I love Gabor Mate’s compassionate response to addiction: “Addiction is not a choice that anybody makes; it’s not a moral failure. What it actually is: it’s a response to human suffering.” Stay kind to yourself. ❤️
Having survived the 90s party scene and looking back on it a lot of people are just self-medicating because they don't know anything else. So much suffering, and not a lot of answers.
I am a health food vegan, with a very strict disciplined diet. I also binge drink to the point of blacking out regularly and can not stop. I had months of sobriety and just recently slipped again. I’m back in recovery. You are not alone!
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ The zoom ins have been missed! I know how hard it was for you to film & post this & share your most vulnerable self but you’ve done itttt! Here’s to your recovery & coming back stronger than everrrr! Love you xxxxxxx
There are so many functioning addicts in this world; alcohol,drugs, medication, food, sex, porn; but so many don’t admit it or want to deal with it. So glad you reached out and got help . Being dependency free feels wonderful. I hope you continue your journey to sobriety and real, proper health 🙏🏻
Miles my husband went through almost an identical experience and is now many years past it. He now doesn’t drink coffee or alcohol and is incredibly healthy and thriving. Congratulations on getting yourself clean and welcome to the rest of your life. What you’ve done in SO FUCKING HARD and it a testament to your character and strength. Lots of love in your recovery 💚
I'm so happy to see you active again, Miles! I can't even imagine what you've been going through. Addiction can be completely debilitating and I'm so glad to see you doing better. Much love
Proud beyond words! Your truth and strength will not only set you free but also help so many others. I’m so happy that you had someone like (the wonderful) Jill riding this journey with you - what an absolute rock she has been. You know how much love I have for you both. Speak soon.❤️❤️
20:10 I wanted to mention that I noticed the weight loss/light leave your eyes over time, but as someone who relapses into anorexia, I know how triggering it is to get comments about weight gain/loss. You also mentioned that you had come off of medication, so I think a lot of us didn't want to speculate. SOO sosososo happy to hear you are on your way to full recovery. You've survived every hardship that has ever been presented to you, and you will get through this too.
i’m so proud you have reached the point where you could be honest with yourself admitting you were not okay. i wish you alllll the best on your journey and thank you for confiding in us. we’re all here to support you miles ❤️
just checked your channel a couple days ago because i realized i hadn’t seen you in my feed in awhile and was wondering if i missed something….i’m so glad to see you back and i’m so grateful you feel comfortable enough to share this experience. wishing you the best always miles x
I’ve been praying for you. I knew something was wrong; you didn’t look well. I can understand why you didn’t put up any videos. Please don’t feel like you let us down. I’m so happy that you got help and that rehab was a positive experience. I’m happy that people that love you stayed with you. You look so much younger and less burdened, especially around your eyes. I will keep you in my prayers and look forward to your humor and creative content. ❤️❤️❤️💜 My question is, are you still in pain and if so, how are you managing?
I'm only 6 minutes in but I can see you are talking about yourself so harshly. Please don't. We are all human and we are all here just trying our best. You've tried your best and *it is good enough.* I appreciate your honesty in coming forward. Being this open and honest in front of so many people is not an easy thing. Very true that most addicts are able to function. My dad passed in early 2020 from alcohol addiction even though he had been to rehab the summer earlier. I have no idea how long he was struggling with his alcohol addiction before we found out about it. It was probably a long time but I guess I will never know.
I’m guessing you’ve been open and honest in front of a lot of people otherwise you wouldn’t say it was hard, but I’m wondering, what’s hard about it? Serious question - I’m autistic so being open and honest is easy for me, in fact, I don’t know how not to be to be open and honest so I’m wondering, if you’re talking to a lot of people, does your ability to be open and honest drastically reduce? I’m asking because I’m thinking of starting a blog and it may not get read by many people but if it did, I wouldn’t like it if it reduced my ability to be open and honest so I’m just wondering if it’s the number of people you talk to that reduces your ability to be honest and open or makes it hard or is it difficult for you to be honest and open anyway? It’s not clear (to me) from what you said. Thanks
Thank you for your honesty. I had a feeling but I didn't say anything because I don't like interfering in other people's lives. It's good to see you're still here. . . I've never taken any drugs but I know _a lot_ about it because of people I love.. *You are a strong, precious human being.* Please always try to remember that. Sending lots of love to you, feel hugged.
Wow you are an incredibly strong soul my friend..... don't feel sorry about disappearing, you showed up for you and did something epic. Happy to see your face again
Thank you for this, Miles. The lean phase was actually scary, now I look back. You look good, your skin looks fresh, I hope you continue to get better. Thank you for your honesty. That drug sounds brutal but so does the pain.
You’re right, our intuition is strong. Respectfully, I had to unsubscribe because I couldn’t watch your light go out. I’m so glad you’re in recovery! 🧡☀️
Miles, you are one of the strongest people I seen. You’ve never been anything but honest on your channel. Your vulnerability I believe will help others going through the same issue.
Oh my god, Miles! Addiction is a beast and not even my worst enemy deserves it. I too have struggled and I know it is a pain to quit using. The first months sober are the most delicate so take care of yourself! And Jil! I wish you all the best ❤️❤️
Thank you for being so honest and open. I’m sorry about the physical pain and the mental anguish you had to go through. I’m glad that you’re doing better now. Both you and Jil are fortunate to have each other.
I’m so proud of you, you have really matured through this hell you’ve lived through. Praying for you and Jill. I’m an American Great Granny who’s loved to watch you for years. I would be so proud were you one of my own children. God Bless you and Jill.
I just found him and loved his videos. I was so sad over his break and couldn't help but wonder where he was. The day before yesterday I re-watched his videos while cooking and decided to make a miso lemon tahini sauce with arabic tahini from a local Eastern store for my bowl. Literally my first time trying tahini and it was sweetened with protein powder. It was a sign. Edited to add - either I had committed a blasphemy or it was so heavenly it brought him back, haha. Thank you for introducing me to the world of tahini. I am happy to see you back and better. We love you.
I’m so glad you’re better. My son is an addict and has been clean for a little over two years. No relapses. Getting clean isn’t easy. Staying clean is even harder. My son is a warrior and so are you. And the lovely Jill is a real trooper. Love and hugs to you both. ☮️💚
You should not be ashamed or apologetic. Everyone has demons or regrets to deal with and you should be proud of the hard work you have done. So glad that you are in a better place. Hope you continue on this path, just take things one day at a time. Know that you are appreciated for your honesty and who you are.
Miles. I feel like your channel has always been your rehab. You are so open and free with your thoughts and love towards yourself and humanity. You give yourself grace. And that's powerful. Listening to you speak, always, you are so very intuitive and reflective and perceptive and eloquent. Thank you for your light. And your want to share with us. 🖤
Bless your heart for being so open and getting the help you need. Looking forward to your future video whenever they are available. You’re one of my favorite vegan influencers and I have always enjoyed your videos. I hope you’re doing better and continue to heal and grow.
Just happy to know you are in a better place now. And what an illustration of how Jill is the real thing! What a trial you've been through. I love your honesty! 💚💚
Oh Miles, I don’t think I’ve ever cared for someone I’ve never met before like I do for you. Thank you for your raw honesty and for being so brave ❤️ what a special inspirational human you are. Love you so much! Xx
So glad you are feeling better! The path of healing and recovery is not an easy one but you're a warrior for choosing it. Sending so much love🙏You & Jill are such beautiful souls. ✨
Still love you for who you are and what you be and not what you do. We all have our addiction, I have a binge eating disorder. Appreciate your honesty!! Wish you all the best for the future🍀
Miles, I've followed you for a long time and always admired your honesty and 0 bullish!t attitude. I am so sorry for what you are going through, you are stronger than you know. Wishing you the very best on your road to recovery, you are loved by so many ❤️
Thankyou definitely hit a nerve, lost friends, literally and through just normally life. It hurts, but I support others going through aloneness. I will get through it.
Your videos are refreshing as you speak from the heart. I'm sorry you were suffering. Happy to see you back. You express yourself so well it's important for so many to see this video as I imagine so many went and are going thru this.
I saw you and Jil at VNL on Thursday and I was so relieved to see you as I've been missing your videos and was worried about what might have happened to you....I wanted to come say "hi" but also didn't want to intrude on your evening. Anyway, welcome back, keep on keeping strong! You're a wonderful human and I think you and Jil are a great couple. So much love 💜⭐💜✨
Number one thing is that you are happy and healthy and very glad you are okay. Sometimes life before youtube needs to take precedent (especially in such cases as this) and I'm glad you're recovering and healthy. I totally agree with you with past trauma and addiction. For some people it's alcohol...food... etc. Hope you can continue your healing with this too.
Crazy, its like weve gone on this journey together. I got sober literally the exact same time as you, and I'm a vegan health enthusiast as well haha. It's frustrating that people would never guess we had these substance abuse issues or think were frauds because were supposed to care about health, right? Well thats why we chose substances like weed and kratom, because theyre healthy alternatives, right? Theyre natural so they cant harm us, right? WRONG. We were just lying to ourselves. And then people try to discredit us and say things like "those substances really arent bad, its not like youre a heroin addict" 🙄 addiction doesnt discriminate. Anyways Miles, I feel you, I'm here for you, I understand your struggles and I am SO proud of you for getting help!!!! This is a next chapter in your life, bigger and better than ever. I believe in you, sending all the best energy your way, my friend ❤
Veganism is another addiction, you are all orthorexic. Plants are full of antinutrients and harmful to human health when eaten in the amounts vegans do. It's simply not sustainable or good for the environment. All those avocados, almonds, soy that you eat are extremely unsustainable and the poor people growing them have to divert water they need to grow these hipster vegan staples.
BTW, vegans and vegetarians have worse health outcomes than meat eaters, due to vegetable oils and their atherosclerosing properties. Plants also lack many nutrients and the ones that are present, are not bioavailable due to the fiber and antinutrients, the phytates, oxalates, lectins, tannins, saponins, the list goes on and on. Watch videos on here with ex vagans like Lierre Keith, they tell the truth. I've been brainwashed too, I was raw vegan and fruitarian after cooked vegan diet wasn't helping my health (much to my surprise lol). NEvermind the micronutrients, even the protein in plants has extremely low biological value due to lack of amino acids which are essential to human health.
You are seriously one of the bravest guys on TH-cam. To film this video and be totally honest. Wow. So glad to see you are better and still have Jill at your side. You should be so proud and you have no need to apologize we are just happy that you are better know. Big hug.
This really resonates with me. Everyone has experienced addiction in some form or fashion. Wether in their own lives or a loved one. I really appreciate your honesty and am so happy you’re on the right track. 2020 until even now is hard for a lot of us. Please know there are tons of people who have been there, and we all want the best for you. I mean that.
You have the spirit of a warrior and YOU WILL BE HEALED HEALTHY AND WHOLE in all you do! What you have done and been thru is just another sign of the real true raw and vulnerable person man you are. This video made me emotional I could feel you thru the screen. I saw my Dad be an addict for many years and he got clean and went thru years of therapy. You have the perseverance to make it thru and stay in the light 🕯️☄️☄️☄️☄️ May your angels 😇 continue to guide and protect you always dear friend 🌸💚 sending peace strength and love to you your love and your family 🙏🏼
MIles!!! Im so happy to see your face!!!! YOu look great!! I know I dont know you personally but ive followed you for a long time but I want to say......Im so very proud of you. Like truly proud of you. I divorced my ex over addiction. It ruined our marriage. I just had to let go because he didnt want to do the work to fix it. Seeing you you in past videos I knew in my soul something was happening. But to see you now makes me so happy. I also have dealt with issues with pain killers. I have a back injury where at one point I lived on the floor. I literally thought I was going to die. Pain is so awful. I am so glad you got help. I missed that face!!!! I will continue to pray for you and your recovery journey. I am so glad you and Jil are still together and love each other. Please know we love you as your TH-cam fam!! Hugs to you and best wishes in your healing! xoxoxox
It’s great to see that you are doing the work and recovering ❤️. Addiction is such a terrible and isolating disease that makes you feel like there’s no light, it takes an incredibly strong and motivated person to fight back against it. Im so happy you were able to do it and get your life back. Can’t wait to see your new videos! I wish you and Jill the best. 🥭
Miles, you look infinitely healthier and I am so pleased you have accepted help and making progress. Never feel like you have to apologise or explain your journey to anyone on here. This is an amazing channel with fantastic content but that doesn't mean you have to owe your life to it. If you want to share your story because it helps your recovery then it will be welcomed and supported, but do not feel that you film it otherwise. It can be very freeing though to drop the mask. So pleased you're excited to create new content but remember to take time for yourself too. Recovery can take years (as I'm sure you know from your ED etc) and I'm sure you've heard about the 'cycle of change', but just don't rush back even if you think it feeds you. Your mental health, your relationship with Jill, your friends and family, and most importantly your relationship with yourself are so much more important to a consistent, stable, happy life. All the best Miles, from a long-term fan and forever supported whatever your future.
Wow what a brutally honest video! So glad to hear you are better now and your wife is still with you. When you talked about what she did for you, tears started rolling. Stay strong!
I'm so glad you've spoken out about this. I've been an alcoholic for almost two years now and am in the process of getting into rehab now. It's the scariest thing I've ever done and I would love to hear more about how your experience went if you're willing to talk more about it. I know how hard addiction is and I'm so proud of you for getting through this ♥
Miles, congratulations that you were able to take yourself to get help. I can't imagine what you were going through during recovery. Soooo happy you were able change this aspect of your life. I wish you all the best. And I still think you are one of the most authentic people on TH-cam! Stay well ❤❤
holy shittt dude. when you said kratom I froze. I felt like I was the only one in the fucking world addicted to kratom. in detox they didn't even know what it was. thank you for this. it's so validating. my tolerance went up so fucking fast and it was just this constant trying to escape getting sick. thank you for this
Hey dude, thanks for sharing your story and glad to see your face again. I too struggle with addictions, mostly behavioural addictions (digital addiction) lately tho. But something I heard recently that really helped me was "Addiction thrives in secrecy". I find when my addictions are at their worse is when I feel like I have to hide it, which just seems to make things work. But when I talk about it with those I love and trust, it feels like the addiction loses it's power. I think making this video and being open and honest is a great step in your recovery. Thanks again for sharing Miles :) Looking forward to seeing you crack open some waterMALONS soon 😃
As an addict myself and my partner who is a fentanyl /heroin addict in recovery . Thank you for sharing 💗 I hope you are doing well and taking care of yourself and have a good support system.
I am so happy for you. I am touched. Thank you for your honesty and openness. I think that it gives lots of hope to people who are in similar situation or their families. Sending you big hug even though I don't know you at all.
Welcome back You were missed Miles there is not one adult on this earth that isn’t battling their own demons. It’s part of being human. Few of us truly face and deal with our demons so bravo 👏 PS go give that woman if yours some flowers (again if you have already) 🙂
I've experienced that exact same nerve pain since childhood. I always thought it was a stomach problem until I found out by accident that it came from the middle of my back and was a nerve problem. I've had stomach exams and things like that, but like in your case, nobody had an answer. I treat it as a trigger point now and using a trigger point medicine ball on the middle of my back, makes the pain go away. It's never been a constant pain, it usually comes up at night before I go to bed. I totally understand why you've been taking opioids, because having this kind of pain constantly is absolutely horrrible. Hope all will be going better for you from now on.
Really pleased to see you're back and Jill's still there beside you. I've missed your great videos and chat. And so relieved you sought help. I hope that you continue to do well and give yourself the TLC you need.
I wish you a complete recovery from now on Miles. The kind that completely heals you to the point you could never go back to that addicted state, so you become well physically, mentally and emotionally. Jill is incredibly patient, I could never watch someone self destruct for that long and have faith they will snap out of it xD would've taken some harsher measures, it's a blessing you've finally faced the truth on your own and took some action. From what I know of opiates, there is no denying what you went through was hell. It's a bit sad to look back now and realize how much pretending and lies has been going on in your previous videos, but it makes sense, you can't be honest with your audience if you're not honest with yourself. When ego and pride take over logic, nothing good ever comes out of it. But I know you always have good intentions with your content, spreading love and positivity, so it's great to know you've received it back during this difficult time. And don't be sad some ’friends’ have shown their true faces, you wouldn't want them wasting your time anyway, now you can focus on the ones who deserve it, Jill is surely a keeper!!
It’s so good that you’re on your road to recovery!! I was addicted to codeine when I was 14-18 because of chronic pain I had with a dislocated jaw and I had to go into rehab/therapy - I was the exact same as you, it was with me all the time, I got my bag searched in school and college and that resulted in me crushing it up and dissolving it into my drinks and hiding the packets in my shoes or where I could! It was incredibly dangerous and I’m so glad I am where I am today but that doesn’t mean I don’t still crave it because I do but I have ways of coping and dealing with that emotion now!! You’ve got this, you’re gonna smash this, it’ll be a tough road but it’s gonna change your life!!! So proud of you and glad to have you back!!💕💕
I remember you speaking about the pain.. I’m sorry. I’m glad you got help. Please continue your recovery and I really hope they find what ails you. Sending lots of love.
"Recovery is not about perfection it is about progression". Take it easy, don't rush and don't take anything for granted. You don't to be perfect, ,you have to recover your health. Sometimes we think we have all the answers and there may be our mistake.
Miles I really am just so fucking proud of you. It takes guts to speak up about something like this, especially on some form of platform with thousands of people watching. I am relieved you are alive, and I’m so glad that you had been out seeking help. It seems like it’s really helped you and that’s also relieving. Just sending lots of love and support to you and jil 🖤🖤🖤congratulations on the gigantic achievement
The way he turned up and owned this! A real king
Right!!!
I love Gabor Mate’s compassionate response to addiction: “Addiction is not a choice that anybody makes; it’s not a moral failure. What it actually is: it’s a response to human suffering.”
Stay kind to yourself. ❤️
Gabor Mate is a beautiful, insightful person 🖤🖤🖤
Having survived the 90s party scene and looking back on it a lot of people are just self-medicating because they don't know anything else. So much suffering, and not a lot of answers.
Yes, watched his video with Russell Brand , powerful!
I was just looking at one of his upcoming programs on Soundstrue.
Gabor has really helped me have compassion for myself as I've navigated addiction. His teachings are so important. 🤍
I am a health food vegan, with a very strict disciplined diet. I also binge drink to the point of blacking out regularly and can not stop. I had months of sobriety and just recently slipped again. I’m back in recovery. You are not alone!
And I was with a friend last week and they gave me Kratom and I had no idea about any of this.
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ The zoom ins have been missed! I know how hard it was for you to film & post this & share your most vulnerable self but you’ve done itttt! Here’s to your recovery & coming back stronger than everrrr! Love you xxxxxxx
Love you SO much Steph - thanks for being amazing through all of this ❤️❤️
Welcome back, Miles. We’ve missed you. Addiction is a terrible illness and congratulations for your bravery in confronting it and being so honest….
thank you so much 💙
@@HealthyCrazyCool stay strong king!! God bless you
This just makes me wanna watch him even more. the level of vulnerability. massive respect 🙌🏽
just gonna say the same :)
👌🏼 right
There are so many functioning addicts in this world; alcohol,drugs, medication, food, sex, porn; but so many don’t admit it or want to deal with it. So glad you reached out and got help . Being dependency free feels wonderful. I hope you continue your journey to sobriety and real, proper health 🙏🏻
Miles my husband went through almost an identical experience and is now many years past it. He now doesn’t drink coffee or alcohol and is incredibly healthy and thriving. Congratulations on getting yourself clean and welcome to the rest of your life. What you’ve done in SO FUCKING HARD and it a testament to your character and strength. Lots of love in your recovery 💚
I'm so happy to see you active again, Miles! I can't even imagine what you've been going through. Addiction can be completely debilitating and I'm so glad to see you doing better. Much love
Thank you so much ❤️
Miles , be happy! You are already amazing as you are!
Proud beyond words! Your truth and strength will not only set you free but also help so many others. I’m so happy that you had someone like (the wonderful) Jill riding this journey with you - what an absolute rock she has been. You know how much love I have for you both. Speak soon.❤️❤️
Thanks Taira you angel!! Your support & love throughout this time has really touched me! Love from me and Jil always ❤️❤️❤️
20:10 I wanted to mention that I noticed the weight loss/light leave your eyes over time, but as someone who relapses into anorexia, I know how triggering it is to get comments about weight gain/loss. You also mentioned that you had come off of medication, so I think a lot of us didn't want to speculate. SOO sosososo happy to hear you are on your way to full recovery. You've survived every hardship that has ever been presented to you, and you will get through this too.
Sobbing because im going through a similar situation but with alcohol and bulimia🥺 Thank you for being honest, you help more than you know. 🖤
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I will pray for you. I know how difficult your situation is. May God bless you!
I have had the same struggles. I’ve kicked the bulimia after years and years… but still trying to kick the alcohol . Bless you so much.
Bless you and praying for healing 🙏🏾❤️
i’m so proud you have reached the point where you could be honest with yourself admitting you were not okay. i wish you alllll the best on your journey and thank you for confiding in us. we’re all here to support you miles ❤️
Thank you for opening up about a struggle many go through… sometimes alone.
That‘s so brave. Thank you for your honesty.
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just checked your channel a couple days ago because i realized i hadn’t seen you in my feed in awhile and was wondering if i missed something….i’m so glad to see you back and i’m so grateful you feel comfortable enough to share this experience. wishing you the best always miles x
I’ve been praying for you. I knew something was wrong; you didn’t look well. I can understand why you didn’t put up any videos. Please don’t feel like you let us down. I’m so happy that you got help and that rehab was a positive experience. I’m happy that people that love you stayed with you. You look so much younger and less burdened, especially around your eyes. I will keep you in my prayers and look forward to your humor and creative content. ❤️❤️❤️💜
My question is, are you still in pain and if so, how are you managing?
He’s back 🥺🥺❤️❤️❤️
It took a lot of courage for you to do this video. Just remembered how strong you are.
🥰 Welcome Back. Thank you for sharing your truth. So glad Jil and you are still together. I pray your journey forward is blessed.
I'm only 6 minutes in but I can see you are talking about yourself so harshly. Please don't. We are all human and we are all here just trying our best. You've tried your best and *it is good enough.* I appreciate your honesty in coming forward. Being this open and honest in front of so many people is not an easy thing. Very true that most addicts are able to function. My dad passed in early 2020 from alcohol addiction even though he had been to rehab the summer earlier. I have no idea how long he was struggling with his alcohol addiction before we found out about it. It was probably a long time but I guess I will never know.
I am so sorry for your loss. I really hope you are doing better xx
@@eb1634 thank you so much I appreciate it ❤️
I’m guessing you’ve been open and honest in front of a lot of people otherwise you wouldn’t say it was hard, but I’m wondering, what’s hard about it? Serious question - I’m autistic so being open and honest is easy for me, in fact, I don’t know how not to be to be open and honest so I’m wondering, if you’re talking to a lot of people, does your ability to be open and honest drastically reduce? I’m asking because I’m thinking of starting a blog and it may not get read by many people but if it did, I wouldn’t like it if it reduced my ability to be open and honest so I’m just wondering if it’s the number of people you talk to that reduces your ability to be honest and open or makes it hard or is it difficult for you to be honest and open anyway? It’s not clear (to me) from what you said. Thanks
Thank you for your honesty. I had a feeling but I didn't say anything because I don't like interfering in other people's lives. It's good to see you're still here. . . I've never taken any drugs but I know _a lot_ about it because of people I love..
*You are a strong, precious human being.*
Please always try to remember that.
Sending lots of love to you, feel hugged.
Wow you are an incredibly strong soul my friend..... don't feel sorry about disappearing, you showed up for you and did something epic. Happy to see your face again
My brother you have been so missed 🥰🚀🍊🫖🧡sending you an abundance of love & light always
Thank you for this, Miles. The lean phase was actually scary, now I look back. You look good, your skin looks fresh, I hope you continue to get better. Thank you for your honesty. That drug sounds brutal but so does the pain.
You’re right, our intuition is strong. Respectfully, I had to unsubscribe because I couldn’t watch your light go out. I’m so glad you’re in recovery! 🧡☀️
Thank you for having an honest conversation about this. So many people struggle with addiction without others knowing.
Aaaaaand he is back…!!!! Missed your videos so much…..! 👏🙏🥳
Everyone can fall. No one is perfect. I just wish you well. Love from México. 💚
Miles, you are one of the strongest people I seen. You’ve never been anything but honest on your channel.
Your vulnerability I believe will help others going through the same issue.
Oh my god, Miles! Addiction is a beast and not even my worst enemy deserves it. I too have struggled and I know it is a pain to quit using. The first months sober are the most delicate so take care of yourself! And Jil! I wish you all the best ❤️❤️
You've freed yourself...!!! Now strengthen what remains.. .blessings
Thank you for being so honest and open. I’m sorry about the physical pain and the mental anguish you had to go through. I’m glad that you’re doing better now. Both you and Jil are fortunate to have each other.
I’m so proud of you, you have really matured through this hell you’ve lived through. Praying for you and Jill. I’m an American Great Granny who’s loved to watch you for years. I would be so proud were you one of my own children. God Bless you and Jill.
Aww this comment 🥺❤️ sending you so much love and thanks x
I just found him and loved his videos. I was so sad over his break and couldn't help but wonder where he was.
The day before yesterday I re-watched his videos while cooking and decided to make a miso lemon tahini sauce with arabic tahini from a local Eastern store for my bowl. Literally my first time trying tahini and it was sweetened with protein powder. It was a sign. Edited to add - either I had committed a blasphemy or it was so heavenly it brought him back, haha.
Thank you for introducing me to the world of tahini. I am happy to see you back and better. We love you.
I’m so glad you’re better. My son is an addict and has been clean for a little over two years. No relapses. Getting clean isn’t easy. Staying clean is even harder. My son is a warrior and so are you. And the lovely Jill is a real trooper. Love and hugs to you both. ☮️💚
You should not be ashamed or apologetic. Everyone has demons or regrets to deal with and you should be proud of the hard work you have done. So glad that you are in a better place. Hope you continue on this path, just take things one day at a time. Know that you are appreciated for your honesty and who you are.
You look better too.
Miles. I feel like your channel has always been your rehab. You are so open and free with your thoughts and love towards yourself and humanity. You give yourself grace. And that's powerful. Listening to you speak, always, you are so very intuitive and reflective and perceptive and eloquent. Thank you for your light. And your want to share with us. 🖤
out of context but do you think he knows how STUNNING he is!!!! (and thanks for all the honesty miles)
Thank you for being so honest and vulnerable - stay kind to yourself and be bless
Bless your heart for being so open and getting the help you need. Looking forward to your future video whenever they are available. You’re one of my favorite vegan influencers and I have always enjoyed your videos. I hope you’re doing better and continue to heal and grow.
That's horrible. I'm so sad you went threw this.
You're very special guy, Miles.
My thoughts and prayers are with you. Stay strong 💪
Just happy to know you are in a better place now. And what an illustration of how Jill is the real thing! What a trial you've been through. I love your honesty! 💚💚
glad you are feeling better, addiction is cunning and baffling, thanks for your honesty
Oh Miles, I don’t think I’ve ever cared for someone I’ve never met before like I do for you. Thank you for your raw honesty and for being so brave ❤️ what a special inspirational human you are. Love you so much! Xx
sweetest comment ever! thank you ❤
So glad you are feeling better! The path of healing and recovery is not an easy one but you're a warrior for choosing it.
Sending so much love🙏You & Jill are such beautiful souls. ✨
Not only are we women perceptive, a lot of us also know a thing or two about debilitating chronic pain that nobody wants to take serious 🙃
Good point!
Hello endometriosis..
Same, chronic pain really ruins your life.
Still love you for who you are and what you be and not what you do. We all have our addiction, I have a binge eating disorder. Appreciate your honesty!! Wish you all the best for the future🍀
Miles, I've followed you for a long time and always admired your honesty and 0 bullish!t attitude. I am so sorry for what you are going through, you are stronger than you know. Wishing you the very best on your road to recovery, you are loved by so many ❤️
Thank you so much Laura! This really means a lot ❤️🙏🏻
I’m proud of you! I will keep you in my prayers. This is the definition of freedom!
Nothing but respect for you Miles!
Welcome back, Miles! You seem so calm and at ease. Welcome back to life…✨
Sending nothing but empathy your way Miles. I cried all the way through your story
So glad to see YOU and happy you’re on the upswing. You don’t owe us anything or need to apologize, just take care of yourself.
Thankyou definitely hit a nerve, lost friends, literally and through just normally life. It hurts, but I support others going through aloneness. I will get through it.
Your videos are refreshing as you speak from the heart. I'm sorry you were suffering. Happy to see you back. You express yourself so well it's important for so many to see this video as I imagine so many went and are going thru this.
thank you so much ❤ means a lot
I saw you and Jil at VNL on Thursday and I was so relieved to see you as I've been missing your videos and was worried about what might have happened to you....I wanted to come say "hi" but also didn't want to intrude on your evening. Anyway, welcome back, keep on keeping strong! You're a wonderful human and I think you and Jil are a great couple. So much love 💜⭐💜✨
♥️♥️♥️ so much love!!!
Number one thing is that you are happy and healthy and very glad you are okay. Sometimes life before youtube needs to take precedent (especially in such cases as this) and I'm glad you're recovering and healthy. I totally agree with you with past trauma and addiction. For some people it's alcohol...food... etc. Hope you can continue your healing with this too.
Crazy, its like weve gone on this journey together. I got sober literally the exact same time as you, and I'm a vegan health enthusiast as well haha. It's frustrating that people would never guess we had these substance abuse issues or think were frauds because were supposed to care about health, right? Well thats why we chose substances like weed and kratom, because theyre healthy alternatives, right? Theyre natural so they cant harm us, right? WRONG. We were just lying to ourselves. And then people try to discredit us and say things like "those substances really arent bad, its not like youre a heroin addict" 🙄 addiction doesnt discriminate. Anyways Miles, I feel you, I'm here for you, I understand your struggles and I am SO proud of you for getting help!!!! This is a next chapter in your life, bigger and better than ever. I believe in you, sending all the best energy your way, my friend ❤
Veganism is another addiction, you are all orthorexic. Plants are full of antinutrients and harmful to human health when eaten in the amounts vegans do. It's simply not sustainable or good for the environment. All those avocados, almonds, soy that you eat are extremely unsustainable and the poor people growing them have to divert water they need to grow these hipster vegan staples.
BTW, vegans and vegetarians have worse health outcomes than meat eaters, due to vegetable oils and their atherosclerosing properties. Plants also lack many nutrients and the ones that are present, are not bioavailable due to the fiber and antinutrients, the phytates, oxalates, lectins, tannins, saponins, the list goes on and on. Watch videos on here with ex vagans like Lierre Keith, they tell the truth. I've been brainwashed too, I was raw vegan and fruitarian after cooked vegan diet wasn't helping my health (much to my surprise lol). NEvermind the micronutrients, even the protein in plants has extremely low biological value due to lack of amino acids which are essential to human health.
You are seriously one of the bravest guys on TH-cam. To film this video and be totally honest. Wow. So glad to see you are better and still have Jill at your side. You should be so proud and you have no need to apologize we are just happy that you are better know. Big hug.
This really resonates with me. Everyone has experienced addiction in some form or fashion. Wether in their own lives or a loved one. I really appreciate your honesty and am so happy you’re on the right track. 2020 until even now is hard for a lot of us. Please know there are tons of people who have been there, and we all want the best for you. I mean that.
You have the spirit of a warrior and YOU WILL BE HEALED HEALTHY AND WHOLE in all you do! What you have done and been thru is just another sign of the real true raw and vulnerable person man you are. This video made me emotional I could feel you thru the screen. I saw my Dad be an addict for many years and he got clean and went thru years of therapy. You have the perseverance to make it thru and stay in the light 🕯️☄️☄️☄️☄️ May your angels 😇 continue to guide and protect you always dear friend 🌸💚 sending peace strength and love to you your love and your family 🙏🏼
Thank you for your honesty. Sending love to you and Jil❤️
his heart is a beautiful as his face 😍. biggest respect for this
When you said “dyou know what yeah” all the feels 🥰🥰🥰. Love you and glad you’re back! Xoxo
hehe, thank you ❤
I'm really sorry to hear this man and I wish you a quick and happy full recovery...
You're an amazing human and we all love you ❣️
MIles!!! Im so happy to see your face!!!! YOu look great!! I know I dont know you personally but ive followed you for a long time but I want to say......Im so very proud of you. Like truly proud of you. I divorced my ex over addiction. It ruined our marriage. I just had to let go because he didnt want to do the work to fix it. Seeing you you in past videos I knew in my soul something was happening. But to see you now makes me so happy. I also have dealt with issues with pain killers. I have a back injury where at one point I lived on the floor. I literally thought I was going to die. Pain is so awful. I am so glad you got help. I missed that face!!!! I will continue to pray for you and your recovery journey. I am so glad you and Jil are still together and love each other. Please know we love you as your TH-cam fam!! Hugs to you and best wishes in your healing! xoxoxox
It’s great to see that you are doing the work and recovering ❤️. Addiction is such a terrible and isolating disease that makes you feel like there’s no light, it takes an incredibly strong and motivated person to fight back against it. Im so happy you were able to do it and get your life back. Can’t wait to see your new videos! I wish you and Jill the best. 🥭
Glad your doing better Miles. A true king. We’re here for you
Miles, you look infinitely healthier and I am so pleased you have accepted help and making progress. Never feel like you have to apologise or explain your journey to anyone on here. This is an amazing channel with fantastic content but that doesn't mean you have to owe your life to it. If you want to share your story because it helps your recovery then it will be welcomed and supported, but do not feel that you film it otherwise. It can be very freeing though to drop the mask. So pleased you're excited to create new content but remember to take time for yourself too. Recovery can take years (as I'm sure you know from your ED etc) and I'm sure you've heard about the 'cycle of change', but just don't rush back even if you think it feeds you. Your mental health, your relationship with Jill, your friends and family, and most importantly your relationship with yourself are so much more important to a consistent, stable, happy life. All the best Miles, from a long-term fan and forever supported whatever your future.
Wow what a brutally honest video! So glad to hear you are better now and your wife is still with you. When you talked about what she did for you, tears started rolling. Stay strong!
I'm so glad you've spoken out about this. I've been an alcoholic for almost two years now and am in the process of getting into rehab now. It's the scariest thing I've ever done and I would love to hear more about how your experience went if you're willing to talk more about it. I know how hard addiction is and I'm so proud of you for getting through this ♥
Miles, you are our plantpowerhero! So please, stay kind to yourself and keep fighting!
I am sending you so much love and I hope it gets better.
Miles, congratulations that you were able to take yourself to get help. I can't imagine what you were going through during recovery. Soooo happy you were able change this aspect of your life. I wish you all the best. And I still think you are one of the most authentic people on TH-cam! Stay well ❤❤
holy shittt dude. when you said kratom I froze. I felt like I was the only one in the fucking world addicted to kratom. in detox they didn't even know what it was. thank you for this. it's so validating. my tolerance went up so fucking fast and it was just this constant trying to escape getting sick. thank you for this
Hey dude, thanks for sharing your story and glad to see your face again. I too struggle with addictions, mostly behavioural addictions (digital addiction) lately tho. But something I heard recently that really helped me was "Addiction thrives in secrecy". I find when my addictions are at their worse is when I feel like I have to hide it, which just seems to make things work. But when I talk about it with those I love and trust, it feels like the addiction loses it's power. I think making this video and being open and honest is a great step in your recovery. Thanks again for sharing Miles :) Looking forward to seeing you crack open some waterMALONS soon 😃
Imma real G. Im so glad you are on the road to recovery.
So happy to see you back, Miles! We missed your content!
So happy to see you taking on your circumstances. We all carry burdens. Some of us just hide it better.
As an addict myself and my partner who is a fentanyl /heroin addict in recovery . Thank you for sharing 💗 I hope you are doing well and taking care of yourself and have a good support system.
💚 stay strong..
Thank you for your transparency ❤️ you are loved
We got your back.
❤️❤️
I am so happy for you. I am touched. Thank you for your honesty and openness. I think that it gives lots of hope to people who are in similar situation or their families. Sending you big hug even though I don't know you at all.
Welcome back
You were missed
Miles there is not one adult on this earth that isn’t battling their own demons. It’s part of being human.
Few of us truly face and deal with our demons so bravo 👏
PS go give that woman if yours some flowers (again if you have already) 🙂
i am so so so sorry to hear this. you are so brave and so STRONG, miles!!!!!! I SEND YOU MY WARMEST HUGS!!!!
I’m proud of you for being this open ❤️ wishing you the best!
Thank you for being so vulnerable and honest. Jesus loves you Miles.
I've experienced that exact same nerve pain since childhood. I always thought it was a stomach problem until I found out by accident that it came from the middle of my back and was a nerve problem. I've had stomach exams and things like that, but like in your case, nobody had an answer. I treat it as a trigger point now and using a trigger point medicine ball on the middle of my back, makes the pain go away. It's never been a constant pain, it usually comes up at night before I go to bed.
I totally understand why you've been taking opioids, because having this kind of pain constantly is absolutely horrrible.
Hope all will be going better for you from now on.
Prayers and hugs .... I'm sorry for your struggles but glad to see you back!
my full heart goes out to you, you are helping so many by sharing
Really pleased to see you're back and Jill's still there beside you. I've missed your great videos and chat. And so relieved you sought help. I hope that you continue to do well and give yourself the TLC you need.
I wish you a complete recovery from now on Miles. The kind that completely heals you to the point you could never go back to that addicted state, so you become well physically, mentally and emotionally. Jill is incredibly patient, I could never watch someone self destruct for that long and have faith they will snap out of it xD would've taken some harsher measures, it's a blessing you've finally faced the truth on your own and took some action. From what I know of opiates, there is no denying what you went through was hell. It's a bit sad to look back now and realize how much pretending and lies has been going on in your previous videos, but it makes sense, you can't be honest with your audience if you're not honest with yourself. When ego and pride take over logic, nothing good ever comes out of it. But I know you always have good intentions with your content, spreading love and positivity, so it's great to know you've received it back during this difficult time. And don't be sad some ’friends’ have shown their true faces, you wouldn't want them wasting your time anyway, now you can focus on the ones who deserve it, Jill is surely a keeper!!
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It’s so good that you’re on your road to recovery!! I was addicted to codeine when I was 14-18 because of chronic pain I had with a dislocated jaw and I had to go into rehab/therapy - I was the exact same as you, it was with me all the time, I got my bag searched in school and college and that resulted in me crushing it up and dissolving it into my drinks and hiding the packets in my shoes or where I could! It was incredibly dangerous and I’m so glad I am where I am today but that doesn’t mean I don’t still crave it because I do but I have ways of coping and dealing with that emotion now!! You’ve got this, you’re gonna smash this, it’ll be a tough road but it’s gonna change your life!!! So proud of you and glad to have you back!!💕💕
I remember you speaking about the pain.. I’m sorry. I’m glad you got help. Please continue your recovery and I really hope they find what ails you. Sending lots of love.
"Recovery is not about perfection it is about progression".
Take it easy, don't rush and don't take anything for granted.
You don't to be perfect, ,you have to recover your health.
Sometimes we think we have all the answers and there may be our mistake.
Agree 100%
Thanks Eva. Hugs from Argentina.
Big respect for the transparency and the strength to face those problems.
Thank you for sharing. 🧡
Miles, you'll probably help more people than you'll ever know with this video ...
Miles I really am just so fucking proud of you. It takes guts to speak up about something like this, especially on some form of platform with thousands of people watching. I am relieved you are alive, and I’m so glad that you had been out seeking help. It seems like it’s really helped you and that’s also relieving. Just sending lots of love and support to you and jil 🖤🖤🖤congratulations on the gigantic achievement