A Sad Week Alone at my Cottages
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- this was one of the toughest weeks i've had in a long time. thanks for sticking with me through the good and the heavy ♡
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this was one of the toughest weeks i've had in a long time. everything just kept piling on and it felt a little like trying to paddle up a river. some weeks are just going to suck :( thanks for sticking with me through the good and the heavy ♡
Edit- you all sharing your stories is making me tear up again, but also makes me feel less alone. Thank you for giving me this community and space to be wrapped up in the goodness, and communal grief and healing of humanity when I really needed it. I have so much love for you.
Hope everything your going through gets better. LOVE watching you!!!
I needed a good cry too. ❤ you're the best mouse mommy ever.
Never apologize for crying!! And im so sorry you lost Dixie 😢❤ sending lots of love
Love you!
I love how you say "heavy" instead of "bad". Makes things somehow more positive ❤
I’m so sorry Hannah. I had a chocolate lab that was like my first child. I had him since he was 5 weeks old, he slept on my chest for the first year of his life, he lived to be almost 15. He passed away suddenly on my birthday. It was quite a loss. But I had to remind myself that our pets are also spiritual beings that live on after they leave their body, just like we do. After his passing I had a dream about him, I was standing overlooking a beautiful forest that had a gentle creek running through it, suddenly I saw my dog, he was sniffing the ground then he looked up and our eyes met. I believe he was trying to tell me he’s good now, healthy and happy. I think Dixie would tell you the same. Sending HUGS!
this just made me go hug my lab, i’m so so sorry!
The size of a fur baby is no measure of how much love we have for them. Sorry for your loss.
This is beautifully said 💗
Exactly. I had a gerbil for three years until he got a tumor and died, it was so hard to lose him... Sorry for your loss Hannah, but you can be comforted in knowing that you made Dixie feel safe and loved until the end.
As women, our bodies go through so many changes each month as we shed ourselves of what is no longer serving us. Give yourself permission to cry. It's a great release of emotions.
NEVER apologize for your emotions, especially for SHOWING your emotions! ESPECIALLY when you’re overwhelmed, sad, hurt , mad , etc . That’s part of being human. ❤️
❤ needed to read this too
Hannah 🫂♥️😢 Yes!! Never ever apologize for your emotions sweet girl!
Love and respect ❤
Absolutely yes. That’s right 👍🏻😊
@@gwendavis9655 ❤️
Started crying from the video, scrolled into the comments to cheer up and cried even more 😂😭
This community is so wholesome, I love y'all.
I am so sorry about Dixie. From what we could see, you gave her so much love and a good life. She was lucky to have someone like you ❤️❤️❤️
You gave her a wonderful life. ❤❤❤
I clicked on your video because over the last two days half my muffler fell off my truck and I returned to my camper after almost a month away and the fridge isnt working. After watching so many TH-cam videos I was overwhelmed and needed a break. Then you started crying and it helped me finally cry. This is why we love Hannah
It’s been a brutal week already. This is one of the many reason I love our girl, she’s human and doesn’t mind showing it. 🫂❤️
Dang it, I'm a grown man then all of a sudden allergies must have kicked in. So sorry for the loss of your little buddy, it's never easy to lose a pet/friend. I am a car guy, anything with wheels I watch. The drag racing world lost a shining light in the NPK racing world this week. Lizzy Musi past away at age 33 from cancer. She always had a huge smile on her face and was quick to give a hug. RIP Dixie and Lizzy. Never apologize for your emotions I'm not sorry I shed tears for your loss. Take care.
No matter what happens, that is one very lucky little mouse to be so loved. I wish all animals could experience that kind of love. (@7:50)
Wish humans could too, from other humans
@@rainsofhealing 💯
Feeling this sad is the price we pay for loving them...but it's always worth it to have shared our lives with them ❤
Love and respect ❤
So true...the price of love is so high😢
I definitely cried too. I can only imagine how devastating that felt. I recall you saying that originally Dixie was intended as snake food, so she really hit the jackpot being adopted by you, kept warm, safe, and well fed, and with a good friend like Desperaux.
I‘m so sorry for your loss. Farewell, Dixie. 🌈 You did everything you possibly could. She was so loved. ❤
Love and respect ❤
It's a mouse.
I know from losing my pet cats, these animals become part of your family, it's hard to lose them, and worse to want to do something to help them without being able to. Desperaux sure looked excited about the new mouse.
And you a human. Humans are not better@NoOneHere2Day
@@NoOneHere2Day And the mouse was her companion and she put a lot of her love and care into it.
Hi Hannah, I've never commented on any of your videos and I don't know why because I never miss any, in fact I think you're the only person I'm always excited to see a new video. But today I felt like I needed to say something. First of all, thank you so much for making these videos, you inspire me a lot, you make me believe that I, as a woman, can do literally anything. Secondly, thank you for being so real and talking about everything so openly. Your words really helped me today, thanks again for that. I love you❤
“Grief is love that has no where to go”. I’m so very sorry for your loss. Dixie was a sweetie and was so so loved by you. I have never seen such a committed mouse momma. You have made me feel like mice aren’t beings to be scared of, so thank you. You are a good momma to them. I can’t wait to see the growth of this new baby!
Oh my gosh I'm so so sorry for your loss. Sobbed my way through this one. Going through the same thing with my chickens this week (right down to the getting a new companion pet who's missing toes) and I've felt stupid for how much It's affected me. Thank you for being vulnerable
You could have edited all your emotions out of this vid, but you didn't. Love how real you are.
Yes. Thank you for this. ❤
Right! I agree! Keep going ❤
I’m so sorry, Hannah! Losing a pet is so difficult. I lost my 15 year old cat last August and it gutted me for months. Sending hugs!
This is the hardest Ive ever cried for a mouse...and I dont even like mice. It's easy to think from social media that people are living these enchanted lives with no problems. Thank you for sharing your vulnerable moments and even your grief with us, it makes us feel less alone in the daily struggle of life. Lots of love from Cape Town, South Africa🤗
This past week I lost my dad and today is his birthday. He was to young and I’m to young. Tomorrow will be better, I’m so sorry you lost her. I’ve been watching for years and you love and care for them so much.♥️
I am so so sorry for your loss. I wish I could say something poetic, but this is all I have now. That is so hard, but there will be a time where things are good again, I promise.
Please, never apologize for being human, Hannah. Crying is as natural as breathing. It's the gift we give ourselves as a means of releasing the emotional and physical maladies that infect our spirits. I'm a 61-year-old man who has no problem expressing myself in the form of tears. You are entitled to your emotions, sweetie. We love you and are always with you in spirit.
❤❤❤WELL SAID! Love this 😊
The scrambling for an answer and feeling like you’re making things up to make Dixie better, you are not alone. My dogs are my life. I felt it in my soul when you were desperately trying to help her. Much love and grace to you Hannah. Rest easy Dixie.
It’s so easy to beat ourselves up over things that we wouldn’t hesitate to forgive our loved ones for. Please never hesitate to give yourself some grace when you are in a rut. With someone as productive and creative as you, it’s necessary to have time where you are uninspired and unmotivated!! It’s so refreshing to see a TH-camr such as yourself being honest and open about the hard times and sharing that with your viewers.
This is one of the most beautifully written comments of compassion I've read for awhile. Beautiful advice for us all to remember 🙏🏽💕
Very well said.
Hannah, as much as we all love your videos, if you need to take a break don’t feel guilty. Grief is so hard, I know I’ve gotten attached to her throughout the months & I feel your loss. You are my inspiration, you have been my only friend at times. I’m so sorry for your loss, but know you are not alone in missing Dixie. I love you, please take time for yourself. Don’t feel numb to losing her and throw yourself into projects. It’s okay to take time and process. You are my heart 🤍🤍
im sorry hannah. i cried with you. she had the best life because of you and desperaux. she couldnt have had a BETTER life. thank you for being the sweetest human. watching you put a slug outside shows how much empathy and compassion you are full of. its beautiful
i lost my brother back in april. some weeks are good, some weeks are horrible and feel like i can’t manage even the smallest tasks. you’re doing amazing hannah. i’ve been watching you for a very long time since you bought your first cabins and you’re so resilient. good will prevail !
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I am so sorry for your loss of Dixi, Hannah. You gave her the best life. Yesterday I lost my 6 hens who were so precious to me. A fox got into their coop early in the morning when I was asleep. I loved them so much and looked forward to seeing them happily run across the yard towards me every day. I feel like I let them down, I cried so hard burying them, and it's been difficult to get over this week.
You didn't let them down. These things happen, and they suck so bad, but it is not your fault. My sister's hens died recently too from a fox attack and I am still not over it. They are such wonderful creatures, and it is absolutely okay to grieve for as long as you need. You very clearly loved them and them you ❤
You did everything you could and you loved them! Don’t be hard on yourself 💜 It’s so so sad but they were loved 🥹
I'm so sorry, how sad 😪💞
@@Marja1992I am so sorry. 😪
I’m so sorry 💔
I am so, so heartbroken for you. I hope you give yourself generous amounts of time for healing and to process your grief. I've started reading the Bloody Jack series at your recommendation, and I can't help but see her in you and everything you do. You are fearless, and tender hearted, such a beautiful combination. And just like Jacky, I know that you will pull through this trial, though I am sorry that this is what life has dealt for you at this moment ♥
The hardest part of loving pets is when they pass or when they're sick as they can't let us know whats
going on or where it hurts. You have done your best to care for her, and she'll send someone else for you to take care of in her absence. 😢
The crying part was so relatable and so healthy. Crying is such a good release
Hannah, I needed this today. Last night our goldfish Patrick passed away. He would have been 7 years old come September. I am so sorry for your loss. You gave Dixie the best life and she was so lucky to have you. ❤
Love and respect
I'm so sorry for your loss ❤
@@Marja1992 love and respect
@sandram4670 love and respect
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You seriously need to sleep. those eyes are tired
Hannah, the pain is real because the love is real. Dixie loved you every bit as you loved her. She had an amazing life that no mouse could even dream of. You did good!
I wish I could give u a big hug. I'm so sorry about little Dixie, but I'm sure she is telling all her friends in pet heaven what a wonderful mom she had!!!❤ You are a precious girl and have so much love to share. Don't get down on yourself because you've accomplished so much and have given us so much joy. Hormones are the pits and I pray that you feel better soon! I am a young 73 year old, so I can certainly remember those days! So glad to see the cabins again! Hang in there, Sweet Hannah!❤ Hugs from Tennessee!
When you told Despero that you were going to get him a carrot you returned with the cutest little parsnip ever. I’m so sorry to hear about Dixie. You are an amazing individual Hannah. Right down to carefully taking adventure slug back outside and burying Dixie under a beautiful tree. Your animals are blessed and we are blessed that you share your love and life so freely. I know this is tough. As a full time nurse of 21 years I’ve experienced a lot of heart break. Please know that animals and people tend to wait until their familiars are not present when they die. I feel it’s their way of protecting us even though it’s still crushing. Grief is a tricky process especially when your job forces you to push on. Take all the time you need to just be with your little ones and please show yourself the compassion and love that you so freely give others. Congratulations on your new launch! The ear rings and toe ring are lovely additions and Lupine Lane is blossoming under your talent and care. Thanks for being authentically you Hannah. You make being authentically me easier for this 58 year old ADHDer;)
Much love from Renfrew, Ont.💕🐾💕
Watching this video is exactly what I needed right now. My 97 year old grandma is living her final days as we speak and your videos have brought me so much joy and comfort. I’m so thankful for your videos and the realness you offer to the world. Death is something to feel and express with others so thank you for sharing your experience it’s helped me process many emotions ❤
Every time you showed Desp & Dixie in the videos I thought about how all this actually started and what an amazing job you did taking care of them, especially since you didn't exactly plan on having mice pets. I think that's the scariest thing in life, allowing yourself to love someone, knowing that you have to let them go at some point. ❤
Love and respect ❤
So sorry that Dixie broke your heart. Pet mice's lifespans are too short for me, about 1-3 years.
I have a pet turtle in his 50s, a little younger than me.
So glad you didn't waste any time getting a new companion for your male mouse.
It’s ok to let it out sometimes. Loosing a pet is not easy. They can’t tell you how they are feeling. Remember how lucky she was to have you as a mom for her time here. You gave her a wonderful life. Sending you hugs 💞
Love and respect ❤
Dude this happens every time wtf I don't get it. Get a dog for real. This comment has 300% good intentions.
Sweet Hannah. No need to apologize for crying. I'm 67 and I still get overwhelmed when the hits keep coming. You are incredible and strong so much of the time. I feel I am a warrior a lot of the time and then I can melt into a weepy, weak, etc. It's ok. We stand up again and step forward.
Hannah am sorry honey. Life is just so hard sometimes. ❤ But life without pets is a lonely place. Your wonderful..
Remember life is a roller coaster. As soon as you hit the bottom you are again on your way up. Try to enjoy the ride and remember it is ok to cry and feel bad. Everyone goes through the roller coaster of life. You are not alone.
Pet store mice are inbred for generations and never have good genetics. They never live as long as wild ones. You took incredible care of here and there is nothing you could have done better.
Rest in Peace little Dixie girl.
Desbro looks happy with the lovely little white one. Grooming is a good sign.
We all have times like this in our lives Hannah. It's important to acknowledge and honor the feelings we have and allow them to move through. We just have to remember to let them move on. Doing some of the little things that we love like music and dancing can really help. Cleaning, tidying and organising spaces really help too. You are doing all the right things. Thank you for showing us your vulnerability and how you cope with these tough times in life. You never know how many people this truly helps. Go well.
You are great! Don't get down take time to just be. Does chores will still be there.❤
It's normal emotions for a soft hearted person and our pets and family that break our hearts when sick or dying....God be with you and Dixie!!
Mice have a very short life span, so the time you give your lil mouse pets is really special.
Oh Hannah, I’m so sad with you over Dixi. 😢 I appreciate your vulnerability in sharing your life with us.
I lost a precious foul once, it belonged to my neighbours. In Egypt they don't try to do much and so all I could do was sit with her and look into her eyes. Later I was told by a friend that I helped her pass with so much love and warmth. You did that. Thank you for being you ❤
Hannah you are human and we humans go through emotions.. grief.. You gave Daisy the best home and life a mouse could ever had.. she was your best friend and when our friends get sick and die we grieve.. there are 5 or 7 stages of grief we go through. Keep those awesome memories alive.. we love you Hannah ❤
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Oh Hannah, I’m so sorry you have lost Dixie. It is so hard losing a pet no matter how small. Sending you loads of love and hugs. ❤️
Oral rehydration fluid, Pedialyte, most grocery stores sell it. Get unflavored, use eyedropper, a few drops every hour.
So sorry for your loss 😭. Losing a pet is the hardest thing 😩🥺🫶🏻! Hoping this new girl brings you guys lots of joy and helps heal your broken hearts my a bit❤️😘!
When we cry we release the same endorphins that we release when we laugh hysterically.
Crying is a very important part of our health care.
It is very hard to endure the pain of death of a beloved friend.
Remember the times of enjoyment and the blessings of love that you shared. ❤🐁🐹❤
Thank you for the raw honesty of sharing your grief in this video. I have taken care of many cats and dogs in my life and even the wildlife birds, squirrels, possums... you name it... when one of them dies it just tears my heart apart. I cried watching your tears. Thank you for being Just As You Are.
So sorry about Dixie Hannah 😞 about a year ago my Guinea pig had some respiratory problems and I also had no idea the medication could cause such bad side effects and I didn’t know I should have been giving her some probiotic or anything and I tried so hard to get her back into health, I took her to the vet every day for a week but she didn’t make it. It made me so sad, and I also had to get another Guinea pig because I was so worried about my one Guinea pig getting lonely. The new piggy I adopted surprised us by being pregnant and giving us two tiny little baby pigs which is an experience I was so excited to have. And now I have 5 Guinea pigs, I still miss my little Caramel so often but I love all my piggies now so much. There’s light at the end of the tunnel! ❤️
So sorry for your loss Hannah. Anyone who has pets knows how devastating it is. You do the best you can. It's just so hard because they're such beautiful little lives that love us and we love them. RIP Dixie.
Lost my kitten to a bladder issue 2 weeks ago and miss him so much. Sending love 🧡
I'm so sorry for your loss 😢💔🌈 Rest in Paradise kitty.
Oh my gosh. TEARS! I just wanted to hug you until everything was all better, but I know that there are so many things to fix, and that you will be ok.
Glad I stumbled into this video. Sometimes I forget there are still good and innocent people in the world.
This whole video was the cutest shit I've seen in a long time 😂
Please don't apologize for being human. I tune in every Sunday to be inspired by you - being vulnerable is raw and real.
I was looking at the first footage of you mowing the lawn thinking she’s not bothered by the june bugs they are so bad here up in Quebec… and then 😉
i'm sooooo sorry for your loss hannah. you gave little dixie such a beautiful life, with so much love, the prettiest mouse cage to ever exist, and many adventures together. sending you lots of love
Dragonflies eat mosquitoes!!!!
It's always hard losing a little furry family member, but there's no doubt that Dixie was truly loved and you gave her such a wonderful life for her little time here on earth. Your vulnerability and emotions should never be apologised for. We're all sending our love to you!💘
You're right. Sometimes you just have to have those weeks. It will get better and I think you did the best thing and were kind to yourself. You love big Hannah, so loss hurts big. I'm so sorry.
So sorry for your loss, Hannah. One of the best things about being human is the emotional connections we make, to each other and to all the little creatures. Turns out it’s also one of the most painful things about being human. Thanks for being willing to show the full range. Here’s to being human! 😢
hannah 😭 i felt your pain and i cried with you this whole video. i’m so sorry. These little creatures, no matter how small can take up so much room in our hearts. holding my dog tighter tonight
Sadness is part of this beautiful world. Like flowers blooming and winter comes...😅
You should get a DOG!!!!
As someone who is also having one of those weeks. Of the world being overwhelming and finding out a pet is sick and adding that worry on to the day to day struggle with life and recent heartbreak. This video made my morning start out much like your video started. Not realizing how much I needed to cry and just validate my emotions. Because of your vulnerability and kind words to yourself, you made it easier for me to also give myself grace and show myself love. 💜
Hang in there friend ❤
Love watching you work your magic! Keep pushing Hannah 🧡 you’ve got this!
So sorry about little Dixies passing.You are such a sweet mouse mom.❤
I’m so sorry for your loss Hannah. I know that pain. It sux.
Girl, you can do this! Have faith and keep loving life as you do
I'm so sorry for the loss of your little one. I know how heart-wrenching it is to lose our pets. You gave her a wonderful home and did an excellennt job caring for her. She was lucky to have you.
It was a sad vid seeing you cry. Not being able to help you in any way is even sadder. I'm so sorry for your loss. Dixie was a truly special friend, and it's clear how much love and care you gave her. Your video is a beautiful tribute, and I'm sure it will touch many hearts. Thank you for sharing your journey, tears, laughter, failures (dropping pasta) and wisdom! Hopefully you’ll feel better after reading wonderful comments by people who admire you. 🐭🌹
I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost a cat suddenly and I just had to keep reminding myself that she lived a longer life under my care than out in the wild.
You gave her so much love and care during the time she was with you. ❤
I'm so sorry Hannah. Sending you lots of love from far away. Loss is the the worst
I usually scroll through a few comments before watching just to see some lovely words or fun moments to look forward to. I didn’t on this one and watched the story unfold with no preparation for what was to come …it definitely made me cry with you girl. I’m so sorry ❤️ I needed to hear those words you spoke too, so thank you for sharing, especially these hard days. You’re a good one.
It's okay to cry ❤ I understand the fear of losing a loved pet. They r family, not just an animal. My chihuahua mix died over a month ago she lived for 14.5 years. She was in pain leading up to her death. But we had her on pain meds until she died. I'm not sure if u r religious or not, but praying helps alot. Missionaries from my church came and gave me a blessing for comfort. It worked! Within a few days, I stopped crying and I was able to carry on without grieving
I'm so sorry about your loss, Hannah. I used to keep pet rodents and sadly once they start getting sick they're really hard to keep well after that. You gave her a really fantastic life and should never be ashamed of showing how you feel about that coming to an ending.
Emotions are human, so no need to apologize for them. Know you did your best and that you have a good heart. You're a sweet person 🫂
RELATABLE !!! Girl I don’t know when you filmed this but let me tell you the past 2 weeks, SAME, same to all of it! And now my bestie is going through it. I feel like June was a weird af month hoping July is better. ❤ much love to you!! You help give me motivation on my hard days truly appreciate ya Hanna 💕💕💕
what an incredibly beautiful thing it is that she got to spend her last days being lovingly hand fed and cherished by her mama
DO NOT GET ME INTO MICE! Because I adore little things and OMG THE TERM POPCORNING!? I CANT EVEEEEEN!
Fingers crossed that they love each other and become BFF!
May God bless you
So glad you are learning the lesson of life's circularity early; it took me 60 years to recognize how easily and often things change. You are blessed, and an inspiration to all of us.
Where you are at in your hormone cycle will play a huge part in how you are feeling and how you handle different situations. Being creative and energetic at certain times has as much to do with hormones as being tired and sad does... and of course, pet loss is always devastating. I lost my best friend of 20 years last Aug. 🐎 It is a crushing loss that I feel daily. It's never the same after they leave us. But the love we feel while we have them with us makes the heartache worth it once they are gone. Mourn your sweet girl whenever you need to. But also remember she knew she was loved, and loved you. And you did a great job with her.
Hi Hannah, you deserve ZERO MOSQUITOS!
Take the metal Lid from any large-jar, turn upside down;
Put 2-3 tablesppons of Coffee in center, even cheap instant will do,
make a little mound & light the edge up, no need to burn it all at once.
After coffee is lit, the smoke will make mosquitos & most other flying biters disappear.
Even used Coffee Grounds will work, just make sure they're dry before ya try ta light 'em up.
It smells great, just make sure the surface you're putting the lid on is safe for this.
We light it up, go back inside for a couple minutes, then back out to brave other wildlings.
As far as I know, this is ok indoors too.
Much love for you to deal with the amount this last week sucked... you're in our prayers.
I’m sorry you had a sad week…I hope next week is a better one for you 🙏🏼 ❤😊
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Mom advice!‼️‼️‼️ In my family. A lot of the females have to take vitamin B 100% Take a week before time of the month and then a week during. For two weeks out of the month, at least. It really helps the mood swings otherwise we…I wanna cry all the time! 🤦🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️🫶🏻
AWW, I’m so sorry and sad for your loss.
No matter how big or small, pets always leave their paw prints on our hearts.
'Don’t Cry Because It’s Over; Smile Because It Happened' - said Dr. Seuss and others... But also cry, it's important. Sending positive vibes your way.
Just roll with it girlie, gotta take the bad with the good.
Hannah ❤ we adore you. My heart hurts for you. I understand all too well. Sending hugs to you. Build a wood frame greenhouse at the homestead. Grow from seed. Pour all of your wonderful love into it. It will all make sense later. Hugs and love ❤
Sending so many virtual hugs, praying for little Dixie 😢, I am so sorry you have had a sad week. You have the biggest heart of anyone I have met, we love our fur animals and when they are sick we hurt, sometimes we just need to cry I cried along with you and yes there will be the times in our life where we feel what’s the point but like you stated things turn around we just have to go thru the bad times.❤
lol, when you were taking the wood stove apart and the soot cam down, I started singing the Chimney song from Mary Poppings then thought, I bet Hannah did too.😹😹😹😹🤷♀️🤷♀️😹😹😹🥰
So sorry Hannah Lee. Wish i could give you a big hug. And say everything will be okay.🤗