Oh man... it took everything in me to not cry with you, lol. I'm 45 and I've been going through the same my entire life. I had the type of mom who refused to consider anything medical and instead just considered me to be 'over-reactive', 'over-emotional', 'over-whatever the word for the day was'. I constantly think I'm just a terrible person all while wondering why I can't change that. I was a math whiz in school but couldn't pass any test I had to read for. History, fail. I even failed English. Now that I look back I can see it was because I couldn't concentrate enough to retain any info in my school books. I still haven't brought myself to try to talk to a doctor about it. Don't be like me because it has caused me to become a hermit who went from having tons of friends to having pretty much no one. I hope knowing you are not alone helps a little.
As a matter of fact, I have been trying to focus myself with meditation and such but can't even manage to do that because I have to force myself which just goes against the whole point of relaxing my mind.
Oh man... it took everything in me to not cry with you, lol. I'm 45 and I've been going through the same my entire life. I had the type of mom who refused to consider anything medical and instead just considered me to be 'over-reactive', 'over-emotional', 'over-whatever the word for the day was'. I constantly think I'm just a terrible person all while wondering why I can't change that. I was a math whiz in school but couldn't pass any test I had to read for. History, fail. I even failed English. Now that I look back I can see it was because I couldn't concentrate enough to retain any info in my school books. I still haven't brought myself to try to talk to a doctor about it. Don't be like me because it has caused me to become a hermit who went from having tons of friends to having pretty much no one. I hope knowing you are not alone helps a little.
As a matter of fact, I have been trying to focus myself with meditation and such but can't even manage to do that because I have to force myself which just goes against the whole point of relaxing my mind.