I appreciate the rawness of this video you’ve put out for all to see. You’re not alone. We are all dealing with different thoughts, emotions and feelings in our own way. Remember, We are all connected. The current solar flares are apparently bringing in new energies so we must release the old. You are very sane! Take a breath and rest. ❤
My first response to this was just 🎉 hoo Ray ❤ Revealing your self hatred? You go boy ❤ Laughed and cried my way through this and will be sharing ❤ Yay dying 😂
Probably the DNS. One way to look at it, is that emotions are arising from thoughts, the thoughts are arising from attachment to outcomes, the attachment is based on delusional beliefs, the delusional beliefs were inplanted in your system by societal conditioning, which you had no control of, so its all an automatic process thats not your fault. Also, the emotional suffering is not happening to you, its happening to the body/mind organism, and you are the consciousness, the witness of the life experience, so this cannot harm you, and you have no reason to fear it or avoid it. The suffering is happening, but its not your suffering. Suffering is impermanent and ungraspable, just as happiness is. The sufferer is not the one who awakens. The consciousness awakens to itself. We are not the doers. Everything is playing out according to our destiny. Dont take this personally or seriously. Its just a happening arising in consciousness and being witnessed by consciousness and then it will quickly dissolve back into consciousness. I am no judge, being completely unawakened myself, but I think you are doing really well! Cheers!
Shane, this is probably all coming from not having what your ego wants: A great job, a great income, fame, and an ideal, rich and meaningful life, being praised and honored by your freinds and family and being gauranteed to live happily ever after. The ego thinks thats where happiness resides. It isnt. Krishna said to a poor man who had only a cow, that he hoped his cow would soon die. The less you have, the sooner you will awaken to your true nature and arrive at the end of suffering. We are all attached to the world and worldly success. If we can let that go, liberation is right around the corner. Stop hoping for the universe to deliver ideal circumstances to you, as a reward for being ernest and for practicing so well. Its better to trust that the universe alone knows whats best for you to experience, and to accept that whatever happens is uncontrollable and it doesnt matter, only your reaction to it matters, and you will probably end up homeless and starving, ridiculed and humiliated, beaten and robbed, and to accept that as a perfectly fine circumstance in which to pursue the truth about how people and things actually exist. Give your ego everything it doesnt want. Here is an excellent Tibetan mind-training slogan: 'Loss and defeat to myself. Gain and victory to others.' Peace!
Ola brother. An older self of mine, now a memory, really can relate to the feeling of loss and sadness of loosing interest in social interactions, roles, and many other things that meant/means a lot. It doesn't seems to disappear, just to adjust at another level. Change induce feeling of loss. Take opportunity to enjoy what is when it comes
It’s interesting that you’re afraid of being considered crazy. I feel the opposite listening to you - you’re willing to sit with so much of the messiness of experience.
Right there with you
I appreciate the rawness of this video you’ve put out for all to see. You’re not alone. We are all dealing with different thoughts, emotions and feelings in our own way. Remember, We are all connected. The current solar flares are apparently bringing in new energies so we must release the old. You are very sane! Take a breath and rest. ❤
I hear you man, we are all going thru it now in our own way ❤
My first response to this was just 🎉 hoo Ray ❤
Revealing your self hatred? You go boy ❤
Laughed and cried my way through this and will be sharing ❤
Yay dying 😂
Thanks for being vulnerable. On top of all the emotional processing, parts works really helped with the self-hatred for me.
Very relatable man you’re not the only one
Probably the DNS. One way to look at it, is that emotions are arising from thoughts, the thoughts are arising from attachment to outcomes, the attachment is based on delusional beliefs, the delusional beliefs were inplanted in your system by societal conditioning, which you had no control of, so its all an automatic process thats not your fault. Also, the emotional suffering is not happening to you, its happening to the body/mind organism, and you are the consciousness, the witness of the life experience, so this cannot harm you, and you have no reason to fear it or avoid it. The suffering is happening, but its not your suffering. Suffering is impermanent and ungraspable, just as happiness is. The sufferer is not the one who awakens. The consciousness awakens to itself. We are not the doers. Everything is playing out according to our destiny. Dont take this personally or seriously. Its just a happening arising in consciousness and being witnessed by consciousness and then it will quickly dissolve back into consciousness. I am no judge, being completely unawakened myself, but I think you are doing really well! Cheers!
Wow, well said my friend! Thank you for the encouragement. Many blessings to you!
been fully familar with exactly the same..facing the abyss, brave to share, dear Shane...good to know some others going through the same
Please keep sharing. This is keeping the journey real.
The feeling of things that go on in our own psyche being traumatizing is so real. Literally
Become an observer of it without judgment, I think that makes the experience easier.
Despair is a good word for it. I’ve been there for over 10 years. Just existing. Not sure what is going to end this shit
Yes wanting to be seen and validated but being terrified of it at the same e time. I get it.
Shane, this is probably all coming from not having what your ego wants: A great job, a great income, fame, and an ideal, rich and meaningful life, being praised and honored by your freinds and family and being gauranteed to live happily ever after. The ego thinks thats where happiness resides. It isnt. Krishna said to a poor man who had only a cow, that he hoped his cow would soon die. The less you have, the sooner you will awaken to your true nature and arrive at the end of suffering. We are all attached to the world and worldly success. If we can let that go, liberation is right around the corner. Stop hoping for the universe to deliver ideal circumstances to you, as a reward for being ernest and for practicing so well. Its better to trust that the universe alone knows whats best for you to experience, and to accept that whatever happens is uncontrollable and it doesnt matter, only your reaction to it matters, and you will probably end up homeless and starving, ridiculed and humiliated, beaten and robbed, and to accept that as a perfectly fine circumstance in which to pursue the truth about how people and things actually exist. Give your ego everything it doesnt want. Here is an excellent Tibetan mind-training slogan: 'Loss and defeat to myself. Gain and victory to others.' Peace!
Ola brother. An older self of mine, now a memory, really can relate to the feeling of loss and sadness of loosing interest in social interactions, roles, and many other things that meant/means a lot. It doesn't seems to disappear, just to adjust at another level. Change induce feeling of loss. Take opportunity to enjoy what is when it comes
Thank you bro. That is really helpful to hear.
It’s interesting that you’re afraid of being considered crazy. I feel the opposite listening to you - you’re willing to sit with so much of the messiness of experience.
Put your trust and hope in Jesus Christ.