the fact that it got that far without anyone understanding what you were going through makes it the most important to bring awareness about this issue...I too was so close to this happening to me...but I actually went to the gun store to buy a gun... luckily it was going to take a day to see if I could be approved to buy one or not...the next day my sister knocked some sense into me and I cancelled the whole thing .... people will never understand how intense the experience is and how we can't control our actions while it's happening unless someone helps us ...thank you for continuing to bring awareness ...
I totally agree with what you said and it's something I think about often. It astonishes me that the first place I was hospitalized at released me knowing the symptoms I was experiencing. So much could have been prevented if I had gotten the help I needed sooner. Instead the symptoms intensified over the course of 6 months until they finally culminated in a consequential aftermath. Thank you for sharing your personal experience as well. I'm happy to hear you didn't follow through with your actions and it sounds like your sister is a great and caring person. "people will never understand how intense the experience is and how we can't control our actions while it's happening unless someone helps us". That is very well said and rings so true! People in a manic state often lack the insight and discernment to know what the right choices are.
I completely understand what happened to you. Two unrelated incidents in my life which distorted my sense of reality. The first one was many years ago when I was given too much anesthesia during a surgical procedure. I went into it fine but when I woke up I was in a hyper manic state. I did not think anyone was going to hurt me, but I thought eating food would poison me, or even drinking water. This went on for months and gradually resolved without medication, but I had lost so much weight that I was nothing but skin and bones. After that I was diagnosed as having BipolarII disorder and have been taking meds ever since. No recurrance of a manic episode, thank God. The other incident happened recently. I had been battling an E-coli infection for over a year. Antibiotics would seem to get rid of it but in just a few weeks it would be back again. I was taking a med but it was not doing a thing to kill off the bacteria, however I thought it probably would just take more time and I was not having any symptoms like I usually did. One night near midnight I looked out the window and saw two men breaking into my truck and loading things into a larger truck parked in my driveway. I immediately called the sheriff and a deputy responded to my call. He checked all around my house and found nothing suspicious. He left and very soon thereafter I saw the two men come back, so I called the deputy back. While he was here I could 'see' the men the entire time and kept telling the deputy where they were and what they were doing. I was so frustrated when the deputy kept telling me there was not anyone outside in my yard, but I was looking at them. To make a long story short, the deputy called his captain and a squad and MADE me go to the ER for a psych evaluation, even though I was refusing the entire time, including when I got to the ER. The ER staff immediately knew I was hallucinating from the infection and began tests. The tests showed the infection was raging and was causing the hallucinations. They gave me a potent antibiotic injection along with an Rx for oral treatment. That did not work either so my PCP and I decided on long term antibiotics, and I have added a few homeopathic treatments. I home test weekly, and so far so good. The reason I have written so much is I am a very experienced RN and I did not realize what or why happened to me, so if I did not know then a lay person would unlikely recognize when a person's mental state was being caused by a medical problem. Folks need to be aware of something of this nature happening and seek medical treatment without jumping to conclusions. Stay strong, Tyler. It takes a brave person to tell their story to make people aware of what can happen. Many blessings!! ❤
Thank you so much for sharing. Your experiences were both frightening in their own unique way. You certainly went through a lot. It was interesting to read a story like this from the perspective of an RN. You make such an excellent point about how the common lay person wouldn't recognize but also neither would a medical professional going through themselves. That's what I consider one of the scariest parts of mental health, the uncertainty of it all. Knowing that while it's going on, our central command centers don't actually "know" it. So many destructive things can happen during that time window. I really appreciate you sharing your story. I'm sorry to hear you went through all that. I hope you take care and am happy to hear that you are doing better though.
I'm sorry hearing the story Tyler, it's not an easy task to digest what we did wrong in the past. But at the same time I felt lucky for you too. I'm happy to know your defense attorney did a great job, and the incident didn't result in injuries physically irrecoverable. Witnessed someone on hallucination hurt two people very bad when I was nine, it was a bloody scene. Can't imagine how guilty he felt everyday. I know a friendship maybe lost, however, there's always opportunity to meet new friends, and future is brighter with no prior conviction record. Have my own nasty story too. During an drunk frenzy I tried to climb out of toilet stall instead of unlocking the door, because I thought I'm inside a multi-dimensiomal mansion or else. I fell down with bruise and the scar is still visible. I took comfort in that my drinking problem is much less severe now so it won't happen again.
Those are some very traumatizing experiences. I appreciate your openness and willingness to share. I'm sorry you had to go through all that. I sincerely hope you're doing better today. Thank you for watching and take care my friend.
the fact that it got that far without anyone understanding what you were going through makes it the most important to bring awareness about this issue...I too was so close to this happening to me...but I actually went to the gun store to buy a gun... luckily it was going to take a day to see if I could be approved to buy one or not...the next day my sister knocked some sense into me and I cancelled the whole thing .... people will never understand how intense the experience is and how we can't control our actions while it's happening unless someone helps us ...thank you for continuing to bring awareness ...
I totally agree with what you said and it's something I think about often. It astonishes me that the first place I was hospitalized at released me knowing the symptoms I was experiencing. So much could have been prevented if I had gotten the help I needed sooner. Instead the symptoms intensified over the course of 6 months until they finally culminated in a consequential aftermath.
Thank you for sharing your personal experience as well. I'm happy to hear you didn't follow through with your actions and it sounds like your sister is a great and caring person.
"people will never understand how intense the experience is and how we can't control our actions while it's happening unless someone helps us". That is very well said and rings so true! People in a manic state often lack the insight and discernment to know what the right choices are.
I completely understand what happened to you. Two unrelated incidents in my life which distorted my sense of reality. The first one was many years ago when I was given too much anesthesia during a surgical procedure. I went into it fine but when I woke up I was in a hyper manic state. I did not think anyone was going to hurt me, but I thought eating food would poison me, or even drinking water. This went on for months and gradually resolved without medication, but I had lost so much weight that I was nothing but skin and bones. After that I was diagnosed as having BipolarII disorder and have been taking meds ever since. No recurrance of a manic episode, thank God.
The other incident happened recently. I had been battling an E-coli infection for over a year. Antibiotics would seem to get rid of it but in just a few weeks it would be back again. I was taking a med but it was not doing a thing to kill off the bacteria, however I thought it probably would just take more time and I was not having any symptoms like I usually did. One night near midnight I looked out the window and saw two men breaking into my truck and loading things into a larger truck parked in my driveway. I immediately called the sheriff and a deputy responded to my call. He checked all around my house and found nothing suspicious. He left and very soon thereafter I saw the two men come back, so I called the deputy back. While he was here I could 'see' the men the entire time and kept telling the deputy where they were and what they were doing. I was so frustrated when the deputy kept telling me there was not anyone outside in my yard, but I was looking at them. To make a long story short, the deputy called his captain and a squad and MADE me go to the ER for a psych evaluation, even though I was refusing the entire time, including when I got to the ER. The ER staff immediately knew I was hallucinating from the infection and began tests. The tests showed the infection was raging and was causing the hallucinations. They gave me a potent antibiotic injection along with an Rx for oral treatment. That did not work either so my PCP and I decided on long term antibiotics, and I have added a few homeopathic treatments. I home test weekly, and so far so good.
The reason I have written so much is I am a very experienced RN and I did not realize what or why happened to me, so if I did not know then a lay person would unlikely recognize when a person's mental state was being caused by a medical problem. Folks need to be aware of something of this nature happening and seek medical treatment without jumping to conclusions. Stay strong, Tyler. It takes a brave person to tell their story to make people aware of what can happen. Many blessings!! ❤
Thank you so much for sharing. Your experiences were both frightening in their own unique way. You certainly went through a lot. It was interesting to read a story like this from the perspective of an RN. You make such an excellent point about how the common lay person wouldn't recognize but also neither would a medical professional going through themselves. That's what I consider one of the scariest parts of mental health, the uncertainty of it all. Knowing that while it's going on, our central command centers don't actually "know" it. So many destructive things can happen during that time window. I really appreciate you sharing your story. I'm sorry to hear you went through all that. I hope you take care and am happy to hear that you are doing better though.
I'm sorry hearing the story Tyler, it's not an easy task to digest what we did wrong in the past. But at the same time I felt lucky for you too. I'm happy to know your defense attorney did a great job, and the incident didn't result in injuries physically irrecoverable. Witnessed someone on hallucination hurt two people very bad when I was nine, it was a bloody scene. Can't imagine how guilty he felt everyday. I know a friendship maybe lost, however, there's always opportunity to meet new friends, and future is brighter with no prior conviction record.
Have my own nasty story too. During an drunk frenzy I tried to climb out of toilet stall instead of unlocking the door, because I thought I'm inside a multi-dimensiomal mansion or else. I fell down with bruise and the scar is still visible. I took comfort in that my drinking problem is much less severe now so it won't happen again.
Those are some very traumatizing experiences. I appreciate your openness and willingness to share. I'm sorry you had to go through all that. I sincerely hope you're doing better today. Thank you for watching and take care my friend.
Love and light to you too my friend!
Thank you! I greatly appreciate it. Take care!
Thanks for sharing. Mania is horrible.
It really is. I never want to experience the nightmare of mania ever again.
Man this is creepy & scary