syml - where's my love (alternative version) (slowed & reverb) [with lyrics]
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 4 ก.พ. 2021
- 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦
slowed down (& reverb) version of where's my love by syml.
soundcloud version: / just-come-home-alt
───𝙨𝙤𝙘𝙞𝙖𝙡𝙨───
𝙞𝙣𝙨𝙩𝙖𝙜𝙧𝙖𝙢: lust.ry
𝙩𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙩𝙚𝙧: iustry - เพลง
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i hope you're all doing okay, ily
please do around you by ROO J that would be crazzy
@@summersunny151 I HEARD THAT SONG THE OTHER DAY ITS SO GOOD OMG
Wheres the spotify lustry?
Tu
your the first person to say that to me since 1 year ago
I dont know whats wrong with me, i have a great family, a happy home but yet i still feel so alone, i feel isolated.
oooh babe, having all of these dont make you less sad or maybe sick (?) idk, it's not your fault to be feeling down, maybe you could ask help?? please stay safe for you and people who care about :)
I’m sorry to hear that, try not to isolate yourself, talk to a family member about how your feeling, go for walks, etc.
walk outside
It's okay , it's just time , try distancing yourself , try new friendships , you're the only one who will do anything for you to not die , you are your comfort zone , yourself always try its best for you to be happy , she loves you so much , so do a lot of people , i am here for you of you need anything
Loneliness is a feeling, if you feel lonely, you are lonely, even in a house full of people :( Don't invalidate your feelings, and don't be afraid to be your own advocate and get help.
If you’re reding this I luv u.
If you’ re reading this, I love u too
i luv you too
I love you too
Thx😲😳
But you luv me you should be with me today 😢😢😢
It's so nice to see how strangers care about each other more than family and friends here :)
strangers dont more than family and friends lmao, thats such a joke thing to say.
@@SendCore well I said what I felt :)
@@SendCore you didn't get it. I felt that
@@thefdash5608 LMAO u have to be trolling.
sometimes it feels this way when your parents show instead of caring show coldness towards u nobody thinks how u might feel the thing your just joking when u tell them
"Those teenagers who sit in their rooms at night and cry themselves to sleep
were once children with light in their eyes and hope in their heart!"
Right...
@@krenda321 yes..
My dad left again last night and I haven't told my bffs because I don't trust them and we have been friends for over 7 years
It hits hard -the same thing that she said happens to me ,always crying in midnight
I have learned too much things from crying in midnight, crying in silence,act like I'm sleeping .sometimes I miss my old self not afraid of losing not knowing about overthinking.i have too much friends but I always fell down there that I'm lonely.
BTW I'm 12 years old
i don't know about teenagers but I am full grown adult and I literally cry myself to sleep lol
i feel like im just being dramatic. i have a good life, some friends, good parents, good grades and cool other stuff. but i don't feel nothing and im mentally tired but i have no reason to be.
I understand you, actually I feel the same :( I wish you the best! and I hope you find happiness soon
Sad life, no friends, no parents, just sisters and I'm exhausted
Just telling you
You’re not alone
uhh same... :(
you have every right to feel that way, you’re feelings are just as valid as anybody else’s even if you feel like you have no reason to feel this way, it’s okay bb
Sometimes I wish I could just die for a day. To see what everyone would say..
i know right. ive been wanting to do the same.
so for attention
@@elkie9300 no just so I know that if I did if I would hurt anybody or not and to see who's real and who's fake not for attention so dont predict that please?
@@vzlnqx7333 oof you took it seriously
The same time,i don't wanna die yet :)
От этой песенки моментально хочется заплакать и отпустить всю тяжесть что на душе....
согласна..
Я искала этот русский комент и наконец то нашла
Желаю вам счастья ♥️
@@mr.a9885 огромное спасибо 😁 все нормально... И вам всего хорошего ❤️
Прям сильно, хочется, плакать (((((
“Time doesn’t heal the pain, it learns you how to live with it”
согласна с вами
Sometimes you can't deal with it
And tears can't stop flowing 😢😢😢
It’s crazy because sometimes you’re born into the pain, so you don’t notice it like if someone else only experiences it new for a first time.
Bunu okumaya hazır değildim ağlıyorum 😢
We're just suicidal kids telling other suicidal kids that suicide isn't the answer
sadly
@Jung Wooyoung I’m sorry I hope you feel better now❤️
@Simply_ 3ilish I understand you. I hope, everything will be all right.
@Jung Wooyoung I hope, this mood get away my life. And you’re right, I hope we can live happily just like other people.
Thanks for supporting, I wish you have a good life.. I try to believe myself to live again.
„People don‘t cry, because they are weak. It is because they‘ve been strong for too long.“
~ Johnny Depp ~
Johnny Depp
@@user-op3sb2uo4k Johnny Depp
@@lisathompsan2160 🌻💔...................🗽
showing feelings is one of the strongest things now days
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It’s been officially a year and a day since I attempted to take my life and I was listening to this everyday since then and it’s wild to think that I’m in a completely different and much happier environment. Stranger who reads this comment, I love you so much. You’ve been working so hard and I see you trying. I love you
i love u too
@@michellewadex love u to
I ment that 2 all of u idk why it only tagged Michelle hehe-
I love you too ❤️
What helped you get to a better place?
its sad because stranger knows what ur feeling more than friends
this.
aka my ibf
wow that really hit
You need to be a best friend to yourself at first
Damn, you have friends? I want one of those
it's when you realize you can't remember when you were actually happy, innocent, not insecure, when you didn't have all of these problems inside of your head, or the last time you slept peacefully without thinking about loss or not wanting to wake up in the morning cause days are just a record on repeat
that's when you start to realize it doesn't get better and things will never be the same again
cherish your childhood and don't let that flame die out
too late for that m8
You alright man?
Without profound loss we can never fully appreciate the sweet joy of happiness. Life is a wave of ups and downs, not a steady feeling - for everyone. Find the courage to stay, it’s so beautiful here in individual moments. Seek the moments. ❤️
I felt this comment to the core
Well some years down the line the present might become trauma or become nostalgia. Life won't stay bad even if it has been bad for an extended period. Insecurities and worries are a part of it. We need to learn to take care of them and take care of ourselves too. Rest assured, life will be good at times, sun will shine sometimes
that one point in life where you remember all the past trauma. you start asking, maybe even screaming in your head "why me? why?" my body is a teenager, my soul is a child seeking for love they never had, and my pain is big enough for three of me.
i just want to be able to cry again..
Same 🙂
me😔💔
Same 💔💔☹️😣😞🙃
😕
You don’t have to carry the load on your own, I have a friend who can share the burden with you. He carries the load of the world, and has paid the ultimate price so you can let go if and when you’re ready to move into the next part of your life. Jesus. Jesus Christ of Nazareth can help you, as he’s helped me. People let you down, but he never will, I promise.
*Its like I'm telling my old happy self, "Just come home...?"*
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You create it baby
I believe in you.
You will be the happiest you have ever been
I promise
fr
i miss my happy self. i was looking at pictures and videos of my self when i was a toddler or in elementary school. i was so happy. i always wanted to grow up and be like the big kids cause they seemed to have such cool life’s. little did i know that when i would grow up i would wanna be young and happy again. i miss it. i miss smiling and laughing. what happened to all that? i’m sorry for disappointing my younger self
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in school: good grades, laughing, smiling, happy, positive about everything
to my parents: im not hungry, im fine
2 am in the morning: crying
You're not lonely...cuz same..
We should make a group
yea
oh yea same.. but i don't have good grades lmao
i cant stay up longer than 12 am i mean now its 1am but i cant stay up longer cause my stomach hurts from starving :'/
بكيت بكاء لم يحصل لي من قبل بكل حياتي اشكرك لمساعدتي على ذلك .
💔
почему это настолько прекрасно слушать? 😫💓
Потому что это было создано для вас(
Мне тоже очень нравится эта песня
Пушка 😍
I’m tired of school
I’m tired of always being alone
I’m tired of being left behind
I’m tired of friends
I’m tired of family
I’m tired of homework
I’m tired of not being pretty enough
I’m tired of sleep
I’m tired of being happy
I’m tired of crying
I’m tired of losing people
I’m tired of people saying that I’m annoying
I’m tired of them saying that I’m not good enough
I’m tired of life
I’m tired of liars
I’m tired of trying so hard
I’m tired of being too skinny
I’m tired of weakness
I’m tired of everything.
These few weeks, months, years, have been so fucking rude to me.
Take me back to where people actually acted like I excited. Where I actually felt like I was loved. I try to care for people. I set them before myself... and I get nothing back. Nothing. I try.. I really do.. sometimes I think about ending it all.. but I always try to fight...
to all out there. We all have some hard times sometimes, but always remember to fight! Please.. I’m still trying and won’t give up until it’s over. Love you.
And I’m tired of edgy teenagers
then have music and chill and sleep and thats what i do
I have a new for you (and sorry for my bad english): this too shall pass. With time (and pain, and loss, and betrayes, because the lonely people just be the more kind) you will find people and, more important, you will find a meaning for you life. You only will see that if you stay. Ask for help if you need, but dont give up!
Feeling the same,sis. Sending you love❤️❤️🙌🏻
pes mi ediyorsun öylece?
One of the worst feelings is being in your own house and feeling like you need to go home.
I want to go home...
I wanna go home so badly, but I don't know where home is.
Heaven is home and one day I’ll be happy to leave my house I’ll be happy singing with the angels living happy with god
And that sh/t Hurts
@@amyvazquez9649 it does, but I found my home :)
@@RyvWyld im really happy for you my love
@@lo8069 tysm. life has its ups and downs, but it gives you an award for getting through it.
музыка грустная. и в то же время сопереживательная. я бы хотел вернуться в детство...
We all do friend....
I’m relieved to say there was a time where the pain was too much to bear and tears would fall listening to this. That’s no longer the case. You have to keep fighting. You will get through this.
Respect your pillow. It was the only thing there to catch your tears when nobody else could
lies. my tongue did just fine. HAVE YOU EVERY TASTED A TEAR?! top notch shit
@@jaerener1782 yes I have
@@jaerener1782 snot too
@@--BACKTFUP more f l a v o r f u l l
Very true I hope you are okay!
I just want someone to hug me like a true meaningful hug
if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help.
love u babe
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I know I can't fix anything but still. Take this *Gives a big hug* Ily!
hi i agree as a girl this is true.
"I don't need help... I need hope"
-me after realizing what the true meaning of life is
This song hits different during the night while you’re walking in a forest
Did our parents know that their happy kid was losing hope every night until it couldn't feel happiness anymore.
He was the person who helped me manifest back my ex three days ago with out delay 💯💯
Whtsaap him**
@@marybella5277 seriously? ure not helping
Nope they soon will realize I’m that little happy girl because of this toxic school I go to 🙂
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I don’t think I’m depressed. I can laugh, joke around, have a good time, etc. but sometimes I just sit and think, wonder, then it all comes rushing down.
literally same i feel u
if you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help
Same
You can’t imagine how many people feel the exact same way but just don’t let it show.
Always try to make a good time out of everything and just know it’s gonna be okay.
Same
я не знаю почему, но именно эта песня даёт мне очень теплые воспоминания о моих любимых людей, я слушаю эту песню когда грустно, но после того как послушаю её сразу становится хорошо и тревога уходит ^^
“The bravest thing I ever did is continuing my life when I wanted to die” - Juliette Lewis
It`s weird how day by day nothing changes
but if you look back
everything changed.
that..... wow that is too true
that shit really hurts
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well, ye
That sucks
Doctor : you have 3 minutes left to die What you want to do?
Me : play : "where's my love by syml
Doctor : but it's 5 minutes long
Death : I'll wait
EDİT: Yorum tutmuş vay aq
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same
this.
Just note......1......9......
Death dont wait for anyone!
Cold bones, yeah, that's my love
She hides away, like a ghost
Does she know that we bleed the same?
Don't wanna cry but I break that way
Cold sheets, but where's my love?
I am searching high
I'm searching low in the night
Does she know that we bleed the same?
Don't wanna cry but I break that way
Did she run away?
Did she run away, I don't know
If she ran away
If she ran away, come back home
Just come home
I got a fear, oh, in my blood
She was carried up into the clouds, high above
If you've bled, I bleed the same
If you're scared, I'm on my way
Did you run away?
Did you run away, I don't need to know
If you ran away
If you ran away, come back home
Just come home
A comment for people who aren't actually hurt by hearing this song, but are here because they enjoy the vibe and melancholy of this piece
Thank you man, that’s exactly what I’m here for
That's why I'm here too! 🤗
exactlyyyy
@@JMinuteman a decent/good day then ?
@@Ghost-fh3lg every day I wake up is a good day 😊
why can’t everything just be perfect
Why can’t it? why is everything so fucked?
If life was perfect, no one would do anything to change or grow, and that is the purpose of all human beings,
Since we don’t appreciate the value of what is handed to us, or easily attained...
When life changes for the better, we like it.
When life changes for the worse, we hate it.
Changes in life come from within and without and many times we don’t have any control over the changes that come into our lives...
If every need is met and everything has been experienced or accomplished, then life would lose meaning and become worthless.
Would a perfect life mean everything has been accomplished and there is nothing to look forward to? We have to set goals and have a plan for that which we want to accomplish, and which will move us along the life path...
She
Only in heaven everything is perfect
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Sometimes crying is the only way your eyes speaks when your mouth can't explain how broken your heart is(:
ha, I've been crying for 3 hours, my heart is clearly fragile.
I love you, be good
Be in love lady, give chance to this world and this people)
We are not living if don’t loving, nothing can be stranger that this feelings. Open your heart for arrow ♥️
@@kainjewatt5456 I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him and his work on the cross as your Lord and saviour for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know
Don’t give up keep fighting gang
I’m Srry whatever happened to u happened I hope things gets better I’m not tryna force it on u and if I come off like that I’m completely sorry but there’s a God out there who loves u to die for U he lost people he loved he ate with them and loved them but those same people called for him to be killed his name is Jesus loves u and so do I if u decide to put ur faith in Jesus And trust him and his work on the cross as your Lord and saviour for salvation he will save u and help U John 3:16 although I’m not promising u the pain will go away instantly but I’m promising u according to what he said that u will have eternal life it’s hard I know but ily so much and so does God ur important ur loved and you matter don’t let nobody say nun else u can be sure of that all u have to believe on him to save u and whenever it gets too rough whenever it gets hard he promises to never leave nor forsake u to give u rest Matthew 11:28 u will have an eternal Father to lean on ily so much on me more than you’ll ever know
Don’t give up keep fighting gang
الأغنية ما أبكتني بقدر ما ابكتني المشاعر الموجودة بالتعليقات 🙊💔
“Respect your pillow because it catches your tears when no one else did.”
This got me really bad.. as my pillow catches tears . Never thought about it like that
I wish I could be the pillow for someone, and they'd be for me.
I believe that every time a tear falls, an angel translates your tears into a prayer that’s delivered to Yahweh.
Anyone else looks so high but there actually just crying?
I get told I look stoned Everytime I come into school💀
I’m both rn
@@maia.6438 if this isn’t me- 💀
lol me rn
Actually I’m both
2010 pillows: we are here for pillows fight.
2021 pillows: we are here for u to cry ur self to sleep....
...
Why is this so true?-
K.
Does it ever drive you crazy, how fast the night changes...
no more neck support, all emotional support
Cold bones. Yeah, that's my love
Холодные останки. Да, это моя возлюбленная,
She hides away, like a ghost
Она скрывается подобно призраку.
Does she know that we bleed the same?
Знает ли она, что мы с ней одинаково истекаем кровью?
Don't wanna cry but I break that way
Не хочу плакать, но я сжигаю мосты.
Cold sheets. Oh, where's my love?
Холодная постель. Ох, где же моя возлюбленная?
I am searching high, I'm searching low in the night
Я ищу ее тут, я ищу ее там в ночи.
Does she know that we bleed the same?
Знает ли она, что мы с ней одинаково истекаем кровью?
Don't wanna cry but I break that way
Не хочу плакать, но я сжигаю мосты.
Did she run away?
Убежала ли она?
Did she run away? I don't know
Убежала ли? Мне не известно.
If she ran away
Если она все-таки сбежала,
If she ran away, come back home
Если же она все-таки сбежала, пусть вернется домой,
Just come home
Просто вернись домой...
I got a fear, oh, in my blood
Страх растворён в моей крови,
She was carried up into the clouds, high above
Она была вознесена на облака, высоко над землей.
If you bled, I'll bleed the same
Если ты истекаешь кровью, я буду истекать вместе с тобой,
If you're scared, I'm on my way
Если тебе страшно, я уже в пути.
Did you run away?
Убежала ли ты?
Did you run away? I don't need to know
Убежала ли? Мне не нужно знать об этом.
If you ran away
Если ты все-таки сбежала,
If you ran away, come back home
Если же ты все-таки сбежала, возвращайся домой,
Just come home
Просто возвращайся обратно домой…
Эта песня напоминает мне моменты с моей бабушкой Я скучаю по тебе Ба ❤️
У меня тоже умерла Бабушка. Никак не могу вернуться в жизнь и начать жить. Всё разделилась на до и после. Будто я с ней умерла.
❤
А у меня умерла мама я шла мы ехали на роботу всей семйой и в нас ударила машина и мама в магине была вся в крови я плакала, плакала мам вставай она умерла на моих глазах, на моих глаза вмерла моя мама
@@veronika_12340 Примите мои соболезнования. Это ужасно.
@@veronika_12340 🥺🫂😔
this song is the exact feeling you get when you realise you’re alone. and the saddest part is that you can’t do anything about it
Heya bro, you're not alone! Know that there are people around the corner who are ready to spend hours talking and making you feel better, believe me cause i once thought like that when i began drifting away from my friends.but now i have two supportive bestfriends! So hang in there buddy! You never know when that person will show up in your life and make it brighter than ever. I waited for some years, maybe we just need to hang on and they will be right around the corner,trust me! So never lose hope in finding someone and never think youre alone mate! Love you random person that made me feel happy! (I hope this comment also makes you happy😅)
im here your not alone
Phob, here ❤
The Son of GOD was afflicted by GOD because of your sins,he carried your sins, died on the cross,rose again on the third day.
believe to be saved
@@alex-hs3uh this comment did make me happy. thank you so much
Gotta love lustry for everything they do
ikr
Atr boluda ahreeee😆😆
lustry supremacy🛐🛐
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" A dor mais cruel não é a que mata, mas a que se vive no espetáculo da vida, com direito a plateia, porém sem aplausos. "
when I listen to this song at night I immediately start crying thinking about my problems but at the same time it calms me down and it's quite rare
Sometimes music forces us to process our emotions, whether we realize we need to process them or not. It’s such a therapeutic thing❤
When the person who gives you memories becomes a memory.
Yeah
that hit harder than I expected..
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This sentence broke me wow..
wow that shit got me tears in the eyes.. i’m so afraid to lose her
the worst thing isn't thinking about someone when listening to music
is thinking about yourself.
it's*
@@ruin9563 Was that really necessary? I mean its just a comment on TH-cam..
@@mellowa yes
true...
If you're reading this I LOVE YOU
I love you too ❤
No one loves me..
One day everything will be all right
One day.....
feel like I'm sitting in front of a mirror, it's 19 century.
The maid tightens the corset on my waist, and in the hall of my rich house I am waiting for the fiance.
the fiance that I have been arranged with
@@dras7759 exactly! this song doesn't made for a wedding with a loved one
@@annelockk girl watch me be a runaway bride 👀
I imagined this right now so detailed 🥺
god this inspired me a whole lot, i immediately started writing after i read this but i kind of overdid it-
“Ouch,” I hiss as my maid tightens her hold on the corset that’s already wrapped around my body as if its life depends on it. “Shush, you have to look perfect for your fiancé,” she chimes as she ties up the strings of the corset. “You’ll lead a beautiful and perfect life,”.
“Describe a perfect life,”.
Her hands stop abruptly and she looks up with a confused expression planted on her face. “What do you mean, sweetie?” She asks.
“I meant exactly what I asked. Describe a perfect life for me,”.
She turns back to the strings on the corset as she smiles, “Well, a perfect life would be one where you have money as water. I’ve always wished that I could get to wear a gorgeous dress as this one at least once. You would be living in a big mansion with everything you need. A beautiful family adds up to that of course. Your children will be beautiful taking the fact that both you and your soon-to-be-husband have breath taking looks,”
My eyes started to sting as she described the ‘perfect life’. Who is she kidding? The thought of being forced to have kids with that- man, can’t be more disgusting. “That sounds like a prison,” I whispered. Not like she actually heard that, she was way too happy rambling about the life that I never wanted.
I’ve never wanted much. I thought that I was undeserving of this fancy life, but then he came. The guy that forced his way into my limited life and showed me the feeling of living an actual life. He showed me that I could use this money to help others instead of keeping it hidden behind a lock.
Those times had been the best times of my life. I felt a tear leave my eye as i remembered the events of the past months. They had taken him from me, murdered him behind the scenes saying that he had been harassing ‘the house’s lady’. And then, a month later, they decided that it was time for me to get married.
The connection between those two cases can’t be a coincidence. They made up a false excuse to take my lover from me and form an alliance between another wealthy family and mine. What do we even need all that money for, golden food?
A mirror was shoved in front of me and my maid looked at me happily. I see myself in a dress that i had wanted to choose myself, for the guy that I had wanted to marry.
“Hurry up, we’re already on the late side,” The maid said quickly as she takes my wrist in her hand and pulls me from my place towards the door. My mind races in panic and I quickly pull my hand back, holding it with my other hand. The maid looks at me in shock and confusion but then that expression fades and changes into a smile. “it’s okay to be nervous, it’s your wedding after all,”
She holds her hand out for me to grab it and I look at it hesitantly. I take a deep breath and close my eyes for a second before I take the hand and let myself be pulled through the door towards the hallway where I’ll be waiting.
I had Insisted on walking to the altar alone, and after quite some time I was finally allowed to do just that. That’s why I am now standing in front of the huge church doors with only my maid.
She pushes a bouquet with white flowers in my hands before asking the question that even I don’t know the answer on.
“Are you ready?”
No
“Yes, I”m ready,” I answer with a fake smile. She nods and looks me up and down for anything that’s still outpace and supposed to be fixed. I nod and she looks up at my face again with a smile before turning to the doors and opening them.
Before me I see a huge church hall. The wooden benches on the left and the right are filled with people and decorated with flowers of all kinds. My eyes follow the long red carpet to the altar where a man stands that I only barely know.
The maid nudges my shoulder and I take that as my cue to begin my walk towards the altar. Once my first step through the doors is taken, it feels as if there are chains on my feet. Every step it gets harder and harder to continue the path to my prison. Left and right of me are people young and old looking at me with bright smiles plastered on their faces. I could only pretend and smile back at them with a fake smile.
Once I’m halfway through I finally decide to look up at the altar where I see several new people standing and looking at me. I let my eyes linger on the flowers that cover the altar before they move over to the front benches.
I almost drop the flowers in my hands at the person that is sitting on the second bench from the front, looking at me with the same pure blue eyes that I always got lost in. No way. He can’t be here. He is dead.
I change my destination to that second bench instead of the altar as I continue walking forward. His eyes never lose contact with mine and when I finally stand next to him, I stop. I hear gasps all around me and I feel questioning gazes on my back but nothing else matters anymore. The only thing I care for right now is the man that’s right in front of me.
He looks at me with a sad expression before he stands up and walks to me while I just watch him with wide eyes. Once he is in front of me I reach for my hand but my hand touches nothing else but empty air. I gasp in panic and I feel my eyes turn wet with water. Before the first tear escapes he reaches forward and closes his arms around me. I can’t feel the pressure of his body on mine, but i can feel that he’s here. His love radiating from his presence.
He looks at me deep in the eyes before whispering in my ear.
“Run,”
And that’s what I do. He lets go of me and I start running as hard as I can.
I slam the church doors open into the hallways. I see guards on the right of me next to a staircase enjoying a drink together. Somehow luck is on my side when they don’t notice me running past them. I open the front doors of the church open and I feel the slight breeze of the day on my hair.
Running through the doors I tear my wedding dress apart, making it easier for me to run. The screams behind me are deaf to my ears as I continue my way towards freedom.
No more prison, I’ll be free.
To the person who read this,
It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to loose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain trough your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you trough all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe you heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but dont your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it, when you don’t feel like belonging than build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see others stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in there life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that way than you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you than don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart than I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general than I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic. Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water everyday in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer,I want you here.
I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you a song as your friend.
“Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you.
In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here.
I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay?
Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one.
If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :)
have a good day and great years.
I love you so much and am so proud of you, I hope you will remember my words- becho, the stranger that cares more about you than anything :)
you made my day. thank you
thank you
Thank u so much..u made my day♥️
thank u so much becho i hope you're well :))
I bawled my eyes out reading this. Thank you so much :,)
هذا اللحن يذكرني بأيام المدرسة وشتاء 2019 💔
Same...🖤
вроде обычная песня, но она такая комфортная.. столько воспоминаний сразу всплывает..❤️🩹
mee too
"One day after my suicide"
The day after my suicide, I loved my mother even more, when I saw her crying on the floor of my room, embracing my clothes with my pictures scattered around her, I saw so much love beyond the tears in her eyes.
The day after my suicide, I felt how much my father loved me, no matter how hard, in the midst of this great sadness, he spoke to me with tears in his eyes about how proud he was of me and how much he loved me.
The day after my suicide. I saw that Tumble (my furry best friend) was more incredible than I could have ever imagined. Every time someone came home, he would run to the door excited to see me, seeing that I wasn't me, he would lie in front of the door and keep waiting for me.
The day after my suicide. I felt my sister's love when I saw her sitting in her room with tears in her eyes. I remembered the times we played, talked and argued together in our beautiful childhood. processing moments.
The day after my suicide. I felt how important my best friend was. They were looking at all of our pictures together... remembering the laughs we shared.
The day after my suicide. I felt sad for my teachers. They blamed themselves for noticing it.
At night I went to the morgue to find myself. I was sad. I looked at myself and said: “So many dreams we had,” “So many loved ones,” “So many people we’re going to meet,” “You had so many people who loved you, but you threw them all away?” You must have a lot of courage to end your life.
Why didn't you use that courage to win? "
Thank God it was just a vision.
to remember. You are still here and you can change your life forever. You are better than you think you are. The most beautiful, the smartest and the strongest.
Make this yours. Save it in notes and read it later.
- A person on TH-cam
Edit : I really don't need likes , just understand my words
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❤
It's beautiful ❤️
i’m crying
I AM CRYING
The moment when you can't cry anymore and than all that you can feel is the pain in your chest...💀
you just mentioned me :)
if you need help go talk to your Friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help.
@@tedolison5431 When I'm down, I go to the Gym that's my help
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@@chris.b1r354 bro fr 💯
Can I go back to my old memories 💔where I was happy! I need to go backkk!!!!
this song makes me sad and feel lonely but it gives me the will to find somebody to feel happy
I'm sorry for being a bad friend.
I'm sorry for being a bad daughter.
I'm sorry for being a bad cousin.
I'm sorry for being a bad grandaughter.
I'm sorry for being emotionless.
I'm sorry for acting depressed when i really need someone to talk to.
I'm sorry for hiding my depression so good that you call it fake.
I'm sorry for being a bad student.
I'm sorry for being jealous.
I'm sorry for being annoying.
I'm sorry for having depression and anxiety.
I'm sorry for being born.
I'm sorry that you had to meet a person like me.
I'm sorry for everything.
I AM SORRY OKAY?
Okay.
HEY???? no no no no, being sick it's not your fault bestie, dont listen to that shit that your brain tells you, thats not true, please be safe, and ask for help if u need ok
don't be sorry dude. be yourself and kind and you will find people who appreciate the way you are
don’t be sorry. you got this, stay strong.
ikr
This song doesn’t remind me of a person, it reminds me that my home doesn’t feel like home anymore.
Your comment hits different..
it's never been a home...
if you need help go talk to your friends, family and people you trust, life can be great and will get even better after the pandemic ends so do not waste it and life have a lot of good experiences and memories that are gonna make you think it was all worth it, a lot of people who tried to end their lives remember that they changed their mind and are happy to be alive, if necessary search for help in the internet and if you can afford it call a therapist "ending your life is a permanent solution to a temporary problem" also do not be shy to call for help
yup :/ home doesn’t feel like home anymore since my dog died :(
It hits hard
Я никогда не пишу комментарии, но тут я просто не могу не написать 😢. Эта песня попалась в рекомендациях совершенно случайно, именно в замедленном виде. Как только я услышала первые ноты, то у меня просто мурашки пошли по коже. Это просто самая лучшая музыка, которую я когда-либо слышала. 💜
The moment listening to this song, tears 😭 from nowhere starting coming out. It’s really an inspiration song.
Its crazy how this song makes me realise how depressed I am
Γιατί πες μας
Σε νιώθω
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ur missing part of your soul.....try to find it :)
αυτο.
Why are the comments so much nicer than our actual friends?
The real question is, why are all these 14 year olds so edgy lol
@@Z.Toast1 huh? Lol I don't follow
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Because they don’t know us.How we look or what’s r deepest secrets are or because they know how it feels to have fake friends or toxic friends :)
they aint talkin to u that's why
This song+cloudy rainy day = perfection
crazy what a song can do to your mood
Is it just me wanting to cry but there's no more tears.
Yup :(
yep
Not just you babes :/
I feel so numb
Ariana grande - no tears left to cry
The fact that strangers know better how you feel than your whole family.
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Your Right 🙂
And those "strangers" speaks the same language because all of us have been through the similar life.
And friends. I have one friend that is going through hell and so am i, we were always there for each other. She is like the sister i never had and i wws like her brother, she is an only child. She supports me for being who i am and i do so, my parents and her parents dont accept us so we were always there for each other. So i guess that family doesn't really need to be blood related right?
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Welcome back. We know this isn't your first time here :)
The most beautiful chat I've ever seen, the respect that every stranger gives to each other... beautiful
i’m not sad, not depressed, not any of that. i just hold the tears in too much
hey bestie :( you dont need to hold things on yourself like that, thats not healthy, talk to someone about it if u need ok? stay safe
@@satanas809 i get told crying is wrong so much.
@@beeyawnca nooo it's human silly, u need to talk about it?
@@satanas809 yes please
@@beeyawnca do u have twitter? my @ there is @fr___og, um can dm any hour
obs.: my first language isnt eng so my tweets are in portuguese ok?
Everytime I hear this song, my memories start coming back with tears.
Same ,been a year now since depression and thankfully I’ve not relapsed but still cry when I listen to the songs I used to cry to ,memories come flooding in :))))
i feel you..
Yes 🥺♥️
Your lucky, its been years since i was able to cry
Same
it hits the exact place you're always guarding . My soul declares this beautiful
Dönüp dolaşıp gelebildiğim tek yer.
“Your life is not hard”
Then why don’t you come live in my life.
just because your struggles arent visible doesnt make them any less hard. your hardships are valid, and its gonna be ok
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U com in me life
that's impossible.
No its not even hard, its empty, lonely, and yet too much... but not hard
I will be coming back to this daily because I like to make myself sad with this song
I’ll be masochist with you
i always listen to extremely sad and emotional music when i’m having a breakdown as if it’s gonna make anything better 💆🏻♂️
... just to feel anything :)
why are you doing this to yourself
@@tahacantopuz4561 it’s how i feel
I tried to escape from the real life 😢💔
I just wan't my childhood back. Damn, everything was perfect.
Sometimes the best way to keep the positive memories alive are to share them. Keep telling your story, provide hope to the future generation by showing them the very same joys in life you were able to receive.
It’s sad that in this day in age depression is so normalized. The trauma is so indescribable. We’re all just kids trying our hardest to live our lives. Yet we don’t want to live. Yet we still don’t even have a life that is considered by others. Humanity destroys its own kind.
Earth is cruel.
It is especially Because it is a ruf life and we all need a brake from this
@@radiopot5009 i had 3 panic attacks today and 2 break downs... And I have to go to school tmrw and I don't think I can do it, I feel useless, I feel like it would be better for everyone if I just die. My whole class hates me, my parents, my teachers, even my sister. I hate myself so much for being born. I at first tried to act, because acting made me happy, but then I got told, that I'm really bad at it. So I stopped. Then I tried so sing, but then they told me, that I can't sing. If it's going to continue like this, I'm just going to jump off a roof.
@@sisi3520 baby please stay strong...I am proud of you okay? Study hard, make your life, go to college, and leave your home at 18 and never look back. Those who don't give you respect, love and care deserve nothing in return. Just put yourself first. You were given this life for a purpose, and maybe that purpose is staying strong and being a role model for those who may be going through the same. ok? Please stay strong. Ily. It will get better.
Well said
Nobody broke my heart. My parents aren’t abusive. My friends aren’t really toxic. I’m not in a bad home. Then why do I feel like this. So tired. Numb. Done. Done with it all. Living, breathing, all of it I’m just done. I don’t want this
My 7 years long girlfriend left me three years ago, utterly breaking my heart..
My dad abused me since I was a kid, he often threatened my life..
My mom is, and was a alcoholic..
My friends are literally substance dependent..
I sleep at my granma now..
Your sufference is not different from mine.. but mine has become anger.. utter, complete anger.. I feel like I'm becoming a rageful demon.. and I was so loving, so compassionate.. now I hate everyone..
@@listeningdeeply7007 Sorry to hear about all that.. and yeah I understand, I’ve noticed recently I’ve built up a lot of anger and sometimes I’ll get unreasonably mad at something small because it’s been building up and I really used to be a good person, and I’m trying to still be that way but I feel I’m pushing everyone away..
@@sofacushion8153 i feel the same. I get annoyed and angry over the smallest things and I can't control it. I feel like no matter what I do I always push people away from me. It makes me feel like such a terrible person and i don't know how to stop it. Even when people try to help me i can get angry at them and end up pushing them away leaving me to drown in my own tears. I cause my own suffering and yet I don't know how to stop it. It hurts
I felt the same for years. I have a suggestion for anyone who is feeling this way: your feeling is valid even if your life from outside looks perfect. Even if you have health, friends, money and family, it could happen to just not have the motivation to live. My suggestion is to do what your depression tells you not to do: live, go out, talk, see people, even if in this moment it's the last thing you want to do. The more you close in yourself, in your little circle of bad thoughts and paranoia, the more you will feel worse because you are alone with your depression and you start to believe to what she tell you. Try to spend less time in your bedroom with your phone, start just going to have a word with your mum. If you need to talk you can also text me:) stay safe🤍
@@listeningdeeply7007 im so sorry. Stay strong
Очень классная музыка чтобы ночью остаться с самим собой., она очень спокойная и вызывает ощущение грусти-спокойствее, хоть я и не знаю английский но она очень классная
I'll leave this here to remember that at the very same day i felt nothing, just emptiness, sitting in a dark room thinking about how much I've tried to move forward but i keep falling behind
Thinking that if I end up my life right now, I'd finally be released from this cage from the suffering and the loneliness that i have in my heart
It would be amazing just to lay down in silent without even moving... But
What about the people that loves you? What about your parents, your siblings and your best friend.. Think about how much you'll hurt them before hurting yourself
And pls come home.
(under the moon)
+🥺
I love him
He’ll never love me
I miss him
He doesn’t miss me
I hate myself
He hates me...
i betrayed him and he doesn't know i exist..i didn't mean to..can someone help me get him back..?
@@fandommkid shit if I could figure it out for myself I’d help you❤️
@@kateys2344 :) hopefully he’ll forgive me
Ouch she betrayed me for no reason
I miss her
She dont
I love her
Of corse she dont
I want her back:'(
Just im lost i dont know what to do i want to just express my feelings but where i dont fucking know im feeeeling hurt. I want to die.
@@djamelkerras3087 I'm feelingg just exactly like you.
I’m just tired.
Tired of fighting with my mom.
Tired of trying to believe my mom loves me.
Tired of fake friends
Tired of being taken advantage of.
Tired of being sad.
Tired of being overwhelmed with anxiety
I’m just so damn tired of living
I’m tired of having religion forced onto me
I’m so tired.
I’m tired of crying at night.
Tired of waking up.
I just want to sleep forever. And ever and ever. I don’t want to wake up.
I’m tired of being tired.
When is this pain gonna go away?
I’m sorry that I’m tired mom.
I’m really tired of everything.
I’m tired of being me.
I just want to find my own home where I can feel safe
Same 😭😭 but no one would understand stand that I'm so depressed I try to keeping fighting my battles but I can keep up with it the only thing is ending it all😭
life has its ups and downs, it passes away eventually. Everyone is stressed, you're not alone. 😭
It does get better. Promise
...💔😭
Life can be good
❤❤❤
it's perfect 🥺💕
It's 2024 and you came back to this hit, I love you
Sometimes it's just... so hard to live.
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hurts bc you know that fact isn’t going to change. life is hard. just the way it goes ig
My phone battery : 1%
Me : Starts playing this masterpiece.
My phone battery : "I'll wait."
Чудесно
qnd vc tá tão mal, q n consegue nem chorar mais. isso tudo é tão cansativo!
الأغنيه عالم ثاني ، عالم من الخيال🖤
The scary thing is that I feel nothing.
oh, same. but everything is gonna be fine..i hope
oh, maybe something is not doing okay with your mental health, friend, ask help if u need it okay? stay safe and dont worry because really gets better
Ik same am I ok?
Bestie are you okay??
Me too i can’t even cry
This is a one song that never die from my heart..luv this version too.
This is perfection .. powerfulness in all this sadness, spectacular composition .
sleep is like escaping from reality, it's amazing
if you run away from life while sleeping, nothing will get better, even though you soothe your thoughts... soothe these thoughts, get up and never give up again...take care
Amazing 🥺✨
Until u wake up...
but then i’m locked inside of my head.
I cry myself to sleep tho. Falling asleep, crying, dying inside, drenched pillow full of tears and full of the fear of reality....
Be honest, if you’re listening to slowed + reverb where’s my love, you’re not okay.
exactly bro
I'm not ok
@@moviesclub7630 everything will be ok
me neither........im not okay at all........
@@justvibin9923 you'll be fine😀🌷
i love this so much. im so glad i finally found this ❤
People feel lonely even though being surrounded by others. It's because they still haven't found themselves. When you know who you are, you will no longer be alone. You will be there for yourself.
This is the kind of tired that sleep can’t fix.
sadly. hope you feel better soon, God bless you.
just wish it could
Melancholy
I hope you’re fine now
i’m just tired...
[im tired of fighting with my mom]
[im tired of stress]
[im tired of school]
[im tired of anxiety]
[im tired of loneliness]
[im tired of them not caring]
[im tired of not being loved]
[im tired of being forgotten]
[im tired of fighting]
[im tired of searching for hope]
i’m not just tired i’m ready to be free
Same… bro
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why do you fight with your mom, just asking
😥😥
im tired of existing.