I don't usually leave comments under youtube videos in general, but I felt the need to do so now, to say thank you. I have been struggling with anxiety and depression for almost half my life and watching your videos has helped me feel a lot less alone in this. I cannot imagine the hurt you are in at the moment, but I know what it feels like to not feel like yourself and what it's like feeling lost. I guess what I'm trying to say is , we are here for you like you were here for us all these years. You have managed to built a community that is filled with love and compassion and you have given a safe space online to people that needed it deeply. And you should be proud of yourself for that, because not a lot of people have managed to do so much with what was given to them. So now that you need it, take your space and time and take care of yourself and your family and when you are ready we will be here for you. I am not very religious but I do catch myself during the day thinking of you and praying only good things come your way. I know this comment is extremely long and you might never read it but I hope that if you do it will make you feel a little bit better ❣️
You are very similar to me, I don't live in your country, I'm Vietnamese. But I really like and want to listen and see what you share, I really want to set foot in your country to understand more about it.
You are not alone in this. It sounds like this could be postpartum depression and/or anxiety. A LOT of us moms go through this and it can be impossible to get back to feeling normal without help from a health care provider. PPD/PPA can last way longer than most people think - like 2 or 3 years ++ after baby is born. Hang in there and I hope you can find some help and support. It is not fun living like this. I’ve been there. Hugs!
I'm so proud of you Kalyn, you are so strong. Thank you for being so vulnerable with us and showing real life, please take time for yourself and your family. Know that you have a community that loves and supports you no matter what, sending you all the love and healing thoughts
I know exactly how you feel and can relate so much. I have had 3 pregnancy losses since last November while trying to have my first child. It has been extremely traumatic and heartbreaking. I relate so much to your feelings of not even knowing what to do with myself and feeling lost. If ever you want to chat, I am here. Give yourself grace. I know that's easier said than done.
It never matters how far along you are, the loss still hurts like hell, and that’s ok. Let yourself be hurt and heal and be messy. I had a second trimester loss a year and a half ago and it changed who I am and shook my idea of how the universe worked. It still shakes me. “I’d like to be my old self but I’m still trying to find it” really was my motto. In time you’ll reconcile how you were with you are now, and in the meantime remember, you are never alone🤍
Oh my goodness, your words are bringing back so many of my own memories that I have shoved far far away. Hold on to that small feeling of hope you said you have. It’ll grow 🤍
I'm not sure what to say..I wont pretend I know what you're going through..But I didn't want to click away from this video without saying anything so here it goes: I'm very proud of you for taking care of yourself on top of taking care of your little one and being a great partner. It's honestly admirable and in my humble opinion you're such a strong woman. I hope you'll be able to hold on to feeling of hope that you mentioned, and that it may grow into something beautiful for you to hold on to whenever you need to.💜
I have a feeling I know what you’re talking about. I experienced this lost twice in my life and it’s heart wrenching when that happens, It feels like a part of us leaves, but it hasn’t. That part is always there with us and will grow with us spiritually. But, I want to let you know, all the love and hopes you have are still within you. This year will be 10 years after my first lost. And, I’m finally doing something to honour that lost. I made a little box with a few things and a letter. And, planted a tree which I will be able to watch the tree grow and remember.
There is no time table to grief. Allow yourself to feel what you need to feel. I lost an old family friend to cancer two months ago. I am still going through the process myself. It was fast and unexpected. You do what you need to do. If you need space, we will be here when you get back.
I am so sorry to hear of her passing. I hope you can find solice and support with your chosen family. You are very stong and very loved. Please don't feel pressure to keep up with videos, your health and wellbeing are important! Thank you for sharing and creating. you have helped me as well as so many others over the years. We will still be here when you get back
I remember following you years and years ago. Back to your OG lifestyle vlogs and lost your channel over the years and new accounts but seeing how far you've come now is so phenomenal 🖤
Hi Kalyn, I'm not usually a commentator, but I just want to reiterate a few things that I'm sure so many people have already said (I'm from south africa so the time difference takes me a while to catch up). I'm a few years younger than you but your values and lifestyle have always been something that I look up to, and I have so appreciated what content you've put out, it always brings me out of my own stress, thinking of what my life could be like (I'm a bit of a farm girl) and I've just started watching your coffee talks from the beginning (again), you have been through so much in your life and anything you are going through now you have the strength to make it through and thrive on the other side. You have grown so much, and you are such an inspiration to so many. You are the only youtuber that I am consistently watching and your natural and authentic lifestyle is something I dream of and aspire to someday manifest
The only reason we get so excited about Talk/Youtober is bc we get extra content from you, and we got that! I loved the content this year. Whatever sections of the series didn’t make it, save those ideas for next year or Christmas them up. Fall is our favorite with you, but we are here year-round. 🥰 Take care of yourself! ❤
Everything you said about not feeling like yourself is exactly how I've felt since June when my father passed away. I feel lost? I don't really feel like myself anymore, I'm trying to figure it out daily. Shortly after my mom had a really bad accident and I've been her caregiver while she heals. I'm learning that taking time for myself is important too. The grieving process is never ending it seems. I hope the next few months will be easier for both of us. ❤️ Thank you for letting us into your life, you've always made me feel like I wasn't completely alone. I'll always be grateful for that. I hope you know that. ❤️
I’ve been watching you for years. In a sense, we’ve “grown” up together. I remember the seemingly carefree days we both experienced and I see the growth and maturity in you as well as the sadness expressed in this vlog and I’ve never wanted more than anything than I do now to hug a stranger. I hope you are okay, I hope you’re surrounded by love and this too shall pass. I wish I had better words to convey comfort to you but I do hope you’re okay. Thank you for sharing pieces of your life story with us. From a “sista from another mother” ❤❤❤
❤ Sending so much love. Can't assume type of loss but I got the impression it was a baby loss and I've been through it and it's truly awful. You will be OK and you'll never forget. ❤
I feel exactly the same way. Every emotion you described has been my life. I just lost my mom. 😔 It is the worst thing I’ve ever gone through in my life. This video makes me feel like I’m not alone because grief is one of the most difficult topics that no one knows how to talk about it
So sorry for your loss... 😢 Losing a parent who you love deeply is so earth shattering. Everything is the same, yet you are no longer the same you. Something big is missing. There is a hole in your heart. I lost my dad 5 years ago and I just don't understand how these years have gone by without him... Sending you a big big hug ❤ and remember... Your mom is always with you.
My mom died in 2016 and I swear… your videos were the thing that kept me going and I watched you on REPEAT. I’m doing so well now, and it hurts me so much to hear you talk about your grief. Ryan’s mom would be so proud of you and your family ❤️
I didn't expect to cry with you but here we are, Its okay not to feel okay. Your strength is truly inspiring. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you all the healing vibes and love. Thank you for your vulnerability and take all the time you need to get back to yourself.
OMG you are so so human🥰…you are like a daughter to me ( like my daughters )since I saw you the first time in 2016 and I would like to hold you in my arms now🫶🫶 You are the best♥️
I love you like a best friend, Kalyn. Thanks for being so vulnerable and remember don't force yourself to gyst when its time to grieve any loss in life no matter what it is. I learned that the hard way this month...
This exactly how I've been feeling especially after my dad died. Thank you for sharing your feelings and your life. You have always motivated and inspired me. I watch your cleaning videos when I clean. And listen to your coffee talks when I'm feeling out of place.
What you’ve done for youtober already is amazing 🧡posting everyday is a lot and there’s no pressure to do more then you can. Take your time and we will love whatever you do 😊 thank you for everything
Take your time ... Remembering the time you spend together ... The loughter you shared ... The journey you went together and it's okay to cry We will wait here ❤❤❤
I had my son in October last year , so he's 1 now , and oh my goodness the shift to becoming a mother and that being your identity now , and not being so flexible and "free" to do what you want. Is very very draining 🤍 and to have a loss on top of that , I can't even fathom your emotion right now x 🤍🤍 my thoughts are with you and your family x
Kalyn, I just want to thank you for all the years of hard work, Dedication and love you brought to this little corner of the internet. I’m sorry for the loss you and your family are going through. I understand it’s not easy but I want to thank you for trying to be there for us. For giving us inspiration. Please don’t think we are going to leave if you take a step back for as much time as you need. Whether that’s a week, a month, months or a year. We will support you always. If anyone isn’t appreciative or supportive, then it’s their loss. You are such a ray of sunshine and I love watching you grow. Stay true to who you are and don’t forget to breathe
Oh Kalyn, we all love you so much. Of course it’s more than ok for you to take time off work and to focus on yourself. You’ve got so much on your plate already! It’s been an overwhelming time for you, in both very joyous and very tragic ways. Ryan’s mother must have felt like a surrogate mother and so of course you’re still devastated by her loss! Because you’d just had your beautiful son, you were forced to put his needs first and wait before processing your own emotions. So it’s completely understandable that now Easton is a bit older, your grief has returned in full force and everything feels absolutely overwhelming. Most mothers really struggle with their first without having any kind of deep tragedy to deal with on top of that. You are a superwoman to have the strength to make one single video, let alone so many videos in just one month! Please take the time you need to heal and feel better - you will never get over such a massive loss completely, but you will find your way back to being you and enjoying your life again. Till then, please be kinder to yourself and stop feeling any guilt for suddenly disappearing. We will wait as long as it takes because you’re such a kind and generous person, and we really do genuinely care deeply about you. Sending warm and healing hugs from across the pond and thinking of you and your devastating loss. You are coping so much better than you think! ❤
I agree this year has sucked and I have suffered legit so much loss that I am numb. One thing I try to tell myself is how would those we lost want us to continue living? It’s easier said than done.
I have no idea what you are going through, but I felt compelled to share a sentiment that was shared with me recently. How lucky we are to have had to privilege to see and be seen by another. The ultimate touchstone of friendship "is not improvement, neither of the other nor of the self," Whyte observes. Rather, "the ultimate touchstone is witness, the privilege of having been seen by someone and the equal privilege of being granted the sight of the essence of another, to have walked with them and to have believed in them, sometimes just to have accompanied them for however brief a span, on a journey impossible to accomplish alone."
So sorry to hear of your loss ❤️ I've felt similar this October, my favourite time of year but it's been sad. November will be a year since my grandfather passed from cancer and recently lost my cat as well. Grief takes time & you have reminded me that it's okay to do the minimum when you cant give 100%.
I love you so much Kalyn! I know this is weird coming from a literal stranger from the other side of the world but you are the bigger sister i never had, you have helped me through all my adult life, mentally and even with some practical advise. You inspire me and coming back to your videos feels sort of like "home" I felt the need to say that!
“I’m so disappointed that the series didn’t go the way I expected” Love, it’s 100% okay. Autumn isn’t finished, you can create all the fall content you’d like. You can enjoy the rest of fall without creating anything and take a step back so you can grieve in peace. Either way the videos you did put out were (and always are) the highlight of the beginning of the fall season. And as for the vision you had that unfortunately didn’t come to light, I can’t wait to see it all next year 🧡
Thank you Kalyn. I resonate with this a lot. I lost my Mom on new year’s day this year.. been trying to cope throughout the year am now feeling all the feels now that the holidays and winter months are approaching. Big hugs to you and to this community. 🕊️
Sending love 💖 loss is never easy. And don't feel like you ever have to fill us in on more details. We're here for you either way. Take care, lovely. You said "I swear, I'm fine." Don't forget that it's safe to not be fine when something really tough happens.
I’m so sorry for this loss that you’re trying to navigate through. Life is hard but honestly please take care yourself. Do whatever you need until you feel ready. Keeping you in my thoughts. ❤❤
I was in tears watching you. I am so sorry for your loss. It has been a tough year for my husband and myself as well. In January we had our second miscarriage at 11 months pregnant. I am 43 years old an my husband will be 48 in November. The first pregnancy was natural in May 2022 and we lost it at 6 weeks. The second one after four years of trying to conceive and IVF where a lot went wrong. Now I have depression (again) and burnout which means I will have to find a new job. We are still wishing for a baby. In July my husband's mom died and now we are both in therapy. I have been watching you since your first years on TH-cam and it is a pleasure to grow with you. It feels like you are my best friend even if you don't even know me. Thank you so much for what you are contributing to the world. I wish there were more people like you. And I wish I could take away some of the pain you are feeling. Just know that we all love you and pray for you and your family.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I’ve been pulling myself back together for months since a loss I had in beginning of the summer. You are allowed to grieve and take time. I also just want to say thank you, I’ve been using a lot of your content to help get myself out of that low feeling and connect with myself, spirituality, and my body again. ❤
Thank you for being so real 🤍 I have followed you for years and you are an excellent soul ✨ There are always dark moments, I hope you soon find the light little by little ✨
I am so sorry for your loss. Im sending you and your family much love. I always look forward to your vlogs. You have helped me get out of ruts, and find my grounding when I felt disconnected from my life.
Hi Kalyn, Your vlog summed up my inner feelings so well that I almost felt like you were reading off from my diary. I had an ectopic pregnancy in August and it was my first pregnancy. I am trying so hard to hold it together and keeping myself busy to forget the traumatic experience that my husband and I went through for 2 full months, the uncertainty, the chaos, the distress that it cannot be expressed in any written or spoken words. I know time heals all pain but any light just seems too far at the end of the tunnel so much so that even a beam of light is not visible from where I feel I stand.
There IS light at the end of the tunnel and you are never alone in this. Sending you love and all the prayers and positivity! YOU WILL COME OUT ON THE OTHER END!
Everyone seems to be assuming a pregnancy but i have to admit my first thought was I don't see Bentley... Sincerely hoping its neither, all the family is okay and its just needing more time to process the loss of Ryan's Mom. But nobody who has been here a while is going to mind you needing to take a minute, you take care of yourself x
You are such an inspiration on being strong, vulnerable at the same time. Take your time to feel better. I have always felt like you are an older sister. It pains to see you go through all this. Giving you a big virtual hug
Take care of yourself first! Losing someone whether in a relationship or someone passing, is tough. I’m sorry you had a rough month. Sending you positive healing and love.
Thank you for this! This video made me feel like I’m not alone. This week I lost the love of my life. It’s been a crazy emotional roller coaster. Taking each moment as they come. ❤️
I am sure that you'll feel like yourself again soon. It's very healthy and healing to be so honest about your own feelings. You have been such a good and inspirational example to me. Thanks and all the best ❤
I wish I could give you a big hug ❤️ I can’t imagine the pain you have gone through. Grief is difficult and everyone goes through it in a different way. Please no rush on coming back, we will be here when you are fully ready! Also, please don’t be disappointed, your videos have brought so much joy so far so there is no need to get down! You are doing great 🧡🙏🏼
Take your time. Navigating what you’re going through and being a new mom and your physical and emotional and mental bodies are adjusting to so much chaos and change and unrealized confusion. Take your time.
You know what, it's nice to know that when people struggling you aren't really struggling alone you have someone to struggle with, whilst you relax and recharge just know that we are that sister or friend to you, that we are that person you can come share a hot beverage with and learn to depend on us, like we depend on you. Just know Kalyn that you are never alone and I want to give you a hug and let you know that it may not seem like it now, but it's going to get better and everything is going to be okay, and if you ever want to talk we are here for you always. Thank you for giving me a safe space where i feel like i can come back and that i can find comfortm here even in my darkest times. Your words, wisdom and presense brings me tranquilty, safety and makes me feel less alone and trapped. Sending all of the love to the moon and back Lu
thank you for sharing kalyn I'm so sorry for your loss. Although i haven't experienced anything similar recently i can understand that feeling, life's has been weird, but we'll get through it
I am sending you so much love. I had a feeling something was wrong, which is an odd thing to say I know, as a stranger to you but just know you have so many people supporting you. Big ❤
Wow Kalyn I also just lost some one tragically suddenly and I've been struggling to put into words what I'm feeling and you explained it. I'm so incredibly sorry for your lose and I hope that your able to work through it in what ever way is the healthiest for you. ❤❤❤❤
Dear Kalyn, so sorry for your loss... ❤ Sending you all my love in this difficult time. Take the time to grief and take care of yourself and your grief. I hope the sun will shine for you again soon! Big hug ❤
I don’t know, I respectfully disagree with the idea that everything happens for a reason. I think sometimes bad things happen and there is no reason. There’s no greater good coming out of suffering a great loss. It’s not so you can gain something better in the future, it’s not for the purpose of strengthening you. You can choose to gain strength out of it, but that’s not why bad things happen. Sometimes, bad things just happen and it sucks. Full stop. And it’s ok to acknowledge that. Like Kalyn said, it’s ok to not be ok 😕
Thank you! That's all I can say. I've been feeling the absolute same way and you said the exact sentences I'm telling myself for more than a month now. I also went trough a family breakup/loss that brought up all that I've been suppressing and as you said I felt numb and just like I wasn't who I really am. I've been trying as much as possible and I finally feel better! So, although you know that, I wanted to tell you that it will get better as much as it seems like one of the deepest holes you've been in. And you will come out of it more empowered and more yourself than you've ever been! This is a transformation meant to bring your power and divinity into you life with full force. sending you love ♥
Ive been watching your videos since you lived in your home town, and you truly feel like my internet big sister. I have struggled with anxiety and depression since high school and it feels so nice to know even my role models go through it, and im not alone. Thank you for being you Kayln, so much love from Alberta ❤️
Ily Kaitlyn❤ you're so incredibly strong and always inspirational. Thank you for showing us the human side of being a content creator. Life waxes and wanes, take the time you need, your followers will always be here. ❤
I'm sorry you're going through a tough time, take all the time we need, we all process grief in our own way. Some need time, some need to get back in the groove of things, some need to be surrounded by loved ones, other need to be alone...there's no right or wrong, just what works for you. What I found extremely difficult for when my dad passed away was to see the world keeping on turning. I know it's sound stupid, saying it like this, but that was my thoughts at the time," How was it possible that the world kept on turning when dad's gone? Everything should have just stop". One of the most devastating things that could happen happened and yet things keep on moving. And society doesn't let you the proper time to grieve. You're supposed to be strong, have a funeral 3 days after, be at work the next week, and get back to your old self as soon as possible and I hated it. You lose one the most important person in your life and you're supposed to act and feel the same? That's just not possible. I get what you mean by not feeling yourself but I don't think you can get back to your old self, and least not completely. Loss change you, it's been 10 years since my dad passed away, and I've never got back to my old self. I'm a functioning adult, I have people I love, hobbies I love, but there's still a part of me that's gone forever. I hope you can find some little things to distract you in these difficult times, others than of course your baby and your partner, I meant something just for you, to try and think about something else. It's OK to want to think about something else for a while :)
we love and appreciate you, sending you lots of love and hugs. ❤ I can relate to how you said you feel like you need an oil change and how you feel so lost and not yourself.
Sending so much love to you Kalyn.💕✨ Thank you for always being so open and allowing us to see you work through very difficult moments in life. Hoping the days begin to feel lighter and you regain the energy for all things that bring you joy and rejuvenation. Meanwhile, sticking to only doing the necessities will get you through this... in time. 💕
Oh kailynn... I feel this soo much I don't normally comment on TH-cam. But I've followed you for a long time and I couldn't not say something become a mum is the hardest transition a women will ever go through and you will change and become someone new! That change is even harder when life throws some horrendous curve balls at us. It will get better and you will come put of it the greatest version of yourself give yourself grace time and allowance to become the new person that you are change and growth is hard and messy but the outcome is beautiful. What will be will be focus on one day at a time and have trust in yourself because you can and will get through this like you have with any other hard time you have faced :) xx
Give yourself lots of grace!! These things happen and we all need time to process/recover. If you continued to deliver content, it wouldn’t have been what you envisioned anyways! Better to take a break and heal more quickly than to force yourself to work through it and have to deal with it later :) love & light & all of the positive vibes to you and your family ❤ Put your own oxygen mask on first ❤❤
You are loved and well thought of here with us. We are here with you and FOR YOU❤ I am sorry for your loss and hope that you continue to find your way back to yourself❤
Hang in there sleepy momma! ❤ it’s all temporary. As a mom of a 4 year old, you will always be behind on something, you will always be tired, but you’re never doing it wrong as long as you don’t forget yourself.
I have 3 kids. I’m pregnant with my fourth. I understand how hard it can be to fine childcare you trust that fits your child. Loss of any kind is hard. You weren’t specific but I feel for you.
You are so loved, so cherished & the most beautiful spirit. We are here no matter what, take time for your family, yourself & whatever you may need. Whether it’s a video a day or a video a year, we’ll be here, excited to have our virtual big sister 💗✨ all my love & so many healing vibes your way!!!
i hope you find the space to process over time. No need to "come back" or "stay away" like black and white. You can just sneak in and say hi whenever you feel like it :)and i'll definitely be here, whenever.
Just take your time Kalyn and don't be hard on yourself❤️❤️ we'll always be here regardless if plans work out or not. I appreciate every video you post and I hope things get better
Sending love to you and your family Kalyn. I hope you continue to remember how wonderful and strong you are. You’ve been there for me in some of the hardest times of my life. And I wish I could give you the comfort you’ve given me. I’ll send all the love and warm hugs I can from my heart. Thinking of you love 🖤🖤
I’m in a similar season of life after going through a miscarriage a couple months ago. The feelings you were describing resonate with me so much. It’s hard to take my own advice sometimes, but I hope you give yourself grace 🤍
Yes, I recorded an 1989 TV vlog -- yes I'm editing it now 💙
YAYYYYYYY
The taylor vlogs are a new sense of therapy.
That’s immediately what I wondered. Thank you!!!
You're the first person I checked with when it came out! Yours are the best and I feel like we've been through so many together!
Can’t wait! 🩵
I don't usually leave comments under youtube videos in general, but I felt the need to do so now, to say thank you. I have been struggling with anxiety and depression for almost half my life and watching your videos has helped me feel a lot less alone in this. I cannot imagine the hurt you are in at the moment, but I know what it feels like to not feel like yourself and what it's like feeling lost. I guess what I'm trying to say is , we are here for you like you were here for us all these years. You have managed to built a community that is filled with love and compassion and you have given a safe space online to people that needed it deeply. And you should be proud of yourself for that, because not a lot of people have managed to do so much with what was given to them. So now that you need it, take your space and time and take care of yourself and your family and when you are ready we will be here for you. I am not very religious but I do catch myself during the day thinking of you and praying only good things come your way. I know this comment is extremely long and you might never read it but I hope that if you do it will make you feel a little bit better ❣️
You are very similar to me, I don't live in your country, I'm Vietnamese. But I really like and want to listen and see what you share, I really want to set foot in your country to understand more about it.
You are not alone in this. It sounds like this could be postpartum depression and/or anxiety. A LOT of us moms go through this and it can be impossible to get back to feeling normal without help from a health care provider. PPD/PPA can last way longer than most people think - like 2 or 3 years ++ after baby is born. Hang in there and I hope you can find some help and support. It is not fun living like this. I’ve been there. Hugs!
I'm so proud of you Kalyn, you are so strong. Thank you for being so vulnerable with us and showing real life, please take time for yourself and your family. Know that you have a community that loves and supports you no matter what, sending you all the love and healing thoughts
“my life needs an oil change” GIRL i felt that
Loss isn’t linear. You are doing all the right things. Slow and steady and the sunshine will return in your soul 🫶🫶🫶
I know exactly how you feel and can relate so much. I have had 3 pregnancy losses since last November while trying to have my first child. It has been extremely traumatic and heartbreaking. I relate so much to your feelings of not even knowing what to do with myself and feeling lost. If ever you want to chat, I am here. Give yourself grace. I know that's easier said than done.
It never matters how far along you are, the loss still hurts like hell, and that’s ok. Let yourself be hurt and heal and be messy.
I had a second trimester loss a year and a half ago and it changed who I am and shook my idea of how the universe worked. It still shakes me. “I’d like to be my old self but I’m still trying to find it” really was my motto. In time you’ll reconcile how you were with you are now, and in the meantime remember, you are never alone🤍
Oh my goodness, your words are bringing back so many of my own memories that I have shoved far far away. Hold on to that small feeling of hope you said you have. It’ll grow 🤍
I'm not sure what to say..I wont pretend I know what you're going through..But I didn't want to click away from this video without saying anything so here it goes: I'm very proud of you for taking care of yourself on top of taking care of your little one and being a great partner. It's honestly admirable and in my humble opinion you're such a strong woman. I hope you'll be able to hold on to feeling of hope that you mentioned, and that it may grow into something beautiful for you to hold on to whenever you need to.💜
I have a feeling I know what you’re talking about. I experienced this lost twice in my life and it’s heart wrenching when that happens, It feels like a part of us leaves, but it hasn’t. That part is always there with us and will grow with us spiritually. But, I want to let you know, all the love and hopes you have are still within you.
This year will be 10 years after my first lost. And, I’m finally doing something to honour that lost. I made a little box with a few things and a letter. And, planted a tree which I will be able to watch the tree grow and remember.
There is no time table to grief. Allow yourself to feel what you need to feel. I lost an old family friend to cancer two months ago. I am still going through the process myself. It was fast and unexpected. You do what you need to do. If you need space, we will be here when you get back.
I am so sorry to hear of her passing. I hope you can find solice and support with your chosen family. You are very stong and very loved. Please don't feel pressure to keep up with videos, your health and wellbeing are important! Thank you for sharing and creating. you have helped me as well as so many others over the years. We will still be here when you get back
I remember following you years and years ago. Back to your OG lifestyle vlogs and lost your channel over the years and new accounts but seeing how far you've come now is so phenomenal 🖤
“It only feels this raw right now”-Labyrinth, TS 💙 I hope you find comfort and all the things you need.
Hi Kalyn, I'm not usually a commentator, but I just want to reiterate a few things that I'm sure so many people have already said (I'm from south africa so the time difference takes me a while to catch up). I'm a few years younger than you but your values and lifestyle have always been something that I look up to, and I have so appreciated what content you've put out, it always brings me out of my own stress, thinking of what my life could be like (I'm a bit of a farm girl) and I've just started watching your coffee talks from the beginning (again), you have been through so much in your life and anything you are going through now you have the strength to make it through and thrive on the other side. You have grown so much, and you are such an inspiration to so many. You are the only youtuber that I am consistently watching and your natural and authentic lifestyle is something I dream of and aspire to someday manifest
The only reason we get so excited about Talk/Youtober is bc we get extra content from you, and we got that! I loved the content this year. Whatever sections of the series didn’t make it, save those ideas for next year or Christmas them up. Fall is our favorite with you, but we are here year-round. 🥰 Take care of yourself! ❤
Everything you said about not feeling like yourself is exactly how I've felt since June when my father passed away. I feel lost? I don't really feel like myself anymore, I'm trying to figure it out daily. Shortly after my mom had a really bad accident and I've been her caregiver while she heals. I'm learning that taking time for myself is important too. The grieving process is never ending it seems. I hope the next few months will be easier for both of us. ❤️ Thank you for letting us into your life, you've always made me feel like I wasn't completely alone. I'll always be grateful for that. I hope you know that. ❤️
I’ve been watching you for years. In a sense, we’ve “grown” up together. I remember the seemingly carefree days we both experienced and I see the growth and maturity in you as well as the sadness expressed in this vlog and I’ve never wanted more than anything than I do now to hug a stranger. I hope you are okay, I hope you’re surrounded by love and this too shall pass. I wish I had better words to convey comfort to you but I do hope you’re okay. Thank you for sharing pieces of your life story with us. From a “sista from another mother” ❤❤❤
❤ Sending so much love. Can't assume type of loss but I got the impression it was a baby loss and I've been through it and it's truly awful. You will be OK and you'll never forget. ❤
I feel exactly the same way. Every emotion you described has been my life. I just lost my mom. 😔 It is the worst thing I’ve ever gone through in my life. This video makes me feel like I’m not alone because grief is one of the most difficult topics that no one knows how to talk about it
So sorry for your loss... 😢 Losing a parent who you love deeply is so earth shattering. Everything is the same, yet you are no longer the same you. Something big is missing. There is a hole in your heart. I lost my dad 5 years ago and I just don't understand how these years have gone by without him... Sending you a big big hug ❤ and remember... Your mom is always with you.
We are not alone 🧡 there is nothing like losing a parent. Healing thoughts going to everyone
My mom died in 2016 and I swear… your videos were the thing that kept me going and I watched you on REPEAT. I’m doing so well now, and it hurts me so much to hear you talk about your grief. Ryan’s mom would be so proud of you and your family ❤️
I didn't expect to cry with you but here we are, Its okay not to feel okay. Your strength is truly inspiring. I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you all the healing vibes and love. Thank you for your vulnerability and take all the time you need to get back to yourself.
OMG you are so so human🥰…you are like a daughter to me ( like my daughters )since I saw you the first time in 2016 and I would like to hold you in my arms now🫶🫶
You are the best♥️
I love you like a best friend, Kalyn. Thanks for being so vulnerable and remember don't force yourself to gyst when its time to grieve any loss in life no matter what it is. I learned that the hard way this month...
This exactly how I've been feeling especially after my dad died. Thank you for sharing your feelings and your life. You have always motivated and inspired me. I watch your cleaning videos when I clean. And listen to your coffee talks when I'm feeling out of place.
What you’ve done for youtober already is amazing 🧡posting everyday is a lot and there’s no pressure to do more then you can. Take your time and we will love whatever you do 😊 thank you for everything
Take your time ... Remembering the time you spend together ... The loughter you shared ... The journey you went together and it's okay to cry
We will wait here ❤❤❤
I had my son in October last year , so he's 1 now , and oh my goodness the shift to becoming a mother and that being your identity now , and not being so flexible and "free" to do what you want. Is very very draining 🤍 and to have a loss on top of that , I can't even fathom your emotion right now x 🤍🤍 my thoughts are with you and your family x
Kalyn,
I just want to thank you for all the years of hard work, Dedication and love you brought to this little corner of the internet.
I’m sorry for the loss you and your family are going through. I understand it’s not easy but I want to thank you for trying to be there for us. For giving us inspiration. Please don’t think we are going to leave if you take a step back for as much time as you need. Whether that’s a week, a month, months or a year. We will support you always.
If anyone isn’t appreciative or supportive, then it’s their loss. You are such a ray of sunshine and I love watching you grow.
Stay true to who you are and don’t forget to breathe
I'm so sorry for your loss. Give yourself grace. It is okay to grieve and spend time with people that love you. Good to see you.
Oh Kalyn, we all love you so much. Of course it’s more than ok for you to take time off work and to focus on yourself. You’ve got so much on your plate already! It’s been an overwhelming time for you, in both very joyous and very tragic ways. Ryan’s mother must have felt like a surrogate mother and so of course you’re still devastated by her loss! Because you’d just had your beautiful son, you were forced to put his needs first and wait before processing your own emotions. So it’s completely understandable that now Easton is a bit older, your grief has returned in full force and everything feels absolutely overwhelming. Most mothers really struggle with their first without having any kind of deep tragedy to deal with on top of that. You are a superwoman to have the strength to make one single video, let alone so many videos in just one month! Please take the time you need to heal and feel better - you will never get over such a massive loss completely, but you will find your way back to being you and enjoying your life again. Till then, please be kinder to yourself and stop feeling any guilt for suddenly disappearing. We will wait as long as it takes because you’re such a kind and generous person, and we really do genuinely care deeply about you. Sending warm and healing hugs from across the pond and thinking of you and your devastating loss. You are coping so much better than you think! ❤
We are all here to support you when you need it babe! ❤
I agree this year has sucked and I have suffered legit so much loss that I am numb. One thing I try to tell myself is how would those we lost want us to continue living? It’s easier said than done.
I have no idea what you are going through, but I felt compelled to share a sentiment that was shared with me recently. How lucky we are to have had to privilege to see and be seen by another. The ultimate touchstone of friendship "is not improvement, neither of the other nor of the self," Whyte observes. Rather, "the ultimate touchstone is witness, the privilege of having been seen by someone and the equal privilege of being granted the sight of the essence of another, to have walked with them and to have believed in them, sometimes just to have accompanied them for however brief a span, on a journey impossible to accomplish alone."
So sorry to hear of your loss ❤️ I've felt similar this October, my favourite time of year but it's been sad. November will be a year since my grandfather passed from cancer and recently lost my cat as well. Grief takes time & you have reminded me that it's okay to do the minimum when you cant give 100%.
I love you so much Kalyn!
I know this is weird coming from a literal stranger from the other side of the world but you are the bigger sister i never had, you have helped me through all my adult life, mentally and even with some practical advise.
You inspire me and coming back to your videos feels sort of like "home"
I felt the need to say that!
“I’m so disappointed that the series didn’t go the way I expected”
Love, it’s 100% okay.
Autumn isn’t finished, you can create all the fall content you’d like.
You can enjoy the rest of fall without creating anything and take a step back so you can grieve in peace.
Either way the videos you did put out were (and always are) the highlight of the beginning of the fall season.
And as for the vision you had that unfortunately didn’t come to light, I can’t wait to see it all next year 🧡
Thank you Kalyn. I resonate with this a lot. I lost my Mom on new year’s day this year.. been trying to cope throughout the year am now feeling all the feels now that the holidays and winter months are approaching. Big hugs to you and to this community. 🕊️
Sending love 💖 loss is never easy. And don't feel like you ever have to fill us in on more details. We're here for you either way. Take care, lovely.
You said "I swear, I'm fine." Don't forget that it's safe to not be fine when something really tough happens.
I’m so sorry for this loss that you’re trying to navigate through. Life is hard but honestly please take care yourself. Do whatever you need until you feel ready. Keeping you in my thoughts. ❤❤
Thank you for always keeping it real. Thinking of you in these challenging times ❤
I was in tears watching you. I am so sorry for your loss. It has been a tough year for my husband and myself as well. In January we had our second miscarriage at 11 months pregnant. I am 43 years old an my husband will be 48 in November. The first pregnancy was natural in May 2022 and we lost it at 6 weeks. The second one after four years of trying to conceive and IVF where a lot went wrong. Now I have depression (again) and burnout which means I will have to find a new job. We are still wishing for a baby.
In July my husband's mom died and now we are both in therapy.
I have been watching you since your first years on TH-cam and it is a pleasure to grow with you. It feels like you are my best friend even if you don't even know me. Thank you so much for what you are contributing to the world. I wish there were more people like you. And I wish I could take away some of the pain you are feeling. Just know that we all love you and pray for you and your family.
I’m so sorry for your loss. I’ve been pulling myself back together for months since a loss I had in beginning of the summer. You are allowed to grieve and take time. I also just want to say thank you, I’ve been using a lot of your content to help get myself out of that low feeling and connect with myself, spirituality, and my body again. ❤
Thank you for being so real 🤍 I have followed you for years and you are an excellent soul ✨ There are always dark moments, I hope you soon find the light little by little ✨
I am so sorry for your loss. Im sending you and your family much love. I always look forward to your vlogs. You have helped me get out of ruts, and find my grounding when I felt disconnected from my life.
Hi Kalyn,
Your vlog summed up my inner feelings so well that I almost felt like you were reading off from my diary. I had an ectopic pregnancy in August and it was my first pregnancy. I am trying so hard to hold it together and keeping myself busy to forget the traumatic experience that my husband and I went through for 2 full months, the uncertainty, the chaos, the distress that it cannot be expressed in any written or spoken words.
I know time heals all pain but any light just seems too far at the end of the tunnel so much so that even a beam of light is not visible from where I feel I stand.
There IS light at the end of the tunnel and you are never alone in this. Sending you love and all the prayers and positivity! YOU WILL COME OUT ON THE OTHER END!
@@MissAnastasiaP thank you. Hoping and praying for same.❤️❤️
Sending you so much love. Unexpected loss is traumatic. Take it slow ❤️
Everyone seems to be assuming a pregnancy but i have to admit my first thought was I don't see Bentley... Sincerely hoping its neither, all the family is okay and its just needing more time to process the loss of Ryan's Mom. But nobody who has been here a while is going to mind you needing to take a minute, you take care of yourself x
You are such an inspiration on being strong, vulnerable at the same time. Take your time to feel better. I have always felt like you are an older sister. It pains to see you go through all this. Giving you a big virtual hug
Take care of yourself first! Losing someone whether in a relationship or someone passing, is tough. I’m sorry you had a rough month. Sending you positive healing and love.
Thank you for this! This video made me feel like I’m not alone. This week I lost the love of my life. It’s been a crazy emotional roller coaster. Taking each moment as they come. ❤️
I am sure that you'll feel like yourself again soon. It's very healthy and healing to be so honest about your own feelings. You have been such a good and inspirational example to me. Thanks and all the best ❤
I wish I could give you a big hug ❤️ I can’t imagine the pain you have gone through. Grief is difficult and everyone goes through it in a different way. Please no rush on coming back, we will be here when you are fully ready! Also, please don’t be disappointed, your videos have brought so much joy so far so there is no need to get down! You are doing great 🧡🙏🏼
Take your time. Navigating what you’re going through and being a new mom and your physical and emotional and mental bodies are adjusting to so much chaos and change and unrealized confusion. Take your time.
I’m sorry for your loss. I lost my second as well in March. Traumatic is definitely a word I would use!
You know what, it's nice to know that when people struggling you aren't really struggling alone you have someone to struggle with, whilst you relax and recharge just know that we are that sister or friend to you, that we are that person you can come share a hot beverage with and learn to depend on us, like we depend on you. Just know Kalyn that you are never alone and I want to give you a hug and let you know that it may not seem like it now, but it's going to get better and everything is going to be okay, and if you ever want to talk we are here for you always. Thank you for giving me a safe space where i feel like i can come back and that i can find comfortm here even in my darkest times. Your words, wisdom and presense brings me tranquilty, safety and makes me feel less alone and trapped. Sending all of the love to the moon and back Lu
thank you for sharing kalyn I'm so sorry for your loss. Although i haven't experienced anything similar recently i can understand that feeling, life's has been weird, but we'll get through it
I'm so very sorry you went through that.... I experienced a loss Nov 16th of 2021 and it still breaks my heart. Sending lots of love your way
I've missed you, Kalyn!❤️❤️❤️
I am sending you so much love. I had a feeling something was wrong, which is an odd thing to say I know, as a stranger to you but just know you have so many people supporting you. Big ❤
Wow Kalyn I also just lost some one tragically suddenly and I've been struggling to put into words what I'm feeling and you explained it. I'm so incredibly sorry for your lose and I hope that your able to work through it in what ever way is the healthiest for you. ❤❤❤❤
Dear Kalyn, so sorry for your loss... ❤ Sending you all my love in this difficult time. Take the time to grief and take care of yourself and your grief. I hope the sun will shine for you again soon! Big hug ❤
Breath by breath step by step you will get through this! Everything happens for a reason even if it doesn’t seem like it at this very moment 🫶🏻
I don’t know, I respectfully disagree with the idea that everything happens for a reason. I think sometimes bad things happen and there is no reason. There’s no greater good coming out of suffering a great loss. It’s not so you can gain something better in the future, it’s not for the purpose of strengthening you. You can choose to gain strength out of it, but that’s not why bad things happen. Sometimes, bad things just happen and it sucks. Full stop. And it’s ok to acknowledge that. Like Kalyn said, it’s ok to not be ok 😕
wishing you full rest and recovery, so thankful for you, Kalyn! also, watching you is like listening to Taylor Swift, bestie vibes! Feel better soon!
Thank you! That's all I can say. I've been feeling the absolute same way and you said the exact sentences I'm telling myself for more than a month now. I also went trough a family breakup/loss that brought up all that I've been suppressing and as you said I felt numb and just like I wasn't who I really am. I've been trying as much as possible and I finally feel better! So, although you know that, I wanted to tell you that it will get better as much as it seems like one of the deepest holes you've been in. And you will come out of it more empowered and more yourself than you've ever been! This is a transformation meant to bring your power and divinity into you life with full force. sending you love ♥
Ive been watching your videos since you lived in your home town, and you truly feel like my internet big sister. I have struggled with anxiety and depression since high school and it feels so nice to know even my role models go through it, and im not alone. Thank you for being you Kayln, so much love from Alberta ❤️
Sending all the love ❤❤❤ we appreciate you in all of your forms, in all of your phases, in every single step on your journey of life.
Ily Kaitlyn❤ you're so incredibly strong and always inspirational. Thank you for showing us the human side of being a content creator. Life waxes and wanes, take the time you need, your followers will always be here. ❤
Whatever you’re going through you have the right to baby yourself. Sending healing vibes
Thank you for reminding me to reconnect with my spirit- even when it's hard
I'm sorry you're going through a tough time, take all the time we need, we all process grief in our own way. Some need time, some need to get back in the groove of things, some need to be surrounded by loved ones, other need to be alone...there's no right or wrong, just what works for you. What I found extremely difficult for when my dad passed away was to see the world keeping on turning. I know it's sound stupid, saying it like this, but that was my thoughts at the time," How was it possible that the world kept on turning when dad's gone? Everything should have just stop". One of the most devastating things that could happen happened and yet things keep on moving. And society doesn't let you the proper time to grieve. You're supposed to be strong, have a funeral 3 days after, be at work the next week, and get back to your old self as soon as possible and I hated it. You lose one the most important person in your life and you're supposed to act and feel the same? That's just not possible. I get what you mean by not feeling yourself but I don't think you can get back to your old self, and least not completely. Loss change you, it's been 10 years since my dad passed away, and I've never got back to my old self. I'm a functioning adult, I have people I love, hobbies I love, but there's still a part of me that's gone forever.
I hope you can find some little things to distract you in these difficult times, others than of course your baby and your partner, I meant something just for you, to try and think about something else. It's OK to want to think about something else for a while :)
So sorry. Sending you love and wishing you comfort while you try to process your loss.
we love and appreciate you, sending you lots of love and hugs. ❤ I can relate to how you said you feel like you need an oil change and how you feel so lost and not yourself.
Kalyn, we all love and appreciate you so much🫶🏻 take all the time you need grieve and we will be here supporting you as always when you’re back 🤍
I’m so sorry for your loss Kalyn, and I hope you feel better and back to yourself soon ❤️🫶🏻 take the time you need though.
Sending so much love to you Kalyn.💕✨ Thank you for always being so open and allowing us to see you work through very difficult moments in life. Hoping the days begin to feel lighter and you regain the energy for all things that bring you joy and rejuvenation.
Meanwhile, sticking to only doing the necessities will get you through this... in time. 💕
No words, just mentally holding your hand
Oh kailynn... I feel this soo much I don't normally comment on TH-cam. But I've followed you for a long time and I couldn't not say something become a mum is the hardest transition a women will ever go through and you will change and become someone new! That change is even harder when life throws some horrendous curve balls at us. It will get better and you will come put of it the greatest version of yourself give yourself grace time and allowance to become the new person that you are change and growth is hard and messy but the outcome is beautiful. What will be will be focus on one day at a time and have trust in yourself because you can and will get through this like you have with any other hard time you have faced :) xx
Hang in there Kalyn ❤ You are so brave for sharing your situation instead of disappearing. Please take it easy and the bare minimum should be enough.
I’m going through the same thing, it’s so hard. I’m so sorry 💕🥺 we will make it through ❤
Give yourself lots of grace!! These things happen and we all need time to process/recover. If you continued to deliver content, it wouldn’t have been what you envisioned anyways! Better to take a break and heal more quickly than to force yourself to work through it and have to deal with it later :) love & light & all of the positive vibes to you and your family ❤
Put your own oxygen mask on first ❤❤
You are loved and well thought of here with us. We are here with you and FOR YOU❤ I am sorry for your loss and hope that you continue to find your way back to yourself❤
Hang in there sleepy momma! ❤ it’s all temporary. As a mom of a 4 year old, you will always be behind on something, you will always be tired, but you’re never doing it wrong as long as you don’t forget yourself.
I have 3 kids. I’m pregnant with my fourth. I understand how hard it can be to fine childcare you trust that fits your child. Loss of any kind is hard. You weren’t specific but I feel for you.
You are so loved, so cherished & the most beautiful spirit. We are here no matter what, take time for your family, yourself & whatever you may need. Whether it’s a video a day or a video a year, we’ll be here, excited to have our virtual big sister 💗✨ all my love & so many healing vibes your way!!!
i hope you find the space to process over time. No need to "come back" or "stay away" like black and white. You can just sneak in and say hi whenever you feel like it :)and i'll definitely be here, whenever.
Sending you so much love 🤍
Thankyou for the update and Thankyou for being you- I’m sorry for your loss and we are all here when your ready x
Just take your time Kalyn and don't be hard on yourself❤️❤️ we'll always be here regardless if plans work out or not. I appreciate every video you post and I hope things get better
Sending love to you and your family Kalyn. I hope you continue to remember how wonderful and strong you are. You’ve been there for me in some of the hardest times of my life. And I wish I could give you the comfort you’ve given me. I’ll send all the love and warm hugs I can from my heart. Thinking of you love 🖤🖤
I find myself wanting to tell you how much I love you after almost every upload of yours. Rooting for you always.
I’m in a similar season of life after going through a miscarriage a couple months ago. The feelings you were describing resonate with me so much. It’s hard to take my own advice sometimes, but I hope you give yourself grace 🤍
We hope you’re okay as well xx
Sending healing vibes 🤍
sending you love and support, Kalyn! if anyone knows how to be kind to yourself, it's you. take your time ❤
Sending you a big hug. Im so sorry for your loss.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending lots of love and strength to you 💛💛💛
Sending you so much love and warm hugs! Thank you for trusting us with so much of your life 💖 we love you!
I have a feeling I know this loss from last summer. Sending you so much love and light 💛.
Thank you! 🤍
Sending you so much love and light 🫶🏼✨