I grew up with a mother who has all these traits. The issues I have as a 54yo today are more difficult to understand and accept today than as a child. She refuses to accept her role in the disastorous relationships she has, instead blaming anyone and everyone.
My mood is usually pretty flat until i get emotionally invested (one sided) with someone or "fancy" them, or if something unexpected like someone cancels plans or even if i say hi and they dont respond. ill get so sad if i percieve them(whoever i fancy) maybe ignoring me or showing more interest in another guy than me so i kinda shut down and usually end uo drinking myself into oblivion, punching myself or sometimes ill not burn myself but ill heat up the metal on my lighter for ages and "extinguish" it on myself.. i hate myself for bwing this way.. all i want is someone to love me for who i am but everytime i try i just end up being more hurt and hating myself even more.. i wish i was never born because so far, all my life has been shit, im a failure of a man, i feel as though is dont deserve a relationship because im scared and i dont want to upset anyone by being a cunt.. kinda resigned myself to be alone forever but it still doesnt stop my feelings and how i yearn for a loving relationship... guess life will just be shit untill i die..
Me too, the same as you. But I've noticed that you talk bad about yourself. Try not to do that. You're a human too, like me and everyone else. We make mistakes, don't be too hard on yourself brother. Forgive yourself.
I think you meant to say that BPD is not curable. Obviously it is treatable with therapy to help improve quality of life and interpersonal relationships. I'm guessing it's just a language issue.
Not sure I agree with you there. There's a lot of stigma with BPD and messages that someone with the disorder is a lost cause aka untreatable. Bpd does get better with age and some people do go into long term recovery
I grew up with a mother who has all these traits. The issues I have as a 54yo today are more difficult to understand and accept today than as a child. She refuses to accept her role in the disastorous relationships she has, instead blaming anyone and everyone.
My mood is usually pretty flat until i get emotionally invested (one sided) with someone or "fancy" them, or if something unexpected like someone cancels plans or even if i say hi and they dont respond. ill get so sad if i percieve them(whoever i fancy) maybe ignoring me or showing more interest in another guy than me so i kinda shut down and usually end uo drinking myself into oblivion, punching myself or sometimes ill not burn myself but ill heat up the metal on my lighter for ages and "extinguish" it on myself.. i hate myself for bwing this way.. all i want is someone to love me for who i am but everytime i try i just end up being more hurt and hating myself even more.. i wish i was never born because so far, all my life has been shit, im a failure of a man, i feel as though is dont deserve a relationship because im scared and i dont want to upset anyone by being a cunt.. kinda resigned myself to be alone forever but it still doesnt stop my feelings and how i yearn for a loving relationship... guess life will just be shit untill i die..
Me too, the same as you. But I've noticed that you talk bad about yourself. Try not to do that. You're a human too, like me and everyone else. We make mistakes, don't be too hard on yourself brother. Forgive yourself.
On same page. Guys do you find any treatment or cure for this?
I think you meant to say that BPD is not curable. Obviously it is treatable with therapy to help improve quality of life and interpersonal relationships. I'm guessing it's just a language issue.
Not sure I agree with you there. There's a lot of stigma with BPD and messages that someone with the disorder is a lost cause aka untreatable. Bpd does get better with age and some people do go into long term recovery
I cant afford a psychistridt