วีดีโอ

Thanks for the video! It really resonated with me. I'm diagnosed bipolar 1, then later Autistim and ADHD. I had a manic episode for which I was hospitalized four years ago during the covid pandemic. A really crazy time 😅 lol. But what I think brought it about was that I sought my visions of what I thought would be pleasurable for myself. I ended up not sleeping for several days and I was off to the races 🙃😬. I felt the same sort of intellectual and spiritual pride that you mentioned. I did hurt myself and a lot of others emotionally during this period. I'm more stable fours years on, but it's a work in progress, I've got to remind myself not to seek narcissistic and somatic gratification, or at least to get it under control, to normal levels. That seems to be a big trigger for me. Thanks for the vid 🙂!

Lmao okay ableist

The ways I've seen narcissists trying to hijack the neurodivergent community really reminds me of back several years ago when pedophiles started calling themselves "MAPs" and tried to hijack the LGBT community. Or when people defend "non-offending pedophiles" in general, which is eerily similar to whenever people argue that narcissists aren't inherently abusive. The LGBT community kicked the pedophiles' asses out and it would really benefit the neurodivergent community if they followed their example when it comes to narcissists. Just like how pedophiles will never be a part of the LGBT community, narcissists will never be a part of the neurodivergent community.

Thank you for this--survivor in all the ways here, also. And I appreciate you sharing your thoughts here. Glad I stumbled on your channel.🙏🏻

Thank you for this. I just encountered a “neurodivergent” space online where everything and everyone was being labeled as neurodivergent; even people with BPD and NPD. I’m a survivor of multiple narcissistic relationships; both at work and in my personal life. There is no way for me to coexist in a space where I am being told to accept someone at face value that has a disorder where they are known for their unreliable personal narrative or manipulative tendencies. Frankly, the whole line that “narcissistic abuse doesn’t exist” feels like straight up gaslighting! It 100% exists and I experienced it first hand! People with NPD don’t get to tell me what I did or did not experience, and they certainly do not get to control the narrative of their victims! If they don’t like the truth, maybe they should do some self-reflection and go to therapy rather than blaming the people whom they have hurt! If this form of “neurodivergence” acceptance/celebration continues to be pushed, I will no longer participate in it. I have every right to define the boundaries of who I will and will not associate with for my own mental health, and nobody with NPD has any right to force me to accept them or their toxic behavior. You want my acceptance and/or trust? Earn it. Nobody gets a free pass anymore; especially if someone tries to blackmail me with the accusation that I’m being *ableist* for having boundaries in the first place.

excellent info. thank you for sharing your experience!

Psychosis is not a joke, sometimes I wish God would give people who are insensitive about it, a little taste of the suffering of it :( not nice of me I know, but it occurs to me.

Nice prayer wall

Interesting

Thank you for this. Been on lithium since I was 18 and I’m more hopeful I can have kids

I think if you use crazy to bully someone who has a mental illness then yes in that term it’s a slur but if you use it in a joking way with your friends no it’s not a slur

Thank you for sharing 🙏🏽

being delusional is not living in reality, therefor its not a "wacky idea" or "disagreeing with you" its Mental illness, Seek therapy.

Keep your chin up✌️ I know the feeling

👍👍👍

Do you mind if I ask how much lithium you took during pregnancy and breastfeeding ?

This needs more views the narcs and psychopaths and other cluster B's are forming a literal army on Instagram and a large part of the Autism spectrum community is accepting them and normalizing narc abuse and going as far as saying narc abuse isn't real which totally invalidates and devalues people who have been real victims of narc abuse. As an autist and ADHD-er who is a survivor of 8 years worth of narc abuse by a malignant narcissist, I know that autists and aspbians are more likely to be abused by narcs and psychos the Autistic population is more vulnerable to being abused and manipulated point blank. Teaching them to accept and normalize narc abuse is outright dangerous I also support any cluster b people who are trying to get help and work on themselves I know not all narcs and psychos are abusers but the fact is their traits make them more likely to be abusive. The ' let's normalize and accept and celebrate narc and psycho traits ' part of the neurodivergent community are posting straight up gaslighting and Crazy making type stuff it's getting ridiculous

I ID as bi. Sometimes I've wondered if I'm actually gay... But I do think I love my boyfriend. I just... Think I have a preference for women. I hope I'm not wrong.

As a kid I used to wish I'd been born a boy simply for the convenience... I identify as agender now. 😅

Thank you so much for this video!! I'm going to share this!!

How many milligrams of lithium were you on when you got pregnant?

Thank you for explaining so well. Last 5-10 minutes was really great and very relatable. Just got diagnosed and learn so much.

Thanks for this video, it's very informative. I struggle to deal with a loved one in their psychotic states, so watching this helped me make more sense of their behavior and understand things better.

Hi! Your video was really useful. Do you know your MBTI type?

Idk if you'll see this but I've been hyper fixated researching about autism for the last two months because I suspect I'm autistic and it's so scary how much I relate with the way you think, see and do things, it's amazing, I don't want this to come off as weird or creepy, it's just really odd for me to find someone so alike, thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and experiences

Your diagnosed Bipolar may not be spiritual to you. But that does not discount others experience. There may even be an overlap between people who are experiencing a spiritual event and those having a manic episode. To me my "mania" was freeing, expansive, productive and down right fun. Weather other people were better than me or vise versa , or any feeling of pride, never entered into it, perhaps that could be one of your complexes coming into play. For me with each mania episode, also came profound shifts in my perspective that were the foundation for positive changes in my life. For me each episode was the death of or letting go of paradigms that no longer served me and the acceptance of aspects of my self that I previously denied either due to social, familiar, or religious pressures. I think the point of the folks trying to find their way out side of Western medicine are trying to form the foundation of that network of guidance you say is lacking. It has to start somewhere. Bipolar is not new, Aretaeus of Cappadocia of 1st century Greece analysed and treated bipolar disorder. So somehow people have lived with it, in fact if they hadn't you wouldn't be here. They wouldn't have lived to pass on the gene to you.

Thank you for sharing

The hospital was so unhelpful I was suicidal and they wouldn’t let me take lithium

Relatable

I can relate, specially the last part!

I have the same exact thing too and you described it perfectly. Thank you for sharing!

Thankyou for sharing your experiences, you're the first person who's explained the difficulties of breastfeeding and bipolar/lithium. Thankyou!

Going to go back and rewatch contrapoint's Shame. Your video and experience are very interesting. Thanks for sharing.

I think people often mix up disillusionment (“illusional” I mean, but people’s use itself of the words and their meanings) with delusion - but also people cannot see the thought process behind what people say and find it hard to figure out what is meant by peoples comments sometimes too. Things that sound “out there” people often dismiss or label as conspiracies. Also many people often seem to think saying one thing is synonymous with saying something the person didn’t actually say, too. Part of it is our subjectivity and difficultly understanding others’. I think part of it is that people pick up things they hear or see and then use things often inaccurately. As humans, we make assumptions too much and how we make them and with what information and it’s validity, is questionable - doing so, often without realising, even. Environmental factors often perpetuate these things too. I think as people we can struggle to see things from different people’s perspectives and often times words get thrown around, or people resort to doing so sometimes to not have a proper debate - for potentially various reasons.

Ayyy

I know how it feels. I’ve dealt with meltdowns, sensory overload, shut downs as well as burn out. I am an adult on the autism spectrum officially diagnosed as a child.

really well put! thanks for posting this!

This video is extremely accurate to my experiences and how I've learned to lie. Thank you for posting.

honey,I am watching.good job

Wow im the same way! When I was a kid, my mom used to tell me that I'd shut down. Now, I blow up more than just shutting down. For me, its definitely levels. Sometimes I'm full blown screaming, and sometimes (usually daily) i get so overwhelmed I become non-verbal and breathe heavily. Thank you SO much for this video. Honestly this is the first once I've seen that I could relate to because of how much detail you go into.

Yay someone like me

No one is ever going to stop saying crazy or stupid. We say it to our friends all the time, we say “whoa that’s crazy dude” or “you’re so crazy” regular people who are just living their lives aren’t using it to insult people with disabilities. People on Twitter will find a way to make every word offensive. People said it was racist to say sus or finna. I get your point we use it as an insult, but we will never stop insulting people. We will always find words to insult someone.

I am also an extroverted autist - well mostly I do need a lot of alone time

I'm way late at seeing this video but I have to say I really like how you explain things. I found out only 3 years ago that I'm autistic, and I'm in my forties! Watching videos like this helps me to really understand myself as well as finding the words to explain why I am the way I am. Thank you for putting yourself out there!

th-cam.com/video/8IGVxBb5uYk/w-d-xo.html Oh, right, I need to get back to your playlist. I got distracted noticing that you have a, very lovely, TH-cam channel.

LSD, Psilocybin, Ayahuasca, refined DMT, MDMA

Oh, definitely not white. You fail the "five second" test in one second. If you tried to get into a white supremacist rally, they'd call you a Moor. I know what you mean though, I'm also not white but one doesn't want to sound like they are oblivious to nuances of inequality. Yet "white" people freak me out if I get too close, definitely Other to me. I once saw a guy turn to his father and say, "Steak's out of the park, Dad!" He was an Eagle Scout. I've never really recovered.

They are not mutually exclusive! Although it apparently manifests differently when autistic people develop narcissism.

This is insane.... intellectuality meets faith in a wondrous combination. This was very insightful.

Hi Liz - What I've always appreciated about you is your candor, your ability to express yourself and the respect you have for others. I hope your expanded life journey leads you to the peace and knowledge we all deserve. Best to you!