Mothica - forever fifteen (Official Music Video)
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- You are not alone.
forever fifteen ep - MARCH 19
presave here: ffm.to/foreverfifteen
Directed by Patrick Young & Powell Robinson
Cinematography by Powell Robinson
Produced by Our Secret Handshake
Starring Emily Angela
Colored by Kath Raisch
Gaffer - Hiram Borges
Key Grip - Nate Thomson
1st Ac: Adam Marquez
VFX - Ben Kadie
Styling Assistant - Drew Cockrell
Song credits: Mothica, Eva Honey, Alexandra Veltri, Lenii, David Burris
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We need to give props to Momica for how beautiful her daughter both was and is.
Thank you! She’s an amazing daughter and person!
Momica! I love that!
We're referring to Mothica's mother as nothing else from now on
I'm voting to officially refer to mom as momica. This made my day
@@TheJunkFairy 🙃 I'm actually related to MacKenzie too! Nice to meet you, fellow Ellis!
it hurts knowing that there's so many of us out there that have attempted or done s/h but seeing all of those faces of those of us who survived through it makes me proud that we're all still here
“You’re too young to be this sad” and “I thought no one would miss me” hit hard. I too am a survivor. This whole song hit close to home. I’ve had five attempts. Thank you for this song. We love you.
Glad you’re still here, keep going!☺️
i’m so happy ur still here! sending a lot of love hoping ur doing great
Me too. I’m glad we made it.
Sending love and hugs to you. You are beautiful and strong ❤️❤️❤️
same. stay strong!
THR FACT THAT I AM IN THIS PICTURE MAKES ME EMOTIONAL
“You’re too young to be this sad” was THE MOST PAINFUL THING adults said to me when I was 11-16. I was hurting myself, starving myself, and all they would do is tell me I was “being dramatic - it’s not that serious.” 💔
I'm so sorry, that's sounds awful. I've dealt with similar things (but this isn't about me) and what I've learned is that your pain? It's valid. No matter what your family, your friends, your teachers, strangers, ANYONE says, only you know your heart and your mind. You know that you're struggling. You know you're in pain. You know that you need help. And it takes a long time, but eventually, that will be enough. You'll learn to validate and love yourself. And then? You'll find friends, or maybe a partner, who loves and cares about you. Who appreciates your valuable thoughts and contributions. Who honors your wishes, respects you, reminds you that you're enough. Who will be there for you when you're down, and up, and will love you despite your flaws, and encourage you to improve yourself if at points you choose to. Life will keep going, and going, and time will pass. You'll feel awful sometimes. But in between those bouts of pain? You'll be *happy*. You'll enjoy all of the positive experiences, fulfilling relationships, and silly times that you deserve. Because it gets better.
Take care ❤️
And then they wonder why they are so many messed up adults running around, we were ignored when we needed help.
We lost some of us and some pieces of ourselves on our way here. But the thing is that we're here now. We made it till here and I'm so fucking proud of you no matter what :) No matter who, where or when i hope this comment attracts the positive things and calls out the power in you. Have an amazing day :)
I'm crying. Imagining what your kiddo self would think of you if you ever did something to yourself makes me so emotional
This comment made me cry
@@bernk1642 Hey, I just wanna say I'm so proud of you for staying strong
I harmed myself when i was a kid myself because of family issues, i was trying to commit suicide because i felt like a burden since my mother said so but yeah as u can see I'm still here and I'm still in the same state. It's been 12 years. I'm just sharing my experience but i feel like im just attention seeking :/
@@lem0nk3t You're not attention seeking. I'm so proud of you for holding on and you're NOT a burden. Everyone has a place on this world and I hope you find yours. I hope you're doing better now. This world sucks but it's all we got, right
Ey you, building others up, I see you. I'm proud of you. Thank you for being a kind soul and creating a small safe space for complete strangers. You're important.
MOTHICA IS UNDERRATED SHE NEED MORE🥺🌸✨
Just cried, for that sweet child, and for that strong woman.
i don’t know anyone who could watch this without crying
@@melamoli5244 I did but it's because I already ran out of tears for today 😢
After watching this music video im in tears. Ever since I tried taking my life back when I was 9 years old, I always felt like I had that little girl by my side. The time where she never knew such pain and I have to hide her away from any pain I'm currently going through because I don't want her to lose that innocences. I feel like im fighting for my life just for her and feel that I can't disappoint her.
It's also in a sense feel like backage for me because I'm still holding on to that pain and to that childhood innocent that I once had. I just want to be at the point where I can just let it all go and close that part of my life.
I tried taking my life back when I was nine too. Only that, my father brought the weapon that I would try to off myself with.
You’re still that baby girl, just trying to feel okay & get her needs met. I feel the same about myself now that I’ve realized, wait a minute. That’s me. I’m still her and I want to protect & love her. She just wants to have fun and not hurt others, but help them. I hope one day you can fully cherish that part of yourself angel. You deserve the world. Sending all my love!!
i tried at 9 too, i never actually went through with it though, i wasn't brave enough and im still not
@@rcs009 That’s a good thing. That’s you knowing you want to feel better, deep down inside. Don’t listen to the shitty voices in your head, they want to steal your joy. Even small joys like music & art & your friends. You’re so incredibly loved my dear.
My girlfriend and I are on Skype, watching this for the first time and sobbing. This is so important.
my family still makes a joke about my attempt because they thought i couldn’t ever go deep enough to actually leave. this song hits a lot of places and i’m glad you’re still here but also helping so many others by sharing your voice.
I hope you have someone else to talk to about your problems if your parents don't understand them. If you don't i'm sure a lot of people do want to talk even if you don't know them, like a lot of people in this comment section (including me but i get that it may be strange/uncomfortable).
I under stand how you feel I was 11 and my dad died I had depression and before he died my dad thought that I was just being dramatic and wanted attention but I almost did it the once and I'm so proud that I'm still here and I'm proud of the others to who stayed strong
Story time:
I saw Mothica open for Coheed & Cambria a few months ago and the show was very important to me for a few reasons, but one that really stuck with me was because it was my cousins favorite band and I felt like I owed it to him to see them.
I never knew much or listened to Mothica before the show, and during her set she talks about her battles with depression and her attempted suicide. Hearing this song live and the atmosphere, it brought me back to 2015 when I lost my cousin.
He would be forever 30. How I didn't burst into tears at the show and just collapse was a personal miracle, but it was a message from Mothica that I needed to hear.
I'm nearing the 7 year anniversary of his passing, and I gotta tell myself every time: Be strong for everyone around you. People WILL miss you when you're gone.
To any moths that are still here, just know I'm proud of you and I hope you can continue to fight the fight.
Forever 30, Andrew "AJ" Kirk. Rest in Peace.
Seeing myself makes me so proud to still be here
We are also so proud of you, love. ❤️
@@blueindeed2226 thank you!
@@ezpeasylemonsqueezys of course lovely
@@ezpeasylemonsqueezys ♡
This song already helped me, today was the 2 year anniversary of my friend leaving us and this song reminded me of them
Thank you for this and everything else you do your music is a comfort to me, not only has it helped me stay positive in this day it keeps me hopeful I’ll be able to make it 1 year without hurting (7 months so far), you give me hope and comfort and I am thankful for every bit of it
I can't imagine that pain. My heart goes out to you and everyone effected. Keep on keeping on
I hope you made it to that one year! I hope your doing better and stay safe
Glad you're still here to share your story and talent with the world.
Setting all the reminders so I'm right here when it premiers
I'm so glad you're still here today to help people with your music
The line 'you're too young to be this sad' hits me harder every time. It's almost verbatim what my parents said to me when they found out i was diagnosed with depression nearly three years ago now.
Your music makes me feel validated, thank you mothica
This is the exact same thing my parents said when I told them that I was suffering from depression.
Back when I was in a psychiatric hospital I asked a girl that I hanged out with there “whats the saddest song you know?” And she told me this song. I rly miss you karan
I'm sitting here crying just as much as I did the first time I listened to this song. Thank you Mothica, this song means so much.
I haven’t had an experience like this myself, but I have a lot of friends who suffer from severe depression since a young age and this moved me so much. I’m glad that you’re here to share your story, to give others courage, and to also tell them that it’s alright. 💙
I'm 15 and it's been 2 1/2 years since my last attempt. Thanks for showing me that living a good life despite the past is possible. I really love the song ❤
There's nothing
Try, try to look a little older
So I can go
Down to the bar, there's someone waiting
To take me home
I can't take it, all the damage done
Wanna sink into oblivion
Could be anything or anyone
Anyone at al
He said, "Love that you're 15"
Ten shots of whiskey he brought to my bedside
Said, "Now you'll be alright"
When I was 15, I thought no one would miss me
They're all just pretending, so I wrote the ending
When they say that it's not that bad
You're too young to be this sad
Makes you wanna do something that you can't take back
And be forever 15
Would you have missed me at all?
Walk down the halls a little slower
So nobody knows
Oh, hold, hold my head a little lower
Just want to let it go
I can't take it, all the damage done
Wanna sink into oblivion
Could be anything or anyone
Anyone at all
He said, "Love that you're 15"
Ten shots of whiskey he brought to my bedside
Said, "Now you'll be alright"
When I was 15, I thought no one would miss me
They're all just pretending, so I wrote the ending
When they say that it's not that bad
You're too young to be this sad
Makes you wanna do something that you can't take back
And be forever 15
Would you have missed me at all?
Ophelia, think I see ya underwater
Ophelia, think I see ya underwater
He said, "Love that you're 15"
Ten shots of whiskey he brought to my bedside
Said, "Now you'll be alright"
When I was 15, I thought no one would miss me
They're all just pretending, so I wrote the ending
When they say that it's not that bad
You're too young to be this sad
Makes you wanna do something that you can't take back
And be forever 15
Would you have missed me at all?
god this song makes me cryyyy,,, i am so very honoured to be featured in it. I'm in the rainbow jumper at 3:16. Makes me really warm to see other people who understand surrounding me. sending lots of love to everyone listening to this song and having to remember their worst moments. it gets better :)
you're so pretty omg
@@suraart6719 oh my god thank you so much ;-; that is so sweet
i can’t imagine a world without you
That video was rough, yo. Been there a lot. So glad all of you are here with us.
So glad I got to see her open for Coheed in Queens, too.
I was there for the 8 minute premiere chat and everyone here is just so loving and kind and I'm so happy me and all of them find your music. It's truly inspiring and as shown through this video, beautiful. Thank you 💙💙🦋💙💙
"Your too young to be this sad" is a sentence that should have never existed.
This song honestly is such a comfort place for me, even though the lyrics are heartbreaking the fact that I can hear these words and music today is because of the fact that Mothica is still here. Fighting. And it gives me so much hope because that means I can do it too. So, I love this song so much and thank you for sharing this story with us! ❤️❤️
I broke down crying watching this, I am coming close to three years clean from self-harm.
Hey! I know I'm late, but I wanted to congratulate you. I myself am 9 months clean, and that's a lot for me. Three years? That's an *incredible* amount of dedication, and hard work to get there. That's an immense achievement, and you should feel very proud of yourself for coming this far. I'm so glad you're still here, and that you have learned healthier coping strategies.
Take care ❤️
I relate to this song so much. I was 15 when I hit my lowest point. I had attempted suicide and was in the hospital for 4 months. I survived but now I live with the scars as a daily reminder. It's been 5 years but I'm still struggling.
I'm happy that you're alive :) love you xo
Hang on! It'll be okay
you're not alone you're one of my most fav singers
I shouldn't be alive. I was a black sheep. And I'm a survivor. I went thru alot as a child. Never spoke. And lost my life several times. No matter what ending my life will not resolve anything. Thank you Mothica for this song. I'm ok now. It's not easy life. But each step is a journey closer to healing. Ur awesome!
I've tried before but I'm actually happy I'm here.
thank god that girl survived
the earth would have missed the best musician girl ever and such a great person.
i cant describe how much i love Mothica music
*virtual hugs for Monica* ❣
I hope you're no longer having those dark thoughts. This song made me cry. I found this song somewhat relatable , in regards to my own mental health.
the little girl broke my soul especially at the end. the tears won’t stop coming😭
Everyone deserves to be happy, everyone deserves to live a long life, everyone deserves to be heard
You just saved lives!❤
Sobbing watching this. I see myself. Feels so nice to be seen
If you would have died I have never heard this amazing song. Thank you that you are still alive and create musics!!!❤
Nothing made me more emotional than seeing child mothica, then watching her put up the picture of mothica with everyone else. Got me choked up out here
seeing all those survivors makes me so grateful and happy. Love you guys.
this song is so important to me i cant waitt
“they’re all just pretending, so i wrote the ending” gave me chills. i thought no one felt the same pain i did when i was young, that no one actually cared and i was just an annoyance in their eyes. this was and is a lie that my depression and anxiety told me. i was and am worthy of love, respect, kindness, space, and life itself. this is a beautiful song. thank you for sharing your story.
Why is all of this so underrated?
Watching this over and over again and crying.
I’ve been falling back into that really dark place I was when I made my first attempt at 14 and I just want to say thank you for sharing your story and helping so many people cope in a way
I’ve been listening to thing song since it came out and I’m still so damn obsessed. One day Mothica is gonna be huge but I’m so glad to have found her before that so I can say I’m so damn glad you’re alive. Your music has inspired me deeply.
THIS!! I can’t wait until more people who need her art discover this magnificent human. We can all heal and sob together 🥲😂
The thing about thinking nobody will miss us is that we aren't considering the lost future. Maybe nobody actually would miss us when we're at our worst. But who knows what the future holds?
Stan this girl✋
can't imagine a world without you
oh my god. mothica is so strong, i wanna be like her when i grow up
Found myself within this song
Thank you for writing this
I'm so proud of you, and I'm so glad you and everyone else is still here. This song is incredible and necessary.
I keep coming back to this song. I feel like crying every time I look back at old photos of me. I was in so much pain, and I still am, but I always looked so sad. I'm glad I survived my attempt.
It's my first time listening to song and it brought me to tears
Watched it at Reading festival and burst into tears
How did I not discover this woman before. LOVE
this is so beautiful and incredibly underrated.
you’ve created such a beautiful thing
Important message you have in this song thank you!!! Just want everyone reading these comments to know you aren't alone and you are loved
You have...outdone yourself. The raw vulnerability here has brought me to tears. I am so honored to be featured on that wall. Thank you. Im so glad you're here. The impact you've had on me personally can't be captured in words.
Im so excited about this, I love the song and have listened to it a lot ever since it came out on Spotify and TH-cam.
You are loved, smile ❣️
Wow. Just. Absolutely amazing.
this song is so important to me, i can’t wait to watch the mv!!
This song is so powerful.
Oh gee, this hit close to home. High school was a nightmare for me social-wise. I couldn’t relate to anyone, I had no close friends, and my depression was only getting worse. I thought nobody cared about me and that everyone would eventually forget me if I died. Every single kind deed directed towards me was just misconstrued as pity by my insecure mind. I heard this song come across my Spotify in the middle of my 12th year, and I found it really comforting that someone felt the same way I did and still survived after all that suffering.
Nowadays, my depression is nowhere near as bad as it used to be, but I still sometimes come back to this song because not only is it low-key a banger, but it gives me hope for the future.
It reminds me that I’m here and I’m okay.
Thank you for sharing your story with us, Mothica.
I’m glad you’re still here! You’re freaking talented! 🖤
This song is important.
This sums up our young teenage life so well...
This song live at Coheed’s show was insane. Thank you
Just seeing all of the photos, and all I can think is 'wow. All of these people know exactly what I'm feeling'
I love you mothica
This song hits close to home too.....cause when I was younger I felt the same way....thank you for sharing your story
I would have loved her music when I was younger. Still do!
“And they say that it’s not that bad, you’re too young to be this sad, makes you wanna do something that you can’t take back” I love this lyric
so excited
Me too
I really appreciate this video!! It’s such a beautiful song❤️ I hope a lot of people who are struggling will see this, and will see that they are not alone! You are such a beautiful person! Thank you all for sharing your story, Thank you for being you and Keep fighting💓
I love this song so much. I walked the self destructive path for so long and this helps so much
this song showed up on my spotify discover and it hit me hard. i relate to the lyrics way too much. something very traumatic happened to me when i was 15 by someone i thought i could trust and attempted suicide. i'm 23 now and doing better. i'm glad this song came up on my spotify and allowed me to discover mothica.
Her hair is soooo iconic 🤩🤩🤩💗💗💗💗😍😍😍😍💗💗💗💗💗
we are so lucky that she is still here.
You're strong, baby💕 And you're loved.
This song hits really close to home thank you
Beautiful. I’m so glad you are here.
I put my pic and although I don’t see it. Lately I’ve had thoughts again. Seeing this helps. Saying my story to someone else helped. Thank you
Saw Mothica live supporting Coheed and Cambria in Nashville last weekend. My wife and I both love your music!
Holding back my tears right now. Thank you for helping me not feel as alone
This hit home... and I’m now 23 almost 24....
Good memories 👭💖🌻
I'm so proud of you and know that you're loved as much as you deserve by all of us. Stay strong, love. ❤️
Yayyyy so proud
this is amazing. ily so much, i’m so glad you’re here and thank you for this song :( ♡
I love seeing an Okie doing good
This song is everything... I was literally in all the same life places right down to the lyric. After years of grooming and abuse in church I went way off the rails knowing I wouldn't survive it, now I'm 32, want to live, 2 years clean and have found myself with lawyers addressing my abuse and this just really brings back alot, but in a good way. Just to see how far out of that hole I've crawled and how much I've been able to get off my chest without crawling back.
this is gold. Thank you so much.