with this manga I felt everyone's pain. And this feeling came more because everyone's reaction felt too real. They were kind, they were angry, they were sad. The father broke my heart. And the mom... I felt fear. I felt like I was unpacking repressed memories that weren't even mine and just seeing the timeskip and how he is living a normal life with the pain. Just damn. Life just hurts and it hurt me that it was this real. That life is just tragic for many of us.
Super Eyepatch Wolf's video was what got me to read CnW, and at first it was a contender for my favourite manga ever. 130+ chapters in... Yeah it's gotten stale for *me*.
A horror manga's strongest aspect is timing and not overplaying the scares it delivers. With CnW getting so long, it reads more like trauma porn and the horror doesn't hit as hard as it did before. I had the same experience with Aku no Hana (another work by the same mangaka) where by the end I was too desensitized to care about the characters like I did initially. I wish CnW was either condensed or ended before the timeskip.
Still, I like hearing other people's perspectives on this manga, since there's a lot to unpack there.
I think the difference for me is it feels less like a *horror* manga now and more like a psychological thriller. The fear for me now is the constant undercurrent of uncertainty, wondering where it could go from here. I'm hopeful for a happy ending though, or at least as happy for Seiichi as possible
despite how insane part 1 is, I was STILL caught off guard by the tea scene in part 2 and still so conflicted on it. I absolutely hate seiko and her backstory doesn't make me any more empathetic but I also don't want seiichi to go down an even worse road. god this manga is just so good
I feel like one should be empathetic towards Seiko, especially with the most recent chapters, but being sympathetic would be too much. Generational trauma is no joke.
I never UNDERSTOOD
this manga back then.
idk man now that the serise is over, the time skip really didn't do much, we got closure with his mom but overall like I mean it was aight
I enjoy that though, it's a story about trauma. You don't get big dramatic conclusions, if you're lucky you get some closure with the people responsible and you can move on
That family dynamic sounds all kinds of f$&@ed up. I mean, what kind of psych shyte happened between his mother and her sister as children.
The second half of the story actually kind of covers that too, I've a second video on the ending that you can check out! 😁
i finished this whole series in two days and im not the same person i was. i miss shigeru
Where did you read?
@@stalinsoulz7872 mangago
What's the mother's backstory? Why is she so scary lol
@@kapiljain5933 shes just really off putting ig, its stressful. i think she was abused or neglected by her parents? my memory is foggy now since its been a while, she like feels like an outcast. its honestly kind of hard for me to place why i find her scary, she just is to me
Have you watched Lars Von Trier's Antichrist? When the whole story is about these heartbroken mother and father after their toddler loses his footing and falls out a window? And they go to a cabin in the countryside so that she can finish her thesis and get some mental peace? And then it turned out the toddler had tripped because mommy had purposely been deforming his feet by switching his feet in hopes of making him fall down the stairs?
Remember that feeling of horror when you understood the mother was a monster and planned it all along?
Yeah that's this manga's vibe
Damn, that might be one of the best calls to similar media I've seen in the comments, time to rewatch that film
@@Wanderer8008 I did after writing this comment haha she'd left the window open too and saw he was gonna fall but kept having sex with the father to keep him distracted
i cried so much reading it
Same, absolutely shattered me and it's continuing to do so
I wanted to watch this video but I didn’t want spoilers so I binged 137 chapters in a night…I like what it’s doing. Spoilers below
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I don’t know I think based on the conversation he was having with his mother about her own trauma I feel like we are kind of approaching the end? Obviously I could be totally wrong but it kind of feels like a conclusion to the thought process if that makes sense.
That's what worries me 🤣 if it's really just the prologue then WHAT HAPPENS NEXT
Great video from what I saw but I had to stop because the last bit I saw was seiichi having his mental breakdown in court. Didn't know about the time skip. I need to catch up
imagine being shige and only existing to get thrown off a cliff by people who just snapped right now
I don't even know how to feel after I just finished the Manga but what I do know is that it changed me and I cried lot. I've read all of his Manga and one thing I can say is that shuzo knows how to write a good ending just like flowers of evil till date one of the best ending to a series I've seen.
You can feel the dread in each chapter the fact that he used rough sketch to decipt some of the art later on in the series is crazy. This Manga fucked me up
If u enjoyed this one (like I did) consider reading his other works like: flowers of evil/ Boku wa Mari no naka/ Happiness/ drifting net cafe/ Okaeri Alice (still being published I think).
Idk what it is about this author but everthing he does is incredibly interesting to me. He traps me everytime
Crazy to think the mangas still going to this day. Remember coming across it when MangaPanda was the main thing I'd use for weekly chapters in Jump, never thought itd be a triple digit story. Definitely something that hit me back then, though not as much as it has others for reasons that have probably desensitized me towards the idea of a psychotic mother and family prying for answers. Glad to see non Jump properties like this gain a fanbase without an anime to back it like most do.
love every video essay talking about this manga i really want more people to read it
4 year old kid "do you like my stick? it pokes stuff"
Brother it's finished now, read the rest of it , it's got a really fulfilling story tbh
Oh my god such good quality with only 510 subscribers this is unreal lmfao
Thank you! :D
I read this in 2020.
***Spoilers ahead***
I got past him helping the police. And then he pushes his cousin. I just noped out. Because I felt like those around him failed him. He's going through trauma and everyone pays it any mind. So of course its gonna build up and blow his top.
But the fact, the literal fact that this woman said "lol whoops." And was released?! I know these characters aren't real. But people like this are real.
Which is terrifying. Because kids shouldn't experience trauma, manipulation, and love bombing from anyone. Especially a parent.
This video was so well done. I hope you do more for the series.
Reading this made me feel anxious as it reminded me of when I was 11 and my mom was on antidepressants after my sisters birth and she would hate seeing us. She was very hostile toward me my and my dad and never came out the room unless it was to use the bathroom and eat. And during those times I would frequently have dreams of going to the room to take the blanket of her face slowly and seeing the expression on her face knowing she wanted to harm me.
Just started reading this and BOY I had no idea a manga would give me that much anxiety and im still on chapter 34 😅
did u finish
I don't know if it's because I've read a lot of uncanny valley manga, movies - hell, horror is my jam, but A trail of blood was eh. Supersniperwolf recommended this as the most scariest manga he ever read, that caught my attention I read it up until the mom confesses and was getting sent to prison and I just dropped it. I just... I don't care.
It was interesting until it wasn't.
wow, guess i’m gonna read it after watching the eyepatchwolf videos again and again
I haven't read it cuz #mommyissues, but now that I'm moving out i think i'll do to cope with the fact that the "most meaninful" relatioship in my life was so fucked up from the start, but I'm no longer under their rule
Same
one quote that hits me is ATONE FOR HAVING GIVEN BIRTH TO ME ATONE
I know this isn't really anything like this manga but Land of the Lustrous is a pretty good one that I think you should consider reading.
thank you for this review ! i will definitely read it once it's finished !
i ended up reading it up to the top i tought it was already finished... holy crap
I felt like shit after finishing this series. It jumbled my thoughts for a couple days and made me aprecciate my parents with all my heart( even tho Seiichi’s dad wasn’t a bad person at all)
This video was really well done! Would love to see more; subscribed.
Thanks for the sub!
I watched a handful of videos about this story and TY for explaining the actual story.