"Being Diagnosed As OCD Doesn't Make The Doubt Go Away" | Listen Up | ABC Science
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- At 23, intrusive thoughts took over Martin’s life. Now he’s learnt to live with obsessive-compulsive disorder and wants to help others.
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OCD is a recurring intrusive thought, which can cause despair, disgust and anxiety in the individual. They can start do something physical that attempts to alleviate or neutralise that intrusive thought, also known as compulsions.
OCD affects more than 500,000 people in Australia. Nearly 3% of people in Australia will experience it in their lifetime.
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Thoughts are not threats, feelings are not facts. I'm going to remember this.
Same! I recorded it in my notebook.
I copies that too and stored it in my notebook.
the leftists around would probably disagree
@@camilledabertchronically online. touch grass.
_feelings are not facts_
- Ben Saph...[you know who, stop reading this]: someone called me?
I suffer from this exact thing (I have been diagnosed with OCD but have rarely talked about my darkest obsessions)! Fear that I'll become a sex offender, sadistic serial killer, or similar kind of evil. Fear of getting into relationships for multiple reasons, including not wanting to let people know about my thoughts. I also ruminate over past decisions and agonize whether I'll make the right one.
Sounds like a lack of trust in your inherent nature. I'd be willing to bet that fundamentally, you are a good person.
Hopefully you seek counseling or already are. No one can hate you for seeking help but they can if you knowingly act on your bad impulses
@@kjwkrwklwjawThis is what annoys me so much about the „let the intrusive thoughts win“ meme. The thing with intrusive thoughts/obsessions like this is that you fundamentally _don‘t_ want to do them, you just endlessly ruminate about whether there is a part of you that might. This guy has no more actual dangerous impulses than anybody else and isn’t fighting an urge to do something terrible. He is being attacked by _irrational, unfounded_ fear that he might.
@@p.s.224 yeah and having a problem like that sounds like a good thing to talk about a therapist with.
Yeah, it's scary to admit even in the comment section. The thoughts are just thoughts and if we hate the thoughts then it stays with us for a long time.
"thoughts are not threats, feelings are not facts"
Your ocd mind will remember intrusive thoughts or strange thoughts you had from 20 or 30 years ago and given the right circumstances it will come to the surface again and overwhelm you to the point of despair even if in that 20 year period you’ve managed to dismiss the thought. If you suddenly become vulnerable through a depression etc then it can come back and floor you and give you a breakdown. Ocd can be like a virus that never goes away fully
When you have thoughts from 20 years ago its called remember, OCD is FAKE, stop being brainwashed by the pharmaceutical companies and the government
Yeah it's true. That's why I practice meditation and yoga so as to keep those intrusive thoughts at bay.
@justmadeit2, are you the chap featured in the film? If so, thanks very much for the information and bravery! I have OCD, but not the same kind. I would be keen on having you as a friend if you’d care to contact me.
Yes, this!!! Any theme can remerge to the surface again. The neurons are there in your brain, locked and loaded.
Anything around sex ocd is the worst ever, you feel paranoid about talking to therapists etc. it’s hell on earth
It absolutely is. Truly terrifying
It is always the actual topic what causes the biggest strugle. The most important thing is to recognize the pattern and leave the "what if" question unanswered. Label it, abandon it. As Jon Hershfield said. Because ocd tries to affect the most important parts of your life.
You are correct. Also thinking you will hurt someone
Im 14 and went through a severe type suddenly from 11 to 13. Always be aware :)
Yes it’s awful but it’s nice to know people also live through this and that I’m not alone
There are two conditions I believe society has a tendency to trivialize: OCD and Bipolar Disorder. How often have you heard someone say "You're so Bipolar" or "Stop being so OCD"? Living with OCD or Bipolar Disorder can be hell. They're nothing to joke about.
have heard that 0 times. Guess people differ
ptsd???? how many triggered jokes do you hear. we all end up discounted and cast aside with hidden disabilities in general, we should try and support each other
@@bellamango6708 True.. thanks for broadening my view.
There's a lot of conditions like that. ADHD is also like that, and I'm too lazy to list any others.
As someone who has struggled with OCD from a young age, seeing others share their stories is inspiring because you know you’re not alone. Also, it’s shocking how broad OCD is and how many different types of obsessions and compulsions there are. The brain is so interesting!
PLEASE, tell me what
Is OCD?? Letter By letter, I mean, O It Is about Obsesion??
What Is C and D??
PLEASE!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Im 14 and went through a severe type suddenly from 11 to 13. Always is bad
@@user-sh7nf2hg3oObessive Compulsive Disorder
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Obsessive
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Disorder
@@user-sh7nf2hg3oGoogle it..
What an angel for being out there for many suffers
Feel for this guy man. I have OCD too and get all kinds of intrusive thoughts, including sexual ones. Im doing well but damn it can be hard with OCD as it never goes away, you just have to learn to cope with it use tools you have learned.
Wishing you the best bro. I’m not diagnosed OCD but I’ve had sexual intrusive thoughts for a long time. It’s getting better though and I’m able to control it more now
Try the supplement GABA. It helps control looped thinking. I did a course with Dr Daniel Amen, and that was his prescription for OCD and in particular thinking, where you just can't shift gears.
Worth looking into. And hypnosis could also be useful.
@@Prutamwdym by sexual intrusive thoughts. Like are you thinking this when you're seeing anyone of the gender u prefer or it's happening like all of the time suddenly or with anyone regardless of their relationship . How consuming and dangerous it is ? I mean as you said I wanna know what's the thing going on in your case
@@PrutamI dont know what sexual intrusive thoughts are.
@@2004cyrus and that's why google was invented
i swear to god , that part of me thinking if am evil or am loosing it because of having intrusive thoughts , italmost still haunting me but i managed to get over it . Thank God that as soon as the thoughts started i went on phycologist and he explained me that this is something that happening to other people as well and am not crazy so that made things hella better for me . Before therapy(i did only 1 time thus far) i literally thought that am just crazy and the end of my saint days just came . I was wrong obv , but the thing with this thoughts is that even if i manage not to take them as serious and not feel guilt for things i havent even done , its still make me anxious here and there and i wish i never had OCD
All Scripture is inspired of God+ and beneficial for teaching,+ for reproving, for setting things straight,+ for disciplining in righteousness,+ 17 God kingdom has taken place .
@@VestalNumbreman what is you talkin about? what type of riddle is this
Shut up, you are praying on people who are vulenrable go away @@VestalNumbre
A year later you still doing ok? :) you got this homie!
@@josaphinetyep everything is good , thoughts come and go here and there but nothing that can't be managed . Its all in our minds
Started having intrusive thoughts in 2020. If it was not for a wiki article stating that those are indeed just thoughts and I'm not evil and unsavable, I wouldn't be here. It is difficult living with this though. Very difficult. And I don't even have those thoughts that often. I'm happy that changed, because I would overthink and spiral.
I’ve come to see intrusive thoughts as a GOOD thing. That’s your mind’s break check. When people should be worried is of people who DONT/CANT have them. Because those thoughts are the checks and balance systems that keep reminding you that there are consequences and life after your decisions. The people who DONT have them just simply ACT.
@@WaldoBagelToppersure, there may be truth to that, but to an extent. For someone with OCD the thoughts and the anxiety/depression that comes with them can be too much, unmanageable, no matter how irrational
So brave of you to share your story with the world Martin. Thanks and cheers.
Greetings from Finland! Thank you for talking about this publically and giving exposure to what OCD can look like. :) You are certainly not alone
Hei.
I notice my intrusive thought OCD flares up when I’m going through massive life changes. Sometimes your brain will try and protect you from harm by rerouting negative emotions into something that at first may seem impossible or ridiculous, but as you ruminate more and more, it feels like you’re giving the intrusive thoughts credibility and almost admission of your own guilt. If you are reading this, you are not alone, it happens and you can live with these thoughts. Move forward with your life and do not waste your years living in fear. The thoughts will come, give you fear and anxiety, you will acquire avoidance behaviours, and sometimes it may interfere with your personal relationships. Keep living, and you will find that when the intrusive thoughts lose their power and eventually go away, that you’re stronger and will be more empathetic to yourself for surviving the struggle of battling your own mind.
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When you've been a diagnosed OCD for 20 years but nobody ever mentioned or questioned you about all the sex stuff because you were 12 at the time so you've spent the better part of your life being terrified that you were some pervy sicko, and are now lamenting at how you were doomed from the start because nobody was ever going to have that discussion with a 12yo. Honestly, I'm so shooketh right now that my body has gone cold. I was just casually watching some YT with dinner after a long day and clicked the video without much thought. I was totally not ready to be confronted with this rn. 😭
Saame bro😢
Thankyou darling young man. So well said. Proud of you. ❤
I had this obsession years back and it was debilitating as hell. I was able to overcome it with therapy and medication (which I'm still on today). You're not alone and it does get better!!
I was the person in this video, for the most part.
I would like to take the liberty of giving some advice of my own, from my own experience.
If you're going to seek professional help, consult a respected and well known university for a referral.
Don't trust your mental health to just anyone who hangs out a shingle.
I dont know if i should be happy that i saw this video right now or upset that i didnt see it when it came out like one year ago, but ive never even remotely felt like ive been called out so brazenly before.
Martin is a very brave man and definitely has significant empathy.
I used to think too much. My brain doesn't like effort, so it spins and runs data at a disturbing rate ( for me at least ), by subconscious command it seems, to find a gateway or a system that allows me to escape the turmoils and hardships of existence and achieve peace, happiness, or both. I came to the realization that all of it is triggered by fear of death, imbedded inside my genetic code, by instinctive and primal mindset. I work on dissociating from these concerns, which I consider thoughts pollution, by quickly evaluating my present situation and state, and applying on getting rid of any personal limitations awareness, to finally identify as an instant in time, no tasks, no purpose, breathing air, being, and that frees me from overthinking. I think it's a very bad and unproductive habit, 'cause when eventually, a great thought, or image, nests on your head, you're usually too tired to surf on it. The best moments in my life, my brain was shut down. We don't have to know all the answers is my point. Just be. Be you. You're all you need. Hope this helps somebody.
Well said
Thanks, I saved your comment as I think it helps me better understand my situation as my brain is also doing the same and it stems from the fear of death too.
🙏
Thank you for having the bravery to talk about this. My OCD was sever from the time I even have memories. I had these same sort of intrusive thoughts as well as many others and even though I was diagnosed with OCD at 5 no one explained to me it wasn't just compulsive behaviors it was intrusive thoughts. I didn't fully understand my condition till I was 20 and started to study psychology, and until that time I thought i was just a bad person. I hope others can discover the truth sooner.
i highly recommend the audiobook "Complex PTSD from surviving to thriving "
and also 1week deep dive course called Hoffman process (i wish i knew about it before)
Agreed. Contamination OCD usually stems from childhood sexual abuse. 1 in 3 women were sexually abused as a child. 1 in 6 men were sexually abused as children.
He's so brave to share this. Rooting for him.
As a female with ocd and agoraphobia, my paranoid thoughts revolve around the fear that every man I interact with sees me in a sexual way... good to know it goes full circle..
Just give it time, dearie
You are happy you are not alone. You are not happy people suffer because of this.
They do, it's called biology
THEY DO, GUESS WHAT, THAT'S NATURE
I have a fear I’m being watched
Comments: they do. The government is watching us all the time.
😂
I had this in my teens and early twenties as a WOMAN. It’s already quite rare but my age and gender definitely made me more of an outlier.
It was debilitating and I truly thought I was a pedophile or would become one. I would research female sex offenders but just couldn’t relate to the utter evil that they would all show in one way or another, along with shared symptoms or illness between these offenders that I, again, couldn’t relate to.
Absolutely no sources I found spoke of anyone as young as I and without any previous experience of trauma especially sexual abuse.
It wasn’t until I felt my head was going to explode with these disgusting thoughts (in hindsight, that feeling is now a common occurrence that is directly related to the OCD) that I felt I had to share this horrid experience to ensure I didn’t become a true pedophile.
I trusted my psychiatrist completely and had told her many shameful and embarrassing things but I was aware of the seriousness of the situation if I was truly a sick person. So after being admitted into hospital, having too much time to think and more access to therapy style sessions with my psychiatrist.
I wrote it all down, the exact thoughts and my thoughts ABOUT those thoughts because I couldn’t verbalise such horrific stuff out loud.
I remember her reading my notes. I remember looking into her eyes as they were glancing along the words of my weird sentences trying to grasp any hint of what she was thinking and feeling. Nothing showed.
At the end, as my throat began to feel like it was swelling shut she began to sort of chuckle a little bit and look at me in sort of relief, sort of like she felt pity on me. She simply stated - These are called intrusive thoughts and you are absolutely not a pedophile.
I was taken back, what are intrusive thoughts?! They are my thoughts, after all, right? Surely I mean what I think. I am me, after all.
Turns out, you can absolutely have thoughts that go against your own beliefs and morals. This is normal and everyone has them. More many they are just fleeting thoughts, though, where they go and come like all other useless thoughts. When you have OCD however you can get so obsessive about these thoughts that they become more and more prevalent, emotionally attached and confronting. So you start to do things to prevent or redirect after these thoughts, and that behaviour becomes a compulsion following the previous thoughts and round and round and round and round and round and round we go, for life presumably.
I haven’t had these thoughts for a couple of decades now and am so thankful my doctor knew of this disorder.
Thanks for being so open. ❤
l also had this (only for a short period) as a woman! Especially when I started to work with children I got paranoid.
But I quickly found out it's like OCD behaviour and I kept on going to work and it passed in a week or two.
So for some reason I had understanding about the nature of mind and that I was just afraid. Of everything. And my innate goodness.
@@you-vi2tm PLEASE HELP ME. It happened with me too and it’s been a month. It all started with my aunt telling me about her child (which I sometimes get to babysit) that she was having rashes in the skin (turns out its just a normal illness sometimes kids get) but I got so uncomfortable when she mentioned that she got that in the groin also. So uncomfortable i started trembling and after that my mind started racing wondering if I ever did something to her when I could never imagine me being able to do that.
I have now...please let me know whether it comes just like a thought or it make our brain to think the thought?
"thoughts are not threats
fears are not facts"
a clear evidence (playing with rhyme) of someone with OCD
same here
i do believe some part of "cause" must be in your creative career
as a director or writer or both, you must be "obsessed" with your thoughts, characters, and even their thoughts
all of them happen to be not real
by the way, really appreciate your courage to speak out
let us stay strong, stay calm, and stay obsessed (in a good way as you said)
I have hocd and im straight but i keep doubting im gay. I would get unwanted erections and anxiety looking at anything to other men. I lost all sexual urges and desires that i used to use as my motivation towards my self improvement. Now i feel no motivation and im trying my best to get my motivation and natural sexual desires back. Any of u boys and girls suffering from something similar, i am with u .
I'm sorry were you saying you keep thinking you are gay? You said doubting you're gay, but said you are straight? It was confusing to read
Sorry about your struggles and wish you the best. For me I've lost all sexual drive whatsoever and totally feel that lack of motivation for self improvement. I've stopped trying to date. Have only had sex twice in the last year. I never get horny or have the desire to masturbate. It's just gone. Also my period is gone too so idk whats going on with that. No I'm not pregnant BTW.
@@DoorsToHideBehind156yep im suffering the same thing. No motivation or sex drive or the masculine urge to go into self improvement. I totally feel you. U feel much desensitised sexually.
I have been straight even since birth and always had sexual attraction to girls.
@@Unstoppable7x I spent years wondering why I was attracted to both, and feeling especially ashamed that I was aroused by men.
Until I met others who had similar patterns, anxiety and confusion, and I realised that my desires/ feelings were valid and nothing to be ashamed of.
For me, I've realised that it's not just about if I'm attracted to male or female. It's about who a person is, and acknowledging I like a mix of both masculinity & femininity and spend time with people who don't judge me for that.
@@JWMcLay yes now i dont care about my intrusive thoughts. If i see a man whos good looking or has a nice personality i like them as in their image and it doesn’t mean i like them sexually
You are a very brave, smart, nice young man; I wish you the best in your recovery. I'm sure you will do well, and help others.
Good on you mate and said with humility and courage.
Trying to “solve a thought” is only something people with OCD can understand
As a human and as a person who went through self struggle and getting the help that is required in the right moment in life, I truly moved by his speech and the courage when he shared his story.
It is true that the more you speak about it the less power it has❤.
Those last words of his should be made into big billboard quotes and should be put out.
"We ALL Have our Daily life struggle and it's upto us to work on it...still working on it on Every single Day".
wonderful one to watch😊
You were very fortunate to have loving supportive people around you. Some of us have attracted broken people into our lives who somehow perceive and use these negative energies, we are for the most part unaware of, to control and manipulate us.
You are an educator! You’re brave and helping others recognize what’s actually happening with our loved ones and ourselves. I’m not surprised the TH-cam algorithm matched me with you but I’m glad it stumbled into this! Thank you!
It's completely normal to have aberrant thoughts. We all have a shadow side and it manifests differently in different people. The thing is to see the totality of ourselves, of who we are. One thought, or type of thought, doesn't define us. I'm glad this young man sought professional help. Such thoughts, in certain individuals, can lead to disastrous results.
I dare say that there is no person acting out their intrusive thoughts. That is because intrusive thoughts are derailed control mechanisms. People who commit horrible things do NOT experience them as intrusive thoughts, but as interests they are absolutely in harmony with.
As such, intrusive thoughts do not represent a secret evil half of our psyche. Instead they represent a part concerned about safety, that got very anxious about not messing things up.
I was diagnosed with it and have CBT each week. Mines around contamination. Add that I'm Autistic (diagnosed) it was a nightmare during the pandemic and I'm still not over it's impact. Haven't dated in 5 years or even touched a man in that time and have been single for 16 years. I'm glad you made this video as online a lot of people use OCD as some trendy label when in reality it destroys lives and has nothing to do with somethingnot being lined up etc. I'm glad you are doing better with it.
I can relate to this in every single way. I’m literally 31 going to be 32 this year I’m currently in film school and struggling with being creative because I’m sexually repressed. It’s amazing how others have similar experiences
Thank you for being brave and sharing your story.
It is only just now that I have entertained the thought of having OCD because I didn't have the right idea of what it is and how it's misrepresented by media. The whole time I have bad cases of being impaired mentally and rehearsing thoughts over and over again, and just taking breaks when I do some normal day routine just realizing the thought is still there. Has been the case with my personal life and relationships. I'm just lying in my bed for the past three hours ruminating, and it will be like that for the latter part of the day as well. I've avoided relationships to not experience this, and have avoided people too. Still undiagnosed but I'll get myself checked soon
Great description, thank you, I can certainly relate. It's really incredible how OCD can derail our thought-processes.
Oh my god - thank you. I needed to see this. Sometimes I get so scared - so worried - this is exactly what I've been feeling.
I know I'm a bit late on watching this video, but thanks for talking about this. So, a bit of a story:
So, while at the time of writing this, I'm not diagnosed with anxiety, Depression and OCD I define know that I have all 3 in various waves. So my anxiety stems from different things. Like not being around my parents, who weren't even married in the 1st place, yet lived together for a short time. I have insecurities about being judged for my past with not being around my parents that much and living with my grandparents instead. And being judged for loving art.
I'm currently a freshman at community college studying in digital arts. I enjoy creativity and love to write more now than I previously did yet from growing up and currently still live in a small town I felt like kids were judgmental about stupid stuff even if I wasn't bullied.
Another thing that I can relate to is how, while currently 20 male, I've never been in a relationship with a partner before yet worry that I'll screw something up since when seeing how my parents were a bit reaklass, when they were my age, makes me a bit worried about dating at times. Btw my actual parents are doing better, in some way. My mom married my step dad some years ago, and my dad has been with his gf for quite some time now. My dad lives nearby in a town close to mine so driving over to see him is easily than my mom,step dad, and my 3 siblings since they live in another state that while bordering mine is a long drive.
Also I'll admit to doing masterbaition often.
Good news while starting college I've been seeing a therapist whose helping me. I've so far gone for 2-3ish months, so I'm still new. Anyways if you read this far thnx for your video and I shall continue my passion in the realm of digital arts and hopefully someday write my own story for an animated series on either YT, a streaming services or maybe tv.
Thank you for sharing this ❤❤❤
I sufferred with obsessive compulsion in thought and action until I discovered a massive Vitamin D deficiency paired with iron deficiency. Other issues included low copper and B vitamins. Addressing them completely wiped these issues out.
B3 especially works wonders!
@@aalliaandreadis5109 B1 as well, those that eat lots of sugar and carbs deplete them big time.
Talking with someone and getting things out of my mind, helps me more than anything!
I also suffer from sexual OCD, which can be taboo in nature, among other themes and compulsions, both mental and physical, and let me state to anyone who is looking into this to help a friend or family member, it is utterly debilitating, it can the person question themselves, their morals, their character, it's like a constant judge, jury and executioner in your head, like a constant horrible radio static in your mind that you can't turn off, and none of these thoughts are wanted, so please treat people with this or any other OCD with compassion, patience and understanding, we didn't choose to have this condition, and to anyone else here that has OCD, you are a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for, keep on going, seek treatment if you think it will help, you are not the monster your mind makes you out to be, you are someone afflicted with a horrible mental health condition, but, like most conditions, it can be managed and treated well with the right care. Thanks Martin for sharing and spreading awareness.
It’s like being in a complicated crime detection story where you have the feeling that you are responsible for the wrong in your life and you have the added responsibility to try to bring yourself out of it. You feel you are the criminal and the crime solving detective at the same time. As you say talking about it goes along way to resolving why you self destruct like this. I’m an ongoing case the same as you and I’m in my 60s now. It seems it’s a lifetime of commitment to work on yourself with bits of self emerging every so often and old bits getting forgotten about. Good luck to you on your journey.
First of all, thank you for your courage in so openly sharing this. I would venture to say that you are probably a lot more normal than you think. I think many people have the same or similar thoughts, but you just had the courage to come out and actually admit it. Kudos to you for that 😎
Good for you for speaking out
I love and admire your willingness, openness and transparency... you're awesome. Thank you so much for sharing 🤍
Wow, it can happen to anyone. It is not a problem until you recognize it. Here is an otherwise, healthy, intelligent, handsome young man.
Beautiful. Thanks for making this video.
❤❤❤ thank you! I have often wondered when you decide that you have overcome enough to share and help others?
I have been dealing with OCD since I was 10 years old and a lot of it was sexual thoughts that I felt the need to confess constantly to my mom. I also started all kinds of handwashing rituals and wouldn’t touch certain things opening drawers with my feet really weird stuff …This was in the 80s and for years nobody knew what it was, finally, my mom read an article and figured it out. My first therapist didn’t Even diagnose it!
But my middle school, I was being bullied pretty badly (which was causing even more OCD issues), and then was put on a tricycle and depressant that made me a complete zombie. It was horrible and honestly traumatizing, but I remember a girl suddenly punched me in the face and my reaction was just to say “why did you do that”? Like I said, it made me a zombie… she kinda didn’t know how to react to that though😂
I have described it as a similar to some mythical beast that grows a new head every time you chop one off. You overcome one thing and then it morphs into something completely different.
I tried different anti-depressants for very short periods but never stuck with them. Until I was 27 and got a panic attack that didn’t go away for three months, and it was stemming from disturbing intrusive thoughts. I started taking an SSRI and it subsided after about a month and I’ve needed one continuously since although I’ve tried probably every drug out there for me. I always end up going back to Zoloft .
I have found that writing down what I would say to someone else if they told me the concern that I am having helps it out with perspective,. I think it’s easier to be compassionate with someone else, which is sad.
I’ve had it so long I really don’t know what it feels like not to have it. I said before that if you grew up speaking English and then moved somewhere where you spoke French fluently, you would still think in English. I don’t know how it would feel to not “think an OCD”.
But another factor that I wanted to share, while I have come to realize OCD does run in my family… we can have genetic predisposition to all kinds of things that do not manifest without being triggered
I’ve had a lot of weird health issues, my whole life, and finally was diagnosed with chronic Lyme disease and several other co-infections that go along with it. And it’s likely I’ve had these since I was about 10! We took a camping trip down the east coast .
a lot of people don’t know this but Lyme disease can cause horrible mental health issues. And OCD is one of them along with crippling, anxiety, depression, etc. I was listening to one psychiatrist talking about how 80% of her adolescent patient that present as bipolar test positive for Lyme!
By No means am I saying that this is the cause of OCD in general, BUT it is a factor in mental health that gets overlooked. And a lot of people don’t know that they have it because unless you just contracted, it goes into different parts of your body and hides there including your brain 🧠 and at that point the standard testing is like flipping a coin. it also is able to change forms and hide from antibiotics, if left untreated , a lot of doctors are oblivious to this and the CDC still stand by their 20-year-old testing. But NIH articles specifically described this happening, and more and more people are finally finding out that they have had it for years, but were diagnosed with other things
But I have so much that I know I should share at some point somewhere, however I’ve been waiting till I completely overcome OCD and maybe I should not be waiting ?
I’m ”approved” to start OCD treatment this fall, after having lived with some version of it for around 20 years. It has mostly increased over time, but some periods it has actually decreased, but only a small and maybe not very noticeable amount (some people who know me though have noticed). My obsessions are mostly about ”nicer” things; creativity suck as writing and playing music (I’m a musician), but it seems compulsionary creativity isn’t always that creative…😬) I don’t really know if I have an OCD diagnosis; I just know I have an Asperger diagnosis, but maybe there is one without my knowledge, since I will get treatment. Been on meds for a couple of years. Greetings from Sweden
on youtube the video "Body keeps the score"
I have OCD too, mine is the reverse to this, I always think I'm going to get SAd or something horrible is going to happen to me. But who wants to tell someone you have sexual thoughts of your co-workers harassing you? They won't understand it's intrusive and you don't want it to happen. It's so hard to bring up even from the shame of admitting it, knowing myself it isn't my fantasy it's my nightmare.
I wish these videos were longer. Like a proper show.
I know. Just as I was relaxing into this one-handed, it ended 😢
I really do believe that we all have some of these symptoms at some stage in our lives. I first noticed that I had developed a ritual over the way I settled myself onto the toilet. Then it was an aversion to sitting on any seat other than the porcelain and another was to rip off three sheets of paper but use the third one first and the first one last!!! (which I still do 60 years later. ) Using an ancient set of cutlery for my main meal rather than my good and expensive modern. Rotation of my very up-market watches in their occasional use but NEVER wearing a watch unless it is for a verifiable occasion. Another is my delight in wearing other peoples expensive cast-offs instead of buying new clothes. So many little things. It amused me, the traits of my ex who refused to accept that the compulsions he had/has exist/d. The total lack of compulsions in my first and greatest love. Self obsession is a compulsion but I believe that the best way out is to fall in love and concentrate on the hundreds of things you then do, to demonstrate, even if only to yourself, how deep your love for them is!! We are all complex and it's not to be dwelt on: a lack of self confidence and worth perhaps, no matter how accomplished we are.! Just go away and enjoy being quite a D.O.T.D. (dish of the day)!!!
Thanks for speaking out about this. I think this might help my son.
Thank you for sharing your story. My hope is that will continue to discover life in a healthy way.
Thanks for this inspiring story, Martin. Big hug! 🤗
Thank you for this video❤
Yes i understand what your going through to the point i thought I was a monster, i still struggle but i have a family and wife to look after. You genuinely believe you are sick and should be locked away but then you feel better then the next day or next week you feel the same way and its a vicious cycle. 😢 Hope people can find peace without harming. The scariest thing is your mind is powerful enough to make you believe you are that sick person your scared to be. My OCD gives me visions that i live with and it's like being in a Halloween movie but it's all in your head .
thank you fot the hope you are giving me,
as somone who suffers from this problem,
i am thankfull for your gots
and get inspired by your example
That’s such an awesome video. You, sir, are a great person. Thanks so much for telling your amazing story, what an inspiration 👏👏👏. Greetings from Brasil 🇧🇷.
Thank u for sharing
I was diagnosed with OCD in my late teens after a suicide attempt driven by thoughts like these. I was later diagnosed with Bipolar disorder and personality disorder after a few more acts of self harm. Ironically, it's likely I also have CPTSD from the trauma of all the things I did to myself. It's not possible to live with these conditions. It's not possible to feel like a part of society or even part of a family. It's a life of loneliness. The best we can do is survive.
I'm so glad that you find the path through the mental jungle ! The brain is something that medical science still don't understand ! Goodluck !
You are great! and you are right, it is a daily battle but at least we know what we are fighting against / for. It makes it easier.
i relate to you a lot. thank you for this video
I used to be more ashamed. My brain wanted me scared. Not just that I might do something, but that somehow being assaulted was Inevitable for me and that I needed desensitize myself in order to “prepare”. Its debilitating being forced to think of the most disgusting things every waking moment just so I can feel in control. As it turns out, BDSM helps with the shame instantly, and literally having absolute control over the scene is so healing. Anyone shaming the more taboo kinks is incredibly misguided. Its the only solace some people can get.
What I do is I prove to myself that I am not my thoughts through the choices I make. I always have power over what I choose to do. I choose my path
1:45 exactly. I ‘dont really do’ the compulsions. But instead I keep thinking about it all over and over
4:03 and yeah I’ve been living with it for 11 years before I finally went to the psychiatrist last year
My therapist told me that she believes I’m in a sort of “remission” from OCD now. YAY! I went from almost having to drop out of college to living a (somewhat) normal life. I have had sexual OCD, harm OCD, religious OCD, suicidal OCD, contamination OCD, psychosomatic OCD, and there are probably some I’m forgetting. I’ve learned that if I don’t assign meaning to my intrusive thoughts, they don’t intrude very much. Another thing I think people with this kind of OCD need to know is that non-OCD people sometimes have disturbing thoughts, too. The only difference is that they don’t take them seriously, so they don’t think about them again.
The medication I took helped control the thoughts until I could really understand what they did and didn’t mean. I still take medication because I also have been diagnosed with depression. Also, I had a tic disorder as a child, and the medications keep that from coming back as well.
Anyway, the point is that you CAN recover. Don’t give up. And keep in mind that you may have to try many medications before finding one that works for you. If for some reason you can’t take medication, there are great therapists out there, and some really helpful books as well.
Also, I would like to thank all of the people out there who are telling their stories. When I first started with my obsessions (around 2006), NO ONE was talking about this side of OCD. We were suffering in silence, too afraid to tell anyone about our thoughts. We’ve come a long way since then. I hope that we continue to spread awareness until one day, no one has to worry they will become a serial killer/pedophile/rapist because of a stupid thought they have no control over.
I'm obsessed with my own death/destruction. I am compelled to traumatize others so that I will not suffer alone.
I have pure O ocd and whomever you are out there and think it's hopeless, there is help and God is there for you!!!
God bless you for sharing your story.
Im 14 and went through a severe type suddenly from 11 to 13. Always be aware :)
I know exactly how you feel. I have gone through it also. Still going through it. It really is worse then hell. I wanted to take my life many times. I also have Bi Polar . OCD is by far the worst.
I started medication for my OCD at the start of this year which has helped reduce the intrusive thoughts. I’m also currently doing EMDR with clinical psych. It’s helping. I can function again 💙
I'm so glad i found this video. I literally had never heard about this until now and i think i have it. Actually I have the impression that many people have it! This certainly makes me feel like i'm not that monster!
I also have it someway and I also actually think quite many people have it!
@@you-vi2tm it sucks, but i hope we get better
Mabuhay. Thanks for sharing your story 💜
Thank you
Hi. I have officially diagnosed with ADHD, which I discovery by myself earlier and one psychiatrist told me I am a OCD type person...??? I have some little... very little just a few compulsions which looks like contamination OCD compulsions, but my intrusive thoughts are generally and mainly about two big topics... Bullying periodically during life and sexual intrusive thoughts... First is definitely Trauma... mainly childhood, but in fact periodically during whole life (now I'm 48). But I have had just few sex during life and have no full-blown, real romantic/sexual relationships (just one fling, one so called 'one night stand' and prostitutes whom I've paid - body count 12 where 10 were prostitutes). And I lost my virginity at 23... And after 27 till 47 (during 20 years) I have no any sex at all... during 1 and a half year I was with 7 prostitutes go to them periodically... Now I always think about sex and nervous about lack of normal sex and lack of many sexual partners during my life... Always nervous about 'body count' and have no 'normal' romantic/sexual relationship, nervous about that I had have not girlfriend at all... So I have question and no one (I mean first of all mental health providers) still explain me what condition I have... and what level of severity... OCD, Trauma-related OCD, CPTSD and/or AvPD....?????????
I hope your life a lot... MUCH better now and you were found and maybe even more find about what happen with you and be even better and better... It's very important to find not exactly the truth about self and world around you but maximum be near to truth...
Good Luck and Good Health to You and Thank You for this video...
I was shocked when I got the OCD diagnosis. I thought it was only me with dibiltating repeated rumination (hours locked in bathrooms). And I’m not particularly hygienic ie not washing hands all the time as per the stereotype 😂.
My obsessions were about knowing everything, being amazing company and then about fear of not sleeping (guess what…I got insomnia too).
Thanks for sharing and reducing stigma. I feel seen.
PS drugs and CBT helped me keep it away until I could change my thoughts x
i just want to give this man a big hug 💕
& a wat else sexxxxy man?
Wow, yeah, thanks for this video, I suffered the same, and I also managed to get better with therapy over the years
Important message ❤
I’ve suffered with this for a while now. It had me believe I was a sick and evil person once: thinking about my best friends partners, lacking attention during conversations because you’re just thinking about them naked, and even thinking you’re a danger to people. None of it is true, but thinking the same thoughts over and over again is torturous. Bringing it up to people and telling them straight up has helped me the most, no matter how uncomfortable it makes anybody. I can’t help it, so why hide it?
It gets better ❤️ Therapy and medication helped me to get out of this . Have hope you can do this
Thank you.
geia sou re mixali ! th katara mas ehei vrei me to OCD re file ? Elpizo oloi mas na to ekmidenisoume oso pernaei o kairos . Pragmatika niwthw oti einai apo ta xeirotera pragmata pou to mialo mou mporei na pathene . Here we are omos
I have OCD and it runs very strongly in our family. I have many cousins and aunts and uncles that have it too. Mine is mostly ruminating and intrusive thoughts, but it also manifests physically as well.
Martin is so perfect to me 😍💙
Yes. One of the world’s handsomest chaps. 💙
Is Excellent that you share your history, so the mental sickness stigma eventually go away!!!😌
...I'm a Mental patient too, on the daily battle😊😉✌🏼
I'm sixty now and grew up with OCD. The first time I read a book about it was as a college student and I cried thinking about all the years I had suffered without anyone professional knowing what I was struggling with. I don't technically have OCD anymore, but ending the last sentence with a preposition (with) is bothering me a bit. LOL
Hola!
Tengo 37, desde los 14 sufro de depresión y un leve ocd pero tengo ya varios años que el ocd se me está empeorando pero ahí voy, en pocas palabras mi vida es muy parecida a la de esta historia.
This is brilliant. Also, I am surprised to learn that intrusive thoughts are considered OCD. I never drew that connection but it looks plausible.
You should write a book, glad you are on the mend
It was part of postnatal stuff for me but a bigger longer pattern also connected into being neurodivergent (autism, inattentive ADHD, DME with additional SpLDs and speech difficulties) and also mh based health anxiety coming up with different potential diagnoses in a related way so I struggled to get a diagnosis. But relatively unusually for autistics CBT helped though just on the reinforcement cycle of checking myself if not so easily ruminations always but sometimes & also via self help brain lock. These helped me manage the issues and DP/DR alongside as well. Not officially diagnosed with that. There's a fb support group for staring ocd as well that I'm in. There's probably moral OCD and relationship OCD going on as well, but it's harder to tackle. Don't tell me not to *think* lol There was scrupulosity as well. Don't spend all night praying apologies about everything or compulsive bible reading as much as i did. But sometimes I do circle myself when I get most agitated. My level of overwhelm is a big part of it.
I am neurotic about sex. Performance anxiety, usually have to get comfortable with someone before I can climax & can only make myself climax which I think is very weird, have obsessive fear that if someone looks me in the face I will DEFINITELY not be able to climax...I don't know if that's OCD related, I think it's just anxiety which I have a general problem with anyway...Never heard of this described as OCD. Good video.
I’m just like him 😢.