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I wish I could afford your program but I’m drowning in debt.. and little help.. yet my cocaine domestically violent brother can get all the help in the world..
@singstreetcar5881 they tried the classic guilt trip BS. And no they didn't chase me or send anyone after me. Am I not allowed to comment that I actually did something good for myself?!
@@TheMrsMillsyou might be used to people attacking you, but I think we’re just looking for answers and inspiration from those like you who did help themselves. You’re to be admired for your strength and courage moving on from narcissists who held you back!
No need to get upset at the question. Can it be safe for us to ask, how did you get free? What obstacles might happen? We have problems, too. @@TheMrsMills
@@Emefur1the “is that new?” question that makes you feel you need to justify by saying ‘no, you were with me when I bought it two years ago’.. obviously wasn’t paying attention at the time but managing to make you feel guilty in the event you ‘do’ decide to buy something new, almost as if you have to justify why you need to buy something new.. hmmm, I work full time so why should I feel the need to justify spending money on anything?
Bought a new truck years back and my father said , jeez I'm surprised you got a new truck before me must be nice I see who has all the money ! I expected hey that's a nice truck , I'm proud of you , you work very hard you deserve it ,,,, nope I expected wrong .
I read Reddit and listen to Reddit stories read aloud on TH-cam. So many parents have an intense favoritism for one kid over another and the double standards are so horrible, it’s a sickness.
“Please, I just want us to stop fighting” “let’s just have a nice time” “I want us to get along” “can’t we just have fun?” I’d like that too but it’s always a lie 😒
I haven’t seen them for a year and few weeks ago they invited me for a lunch. Acting like everything is beautiful, until we sat at the table. In the middle of a meal, they told me how I will not inherit anything, they are leaving me with nothing. That was served for lunch.
If you have grown up with Narcissistic Parents, like I did then you do not know what it is like to be loved. They may be presenting themselves as the normal people. Making out that you are the odd one, that something is wrong with YOU. It can be extremely confusing. If you admit you feel confused then they will probably tell you YOU are crazy, rather than admitting their crazy behaviour is confusing.
My Narc Father inlaw bought a house in a different state for my wife's brother and his family to live in under the guise of helping them out. Narc Dad raised the rent on them any time he didn't get what he wanted, he setup the basment as his own room for 'when he visits', and he visited anytime he wanted because it was his house. Needless to say my brother in-laws marriage ended, he moved back in with his narc dad and stepmom and hasn't had a job in over 2 years. He's 39 years old
That is so sad…..very similar situation happened to my husband’s golden child brother….narc MIL sabotaged his marriage from day 1….after 2 kids & 4 yrs they divorced & he moved back in w/mommy….that was in ‘03…..he’s 62 now & she’s 86
@godzillamanstreb524 My wife's brother is the golden child as well. It is sad because our brother inlaws will never have their own lives.. their own identities. The only thing we can do is keep our distance and continue to live peaceful lives.
@@godzillamanstreb524they're my age, I'm 63 and mom's in a nursing home with dementia at 85, she tried to get me to live with her, nothing doing, total downgrade! I didn't get married to get divorced, mine's a tamed tyrant and I'm sitting pretty, she alone now how is that successful? She wore her hate for her family like a badge, I love giving my adult kids and their partners money, no strings attached!
I cut ties with my parents at 40. Some years later, they still call on my birthday, wanting to know what's wrong and why I abandoned them and how much they want me back in their life and how sorry they are for whatever it was they did. So much I remember, but so much I've managed to forget. When I was 12, having spent the past 12 years under her narcissism, I was foolish enough to ask her if I was pretty, like every other prepubescent girl wonders. She looked at me and said: "well, you have classic looks." She couldn't just tell me I was beautiful and spared my ego and my self esteem. Since then, I have had a number of people tell me that I am drop dead gorgeous, but it's still difficult for me to believe it.
"Whats wrong". That question is funny and tragic at same time. Don't bite their bait, if you can, aviod their calls and nonsense questions. I am trying to do that with my father. Birthdays and holidays are always excuse and reaaon for them to contact you agin and trigger you.
Omg , my ex mil recounted this exact scenario to me about my daughter. SAME THING😉 Just tell her she's beautiful . What's wrong with you ? 🤷 (is what I thought)
Yes the money, I never ask yet they are always offering. They don’t get it that I don’t need them for that, all I need is their love and acceptance. They go crazy at Xmas, birthdays etc. I am sick and tired of never getting to pick out my own stuff. Everything from clothes, kitchen stuff, sheets Etc. I hate everything my mom picks out yet I am made to feel rude and ungracious if I mention this. Oh I guess I’m gonna like everything green Now, or whatever it may be. I’m now 68 years old I am so over the gifts with strings attached. Leave me alone! I just moved to another state just To get away from them haven’t allowed my mom to buy me anything for my other house, I don’t want to live in another home decorated by my mother. I was afraid I might be dead before that happened.
Make a promise to yourself to not accept another ugly item from your mother. If you think it’s ugly or not your style, then it’s ugly. Let her put that stuff in her house. Pick out things that you like and enjoy. I’m sure you have great taste. 😊 Enjoy the new state that you moved to and your new life.
My dad does this with me. He'll pick out something at a garage sale he thinks I can use but have no use for. If I refuse then I'm the bad guy. I don't know if it's better to politely refuse the gift or accept it and just take it to the Goodwill.
@@larryl2398 My mum too. Mountains of food we don’t like, weird house items anything from shower curtains to kitchen scrubs and endless slippers like Birkenstock style. No matter how many times we’ve explained over decades that we don’t want these things, it never stops. I take it straight to donation these days.
@@larryl2398 yep. They are very generous with money, but there is a strange force behind their gifting, like saying “this is not my thing” is just not an option. I can’t understand it, we have an 8 year old and I just can’t imagine not caring what he is or isn’t into.
I cut my family off several months ago. Surprisingly, this initiated continual healing on many levels! Somehow, in letting go of my parents, it freed my mind in ways I never imagined. It makes change much easier
@@gigicolada I pray you remain strong. There is a lot of hoovering and taking calls from flying monkey's since I went NC. What helps me the most is listening to at least one relevant Narc lecture on YT a day. The real surprise is how many unexpected improvements are happening since I went totally NC for good. I see things differently; can find balance more quickly. And that sense of nebulous anxiety that floated over my head is all but completely gone. To be sure, there is no cure for malignant narcissism. They are unable to love you. They have both physical and emotional changes to their brain. Part of the disease causes them to suck the life out of the world like a black hole star. Malignant narcissists are exceedingly dangerous owing to sociopathy, the need to suck the life out of others; compensatory mechanisms that are detrimental to all around them; the fact they rewrite reality to suit their fantasy; and sadism. The universe has rewarded me with new people in my life that love me like family. Of course I had to leave the USA to find loving peoples. That's a whole other issue.... In fact, I don't personally think any one can fully heal while remaining in the USA. Blessings from Nature Island
That Charlie Brown example with the football was so profound for me. I just realized last week that my parents will just keep moving the goalposts and there’s nothing else I can do. My parents have also used money to control me in different ways all my adult life. I just finally went completely no contact a couple days ago and I’m so grateful I found your channel. It’s one of the most helpful channels I’ve seen. Thank you for what you do!!
It's extremely powerful once you understand and incorporate the knowledge that every.single.overture. from them is a calculated "move" on their mental chessboard. You want to believe they're thinking of you, wanting to help, and being kind, because a) that's what you would do, in their shoes, and b) everything in you wants to believe they're loving parents who want to unconditionally support you. Nothing wrong with you, but you'll be much better off accepting that they are incapable of seeing you as anything other than an object for them to manipulate. It makes them feel good to give you money so they can hold it over your head, control your choices, and also probably complain/"joke" to the rest of the family, your siblings, and their friends about your neediness, etc. Try declining the "gift" just once and notice how they react. A truly benevolent giver will only want you to know that they're there if you need them. A narcissist will tell you how much you need the gift, how crazy you are to decline it, how sorry you'll be, etc., etc. In my case, the words sounded very sweet, but this was still basically the message: "You just don't understand how much you need us" because the gift was never about you. The gift is their power play, the string they use to keep you dancing to their tune. Your refusal is terrifying to them. Not you. They don't give a toss about you and will drop you like a bad habit once they lose even a bit of control. Not knowing your situation, it may sound callous to suggest refusing a monetary gift. I don't mean it to be, and understand many people are especially vulnerable at times in their lives. But if/when you are ever able to decline the gift, be sure to pay close attention to how they react.
@@eurokay4755everything you said is spot on. I figured out that they’re “gifts” are only about control a while back and haven’t accepted a penny from them in years. Everyone thinks I’m crazy and ungrateful but I know better. I thought once money was removed from the equation that I might be able to maintain some form of a relationship but I have finally realized that there will always be some type of power move from them. I’m done driving myself crazy for them. I’m 43 and I finally like myself and deserve to live my own life. Thank you for your kind support!
Everytime I try to finish my college degree my narc dad gets mad at me for not calling enough. When I do call he intentionally talks about stressful things I've asked him not to and demeans me. It's like clockwork. He's got a lot of money and his life plan has always been to keep me dependent so he can complain about me and treat me like a servant. So he's my friend and supports me everytime I'm working paycheck to paycheck. He won't stop asking when I'll finally graduate and make my kids proud. (His words). And he hardly cares to speak to me. As soon as I enroll in classes the phone calls ramp up to nearly everyday. And then when I tell him to back off - boom he's mad and I'm a bad daughter. I fell for it for nearly 10 years I've been trying, but now I'm on to him! I am totally disconnecting from that hamster wheel and he's on his own.
My mum found a solution to me asking her not to talk about certain stressful things that seem inappropriate to me, like her talking badly about family members. She just puts the words:”I know you don’t want me to talk about so and so, but…”. And then just carries on as usual. 😂 I think you’re on to something that they try to keep you dependant, just so they can talk badly about you. At least I’ve observed that with my parents. They do absolutely everything for my brother and then complain how he’s not really got the skills of an adult. So I try to point out that they never taught us any life skills, and my dad said: “Nah, it’s genetic, look how different you are.” But I’ve been raised in boarding schools since 10 years old, where they very much gave me chores and responsibilities. He still doesn’t believe my brother’s lack of adult skills has anything to do with their infantilizing him. I do.
They do it to keep you sucked into their inner worlds. My mom is very similar and having my child made her ramp up the neediness. We deserve the time and space to succeed for ourselves.
Yup right there w ya ! My father tried doing the same things or similar . I have since loudly and clearly expressed my NEW boundaries and gave him back HIS own torch to carry .
I am so proud of my husband for detaching from his mother. He has gone low contact and if his boundaries aren’t respected, he will go no contact. You have helped so much, Jerry. You have helped me let go of the pain I have experienced the last 25 years watching him be mistreated and used/manipulated. I finally understand/accept that there is nothing that can be done to change her or make her love him. Thank you.
What I like best is Jerry's willingness to go beyond the edges of the narcissistic family patterns - to discover the malignant purpose (e.g. enmeshment) behind supposedly everyday rules. His response: Yes, that is a fine rule, but what is the purpose behind it?? These insights help protect us from continuing enmeshment in our family's "system."
I'm currently staying on my side of the tennis field. Next step to detach is finding a gd job, well paid and with enough free time for myself, cos the risk, now is to free from a toxic parent to end up with a toxic employer, with a toxic job, toxic contract, a toxic wage, and toxic hrs. In the same time I need an apt for me. Many thanks, have fun!
You're brilliant. Mom recently told me that it’s heartbreaking for her to reflect on my life and all the suffering I’ve been through. That my life has been a tragedy. She’s so sad for the effects that my seizure medication (I have epilepsy) has had on my brain. (My seizures are totally controlled and my meds have not caused me brain damage). She says that its a shame I have wasted my life and I’ve suffered from failure after failure. And it's all under the mask of pity and concern. Makes me furious. I am NOT a failure. I am NOT crazy. I do NOT resent my father. I AM a well adjusted person. I am NOT brain damaged. I know I have to make what she says not matter. It just so hurtful. And she’s trying to convince me it’s true. It’s so toxic and gross. I feel powerless and trapped. I’m damned if I stay and I’m damned if I go. I just want to be free of her. I want her to let me go.
I am sorry it must feel horrible. My dad likes to talk similar depressing stuff, he brings up bad behaviours of mine from childhood which I don’t even remember as I seem to have blocked most of my unhappy childhood out. I cannot understand why he would do that, apart from an addiction to drama and sad stories. My life is pretty beautiful now, with a lovely husband, a wonderful happy kid living our dream on a hobby farm. I’ve achieved my dreams, but he prefers to tell sad stories. Like you say it is gross, they must be so unhappy in themselves they just can’t help it. Love and courage to you💝.
she is projecting (dumping) her shame onto you, so she doesnt have to feel her own shame. You can reseach about this is what narcssists do. Dont believe it.
@@rupinderh01 You are absolutely right. It really has sunk in for me and I no longer take the bate. It took me years to get here, but I made it! It is such a relief and I wish everyone visiting these videos comes to this epiphany as well.
Like meeting a date ! Just pretend I'm here to do a paint estimate and I will figure out if the home needs a good grinding and a couple coats of fresh paint 😂
Jerry, you clearly understand this kind of abuse! Every time I watch one of your videos I feel validated. I really wish there was an underground group that helped us escape these situations. These narcs are so skilled at controlling us and keeping us stuck in their homes. God I pray for a miracle and a way out.
My mother uses money. I have a chronic illness. This is my current journey, to get more independent and accepting of my circumstances, feeling more and more free re. my feelings and life.
Omg you just truly clarified the definition of trauma bonding for me! I thought it was bonding over shared trauma but you highlight its when they traumatized you so you're continually thinking about them! 💡 ‼️ It takes up so much of my thinking. Excellent information!
Mine did that to me at 57, she was 77and when I wouldn't bite she shoved me around, eventually she got put in detox and the authorities called me asking for my side, guy said "And you shoved back..." Huh? No I put her drunken majesty to bed! Was I supposed to get her in a head lock or something? Actually her shoving me around put her back out and she went to the front room wiggling on the floor! That was Xmas Eve yrs back, visiting 2 provinces over at her urgent request, I survived the night, my flight out the next day, you're very strong, she wouldn't have called my siblings either, no contact all around!
Money as an inheritance what a prize, my narcissist mother charged me rent for a corner of a room and the cost that I could have rented a full on apartment (I just didn't know it) plus I paid for a storage unit as she didn't want my stuff in her house. So most of my income was spent on rents then when I'd buy groceries, she would eat my food but charge me when I had to use hers because she ate mine. It was worse than just this but I was left with no money so I was left with homelessness or the abuse.
During covid I stupidly arranged a family catch up online. My Dad joined with the help of golden sister. Not realising everyone could hear him he said, "What's she done to her hair?" I had made an effort to style it slightly differently. Just cruel.
Cruel, yes. And typically, something superficial they could easily latch onto and groom us to be sensitive about, the parasites. You are not stupid. Not at all.
Don't fall for it - on some level he knew, or suspected, or hoped that his words were audible. Please don't fall for it - I did for decades. My life with my mother in it was one of death by a thousand cuts - I wanted her love so badly that I made excuses for the hurt she caused me - made myself believe that the cuts were not deliberate. Notice how by him using the word "she" he bonded himself with your sister but alienated you. Notice how you felt....hurt, shocked, deflated, humiliated, alone, embarrassed? Did you have any positive feelings on hearing those words? No, of course you didn't. Don't fall for it like I did - what a waste of your precious life and well being if you do.
You didn't get too much into the money part, but this is what keeps me bonded with my family. Ever since I was little I was taught that every single interaction has to be transactional. My parents were also transactional to me. In this economy I don't think I will ever be fully capable to sustain myself financially. My parents bought me an apartment and even though I try to detach myself from them because a 20 second phone call takes me back a month in my recovery process, I can't. They always bring the fact up that I should be grateful that they gave me a headstart vin life, that because of them I can have a chance at the adult life in the real way. I know that by fully detaching from them I will have to give them every single thing they gave me, but I am too weak. They truly gave me a headstart in life, but at what cost? At the cost of me feeling awful with myself every singlle day of my life?
I can relate. My narc father and narc stepmother only know how to show love through money. They paid off my student loans and I didn’t even ask them to do it. I was thankful to them, but I knew it had strings attached. Sure enough, I stood up to them for something, and they immediately weaponized a financial gift, demanding that I pay it back. They now say that I’ll never see another dime from them. I’ve been NC with them since 2022.
If they gave you money it's because they wanted but money shouldn't be a tool for controlling others otherwise you are their hostage. It's better to be an orphan than a hostage
Exact thing happened to me. She gave me an apartment to live alon, what I didn't know is that she would use this to control me and try to delete my real self which she hates... Now she started charging the full rent like I'm not her son and this drained me of all my savings, now I feel stuck to her... If I had enough money I would go no contact instantly.
I'v had mine out for 30 years, including one that died, but still cant get them out of my head. Esp the ones with a background in child/adolescent psychology. Eviction from life is easy. Eviction from the head is hard.
great video. ive experienced all of this with my narc mother. i would just add that they will also try to sabotage your mental health recovery/therapy. they will also ridicule u for needing it and tell others thats why u are the way u are, alleviating any of their responsibility/culpability. my mother talked/guilted me into leaving many a good therapist as soon as she learned she'd been identified as the source of my trauma. dont give them the fuel, keep them ignorant of your mental health journey.
My mother used shaming and threats as her main means of control. For the shaming part, she endlessly told me how awful I looked. My clothes were shabby. My hair looked bad. I looked so awful in my high school graduation photos I was not to have any made or exchange them with other people. Then she wouldn't let me take them over, either. So I didn't exchange any photos with anyone. Her threats were about money. When I was younger, she would say if I did the slightest thing she didn't like, my allowence would be cut off. When I was older, and she was paying for my undergraduate school, she said the same thing about threatening to cut off my tuition. She never stopped doing any of this. Ever. When l left home after undergraduate school, I left home for good. She kept doing the same sorts of things in phone calls about other things later on. At some point I couldn't put up with the dreadful relationship much longer. When I went overseas in 2006, I never contacted her again. Since she never stopped doing any of those things, that was the only way I could end it. And end it it did. Peace at last. I never regretted doing it, and never looked back.
I’ve had dear friends repeat the mantra “but their family” I say the same thing each time. “Not every family is a loving family.” That pretty well ends the argument.
I appreciate you so much Jerry. I've learned that detachment takes a lot of COURAGE and the guilt that comes when you try to escape from the enmeshment of your mother/family. Most children who come from dysfunctional families are raised to be dependent on their parents. Having been the scapegoat from early age as well as being raised to be enmeshed with my mother, I educated myself on co-dependency and learning from guys like Jerry. I became a people pleaser for over 40 years and was ran by guilt (thanks mom). Now I am FREE due to understanding what happened to me. Thanks so much.
I stopped contact to the minimum long ago, even though, the scapegoat situation and gaslighting never stopped. He is old sick and slowly dying he still talking with anger. I don't feel anger or hate anymore, just a little bit sorrow he had the chance to change many times and never did. Yes, I stopped long ago trying to change him, I realized he won't. Always grateful for your teachings and information. May those searching healing may find it soon.
I just recently lost hope (at 46) that my parents would ever have any insight into their own behaviours, and how they affect everyone around them. It’s just not meant to be, maybe in their next lifetime 😁. Love and courage to you❤🩹.
having insight into their behaviuors or therapy means narcissts facing that internal void of shame they have, and most of them are not willing to do that, they would rather just carrying on getting external validation byb any means possible to avoid feeling that void@@jmvwegnerpriest
I was always told it's you, nobody is crazy but you. In reality I'm the only one who is normal. I was the scapegoat too. I finally went no contact and I am doing great without the nutty bunch!
Wow. My mother did this and she's not even a narcissist like my father just has tenancies she was telling everyone I have anxiety and depression when there was an issue as if i was the issue 'because i have anxiety and depression' even though i don't and never did I'm just smart af and see through peoples bullshit
@@nadineelizabeth195 And even if you did have anxiety and depression, those would likely have been caused by her anyway, from being such an unprotective parent.
I left my toxic family and a couple of years later the police turned up and sighted me as a missing person,my thoughts were wow they must have realised how horrific they were to me and they miss me, what a shit storm I invited back into my life by returning to the only family I knew shit I didn't expect it to worsen but again I lied to myself it was a to get me in to their world only to disregard me again but including all relatives so this time I walked away and don't think about them because I'm enjoying life too much now I'm in charge and I'm in control of all aspects of my life to the point of awesomeness 😊
Can you discuss how growing up with abusive Narcissists as parents who force us to parent them begets growing up disassociated from our feelings? Then we have kids and don’t want to do the same to them and give them our undivided attention and every thing we are capable of emotionally but because we are disassociated from ourselves we’ve now raised entitled and narcissistic kids and we have ZERO tools and still have no support from parents, siblings and kids so we’re still muted and isolated.
Don't be so hard on yourself, that you're aware, that you care is mikesxahead of the game, my kids were spoiled too, kept them good and safe, my daughter (27) also of the entitled generation, they don't know what having it hard is and'll prob do them good, be kind to yourself, it is a way of taking care of them by taking care of yourself, don't let them make you crazy, you're done ✔!
I think you raise a really interesting point-- growing up, we were trained to de-self ourselves, disconnect from our own desires, and sort of to "orbit" around other self-centered people. I think we need to do our best to connect with some healthier people and pursue our own goals, despite the conditioning.
Please get therapy. You can't give your children your undivided attention while disassociated from your childhood trauma. That's basically what toxic parenting is. I know it's hard but it will be so much better for your relationship with your adult kids if you can acknowledge the reality of your parenting. Maybe they are narcissistic or maybe they've had to pull away from you out of self preservation.
When I have tour booking connections for my music career, I will be moving out to a western US state. I told my parents that my brother wont be allowed to visit because of how he treats me. He is very two faced and narcissistic and is only nice to my parents because they pay for everything of his. My dad totally understands my decision because he has witnessed how insane my brother gets and will just target me and my possessions. My mom, on the other hand, who is also a narcissist, gave me the "I just wish we could all be together" and never showed any sympathy for my point of view in all of this...Which I find disturbing because she let her parents around me well knowing the abuse my mom lived under while growing up. Its very sad to me that my mom cant accept that my brother is bad for my mental health and overall well being. She just wants the picture perfect family though those only exist in movies and TV shows.
This is my mother, too. I was the scapegoat, the one who cannot be trusted or believed, because I finally said out loud that I wasn't going to use my vacation leave to spend time with a sibling who abused me in every way imaginable while growing up and continues to exhibit overt contempt for me and my family, as Mom does behind closed doors, too. The release was instant: they "forgot" to mention the family vacation, etc. after that. It's all good.
Thanks for sharing! Yeah it just seems like its a lot better to just cut contact when I can instead of doing what society wants of a "good family member" which is total BS to begin with. If your family is abusive, dont force yourself around them. I cant believe thats a value in society...shows how messed up society's norms really are@@eurokay4755
I can relate. My sister tried ruining my hospice experience with my dad last month.. right in front of my mom. Mom didn't stand up for me or herself. My dad's gone now and the karma is going to hit my family hard. At 49yrs old.. I'm done with my abusive family. I want nothing from them but their silence and distance. Narcissits have now proven to me that even at someone's death bed, their shenanigans will continue forever. Ick. I'm embarrassed and disgusted by my family and their behavior. Jealous, insecure people will never live a good life.. no matter how much inheritance and life insurance they receive. I'm headed to the ocean where I feel my best and life makes more sense. Thank you everyone for sharing your stories! We are all helping each other so much! I'm forever grateful to channels like this! Thank you Jerry Wise! 🙏
Inner boundary. Detachment. Validate oneself, stop needing their approval. No reaction to the shaming statements. Learning, not always getting it correct.
0:00 🧠 Expertise: Jerry Wise, with 45 years of experience, discusses dysfunctional families and detachment from narcissistic parents. 1:18 💔 Dirty Tactics: Narcissistic parents use various manipulative tactics to prevent detachment, including financial control, conditional love, and manipulation. 3:37 🔄 Trauma Bonding: Narcissistic parents create trauma bonds through chronic criticism, love bombing, and intermittent reinforcement. 5:00 🎭 Unrealistic Beliefs: Children of dysfunctional families often believe the impossible about their narcissistic parents and doubt obvious negative behaviors. 7:04 ⚔ Detachment Techniques: To detach from narcissistic parents, focus on personal boundaries, reducing reactivity, and staying out of their emotional process. 11:17 🛡 Stay on Your Side: Jerry advises focusing on personal growth and detaching from societal expectations of family dynamics.
I thought my parents cared because they used money to try and control me. They got upset when I got enough money to buy my own car, pay my rent, and live independently.
The final straw and the final confirmation of all that I suspected, was when my parents mentioned cutting me from their Will, after I didnt help them move house, on principle of how my mother asked me, like an evil Witch who tried to intimidate me to help (I was 47 years old).
You have left my jaw on the ground again. My mother has been blaming/shaming me my whole life. After my sister overdosed and she tried to coverup the facts of her death, I wouldn't help her. She disinherited me immediately and stopped talking to me. I begged and begged to the point of threatening suicide. Not a word from her for more than 2 years except for her attorneys removing me from the family trust. My therapist has been helping me let go. Then two weeks ago out of the blue, my teenage son came into my room beside himself with excitement. "Grandma wants to meet you for coffee!". She used my son to deliver her passive aggressive message. I told her no, and it worked out JUST the way she planned. He got angry with me. "You'v e been crying since aunt lynn died, wanting Grandma to talk to you!". I hate that I want her to want me. But she doesn't. She resents me for an endless list of reasons. And you hit the nose on the head with the backhanded compliments. As I approached 40, she said "Well aren't you pretty! You know, be careful of becoming used to being pretty. Soon enough you won't turn men's heads anymore and you'd better have something else to hang your hat on." Like my career in tech isn't substantial enough. I learned unconditional love from my service dog.
Great observations from Gerry Wise: Not to do the societal-based, cultural-based enmeshment. When we are enmeshing we are getting lured away from having a Self. Over functioning, people-pleasing, future-faking. If someone has to win my loyalty that way, I’m giving up some of my self to do that.
11:14 stay on your side of the net: stay calmer ,build inner boundaries of detachment, 'so what? and your point is? who cares? i don't care' YOU think i'm stupid. Who cares? I mean how does that change the world?' I don't care if you think i'm stupid. What's for lunch?' You will use that phrase to try to get me to stay enmeshed with you, cos now I'm going to be upset. If I can upset you, I can capture you and enmesh with you. Stay out of their inner dialogue and their inner emotional process. For many, a bad relationship is better than none at all due to their abandonment fears, or they have a hope for change.
This can cause depression, it can cause a serious mental health problems.. before healing... what can you do if your family is important and a lot of siblings and cousins... also grieving I won't see my nephews or nieces and that they're all brainwashed already... this is so sad... 😅
So incredible. Thank you so much Jerry. I’ve gone no contact for most of my life, but still working on emotionally detaching :) Perhaps I keep myself stuck by continuing to have hope. I’m realizing that many Christian teachings have kept Me enmeshed and that is scary.
Now that I’m a mom I can see how saying, “no one will ever love you like I do” can be damaging to your child. I get it. A mother’s love is immense. Telling your children about that kind of love seems pointless since they are… well, children. They can’t understand it nor should they just yet. I feel like hearing that repeated my whole life messed my views up a little. I treated most relationships like nothing. I was an absent friend and girlfriend a lot, while at the same time feeling like a burden and that they secretly hated me anyway. It was preemptive rejection at its finest and I’m ashamed I fell into that mindset. I know she didn’t mean harm by it, but her smothering love didn’t do me any favors.
My narcissistic father lived to be 101. He depended on his 3 children and 2 step children for help. Even with everyone helping him, if he really enjoyed something, he would comment that he now loved you even more. Once you have caught on to them, it goes in one ear and out the other.
My Narc famdamnly got one thing right about me that all can agree on & its something i cherish far more now than i always grasped onto in different ways over changing decade's of my semi-troubled life... Im so so diferent! I will own that statement as the only member of a sadistically Catholic family, praising & thanking GOD for that blessing that started on Friday the 13th 61 years ago minus one week. Yes my birthday is this Friday the 13th. Glory be to God for this south Paw also!
Jerry, when I realized this after 2 decades of behavior, I am a 27 year old man who has been very lost and did not know it, till now. That natural, intuitive way to express myself to my parents and attempting reconciliation through conversation had a lot of emotion and I believe rightfully so. Standing there and and dialoging and discussing, paying explicit intention to my word choice, tone, and volume, and trying to communicate in a very gentle, nuanced, and calm way has not worked, and in no way embodies my actual feelings of anger, rage, and dissapointment. That is "walking on egg shells" behavior. They have ignored and discounted what I have said before on account of how I said it. I can't get reconciliation from them in either way and I don't think there is any other way than to let them go.
DD , not much in the way of consolation here, sorry. It's good you made attempts but that's I think all they can be, don't recall any reconciliation successes in the comments Good you are aware, the information just wasn't out there when you were born and I was your age. It helps to understand the dynamics but is a place you can be stuck in too. I hear you and you are right. The people who you really want to validate your feelings will never, they are broken beyond repair. You have been badly injured by them many times but are not broken. I wish you peace. Lost you feel, anger, rage , disappointment, again rightly so but you have landed in a place where you are seen and respected and that will help. Your parents will disorientate and disregulate you. Your final sentence suggests you know the direction you have to take. It's a tough road too but there's a lot more travelling than you alone. Not a good thing of course but better than thinking you are alone with these problems. I hope that helps and that you have the support of those that truly care for you. Love
their brains are unfortunatlely wired to not feel shame at all costs no matter who they are speaking to, it is them in survival mode and they cant out of it, it is their electrical wiring of their neurons in their brain and how they were developed in childhood. They will do anything to not feel that shame and to not feel that void, and get attention by external validation. It is best to protect and fully lovr your inner child and you.
my narc mother has started making excuses by saying that she just wants to follow Jesus. I don't know how I'm supposed to answer that. I just keep my mouth shut.
Grey rocking, best tasting rock around, find a church ⛪ with daytime prayers and send her on her way! Yes mine read at church, other ones all church married (no me, justice of the peace) bunch of hypocrites!
Your'e so right. Remember people. If you have a parent like this, they really need you more than you need them. They'll never apologize and don't have the need. Remember, too, they don't own you. I was relieved when my adopted mother passed. I see now that she was just her brothers puppet. For their resources. If you feel like inadequate, they are being that way for a possible swindling reason They may be doing something really bad behind your back. This behavior is Not normal.
Jerry, so clear and spot on! It's always helpful to get that piece of comparison, how a normal person would behave... since we sometimes don't know other relational dynamics apart from abuse.
We (my spouse and I) were relocating and buying land recently. This was about the time I started figuring her out. We wanted to buy the land with cash so we needed to liquidate. She basically almost forced me (I did not ask) to take $20k from her. At the time I had no idea her motive. Now I know it was leverage. Since the purchase of the land I have come to understand just how evil she has been all my life and still is. She was giving me a silent treatment at the first of the year because I called her out on her behavior. I took that 3 week opportunity to go no contact. I have not responded to her very few attempts at contact and she cannot bring herself to text and ask because she knows. She’s bothered my sister and my daughter about me but I don’t know who else. I have prepared for her to lash out and lie (just like she already has lied) about the money and I’m ok with that. I know the truth and I know I’m a good person. Sorry for others who deal with these people. They are life ruiners.
My FIL made a big deal of letting me know he's gonna give my daughter 10k for her birthday. I thanked him but that's not gonna curry favor. I have them blocked, their visits are super short and i greyrock them while they are here. They have to know i don't like them and they're trying to get the rubber band to snap back into place. We uave strong boundaries and they still try and test them. Narc parents are so tragic.
I'm watching this video after Easter. My parents had already passed away, but these dates remain an issue for me. I went to an aunt's house and once again I dealt with this type of things. But as you mentioned in the video, staying at home alone on those days also ends up being a distressing option for people like us and I ended up going. I'm loving the videos on your channel and this is one of the ones I'll need to watch frequently.
Great video i can relate with this trying to find other creative people like me local or otherwise well known but my family doesn’t want to hear me out nor believe me when I do so I keep it to myself bc I told them but they keep bringing up my past and what I do wrong so they have me doubting myself of me meeting creative people online toxic family members are a pain
8:10 …… YES!!!!! I watched that happen in my family all the time. I watched my narcissistic grandma (mom’s side) do that with my mom and her kids, and then my mom repeated it with me and my sisters.
You hit every nail on the head! Do you know my narcissistic parental figure? I am so fat! My BMI is normal. My hair dye is ugly. I don’t dye, but have cancer hair and am very sensitive. She is evil, yet sad.
We keep trying and come back for more because we are forgiving and because we actually know some Normal love and give it and continue to be the bigger person in every situation because then we are “just as bad” if we don’t take the high road. But it’s ok to have your Limits!
I still live with my parents. I have never been able to be an adult and they want me on drugs to be nice to them. And everyone things I am sick and disabled when I am dealing with this. It's exhausting defending myself.
Ive never been able to be an adult either, never made enough money and no one to marry to make it on 2 incomes. Ive moved out a couple times but always had to come back. My life has sucked, im surprised im still grinding it out.
@@goldbrick2563 I recently had a mental break due to the abuse and am having to be strategic about the situation. Instead of fixing a leak in the bedroom they go to church and invite people over. And my shit gets wet. Again. If I didn't have pets in the house I wouldn't be alive. If I didn't have them, I could leave. I got into a minor car accident and am having to rely on them for help to clean up the mess they helped make in the first place. And I get called a lair. And sick. If I drink to numb out the abuse they shame me for it. (one shot of whiskey on a bad day is not a problem but my mom acts like it is.) I can only manage to work from home because I need to manage my own schedule due to the abuse because my body collapses. It just fucking sucks. I am hopefully getting help from the mental health systems in my state but living in Texas? You often have to be pregnant to qualify for help. And while the CPTSD might qualify me for disability? If you make more than 2k a month you lose all benifits. I am choosing to be nice to my parents right now in hopes that I can speak to the right professionals to leave without being drugged up in the process. And I am terrified.
A parent dragging a new husband or wife in for you to also "abandon". A relative buying an expensive gift to check up on you. I'm grateful this channel has brought me a lot of clarity.
When my mom says "I love you!" I resorted to saying "Ok." I learned the automatic response, "I love you too!" Is me One: saying I believe you live me which I don't. And two, keeps me hoping for love in this relationship. By saying ok. I'm saying, I hear you and I keep it moving. IF I love her (which I'm not sure about) I will show her rather than tell her. I'm not sure if the "love" is trauma bond or just because I committed to taking care of her 17 years ago when she got a treatable but not curable form of cancer. Also, before I learned what I was dealing with.
My daughter bought herself a car and my father says I was going to buy your car, my mother asks me how my job is and I see it's fine and she says why don't you work here or there work in the office when they're when I did work in the office there was no applause or yay you're working in the office I finally approve if you're happy they want to change it change it
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I wish I could afford your program but I’m drowning in debt.. and little help.. yet my cocaine domestically violent brother can get all the help in the world..
A big thing for me was actually realizing my family dynamic was not normal and to learn to regulate my nervous system on my own and move on.
That is massive - it is a huge deal
100% this
I just walked away from the dysfunctional "family" who raised me. It wasn't easy, but I had to do it
Congratulations.
Did they chase u?
Did they send uncles and aunties to beg u to come back?
@singstreetcar5881 they tried the classic guilt trip BS. And no they didn't chase me or send anyone after me. Am I not allowed to comment that I actually did something good for myself?!
@@TheMrsMillsyou might be used to people attacking you, but I think we’re just looking for answers and inspiration from those like you who did help themselves. You’re to be admired for your strength and courage moving on from narcissists who held you back!
No need to get upset at the question. Can it be safe for us to ask, how did you get free?
What obstacles might happen?
We have problems, too. @@TheMrsMills
@@TheMrsMills when did I say u weren't allowed to comment? Smh
They will try slow you down so you dont surpass them in experience in life house, car, etc
Yeah. My mother literally hates me having even any new clothes or handbags! Though she had plenty more than me!
@@Emefur1the “is that new?” question that makes you feel you need to justify by saying ‘no, you were with me when I bought it two years ago’.. obviously wasn’t paying attention at the time but managing to make you feel guilty in the event you ‘do’ decide to buy something new, almost as if you have to justify why you need to buy something new.. hmmm, I work full time so why should I feel the need to justify spending money on anything?
Dude!!! Even my therapist was all “im glad you can actually see that” theyre sad individuals
Set up road blocks too.
Bought a new truck years back and my father said , jeez I'm surprised you got a new truck before me must be nice I see who has all the money ! I expected hey that's a nice truck , I'm proud of you , you work very hard you deserve it ,,,, nope I expected wrong .
The narcisist creates a system where everyone must play their part. I removed myself as scapegoat. Watching from afar to see who fills the void.
I have also gone no contact (discarded by mother) last couple of years; for sure one of my siblings will become the scapegoat. So sad.😢❤
It's a comfort to know I'm not "crazy" but I still can't believe how rampant and widespread these scenarios are...
Worse yet -- as rampant and widespread as they are, people still treat the scenarios as ABNORMAL and treat YOU like you're "the crazy one"
@@amarbyrd2520 That's just the people who've never had experience with them, and can't believe this type of behavior exists...
I read Reddit and listen to Reddit stories read aloud on TH-cam. So many parents have an intense favoritism for one kid over another and the double standards are so horrible, it’s a sickness.
Destroy your motivation , dreams, joy.
No I don’t think I will lol
Story of my life!
“Please, I just want us to stop fighting” “let’s just have a nice time” “I want us to get along” “can’t we just have fun?”
I’d like that too but it’s always a lie 😒
I haven’t seen them for a year and few weeks ago they invited me for a lunch. Acting like everything is beautiful, until we sat at the table. In the middle of a meal, they told me how I will not inherit anything, they are leaving me with nothing.
That was served for lunch.
The goal was to invite you to the table. They will never change
So sorry this happened to you. Keep well away. I know this will happen to me; it’s tough, but I don’t need their poison. 😢😂
If you have grown up with Narcissistic Parents, like I did then you do not know what it is like to be loved. They may be presenting themselves as the normal people. Making out that you are the odd one, that something is wrong with YOU. It can be extremely confusing. If you admit you feel confused then they will probably tell you YOU are crazy, rather than admitting their crazy behaviour is confusing.
As a child, I struggled to get a grasp on reality, because they were always back biting each other in front of me. It is a wonder I survived.
my whole life for the first 27 yrs!!!
My Narc Father inlaw bought a house in a different state for my wife's brother and his family to live in under the guise of helping them out. Narc Dad raised the rent on them any time he didn't get what he wanted, he setup the basment as his own room for 'when he visits', and he visited anytime he wanted because it was his house. Needless to say my brother in-laws marriage ended, he moved back in with his narc dad and stepmom and hasn't had a job in over 2 years. He's 39 years old
That is so sad…..very similar situation happened to my husband’s golden child brother….narc MIL sabotaged his marriage from day 1….after 2 kids & 4 yrs they divorced & he moved back in w/mommy….that was in ‘03…..he’s 62 now & she’s 86
@godzillamanstreb524 My wife's brother is the golden child as well. It is sad because our brother inlaws will never have their own lives.. their own identities. The only thing we can do is keep our distance and continue to live peaceful lives.
Wow what a nightmare, sabotaged right from the start, steer clear they busy themselves trying to fix us but it's a dirty way of destroying us!
@@godzillamanstreb524they're my age, I'm 63 and mom's in a nursing home with dementia at 85, she tried to get me to live with her, nothing doing, total downgrade! I didn't get married to get divorced, mine's a tamed tyrant and I'm sitting pretty, she alone now how is that successful? She wore her hate for her family like a badge, I love giving my adult kids and their partners money, no strings attached!
They are destroyers! ❤️🩹
I cut ties with my parents at 40. Some years later, they still call on my birthday, wanting to know what's wrong and why I abandoned them and how much they want me back in their life and how sorry they are for whatever it was they did. So much I remember, but so much I've managed to forget. When I was 12, having spent the past 12 years under her narcissism, I was foolish enough to ask her if I was pretty, like every other prepubescent girl wonders. She looked at me and said: "well, you have classic looks." She couldn't just tell me I was beautiful and spared my ego and my self esteem. Since then, I have had a number of people tell me that I am drop dead gorgeous, but it's still difficult for me to believe it.
"Whats wrong". That question is funny and tragic at same time.
Don't bite their bait, if you can, aviod their calls and nonsense questions. I am trying to do that with my father. Birthdays and holidays are always excuse and reaaon for them to contact you agin and trigger you.
@@thebrianchannel9890yes re read. The point is we have received many compliments from others but never from our actually mothers, family, siblings.
@@thebrianchannel9890 you sound like your self esteem needs improving
I've been told I'm extremely uncomfortable with compliments 😭
Omg , my ex mil recounted this exact scenario to me about my daughter. SAME THING😉
Just tell her she's beautiful . What's wrong with you ? 🤷
(is what I thought)
Yes the money, I never ask yet they are always offering. They don’t get it that I don’t need them for that, all I need is their love and acceptance. They go crazy at Xmas, birthdays etc. I am sick and tired of never getting to pick out my own stuff. Everything from clothes, kitchen stuff, sheets
Etc. I hate everything my mom picks out yet I am made to feel rude and ungracious if I mention this. Oh I guess I’m gonna like everything green
Now, or whatever it may be. I’m now 68 years old I am so over the gifts with strings attached. Leave me alone! I just moved to another state just
To get away from them haven’t allowed my mom to buy me anything for my other house, I don’t want to live in another home decorated by my mother.
I was afraid I might be dead before that happened.
Make a promise to yourself to not accept another ugly item from your mother. If you think it’s ugly or not your style, then it’s ugly. Let her put that stuff in her house. Pick out things that you like and enjoy. I’m sure you have great taste. 😊 Enjoy the new state that you moved to and your new life.
My dad does this with me. He'll pick out something at a garage sale he thinks I can use but have no use for. If I refuse then I'm the bad guy. I don't know if it's better to politely refuse the gift or accept it and just take it to the Goodwill.
@@larryl2398 My mum too. Mountains of food we don’t like, weird house items anything from shower curtains to kitchen scrubs and endless slippers like Birkenstock style. No matter how many times we’ve explained over decades that we don’t want these things, it never stops. I take it straight to donation these days.
@@jmvwegnerpriest Birkenstocks are expensive, aren't they ? Last I checked almost $150 a pair
@@larryl2398 yep. They are very generous with money, but there is a strange force behind their gifting, like saying “this is not my thing” is just not an option. I can’t understand it, we have an 8 year old and I just can’t imagine not caring what he is or isn’t into.
I cut my family off several months ago. Surprisingly, this initiated continual healing on many levels!
Somehow, in letting go of my parents, it freed my mind in ways I never imagined. It makes change much easier
Glad you are healing, you are from lucky ones and it's rare. Be proud on yourself and keep going.
Life begins with blessings beyond measure 🎉❤
Yes it does! I’ve gone NC temporarily to heal and wow my progress skyrocketed when I did.
@@gigicolada I pray you remain strong. There is a lot of hoovering and taking calls from flying monkey's since I went NC.
What helps me the most is listening to at least one relevant Narc lecture on YT a day.
The real surprise is how many unexpected improvements are happening since I went totally NC for good. I see things differently; can find balance more quickly. And that sense of nebulous anxiety that floated over my head is all but completely gone.
To be sure, there is no cure for malignant narcissism. They are unable to love you. They have both physical and emotional changes to their brain. Part of the disease causes them to suck the life out of the world like a black hole star.
Malignant narcissists are exceedingly dangerous owing to sociopathy, the need to suck the life out of others; compensatory mechanisms that are detrimental to all around them; the fact they rewrite reality to suit their fantasy; and sadism.
The universe has rewarded me with new people in my life that love me like family. Of course I had to leave the USA to find loving peoples. That's a whole other issue.... In fact, I don't personally think any one can fully heal while remaining in the USA.
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That Charlie Brown example with the football was so profound for me. I just realized last week that my parents will just keep moving the goalposts and there’s nothing else I can do. My parents have also used money to control me in different ways all my adult life. I just finally went completely no contact a couple days ago and I’m so grateful I found your channel. It’s one of the most helpful channels I’ve seen. Thank you for what you do!!
It's extremely powerful once you understand and incorporate the knowledge that every.single.overture. from them is a calculated "move" on their mental chessboard. You want to believe they're thinking of you, wanting to help, and being kind, because a) that's what you would do, in their shoes, and b) everything in you wants to believe they're loving parents who want to unconditionally support you. Nothing wrong with you, but you'll be much better off accepting that they are incapable of seeing you as anything other than an object for them to manipulate. It makes them feel good to give you money so they can hold it over your head, control your choices, and also probably complain/"joke" to the rest of the family, your siblings, and their friends about your neediness, etc.
Try declining the "gift" just once and notice how they react. A truly benevolent giver will only want you to know that they're there if you need them. A narcissist will tell you how much you need the gift, how crazy you are to decline it, how sorry you'll be, etc., etc. In my case, the words sounded very sweet, but this was still basically the message: "You just don't understand how much you need us" because the gift was never about you. The gift is their power play, the string they use to keep you dancing to their tune. Your refusal is terrifying to them. Not you. They don't give a toss about you and will drop you like a bad habit once they lose even a bit of control.
Not knowing your situation, it may sound callous to suggest refusing a monetary gift. I don't mean it to be, and understand many people are especially vulnerable at times in their lives. But if/when you are ever able to decline the gift, be sure to pay close attention to how they react.
@@eurokay4755everything you said is spot on. I figured out that they’re “gifts” are only about control a while back and haven’t accepted a penny from them in years. Everyone thinks I’m crazy and ungrateful but I know better. I thought once money was removed from the equation that I might be able to maintain some form of a relationship but I have finally realized that there will always be some type of power move from them. I’m done driving myself crazy for them. I’m 43 and I finally like myself and deserve to live my own life. Thank you for your kind support!
I just moved back to the old neighborhood a week ago and I'm so depressed it's going to be a week before a year before I can get out of here
Left them today. Cheers to freedom, love yall and thanks for your comments. They have helped me, and we help each other- alongside Jerry ❤
mom had "emergencies" if I had a Promotion& made sure I will get DEMOTED.
Everytime I try to finish my college degree my narc dad gets mad at me for not calling enough. When I do call he intentionally talks about stressful things I've asked him not to and demeans me.
It's like clockwork. He's got a lot of money and his life plan has always been to keep me dependent so he can complain about me and treat me like a servant.
So he's my friend and supports me everytime I'm working paycheck to paycheck. He won't stop asking when I'll finally graduate and make my kids proud. (His words). And he hardly cares to speak to me.
As soon as I enroll in classes the phone calls ramp up to nearly everyday. And then when I tell him to back off - boom he's mad and I'm a bad daughter.
I fell for it for nearly 10 years I've been trying, but now I'm on to him! I am totally disconnecting from that hamster wheel and he's on his own.
My mum found a solution to me asking her not to talk about certain stressful things that seem inappropriate to me, like her talking badly about family members. She just puts the words:”I know you don’t want me to talk about so and so, but…”. And then just carries on as usual. 😂
I think you’re on to something that they try to keep you dependant, just so they can talk badly about you. At least I’ve observed that with my parents. They do absolutely everything for my brother and then complain how he’s not really got the skills of an adult. So I try to point out that they never taught us any life skills, and my dad said: “Nah, it’s genetic, look how different you are.” But I’ve been raised in boarding schools since 10 years old, where they very much gave me chores and responsibilities. He still doesn’t believe my brother’s lack of adult skills has anything to do with their infantilizing him. I do.
They do it to keep you sucked into their inner worlds. My mom is very similar and having my child made her ramp up the neediness. We deserve the time and space to succeed for ourselves.
Yup right there w ya ! My father tried doing the same things or similar . I have since loudly and clearly expressed my NEW boundaries and gave him back HIS own torch to carry .
I am so proud of my husband for detaching from his mother. He has gone low contact and if his boundaries aren’t respected, he will go no contact. You have helped so much, Jerry. You have helped me let go of the pain I have experienced the last 25 years watching him be mistreated and used/manipulated. I finally understand/accept that there is nothing that can be done to change her or make her love him. Thank you.
Backhanded compliments
What I like best is Jerry's willingness to go beyond the edges of the narcissistic family patterns - to discover the malignant purpose (e.g. enmeshment) behind supposedly everyday rules. His response: Yes, that is a fine rule, but what is the purpose behind it?? These insights help protect us from continuing enmeshment in our family's "system."
I'm currently staying on my side of the tennis field. Next step to detach is finding a gd job, well paid and with enough free time for myself, cos the risk, now is to free from a toxic parent to end up with a toxic employer, with a toxic job, toxic contract, a toxic wage, and toxic hrs. In the same time I need an apt for me.
Many thanks, have fun!
You're brilliant.
Mom recently told me that it’s heartbreaking for her to reflect on my life and all the suffering I’ve been through. That my life has been a tragedy. She’s so sad for the effects that my seizure medication (I have epilepsy) has had on my brain. (My seizures are totally controlled and my meds have not caused me brain damage). She says that its a shame I have wasted my life and I’ve suffered from failure after failure. And it's all under the mask of pity and concern. Makes me furious.
I am NOT a failure. I am NOT crazy. I do NOT resent my father. I AM a well adjusted person. I am NOT brain damaged.
I know I have to make what she says not matter. It just so hurtful. And she’s trying to convince me it’s true. It’s so toxic and gross. I feel powerless and trapped. I’m damned if I stay and I’m damned if I go. I just want to be free of her. I want her to let me go.
She's not going to let you go. It's not in her nature. You just have to leave.
❤🩹
I am sorry it must feel horrible. My dad likes to talk similar depressing stuff, he brings up bad behaviours of mine from childhood which I don’t even remember as I seem to have blocked most of my unhappy childhood out. I cannot understand why he would do that, apart from an addiction to drama and sad stories. My life is pretty beautiful now, with a lovely husband, a wonderful happy kid living our dream on a hobby farm. I’ve achieved my dreams, but he prefers to tell sad stories. Like you say it is gross, they must be so unhappy in themselves they just can’t help it. Love and courage to you💝.
she is projecting (dumping) her shame onto you, so she doesnt have to feel her own shame. You can reseach about this is what narcssists do. Dont believe it.
@@rupinderh01 You are absolutely right. It really has sunk in for me and I no longer take the bate. It took me years to get here, but I made it! It is such a relief and I wish everyone visiting these videos comes to this epiphany as well.
I think over time inner boundaries require the understanding that responses must be like a business deal. Unemotional.
Like meeting a date ! Just pretend I'm here to do a paint estimate and I will figure out if the home needs a good grinding and a couple coats of fresh paint 😂
Jerry, you clearly understand this kind of abuse! Every time I watch one of your videos I feel validated. I really wish there was an underground group that helped us escape these situations. These narcs are so skilled at controlling us and keeping us stuck in their homes. God I pray for a miracle and a way out.
My mother uses money. I have a chronic illness. This is my current journey, to get more independent and accepting of my circumstances, feeling more and more free re. my feelings and life.
I hope you are ok. My wife has severe psoriatic arthritis and I fear it’s from the stress from my parents narcissistic abuse
"free" 4 years still healing roughly 7 and counting. I never want to hear from any of them again. Sister, neice nephew etc. they are all infected.
Omg you just truly clarified the definition of trauma bonding for me! I thought it was bonding over shared trauma but you highlight its when they traumatized you so you're continually thinking about them! 💡 ‼️ It takes up so much of my thinking. Excellent information!
So powerful! Thank you! My narc mom called me ugly all my life in addition to physical abuse. I will say 'so what' to all the bad memories.
Mine did that to me at 57, she was 77and when I wouldn't bite she shoved me around, eventually she got put in detox and the authorities called me asking for my side, guy said "And you shoved back..." Huh? No I put her drunken majesty to bed! Was I supposed to get her in a head lock or something? Actually her shoving me around put her back out and she went to the front room wiggling on the floor! That was Xmas Eve yrs back, visiting 2 provinces over at her urgent request, I survived the night, my flight out the next day, you're very strong, she wouldn't have called my siblings either, no contact all around!
My narc mother comparing me with celebrities and telling me "look how pretty she is, look how famous she is, why can't you be like her".
@@FreedomAboveAll4...They say the dumbest things🙄.😂...
@@FreedomAboveAll4 yuck! Sorry that happened to you!❤🩹
You are beautiful! And not just physically. Please, believe that!!!
Money as an inheritance what a prize, my narcissist mother charged me rent for a corner of a room and the cost that I could have rented a full on apartment (I just didn't know it) plus I paid for a storage unit as she didn't want my stuff in her house. So most of my income was spent on rents then when I'd buy groceries, she would eat my food but charge me when I had to use hers because she ate mine. It was worse than just this but I was left with no money so I was left with homelessness or the abuse.
Thank you. I have to keep saying to myself 'detach, detach, detach'. Its working 😀🎉🙏
Awesome, I'm at the point where I just think more bothersome persons I had to deal with regardless of how closely related we are!
During covid I stupidly arranged a family catch up online. My Dad joined with the help of golden sister. Not realising everyone could hear him he said, "What's she done to her hair?" I had made an effort to style it slightly differently. Just cruel.
Cruel, yes. And typically, something superficial they could easily latch onto and groom us to be sensitive about, the parasites. You are not stupid. Not at all.
Don't fall for it - on some level he knew, or suspected, or hoped that his words were audible. Please don't fall for it - I did for decades. My life with my mother in it was one of death by a thousand cuts - I wanted her love so badly that I made excuses for the hurt she caused me - made myself believe that the cuts were not deliberate.
Notice how by him using the word "she" he bonded himself with your sister but alienated you. Notice how you felt....hurt, shocked, deflated, humiliated, alone, embarrassed? Did you have any positive feelings on hearing those words? No, of course you didn't.
Don't fall for it like I did - what a waste of your precious life and well being if you do.
good advice!@@cathlaurs9754
You didn't get too much into the money part, but this is what keeps me bonded with my family. Ever since I was little I was taught that every single interaction has to be transactional. My parents were also transactional to me. In this economy I don't think I will ever be fully capable to sustain myself financially. My parents bought me an apartment and even though I try to detach myself from them because a 20 second phone call takes me back a month in my recovery process, I can't. They always bring the fact up that I should be grateful that they gave me a headstart vin life, that because of them I can have a chance at the adult life in the real way. I know that by fully detaching from them I will have to give them every single thing they gave me, but I am too weak. They truly gave me a headstart in life, but at what cost? At the cost of me feeling awful with myself every singlle day of my life?
I can relate. My narc father and narc stepmother only know how to show love through money. They paid off my student loans and I didn’t even ask them to do it. I was thankful to them, but I knew it had strings attached. Sure enough, I stood up to them for something, and they immediately weaponized a financial gift, demanding that I pay it back. They now say that I’ll never see another dime from them.
I’ve been NC with them since 2022.
If they gave you money it's because they wanted but money shouldn't be a tool for controlling others otherwise you are their hostage. It's better to be an orphan than a hostage
Exact thing happened to me. She gave me an apartment to live alon, what I didn't know is that she would use this to control me and try to delete my real self which she hates... Now she started charging the full rent like I'm not her son and this drained me of all my savings, now I feel stuck to her... If I had enough money I would go no contact instantly.
I'v had mine out for 30 years, including one that died, but still cant get them out of my head. Esp the ones with a background in child/adolescent psychology. Eviction from life is easy. Eviction from the head is hard.
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Well said
great video. ive experienced all of this with my narc mother. i would just add that they will also try to sabotage your mental health recovery/therapy. they will also ridicule u for needing it and tell others thats why u are the way u are, alleviating any of their responsibility/culpability. my mother talked/guilted me into leaving many a good therapist as soon as she learned she'd been identified as the source of my trauma. dont give them the fuel, keep them ignorant of your mental health journey.
My mother used shaming and threats as her main means of control. For the shaming part, she endlessly told me how awful I looked. My clothes were shabby. My hair looked bad. I looked so awful in my high school graduation photos I was not to have any made or exchange them with other people. Then she wouldn't let me take them over, either. So I didn't exchange any photos with anyone.
Her threats were about money. When I was younger, she would say if I did the slightest thing she didn't like, my allowence would be cut off. When I was older, and she was paying for my undergraduate school, she said the same thing about threatening to cut off my tuition. She never stopped doing any of this. Ever.
When l left home after undergraduate school, I left home for good. She kept doing the same sorts of things in phone calls about other things later on. At some point I couldn't put up with the dreadful relationship much longer. When I went overseas in 2006, I never contacted her again. Since she never stopped doing any of those things, that was the only way I could end it. And end it it did. Peace at last. I never regretted doing it, and never looked back.
I’ve had dear friends repeat the mantra “but their family” I say the same thing each time. “Not every family is a loving family.” That pretty well ends the argument.
I appreciate you so much Jerry. I've learned that detachment takes a lot of COURAGE and the guilt that comes when you try to escape from the enmeshment of your mother/family. Most children who come from dysfunctional families are raised to be dependent on their parents. Having been the scapegoat from early age as well as being raised to be enmeshed with my mother, I educated myself on co-dependency and learning from guys like Jerry. I became a people pleaser for over 40 years and was ran by guilt (thanks mom). Now I am FREE due to understanding what happened to me. Thanks so much.
This entire video pretty much described my family's dynamics😂
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I stopped contact to the minimum long ago, even though, the scapegoat situation and gaslighting never stopped. He is old sick and slowly dying he still talking with anger. I don't feel anger or hate anymore, just a little bit sorrow he had the chance to change many times and never did. Yes, I stopped long ago trying to change him, I realized he won't. Always grateful for your teachings and information. May those searching healing may find it soon.
I just recently lost hope (at 46) that my parents would ever have any insight into their own behaviours, and how they affect everyone around them. It’s just not meant to be, maybe in their next lifetime 😁. Love and courage to you❤🩹.
having insight into their behaviuors or therapy means narcissts facing that internal void of shame they have, and most of them are not willing to do that, they would rather just carrying on getting external validation byb any means possible to avoid feeling that void@@jmvwegnerpriest
Jerry, I can simply just always agree with everything you say. Thank you for putting this truth out there!
You bet!😃
Through others
Yes this can be a common tactic
Story of my life
What should the scapegoat child do if the parents are going around telling people the child has mental illness which is a lie
I was always told it's you, nobody is crazy but you. In reality I'm the only one who is normal. I was the scapegoat too. I finally went no contact and I am doing great without the nutty bunch!
Check out my free videos on you tube on being a scapegoat
Ignore them. Let them talk. Live in another state
Wow. My mother did this and she's not even a narcissist like my father just has tenancies she was telling everyone I have anxiety and depression when there was an issue as if i was the issue 'because i have anxiety and depression' even though i don't and never did I'm just smart af and see through peoples bullshit
@@nadineelizabeth195 And even if you did have anxiety and depression, those would likely have been caused by her anyway, from being such an unprotective parent.
I left my toxic family and a couple of years later the police turned up and sighted me as a missing person,my thoughts were wow they must have realised how horrific they were to me and they miss me, what a shit storm I invited back into my life by returning to the only family I knew shit I didn't expect it to worsen but again I lied to myself it was a to get me in to their world only to disregard me again but including all relatives so this time I walked away and don't think about them because I'm enjoying life too much now I'm in charge and I'm in control of all aspects of my life to the point of awesomeness 😊
Can you discuss how growing up with abusive Narcissists as parents who force us to parent them begets growing up disassociated from our feelings?
Then we have kids and don’t want to do the same to them and give them our undivided attention and every thing we are capable of emotionally but because we are disassociated from ourselves we’ve now raised entitled and narcissistic kids and we have ZERO tools and still have no support from parents, siblings and kids so we’re still muted and isolated.
Don't be so hard on yourself, that you're aware, that you care is mikesxahead of the game, my kids were spoiled too, kept them good and safe, my daughter (27) also of the entitled generation, they don't know what having it hard is and'll prob do them good, be kind to yourself, it is a way of taking care of them by taking care of yourself, don't let them make you crazy, you're done ✔!
I think you raise a really interesting point-- growing up, we were trained to de-self ourselves, disconnect from our own desires, and sort of to "orbit" around other self-centered people. I think we need to do our best to connect with some healthier people and pursue our own goals, despite the conditioning.
Please get therapy. You can't give your children your undivided attention while disassociated from your childhood trauma. That's basically what toxic parenting is.
I know it's hard but it will be so much better for your relationship with your adult kids if you can acknowledge the reality of your parenting.
Maybe they are narcissistic or maybe they've had to pull away from you out of self preservation.
@joseenoel8093 a perfect example of toxic parenting philosophy.
Mine are clean freaks with dirty tactics!
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Yup.....all imagining ! But once you see the forest for the trees and the vail is lifted there's no going back .
When I have tour booking connections for my music career, I will be moving out to a western US state. I told my parents that my brother wont be allowed to visit because of how he treats me. He is very two faced and narcissistic and is only nice to my parents because they pay for everything of his. My dad totally understands my decision because he has witnessed how insane my brother gets and will just target me and my possessions. My mom, on the other hand, who is also a narcissist, gave me the "I just wish we could all be together" and never showed any sympathy for my point of view in all of this...Which I find disturbing because she let her parents around me well knowing the abuse my mom lived under while growing up. Its very sad to me that my mom cant accept that my brother is bad for my mental health and overall well being. She just wants the picture perfect family though those only exist in movies and TV shows.
So sorry your mother cannot see beyond her fantasies. Thanks for watching
This is my mother, too. I was the scapegoat, the one who cannot be trusted or believed, because I finally said out loud that I wasn't going to use my vacation leave to spend time with a sibling who abused me in every way imaginable while growing up and continues to exhibit overt contempt for me and my family, as Mom does behind closed doors, too. The release was instant: they "forgot" to mention the family vacation, etc. after that. It's all good.
Thanks for sharing! Yeah it just seems like its a lot better to just cut contact when I can instead of doing what society wants of a "good family member" which is total BS to begin with. If your family is abusive, dont force yourself around them. I cant believe thats a value in society...shows how messed up society's norms really are@@eurokay4755
I can relate. My sister tried ruining my hospice experience with my dad last month.. right in front of my mom. Mom didn't stand up for me or herself. My dad's gone now and the karma is going to hit my family hard. At 49yrs old.. I'm done with my abusive family. I want nothing from them but their silence and distance. Narcissits have now proven to me that even at someone's death bed, their shenanigans will continue forever. Ick. I'm embarrassed and disgusted by my family and their behavior. Jealous, insecure people will never live a good life.. no matter how much inheritance and life insurance they receive. I'm headed to the ocean where I feel my best and life makes more sense. Thank you everyone for sharing your stories! We are all helping each other so much! I'm forever grateful to channels like this! Thank you Jerry Wise! 🙏
Inner boundary. Detachment.
Validate oneself, stop needing their approval.
No reaction to the shaming statements.
Learning, not always getting it correct.
0:00 🧠 Expertise: Jerry Wise, with 45 years of experience, discusses dysfunctional families and detachment from narcissistic parents.
1:18 💔 Dirty Tactics: Narcissistic parents use various manipulative tactics to prevent detachment, including financial control, conditional love, and manipulation.
3:37 🔄 Trauma Bonding: Narcissistic parents create trauma bonds through chronic criticism, love bombing, and intermittent reinforcement.
5:00 🎭 Unrealistic Beliefs: Children of dysfunctional families often believe the impossible about their narcissistic parents and doubt obvious negative behaviors.
7:04 ⚔ Detachment Techniques: To detach from narcissistic parents, focus on personal boundaries, reducing reactivity, and staying out of their emotional process.
11:17 🛡 Stay on Your Side: Jerry advises focusing on personal growth and detaching from societal expectations of family dynamics.
Thank you ❤
I thought my parents cared because they used money to try and control me. They got upset when I got enough money to buy my own car, pay my rent, and live independently.
The final straw and the final confirmation of all that I suspected, was when my parents mentioned cutting me from their Will, after I didnt help them move house, on principle of how my mother asked me, like an evil Witch who tried to intimidate me to help (I was 47 years old).
You have left my jaw on the ground again. My mother has been blaming/shaming me my whole life. After my sister overdosed and she tried to coverup the facts of her death, I wouldn't help her. She disinherited me immediately and stopped talking to me. I begged and begged to the point of threatening suicide. Not a word from her for more than 2 years except for her attorneys removing me from the family trust. My therapist has been helping me let go. Then two weeks ago out of the blue, my teenage son came into my room beside himself with excitement. "Grandma wants to meet you for coffee!". She used my son to deliver her passive aggressive message. I told her no, and it worked out JUST the way she planned. He got angry with me. "You'v e been crying since aunt lynn died, wanting Grandma to talk to you!". I hate that I want her to want me. But she doesn't. She resents me for an endless list of reasons. And you hit the nose on the head with the backhanded compliments. As I approached 40, she said "Well aren't you pretty! You know, be careful of becoming used to being pretty. Soon enough you won't turn men's heads anymore and you'd better have something else to hang your hat on." Like my career in tech isn't substantial enough. I learned unconditional love from my service dog.
Always exciting to see a new video from you! Thank you for the consistent and frequent uploads!
I'm glad you are finding my videos helpful, thank you for following and watching!
Jerry you make me laugh! The phrase “who cares” and “so what” are golden. I am popping that in the armoury!
Thank you Jerry. I just want my freedom and peace which i never had.
Great observations from Gerry Wise: Not to do the societal-based, cultural-based enmeshment. When we are enmeshing we are getting lured away from having a Self. Over functioning, people-pleasing, future-faking. If someone has to win my loyalty that way, I’m giving up some of my self to do that.
11:14 stay on your side of the net: stay calmer ,build inner boundaries of detachment, 'so what? and your point is? who cares? i don't care' YOU think i'm stupid. Who cares? I mean how does that change the world?' I don't care if you think i'm stupid. What's for lunch?' You will use that phrase to try to get me to stay enmeshed with you, cos now I'm going to be upset. If I can upset you, I can capture you and enmesh with you. Stay out of their inner dialogue and their inner emotional process.
For many, a bad relationship is better than none at all due to their abandonment fears, or they have a hope for change.
Be strong enough to be honest and kind
This can cause depression, it can cause a serious mental health problems.. before healing... what can you do if your family is important and a lot of siblings and cousins... also grieving I won't see my nephews or nieces and that they're all brainwashed already... this is so sad... 😅
So incredible. Thank you so much Jerry. I’ve gone no contact for most of my life, but still working on emotionally detaching :)
Perhaps I keep myself stuck by continuing to have hope.
I’m realizing that many Christian teachings have kept
Me enmeshed and that is scary.
Now that I’m a mom I can see how saying, “no one will ever love you like I do” can be damaging to your child.
I get it. A mother’s love is immense. Telling your children about that kind of love seems pointless since they are… well, children. They can’t understand it nor should they just yet.
I feel like hearing that repeated my whole life messed my views up a little. I treated most relationships like nothing. I was an absent friend and girlfriend a lot, while at the same time feeling like a burden and that they secretly hated me anyway. It was preemptive rejection at its finest and I’m ashamed I fell into that mindset. I know she didn’t mean harm by it, but her smothering love didn’t do me any favors.
My narcissistic father lived to be 101. He depended on his 3 children and 2 step children for help. Even with everyone helping him, if he really enjoyed something, he would comment that he now loved you even more. Once you have caught on to them, it goes in one ear and out the other.
They live forever!
My Narc famdamnly got one thing right about me that all can agree on & its something i cherish far more now than i always grasped onto in different ways over changing decade's of my semi-troubled life...
Im so so diferent! I will own that statement as the only member of a sadistically Catholic family, praising & thanking GOD for that blessing that started on Friday the 13th 61 years ago minus one week. Yes my birthday is this Friday the 13th. Glory be to God for this south Paw also!
Jerry, when I realized this after 2 decades of behavior, I am a 27 year old man who has been very lost and did not know it, till now.
That natural, intuitive way to express myself to my parents and attempting reconciliation through conversation had a lot of emotion and I believe rightfully so.
Standing there and and dialoging and discussing, paying explicit intention to my word choice, tone, and volume, and trying to communicate in a very gentle, nuanced, and calm way has not worked, and in no way embodies my actual feelings of anger, rage, and dissapointment. That is "walking on egg shells" behavior. They have ignored and discounted what I have said before on account of how I said it. I can't get reconciliation from them in either way and I don't think there is any other way than to let them go.
Pray help me Jesus he will guide you❤
DD , not much in the way of consolation here, sorry. It's good you made attempts but that's I think all they can be, don't recall any reconciliation successes in the comments
Good you are aware, the information just wasn't out there when you were born and I was your age. It helps to understand the dynamics but is a place you can be stuck in too.
I hear you and you are right. The people who you really want to validate your feelings will never, they are broken beyond repair. You have been badly injured by them many times but are not broken.
I wish you peace. Lost you feel, anger, rage , disappointment, again rightly so but you have landed in a place where you are seen and respected and that will help.
Your parents will disorientate and disregulate you. Your final sentence suggests you know the direction you have to take. It's a tough road too but there's a lot more travelling than you alone. Not a good thing of course but better than thinking you are alone with these problems. I hope that helps and that you have the support of those that truly care for you. Love
their brains are unfortunatlely wired to not feel shame at all costs no matter who they are speaking to, it is them in survival mode and they cant out of it, it is their electrical wiring of their neurons in their brain and how they were developed in childhood. They will do anything to not feel that shame and to not feel that void, and get attention by external validation. It is best to protect and fully lovr your inner child and you.
my narc mother has started making excuses by saying that she just wants to follow Jesus. I don't know how I'm supposed to answer that. I just keep my mouth shut.
Ah, the good ole' religion promise/excuse🥕😂
Grey rocking, best tasting rock around, find a church ⛪ with daytime prayers and send her on her way! Yes mine read at church, other ones all church married (no me, justice of the peace) bunch of hypocrites!
@@thelordcomanderwhocriedwolf Exactly.
"I just keep my mouth shut" -- this is the way
There are lots of Born again Christians aka Recovering Narcs.
Wow…just peeled back another layer of the onion.
Your'e so right. Remember people. If you have a parent like this, they really need you more than you need them. They'll never apologize and don't have the need. Remember, too, they don't own you. I was relieved when my adopted mother passed. I see now that she was just her brothers puppet. For their resources. If you feel like inadequate, they are being that way for a possible swindling reason
They may be doing something really bad behind your back. This behavior is Not normal.
Jerry, so clear and spot on! It's always helpful to get that piece of comparison, how a normal person would behave... since we sometimes don't know other relational dynamics apart from abuse.
We (my spouse and I) were relocating and buying land recently. This was about the time I started figuring her out. We wanted to buy the land with cash so we needed to liquidate. She basically almost forced me (I did not ask) to take $20k from her. At the time I had no idea her motive. Now I know it was leverage. Since the purchase of the land I have come to understand just how evil she has been all my life and still is. She was giving me a silent treatment at the first of the year because I called her out on her behavior. I took that 3 week opportunity to go no contact. I have not responded to her very few attempts at contact and she cannot bring herself to text and ask because she knows. She’s bothered my sister and my daughter about me but I don’t know who else. I have prepared for her to lash out and lie (just like she already has lied) about the money and I’m ok with that. I know the truth and I know I’m a good person. Sorry for others who deal with these people. They are life ruiners.
My FIL made a big deal of letting me know he's gonna give my daughter 10k for her birthday. I thanked him but that's not gonna curry favor. I have them blocked, their visits are super short and i greyrock them while they are here. They have to know i don't like them and they're trying to get the rubber band to snap back into place. We uave strong boundaries and they still try and test them. Narc parents are so tragic.
They never give up, believe me. After 43 years the mil is still at it.
@shihtzuluvrtwo6386 smh. Instead of just doing better and evolving, they choose manipulation. It's so pathetic
Fantastic video. You have a way of pointing out the dysfunction that makes sense.
Glad you think so!
I'm watching this video after Easter. My parents had already passed away, but these dates remain an issue for me. I went to an aunt's house and once again I dealt with this type of things. But as you mentioned in the video, staying at home alone on those days also ends up being a distressing option for people like us and I ended up going. I'm loving the videos on your channel and this is one of the ones I'll need to watch frequently.
Thank you ❤️
Thank you!❤
You're welcome 😊
Thank you so much again.❤
You are so welcome!
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This has shown me new possibilities thanks
Great video i can relate with this trying to find other creative people like me local or otherwise well known but my family doesn’t want to hear me out nor believe me when I do so I keep it to myself bc I told them but they keep bringing up my past and what I do wrong so they have me doubting myself of me meeting creative people online toxic family members are a pain
Priceless knowledge, seriously cuts straight to points I haven't heard anyone else make OR even thought of myself at all. You got the knowledge mannnn
painful, resonates, much appreciated Jerry for your insights as always.
Perfect summary of what narc parents do and our (potential) reaction to them …THANK YOU Jerry! ❤ 😊
8:10 …… YES!!!!! I watched that happen in my family all the time. I watched my narcissistic grandma (mom’s side) do that with my mom and her kids, and then my mom repeated it with me and my sisters.
How do they train us to care so much in our early years?!!!!
Programming
You hit every nail on the head! Do you know my narcissistic parental figure? I am so fat! My BMI is normal. My hair dye is ugly. I don’t dye, but have cancer hair and am very sensitive. She is evil, yet sad.
you really do know what they are like.
Fantastic. Thank you, Dr. Wise.
You're most welcome!
We keep trying and come back for more because we are forgiving and because we actually know some Normal love and give it and continue to be the bigger person in every situation because then we are “just as bad” if we don’t take the high road. But it’s ok to have your Limits!
I still live with my parents. I have never been able to be an adult and they want me on drugs to be nice to them.
And everyone things I am sick and disabled when I am dealing with this.
It's exhausting defending myself.
Run
I am doing what I can. I hopefully will be getting help from people soon. I hope.
Ive never been able to be an adult either, never made enough money and no one to marry to make it on 2 incomes. Ive moved out a couple times but always had to come back. My life has sucked, im surprised im still grinding it out.
@@goldbrick2563 I recently had a mental break due to the abuse and am having to be strategic about the situation.
Instead of fixing a leak in the bedroom they go to church and invite people over. And my shit gets wet. Again.
If I didn't have pets in the house I wouldn't be alive. If I didn't have them, I could leave.
I got into a minor car accident and am having to rely on them for help to clean up the mess they helped make in the first place.
And I get called a lair. And sick.
If I drink to numb out the abuse they shame me for it. (one shot of whiskey on a bad day is not a problem but my mom acts like it is.)
I can only manage to work from home because I need to manage my own schedule due to the abuse because my body collapses.
It just fucking sucks. I am hopefully getting help from the mental health systems in my state but living in Texas? You often have to be pregnant to qualify for help. And while the CPTSD might qualify me for disability? If you make more than 2k a month you lose all benifits.
I am choosing to be nice to my parents right now in hopes that I can speak to the right professionals to leave without being drugged up in the process.
And I am terrified.
Agree ❗️💯@@allisonwandaland8700
Thank you for great observations and excellent advice.
Glad it was helpful!
You are so good! Thank you, thank you! Your talks are helping me so much!
You are so welcome!
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Always great videos. Thanks Jerry.
Thanks for watching!
A parent dragging a new husband or wife in for you to also "abandon". A relative buying an expensive gift to check up on you.
I'm grateful this channel has brought me a lot of clarity.
Brilliant Mr Jerry Wise 🙏 Such helpful points. I even made notes.
When my mom says "I love you!" I resorted to saying "Ok." I learned the automatic response, "I love you too!" Is me One: saying I believe you live me which I don't. And two, keeps me hoping for love in this relationship.
By saying ok. I'm saying, I hear you and I keep it moving. IF I love her (which I'm not sure about) I will show her rather than tell her. I'm not sure if the "love" is trauma bond or just because I committed to taking care of her 17 years ago when she got a treatable but not curable form of cancer. Also, before I learned what I was dealing with.
Thank you so much.
Wonderful! Thanks❤
When I got divorced she bought our house i have been living in that jail for 15 years i’am trying to break free
Your videos are so incredibly helpful. Thank you !
My daughter bought herself a car and my father says I was going to buy your car, my mother asks me how my job is and I see it's fine and she says why don't you work here or there work in the office when they're when I did work in the office there was no applause or yay you're working in the office I finally approve if you're happy they want to change it change it
Hi Jerry! Thanks for your videos, my mom is Irish, Happy St. Patrick's Day to you!
Same to you!
Great video! Good example of belief and disbelief!
Glad you liked it!