Battling Bulimia
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 9 ก.ย. 2024
- Bulimia nervosa is an eating disorder characterized by a cycle of binge eating and compensatory behaviors to prevent weight gain. People with bulimia often consume large amounts of food in a discrete period, feeling a lack of control during these episodes. Following a binge, they might engage in compensatory actions such as self-induced vomiting, misuse of laxatives or diuretics, fasting, or excessive exercise. This cycle often leads to feelings of guilt, shame, and distress. It's a complex mental health condition that can have serious physical and emotional consequences if left untreated.
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Thank you so much for having me on, Devorah. It was such a cool experience and I appreciate you giving me the platform to tell my story.
you’re such a joy, sooo charismatic, loved this ep! thank you for sharing your story 💓
Congratulations for having the courage to speak up! You’re very brave and this was such an educational episode!
Thank you for sharing your story
@@hypeboy.07thank you so much! That’s so sweet of you to say 🥹
@@amw94thank you so much! I was so nervous at first but I’m really happy I shared it. 🤍 I hope it helps someone!
I feel like a therapist saying “oh I can tell what you’re here for” to someone with an ed is so counterproductive and kinda shows a lack of understanding from the therapist
I got the sense he mentioned it in a later visit in reflection, possibly to help her understand that what she was striving for was not normal
Exactly as not all Ed’s are even restrictive such as binge eating disorder
what a sweet, intelligent person. A lot of the actions of her family were disappointing and damaging. Its completely natural to internalize the shame and pain projected onto us by those we love
So amazed by the guest’s storytelling ability - pacing, inflection, clarity. Really helped me understand her experience start to finish. I appreciate her discussing this on such a large platform as it can be helpful for those with no understanding to empathize and learn to support people who may be experiencing disorder eating habits.
I think its SO brave to open up while you're struggling and not just after the fact. Kudos to her. I have so much hope for her future.
I agree! We often hear about the journey after the person is already on the other side of things. It's very realistic that someone is still in the process of recovery
ohhhh gyy
Aww, my favorite part was the last 15 seconds when you asked her how she felt and she replied with, "Good, really good. I'm glad I did this."
such a heartwarming ending 🥰
As someone with an ED, everything she said is so true. What she said resonates so deeply with me. Being told you look good is a phrase that keeps you going down the spiral that an ED is. For so long you feel so disgusting about how you look that when you lose weight + someone notices you feel like the hell you put yourself through is worth it. It’s not worth it. Seek help if you feel it’s worth it. You deserve happiness and self love❤️
I’m 42 and battling this monster since I was 9. I pray she gets healed
You're strong❤
Mine started when I was 9 I’m 27 😢
wow we are survivors ! i am 36 and mine started at 7. sending love all around.
You guys got this, you’re so brave. Keep healing 🫶🏾
I love you all! I’m right there with you.🫶🏻 we can do this & we will! Day by day. God bless you! He’s got us!
It’s not uncommon for a pregnancy to trigger an eating disorder. Wishing you all the best!
It’s true, I had anorexia
Im officially five months and 5 days clean from bulimia!! It was such a hard thing to overcome 😢
You have come so far. You got this! And if you ever relapse god forbid, it is not the end! Progress is not always linear. 🩷
@@jasminrodriguez5513 🫶
Thanks for posting this content! we need this❤
woah... keep going dude you got this!!❤
What techniques are you using? How do I help someone with bulimia?
what an incredible woman… you rarely see people open up about having eds after having kids and it’s so important
Love what you do with your platform, giving everyone a voice makes us all feel a little less alone in this world. Thank you Dev 🖤
Your daughter has such a WONDERFUL mother. You are truly an inspiration ✨️ i wish you the best for this healing journey youre on. Thank you dev for all these beautiful perspectives of the world thru your guests eyes
I had bulimia for over 15 years.
It is true that there is something that always lurks in the background and comes up when you are feeling down, but it is also true that you get stronger and learn ways of shutting it down.
Another important part of the recovery, and I cannot stress this enough, is to not over-torture when there is a small relapse. We have to be the nicest in that moment and take it as a natural part of the process too. Otherwise it is only to spiral down again.
A step forward can look many different ways. I remember the nights I went to bed so happy because "ok, I have binged... but did not purge." The body needs to relearn how to feel hunger, deal with food, etc.
Last I also want to say that there is a huge difference in saying I am bulimic to I have this. The layer of separation programs the mind differently.
This was my toughest fight in my life so far, but I look backwards and I am so glad I stood up for myself and my dreams to discover.
heyy i experienced it for a short while how are you doing now?❤
As someone who struggles with bulimia this video made me feel less alone!!! ❤
Omg thank you so much! This has been a lifelong struggle for me and I’m so grateful to hear another’s account of this.
idk why i just can imagine gypsy rose coming on this podcast in the future
I would click so fast I’d shatter my phone screen 🗣️
As a new mom (my daughter was born 10 days ago) I’d just like to validate that the things the family was saying would’ve bothered me too. This is my first and I’m just doing what I think is best so for anyone to say I’m not close with her or I’m not trying… I’d be depressed to. Thank god thus far I have been blessed with support. ❤
shes very honest and brings up things ik most people would be afraid to admit to
i felt a sense of not relief but somewhere near that (i cant think of the word) hearing her story,and hearing her talk about certain things she would do. i am struggling in silence and felt as if i wasn’t alone and related to some of the things she mentioned. she explain a lot of things so well; this episode will definitely be one that sticks in my head and sticks to me. i wish you well and i’m truly so appreciative you choose to share your story 💗 thank you christine for sharing your story, that was incredibly brave and strong of you!
Thank you for this episode. I've been struggling in silence and this just hit that spot of lonelyness. Thank you
how are you?
Cristine was so well spoken during this interview and i really love how she was able to paint a picture of what having an eating disorder is like. Her journey is so interesting because most of the time we hear stories of young women wanting to impress someone or because they were bullied for not looking a certain way. Th ED developed during a vulnerable time in her life where she was susceptible to believing she couldn’t trust herself. It’s something that can happen to anyone at any age and bringing awareness to this is so refreshing. I also commend Devorah for not steering the conversation in asking Cristine how the ED caused tension with her husband or how the ED affected her daughter. Cristine is still probably trying to forgive herself for who she was during that time and does not need to keep reliving it. This is about her story and what she experienced and giving Cristine full control is so empowering to survivors. Devorah didn’t care about getting clickbait material and bringing up “tea” which would cause pain and drama for Cristine. We need more genuine and compassionate people like them in the world ♥️
I have struggled with eating issues since 13 with a fake sense of control over it. I had a baby in July 2022 and the experience of gaining weight during pregnancy and trying to loose it this last year has triggered a lot of old thoughts and attempted habits still struggling currently trying to not obsess over the body checking and restricting. Totally relatable episode ❤️
Cristine. You are such a beautiful person and I pray one day you fully see and embrace your worth and inherent beauty and become truly free 🕊️ 🙏🏻 thank you so much for sharing your story. I am 10 years recovered from an ED that had me for nearly 15 years. It is possible ❤
i’ve been battling an ed since 8 years old. it’s so silly and awful to admit that one of the main reasons i dont want children is because i dont want to gain weight due to pregnancy and i cant handle the changes the body goes through after birth.
That’s so sad. It’s crazy how people with EDs care so much more about their physical appearance than actual life and experiences
It’s not that people with EDs are so obsessed with their physical appearance that they can’t live per se. It’s an extreme fear of not being in control. It’s not really about vanity, it’s a serious mental illness.
@@cambriaweeden4803THIS!
shes so sweet and she seems so self aware and smart and strong
I love her! your interviews are usually effortless they just flow but this one flew! love her wish her well
good luck with your journey! Olivia is so lucky to have you as her mom
It’s a daily battle and I love how she is transparent about where she is at in it. I have to choose daily to fight the thoughts and habits that want to draw me back in. I think having a support system is also huge!
What a sweetie pie. Acknowledging is always the first step! You got this, girl!!
So articulate, honest, and smart. Thank you for sharing your story!
Also, HEALING ISN"T LINEAR...we all have setbacks...you got this...
I really like this episode, it felt a lot more conversational, maybe because you two seem like friends already? Sending all the good vibes your way 💕
The chemistry between you both seems like yall have been friends for a while. Beautiful 💗💗💗
“Doesn’t she have anything better to do?” Like, no. I actually only have worse things to do.
Wonderful guest and very well spoken:) wish her the best :)
You're so brave, thank you for sharing this
thanks for sharing! I struggled with bulimia as a teenager - I still have disordered eating but have not purged in 7 years. Worst is when people mention how good looking (skinny) I was back then…
This hit home for me ❤❤❤ bless her soul sending love
One thing seems to be common with ana is that it seems we give it to ourselves seeking out triggers pics and tips but we didn't give it to ourselves it was there all along waiting to come out.
i struggled with restricting a few years ago. i loved hearing her story.
this was super engaging and interesting. Sending her love !!!
You are so amazing for speaking up about this 😢 . It’s like your speaking about my life and it’s crazy to think this happens 😔 . I’m this way too and it’s honestly a thing I fight everyday and I’ve been like this since 9 years old and my mom and my moms family always always put me down and it effected my whole entire life and how I interact….
I think this is the best host in podcast history.... You just bring that empathy and intelligence that most hosts dont bring! Thank you so much for this podcast❤
she is my twin and said everything so perfectly. i wouldn’t wish this disorder on my biggest enemy
Thank you for sharing your story Cristine!
I have NEVER heard of your partner not being able to be there for an epidural! Not saying that to say she is lying, I'm saying that because I cannot believe the hospital made her do that alone!! Poor woman 😭
Eating disorders are tough. I had one when I was a teen because I was depressed but I eventually realized I looked horrible and worked on getting better pretty quick. Idk they really warp you though
I'm not alone… thank you Cristine you are so strong and beautiful
Christine you did an amazing job telling your story your a very strong young lady and I’m waiting for you to come back and tell us all about the progress you have made. You can do it❤️👌👍🩵
Thank you so much for your kind words and belief in me! I really do hope to be back there soon 🤍
@@CrissyBurgosYou are amazing and you are very loved & cherished. I wish the best for you and your family ❤
I wish Christine the best! ❤
something she said about her ED being about control makes me think if that’s what Eugenia Cooney is going through? People validating that she looks a certain way just fuels her ED even more. :(
I gained weight two years ago and I’ve been on my weight loss journey. I started tracking macros. I ended up developing orthorexia for a while. Basically obsessed with eating healthy foods. I would feel so much guilt if I didn’t have a vegetable on my plate. I wouldn’t eat fast food. I would dip my chips in hummus because that was a healthier way of eating chips. This would sometimes lead me to binge because I was restricting certain foods. I don’t focus so much on eating super clean anymore, but sometimes it does cross my mind.
Ahh it never fully leaves your mind. I’m glad you are doing alright ❤
It’s so sad that her family did not support her.. it’s so sad to hear they were saying all these things behind her back. I would have been a wreck if anyone said I was being too sensitive after childbirth. Like WUUUUTTTT 😳
What if she is going through extreme hunger(if you don't know what it is, feel free to look it up), but because she keeps purging, it doesn't go away.I think she should take this into consideration if she hasn't
look forward to this every week!
Christine did an amazing job ❤️
I was 5 years clean after being bulimic for 4 years but relapsed a few months ago. The battle is never ending :(
I feel you. Same.
dang how are you now??
This was a little triggering to watch but im grateful to hear someone elses story, Im not alone
Post partum depression sucks not that I can relate but my cousin also had it really bad she ended up having post partum psychosis and it was definitely a hard journey for her
what an incredible story!
Love the podcast devorah ❤️ can’t wait to watch
Amazing interview and thanks for sharing you are strong to hold on and move on ! My sister tries to manage it too ❤❤❤
You are wonderful! Thanks for sharing your story ♥️
There is another type of bulimia, when you eating a bunch and then overexercising. At first it seems "healthier". I had both types, throwing and exercising. Thanks God I've survived
Healing takes time not overnight to get into trauma or heal from it
You girls had such great chemistry throughout this episode. I see a blossoming friendship 🫶🏻
Is ED always related to weight? Because I'm not sure if I have it, I'm very thin and always have been and a few years ago I had a short period when the depression got worse and I started starving myself because I liked the control and I got a little addicted to the feeling of hunger, I don't do that anymore but I eat everything without restriction In small amounts and again I know I'm thin so that's not the goal.
Not always! I would highly recommend looking into Avoidant and Restrictive Food Intake Disorder (ARFID) and see if that resonates with you at all. Or even Otherwise Specified Eating Disorder (OSFED previously EDNOS).
At the end of the day not every ED is gonna look the same for each person. You can have aspects of some or all eating disorders out there. Most of the time it won’t fit neatly into any category. For example feelings of a loss of appetite or feelings of being undeserving of food sometimes attributed to depression. Feelings of a aversion to food for texture and sensory issues is attributed mainly to neurodiversity. No matter the cause the treatments are largely the same! Getting a good therapist and nutritionist really helped me!
I wish you peace and hope you are well now!!
I feel this!
No it's not always about weight. People develop EDs for so many reasons. An ED is a coping mechanism. It's never really about weight. For most women it's a self-esteem and self worth issue. For you, your life may lack stability and weight is the first thing you see controllable. The common emote behind it is a fear. A really deep fear, or anxiety, of something. That's why when people praise ED women for "control" I look at it sideways, it is physical proof how much fear has consumed their life. I don't blame any woman, or anyone at all for that matter, who has an ED.
Did the podcast on the male with an eating disorder ever get posted on here?
my dad passed out when they gave my mom an epidural, i think thats why they keep them out
How dare her family and husband turn on her and judge her parenting that’s actually so fucked
14 years and I want it to end so bad
heyey❤❤I hope your doing well how are you?
I really loved this interview. My only feedback is related to her direct statement about her lowest weight. My ED is pretty well healed but I could feel the back of my brain tingle when she said her lowest weight. EDs are insanely competitive, as she beautifully illustrates. If it was almost triggering for me, it could be for others.
Yeah I guess the vast majority of us watching don’t have an ED and saying the weight is informative for us to see how sick she was. Maybe don’t watch stuff about EDS if it could trigger you.
@@Apk1991i have an ed but i agree i dont usually watch these videos especially when Ik it contains things with any eating disorder or weights bc Ik how triggering it is for me but I enjoyed watching this video bc it helps me know I am not the one one going or went through something like this
@@HeartEyes4444hellokitty that’s totally fine. I wasn’t trying to sound rude. I was just pointing out that if someone is triggered about hearing someone else’s lowest weight, they shouldn’t watch a video about someone battling ED. Cause it’s very likely that it will come up in conversation
I feel so bad for Cristine, her family sounds awful. I have a very big Portuguese family so I understand the kind of dramatic / gossipy dynamic that she's talking about from west Europe / Mediterranean culture, but this is NEXT LEVEL lacking compassion. I appreciate her taking responsibility for her choices and actions, but I think her family very much has culpability in this.
Hi❤i experience the completely same thing
Omg I can’t wait to watch this later!!! :)))
37:45 I have an ED and I had this same thing happen !! I have like zero gag reflex now, I haven't been able to make myself purge since like 2018 ? which is good because that helped me to kinda be forced to try and recover. the only thing that makes me gag is brushing my tongue 💀 and it's just barely, like nothing comes up
That is the opposite of what happened to me - mine got so sensitive/ trained that I would be able to purge almost by thought - still have trouble at the dentist sometimes…
@TheQueenDJ I've known/seen a lot of people that had your same experience. guess it's just a bit of a toss up whether it'll disappear or be severe
You got it💪🏼💪🏼
I would love to be entered into the free reading. 💕
Can you please have a guest sharing their experience with ARFID? @ we’re all insane.
She looks like Maria from Silent Hill!
wow her family sounds so mean
Shes gorgeous
oh man… i know exactly the forum she was on based on the toothbrush story. so strange.
Trigger warning first twenty minutes discussing conceiving , my eating disorder stopped me from having children 😢
Life doesn't come with trigger warnings. We have to be brave
I loved this story. You were so articulate and honest about your feelings. However, I feel like you guys kind of left us on a cliff hanger. I mean the last part we heard of the actual story was that she told Matt about it but that at that point she wasn't actually ready to get help. What happened after that? When was she ready to get help, and what sparked it? A treatment program? I feel like we left all the important part out of it.
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If ur hoping ur not pregnant but think u are the wait time on those digital pregnancy tests are awful lol
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can someone at least mention when the talk about the eating disorder starts bc..
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Why is the first part of this story about her pregnancy and labor.
Cuz that’s what triggered it
Because it’s extremely significant to the story??
Because it’s part of her journey
Maybe like….watch the video before commenting
Because that contributed to her disordered thinking and is a part of her story
Shouldn’t have had the part essentially teaching how to purge!!! Even with the warning it’s still enabling someone watching to learn how to purge !
I’m pretty sure anyone can just google that if they wanted to. She is sharing her story which is far more powerful than having to sensor herself. Geez 🙄
Lmao why is she reading a script😂
Some people get nervous being on a podcast 💀
It's a 1 hour monologue, would you expect her to speak such a long time coherently and keeping in her emotions without any type of guide?
It seems like a page of notes not a script lol it’s pretty normal for speakers to have a bunch of notes in front of them to keep them on track.
i hated the paper but some need it
Ohh yes. God forbid she has some bulletpoints.. to keep her thoughts organized during this deeply personal story.
Ummm that’s normal for a podcast. After seeing a story like this and commenting being hateful in any way… that’s kinda odd
Man y’all complain about everything 😂. If she would’ve just talked all over the place then you also would have some shit to say. Let the girl have her paper
God almost 3 years now clean of purging :)) I haven’t though of that milestone in a long while, thank you for sharing your story with your own ED experience 🩷
Edit: I think it’s actually been 4 years for me?.. I was 17 the last time, I am almost 21 now!
thats amazing how are you?
Amazing woman I loved listening to her share her story. So strong & great attributes from Dev too 🫶🏼
I am recovering from bulimia. I have experienced so much shame. Thank you for sharing ❤️
I’m currently still battling bulimia I’ve had a eating disorder since 12 I started bulimia though with my ex after he consistently cheated on me and even after leaving I stopped doing it daily but I feel disgusting whenever I’m full and I always think about food I have a compulsion to constantly eat and I don’t know how to stop it I’m trying to learn how to have a good relationship with food
I’ve watched every video since you started and I love what you do, one day maybe I can get myself to tell my story 🫶🏼