37 years old here and same thing. Not talking a few tears running down my face either. I'm talking full on ugly cry _bawling._ And I make no apologies for it.
Dont need to apologize for having feelings. It's so relevant in today's world. People lose their parents, brothers,sisters ect. This hits home for so many people. Thanks for showing the true emotions.
InternallyBroken is right. He didn't kick them out so they wouldn't see him break down. He asked them to leave the room so he could talk to his Mom alone.
Chris Favreau exactly. I'm 41 yrs old, and my life has been a living hell. I cry every single time I hear this song. Being an empathic person doesn't help, but it's mainly because of how real NF is, and you can feel his pain in your heart.
The thing about this song is his mom didn't just leave him once. She left him over and over and over again and then she finally overdosed and left him for good. She was continually choosing drugs over him over and over again. It says she would call and say she was coming to get them (for a visitation) then she would call again and say she wasn't and he was humiliated. He also says he feels like he lost something that he never had, because he had a mom, but he never really had a mom because she was continually leaving him for drugs. Despite all that he says he wishes he would have called. If you listen to the song "Mansion" he says one of the WORST things he wrote on the wall was when he found out he was losing his mom and he wrote he wished he would have called.
As a 32 year old man who's known as a strong guy mentally... This song crushed me, I couldn't fathom choosing a pill over my two boys. So thankful for both my parents and my amazing upbringing.
Thank you for taking the time to listen and watch this. I've never had a song impact me like this one. I've probably heard it at least 100 times and have cried 99 of those times. Nate is 27 now but she passed when he was 18 before his HS graduation. He has mentioned in older interviews that he does have 2 sisters. I listen to my NF playlist daily and I cry at it everyday. Him performing this on stage is so difficult to watch. Know, Destiny, One Hundred, Real...those are pretty hype songs!
No apology needed. The crying helps, and as someone who can genuinely relate to this song, seeing you moved reminds me I have value, whether my parents see it or not.
Name another artist who has ever conveyed this much emotion in a song? His faith in God is what got him through, and the reason God gave him the gift of writing songs, to touch and inspire others to be over comers.
Tech nine suicide notes. If you have ever truly been to that point it will speak to you (no matter the cause of the thoughts cause he did do some of it to himself).
Bro I’ve always liked you, but after this i just put you as my first notification. Mad respect for allowing us to see the emotion. This song hits home with me, i lost my mother the same way. I was with her for 16 yrs and i watched her slowly kill herself with pills, and in 1999 they got her. And not a day goes by that i don’t wonder how could you do that, or how could i have helped. This song has helped me through it. And Man i feel for NF cuz i know Exactly how he feels
I’m only 16 rn and I haven’t seen my mom in over a year, she is in rehab rn and I hope it works this time because it hasn’t worked in the past. She has never been there for me and my brothers and I can’t bring myself to forgive her because all the times she has let me down. All my life I told her I wanted to do something to make her proud of me in football and this year we just so happened to win the state championship and she doesn’t even know cause I can’t talk to her that much cause she’s in rehab, thanks
Same. My whole heart goes out to him. NF raps/sings to the spot my therapist couldn't get to. Fast forward 20+ years later ... healing happens. I can't tell you that it doesn't still hurt. Just less often. 💓
@@blackclover4293I know this is 4 years later but is your mom doing okay now? Were you able to have a good relationship with her? You don't have to answer if that's too personal; either way, I wish you the best ❤
Carlos. A or those people are apathy people. Where I'm an empathic person, I cry every time I hear this. An apathetic wouldn't most likely, especially if they've never dealt with anything like this in their life.
I had to stop before the last part came in, where NF was sobbing. I don't cry in a emotional way, I've seen too many deaths, I'm immune to the emotional pain of losing anything. But that last part of the song had my eyes burning, as if my wanted to melt whatever tears I needed to get out. I still couldn't cry, cuz I never had the heart tough enough to watch it, or listen to it
Never apologize for tears brother. Music ties is all together in a powerful away and I appreciate NF for helping us feel real emotions together. Love your stuff bro, keep it up
After his mom and dad's divorce, when he was very young and mom's pill addiction along with her boyfriend abusing Nate, when he was about 6, he was taken out of her care and put under his dad's care. In this video, he and his 2 sisters were there on a supervised visitation. His mom died from overdose the year Nate graduated high school.
18:48 i relate a lot to that sentence. Every person reacts differently to the circumstances around them. My mom was a drug addict, an alcoholic, a smoker and end of may 2018, she also died. Not because of an overdose or relation to the alcohol or the drugs, but the drugs and alcohol played their part in destroying and weakening her body. So i faulted her a lot for things in my life and her part as a "role model". I've never taken drugs, smoked marihuana like once or twice (wasn't for me), disliked it. I mostly only drink on special occasions or when i feel like it. I have 3 siblings tho.. Let me tell you, they reacted differently to her as a role model. My two brothers are drug addicts which one of them is also an alcoholic, and my sister also does both. It's hard seeing your mom leave her weakened body and watching her kids, my siblings do the same stuff like her. I struggle a lot with anxiety and depression even before she died, same as my sister, my other 2 brothers don't though. Not saying they're not sad or not grieving, but it's different and i think all 3 of them still resent my mom a lot. I could go on for days, but i'ma try and bring it to the end where i loop around to your sentence. People always tell me that they're somewhat proud of me, that i saw and experienced all of that and didn't become the same way. A lot of relatives that knew and saw how we were raised say that. It is not something i am proud of at all though. It's the easy way, numbing your pain, succumbing to unconsciousness and i don't want that for myself. I make my life what i want to be my life and go and live that. I can change my life, i am the master of myself, only me, no one else. As i said, i used to fault her a lot, but after i moved out, i realized i can change my life. I really miss her, even after all we went through. She was my mom and when things came crashing down, she always had an open door, an open heart and listened.
I know this is an old comment but I'm very sorry for your loss and pain. My mother was an addict and while she's still alive, 3 out of her 4 kids went down the same road. Two of us are clean now, myself for almost 5 yrs. I commend you on your strength to overcome a situation like that and be the master of your own fate. I wish you the best ❤
@@kristinwojtowich8902 Drugs have a way of pulling you in and keeping you, I think. It's probably like a toxic relationship if I'd have to imagine what it feels like. Giving yourself to the drugs and in exchange you're able to escape reality but it also takes away from you. Congratulations to you for escaping that cycle and staying sober for 5 years. Don't know if you've heard this from anyone else yet but: I'm really, really proud of you!
I'm a recovering drug addict I was sober for 10 years and I broke that sobriety after my mom passed almost 4 years ago and my drug of choice was pills and cocaine. I took me almost killing myself to wake up and realize that I have a lot to live for. I've been sober for a year now and I'm working on my 12 steps and still going to NA meetings
men are taught not to cry but there is a difference between crying and/or whining/complaining over a stubbed toe or something irrelevant and having empathy for somebody or losing someone/something that you cared about..if this song doesn't draw a reaction whether it be crying/speechless or w/e you're probably heartless
I’ve listen to this song every bit of 100+ times and I still cry like a baby. Cried watching this reaction. It’s so heartbreaking and you can hear is pain. Much love to nate for releasing this song. Must have been very very hard to make. Nice reaction. Hope you blow bro. My new fav reactor.
this is the most authentic reaction i have ever seen from any song on any reaction channel , Mad respect bro for leaving your true emotional response in this video , I lost my mom when i was 23 to cancer , but she was an alcoholic and even tho she was there she was never really there , so the line about the pills having his moms mind captured by the drugs I felt the same way about my mom ,when i lost her i felt as tho i lost something i never had , I bawled my eyes out the first time i listened to this song
this song gets to everyone who listens to it.. who gets every word he says.. Its a really good song. it makes me cry everytime I listen to it.. Hes one of my favorite Artist out there. he says how he fells and what its like....
I understand both sides of this story. My dad killed himself three days after my first daughter was born because of drugs. I was already addicted to drugs before that happened and unsurprisingly I became worse after. Here i am now three years clean with four kids. Man this song cuts deep.
NF literally cleared out the studio to get through the emotional ending. He sat on the floor crying and speaking to his mother who overdosed in 2009, his senior year in highschool.
You do NOT need to apologize for crying, it's such a natural reaction to have to something so real and tragic. This guy is so raw and real, I can't imagine what it must be like to lose someone so close and dear to me... But I do know what it's like to worry about a loved one who struggles with an addition. I have an older brother who is on the autism spectrum and he used to struggle with his addiction to booze. He relied on it so much because it helped him feel better, it gave him a temporary reprieve from his inner struggles. He would go to the liquor store or pub nearly every day just to get his drinks. It became the only thing he could think and talk about, he wanted to numb himself everyday and it broke the hearts of my parents and myself to see him sinking so deep into a downward spiral... Thankfully, he is doing much better now! He's in an assisted living home with caring staff and other people with neurological or mental disorders with whom he has made good friendships and connections. Although he still has times where he wants to drink, we encourage him a lot to stay away from it and we won't talk about or have beer around him when we have him over to visit because we want him to continue his journey to recovery. This song hit close to home and I cried, too. So don't worry, it's a very human reaction to have :')
Hi, Never I ever saw such an emotional video, ...... it's been 2 years. But I just saw this video.......... at home. I am and 58 y.o. man. and I cried from beginning to the end of the song. I can relate to this!!! and his lyrics.... just hit you in the stomach really hard..... life can be very hard. we all have our own stories. we just became very good at hiding it from everyone else. ....... NF did the most difficult thing, he took the MASK away! Respect my brother. so much respect!!! ... respect for the pain..... respect for being brave enough to put his life into words...... respect for moving on with his life and became a successful singer/rapper in the USA....... Respect......, and tears,.. your tears and my tears, tears! respect my friend and my brother from the other side of the Atlantic Ocean. Respect to NF!!!!!! Love from this small but great country - Portugal. Peace.
Props to you for showing real raw emotions during this very deep song/video. I couldn't imagine having to deal with that pain either. He did a very good job putting his feelings on paper and I loved your reaction to it.
Best reaction video hands down man. Every time it gets me. It hits too close to home. I was on the other side and feel my son telling me these things. I kicked an addiction shortly after he was born, but was one of the lucky few. Opiate addiction is unlike others. It not only changes your brain chemistry but physically makes you sick when you don’t have them. It’s unbelievable and very very real. Thanks for doing this.
Good for you on getting well dude 👏 I'm almost 5 years clean myself. No kids, but hopefully one day. It really is the hardest thing I've ever done, and the worst addiction out there, imo, maybe equal only to crack. Congrats on doing that for your kid, wish you the best 👌
Love that you explained your thoughts of every aspect of the song. In order to understand a song you have to really dissect everything, which you did. Amazing! This song is so raw!
Lost my father to alcohol abuse in my early teens, hasn't gotten any easier but you learn to move along each day. He paints a very vivid picture with reverse roles. Thank you. Never really listened to him before.
me too. i didn't go through what nf went through but there's just too much soul in his music (in this song) that i couldn't help but weep. i felt him so much, i cried like i was there with him. he's a great artist. such a rare find.
So much love for showing real emotion and more importantly putting it out there for everyone to see. So many try to hide it and it transcends onto the viewer to stay distant and not feel that feeling. Coming from a similar place as NF I respect how you reacted to the video cause it was real and it forces the viewers to be real with themselves. i wasn't a fan and now i am
I think it’s amazing you cried. That’s what music does. What real music does. It brings us to a place where we feel every word. I still can’t hear this song without getting choked up. You can hear the pain. He’s truly an amazing artist.
Edit: that last verse always make me tear up too. The whole song is heart breaking and beautifully written and the aggression and pain in the rap are vivid. “Music is the only place that I can go to speak to you” gets me every time. My boyfriends parents both died in a similar way. He can’t even listen to it. He did once but he can’t anymore. The ending is what gets me knowing he kicked everyone out of the studio and recorded the song and they picked parts to use. You feel every word he says. He’s so talented.
Man, this song again :'( Gets the tissues* If you want some hype music: Warm Up, Grinding, Green lights, All i do, Statement (only bars), one hundred and real Highly recomend Real, Warm up and Grinding 2009 was not a good year for NF. The lady in the corner was for seeing if she was fit to watch over her kids. (dont remember what its called) the last minute the producer left the studio and kept recording and let NF just let out all his emotions He was staying with his father after all this
dont need to apologize for having feelings man im a 21 year old guy whos mom walked out on me and my family when I was 8. sometimes not hearing from her for over a year so many lines in this song hit home with me the first time i heard it i cried and i still get chocked up even after hearing it over 100 times.
People forget NF is only 21 and has dealt with a lot of shit that most grown men have never dealt with. You feel his pain and emotion in every song he puts forth. No need to apologies for crying brah.
Nothing to apologize for sir. Alot of us end up with the same problems we grew up with. It's nice to see a grown man have empathy and be able to show emotion. What's amazing is how easily those problems carry on to the kids dealing with it even though it's the one thing they wished would stop.
OMG, this is absolutely heartbreaking! I spent nearly 30 years of my life begging, crying, pleading, negotiating, bargaining...anything and everything...to try to get my dad to stop taking pills. Nothing worked. You can't make someone else change unless & until they want to change themselves. For some people though, sadly, that day never comes. Finally lost my dad in 2009. But this happens far too often & is far too common in society today. Nearly everyone has been touched by something like this or knows someone who has. Tragic 💔
She OD'd in 2009. The last part of this song, he asked everyone to step out so he could talk to her. I think it was just him venting, but they decided to keep it in the song. When he started crying like a baby, I lost in. People have been sleeping so hard on NF. I've been a fan for years. And I LOVE Eminem, but people need to stop comparing them just because they're both white rappers. NF is so raw and talented and real. So is Em, but in a different way. This song is by far my favorite of his because of the emotion it brings out. Beautiful. Heart-wrenching. It gave me chills in the middle of summer in Georgia in my car with a broken air conditioner.
Frick off with your desperate sub channels lol, I usually love his reactions, but I thought the same exact thing! And when he stopped it so early in the song and asked for us to tell him in the comments if she died or not...I just wanted to shout "watch the video and listen to the song! You'll get your answers!" 😂
What the hell is wrong with you guys? This is an emotional song. It pulls real emotions out of you. Let the man feel the lyrics. Damn. It's called being human
No apologies needed...ANY and ALL of us that have heart...have balled like babies watching this and hearing him cry...he actually had everybody leave the studio when he started to cry😢..I can't believe the pain n hurt he's gone through and STILL be the person he is! She died in 2009 I believe it was. You're a good person with heart...and that's NEVER something you should apologise for hun...peace love and light to y'all ALWAYS🙏✌❤
I know I'm late but I just wanted to say, always remember, it takes a real man to show any emotion. I've been through a lot of shit only at 23 and I know I have a lot more to come. But, this song actually made me cry almost as much as when I lost my dad. I am actually glad you reacted to this. I love this and much love to you my man, I want glad to be a subscriber and have your notifications on. You are an amazing human being! Bless you.
My man doc rich at 9 minutes said we're not crying on this video today, everyone that had watched or listened to the song already knew that wasn't going to hold true, real men cry brother!
I can't listen to this song without crying. I've shattered bones, been burned, search and rescue missions, cut off fingers and I have so much nerve damage from helping people.... The only thing that upsets me this much is knowing my dad passed away similarly. He committed suicide during Chemo, by drinking between 12 - 18 kokanee beers. I can't smell kokanee or weed without feeling like I was hit in the stomach with a bat. He was the friend I wish I had, he was the father that I wish I could have been a son to. I really feel this, to my core and I have utmost respect for Nate for his contributions. Thank you for reacting to this song.
Both of my parents are dead. I watched and took care of both of them. shits turns u into a dark person but with time it becomes better but everyday I think about them. ruined 2 years of my life after but I’m doing better now fixing everything I fucked up Rest In Peace mom and dad. my passed when I was 12 and my dad passed almost 2 years ago I’m 24 now if you still have ur parents treat them well because u never know what can happen. One day my mom was there then she was gone my dad was perfectly healthy 7 months later he’s gone don’t take them for granted.
First time listening to NF. This is probably too much for you tube but I lost my mom when I was 22, found her past away from a seizure. Got on pills for two years, came home one day saw my daughter almost 3 yrs old, she gave me a big hug and my eyes opened wide. Been clean for 10 yrs now, still wonder where I'd be had my wife not stuck by me. Real talk. Loved the reaction, i was crying right along with you.
I don't comment much on your video's but you mentioned not being able to imagine what it would be like coping with your parent(s) killing themselves with addictions. I lost my father to suicide who was also an extremely severe alcoholic and I was 20 when he shot himself. The pain of losing him and having no way of helping or preventing it has traumatized me for the last 8-9 years. I have not been and will never again be the same person I once was after the day my father left... Thank you for this wonderful video reaction by the way.
sorry for your loss bro, thats why i like nf so much, his music is real and can help a lot of people through a lot of tough situations..much love my brother
Don’t ever apologize for having feelings. We all cry. We all hurt. I have listened to 5 people react to this today. I have sobbed each time. My reasoning is what if a kid came up to me and had this happening to them. I could try to help. ♥️♥️
No shame my brother. I've heard this song probably 10 times and I cry every time. I'm a big ol bearded steel worker. Men are allowed to cry too bro. If someone can listen to this song and not tear up... no soul.
Just found your channel but new sub. This song is almost an exact representation of my life. Nothing wrong with letting feelings show it is deep. Much respect bruh, gonna try to help your channel grow!! Keep'em coming
I'm definitely late to this reaction but much props to you for posting this. Liked & subscribed based on this vid alone. Mad respect for being real and not being afraid to show it!
I just subscribed and am really sincerely enjoying going thru your backlog of videos; I like that you're not afraid to be emotional or let a song affect you, bc thats what music is supposed to do, make you feel something. NF is one of, if not the best, storyteller thru song that ive ever come across. Also, as a side note, im 36 and a recovering drug addict myself. Ive been clean for almost 5 yrs but it was probably the hardest thing Ive ever done in my life thus far. Ive lost ppl to that struggle and have always tried to empathize with what i was doing to my family and friends- but addiction is a very selfish disease. Im just glad I survived it. This song makes my heart ache for everyone thats lost someone to that sort of thing, but also makes me appreciate that Im still here. ❤
This song is exactly what I went through as a kid. Mom was always gone on drugs and sleeping around. My brother and I were left to fend for ourselves. I can't not listen to his song almost daily. I hate her, but miss her badly.
We subs love strong ass men and it takes a strong man to break down on camera. Don't apologize for having feelings cause if this doesn't cut you deep, then you have no heart. Thank you for doing what hundreds refused to do while reacting to this specific video & that is showing us who YOU are. We want to connect to who we sub too, you have something special with your soul. You earned a new sub with this one! #newsubalert Listen to more NF, they aren't all this heartwrenching lol.
The ending part where its raw with just the pianos in the background was recorded just like it appears in the song. He started crying in his last verse, finished it, and then asked everyone to leave the mics on and to leave the room. He had to let his emotions out and they decided to end the song on that instead of having a 3rd verse.
An addiction is definitely not something easy you can just kick. Not even for someone important like your children. It controls the mind, it's no longer you in there. It's not that easy to say no and it's definitely not something anyone can just speak about without going through it first. What bothers me is that people see this song as a form of NF blaming her for it. However, he doesn't. Deep inside, he knows, he may understand. We may get to hear his side of the story today, but she's no longer here to explain how it happened or why it happened. There's a reason she got addicted, not everyone is strong enough. Not everyone is powerful enough to go through life with such sadness in their hearts. Even NF said 'I could tell, you felt hollow'. She was 'tortured' inside of her. What I want to do is to plead people to not judge her and not blame her for what she has done. She is not here today to talk about her side of the story and we won't ever know. May she rest.
I'm 35 and started with pain killers almost 17 years ago. I haven't had any in 6 years because I was planning to start a family, but we had our daughter and now divorced, but I will never touch a pain killer again.
I just lost my best friend of 28 years, to pills, a few days ago. This song/video has helped. This song really makes sense of all the feelings involved. Regret, pain, anger, sadness. Thank you. I at least don't feel alone right now.
Growing up i saw my mom struggle with alcohol addiction and pills due to depression and this shit hit me on a personal level im just glad my mom is living and happy. So yeah. blessings and positive vibes man cherish ypur loved ones because you never know
You said "You say you proud of me, but you dont know me that well," and then your face fell. I know you've felt that before. Thats what makes NF great, and thats what makes your reactions so authentic. Preciate it.
Very empathetic reaction...one of the best...NF is probably the best artist in the game when it comes to putting his life out for others to learn from and grow from hurts...peace. Keep with it...peace. Please react to one of NF’S earliest songs called YOUR GRACE....much love bro
Im a 36 year old man that cried like a baby so no apologies needed. NF is the most transparent artist in the game
37 years old here and same thing. Not talking a few tears running down my face either. I'm talking full on ugly cry _bawling._ And I make no apologies for it.
41. Mother of 3. Cry even thinking about this.
His music is crazy amazing
Yes! Finally a man that is not afraid to cry!
I'm 42 and I'm crying...his pain palatable
I’m a 31 year old father and I’ve listened to this numerous times the last two years, and still cry every time.
Dont need to apologize for having feelings. It's so relevant in today's world. People lose their parents, brothers,sisters ect. This hits home for so many people. Thanks for showing the true emotions.
He actually kicked the producers out of the studio when he performed the last part, because he didn't want anyone watching him break down.
He asked them to leave so he could talk to his mom alone.
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Bud Kaye oh wow!!!! That’s soo emotional and soo lyrical
InternallyBroken is right. He didn't kick them out so they wouldn't see him break down. He asked them to leave the room so he could talk to his Mom alone.
He told them to leave so he can do this song by himself it took him 45 mins to do this song.
Real men cry... I'm 40 yrs old, been through some shit, and I teared up listening to this... This is truly "keeping it real"...
Chris Favreau exactly. I'm 41 yrs old, and my life has been a living hell. I cry every single time I hear this song. Being an empathic person doesn't help, but it's mainly because of how real NF is, and you can feel his pain in your heart.
Clean from heroin for 6 months.
Hope you're doing well
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@@desmeisme Hey, not sure if you see this, but i hope you do, i hope your still clean, you got this
Hey man I hope you're doing well and still clean! Take care.
Hope still going strong
It's okay dude this song gets us all
You shared with us and Nathan! Don’t apologize for being human
The thing about this song is his mom didn't just leave him once. She left him over and over and over again and then she finally overdosed and left him for good. She was continually choosing drugs over him over and over again. It says she would call and say she was coming to get them (for a visitation) then she would call again and say she wasn't and he was humiliated. He also says he feels like he lost something that he never had, because he had a mom, but he never really had a mom because she was continually leaving him for drugs. Despite all that he says he wishes he would have called. If you listen to the song "Mansion" he says one of the WORST things he wrote on the wall was when he found out he was losing his mom and he wrote he wished he would have called.
As a 32 year old man who's known as a strong guy mentally... This song crushed me, I couldn't fathom choosing a pill over my two boys. So thankful for both my parents and my amazing upbringing.
There isn't anything wrong for a man to shed some tears in such a situation Coz real men do! Big ups Rich
Thank you for taking the time to listen and watch this. I've never had a song impact me like this one. I've probably heard it at least 100 times and have cried 99 of those times. Nate is 27 now but she passed when he was 18 before his HS graduation. He has mentioned in older interviews that he does have 2 sisters. I listen to my NF playlist daily and I cry at it everyday. Him performing this on stage is so difficult to watch.
Know, Destiny, One Hundred, Real...those are pretty hype songs!
No apology needed. The crying helps, and as someone who can genuinely relate to this song, seeing you moved reminds me I have value, whether my parents see it or not.
Name another artist who has ever conveyed this much emotion in a song? His faith in God is what got him through, and the reason God gave him the gift of writing songs, to touch and inspire others to be over comers.
Witt Lowry Last Letter is pretty rough to go through without crying as well lol.
Tech nine suicide notes. If you have ever truly been to that point it will speak to you (no matter the cause of the thoughts cause he did do some of it to himself).
September 16 by Russ
Eminem but not sadness, anger
duckieduck Joyner Lucas was taught a lesson from God when he spoke through Bizzle
Only just seen this reaction now... This guy's a real one... No edits to hide his emotion, shows it how it is, massive respect
Bro I’ve always liked you, but after this i just put you as my first notification. Mad respect for allowing us to see the emotion. This song hits home with me, i lost my mother the same way. I was with her for 16 yrs and i watched her slowly kill herself with pills, and in 1999 they got her. And not a day goes by that i don’t wonder how could you do that, or how could i have helped. This song has helped me through it. And Man i feel for NF cuz i know Exactly how he feels
sorry for your loss bro but thats one reason why i like nf, he gives us real music that people can relate to and find hope and strength from.
Rich and Kelsey couldn't say that better if I tried
I’m only 16 rn and I haven’t seen my mom in over a year, she is in rehab rn and I hope it works this time because it hasn’t worked in the past. She has never been there for me and my brothers and I can’t bring myself to forgive her because all the times she has let me down. All my life I told her I wanted to do something to make her proud of me in football and this year we just so happened to win the state championship and she doesn’t even know cause I can’t talk to her that much cause she’s in rehab, thanks
Same. My whole heart goes out to him. NF raps/sings to the spot my therapist couldn't get to. Fast forward 20+ years later ... healing happens. I can't tell you that it doesn't still hurt. Just less often. 💓
@@blackclover4293I know this is 4 years later but is your mom doing okay now? Were you able to have a good relationship with her? You don't have to answer if that's too personal; either way, I wish you the best ❤
Everyone cries at this song. If they don't they have no soul.
It’s not that you don’t have a soul it’s just that you’re numb to the pain.
Carlos. A or those people are apathy people. Where I'm an empathic person, I cry every time I hear this. An apathetic wouldn't most likely, especially if they've never dealt with anything like this in their life.
I had to stop before the last part came in, where NF was sobbing.
I don't cry in a emotional way, I've seen too many deaths, I'm immune to the emotional pain of losing anything.
But that last part of the song had my eyes burning, as if my wanted to melt whatever tears I needed to get out. I still couldn't cry, cuz I never had the heart tough enough to watch it, or listen to it
Just because you don't cry doesn't mean you have no soul, I didn't cry but this song hurt me in the inside alot.
His mom passed away in 2009
Never apologize for tears brother. Music ties is all together in a powerful away and I appreciate NF for helping us feel real emotions together. Love your stuff bro, keep it up
U don't ever need to apologize for showing ur emotions man. I know how it feels this song hits me so hard I always cry every time I hear it 😭
The lady in the corner is supposed to be a social worker I believe
I believe you are correct
Could also be CPS
After his mom and dad's divorce, when he was very young and mom's pill addiction along with her boyfriend abusing Nate, when he was about 6, he was taken out of her care and put under his dad's care. In this video, he and his 2 sisters were there on a supervised visitation. His mom died from overdose the year Nate graduated high school.
18:48 i relate a lot to that sentence. Every person reacts differently to the circumstances around them.
My mom was a drug addict, an alcoholic, a smoker and end of may 2018, she also died. Not because of an overdose or relation to the alcohol or the drugs, but the drugs and alcohol played their part in destroying and weakening her body.
So i faulted her a lot for things in my life and her part as a "role model". I've never taken drugs, smoked marihuana like once or twice (wasn't for me), disliked it. I mostly only drink on special occasions or when i feel like it. I have 3 siblings tho..
Let me tell you, they reacted differently to her as a role model. My two brothers are drug addicts which one of them is also an alcoholic, and my sister also does both. It's hard seeing your mom leave her weakened body and watching her kids, my siblings do the same stuff like her. I struggle a lot with anxiety and depression even before she died, same as my sister, my other 2 brothers don't though. Not saying they're not sad or not grieving, but it's different and i think all 3 of them still resent my mom a lot. I could go on for days, but i'ma try and bring it to the end where i loop around to your sentence.
People always tell me that they're somewhat proud of me, that i saw and experienced all of that and didn't become the same way. A lot of relatives that knew and saw how we were raised say that.
It is not something i am proud of at all though. It's the easy way, numbing your pain, succumbing to unconsciousness and i don't want that for myself. I make my life what i want to be my life and go and live that. I can change my life, i am the master of myself, only me, no one else.
As i said, i used to fault her a lot, but after i moved out, i realized i can change my life.
I really miss her, even after all we went through. She was my mom and when things came crashing down, she always had an open door, an open heart and listened.
Jimmy Heymann Your story is my story. Bless you ❤️
I know this is an old comment but I'm very sorry for your loss and pain. My mother was an addict and while she's still alive, 3 out of her 4 kids went down the same road. Two of us are clean now, myself for almost 5 yrs. I commend you on your strength to overcome a situation like that and be the master of your own fate. I wish you the best ❤
@@kristinwojtowich8902 Drugs have a way of pulling you in and keeping you, I think. It's probably like a toxic relationship if I'd have to imagine what it feels like. Giving yourself to the drugs and in exchange you're able to escape reality but it also takes away from you.
Congratulations to you for escaping that cycle and staying sober for 5 years.
Don't know if you've heard this from anyone else yet but: I'm really, really proud of you!
I'm a recovering drug addict I was sober for 10 years and I broke that sobriety after my mom passed almost 4 years ago and my drug of choice was pills and cocaine. I took me almost killing myself to wake up and realize that I have a lot to live for. I've been sober for a year now and I'm working on my 12 steps and still going to NA meetings
It's 4 years late but good for you dude 👏 Proud of you and wish you all the best ❤
men are taught not to cry but there is a difference between crying and/or whining/complaining over a stubbed toe or something irrelevant and having empathy for somebody or losing someone/something that you cared about..if this song doesn't draw a reaction whether it be crying/speechless or w/e you're probably heartless
I’ve listen to this song every bit of 100+ times and I still cry like a baby. Cried watching this reaction. It’s so heartbreaking and you can hear is pain. Much love to nate for releasing this song. Must have been very very hard to make. Nice reaction. Hope you blow bro. My new fav reactor.
Don’t worried about crying brother. Real man shows their emotions!
this is the most authentic reaction i have ever seen from any song on any reaction channel , Mad respect bro for leaving your true emotional response in this video , I lost my mom when i was 23 to cancer , but she was an alcoholic and even tho she was there she was never really there , so the line about the pills having his moms mind captured by the drugs I felt the same way about my mom ,when i lost her i felt as tho i lost something i never had , I bawled my eyes out the first time i listened to this song
I really appreciate your response to this song. I see you have a sensitive soul and it's beautiful.
this song gets to everyone who listens to it.. who gets every word he says.. Its a really good song. it makes me cry everytime I listen to it.. Hes one of my favorite Artist out there. he says how he fells and what its like....
The way this song hits home hurts man. I cried my eyes out bro. No need to apologize music affects us in different ways.
I understand both sides of this story. My dad killed himself three days after my first daughter was born because of drugs. I was already addicted to drugs before that happened and unsurprisingly I became worse after. Here i am now three years clean with four kids. Man this song cuts deep.
I cried when this song first came out cause I can relate heavy except mine is with both Parents😖
Same here!
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Same here lost my mom when I was 16 now 28. My dad is 5 6 years clean
my condolence to all of you. dont kill me if i miss spelled that word.
NF literally cleared out the studio to get through the emotional ending. He sat on the floor crying and speaking to his mother who overdosed in 2009, his senior year in highschool.
it wasn't his senior year because he is 27 it would be his freshman year
@@tanagiberson4770I thought it was right before his graduation?
You do NOT need to apologize for crying, it's such a natural reaction to have to something so real and tragic. This guy is so raw and real, I can't imagine what it must be like to lose someone so close and dear to me... But I do know what it's like to worry about a loved one who struggles with an addition. I have an older brother who is on the autism spectrum and he used to struggle with his addiction to booze. He relied on it so much because it helped him feel better, it gave him a temporary reprieve from his inner struggles. He would go to the liquor store or pub nearly every day just to get his drinks. It became the only thing he could think and talk about, he wanted to numb himself everyday and it broke the hearts of my parents and myself to see him sinking so deep into a downward spiral... Thankfully, he is doing much better now! He's in an assisted living home with caring staff and other people with neurological or mental disorders with whom he has made good friendships and connections. Although he still has times where he wants to drink, we encourage him a lot to stay away from it and we won't talk about or have beer around him when we have him over to visit because we want him to continue his journey to recovery. This song hit close to home and I cried, too. So don't worry, it's a very human reaction to have :')
Hi, Never I ever saw such an emotional video, ...... it's been 2 years. But I just saw this video.......... at home. I am and 58 y.o. man. and I cried from beginning to the end of the song. I can relate to this!!! and his lyrics.... just hit you in the stomach really hard..... life can be very hard. we all have our own stories. we just became very good at hiding it from everyone else. ....... NF did the most difficult thing, he took the MASK away! Respect my brother. so much respect!!! ... respect for the pain..... respect for being brave enough to put his life into words...... respect for moving on with his life and became a successful singer/rapper in the USA....... Respect......, and tears,.. your tears and my tears, tears! respect my friend and my brother from the other side of the Atlantic Ocean. Respect to NF!!!!!! Love from this small but great country - Portugal. Peace.
I’ve watched my mom struggle with pills all my life growing up... it’s a tough spot to be in. I can relate so much to nf. Good reaction video
The realest reaction on you tube!
Props to you for showing real raw emotions during this very deep song/video. I couldn't imagine having to deal with that pain either. He did a very good job putting his feelings on paper and I loved your reaction to it.
Best reaction video hands down man. Every time it gets me. It hits too close to home. I was on the other side and feel my son telling me these things. I kicked an addiction shortly after he was born, but was one of the lucky few.
Opiate addiction is unlike others. It not only changes your brain chemistry but physically makes you sick when you don’t have them. It’s unbelievable and very very real. Thanks for doing this.
Good for you on getting well dude 👏 I'm almost 5 years clean myself. No kids, but hopefully one day. It really is the hardest thing I've ever done, and the worst addiction out there, imo, maybe equal only to crack. Congrats on doing that for your kid, wish you the best 👌
Love that you explained your thoughts of every aspect of the song. In order to understand a song you have to really dissect everything, which you did. Amazing! This song is so raw!
Lost my father to alcohol abuse in my early teens, hasn't gotten any easier but you learn to move along each day. He paints a very vivid picture with reverse roles. Thank you. Never really listened to him before.
You are an amazing individual for being this vulnerable. Thank you.
I cry every single time I watch this video. Without fail. I hope NF got to see this video. 💔😔🙏
me too. i didn't go through what nf went through but there's just too much soul in his music (in this song) that i couldn't help but weep. i felt him so much, i cried like i was there with him. he's a great artist. such a rare find.
So much love for showing real emotion and more importantly putting it out there for everyone to see. So many try to hide it and it transcends onto the viewer to stay distant and not feel that feeling. Coming from a similar place as NF I respect how you reacted to the video cause it was real and it forces the viewers to be real with themselves. i wasn't a fan and now i am
I think it’s amazing you cried. That’s what music does. What real music does. It brings us to a place where we feel every word. I still can’t hear this song without getting choked up. You can hear the pain. He’s truly an amazing artist.
Beat your chest when you’re about to cry it stuffs down the emotion that all guys carry
Edit: that last verse always make me tear up too. The whole song is heart breaking and beautifully written and the aggression and pain in the rap are vivid. “Music is the only place that I can go to speak to you” gets me every time.
My boyfriends parents both died in a similar way. He can’t even listen to it. He did once but he can’t anymore. The ending is what gets me knowing he kicked everyone out of the studio and recorded the song and they picked parts to use. You feel every word he says. He’s so talented.
Love the show of emotion bro....you know the song is good when it hits a complete stranger like that!
“I DONT NEED A PICTURE OF MY MOM I NEED THE REAL THING” that’s killed me 😭
Man, this song again :'(
Gets the tissues*
If you want some hype music: Warm Up, Grinding, Green lights, All i do, Statement (only bars), one hundred and real
Highly recomend Real, Warm up and Grinding
2009 was not a good year for NF.
The lady in the corner was for seeing if she was fit to watch over her kids. (dont remember what its called)
the last minute the producer left the studio and kept recording and let NF just let out all his emotions
He was staying with his father after all this
yea i definitely needed some tissues. i'll be checking out one of those songs today. i think that lady was from child protective services
A social worker, they are called social workers most of the time, spent a good deal of my life with them.
Real reactions is why I watch yours. Keep being real. We want real music, real reactions real life. Keep it up. Great job.
this song gets to everyone... anyone else on a NF Reaction marathon?
I definitely cried when he sang this in concert.
dont need to apologize for having feelings man im a 21 year old guy whos mom walked out on me and my family when I was 8. sometimes not hearing from her for over a year so many lines in this song hit home with me the first time i heard it i cried and i still get chocked up even after hearing it over 100 times.
People forget NF is only 21 and has dealt with a lot of shit that most grown men have never dealt with. You feel his pain and emotion in every song he puts forth. No need to apologies for crying brah.
Nothing to apologize for sir. Alot of us end up with the same problems we grew up with. It's nice to see a grown man have empathy and be able to show emotion. What's amazing is how easily those problems carry on to the kids dealing with it even though it's the one thing they wished would stop.
OMG, this is absolutely heartbreaking! I spent nearly 30 years of my life begging, crying, pleading, negotiating, bargaining...anything and everything...to try to get my dad to stop taking pills. Nothing worked. You can't make someone else change unless & until they want to change themselves. For some people though, sadly, that day never comes. Finally lost my dad in 2009. But this happens far too often & is far too common in society today. Nearly everyone has been touched by something like this or knows someone who has. Tragic 💔
She OD'd in 2009. The last part of this song, he asked everyone to step out so he could talk to her. I think it was just him venting, but they decided to keep it in the song. When he started crying like a baby, I lost in. People have been sleeping so hard on NF. I've been a fan for years. And I LOVE Eminem, but people need to stop comparing them just because they're both white rappers. NF is so raw and talented and real. So is Em, but in a different way. This song is by far my favorite of his because of the emotion it brings out. Beautiful. Heart-wrenching. It gave me chills in the middle of summer in Georgia in my car with a broken air conditioner.
" how could you leave us but shes there rn"
Your 19secs in let him tell the story damn
Frick off with your desperate sub channels lol, I usually love his reactions, but I thought the same exact thing! And when he stopped it so early in the song and asked for us to tell him in the comments if she died or not...I just wanted to shout "watch the video and listen to the song! You'll get your answers!" 😂
I was about to say this
EXACTLY..
What the hell is wrong with you guys? This is an emotional song. It pulls real emotions out of you. Let the man feel the lyrics. Damn. It's called being human
I am empathic and this hits me like a hurricane a slam of emotions all at once
No apologies needed...ANY and ALL of us that have heart...have balled like babies watching this and hearing him cry...he actually had everybody leave the studio when he started to cry😢..I can't believe the pain n hurt he's gone through and STILL be the person he is! She died in 2009 I believe it was. You're a good person with heart...and that's NEVER something you should apologise for hun...peace love and light to y'all ALWAYS🙏✌❤
One thing addicts don't realize is that the first people affected are the ones closest to the person who is addicted.
For real only man I seen to let himself feel during this reaction 💛💚❤️ It was beautiful to watch
I know I'm late but I just wanted to say, always remember, it takes a real man to show any emotion. I've been through a lot of shit only at 23 and I know I have a lot more to come. But, this song actually made me cry almost as much as when I lost my dad. I am actually glad you reacted to this. I love this and much love to you my man, I want glad to be a subscriber and have your notifications on. You are an amazing human being! Bless you.
My man doc rich at 9 minutes said we're not crying on this video today, everyone that had watched or listened to the song already knew that wasn't going to hold true, real men cry brother!
Thanks for reacting to this just lost my mother found this song your reaction is genuine atleast I’m not the only one that cried
I can't listen to this song without crying.
I've shattered bones, been burned, search and rescue missions, cut off fingers and I have so much nerve damage from helping people.... The only thing that upsets me this much is knowing my dad passed away similarly. He committed suicide during Chemo, by drinking between 12 - 18 kokanee beers. I can't smell kokanee or weed without feeling like I was hit in the stomach with a bat. He was the friend I wish I had, he was the father that I wish I could have been a son to. I really feel this, to my core and I have utmost respect for Nate for his contributions.
Thank you for reacting to this song.
Both of my parents are dead. I watched and took care of both of them. shits turns u into a dark person but with time it becomes better but everyday I think about them. ruined 2 years of my life after but I’m doing better now fixing everything I fucked up Rest In Peace mom and dad. my passed when I was 12 and my dad passed almost 2 years ago I’m 24 now if you still have ur parents treat them well because u never know what can happen. One day my mom was there then she was gone my dad was perfectly healthy 7 months later he’s gone don’t take them for granted.
First time listening to NF. This is probably too much for you tube but I lost my mom when I was 22, found her past away from a seizure. Got on pills for two years, came home one day saw my daughter almost 3 yrs old, she gave me a big hug and my eyes opened wide. Been clean for 10 yrs now, still wonder where I'd be had my wife not stuck by me. Real talk. Loved the reaction, i was crying right along with you.
Damn really pulls on the heart strings cause I went through the same life tragedy and pain feeling every note
I don't comment much on your video's but you mentioned not being able to imagine what it would be like coping with your parent(s) killing themselves with addictions. I lost my father to suicide who was also an extremely severe alcoholic and I was 20 when he shot himself. The pain of losing him and having no way of helping or preventing it has traumatized me for the last 8-9 years. I have not been and will never again be the same person I once was after the day my father left... Thank you for this wonderful video reaction by the way.
sorry for your loss bro, thats why i like nf so much, his music is real and can help a lot of people through a lot of tough situations..much love my brother
Edward Wike I’m just dropping by to say, sorry for your loss..
God bless you Edward.
What sucks in that situation is that you’re the child who’s left alone and scarred yet you feel quilt for not helping them. Stay strong ❤️
Much love man. Head up! Stay strong.
Love your genuine reaction! I cried like a baby. Such a touching song!
This is what I love about us humans the humanity that we connect with each other feel each other emotionally
Don’t ever apologize for having feelings. We all cry. We all hurt. I have listened to 5 people react to this today. I have sobbed each time. My reasoning is what if a kid came up to me and had this happening to them. I could try to help. ♥️♥️
No shame my brother. I've heard this song probably 10 times and I cry every time. I'm a big ol bearded steel worker. Men are allowed to cry too bro.
If someone can listen to this song and not tear up... no soul.
Just found your channel but new sub. This song is almost an exact representation of my life. Nothing wrong with letting feelings show it is deep. Much respect bruh, gonna try to help your channel grow!! Keep'em coming
I'm definitely late to this reaction but much props to you for posting this. Liked & subscribed based on this vid alone. Mad respect for being real and not being afraid to show it!
Much respect!! Ive watched ALOT of relations of this song.. But yours is the realest. It man you a real man to be intouch with your emotions
NF is the real one I'm 33 years old and I fucking cried this song is so emotional😢😢😢
Ur a big man to show everyone urself gettin emotional. Much love bro.
when he started talking, he asked everyone in the studio to leave before so he could cry and talk
I just subscribed and am really sincerely enjoying going thru your backlog of videos; I like that you're not afraid to be emotional or let a song affect you, bc thats what music is supposed to do, make you feel something. NF is one of, if not the best, storyteller thru song that ive ever come across. Also, as a side note, im 36 and a recovering drug addict myself. Ive been clean for almost 5 yrs but it was probably the hardest thing Ive ever done in my life thus far. Ive lost ppl to that struggle and have always tried to empathize with what i was doing to my family and friends- but addiction is a very selfish disease. Im just glad I survived it. This song makes my heart ache for everyone thats lost someone to that sort of thing, but also makes me appreciate that Im still here. ❤
This song kills me i feel so bad for leaving my kids with their dad when they wanted to be with me
I think this is my favorite reaction on TH-cam brotha!!! I lost my dad to pills when I was 11 so I cry almost every time I hear this song!!
This song is exactly what I went through as a kid. Mom was always gone on drugs and sleeping around. My brother and I were left to fend for ourselves. I can't not listen to his song almost daily. I hate her, but miss her badly.
Only a, sociopath, or psychopath, wouldn't feel emotion during this song/video. This is his Masterpiece. No way it could've been planned this good.
We subs love strong ass men and it takes a strong man to break down on camera. Don't apologize for having feelings cause if this doesn't cut you deep, then you have no heart. Thank you for doing what hundreds refused to do while reacting to this specific video & that is showing us who YOU are. We want to connect to who we sub too, you have something special with your soul. You earned a new sub with this one! #newsubalert
Listen to more NF, they aren't all this heartwrenching lol.
The ending part where its raw with just the pianos in the background was recorded just like it appears in the song. He started crying in his last verse, finished it, and then asked everyone to leave the mics on and to leave the room. He had to let his emotions out and they decided to end the song on that instead of having a 3rd verse.
An addiction is definitely not something easy you can just kick. Not even for someone important like your children. It controls the mind, it's no longer you in there. It's not that easy to say no and it's definitely not something anyone can just speak about without going through it first. What bothers me is that people see this song as a form of NF blaming her for it. However, he doesn't. Deep inside, he knows, he may understand. We may get to hear his side of the story today, but she's no longer here to explain how it happened or why it happened. There's a reason she got addicted, not everyone is strong enough. Not everyone is powerful enough to go through life with such sadness in their hearts. Even NF said 'I could tell, you felt hollow'. She was 'tortured' inside of her. What I want to do is to plead people to not judge her and not blame her for what she has done. She is not here today to talk about her side of the story and we won't ever know. May she rest.
Amen! Bro,most will never understand...
No apologies needed....REAL men do cry!!✌😉
This song just tears me up every time I listen to it! It is so, so deep!
I'm 35 and started with pain killers almost 17 years ago. I haven't had any in 6 years because I was planning to start a family, but we had our daughter and now divorced, but I will never touch a pain killer again.
I just lost my best friend of 28 years, to pills, a few days ago. This song/video has helped. This song really makes sense of all the feelings involved. Regret, pain, anger, sadness. Thank you. I at least don't feel alone right now.
I literally cry every single time I hear it..😭😭😭😭
Growing up i saw my mom struggle with alcohol addiction and pills due to depression and this shit hit me on a personal level im just glad my mom is living and happy. So yeah. blessings and positive vibes man cherish ypur loved ones because you never know
NF music 🎶 has helped a lot of people! I appreciate all the NF music you reacted too!
You said "You say you proud of me, but you dont know me that well," and then your face fell. I know you've felt that before. Thats what makes NF great, and thats what makes your reactions so authentic. Preciate it.
Very empathetic reaction...one of the best...NF is probably the best artist in the game when it comes to putting his life out for others to learn from and grow from hurts...peace. Keep with it...peace. Please react to one of NF’S earliest songs called YOUR GRACE....much love bro
Crying is part of being human. I don’t understand why guys don’t cry. I cry on good songs
I know I'm late, but I got to say the realest reaction I've seen of this video. Keep doing you bro, it's so real!