Had a gun pressed against my temple at the start of the video, ready to end it all with the sweet ramblings of Richard Lewis echoing through whatever is left of my mind as I jumpstart my stay in oblivion. Now, I've put the gun down. That little phrase, about how prematurily taking my own life would wipe whatever possibilities of a happy future I could have, completely changed me, it seems like something so obvious yet impossible to see on your own. Unfortunately Rich kept rambling and now the barrel is against my head again.
A phrase that always stuck with me, and I can't remember where I heard it, is that "suicide is a permanent solution to an often temporary problem". Despite it being somewhat simple and reductive, internalising that phrase has helped me step back from the ledge a few times in my life. The struggle can often feel overwhelmingly permanent and all-encompassing so a reminder that shit CAN change can be a huge first step. This tangent in the Q&A vid really hit home. On the other hand, I'm 27 myself, aimless, and wearing dubiously stained joggers. So that section gave me an existential crisis so hard I might disregard that phrase and do a backwards pike off of Spaghetti Junction. Cheers Rich...
RealChad Lewis with another words of wisdom. Seen it live and rewatched it now, hits even more. One of those clips that will only become more real and more close to home as years go by.
I just wanted to say, for me I've recently been diagnosed with ADHD...at 37 years old. Am likely also autistic and my life growing up was grim. So I never really had any of the 'good' experiences in life and have always been single as I never wanted to inflict who I am when am at my worst places on anyone else, it just wouldn't be fair. I've had many, many years of suicidal thoughts. With that said however, I consider myself a pretty content person when I'm not under depression. I've got my gaming, a few friends, enjoying the little communities I'm in. I did battle with that worry of not being good enough for a long time, but I'm finally at a point where I can see myself being 'happy' as I understand a lot more of my difficulties, but so long as I can feed myself and enjoy my hobbies, I'm good. Some people truly fear death, that isn't me, but like you said, even in my worst of worst moments I'd push through as once we die it's over.
Lost my job yesterday. One that was pretty much a dream job. I got let go earlier this year, rehired, and now lost it again. I'm 24 and still in that dumb optimistic stage. I don't know what I want to do now. I don't have things figured out. I thought I was making a positive change in the organization with people who liked me. But this was a good reminder that most people go through these phases. The amazing ups, the brutal downs and everything in between. Thanks Richard.
It sucks mate. I got laid off at the start of August in a very promising, comfy job I'd been at for three years. I've landed on my feet and it's quite the downgrade, but you've got to stay optimistic. Even the next shitty job is a stepping stone to the next dream job.
I got into esports myself in 2010 with SC2 and Dota 2, although my older cousin showed me Brood War and I had played it since I was 5-6 in 2000, ofc at a dogshit level. It was a great time although I had no historical context, I miss it. esports feels so... vapid now. Thanks for the trip down memory lane, even if I only caught the end. Edit; I should have watched the whole video, I was working. I had a few deep moments of reflection throughout this video. I was going to check out in 2018 and 2022 when psychosis was just too much. I was convinced by a close friend, a friend who I've now lost, both times not to do so. With my current position in life, I am so grateful I did not, however, as you stated, it can always be worse and I'm ever-vigilant not to let me myself subconsciously drift down paths that will lead me to the same despair I have faced before. I feel the somewhat like a loser, as a now 30 year old, but I can see ways to develop myself and work towards a great life.
9:54 This is too real. You're describing the exact situation I'm in right now. I need to find purpose in life, not whack off and play counter strike. But fuck, I'm not good at anything
Love your work at PGL Wallachia, you harmonize perfectly with the Dota talents ❤ But to be fair the Dota talents after all these years are probably the very best there ever were in any esports. Talents had amazing game knowledge in other games too, but everyone is so smooth in front of the camera and it seems that people also get along off screen really well PS: Good thing you didn't quit esports
Sometimes I wonder if things would be so much better if our lifetimes were longer on average, so we had all figured ourselves out and still had a good 60 years to chase that which spiritually satisfies each of us as an individual, hopefully without hurting anyone in the process. Or if things would end up the same anyway.
"I think human consciousness is a tragic misstep in evolution. We became too self-aware. Nature created an aspect of nature separate from itself. We are creatures that should not exist by natural law... We are things that labor under the illusion of having a self, that accretion of sensory experience and feelings, programmed with total assurance that we are each somebody, when in fact everybody's nobody"
"I'd check out, I'd go to dignitas" is deep esports lore
There are better options
Had a gun pressed against my temple at the start of the video, ready to end it all with the sweet ramblings of Richard Lewis echoing through whatever is left of my mind as I jumpstart my stay in oblivion.
Now, I've put the gun down. That little phrase, about how prematurily taking my own life would wipe whatever possibilities of a happy future I could have, completely changed me, it seems like something so obvious yet impossible to see on your own.
Unfortunately Rich kept rambling and now the barrel is against my head again.
Talk to someone. You're never alone.
Shortest Richard Lewis stream tangent
Richard being the slap in the face my 30's needed...
Richard is such a gem.
Bro asked a simple question and got a life lesson 🤯
A phrase that always stuck with me, and I can't remember where I heard it, is that "suicide is a permanent solution to an often temporary problem". Despite it being somewhat simple and reductive, internalising that phrase has helped me step back from the ledge a few times in my life. The struggle can often feel overwhelmingly permanent and all-encompassing so a reminder that shit CAN change can be a huge first step. This tangent in the Q&A vid really hit home.
On the other hand, I'm 27 myself, aimless, and wearing dubiously stained joggers. So that section gave me an existential crisis so hard I might disregard that phrase and do a backwards pike off of Spaghetti Junction. Cheers Rich...
This hit hard as a single, 32 year old man living at home who realizes that he went into the wrong career
RealChad Lewis with another words of wisdom. Seen it live and rewatched it now, hits even more. One of those clips that will only become more real and more close to home as years go by.
I just wanted to say, for me I've recently been diagnosed with ADHD...at 37 years old.
Am likely also autistic and my life growing up was grim. So I never really had any of the 'good' experiences in life and have always been single as I never wanted to inflict who I am when am at my worst places on anyone else, it just wouldn't be fair.
I've had many, many years of suicidal thoughts. With that said however, I consider myself a pretty content person when I'm not under depression. I've got my gaming, a few friends, enjoying the little communities I'm in.
I did battle with that worry of not being good enough for a long time, but I'm finally at a point where I can see myself being 'happy' as I understand a lot more of my difficulties, but so long as I can feed myself and enjoy my hobbies, I'm good.
Some people truly fear death, that isn't me, but like you said, even in my worst of worst moments I'd push through as once we die it's over.
I had to rewatch this because I forgot what the question even was 😂
I put this on right as it came out, as I was leaving home and preparing. This went real deep real quick, made me tear up. God I love you Rich.
What an existential way to start the day
I'm 35, single and has been to DH 4 times (2005, 2x 2006, 2009). Feel like this tangent is specifically designed for me. Jesus Christ.
I'm 30 and this hit the spot jeeeezuuuuus❤😢
Jesus, you hit every existential thought I've had over the last two years. I'm 31.
Rich always makes it sound so fun to get old
Lost my job yesterday. One that was pretty much a dream job. I got let go earlier this year, rehired, and now lost it again. I'm 24 and still in that dumb optimistic stage. I don't know what I want to do now. I don't have things figured out. I thought I was making a positive change in the organization with people who liked me. But this was a good reminder that most people go through these phases. The amazing ups, the brutal downs and everything in between. Thanks Richard.
It sucks mate. I got laid off at the start of August in a very promising, comfy job I'd been at for three years.
I've landed on my feet and it's quite the downgrade, but you've got to stay optimistic. Even the next shitty job is a stepping stone to the next dream job.
This one hit me harder than I expected
This video is the pitch document for Richard's Netflix biopic
id pay good money to see richy 100 jobs adventures from potato peeler to lifetime achievement award winning journalist Richard Jewish
Casually dropping the lifechanging wisdom
I got into esports myself in 2010 with SC2 and Dota 2, although my older cousin showed me Brood War and I had played it since I was 5-6 in 2000, ofc at a dogshit level.
It was a great time although I had no historical context, I miss it. esports feels so... vapid now.
Thanks for the trip down memory lane, even if I only caught the end.
Edit; I should have watched the whole video, I was working. I had a few deep moments of reflection throughout this video. I was going to check out in 2018 and 2022 when psychosis was just too much. I was convinced by a close friend, a friend who I've now lost, both times not to do so. With my current position in life, I am so grateful I did not, however, as you stated, it can always be worse and I'm ever-vigilant not to let me myself subconsciously drift down paths that will lead me to the same despair I have faced before. I feel the somewhat like a loser, as a now 30 year old, but I can see ways to develop myself and work towards a great life.
9:54 This is too real. You're describing the exact situation I'm in right now. I need to find purpose in life, not whack off and play counter strike. But fuck, I'm not good at anything
Thanks Richard
love this clip man
talking 2 my soul my man !!
Hooooooly shit, the title of this video DID NOT LIE at all
Was hoping for this to get clipped. What an epic and depressing riff.
Love your work at PGL Wallachia, you harmonize perfectly with the Dota talents ❤
But to be fair the Dota talents after all these years are probably the very best there ever were in any esports. Talents had amazing game knowledge in other games too, but everyone is so smooth in front of the camera and it seems that people also get along off screen really well
PS: Good thing you didn't quit esports
That was a wild ride. Loved every bit of it.
Fuck, this hits so close to home
outrageous segment hahaha!
Bro I didn’t want to get bodied at 8 in the morning like that
15:50 yes sir. i think so
anyway... have a great weekend guys! ;) I hear you brother.
Your tangent about life and death reminds me of a game called Outer Wilds, one of the best gaming experiences I've had
Sometimes I wonder if things would be so much better if our lifetimes were longer on average, so we had all figured ourselves out and still had a good 60 years to chase that which spiritually satisfies each of us as an individual, hopefully without hurting anyone in the process. Or if things would end up the same anyway.
"I think human consciousness is a tragic misstep in evolution. We became too self-aware. Nature created an aspect of nature separate from itself. We are creatures that should not exist by natural law... We are things that labor under the illusion of having a self, that accretion of sensory experience and feelings, programmed with total assurance that we are each somebody, when in fact everybody's nobody"
Yeah this is my life
Between the drink, drugs and the antidepressant life's not so bad.
I love distracting myself too
Camus pilled and based
Feels like I had already listened to this?
patreon video
Who's the diva he mentioned? 3:05
AKA Sean Plott? \m/
The S A D 30s dating experience was perfectly described. So bad it's barely even worth it.
It's all a big nothing
Have a relationship with god 🙏
i know this comment will be laughed at, but life serving God will never be meaningless. It is love and fulfills every day. Take care Richard & fans
Richard, find God. Come back when you found Him.
hahahahahahahaahaahaah