meth culture part 2 trips codes secrecy & crashing
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 3 ธ.ค. 2021
- I hope you don’t ever get sucked into the darkness that is meth culture.
I made this 2 part series to share my own personal struggle with this insanely addictive substance & equally insane and addictively thrilling yet dangerous and often miserable lifestyle.
1000% do NOT recommend abusing this drug
The affects to my brain have been devastating and often maddeningly frustrating.
Worst part I thought I was damn near indestructible so I kept pushing my own limits and everyone else’s too.
If you know of someone struggling with a meth addiction show them some love and compassion
No matter how nasty they get love and genuine empathy can really make an impact on their heart even in the most dire of circumstances, even if they don't admit it in that moment
That was my experience anyway and I don’t think I’m a special exception
If I can clean up and slowly morph into a person I actually love, trust and respect today and actually want to be around
I do believe it’s possible for anyone
Never give up on yourself or a loved one in active addiction
People can change and we DO recover
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I was just gonna say, things get real weird real fast with just even dabbling lightly. It is very strong and if you have underlying mental health conditions it really brings it forth full blast. Stay strong people.
I've started hallucinating from being awake only 24 hours from caffeine so I really can't imagine what it would be like to stay awake several weeks at a time.... must be a real mind bender.
One of the best explanatory informative pieces I have encountered. You did not make a fool of yourself. Keep providing info!
I can so relate to your story.. been there done that and I’m super blessed to be free from meth for many years..nowadays are so different because of the fentanyl that they put in everything so that keeps me from even recreational use.. thank you for sharing your story was my story and sometimes I am amazed I made it out alive! 🙏❤️
As a recovered coke head I’m so glad I never got into meth ! I only did it once and hated every second of it and j wished I was on blow
Thank you. This video made made an impact on me. My use has been much more infrequent but the struggle to stop all together remains. To see you’ve done it gives me strength.
Oh you can def do it if you want to, for me I just didn't want to til I exhausted EVERY possibility to "control" my use or lots of other bullshit I'd lie to myself to think yeah I got this but for me when I'd wake up in the hospital after ODing, I finally started to have micro moments of clarity like a flashback gasping for air as I collapsed to see my friends at the time completely indifferent, I was finally ready to say ok this is only headed to death for me and I barely had enough want in me to even try to live but I did FINALLY start trying and I think I'm just saying only you will know if and when your ready and for many it doesn't have to be complete abstinence, for me yes but many others smoke weed for example an manage just fine, but yeah I wouldn't EVER be able to just dabble with hard shit, I hope you find what you're lookin for
Thank you Jackie. Please keep sharing. Thank you.
Good video, I learned a lot, very glad you off that dangerous stuff
Thanks SOOO much
Thank you, thank you, thank you so so much for all this information and sharing this! Thank you very much I have a partner who is currently suffering from a crystal meth addiction. IV never taken it so I have no idea about the drug. Thank you for sharing your thoughts.
You are a beautiful person! This is the second video of yours that I’m watching.
Thank you😊
Thank you for sharing❤
You're a recovering choose not to do it person because there's no such a thing as a can't help it addicted person. Congratulations for making a strong choice
The "euphoria" from speed is INSANE ! Nothing better !! And it will kill you in NO time.
You are spot on. I was a heavy alcoholic for almost 10 years but also got really deep into smoking and snorting shit for about 3, first few times I tried it I hated it but its almost like the shit rewires your brain, the culture and trap house shit was very dark and fucked up, there were some people like me that were just mellow somewhat regular people who just so happened to use the shit but those people that got into slamming always seemed to get into the fucked up crimes and were scary to be around, etc. A lot of selfishness in the meth world, the bar world was fucked up and dark too just in different ways.
Oh man, yeah you’re right it does rewire our brains, learned all about the science behind it in rehab. I was one of the fucked up people by the end but when I started I didn’t like it either, crazy for sure, insane how quickly shit went sideways in that world, the underbelly I call it. Because your referring to it in the past tense I’m really happy to hear you made it out too. 🖤 stay strong
Picks apart entertainment center
Wut are u looking for?
I dont know but I'll know when I find it 😂
You. Are. My Inspiration!
stay strong, stand tall, subjugate.
Thank You! you do the same
thanks for sharing
Correct correct correct. So real
im glad you mentioned there is a good n bad side...we wouldnt have taken drugs if they didnt do something good in the moment
Very true😊 if I had my way I wouldn’t have ever quit, but the shit was killing me even though I loved loved loved most all the drugs, turns out they didn’t love me back huh.
When you are on SPEED you LIKE the smell of SMOG and SKUNKS !!!
I LOVE your stories
I remember going into pychosis off a noise or something moving in the corner of my eye.it literally TRIGGERED my mind Into thinking people are trying to kill me or kidnap me
Man where were you when I was trippin? (kidding) its just nobody I ran with ever acknowledged these sort of things, I felt like I was the only one having these demented thoughts, never would have learned what a psychosis even was if my hospital papers didn't say it, I'm glad to know it wasn't just me though, stay well man
Meth "culture" !! Sounds so sophisticated !
Did you crochet your shirt? It’s super cute!
This comment reminds me of that comedy example about ADHD..
"Meth use is a very serious problem in America today..Oh look-a Puppy!"
Thanks I have no idea how to crochet, lol
damn grateful every day to escape the tweakerzone keep on being sober honey
I've never tried meth I've been addicted to other substances, though. I'm very interested in all things meth because I have just become aware of all of the individuals in my life who are on it or have been on it. I always classified it in my mind as "another hallucinogen" thank God I didn't go on that flawed knowledge. Recently finding out my brother and others are I know are hooked has certainly inspired my interest to say the least.
I mean I did hallucinate but that was a side effect of not sleeping for at least a week or more, so it does go with the lifestyle but man I’m really sorry to hear about your brother and friends, that’s a really tough spot to be in. I hope things get better for them.
I used to call it. Lose Everything Methamphetamine.
I heard a lot of ex-meth heads who said they got really sexually deviant, could you relate.
Yep. For sure. It's like something in that shit is designed to make you instantly super into strange sexual things you never done before. FOR SURE. For one major thing I swear the makers of it know something about this. And a major thing is it will turn a completely straight dude into being completely fine with wanting homosexual behavior. Even if it's just porn or what not. It will suddenly make you watching disgusting shit where it's all about dicks or something... then when you sober up your like wtf was I just doing for 12 hrs jerking off to dicks!?? I am the type that can stay 100% fine on meth. I mean after being awake like 5-6 days I will start to see shadows and the begginings of what seem to be shadow people. I have also had a few times where I heard what seemed like elevator music. Coming from the ceiling or all around but nowhere I could pin point. It seemed as if this life is a dream and I was nearly awake and in what ever world I was about to wake up in that's where the music was playing. Pretty weird. Besides that I never had any crazy things happen to me. I may have gotten a little paranoid or started noticing connections in things throughout the day... but it's not like those things didn't happen. I would check my self basically. I would run thoughts or perceptions by totally drug free people and ask them what they thought. And they never thought what I was thinking or experiencing was insane.
I usually used alone. And I would also hold done full time jobs while heavily using. But I think if you are gonna be one of these that just hang out for weeks or months with the same people in some trap house than yeah of course your mind is gonna start doing worse shit. You all are feeding off each other's fucked up energy. And most times drug addicts have very dark hearts and minds. Drugs just basically intensify who you are.
I never had the massive sex drive that the drug is associated with. I had a lot of leg shakes and jaw grinding.
I won't say sexually deviant but my experience is thank Yah I have a man that gives me amazing sexy time before I tried the drug because sexy time on this drug is so amazing there's almost no words for it and for me, I am literally ALWAYS in the mood and when I'm with my man I cannot keep my hands off of him if I tried. Sometimes he tells me sweetheart in order to make more semen I need to sleep 🤭🤭 we can literally go four to eight rounds back to back. Like finish clean up and right back at if back to back. Sometimes the clean up aspect is forgotten but we're definitely getting it in again. So yea that's that on that 🤣🤣
I'd get that way only if I was really high, it gets to the point where it becomes just like morning coffee though and you lose those crazy 12 hour walking sessions, overtime it started actually having the opposite effect
What goes up must come down it's really easy.
Insane
Wow..first, My personal meth use has spanned almost four decades..started after being perscribed Ritalin as a child diagnosed w/ "hyperactive disorder"..I have a very high I.Q...
And Meth, along with other stimulants,
Has been responsible for stabilizing
My ADHD, as much as "self medicating" can ever help..of course,
The detrimental aspects of use over the longterm outweigh any benefits
I may have experienced..but I feel
Strongly that meth helps my focus,
Concentration, and mood, that is, until fatigue sets in...
yeah its a fickle beast, takes more than it gives but in the moment it delivered for me over and over so I went the quick fix route but only now in my late 30s am I fully coming to understand all that it took in return, I was also self medicating but didn't know at the time I was bipolar, thanks for sharing your experience too and encouragement, I really appreciate it
It's crazy how many children got prescribed ritalin only to use amphetamines as an adult. I was extremely academic and extremely sporty so nothing was a challenge probably like yourself so instead of catering for the potential, they just drugged us so we slumped back down into the crowd. Adults failed us.
Why do you bring that with the high IQ in there?😂 just to flex?😂
i spent literally hours looking for meth shards on my coffee table . The Scary part I had not used very much at all maybe one fifth of one 10 th of gram .
low key rivetting story
The thumbnail looks like a witchcraft video
🤨🤔🧐
Will yoy please tell the stories about "what would do more harm than good." I know what you're talking about. SOMEONE needs to verbalize and explain the uh.. Other things. The freaky, violent sexual 'experiences' you can get in without ever understanding how. Never getting sympathy because 'you did meth.' I experienced people who used older cell phones to say commands to talk about the dark shit or secret shit only they knew of and theyd those same people giving me books about sign language and highlighting specific lines out of those books saying people should enjoy anyone they want. And how they learn to go to the 'meth reality to do so. But people are being tormented who are intoxicated enough to experience and enter it sort of, and go insane. One person can get you into meth, and without you ever knowing "why" you hear everyone you care about telling you to kill yourself amongst other mental mind fucks. You've been raped but you won't get justice for it. You've been humiliated but your family or anybody will feel sorry for you. Videos online? Maybe. Reputation? Lol. People who know about it laugh, people who don't don't care. Hey anyone whos opened the doors I'm talking about, remember before you became aware and trapped in "meth culture?" :) Please, shed light! There's people who's soul entertainment is getting people so ruined they commit suicide, can't recover etc.
They know how to pick locks and stay quiet, that's why there's shit they take apart and can put back together so efficiently. Tellin ya.... Be a 3 hour video but IT NEEDS TO BE OPEN INFORMATION
WOW, if you experienced all that I am truly sorry to hear it, or if it was someone you love, the only crazy violent sexual experiences I had were several attempted rapes, I believe now looking back I was protected by God working through others when I was otherwise too weak to have a chance and other times I was given the strength to fight them off, I know I was extremely fortunate in this way and I wish those were enough to help me stop, they weren’t, I chalked it up to going with the territory, but I didn’t tell my family that sort of thing, I tend to keep things between me and my therapist that will only bring hurt and pain to others. I def had violent experiences but those went both ways, violence was my normal, but sexual violence, I dunno, I’m so sorry to hear about that, please take care of yourself . My emails Jackiegoodystash@gmail.com if you want to reach me further, thanks for sharing this
I really hope you find peace and blessings. And I hope that you know what ever happened while you were in the addiction. Wasn't your fault. Or your choice. And you have nothing to feel guilty or ashamed about. God loves you and I know he wants you to love yourself. wishing you peace and love.
For reals
On ponit fam....God bless
The people who serve meth, Are way worse off than any person enslaved by it.
They get no reprive
So meth is taboo, and junk ain't