Light After Dark w/ Calum Von Moger | The Lift Lab Podcast

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  • @jamalmaxwell2790
    @jamalmaxwell2790 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +120

    For Calum to go through what he did and still be here positive and transparent is a blessing

    • @nicowins
      @nicowins 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Its just inner strenght. I went through same shiet

    • @xBDE
      @xBDE 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I mean it's not, it's because he's still a crackhead and he's broke. Also you people will still buy into his shit, guy has had like 8 second chances now.

    • @DethrowDestruction
      @DethrowDestruction 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      it's all faked for social media which is kind of sad coz i wouldn't be surprised if he's still struggling inside

    • @Getfked
      @Getfked 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@DethrowDestruction the struggle never stops. thats life

    • @dr1cksfn290
      @dr1cksfn290 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      @@DethrowDestruction I really hope he's feeling better

  • @Thewow9430
    @Thewow9430 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +180

    man i prayed for this guy everyday when he was going through it. its really nice to see him doing so well, calum motivated me to start lifting seems like 8n years ago now lol. GLad your doing well mate

    • @robbienl8176
      @robbienl8176 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      You did a good thing 👍

    • @Themilkman95
      @Themilkman95 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      I guessed your prayers were answered!

    • @AnhNguyen-hn9vj
      @AnhNguyen-hn9vj 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      man. the only guy i see, well at least my own opinion, still look buff for olympic competition after laying in hospital for months.

  • @garrett4585
    @garrett4585 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    As a guy who's also recently sober, this message really hit home to me. Calum is such a light. We need him now more than ever. Onwards and upwards

  • @justin.n.currie
    @justin.n.currie 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +86

    Yes, my favorite bodybuilder started a podcast!!

  • @nathangrimberg5989
    @nathangrimberg5989 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +26

    Calum has always been my favourite bodybuilder. Got dealt one of the roughest hands I’ve ever seen and he got back out there. That kind of resilience is so rare. Always keeping you in my prayers man.

    • @nathanc777
      @nathanc777 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

      Does it count as getting dealt a rough hand if you deal it to yourself? His injuries, accidents, legal troubles, and addictions were all due to decisions he made. That said I'm glad he's doing well and in a better spot.

    • @craigeastway8177
      @craigeastway8177 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Weeee

    • @CodyBunker
      @CodyBunker 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

      ​@@nathanc777 yes because life is incredibly difficult and no one does things perfectly

  • @Uppaah
    @Uppaah 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +51

    Key Timestamps
    00:00: Introduction to the first episode of Lift Lab with Calum Von Moger.
    01:20: Discussion about Hawaii’s weather and seasons.
    02:40: Calum talks about his recent trip to the Australian Fit Expo.
    05:50: Reflecting on personal and professional challenges during the pandemic.
    07:55: Calum’s experience with bodybuilding workshops and reconnecting with friends.
    12:30: Discussion on the importance of social connections post-pandemic.
    15:30: Calum shares his injuries and recovery process.
    20:15: Calum’s near-death experience while rock climbing.
    28:40: Insights into Calum’s mental health struggles and the role of his family in his recovery.
    35:10: The impact of social media on mental health and public perception.
    41:00: Calum’s experience with drugs and alcohol and his decision to go to rehab.
    45:30: Recovery process and support from friends and family.

  • @Kenpbe
    @Kenpbe 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +24

    I’m very proud of you, Calum. I’ve followed you since the Mad Desire days. You’ve grown from a child to man, in which to get there you had to make many sacrifices. But, that is what makes a man. Bravo, I’m cheering for you!
    Love from a fellow lifter in Denmark

    • @lorcanhalton6748
      @lorcanhalton6748 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

      His physique in Mad Desire is in my opinion one of the best of all time.

    • @evinscanlon2944
      @evinscanlon2944 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

      What a chune too

  • @jamesfreeman648
    @jamesfreeman648 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    This video gave me goosebumps. So happy the OG is back. Don’t go missing again. Rebuild yourself, remove the tattoos and come back to greatness as the clean cut Calum

    • @emilegriffith1473
      @emilegriffith1473 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      nah keep the tats so he always knows where he came from and where he wants to go

    • @jamesbianchini3991
      @jamesbianchini3991 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Nah man tattoos stay, regardless if he has them or not he’s moving forward as the better version of himself

  • @th4079
    @th4079 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +58

    Koala is back. Great to see you. Greetings from Germany.

  • @CodyBunker
    @CodyBunker 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I've never been into bodybuilding. I found Calum and started watching simply because he has always had such great energy and a great demeanor on life. I am so happy that he is doing well now. I hope for nothing but the best for him. Life is difficult and we all go through trials. This is why we should be merciful towards one another and help one another rather than judge and criticize.

  • @Sourze423
    @Sourze423 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +22

    Great to see you started a podcast. I know it's been a tough transformation from your early days at Gold's. But your character and words have more depth and meaning to me. I definitely feel more captivated to who and what you are than in years prior. RIP Rex!!!

  • @milli5486
    @milli5486 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    This deserves over a million likes .
    To share & be that transparent & come back to the light after experiencing the dark side deserves metals .
    This man Calum is a true CHAMPION!!
    God bless you & your family & keep you safe at all times.
    Well done brother !

  • @scope9466
    @scope9466 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    You are a warrior Cal. Listening to what you have been through legit brings tears to my eyes but I am so happy and inspired to see how you have kept moving forward and rebuilt yourself. Your brother would be proud

  • @Francofan
    @Francofan 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +14

    Now that you're back, take some time to see a bit of San Diego. I'm 70+ and have been a fan for years. Come down and I'll take you for a nice bike ride around the beaches and bays. I have ridden a lot in Melbourne (lots of nice bike paths there) and I still ride 100+mi./wk now. We can go as far (and pretty much as fast) as you want to go. Best to you.

  • @iswearimnatural
    @iswearimnatural หลายเดือนก่อน

    Hearing bros story is crazy, never knowing anything about Calum, just makes you wanna give dude a bro hug for how far he’s gone through the highs and the lows, much love man, keep doing great things 💪🏽🫶🏽

  • @rudyfrxnk
    @rudyfrxnk 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    The legend is back! Your story is so motivating Calum and will inspire so many people in the world!

  • @geedup86
    @geedup86 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +11

    I can relate to a lot of the depression side. The gym is my outlet after work. Thanks for sharing mate

  • @danielk2834
    @danielk2834 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    That was the most inspiring and raw interview I’ve ever listened to. The sheer determination and strength from within from Calum is something rare considering everything he’s been through and I’m so grateful that he’s back and can’t wait to see where this next chapter of your life leads you 💪🏽

  • @deadalready3420
    @deadalready3420 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I only recently discovered Calum, dude is solid and his past is so similar to what I’ve endured, granted I’m 10+ years older and only just started my fitness journey. His focus after such tragedy is inspiring to say the least. Good on ya Calum, I’m pumped to see you get back to your passion!

  • @VanDutch87
    @VanDutch87 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +13

    I’m glad to see that you’re doing better Calum 🙏 I went through a very dark period in my life several years ago due to the passing of several family members, so I can relate to your feelings of loss.

  • @pepelaugh3993
    @pepelaugh3993 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    So so so damn proud of you calum. We're all rooting for you man.
    Go crush it. We're supporting you all the way. Lets go!

  • @richardba1926
    @richardba1926 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Probably my first comment ever on TH-cam. Just to said that I been following Calum since the beginning, you has been a great inspiration in my training life and personal life … consider you a great person and one of the best people in the bodybuilding industry… anyway … thanks for sharing… and it’s great to have you back…

  • @matti567
    @matti567 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    Cal you're a top bloke, great to hear you talk in depth about your experiences, and it's good to see you're in better spirits. Keep it up!

  • @jasonwyrick3212
    @jasonwyrick3212 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    This is so great, and it couldn't have happened at a better time!
    Im looking up and this helps me keep my eyes up!
    Thank you Calum for your comeback!
    You were always in my prayers!

  • @hayden2076
    @hayden2076 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Calum was a huge inspiration to me when I was 18 years old. I wanted that bodybuilding lifestyle that was put out by him on TH-cam. I’m 24 now and just did my first bodybuilding show. I watched some of Calums older videos from I think 6-7 years back.

  • @MrMrWattz
    @MrMrWattz 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Good shit man
    Really enjoyed listening, you and Daniel are a good collab!

  • @bpare
    @bpare 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    So glad that Calum has come through the other side of his battles with such a positive and healthy outlook. Excited for what's to come to this young man, and wish many more blessings and good vibes to him for his future!

  • @joshportillo5076
    @joshportillo5076 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    You're a king, Calum. So glad you're still here with us. Please keep making episodes for this podcast. Hope to one day meet ya and train with ya, brotha

  • @JoyForJack
    @JoyForJack 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Inspiring first episode Cal! Looking forward to seeing you reconnect with old faces from your past and spread a positive outlook on overcoming tough times.

  • @BRaaaaaD1010
    @BRaaaaaD1010 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    It’s so great to see Calum where he is now. The man looks phenomenal both physically and mentally. Glad to have you back in the fitness space mate!

  • @amert2465
    @amert2465 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    This is amazing to see, congratulations on the battle win and the comeback Cal. You got me into the gym when I was younger and that did so much for pulling me out of the hell I was in. You’re a legend mate.

  • @MultiJt1234
    @MultiJt1234 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Wow, what a fantastic video! I was a bit hesitant to click on it initially but I'm glad I did. You guys did great. Welcome back, Cal.

  • @frederikheiselberg6492
    @frederikheiselberg6492 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    You are the person that turned me on to training, because of you I am down 120 lbs. Im so happy that you are back Calum!

  • @LightWork4444
    @LightWork4444 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    LFG!! Welcome back brotha 🙌

  • @AlexanderJarmusik
    @AlexanderJarmusik 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Stay on the path cuz. Keep your focus and hold yourself accountable. Glad to see you bounce back. Do you!

  • @davidmulat
    @davidmulat 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    We are rooting for you Calum! You got this!!!!!!

  • @Musclemommymush
    @Musclemommymush 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Your an amazing person Calum and its by Gods grace you are still with us. He has a plan for you. Your blessed. Much love and i cant wait for your comeback ❤

  • @maddog3454
    @maddog3454 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I was in Mexico last year and tore both quad tendons within 15 minutes of each other. I was stuck in a Mexican hospital for 12 hours. Then two airlines denied me a flight home because I was a risk not being able to bend my legs and in a wheelchair. My wife thought we will rent a car and drive home....I said it's a 47-hour drive and 20 of it through mexico, and we will never get to the border. Delta airlines said they would take us...thank you Delta...best airline ever...I had to take up 3 seats but only charged us for 2...hers and I. Then it was a month and a half of not moving from my recliner...pissing in bottles and having to hand wash myself...it was hell. I used a wheelchair for a month after then started walking with braces.....was off work not getting paid for 3 months. Dr. said he had never seen someone tear both at the same time. All I did was jump off a 10' high wall into the water. As soon as I pushed off it tore....than 15 minutes later when 3 guys helped me walk up a flight of stairs to the car, and the other one tore pushing off with my good leg.

  • @ronnierussomanno6840
    @ronnierussomanno6840 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Always followed Cal from the beginning just seen him with Jay even though I’m a little bit older than him I can relate to everything he went through so great to see him doing so well and I’ll b tuning in to see more god bless you always and stay positive

  • @nathanwoolsey9600
    @nathanwoolsey9600 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thank you Calum for sharing your story and hoping that someone out there dealing with their things can see you and see that there is light at the end of the tunnel. Bad days don’t last forever!
    Thank you and wish you the best! Always a fan, can’t wait to see what the future holds for you!

  • @emmanuelsurf
    @emmanuelsurf 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Great podcast. Looking forward to the next ones

  • @poloboy
    @poloboy 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +27

    Ayyyee back to the golden era size!

  • @gabrielpires5881
    @gabrielpires5881 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    God bless u Calum! You inspired a generation. Be safe!

  • @Euthymia2020
    @Euthymia2020 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Let’s go Calum! Rise! Buy back your time. The time is at hand. I do believe the more you’re able to get alone the more you will truly find yourself and damn can it be scary but so fulfilling.

  • @DannyGodlewski
    @DannyGodlewski 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Awesome to see you back Calum, and lookin’ huge too! Although people these days love to talk about people & drama, the only thing they enjoy more is a comeback! Honestly, these tests will only make you & your story better and more relatable. I’ve had my own challenges, so I have a ton of respect for you talking about all this. But, I believe these experiences are just what you needed for your spirit to grow and reach your life’s full potential.

  • @jordan.poolee
    @jordan.poolee 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Glad you are still here mate!
    You asked god for strength & he gave you battles. He was preparing you for the successes coming your way. you are now mentally strong enough to move onto the next phase of success/ happiness in your life.
    Long time fan,
    All the best

  • @cameron6554
    @cameron6554 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Long time subscriber, been here from the early days. Glad to see the channel has a fresh new direction. 👍👍

  • @bennyxcee
    @bennyxcee 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    You’re amazing brother.. how people comment anything negatively after you opening up here is beyond me. You’re a F++King champ and should be proud of where you’re at right now
    More life my guy, more life ❤

  • @Smoovtronamus
    @Smoovtronamus 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Calum. Love you big time brother. This story of yours is beautiful, and I think now more than ever you are a role model that people look up to. Experience=Power.

  • @jeroenregeer
    @jeroenregeer 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Glad you feel better. We stand with you!!!

  • @xXTrIcKsH0tXx
    @xXTrIcKsH0tXx 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    So good to see you back man. Crushing it

  • @dave_asara
    @dave_asara 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Great podcast Calum! Glad to say I’m one of the early listeners. Excited for the next one and where you take the pod. There’s loads of potential to talk to a bunch of great people or even jumping on solo and just speaking what’s on your heart. Nothing but love!

  • @blackguardunlimeted
    @blackguardunlimeted 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Love it, cannot wait for more! Keep it up Calum!

  • @tomtstfitness
    @tomtstfitness 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Watched you since I was kid, reason why I started weight lifting. You’ve come so far, so proud of you!

  • @cadesliftingandfishing634
    @cadesliftingandfishing634 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Nice pod Calum glad to see your on the up.

  • @Danny_jrt
    @Danny_jrt 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Cal is the best to be honest. So real, and so glad brother is back.

  • @xbianchi13x
    @xbianchi13x 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    cal got me into lifting over 10 years ago. Id play one of his workouts before mine and go hammer the weights feeling so fired up. Great to see him battle back after the stuff he had to deal with.

  • @lukeeustace7019
    @lukeeustace7019 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Been a long time supporter mate ! Glad to see you back to the guy we all know, cant imagine how hard it was to get back to here

  • @bkacga
    @bkacga 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    This was sick. Good to have Cal back!

  • @ryanfletcher4054
    @ryanfletcher4054 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Great discussion. Cal you're a huge inspiration and it is great to hear more about your story and your outlook. Keep up the good work and take care

  • @demon22slayer
    @demon22slayer 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    The world needs Calum, and for those of us who train definitely need him!! so glad to see him back and on track!!!

  • @Rugrat
    @Rugrat 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Great vid mate good to see you grinding again and good on you for being so honest and open 👍

  • @brandonator7407
    @brandonator7407 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thank you for being so open and honest, you’re helping so many people bro!

  • @kellen_hendrix
    @kellen_hendrix 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    That’s crazy. I was literally thinking about spiritual warfare when he was describing what happened with him jumping out the window then he goes on to talk about it. Satan is trying to take you out Calum, that must mean you’re meant for great things so keep that spirit strong man ✝️

  • @dfgndfghdfghdfgh
    @dfgndfghdfghdfgh 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Just seen your Cutler Cast ep and it was 10/10, looking forward to many more of these

  • @magicdinho107
    @magicdinho107 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    So glad to have you back Cal!!! You look great and even sound smarter haha

  • @James-vv9dp
    @James-vv9dp 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Glad to see Calum back. Love this bloke, so humble. How epic would it be if the come back was so good he could compete at Olympia ?

  • @mandyperez5080
    @mandyperez5080 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    God bless u Calum ❤🙏 so happy ur back 😊 god has bigger plans for you bro the lord is ur strength ! 💪🏻 love the podcast

  • @nickpazanski1424
    @nickpazanski1424 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Great to see you doing so well, welcome back. You’re still a young buckaroo with a bright future ahead. God Bless and Stay Strong.

  • @luisgiordano5561
    @luisgiordano5561 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    god its good to see you back cal and doing well, I'm from melbs myself and despite everything that happens life goes on. just happy to see a role model doing so well now much love bruz.

  • @sanjeewakumara9998
    @sanjeewakumara9998 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I was watching from the day first. I really happy that you came back with good vibes and same as before. Keep doing what you do.

  • @GYMSHIT
    @GYMSHIT 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Dude calum, so glad you’re doing well man. I’ve always been pulling for you

  • @RichardWharton-z5r
    @RichardWharton-z5r หลายเดือนก่อน

    Bless you I am along for the new chapter

  • @Elcanario91
    @Elcanario91 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    So happy to see you back Calum ❤

  • @GrimbleSkulksnare
    @GrimbleSkulksnare 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    The neglect from the medical community and the positive effects of TRT is not talked about enough. Blasting anabolics is one thing but the positive effects of medical testosterone are so important that it can literally save lives. Create a whole podcast invite Dr T - George Touliatos and Calum. We need more awareness

  • @ismaelpage7619
    @ismaelpage7619 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Stay strong king 🤘🏽

  • @thegarcias6842
    @thegarcias6842 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Keep telling your story. Glad you found God and hopefully some peace. Been a fan since day one and happy to see this podcast ep 1. Cant wait for the next one.

  • @LilDevson
    @LilDevson 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    glad to see calum out and about again enjoying life, huge inspiration brother

  • @Lee33006
    @Lee33006 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Always good to hear Cal....🙏💙

  • @michaellozano4889
    @michaellozano4889 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Calum is a beast bro! Everyone deserves a second chance good job for bouncing back bro we are proud of you! God bless you bro 🙏

  • @EriGab99
    @EriGab99 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Love to see you back bro

  • @Milka_1901
    @Milka_1901 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    God Bless you Mr. Von Moger

  • @PaulsPickles
    @PaulsPickles 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Awesome to see Calum back. Hope to hear him speak about his controversial past

  • @olivernewton158
    @olivernewton158 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Love this! Great podcast - life is full of ups and downs - this is the real deal.

  • @musclehunter1853
    @musclehunter1853 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Wow what a great interview, ive followed you for years and so good to see you doing so well now man. Thanks for sharing your story and trying to help others. Look forward to seeing you continue to grow and how you positively impact others. Keep moving up bro, catch ya later👊💪😎

  • @Elcanario91
    @Elcanario91 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I tore all the ligaments in my ankle, excruciating pain. During the injury, I hear a huge snap/pop and i could see the bottom of my foot from above for a brief second. Surgery was horrible, 6 nails clamped to my ankle, told me it would take 3 months to walk and 6 months to recover… month 3 i was running and squatting. For all of u that are going through a hard injury, hang in there. Depression can be real, but with the right mindset you can get over it 💪💪💪

  • @Raptorlifts
    @Raptorlifts 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Stoked to see you making a comeback. Nothing more satisfying than someone that doesn't give up. Keep on keeping on brother

  • @timbrawdy2249
    @timbrawdy2249 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Sick CxNt! Super pumped to see you doing well, Cal! Been a fan since that original muscle and fitness video. “I don’t like uncaged eggs, I prefer caged eggs. I like to taste the fear in them.”
    My favorite quote ever and I use it all the time.

  • @TheMastmark
    @TheMastmark 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    looking good mate, look forward to the next one

  • @BLP1995
    @BLP1995 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Legend, keep up the hard work! 👍🏼

  • @mistergianpaulo
    @mistergianpaulo 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    this is a great step for your content brother, keep on the come up my man

  • @Webzterr
    @Webzterr 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Good to see you back, looking good bud💪🏾

  • @BenRogo-i8l
    @BenRogo-i8l 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Great to see you happy and healthy! God bless!

  • @soiraider2201
    @soiraider2201 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    First time I've seen Callum online for 18 months. He got massive again!!!💪

  • @theaustraliananimal
    @theaustraliananimal 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    AUSSIE AUSSIE AUSSIE 💪💪 YOUR COME BACK HAS PUSHED ME EVEN HARDER GOD BLESS YOU BROTHER 🙏🙏🙏🙏

  • @markverhoeven4114
    @markverhoeven4114 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Hats off to this man. Such a great interview. Where are the haters now lol

  • @BadComedy_
    @BadComedy_ 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Bruh I love this guy, glad to see him back

  • @hexasaurus3534
    @hexasaurus3534 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Love you Calum, been watching you since the 2015 days where you did shoulders with Steve Cook. You inspired me to start the gym. Cant wait for this comeback brother.❤

  • @awebase
    @awebase 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    great to see you back brother. good talk on the podcast cant wait for new episodes! greetings from germany

  • @blitzsama
    @blitzsama 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    i've been in 3 NDE 2/3 from drugs and alc. the other a car accident that almost killed me. It's amazing to get another chance to be better..