There is an author and I can't remember her name at the moment but she wrote about losing her sister. She said "I will never stop grieving my sister because I will never stop loving her". I think that is a good way to look at how a person feels when they lose someone who has been so integral to their life. I have lost four younger siblings, parents and my partner. Sadness is one of the key emotions that makes us human and out of that comes compassion and empathy. I think we are often so inundated with toxic positivity via social media influencers and people telling us to feel good 24/7, that being able to acknowledge feelings that may be unpopular is a better way to evolve into being more authentic and more present for ourselves and our loved ones. Your children are so adorable. Wishing all of you blessings for this year.
I always watch your videos, but rarely comment. I just wanted to say that when you are talking about how kind Echo is when talking to Ever, that is a reflection of how he hears you talking to/about your 3 children. Children LITERALLY copy what they hear and how they get treated. So the fact that Echo speaks so kindly to Ever, and treats her so well, is a true testament to how well you speak to/about your children.
I lost a brother before I was even born and I loved to sit with my mum when she missed him and look at photos and let her tell me stories I’m now 34 and I have unfortunately also lost a son and so me and my mum sit together and share our memories. It’s important to share it and meant a lot to me before I had my loss and means even more now to have my mum who fully understands my loss and how I’m feeling, she said she felt it all over again when I lost her grandson and I’m sad for that but we are greatful more than ever for each other x
I’m so so sorry for you both 💔 Brogans mum is also in the same boat of losing both a child and grandchild. How triggering that must be. Your mum sounds like an incredible support and so do you for her as she raised you
@@Itsjudeaaa the pain is unreal and people say time helps but time doesn’t help because it feels like time takes your child away even more, others move on and they are talked about less and that hurts even more. You’re powerful and strong and you’re a brilliant mum to your babies here and in heaven. Keep doing what you are doing you are raising awareness and you are helping people feel less alone, so thank you x
“I didn’t get to experience teething with Noah Lee”…..that one broke me 🥺. I’m SO sorry mama….but you’re doing SUCH an AMAZING job!!!! They have the best mommy ever!
You have such a beautiful way with words. I love the way you describe the complexity of your grief. You help me and I’m sure you help loads of people express what they’re going through ❤
You have handled all of this grief so gracefully and lovingly. Echo, Ever a Noah are the most precious babies ever!!! SO ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS! You’re such an amazing mom and you’re doing a better job than most moms that haven’t even gone through what you have. Your babies will appreciate EVERYTHING you have done for them. Keep it up mama, you’re amazing!! ❤️🥰❤️
Aww I love hearing Echo's bond with Ever. The love of an older brother to a younger sister is so special. I lost my big brother 10 years ago and you're so right about the grief never going away. I've been planning of ways to talk about my grief and remembering my brother on my channel, but it's painful and emotionally exhausting to attempt. But your videos always give me the nudge to go for it. ❣
Have you noticed how Ever was totally trying to follow your hands at the start of the video, everywhere 😂😂😂 I see you Judea, your living grief is a testament to the love you shared with NL. I would be the same ❤
This hit me so hard. I lost my dad, who was my best friend, my literal rock, last year due to a stroke at his young age of 56 and I have not healed. I’m 30 and I feel robbed of all the “still to come” amazing memories not only I could have had with him but my son/ his grandson could have had with him. I don’t want at all to make you feel like it’s relatable, or our griefs are the same in anyway. I don’t want to compare our pain, but I simply want to say that your videos are reaching people, I know they help me. What really hit me in this video, is the keeping our pain in and not sharing it due to people’s reactions. I haven’t recovered nor will ever recover from losing my dad, and I feel that I can’t express that to others because I don’t want people to be bothered and expecting me to be better now that time has passed. Thank you for sharing. ❤❤
When my dad died my therapist described it as a gaping wound at the start that eventually scabs over and still hurts and then turns into a scar that never fades. 6 years later, I'm at painful scab stage. It doesn't get easier, it just changes. I'm sorry you're in this club! You're not alone ❤
It’s especially hard to articulate how hard those “still to come” moments are without sounding ungrateful for the things we do have in our lives 💔 Thank you for sharing, I’m so sorry for your loss
I understand with all my heart! Yesterday was the anniversary of my dad’s death. It's been 8 years. I don't miss him any less or feel less pain and loss. But you and I are lucky that we had something so wonderful that causes us to feel so much pain to lose. My dad was my rock, my comfort, my friend, my hero. Everything to me. So I try to focus on the time that I was so blessed to have him. And through the blood that was shed by our beloved savior Jesus Christ I know I will see him again. ❤ lots of love from me to you!
And, I love and adore you Judea! ❤ you are so inspiring! I hope you know that. You are a Pilar of strength and grace. I love to see you enjoying your gorgeous children! I wish you could see Noah-Lee because I'm positive her spirit is with you and her brother and sister all the time. 🩷🩵🩷 love from Faith in New York
There’s something amazing about how much you remember & hold on to for the two months Noah Lee was here. When I think about the first two months with my baby, it all feels like a blur. I would like to hear more about that time with her & about her ❤️
You are one of the most emotionally mature people I’ve ever come across. I’ve watched you from the beginning and have seen your progression in the way you’ve worked through your grief. I know you went to therapy but honestly you seem to be your own therapist in a way. You are doing a fantastic job managing your life even though there’s still a struggle in the inside. Your babies are lucky to have you as their mama.
I lost my baby girl 28 year's ago to SID'S, she was 1 month old. I had 3 children aged 8,6,4 at the time. My grief was so overwhelming and I didn't know how I would ever learn to live again. I had a friend who said not long after my beautiful baby girl passed, how did I get up each day and keep going. I said that I have 3 beautiful children that need me. My children are the one's that helped me find a new me, and sometimes I quite often feel that as tragic as the situation was it made me a better Mother and person. I am now 58 year's old, my adult children are 34,32 and 30 year's of age. They have blessed me with 8 absolutely adorable grandbabys❤️ I feel that yes life does go on, but so does the feeling of love for my beautiful baby girl.
You have such a beautiful soul! I hate how I’ve seen people drag you from how you grieve! I however truly admire you! You are doing amazing! Even on your bad days❤
Noah Lee will never be forgotten….ESPECIALLY by her mama that loves her SO much. And because of how you have raised Echo and Ever to know her and to love her so much. She will never be forgotten love! 🥰❤️
What beautiful children! They're such a joy to see! I loved seeing Echo with Ever! Idu how people think you shouldn't feel the loss of Noah-Lee still! I'm sorry this is portrayed or thought and relayed to you!
It’s in no way comparable to child loss but I lost my father a couple of years ago and it’s true that with grief it doesn’t get easier. You learn to focus on other things while it’s still there. Btw your children are gorgeous! ❤
Awe she’s her brother’s little boo thang. 💗 When my older brother was a toddler he was sweet to me too when I was a baby. We were each other’s first friend.
You are a mother who lost her daughter, you should never feel guilty for grieving her even after having more children. Bless your family and I hope the moments of joy your children give you will make life worth living until you see Noah again ❤
Hearing you explain why you named your son Echo touched my heart. Even though the circumstance is so painful That name, and what it means is so beautiful. Perfect choice in my opinion ❤️
Judea, you are a beautiful person and I can sense so much grace and intellect from you, in your words and in how you carry yourself. I wish losing children wasn't a thing in this world but there is so much sadness. Sometimes it's so easy to fall into that spiral of negativity every day. It is soooo hard to climb out of it, I haven't lost one of my two babies but I have lost a lot in life. I can't even comprehend your pain for I can't and don't want to think of that type of pain. All this to say, people, things and even children aren't going to fill that hole in your heart, only Jesus can. I don't know how you feel about God and Jesus and certain religions get it so wrong and you might have been hurt by people's beliefs and people twisting the whole image of Jesus. But I can only speak for myself and what I have experienced. I have tried soooo many things to fill this hole in my heart that not even my husband and children could fill, all these new age practices couldn't fill it, money, clothes (which I love), a bigger house, more friends, different medications, nice stuff...nothing could fill it, only Jesus. If you ever one day feel the loneliness creeping in, try talking to Him, ask Him to enter your heart and take your pain and grief. (This is only of you want to) heck, if you've now tried everything, why not try talking to Him 🤷♀️ But whatever you decide to do, I think you are a very strong person and I hope only the best for you and your precious children. ❤
@@Itsjudeaaa no way!! Awwe I love that! I like to see other babies and compare lol love to watch my baby's milestones so seeing baby Ever I knew they had to be close..that's so cool they have the same bday, we had the same labor day🥰
@@Itsjudeaaa speaking milestones..she actually rolled from tummy to her back today during tummy time for the first time..I literally cried! My little baby is growing up too fast... And she's also been babbling gagadadaga and a bunch of bahhgaaa daaa lol it's so sad how fast they grow up
Maybe, I’ve definitely accepted - it’s hard not to when EVERYTHING tells you “your baby is gone” - but I’m still and won’t ever be ok with it…does that make sense?
Just to let you know it's not really called being a single mum if you are coparenting. A single mum is someone who has no other parent help. You are a strong mama ❤
There is an author and I can't remember her name at the moment but she wrote about losing her sister. She said "I will never stop grieving my sister because I will never stop loving her". I think that is a good way to look at how a person feels when they lose someone who has been so integral to their life. I have lost four younger siblings, parents and my partner. Sadness is one of the key emotions that makes us human and out of that comes compassion and empathy. I think we are often so inundated with toxic positivity via social media influencers and people telling us to feel good 24/7, that being able to acknowledge feelings that may be unpopular is a better way to evolve into being more authentic and more present for ourselves and our loved ones. Your children are so adorable. Wishing all of you blessings for this year.
Yes to this!!!
You are enduring so much loss! My heart aches for you 💔
My God, she is too cute! She looks just like her big brother. You’re such a good mama to all of your babies. ❤
I always watch your videos, but rarely comment. I just wanted to say that when you are talking about how kind Echo is when talking to Ever, that is a reflection of how he hears you talking to/about your 3 children. Children LITERALLY copy what they hear and how they get treated. So the fact that Echo speaks so kindly to Ever, and treats her so well, is a true testament to how well you speak to/about your children.
This is the best compliment I could ever receive 🫶🏽
I lost a brother before I was even born and I loved to sit with my mum when she missed him and look at photos and let her tell me stories I’m now 34 and I have unfortunately also lost a son and so me and my mum sit together and share our memories. It’s important to share it and meant a lot to me before I had my loss and means even more now to have my mum who fully understands my loss and how I’m feeling, she said she felt it all over again when I lost her grandson and I’m sad for that but we are greatful more than ever for each other x
Sorry read that back and hopefully you all no when to breath 😂
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I’m so so sorry for you both 💔 Brogans mum is also in the same boat of losing both a child and grandchild. How triggering that must be. Your mum sounds like an incredible support and so do you for her as she raised you
@@Itsjudeaaa the pain is unreal and people say time helps but time doesn’t help because it feels like time takes your child away even more, others move on and they are talked about less and that hurts even more. You’re powerful and strong and you’re a brilliant mum to your babies here and in heaven. Keep doing what you are doing you are raising awareness and you are helping people feel less alone, so thank you x
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“I didn’t get to experience teething with Noah Lee”…..that one broke me 🥺. I’m SO sorry mama….but you’re doing SUCH an AMAZING job!!!! They have the best mommy ever!
You have such a beautiful way with words. I love the way you describe the complexity of your grief. You help me and I’m sure you help loads of people express what they’re going through ❤
It’s such a sensitive topic I try really hard to get it right but sometimes there really are no words! Xx
I love this video entirely. The meaning behind echo’s name is so deep & pure. Best of luck always. 🤎
How cute watching Ever watching your hand movements as you are speaking. She even tried to emulate your hand gestures.
She soaks up soooooo much! Shes going to be one intelligent lil gal…. Or a know it all hahaha 😍🥰
So beautiful to see them both together and their brother sister relationship
Honestly it makes me well up with tears everyday 🥹
You have handled all of this grief so gracefully and lovingly. Echo, Ever a Noah are the most precious babies ever!!! SO ABSOLUTELY GORGEOUS! You’re such an amazing mom and you’re doing a better job than most moms that haven’t even gone through what you have. Your babies will appreciate EVERYTHING you have done for them. Keep it up mama, you’re amazing!! ❤️🥰❤️
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Ever chatting the whole way through was HILARIOUS 😂
Aww I love hearing Echo's bond with Ever. The love of an older brother to a younger sister is so special. I lost my big brother 10 years ago and you're so right about the grief never going away. I've been planning of ways to talk about my grief and remembering my brother on my channel, but it's painful and emotionally exhausting to attempt. But your videos always give me the nudge to go for it. ❣
I’m so sorry for your loss 💔
Have you noticed how Ever was totally trying to follow your hands at the start of the video, everywhere 😂😂😂 I see you Judea, your living grief is a testament to the love you shared with NL. I would be the same ❤
This hit me so hard. I lost my dad, who was my best friend, my literal rock, last year due to a stroke at his young age of 56 and I have not healed. I’m 30 and I feel robbed of all the “still to come” amazing memories not only I could have had with him but my son/ his grandson could have had with him. I don’t want at all to make you feel like it’s relatable, or our griefs are the same in anyway. I don’t want to compare our pain, but I simply want to say that your videos are reaching people, I know they help me. What really hit me in this video, is the keeping our pain in and not sharing it due to people’s reactions. I haven’t recovered nor will ever recover from losing my dad, and I feel that I can’t express that to others because I don’t want people to be bothered and expecting me to be better now that time has passed.
Thank you for sharing. ❤❤
When my dad died my therapist described it as a gaping wound at the start that eventually scabs over and still hurts and then turns into a scar that never fades. 6 years later, I'm at painful scab stage. It doesn't get easier, it just changes. I'm sorry you're in this club! You're not alone ❤
It’s especially hard to articulate how hard those “still to come” moments are without sounding ungrateful for the things we do have in our lives 💔 Thank you for sharing, I’m so sorry for your loss
I understand with all my heart! Yesterday was the anniversary of my dad’s death. It's been 8 years. I don't miss him any less or feel less pain and loss. But you and I are lucky that we had something so
wonderful that causes us to feel so much pain to lose. My dad was my rock, my comfort, my friend, my hero. Everything to me. So I try to focus on the time that I was so blessed to have him. And through the blood that was shed by our beloved savior Jesus Christ I know I will see him again. ❤ lots of love from me to you!
And, I love and adore you Judea! ❤ you are so inspiring! I hope you know that. You are a Pilar of strength and grace. I love to see you enjoying your gorgeous children! I wish you could see Noah-Lee because I'm positive her spirit is with you and her brother and sister all the time. 🩷🩵🩷 love from Faith in New York
There’s something amazing about how much you remember & hold on to for the two months Noah Lee was here. When I think about the first two months with my baby, it all feels like a blur. I would like to hear more about that time with her & about her ❤️
I cling to those memories with both hands, and talking about it engrains it even deeper into my memory, I never want to forget 😭
You are one of the most emotionally mature people I’ve ever come across. I’ve watched you from the beginning and have seen your progression in the way you’ve worked through your grief. I know you went to therapy but honestly you seem to be your own therapist in a way. You are doing a fantastic job managing your life even though there’s still a struggle in the inside. Your babies are lucky to have you as their mama.
That is so kind of you to say 💖
I lost my baby girl 28 year's ago to SID'S, she was 1 month old. I had 3 children aged 8,6,4 at the time. My grief was so overwhelming and I didn't know how I would ever learn to live again. I had a friend who said not long after my beautiful baby girl passed, how did I get up each day and keep going. I said that I have 3 beautiful children that need me. My children are the one's that helped me find a new me, and sometimes I quite often feel that as tragic as the situation was it made me a better Mother and person. I am now 58 year's old, my adult children are 34,32 and 30 year's of age. They have blessed me with 8 absolutely adorable grandbabys❤️ I feel that yes life does go on, but so does the feeling of love for my beautiful baby girl.
I’m so sorry you know this pain 💔 Our children really do keep us going c
You have such a beautiful soul! I hate how I’ve seen people drag you from how you grieve! I however truly admire you! You are doing amazing! Even on your bad days❤
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Noah Lee will never be forgotten….ESPECIALLY by her mama that loves her SO much. And because of how you have raised Echo and Ever to know her and to love her so much. She will never be forgotten love! 🥰❤️
What beautiful children! They're such a joy to see! I loved seeing Echo with Ever! Idu how people think you shouldn't feel the loss of Noah-Lee still! I'm sorry this is portrayed or thought and relayed to you!
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Sending love to you and your family Judea. Have a blessed week ahead! , Zoey ❤
It’s in no way comparable to child loss but I lost my father a couple of years ago and it’s true that with grief it doesn’t get easier. You learn to focus on other things while it’s still there. Btw your children are gorgeous! ❤
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Just started watching the video but had to pause to say, my god I swear you and Brogan make the most beautiful babies!!!!! God bless them❤🙏🏽
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Echo is really the sweetest little boy 💙
Awe she’s her brother’s little boo thang. 💗 When my older brother was a toddler he was sweet to me too when I was a baby. We were each other’s first friend.
That is so sweet! 🥹
You are a mother who lost her daughter, you should never feel guilty for grieving her even after having more children. Bless your family and I hope the moments of joy your children give you will make life worth living until you see Noah again ❤
Ever, Echo, and NoahLee are the cutest siblings. ❤
Hearing you explain why you named your son Echo touched my heart. Even though the circumstance is so painful That name, and what it means is so beautiful. Perfect choice in my opinion ❤️
Thank you! X
Your videos reminds me of my son he passed away. So that's why im here. Sometimes im questions myself why im watching you....
Ever looks so much like Echo now. You are beautiful inside and out and you will always feel pain but NoahLee will always be part of you, always. ❤
Thank you x They do look so similar, I can’t wait till Ever can interact with Echo more 🥹
Beautiful baby!
Judea, you are a beautiful person and I can sense so much grace and intellect from you, in your words and in how you carry yourself. I wish losing children wasn't a thing in this world but there is so much sadness. Sometimes it's so easy to fall into that spiral of negativity every day. It is soooo hard to climb out of it, I haven't lost one of my two babies but I have lost a lot in life. I can't even comprehend your pain for I can't and don't want to think of that type of pain.
All this to say, people, things and even children aren't going to fill that hole in your heart, only Jesus can. I don't know how you feel about God and Jesus and certain religions get it so wrong and you might have been hurt by people's beliefs and people twisting the whole image of Jesus. But I can only speak for myself and what I have experienced. I have tried soooo many things to fill this hole in my heart that not even my husband and children could fill, all these new age practices couldn't fill it, money, clothes (which I love), a bigger house, more friends, different medications, nice stuff...nothing could fill it, only Jesus. If you ever one day feel the loneliness creeping in, try talking to Him, ask Him to enter your heart and take your pain and grief. (This is only of you want to) heck, if you've now tried everything, why not try talking to Him 🤷♀️
But whatever you decide to do, I think you are a very strong person and I hope only the best for you and your precious children. ❤
I love her growls lol
Baby Ever is SO CUTE!!!! I love watching your videos I also have a baby girl who recently turned 5 mo,she was born Aug 23
Same birthday as Ever!
@@Itsjudeaaa no way!! Awwe I love that! I like to see other babies and compare lol love to watch my baby's milestones so seeing baby Ever I knew they had to be close..that's so cool they have the same bday, we had the same labor day🥰
@@Itsjudeaaa speaking milestones..she actually rolled from tummy to her back today during tummy time for the first time..I literally cried! My little baby is growing up too fast... And she's also been babbling gagadadaga and a bunch of bahhgaaa daaa lol it's so sad how fast they grow up
I'd be interested to know how brogan parents compared to you
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At the end of the video Ever's bald spots looked like a love heart! 🥹
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Accept rather than heal?
Maybe, I’ve definitely accepted - it’s hard not to when EVERYTHING tells you “your baby is gone” - but I’m still and won’t ever be ok with it…does that make sense?
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Just to let you know it's not really called being a single mum if you are coparenting. A single mum is someone who has no other parent help. You are a strong mama ❤
Expolring lol
oops! cant be perfect now can i ;P
I've been grieving for 22 years 💔 milestones are still hard but it definitely gets easier 🤍 I'm proud of you 🙏🏻
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@Itsjudeaaa I'm so sorry 💔