From Gay Porn to God: My Conversation with Philipp Tanzer

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  • Philipp Tanzer on Twitter:
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  • @gregory_bloomfield
    @gregory_bloomfield ปีที่แล้ว +20

    I remember him. I knew him as Logan McCree.

  • @boebender
    @boebender ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Wonderful seeing you after so many years. We met only once in Newark, NJ in November 2009. You were sitting across from me at the airport with your boyfriend and fellow adult performer. You were very sweet and kind. Best to you and your family. So sorry for your loss. Thanks for your story.

  • @justbarry587
    @justbarry587 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    An insightful lovely chat by both of you. TY💜

  • @KSLady22
    @KSLady22 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Very insightful conversation. Thank you for sharing your struggle and wisdom of experience, hard-earned.

  • @billy_boys
    @billy_boys ปีที่แล้ว +35

    Thanks for the interview, Philipp. You're so brave and my inspiration right now for me to continue on my faith’s path. I needed this video. I'm a Christian but I struggle and feel my attraction to men at the same time. I started feeling this at school when one day I suddenly felt something about a good-looking boy in my class. I didn’t know what it was, or how to respond to it. I always felt something toward my own gender and handsome guys. My parents are good people and still alive (I’m blessed), and my father was always working and away. As a result, I was raised by my mom (classical situation - the lack of masculinity for me). In my teenage age, God opened my heart and since that time I became a Christian, going to church. At the same time, my desire for men also was growing. The porn industry knocked on the door, but even watching porn I felt that I’m mostly curious and attracted to men’s bodies. I was watching regular porn and then switched to gay porn (I remember I watched something with you acting). Some voices in my head were telling me: “do this, you’ll like it, find a man”. However, I had a lot of opportunities to do this but God always protected me from this sin. I’ve never slept with a man myself and trying not to do it physically. Fighting it. I’m still a virgin. I don’t accept my sexuality even if I call myself gay. My parents and my church don’t know anything about me being in this situation and people are asking me if I have a girlfriend and when I’m going to get married. I’m trying to hide it behind my study and a lot of work but this situation can’t continue forever. A lot of my friends got married and already have kids. I’m just trying to be true to myself and can’t find a girl because I’m afraid I won’t be able to become a good man, husband, good father because of my sexuality and this situation forces me to stay single. I realized I'd like to have a family. Trying to hit the gym. Any suggestions for me being in this situation? God bless you all and those who were brave enough to escape from this dangerous way of life. Glory to Jesus Christ!

    • @yassinazour9850
      @yassinazour9850 ปีที่แล้ว

      May God give you the strength and courage to continue your struggle and I hope that one day you will meet the right one! There is always hope even though sometimes it seems that there is no light in sight. What really helped me is finding a support group that includes hundreds of people from around the world who are battling SSA. Everyone shares their story and gets advice and when things go less you can get support and advice. This gave me a lot of insight and the feeling that you are not alone. You can also use donations for therapy if you can't afford it. Look up "straight struggles discord" to read more about it. It is mainly a Muslim group but everyone is welcome and in this area (and many others) our religions are the same. Just as like Muslims (like me) benefit from Christian contribution, it can also go the other way.

    • @merakli07
      @merakli07 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I was exactly in your situation. I'm older now. I suggest: Go out and live your life the way you want to. Your same sex attraction will NEVER change. It's like the color of your eye. You can't change it. It is what it is. All religions, including Christianity, is a bunch of lies to control humanity with fear. There's no hell. A loving God would not create gays and the ban homosexuality. It just doesn't make any sense. "God" should be smarter than that. You're wasting your life for nothing. It's a pity.

    • @fredrikjosefsson7262
      @fredrikjosefsson7262 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      There are books on gays who were able to find a woman and marry her and have kids (just be honest with her). I can give more info if anyone is interested.

    • @joaofernandodasilva681
      @joaofernandodasilva681 28 วันที่ผ่านมา

      Hello my friend! Your history is similar to mine! I'm experiencing the same situation!

  • @TobychaserTobychaser
    @TobychaserTobychaser ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Great interview and to agree with other comments, journeys like Mr Tanzer's need to be highlighted. Perhaps if others saw how other people go thru life, we come away with realizing there is no 'right way' to be saved. It was humbling to also see Mr Tanzer's response to those he worked with, how grateful that they saw him a a person and they were concerned for him and he for them.

  • @KrisChalakov
    @KrisChalakov 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    God Bless Philipp for his work, my teens would of been so much different and a lot less pleasurable without his work. R.I.P Logan gone but not forgotten 🥰🥰

  • @creedy8612
    @creedy8612 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Godbless you Joseph! This was a beautiful conversion story.

  • @neptunian_dreamer6526
    @neptunian_dreamer6526 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I do hope he is on again and can pick up where he left off, what an interesting fellow. It's amazing the paths that some people tread.

  • @tatteredangel2021
    @tatteredangel2021 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Fantastic interview. Thanx for sharing. 👍

  • @mikeking9373
    @mikeking9373 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    Great interview! Philipp's life is a powerful witness to God's patience and mercy.

  • @cannedspamm
    @cannedspamm ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Thank you both very much for this conversation, it needs to be brought to light. I am not gay but I can relate nonetheless very closely to this path, our broken men and or fathers in this inverted world make most of us very confused about masculinity, myself included.

  • @nonnymoose6260
    @nonnymoose6260 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Dear Philipp, thank you for being brave enough to share this story with us. Your insights are very eye-opening. The trauma you suffered through your mother's tragedy made me think of a book I have read, "Born to Hate, Reborn to Love" by Klaus Kenneth. That story is very different from yours, but the he also underwent a lot of trauma and lived a life of some extremes before becoming Christian. Joseph, maybe one day you could also interview Klaus Kenneth.

  • @thecorcoran
    @thecorcoran ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Hello Phillip. I sent you a book a few years back. I thank God for you.

  • @Tahvyy
    @Tahvyy ปีที่แล้ว +12

    I just disagree with a lot of the things said ,but hey whatever works for you is fine with me.🌞

  • @jameshartz8086
    @jameshartz8086 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Joseph Thank you for your apostolate! I hope you are well and stay Catholic! You are doing much good and I am hlad that Phillip is well. jim

  • @zzzaaayyynnn
    @zzzaaayyynnn ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Very insightful discussion on broken masculinity.

  • @Setapartway
    @Setapartway 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    God bless! Thank you for this interview. I have been watching a lot of videos on this and trying to learn about different peoples journey since I found out my husband is attracted to men. Please pray for him.

  • @goydivision5311
    @goydivision5311 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Beautiful content, thanks Joseph and Philipp. Very relevant to today's society.

  • @jamestempleton553
    @jamestempleton553 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    God Bless both of you. Love you Philipp. I hope you write a book someday. You’ll change many peoples lives. ❤

  • @ognjentotic4345
    @ognjentotic4345 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Love you for sharing Philipp, you seem like a really nice guy!

  • @hussainjalal7283
    @hussainjalal7283 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Philip's story is very similar to mine. I grew up where my father was away for work. There was a clear lack of communication. My father was not a bad or indifferent man, but perhaps it took that! I was harassed and then I had a relationship with one of my relatives when I was a teenager. I was attracted to men, and then I fell victim to porn addiction. I ask God for help and salvation. What Philip says is very true.

  • @hankt2792
    @hankt2792 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Your conversation is right on point. My father was always preoccupied with the running of the house, job, paying the bills, upkeep of the house, etc.,, I never felt I was a part of his life and the few times I can remember being with him he was not supportive and always a bit critical of me so I never felt a bonding with him. In my teens and young adult years, I always felt insecure and indecisive while trying to fill that void with constant partying, girls, drugs yet knowing that those things were not the answer. It wasn't until I begged God for help that He led me to His son Jesus, then to the Virgin Mary, then to St. Joseph. With daily prayer, mass, rosary, and time (you must have patience), I found my way, found the right catholic woman and got married.
    In my case there was no physical abuse but there was neglect. However, my mother told me that my father's father was physically abusive towards him to the point where he had to leave the home and live with his aunt, so many times it is generational.

  • @edytajozefa
    @edytajozefa ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Joseph, you are doing a good job

  • @rsmith7912
    @rsmith7912 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

    I took a look at this video because I always found Philip to be a rather attractive man. I saw him in a London club years ago doing a live sex show & he seemed to be having a real good time too. I didn't sense any angels flying around the venue but I was more annoyed with everybody getting their mobiles out & videoing the action so that I couldn't see what was going on. I'm sure he was paid well though.
    Watching this I felt rather sad. Both guys have obviously been so brainwashed by a religion that doesn't really like the gay guys. They've become almost the preacher themselves. I wish for a world without any religions at all. Yes, back in the bible days they had to create stories of their world & faiths etc.... cos they didn't know how to explain things otherwise. Usually invented by the stronger man to enslave the weaker women, any religeon is just brainwashing at it's upmost. But it's a very old book, it's 2023 now & we have so much more knowledge that I think today, people really should be able to think for themselves. You are your own god & master & it's only you who can find the happiness that you want in life. Have faith in yourself to just do what you wanna do, be the good person with good values & be who you feel you truly are.
    Obviously, if at a young age you've experienced abuse or trauma then that will screw you up for life. A good counsellor could help both these guys to think more about themselves & without introducing god into the conversation.

  • @menergy3267
    @menergy3267 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    He was such a great gay porn actor, one of my favorites, I hope he is doing great now with his family.

  • @ailurophile4341
    @ailurophile4341 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    Lord Jesus Christ son of God, have mercy on me, a sinner!

  • @carltondexter1651
    @carltondexter1651 ปีที่แล้ว

    Wonderful testimony and very enlighting

  • @gregoryowen841
    @gregoryowen841 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Phillip looks better now.
    He seems like a good man.

  • @TheGrmany69
    @TheGrmany69 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Good ol logan McCree

  • @roland6357
    @roland6357 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Oh I don't agree with his assessment of same sex attraction at all. Goes against birth, coming out, living as gay. We are born like this bud. Oh well, I'm a great dancer because I chose to be. I don't think so! Wrong. Your idea is your idea. It just didn't make a whole lot of sense.

    • @ML-ov7wo
      @ML-ov7wo ปีที่แล้ว +10

      There is absolutely no proof we are born this way. Absolutely none. You may feel you were this way since childhood, yes. You may have never "Chosen' this, yes. But it doesn't mean it's something to accept and foster. If you want to use your analogy, you're a great dancer because you worked hard at it. You choose to work towards it. You didn't choose to have same sex attraction, it feels like it was always there. There are many negative behaviours people have tendencies for, even since childhood, but that does not automatically make them moral or quality characteristics to have.
      This video is here for those who, unlike you, understand the darkness and emptiness of a homosexual lifestyle. If you can't see that yet, it may be difficult to see this point of view.

    • @Jubidar
      @Jubidar ปีที่แล้ว

      Nobody is born gay. The vast majority of evidences point to early environmental factors. The clinical psychoanalytic literature has made it pretty clear that all homosexuals who did seek therapy for one reason or another, related to their homosexuality or not, have developmental issues dating back to the first 3 years of life. Narcissistic pathology is common as well. Severe gender identity issues are present. Faulty gender identity always results in atypical sexual interest. Most homosexuals are filled with unconscious guilt feelings, which consciously produce self-destructive behaviour seen in risky sex and drugs. And homosexuality is often the confession of the lesser crime in the homosexual's personal list of intrapsychic crimes. It is a way out of his overdimensional masochistic hunger, which genetically belongs to his mother. He escapes the overpowering mother and denying her by finding a male partner. Ironically, he never escapes mother. Every single gay encounter only throws salt in the bleeding wound.

    • @ribbrascal
      @ribbrascal ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@ML-ov7wo Choose whatever path is best for you but from my observation, ex-homosexual men seem to have one or both of two overlapping characteristics:
      1. A deeply religious childhood
      2. A history of unrestrained debauchery
      Is that true for you?

    • @jeffersonhassan4558
      @jeffersonhassan4558 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      ​@@ML-ov7wofolks like you literally just proved the commenter's point

  • @fr.eliasleyds
    @fr.eliasleyds ปีที่แล้ว +2

    very interesting interview, thanx, especially the mention of God's constant presence 👍 it's seems you searched radical transcendence in the wrong place - this is typical of our present culture, which forbids the mere mention of transcendence - the transgression of limits is typical of masculinity & is man's elementary natural gesture of religiosity - but when the modern world is becoming a womb, from which none is allowed to be born, in despair man turns against nature instead of reaching out beyond nature - i.e. fruitful sacrifice is replaced by suicidal pleasure

  • @gijoelover
    @gijoelover 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Great conversation. Definitely, i think we lack our male role models.

  • @mrtraz
    @mrtraz 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Absolutely fantastic! I'm applauding! 👏 👅👅👅🍑🍑🍑

  • @isaiasramosgarcia9771
    @isaiasramosgarcia9771 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    as porn star was great,

  • @esmeraldamoreiragallardo
    @esmeraldamoreiragallardo ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Phillip ain't there yet, because he still doesn't understand that Jesus is the ONLY Lord and savior,the Truth,the Way and the Life,but he seems to be heading in the right way. He knows there's a God,he knows there's truth,he knows truth is not relative,he admits he doesn't know some things yet with 100% certainty,but that's oké,as long as he's open to know things,he will be oke,God wil reveal himself, It really seems God is working in him,but he's not there yet.
    That's oké.
    God bless both of you two.

    • @marcleysens7716
      @marcleysens7716 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I agree with your analysis. I understand he has only been reading scripture for about 6 years. He must still have many questions which God will answer in due time. Just as a side, I found his concept of love (caring, angels) in te midst of this sin unusual. Love can, from a scriptural revelation point of view, only be revealed by God. We love (in a broken way even after experiencing his love), because he first loved us, as mentioned according to scripture. All earthly or humanistic love is broken and in the final analysis, in my opinion, self serving, narcissistic. There's no, and yes I would go that far, sacrificial humanistic love that is in some form not self-serving. The closest is a mother's nurturing love, and even there it is broken. We do not know unconditional love.
      Also the uniqueness of Christ stands to reason in any form of absoluteness or absolute truth as opposed to the mire of relativity. Build on the wrong foundation and your house will collapse sooner or later. Jesus repeatedly said he was unique. I'm am the gate. I am the good shepherd who lays down his life while the others flee. I am the way the truth and the life. Nobody comes to the Father/God but through me. It's all over, and is coherent with absolutism. After all, what kind of God would he be if he couldn't get it right once and for all. That is the revelation, God made everything and it was good. He also created relational love with which comes free will. Mankind rebelled and He dealt with the rebellion through Christ. He made us, and then he bought us back. It did no take God by surprise, it's already prophesied in Genesis. He gave us the choice to return. After all, in the final analysis we are created beings, we are not God and never will be. That's why every knee will bow, but for the right reasons. Jesus displayed His love. While we were yet sinners. He has gained our trust, love, respect and worship.
      At one stage he talks about Islam and how Muslims should act. Boy, is he ignorant on that one. Islam is outright evil. I do agree with him on the judgement aspect. People walk their own paths, but I trust the judgement of God that He will judge righteously. He knows all things, thoughts and intents of the heart. Some people think that they will be able to lie to God, but everything about you will be completely revealed before Him. Nonetheless I do think people will be judged on what they know and will also be given the choice to bow the knee, but not based on a lie that "they didn't know." As has been said, God sends no one to hell, people choose to go there. The way has been provided. Hell was made for rebellious spiritual beings, not humans. Spiritual beings were not tempted or deceived, humans were. Satan is the father of lies, he cannot speak truth. He is a deceiver.
      Anyway, that turned out to be a long comment. I'll post a link to a talk by a Muslim scholar, now a Christian, to give you a glimpse of how demonic and hatefilled that deceptive religion is.
      th-cam.com/video/-85CJ1fWqT0/w-d-xo.html

  • @twnb7733
    @twnb7733 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Why the Church has become Evil? For the believers have been silent in "jugement"," correction', never calling out Sin.-------"Silence in the face of Evil is itself EVIL : God will not hold us guiltless.
    Not to Speak is to Speak. Not to Act is not Act."
    --DEITRICH BONHOEFFER

    • @nicodemuseam
      @nicodemuseam ปีที่แล้ว

      Dietrich, after the briefest examination, is interesting...
      Lived and died under Nazi oppression, ostensibly executed for his faith in Jesus Christ and opposition to the fascists?
      May the Lord grant him rest...

  • @yassinazour9850
    @yassinazour9850 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    As a Muslim I like to watch your videos and find them educational. I am happy and grateful for the contribution of my Christian brothers. Keep up the good work! lots of love!

    • @mariorizkallah5383
      @mariorizkallah5383 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Brothers? You blaspheme God, we cannot be brothers

    • @yassinazour9850
      @yassinazour9850 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@mariorizkallah5383 *cousins

  • @JasonDBennett
    @JasonDBennett 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Philipp is spiritual, he's religious, he's learned to respect natural law. That's a good start. I hope he continues on that path and comes to believe that Jesus is the only way anyone is saved.

  • @PsychoBible
    @PsychoBible ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Yes, it is a fetish! I've been making that case myself.

  • @markshulusky6680
    @markshulusky6680 ปีที่แล้ว +22

    He's still hot. The tattoos are ridiculous. The "god" crap is more so. Personally, I find religious "conversions" to be just another form of masochism. But, hey, if that's what gets you off.

    • @jessemiller6318
      @jessemiller6318 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      That's a projection, but hey, psychic masochism is common in homosexual men.

    • @ML-ov7wo
      @ML-ov7wo ปีที่แล้ว +8

      That's an interesting point, but if you think of the sexual acts of homosexual sex, and how depraved they get over the years, that's basically the definition of masochism.

    • @luisdmatas
      @luisdmatas 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      ​@@ML-ov7womost of christians men are gay

    • @humanhelp3969
      @humanhelp3969 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      It’s about power, in the end. And what’s more powerful than feeling self-righteous? God is Daddy. The Old Testament God is truly ultimate Leather Daddy. How many Christians get off on their imagined punishment of the evil-doers? You could how this could be a natural kink progression.