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Thank you for reposting this in a sensory friendly manner, the other version scared me when the emergency alert sounds came on and I immediately paused and scrolled the comments to see if someone else had said something and luckily they did and you responded with this video, thank you again❤

This is an amazing video

Thank your for this. We have autism and Dissociative identity disorder. Thank you so much!! ❤❤❤

Btw i just thought id say that disorder and brain difference is the same thing. All a disorder is is a difference from most of society that causes life to be more difficult for you than if you didnt have said disorder. Personally i think that owning that we have ailments and proving to people that having ailments doesnt mean youre broken is the only way to acceptance. You cant pretend we arent different but you can, not treat people differently because of that.

lol this makes me cry. Hope y’all are doing good :)

This must've been a really difficult time for Sandra...

We're an autistic system too! The D.I.D. wasn't started by trying to fit in, it was the Usual Awful Stuff, but being autistic and undiagnosed and trying to exist did make for that special flavour of trauma.

Can i ask how your tree self made itself known?

Thank u for this. I feel all these feelings. i found out about D.I.D at 40 and im being tested for ADHD and autism next week. i have been diagnosed with loads of things. 😢

I have this theory that autistic masking can in many people form its own version of DID / OSDD. Basically it’s an identity disorder with a different cause (masking instead of dissociation) but a very similar disorder. AID: Autistic identity disorder. Years of Masking creates identity fractals just as much as dissociating does. And both are a self protection mechanisms obv.

Oh my god you are saying everything I've been through. I feel like crying!!! D.i.d at 40 and maybe autism at 42

Really helpful , thank you. Omg thank you! im gonna show this to my family.

Thank you so much for making this. I am about to be assessed for asd/adhd after being diagnosed with D.I.D at 40. I am so confused as to who is who and how it can be.

I'm audhd & have cptsd, bpd & osdd. Also ME. & severe (until a year or so ago) ocd. I definitely think they're all linked & affect each other too.

This is the first video that I clicked on of yours and I really appreciate the work you are doing to de-stigmatise DID/OSDD but there was one area of misinformation in the intro to your video, you claim you are the “real” one and the others are alters but that is misinformation. DID is formed because the personality hasn’t fully formed meaning, there is no “real” one, there can’t be. An analogy I like to use is, imagine there is a glass bowl, now imagine throwing it onto the ground and it smashes into heaps of small pieces, Which piece is the “real” one? Instead use the word “host” meaning the one who is out most of the time! Truly love the work your doing but please do not spread misinformation!

Wanted to listen but the sound effects very traumatizing

In other parts of my life, I get a lot out of thinking about systems. I found the term Autistic System to be full of love. I kind of bristle at the "disorder" terms. I don't like thinking that I'm broken, even if I can't do everything like other people. I recently began a new journey in learning about myself. Videos of people's direct experiences have been extremely helpful, in ways that doctors haven't been. Thank you so much and sincere best wishes.

Very interesting theory. I don't have DID nor ASD diagnosis, but I've suspected for a long time I'm on the autism spectrum. At least I can say my attention is very monotrophic, I've been noted about it ever since I was a kid. I don't have alters, but I have always been an excessive daydreamer. While it gives me great pleasure to create the characters and build the worlds they live at, I've also noticed that I use these different storylines in my mind to soothe myself when an unbearable (only to me) situation happens irl. For example, I'm feeling distressed or anxious, and it's inevitable I'll start to daydream about certain character and their life. The character is very neurotic due to her past traumas, but in the storyline she has many greatly supportive people around in her current life. Or I need confidence in doing something, and I'll start daydreaming about another character and their life. This character also has autistic tendencies, so I'll need to daydream about them whenever my own deviances pop up in life and I need the confidence to be myself. I also have characters I tend to dream about when certain feelings difficult for me to manage pop up, such as anger and shame. I also am not very good at recognizing my own feelings, so sometimes it actually helps me to recognize my current emotion when I get an sudden strong urge to dream about certain character that is associated with the feeling. I can't help but feel like I developed such a strong tendency to daydreaming to cope with the struggles in life others could just naturally deal with. Just like you do with your alters. These internal character ark types may help us to recognize and regulate our internal self in the challenging external situations. Than you once more for sharing your thoughts!

TIL the word monotropic because I looked it up after seeing this. Thank you!

Thanks for making a version without background music. Unfortunately I can't finish watching due to all the rapid wipes.

Thanks for sharing! I do not suffer from DID, but had a late ASD diagnosis at 64. I believe my life would have been much with an early diagnosis. I had a lot of anxiety as a result of never understanding social situations.

I have both autism and did. I was told I'm autistic but was unable to be diagnosed. (90s bs diagnostic criteria) and im being diagnosed with the did. I dealt with an abusive family home that only added to my autism. The autism and the forced extreme masking caused the split of the alters I believe. I'm pretty sure I'm polyfragmented with majority of my alters being fragments to deal with the autistic traits that I wasnt allowed to express growing up. I love this channel cause it helps me see the things I was confused about for a long time. It gives validation that I'm not crazy and that this happens to others too. Thanks.

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I am part of a newly diagnosed system and this is relatable. I/we feel a sense of time traveling, or being in a dimension that is foreign. Tons of lost time and trying to piece things together

A few of our headmates, especially our co-host, can definitely relate to how she feels. They have sudo memories of living without any sort of technology or modern resources. Thank you for sharing. It's shocking to see how complex the brain is.

Thank you for sharing this!

I been avoiding thinking about DID, because last time i almost had a mental crisis. Like non-aut society had forced the creation of an abusive "nuerotypical" tupla. Masking happens when this tupla fronts, and that's where i realized that almost every relationship i was masking. Everyone only knew a tupla that was born of Truama and Nuerotypical conditioning and when the mask is gone am a stranger. This person had been conditioned into me and refused let anyone esle front. All ABA can do is condition tuplas into autistics to torment them just so they appear "normal". I was molested at 7, and i honestly considered my molester as less than any creature. He had conditioned this tupla into to my system to continue molesting the other alters. I wanted the tupla dead, it's actions rendered as having no life within it. I asked about how to do so, but i was just called deranged and i "deserved" to continue being molested by this tupla. At that point i just couldn't manage to work out my system. I still knew it was true but i worryed i would go insane trying to work it out. (Also I just refers to the whole system, the terminology is still still hard to express in language )

Thank you so much for sharing your story, watching your videos has helped me understand and accept what's going on with me so much better and I'm so grateful to you and your system for that. ❤️

I have autism and ADHD it took me until I was 8 to be diagnosed with it I have never been diagnosed with DID because we hide it from the world I have some days where I don’t remember what happened My switching has gotten worse since we got off ADHD medication only three of us one who is really hyper one who is quiet and one who handles with overstimulation

This makes a lot of sense to me! Thank you!

Autism is not a diagnosis, it's an UMBRELLA term, saying someone has autism tells you NOTHING at all. I can be autistic because I'm too good a socializing and I can be autistic if I'm too bad at socializing. Science got ADHD/ASD and several other items wrong, they thought they could make this neat little box and stuff people into it and then with the box they could try to "CURE" the stupid out of those people or whatever they think they are doing. Instead they kept saying everyone and the dog is autistic, when they should have given up on that and istead diagnose things like executive dysfunction, hyper attention/inattention, sensor overload/underload, all those items that actually defines someone with a brain development difference.

I actually almost cried a bit when here. Im a singlet but I relate very strongly to Amy's worries and self isolation, so it was very touching to get a glimpse of the sort of self love your alters show each other.

I love your videos. I was so happy to see you are still making them! Pretty sure i'm not a system, but I also had a very similar experience as a sensitive autistic kid who was also mostly left to fend for myself in an impatient and aggressive world. It is really helpful to hear your story as an autistic person with a different experience from me, and I also feel like I can better understand folks with DID now. I hope this video may have the same effect for allistic DIDers.

Autistic plurals are epic

I also have a question cause im curious if you have autism does that mean the rest of your alters are also an autistic system?

Because both involve quiet a bit of masking and are very similar in symptoms to each other it's possible. I have 22q and have been diagnosed with that at birth. It is said I am to have a higher chance of autism and other psychiatric disorders like schizophrenia, and I've even at some point debated if I had DID or not. I'm still debating that. We are working on one diagnosis at a time. I'm working towards my autism diagnosis, because of my 22q when I was born I think it was missed. I do think I have a lot of conditions that went missed, but I don't wanna go to so many doctors to get diagnosed. As if I have the autism assessment that should be enough. I already have a feeling with 22q I have enough for occurring conditions as well. Which makes navigating daily life all the more difficult.

Thanks for sharing, that was very interesting. I am diagnosed autism and live with a soul sister who has did and we suspect autism and it sounds like the integration and functionality of your systems is very similar. She is also aware of her alters and co fronts with them frequently and they have specific things they specialize in.

This video has been very helpful and informative. Thank you for putting so much work into producing and presenting it.

Hello! I am not the only one in the world with both? Our stories are almost exact. In fact, we have a Charlotte as well!

I cant even receive real therapy. Medicaid and Medicare.

I'm autistic and suspect I got OSDD-1/Partial DID. As you said, very common life experiences that a NT would breeze by were very much traumatic for us... but at the same time, we did also experience long term abuse and neglect at the hands of caretakers. We also were never tested for autism nor had a support system. It basically was a mixture of disorganized attachment (both parents weren't safe), abuse and neglect with no resolution, chaotic sensory environment, and the inability to express my distress or escape my plight. The first time I dissociated was at 2 years old, the memory of the traumatic event is from a 3rd person pov. I always thought I made it up until my mom confirmed the events. So in shorter words... I don't necessarily think autistic DID is a sub category on its own, but that neurodivergent and namely autistic folk lack a lot of tools neurotypical children do that help them navigate every day life in more functional ways. Add on to that that ND kids are more likely to be abused. So I'd say there is a higher likelihood to developed dissociative disorders as a neurodivergent person, as a form of acute stress response in order to cope from events that might be less harmful to non ND kids.

I'm confused 😢

Thank you for making this

well done • thank you all ✨

Thank you so much for this video. It's so clear and concisely covers a lot of information. I'm a masking, late diagnosed austic person. I love learning about a variety of autistic experiences and learned a lot from your video.

As someone with both , this hits hard ..

Good job

thank you for sharing your story, it's helpful

I, the system leader, had trouble with accepting whenever a new spilt occurrd and would ignore our new headmate. I'm definitely a lot better with this now, but I ignored a headmate of mine for a m o n t h and I felt so bad lol Anyway, great video. Have a good day/night! -Mavis

During your period of perceived fusion, did you have the alters' memories?