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thanks for sharing your journey with us! hope you're doing well!

Thank you so much for sharing. Severe depression is so hard to live with but there are great treatments out there!

Did my third ECT treatment today, just feel terrible 😫, I'm trying to have hope. Depression sucks

Hi Jenny, How is life? We miss your updates. It helps a lot to know your journey with its ups and downs. It gives us hope. Anyway, wishing you all the best and many blessings always...

Hello. I am exactly you. Perfectionism bla bla. Antidepressants stop working. I think you should screen for bipolar spectrum though. Anyways, does 1 ECT per 3 weeks makes someones memory or learning at university worse? Or it is only the big course in 1st 3 weeks. Thanks.

Been subscribed for years, just came across you again after quite awhile. How are you going now? Hope you're doing well. Not wanting to het out of bed is basically my life right now.

I know this is ancient but thank you

Please post updates. Im starting ECT today

A couple of months after I had ECT I had a brain bleed. I hadn't had a fall or hit my head . The only thing concerning my head was the ECT! I also had a lot of memory loss short and long term. Even big events in my past I had no memory of!

Thank you so much for sharing your experience... videos like yours gave me and my wife a better understanding of what this option is. This was all new territory for me just a few weeks ago. My wife has responded well to ECT since the second treatment. She is out of the dark place she was after she tried the unthinkable. I understand from your video it will continue to be a journey. I would love for people to have easier access to healthcare they need and deserve. Wish you the best to you always!

Any updates? Love our journey and you! I hope u are doing okay! Screw yoda lol juts always try your best even if your best is different each day!

I'm inspired ❤

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I'm on the fence about it. Like most people, I'm scared of the memory loss. I'm also a teacher and can't afford to have that throwing me off in the classroom. If I do it, I hope my experience is like yours.

At what point in treatment do you think your memory problems started?

I've heard horrible memory loss and extreme depression residing Ect. I did TMS therapy last year and have had a big improvement in depression after. Be careful with ECT, I do think my voltage was pumped extra high because of my resistance to the treatment. By the way, my memory loss is almost completely short term. Like I forget the words as I know I'm typing them. 😆 Many years later about 4-5, my short term memory had gotten better.

Are you ok? Why did you stop making videos

What medication worked for you?

You are saving lives ❤

I'm on the ECT waitlist and I've been doing a lot of um . .waiting . . Lol so it really helps to hear what you have to say about it. I'm also a runner and am hoping that this therapy doesn't set me back too far.

If you’re still out there, Auvelity fixed my treatment resistant depression. Good luck - you’re beautiful inside and out!

Hi Jenny! I cannot express how amazed I am by your courage. I am a 21y/o female struggling from anxious depression past 4 years and I’m about to have ECT. I am scared but I’m hoping it works!

The memory loss isn't nearly as bad for me as the loss of cognitive function! The ability to retain new information. It is awful. I was able to return to college and graduate summa cum laude at the age of 59, after having 8 ECT treatments 2 years prior. However, as I've returned to the workforce, my inability to retain new material is downright humiliating and embarrassing. I don't believe the success rate is 80% by any means. I was told 82% in 2017...but more recent research shows the success rate to be much lower. Ketamine, and getting on the right meds (for me), are the 2 things that have given me what hope I now have. This is only MY experience, everyone is different.

Any update video?

Pretty hot for a depressed chick

How are you???

To me the memory loss would totally be worth it, a definite downside, but my memories will do me no good if I'm dead... Thank you for the video, so hopeful to try this.

I notice that I no longer am sharp on times or dates. I feel that my memory loss has been significantly reduced.Now in my 60’s I fear that I have dementia. I had 12 sessions of ECT in my early 50’s. I wouldn’t recommend it.

Can you help me to my depression nothings to effect its worst to meds can ect works for me please help me

Hi. Did ect help with anxiety?

Thanks for these videos. I wonder how you are doing now? I am considering ECT but at the moment I can't get it on the NHS. So will have to go privately which is expensive.

What's new?

This is from 8 years ago. You are things now" n

I’ve looked up your Twitter and Instagram accounts but find nothing. I found you on Facebook but nothing was new. Perhaps the spelling is different. I was curious about how you’re doing.

I wish she would come back and check in.

Thank god

how are you doing now? im about tto have the treatment

thank you so, so much for this video. i smiled often, and the information is so valuable. i applaud you for this. -Matt

Please help If there any Medications you are recomended for managment of memory loss after ect

You are very brave. Good luck in everything that you do.😊😊❤❤

I'd like to forget 90% of all my memories permanently

How are you u doing now, Jenny? :)

A decade later, I honestly felt happy hearing you talking about how sincerely you felt better. It did not happen to me when I had ECT, but I know I'm part of the 20% that doesn't respond like expected. Much love <3

NEVER GET THIS TREATMENT IT FUCKED MY DAD UP

We're you able to get off your meds?

I know you probably mean well, but you should not recommend this treatment to anyone. ECT involves applying electrodes to a person’s scalp and then passing electrical current through the skull and brain tissue to induce a seizure. This is what constitutes a so called “treatment”. At the push of a button psychiatrists shoot up to 460 volts of electricity through the skull to produce a grand mal seizure that can sometimes last up to 30 minutes. This is many times stronger than the voltage one would get even if they stuck their finger into a light socket. To put that into context, 450 volts is enough to power 5 stadium lights on a football field. ECT machines generate nearly 403 times the electrical current of a stun gun and 450 times that of a cattle prod. The brain trauma caused by one session of electroshock is equivalent to the force of dropping a 40 pound cinder block from 7 1/2 feet onto the head. That’s why patients often wake up from the procedure with a headache and severe memory loss. ECT literally fries the brain by heating up neurons to the point where they become damaged or get too hot and die. When an electric current flows through the brain, the electrical energy is converted into heat, raising the temperature of the brain. The larger the current, the more heat is produced. If the temperature gets too high the cells suffer temporary injury, permanent damage, or even death. ECT causes certain areas of the brain to literally waste away, just like someone with Alzheimer’s. The cognitive impairment, memory issues, amnesia, headaches and euphoria are all due to the side effects of head trauma and electrical injury. In an attempt to heal itself from catastrophic damage, the brain releases chemicals which can temporarily create a sense of euphoria, but this eventually wears off leaving people with permanent cognitive impairment. Rather than being a marker for improvement, the euphoria is a symptom of brain damage. Many people who get ECT end up on disability because they are unable to work or function in society anymore. Others require years of speech therapy. Quite frequently people will forget their names, their identity, their family and friends. They might come home and not know who their children are or remember getting married. ECT can erase precious memories and obliterate years of education. There are lawyers who can no longer practice law and doctors who are unable practice medicine. One woman needed a service dog after ECT because she would leave her house to get the mail and forget where she lived. Another man forgot how to tie his shoe laces. It’s terrible. Yes it’s true that you can electrically shock someone out of their so called ‘crazy’ mind… but you don’t shock them back to their ‘right’ mind, you shock them into a ‘shocked’ mind. The biggest mystery of all is why on earth people think that sending bolts of electricity through a persons head is a good idea. First of all, there is no such thing as a “therapeutic”seizure. When you’re in a hospital and someone comes in with a seizure, that is a bona fide emergency and doctors hop right in to try and stop the seizure immediately. Mainstream physicians go to great lengths to prevent seizures. The idea is to prevent them so it doesn’t cause brain damage, because it’s recognized that seizure activity promotes brain damage. The more seizures a person has, the more potential there is for cognitive decline and neurological dysfunctions. ECT comes with more dangers than just the electricity. The drug they use as a relaxant in the U.S during electroshock is the same drug used for lethal injections. This drug is called Succinylcholine. It paralyzes all the muscles of the body, except for the heart. Due to it’s effectiveness at stopping breathing, it’s regularly given in the execution of prisoners on death row. When a patient receives ECT, this drug also paralyzes their breathing, which is why the anesthesiologist has to ventilate the patient during the procedure. Electroshock is still every bit as brutal as it always has been, and the result remains the same- a grand mal seizure and brain damage. The only thing different about modern day electroshock is that anesthesia and paralyzing agents were added to suppress the patients convulsions. The anesthesia does nothing to protect a patient’s brain. The anaesthetics and paralysing agents are simply used to make ECT appear less barbaric for the benefit of the person observing the procedure. Psychiatrists are not electrical engineers so they don’t understand the effects that electro currents can have on human tissue. They are trained to set the knobs and press the buttons, they aren’t taught the ramifications of what it’s doing. It takes about $500- $1000 to make an ECT machine and around $20,000 to sell it. The more sessions you have, the more money a psychiatrist makes. ECT has nothing to do with medicine or helping the patients, it’s about making money at the expense of vulnerable people.

Electroshock is without question brain damage. It causes permanent cognitive dysfunction that is often irreversible. It makes people docile, submissive, apathetic and it literally shrinks your brain. Most people who get this end up on disability, are unable to work and need constant care and assistance from others.

You're committed to getting better

Can memory loss be permanent? Can I forget something forever?

What was the medication you took that made you feel good?