Books that Ruined My Life
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 30 มิ.ย. 2024
- Turns out, I'm a masochist when it comes to literature.
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A year ago I was obsessed with a bunch of booktubers. Now you're the only one making videos that interest me. It seems silly, but I like the way you actually talk about the books you've read... I feel like everybody else is just showing their bookshelves. Good work!
I feel the same way when watching other Booktubers, unfortunately. I don't really watch my favourites anymore because they rely too heavily on staple content. Thank you so much though, it's these kind of comments that make me keep wanting to create different content.
i read the diary of anne frank when i was ten out of my own curiosity and got so emotionally attached to her ive not been able to pick it up since
I think I have the same attitude towards depressing books; I need to be in a good mood. It's like "I'm feeling great, I need someone to suffer"
There's definitely a masochistic vibe to it.
Yohoho
Looking back on it I think it was the film of Requiem for a Dream that wrecked me worse than the book. Having to visualize addiction in all its gory detail was brutal and the ending of everyone reduced to the fetal position is the most depressing image ever. Not to mention that haunting soundtrack!
I read Flowers for Algernon in high school. I liked the writing style.
Eli Wiesel's "Night" trilogy. Though I couldn't get past the first book, I felt emotions I've never felt before, a new pitted level of angst and it left me SO far gone. I cried for hours. Had to actually encourage myself to watch cartoons and really dwell on happy childhood memories to get out of that funk. Any book written by a victim of senseless tragedy-where human beings rob others of their right to existence-leaves a definite scar.
Weren't the next two books in that trilogy fiction? I just remember hearing that once, if so you probably didn't miss out. Anyway I'm completely with you on those types of books.
Like someone else had said, Requeim for a Dream is a movie, which I own and love but it is one of the most depressing movies ever.
Yeah I'm just not ready for it yet. Also not a huge fan of Jared Leto.
I read Requiem for a dream thanks to you (or because of you) and it left me nearly dead with sadness, but Gosh how I loved that book!! The movie is also a masterpiece (one of the most depressing movies ever). The Enchanted by Rene Denfeld is the last book that broke my heart, it's so freaking beautiful! I think you might like it! Great video like always
Great book but so soul destroying. Thanks for the recommendation!
No Longer Human is one I never really got over. It's both comforting and pathetic how much I can relate to it.
when i saw this video title i thought of "Prozac Nation" for myself and hearing you talk about it, we had nearly identical reading experiences even down to age.
These are by far my favourite kind of reads. You should try reading some Toni Morrison. I recommend starting with either Beloved or The Bluest Eye. All of her writing is absolutely heartbreaking, but beautiful and powerful beyond words. Also, I think you might "enjoy" The Virgin Suicides. And the movie is beautiful as well!
This was a beautiful video. I love the depressing stuff, the trick is not reading too many of them in a row. Spread out the sadness to avoid becoming a husk lol. The movie of Requiem really is something if you haven't seen it.
Thank you. That's how I do it now, just really spread those reads out.
Whenever I come back to your channel and watch one of your videos, I get this cozy, witchy vibe and this urge to listen to stevie nicks and watch the craft, I don't know if it's stupid but I relish in it. I'm also always interested in the books you read. You're so pretty! I always say that but your hair gaahhh
The girl next door I just read and I’m 14 and I probably shouldn’t have read it’s still sending me creeps I had to sleep with the lights on and skip I tried to watch the movie I watched it but cried my eyes out
Les Misérables, The Kite Runner and the end of Gone on the wind broke me. It's so sad, even now I can't remember this books without feeling my poor heart broken :(
I love The Diary of Anne Frank! I've reread it so many times, & i read it in 6th grade, & I think it's one of the books I'll always reread
& YES for Flowers for Algernon! I've cried so many times throughout the book, & that ending 😢
A child call it and the girl next door really set the bar for me and I also kinda like reading sad I’m 14 so that’s maybe just a mood thing
I also read "Of Mice and Men" by Steinbeck. It left me so miserable about the ending that I still think about it from time to time. Plus it was such a little book that packed a big punch to my heart.
The Absolutist fucking annihilated me.
the room is a very dark and disturbing book probably Selby's most twisted it was hard for me to finish good luck!
Thanks, I'll need it!
I recommend you check out Johnny got his gun by Dalton Trumbo. A short read that will stick with me for the rest of my life. It is definitely an eye opener.
Sarrah Basma what it’s about
"The Girl Next Door" by Jack Ketchum really messed me up, its rough AF. Especially considering its based on true events 😭
I swear most of the books we had to read in school made me angry that the words had crossed my eyes. I understand the point of them and why we were supposed to read them, but I'd already learned all the lessons in them when I was in grade school and they seemed like a huge waste of time to me.
possibly the most sadistic thing I've ever read and I've read a lot of dark books
I've read another book of Wurtzel's that impressed me, as it describes how she moves out of the gross egocentricity of the depression that plagued her in "Prozac Nation." "The Diary of Anne Frank" I've attempted TWICE, once as a teenager and once as an adult. It was tough going both times. As for Steinbeck, forget it. I wouldn't bother. "Flowers For Algernon" was moving, but just far too damn depressing. In the early '80s, I read a SUPER-depressing non-fiction book (I forget the author) who wrote about her sister being kidnapped into a Middle Eastern harem. I nearly lost it. I wasn't right for weeks. Finally, I made the BIG mistake of reading the very proto-dystopian sci-fi novel (the movie starring Will Smith is based on it), "I Am Legend," by one of my favorite writers, the late Richard Matheson--a tale about the only man left alive after a world-destroying nuclear holocaust. I read it one black, inky night in 1970, when I was left alone in the house, and that shit was sooo scary that I've never dared to read it again--not even in broad daylight.
Try Cannery Row by Steinbeck. It's actually a comedy and a wonderful one, beautifully written, philosophical, naturalistic and meditative at times. I'm reading a sequel he wrote just as fun and wonderful as the first one.
The Grapes of Wrath definitely destroyed me, Beloved by Toni Morrison, Ariel by Sylvia Plath.
soooo prettyy
When it comes to Elizabeth Wurtzel, the funny thing is she's not that adolescent young adult any more. She *will* forever be immortalised - both on the cover photo and in the minds of everyone who read Prozac Nation back in the late 90's - as that 'elegantly wasted' hot mess in her early 20's. But she's nearly 50, which in itself makes me feel old; but after years of chronicling herself as queen of break-ups, a difficult woman and occasional confirmed bachelorette, she's eventually grown up a bit, realised that being middle aged and alone isn't an admirable feminist stance worth clinging to...and gotten married. She's battled breast cancer and seems to have come through it well - with perhaps some greater substance to her character - but she's still chaotic and a little too shallow and narcissistic for my liking.
I read PN twice. Once when I was 18 at the recommendation of a friend; the second time in my 30's after a serious mental health breakdown led me on a literary guided tour down memory lane, searching for clues as to whether my own descent into madness bore any resemblance to those experiences others had committed to the printed page. Turns out, that the clues had been there for years; I've been mad as a sack of badgers for most of my life. But a mixture of wit, cunning, extreme acting-out, self-medication, selective hermitage and/or intense human interaction, allowed me to get through three decades largely undiscovered and undiagnosed.
Wurtzel's experience as a young person with mental health problems, is not unique; nor are the highlights of her selected escapades really shocking or particularly extreme. But make no bones about it, Wurtzel wants you to be shocked. This book IS a memoir of a young person who lived with mental health issues, but it's also very much about Wurtzel wanting to court the attention of as many people as possible. I personally find the woman to be deeply disingenuous. I don't doubt for one moment that Wurtzel has suffered with depression/bipolar disorder/borderline personality disorder, but she has also been very quick to capitalise on it too. Not necessarily financially (she comes from a comfortably well-off family) but by being able to have her narcissism pandered to. PN gained her the kind of notoriety that gets you invited onto chat-shows and encourages "news" rags to photograph you coming out of bars and clubs (sober or otherwise) with whichever fuck de jour one is proudly brandishing as arm candy.
But where her memoir helped open doors to an education at law school, it couldn't do anything to help her knuckle down and apply herself once away from the spotlight, resulting in her failing her exams and ultimately wasting the opportunity the course could have offered a more dedicated person. PN brought her into contact with many other sufferers and their families which reinforced in Wurtzel, her sense of being needed and important; something you yourself commented on. And I do agree that the level of maturity/self-awareness you possessed as a 15yr old actually sets you apart, not just from others your age, but from the author herself who lacks emotional depth. When asked to write a book based on her experiences, to help young people with depression, she took the advance, failed to deliver and was sued by the publisher. She likes the idea of being a perpetual media darling; she just doesn't take as well to the diligence required to be deserving of said accolades.
PN was/is an important book. It got mental health out there and being talked about in contemporary terms, with a book that was completely accessible to anyone over 14yrs old, unshrouded by stuffy clinical parlance. And for that it does deserve its reputation as a powerful piece of writing. But being as it is...written by Wurtzel...I know that a lot of it will be true, a lot of it will be exaggeration and a lot will be to get and try to keep your attention.
Hi RG, I'm here to recommend one of my favourite books by John Steinbeck: "The Winter of Our Discontent"; not set in the Depression years. The story is set in the 60s and I loved every page and the characters were so briefly, but so well-crafted that I felt as if I knew them personally. Engaging, humourous, mysterious and at times uncomfortable. Just thought I'd throw it out to you.
I was under the impression that these would be books you hated, so it was a pleasant surprise to hear you liked them!
Yeah a good few people thought the same. But I just meant that they had a big emotional impact on me
RGsDevilship I read Flowers for Algernon last year and loved it. But man, it was sad.
The girl next door
Jack Ketchum?
Goodnight mr tom killed a part of me
Requeim for a dream is a movie I'll never ever rewatch. Most depressing shit i've seen.
Agreed. I saw it a few times (although only the first time all the way through, the other times I just saw parts of it), and it is THE reason why I will never ever do drugs. So there's that. Forget PSAs and well reasoned arguments against drugs, and just show that movie to people.
I've had it on my Netflix to watch list for months now and still haven't been able to bring myself to watch it.
Bookupied I would say that about Lilya 4-Ever.
Agree
That movie blew my mind, messed me up. It was disturbing, but still really good. I only saw it once several years ago and I don't think I could ever watch it again. It stuck with me for days, couldn't get it out of my head.
I swear most kids study that book at school mice and men are all the others based on true stories
The Dice Man is kind of depressing but also kind of funny.
That's one I've wanted to read for a while.
You should. It is a bizarr book with full of sarcasm. Think you will like it too. :)
Kindred by Octavia butler had me all kinds of not ok.
Lol @ you talking about Of Mice and Men. That book was downright depressing, and I feel the exact same way as you do about it, except I actually loved it (?) But seriously, if this depressed you in a bad way, do not read anything else by Steinbeck. Do not.
It didn't depress me in a bad way. It was just a book that stayed on my mind for a very long time.
In the same vein as a Flowers for Algernon, try Awakenings. Same theme, but Awakenings is a true story.
Oh that sounds interesting
@@RGsDevilship - It is. Awakenings was made into a movie with Robert De Niro.
I also did not like Josh steinbeck. I find his book in library i try to read it. But i could not read a whole book.
Amazing books.
hey whats the picture behind you? the goth girl
Oh it's a vampire lady I painted when I was a teenager 😅
@@RGsDevilship its a cool picture
If you ever are in the mood again for a John Steinbeck novel I would try East Of Eden. I would be curious to know what you think. Lovely video :)
Molly Ritter amazing book
5 words: Boy in the Striped Pajamas
I saw it at school as a teenager. Hit me harder than any other movie at that time.
I saw the movie. No. Just no.
Armentitron No it was pretty mediocre and cheap. The film at least, it was the same type of storytelling as the Titanic film. You should watch Au Revoir Les Enfants instead. It's an amazing but depressing film. It's autobiographical, based on the director's own experiences in France in a private school in WWII.
Wait, is that Anne Frank diary?! I read it! Is the book you have shown an edited version? I am so confuse!
The book that I wouldn't re-read again is a Cathy Cassidy book. Shay is the most miserable boy of the whole book!
His father is filled with Anger, his mom never defend him and his brother for 15 years and the Baka of Cherry refuse to listen him on the phone dillema and gain a huge populary without any shame. And Honey was a pawn the all time.
With all of thoses mental damage, Shay could have been pessimistic and a loner, who hope to run away from his miserable life.
And I am so "Upset" is the worst excuse I have heard from you, stupid Berry! Always know that Love is a dangerous and betrayal relationship.