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R u still alive?????

This is super lame

Is there such thing as taste hallucinations? When I get really stressed and I drink anything (I've tried milk juice and water) it tastes like blood and it freaks me out. I also sometimes hear breathing next to me when no one is with me. I've held my breath so I know it isn't me. Is it even my BPD?

Your husband is correct. When you’re married to someone who exhibits borderline personality traits they get better sometimes and then they return back to that old way. Therefore you can’t really know even if they’re in treatment when they’re going to be reverting back to borderline. So you can go for a long Time thinking hey things are better now. She’s not going to act in a chaotic way this is great. As soon as you think that often you’ll get surprised. So that’s a reason why once you’ve been married to someone with a borderline personality disorder situation you may not be able to trust them for a long time. The behavior that manifest from borderlines causes the intimate partner to distrust. It takes a while for that to be worked through. So your husband is probably still remembering how he had to tiptoe around you. I’m happy you’re sharing your story. There is much hope for people with borderline personality disorder.

I’m so glad I never ended with the BPD ex and there’s no way I could have ANY patience with a nutty wench. You will only survive a BPD wife if you have no self whatsoever. She wasted so much of my time, money, and sanity. I found out that the crazy making bench ended up with her ex codependent from years ago while she was still trying to hoover me back in her life. Glad I’m out of that shit hole. RUN!!!!

This was extremely helpful.

Thank you so much for this video! It helped me a lot! 🌷🌷🌷🌷

Okay so 3:19 explains why my bpd ex said “when I cut myself I felt love for you again” very very bizzare

My wife. 100%

thanks a lot for your videos. Keep it up. Hope you are doing ok.

She doesn't take responsibility for her actions. She says things happen. She should say she starts a lot of problems, like all the time. Bpd are all liars and manipulators. Never forget that fellas

I think it’s very difficult with family members to look closely at them selves and others with BPD, when my x wife just exploded out of the blue one day! She went from being the sweetest thing to god knows what, I knew it could only be down to her BPD, However when I tried to reach out to her family and friends they stuck by her excusing her behaviour. I knew the reasons my x wife was in denial, but couldn’t figure out why her family who must of known deep down something was wrong stuck to their guns. Needless to say that was the beginning of the end! But in my humble opinion not admitting something is off is their maladaptive way of coping, simply a defensive mechanism.

Enjoyed this, personally I feel your being too hard on yourself in regards to your impulsivity, and Normal if it exists... we’re all normal your as normal as anyone, but you happen to have BPD, doesn’t mean your not normal.

Hi just wanted to say I feel for you! I have trouble worrying if my logic is logical, if that makes sense? But to have my emotions trump my logic would be just too much, but if it’s worth anything I would give your logic priority but that’s just my humble opinion, keep battling on you have my respect and support.

I found this very interesting, no one except her family and myself know about my exes mental health issues, this is a good thing and a sad thing at the same time!! Please follow through on helping people it’s very rewarding, I am looking forward to looking at your video on challenges of separation and divorce,I’m steadily working my way through all your videos as I feel they will help me understand more about borderline personality disorder thank you for posting them.

Congratulations 👍

Hi just wanted to say I like your videos, I have subscribed! The reason I look for videos is to try and make some sense of my x wife’s thinking and coping mechanisms, I still love her, however I can’t walk away because we have a two year old. And it’s my fear that sometimes she may not be coping, and my son my suffer as a result, in my heart I know she a great mother, but I fear she my split our son when he grows older. So yes I’m a fan! And I believe anyone who is a borderline and has the courage to go one line is great, it helps people like me understand so much more, because there is no better reference than someone who is living it.

When a borderline loves you it’s fantastic,however when your devalued it’s the pits Black and White it destroys your very soul.

Wow so refreshing to here a borderline say this in my experience borderlines lie a lot and hide from the truth, well done

It’s so sad to see no comments but I’ve just found you and I’m here

It’s vey normal to feel this way about your child it maybe part of codependency

You have invested in her !

Very sorry to have to point this out BUT your doing a similar thing that your mother did, yes it’s hard balancing with kids! But you should be making a vid or seeing to your child’s needs not both, if you need proof when this vid reaches 601 as you pause, freeze the vid just before you come back on and your face says it all! I don’t need to elaborate.

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Hallucinations in bpd is for lifetime??

Sorry to hear about all the suffering you went through. Your story will support others going through similar pain.

the reason he doesnt express himself even though "your healthy" is because of the YEARS of damage you have already caused simple

Way to take ownership of your condition by being self-aware, being vulnerable and opening up to the world and doing a greater good!

By the way ... your beatifull channel reach to Mexico ... so.. hopefully more people with this bpd can be able to reach you ... thank soo sooo much again...

I just found your channel.. i can not tell you how much helps me and understand myself all this that you share...and omg!!.. just thank you.. i just knew a few weeks ago .. that i have bpd.. and ... just thank you soo soo much for all that you share.. if is not to much to ask ...can you make more videos about how you and your husband was able to deal with this??.. im on point of divorce i guess.. and he is just going away and away every day .. i know its hard for the people around us.. but i really dont want to lose my marriage.. i already did a lot of damage... and im trying my best ..

Maybe it’s more aggressive in men bc they only get diagnosed when it’s severe. It took a while for me to get diagnosed and idk why.

I understand there needs to be more people talking about the condition and how if effects them. I've had 2 major episodes, which lasted for months at a time. Thank you for sharing your story.

Men are malignant narcissists while females are covert narcissists malignant narcissists men are mixed with antisocial personality disorder the angry damaging borderline male is often a malignant narcissist they have the fear of abandonment and they use it as charm to manipulate innocent people.

Damn, I'm someone dealing with BPD too, and in this video both extremes -highs & lows- can be noticed. I'm really see that you are working on to be better, to feel better. Congratulations for searching help and I send you a big hug. Thank you for the video.

It is very brave of you to come and share your views on this. How did you realize that you had BPD? Did your husband help you with that or you explored the path yourself?

Boo, hoo, hoo!

I ended up a relationship of 10 years and I’m not gonna say that all was my fault but definitely bpd had much to do with it. I wasn’t aware at the time.