10 (UNEXPECTED) Signs of Bipolar Disorder MANIA
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When most people think of mania or hypomania (especially those who don't live with Bipolar) they picture someone who is happy, energetic, fast-talking, not sleeping. Basically the results that come from a typical Google search...
Today I want to explore 10 of the more subtle or misunderstood symptoms of mania and hypomania. Things we might not consider related to the illness at all. Things we might not even talk about. I don't need to make a big introduction, so let's get right to it!
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1. Anger/irritatability
2. Hyper/hyposexuality
3. Crazy eyes
4. Ants-in-your-pants
5. Disinhibition
6. Altered perception
7. All go no sleep
8. Creativity changes
9. Delusions and/or hallucinations
10. Cleaning
Thank you ❤️☀️
So....I'm in the midst of mania. Seriously, these are so hard to deal with, especially when your situation/work surrounds you with negative people. I have to keep repeating to myself, "It's fine, your just going through a manic phase, keep quiet, stay away from people, be good." Spent like 45 years of my life being bu-polar, and at 45 I realized I was sick. If I had known, my life would be much different...better
@@kimbaptempura4073❤
Lol 🎉
As a child of 6 I was constantly asked if I had ants in my pants 👖 🐜
My reply, yeah… you wanna see? As I would drop my pants
OMG, the insane cleaning and unrealistic goals I would pursue!
Another thing that is a big part of mania is racing thoughts. It's like my thoughts go fast and I go from one idea to the next quickly
I definitely experience this.
Do u mean nonstop thinking? My thoughts never end.
I've found that cleaning tasks helps with racing thoughts. An easy to do repetitive task like sweeping, for example. These are the best meditative tasks for me. I feel I'm using the time constructively and clearing my mind of confusion and rush. Hope it helps you too.
@@lucyrobson5145 Thanks for the tip! Yes! I can see how that would help. I run and it's great for anxiety and depression as long as I do it consistently.
I'm also lucky that the medication I'm on means I don't have racing thoughts much anymore.
I think it’s called “flight of ideas.” It happens to me too😢
Anger, rage, irritability, OCD, excessive cleaning, energy peaks followed by huge crashes after several nights from not wanting much sleep, glazed eyes, rapid & pressured speech, restlessness, skin picking, excessive shopping, making jokes & butting into conversations when not invited.
When I got diagnosed with bipolar 2 and started my medication I was amazed by how much more colourful the world became. It was like I got new glasses!
Yes I'm happy for you person but please keep it up even when feeling good
What medication if you don’t mind?
@@NMW80 I'm on quetiapine and now sertraline. I was scared to take them at first but I joined a great support group who talked me through everything. I still get not so good days but I can't physically get as low as I was before - everyone is different though and it's about finding the right balance for you!
What med? My mom has been manic for over 6 months and just rages at me, making herself sick & me too 😢
@@allesizgott @allesizgott I'm on quetiapine and sertraline but there are quite a few different meds for bipolar and everyone can react differently, so you have to work on finding the right ones with a doctor. If she has been manic that long and is already taking medication it might be worth speaking to a doctor as they may not be right for her x
Excellent video.... it's a shame that the DSM and google can't mention things like this, it really makes bipolar hard to diagnose. Thank you so much for doing what you do!
It is unfortunate that Bi-Polarism is often the "dump-all" diagnosis, given following a brief patient interview.
20 minutes and dealing with insurance companies, INSURE that many are mis-diagnoised daily.
@@seabee5695 I don't know where you're getting that from. My experience was that my bipolar was _missed_ for _many_ years. I would show up for help when I was depressed and was assumed by therapists to have recurrent depression because they'd only see me when depressed.
Needless to say the antidepressant meds never worked.
And no one ever asked about what was going on when I wasn't depressed. Underdiagnosis bordering on malpractice. And my experience isn't uncommon.
@@harpfully
Thank you for your comments.
I "get that" from my own mis-diagnosis of bi-polarism, after a "brief" appointment in which the Doctor created a diagnosis when the should have observed and studied the case further prior to the "dump all" in my circumstance.
So similiar to you, I agree that the patient rarely presents with all of the necessary "observable" signs. The importance of having the WHOLE picture of the patient becomes VITAL for proper diagnosis and treatment reccomendations.
All my best as you walk your path. 💛
I have experience, everything you said, and you did in a very interesting way. The one thing about psychosis though you’re like a donkey with a ring in your nose. and anyone can take the rope and the way you go. I wrote my autobiography. Madness broke the Rose. I was slightly manic at the time right now it’s October and I’m starting to cycle.
As always, thank you so much for your videos. I am 39 and have been undiagnosed and untreated for over twenty years. Bipolar I, rapid cycling, with occasional psychotic features during manic episodes. I am medicated now, and have been in therapy for the last 5 straight years. Your videos, when I found them almost 2 years ago, made me burst into tears immediately because I finally felt that I wasn't alone. Thank you so much for these very informative and compassionate videos, they help people understand this very complicated, very serious disorder.
My story is very similar. Crazy how the issues don’t go away just because you ignore them for a couple of decades. I’ve only been medicated for a month after a hospital stay but the difference is astounding. The meds dialed the mania down to almost nothing, I could feel the higher energy and had to be diligent about sleeping properly but nothing felt problematic.
What were your psychotic episodes like? I believe my ex is bipolar and had bouts of psychosis.
my youngest son has bipolar one and has been through every one of these points. he finally ended up in jail due to DV toward his stepmother, father and brother. he's been released about three weeks ago and is doing very well and he has the support of the entire family behind him. we love him so much.
As someone who also struggles with bipolar disorder and is a recovering addict who has ended up in jail multiple times over drugs, I’m very pleased to see that you and your family have been supportive and encouraging to your son. He has a much better chance of getting better and learning to cope with his symptoms and the emotions that come with it in a more constructive manner
Wow! That’s wonderful! He is very blessed to have a family like y’all.
He’s blessed to have a good family ❤ I’ve been to jail and also I’m a recovered addict. At just 31 years old. I have a more stable life now but I have to be extremely consistent with routines and medication. And I’m also bipolar 1. Hope he keeps getting better :)
I have been diagnosed since 2002 now and yet, never heard anyone discuss these symptoms and other bipolar related topics as clearly as you do. I am just grateful that things stay somewhat manageable for me thanks to medications, I never want to experience delusions again!
Thanks for speaking about this Rob. A lot of people think mania must be all fun but I also get super irritable and restless. Insomnia (during mania) had been the worst symptom of my bipolar disorder.
Yes, and being in a mixed state is horrific because one moment you are in mania and the next, you are depressed and crying.
Whilst experiencing periods (lasting about 5 -40 minutes) of euphoria the mania is terrifying. Once I realized I was BPD, things made sense, but the mania has me on edge always as I know, no matter how rational I am otherwise, I pose the most danger during mania. PBD while live-with-able, I still describe as a living hell.
The mixed episodes are awful. Depressed but faster. Miserable but can't stop moving and doing.
I agree, not being able to sleep at all is a nightmare.
I was in hospital recently because I didn’t sleep for a week. I was on my own planet and out of control. My memories of the first night are sketchy but I know I still couldn’t sleep (i told them I wasn’t sleeping but they didn’t give me anything, go figure) and I was wandering the halls and occasionally punching or kicking the walls all night long. Thank God I got transferred to a better place the next day and I was able to sleep. Bipolar insomnia is no joke.
After two hospitalizations… the third time was my first ‘unpleasant’ episode of mania, where paranoia and anxiety took over the same wheel that grandiose behaviors usually occupy (I think they call that “mixed” episodes), and all because I was prescribed a steroid for a severe allergic reaction. I noticed it 24 hours in, when I was pacing back and forth at 3am and not even needing coffee, so I quickly restarted my lithium (I had come off months prior) and saved myself a hospitalization by locking myself in the house for a week or so until it kicked in.
PLEASE don’t ever stop your medicine if that’s what they give you. It’s true… without it, any little sleep disturbance, substance, circumstance , new medication, or either stressful OR exciting event (like moving, going on vacation, etc) will most definitely trigger your mania.
It’s a blast a first. Maybe a night or two without sleeping, or waking up at 3am just to listen to music/dance and to think by yourself is fun, but that should be your first major sign.
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Lithium changed (and probably saved) my life. I've been on it for several years. The thought of not taking it anymore is quite honestly scary to me.
The gospel truth, a light turning on in an otherwise very dark room. If you're on this journey, the biggest comfort has to be knowledge of what's going on, or knowledge of what you can expect. A great many thanks to this continued initiative!
Been diagnosed and medicated 18 yrs. Have experienced all these symptoms as well. Its so frustrating when your medicated and still the Bipolar takes over. So glad Ive found this channel and people thst can relate. Thank you 🙂🙃
Interestingly enough when I got really bad, I cleaned up the house like crazy. I thought maybe having a dirty house could be making me feel this way. I couldn’t see that at the time but my girlfriend who I also blamed and tried to brake up with could. In the end she inspired me to get help and would go to my appointments with me. Now a few years on medication we’re engaged. ❤
I was officially diagnosed with Bi Polar Type 1 when I was 45. After the diagnosis I looked back on my life and so many things made sense. All the Major manics I went through caused me to make VERY rash and ill advised decisions. Each time my life was upended and changed drastically, and usually not for the better. One example was when I was 20 I left minnesota to go to San Diego to look up relatives of an old girlfriend, who were in organized crime, and was going to try and become a hit-man. After a couple weeks living as a beach bum and had no opportunities I joined the Air Force. That manic lasted from Nov. 1979 to may of 1980. Then the depression set in and all I wanted was to get out of the service which triggered another manic which did result in discharge. That was ONE of many similar type manics. Each episode I made bizzare and terrible decisions. I was also hyper sexual during these episodes and it's a wonder I never caught an STD. After finally getting on medication and therapy my episodes are fewer and less intense. I am fairly under control of it now.
When i’m depressed i’m always waiting for a hypomanic episode when i know i’ll be able to do everything that i’ve fallen behind on!
One thing for sure is self-diagnosis is really difficult with this illness but my family can see my swings & roundabouts!
Felt this!!!!
Get medicated properly
OMG I live for this channel! Great information from someone who is Bipolar & is adamant that if you are Bipolar there’s hope! Thanks for the tools I can share with my bipolar wife - it’s made a HUGE difference. 10 out of 10 😬
Wow thank you so much! I'm so glad the channel has been helpful! Drop me a line... PolarWarriors@gmail.com
-Rob
I wish this whole series could be compulsory viewing for all health education - in schools and medical professional courses.
Mania isn’t all puppies and rainbows 🌈 😅 ILL NEVER FORGET THIS_needed the 😂today- thank you polar brother!!❤
Diagnosed cyclothymic here. I would add another quite dangerous symptom, or perhaps consequence, of mania - quitting meds. I've done it a few times myself. The crashes were devastating. And still, I can't wait for the next episode to happen.
First time commenting but I've watched all your videos - except when manic. I don't want to be reminded that this gorgeous feeling is an illness.
You do a great job, Rob. Thanks for your dedication.
That’s such a great suggestion! Absolutely spot on. I totally would’ve added that to the video. Thank you so much for being an avid watcher and for supporting my work. Stop by the channel anytime 🤗🤗
-Rob
I would get some other opinions and do some more research because after learning a lot about bipolar I don’t really think cyclothymia is actually a thing I think it’s more likely part of bipolar like maybe u have a less intense manic episode but then another time you have a a real hypomanic episode. You may just have bipolar 2 especially if u can relate to this vid and other of this channel. Some psychologists, psychiatrists and therapists try to get too technical with diagnoses just because they have studied the dsm. I have known people who get like 5 diagnoses and or weird ones like mild bpd, anger management disorder, Peter Pan syndrome,paranoid schizophrenic,and bipolar and schizophrenia (which is schizo affective disorder) which aren’t even real things. Btw I am aware cyclothymia is in the dsm but I think it should be removed because the line between bp 2 and cyclothymia is so thin it would be saying being angry is different than being mad..
I hope this helps! Stay Up!!
I'd stay up if I could..it changes as we age..at 40 it was terrific..now at 66 I go straight to anger..so I have to stay on meds..
@GSR-oh3ng it's like the experts only know theory, not the lived experience, despite this they think they know it all..lol
4:32 Hi Rob. Sleep is the biggest issue I have, it's been like that pretty consistently since around my diagnosis at age 17. In the last few years it's gotten worse. I can call it dyssomnia. It saps my energy every single day. Also my dreams are 98% about complicated, awkward situations, either physical, or personal. I had the best one ever a few months ago, although not a complicated one, for a change. I was sitting at a table in a crowded restaurant. "What's so dreadfully awkward about that?" you might say? I'll tell you - I was sitting on a toilet! 😂😂
Recently, my diagnosis of bipolar 2 changed to bipolar 1 w/ mixed features. I had not slept more than 2 or 3 hours per night in weeks. I thought that it was just a few days but my husband corrected me when i spoke to the Dr. I had no appetite either and lost about 10 pounds not even trying. I am getting better now.
If you go on to meds you'll gain A LOT of weight quickly..try alternatives like psychedelics
I do IceBaths for instant mental and emotional relief, pharma free!
I do everything that was on this wonderful video, so I am very grateful to be actually calm and happy after each IceBath, even when I don’t think I need to take a dip, I am extremely glad I did each and every time. Real, natural freedom!
I've done those and initially had great results. After several months being symptom-free, my symptoms returned.
Hope you have a different experience...stay vigilant.
I applaud you for educating people about us having bipolar. I can relate to all of these symptoms.
Currently waiting for another high where I’m more creative and motivated. This is a lot to live with.
The minute you said "life is more vivid" I couldn't stop staring at how great your head of hair is 😂
I've experienced most of this list, but definitely learned something new with the manic eyes and clothes adjustment - I've noticed both, but never been cognizant of how they correlate to my elevated state/mood - thx man, your videos help tremendously 🦾
I realized that I have bipolar eyes quite recently. I don't know if anyone in my environment notices it, I think they just don't care and focus on my destructive actions and attribute them to me and not the illness 😢
Thank you for this video, it means a lot to me ❤
I have to agree with everything. Specially that gleam I get in my eyes when mania comes to visit.
I haven't watched your videos in a few months when this one popped up for me today. Back in late April I lost my ex fiance to a manic episode, he's untreated Bipilar 1 with Rapid Cycling... he left my son and I and everything wonderful we had planned. I dove into your videos for explanations and found a lot of understanding of an illness I didn't know. What I know now thanks to you and other research.... watching this video re breaks my heart of my ex fiance. Despite all of this, in my heart of hearts we had a level of compatibility and understanding that was truly a blessing. It hurts that his illness made it impossible for us to thrive when he came crashing down and had a full blown psychosis episode. To this day he remains untreated, almost 20 years after his diagnosis. My heart breaks for him, he is a lovely person.
Hi rob! A little of me, I sought help because I couldn't get myself to get a hold of myself emotionally. I was horrible to people I knew before being diagnosed. I obsessed over cleaning to dissociate any bad feelings I had , anger to raging anger to crying uncontrollably and come back to a state of "numb". And kept the cycle over and over, it was draining. I remember a situation when i was around 10, I was incredibly furious, I launched a Tupperware like object to my dad. I don't know what came over me to do that, I just remember my dad and brother talking about some family matter and I lost it. Over the yrs, people labeled me as a ticking time bomb, and would be surprised when they would see me not speak at all, or cry.
I am now taking lamotrigine. It really has changed me. Though I was devastated to find out I was ill, im glad that i took myself out of the comfort zone and talked to someone professional. I truly was losing my mind slowly.
Good video. I'm glad you pointed out about lack of sleep. My therapist told me to go to the ER if I go more than 72 hours without sleep. I've only had to do it once. My sister took me. They gave me a shot and sent me home. I slept about 12 hours and was back to base line.
That is great advice. I was recently hospitalized after not sleeping more than an hour or so per night for a week and it sucked. Now if I don’t sleep one night I take melatonin the next and if I don’t sleep with that I have a prescription sleep aid that knocks me out for a good 10-12 hours and helps reset me. I guess if that didn’t work I’d call my doctor and ask for something stronger or go to the ER if I felt I needed it.
So glad you touched on hyper and hypo sexuality it’s a real thing it sucks
I'm bipolar 1 and I'm going through really bad anger episodes I have no control over it and it is like a switch been pressed and I'm going out of control😢 I am been tapered off my meds so I know it is that but a huge thankyou for your videos it helps to see we are not alone ❤
I move somewhat quickly from amazing feeling hypomania to irritable and angry mania, I hardly sleep but have so much energy I struggle to even be still and fidget endlessly along with tye racing thoughts. It's at that point I start to get delusional that I'm in danger of being found out as crazy. That's usually followed by a fast crash into a mixed episode (about the only way I experience depression). And I can get psychotically delusional in those, it's been in mixed episodes both of the 2 times I was hospitalized. (If I'd been forthright with my psychiatrist and family other times it would likely be more than that). Sleeps such a big trigger but I have chronic sleep issues I'm on 4 medications at night plus the highest dose of over the counter melatonin to help my get the consistent and proper amount of sleep I need. But stress is another trigger, and just yesterday I had to call my psychiatrist and move up my appointment because I'm starting to get wobbly from the stress pressure cooker at work. Ever increasing levels or work that needs doing while continuing to cut staffing to the point I'm always 10 miles behind the 8 ball, but corporate ridding our assess about getting everything done immediately and to metrics. I feel at the start of a possible mixed episode. Very irritable, but restless energy trouble concentrating, trouble sleeping, feeling I suck and am not good enough and a certain level of paranoia that work thinks I'm shit, and if I wasn't shit I'd be doing better and not struggling.
Hi, Rob offers one on one support on Patreon if you are interested. He also posts more personal information about his day to day struggles like his recent hospital stay. All patrons can contact him directly by private message and he frequently offers free phone calls!!! If you decide to join, you can mention my name and he will give you a free call. Another Patreon exclusive is Rob hosting and moderating weekly support groups on discord! We have many family and friends take part. Take gentle care! 🙏
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I definitely experience symptoms 1 and 2. I can tell when a manic episode is coming due to feeling angry and irritable for no reason really. I get so mad I can feel the heat emanating from my forehead. My meds help me sleep which is great because lack of sleep almost always triggers a manic episode. Thanks for the video.
Prob doesn't TRIGGER episodes, but is a sign you're IN an episode..??.. music poetry writing all improve too..
My son’s doctor give him medicine for depression then after how many days of taking it he became manic for 2 days so i called the doctor if i can stop the medicine, he said ok. I was scared because he was different so we went to behavioral and he was confine there for 4 days then the psychology doctor told us that he has bipolar 1 . I don’t believe cause he was just manic because of the medicine. They gave him other medicine mood stabilizer and also medicine for psychotic. Now his back home but he’s so depressed he just keep on sleeping sometimes crying and don’t want to go school. Praying he will get better soon.
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Sometimes we all need someone to talk to:
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When I was in hypomanic stage my friend told me they thought I was on stimulants because of how unusually energetic I was
Hypomania is so out of character for me that everyone seems to assume I'm high on charlie for days on end - a drug I wouldn't touch with a bargepole. Those rumours have affected my career.
I'm 59. I don't take any medication. I was "diagnosed" in 04 but I've been the same all of my life. I've learned to keep my self stable. Not sure how I did it but I only slip a little once in a while. I lose time. I get really energetic and take on too many things in a week or a month. I find myself keeping up but becoming more and more manic. Before I know it I've lost 5 hours. It's only happened once in the last year so I'm doing well. I've been in school for the last two years and It's really helped. Doing things to stay balanced rather than doing things to become unbalanced is the key. When you get manic you want to do everything. You have to plan your time and just do a little of what you can and remember to eat and drink water. Keep yourself focused and stay busy. It works for me. It's much better than the drugs.
Thank you for your efforts, I have experienced all of the 10, but I try to focus on management more now that I understand myself better 😊
My husband is a rapid cycled also I’ve heard and seen all of what you have described
Thank you for your informative videos
Robert your a legend. I don't have symptoms no where near your level , but I have erratic moods and either sleep loads or not at all . Your videos have made me feel not alone , and I can relate to other people and there situations. I Appreciate the effort you put into youtube.
I didnt realize most of these traits were common symptoms of mania or bi-polar disorder in genneral, thank you for the insight.
Anger with heightened clarvoyancy can sweep you away into thinking everything sucks to the extreme ❤😊🎉
My daughter always knows when I'm experiencing mania because my eyes look brighter in colour and have a sparkle in them. When I'm manic my eyes are a bright light blue, when stable a mid blue and a dark blue when depressed. During psychosis the blue colour fluctuates. My daughter also has the disorder and has changes in her eye colour as well. It's a handy indicator to guage our moods.
Bipolar eyes! My partner can always tell my mood state, just by looking at my eyes
Thank you so much, it's good to know that I'm not the only one experiencing this and I'm learning more about Bipolar.
You are looking very healthy! I’ve been watching your videos for years, and look well.
Great video. Bipolar eyes. I KNEW it! ❤
Hi, Rob offers one on one support on Patreon if you are interested. He also posts more personal information about his day to day struggles like his recent hospital stay. All patrons can contact him directly by private message and he frequently offers free phone calls!!! If you decide to join, you can mention my name and he will give you a free call. Another Patreon exclusive is Rob hosting and moderating weekly support groups on discord! We have many family and friends take part. Take gentle care! 🙏
Sometimes we all need someone to talk to:
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teenlineonline.org/talk-now/
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Thanks a lot for always sharing your lived experience 🤗
Thank you so much, Rob... it's a truly horrible illness. Years of listening to your channel have helped me. The worst mania I have just got through from being denied meds for 3.5 years. Finally, I have proper meds. Looking after myself is key. Bipolar unfortunately has messed up so many opportunities in life. Relationships destroyed. However, I have to constantly go back to the basics. I am hopeful for the future. Thank you for what you do.
That's great, you are truly a Polar WARRIOR!!
@PolarWarriors thank you sir.
Why would you be denied meds...THATS just crazy..all the best ..
@lisaalexander1824 yes it was. NHS
This is all so familiar. I spent the majority of this year hypomanic and managing it well. However, I got into a relationship, fell in love and had some awful threats and an ultimatum surrounding my child from an ex partner which tipped me into a manic episode, all while unmedicated. I got back on meds very quickly and within a month was back to me but I’d gone into £7000 of debt on top of the 4k I already had from historical problems. This illness is not fun however good being hypomanic feels. And yet I’m still tempted to push myself into hypomania even now. My relationship is over and I can feel the tinges of depression in my mind, something I really do not want to experience. I have a long history of very hard drug abuse and this was how I managed depression and joy in the past. But I’ve been sober for 10 months now and life has never been better - I just know that now I have the propensity to play with my internal chemistry through self regulating my bipolar illness rather than through buying illicit drugs.
Thank you so much for your videos. They are so helpful. I have one son with bipolar, one disorder, rapid cycling, inherited by his father and paternal grandmother. Everything you explain is exactly what I go through on a daily basis with him and I’m trying to be the best mom I can be for him. He is 10 1/2 and has not started puberty yet, but I am dreading the day that happens because based on your videos, I see that symptoms will most likely become worse at that point. I will continue to watch your videos. They are so helpful so much more helpful coming from someone who is actually experiencing this illness themselves has way better input than any doctor. Thank you so much.
Hi, Rob offers one on one support on Patreon if you are interested. He also posts more personal information about his day to day struggles. All patrons can contact him directly by private message and he frequently offers free phone calls!!! If you decide to join, you can mention my name and he will give you a free call. Another Patreon exclusive is Rob hosting and moderating weekly support groups on discord! We have many family and friends take part. Take gentle care! 🙏
Sometimes we all need someone to talk to:
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teenlineonline.org/talk-now/
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I totally get the "eye" thing. My eyes get huge and very bright eyed. I also get the altered perception thing. My world gets clearer, colors more vivid and music sounds amplified. Everything seems bigger and grander. I call my world "Big Montana "because everything around me is bigger. I love it.
Wow Rob !
Number ten !
In Australia, it's spring... So I'm natrually coming on to a high out of a manic depressed winter.
And cleaning and personal hygiene has always been complusive on the up.
Thank you for helping point it out.
Every bit of information on ourselves help. Six years strong watching your videos. 😁🙏👍 Seriously the best help I've come across apart from personal visits to therapist.
You are gold mate, and I'm glad the videos in return help you too. Win/win aye
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I spent 3 years in mania mode, which came crashing down after getting into an accident. Than came the realization of the things I've done wrong and the people I hurt. On medication and consoling for a year or so. I'm getting better but it's still hard. Hopefully this year I can fix everything. Much love to all of you, and I hope to see everyone doing better
Hi Alexi! What a wonderful perspective! I always say that we do the best we can with what we got and when we know better we do better! In case you are interested Rob offers one on one support on Patreon and he has a weekly support group for patrons only on discord. Would love to see there!
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@PolarWarriors I will definitely take it into consideration, I honestly recommend your channel to anyone struggling with this. It's helped me so much this last year get a better understanding.
The eyes! My pupils dilate when I’m hypo/manic. I look like I’m on drugs. Also one sign I’m slipping into a heightened mood is that I start seeing connections everywhere, synchronicity. Anyone else have that?
Thanks for your videos Rob, you rock!
Yes. It’s wild and scary. I feel you..
Dangerously, and often, of which I am trying not to, I WANT my mania so I can feel creative and paint and be inspired. It is unsustainable and I pay the price dearly every time.
This channel is so vital for the education of those with bipolar disorder and for those who dont know. thank you for this
Your videos make it easier to explain my symptoms to my doctor. Unfortunately, I'm starting to experience cognitive decline.
Perhaps you could talk about that.
Rob, I was diagnosed ADHD Combined type severe + PTSD+ Major Depressive Disorder + Generalized Anxiety Disorder severe at age 51. I’m 54 now and was recently diagnosed PTSD , severe obstructive sleep apnea + atypical bipolar disorder II. The ADHD explains a lot, and so does the PTSD & sleep apnea…… but sometimes I disagree with my bipolar diagnosis and sometimes I fully agree. …… I just don’t know what’s real. In my lay opinion I am probably all. Your videos are very helpful….. I’ve been binge watching your videos on repeat and making copius notes to learn more. To Rob and anyone reading this, ADVICE WELCOMED…..!
Awe hi Gary! You are truly a Warrior my friend. That’s a lot to cope with. I hope as time goes on that things get easier and you find the answers that you’re looking for. I’m so glad the videos have been helpful. I hope you will continue to stop by the channel. If you’d ever like to connect, there’s a link in the video description where I can be reached directly. 🤗🙏☀️☀️
-Rob
I know you read this often, but i have to tell you you are a blessing. You explain bi polar in such a grounded way while also explaining your experiences that truly shed light on the disorder. You have given the words that i always needed to better explain and educate. Hope you live well with bi polar disorder... as i trh to explain that is the goal. Change suffering from to living with bipolar is truly the goal all therapy should be geared towards. Loved ones and support systems should be involved and given the tools you provide in identifying and coping with. God bless you
Aww, thank you so much for the kind words!! 🙏
I have bought 2 horses w/ with my mania. Both have actually helped w/my bi polar. During my episodes of giving. I give extra love and care to them. I have spent less money having them. Don’t go out and buy a horse, please. But when I want to give during my episodes I have thought myself to give them extra love and care. I donate to animal shelters. I have talked to my loved ones to help during those episodes when I want to spend.
Your videos are awesome! I’m 62 and have seen therapists and psychiatrists almost all my life. You’re right-most of them mean well, but they don’t “get it.”
You tell it like it is-you’ve been through it! Best wishes!😊
Hi!! Thank you so much for the kind words. It really means a lot to me. I’m so glad the videos have been helpful. If you’d ever like to connect, there’s a link in the video description where you can reach me directly anytime.
-Rob
It sucks being on medication because I lost the only enjoyable aspect of bipolar. The manic, happy go lucky aspect. I would experience lots of energy, strength, focus and creativity. Now I feel bland and life is grey. I've purposely gotten off my meds at times, just so I can feel the happiness again, even if it's a temporary feeling. Unfortunately getting off my meds comes with consequences consequences that feel like I've taken a roller coaster to the top and then free fell into hell.
Hi, Rob offers one on one support on Patreon if you are interested. He also posts more personal information about his day to day struggles. All patrons can contact him directly by private message and he frequently offers free phone calls!!! If you decide to join, you can mention my name and he will give you a free call. Another Patreon exclusive is Rob hosting and moderating weekly support groups on discord! We have many family and friends take part. Take gentle care! 🙏
Sometimes we all need someone to talk to:
www.crisistextline.org/
teenlineonline.org/talk-now/
Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member
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As usual your sincerity and empathy come shining through. Keep up the good work Rob. I listen to you and I feel (almost) normal. I am not alone 🎉
Hi, Rob offers one on one support on Patreon if you are interested. He also posts more personal information about his day to day struggles like his recent hospital stay. All patrons can contact him directly by private message and he frequently offers free phone calls!!! If you decide to join, you can mention my name and he will give you a free call. Another Patreon exclusive is Rob hosting and moderating weekly support groups on discord! We have many family and friends take part. Take gentle care! 🙏
Sometimes we all need someone to talk to:
www.crisistextline.org/
teenlineonline.org/talk-now/
Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member
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www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Gotta say I am no longer going to post comments and I might even stop contributing on Patreon. I find it SO irritating that I share my thoughts and Robs staff reply with a lot of pitch and links. You think I am not aware of how great he is???
Thank you and all who wrote comments- I am going to watch all your other videos asap- 11 hospitalizations and many devastations and starting over times I pray it’s over…and that I get control- at sixty this last episode left me not feeling like my brain is no longer working 100% - so I was happy this video popped up and that I read most of the comments. Looks like we are lucky to form a support group of sorts because of your videos and our sharing. Thanks. This last episode took a year of travel and homelessness (several periods of that during my life) landed me in another part of the world- anyway - we all need to fallow your example and give back to others - encouraging info etc.
My husband has most of these.
He's had a beard for, goodness, 5? years at this point, and started shaving it off and keeping it shaved right when his mania started.
I experience all of these, but especially the psychosis. Wont go into detail as to prevent potential triggers, but it really is debilitating and has sent me home many times from work, and has even resulted in getting hours cut. Hoping on getting SSDI, currently waiting on the appeal!
Mixed state mania - feeling wired, amped, like you are crawling out of your skin
Today I was thinking about my mania (before I even saw this pop up on my feed) and felt I go into it way more than depression, actually very often; hypo and full-blown, particularly when something peaks my interest. I started so many businesses out of it and of course went into debt. The delusional risk taking behavior really messed up my life in my early twenties way before I even found out I was bi-polar. No one in my life either knew about bi-polar or suspected any mental health problem; so I was on my own for well over a decade; being thought of as the weird one. Then today I also thought hm, I don't think I go into depression much , but maybe I could have an under the surface type as self-care tends to go out the window. I would say after a manic crash there was the beating myself up a lot for not following through with the businesses and getting into debt, is that depression, I don't know. But I relate a lot to these signs for sure. Thanks for this helpful video :)
Not wanting to get out of bed is depression..negativity..self loathing, being useless and of no value also..
Great video!! This is spot on! hope u make more soon!!!!! When I’m hypomanic my eyes are wide, vibrant, and full of energy! and when I’m depressed they are low, dark and dreary. As soon as I get mania I am always behind on everything and I try to get as much done before it goes away and I get angry thinking about when it’s gonna end! I also wanna go out and meet a bunch of girls and be wild! And take stuff to boost my mania even higher and do all kinds of adventurous and risky stuff and also the music I listen to is a big one when depressed I listen to dark and depressing music or deeper music and it comforts me because the lyrics of the stuff I listen to are extremely relatable . When I have mania I listen to super upbeat and funky music that’s positive and light and I bop my head to it, sing and move to it while i am having a blast driving and usually faster. When depressed I drive around in a haze on autopilot and definitely not vibing to it so I just listen without singing, moving or even nodding my head to it and most of the time it brings out a lot of emotions depending on what I listen to for both depression and mania.
Thank you so much for the kind words. I’m so glad the video was helpful! I really appreciate you taking the time to share some of your experience with the community. Stop by the channel anytime! If you’d like to connect with me, there’s a link in the video description where you can reach me directly 😃😃☀️☀️
-Rob
🙏The content of your channel is unparalleled! Your explanations are a helping hand where doctors so often fail. Thank you for shining a light, Rob!
Thank YOU! Wow I just found your Channel I am 56 Diagnosed at age 25 with Bipolar Type 2 - Looking back into my teens to 25 I could see it so much but didn't realize it - of course - My Dad & Grandfather had Schitizophrenia - and Had Insulin Shock Therapy - Watching My Dad growing up like me was in and out of the Hospital - with Me Suicide Attempts - So much history of course -- with Me & My Dad & Grandfather -- I just came out of the WORST Episode I've ever had -- Thank God for My Son with helping me remember - 6 Months Of build up and into Hypomania - Then I Crashed - but its like You don't realize it -- at all Or I don't -- My Son will say MOM Your going into Hypo or Mom its getting worse - Very Lucky --- so go see My Psychiatrist -- Which I do see every 3 Months - but its like When Am I Just Normal?????? I don't even know!!! Now I am in Depressive - and When I go into Depressive -- yes of course its depression to motivation no energy don't give a Sh*t -- etc but mine too is SLEEP Issues -- Where I have BAD Insomnia for up to 3 Days then Doze Off Sleeping to catch up with maybe 3 hours to 5 hours of sleep but I doze for a few days to catch up then repeat -- I've not been in Major Depression in many many years --- it's just so exhausting as you know - med changes etc ugh -- When in Hypo I am so fun silly goofy happy hyper productive high on life - then you crash and to me its like A SHOCK to my brain Like Who AM I NOW? --- Miss Cranky Irritable Negative
Hi, Rob offers one on one support on Patreon if you are interested. He also posts more personal information about his day to day struggles like his recent hospital stay. All patrons can contact him directly by private message and he frequently offers free phone calls!!! If you decide to join, you can mention my name and he will give you a free call. Another Patreon exclusive is Rob hosting and moderating weekly support groups on discord! We have many family and friends take part. Take gentle care! 🙏
Sometimes we all need someone to talk to:
www.crisistextline.org/
teenlineonline.org/talk-now/
Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member
(H)old (O)n (P)ain (E)nds
www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Obsessive cleaning. That's always me. I can't clean for 2-3 weeks. Mania arrives, and I clean until I can finally make myself stop. Then my body hurts so bad for a few days. 2-3 weeks later, I can't make myself do anything again.
That roller coaster that affects every aspect of life sucks, and it's always things everyone else takes for granted, thing that should be simple to handle, but for us, it's a nightmare. For me, it almost feels like I've got an evil twin, making life as hard as possible for me 😈
Just got over 5 days with no sleep no rest, felt great making art and hanging way too much sex and spent way too much money. While sober and on meds. Had one bad spot where I got suicidal, beat the crap out of myself and wrecked my house. Im 39 and was diagnosed when I was 16 but this happens many times a years for as long as I can remember. Most of the time I get extremely agitated towards the end but doesn't always turn psychotic. It's really hard for anyone in my life to understand whats going on with me and I can only promise it will continue to happen for the rest of my life. I get through it by remembering how great my life actually is and fairly sure I live any incredibly joyful life most of the time even if its hard to remember sometimes. Watching these videos helps a lot and knowing that I am not alone. Thanks
Hi Zach!! I'm so sorry to hear that you were having such a rough time lately! You ARE not alone!!! In case you are interested Rob offers one on one support on Patreon, if you are already a patron please consider joining our support group for patrons only on discord. Would love to have you!
. Sometimes we all need someone to talk to:
www.crisistextline.org/
teenlineonline.org/talk-now/
Dianna Polar Warriors Team Member
www.patreon.com/PolarWarriors
Just diagnosed with cyclothymia and Im ultra rapid cycling. This looks like a great channel.
Thank you so much for this informative video. As a counselor in training who is seeing more and more adolescents with bipolar, this has been so helpful for me to better understand the disease from the perspective of someone who has it.
Rob so much is misunderstood about it, thanks for taking your time out to make these. I'll be reaching out to soon Soon Good Sir!!
I thought I was such a unique human… you described me perfectly. So weird. The highs are amazing and exhausting mentally and emotionally.
We keep on checking ourselves and comparing to other people's behavior and attitudes, trying to "auto-diagnose" for hypomania or depression... That's so mean to ourselves..
Thank you 💖!!!!!!! My SO (Significant Other)....... RAGING AND REPETITION, OR LOOPING BACK WHILE RAGING AND NONSTOP RANTING........(This might give you a clue as to when someone experiencing mania starts "love bombing" their SO..... with DEVALUING AND DISCARDING TO FOLLOW!)......
Anybody else n da comment section take their medicine pray try 2 live right and do da right thing and its still not good enough...
Anybody out here have bad dreams and nightmares like I do I'm talking weird dreams bad dreams and nightmares? 💜
Excellent straightforward information - your personal examples were particularly informative. Thanks as always.
You were Bang on in this vdo,,,makes so much sense nd explains so many of the perplexing shifts in symptoms. Can't thank you enough.God Bless your awesome Soul ❤
All that was said is so very true. I can relate to every one of his points. But I can’t seem to get relief from any medication and I, along with my doctor, has tried. What do I do? How am I supposed to live like this?
Someone said ice baths. I say try it and report back!
Hello Robert, first of all, thank you for your extensive work through all this years of video editing.
Just to mention how healthy and well you look in this video, it makes me happy to see you looking so well right now.
Thanks again Rob for providing us with a wonderful service😊
Growing up, I didn't know what my problem was. I tried to fake being like everybody else and failed miserably. I wasn't diagnosed until I was 25. I'm now 48 and still getting a handle on this. Thanks for the enlightenment. I was not aware of many of the symptoms of dopamine depletion. This did help!
I turn the spending part to my advantage by binge buying ar 15 parts on sale, learn by working on them and then selling the completed uppers from 2-4x the cost. Learning to weld muzzle devices while manic has been been great cause it looks somewhat professional even though I've only been doing it a couple months. Thanks again for another great video good sir, the work you're doing is invaluable.
Right, they tried to treat such a thing too in my case , putting me on high intoxicating medication like Seroquel. After almost 20 years of taking what was prescribed and not getting a step forward in life except becoming addicted to these drugs and other substances that only ruined my health and relationshipa i decided to quit the medication and step out of the ideologies as written in the DSM-V nowadays; a pharmaceutical biblem good luck.
Haha! Great timing. I'm just waiting for water to get hot to begin day 2 of way more cleaning than necessary. Actually much less this time because i got so much done from 2 to 5am this morning. I'm probably just going to wash dishes and clean the stovetop. Now that the little one is finally sleeping, I can do it all uninterrupted. 🙂🙂🙂
Very useful video, thank you! Disinhibition is the worst, and creativity is like a slight warning that something is changing is our brains. Cleaning also is related to skin care habits.
What do you think about working night shifts as a bipolar?
I have a friend with bi-polar. Thank you for your videos so I can be aware and understand what they are going through.
Great video!
This is so good. I need to watch more of your videos. I get quite emotional. I know I am lucky because my experiences, for the most part anyway, are not as severe. But, I have written and documented proof that I am bipolar -- severe. It feels like I avoid this channel. You are so good at what you do. I thank you very much.
You're looking great man keep working out
Thanks, Rob!
Grateful for you Rob thank you.
Excellent video thanks for sharing this
Great one Rob!
You are a modern-day prophet, Sir! 😃💓 #Prophetic #WisdomFilled💛💛
The field of science, specificaly, the field of medicine labeled it mania. But in the supernatural realm, God is working through you. It's just that, society thinks it is a symptom of mental illness
Whenever I was manic {before I got properly medicated in 2008}, I'd have severe, sometimes violent irritability; I believed I was psychic; I was paranoid as all get-out; I binge-drank and binge-ate; and I NEVER slept. I also have 3 sleep disorders on top of that, and substance use disorder, so my life was hell for awhile. Now I put a lot of energy into recovery and try to stay on top of my mania because I do still have what my doctor calls "breakthrough episodes" {which are more like hypo mania}. Sleep deprivation is my biggest trigger 😕