Mothica - BUZZKILL (Official Music Video)

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  • FOREVER FIFTEEN EP IS OUT ffm.to/forever...
    Directed by Joe DeSantis @mrjoedesantis
    Produced by WeThem.Us @wethemus
    Producer/CD: Jen Sanchez @jenwastaken
    CD: Nas Balgodo @http.naserin
    CD: Rosco Flevo @roscoflevo
    Styling: Mothica
    Styling Assistant: Drew Cockrell @drewsview_
    Art Dept: Ash Davis @ash_knows
    MUA: Fara Conley @faradene
    Hair by Ruby @ Flamingo Lounge Hair
    Huge thanks to Laura Nguyen for the incredible canvas painting featured at the end.
    Follow me:
    / mothica
    / dearmothica
    / mothicamusic
    / mothicamusic

ความคิดเห็น • 584

  • @SupahMario07
    @SupahMario07 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1966

    This song will blow up. Even if it didn't mothica will someday eventually she works hard for her art and deserves the support.

    • @dbudgell
      @dbudgell 3 ปีที่แล้ว +151

      I'm waiting for the day when she's a huge star and we can all be like "we liked her at the beginning" lmao

    • @Mothica
      @Mothica  3 ปีที่แล้ว +367

      i appreciate that 😭

    • @kai4367
      @kai4367 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Yes I no right

    • @antseulogy
      @antseulogy 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      her music is just something else she’s just a great artist

    • @ashvergent
      @ashvergent 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      i 100% agree, she's such a dope artist.

  • @Amiciss
    @Amiciss 3 ปีที่แล้ว +898

    *• Lyrics •*
    I'm a buzzkill... I'm a broken one.
    I'm a victim... Of the things you've done.
    I'm a phantom... Of who I thought I was.
    Ever since you. _(Ever since you)._
    I don't talk about it.
    Unless I make a joke about it.
    That's just what you want? Huh?
    That's just what you want?
    Walking on the ceiling.
    Getting used to never feeling.
    You still having fun, huh?
    I don't trust no one.
    _I won't keep your secrets now._
    _You can't keep my volume down._
    *_I'm a buzzkill... Gonna kill your high._*
    *_Cause I'm pissed off... I think you'd know why._*
    *_And you're scared now... Cause receipts don't lie._*
    *_Ever since you. Ever since you._*
    *_Fucked up... Haven't made a sound._*
    *_Got me upset... Now I'm getting loud._*
    *_Better watch me... Burn this whole place down._*
    *_Ever since you. Ever since you._*
    Know what you did. Don't let it happen again.
    I pray for the kid. That calls you a friend.
    You pulled them right in. Told them their sins.
    Holy motherfucker.
    Do you have something to say?
    Cause this is the beginning.
    Of the price you're gonna pay.
    _I won't keep your secrets now._
    _You can't keep my volume down._
    *_I'm a buzzkill... Gonna kill your high._*
    *_Cause I'm pissed off... I think you'd know why._*
    *_And you're scared now... Cause receipts don't lie._*
    *_Ever since you. Ever since you._*
    *_Fucked up... Haven't made a sound._*
    *_Got me upset... Now I'm getting loud._*
    *_Better watch me... Burn this whole place down._*
    *_Ever since you. Ever since you._*
    _Ever since you. Ever since you._
    *• End •*

    • @deny2605
      @deny2605 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      Don't wanna be rude but she says "Gonna kill your high" qwq

    • @Amiciss
      @Amiciss 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Thanks I was confused in that part, it's correct now uwu

    • @deny2605
      @deny2605 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@Amiciss no problem :3

    • @hydroxyl5130
      @hydroxyl5130 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Just jammed tf out thank y o u

  • @phoebep4635
    @phoebep4635 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1253

    I can feel the healing already.
    To other victims here, anger is normal and a healthy part of the process. Allow yourself to heal, and hell, even rage dance to this bop

    • @nyct0phile
      @nyct0phile 3 ปีที่แล้ว +35

      my trauma is still extremely recent, so thank you for this comment

    • @finngilbert972
      @finngilbert972 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      @@nyct0phile You’ve got this 💛

    • @phoebep4635
      @phoebep4635 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      @@nyct0phile I'm so sorry, love. I hope this helps you to heal. I'm 3-4 years removed from my trauma and healing is much like the stages of grief. Its hard, but I know you can do it

    • @akashkhan4655
      @akashkhan4655 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      and you dont ever have to forgive them to heal

    • @phoebep4635
      @phoebep4635 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      @@akashkhan4655 this!!! Is!!!! So!!!! Important!!!!!
      So many people pushed me to forgive *him* in order to heal, but I don't and could never forgive him. I needed to have compassion for that girl I was at the time in order to heal, and that took time. 💗

  • @itsagabbfest
    @itsagabbfest 3 ปีที่แล้ว +271

    She’s pissed off 🗡 🖤⛓ They know why. Set my alarm so excited

  • @liac7628
    @liac7628 3 ปีที่แล้ว +318

    I love the parallels of channeling your anger and emotions through art and violence

  • @Danikins77
    @Danikins77 3 ปีที่แล้ว +514

    Even if you’re not able to get someone convicted, the feeling of finally being able to tell everyone “hey this is what HE did to me” and not caring who finds out is amazing and so healing. I like you showing the different sides of surviving a sexual assault. It’s not always sadness and depression sometimes it’s pure anger and hatred at that person for what they did.

    • @nataliefisher7961
      @nataliefisher7961 3 ปีที่แล้ว +18

      For the last 4 years I struggled to get my head around this...now after surviving giving evidence in front of strangers in a crown court room only for there to be not enough evidence I see this .
      Being able to tell our story, recall the nightmare of things he or she did to us we are the stronger ones...we survived. X

    • @Thisisnotasign
      @Thisisnotasign 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      stop blaming men for your own problems, no evidence your just ruining lives with conjecture

    • @Danikins77
      @Danikins77 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

      @@Thisisnotasign babes if a man rapes or assaults someone, anything that follows is HIS fault. 🫶🏻

    • @Danikins77
      @Danikins77 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@Thisisnotasign lmfao okay rapist

  • @ib4296
    @ib4296 2 ปีที่แล้ว +57

    Randomly heard this on spotify honestly thought it was a mega hit. Am super surprised their music video has less than a million views. Swear this shit has to blow

  • @dayoffinkyoto
    @dayoffinkyoto 3 ปีที่แล้ว +213

    She is such a powerful human being. She works so hard for her dreams and knows exactly she wants and how she wants it. She is so creative and she deserves to be huge but also want her to be our little secret.

  • @JayWorld666
    @JayWorld666 2 ปีที่แล้ว +99

    Found this song on Spotify and instantly loved it and the mv and artist is beautiful. Going to listen to more of her music 🥰

    • @metametameta69
      @metametameta69 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Me rn. Forever fifteen really hit me hard.

    • @Regipannu
      @Regipannu 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Same

  • @TilleyYT
    @TilleyYT 3 ปีที่แล้ว +77

    I wish I could send this song back to my 14 year old self. This song is a cathartic healing experience. I've never heard a song that so perfectly captured the rage I felt after what happened. Thank you for making such powerful music, Mothica.

  • @abisalazar140
    @abisalazar140 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Even tho some people didn't believe me, this song helped me speak out and let everyone know what happened. I'm grateful for this song because I didn't feel alone even when everyone made me feel that way

  • @Jackie_723
    @Jackie_723 2 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    This song has made me feel so powerful. As a victim the rage and anger is powerful and this song always helps me so much. I feel one step further from those memories and one step closer to healing.

  • @nyct0phile
    @nyct0phile 3 ปีที่แล้ว +91

    this song is going to help me heal so much. so many of her songs already have. if you happen to read this mothica, thank you. i cannot wait

  • @flossie9987
    @flossie9987 2 ปีที่แล้ว +24

    This song hits me as an abuse survivor. Thank you Mothica💜

    • @oorrrii
      @oorrrii 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Lmao huge L

  • @senna8653
    @senna8653 3 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    every lyric of this song just Hits me. for so long I felt horrible for the anger i felt at my abuser, but I'm working on letting myself feel it without shame. this song is the voice of every abused kid finally fighting against every horrible thing their abuser taught them and i cant get enough of it

  • @brandi624
    @brandi624 3 ปีที่แล้ว +37

    dude i can’t wait for this

  • @Woot100
    @Woot100 3 ปีที่แล้ว +359

    really digging this cultural wave of "callouts are over we're just flat-out killing our abusers irl now. 'oh buhhuh murder is illegal' don't get caught then. go get 'em champ!" like that sounds sarcastic but like unironically i love it and i hope it scares the shit out of these freaks

    • @deletedchannel2379
      @deletedchannel2379 3 ปีที่แล้ว +26

      X years in jail clearly isn't scaring them enough and I don't think any amount of years would, but someone coming to brutalise them? yeah that would probably stop them

    • @emilyingram7330
      @emilyingram7330 3 ปีที่แล้ว +18

      This whole comment is my fucking mood. Being told no didnt stop them, jail doesnt scare them, and they think they're walking on a cloud no one can shoot down.
      Since none of that works, maybe a bloody chainsaw will.

  • @Sounds_like_music3
    @Sounds_like_music3 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I cannot stop watching this

  • @dragonfly._.doodles
    @dragonfly._.doodles 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    These two shots 1:42 right here is GENUIS because the in just those two shots you perfectly sum up this mv.
    It starts w you in battle armour showing it’s your words (your songs) that will allow you to win the fight, then a match cut to an artist which shows that your weapons are your art!
    Absolutely brilliant

  • @brittanyblair9540
    @brittanyblair9540 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I freaking love this song

  • @jonayong3955
    @jonayong3955 3 ปีที่แล้ว +32

    💋 RED HOUR ❤️

  • @brandi624
    @brandi624 3 ปีที่แล้ว +22

    can we talk about how amazing mothica looks in this, and how fire the music video is thoooo

  • @hrishitajhaxb8679
    @hrishitajhaxb8679 3 ปีที่แล้ว +63

    Two words.ICONIC and BADASS
    You absolute icon Mothica, keep doing what you're doing!
    Love you lots
    {Make moth emojis a thing!!}

  • @mikeyherrera3210
    @mikeyherrera3210 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    My daughter loves this song and was so happy to meet you at aftershock, wouldn’t stop talking about it back home

  • @mxqueer
    @mxqueer 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    "Getting used to never feeling."
    This. So relatable. Thank you for this great song!

  • @xenojust1310
    @xenojust1310 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Mothica is such an underappreciated artist

  • @Julia-jz5wt
    @Julia-jz5wt ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Mothica's got such a classical beauty

  • @anthonykilkx
    @anthonykilkx 3 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    another bop and we all know it

  • @akashkhan4655
    @akashkhan4655 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    here's a reminder that you dont have to forgive anyone or that forgiveness is part of healing
    i will never forgive them and this hasnt stopped me from truly healing, if anything the anger helped me push through everything

  • @extravegantlex
    @extravegantlex 3 ปีที่แล้ว +42

    Mothica is gonna blow up soon. I can feel it. She is hella talented and I absolutely love her voice and music!

  • @MrAdorabao
    @MrAdorabao ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Woah!!! This is so underrated!!!!!!!

  • @samanthateasley1901
    @samanthateasley1901 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    from one survivor to another, love love love this song

  • @westonrose7042
    @westonrose7042 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Remember working one of their concerts. It was the warning, mothica, the Pretty Reckless, and Halestorm. They all killed it. One of my favorite concerts to see and work

  • @rachaelhultman2120
    @rachaelhultman2120 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    No one talks about how to leave the angry stage when you finally get there though. I’ve been stuck in this stage since they finally admitted what they did after years of gaslighting it like it never happened.. I fear I will be looking to shred them in my mind for the rest of my life and in a way, that means they’re still winning. What a cycle. A nightmare of a lifetime fearing touch from others due to some jerks isn’t fair at all.

  • @adamsamouel
    @adamsamouel 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    This song came on shuffle on my Spotify, I dont think ive added a song faster than this to my personal playlist

  • @TheCrowFKAPS
    @TheCrowFKAPS 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Not even 30 seconds in and I already knew I had to listen to this song again. I feel it so hard.

  • @naxxar.1619
    @naxxar.1619 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    1:42 reminds of BMTH Teardrops. BTW, I love this song, even if I'm normally more into metalcore, screamo, hardcore and punk.

  • @MelancholyMars_
    @MelancholyMars_ 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    This song came to me on Spotify and I’m so much better because of it , I wrote about my assault and I informed those involved that I would press charges if they ever move back anywhere near me and I wrote about my experience and I feel so much lighter in my soul.. it doesn’t hit you immediately every time it took me over 8 years to realize and remember my assault because I was date raped and I assumed since I knew my attacker it was consensual and now that most of that night came back I recall ,it was not and that made me terrified for weeks and sad and isolated from everyone I know and paranoid, it feels good to know you’re alone in wanting to talk about it. Thanks mothica xx

  • @rocckyman729
    @rocckyman729 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    Been following you ever since you had 1100 followers on Spotify. Can't stop listening to your songs ever since.

  • @photofreak56
    @photofreak56 3 ปีที่แล้ว +36

    I might need to use this... I might need to use this song for calling out the person who mentally broke me

  • @arrianacorr
    @arrianacorr 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    this is one of the best songs ever why not more views??! hello???

  • @violetmoon6233
    @violetmoon6233 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I feel Goddess Kali energy anger, Rebirth & rising like a Phoenix 🙏💜💜💜💜

  • @kjthe1st223
    @kjthe1st223 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    It just keeps getting better and better. I'm grateful I get to watch this journey. Another Hit.

  • @michaeljolly1168
    @michaeljolly1168 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thank you SoupRs for introducing this banger of a song

  • @daisy1173
    @daisy1173 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Absolutely love this song, deserves way more attention. 🖤

  • @Sky-im5bn
    @Sky-im5bn 3 ปีที่แล้ว +54

    This ladies, gentlemen, others including those who do not want to perceived. This, THIS. Is how Mothica. Thee, Mothica. Became incredibly famous, and I'm glad to be here to witness it.

  • @JonathanGomez-dq8px
    @JonathanGomez-dq8px 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Can’t wait

  • @golovostik3468
    @golovostik3468 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    Discovered her with BmtH, but holy hell she’s talented

  • @enchantedpropaganda
    @enchantedpropaganda 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Found her through “forever fifteen” and now I’m listening to all her songs and omfg this is so good and powerful. Love how deep her music runs

  • @irenajensen4710
    @irenajensen4710 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Episode 1 of You on Netflix brought me here, and I’m so glad it did 😌

  • @tater6606
    @tater6606 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    This has been my favorite so far

  • @SocialistArg
    @SocialistArg 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Congratulations MOTHICA. Greetings from Argentina

  • @no_one_real
    @no_one_real ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This songs a masterpiece What a shame ive found it this late 💔

  • @ryanlewington6
    @ryanlewington6 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Hoping to hear this on Saturday night!!!

  • @Rocket1142
    @Rocket1142 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    anyone that survives deserves all the world I have been there

  • @aaronhixon4281
    @aaronhixon4281 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I'm absolutely addicted to this song

  • @selenagomezjaz
    @selenagomezjaz 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Such a beautiful way of saying so much with very little I love it

  • @daniellerenee8607
    @daniellerenee8607 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Every single Mothica song speaks to a different part of my existence. It's almost spiritual to listen to her music. Like a lullaby from your mother. Mother Mothica taking over! 💕

  • @yoohoodrinker566
    @yoohoodrinker566 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Video after video. Keep em coming. All great.

  • @whateversrunning1114
    @whateversrunning1114 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    My ears r blessed please that's my new fav song 😍

  • @AH-ny8ob
    @AH-ny8ob 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    So excited!!!

  • @lizakomarovskaya1205
    @lizakomarovskaya1205 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Her music is so wonderful😍
    And the videos are incredibly aesthetic

  • @SairieFayce
    @SairieFayce 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I haven’t connected with music for a long time until I heard yours. You are like this generations version of Lana Del Rey, and they need you. Keep this shit up girl. I’m rooting for you🖤

  • @Angela-sv2jx
    @Angela-sv2jx 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    And she does it again! This song is everything

  • @alyssajewell94
    @alyssajewell94 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Girrllllllllllll you did that! So powerful!

  • @largebronco1138
    @largebronco1138 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    2:17 that shot give me chillllllllllllllllllls.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i love you.!

  • @minerva3924
    @minerva3924 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    OMG, this is awesome. From Argentina I tell you that I LOVE U

  • @user-up4yn9jw8g
    @user-up4yn9jw8g 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Yaay new icon to stan

  • @Pegging_mothman3435
    @Pegging_mothman3435 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Your tik tok about the song showed up on my fyp and I instantly fell in love with the song and need to find the full version ❤️

  • @TaylorDestroy
    @TaylorDestroy 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    This song has been stuck in my head 🤘

  • @Nwoutcast
    @Nwoutcast 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    The amount of emotion, pain and strength in each video is so damn impressive. You are seen, you are loved and you are valid @mothica.

  • @veldrien
    @veldrien ปีที่แล้ว +13

    Soup brought me here GG

  • @lunebnny
    @lunebnny 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I found my favorite artist ever. Literally have had blue hour on repeat for 3 months, and now forever fifteen. Never vibed or been inspired by music quite the same. I feel it in my bones. Thank you Mothica. 💜

  • @Owlofall1464
    @Owlofall1464 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    This deserves atleast 50m views

  • @ankerata
    @ankerata 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I've already watched it 500 times and I think I'll watch it another 500 times. very cool shots, all those camera transitions and frame transitions are just fantastic, just like the song itself

  • @tysanatana3539
    @tysanatana3539 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS and i am not disappointed xx

  • @jyi4779
    @jyi4779 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    i stumbled upon this song because of a story im reading, and all i can feel right now is my fear turning into something great. i feel like this song is not something i can listen on the go, like i need to calm down in some place where i feel comfortable and let my demons become my allies :(( thank you for this song, mothica!!! this made my day ( and im crying but that's okay )

  • @Pizzapiepants
    @Pizzapiepants 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Shout out to your BACA hoodie! I love seeing great people rep OKC💖

  • @alexcody8647
    @alexcody8647 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This song is becoming one of my favorites with “Vices” and “Oh god”.

  • @FishWithLipstick
    @FishWithLipstick 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Everything about her outfits is amazing. I need those earrings noww

  • @hols.
    @hols. 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    this song deserves way more recognition it’s so good

  • @chae.young.0
    @chae.young.0 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    AMO

  • @aminto9448
    @aminto9448 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Straight banger

  • @Wishhy999
    @Wishhy999 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    GG

  • @Raseberrydreams
    @Raseberrydreams 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Your my new favorite now and I really love this song 🤟😎🔥

  • @kaitlyn1670
    @kaitlyn1670 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Mothica this is absolutely amazing. the song, the visuals, all of it!
    I'm in love with this song forreal

  • @danielazophus
    @danielazophus 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I've been wanting to create a just-for-fun comic but never knew what to put my focus on, and looks like I've found the ideal inspiration for it... Buzzkill KILLS IT ❤❤❤❤❤

  • @seveee4225
    @seveee4225 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Such a great job. I love you!!!!!!!

  • @sobosoup
    @sobosoup 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    This is such a huge bop I just cant-

  • @imaanahmed4965
    @imaanahmed4965 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    You're so inspiring omggggg, thank you so much for your music. Speaks volumes. Thank you so much ❤️❤️

  • @corei9_real
    @corei9_real 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    2 minutes is definitely not enough of this masterpiece

  • @kriskros4900
    @kriskros4900 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I love the correlation of how the art is a weapon-

  • @ericaowusu7523
    @ericaowusu7523 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    My Spotify knows what I'm into, and now I'm inlove with this song

  • @jani8063
    @jani8063 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    here before it blows up

  • @rylee-fo9fr
    @rylee-fo9fr 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Im so exited!!

  • @josh34578
    @josh34578 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I keep coming back to this song. So good!

  • @forevermarked5826
    @forevermarked5826 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    And I just fell in live...just like that

  • @little_hawkmoth
    @little_hawkmoth 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    If it's not a heaven, so what is it?
    I definitely need 10 hour version 😍😍😍

  • @xiJulia_
    @xiJulia_ 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    So powerful!!!🔥

  • @spinel345
    @spinel345 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Currently obsessed with this song. It helps me sm to get a lot of anger and frustration out