I found this at my lowest point. I got my phone taken away for crying, I don’t have any friends to talk to even if I did have my phone, and I’m too sick and tired to do any of my school work. I got taken out of school and put in online school because of my health, but It made no difference. I’m only more lonely now and socially withdrawn. My mom even said that she doesn’t know how to handle my mental illness or regular illness so she threatened to leave and only be there to pay the medical bills. I have a lot of medical bills. I’m scared of death, but living like this is no better. I feel like I am just a shell of a once energetic and kind girl, rotting away in a house full of family who doesn’t understand her. I don’t feel like myself. I feel empty. I feel alone. My top priority for all of my life was for my family to love me, and now I’m not even sure if I have succeeded at keeping that. I just want to be mom and dads little girl again, their pride and joy, their everything.
@@Lxzzyy_1812 hello!!! I’m struggling right now, but I still have a warm bed and my favorite stuffed animal, so I’m not as bad as I could be. Thank you for responding
@@pikkanaababy i understand how you feel and many others do aswell,, don’t give up and stay strong and it’ll keep you on track! it’s not the end ❤️❤️ just like in the anime they both received happy endings even when they were feeling so low and suicidal! they still ended up alive and okay, i hope you keep getting stronger day by day and look back to yourself of what you were before and think to yourself, i’m happy i didn’t give up!! i love you and i hope you do well 😇😇💗
“yesterday i was planning to jump off a rlly tall bridge and kms i only went to see shoko nishimia to tie up any loose ends… im the biggest loser ever!” “i dont know why he even bothers living” “i knew i had royally screwed up and i had to pay for being a jerk..so i pushed everyone away..” those lines broke me :(
your life is worth living, and there are people out there who truly love you. please, don't give up on yourself. there is always light at the end of the tunnel
@@vvsaugxst no problem just come back to this comment whenever you need help dude I’m no therapist but I’ll try to make you feel better and loved like you deserve you deserve happiness we all do
Oh sweetheart..Please don’t do it. It’s really not worth it ml, I want you to know that I care for you even if I don’t know you. I really hope your still there ml❤️
@@UrFav_Sam12 the issue is that when we resonate with others, in reality, we only truly resonate with our self because we may feel what others feel and that causes your mind to remind itself of the fact you felt or feel what they are feeling. In other words you can only care about someone because you care about yourself, and your care for that other person is not independent. so everyone generally only cares about themselves. I’m not complaining about that, but it is certainly a hard pill to swallow.
I have no idea what audio some people would like but I’m doing slowed songs so just comment what song you want me to do😋. (I can’t do multiple suggestions so I’ll do one at a time😭.)
Sure!!but do you want it to reset every 3 minutes with shoya’s voice for an hour or just with the start and then the music keeps going and going without shoya’s voice?
don't do it bro its never worth it in the end your life will get better i promise you there is always someone there for you even when it doesn't seem like it, i know how you feel i felt the same way a year ago but people do care about you and will help you, you just have to be willing to ask for it
its only the first few days of 2024 and god, did i fuck it up within hours. planning to end my shit fr fr. i hope whoever’s reading this have a good new year, because we all deserve good things at some point. otherwise, how will we know whats good if theres only bad?
"There probably isn't any meaning in life. Perhaps you can find something interesting to do while you are alive. Like how you found that flower. Like how I found you."
Then the person you find ends up having a change of heart, the dependence you built on the very thought of them sticks with you, while they are gone. It’s hilarious
I'm just sitting here listening to this knowing my family is poor. We didn't have the money to celebrate Christmas. One of our family members had to pay the bills for us. I'm constantly body shamed for being skinny. I've got bullied so much. When I argue with my older sister. She brings up the fact that I was bullied and she wasn't. It breaks me. I've tried committing before. 4 times. 3 was with a rope. 1 was with a knife. I'm sensitive and get called crybaby alot. I bang my head on the wall when I get mad. My parents don't care. My school doesn't care. It's been 5 years since grandma passed. My cat passed away in my hands. I hate being touched on my shoulder but you know whya they do? Touch my shoulder. My 6th grade assistant principal is a prededor. I have so many fake friends. And it's been 2 years since without getting gifts on my birthday. I can barely even move in the mornings anymore. All of this happening to me. A 11 year old girl who's barely in middle school.
Oh I feel you, that’s been my life too since I was your age, I’m 14 now and it’s started to get better, maybe not my friends or family but I don’t care anymore, not in a bad way either, I’m genuinely happy, even tho my family is homeless. There is hope angel, I promise you, you’ll find it, please don’t give up.
sorry guys paragraph coming !!>_< i wanna pull a shōya this year or in 2-3 years. i wanna run away and go on a tall building and jump, or go on a highway. I’m so tired of everything, I feel like all my friends are slowing leaving me. One of my friends already ditched me so many times. they ditched me for some person named toasty and some other ppl, i wish I never introduced her to my other friend jayden. Because now their dating and it’s pissing me off. Like the amount of times she has left me is crazy. i want her to name one fvcking time I have ever ditched her, I don’t remember not even once leaving her. So many people owes me apologies it’s crazy, so much has been going on in my life and no one knows about it, not my friends and not my family. No one knows. And I’m bottling up all my feelings and I don’t know how long I can keep up with it. I want and need help but I don’t wanna bother anyone, and no matter who I tell, no matter what I do, nothing will change, no one will care. I can never or talk about something without being judged by my family and friends. And I’m so tired of people telling me what to do, like people tell me what I have to do like every minute. Like I know what I have to do just give me a second I’ll get it done just shut up please. And I hate how I look, and I regret my past actions. I’m so disappointed and disgusted in myself I’m so disgusted and ugly. i there was a option where you can just be pretty and skinny, but no. im just some disgusting person. I stayed up until 3am thinking about a girl that can probably go on for a whole day without even thinking of me. It’s hard to believe when someone says that I’m their bsf cuz im such a horrible friend and idek how I can even have friends. There’s only one person that I feel like that cares. And her name is Mia, I feel like she’s the only one that I can trust, the only one that helps. The only one that cares. She’s such a wonderful person but none of my other friends are there for me even tho I’m always there for them. It doesn’t make sense. I have no idea what to do anymore and I just want to end it all. I have tried to think of ways to die without feeling any pain but I can’t think of any. I just wanna disappear.
Hey bro, I understand that you hate your life, or that you may want to end it all, but please think about the consequences. Look, I'm just some random dude online who'll never understand what you truly feel or felt in these past years and present. Your appearance might not be on how you want it or expect it to be, but that's totally ok, take this advice from a fellow ugly person ;). At the end of the day there's nothing you can do about your looks (only some minor changes like: Bigger muscles, clearer skin, more volume in your hair) but you'll still be who you are, so try not to worry about your looks so much. People leaving you for others, isn't your fault, believe me I was in the same situation I also had people leave me for others but the thing I learned about it is that it's most of the time not your own fault. (I don't know it in your case, because I don't know you personally, but based on your description of the situation you seem like a kind and modest person, so I don't understand people leaving you. The cause of this may be that you hung out with the wrong people, I'm serious, the people you choose to hang out with can have drastic impacts on your daily life, you need to choose (or try to choose) people you feel comfortable with. I don't want to tell you what you need to do or do better, I just wanna give you some advice. Regretting your past actions, is pointless. It's cruel for me to say, I know but it doesn't matter what you think of the past, since it's the past. The past is nothing but the past, we can't change it regardless of how hard we would've wanted it to turn another way. So what I tried to say is: Don't worry about the past just live the present! If you keep worrying nothing will really change. So from now on try to be as positive as possible. (It's hard, I know) I'm glad you have someone you refer to as ”Mia”, she's the proof that you're not alone my friend. You also said that your other friends are never there for you even tho you're always there for them. This may sound weird, but just unfriend them. Friends are meant to help each other and to stand up for their friends, giving favors in a one-way-direction is completely pointless. What I'm trying to say is, if you don't get any benefit from it, you should not keep on with this, try to leave all the negative thoughts and everything that makes you sad and angry behind you, from now on that's the past and you don't need to look back anymore. If you've read my boring advice so far I want you to know that I care for you my man! My concern doesn't mean anything to you, I'm aware of that but please don't end it. I'd be happy to listen to you, to try and help you, to cheer you up. So if you want someone to talk to I will! Also have a great day my friend you can do this! Nowert
@@WhoIsNowert i don’t wanna drop them tho, i would hate to lose them. Their the only people that I have left, and ofc mia but they have been in my life for 2-3 years. I don’t wanna break that long friendship for some stupid thing, i can’t do that. even if they hurt me, make me cry, make me feel like sh!t. I can never drop them until they drop me. That’s their choice if they wanna drop me but I can never drop them .
@@WhoIsNowert and i know the consequences, some people will be sad but i genuinely think that ppl would be happier if things were like that, if i were gone. especially my friends, they would probably get over it in half a week and continue their life and be happy, same with family. i have no problem with disappearing and having more people being happy when I’m gone. and I wouldn’t want someone rotting in their bed crying just because of my death, I want them to continue their life and just focus on more important things and be happy.
I’m so sorry love, I know this world has its good parts and its bad parts..everyone is always going through something no matter what.. I hope that you can finally find the light in your life and escape the cruel and horrible things that’s been messing you up.
I'm trying hard not to, I have a question. Should I tell the school counselour my plan to kms? I really don't want to, but I feel like theres nothing to livee for. I wish somebody cared about me, but i dont want to go to a psych ward. When i told my dad, he told me to commit. When I told my mom, she said I was attention seeking. I really don't wanna be alive anymore.
We know you can get through this, so don't give up now. Also, here's 100 reasons to live 1. to make your parents proud 2. to conquer your fears 3. to see your family again 4. to see your favorite artist live 5. to listen to music again 6. to experience a new culture 7. to make new friends 8. to inspire 9. to have your own children 10. to adopt your own pet 11. to make yourself proud 12. to meet your idols 13. to laugh until you cry 14. to feel tears of happiness 15. to eat your favorite food 16. to see your siblings grow 17. to pass school 18. to get a tattoo 19. to smile until your cheeks hurt 20. to meet your internet friends 21. to find someone who loves you as you deserve 22. to eat ice cream on a hot day 23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day 24. to see untouched snow in the morning 25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire 26. to see stars light up the sky 27. to read a book that changes your life 28. to see the flowers in the spring 29. to see the leaves change from green to brown 30. to travel abroad 31. to learn a new language 32. to learn to draw 33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them 34. Puppy kisses. 35. Baby kisses (the open-mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek) 36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them. 37. Trampolines. 38. Ice cream. 39. Stargazing. 40. Cloud watching. 41. Taking a shower and then sleeping on clean sheets. 42. Receiving thoughtful gifts. 43. “I saw this and thought of you." 44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you." 45. The relief you feel after crying. 46. Sunshine. 47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention. 48. Your future wedding. 49. Your favorite candy bar. 50. New clothes. 51. Witty puns. 52. Really good bread. 53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time. 54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.) 55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling. 56. The smell before and after it rains. 57. The sound of rain against a rooftop. 58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing. 59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them. 60. Trying out new recipes. 61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio. 62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage. 63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable. 64. Breakfast in bed. 65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theatre. 66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning). 67. a feeling of being loved 68. Forgiveness. 69. Water balloon fights. 70. New books by your favorite authors. 71. Fireflies. 72. Birthdays. 73. Realising that someone loves you. 74. Spending the day with someone you love. 75. Spending the whole day in bed. 76. Eating a whole pint of your favorite ice cream. 77. Floating in water on your back and just staring up at the sky. 78. First dates (even the bad ones make for funny stories.) 79. Bonfires and smokes. 80. Relationships where you love someone but aren’t in love with them. 81. Coming home to someone you love. 82. The color of autumn leaves when they change. Summer. 83. Sing songs at the top of your lungs with your friends. 84. Cuddling. 85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed. 86. Someone’s skin against yours. 87. Holding hands. 88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world. 89. Singing off key with your best friends. 90. Road trips. 91. Spontaneous adventures. 92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes. 93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees. 94. Thunderstorms. 95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland. 96. The taste of your favorite food. 97. The child-like feeling you get on New-Year Morning. 98. The day when everything finally goes your way. 99. Compliments and praise. 100. to look at this moment in 10 years' time and realize you did it.
Please don’t. I’ve been there since I was like 11 and now I’m 14 and life has been incredible despite the chaos that surrounds me. I found the smallest reason to live and it eventually lead me to thousands, you can find it too!!!!
Hermano, se fuerte, yo me mude de país, dejando atrás toda mi vida solo por una decisión estúpida que hice, y ahora estoy sufriendo las consecuencias de mis actos, y me duele, soy Infeliz y todo, pero, las cosas siempre mejoran, man, las cosas siempre mejoran, ten eso en tu mente
i want to attempt again like real bad but I dont want my Dad to come home with a dead daughter. he has lost way too much people he has cared about, im all he has. im scared he'll khm too
It may not feel like it but you have so much to live for. No matter what, suicide is never a solution. It is a permanent solution for temporary problems. see a therapist, or even better talk to people who can relate. You're strong and you can get through it :)
@@Izxu91 i was at the same spot you was. Believe me brother. It really got better for me. I still get sad over some hardships I've been through sometimes. I still have huge regret over some of my mistakes. But i just kept going. And it got better. Most important thing. I know where I'm going now. That's it. All you need is a goal. You have figured this out. If you have a goal. You have no time for depression. Ok? Go on brother. I believe in you
(Matthew 11:28-30) “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Jesus Loves everyone of you, he has taken away my depression, my anger, my hate and much more, i can assure yall that He loves every single one of you, because you all are created in his own image. (Proverbs 24:16) "for though the righteous fall seven times, they rise again, but the wicked stumble when calamity strikes." Never give up guys, and to that one who has gotten to this point, just Remember, that Jesus Loves you ❤️🔥✝️
I thought that about my brother after convincing myself he already died in my heart. When I saw him in his casket I felt guilt like I haven’t before. Your mom loves you, that imbedded into mother hood and unlearning it is impossible, masking it is quite easy and only takes a few bad days. Your mother loves you
I’m tired of dealing with life it feels like I’m not worth it and my mom and dad not even together anymore and my dad smokes I try putting on a fake smile in front of them but I don’t think I can do it any longer.
Hermano no vale la pena es muy difícil la vida y los problemas que ella te da pero creeme al final vuelves a hacer feliz te lo digo por experiencia yo tuve 5 intentos de suicidio y ahora ya me siento bien y me va mucho mejor como cuando todo era normal o mejor antes de querer suicidarme y estar en depresión
@@elsargentoinfierno2461it was better before I tried my third attempt my bird passed days before and my parents kept abusing me so I tried to do it a third time but my friend stopped me but now my parents are abusing me again but worse so I might just try my 6th attempt now
estoy cansado de la vida, no le encuentro sentido, solo quiero ser feliz pero al parecer si yo lo soy nadie mas lo es, no puedo ser feliz, voy a entrar a la universidad y no me gusta nada, no se que quiero estudiar, no encuentro motivación alguna para seguir, solo deseo tirarme de un puente o que un carro me arrolle para terminar con este infierno
Vale la pena vivir hermano yo pase por 5 intentos de suicidio vivi por años un infierno y años de depresión pero hoy estoy bien y las personas que han llegado a mi vida me han ayudado mucho
My boy im so sorry, i wish i could tell you what to do, but i dont have that answer, please ask for help, i know its scary, but you have to be brave for yourself, please just ask for help.
If they bully you physically, gather as much evidence as possible and then report that shit. If they bully you mentally, focus on the things they can pick at your for, if they can’t find anything you have no worries. If they do find something, and what they pick at genuinely afflicts you, then change your life style in accordance with overcoming the insecurities they bully you for.
If you believe you are alone, then your belief actually corresponds with reality. As long as we all hold a separate conscious experience of the world we live in, we are all left with ourselves. We are indeed all alone, i don’t necessarily know if that’s a bad thing.
@@Hazel-wy1euI’m sorry to put it this way but if you think people don’t care about you, such that it isn’t selfish to kill your self… Then why do you think it is necessary to write a note? After all, they don’t care right? Don’t kill your self
Happy Christmas to everyone who read this , I have no one to do Christmas with.
Happy Christmas to you
Fr same bro u got snap?
wow christmas flew by that fast
Brother you realise Christmas is for us to celebrate the birth of Christ not for you to worry about girls
@@shivy-akl2293
Humans could change the meanings of everything , even the word of god.
"Yesterday I was planning to jump off a very tall bridge" true words
I found this at my lowest point. I got my phone taken away for crying, I don’t have any friends to talk to even if I did have my phone, and I’m too sick and tired to do any of my school work. I got taken out of school and put in online school because of my health, but It made no difference. I’m only more lonely now and socially withdrawn. My mom even said that she doesn’t know how to handle my mental illness or regular illness so she threatened to leave and only be there to pay the medical bills. I have a lot of medical bills. I’m scared of death, but living like this is no better. I feel like I am just a shell of a once energetic and kind girl, rotting away in a house full of family who doesn’t understand her. I don’t feel like myself. I feel empty. I feel alone. My top priority for all of my life was for my family to love me, and now I’m not even sure if I have succeeded at keeping that. I just want to be mom and dads little girl again, their pride and joy, their everything.
You okay rn?
@@Lxzzyy_1812 hello!!! I’m struggling right now, but I still have a warm bed and my favorite stuffed animal, so I’m not as bad as I could be. Thank you for responding
Awe I hope ur going to get better
@@pikkanaababy i understand how you feel and many others do aswell,, don’t give up and stay strong and it’ll keep you on track! it’s not the end ❤️❤️ just like in the anime they both received happy endings even when they were feeling so low and suicidal! they still ended up alive and okay, i hope you keep getting stronger day by day and look back to yourself of what you were before and think to yourself, i’m happy i didn’t give up!! i love you and i hope you do well 😇😇💗
Do you want my number or snap? I can talk anytime as long as you need❤
“yesterday i was planning to jump off a rlly tall bridge and kms i only went to see shoko nishimia to tie up any loose ends… im the biggest loser ever!”
“i dont know why he even bothers living”
“i knew i had royally screwed up and i had to pay for being a jerk..so i pushed everyone away..”
those lines broke me :(
I've been hearing this audio to make my self sleep 😭 Happy early Christmas
Im shoya, shoya is me
shoya is the representative of regrets
Shoya be getting a little to relatable
Real.
You know you’re cooked when you start relating to this guy
yup :/
real
Survived this year now we have to survive another 365🗣️🗣️‼️‼️🔥 (i won't)
real
366*
real
Real
you okay luv? ❤
your life is worth living, and there are people out there who truly love you. please, don't give up on yourself. there is always light at the end of the tunnel
Been listening to this to much lately scared what I’ll do
Dude you’ll be fine just keep your hopes up❤️
@@Localtuber961❤
@@vvsaugxst no I don’t need that heart you need it dude love you dude❤️
@@Localtuber961 I really appreciate you bro🥹
@@vvsaugxst no problem just come back to this comment whenever you need help dude I’m no therapist but I’ll try to make you feel better and loved like you deserve you deserve happiness we all do
Fighting the urge to end it all
Oh sweetheart..Please don’t do it. It’s really not worth it ml, I want you to know that I care for you even if I don’t know you. I really hope your still there ml❤️
@@UrFav_Sam12 the issue is that when we resonate with others, in reality, we only truly resonate with our self because we may feel what others feel and that causes your mind to remind itself of the fact you felt or feel what they are feeling.
In other words you can only care about someone because you care about yourself, and your care for that other person is not independent. so everyone generally only cares about themselves. I’m not complaining about that, but it is certainly a hard pill to swallow.
I have no idea what audio some people would like but I’m doing slowed songs so just comment what song you want me to do😋.
(I can’t do multiple suggestions so I’ll do one at a time😭.)
could you do this song but like one hour long🥲
Sure!!but do you want it to reset every 3 minutes with shoya’s voice for an hour or just with the start and then the music keeps going and going without shoya’s voice?
YES@@LiveLaughJingYuanforever
@@LiveLaughJingYuanforeverwhen are you going to do it ?
I can’t remember what this movie is called but I remember it’s brought me tears several times, it’s about that deaf girl I believe
it's called a silent voice
A silent voice is the anime. I may watch it soon i found the name in the description of the video
@@sly_slyving if you haven't watched it yet then i highly recommend, probably my fav movie ever now.
when i read the com. i just have something to cry on it , i feel them i wanna hug them please guys dont hurt your self
I'm very, very sad. No one cares about me, and no one loves me. I think I'm an outcast. So when I want to live this torment all my life, goodbye.
don't do it bro its never worth it in the end your life will get better i promise you there is always someone there for you even when it doesn't seem like it, i know how you feel i felt the same way a year ago but people do care about you and will help you, you just have to be willing to ask for it
you care about yourself, that's most important
Are you okay man?
its only the first few days of 2024 and god, did i fuck it up within hours. planning to end my shit fr fr. i hope whoever’s reading this have a good new year, because we all deserve good things at some point. otherwise, how will we know whats good if theres only bad?
Dont do it man god loves you its not worth it
yesterday i was planning
yes
"There probably isn't any meaning in life. Perhaps you can find something interesting to do while you are alive. Like how you found that flower. Like how I found you."
Then the person you find ends up having a change of heart, the dependence you built on the very thought of them sticks with you, while they are gone.
It’s hilarious
i’m glad i survived
I’m not planning on living past 19. That’s in 1 and a half years. Wish me luck
stay safe brother
Same, probably finna do it then so 2 years left to go!
Said the same thing when coming out of high school. Now I'm 25 and still here, life finds a way and it eventually works out. Good luck my lost friend.
Please don't
@@etsunara.please don’t.
might not make it to new years chat we'll have to see 🗣🗣‼‼‼‼
I hope you can make it:) stay strong^^.
I'm just sitting here listening to this knowing my family is poor. We didn't have the money to celebrate Christmas. One of our family members had to pay the bills for us. I'm constantly body shamed for being skinny. I've got bullied so much. When I argue with my older sister. She brings up the fact that I was bullied and she wasn't. It breaks me. I've tried committing before. 4 times. 3 was with a rope. 1 was with a knife. I'm sensitive and get called crybaby alot. I bang my head on the wall when I get mad. My parents don't care. My school doesn't care. It's been 5 years since grandma passed. My cat passed away in my hands. I hate being touched on my shoulder but you know whya they do? Touch my shoulder. My 6th grade assistant principal is a prededor. I have so many fake friends. And it's been 2 years since without getting gifts on my birthday. I can barely even move in the mornings anymore. All of this happening to me. A 11 year old girl who's barely in middle school.
i want to hug you and never let you go i want you to feel safe , ❤
@@Izxu91 ☹️❤️
Oh I feel you, that’s been my life too since I was your age, I’m 14 now and it’s started to get better, maybe not my friends or family but I don’t care anymore, not in a bad way either, I’m genuinely happy, even tho my family is homeless. There is hope angel, I promise you, you’ll find it, please don’t give up.
@@Angelwildsuperstar thats sound good , i am happy for you
same except actually trying only thinking abt it and instead im fat
sorry guys paragraph coming !!>_<
i wanna pull a shōya this year or in 2-3 years. i wanna run away and go on a tall building and jump, or go on a highway. I’m so tired of everything, I feel like all my friends are slowing leaving me. One of my friends already ditched me so many times. they ditched me for some person named toasty and some other ppl, i wish I never introduced her to my other friend jayden. Because now their dating and it’s pissing me off. Like the amount of times she has left me is crazy. i want her to name one fvcking time I have ever ditched her, I don’t remember not even once leaving her. So many people owes me apologies it’s crazy, so much has been going on in my life and no one knows about it, not my friends and not my family. No one knows. And I’m bottling up all my feelings and I don’t know how long I can keep up with it. I want and need help but I don’t wanna bother anyone, and no matter who I tell, no matter what I do, nothing will change, no one will care. I can never or talk about something without being judged by my family and friends. And I’m so tired of people telling me what to do, like people tell me what I have to do like every minute. Like I know what I have to do just give me a second I’ll get it done just shut up please. And I hate how I look, and I regret my past actions. I’m so disappointed and disgusted in myself I’m so disgusted and ugly. i there was a option where you can just be pretty and skinny, but no. im just some disgusting person. I stayed up until 3am thinking about a girl that can probably go on for a whole day without even thinking of me. It’s hard to believe when someone says that I’m their bsf cuz im such a horrible friend and idek how I can even have friends. There’s only one person that I feel like that cares. And her name is Mia, I feel like she’s the only one that I can trust, the only one that helps. The only one that cares. She’s such a wonderful person but none of my other friends are there for me even tho I’m always there for them. It doesn’t make sense. I have no idea what to do anymore and I just want to end it all. I have tried to think of ways to die without feeling any pain but I can’t think of any. I just wanna disappear.
bro why
Hey bro, I understand that you hate your life, or that you may want to end it all, but please think about the consequences. Look, I'm just some random dude online who'll never understand what you truly feel or felt in these past years and present. Your appearance might not be on how you want it or expect it to be, but that's totally ok, take this advice from a fellow ugly person ;). At the end of the day there's nothing you can do about your looks (only some minor changes like: Bigger muscles, clearer skin, more volume in your hair) but you'll still be who you are, so try not to worry about your looks so much.
People leaving you for others, isn't your fault, believe me I was in the same situation I also had people leave me for others but the thing I learned about it is that it's most of the time not your own fault. (I don't know it in your case, because I don't know you personally, but based on your description of the situation you seem like a kind and modest person, so I don't understand people leaving you. The cause of this may be that you hung out with the wrong people, I'm serious, the people you choose to hang out with can have drastic impacts on your daily life, you need to choose (or try to choose) people you feel comfortable with. I don't want to tell you what you need to do or do better, I just wanna give you some advice.
Regretting your past actions, is pointless. It's cruel for me to say, I know but it doesn't matter what you think of the past, since it's the past. The past is nothing but the past, we can't change it regardless of how hard we would've wanted it to turn another way. So what I tried to say is: Don't worry about the past just live the present! If you keep worrying nothing will really change. So from now on try to be as positive as possible. (It's hard, I know)
I'm glad you have someone you refer to as ”Mia”, she's the proof that you're not alone my friend. You also said that your other friends are never there for you even tho you're always there for them. This may sound weird, but just unfriend them. Friends are meant to help each other and to stand up for their friends, giving favors in a one-way-direction is completely pointless. What I'm trying to say is, if you don't get any benefit from it, you should not keep on with this, try to leave all the negative thoughts and everything that makes you sad and angry behind you, from now on that's the past and you don't need to look back anymore.
If you've read my boring advice so far I want you to know that I care for you my man! My concern doesn't mean anything to you, I'm aware of that but please don't end it. I'd be happy to listen to you, to try and help you, to cheer you up. So if you want someone to talk to I will!
Also have a great day my friend you can do this!
Nowert
@@WhoIsNowert i don’t wanna drop them tho, i would hate to lose them. Their the only people that I have left, and ofc mia but they have been in my life for 2-3 years. I don’t wanna break that long friendship for some stupid thing, i can’t do that. even if they hurt me, make me cry, make me feel like sh!t. I can never drop them until they drop me. That’s their choice if they wanna drop me but I can never drop them .
@@WhoIsNowert and i know the consequences, some people will be sad but i genuinely think that ppl would be happier if things were like that, if i were gone. especially my friends, they would probably get over it in half a week and continue their life and be happy, same with family. i have no problem with disappearing and having more people being happy when I’m gone. and I wouldn’t want someone rotting in their bed crying just because of my death, I want them to continue their life and just focus on more important things and be happy.
I’m so sorry love, I know this world has its good parts and its bad parts..everyone is always going through something no matter what..
I hope that you can finally find the light in your life and escape the cruel and horrible things that’s been messing you up.
Real
Survived
"Yesterday I was planning to jump off a really tall bridge and kill myself. I only went to see Shoko Nishimiya to tie up any loose ends."
I'm trying hard not to, I have a question. Should I tell the school counselour my plan to kms? I really don't want to, but I feel like theres nothing to livee for. I wish somebody cared about me, but i dont want to go to a psych ward. When i told my dad, he told me to commit. When I told my mom, she said I was attention seeking. I really don't wanna be alive anymore.
We know you can get through this, so don't give up now. Also, here's 100 reasons to live
1. to make your parents proud
2. to conquer your fears
3. to see your family again
4. to see your favorite artist live
5. to listen to music again
6. to experience a new culture
7. to make new friends
8. to inspire
9. to have your own children
10. to adopt your own pet
11. to make yourself proud
12. to meet your idols
13. to laugh until you cry
14. to feel tears of happiness
15. to eat your favorite food
16. to see your siblings grow
17. to pass school
18. to get a tattoo
19. to smile until your cheeks hurt
20. to meet your internet friends
21. to find someone who loves you as you deserve
22. to eat ice cream on a hot day
23. to drink hot chocolate on a cold day
24. to see untouched snow in the morning
25. to see a sunset that sets the sky on fire
26. to see stars light up the sky
27. to read a book that changes your life
28. to see the flowers in the spring
29. to see the leaves change from green to brown
30. to travel abroad
31. to learn a new language
32. to learn to draw
33. to tell others your story in the hopes of helping them
34. Puppy kisses.
35. Baby kisses (the open-mouthed kind when they smack their lips on your cheek)
36. Swear words and the release you feel when you say them.
37. Trampolines.
38. Ice cream.
39. Stargazing.
40. Cloud watching.
41. Taking a shower and then sleeping on clean sheets.
42. Receiving thoughtful gifts.
43. “I saw this and thought of you."
44. The feeling you get when someone you love says, “I love you."
45. The relief you feel after crying.
46. Sunshine.
47. The feeling you get when someone is listening to you/giving you their full attention.
48. Your future wedding.
49. Your favorite candy bar.
50. New clothes.
51. Witty puns.
52. Really good bread.
53. Holding your child in your arms for the first time.
54. Completing a milestone (aka going to college, graduating college, getting married, getting your dream job.)
55. The kind of dreams where you wake up and can’t stop smiling.
56. The smell before and after it rains.
57. The sound of rain against a rooftop.
58. The feeling you get when you’re dancing.
59. The person (or people) that mean the most to you. Stay alive for them.
60. Trying out new recipes.
61. The feeling you get when your favorite song comes on the radio.
62. The rush you get when you step onto a stage.
63. You have to share your voice and talents and knowledge with the world because they are so valuable.
64. Breakfast in bed.
65. Getting a middle seat in the movie theatre.
66. Breakfast for dinner (because it’s so much better at night than in the morning).
67. a feeling of being loved
68. Forgiveness.
69. Water balloon fights.
70. New books by your favorite authors.
71. Fireflies.
72. Birthdays.
73. Realising that someone loves you.
74. Spending the day with someone you love.
75. Spending the whole day in bed.
76. Eating a whole pint of your favorite ice cream.
77. Floating in water on your back and just staring up at the sky.
78. First dates (even the bad ones make for funny stories.)
79. Bonfires and smokes.
80. Relationships where you love someone but aren’t in love with them.
81. Coming home to someone you love.
82. The color of autumn leaves when they change. Summer.
83. Sing songs at the top of your lungs with your friends.
84. Cuddling.
85. Being wrapped up in a warm bed.
86. Someone’s skin against yours.
87. Holding hands.
88. The kind of hugs when you can feel a weight being lifted off your shoulders. The kind of hug where your breath syncs with the other person’s, and you feel like the only two people in the world.
89. Singing off key with your best friends.
90. Road trips.
91. Spontaneous adventures.
92. The feeling of sand beneath your toes.
93. The feeling when the first ocean wave rolls up and envelops your toes and ankles and knees.
94. Thunderstorms.
95. Your first (or hundredth) trip to Disneyland.
96. The taste of your favorite food.
97. The child-like feeling you get on New-Year Morning.
98. The day when everything finally goes your way.
99. Compliments and praise.
100. to look at this moment in 10 years' time and realize you did it.
Please don’t. I’ve been there since I was like 11 and now I’m 14 and life has been incredible despite the chaos that surrounds me. I found the smallest reason to live and it eventually lead me to thousands, you can find it too!!!!
@@Angelwildsuperstar Thanks
Omg this shit reminds me of 2023 october-november peak time i js randomly started heavy breathing and my hearth pumps like crazy
No creo ser capaz de continuar viviendo, realmente.
Dude what’s wrong man?
Hermano, se fuerte, yo me mude de país, dejando atrás toda mi vida solo por una decisión estúpida que hice, y ahora estoy sufriendo las consecuencias de mis actos, y me duele, soy Infeliz y todo, pero, las cosas siempre mejoran, man, las cosas siempre mejoran, ten eso en tu mente
It's 2024 I alr planned to end it 🤷🏽♀️
Allah loves you dont do it its not worth it I love you
@@houmanheidarpour8775 Thanks Allah/God loves you too
i want to attempt again like real bad but I dont want my Dad to come home with a dead daughter. he has lost way too much people he has cared about, im all he has. im scared he'll khm too
It may not feel like it but you have so much to live for. No matter what, suicide is never a solution. It is a permanent solution for temporary problems. see a therapist, or even better talk to people who can relate. You're strong and you can get through it :)
dont do it gang
god dAMN guys i cannot do this shit anymore- how am i still here.?-
wondering the same thing we still have that little hope in us and i think thats what keeps us going
guys I might plan a shoya,should I?..
Don’t do it.
It’s not worth it hun.
No brother. Happy times and sad times are both part of the life
even if i am trying to end this but there someone want me alive
@@Izxu91 i was at the same spot you was. Believe me brother. It really got better for me. I still get sad over some hardships I've been through sometimes. I still have huge regret over some of my mistakes. But i just kept going. And it got better. Most important thing. I know where I'm going now. That's it. All you need is a goal. You have figured this out. If you have a goal. You have no time for depression. Ok? Go on brother. I believe in you
@@nrdlit thank you so much i wanna hug you
(Matthew 11:28-30)
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Jesus Loves everyone of you, he has taken away my depression, my anger, my hate and much more, i can assure yall that He loves every single one of you, because you all are created in his own image.
(Proverbs 24:16)
"for though the righteous fall seven times, they rise again, but the wicked stumble when calamity strikes."
Never give up guys, and to that one who has gotten to this point, just Remember, that Jesus Loves you ❤️🔥✝️
Day by day i chose to not, i just need to keep being strog, im scared for the day i cant no more
my mom dosen't like me that much anymore does she?
me too always blame me and even if i didn't do anything
Thats okay. Parent love is supposed to be unconditional, but sometimes it's not. The love that is conditional means the most. People love you.
I thought that about my brother after convincing myself he already died in my heart.
When I saw him in his casket I felt guilt like I haven’t before.
Your mom loves you, that imbedded into mother hood and unlearning it is impossible, masking it is quite easy and only takes a few bad days.
Your mother loves you
I’m tired of dealing with life it feels like I’m not worth it and my mom and dad not even together anymore and my dad smokes I try putting on a fake smile in front of them but I don’t think I can do it any longer.
just dont give up mate
everything will be alright.
keep pushing
dont give up
i know i shall not see 20.
:( sending love to you, it'll be okay you're strong
@@Teddy_the.biophillic oh giirll thank you :"))💓💓
survived
Lolz thats so me
probably end myself this year.
Hermano no vale la pena es muy difícil la vida y los problemas que ella te da pero creeme al final vuelves a hacer feliz te lo digo por experiencia yo tuve 5 intentos de suicidio y ahora ya me siento bien y me va mucho mejor como cuando todo era normal o mejor antes de querer suicidarme y estar en depresión
@@elsargentoinfierno2461it was better before I tried my third attempt my bird passed days before and my parents kept abusing me so I tried to do it a third time but my friend stopped me but now my parents are abusing me again but worse so I might just try my 6th attempt now
Don't do it bro, we believe in you
Go church or join a boxing club
BRO DON'T DO IT. I BELIEVE IN YOU. EVEN IF NO ONE DOES I DO. BELIEVE IN YOURSELF MAN, YOU CAN SURVIVE THE PAIN AND MOVE FORWARD. TAKE CARE.
🙏🏿🙏🏿
estoy cansado de la vida, no le encuentro sentido, solo quiero ser feliz pero al parecer si yo lo soy nadie mas lo es, no puedo ser feliz, voy a entrar a la universidad y no me gusta nada, no se que quiero estudiar, no encuentro motivación alguna para seguir, solo deseo tirarme de un puente o que un carro me arrolle para terminar con este infierno
La vida se te va aser Bien, no se como, pero confia en mi ❤
Vale la pena vivir hermano yo pase por 5 intentos de suicidio vivi por años un infierno y años de depresión pero hoy estoy bien y las personas que han llegado a mi vida me han ayudado mucho
real
if anyone sees this in the 4th of july im dead
oh
noooo
tell me you're alive
please
Don't! Please come on tell me you're still alive.
Im sorry abt being alive I promise you I don’t want to be…
Ik it's coming from a stranger but you wanna talk about it sweetheart ? :(
(if u want to talk private all my user are in my bio)
how do I get them to stop bullying me...
Oh my dear.. i hope you'll be okay :(
My boy im so sorry, i wish i could tell you what to do, but i dont have that answer, please ask for help, i know its scary, but you have to be brave for yourself, please just ask for help.
If they bully you physically, gather as much evidence as possible and then report that shit.
If they bully you mentally, focus on the things they can pick at your for, if they can’t find anything you have no worries.
If they do find something, and what they pick at genuinely afflicts you, then change your life style in accordance with overcoming the insecurities they bully you for.
punch the leader if you wont you will regret it for the rest of your life
@@nicosenpai4938 sigh.
Me rn
what music is behind this audio?
heavenly by cas
hi lonely people
hi :D
If you believe you are alone, then your belief actually corresponds with reality. As long as we all hold a separate conscious experience of the world we live in, we are all left with ourselves. We are indeed all alone, i don’t necessarily know if that’s a bad thing.
Happy birthday me
Happy birthday 🎉 (hope you doing alright because I don’t)
We had the same birthday day
I didn’t get a cake until today
Still going strong
Stay proud ‼️‼️‼️‼️
Real. Song?
Heavenly…by cigarettes after s-x
Anime name?
A Silent Voice, It's in the description lol
@@soap7032 mb
@@soap7032 thanks
Im gonna kms
Real (my essay is ready in my notes app)
@@Hazel-wy1euI’m sorry to put it this way but if you think people don’t care about you, such that it isn’t selfish to kill your self…
Then why do you think it is necessary to write a note? After all, they don’t care right?
Don’t kill your self
Can anyone please tell me what exactly are they saying?
Have you not watched the movie don’t miss out it’s litreally a masterpiece
@@Potato_chips1221 i have watched the movie but i cant quite point what hes saying
" yesterday I was planning to jump off a really tall bridge and kill myself " is the first part from what i can collect.
"Yesterday I was planning to jump off a really tall bridge and kill myself, I only went to see Shoko Nishimiya to tie up any loose ends."
episode?
Its a movie sorry😭
the movie's called A Silent Voice, there's a manga by the same name (it's really good)
Song name?
@@Thatonegirl._Hii- heavenly by cigarettes after sex!
me if u care
What tf is this song
heavenly by cas the audio is from a movie called a silent voice
real