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"I've carried myself to term" love it!! 🤣🤣🤣 im 36 and always had wicked widows peak hairline. i hadn't noticed any hair loss, but i started finasteride and oral minoxidil the second I realize I was trans just in case I started losing hair. I think most girls should do it their first year, at least! EDIT: You're really pretty, and I like your eyeshadow! I think the direct contact is nice and intimate, plus it is clearer! sorry to hear about your dysphoria woes

Use the disabled toilet

Being someone who's only just started on the 4th this month, this was something I was hoping would come into play. Like you before, my situation isn't terrible but I was starting to get worried that without that more "circular hairline" it would be one extra thing to clock me. Not putting all of my hope into the E as I'm also looking to take a few extra steps, but I am glad to know it'll at the very least pause where it is for me right now. P.S Your outfits are absolutely adorable in the most non-weird parasocial way I can convey as tones get lost in text based form.

Random question... why do you use the male restroom?

Been on E for 6 months and finasteride for 2. Saved my fucking hairline and then some. Everything’s coming back. EVERYTHING! So fucking amazing I’m crying.

Your videos where you're self-reflecting and telling the experiences of your transition are always so relatable and a much needed voice out there. I stopped this video the first time after a minute or so where you talk about the restroom situation. I had a similar experience for the first time recently in the changing room of a gym. To be honest, I personally just don't care where I'm changing if I don't get strange looks. But, the current culture war and the socialisation are sadly always lingering in the background as a present factor that you can't easily ignore or brush away. OPs are also something that I'm considering, but not because I don't like myself but because I don't like how my transition is going. I think it is really important to try to separate between your goals or rather what you feel right with and what society is broadcasting non-stop which certainly will make you unsatisfied with yourself at some point as you mentioned with running after a standard that you never can fulfill anyway instead of accepting yourself the way you are and focusing on what you truly wannt to achieve. It is not easy and I'm not sure if it is something that we ever are able to fully untangle. "One cannot separately consider the question of whether you need treatment to feel at peace with myself [...] or [...] to be accepted by others, because subjective well-being, that is, self-acceptance, cannot be separated from the acceptance by others. This contradiction cannot be resolved. One's own feelings are important and living together also plays a role." I think those words that I copied and translated from a medical guideline regarding trans people are important to keep in mind at least. It is so much harder to come to terms which such things on your own end while being trans is still a thing and not normalised. So, again, therefore I'm really thankful that you keep producing those videos. Have a lovely day! 💜

I live in a pretty conservative state, and thankfully I do pass well enough go into the women's room without question (so far lol) Soo I really don't think you have to worry too much about getting outed or anything. 😅

having the exact same problem but im fucking seventeen lmaoo

I’m surprised you didn’t just say “no” to both options when he asked about genitals lol

I got followed 2 weeks ago... For like 20 minutes. At one point he was in his car driving behind me. Im not trans, but I was looking queer. But I carry a gun, he has no idea how close he was to getting shot 😬

Thanks for sharing and you look amazing!

Ayyy!! I am hoping it’s the same for me! I am currently on finestride (I spelled that right) and hopefully HRT starts working that area too. I know it’s not a guaranteed, but I can hope.

congrats on the kid :3

You look amazing 🥰

spanish was really my enemy in trying to figure out my identity xD, thats the only way I became kinda fluent in english, without the constant presure of how the fuck i should call myself every other word hope you find a something that you enjoy :p

3:31 girl thats almost like the same picture... 😅 like fr you could convince me any of these two were the filtered one.

1:18 just use the women's! I would be weirded out if you walked in the men's restroom.

Highly recommend using both bathrooms ✨ you'll get looks either way, aim for comfort in the situation.

You look really good in that skirt❤

cute top aaaa

Still need to watch the video (it popped up right after a dear friend told me her partner had broken up with her, totally different reasons though). I do want to share a short story about my own experience though. Back when I was 14, I had a girlfriend. We were together for about 1.5 years (which is rather long at that age anyway). I was still very much an egg back then but I did once ask her “would you still be with me if I were a girl?” to which she replied “no, I don’t think so”. Fast forward about 10 years, I’m now finally transitioning and in a T4T relationship (engaged actually). I’d been thinking of messaging my ex (we were on good terms afterwards, just hadn’t really spoken to her in like 3 years or so) “hey so, fyi: your first relationship was with a girl” but didn’t really get around to that yet. One day we’re walking through the city where we live and I get a message from my ex “was that you who just walked by? If so, you’re looking great” (no, not in a flirtatious way). Apparently she and her partner were having dinner at a small restaurant, outside, and me & my fiancée walked right past them 🤣 so we go back and we then proceeded to chat for a little while. So yeah turns out she is also engaged to a fellow transfem now. She mentioned “when you asked me that question all those years ago and I said no… that’s been bothering me so much because I found out not too long after we broke up that would have definitely been a yes”. She also mentioned one of her family members (she was one of the two neighbors’ kids I used to play with a lot) is also trans. Eventually my fiancée & me actually visited my ex & her fiancée at their place 😂 that’s something you wouldn’t see often in cishet relationships.

I’m so happy that you’re telling your truth and showing us about how you can persist in life by doing just that: being true to myself. ❤ It’s reminding me that regardless of what happens in the future, you have to be honest with yourself no matter what. ❤

It’s giving agp

The Pantheon grows, but this minor God can not compare to the oppressive force that is Samantha Lux

This is where I am in my relationship. I've been married to a cis woman for fifteen years, but though at first she tried to accept me as I started to transition, she has since flatly stated she does not want to be married to a woman, and that if I continue to transition she will leave me. It was a painful decision to make, but I can't fight who I really am. Pretending to be a man for her sake was killing me.

I'm trans masc. I came out to my husband about a year ago, and he said he would love me and support me no matter what. I haven't been able to go through the process necessary to medically transition even though I really want to start HRT, and I can't help but be afraid that my husband will decide he isn't attracted to me anymore and just leave me because of it. The anxiety of that weighs on me every day. However, the other day he and I were talking about a video we saw where the creator was doing a skit talking to a man who says the locker room showers was never an awkward situation for him because he liked looking at the guyz. I started laughing and said, "Yea straight men don't like looking at naked, sweaty/wet men." To which my husband said, "What do you mean? Who doesn't like looking at muscular naked men?" I paused the video and just turned to look at him with my jaw on the floor and went, "Are you sure you aren't a little..." *sassy limp wrist* He quickly said no and changed the subject, but that little conversation gave me hope that he will still be attracted to me even if I begin to look more like a man. He's also always loved tomboys and muscle mommies. I have hope that we are going to be ok. Thank you for this video. It has helped me realize that even if we do end, it won't be the end of my story and would likely be for the best at the end of the day, anyways. ♥

I didn’t even really know I was trans until I actually started learning about what it means to be trans and had the language for it, and at that time I was with my girlfriend of 4 1/2 years We were engaged, we wanted to have kids together and spend the rest of our lives together, and even beyond that we constantly reaffirmed to each other that we wanted to be involved in each others lives in some way even if we did break up eventually When I realized I was trans I hid nothing from her, I was 100% open throughout the whole process, and she was very accepting at first (she’s a bi woman of color so very left leaning) Then slowly over the course of a few months, as I changed on the outside and stayed the same on the inside, she completely changed on the inside. She first said I was changing “too fast” for her despite still being the same person. Then a month later she said she had lost all sexual attraction to me. She would say things like “idk why, I had a trans-nb friend in high school that I was fine with, but for some reason you just disgust me”Then 2 months after that I could tell she wanted to break up but just wouldn’t say it, so I asked her if she wanted to just be friends (I definitely didn’t want this, but told her it felt like she did). Then she suddenly changed her mind about moving cross country with her family, from “I want to stay in the area I grew up” to being gone from the state. She said she still wanted to be friends, and I was stupid enough to believe her, even when she didn’t respond to my texts or calls at first and then said she “just needs some space”. I said I understood and didn’t reach out for more than a month (by this time I was fully out publicly and living as my true self) before asking again how she was doing. She said she needed MORE space, so I didn’t text her at all for half a year. Then for some reason she wished me a happy birthday out of the blue (I guess she felt bad?) and then LITERALLY 2 WEEKS LATER she changed her phone number and didn’t tell me I approached her on FB messenger after I found out and said “do you REALLY still wanna be friends? This doesn’t feel like the way someone treats their friend?” She was hesitant at first (“well…. Idk if we can really be FRIENDS anymore, maybe acquaintances) and then after talking to her new boyfriend she said “actually no I don’t want to talk to you anymore” I was obviously upset, and just to make sure she couldn’t hurt me anymore I blocked her on FB. I found out a year later that she saw this and flipped out, writing a post that said “I can’t believe my TOXIC EX just BLOCKED me, good riddance!” She clearly had some internal transphobia, and to be fair to her she had been hurt a lot in the past by other people and experienced some truly awful trauma. It just sucks that she saw my transition as a betrayal to her, and sucks even more she couldn’t admit she was wrong and just end the friendship like an adult. It’s been literal years and I still wake up from nightmares about her, I genuinely truly loved her and was ready to have kids together, and in the span of a year she went from love to hate (I did nothing to warrant the “toxic ex” label). I was so ready for her to get to know the real me, finally, and she was having none of it. Melissa if you ever read this somehow, please know it’s because of you I will never trust another human being the same way again. I now know two people can promise they will always love each other no matter what every single day, just for that to suddenly mean nothing one day. If you read this all the way to the end, thank you for listening to my experience, it was very cathartic to type out 😭😭😭❤

Beloved, I worried Coming out as bi but it only increased our "threesome readiness quota"!

Heyo! I've been transitioning for a lil over six months. I got lucky with partner still sticking by me when I came out a year ago. I think the biggest one for me was friends. A lot of friends kinda just stopped talking (I don't want to say it's because of transitioning it's most likely wayyy more nuanced than that) in a way it was really painfull to start out with, putting your authentic self out there in a way, and getting support, but loosing friends regardless. The way I see it now would be close to the fact that I'm a little happy about it. I'm not really tied down by the expectation other people have of me. a fresh start of some sorts. Plus I ended up loosing accounts and stuff that related to my "dead self". Mind you for context, im like a chronic introvert with massive anxiety so my experience was probs different and the weight I felt leaving me after friends stopped talking was because of anxiety. Anyyywayyyyyyy loved the video!!! I'm glad I'm following! I hope you all have a lovely day!

its messed up you weren't properly protected from that first customer 😖 if you see someone being harassed, especially an underpaid essential worker, you have a moral obligation to do something!

I worked at Goodwill for over 3½ years. My manager, when I first came out, told me I could be held accountable if I told people my preferred name instead of my deadname for corporate reasons. When asked for coworkers to use my preferred name, I was denied on the basis of preferred reasons. Bringing this up to my manager and asking if we could discuss it further, she denied my request. I was also threatened by a regular customer, who had also SA'd another worker. He was allowed in the store still. I feared going into work almost every single day. I dont work there anymore, but I was in awe of how poorly they handled the situation.

First time seeing one of your videos. You seem awesome. I hope your channel name is more joke than serious! If not, at least know you're making other people laugh, and that's special!

I'm a trans woman. Subbed

I mean, like, he didn't mean to disrespect you. Lol. Also, I actually genuinely kind of believe him. I run across these people all the time. You can tell when people want to ask and I always appreciate it when they do Bec getting stairs when I open my mouth weirdos out my family members lol. Its not quite a deep voice or anything It reads as pretty feminine on my apps but I irl I don't really think about controlling my voice and just yell all day. Anyway, the combative types usually just need a name for you guys. Iv brought up NBs and two spirit people before but I'm neither, it's just when I'm asked about them. Infact, I sometimes prefer talking to people who know nothing, including what's appropriate and what's not to ask specifically because they know nothing and it's fun. Alot of 'allies' apart from those at my wellness center, I typically don't like. They're all very truescum and tho I don't violate their principles cause I'm kinda pretty, they say weird things to me that freak me out like, "you know there are alot of liars out there" and stuff. It's very strange. Wait... I'm old, can we still say truescum? or did it become some sort of slur because I'm just realising now I havnt heard it said inna decade.

You remind me of one of the Iron Ladies from the 2000 Iron ladies movie!

Mfers will just choose to be racist and transphobic instead of just admitting they’re wrong. Retail work in general is such an abusive environment, I’m glad you were able to counter both situations and got legitimate help from a manager. That can feel so rare.

I never understood the love for the bi flag it looks like shit

Thank you for posting your experience! ❤ inspirational.

Love a nice crop!

I'm glad your manager has your vqck

Really great watch. Makes me want to try speedrunning something too...

The first person is doing addict things. Being broke but behaving irrationally to get the cigarettes she is dependent on. You got between gollum and his ring.

"Don't work in a liquor store" Did you have to call me specifically out?

I know why you didn't rate the aro flag because you knew it was so good it would dwarf all the flags even the S ranks in comparison so you couldn't rate it to have an actually fair and balanced tier list

This was fun. I'm sorry you get all of those hateful comments though. For the record, his name is spelled Duchovny.

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harris is a transphobe, way to ruin a good video.