I found your video at the just the right time. This morning I went to my doctors for some bleeding. Turns out I'm having a miscarriage too. I was 6 weeks. This was my first pregnancy. We were so over the moon happy. Your story helps me feel so not alone. Thank you. It's so much more emotional pain then physically. I keep questioning all the things you did too. Your so brave to share this.
I’m so sorry for your loss !!! I experienced a miscarriage at 5 weeks and it was so painful. I have 2 children already, but it was still so hard. Im currently 18 weeks pregnant, I got pregnant one month later and so far a healthy pregnancy ❤️🌈praise God !!! praying for your family. Praying for you daily 🙌🏼 oh no you will be amazing parents ! Many women have miscarriages and go on having healthy pregnancies. You might be paranoid at first but with God you will get thru it !
I’ve learned the hard way to not ask “when are you going to have kids” after I asked my ex coworker who I had just met. She was 26 and she told me she couldn’t. I felt horrible. And although we don’t work together anymore I still follow her on instagram. Its been 5 years since I seen her and I couldn’t be happier seeing her post her 3 year old son and new born daughter.
My mom had a miscarriage between my brother and me. I was vary young and don't remember it, however she made a Christmas ornament with dried flowers she was given during that time placed in a ball ornament. We used it every year right next to the ones she made from when we were born. It was always such a special way to remember that little brother/sister I never got to meet.
I’m so sorry you have to go through this. August 28 2019 will be one year since I had a miscarriage. This baby would have been our first born. My pregnancy symptoms stopped at 9 weeks and I carried to almost 13 weeks. It was the worst day of my life going to my ultrasound appointment and not hearing a heartbeat and not seeing my little bundle of joy. I started to bleed right after we left the hospital. And it was the worst day of my life. And with people giving advice.. I totally agree with you on things not to say and things to say. I had family tell me that I can try again. That hurt hearing that. I didn’t want to try again. I didn’t want to go through the pain again. Physically and emotionally. It’s been a year now and I’m just started feeling ready to have another baby. But we have to remember, God is Good. It’s hard to trust Him in times like this. My heart goes out to you and everyone who experiences loosing a child at any stage. Miscarriage, stillborn, or after birth. The baby was your child. You are a parent. We are just moms and dads to angel babies. Our babies never got to experience pain, heartache, or the trials of this world. Or child only got to know love. First from you, and now from the Lord. Hang in there, I feel for you! Proverbs 3:5-6 - Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and he will direct your paths. ♥️❤️
Jolene Funk i lost my baby I was supposed to be 9 weeks and I was measuring at only five so I didn’t understand why I carried for over a month longer. It’ll be a year in one month.
Oh my goodness I didn’t even expect a reply... thank you so so much. You too. I hope soon you’re blessed with many happy beautiful babies!! I’m about to have a friend paint my last ultrasound from when I was losing my baby. I’m so excited to have this little piece of my baby. 💞💞
Sorry for your loss, I got pregnant my first try but it ended in miscarriage in October at 7 weeks as well. Then got my period after and tried again and am now 33 weeks pregnant with rainbow baby girl! You will be a great mom when it does happen for you and it will come at the right time.
So sorry for your loss! My husband and I have been trying for almost 4 years. Havent had a positive test yet, but still praying. I hope your hearts heal and the Lord gives you and Jacob peace!
Thanks for sharing your story. I had a miscarriage in late January and now I’m pregnant with my rainbow 🌈 baby. Hang in there. I know it’s tough but brighter days are coming!
I cried this whole video.. I’m currently going through a miscarry, instead I still have my deceased baby inside of me 💔. I went to the doctors Thursday, Dec. 16, 2021 for my very first ultrasound, I was 9 weeks and 4 days pregnant. As the doctors were looking and detecting, they detected that my baby had no heart beat or blood flow going to his/her heart. I was instantly crying and very much devastated 😭💔 I feel as if a big part of me has passed away along with my baby.. yesterday I asked my doctor if we could go ahead and schedule the D&C procedure. I now have my D&C procedure scheduled for this coming Tuesday, Dec. 21, 2021 and I just feel so lost and depressed 💔💔💔 I’m struggling very hard going through this and a lot of times I feel alone 😭💔💔 thank you for sharing this, it really has helped 💔 May God Bless you and your family ❤️
Friend, I am so sorry you have experienced miscarriage. I think it’s brave and wonderful you are documenting your grief so soon afterward. I think that will speak volumes to others in the midst of it. You’re in my prayers.
My heart breaks for you😔 you are definitely not alone..... I suffered a missed miscarriage in January 2016 so I can relate with your pain. I just want to let you know that God is faithful and you will indeed get what your soul desires. I know because I now have a beautiful 20 month old baby girl. I will be praying for healing and peace for you and your husband❤
This is always hard no matter how many times it happens. I’ve had 3 different miscarriages but I’m thankful that my body is doing what it needs to do to keep me healthy even if that means going through these tough situations. Life truly is a miracle and everything needs to be aligned for life to happen. You are young and healthy, don’t loose hope, your family will come when it’s the right time. Prayers for you
So sorry for your loss it is so hard to go through especially your first pregnancy. In 2008 my first pregnancy was a 6 week miscarriage had to have a D&C and then 13 months later had our rainbow baby. Three babies later our family is compete and that first pregnancy as hard as it was to lose gave me a whole new outlook on the blessings that were to come. Hang in there only time will heal but know that there are a lot of women in your corner!
Thank you for sharing your story! My first pregnancy ended in miscarriage at 7 weeks as well. I will always remember that baby and how that first one is the reason we have our sweet rainbow baby now. God is faithful. You’re right, though, it was the worst experience of my life, but I loved that baby for the 7 weeks we had together. Sending you and Jacob all the love and hugs.
I'm so sorry 😞 Your rainbow baby is coming. Your longing to become a mother hurts to see but your future is so bright. You two will be great parents. Sending hugs your way.
I’m watching this after seeing the news of your rainbow baby. I’m sorry you had to go through this pain. I could never imagine the pain and hurt, the heart ache. Wishing you a wonderful pregnancy and can’t wait to see the video of you holding your rainbow baby. You will be an amazing mum. X
i had a miscarriage back in 2013/2014 and it’s something that changed me forever. it hurt more than anything in the world and you never ever ever forget about it. it will always hurt but it will get easier. Keep trying and keep trying and keep trying. It’ll happen for you and i’m wishing you the best of luck!
I’m watching this as I’m going through my first miscarriage (was first pregnancy that also took us four months to conceive). We’re heartbroken but hearing other women’s stories brings some comfort because I feel less alone. It also makes me so happy when I looked at your channel currently and realized that you now have your baby!
So sorry for your loss. My sister had a miscarriage and she didn’t open up about it so I never knew what she went through or what to say. Thank you for sharing. Praying for you both. May God wrap his arms around you and comfort you during this difficult time.
Blessed Homemaker some of us process things quietly. When I went through my miscarriage I couldn’t speak about it without crying and was hard to listen to people’s comments because as Marisa said there is nothing that will make it better. She put into words everything that I experienced and couldn’t say. I know people care and want to be there but it’s hard for some to relive that awful moment. It just takes time.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I think you're headed in the right direction, doing what you need to do to heal. I've had multiple miscarriages and none was easier than the other. It is the loss of your loved baby, at any gestational age and only women who've gone through it can truly understand. Just know, we're all praying for you and your husband. Again, I'm so sorry for the loss of your baby.
I’m so so sorry. I cried along with you; this was so heart wrenching. Life is so unfair to people who do not deserve it. You have support coming all the way from NY❤️
I’m so sorry you have had to go through this... I had two miscarriages last year I’m also 25 one was twins at 8 weeks and the other one was 5 weeks.. please don’t give up hope I also thought I would never be able to have children after going through this but I’m currently 36 weeks pregnant! Please stay strong xx
When my husband and I went through our miscarriage-I allowed myself to feel the pain and to be angry at me, at the situation and yeah sadly I was angry with God but with time and with my family and husband’s support we did find out silver lining. We knew we had lost a baby but we took it as a sign that we could have a baby just not at that moment. It’s been 2 years since that loss and it’s been 6 months of TTC and no baby. Yes I want to be happy for all those who get to grow their family but like you said I go through moments where I cry, yell and I still let myself have feelings but I also remind myself, that it’s all in God’s time...yes that is the hardest thing to hear but in my heart I know God hears my pain and knows when the best time will be. To everyone trying and anyone who has gone through this you are not alone and it is perfectly ok to feel pain. I still feel pain when I think of the what if’s but that’s pain has helped me grow as a person, it has helped us grow as a couple and when the time comes that God gives us our baby whether Bio or not I know I will love that baby with my whole heart and I’ll be able to say I prayed for you and you are loved and a blessing to us. Baby wishes to everyone and just know you are all loved!
My deepest, sincerest heartfelt condolences to you and your family. I went through a miscarriage as well at five weeks. It’s not easy. Take your time. Grieve. Cry. Smile. Any emotions you are feeling, let it take its course. This isn’t the end. Your rainbow baby is in your future. Believe it. But for now, take this time for you. Thank you for sharing this personal video.
Thanks for sharing. I'm going through this with my second pregnancy and my husband tried to cheer me up by saying we have a healthy child now. But can't imagine this if it was for my first.
Beloved, I don't know you in person but God knows you. God minister to me a revelation when I was on your profile to see things around you,I saw blessings but spiritual attacks holding on to them,in prayers,i saw a woman in the realm of the spirit monitoring and plotting delay be in your Pregnancy, with an evil mirror, and a motive to destroy. But as I speak to you now her time is up
So sorry for your loss 💖 I think you are so brave for sharing your story and I think it’s an honourable way to remember your baby. I had a miscarriage in June so I can empathise with how you feel and this video has really helped me. We planted a tree with a plaque for our baby, I was just over 7 weeks too 💖💖 thank you so much for sharing your story 🇬🇧💖
This really touched me. You’re so raw and down to earth! I found your current videos when I was searching for pregnancy updates-because I’m pregnant again too. But then I stumbled upon this one it’s kind of spooky how close everything was. I found out we lost our baby on July 11th too, we went in for the first ultrasound and they didn’t have a heartbeat. I had no bleeding or cramping at that time. They offered doing surgery or taking pills to further along the process but I was just holding on to some sliver of hope I guess and just kept praying and then exactly a week after that on July 18th things happened naturally and it was super heartbreaking. I feel where you’re coming from so deeply, this has really helped me in the sense that I know I’m not alone like I think about that baby everyday even though I’m 12 weeks with another baby. I’m so sorry for your loss but best wishes on this current pregnancy!
I experienced my mom going through 2 miscarriages, it is very heart breaking and it is okay to cry and let it all out. I am so sorry for your loss, sending you lots of love
It’s ok to be sad and upset and feel Like the world is coming down On you it’s Ok to cry and take it all out .! I’ve had two miscarriages and I know exactly how you feel when you waiting anxiously for that miracle 💕 after Two Years TTC , Don’t Loose hope God is in control 💙 I am Now 22 weeks pregnant with a baby boy... God bless you & your husband Through these hard Moments
Hi sweetie, I had my 1st miscarriage when I was 40 (1st pregnancy) then last September found out I was pregnant, went for an ultrasound at 7 weeks saw a heartbeat. On Thanksgiving we announced the pregnancy at 13 weeks, the very next day I started spotting. Went to the ER and when they did the ultrasound my baby was only measuring 8 weeks 5 days and the was no heartbeat. Then in January I found out again that I was pregnant... but at the 1st appointment I was supposed to measure 8 weeks 5 days and it only measured 6 weeks 3 days... but like you they gave me hope, saying oh maybe your cycle is off and you ovulated later... not the case at all... keep your chin up honey.... you can still be happy for your friends that are having babies but not take part in the baby showers... you have to do what's best for you. I went social media silent the whole month of May, mother's day and a few friends were giving birth... my heart just couldn't handle it. If you ever want to talk, I am here. Hugs and kisses
@Sarah P I had symptoms all the way until about 9 weeks I'd say...I went to get just the heart beat at 10 weeks and the NIPT done that tested for abnormalities and gender. 2 weeks later they called and said it was high risk trisomy 18 I think.. it's been so long ago. And they said there was not enough fetal DNA in my blood to tell what the gender was. I was so hopeful that nothing was wrong. A week or 2 later is when I miscarried.
This story is helping me right now. I would have been 8 weeks as of yesterday but have had spotting for 2 weeks. Went to the ER and was told results were "inconclusive." I had follow up blood tests and was called back told to go back to the ER because they were concerned of ectopic pregnancy then told that's unlikely and maybe baby is ok. Then we found on ultrasound that the gestational sac is still growing but there is no baby and that it's a misscarriage but my body hasn't processed that yet. Now the bleeding has picked up with some cramping and light clotting. I've cried so many tears. We'd told family and were so excited. I don't think I've ever prayed so much. This is such a hard thing. We live in a broken world and this is a reminder if that. Just leaning on God in this time. And these videos have helped so much to see I'm not alone❤
I'm so sorry! I can't even imagine! My husband and I have been trying for 3 years. It's not easy. It's hard when your friends are pregnant for the 2nd or 3rd time and now friend's younger siblings are pregnant. It's hard. 💔 I'll keep you in my prayers. 🙏
Sweet Marissa, my heart breaks for you and Jason. I'm so sorry for your pain and broken hearts. You are in my prayers and thoughts. It takes a very compassionate and loving and brave woman to film a video like this. I know that there will be many people who can gain understanding and comfort from your sharing. Please don't let others tell you how or how long to grieve. This is the most personal loss you and Jason will ever have. I know you will grow through it together, with God's help, and I know you'll be okay.........just take your time to get there. What an awesome and wonderful family you have! It's amazing how much that can help get someone through the trauma you've been going through. Praying, praying, praying.
This is both heart breaking and heart warming to watch. I am so terribly sorry for your lose and hope that you both have the family you deserve. I am also TTC atm and it is such a rollercoaster ride. Thank you for sharing your journey.
I've been going through your videos. I'm happy for your newest pregnancy. Miscarriage is the hardest thing I've ever been through. We lost our baby around 3 months in Feb 2019. I'm still an emotional wreck some days but it's gotten easier to be happy for other people's pregnancies. I spend more time hoping everyone has a healthy pregnancy more than I ever had before.
Watching as many videos of yours to support you during your husbands job loss. Praying things change soon for you so you can enjoy the holiday season🙏🏻
Thank you for sharing your story. This is so incredibly relatable and raw. I miscarried at 7 weeks and it was the most traumatic time in my life. Amen-God is still good! Happy for your new baby:)
Mama I'm so sorry for your loss, I feel you. I found out I miscarried my baby last week, at my 8 week ultrasound appointment. Had a silent miscarriage, my baby's heart stopped at 7 weeks and my body had no idea. I feel like a part of me is gone forever and I miss my little baby every second of the day. I'm trying to continue on with life, praying to God to give me strength, hope and light but the sadness is so heavy. Me and my husband TTC for 7 months until we got that positive test - the best day of my life. We told our family and close friends and celebrated my sunshine's life. Everyone was so happy. Telling all of them the sad news was terrible and I felt like I was reliving that moment time and time again but their support and prayers have given me some peace. I really don't know how to move on from this but I'm hopeful that God one day will bless us with a family of our own. My dogs have been super helpful in all of this, I know they know because they cuddle me all day and lick my tears away. My husband has been my absolute rock in this, he lets me grieve, holds me every chance he gets and tells me he loves all day and night. I'd be lost without him. This, by far, has been the worst experience of my life, the heartache is like non other. I would have loved to kiss and hold my baby, I wonder everyday what he or she would have looked like. The doctors had to do a D&C on me 3 days ago and I am so sad that I never got to know my baby. Never thought I'd be one of four women who go through this. Please pray for me and my husband.
I am so sorry for your loss Marissa. I know how heartbreaking it is. I had 2 miscarriages before I finally had my wonderful son. It is devastating. I will pray for y’all.
The first video I watched on your channel was you finding out you were pregnant. This is so sad! I'm so so sorry for your loss. You will have a sweet baby in your arms one day. Stay strong!!💕
Sending you and your husband so much love. We had a miscarriage back in Apirl and so many things you talked about really touched at my experience. You are so brave to share your story💕
I live in Portland, OR too. I miscarried after TTC for 3 years. Hardest thing and the last thing I thought I’d ever have to go through. I’m glad you ended up getting you baby!
I just found out I'm having a miscarriage today after finally getting pregnant after over a year of TTC. I'm 6 and a half weeks right now. So heartbroken. Hearing your story has really helped me feel less alone, so thank you ❤
@@leahlightly9694 Beloved, I don't know you in person but God knows you. God minister to me a revelation when I was on your profile to see things around you,I saw blessings but spiritual attacks holding on to them,in prayers,i saw a woman in the realm of the spirit monitoring and plotting delay be in your Pregnancy, with an evil mirror, and a motive to destroy. But as I speak to you now her time is up
I'm so sorry Marissa! Big hugs go out to you! I too had a miscarriage when I was 25 with our first pregnancy. It was also so early on that no one except for my husband knew I was pregnant. Honestly, I didn't even tell my parents. We tried for 9 months for the first time. But 3 months after the miscarriage to my surprise we got a positive test and that pregnancy went well and we got a healthy baby girl. Then 2 years later a son. I'm praying for you guys! I know it is not easy.
I'm so sorry for your loss. We just lost our little sweet pea at 7 weeks. It's beyond heartbreaking. We were so excited too. I went to have a d&c because I never miscarried on my own, just went in for ultrasound and no heartbeat anymore.
I just found your video on your miscarriage last year before your rainbow baby. I feel so much pain for you watching this video. I had 3 miscarriages... 6 weeks, 8 weeks and a very sad one at 16 weeks. The first two were very early but the 16 week I totally fell into a deep depression because I didn't have any children yet. This was in 1971 so ultrasounds weren't done and doctor's diagnosed pregnancies by examination. I went for my first visit at 10 weeks and the doctor said I was measuring small but that was the way my mom was so it was normal for me too. In my 14 week I started spotting and the doctor gave me a medication to stop the bleeding and order bed rest. I was in my 2nd trimester. The bleeding stopped and I felt the pregnancy was going to progress. My next appointment would be at 16 weeks. The day before my appointment I woke with severe cramps thinking I had a bowel movement. But when I went into the bathroom I was bleeding so I laid on the floor with towels under me. Unknowingly I was in labor (miscarrying) my baby. I passed a lot of blood and then the fetus which I held in my hand as I screamed for my husband. I was bleeding so profusely he first called 911 and then my mom for me. She had 5 miscarriages (some at home) and I wanted to know what I should do with the fetus to take it to the hospital with me. What was sad for me the doctor was making rounds with interns and residents and as he entered my room he described me as a 23 year old woman who had a spontaneous abortion. I screamed when he came in that I didn't have an abortion. I wanted this baby, I had a miscarriage and you didn't tell me I would lose this baby. I know you will have rainbow babies like I did. One year after this baby I had my son and 3 years later I had boy/girl twins. So God will be good to you. Thank you for this video. It is so true that miscarriage is not talked about and grieved enough. As I feel about my 16 week little girl.."I carried her her whole life."
Awe sweetheart, my heart is with you both. I had a similar experience, my first pregnancy ended in a miscarriage at 7 weeks, too. It truly is the most heartbreaking, difficult experience, but I have complete confidence you will have a successful pregnancy very soon, if that is still what you are wanting. I am so, so sorry you had to experience this and I think you are so strong and brave to share while also being so sweet and looking at the silver lining in celebrating the baby as well, even if it were for a short time. I just feel for you so much and hope nothing but the best for you both ❤
I am so sorry for your loss. Thanks for being brave! Your video will definitely help someone, trust me. I lost my first 2 pregnancies to miscarriage. Even though I know miscarriage is common (I am an Ob/gyn), you never think it will happen to you. You don’t understand until you feel the loss. Unfortunately I felt extremely alone and ashamed. I wasn’t able to share my story until after I gave birth to my now 2 year old son. Please take all the time you need to grieve the loss and heal, do not rush your feelings. Do not feel obligated to anyone or anything. I also want to give you hope! This too shall pass.
I so agree about what to ask and what not to ask women that are married and childbearing. I had people at work asking me when I was planning on getting pregnant while I was actively miscarrying. Also, during our season of miscarriage my faith in God was tested and this is where I truly knew that God is always with us even through the hard times. I would have never have been able to get through that season of my life without God, never!!! He was and still is my strength! God gets all the glory!!!!
Stumbled upon this video and crying watching this. I just experienced a miscarriage nearly a week ago and it was our first pregnancy. It's been so hard, but it's reassuring knowing that you've had rainbow babies since and praying that my husband and I get to that point one day. Thank you for sharing your story. ♥
I appreciate you being so open and vulnerable with us. I feel like I have a greater understanding of what some of my friends have gone through after listening to your experience, and I think you are sharing an important story. You're brave. xo.
7:25 I felt this same way too. Don’t feel guilty you’re entitled to your feelings! 💕 Like you said everything is a season. & 36:00 YESSSS thank you for saying this! You never know what someone is going through. I cried with you through this video. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you love and prayers.
I had a miscarriage back in May, a week after I found out I was pregnant. It was not a planned pregnancy, but my husband and I were still very excited. It was heartbreaking and I still think about that baby every day. I have a 2 1/2 year old little girl and I was so looking forward to giving her a sibling. Unfortunately, some things are just out of our control. You’re very brave for talking about this because I still can’t bring myself to talk about it much, even though I want to give that baby the recognition he/she deserves. Praying that you get your rainbow baby soon. ❤️
I know the feeling I've suffered 2 miscarriages I felt like the way you did thinking it's my fault. It's never your fault nothing you did wrong it just happens praying for a rainbow baby for you stay strong you will get there 💜
Hello, I have never watched your channel before but I thought I could just let you know that you are not alone. My first pregnancy sadly ended in miscarriage too. I went in for my 8 week ultrasound excited to see my baby’s heartbeat, and we came to find out that the baby stopped developing at 6 weeks and no heartbeat. I had a missed miscarriage meaning my baby died but my body thought I was still pregnant. It was the most painful thing emotionally and physically that I’ve ever been through. But I just prayed and prayed everyday and just 4 months later, I was pregnant again. I am a little over eight weeks now with a heartbeat and a healthy on track baby so far. I know what you’re going through and I am praying for you. It’s hard to have hope when it feels like your life is crumbling down but there is light. Your baby is in heaven. I am praying and praying for you and your husband. God bless you
Oh, Marissa. I can't imagine how hard filming this was for you. Thank you for sharing your experience through this. You did a great job. The tips for how to help those who have experienced this loss is so valuable to me. And all of the details you provided of this painful situation will help others now and in the future. You, Jacob, and your whole family are in my heart and prayers and I wish you all the best as you grieve this loss. Sending love and hugs to you all. 💜
So sorry for your loss. I experienced the same thing in October of last year after trying to conceive for a year and a half. So I can relate to everything you said and I know how truly heartbreaking it can be. While all of our family was extremely supportive, I felt like most of them did have the mindset of "well you're so young, you can just try again." But that doesnt make it any easier. And I know the last thing on your mind when you go through something like this is trying again because it can be the scariest thought in the world. But you have to know that there is nothing you could have done to change the outcome. Then in december of last year (even though I was still in no way ready to start trying again) I ended up falling pregnant. We were shocked and so scared that something like that might happen again. And now I am due next month with our rainbow baby. This is not me trying to give you advice in any way, I just wanted to share a piece of my story in hope that it might help you. I know thinking about any kind of future after this can be exhausting and scary, but things truly do get better.
I feel you pain and its heartbreaking we have to go through this. I had a miscarriage 4 day ago and this is our 2nd one. God will help get through it all. I'm sad and depressed about mine too. I will pray for the both of us.
Oh love. I cried with you. I'm so sorry you had to go through this. I hope you get some help, maybe see a counsellor? To already have been so anxious about not getting pregnant after just a few months, now having this happen, I think things could be really difficult for you going forward. You may need some extra strategies to get through it. I've been through years of infertility and 2 missed miscarriages. 8 years on this journey and I'm just about to have my 3rd bubba. It has been so hard and I have hit some really really dark times. I shut people out instead of really talking about it. Especially after my 2nd miscarriage. I never got help. I thought I was just over exaggerating and it took me to some really dark places. Please be careful with this. Things like this change you forever and I wish I had seen someone a long time ago. I could have saved myself and my family a lots of worry and pain. God bless xx
I feel you. I have been crying listening to you talking, since I have also miscarried my baby at 6 weeks. It started on my birthday, so no birthday will be happy for me again. Greetings and hugs from Lithuania
Marissa, I don’t know you but I wish in this moment that I could give you a big hug. I’m so sorry to hear of your loss. I don’t know what else to say, but I do want to remind you that God is SO good. He loves you so, so much. He will bless you and Jacob with a baby in the right time. Please don’t lose faith. I will be praying for you during this time. Again, we don’t know each other, but if you need someone to talk to I’m here. 💕
I have tears in my eyes for you! I’m so sorry girl. Thanks for sharing your experiences and feelings so in-depth. I’ve never been pregnant or experienced a miscarriage and you helped me understand why a miscarriage can be so heartbreaking.
I’m so sorry you have gone through this. It’s so very hard to go through, I’ve had 3, but I also have 3 beautiful children now. My love and prayers for your healing and a rainbow. You are a strong woman with a great support system, you will get through this!
Trying to get through the same thing and crying with you deff helps. Knowing I'm not alone. I'm so happy to see you have been blessed with beautiful babies 💗
I didn't realize that miscarriage was a taboo topic. I have had 2 miscarriages and have 5 healthy children. I am 27. In my family church community, it is a very open subject, but is very emotional and hard! God will bring healing to you and, Lord willing, more pregnancies! I have found it makes Heaven seem closer and gives me a greater desire to be there knowing my 2 babies will be there to meet me! 🙏❤️
Thank you for sharing your story Marissa. I’m going threw the same thing my first pregnancy lead to miscarriage, i was 4 weeks pregnant I never thought it would happen to me. I’m grieving I’m just so upset I’m heartbroken, I completely understand what you went threw. I’m happy I’m not alone we aren’t sure if we are going to try again but I do want to have a baby sometime soon. We also bought so much for our baby even though we were only 4 weeks pregnant we were just so excited😭
Beloved, I don't know you in person but God knows you.I saw blessings but spiritual attacks holding on to them,in prayers,i saw a woman in the realm of the spirit monitoring and plotting delay be in your Pregnancy, with an evil mirror, and a motive to destroy. But as I speak to you now her time is up,
I’m so very sorry for your loss. I am only at 6 weeks right now and I was so excited that I couldn’t hold it until before I told my friends and family. Now I’m struggling with being nervous that at that first appointment we could get bad news. I’m trying to just pray about it and be calm. My mom experienced numerous miscarriages as well as a still birth so I know this could end in heartbreak but it’s hard to not just get all caught up in the happiest of moments. I’m going to keep praying for this pregnancy and I will be praying for you both as well. Thank you for sharing your story and being so vulnerable. ❤️
I’m so sorry. Peace and blessings be with you as you heal. I found it helpful in my personal exp to choose a name or nickname, and I’ve always talked to my girls (who came afterwards ) about my exp and how they were all handpicked by an Angel. I do believe your angel will do the same for you when your heart has healed❤️
I am so, so sorry to hear what you are going through. Losing a baby is an emotional trauma that is so very hard to bear. I wish I had magic words to help you to feel better. I'm nearly 4 months post mc and I am still in bits. Be kind to yourself. Don't ever blame yourself. Take time to grieve for your child. I just wanted to come on and give you a massive hug and let you know that you’re not alone xx
I am so sorry, sweet girl. I think you are so brave and I'm so glad you have shared your story. And I'm also glad that other people are watching to see how painful it can be, even early in pregnancy. I had a miscarriage at almost 8 weeks last September, and still struggle some days dreaming about what life would have been like. The words that I am haunted with came from some of my closest loved ones..."at least you were early"...."it just didn't stick". The pain is so real, and that is so apparent in your video, so thank you for sharing that and being a voice for early pregnancy loss. There are some painful experiences ahead of you that will be triggering, but I hope you hold strong to your faith that God is still good. Praying for your grief and comfort in this difficult time.
I was surrounded by my family as I was miscarrying my baby too. It was so hard, the doctors tell you how common it is, they tell you that the baby didn't have a chance of surviving and so nature takes care of it, I was told so many things, but none of them helped the hurt in my heart. My only peace came from knowing I would see my baby again one day. I'm sorry for your loss. I pray you get pregnant again quickly.
Marissa- I haven’t had a chance to watch the entire video, but I can see the pain in your face. I’m very sorry you’re going through this and I’m glad you’re talking about it and finding vlogging therapeutic.
Awwww I’m so sorry Marissa.🧡 But truly, as an ultrasound tech, I see miscarriage so much, and I’m glad that you decided to share your story. Too many women blame themselves, and if it wasn’t such a taboo topic I feel like maybe that wouldn’t happen. 🧡🧡
I'm very glad your sweet, caring husband, Jacob, came home for you! And that your mother and sister came by for support too! Everyone is praying for you and Jacob! 🙏🏻
my cousin had 10+ miscarriages , after spending 100k on ivf almost giving up at 35 she finally had her last pregnancy. She had twin then lost one but her other kid is due in 3 weeks :). Take some time off to heal and everything will work out eventually.
I just feel so close to everything you were saying in the video. I’ve been un the same situation, trying for 5 months and then going through a miscarriage. I’m also your age and I thought that couldn’t happen to me because of that, but still it happened. Thank you so much for sharing this, it is really a great comfort to see that I’m not the only one who’s gone through this. This should not be a taboo. Thanks ❤️❤️❤️
Im sorry but the pain does not go away. You learn to live with it. I have lost 3 babies. And each day i always think of them. And please dont say that to someone who has lost a baby, through miscarriage, stillbirth or infant loss. And definitely dont say everything happens for a reason. In due time I did feel that way but I hated when someone said those things to me. 💕💕
I'm so sorry Marissa. I know you said near the beginning that you didn't know how you could help others who are experiencing this, however I believe that sharing your experience has the ability to help others simply because it shows no-one is alone.
I’m so sorry, and I’m praying for you and your husband in this hard time. I had 4 early miscarriages, and now I’m 14 and a half weeks with a beautiful boy. It’s in the cards for you, I know it! It took me 2 years and it might be quicker for you. So sorry hun! 😔
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I found your video at the just the right time. This morning I went to my doctors for some bleeding. Turns out I'm having a miscarriage too. I was 6 weeks. This was my first pregnancy. We were so over the moon happy. Your story helps me feel so not alone. Thank you. It's so much more emotional pain then physically. I keep questioning all the things you did too. Your so brave to share this.
Oh no... I am so sorry for your loss. ❤️ you’re definitely not alone.
You are so brave to share this with everyone. You and your husband are in my prayers 🙏 Stay strong
I’m so sorry for your loss !!! I experienced a miscarriage at 5 weeks and it was so painful. I have 2 children already, but it was still so hard. Im currently 18 weeks pregnant, I got pregnant one month later and so far a healthy pregnancy ❤️🌈praise God !!! praying for your family. Praying for you daily 🙌🏼 oh no you will be amazing parents ! Many women have miscarriages and go on having healthy pregnancies. You might be paranoid at first but with God you will get thru it !
I’ve learned the hard way to not ask “when are you going to have kids” after I asked my ex coworker who I had just met. She was 26 and she told me she couldn’t. I felt horrible. And although we don’t work together anymore I still follow her on instagram. Its been 5 years since I seen her and I couldn’t be happier seeing her post her 3 year old son and new born daughter.
My mom had a miscarriage between my brother and me. I was vary young and don't remember it, however she made a Christmas ornament with dried flowers she was given during that time placed in a ball ornament. We used it every year right next to the ones she made from when we were born. It was always such a special way to remember that little brother/sister I never got to meet.
I’m so sorry you have to go through this. August 28 2019 will be one year since I had a miscarriage. This baby would have been our first born. My pregnancy symptoms stopped at 9 weeks and I carried to almost 13 weeks. It was the worst day of my life going to my ultrasound appointment and not hearing a heartbeat and not seeing my little bundle of joy. I started to bleed right after we left the hospital. And it was the worst day of my life. And with people giving advice.. I totally agree with you on things not to say and things to say. I had family tell me that I can try again. That hurt hearing that. I didn’t want to try again. I didn’t want to go through the pain again. Physically and emotionally. It’s been a year now and I’m just started feeling ready to have another baby. But we have to remember, God is Good. It’s hard to trust Him in times like this. My heart goes out to you and everyone who experiences loosing a child at any stage. Miscarriage, stillborn, or after birth. The baby was your child. You are a parent. We are just moms and dads to angel babies. Our babies never got to experience pain, heartache, or the trials of this world. Or child only got to know love. First from you, and now from the Lord. Hang in there, I feel for you!
Proverbs 3:5-6 - Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him and he will direct your paths. ♥️❤️
Jolene Funk i lost my baby I was supposed to be 9 weeks and I was measuring at only five so I didn’t understand why I carried for over a month longer. It’ll be a year in one month.
Acacia Hunter I’m sorry to hear. A loss is hard no matter when it happens 😔
Oh my goodness I didn’t even expect a reply... thank you so so much. You too. I hope soon you’re blessed with many happy beautiful babies!! I’m about to have a friend paint my last ultrasound from when I was losing my baby. I’m so excited to have this little piece of my baby. 💞💞
Acacia Hunter that is sweet! Something you can have as a memory ❤️
living life with gracie no I don’t.
Sorry for your loss, I got pregnant my first try but it ended in miscarriage in October at 7 weeks as well. Then got my period after and tried again and am now 33 weeks pregnant with rainbow baby girl! You will be a great mom when it does happen for you and it will come at the right time.
So sorry for your loss! My husband and I have been trying for almost 4 years. Havent had a positive test yet, but still praying. I hope your hearts heal and the Lord gives you and Jacob peace!
Thanks for sharing your story. I had a miscarriage in late January and now I’m pregnant with my rainbow 🌈 baby. Hang in there. I know it’s tough but brighter days are coming!
I cried this whole video.. I’m currently going through a miscarry, instead I still have my deceased baby inside of me 💔. I went to the doctors Thursday, Dec. 16, 2021 for my very first ultrasound, I was 9 weeks and 4 days pregnant. As the doctors were looking and detecting, they detected that my baby had no heart beat or blood flow going to his/her heart. I was instantly crying and very much devastated 😭💔 I feel as if a big part of me has passed away along with my baby.. yesterday I asked my doctor if we could go ahead and schedule the D&C procedure. I now have my D&C procedure scheduled for this coming Tuesday, Dec. 21, 2021 and I just feel so lost and depressed 💔💔💔 I’m struggling very hard going through this and a lot of times I feel alone 😭💔💔 thank you for sharing this, it really has helped 💔
May God Bless you and your family ❤️
Happy Anniversary. You two will have kids, you two will be wonderful parents. You two will get through this!
Friend, I am so sorry you have experienced miscarriage. I think it’s brave and wonderful you are documenting your grief so soon afterward. I think that will speak volumes to others in the midst of it. You’re in my prayers.
I'm so sorry Marissa... My wife and I just went through this a few months ago and all I can say is my prayers are with you and your husband. 🌈
My heart breaks for you😔 you are definitely not alone..... I suffered a missed miscarriage in January 2016 so I can relate with your pain. I just want to let you know that God is faithful and you will indeed get what your soul desires. I know because I now have a beautiful 20 month old baby girl. I will be praying for healing and peace for you and your husband❤
This is always hard no matter how many times it happens. I’ve had 3 different miscarriages but I’m thankful that my body is doing what it needs to do to keep me healthy even if that means going through these tough situations. Life truly is a miracle and everything needs to be aligned for life to happen. You are young and healthy, don’t loose hope, your family will come when it’s the right time. Prayers for you
My heart breaks for those women who have multiple miscarriages when dealing with one is gut wrenching in itself 💔😥
So sorry for your loss it is so hard to go through especially your first pregnancy. In 2008 my first pregnancy was a 6 week miscarriage had to have a D&C and then 13 months later had our rainbow baby. Three babies later our family is compete and that first pregnancy as hard as it was to lose gave me a whole new outlook on the blessings that were to come. Hang in there only time will heal but know that there are a lot of women in your corner!
Thank you for sharing your story! My first pregnancy ended in miscarriage at 7 weeks as well. I will always remember that baby and how that first one is the reason we have our sweet rainbow baby now. God is faithful. You’re right, though, it was the worst experience of my life, but I loved that baby for the 7 weeks we had together. Sending you and Jacob all the love and hugs.
I'm so sorry 😞
Your rainbow baby is coming. Your longing to become a mother hurts to see but your future is so bright.
You two will be great parents.
Sending hugs your way.
I’m watching this after seeing the news of your rainbow baby.
I’m sorry you had to go through this pain. I could never imagine the pain and hurt, the heart ache.
Wishing you a wonderful pregnancy and can’t wait to see the video of you holding your rainbow baby.
You will be an amazing mum.
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i had a miscarriage back in 2013/2014 and it’s something that changed me forever. it hurt more than anything in the world and you never ever ever forget about it. it will always hurt but it will get easier. Keep trying and keep trying and keep trying. It’ll happen for you and i’m wishing you the best of luck!
As I am typing these lines, I am going through a miscarriage and this is a first pregnancy. Thank you for sharing this with us.
I’m watching this as I’m going through my first miscarriage (was first pregnancy that also took us four months to conceive). We’re heartbroken but hearing other women’s stories brings some comfort because I feel less alone. It also makes me so happy when I looked at your channel currently and realized that you now have your baby!
So sorry for your loss. My sister had a miscarriage and she didn’t open up about it so I never knew what she went through or what to say. Thank you for sharing. Praying for you both. May God wrap his arms around you and comfort you during this difficult time.
Blessed Homemaker some of us process things quietly. When I went through my miscarriage I couldn’t speak about it without crying and was hard to listen to people’s comments because as Marisa said there is nothing that will make it better. She put into words everything that I experienced and couldn’t say. I know people care and want to be there but it’s hard for some to relive that awful moment. It just takes time.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I think you're headed in the right direction, doing what you need to do to heal. I've had multiple miscarriages and none was easier than the other. It is the loss of your loved baby, at any gestational age and only women who've gone through it can truly understand. Just know, we're all praying for you and your husband. Again, I'm so sorry for the loss of your baby.
I’m so sorry. I had an early pregnancy loss this year and it was heartbreaking. Thank you for talking about it.
I’m so so sorry. I cried along with you; this was so heart wrenching. Life is so unfair to people who do not deserve it. You have support coming all the way from NY❤️
I’m so sorry you have had to go through this... I had two miscarriages last year I’m also 25 one was twins at 8 weeks and the other one was 5 weeks.. please don’t give up hope I also thought I would never be able to have children after going through this but I’m currently 36 weeks pregnant! Please stay strong xx
When my husband and I went through our miscarriage-I allowed myself to feel the pain and to be angry at me, at the situation and yeah sadly I was angry with God but with time and with my family and husband’s support we did find out silver lining. We knew we had lost a baby but we took it as a sign that we could have a baby just not at that moment. It’s been 2 years since that loss and it’s been 6 months of TTC and no baby. Yes I want to be happy for all those who get to grow their family but like you said I go through moments where I cry, yell and I still let myself have feelings but I also remind myself, that it’s all in God’s time...yes that is the hardest thing to hear but in my heart I know God hears my pain and knows when the best time will be. To everyone trying and anyone who has gone through this you are not alone and it is perfectly ok to feel pain. I still feel pain when I think of the what if’s but that’s pain has helped me grow as a person, it has helped us grow as a couple and when the time comes that God gives us our baby whether Bio or not I know I will love that baby with my whole heart and I’ll be able to say I prayed for you and you are loved and a blessing to us. Baby wishes to everyone and just know you are all loved!
I'm so sorry for all that you've gone through. Thank you for sharing your story!
My deepest, sincerest heartfelt condolences to you and your family. I went through a miscarriage as well at five weeks. It’s not easy. Take your time. Grieve. Cry. Smile. Any emotions you are feeling, let it take its course. This isn’t the end. Your rainbow baby is in your future. Believe it. But for now, take this time for you. Thank you for sharing this personal video.
Thanks for sharing. I'm going through this with my second pregnancy and my husband tried to cheer me up by saying we have a healthy child now. But can't imagine this if it was for my first.
Beloved, I don't know you
in person but God knows
you. God minister to me a
revelation when I was on
your profile to see things
around you,I saw
blessings but spiritual
attacks holding on to
them,in prayers,i saw a
woman in the realm of
the spirit monitoring and
plotting delay be in your
Pregnancy, with an evil mirror,
and a motive to destroy.
But as I speak to you now
her time is up
So sorry for your loss 💖 I think you are so brave for sharing your story and I think it’s an honourable way to remember your baby. I had a miscarriage in June so I can empathise with how you feel and this video has really helped me. We planted a tree with a plaque for our baby, I was just over 7 weeks too 💖💖 thank you so much for sharing your story 🇬🇧💖
This really touched me. You’re so raw and down to earth! I found your current videos when I was searching for pregnancy updates-because I’m pregnant again too. But then I stumbled upon this one it’s kind of spooky how close everything was. I found out we lost our baby on July 11th too, we went in for the first ultrasound and they didn’t have a heartbeat. I had no bleeding or cramping at that time. They offered doing surgery or taking pills to further along the process but I was just holding on to some sliver of hope I guess and just kept praying and then exactly a week after that on July 18th things happened naturally and it was super heartbreaking. I feel where you’re coming from so deeply, this has really helped me in the sense that I know I’m not alone like I think about that baby everyday even though I’m 12 weeks with another baby. I’m so sorry for your loss but best wishes on this current pregnancy!
I experienced my mom going through 2 miscarriages, it is very heart breaking and it is okay to cry and let it all out. I am so sorry for your loss, sending you lots of love
It’s ok to be sad and upset and feel Like the world is coming down On you it’s Ok to cry and take it all out .! I’ve had two miscarriages and I know exactly how you feel when you waiting anxiously for that miracle 💕 after Two Years TTC , Don’t Loose hope God is in control 💙 I am Now 22 weeks pregnant with a baby boy... God bless you & your husband Through these hard Moments
Hi sweetie, I had my 1st miscarriage when I was 40 (1st pregnancy) then last September found out I was pregnant, went for an ultrasound at 7 weeks saw a heartbeat. On Thanksgiving we announced the pregnancy at 13 weeks, the very next day I started spotting. Went to the ER and when they did the ultrasound my baby was only measuring 8 weeks 5 days and the was no heartbeat. Then in January I found out again that I was pregnant... but at the 1st appointment I was supposed to measure 8 weeks 5 days and it only measured 6 weeks 3 days... but like you they gave me hope, saying oh maybe your cycle is off and you ovulated later... not the case at all... keep your chin up honey.... you can still be happy for your friends that are having babies but not take part in the baby showers... you have to do what's best for you. I went social media silent the whole month of May, mother's day and a few friends were giving birth... my heart just couldn't handle it. If you ever want to talk, I am here. Hugs and kisses
So sorry. How are you doing? Did you have symptoms from week 7 to 13 or did they stop? Wondering if you had a any signs that it stopped growing?
@Sarah P I had symptoms all the way until about 9 weeks I'd say...I went to get just the heart beat at 10 weeks and the NIPT done that tested for abnormalities and gender. 2 weeks later they called and said it was high risk trisomy 18 I think.. it's been so long ago. And they said there was not enough fetal DNA in my blood to tell what the gender was. I was so hopeful that nothing was wrong. A week or 2 later is when I miscarried.
@@stacytaddiken7634 did you try again?
@@MissSmurfey no, 3 times was enough heartache for us. We have cats lol
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This story is helping me right now. I would have been 8 weeks as of yesterday but have had spotting for 2 weeks. Went to the ER and was told results were "inconclusive." I had follow up blood tests and was called back told to go back to the ER because they were concerned of ectopic pregnancy then told that's unlikely and maybe baby is ok. Then we found on ultrasound that the gestational sac is still growing but there is no baby and that it's a misscarriage but my body hasn't processed that yet. Now the bleeding has picked up with some cramping and light clotting. I've cried so many tears. We'd told family and were so excited. I don't think I've ever prayed so much. This is such a hard thing. We live in a broken world and this is a reminder if that. Just leaning on God in this time. And these videos have helped so much to see I'm not alone❤
I'm so sorry for your loss. Praying for comfort and peace for you all.
I'm so sorry! I can't even imagine! My husband and I have been trying for 3 years. It's not easy. It's hard when your friends are pregnant for the 2nd or 3rd time and now friend's younger siblings are pregnant. It's hard. 💔 I'll keep you in my prayers. 🙏
Sweet Marissa, my heart breaks for you and Jason. I'm so sorry for your pain and broken hearts. You are in my prayers and thoughts. It takes a very compassionate and loving and brave woman to film a video like this. I know that there will be many people who can gain understanding and comfort from your sharing. Please don't let others tell you how or how long to grieve. This is the most personal loss you and Jason will ever have. I know you will grow through it together, with God's help, and I know you'll be okay.........just take your time to get there. What an awesome and wonderful family you have! It's amazing how much that can help get someone through the trauma you've been going through. Praying, praying, praying.
This is both heart breaking and heart warming to watch. I am so terribly sorry for your lose and hope that you both have the family you deserve. I am also TTC atm and it is such a rollercoaster ride. Thank you for sharing your journey.
Oh how my heart aches for you & Jacob, and that sweet baby 😭💗 praying for nothing but peace & understanding in such a hard time.
I've been going through your videos. I'm happy for your newest pregnancy. Miscarriage is the hardest thing I've ever been through. We lost our baby around 3 months in Feb 2019. I'm still an emotional wreck some days but it's gotten easier to be happy for other people's pregnancies. I spend more time hoping everyone has a healthy pregnancy more than I ever had before.
Thank you so much. It is so hard to go through. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Watching as many videos of yours to support you during your husbands job loss. Praying things change soon for you so you can enjoy the holiday season🙏🏻
Thank you for sharing your story. This is so incredibly relatable and raw. I miscarried at 7 weeks and it was the most traumatic time in my life. Amen-God is still good! Happy for your new baby:)
Mama I'm so sorry for your loss, I feel you. I found out I miscarried my baby last week, at my 8 week ultrasound appointment. Had a silent miscarriage, my baby's heart stopped at 7 weeks and my body had no idea. I feel like a part of me is gone forever and I miss my little baby every second of the day. I'm trying to continue on with life, praying to God to give me strength, hope and light but the sadness is so heavy. Me and my husband TTC for 7 months until we got that positive test - the best day of my life. We told our family and close friends and celebrated my sunshine's life. Everyone was so happy. Telling all of them the sad news was terrible and I felt like I was reliving that moment time and time again but their support and prayers have given me some peace. I really don't know how to move on from this but I'm hopeful that God one day will bless us with a family of our own. My dogs have been super helpful in all of this, I know they know because they cuddle me all day and lick my tears away. My husband has been my absolute rock in this, he lets me grieve, holds me every chance he gets and tells me he loves all day and night. I'd be lost without him. This, by far, has been the worst experience of my life, the heartache is like non other. I would have loved to kiss and hold my baby, I wonder everyday what he or she would have looked like. The doctors had to do a D&C on me 3 days ago and I am so sad that I never got to know my baby. Never thought I'd be one of four women who go through this. Please pray for me and my husband.
I am so sorry for your loss Marissa. I know how heartbreaking it is. I had 2 miscarriages before I finally had my wonderful son. It is devastating. I will pray for y’all.
The first video I watched on your channel was you finding out you were pregnant. This is so sad! I'm so so sorry for your loss. You will have a sweet baby in your arms one day. Stay strong!!💕
Sending you and your husband so much love. We had a miscarriage back in Apirl and so many things you talked about really touched at my experience. You are so brave to share your story💕
Yeah 👌🏻🙏🏻🌈
Just pointing it out that she's so pretty. she looks a lot like Rory (Alexis Bledel) from Gilmore Girls 👐🏻💞🥰🤗
I live in Portland, OR too. I miscarried after TTC for 3 years. Hardest thing and the last thing I thought I’d ever have to go through. I’m glad you ended up getting you baby!
This broke my heart. I’m so sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your story!
I just found out I'm having a miscarriage today after finally getting pregnant after over a year of TTC. I'm 6 and a half weeks right now. So heartbroken. Hearing your story has really helped me feel less alone, so thank you ❤
I’m so so sorry for your loss. ❤️❤️ I hope you get all the time you need to grieve and heal. ❤️
Thank you ❤
@@leahlightly9694
Beloved, I don't know you
in person but God knows
you. God minister to me a
revelation when I was on
your profile to see things
around you,I saw
blessings but spiritual
attacks holding on to
them,in prayers,i saw a
woman in the realm of
the spirit monitoring and
plotting delay be in your
Pregnancy, with an evil mirror,
and a motive to destroy.
But as I speak to you now
her time is up
I'm so sorry Marissa! Big hugs go out to you! I too had a miscarriage when I was 25 with our first pregnancy. It was also so early on that no one except for my husband knew I was pregnant. Honestly, I didn't even tell my parents. We tried for 9 months for the first time. But 3 months after the miscarriage to my surprise we got a positive test and that pregnancy went well and we got a healthy baby girl. Then 2 years later a son. I'm praying for you guys! I know it is not easy.
I'm so sorry for your loss. We just lost our little sweet pea at 7 weeks. It's beyond heartbreaking. We were so excited too. I went to have a d&c because I never miscarried on my own, just went in for ultrasound and no heartbeat anymore.
I just found your video on your miscarriage last year before your rainbow baby. I feel so much pain for you watching this video. I had 3 miscarriages... 6 weeks, 8 weeks and a very sad one at 16 weeks. The first two were very early but the 16 week I totally fell into a deep depression because I didn't have any children yet. This was in 1971 so ultrasounds weren't done and doctor's diagnosed pregnancies by examination. I went for my first visit at 10 weeks and the doctor said I was measuring small but that was the way my mom was so it was normal for me too. In my 14 week I started spotting and the doctor gave me a medication to stop the bleeding and order bed rest. I was in my 2nd trimester. The bleeding stopped and I felt the pregnancy was going to progress. My next appointment would be at 16 weeks. The day before my appointment I woke with severe cramps thinking I had a bowel movement. But when I went into the bathroom I was bleeding so I laid on the floor with towels under me. Unknowingly I was in labor (miscarrying) my baby. I passed a lot of blood and then the fetus which I held in my hand as I screamed for my husband. I was bleeding so profusely he first called 911 and then my mom for me. She had 5 miscarriages (some at home) and I wanted to know what I should do with the fetus to take it to the hospital with me. What was sad for me the doctor was making rounds with interns and residents and as he entered my room he described me as a 23 year old woman who had a spontaneous abortion. I screamed when he came in that I didn't have an abortion. I wanted this baby, I had a miscarriage and you didn't tell me I would lose this baby. I know you will have rainbow babies like I did. One year after this baby I had my son and 3 years later I had boy/girl twins. So God will be good to you. Thank you for this video. It is so true that miscarriage is not talked about and grieved enough. As I feel about my 16 week little girl.."I carried her her whole life."
Awe sweetheart, my heart is with you both. I had a similar experience, my first pregnancy ended in a miscarriage at 7 weeks, too. It truly is the most heartbreaking, difficult experience, but I have complete confidence you will have a successful pregnancy very soon, if that is still what you are wanting. I am so, so sorry you had to experience this and I think you are so strong and brave to share while also being so sweet and looking at the silver lining in celebrating the baby as well, even if it were for a short time. I just feel for you so much and hope nothing but the best for you both ❤
I am so sorry for your loss. Thanks for being brave! Your video will definitely help someone, trust me. I lost my first 2 pregnancies to miscarriage. Even though I know miscarriage is common (I am an Ob/gyn), you never think it will happen to you. You don’t understand until you feel the loss. Unfortunately I felt extremely alone and ashamed. I wasn’t able to share my story until after I gave birth to my now 2 year old son. Please take all the time you need to grieve the loss and heal, do not rush your feelings. Do not feel obligated to anyone or anything. I also want to give you hope! This too shall pass.
I so agree about what to ask and what not to ask women that are married and childbearing. I had people at work asking me when I was planning on getting pregnant while I was actively miscarrying. Also, during our season of miscarriage my faith in God was tested and this is where I truly knew that God is always with us even through the hard times. I would have never have been able to get through that season of my life without God, never!!! He was and still is my strength! God gets all the glory!!!!
Stumbled upon this video and crying watching this. I just experienced a miscarriage nearly a week ago and it was our first pregnancy. It's been so hard, but it's reassuring knowing that you've had rainbow babies since and praying that my husband and I get to that point one day. Thank you for sharing your story. ♥
I appreciate you being so open and vulnerable with us. I feel like I have a greater understanding of what some of my friends have gone through after listening to your experience, and I think you are sharing an important story. You're brave. xo.
7:25 I felt this same way too. Don’t feel guilty you’re entitled to your feelings! 💕 Like you said everything is a season.
& 36:00 YESSSS thank you for saying this! You never know what someone is going through.
I cried with you through this video. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you love and prayers.
If's okay to feel sad...but you're also brave to share your story with us 😘🙏🏻
I had a miscarriage back in May, a week after I found out I was pregnant. It was not a planned pregnancy, but my husband and I were still very excited. It was heartbreaking and I still think about that baby every day. I have a 2 1/2 year old little girl and I was so looking forward to giving her a sibling. Unfortunately, some things are just out of our control. You’re very brave for talking about this because I still can’t bring myself to talk about it much, even though I want to give that baby the recognition he/she deserves. Praying that you get your rainbow baby soon. ❤️
I know the feeling I've suffered 2 miscarriages I felt like the way you did thinking it's my fault. It's never your fault nothing you did wrong it just happens praying for a rainbow baby for you stay strong you will get there 💜
You are SO LOVED Marissa and you are so brave to share your story with us!
I’m so sorry for you loss, Marissa 😕
May God comfort you, your husband and family in this hard season..
God bless you💕✨
Hello, I have never watched your channel before but I thought I could just let you know that you are not alone. My first pregnancy sadly ended in miscarriage too. I went in for my 8 week ultrasound excited to see my baby’s heartbeat, and we came to find out that the baby stopped developing at 6 weeks and no heartbeat. I had a missed miscarriage meaning my baby died but my body thought I was still pregnant. It was the most painful thing emotionally and physically that I’ve ever been through. But I just prayed and prayed everyday and just 4 months later, I was pregnant again. I am a little over eight weeks now with a heartbeat and a healthy on track baby so far. I know what you’re going through and I am praying for you. It’s hard to have hope when it feels like your life is crumbling down but there is light. Your baby is in heaven. I am praying and praying for you and your husband. God bless you
God bless you! I'm so glad you had so much support through all of this. I'm praying that your pregnancy now is healthy and blessed! 💕
Oh, Marissa. I can't imagine how hard filming this was for you. Thank you for sharing your experience through this. You did a great job. The tips for how to help those who have experienced this loss is so valuable to me. And all of the details you provided of this painful situation will help others now and in the future. You, Jacob, and your whole family are in my heart and prayers and I wish you all the best as you grieve this loss. Sending love and hugs to you all. 💜
So sorry for your loss. I experienced the same thing in October of last year after trying to conceive for a year and a half. So I can relate to everything you said and I know how truly heartbreaking it can be. While all of our family was extremely supportive, I felt like most of them did have the mindset of "well you're so young, you can just try again." But that doesnt make it any easier. And I know the last thing on your mind when you go through something like this is trying again because it can be the scariest thought in the world. But you have to know that there is nothing you could have done to change the outcome. Then in december of last year (even though I was still in no way ready to start trying again) I ended up falling pregnant. We were shocked and so scared that something like that might happen again. And now I am due next month with our rainbow baby. This is not me trying to give you advice in any way, I just wanted to share a piece of my story in hope that it might help you. I know thinking about any kind of future after this can be exhausting and scary, but things truly do get better.
I feel you pain and its heartbreaking we have to go through this. I had a miscarriage 4 day ago and this is our 2nd one. God will help get through it all. I'm sad and depressed about mine too. I will pray for the both of us.
Oh love. I cried with you. I'm so sorry you had to go through this. I hope you get some help, maybe see a counsellor? To already have been so anxious about not getting pregnant after just a few months, now having this happen, I think things could be really difficult for you going forward. You may need some extra strategies to get through it.
I've been through years of infertility and 2 missed miscarriages. 8 years on this journey and I'm just about to have my 3rd bubba. It has been so hard and I have hit some really really dark times. I shut people out instead of really talking about it. Especially after my 2nd miscarriage. I never got help. I thought I was just over exaggerating and it took me to some really dark places. Please be careful with this. Things like this change you forever and I wish I had seen someone a long time ago. I could have saved myself and my family a lots of worry and pain.
God bless xx
I feel you. I have been crying listening to you talking, since I have also miscarried my baby at 6 weeks. It started on my birthday, so no birthday will be happy for me again. Greetings and hugs from Lithuania
Marissa, I don’t know you but I wish in this moment that I could give you a big hug. I’m so sorry to hear of your loss. I don’t know what else to say, but I do want to remind you that God is SO good. He loves you so, so much. He will bless you and Jacob with a baby in the right time. Please don’t lose faith. I will be praying for you during this time. Again, we don’t know each other, but if you need someone to talk to I’m here. 💕
This broke my heart. I'm so sorry for your loss💔 you are such a brave strong woman..💞 sending prayers to you guys
This video broke my heart. Sending so much love and prayers ❤️
I have tears in my eyes for you! I’m so sorry girl. Thanks for sharing your experiences and feelings so in-depth. I’ve never been pregnant or experienced a miscarriage and you helped me understand why a miscarriage can be so heartbreaking.
This just breaks my heart.... I'm praying for you and sending you tons and tons of love. Wish I could be there to give you a big hug!
I’m so sorry you have gone through this. It’s so very hard to go through, I’ve had 3, but I also have 3 beautiful children now. My love and prayers for your healing and a rainbow. You are a strong woman with a great support system, you will get through this!
Prayers.
God bless you guys.
Thank you for sharing this difficult time - we all appreciate your vulnerability
Trying to get through the same thing and crying with you deff helps. Knowing I'm not alone. I'm so happy to see you have been blessed with beautiful babies 💗
I didn't realize that miscarriage was a taboo topic. I have had 2 miscarriages and have 5 healthy children. I am 27. In my family church community, it is a very open subject, but is very emotional and hard! God will bring healing to you and, Lord willing, more pregnancies! I have found it makes Heaven seem closer and gives me a greater desire to be there knowing my 2 babies will be there to meet me! 🙏❤️
Thank you for sharing your story Marissa. I’m going threw the same thing my first pregnancy lead to miscarriage, i was 4 weeks pregnant I never thought it would happen to me. I’m grieving I’m just so upset I’m heartbroken, I completely understand what you went threw. I’m happy I’m not alone we aren’t sure if we are going to try again but I do want to have a baby sometime soon. We also bought so much for our baby even though we were only 4 weeks pregnant we were just so excited😭
I'm so sorry for your loss ❤
Beloved, I don't know you
in person but God knows
you.I saw
blessings but spiritual
attacks holding on to
them,in prayers,i saw a
woman in the realm of
the spirit monitoring and
plotting delay be in your
Pregnancy, with an evil mirror,
and a motive to destroy.
But as I speak to you now
her time is up,
I lost my angel baby at 6 weeks and it was the most heartbreaking thing in the world. Praying for you and your husband during this hard times. 💕
I’m so very sorry for your loss. I am only at 6 weeks right now and I was so excited that I couldn’t hold it until before I told my friends and family. Now I’m struggling with being nervous that at that first appointment we could get bad news. I’m trying to just pray about it and be calm. My mom experienced numerous miscarriages as well as a still birth so I know this could end in heartbreak but it’s hard to not just get all caught up in the happiest of moments.
I’m going to keep praying for this pregnancy and I will be praying for you both as well. Thank you for sharing your story and being so vulnerable. ❤️
I’m so sorry. Peace and blessings be with you as you heal. I found it helpful in my personal exp to choose a name or nickname, and I’ve always talked to my girls (who came afterwards ) about my exp and how they were all handpicked by an Angel. I do believe your angel will do the same for you when your heart has healed❤️
I am so sorry for your misscarag me and my family are praying so so hard for you.you are so brave to share this to your family in TH-cam
So desperately sorry for you guys. Sending healing prayers ❤❤
I am so, so sorry to hear what you are going through. Losing a baby is an emotional trauma that is so very hard to bear. I wish I had magic words to help you to feel better. I'm nearly 4 months post mc and I am still in bits. Be kind to yourself. Don't ever blame yourself. Take time to grieve for your child. I just wanted to come on and give you a massive hug and let you know that you’re not alone xx
Thanks Phoebe. I'm so sorry for your loss.
I am so sorry, sweet girl. I think you are so brave and I'm so glad you have shared your story. And I'm also glad that other people are watching to see how painful it can be, even early in pregnancy. I had a miscarriage at almost 8 weeks last September, and still struggle some days dreaming about what life would have been like. The words that I am haunted with came from some of my closest loved ones..."at least you were early"...."it just didn't stick". The pain is so real, and that is so apparent in your video, so thank you for sharing that and being a voice for early pregnancy loss. There are some painful experiences ahead of you that will be triggering, but I hope you hold strong to your faith that God is still good. Praying for your grief and comfort in this difficult time.
Thank you. I'm so sorry for your loss as well.
Oh Marisa, I am SO sorry for you and Jacob. Praying for comfort in the Lord and hope in the future and your future pregnancies ❤️
That's so sad and heartbreaking, I can just imagine what you were going through
I was surrounded by my family as I was miscarrying my baby too. It was so hard, the doctors tell you how common it is, they tell you that the baby didn't have a chance of surviving and so nature takes care of it, I was told so many things, but none of them helped the hurt in my heart. My only peace came from knowing I would see my baby again one day. I'm sorry for your loss. I pray you get pregnant again quickly.
Marissa- I haven’t had a chance to watch the entire video, but I can see the pain in your face. I’m very sorry you’re going through this and I’m glad you’re talking about it and finding vlogging therapeutic.
Awwww I’m so sorry Marissa.🧡 But truly, as an ultrasound tech, I see miscarriage so much, and I’m glad that you decided to share your story. Too many women blame themselves, and if it wasn’t such a taboo topic I feel like maybe that wouldn’t happen. 🧡🧡
I'm so so so sorry for your loss 💔
I hope for healing for you and your husband
I'm very glad your sweet, caring husband, Jacob, came home for you! And that your mother and sister came by for support too! Everyone is praying for you and Jacob! 🙏🏻
my cousin had 10+ miscarriages , after spending 100k on ivf almost giving up at 35 she finally had her last pregnancy. She had twin then lost one but her other kid is due in 3 weeks :). Take some time off to heal and everything will work out eventually.
I just feel so close to everything you were saying in the video. I’ve been un the same situation, trying for 5 months and then going through a miscarriage. I’m also your age and I thought that couldn’t happen to me because of that, but still it happened. Thank you so much for sharing this, it is really a great comfort to see that I’m not the only one who’s gone through this. This should not be a taboo. Thanks ❤️❤️❤️
So sorry you went through this. It has happened to many of my friends and despite knowing that it doesn’t make it easier. Praying for you guys. ❤️
It gets better! Keep your chin up. Everything happens for a reason. The pain goes away.❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
Im sorry but the pain does not go away. You learn to live with it. I have lost 3 babies. And each day i always think of them. And please dont say that to someone who has lost a baby, through miscarriage, stillbirth or infant loss. And definitely dont say everything happens for a reason. In due time I did feel that way but I hated when someone said those things to me. 💕💕
I'm so sorry Marissa. I know you said near the beginning that you didn't know how you could help others who are experiencing this, however I believe that sharing your experience has the ability to help others simply because it shows no-one is alone.
I’m so sorry, and I’m praying for you and your husband in this hard time. I had 4 early miscarriages, and now I’m 14 and a half weeks with a beautiful boy. It’s in the cards for you, I know it! It took me 2 years and it might be quicker for you. So sorry hun! 😔