for us we completely go blank so kinda like space out but more intense and if lets say we're in school then yes stuttering if we are asking teacher stuff. Then when someone finally fronts it's a lot of blinking to adjust being back in control again, to see where we are, and to assess the danger (if a protector) the weirdest thing with ours is we usually feel like we're drowning and the world goes blank, then boom, finally back, if we dont go blank, then it's an INTENSE INTENSE sick feeling. (that just happened to us for a few day long switch... yeah it was hell. like you're gonna pass out, freezing, upset stomach, and overall weakness and confusion.) sorry for this being long we're an undiagnosed OSDD1B system (maybe DID? apparently amnesia gets worse as you age) and parents would get furious if they knew since "we don"t have trauma" --Aether (Host) and ✨ Starry ✨ (emotional protector)
That's crazy - you've literally just described our switches.🫢😊 We don't get flushed, but we often stutter n blink a lot just before n then the yawn is the actual switch. We've only seen one system online that yawns, so it'd be interesting to see how common it is. We know of one that sneezes. It's certainly not an easy disorder. It's a daily struggle.❤
@@ChezVegaswe blink a lot when we’re getting switchy too. And then we yawn 3-4 times and the yawn is us switching. It’s like we switch in segments until we’re all the way there. I think of it like gears clinking into place.
Dissociative identity disorder is extremely rare and people think 🤔 they have it and the truth is it's like 2 percent of the population of the world 🌎...that is the true facts .
In my opinion , when we switch or me specifically, it doesn't feel like anything. It's just one moment we acting like on person and the next like a different person. Sometimes we don't even realize when we switch. Sometime I even forget I have this disorder because I just switch so smoothly.
Like you're having a conversation and all of a sudden get really pissed off / triggered by someone / something they did, then you're suddenly this angry angry person who doesn't even know why they are so angry and can't verbalise feelings properly and it just doesn't feel like you. Just really head FULL of nothing, like packed full. And talking and pissed off and wanting to punch the other person and then a bit later hating yourself for suddenly being this angry nutter that just doesn't feel like you??? But it does feel like you. But it doesn't 🤷🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️
It happens for me when I am under severe stress I’ll usually blink slowly a lot then feel nothing and be completely fine , happy even it’s wonderful I am blessed my brain found a way to cope after all the trauma I’ve endured.
The scary part for me was how well I functioned on autopilot. Lawyers couldn't understand how someone so abused could do so well in school? I would start shaking when switching started. I had to get out of danger before any healing could take place. Mine lasted a couple of years. I have never been able to recover my missing memories. Many block out the trauma part. I did the opposite. My mind obsessed over the bad parts. It makes sense for me because my safety back then depended on my being able to keep going over my chores looking for any mistakes. It became a hampster wheel where I kept going over and over the same chores. I had to learn physical cues to make them stop. I had an out of body experience once. It is facinating and frightening. I was afraid I couldn't get back for awhile. I did but it took some time. Once I became aware of it? I tried harder to prevent it from erasing my memory. Just like it has been said, it was extreme torture that created it. It helped me function in school even though internally I was losing my mind. I still suffer from my internal memories controling my thoughts. It gets so bad I hate to sleep. That doesn't help my health. It isn't as bad as it use to be. Sometimes I get so involved in my imagination that it feels so real, I go through routines in them as if they are reality. I have to really watch my stress level. I have to usually get up, do something both physical and mental. I play a lot of Spider. He is telling the truth. Once I knew I did this, once out of danger, I was able to find my way out of it. Cognitive Behavior Training helped me learn how to control it better. I needed it 20 years earlier. Drugs did not help and I'm glad I rejected them over time. I had to practice new behaviors to overcome the bad ones I developed over time. Listening to your explanations makes me think my obsessive thoughts are a kind of residue left over from when I use to switch personalities subconsciously.
Listen to this man, he's right. As someone who was diagnosed with DID in August 22 this guy's depiction of switching is accurate. I first started showing DID symptoms at 5 but my alters had been there since before I was two. Because of the amnesiac barriers I wasn't aware I was switching. I was constantly dissociating. Sometimes it was quick sometimes I'd stare into space for long periods of time. I am literally missing my entire childhood. I was misdiagnosed with ADHD because I was 'inattentive". Finally got the DID diagnosis in my 30s. "Awareness is the first step" YAS. Now I can control my switches because the amnesiac barriers are gone. Even controlled switches take A LOT of communication, planing, and cooperation. Planned switching isn't great all the time because switching of any kind, planned or unplanned is extremely draining and I often get a headache.
@@chettagirl01 that's very unique condition I finished the show called Mr.robot and the main character has DID but the ending is even more interesting. I just wanted to know how DID feels hope you guys can take control over this condition ❤
@@BlackFire2021 it’s different than reality I never seen a show that really depicted DID, I have it so I know I wanted to talk to other DID and see how they are functioning in real world
it used to scare us/freak us out, suddenly we felt like our eyes were cameras watching everything play out, the lighting changed hues, we felt floaty, we didn't feel real. it still feels lile that when we switch but we understand why it happens, other times we don't notice that it's happened because of how close someone else is.
Oh my god. How are you able to describe it so accurately… usually my eyes feel like cameras when I swap to a specific personality. It’s pretty cool how this even all happens in your head when you think about it…
Sometimes when we switch, it feels like our "soul" is being pulled up to the left. Sometimes we can't strong thoughts together. Sometimes fuzzy. Sometimes we realize we're really really angry and that our angerholder is fronting.
I'm not sure I have this but I think I've realized I dissociate. My biggest thing is I lose time. I can't focus. Or I'm emotional but fighting to not be. I start crying then suddenly I stop and can't remember why I'm even sad but I know I am. I've been taking off my glasses without realizing it. I wake up and don't have a recollection of taking them off. I "talk" with myself. In my head it sounds like "what are we going to do?" " Kaitlin you have to do something." "I know I do." It's weird. I say the "switch" I see happen, is when I'm upset I switch and now I feel nothing. I don't even know why I'm crying. Or when someone is angry I'm gone. I just zone out
i was diagnosed by a DID specialist after being "self diagnosed" for 2 years. i still have a lot of denial. switching can be really sneaky sometimes, we have a particular alter that's a master at blending in just enough that we don't realize he's there until he takes control. other times if we're in conversation we start not understanding understanding what the other person is saying, and a few minutes later we realize we were switching. sometimes it's very abrupt, like if an alter who is very timid and private suddenly hears someone at the door.
This is exactly how I feel a lot. I have been misdiagnosed since I was a kid. I’m in the denial / realisation stage because I don’t actually want this, like I just want a normal brain I’m done with this one, we’ve spent too much time together we need some space 🤣
I was diagnosed with absolutely nothing and I’m still not. I’ve shown signs of OCD, ADHD, Depression, and DID. Due to my childhood trauma I’ve become incredibly good at hiding my personalities. I am self diagnosed currently but I’ve realized that I have been showing the symptoms of DID for years. My personalities feel so incredibly diverse, they each have their own desires and people they admire, their own will and choices, appetite and even their own talents as well as skills. Up until I self diagnosed I felt so split from reality, as if I was watching myself decide, like how people say you gain a conscious at the age of 5, but for me it felt like I gained one at 14. I’m not alone anymore, and I never want to be again
I didn't know that I was an "Alter" after over 5 years until we just recently found out that we most likely have DID. This video helped me a bit, because honestly, I've felt all of these before. Chills, foggy head / lightheaded, and I've felt detached from the body after a switch. So thank you for this! 🙏
We get so many of these symptoms, and it was absolutely scary in the beginning. We still struggle every day. We can get 'switching headaches' as well, migraines, and seizures as symptoms of the DID in general but also as part of switching. The switch usually feels like you're falling backwards into your head, everything sounds like you're underwater, and looks like you're getting tunnel vision. Also, loved in She-Hulk Ep.1 how Bruce had gone through an example of fusion and tried using DBT skills to help Jennifer work on emotional regulation. We use DBT a lot with our therapists and psychologists. CBT is specifically triggering for us but could be very helpful for others.
I've literally switched without thinking about anything sometimes and it DOES feel like I'm falling back into myself when it happens. My husband has even made comments every once in awhile that he's seen at least 4 different alters switch through real quick and I won't notice it at first. Sometimes switching does make me feel anxious and guilty (guilty for no apparent reason at all mostly because I don't do anything outside of work besides stay home). I will say some of the time I do feel a sort of detachment from myself and people around me. It's overwhelming at times too and I get upset very easily over it, I don't feel "normal" and that frustrates me immensely in those moments.
the best way for me to explain switching is zoning out and then having thoughts that aren’t your thoughts. for us (the system) it’s usually gradual, like it takes a few minutes to actually switch between alters, but sometimes its literally just a few seconds and suddenly a completely different person has control of our mind and body. it feels so weird to explain “thinking thoughts that aren’t your thoughts” to people without DID but that’s genuinely the best way i can describe it.
Lol exactly.. it's a huge spectrum. The human mind is the most deep complexity of spectrums there is as far as we know. For most of us, having DID is a life saver and a horrible curse. I am trying to deal with my system rn as it has been dysfunctioning again. Im not even going to try and describe the problems and what it's like but it really sucks and disruptive and frustrating and stressful.
Hi, I am (possibly) switching and this came up on my search for "what to do while dissociating" Sometimes we just switch instantaneously before we know it. A lot of us get really tired and spaced out. I like to describe my switches as being hit by a ton of bricks and then pushed underwater We probably would get angry when we switch if we were present enough. Some switches are seconds, some have lasted hours. Everyone in our system experiences it somewhat differently. Just like you described, it's all a spectrum and its important to recognize that
Man thanks for presenting this in like an informational way- and pointing out that what people think of right off the bat isn't necessarily what's up. Honestly didn't even notice the mispronounciation. Thank you for sharing this! Can't wait to check out the rest of your channel
I was told of my symptoms when I was diagnosed. I also have people that trigger my identities to swap or it can be gradual when I’m alone. My cheeks often turn red when I swap too (usually to a specific personality). Or the trigger can just be a hairstyle or even attire. Sometimes I don’t feel in control of my life but now I know why! I have DID!
Now you have me thinking! I was diagnosed with a couple different personality disorders and suffer a few of these symptoms...so now i wonder if I actually do this and switch in that moment. Time to start a new log!
My bf feels cold and shivers as well I remember him telling me that he got dizzy. New to all of this but I want to help him out and be just there for him. He did go to multiple psychologists but each one told them that he doesn’t have it. No one believed him, it hurts me when he says that he never expected to be believed, even from loved ones. And it sucks that we are Long-Distance since his protective alter tries to break us up and everything that connects us is a phone.
I've battled with DID my whole life I'm 56, was diagnosed at 18 Loosing time is the worst I have a lot more control on who comes out I have a insider who is a alcoholic Very hard 😢
I think I switch as sometimes I react on the same situations different. I have one of my personalities very strong one and confident and I call her when I need to do some serious business. She always comes and goes through situations very easy, not like if I stay in my other, that have no confidence. Sometimes I even think I look different and use different clothes.
When J don’t feel like dealing with something it feels like handing off the light to someone else. Or mid conversation I can feel myself switch off when I get excited or having multiple accounts of memories is nuts
Okay so, I think I have DID and I have taken 2 tests (some that don’t cost money and that aren’t 100% accurate so idk) and one was 56/125 and another one was like.. I probably have it I don’t remember. I talked to my therapist about it and she said that she didn’t know if she had it or not. I have 2 or 3 “personalities” and 1 of them likes gore, dark videos, talks sexual to mostly females, ships people together, tries kissing people, flips people off, curses a lot, has a low voice, etc. My second “personality” is bubbly, has a high voice, compliments people, very shy, likes teddy bears, likes reading and writing, likes anything pastel, loves hugs, loves cuddling, etc. My other “personality” just acts stupid all the time. I’ve seen many videos where people switch and they don’t know what’s going on, and they find themselves in weird places. I am always fully aware when these personalities come out but I forget some memories. My body moves on it’s own a lot. One time I thought about getting a drink and I randomly started walking, even though I had no control over it. When my sexual personality comes out, my voice gets deep and I have no control over my body at that point and my stomach tenses up every time that personality comes out. My other personality has a really high voice and I can’t control it at all, and it’s hard to get it back to normal. My therapist said I may or may not have it, my best friend said I have it, my boyfriend doesn’t know if I have it, and the tests were just a 50/50. I have always wondered if I have DID since I can’t control my body when these personalities come out. My rowdy personality comes out from 12AM-3PM, my shy and bubbly personality comes out every 5 hours I guess, and my dumb personality comes out once a week.
I used to have multiple personalities but they murdered one another to take claim of the physical vessel. It’s something I wouldn’t wish on anyone. Truly not fun. You’ll wake up and be were you where psychologically 6-8 months prior and then you’ll switch again and not have any connection to your previous months of memories. Switching is extremely physically taxing. I don’t know how to explain it. Brutal on the physical body in inexplicable ways.
I get a clouded head and kind of space out. My vision and hearing feel a million miles away. I can’t speak for the others as I don’t have voices of them or remember anything that happened during a switch. I only found out because I went to a psychologists for memory issues and adhd testing. I have been professionally diagnosed with DID btw.
I can feel my pupils dialate and atmospheric pressure change - I black out "not here" this unit is temporarily out of service try again later - thats how i know joe is gone sam is here
it's called dissociative because detachment not dissasociative. obviously there's a reason why. @@seren3797 here is what dictionary says: Dissociation and disassociation are two similar words that have different meanings. Dissociation is the act of disconnecting from one’s thoughts or feelings, while disassociation is the act of separating oneself from an event1. Dissociation is primarily used in psychology to describe the psychological process of disruption and detachment, while disassociation finds broader application in psychology, sociology, and business contexts2.
Honestly there’s something I was wondering about, how do u know if you have a split personality? I mean I think that you gave an example of how to know but I’m still not too sure, and this might be a very weird question but how do I get multiple or at least one split personality?
DID and OSDD as trauma disorders typically stem from prolonged childhood trauma. The clinical understanding is that it keeps your brain from integrating into one identity, so each part develops separately to some extent. Awareness for us was only possible after moving away from our parents who were associated with childhood trauma. We felt more safe and learned about DID on YT - we related to symptoms which was terrifying, and we began to actually exhibit severe disorders that had always been repressed like anxiety, panic disorder, and bipolar. Took a couple years of therapy and exploring self-identity before our brain was ready for us to know about each other.
if you're looking how to get at least one split "personality," invent time travel, travel back to when you were under seven or six years old and horrifically traumatize your infant self every single day for an extensive amount of time until their brain is no longer able to take the pain. there you go! free DID :)
so.. if i have a bunch of different moods/episodes/traits that i can switch through either depending on the situation, something triggers it, or it just kinda happens (maybe bipolar? Idk) and i grouped them up into "personalities" that i can switch through without really noticing.. but like i still remember people im talking to or loved ones, could i have DID perchance?
Can someone explain something to me? What does it mean when you suddenly hear someone yell a word in your head? It feels like someone is literally yelling the word right into my hear when it happens and I have feeling like it is fully real like someone is really there whenever it happens, but no one is even around.
Please, there is no "ass" in the word "dissociative!" And no one is changing personalities; a separate identity within the single personality is shifting forward into the "fronting space" while others often move more so into the "background" internally. Please don't add to misinformation and confusion - it is important to use the clear and correct language when teaching new information! This disorder has enough stigma, it isn't a fad, it isn't quirky, it isn't "getting to have friends in your head to never be bored!" It is a trauma based developmental disorder that forms to keep a young child alive in the wake of mind shattering realities and horrors...
I'm known as a chameleon.. I'm 48 and I'm just understing myself. I was diagnosed with did in the late 90s. I still have problem with that diagnosis tho. I've also been diagnosed with autism. I do have many voices. I'm extremely loud but also very softpoken. As a young chld I was a mutist. I 100 procent know what it means.
just two corrections, its dissociative not dissASSocative, plus neither hulk or fight club were about DID and Split is a HORRIBLE resprensentation that demoises people with the disorder
I find this to be pretty cool. It could probably help with people's loneliness from time to time and I find the idea of feeling like you have multiple people inside your mind pretty neat Now... if it DOES affect someone in a negative way, hopefully you can get through it
tbh, it makes me lonelier. like so chronically, painfully lonely. and I like a lot of alters. but they're not always around, and not a lot of people get it
.....DID is a trauma disorder where you are so traumatized by a situation, starting from childhood, that your mind completely removes itself from that moment of reality, convincing you it wasnt real and that you didn't experience it. But the fact that you did experience it is what creates an alter. Somebody has to hold that memory. But your mind knows you cannot survive with the knowledge of that event taking place. So a piece of you is buried deep inside your subconscious while "you" keep living life. It is a disorder that convinces you that you're fine when you're not. But a point comes for most systems where your alters can no longer remain invisible to you (especially after further or repeated trauma later in life) and you start to notice you arent alone in your own mind. You feel crazy and as if you're lying to yourself. You cant tell if your train of thought is even your own (because it often isnt). After a lot of therapy and self work, yes, some alters can be friends and crack jokes and be supportive just like anyone in the outer world. But there are also PLENTY of moments where you feel more alone then ever before because guess what, even your own brain doesnt know who you are, or understand your feeling and experiences. So you bury yourself deeper OR have mental breakdowns while trying to work through the crushing feelings that come with explaining your trauma to anyone, including the inner strangers that are technically yourself, and reliving it while you explain. It takes years. Decades. To gain trust within yourself and really learn who you are because there are so many fragments of your own personality that each have their own experiences and expression. It may seem fun and exciting because you have "so many friends" with you all the time. But its usually more like having (personally) upwards of 20 roommates who you didnt choose to live with, who dont all get along, who dont all like the same things, are all different ages, and each want something different out of life. Yet they all share one body and are only living one life. Its far less fun and games then people take into consideration. Arguments with 5+ people at a time that you can't explain to someone in your physical reality is a regular experience and extremely lonely. Feeling disconnected from your body, your family, your friends, your life... Is an almost daily experience. And we dont just have an inner world cellphone connection to call front whatever "friends" we want whenever we want. Its sporadic, hard to control and can seriously effect a persons life when it comes to jobs, relationships, and making big decisions. I know that no harm was meant by this coment and that its fun as a singlet (fully formed single personality) to imagine having friends that are always with you. But this is the type of misunderstandings about serious disorders that can damage the acceptance of communitys. I also mean no harm by this explanation. I just feel, as an osdd system myself, very strongly about this topic. 🤍 thank you for coming to my TEDtalk
I'm suddenly become the movie lover i feels to watch the (already watched) but good film once again which makes me to be enjoy but it doesn't seems to be real and suddenly it causes mouth breathing because i'm on the way to diagnose the disociation Can any body pls help me which condition or disorder is this and on which sector does it belongs to
What do you do when people don't believe you have that disorder some people actually think people are faking when some people are brave enough to come out with something that big a problem they have. I'm on of them I have alot and I had to tell my fiance I see at first she thought I was joking then she started to realize how different I be at times like not even me at all. And at time I do know how to control them since I've had this problem when I was going on 6 my mother found out and im going on 33
Dissociative* not dissasociative What I learned from my therapist who is specialized in trauma-based dissociation is that inherently people with DID cannot control their switching. I think you can “allow” switching if you suppress it but you can’t choose to switch
I find it amazing how so many people claim to have a rare mental illness like it’s trendy or a badge of honor. I appreciate the point of educating people on the issue, but it seems to encourage a small subset of people by give them validation and a sense of belonging. I have autism, adhd, bp1 and never understood the allure some people have towards feigning mental illnesses. No, you don’t have adhd cause you weren’t paying attention. No, you don’t have OCD cause you like things orderly. No, you aren’t bipolar cause you were mad 10 minutes ago and now you’re not.
How did you get self aware of you don’t even notice it ?? 😮 sometimes I’m thinking about it if I say or doing something that maybe you should while I tune out 👻
*Can you help me.... sometimes I posted something online and later few seconds I deleted them for no reason, also I get angry suddenly and after few seconds got calm like nothing happened and I used to forget things for example where I have put my keys or anything important. Does this means I'm having DID ?????? Please reply*
This could be a lot of things, and with this little info, I don't feel the right to say you do or don't have DID. I'd recommend looking more into it though!
I don't know why it bothers me so much, but.. It's not DIS-ASSO-CIATION. It's DIS-SO-CIATION. Disassociation is an active, conscious, removing oneself from a situation. Like a breakup. Dissociation is an involuntary disconnection from reality.
To those saying he's pronounced dissociative wrong, he isn't though? I've heard it pronounced either way by licensed professionals. Like tom-ay-to/ tom-aw-to The pronunciation of dissociative wasn't the point of the video anyway.
@@SandstoneCare You're welcome. Those getting hung up on the pronunciations missed the entire point of the video. I know a lady named Thuy, who is Vietnamese and a licensed therapist, she pronounces dissociative as dis-a-tive. It would be incredibly rude of me to tell her to pronounce the word 'the proper way'. Different accents can affect how a word is pronounced too.
Ey breh I just want you to know you said a bunch of examples of things I have. And I just want to say to everyone that feels the same way grow tf up. I’m 23 I learned. Nothin don’t matter but who you take care of that’s about it! Good luck
I always put the headaches down to dehydration. I feel quite stupid now. Still a bit in denial though to be honest. I have 2 kids.. I don’t want to be seen as crazy. But I do just want to be on the right meds and sort my life out. Get these f!Kers out my head 🤣
omg its dissociative not dissAHssociative. Also, mentioning those movies as even remotely representative of DID is so damaging. This is absolute rubbish.
Yeah...fakers. Most of the time people with DID or OSDD often don't realize their switches, and not even the people around them do either. Those tiktokers are very bad at acting :)
Some people yawn 🥱 or get flushed or blink a lot, or space out, even stutter.
for us we completely go blank so kinda like space out but more intense and if lets say we're in school then yes stuttering if we are asking teacher stuff. Then when someone finally fronts it's a lot of blinking to adjust being back in control again, to see where we are, and to assess the danger (if a protector) the weirdest thing with ours is we usually feel like we're drowning and the world goes blank, then boom, finally back, if we dont go blank, then it's an INTENSE INTENSE sick feeling. (that just happened to us for a few day long switch... yeah it was hell. like you're gonna pass out, freezing, upset stomach, and overall weakness and confusion.)
sorry for this being long we're an undiagnosed OSDD1B system (maybe DID? apparently amnesia gets worse as you age) and parents would get furious if they knew since "we don"t have trauma"
--Aether (Host) and ✨ Starry ✨ (emotional protector)
That's crazy - you've literally just described our switches.🫢😊 We don't get flushed, but we often stutter n blink a lot just before n then the yawn is the actual switch. We've only seen one system online that yawns, so it'd be interesting to see how common it is. We know of one that sneezes. It's certainly not an easy disorder. It's a daily struggle.❤
@@ChezVegaswe blink a lot when we’re getting switchy too. And then we yawn 3-4 times and the yawn is us switching. It’s like we switch in segments until we’re all the way there. I think of it like gears clinking into place.
I have a stutter, I blink and yawn a lot too
Dissociative identity disorder is extremely rare and people think 🤔 they have it and the truth is it's like 2 percent of the population of the world 🌎...that is the true facts .
In my opinion , when we switch or me specifically, it doesn't feel like anything. It's just one moment we acting like on person and the next like a different person. Sometimes we don't even realize when we switch. Sometime I even forget I have this disorder because I just switch so smoothly.
Like you're having a conversation and all of a sudden get really pissed off / triggered by someone / something they did, then you're suddenly this angry angry person who doesn't even know why they are so angry and can't verbalise feelings properly and it just doesn't feel like you. Just really head FULL of nothing, like packed full. And talking and pissed off and wanting to punch the other person and then a bit later hating yourself for suddenly being this angry nutter that just doesn't feel like you??? But it does feel like you. But it doesn't 🤷🏻♀️🤦🏻♀️
Yea
@@user-sz5ky8jv8z I hate when this happens to me I just be mad at the world for no reason sometimes
No you can continue your conversation but through p.o.v your current personality , you may become angry, something@@user-sz5ky8jv8z
Same
It happens for me when I am under severe stress I’ll usually blink slowly a lot then feel nothing and be completely fine , happy even it’s wonderful I am blessed my brain found a way to cope after all the trauma I’ve endured.
The scary part for me was how well I functioned on autopilot. Lawyers couldn't understand how someone so abused could do so well in school? I would start shaking when switching started. I had to get out of danger before any healing could take place.
Mine lasted a couple of years. I have never been able to recover my missing memories. Many block out the trauma part. I did the opposite. My mind obsessed over the bad parts. It makes sense for me because my safety back then depended on my being able to keep going over my chores looking for any mistakes. It became a hampster wheel where I kept going over and over the same chores. I had to learn physical cues to make them stop.
I had an out of body experience once. It is facinating and frightening. I was afraid I couldn't get back for awhile. I did but it took some time.
Once I became aware of it? I tried harder to prevent it from erasing my memory.
Just like it has been said, it was extreme torture that created it. It helped me function in school even though internally I was losing my mind.
I still suffer from my internal memories controling my thoughts. It gets so bad I hate to sleep. That doesn't help my health.
It isn't as bad as it use to be. Sometimes I get so involved in my imagination that it feels so real, I go through routines in them as if they are reality. I have to really watch my stress level. I have to usually get up, do something both physical and mental. I play a lot of Spider.
He is telling the truth. Once I knew I did this, once out of danger, I was able to find my way out of it.
Cognitive Behavior Training helped me learn how to control it better. I needed it 20 years earlier. Drugs did not help and I'm glad I rejected them over time. I had to practice new behaviors to overcome the bad ones I developed over time.
Listening to your explanations makes me think my obsessive thoughts are a kind of residue left over from when I use to switch personalities subconsciously.
Listen to this man, he's right. As someone who was diagnosed with DID in August 22 this guy's depiction of switching is accurate. I first started showing DID symptoms at 5 but my alters had been there since before I was two. Because of the amnesiac barriers I wasn't aware I was switching. I was constantly dissociating. Sometimes it was quick sometimes I'd stare into space for long periods of time. I am literally missing my entire childhood. I was misdiagnosed with ADHD because I was 'inattentive". Finally got the DID diagnosis in my 30s.
"Awareness is the first step"
YAS.
Now I can control my switches because the amnesiac barriers are gone. Even controlled switches take A LOT of communication, planing, and cooperation. Planned switching isn't great all the time because switching of any kind, planned or unplanned is extremely draining and I often get a headache.
Can you talk to me I have DID and I’m lost 😢
Do you remember anything when a alter is around or you just lose the time and don't remember anything??
@@BlackFire2021 personally, l lose time and don’t remember that’s why I wanted to connect to other systems
@@chettagirl01 that's very unique condition I finished the show called Mr.robot and the main character has DID but the ending is even more interesting. I just wanted to know how DID feels hope you guys can take control over this condition ❤
@@BlackFire2021 it’s different than reality I never seen a show that really depicted DID, I have it so I know I wanted to talk to other DID and see how they are functioning in real world
it used to scare us/freak us out, suddenly we felt like our eyes were cameras watching everything play out, the lighting changed hues, we felt floaty, we didn't feel real.
it still feels lile that when we switch but we understand why it happens, other times we don't notice that it's happened because of how close someone else is.
Oh my god. How are you able to describe it so accurately… usually my eyes feel like cameras when I swap to a specific personality. It’s pretty cool how this even all happens in your head when you think about it…
Sometimes when we switch, it feels like our "soul" is being pulled up to the left. Sometimes we can't strong thoughts together. Sometimes fuzzy. Sometimes we realize we're really really angry and that our angerholder is fronting.
My head always feels heavy and then the world gets kinda fuzzy
Thank you for sharing your experience. It helps to show others that they are not alone if they're also struggling with DID.
Yeah, heavy and really really full of nothing?
I'm not sure I have this but I think I've realized I dissociate. My biggest thing is I lose time. I can't focus. Or I'm emotional but fighting to not be. I start crying then suddenly I stop and can't remember why I'm even sad but I know I am. I've been taking off my glasses without realizing it. I wake up and don't have a recollection of taking them off. I "talk" with myself. In my head it sounds like "what are we going to do?" " Kaitlin you have to do something." "I know I do." It's weird.
I say the "switch" I see happen, is when I'm upset I switch and now I feel nothing. I don't even know why I'm crying. Or when someone is angry I'm gone. I just zone out
i was diagnosed by a DID specialist after being "self diagnosed" for 2 years. i still have a lot of denial. switching can be really sneaky sometimes, we have a particular alter that's a master at blending in just enough that we don't realize he's there until he takes control. other times if we're in conversation we start not understanding understanding what the other person is saying, and a few minutes later we realize we were switching. sometimes it's very abrupt, like if an alter who is very timid and private suddenly hears someone at the door.
This is exactly how I feel a lot. I have been misdiagnosed since I was a kid. I’m in the denial / realisation stage because I don’t actually want this, like I just want a normal brain I’m done with this one, we’ve spent too much time together we need some space 🤣
I was diagnosed with absolutely nothing and I’m still not. I’ve shown signs of OCD, ADHD, Depression, and DID. Due to my childhood trauma I’ve become incredibly good at hiding my personalities. I am self diagnosed currently but I’ve realized that I have been showing the symptoms of DID for years. My personalities feel so incredibly diverse, they each have their own desires and people they admire, their own will and choices, appetite and even their own talents as well as skills. Up until I self diagnosed I felt so split from reality, as if I was watching myself decide, like how people say you gain a conscious at the age of 5, but for me it felt like I gained one at 14. I’m not alone anymore, and I never want to be again
I didn't know that I was an "Alter" after over 5 years until we just recently found out that we most likely have DID.
This video helped me a bit, because honestly, I've felt all of these before. Chills, foggy head / lightheaded, and I've felt detached from the body after a switch.
So thank you for this! 🙏
We get so many of these symptoms, and it was absolutely scary in the beginning. We still struggle every day. We can get 'switching headaches' as well, migraines, and seizures as symptoms of the DID in general but also as part of switching. The switch usually feels like you're falling backwards into your head, everything sounds like you're underwater, and looks like you're getting tunnel vision.
Also, loved in She-Hulk Ep.1 how Bruce had gone through an example of fusion and tried using DBT skills to help Jennifer work on emotional regulation. We use DBT a lot with our therapists and psychologists. CBT is specifically triggering for us but could be very helpful for others.
We wow ur like venom 😮
I've literally switched without thinking about anything sometimes and it DOES feel like I'm falling back into myself when it happens. My husband has even made comments every once in awhile that he's seen at least 4 different alters switch through real quick and I won't notice it at first. Sometimes switching does make me feel anxious and guilty (guilty for no apparent reason at all mostly because I don't do anything outside of work besides stay home). I will say some of the time I do feel a sort of detachment from myself and people around me. It's overwhelming at times too and I get upset very easily over it, I don't feel "normal" and that frustrates me immensely in those moments.
“we” 🙄
As someone on the journey of dealing with DID for years now, this is by far one of the best explanations I’ve seen for it! 🙏🏼
the best way for me to explain switching is zoning out and then having thoughts that aren’t your thoughts. for us (the system) it’s usually gradual, like it takes a few minutes to actually switch between alters, but sometimes its literally just a few seconds and suddenly a completely different person has control of our mind and body. it feels so weird to explain “thinking thoughts that aren’t your thoughts” to people without DID but that’s genuinely the best way i can describe it.
I know it happens and i can’t stop it scares me so much because of what others will think
Someone one time related me to the movie split and I have never been so INSULTED 💀👊🏼
Lol exactly.. it's a huge spectrum. The human mind is the most deep complexity of spectrums there is as far as we know.
For most of us, having DID is a life saver and a horrible curse.
I am trying to deal with my system rn as it has been dysfunctioning again. Im not even going to try and describe the problems and what it's like but it really sucks and disruptive and frustrating and stressful.
We appreciate you sharing your experiences and thoughts on this. Thank you Michael
Hi, I am (possibly) switching and this came up on my search for "what to do while dissociating"
Sometimes we just switch instantaneously before we know it. A lot of us get really tired and spaced out. I like to describe my switches as being hit by a ton of bricks and then pushed underwater
We probably would get angry when we switch if we were present enough. Some switches are seconds, some have lasted hours. Everyone in our system experiences it somewhat differently. Just like you described, it's all a spectrum and its important to recognize that
Man thanks for presenting this in like an informational way- and pointing out that what people think of right off the bat isn't necessarily what's up. Honestly didn't even notice the mispronounciation.
Thank you for sharing this! Can't wait to check out the rest of your channel
We are happy to hear you found this information helpful! Thank you so much for your feedback. Have a great day😄
I was told of my symptoms when I was diagnosed. I also have people that trigger my identities to swap or it can be gradual when I’m alone. My cheeks often turn red when I swap too (usually to a specific personality). Or the trigger can just be a hairstyle or even attire. Sometimes I don’t feel in control of my life but now I know why! I have DID!
We are so many that sometimes we can’t walk, talk or hear clearly.
Now you have me thinking! I was diagnosed with a couple different personality disorders and suffer a few of these symptoms...so now i wonder if I actually do this and switch in that moment. Time to start a new log!
When I get stressed, I tend to pull away, stare blankly, get confused and slowed responses.
My bf feels cold and shivers as well I remember him telling me that he got dizzy. New to all of this but I want to help him out and be just there for him. He did go to multiple psychologists but each one told them that he doesn’t have it. No one believed him, it hurts me when he says that he never expected to be believed, even from loved ones. And it sucks that we are Long-Distance since his protective alter tries to break us up and everything that connects us is a phone.
Thank you for promoting awareness and pointing out media misinformation. Please Please Please. ..make sure you pronounce dissociative correctly.
Then I can like the video and I want to :)
Will do! Thank you for your feedback.
I didnt hear the part where he dispelled media representation at all. And yes, the mispronunciation is frustrating. Thanks for mentioning.
Mr robot depicted this better than a lot of other shows/movies! Really amazing show
It feels like someone walking into the room.
I've battled with DID my whole life
I'm 56, was diagnosed at 18
Loosing time is the worst
I have a lot more control on who comes out
I have a insider who is a alcoholic
Very hard 😢
I was just diagnosed with DID. 2 mos ago I was in the ICU with a double subdural hematoma
I have this. And sometimes depending on the alter.. it can feel like a pull within you, as it goes outwards through you
I think I switch as sometimes I react on the same situations different. I have one of my personalities very strong one and confident and I call her when I need to do some serious business. She always comes and goes through situations very easy, not like if I stay in my other, that have no confidence. Sometimes I even think I look different and use different clothes.
When J don’t feel like dealing with something it feels like handing off the light to someone else. Or mid conversation I can feel myself switch off when I get excited or having multiple accounts of memories is nuts
Okay so, I think I have DID and I have taken 2 tests (some that don’t cost money and that aren’t 100% accurate so idk) and one was 56/125 and another one was like.. I probably have it I don’t remember. I talked to my therapist about it and she said that she didn’t know if she had it or not. I have 2 or 3 “personalities” and 1 of them likes gore, dark videos, talks sexual to mostly females, ships people together, tries kissing people, flips people off, curses a lot, has a low voice, etc. My second “personality” is bubbly, has a high voice, compliments people, very shy, likes teddy bears, likes reading and writing, likes anything pastel, loves hugs, loves cuddling, etc. My other “personality” just acts stupid all the time. I’ve seen many videos where people switch and they don’t know what’s going on, and they find themselves in weird places. I am always fully aware when these personalities come out but I forget some memories. My body moves on it’s own a lot. One time I thought about getting a drink and I randomly started walking, even though I had no control over it. When my sexual personality comes out, my voice gets deep and I have no control over my body at that point and my stomach tenses up every time that personality comes out. My other personality has a really high voice and I can’t control it at all, and it’s hard to get it back to normal. My therapist said I may or may not have it, my best friend said I have it, my boyfriend doesn’t know if I have it, and the tests were just a 50/50. I have always wondered if I have DID since I can’t control my body when these personalities come out. My rowdy personality comes out from 12AM-3PM, my shy and bubbly personality comes out every 5 hours I guess, and my dumb personality comes out once a week.
As a person who dosnt know if they do have a disorder I see this as an absoloute win 🙂
As soon as he said can go on for multiple days to weeks to months. I’m like yep. I feeeel that
We have OSDD-1B and we have no idea who's in control more then half the time
I detach, it feels how you might feel if getting knocked out and coming to.
I stutter alot and get tired afterwards its tiring
I wish I could talk to you. The only place I can talk to is a mental facility. They don't have a good reputation .it's traumatizing there.
Does each personality have different names?
sometimes it feels like a Spotify playlist smooth transition or like im being pulled. in nd out of consciousness but confused
How do we treat the disorder?
Thank you for this information. A great deal of is new. Thank you to everyone. In the comments. I learned a great deal.
I used to have multiple personalities but they murdered one another to take claim of the physical vessel. It’s something I wouldn’t wish on anyone. Truly not fun. You’ll wake up and be were you where psychologically 6-8 months prior and then you’ll switch again and not have any connection to your previous months of memories. Switching is extremely physically taxing. I don’t know how to explain it. Brutal on the physical body in inexplicable ways.
for us its usually, spacing out, slight amnesia, and then headache
I get a clouded head and kind of space out. My vision and hearing feel a million miles away. I can’t speak for the others as I don’t have voices of them or remember anything that happened during a switch. I only found out because I went to a psychologists for memory issues and adhd testing. I have been professionally diagnosed with DID btw.
I can feel my pupils dialate and atmospheric pressure change - I black out "not here" this unit is temporarily out of service try again later - thats how i know joe is gone sam is here
you hairstyle is awesome bro
dissociation, not disasociation. :o
it's called dissociative because detachment not dissasociative. obviously there's a reason why. @@seren3797 here is what dictionary says: Dissociation and disassociation are two similar words that have different meanings. Dissociation is the act of disconnecting from one’s thoughts or feelings, while disassociation is the act of separating oneself from an event1. Dissociation is primarily used in psychology to describe the psychological process of disruption and detachment, while disassociation finds broader application in psychology, sociology, and business contexts2.
Can switching last as short as a few minutes or maybe even seconds?
It does in my experience as someone with OSDD.
bro that's all happened in the past few days tf😭
its like ur a computer and u have multiple users signed in
Best DID example is Moon Knight 🌙 aka Marc Spector 💀
How can I control it, I feel like I’m tearing my face in 2 but it doesn’t want to tear at the same time
Just because you see me by myself DOES NOT MEAN I AM ALONE!!!
Honestly there’s something I was wondering about, how do u know if you have a split personality? I mean I think that you gave an example of how to know but I’m still not too sure, and this might be a very weird question but how do I get multiple or at least one split personality?
DID and OSDD as trauma disorders typically stem from prolonged childhood trauma. The clinical understanding is that it keeps your brain from integrating into one identity, so each part develops separately to some extent.
Awareness for us was only possible after moving away from our parents who were associated with childhood trauma. We felt more safe and learned about DID on YT - we related to symptoms which was terrifying, and we began to actually exhibit severe disorders that had always been repressed like anxiety, panic disorder, and bipolar. Took a couple years of therapy and exploring self-identity before our brain was ready for us to know about each other.
if you're looking how to get at least one split "personality," invent time travel, travel back to when you were under seven or six years old and horrifically traumatize your infant self every single day for an extensive amount of time until their brain is no longer able to take the pain. there you go! free DID :)
@@cc-ms5ud wow thx a lot mate! :D
@@cc-ms5ud imma go back after making that in 100years
@@cc-ms5ud LMAO! mom says we don't have trauma but she doesn't see what happened at school or with bio dad and other male family members
so.. if i have a bunch of different moods/episodes/traits that i can switch through either depending on the situation, something triggers it, or it just kinda happens (maybe bipolar? Idk) and i grouped them up into "personalities" that i can switch through without really noticing.. but like i still remember people im talking to or loved ones, could i have DID perchance?
No you do not until you get diagnosed. Its definitely bipolar disorder.
Can someone explain something to me? What does it mean when you suddenly hear someone yell a word in your head? It feels like someone is literally yelling the word right into my hear when it happens and I have feeling like it is fully real like someone is really there whenever it happens, but no one is even around.
Please, there is no "ass" in the word "dissociative!" And no one is changing personalities; a separate identity within the single personality is shifting forward into the "fronting space" while others often move more so into the "background" internally.
Please don't add to misinformation and confusion - it is important to use the clear and correct language when teaching new information!
This disorder has enough stigma, it isn't a fad, it isn't quirky, it isn't "getting to have friends in your head to never be bored!" It is a trauma based developmental disorder that forms to keep a young child alive in the wake of mind shattering realities and horrors...
Nobody else probs thinks this but whenever i hear about this type thing i think of the game “at dead of night” and jimmy hall/hugo punch
I'm known as a chameleon.. I'm 48 and I'm just understing myself. I was diagnosed with did in the late 90s. I still have problem with that diagnosis tho. I've also been diagnosed with autism. I do have many voices. I'm extremely loud but also very softpoken. As a young chld I was a mutist. I 100 procent know what it means.
Today my alters got so loud it almost hurt I then fell asleep 👍
just two corrections, its dissociative not dissASSocative, plus neither hulk or fight club were about DID and Split is a HORRIBLE resprensentation that demoises people with the disorder
I have multiple personality disorder
We usually just get flushed.
For me it's like a light switch.
I find this to be pretty cool. It could probably help with people's loneliness from time to time and I find the idea of feeling like you have multiple people inside your mind pretty neat
Now... if it DOES affect someone in a negative way, hopefully you can get through it
tbh, it makes me lonelier. like so chronically, painfully lonely. and I like a lot of alters. but they're not always around, and not a lot of people get it
.....DID is a trauma disorder where you are so traumatized by a situation, starting from childhood, that your mind completely removes itself from that moment of reality, convincing you it wasnt real and that you didn't experience it. But the fact that you did experience it is what creates an alter. Somebody has to hold that memory. But your mind knows you cannot survive with the knowledge of that event taking place. So a piece of you is buried deep inside your subconscious while "you" keep living life. It is a disorder that convinces you that you're fine when you're not. But a point comes for most systems where your alters can no longer remain invisible to you (especially after further or repeated trauma later in life) and you start to notice you arent alone in your own mind. You feel crazy and as if you're lying to yourself. You cant tell if your train of thought is even your own (because it often isnt). After a lot of therapy and self work, yes, some alters can be friends and crack jokes and be supportive just like anyone in the outer world. But there are also PLENTY of moments where you feel more alone then ever before because guess what, even your own brain doesnt know who you are, or understand your feeling and experiences. So you bury yourself deeper OR have mental breakdowns while trying to work through the crushing feelings that come with explaining your trauma to anyone, including the inner strangers that are technically yourself, and reliving it while you explain. It takes years. Decades. To gain trust within yourself and really learn who you are because there are so many fragments of your own personality that each have their own experiences and expression. It may seem fun and exciting because you have "so many friends" with you all the time. But its usually more like having (personally) upwards of 20 roommates who you didnt choose to live with, who dont all get along, who dont all like the same things, are all different ages, and each want something different out of life. Yet they all share one body and are only living one life. Its far less fun and games then people take into consideration. Arguments with 5+ people at a time that you can't explain to someone in your physical reality is a regular experience and extremely lonely. Feeling disconnected from your body, your family, your friends, your life... Is an almost daily experience. And we dont just have an inner world cellphone connection to call front whatever "friends" we want whenever we want. Its sporadic, hard to control and can seriously effect a persons life when it comes to jobs, relationships, and making big decisions. I know that no harm was meant by this coment and that its fun as a singlet (fully formed single personality) to imagine having friends that are always with you. But this is the type of misunderstandings about serious disorders that can damage the acceptance of communitys.
I also mean no harm by this explanation. I just feel, as an osdd system myself, very strongly about this topic.
🤍 thank you for coming to my TEDtalk
@@sage6238 thanks for explaining to me
Who has control over switching cause I sure don’t
it takes a lot of practice and is more like asking them if they want to front
@@craveliving681I need to know how to do this
Does this apply to anyone with rage issues?
This makes sense. Dizzy, lightheaded and foggy- eh well. That’s me. 🙋♂️
So what do we do about it
I'm suddenly become the movie lover i feels to watch the (already watched) but good film once again which makes me to be enjoy but it doesn't seems to be real and suddenly it causes mouth breathing because i'm on the way to diagnose
the disociation
Can any body pls help me which condition or disorder is this and on which sector does it belongs to
What do you do when people don't believe you have that disorder some people actually think people are faking when some people are brave enough to come out with something that big a problem they have. I'm on of them I have alot and I had to tell my fiance I see at first she thought I was joking then she started to realize how different I be at times like not even me at all. And at time I do know how to control them since I've had this problem when I was going on 6 my mother found out and im going on 33
I thought the hulk was just a shape shifter....
Dissociative* not dissasociative
What I learned from my therapist who is specialized in trauma-based dissociation is that inherently people with DID cannot control their switching. I think you can “allow” switching if you suppress it but you can’t choose to switch
I have schizophrenia is there overlapping symptoms
I find it amazing how so many people claim to have a rare mental illness like it’s trendy or a badge of honor. I appreciate the point of educating people on the issue, but it seems to encourage a small subset of people by give them validation and a sense of belonging. I have autism, adhd, bp1 and never understood the allure some people have towards feigning mental illnesses. No, you don’t have adhd cause you weren’t paying attention. No, you don’t have OCD cause you like things orderly. No, you aren’t bipolar cause you were mad 10 minutes ago and now you’re not.
It’s not rare trauma rape survivors can have it
How did you get self aware of you don’t even notice it ?? 😮 sometimes I’m thinking about it if I say or doing something that maybe you should while I tune out 👻
*Can you help me.... sometimes I posted something online and later few seconds I deleted them for no reason, also I get angry suddenly and after few seconds got calm like nothing happened and I used to forget things for example where I have put my keys or anything important. Does this means I'm having DID ?????? Please reply*
This could be a lot of things, and with this little info, I don't feel the right to say you do or don't have DID. I'd recommend looking more into it though!
I suffer from seizures and often times, I have these seizures and become a completely different person. God complex and with a different accent.
I have this... i have to go to therapy for it. Lol i also think of the movie with jim carrey " the mask"
... Are you diagnosed.
I have say hi to Mike, Chester, Svetlana, Manitoba, and Mal
I don't know why it bothers me so much, but.. It's not DIS-ASSO-CIATION. It's DIS-SO-CIATION. Disassociation is an active, conscious, removing oneself from a situation. Like a breakup. Dissociation is an involuntary disconnection from reality.
I can't remember what I was just talkin about.
For me it is the fainting.
When and what causes you to faint
To those saying he's pronounced dissociative wrong, he isn't though? I've heard it pronounced either way by licensed professionals.
Like tom-ay-to/ tom-aw-to
The pronunciation of dissociative wasn't the point of the video anyway.
Thank you for saying this
@@SandstoneCare You're welcome. Those getting hung up on the pronunciations missed the entire point of the video. I know a lady named Thuy, who is Vietnamese and a licensed therapist, she pronounces dissociative as dis-a-tive. It would be incredibly rude of me to tell her to pronounce the word 'the proper way'. Different accents can affect how a word is pronounced too.
Fun fact: It's dissociative not disassociative identity disorder.
Ey breh I just want you to know you said a bunch of examples of things I have. And I just want to say to everyone that feels the same way grow tf up. I’m 23 I learned. Nothin don’t matter but who you take care of that’s about it! Good luck
GOD bless you 🙏
I went to the doctor and mpd
It is great to hear you went to a professional? Did you find it helpful?
It is great to hear you went to a professional to find out more about what you are experiencing. Did you find it helpful?
I always put the headaches down to dehydration. I feel quite stupid now. Still a bit in denial though to be honest. I have 2 kids.. I don’t want to be seen as crazy. But I do just want to be on the right meds and sort my life out. Get these f!Kers out my head 🤣
it's dissociative not disasociative. :D i have feeling of it now n then but i normally never remember at all totaly amnesia.
Please remember alters aren’t personalities or parts of one person. We are all our own people, we just share a body
you CANNOT have control over the switching, if you could then it would not be a disorder
for anyone who doesnt understand its like sukuna
No it's not. Sukuna is a very bad representation.
So where do I go from here?? I'm not taking pills.
Not me who came here from Moon Knight
omg its dissociative not dissAHssociative. Also, mentioning those movies as even remotely representative of DID is so damaging. This is absolute rubbish.
We will sometimes frezze
Hulk? Fight club?
Everyone on tik tok have this
Yeah...fakers. Most of the time people with DID or OSDD often don't realize their switches, and not even the people around them do either. Those tiktokers are very bad at acting :)
Two face is a good example