Erika Nyberg I’m sorry for your loss. After the doctor told me there was no heartbeat, we were walking over to the front to get me a d&c appt. while doing that he was asking other people how their vacation went. I was so upset.. I’m glad that didn’t happen to you
when my mother had her stillborn baby the nurse told her that she liked to believe that stillborn babies went to the mothers in heaven who died during childbirth, this gave my mum some peace at mind knowing she was being looked after
kirralea lindbeck That’s such a lovely thought. Also I’m very sorry for your loss, my mom had a stillborn on Mother’s Day 2014 and it was only this year that I’ve truly begun to heal from that experience of losing my baby sister.
@Kai Wong breaks not brakes ??? Why point out something like that after watching such a heart breaking video....dickheads like you really piss me off acting like the grammar police on youtube ....
When she was talking about how some moms smoke and drink yet they still get to take home their babies, I felt that in my heart. I had 5 miscarriages and my ex friend ended up getting pregnant. She was doing drugs, drinking, and smoking. I couldn’t understand how me doing everything right, I lost my baby multiple times and she just got to walk out of the hospital months later with hers. It does suck a lot but hey I’m now 3 days away from being 20 weeks pregnant and nothing bad has happened yet!
Anyone who’s upset at her for blaming the doctors need to think about how she’s feeling right now. If my doctor said they wouldn’t induce me for 10 days after my due date and my child passes before the doctor will “allow” me to be induced then yes, I am going to blame the doctor. My doctor did ultra sounds every single appointment for the last 6 weeks. He even gave me 3d pictures at every visit after 25 weeks. The appointments were in depth, he was kind, he cared about me and my child. I was induced at 39 weeks and I can’t imagine had my doctor not allowed it and my son hadn’t made it. So no, the doctor didn’t kill her child, it isn’t “his fault” but it makes complete sense why she would speak as if he was partly to blame. But hey, lets make rude comments to a woman who is uploading this to spread awareness and bring comfort to other women who have had to deal with this.
I’m really confused why no non-stress test was done before then?! The doctor clearly didn’t see how Braxton was handling the end of the pregnancy. If he had enough room, enough fluid, how his heart was, etc. :(
Jahlen Johnson there’s lot more risks in being induced , but ten days after due date I never heard unless it’s by Doulas/midwives they wait up to two weeks. Usually all my Obgyns say to wait at least 41 weeks before being induced. 41+10 is usually normal when women go into labor can be long time. And stop comparing your doctor to allow 39 weeks is not normal. Unless something is going on. I have 3 little ones and never my OBGYNs said for 39 weeks they said no way . They wait until 41 week mark
Jahlen Johnson i have a friend who is an attorney specializing in malpractice and damage cases. She has had several cases won that were similar to this one - if there is the slightest risk to the baby after week 32 doctors need to really consider constant monitoring and quick c section. If a baby starts having trouble after week 32 an emergency c section delivers them within minutes (hard on the mother and risk of injuries to her especially bladder and such organs being hurt) and a planned c section takes 20 minutes of having the baby out (plus double the time to stitch the mother back up ). Planned c sections well done are the lowest risk delivery for baby and mother. The problem is doctors - they can supervise multiple deliveries at a time where they don’t do surgery(money factor) where you need at least two doctors fully involved for c section (surgeon and anaesthesiologist). Also mothers not neutrally educated frequently romanticize „natural“ childbirth. That s not their fault it s what society tells us. Truth is in nature a large number of infant dies for all species. Because their is no other way in nature. If women knew that with c section even before the due date a lot of the babies lost could have lived and if our medical system respected this and bore the additional costs for surgery instead of natural midwife supervised delivery many babies could have lived. She is completely right to be angry at the doctors . Again, c section starting from week 32 in case of trouble and after week 36 in any case statistically is the safest way to bring the baby to life and avoid any perinatal damage (that is also far too frequent if mother and/or doctors insist on the natural way even though the baby is coming under pressure ).
¥oshi Xo i lost a baby at 23 weeks(placenta issues) and I had a 32 weeker in May 2017. She’s my mircale baby, I did over 10 weeks of hospital bed rest and her heart stopped three times and then for some god given miracle as they were doing the ultrasound it picked up again, it was such a beautiful sound and they delivered me at the 32 weeks because of he safety. I feel so blessed. I pray she gets her mircale too! 😭😭😭
gosh. our stories are so alike. I too had a miscarriage i 2015 and became pregnant in 2016...giving birth to my rainbow son i July 2017. still thinking about my sweetheart.
I ended up going into labour on my own after 40wks but after 2 days of no progress and my son and i going into distress emergency c-section had to be done. My son was not born alive but thankfully he was revived. He's now 21yrs old and I couldn't imagine him not being in my life. So sorry for your loss and I hope beyond hope that your rainbow baby comes into your life soon.
That's what happened to me. I was 38 pregnant with my lil girl and I had to go for a non stress test and her heartbeat was 140 but the dr wanted her to be move active so her heart rate would go up n down it did a lil but my baby Dr came in and said I would induce her labor but that would put stress on the baby so i said is there a chance I could have her today the dr said yes there getting the or ready now and should be about within the hour I'm like OMG she was 5.5 17inches long Now she's 6.12 19inches long she goes to the dr on september 13th for her 2 month old check up.
My 1st daughter was born sleeping.it was her 31st birthday yesterday.i have 2 other beautiful daughters 19 and 21.your angel will be watching over you.bless you 💖
TheInternet Sucks holy shit! I actually had to re-read that three times cause I couldn’t believe what I just read. You are the imbecile I’ve ever seen in my entire life! I sincerely hope you don’t have any children, and if you do I hope cps takes them away from you.. you lowlife troll!
TheInternet Sucks please let me know how you are. I have shared feelings of wanting to not be here anymore. I am thankful every day, I never made that choice.
My first pregnancy was a stillbirth 4 years ago at 39 weeks and it was a healthy pregnancy too. I did get pregnant again and it was considered high risk so I was scheduled to be induced at 37 weeks but my water broke at 36 weeks. I had a baby boy last year and he’s a healthy 8 month old. 💙
Being a Nurse Midwife. I can just reassure you, that even if you and your doctor do everything perfectly , stillbirths still happen. That being said, I am so, so sorry for your loss.
Being a nurse myself, when nurses and doctors say "your baby might just be sleeping" or something like that.. it's not being dismissive. You might've felt that way because you were worried but it's our jobs to try and reassure you and be positive also.
T Flores and so many times, baby is just sleeping. These terrible times aren’t as common as snoozing babies or babies in distress. I’m sure the statements she made about carelessness and people not knowing how to do their job is simply coming from a broken heart. Hopefully time will heal that.
Exactly. Imagine if they all went into a flurry and rushed around saying "I'm really concerned your baby might be dead" - you'd be panicking and crying and in shock for however long it would take to actually get a confirmed diagnosis and then to find out it was just sleeping! You can't do that to people, especially 40 week old people.
@@gma904 according to her statements, they said he was probably sleeping BEFORE they did the doppler and US. the medical staff did their job appropriately. it would have been very wrong to have unnecessarily upset and stressed a mother when sleeping could have still been an option at this point.
Exactly. You have to try to be reassuring. You can't just start saying, "Well your baby is possibly dead but we'll know for sure in a minute." Imagine the undue stress on those poor mom's whose babies are just sleeping.
Having worked in an ER, they act like it's just a regular day and no big deal on purpose, so you don't get more freaked out. At this point they didn't KNOW FOR SURE anything was wrong, and they didn't want to upset you until you did, even if the ultrasound tech suspected on her way in. I don't say this to make you upset, I say this because acting like it's no big deal, until you know for sure it is, can help patients stay calm on their worst days.
ParasaurolophusLovesCoffee I understand that they do that to help..but when I had a major bleed out at 10 weeks I went to the ER and the doctor told me right away that I was having a miscarriage...she also didn’t seem to know what she was doing as she told me my cervix was open. I had to wait three days thinking I was loosing my baby to be able to see my doctor first thing the next Monday morning...turns out I was bleeding due to a blood clot and my cervix was not open - my baby boy is now 11 months old I was not having a miscarriage. ERs are a nightmare and sometimes the detachment makes things worse.
I had a major bleed out at 13 weeks in the middle of the night while out of town - hubs was on the opposite coast. Had a great, empathetic ER nurse who said fetal heart tones sound great so go to the Ob tomorrow for ultrasound. All was well; that baby is now 10 years old.
... but it's not just a regular day for the parents. It's a traumatic, pivotal time. Acting like everything is fine is patronizing, and I can see why any mother would be offended, angry and upset over it.
I have had 12 miscarriages now. No children yet. I'm in pain daily with the knowledge I will likely never give birth but I am so very, very grateful I haven't ever got past the 2nd trimester. I cannot imagine your pain. I hope you find peace.
Lauren you will! I promise you. Trust and believe. You have the gift of fertility. I watched so many videos and did so much to overcome miscarriage. Reiki, acupuncture, diet. You won’t be the first person to overcome this experience and definitely not the last! I have a baby now! Thank God!! There is a book out there called Woman Code. It’s what to eat to bring you into balance. You need to after yourself that’s the first key and let go of the pain before. It’s easier than you think but the kind is had to escape! Wish you love. Don’t stay I. The dark but believe in yourself! Xx
laurenalrees I won’t say for sure you will have a baby, but you shouldn’t give up hope. And I personally dont ever want to be pregnant, but I understand those who do. Adoption is always a good idea, too. There’s so many children without a home out there.
You are not alone. Nov 2, 2017 my daughter Kalilah was born sleeping. Textbook pregnancy and then right at 40 weeks no heartbeat. I couldn’t believe my daughter was gone, I wanted her so bad and was so happy to be her mommy. I told my husband all the time I felt her personality from the womb! So glad to know I’m not crazy. It’s been almost 16 months and I still can’t believe it... but the pain gets a little bit easier to deal with everyday. It’s a roller coaster for sure, but I have grown so much because of her and I’m sure you have too. Braxton has such an amazing beautiful mother and he’s SO proud of you are you kidding? Ugh I wish we could be friends
Our stories are so similar ♥️I’m sorry you didn’t get to bring Kalilah home (I love that name).. I also felt like I knew Braxton’s personality, he always made me smile! He was our best friend, our first baby, and he just meant the world to us. A mother really bonds after spending every single second with her baby for 9 months. Hugs to you ♥️♥️♥️
This has my crying! I have 5 kids, and in 2010 I lost a twin baby girl at 23 weeks, they sewed my cervix shut and my baby boy survived. I never stop giving thanks for him but I never stopped grieving my baby girl, people tell me to count my blessings that I have other kids but it never stops hurting, yes it gets easier because we learn to live with that pain, and it hurts me still. And I agree, babies do have a personality since the womb, and their sleeping patterns, they are born with a preference at which times they sleep and play. I wish you ladies had never had to go through this. I whole heartedly do. It’s a pain like no other. That’s why there’s this saying, when a child loses their mother their called orphans, a spouse their partner their called widow(we) but what do you call a parent who lost a child? There are no words to describe it. 😭😭😭😭
August 31 will be 13 years since I've lost my Baby Daniel. I was 35.4wks pregnant. I didn't find out the reason why he was a stillborn until I was pregnant with my last Alexander in 2017. My doctor told me that hellp syndrome due to not being diagnosed with preeclampsia. My blood became toxic and that affected baby Daniel. Six months after I lost him I got pregnant with my first rainbow baby Donivan he's now 11. I had 16 miscarriages between Donivan and Alexander he's now 15months the year before I had Alexander I had a missed miscarriage (miscarried at 6wks and carried baby until 12wks) Donivan and Alexander are my Rainbows after my storms. I did tie my tubes during my csection with Alexander because of the high-risk factor I have during pregnancies. Some days are better than others. We celebrate baby Daniel's Birthday every year and that has helped me so much with staying positive. #IAm1In4 #BabiesBornSleeping #SleepingAngels #YouAreNotAlone ❤️ Olympia from New Mexico
@@rachelosborne5982 yes 16 it was devastating for me and my family. And finally in 2017 I got my sticky bean Alexander and he was my healthiest and last pregnancy. I'm forever grateful for the two boys that I have.
You were blessed to carry Braxton for those 40 weeks, you’ll always be his mommy and just remember he loves you as much as you love him. One day you’ll get to hold him and never let go. Much love to you 💛
I will start nursing school next year. Thank you for sharing your story- I will learn from it so that I can be more helpful and more supportive if I encounter a patient in the same horrific situation you were in.
i miscarried 2 times, it was horrible. i’m a very young mom, 17, but as much as that hurt, i can not fathom losing a child at 40 weeks. and even though he’s gone, you ARE a mother. you ARE his mother. ♥️
C H no. the first time was 3 months after i turned 16, but i don’t wanna talk about it bc of the circumstances it was under... i go pregnant by my boyfriend like 5 months after that but miscarried then got pregnant again and we had a baby. we’re married now.
I genuinely want to tell all the mums out there who’ve been through this I’m so so so sorry for your loss. I can’t even begin to imagine. You’re so strong.
I hope you get a diagnosis. Babies in utero or any human for that matter don't die for no reason. There has to be a cause. Undiagnosed pre eclampsia, an umbilical incident, an undiagnosed genetic anomaly, etc. For your own peace of mind I hope you push for information. You need to know!!
She was probably farther along than the doctor's thought but you can visually see the placenta changes after delivery and see the calcification so, they should have been able to see the placenta failure...if that was the case.
Tonya Copeland-Stone sometimes there’s “non threatening” calcifications that happen after 37weeks and if she did have some, maybe they probably thought it was nothing and it could’ve potentially been the cause for the fetal demise?
Braxton opened up a door for you, TH-cam. You’re able to come on here and share your story which is absolutely heartbreaking but it helps other mommas know they aren’t going through this alone and it helps you cope and keep your babies name on forever. You and your family are in my prayers girl, I can’t say how sorry I am for your loss but I can just tell God is going to grant you a good one. With love, Brenna. xo
As women it's a powerful thing when we come together and share our stories. That's when we can support, learn, laugh, love, grieve and grow with each other making the world not such a big place.
I lost my twin boys at 22 weeks and my doctor was bawling when he said they had passed. He had been through a lot with us as we struggled with infertility for years and then ended up conceiving our boys completely naturally. It’s been over 23 years and it still aches. We have 13 beautiful children now about it still hurts. Their due date was October 10. My heart aches for you mama❤️❤️
This is heart breaking and beautiful. Did you adopt/foster? I can't imagine going through fertility issues for years and then still going on to have 13 biological children, doesn't seem like there would be time. but congratulations on your big family!
As a midwife my heart breaks for you. I always told to my patients to be alert of baby's movements that's the key of the last weeks of pregnancy. Hugs for you
Desiree Cordova this is kind of a shitty comment. You might not mean it this way but it 100% sounds like you’re placing the blame on her for not ‘being alert’ of her baby’s movements. Chose your words more carefully
No I wasn't giving the blame on her because she was a were of the movements I only say us as professionals should give more attention about the education of movements... I never blame her at all
What I wonder is, even if you get to the hospital as soon as you don't feel movement....are they going to do a C sec and resuscitation?! Seems like they don't resuscitate these babies that are term. I don't fully understand.
Those hating on her for being angry at the doctors show no respect. I would feel the same way “if only they induced me” “if only they did this” “if only” give her time please
I completely understand her loss and how hard it is to cope right now but i think that understanding that this is the way it was meant to be will help her get through this time a lot easier than simply considering "what ifs". Most times, stillbirths happen and there's nothing the doctor could have done to prevent it.
I understand your pain. When they told me those horrible words”theirs no heartbeat “ it felt like I had been stabbed in the heart I felt a huge pressure in my heart/chest I scream and kicked my dad and brother had to hold me down in the bed my husband was at work 2 hrs away. That day I died and I became a different person. I see life and things in a whole different way 👼💙😭
Tianna_D’AndresMommy I know the pain in the heart all too well, unfortunately. It is actual pain, like a part of my heart broke. I got pregnant too soon after my first loss & ended up losing my second exactly 9months (to the day) from my first. It was that horrible pain all over again. I went crazy for awhile after. It’s honestly all a blur. I pray no one has to go through that pain & anguish. But life is not fair & none of us that have gone through this are alone.
You are still Braxton’s mom, just I am still mom to my two, Natalie & Gracien. From one broken hearted mama to another, I’m so very sorry you’ve gone through this. 😢
I'm 38 and at the beginning of my first (and only) pregnancy. I can't even imagine going through this but thank you for sharing your story, pain, and strength!
@@JamieAug ehrm i was really just curious and didn't mean to upset anyone but you also didn't have to react that way it's a question she can either answer or ignore
I had stillborn twins who had heartbeats at a ultrasound 2 days before their hearts stopped beating. Feel free to contact me and we can talk. I’m so sorry.
Vlasta Barac it’s a terribly feeling that unless you’ve been through it you can’t even begin to understand. I completely understand everything she’s feeling. ❤️
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I had a miscarriage march 2017, almost lost my own life, it was my first pregnancy 10 weeks along, and twins at that I never even got to have my first appointment. I never laid eyes on the children god needed back, I was only told by the dr who helped me in the er what was happening💔 I got pregnant again july 2017 with a set of twin girls they were born february 2018 at only 32 weeks. They are now happy healthy 1 year olds❤ There are rainbows after the storm❤ Stay strong you got this❤
Two sets of twins in a row, I think maybe God decided your darling girls just weren't ready for the big wide world yet... He took them back for a little bit but finally gave them to you when it was the right time. They were waiting for you just as much as you were waiting for them! Much love!
This is totally heart breaking. I’m so sorry for your loss. My son was born after 9 days of labor, had to be resuscitated in the OR and had a 5 day NICU stay. I had to beg for a cesarean after 30 hours of pitocin and 9 days of full strength contractions (I kept getting turned away from L&D because my contractions were 7-9 minutes apart, but were excruciating and consistent for 9 days). My son was in distress and they were still reluctant because they don’t like to do “unnecessary procedures” I feel so lucky to have my baby here today, but the doctors and hospital were so dismissive. They put my son at risk every hour that they let me labor, despite my sons heart rate dropping every few minutes. Thanks for sharing your story. No one likes to talk about the bad things that can happen and when your pregnant, it can be so anxiety inducing. It’s terrifying. It does happen though, unfortunately.
My OB made the call to do a c section after almost 24 hours of Pitocin because she was afraid I would bleed out if I kept going on it. I'm so glad she did because my daughter was coming down at an angle and there was no way to know that until she was out of me. I don't know what would have happened if my OB hadn't made the call and I'm glad I never had to find out.
Watching this video as I'm holding my 3 month old son. Makes me realize how blessed I am. I'm sorry for your loss. You will have your rainbow baby. God bless.
I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine your pain. I can tell you as an RN myself, we may seem too calm or like we aren't taking things seriously, but for our patients it's best to be calm and neutral. I would never give a patient false hope, and I would also never show my fear, and trust me, it's there in any situation like yours. I hope that gives you some comfort that those nurses probably cared but were trying to be calm for you, even though I can't speak for them. Again, I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful boy.
Not alone, my sister passed away from a stillbirth 10 months ago at 34 weeks and I miss her a ton and it’s rlly hard I’m here for u♥️ My moms story is extremely similar 🙏🏼
My first son was born sleeping I was 30 years old no signs nothing he passed it’s 16 years this year my heart still broken even though I went on to have my savior Alex my jp will always be my first born ❤️ god bless you please take one day at a time
I was crying the whole time with you and then started sobbing harder when you said the nurse grabbed your hand and told you about the heart beat and then your husband grabbed you. Thank you for being so strong and sharing this. I can see how hard it is but I know it's helping a lot of other women out there.
Your history is so similar to mine!! The first time I watched this video give me chills. We lost Kenia at 39 weeks and I miss her desperately but I'm sure we will meet in heaven again. Sending you lots of love and kisses. Eres una super mama y Braxton esta muy orgulloso de ti.
I’m 8 weeks pregnant diagnosed with a threatened miscarriage. I know it’s harder to have a stillbirth and go through the entire pregnancy but the pain watching this video. I’m crying my eyes out hoping my baby makes it. I’m so sorry you lost your son❤️ you’re a wonderful mother!
I lost my baby at 8 weeks ..that was my worst night mare and very painful, I cried my lost baby for yrs ..until something inside me told me to let my little angel rip ..it still hurts alottt , but i know God wants me to let him or her keep his little 🕯 on.After loosing my pregnancy I got pregnant right away my precious daughter gaved me the strength to be strong and bring her to this world. I wish I could've been alarmed sooner ..but everything went so spontaneous that after hearing baby heart beat a day before ..Next day around 8 am my bleedimg didn't stop and received the worst news THERE WAS NO HEART BEAT ANYMORE PRAYERS GOING YOUR WAY.FOR A HEALTHY PREGNANCY TAKE CARE .TRY TO REST THE BEST YOU CAN AND STAY POSITIVE .. 👶👶👶👶👶👶 Remeber always have faith Lots of prayers for a healthy pregnancy ..you can do it and 👶 too. Stay strong
d n I am so sorry you lost a little angel! I have an ultrasound Monday to see if baby still has a heartbeat but I haven’t bleed in 4 days. I only bled once. It’s different for everyone though :( thank you for your encouragement! I appreciate that.
If I walked into a hospital and the doctors started telling me all the things that could be wrong before they knew for sure, I’d walk out. No reason to stress a mother out until facts are known. I know this wasn’t the case for you (and it breaks my heart) but chances a baby is fine is greater than chances that they aren’t. Imagine being on the other side. If your baby is fine and they come in telling you all the things it could be and it ends up being nothing. Hospital staff must remain neutral and always be reassuring.
lisa Timmons was just about to comment the same thing, I think the staff was just trying to reassure her & make her feel better. I wouldn’t want to hear negative things as I’m walking in thinking something is wrong.
Yo perdí a mi bebé hace unos años , y recuerdo está tristeza que tenía , nadie me entendía ni mi propio esposo , sentía que todos eran indiferentes y la única con dolor era yo. Y recuerdo estar sola en ese tiempo, al menos así lo sentía . El año pasado logré quedar embarazada ( ya que no había podido ) y por fin quedé embarazada , hoy tengo a mi bebé en brazos de 9 meses de edad y me pongo a pensar en la edad de mi primer bebé , aún lo extraño y lo amo demaciado , no quiero olvidarlo nunca
I started crying 45 seconds in. My heart goes out to you for making this video❤ as I watched, these doctors and nurses definitely needed to have more of a sense of urgency. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Big big hugs to you! This happened to me as well. My water broke at 38 weeks and we went immediately to the hospital all excited only to be told the exact same thing...no heartbeat. I was in active labor and could not comprehend what they were telling me. I had to give birth and I thought my daughter would come out kicking and screaming and peoving them all wrong. But no. Most devastating thing that has ever happened to me. I honestly did not know how the sun could have risen that next morning. Or why my heart could beat on and not my daughter's. It's been 6 years and I've never fully talked about it. Bless you for sharing your story. Sending you love
I’ve been where you are. I had to spend the night in labor and delivery and the next morning I went in for a DNC and came out empty. In recovery I could hear the babies, the giggling, proud moms and relatives… At that moment I just felt cold resentment because I didn’t have that. Our baby girl was due November 8 but I was only halfway through my pregnancy. I could not even imagine going to term. However, that same November that she was due we found out we were expecting twins. The following March 18 we had identical twin boys, Jacob and Jordan, 100% healthy. I was dreading the month of November because it was the one year anniversary of my dad passing, and he was my hero. NOW, in the same month that I was dreading my dad‘s anniversary, I had to dread the anniversary coming up of her due date, as well. Even though November had been a double loss it wound up being a double blessing, found in just a flicker of hope. Never lose your faith But never forget Braxton. Please just remember… There is always a rainbow 🌈 after the rain. I’m so sorry...💔
Debra Pena they put me in a different unit, one with no babies, due to me completely losing it after my DNC. My dr knew I wouldn’t have been to mentally or emotionally handle hearing babies crying or making any noise. I am so sorry for your loss.
I had a stillborn on January 15th of this year, by far the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. I hated seeing my husband so upset, but I’m so glad he was there with me through it all. My daughter, Penelope Rose, had bilateral MCDK & potters syndrome. there was no amniotic fluid for her to practice breathing to develop her lungs because she had no bladder or kidney function so she just ingested all of the amniotic fluid and couldn’t replenish it. I couldn’t imagine the pain of going through a normal pregnancy and then having your baby pass away without knowing anything went wrong. I knew my diagnosis would have a 99% chance of the outcome not being good and it was still SO hard. I’m praying for you and hope the pain eases with time, I feel for you. 💗
I lost my daughter Nialah at 20 weeks pregnant due to my cervix opening. She lived for about 2 hours. I felt her heartbeat and physically saw it beating through her chest, felt her breathing. Literally the worst pain in the worst when there was nothing you can do to save your baby😪 I completely understand how you feel, and i dont wish this on anyone else.
There is nothing as hard as losing your child whether they are 2 hours old or 23 years old as in my case. The love you feel is instant and immovable. xx
My daughter too. At 21 weeks she came due to a weak cervix and I didnt know I had a weak one. This happened last April. Im now pregnant with my 2nd daughter and got a cerclage. Ill never forget my 1st baby tho of course
You're so brave for doing this video. As a Mother of a daughter in heaven, I want to tell you that you are loved and your baby is an angel. Rest in peace, sweet Braxton 💙
Don’t ever feel like you shouldn’t let yourself cry. Cry as much as you possibly need, dont ever take that away from yourself. You’re a beautiful mother and you guys will join each other again someday to make up for the lost time💖
I'm 12 and most don't think I'd understand but my mum wouldn't be alive if her brother wasn't still born and I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for him so we celebrate him
Wow Poppy you have great understanding and and what a lovely message to pass on. I have a twelve year old boy who wouldn’t be here if I hadn’t miscarried his older sister. Everything does happen for a reason even if we don’t see it at first.
I’m a new mom, my baby was thankfully born healthy after I was induced at 39 weeks for personal reasons. I can’t imagine what you are going through but you are very much in my prayers. Thank you for sharing your story. You are beyond strong and so beautiful. I think it’s great that you are documenting this, your son is definitely looking down at you proudly and lovingly. Stay strong momma!
Being pregnant and hearing your story breaks my heart. So sorry for you mama💙 but I’m so happy for your new pregnancy, and praying for a strong healthy baby! God bless you guys!
I had toxemia with my son at 32 weeks he was due January 28th and I had him December 4th thank goodness I had my dr appointment that day my blood pressure was 186/127 I had no signs I didn’t feel anything . They delivered my son within a hour of failing to bring it down. They told me my son and I both could die if they don’t get him out . I believe all women should watch their vitals at home daily you can buy a blood pressure cuff a oxygen monitor a heart rate monitor at Walmart . Like I said I felt no different that day I had zero signs my pressure was that high. I am so sorry for your loss I couldn’t imagine your pain and I hope god comforts you in this time of healing.
It’s not that they didn’t care but being in the health care industry you see so many worried mamas come in and nothing is wrong they can find a heartbeat with a Doppler and if it’s an earlier pregnancy then if they can’t find it they do the ultrasound... My heart goes out to you and your husband...
And I will add that a Mom who commented is right.. when I was ready to get pregnant again it happened so fast for me, my son is a blessing. I struggled throughout my pregnancy because I had a constant fear that any little pain or discomfort I felt was a miscarriage happening. I also remember telling a nurse where she could stick it when she told me I didnt need to visit the ER or L&D unless I was bleeding. When or if you and Jason decide to have another baby, God will bless you two times over. I had meth addicted parents, almost all my siblings were born high like I was. It's not fair that women who actually take care of their pregnancies loose their babies.. and drug addicts/alcoholics often have healthy babies.. but I dont want to offend anyone. God bless
Doctors and healtcare workers will never tell you if something is going unconfirmed bad. And it's good that way. Panic and shock is not something a patient needs on top when things go terribly wrong. It's important to stay calm and not feed into the patients anxiety. You call it dismissive, but that's often not what it is.. I am sorry for your loss. Your picture series video was very beautiful.
I had a missed miscarriage last month. Everything was going perfect. Went in for what I thought was a UTI at 11 weeks to only find out my baby had no heart beat anymore and baby stopped growing at 9 weeks. I still cry & it still hurts me. I can’t imagine what it feels to go full term. My prayers to you & your family.
I had my daughter when i was 21. The cord was around her neck 3 times her heart rate decreased and i had to stop pushing and they ended up having to cut me to save her.
am a medical student going for my final exam..and i have obstetric as my subject.. GOSH after this am just super motivated to be a better doctor so i can just do my best to prevent whats happened with you... God give u strength and you be blessed with another baby
I lost my baby 5 days ago. She was still born at 36+3 after a completely healthy baby and 2 previous healthy born babies. I understand everything that you stated in this video! ❤️
I’m so sorry for your loss...😔 back in 2000 I was pregnant of my know 19 year old ... I remember that day on July 10 2000 I went to the emergency room early in the morning because my baby wasn’t moving as he would long story short they wanted to send me home and they told me I was ok and that the baby was ok and that I was just hyperventilating myself so I told the DOCTORS LOOK something is Wrong my baby is not moving as he does I feel like I can’t breathe and this is not normal if you guys send me home and if anything happens to my baby I will MAKE you guys responsible after I said that they kept me there they made an ultrasound they said OK his heart beats ARE little slow so we’re going to go ahead and induce you I was in labor and I couldn’t give birth because his cord was around his neck They have to vacuum him out when I was in labor and delivery I was pushing so hard and the baby wouldn’t come out because the cord around his neck the cord around my baby’s neck wouldn’t let him come ‼️ if I wouldn’t of stayed that day in the hospital and told nurses and doctors if anything happened to me they were going to be responsible my baby would’ve passed because the cord was around his neck ‼️ I just want to say something to all those moms If you mommy’s feel somethings IS wrong as soon as you do feel somethings wrong please go to the emergency room make sure you let them know you’re there and it’s an emergency have them look at everything heartbeat everything and make sure your babies are OK DOCTORS SOMETIMES DONT GIVE A FK ABOUT PEOPLE unless you put your feet down and tell them to take an EXTRA STEP TO CHECK!!!!
I am so so sorry about what happened to you and your husband; that kind of pain might be the worst emotional pain a human could ever experience. To give you a little bit of peace of mind, routine OBGYN appointments for a healthy, low risk pregnancy are usually just like you described and of your pregnancy is going smoothly it’s definitely safer to wait for you to get into labor naturally. I was with my SIL when she had a late miscarriage; I accompanied her through the worst moments of her life, held her hand when she got her epidural and took the pictures of her, my BIL and their tiny little baby. I tell you this because, now that she has gotten to the point where she can talk about that day, she seems to remember things a lot differently. Of course, she was in pain and I know (being in the medical field myself) when someone goes through and experience like this and you are the person who delivers the horrible news, when you are the one who is next to them through the worst day of their lives, they might subconsciously blame you and even hate you. That’s totally normal, we all cope differently. My SIL talks about her horrible interaction with the medical staff that day and I can testify how sweet, thoughtful and careful they were towards both my SIL and BIL. My BIL remembers the same.
This is my BIGGEST fear now. Im 25 weeks and healthy... But i know it could be a possibility. But i just pray to God everyday that he brings my son to my arms safe and sound 💙 so sorry to hear about your son. This is hard to listen to.
Brittany Stotts pls whatever you do... do NOT get the tdap vaccine the OBGYN will recommend around 35 weeks. Pls do your research. Begin at www.learntherisk.org
I think some doctors and nurses seem dismissive because they’re not trying To make you worried or scared. The patient doesn’t need any added stress to the situation. They acting worry will only make it worse. With that being said I’m so sorry about your loss I can’t even imagine your pain. It is easier to speak when one is not in that position so I apologize . I will keep you in my prayers momma . 🙏🏼
This experience is devastating for you. But this experience already shows how strong you are. Your video already is helping other people acknowledge their pain. Perhaps you should consider Midwifery because you will now have total empathy for the fear mummies feel and be able to reach out to them whatever the outcome is for them. This may be Braxton’s legacy for you - to push you to help others in distress. I’ve seen the ultrasound that looks completely different and had the exact same message about the heartbeat. I had the exact same reaction. I felt every emotion you felt. It is like a bad dream. But you will get through this. I promise. Sending you a hug.
Oh how I can relate to that outer body experience. I lost my 1st daughter at 20 weeks to trisomy 18. I was at my anatomy ultrasound. I remember the dr scanning my belly... Completly silent. Then he said... Step into my office... Everything after thst was a blur. I remember him telling me what had hapoened but it was like i waa dreaming. His voice was 1000 miles away. I left his Office that day and sat in the car w my husband and I just cried... Why me? I remember yelling why me so loudly. I had a D&E. This happened in 2011. January 16, 2019.... I had my second baby girl... Born at 36 weeks @ 9lbs 1oz and 20&1/2" long!!
My story is so similar to yours. I lost my 1st daughter in 2010 when I was 34 weeks. She too had Trisomy 18. And it was undetected until one of my last ultrasound. And I remember the nurse becoming quite and had a very serious look on her face. She tried to stay positive but I knew something was wrong that’s when my Dr. broke the news to me. I was 30 weeks when I found out, but I delivered her at 34 weeks. A few years later I had my second daughter on January 15th 2013. She’s now 6 years old!!!
You are quite possibly the strongest person I have ever had the honor of hearing about. Your son would be so proud of you, so proud to call you his mother, for bringing this kind of information to people who know nothing about it and turning such a tragedy into a way to educate future mothers. You have such a fighting spirit, and I pray for you and your husband to find nothing but love and happiness on your path ❤️❤️
I seriously can't stop crying with you towards the end when you mentioned they didnt find a heartbeat 💔. Reminds me of when they told me they couldn't find a heartbeat. I too was shook. It was a nightmare. Your so beautiful. May God be with you and your family ❤❤❤ From Australia xxx
I watched the video time lapse of your beautiful pregnancy, photos with your husband and all before this video and can't stop crying. I'm going through postpartum depression and seem to always have my mind else where.... I'm a stay at home mom... I haven't cried so hard since my mother's passing.... and reading these comments... I can't imagine anything more cruel than my son being ripped from me in such a way. You remind me to hold my baby much MUCH closer, much tighter, kiss him more, cherish his laugh. Those photos of your baby... I seriously can't handle it... that could've been my son. I get to touch his feet his hands, his lips move, see his eyes.... everything I take for granted... even the cries inthe night I'm BLESSED to hear... I'm ashamed of myself. I ask my son to sit still... I don't think I ever could again. I'm so so sorry....i can't say I'm sorry enough. My heart is ripped from my chest for you.... and these commenters that have had to live past this. My son let out a wail when he started breathing finally after not moving for a minute on his table ... I head sat up waiting and crying... I was so relieved I'd screamed out and cried harder. Doctors thought i was in pain trying to ask where I hurt... I looked at them and all I could say was he's beautiful, he's perfect.... I need to remember that.... I love you, I'm so so so sorry and thank you for making me hold my son tighter. I hope you and your husband heal together and bring many children happily and healthily into our world... and I hope we have the privilege to see them 💚💙❤
I am laying down with my 1 year old sleeping next to me and I cannot stop crying because I cannot imagine my life without her. My heart is hurting so much right now and I cannot imagine the pain you must be going through. I am so sorry for your loss 😭 RIP little Braxton 👼🏻
I’m really looking forward to your second video. I think it’s important to spread awareness especially if it could give other women important knowledge. I’m so sorry for your loss:( I’m 28 weeks pregnant and I stress about this every single day
I know how you feel, I lost 2 babies before and it still breaks my heart. R.i.p to your baby, sorry for your loss. I am currently 23 weeks pregnant and I couldn't imagine losing my baby boy
My still birth was at 37 weeks in September 2004 years later, I always hold my little angel in my heart n memories. Everything happened the same for me except I screamed and cried and everything went black when they showed me his heart wasn’t beating, til this day I’m seeing a counselor due the trauma it had on me but I could tell you time heals, keep strong.
I just want to hug all of you who have lost your babies. I had an early miscarriage over a year ago...and that was so tough. It really was. But to carry a baby to term and not going home with that baby, it just breaks me for you all. It's beautiful to see so many women come together and hold each other up during difficult times. Some very strong and beautiful mommas.💜💜
This had me in tears. My daughter should be turning five on April the 7th. I to went in for decreased movement. My daughter had a heartbeat so we were sent home. Not even 24 hours later I was back because she still wasn’t moving. She still had a heartbeat. While there her heartbeat dropped and they rushed me back for an emergency c-s. She passed seconds before they could get her out. I was a first time mom as well. Suffered infertility for 3 years. I felt so many of the same emotions you shared. I kept telling my husband this was all a dream. I couldn’t stop saying “This is a joke.” Let me see my daughter. Wake me up! It was the worst day of my life. I am so sorry you lost your sweet Braxton. It’s so unfair. First time moms are NEVER TAKEN SERIOUSLY. Prayers to you.
I lost my daughter Amelia at 41 weeks after several years of infertility and ivf so I understand your pain. I am so sorry for your loss. Did you ever conceive again? My Amelia would have been 3 months right now. It's excruciatingly painful and everyday is so hard living without her. I just pray that one day is not so painful.
I feel like you shouldn’t take it personal when the doctor told you everything should be fine. Why? Because they are doctors and the last thing they want to say is “oh mam, by the way your baby has is ____”. See you also need to understand that they want to be positive and think positive. Because when I went to ER 3 weeks before I was due, my doctor said “I’ll send you there so they can take more test and everything is going to be okay”. They don’t want to send you off feeling worried or anything. I hope you understand.. and Braxton he’s in a good place. 👼🏼
I remember, when I was younger my mom used to call me her little miracle and I just thought it was sweet until I got older and I asked her why she called me that. She told me that when I born, Doctors thought I was a stillborn because when my mom gave birth to me I wasn’t breathing. My mom had recently lost a baby boy before me so losing me was gonna be really hard on her. Doctors said I wasn’t gonna start breathing until about 5 minutes later, I started crying.. I am so thankful to be here today
When she said “and the nurse said ‘your baby doesn’t have a heartbeat’” I got chills and I started crying so hard. I’m so sorry for your loss. I won’t say it ever will ever get better but it’ll get lighter, you’ll be okay. I’m sorry ❤️
“Right before I turned 30” OMG I though you were at most 21. So sorry for your loss mama
Jennifer Lopez same I had to rewind because I thought I heard wrong I thought she was like 23
Yea! She looks amazing wow thought she was definitely early 20s
Jennifer Lopez your fine 🤤
I thought she said 13... so sorry for your loss☹️
30 isn't old lol
My dr actually cried with us when he told us our.daughter had no heartbeat.
Im so so sorry
Im so sorry i hope everything gets better
I started sobbing after reading your comment
Erika Nyberg I’m sorry for your loss. After the doctor told me there was no heartbeat, we were walking over to the front to get me a d&c appt. while doing that he was asking other people how their vacation went. I was so upset.. I’m glad that didn’t happen to you
Erika Nyberg 🙏🏼
when my mother had her stillborn baby the nurse told her that she liked to believe that stillborn babies went to the mothers in heaven who died during childbirth, this gave my mum some peace at mind knowing she was being looked after
That's a really nice thought!
kirralea lindbeck That’s such a lovely thought. Also I’m very sorry for your loss, my mom had a stillborn on Mother’s Day 2014 and it was only this year that I’ve truly begun to heal from that experience of losing my baby sister.
kirralea lindbeck in my religion, the stillborn baby waits for his/her parents at the gate of heaven, so all three can enter heaven together.
As a nurse myself, this is such a lovely thought. I wish I could use it.
Pari K what religion is that?
Literally started crying when she said her husband was saying “I’m so sorry I’m so sorry.......” 😭😭
Avery S same, just at the same time 💔 brakes my heart
@Kai Wong breaks not brakes ??? Why point out something like that after watching such a heart breaking video....dickheads like you really piss me off acting like the grammar police on youtube ....
That’s when I lost it myself. Currently 36 weeks pregnant with my babyboy 💔
mine said that too and then he left me divorced me because we both self destructed he was the love of my life and i lost them both
When she was talking about how some moms smoke and drink yet they still get to take home their babies, I felt that in my heart. I had 5 miscarriages and my ex friend ended up getting pregnant. She was doing drugs, drinking, and smoking. I couldn’t understand how me doing everything right, I lost my baby multiple times and she just got to walk out of the hospital months later with hers. It does suck a lot but hey I’m now 3 days away from being 20 weeks pregnant and nothing bad has happened yet!
A. I pray your baby goes full term in Jesus name Selah.❤️🙏🏾
Nikki Nikki thank you and I hope so too! She’s super healthy and nothing is wrong with her. I’m now 21 weeks going on 22 weeks.
How is your baby now?
A. God bless your pregnancy ❤️💙 I’m 10 days away from meeting my little man x
JustApotatoFace She’s doing amazing! I’m 28 weeks pregnant and it’s going by so fast! She’s always kicking me though and everything hurts. 😂
Anyone who’s upset at her for blaming the doctors need to think about how she’s feeling right now. If my doctor said they wouldn’t induce me for 10 days after my due date and my child passes before the doctor will “allow” me to be induced then yes, I am going to blame the doctor. My doctor did ultra sounds every single appointment for the last 6 weeks. He even gave me 3d pictures at every visit after 25 weeks. The appointments were in depth, he was kind, he cared about me and my child. I was induced at 39 weeks and I can’t imagine had my doctor not allowed it and my son hadn’t made it. So no, the doctor didn’t kill her child, it isn’t “his fault” but it makes complete sense why she would speak as if he was partly to blame.
But hey, lets make rude comments to a woman who is uploading this to spread awareness and bring comfort to other women who have had to deal with this.
I completely agree
I’m really confused why no non-stress test was done before then?! The doctor clearly didn’t see how Braxton was handling the end of the pregnancy. If he had enough room, enough fluid, how his heart was, etc. :(
Jahlen Johnson there’s lot more risks in being induced , but ten days after due date I never heard unless it’s by Doulas/midwives they wait up to two weeks. Usually all my Obgyns say to wait at least 41 weeks before being induced. 41+10 is usually normal when women go into labor can be long time. And stop comparing your doctor to allow 39 weeks is not normal. Unless something is going on. I have 3 little ones and never my OBGYNs said for 39 weeks they said no way . They wait until 41 week mark
Jahlen Johnson i have a friend who is an attorney specializing in malpractice and damage cases. She has had several cases won that were similar to this one - if there is the slightest risk to the baby after week 32 doctors need to really consider constant monitoring and quick c section. If a baby starts having trouble after week 32 an emergency c section delivers them within minutes (hard on the mother and risk of injuries to her especially bladder and such organs being hurt) and a planned c section takes 20 minutes of having the baby out (plus double the time to stitch the mother back up ). Planned c sections well done are the lowest risk delivery for baby and mother. The problem is doctors - they can supervise multiple deliveries at a time where they don’t do surgery(money factor) where you need at least two doctors fully involved for c section (surgeon and anaesthesiologist). Also mothers not neutrally educated frequently romanticize „natural“ childbirth. That s not their fault it s what society tells us. Truth is in nature a large number of infant dies for all species. Because their is no other way in nature. If women knew that with c section even before the due date a lot of the babies lost could have lived and if our medical system respected this and bore the additional costs for surgery instead of natural midwife supervised delivery many babies could have lived.
She is completely right to be angry at the doctors . Again, c section starting from week 32 in case of trouble and after week 36 in any case statistically is the safest way to bring the baby to life and avoid any perinatal damage (that is also far too frequent if mother and/or doctors insist on the natural way even though the baby is coming under pressure ).
where is the second part of this video ??
I had a miscarriage in 2015 and became pregnant with my second child in August of 2016. Gave birth in May 2017. You will have a rainbow baby.
¥oshi Xo i lost a baby at 23 weeks(placenta issues) and I had a 32 weeker in May 2017. She’s my mircale baby, I did over 10 weeks of hospital bed rest and her heart stopped three times and then for some god given miracle as they were doing the ultrasound it picked up again, it was such a beautiful sound and they delivered me at the 32 weeks because of he safety. I feel so blessed. I pray she gets her mircale too! 😭😭😭
gosh. our stories are so alike. I too had a miscarriage i 2015 and became pregnant in 2016...giving birth to my rainbow son i July 2017. still thinking about my sweetheart.
I miscarried in november at 6 weeks, I'm currently 10 weeks pregnant with a strong heartbeat... fingers crossed.
What does rainbow baby mean?
Briana D hope everything goes well and you have a safe pregnancy and a healthy baby
I ended up going into labour on my own after 40wks but after 2 days of no progress and my son and i going into distress emergency c-section had to be done. My son was not born alive but thankfully he was revived. He's now 21yrs old and I couldn't imagine him not being in my life. So sorry for your loss and I hope beyond hope that your rainbow baby comes into your life soon.
Crystal Rusmisel so he was alive?
Julia Arnold
He was born with no heartbeat, but they were able to revive him(get his heart beating again). So, he wasn’t alive, but now he is.
That's what happened to me. I was 38 pregnant with my lil girl and I had to go for a non stress test and her heartbeat was 140 but the dr wanted her to be move active so her heart rate would go up n down it did a lil but my baby Dr came in and said I would induce her labor but that would put stress on the baby so i said is there a chance I could have her today the dr said yes there getting the or ready now and should be about within the hour I'm like OMG she was 5.5 17inches long Now she's 6.12 19inches long she goes to the dr on september 13th for her 2 month old check up.
Jayne Noche having no heartbeat doesn’t mean your dead
My 1st daughter was born sleeping.it was her 31st birthday yesterday.i have 2 other beautiful daughters 19 and 21.your angel will be watching over you.bless you 💖
TheInternet Sucks That’s a horrible thing to say
@@allidoiscry4119 then don't exist
@@helentrofimova1444 yea I know. Finding the courage to just commit suicide is difficult. Not because life is great but because our brains are stupid.
TheInternet Sucks holy shit! I actually had to re-read that three times cause I couldn’t believe what I just read. You are the imbecile I’ve ever seen in my entire life! I sincerely hope you don’t have any children, and if you do I hope cps takes them away from you.. you lowlife troll!
TheInternet Sucks please let me know how you are. I have shared feelings of wanting to not be here anymore. I am thankful every day, I never made that choice.
My first pregnancy was a stillbirth 4 years ago at 39 weeks and it was a healthy pregnancy too. I did get pregnant again and it was considered high risk so I was scheduled to be induced at 37 weeks but my water broke at 36 weeks. I had a baby boy last year and he’s a healthy 8 month old. 💙
Hope Eyer congratulations!
Praise god!! Congrats on that blessing.
Excellent comment. Happy ending... positivity in a dark place. As mothers, we can only continue striving.
Congratulations and also sorry for your other baby. Just know they are watching over you in heaven
Rainbow baby ❤️
Being a Nurse Midwife. I can just reassure you, that even if you and your doctor do everything perfectly , stillbirths still happen. That being said, I am so, so sorry for your loss.
Patti Achilly that is so true, it’s so unpredictable
xoalishaxo And unfortunately many times there are no answers even with autopsy.
Patti Achilly I agree
Yes. Thank you. I understand she's angry and hurting but no one could have done anything
Why say anything. So rude!
Being a nurse myself, when nurses and doctors say "your baby might just be sleeping" or something like that.. it's not being dismissive. You might've felt that way because you were worried but it's our jobs to try and reassure you and be positive also.
T Flores and so many times, baby is just sleeping. These terrible times aren’t as common as snoozing babies or babies in distress.
I’m sure the statements she made about carelessness and people not knowing how to do their job is simply coming from a broken heart. Hopefully time will heal that.
Exactly. Imagine if they all went into a flurry and rushed around saying "I'm really concerned your baby might be dead" - you'd be panicking and crying and in shock for however long it would take to actually get a confirmed diagnosis and then to find out it was just sleeping! You can't do that to people, especially 40 week old people.
There is clearly still a heart beat when a baby's asleep. It does not help to lie.
@@gma904 according to her statements, they said he was probably sleeping BEFORE they did the doppler and US. the medical staff did their job appropriately. it would have been very wrong to have unnecessarily upset and stressed a mother when sleeping could have still been an option at this point.
Exactly. You have to try to be reassuring. You can't just start saying, "Well your baby is possibly dead but we'll know for sure in a minute." Imagine the undue stress on those poor mom's whose babies are just sleeping.
Having worked in an ER, they act like it's just a regular day and no big deal on purpose, so you don't get more freaked out. At this point they didn't KNOW FOR SURE anything was wrong, and they didn't want to upset you until you did, even if the ultrasound tech suspected on her way in.
I don't say this to make you upset, I say this because acting like it's no big deal, until you know for sure it is, can help patients stay calm on their worst days.
ParasaurolophusLovesCoffee yes, or everyone in healthcare would be so burned out and depressed
I understand, but us moms want nurses to understand our worries and not pretend it’s a regular day .
ParasaurolophusLovesCoffee I understand that they do that to help..but when I had a major bleed out at 10 weeks I went to the ER and the doctor told me right away that I was having a miscarriage...she also didn’t seem to know what she was doing as she told me my cervix was open. I had to wait three days thinking I was loosing my baby to be able to see my doctor first thing the next Monday morning...turns out I was bleeding due to a blood clot and my cervix was not open - my baby boy is now 11 months old I was not having a miscarriage. ERs are a nightmare and sometimes the detachment makes things worse.
I had a major bleed out at 13 weeks in the middle of the night while out of town - hubs was on the opposite coast. Had a great, empathetic ER nurse who said fetal heart tones sound great so go to the Ob tomorrow for ultrasound. All was well; that baby is now 10 years old.
... but it's not just a regular day for the parents. It's a traumatic, pivotal time. Acting like everything is fine is patronizing, and I can see why any mother would be offended, angry and upset over it.
I have had 12 miscarriages now. No children yet. I'm in pain daily with the knowledge I will likely never give birth but I am so very, very grateful I haven't ever got past the 2nd trimester. I cannot imagine your pain. I hope you find peace.
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Lauren you will! I promise you. Trust and believe.
You have the gift of fertility. I watched so many videos and did so much to overcome miscarriage.
Reiki, acupuncture, diet. You won’t be the first person to overcome this experience and definitely not the last!
I have a baby now! Thank God!!
There is a book out there called Woman Code. It’s what to eat to bring you into balance.
You need to after yourself that’s the first key and let go of the pain before.
It’s easier than you think but the kind is had to escape!
Wish you love. Don’t stay I. The dark but believe in yourself! Xx
It will happen for you I’m sure! Please don’t lose hope. ❤️❤️
laurenalrees I won’t say for sure you will have a baby, but you shouldn’t give up hope. And I personally dont ever want to be pregnant, but I understand those who do. Adoption is always a good idea, too. There’s so many children without a home out there.
You never know what is around the corner 💐
I could never be an ultra sound tech and see a still born baby. I would start crying before saying anything💔😢
Vanessa Lopez 😿
When you are full term, 40 weeks plus, you are seen by a Radiologist, which is an MD. Not a tech.
You are not alone. Nov 2, 2017 my daughter Kalilah was born sleeping. Textbook pregnancy and then right at 40 weeks no heartbeat. I couldn’t believe my daughter was gone, I wanted her so bad and was so happy to be her mommy. I told my husband all the time I felt her personality from the womb! So glad to know I’m not crazy. It’s been almost 16 months and I still can’t believe it... but the pain gets a little bit easier to deal with everyday. It’s a roller coaster for sure, but I have grown so much because of her and I’m sure you have too. Braxton has such an amazing beautiful mother and he’s SO proud of you are you kidding? Ugh I wish we could be friends
NeyaDee kalilah is such a unique, pretty name
Our stories are so similar ♥️I’m sorry you didn’t get to bring Kalilah home (I love that name).. I also felt like I knew Braxton’s personality, he always made me smile! He was our best friend, our first baby, and he just meant the world to us. A mother really bonds after spending every single second with her baby for 9 months. Hugs to you ♥️♥️♥️
This has my crying! I have 5 kids, and in 2010 I lost a twin baby girl at 23 weeks, they sewed my cervix shut and my baby boy survived. I never stop giving thanks for him but I never stopped grieving my baby girl, people tell me to count my blessings that I have other kids but it never stops hurting, yes it gets easier because we learn to live with that pain, and it hurts me still. And I agree, babies do have a personality since the womb, and their sleeping patterns, they are born with a preference at which times they sleep and play. I wish you ladies had never had to go through this. I whole heartedly do. It’s a pain like no other. That’s why there’s this saying, when a child loses their mother their called orphans, a spouse their partner their called widow(we) but what do you call a parent who lost a child? There are no words to describe it.
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Tee S I was not. You should check out my stillbirth story on my channel as well
i’m so sorry❤️
August 31 will be 13 years since I've lost my Baby Daniel. I was 35.4wks pregnant. I didn't find out the reason why he was a stillborn until I was pregnant with my last Alexander in 2017. My doctor told me that hellp syndrome due to not being diagnosed with preeclampsia. My blood became toxic and that affected baby Daniel. Six months after I lost him I got pregnant with my first rainbow baby Donivan he's now 11. I had 16 miscarriages between Donivan and Alexander he's now 15months the year before I had Alexander I had a missed miscarriage (miscarried at 6wks and carried baby until 12wks) Donivan and Alexander are my Rainbows after my storms. I did tie my tubes during my csection with Alexander because of the high-risk factor I have during pregnancies. Some days are better than others. We celebrate baby Daniel's Birthday every year and that has helped me so much with staying positive.
#IAm1In4 #BabiesBornSleeping #SleepingAngels #YouAreNotAlone
❤️ Olympia from New Mexico
Did you say 16 as in six-teen? Oh my that's terrible. I'm so sorry.
Olympia Padilla love loveee thisss
@@rachelosborne5982 yes 16 it was devastating for me and my family. And finally in 2017 I got my sticky bean Alexander and he was my healthiest and last pregnancy. I'm forever grateful for the two boys that I have.
Olympia Padilla my heart really go’s out to u in your family I’m praying u make it threw❤️❤️❤️❤️😢😢😔
I’m so sorry for your loss your so strong 💪
You were blessed to carry Braxton for those 40 weeks, you’ll always be his mommy and just remember he loves you as much as you love him. One day you’ll get to hold him and never let go. Much love to you 💛
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I will start nursing school next year. Thank you for sharing your story- I will learn from it so that I can be more helpful and more supportive if I encounter a patient in the same horrific situation you were in.
Your baby knows you. He knows you are a good mom. He will always be with you.
Lots of hugs for you, sweetie.
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I can’t thank you enough for being brave enough to share Braxton with us. It’s so unimaginable the pain and loss you both must feel.
i miscarried 2 times, it was horrible. i’m a very young mom, 17, but as much as that hurt, i can not fathom losing a child at 40 weeks. and even though he’s gone, you ARE a mother. you ARE his mother. ♥️
C H no. the first time was 3 months after i turned 16, but i don’t wanna talk about it bc of the circumstances it was under... i go pregnant by my boyfriend like 5 months after that but miscarried then got pregnant again and we had a baby. we’re married now.
Hope you’re doing ok 💕
My heart is broken for you. Your son will always, always be with you. God bless you, love.
That's a beautiful way to respond to tragedy!!
Right after you turned 30??? U look like ur in ur super early 20s omg
Is this really important right now?
@@saraheberle3311 oh fuck sakes, Susan. Relax. It's a compliment
Amanda Stephine - haha! Love it.
@@amandastephine6697 Who is Susan?
@@saraheberle3311 it's a joke
I genuinely want to tell all the mums out there who’ve been through this I’m so so so sorry for your loss. I can’t even begin to imagine. You’re so strong.
I hope you get a diagnosis. Babies in utero or any human for that matter don't die for no reason. There has to be a cause. Undiagnosed pre eclampsia, an umbilical incident, an undiagnosed genetic anomaly, etc. For your own peace of mind I hope you push for information. You need to know!!
Fern Viking he was in the womb for too long the placenta starts failing at 40 weeks
@@imperfectpretice20 but this happened the day after her due date so she was still at 40 weeks.
Her placenta probably failed
She was probably farther along than the doctor's thought but you can visually see the placenta changes after delivery and see the calcification so, they should have been able to see the placenta failure...if that was the case.
Tonya Copeland-Stone sometimes there’s “non threatening” calcifications that happen after 37weeks and if she did have some, maybe they probably thought it was nothing and it could’ve potentially been the cause for the fetal demise?
I’m pregnant rn and I would be so hurt if this happened to me 😔😢 you’re so strong ❤️
Oh congratulations 🖤🖤🖤 dont worry just get check ups s lot
Alissa Taylor thanks babe ❤️
Same.. 27w 5d. Praying for our babies💗
Same im scared this would happen to me 😭
god bless you and your baby, and mamas 💗.
Braxton opened up a door for you, TH-cam. You’re able to come on here and share your story which is absolutely heartbreaking but it helps other mommas know they aren’t going through this alone and it helps you cope and keep your babies name on forever. You and your family are in my prayers girl, I can’t say how sorry I am for your loss but I can just tell God is going to grant you a good one.
With love, Brenna. xo
brenna af yess girl there’s many mother who make it big this helps them so much
She needs to watch the agulairs if I spelled it right they are awesome she lost her youngest son to cancer
As women it's a powerful thing when we come together and share our stories. That's when we can support, learn, laugh, love, grieve and grow with each other making the world not such a big place.
I lost my twin boys at 22 weeks and my doctor was bawling when he said they had passed. He had been through a lot with us as we struggled with infertility for years and then ended up conceiving our boys completely naturally. It’s been over 23 years and it still aches. We have 13 beautiful children now about it still hurts. Their due date was October 10. My heart aches for you mama❤️❤️
This is heart breaking and beautiful. Did you adopt/foster? I can't imagine going through fertility issues for years and then still going on to have 13 biological children, doesn't seem like there would be time. but congratulations on your big family!
As a midwife my heart breaks for you. I always told to my patients to be alert of baby's movements that's the key of the last weeks of pregnancy. Hugs for you
sounds like she was pretty alert about it to me.
Desiree Cordova this is kind of a shitty comment. You might not mean it this way but it 100% sounds like you’re placing the blame on her for not ‘being alert’ of her baby’s movements. Chose your words more carefully
No I wasn't giving the blame on her because she was a were of the movements I only say us as professionals should give more attention about the education of movements... I never blame her at all
What I wonder is, even if you get to the hospital as soon as you don't feel movement....are they going to do a C sec and resuscitation?! Seems like they don't resuscitate these babies that are term. I don't fully understand.
Those hating on her for being angry at the doctors show no respect. I would feel the same way “if only they induced me” “if only they did this” “if only” give her time please
I completely understand her loss and how hard it is to cope right now but i think that understanding that this is the way it was meant to be will help her get through this time a lot easier than simply considering "what ifs". Most times, stillbirths happen and there's nothing the doctor could have done to prevent it.
Saraxalison thx 🙏 so true
You've got a precious rainbow angel baby watching over you 24/7. Thoughts and prayers for you, momma. You're so very strong!
I understand your pain. When they told me those horrible words”theirs no heartbeat “ it felt like I had been stabbed in the heart I felt a huge pressure in my heart/chest I scream and kicked my dad and brother had to hold me down in the bed my husband was at work 2 hrs away. That day I died and I became a different person. I see life and things in a whole different way 👼💙😭
Tianna_D’AndresMommy I know the pain in the heart all too well, unfortunately. It is actual pain, like a part of my heart broke. I got pregnant too soon after my first loss & ended up losing my second exactly 9months (to the day) from my first. It was that horrible pain all over again. I went crazy for awhile after. It’s honestly all a blur. I pray no one has to go through that pain & anguish. But life is not fair & none of us that have gone through this are alone.
Jenna Frazier So sorry for your loss. No one should have to go through this ever. 😭
You are still Braxton’s mom, just I am still mom to my two, Natalie & Gracien. From one broken hearted mama to another, I’m so very sorry you’ve gone through this. 😢
I'm 38 and at the beginning of my first (and only) pregnancy. I can't even imagine going through this but thank you for sharing your story, pain, and strength!
Why your only one?
@@Chenxaaa Why not her only one? It's none of your business. It's none of anyone's business.
@@JamieAug ehrm i was really just curious and didn't mean to upset anyone but you also didn't have to react that way it's a question she can either answer or ignore
@@Chenxaaa Yes, I see what you mean.
How are you going with your pregnancy? I'm 40 and have had 5 pregnancies, but this is the furthest I've gone. Now 6 months
I had stillborn twins who had heartbeats at a ultrasound 2 days before their hearts stopped beating. Feel free to contact me and we can talk. I’m so sorry.
Oh my God!😕🙏🏻
Vlasta Barac it’s a terribly feeling that unless you’ve been through it you can’t even begin to understand. I completely understand everything she’s feeling. ❤️
I completely understand her too
I went through a lot when I had a stillborn few weeks ago and still recovering from it
Tshimangadzo Mavhungu OMGOSH! I am SO sorry! Truly!!! My heart breaks for you.
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The pain etched on your face really touches my heart. So sorry.
I had a miscarriage march 2017, almost lost my own life, it was my first pregnancy 10 weeks along, and twins at that I never even got to have my first appointment. I never laid eyes on the children god needed back, I was only told by the dr who helped me in the er what was happening💔 I got pregnant again july 2017 with a set of twin girls they were born february 2018 at only 32 weeks. They are now happy healthy 1 year olds❤
There are rainbows after the storm❤
Stay strong you got this❤
Two sets of twins in a row, I think maybe God decided your darling girls just weren't ready for the big wide world yet... He took them back for a little bit but finally gave them to you when it was the right time. They were waiting for you just as much as you were waiting for them! Much love!
This is totally heart breaking. I’m so sorry for your loss.
My son was born after 9 days of labor, had to be resuscitated in the OR and had a 5 day NICU stay. I had to beg for a cesarean after 30 hours of pitocin and 9 days of full strength contractions (I kept getting turned away from L&D because my contractions were 7-9 minutes apart, but were excruciating and consistent for 9 days). My son was in distress and they were still reluctant because they don’t like to do “unnecessary procedures”
I feel so lucky to have my baby here today, but the doctors and hospital were so dismissive. They put my son at risk every hour that they let me labor, despite my sons heart rate dropping every few minutes.
Thanks for sharing your story. No one likes to talk about the bad things that can happen and when your pregnant, it can be so anxiety inducing. It’s terrifying. It does happen though, unfortunately.
Omg you shouldve gone to another hospital I am glad it worked out
My OB made the call to do a c section after almost 24 hours of Pitocin because she was afraid I would bleed out if I kept going on it. I'm so glad she did because my daughter was coming down at an angle and there was no way to know that until she was out of me. I don't know what would have happened if my OB hadn't made the call and I'm glad I never had to find out.
Watching this video as I'm holding my 3 month old son. Makes me realize how blessed I am. I'm sorry for your loss. You will have your rainbow baby. God bless.
I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine your pain.
I can tell you as an RN myself, we may seem too calm or like we aren't taking things seriously, but for our patients it's best to be calm and neutral. I would never give a patient false hope, and I would also never show my fear, and trust me, it's there in any situation like yours. I hope that gives you some comfort that those nurses probably cared but were trying to be calm for you, even though I can't speak for them.
Again, I'm so sorry for the loss of your beautiful boy.
Not alone, my sister passed away from a stillbirth 10 months ago at 34 weeks and I miss her a ton and it’s rlly hard I’m here for u♥️
My moms story is extremely similar 🙏🏼
My first son was born sleeping I was 30 years old no signs nothing he passed it’s 16 years this year my heart still broken even though I went on to have my savior Alex my jp will always be my first born ❤️ god bless you please take one day at a time
😔💔 from one mom to another, I'm sorry for the pain you have to go through
i’m so sorry:(❤️
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I was crying the whole time with you and then started sobbing harder when you said the nurse grabbed your hand and told you about the heart beat and then your husband grabbed you. Thank you for being so strong and sharing this. I can see how hard it is but I know it's helping a lot of other women out there.
Your history is so similar to mine!! The first time I watched this video give me chills. We lost Kenia at 39 weeks and I miss her desperately but I'm sure we will meet in heaven again. Sending you lots of love and kisses. Eres una super mama y Braxton esta muy orgulloso de ti.
Yo perdí al mío a la 31 SDG. I lost my baby boy at 31 weeks. He was my first baby :(
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So sorry for your loss 😔
I’m 8 weeks pregnant diagnosed with a threatened miscarriage. I know it’s harder to have a stillbirth and go through the entire pregnancy but the pain watching this video. I’m crying my eyes out hoping my baby makes it. I’m so sorry you lost your son❤️ you’re a wonderful mother!
I lost my baby at 8 weeks ..that was my worst night mare and very painful, I cried my lost baby for yrs ..until something inside me told me to let my little angel rip ..it still hurts alottt , but i know God wants me to let him or her keep his little 🕯 on.After loosing my pregnancy I got pregnant right away my precious daughter gaved me the strength to be strong and bring her to this world.
I wish I could've been alarmed sooner ..but everything went so spontaneous that after hearing baby heart beat a day before ..Next day around 8 am my bleedimg didn't stop and received the worst news THERE WAS NO HEART BEAT ANYMORE
PRAYERS GOING YOUR WAY.FOR A HEALTHY PREGNANCY
TAKE CARE .TRY TO REST THE BEST YOU CAN AND STAY POSITIVE ..
👶👶👶👶👶👶
Remeber always have faith
Lots of prayers for a healthy pregnancy ..you can do it and 👶 too. Stay strong
d n I am so sorry you lost a little angel! I have an ultrasound Monday to see if baby still has a heartbeat but I haven’t bleed in 4 days. I only bled once. It’s different for everyone though :( thank you for your encouragement! I appreciate that.
@@hannahcollins732
You are very welcome ..praying for a healthy heart beat, god is good 💖😇
Hannah Collins I pray ur baby comes out ok and healthy 🙏🙏
Praying 🙏🏼❤️
If I walked into a hospital and the doctors started telling me all the things that could be wrong before they knew for sure, I’d walk out. No reason to stress a mother out until facts are known. I know this wasn’t the case for you (and it breaks my heart) but chances a baby is fine is greater than chances that they aren’t. Imagine being on the other side. If your baby is fine and they come in telling you all the things it could be and it ends up being nothing. Hospital staff must remain neutral and always be reassuring.
lisa Timmons was just about to comment the same thing, I think the staff was just trying to reassure her & make her feel better. I wouldn’t want to hear negative things as I’m walking in thinking something is wrong.
I was about to commemt the same. Doctors are supposed to reassure you and keep u calm. No one benefits from a panicking patient
also can’t the mothers stress really hurt and effect the baby and make it worse if there is something wrong and the baby is hurt?
Yo perdí a mi bebé hace unos años , y recuerdo está tristeza que tenía , nadie me entendía ni mi propio esposo , sentía que todos eran indiferentes y la única con dolor era yo. Y recuerdo estar sola en ese tiempo, al menos así lo sentía .
El año pasado logré quedar embarazada ( ya que no había podido ) y por fin quedé embarazada , hoy tengo a mi bebé en brazos de 9 meses de edad y me pongo a pensar en la edad de mi primer bebé , aún lo extraño y lo amo demaciado , no quiero olvidarlo nunca
Pamela Muños 😩😭😭😢
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I started crying 45 seconds in. My heart goes out to you for making this video❤ as I watched, these doctors and nurses definitely needed to have more of a sense of urgency. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Big big hugs to you! This happened to me as well. My water broke at 38 weeks and we went immediately to the hospital all excited only to be told the exact same thing...no heartbeat. I was in active labor and could not comprehend what they were telling me. I had to give birth and I thought my daughter would come out kicking and screaming and peoving them all wrong. But no. Most devastating thing that has ever happened to me. I honestly did not know how the sun could have risen that next morning. Or why my heart could beat on and not my daughter's. It's been 6 years and I've never fully talked about it. Bless you for sharing your story. Sending you love
I’ve been where you are. I had to spend the night in labor and delivery and the next morning I went in for a DNC and came out empty. In recovery I could hear the babies, the giggling, proud moms and relatives… At that moment I just felt cold resentment because I didn’t have that. Our baby girl was due November 8 but I was only halfway through my pregnancy. I could not even imagine going to term. However, that same November that she was due we found out we were expecting twins. The following March 18 we had identical twin boys, Jacob and Jordan, 100% healthy. I was dreading the month of November because it was the one year anniversary of my dad passing, and he was my hero. NOW, in the same month that I was dreading my dad‘s anniversary, I had to dread the anniversary coming up of her due date, as well. Even though November had been a double loss it wound up being a double blessing, found in just a flicker of hope. Never lose your faith But never forget Braxton. Please just remember… There is always a rainbow 🌈 after the rain. I’m so sorry...💔
Debra Pena they put me in a different unit, one with no babies, due to me completely losing it after my DNC. My dr knew I wouldn’t have been to mentally or emotionally handle hearing babies crying or making any noise. I am so sorry for your loss.
Jenna Frazier just hold on... 🙏🏼
I had a stillborn on January 15th of this year, by far the hardest thing I have ever had to go through. I hated seeing my husband so upset, but I’m so glad he was there with me through it all.
My daughter, Penelope Rose, had bilateral MCDK & potters syndrome. there was no amniotic fluid for her to practice breathing to develop her lungs because she had no bladder or kidney function so she just ingested all of the amniotic fluid and couldn’t replenish it. I couldn’t imagine the pain of going through a normal pregnancy and then having your baby pass away without knowing anything went wrong. I knew my diagnosis would have a 99% chance of the outcome not being good and it was still SO hard.
I’m praying for you and hope the pain eases with time, I feel for you. 💗
I lost my daughter Nialah at 20 weeks pregnant due to my cervix opening. She lived for about 2 hours. I felt her heartbeat and physically saw it beating through her chest, felt her breathing. Literally the worst pain in the worst when there was nothing you can do to save your baby😪 I completely understand how you feel, and i dont wish this on anyone else.
melanie yagual Sorry for your loss🤧.
melanie yagual so so sorry for ur loss☹️
There is nothing as hard as losing your child whether they are 2 hours old or 23 years old as in my case. The love you feel is instant and immovable. xx
melanie yagual wow momma that’s hard I can’t imagine I’m so sorry and I pray for healing never forget the strong baby you have
My daughter too. At 21 weeks she came due to a weak cervix and I didnt know I had a weak one. This happened last April. Im now pregnant with my 2nd daughter and got a cerclage. Ill never forget my 1st baby tho of course
You're so brave for doing this video. As a Mother of a daughter in heaven, I want to tell you that you are loved and your baby is an angel. Rest in peace, sweet Braxton 💙
Don’t ever feel like you shouldn’t let yourself cry. Cry as much as you possibly need, dont ever take that away from yourself. You’re a beautiful mother and you guys will join each other again someday to make up for the lost time💖
Sorry for your lost girl u look so young to be 30 i thought you were like 21
I'm 12 and most don't think I'd understand but my mum wouldn't be alive if her brother wasn't still born and I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for him so we celebrate him
@Mandie Barajas your welcome x❤️
Wow Poppy you have great understanding and and what a lovely message to pass on. I have a twelve year old boy who wouldn’t be here if I hadn’t miscarried his older sister. Everything does happen for a reason even if we don’t see it at first.
eine super schöne Antwort, ich komme aus Deutschland. Aber genau so ist das Leben.
@@FrauleinWunderlich-rk4ro Vielen Dank für Ihren Kommentar
Same with me. I'm the youngest and my mom lost her first son. However if he hadn't passed, I wouldn't be here.
The 95 people who disliked this video have no heart.
maddie bliatout some people dislike it as in they don’t like what happened. At least you would hope. 😕
They probably disliked that the baby died
I think they disliked it because it is a sad situation and hop it doesn’t happen to everyone. But I prefer to comment to show I support her. So sad 😞
Gina Tafferty wtf is your problem sick idiot
It's their right to like or dislike
I’m a new mom, my baby was thankfully born healthy after I was induced at 39 weeks for personal reasons. I can’t imagine what you are going through but you are very much in my prayers. Thank you for sharing your story. You are beyond strong and so beautiful. I think it’s great that you are documenting this, your son is definitely looking down at you proudly and lovingly. Stay strong momma!
Being pregnant and hearing your story breaks my heart. So sorry for you mama💙 but I’m so happy for your new pregnancy, and praying for a strong healthy baby! God bless you guys!
I had toxemia with my son at 32 weeks he was due January 28th and I had him December 4th thank goodness I had my dr appointment that day my blood pressure was 186/127 I had no signs I didn’t feel anything . They delivered my son within a hour of failing to bring it down. They told me my son and I both could die if they don’t get him out . I believe all women should watch their vitals at home daily you can buy a blood pressure cuff a oxygen monitor a heart rate monitor at Walmart . Like I said I felt no different that day I had zero signs my pressure was that high. I am so sorry for your loss I couldn’t imagine your pain and I hope god comforts you in this time of healing.
Thank goodness you're both alright!
Do you mean preeclampsia? I had this with my first baby
They called it toxemia ....
Which if you google it it’s the same as preclampsia
Did you have another baby after
It’s not that they didn’t care but being in the health care industry you see so many worried mamas come in and nothing is wrong they can find a heartbeat with a Doppler and if it’s an earlier pregnancy then if they can’t find it they do the ultrasound... My heart goes out to you and your husband...
Thank you for sharing Braxton with us, he is truly a blessing. You’re such an amazing mommy and Braxton must be so proud of you 💙🐘
And I will add that a Mom who commented is right.. when I was ready to get pregnant again it happened so fast for me, my son is a blessing. I struggled throughout my pregnancy because I had a constant fear that any little pain or discomfort I felt was a miscarriage happening. I also remember telling a nurse where she could stick it when she told me I didnt need to visit the ER or L&D unless I was bleeding. When or if you and Jason decide to have another baby, God will bless you two times over. I had meth addicted parents, almost all my siblings were born high like I was. It's not fair that women who actually take care of their pregnancies loose their babies.. and drug addicts/alcoholics often have healthy babies.. but I dont want to offend anyone. God bless
Doctors and healtcare workers will never tell you if something is going unconfirmed bad. And it's good that way. Panic and shock is not something a patient needs on top when things go terribly wrong. It's important to stay calm and not feed into the patients anxiety. You call it dismissive, but that's often not what it is..
I am sorry for your loss. Your picture series video was very beautiful.
Agreed, some pretty negative bullshit about health care workers being propagated here.
I had a missed miscarriage last month. Everything was going perfect. Went in for what I thought was a UTI at 11 weeks to only find out my baby had no heart beat anymore and baby stopped growing at 9 weeks. I still cry & it still hurts me. I can’t imagine what it feels to go full term. My prayers to you & your family.
I had my daughter when i was 21. The cord was around her neck 3 times her heart rate decreased and i had to stop pushing and they ended up having to cut me to save her.
That's what happened to my mom when she had me.
I'm so sorry I cried with you! He's still with u I promise
am a medical student going for my final exam..and i have obstetric as my subject.. GOSH after this am just super motivated to be a better doctor so i can just do my best to prevent whats happened with you... God give u strength and you be blessed with another baby
Miss Nosey i’m a medical student as well! i hope i can have the ability to be the best i can be, you can do it too! good luck babe 💕
@@miilkywayy4064 thank you sweety alll the vest best
I lost my baby 5 days ago. She was still born at 36+3 after a completely healthy baby and 2 previous healthy born babies. I understand everything that you stated in this video! ❤️
Love to you and peace in your heart.
Love from a person who cares x
I’m so sorry this happened. Why does this happen ???
I’m so sorry for your loss...😔 back in 2000 I was pregnant of my know 19 year old ... I remember that day on July 10 2000 I went to the emergency room early in the morning because my baby wasn’t moving as he would long story short they wanted to send me home and they told me I was ok and that the baby was ok and that I was just hyperventilating myself so I told the DOCTORS LOOK something is Wrong my baby is not moving as he does I feel like I can’t breathe and this is not normal if you guys send me home and if anything happens to my baby I will MAKE you guys responsible after I said that they kept me there they made an ultrasound they said OK his heart beats ARE little slow so we’re going to go ahead and induce you I was in labor and I couldn’t give birth because his cord was around his neck They have to vacuum him out when I was in labor and delivery I was pushing so hard and the baby wouldn’t come out because the cord around his neck the cord around my baby’s neck wouldn’t let him come ‼️ if I wouldn’t of stayed that day in the hospital and told nurses and doctors if anything happened to me they were going to be responsible my baby would’ve passed because the cord was around his neck ‼️ I just want to say something to all those moms If you mommy’s feel somethings IS wrong as soon as you do feel somethings wrong please go to the emergency room make sure you let them know you’re there and it’s an emergency have them look at everything heartbeat everything and make sure your babies are OK DOCTORS SOMETIMES DONT GIVE A FK ABOUT PEOPLE unless you put your feet down and tell them to take an EXTRA STEP TO CHECK!!!!
I am so so sorry about what happened to you and your husband; that kind of pain might be the worst emotional pain a human could ever experience.
To give you a little bit of peace of mind, routine OBGYN appointments for a healthy, low risk pregnancy are usually just like you described and of your pregnancy is going smoothly it’s definitely safer to wait for you to get into labor naturally.
I was with my SIL when she had a late miscarriage; I accompanied her through the worst moments of her life, held her hand when she got her epidural and took the pictures of her, my BIL and their tiny little baby. I tell you this because, now that she has gotten to the point where she can talk about that day, she seems to remember things a lot differently. Of course, she was in pain and I know (being in the medical field myself) when someone goes through and experience like this and you are the person who delivers the horrible news, when you are the one who is next to them through the worst day of their lives, they might subconsciously blame you and even hate you. That’s totally normal, we all cope differently. My SIL talks about her horrible interaction with the medical staff that day and I can testify how sweet, thoughtful and careful they were towards both my SIL and BIL. My BIL remembers the same.
This is my BIGGEST fear now. Im 25 weeks and healthy... But i know it could be a possibility. But i just pray to God everyday that he brings my son to my arms safe and sound 💙 so sorry to hear about your son. This is hard to listen to.
Brittany Stotts pls whatever you do... do NOT get the tdap vaccine the OBGYN will recommend around 35 weeks. Pls do your research. Begin at www.learntherisk.org
Do not get vaccines during your pregnancy mama! No matter what doc says DONT! they were never tested for safety but they can swell babies brain.
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M Savage yes thank you!
gizzy momi thank you for sharing! I try to share awareness as much as I can!
You are strong... He will come from heaven to you again .... Stay strong!!!!!! CUZ that happened to me in 2017 and he came back to me in 2019 !!!!
What do you mean that he came back to you?
I broke down when she asked her husband to wake her up.
I think some doctors and nurses seem dismissive because they’re not trying
To make you worried or scared. The patient doesn’t need any added stress to the situation. They acting worry will only make it worse. With that being said I’m so sorry about your loss I can’t even imagine your pain. It is easier to speak when one is not in that position so I apologize . I will keep you in my prayers momma . 🙏🏼
This experience is devastating for you. But this experience already shows how strong you are. Your video already is helping other people acknowledge their pain. Perhaps you should consider Midwifery because you will now have total empathy for the fear mummies feel and be able to reach out to them whatever the outcome is for them. This may be Braxton’s legacy for you - to push you to help others in distress. I’ve seen the ultrasound that looks completely different and had the exact same message about the heartbeat. I had the exact same reaction. I felt every emotion you felt. It is like a bad dream. But you will get through this. I promise. Sending you a hug.
Oh how I can relate to that outer body experience.
I lost my 1st daughter at 20 weeks to trisomy 18. I was at my anatomy ultrasound. I remember the dr scanning my belly... Completly silent. Then he said... Step into my office... Everything after thst was a blur. I remember him telling me what had hapoened but it was like i waa dreaming. His voice was 1000 miles away. I left his Office that day and sat in the car w my husband and I just cried... Why me? I remember yelling why me so loudly. I had a D&E. This happened in 2011.
January 16, 2019.... I had my second baby girl... Born at 36 weeks @ 9lbs 1oz and 20&1/2" long!!
My story is so similar to yours. I lost my 1st daughter in 2010 when I was 34 weeks. She too had Trisomy 18. And it was undetected until one of my last ultrasound. And I remember the nurse becoming quite and had a very serious look on her face. She tried to stay positive but I knew something was wrong that’s when my Dr. broke the news to me. I was 30 weeks when I found out, but I delivered her at 34 weeks. A few years later I had my second daughter on January 15th 2013. She’s now 6 years old!!!
You are quite possibly the strongest person I have ever had the honor of hearing about. Your son would be so proud of you, so proud to call you his mother, for bringing this kind of information to people who know nothing about it and turning such a tragedy into a way to educate future mothers. You have such a fighting spirit, and I pray for you and your husband to find nothing but love and happiness on your path ❤️❤️
What a compassionate Nurse to have held your hand, while giving you the bad news.
I seriously can't stop crying with you towards the end when you mentioned they didnt find a heartbeat 💔. Reminds me of when they told me they couldn't find a heartbeat. I too was shook. It was a nightmare. Your so beautiful. May God be with you and your family ❤❤❤ From Australia xxx
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I watched the video time lapse of your beautiful pregnancy, photos with your husband and all before this video and can't stop crying. I'm going through postpartum depression and seem to always have my mind else where.... I'm a stay at home mom... I haven't cried so hard since my mother's passing.... and reading these comments... I can't imagine anything more cruel than my son being ripped from me in such a way. You remind me to hold my baby much MUCH closer, much tighter, kiss him more, cherish his laugh. Those photos of your baby... I seriously can't handle it... that could've been my son. I get to touch his feet his hands, his lips move, see his eyes.... everything I take for granted... even the cries inthe night I'm BLESSED to hear... I'm ashamed of myself. I ask my son to sit still... I don't think I ever could again. I'm so so sorry....i can't say I'm sorry enough. My heart is ripped from my chest for you.... and these commenters that have had to live past this. My son let out a wail when he started breathing finally after not moving for a minute on his table ... I head sat up waiting and crying... I was so relieved I'd screamed out and cried harder. Doctors thought i was in pain trying to ask where I hurt... I looked at them and all I could say was he's beautiful, he's perfect.... I need to remember that.... I love you, I'm so so so sorry and thank you for making me hold my son tighter. I hope you and your husband heal together and bring many children happily and healthily into our world... and I hope we have the privilege to see them 💚💙❤
So sorry for your loss. Currently going through a loss of my own.. I lost my son a week ago 24 hours after my best friend lost her son ❤️👼🏼👼🏼👼🏼
Raising our littles sorry about your loss ☹️
Miriam Prendez thank you x
I’m so sorry, I just subscribed... I actually subscribed to your friend’s channel about a week ago and well ♥️
Felly - Still Braxton’s Mama thank you lovely, we all have to stick together x
God is near to the broken-hearted. Bless you Sis.
You don't know me but I am sending you lots of love and strength. I hope you have a beautiful life
I am laying down with my 1 year old sleeping next to me and I cannot stop crying because I cannot imagine my life without her. My heart is hurting so much right now and I cannot imagine the pain you must be going through. I am so sorry for your loss 😭
RIP little Braxton 👼🏻
I’m really looking forward to your second video. I think it’s important to spread awareness especially if it could give other women important knowledge. I’m so sorry for your loss:( I’m 28 weeks pregnant and I stress about this every single day
I know how you feel, I lost 2 babies before and it still breaks my heart. R.i.p to your baby, sorry for your loss. I am currently 23 weeks pregnant and I couldn't imagine losing my baby boy
My still birth was at 37 weeks in September 2004 years later, I always hold my little angel in my heart n memories. Everything happened the same for me except I screamed and cried and everything went black when they showed me his heart wasn’t beating, til this day I’m seeing a counselor due the trauma it had on me but I could tell you time heals, keep strong.
Holy shit I'm bawling 😭 This is so damn sad, but you're going to be an amazing mother some day I just know it❤️
Okay, I'm crying for you. No one should have to go through this pain😭😭😭 You will be reunited in the end.
My daughter is kicking while watching this ❤️ you’re so strong momma, I’ll be praying for you 🙏🏻☹️
Sometimes you can do everything right and things will still go wrong~Rip Braxton💕
I just want to hug all of you who have lost your babies.
I had an early miscarriage over a year ago...and that was so tough. It really was.
But to carry a baby to term and not going home with that baby, it just breaks me for you all.
It's beautiful to see so many women come together and hold each other up during difficult times.
Some very strong and beautiful mommas.💜💜
This had me in tears. My daughter should be turning five on April the 7th. I to went in for decreased movement. My daughter had a heartbeat so we were sent home. Not even 24 hours later I was back because she still wasn’t moving. She still had a heartbeat. While there her heartbeat dropped and they rushed me back for an emergency c-s. She passed seconds before they could get her out. I was a first time mom as well. Suffered infertility for 3 years. I felt so many of the same emotions you shared. I kept telling my husband this was all a dream. I couldn’t stop saying “This is a joke.” Let me see my daughter. Wake me up! It was the worst day of my life. I am so sorry you lost your sweet Braxton. It’s so unfair. First time moms are NEVER TAKEN SERIOUSLY. Prayers to you.
I lost my daughter Amelia at 41 weeks after several years of infertility and ivf so I understand your pain. I am so sorry for your loss. Did you ever conceive again? My Amelia would have been 3 months right now. It's excruciatingly painful and everyday is so hard living without her. I just pray that one day is not so painful.
I feel like you shouldn’t take it personal when the doctor told you everything should be fine. Why? Because they are doctors and the last thing they want to say is “oh mam, by the way your baby has is ____”. See you also need to understand that they want to be positive and think positive. Because when I went to ER 3 weeks before I was due, my doctor said “I’ll send you there so they can take more test and everything is going to be okay”. They don’t want to send you off feeling worried or anything. I hope you understand.. and Braxton he’s in a good place. 👼🏼
I remember, when I was younger my mom used to call me her little miracle and I just thought it was sweet until I got older and I asked her why she called me that. She told me that when I born, Doctors thought I was a stillborn because when my mom gave birth to me I wasn’t breathing. My mom had recently lost a baby boy before me so losing me was gonna be really hard on her. Doctors said I wasn’t gonna start breathing until about 5 minutes later, I started crying.. I am so thankful to be here today
The same thing happened to me 14 years ago. My baby had no heartbeat 😪 I now have 2 healthy baby girls. I feel your pain 💔
When she said “and the nurse said ‘your baby doesn’t have a heartbeat’” I got chills and I started crying so hard. I’m so sorry for your loss. I won’t say it ever will ever get better but it’ll get lighter, you’ll be okay. I’m sorry ❤️
I'm so sorry for your loss mama 😭 I’m 31 weeks + 6 days, expecting December 26th 2023 & having my first baby boy 🩵👶🏻