I remember during early system discovery where I heard a little cry inside my head. I didn't know why and it was like she was in is black void and I could only faintly hear her in the distance. I just grabbed a big plushie we have and hugged it. I didn't know if it would reach her, but I tried my best 💜 Our communication isn't super great and we don't really "see" an inner world other than that dark void (which is interesting since we actually have a very vivid imagination). It's super confusing to have this disorder. It's kinda like playing a mystery puzzle game where you figure out the plot as you piece together clues you stumble into, but also when you just thought you knew everything you find out that you've only discovered maybe 10% of the plot. Idk how to describe it, but it's... a journey 😅
I used to be the same way and see only one room and a hallway, then started seeing a void, then I started focusing on places I wanted, and it grew from their best of luck to yoy
The timing! I don’t have DID but I do have C-PTSD and just went through the most intense, pervasive emotional flashback I’ve ever experienced. This video was really helpful for perspective, connection, and calming. Thank you, Soren & system!
from the bottom of my heart, thank you for saying this. i’ve been in denial ab my CPTSD diagnosis bc i didn’t feel like i really had “flashbacks” that often but it turns out that i just wasn’t all that educated on what exactly a flashback can be. you caused me to educate myself on what precisely an “emotional flashback” is & put a name to something happening to me that i didn’t understand. im so thankful for this community & all that it’s done for my own journey over the years. 🫶🏻❤️
we had an alter (won't name her for privacy reasons) and for years on end, whenever we looked for her in the inner world (she fronts very rarely), all she did was scream the most horrendous screams you've ever heard (we're survivors of RAMCOA and only are aware of small parts of our trauma, so we don't even want to know what she is experiencing) and act out violently to whomever tried approaching her. She stopped screaming recently after years of us working through trauma, and she even started speaking to us. Where we were going with this is yes, alters can have flashbacks in the inner world, even to this extent. We build her a part in the inner world where she at least is safe but all she did for *years* was scream. It was heartbreaking to say the least. - Ender, an alter in the Noctifloral Paracosm
@lasshapafford we kinda thought abt what we'd like for a while! noctifloral stands for blooming at night (we're night owls) and paracosm means an extensive world in a childs mind :) (a system is made in a child's mind)
“Weaponized flashbacks” finally, I have a label for that phenomenon. We have come so far in our integration, and so have you! 🏆 Go science! 💪🏼 knowledge is power. Thank you for spreading awareness and helping create a better world! 🦸🏼♀️
One of my friends recently told me that she is a system, and this channel has really helped me understand DID in ways i never would have gotten before, so thank you so much for that
My partner describes how they have a “theater” in their inner world. And in the front there are controllers(like game controllers that actually recently got upgraded to a vr headset thing) and fronters have the controllers. And the closer to the front row you are, the closer to the front and the more influential you are. And often my partner can feel the presence of others in the theater, but can’t make out who it is unless they’re in the row behind or the one behind that.
I work in the italian national health service but I've never met a patient with DID, sometimes I work in psychiatry wards and learn a lot, your channel helps me learning, in order to help patients that I may encounter during my job so thank you! Btw I have something too but I still don't know if it can be DID, I hear voices, I feel feelings that are not mine, in the DES II test my score was 45, not super high but still, lets me think...
hey guys, you’ve helped my life so much and helped me slightly understand whats wrong with me. thank you so so much. i dont know what id do without yall raine (host)
Oh my gosh!!! I've had this happen for years and its been so distressing. I started having dissociative seizures because the screaming and PTSD flashbacks in the inner world got so bad. I finally got diagnosed and was so scared but everything makes soooooo much more sense and now this makes so much sense as well! I just thought I was losing my mind and was so scared to let anyone know for so long. It's such a relief to know what is going on. Thank you for your videos! You have helped my system now for years, even before we were diagnosed. We found your videos years ago when our gatekeeper was trying to bring awareness to the host. Now we've been diagnosed and we are finally starting to communicate in a healthy way.
I don’t have any personal exposure to DID in my life, so my knowledge is limited. But it’s very interesting to learn about a disorder that I am so far removed from and understand it. The way the brain defends itself is truly mesmerizing. Your videos are fantastic; don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
Just last night, we were having a discussion on the frequency of flashbacks for certain individuals in our system and the distinction between this symptom of C-PTSD and hallucinations, the latter of which we do not experience. What impeccable timing to receive this notification.
Thank you for teaching the world about DID, as a singlet it’s due to this channel that I know anything about DID. Seeing your system work together and function is helping me believe that the stuff I’m struggling with is valid! It’s partly thanks to your system that I have hope for my future even after figuring out that I won’t have a ‘normal’ job. Thank you! All of you, even the ones I have never met! Also love the new hair! It looks fantastic! Love from Phoenix
I've recently discovered new trauma memories and reactions. It feels terrifying remembering more of those heart breaking things. But it makes life so much more stable and calm, when you know that your reactions have a reason. It's logical that your body & mind react in a certain way. It has been necessary to develop these mechanisms. Now you can learn to soothe yourselves and make yourselves feel safer❤
I really need the message around 15:24. I'm in the beginning of trauma therapy and I feel so stuck and almost gave up. This channel has helped me so much to know that I got this and I will get through it. Tysm❤
Your knowledge about this disorder is getting better and better! I also love how you can explain even the more complicated things, like this one, in an easy to understand way.
As always, thank you for being vulnerable enough to share and educate about the things you and your system experience on a daily basis. You are so brave and I’m thankful you are here to help educate people, like me, who don’t share your experience. I hope you always remember to care for yourself as well! You are amazing!
3:38 This happened when I was fronting a few times. It's so heart-breaking, it's truly just horrible to have to hear those screams while trying to reach said alter, wanting to help them but being unable to. Trying to soothe the body but this not changing anything. It really hurts.
Not knowing the term of flashbacks for so long but now knowing it is so helpful. Having “emotional leaks” and feeling intense emotion suddenly from a past memory is so terrifying and can set me back for weeks. It’s been so difficult to do it on my own but I’m so thankful for you and your system for continuing to help others with their mental health and providing all these videos as sources of information.
shoutout to the huge improvement in the editing of the recent videos! the visuals are so helpful and gorgeous! its a subtle way to lighten and make more digestible the videos with rather dark or negative topics. and special attention to the animations at 11:07 , beautiful!!
I've been watching your videos for 5 (!) years now, and everything you had to say about recovery made me really emotional. Your channel has come a long way, and I've definitely noticed your alters speaking with more and more confidence about their experiences. I have a different (arguably less severe, but still disabling) set of disorders, some diagnosed and others I'm still finding out about, and I find your progress so inspiring. We have so much left to learn about ourselves, and the human brain, and I'm really happy to say that I now find that more motivational than distressing. The quest for self-knowledge continues!! Side note, I've noticed less and less tension between the psychiatric field and disabled communities/disability rights advocates, which is another thing I find really encouraging. Still an issue, esp. with DID, but a better world is possible.
I hope that you guys know how much of a difference you’re making. You are a massive part of the destigmatization of DID, and as you said, that destigmatization is a huge part of why people are getting diagnosed more and people are looking into it more. Don’t have any more time to type, but I just hope you guys know how much you matter.
I don’t want to sound patronizing but when you start giving encouragement at the end, I could hear your voice breaking a little & I just wanted to hug you & give you the same encouragement you give us ❤ You all are so amazing for all the hard work you do on TH-cam as well as on your own journey. Our brain has a few mental disorders as well as being a heavily private & closeted OSDD system. So your videos for a few years now have been a source of comfort as well as learning. Thank you for all you all do ❤
because of this video i realized that my little might have been experiencing internal flashbacks for 3 years before our amnesia barriers became the strongest it's comforting for me that some pieces of our past is finally putting together
Best of luck! Congratulations on getting a diagnosis too. It can be really difficult even if that is what's wrong. I didn't get a diagnosis until I turned OSDD instead of full blown DID like I was all of college
I appreciate your videos so much more than you realize. Especially when you say you want us to stick around. That hit our feels so so much today. Thank you. My life is finally making sense to me. ❤
We think this is your best video yet. An amazing summary. So clear. So well done. So much heart with slight tears in your eyes and obvious introjections happening in your mind as you speak. You are doing such amazingly positive things for the world with your content. We are incredibly grateful.
Hey you guys, we normally watch your content without interacting, but now we have to make all of you a compliment. You helped us so much with understanding who we are as a system. Throughout your videos, we started to understand DID more. For the last couple of months, we had those little flashes of traumatic experiences and we never knew what it is or why it's there. Because of the video, we now can classify it better. Thank you so much for your content, we always enjoy watching your videos
At around 11:37 when you start talking about all the things DID doesn’t mean, I really felt the old Chloe/Nin come out and it reminded me of videos you did years ago. It makes me happy knowing it’s still you, even if you’ve changed because of your integrations. ❤️ I hope that’s not insensitive to say. It just felt comforting to me. I’ve been watching your videos for so long now, it’s cool to catch little bits of mannerisms of those who have been integrated. They’re definitely not gone ❤️
Even tho you said this wasn’t a “happy video”, the way you explained everything was so pure, emotional and hopeful. It made the video absolutely great. Nice job, guys!
Yknow, I watched a LONG time ago and am glad to be back I hope you are all doing well or as well as yall can be. Thank you all for making this much information on one of the most fascinating things humanity can have readily available from a VERY qualified source lol Genuinely so honored to be able to peek into your worlds and lives.
And i would like to preface and say simply, thank you. Thank you for doing these I know you are probably helping many people. Even indirectly like how you say at the end with inspiring researchers and such THANK YOU for existing
I JUST got my hair the way I like it, how do y’all manage to make me want your hairstyle for a different reason every video?? Y’all are amazing, lots of love❤
This explains so much and so clearly about what we feel on quite a regular basis and we couldnt put into words, so thank you for helping us understand what we feel and how to put those feelings into words a bit better❤
I cannot tell you how much your channel has helped us. We discovered you when we first discovered our system and it has been like a lifeline for us. It’s been three years since we discovered, and we’ve made leaps and bounds of progress - thanks to y’all. Just. Wanted to put that out there, I guess, because your content is genuinely so important to us. :)
Ooooh! An early upload? Thank you for the continuous knowledge and providing the community additional information to the potential questions or worries that others may have. Sending all the love and strength to everyone in the system, Soren💖. Stay safe and hydrated always!
Thank you for all you've done, I've been watching you guys for almost 5 years now, you've helped me to realize what dissociation and derealization is for myself during panic attacks or any other time just on their own. I'm not a system, but I sincerely enjoy educating myself on this topic, interested in nursing and psychology. Thank you for your bravery 💜 Edit: (When I say "you" I mean all of you collectively 💜)
I dont have DID but i have CPTSD and this video was so helpful bc i was going to therapy and when it got hard i quit but i want to go back and this video did that for me. Thank you Soren and system!
I knew this video was coming, after your latest reel on Insta. I hope you, Soren, and the system are doing well, that Sally, Maeri and Red are around. Much love, dear 💙💚
Been watching you since your first 2 videos and watching you transform is absolutely beautiful. You've made so much progress as a human being, your ability to communicate and fully learn yourself through and through. Sending so much love! ❤
Watching you over the years, I can see some of your growth and healing. It's beautiful to watch. Blessings to your system. Thank you for what you do, informing those without DID and giving hope to those who do have DID. What a great calling in life. ❤️
You are a blessing. Thank you for being so open and vulnerable with your experiences, I know I relate, and so many people do. Love you, take care of yourself.❤
Hello, my name is Victoria and we're called Proletariat System. We've had this diagnosis since 2014. Thank you guys so much for your videos and the work you do. 🎉
Thank you for always explaining this to people who are individual minds & not systems. Education keeps understanding. Thank you. I've been fascinated in your situation for years. Since Chloe. Your channel is something that I just happened upon some day. The way this occurs is so utterly heartbreaking.
I've been watching this channel for 5 or 6 years now and i'm still learning so many new things! Please keep making videos and educating people for as long as it's fulfilling for you.
Thank you for this informative video. I am not a system, but i have always related most to the persecutor role if that makes sense. Ive had trauma that started at age 5 and has continued to my current age 24. I have times where I've hurt myself, sabatogaged my own healing, taken anger out on others, and isolated myself. Im still trying to come to terms with where im at and how to heal. It helps when i hear about the persecutor roles and why they may act that way too. Ultimately i imagine every sigular personality aims to have all the DID roles. The difference is DID causes the split roles into different personalities. This thinking has helped me try and see how i can help support myself better. Thank you all for raising awareness. Youre helping other systems as well as people like me who have dealt with complex traumas as well
I just discovered your channel and I've found all the videos I've watched so far really insightful and incredibly fascinating! This is a world I knew absolutely nothing about, and I look forward to learning more! Kudos to you all for speaking so openly about DID and for allowing people like me who had no idea to learn! Thanks!
Yalls hair is amazing!!! Thank you guys for continuing DissociaDID. I've been struggling recently on whether i do experience plurality and your videos have been very validating. Yall have a wonderful timezone and a wonderful tomorrow ❤️
Videos never have to be only positive - we care about ALL of your experiences as a system. Thank you once again for sharing such vulnerable parts of your existence, I'm sending love to all of you today but especially any persecutors -- you are valid in everything you feel, you are extremely important, and you are loved. ❤
I don't know why, but lately all of your videos have been making me so emotional. Last year I was diagnosed with depersonalization disorder, which I know isn't the same, but the information you all present, the understanding, empathy, and compassion, are so validating. That little voice in the back of my head that cries from feeling seen...I'm just really thankful for all of you, and the videos you put so much work into.
i'm so thankful i found your channel, your story and all the things i have to learn about people with DID. i find you invredibly strong and at the same time i find it so unfair and makes me want to keep fighting and spreadong the kindness that abusive humans lack. thank you❤
Thank you for sharing your experiences with DID. It takes incredible courage to open up about something so personal. Your video is a valuable resource for those seeking to understand the condition better. Sending strength and support 🩷
This video is perfectly timed lmao I just helped my partner through a hardcore carousel switching episode with intense flashbacks last night. I just sent this video to them in hopes it helps them too. Thank you so very much for all the hard work you do!! We are all extremely grateful for you!! We look forward to more!!!
this video was extremely helpful and very relevant to recent issues ive been faced with. Just watching the video brought me comfort in knowing im not alone despite how scary and confusing things can become. thank you soren for making this video and explaining everything so well 😊
Thank you for all the work you do to destigmatize DID! I have a question, and this can go for others in the comments who also have DID: How do you all experience the inner world? Do alters that are not fronting remain "conscious" in the inner world and have memories and experiences with other alters inside? Are the experiences in the inner world similar to how non-DID folks experience dreams? Forgive me, I have a hard time conceptualizing the idea of having multiple simultaneous consciousnesses.
The new hair is amazing!! I just want to say thank you for making these videos to inform us all about DID. I recently discovered that someone in my life has DID and I've learned so much from you and your system that has helped me support them. You are doing important work, thank you ❤
Heya! I REALLY adored when you mentioned how (paraphrased around 09:30) unfair it can be to be a persecutor and how difficult it can be to wrestle with how much the brain offloads onto you. There are atleast two of our members who recognise that their behaviours aren't as helpful as they intend for them to be but the mentality of "I was literally designed and built to hold everyone else's shit" has steered us into a bit of stagnation. Any tips on helping to find other ways that they can help or, for a lack of better words, is there anything we can shift our attention to in terms of purpose? It's just plain awful to see them convinced that that's their only role and be unable to offer an alternative. Anyway, thank you for your videos! You guys played an integral part in our understanding of ourselves
I feel very hopeless sometimes about having this disorder. Your message gives me so much hope for my future and helps me comprehend the reality of this. You are amazing
Thank you for all you're doing. It's been amazing watching all of you and your systems growth. It really does give us hope for better things to come. Also oh my gosh your hair is absolutely incredible and it fits you so freaking well.
Such a beautiful and inspiring video. Fortunately I’ve never been through trauma, but I still felt inspired and empowered by this video. From a psychologist student, love the more rigorous and professional approach. Lots of love to you all!
I'm really glad you touched on your systems progress. I've been watching since the beginning and I'm SO dang proud of you all and how far you've come! It also never ceases to amaze me how I (someone without DID) can get something important and relevant to myself in every one of your videos. You help so many people and I hope you never forget that ❤
I usually don't comment on videos because I'm not really good with words, but as a person who dealed with C-PTSD and dissociation like depersonalization/derealization, I can't stress enough that it really IS possible to heal. It may feel impossible now, but please, PLEASE don't give up. I still remember being su1c1dal and some attempts of exiting life, but damn am I happy to be here today. I'd lie if I say I'm all happy now, but when is anyone always happy anyway? Ofc I still have some bad days, months even, and I fall back sometimes, I still struggle with dissociation and some flashback sometimes, and honestly as of right now I think they will always somewhat be a part of me, but I'm doing SO much better and life is... great, really! I wish you all the best and give you a big hug. If I could do it, you definitely can as well! I believe in you.
I love this channel and how beautiful it is to be able to give other systems affirmation that they're struggles are valid. Even though I personally watch to educate myself on how to understand what people are going through if I ever come to meet a system and be able to support them. Question: When the body is sleeping, do all alters go to bed or can the system still be active during resting times. Do dreams switch between alters? how does it work?
I’ve always had a fascination in psychology and how the brain works. Studying and becoming a psychologist or psychiatrist has been a goal of mine since I was 13. A couple of years later I found your channel a few months after Chloe started this DissociaDID project. Ever since then my goal has shifted ever so slightly so my long term goal is to specialise in DID or Schizophrenia or another stigmatised disorder so that I can diagnose and HELP people who need it and be a kind person who they know has their best interests at heart. It is because of you guys and your informative videos that have inspired me to do this. ❤️
This is amazing! Dedicating our lives to help the other creatures is what really makes any individual genuinely rich. I'm sure you'll be an amazing professional, best of luck!
Thank you so much your videos are so educational to help us navigate through our experience as a system and being recently diagnosed. It its very helppfylll
I've been following you guys since 2019, and it has been amazing being with you through your journey. I am so proud of everything you all have accomplished, and I thank you for all of the effort you put into spreading awareness of DID. I hope you have a great day! ❤
Hair on point ❤ And important video. I saw the insta-notification now, so I came as soon as I saw that. Remember that you are strong, stronger than whatever happened to you.
Growing up our system developed about 10 alters by age 12 or so. For some reason we did not develop switching or rather the alters would not take executive control of the body. I (the host) did have Dissociative symptoms and did have some level of amnesia but I was largely unaware of the alters unless we were blending. I have never had a gatekeeper or anyone controlling memories at all really.
I love the reasurring message at the end for all mental health issues. But definitely DID and C-ptsd deserve some knowledge. because the diagnosis was so hard to get i had to see 4 psychologist before the believed my trauma could be a disorder. I am so proud that with everything that happend to your system and trough youtube you still spread awareness. And sometimes it takes a good village nobody said we couldn't build it ourself with therapy and friends or chosen family. ❤❤
THE HAIR OMG????? IT LOOKS SO GOOD ON YOU GUYS!!!!!!
Yeahh!!
Literaly the first thing i thought this hair style fucking slays so hard
I've stared at it the whole video it's so beautiful
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Did they cut it short or is it just in an updo?
Hi DissociaDID, in case you haven’t heard this today yet thank you for being you, all of you ❤
Thank you so much ❤️
Going to add on to this too. You are enough.
The hair just created my crush on you lol. How can you rock any type of hairstyle and color?! ❤😅@DissociaDID
YES!!!!
I remember during early system discovery where I heard a little cry inside my head. I didn't know why and it was like she was in is black void and I could only faintly hear her in the distance. I just grabbed a big plushie we have and hugged it. I didn't know if it would reach her, but I tried my best 💜
Our communication isn't super great and we don't really "see" an inner world other than that dark void (which is interesting since we actually have a very vivid imagination). It's super confusing to have this disorder. It's kinda like playing a mystery puzzle game where you figure out the plot as you piece together clues you stumble into, but also when you just thought you knew everything you find out that you've only discovered maybe 10% of the plot. Idk how to describe it, but it's... a journey 😅
We relate to this so much 😅❤️
I used to be the same way and see only one room and a hallway, then started seeing a void, then I started focusing on places I wanted, and it grew from their best of luck to yoy
The timing! I don’t have DID but I do have C-PTSD and just went through the most intense, pervasive emotional flashback I’ve ever experienced. This video was really helpful for perspective, connection, and calming. Thank you, Soren & system!
I'm so glad! Hope you're feeling a bit better ❤️
i'm hope you're doing better, my friend.
from the bottom of my heart, thank you for saying this. i’ve been in denial ab my CPTSD diagnosis bc i didn’t feel like i really had “flashbacks” that often but it turns out that i just wasn’t all that educated on what exactly a flashback can be. you caused me to educate myself on what precisely an “emotional flashback” is & put a name to something happening to me that i didn’t understand. im so thankful for this community & all that it’s done for my own journey over the years. 🫶🏻❤️
we had an alter (won't name her for privacy reasons) and for years on end, whenever we looked for her in the inner world (she fronts very rarely), all she did was scream the most horrendous screams you've ever heard (we're survivors of RAMCOA and only are aware of small parts of our trauma, so we don't even want to know what she is experiencing) and act out violently to whomever tried approaching her. She stopped screaming recently after years of us working through trauma, and she even started speaking to us. Where we were going with this is yes, alters can have flashbacks in the inner world, even to this extent. We build her a part in the inner world where she at least is safe but all she did for *years* was scream. It was heartbreaking to say the least.
- Ender, an alter in the Noctifloral Paracosm
Could I ask you a question about your system's name?
@@lasshapafford yes of course!
@theNoctifloralParacosm How did you pick the name? Is that something you knew automatically or did it take you a while?
@lasshapafford we kinda thought abt what we'd like for a while! noctifloral stands for blooming at night (we're night owls) and paracosm means an extensive world in a childs mind :) (a system is made in a child's mind)
@theNoctifloralParacosm ahhhh I gotcha. Thank you for helping me understand.
“Weaponized flashbacks” finally, I have a label for that phenomenon. We have come so far in our integration, and so have you! 🏆 Go science! 💪🏼 knowledge is power. Thank you for spreading awareness and helping create a better world! 🦸🏼♀️
One of my friends recently told me that she is a system, and this channel has really helped me understand DID in ways i never would have gotten before, so thank you so much for that
Thank you for trying to understand your friend! We in the community don't get a lot of that, and it's appreciated
The car example is the best example I've ever heard! It explains so much and connects so well with DID💕
It's commonly used for DID within the community!
My partner describes how they have a “theater” in their inner world. And in the front there are controllers(like game controllers that actually recently got upgraded to a vr headset thing) and fronters have the controllers. And the closer to the front row you are, the closer to the front and the more influential you are. And often my partner can feel the presence of others in the theater, but can’t make out who it is unless they’re in the row behind or the one behind that.
I love your haircut! We've been dealing with internal flashbacks and it's so terrifying. Thank you for bringing awareness to this! -Brea
Lots of love 💙
I work in the italian national health service but I've never met a patient with DID, sometimes I work in psychiatry wards and learn a lot, your channel helps me learning, in order to help patients that I may encounter during my job so thank you!
Btw I have something too but I still don't know if it can be DID, I hear voices, I feel feelings that are not mine, in the DES II test my score was 45, not super high but still, lets me think...
If you're able to explore it with a therapist❤
Your hair looks AMAAAAMAAAAAZING. loving the journey of it’s styling we’ve been seeing over the past several videos!
Me too!
hey guys, you’ve helped my life so much and helped me slightly understand whats wrong with me. thank you so so much. i dont know what id do without yall
raine (host)
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Oh my gosh!!! I've had this happen for years and its been so distressing. I started having dissociative seizures because the screaming and PTSD flashbacks in the inner world got so bad. I finally got diagnosed and was so scared but everything makes soooooo much more sense and now this makes so much sense as well! I just thought I was losing my mind and was so scared to let anyone know for so long. It's such a relief to know what is going on. Thank you for your videos! You have helped my system now for years, even before we were diagnosed. We found your videos years ago when our gatekeeper was trying to bring awareness to the host. Now we've been diagnosed and we are finally starting to communicate in a healthy way.
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I don’t have any personal exposure to DID in my life, so my knowledge is limited. But it’s very interesting to learn about a disorder that I am so far removed from and understand it. The way the brain defends itself is truly mesmerizing. Your videos are fantastic; don’t let anyone tell you otherwise.
I beat my youtube notification here
Me too lmao
Just last night, we were having a discussion on the frequency of flashbacks for certain individuals in our system and the distinction between this symptom of C-PTSD and hallucinations, the latter of which we do not experience. What impeccable timing to receive this notification.
How is it possible that the hair looks so different and so cool everytime? It’s changing Color and style so quickly
It can be switches or just an overall intresst in hair. I really love it ❤
Thank you for teaching the world about DID, as a singlet it’s due to this channel that I know anything about DID. Seeing your system work together and function is helping me believe that the stuff I’m struggling with is valid! It’s partly thanks to your system that I have hope for my future even after figuring out that I won’t have a ‘normal’ job. Thank you! All of you, even the ones I have never met!
Also love the new hair! It looks fantastic!
Love from Phoenix
I've recently discovered new trauma memories and reactions. It feels terrifying remembering more of those heart breaking things. But it makes life so much more stable and calm, when you know that your reactions have a reason. It's logical that your body & mind react in a certain way. It has been necessary to develop these mechanisms. Now you can learn to soothe yourselves and make yourselves feel safer❤
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I really need the message around 15:24. I'm in the beginning of trauma therapy and I feel so stuck and almost gave up. This channel has helped me so much to know that I got this and I will get through it. Tysm❤
Your knowledge about this disorder is getting better and better! I also love how you can explain even the more complicated things, like this one, in an easy to understand way.
Also this jacket/blouse just reminds me of mike so much
As always, thank you for being vulnerable enough to share and educate about the things you and your system experience on a daily basis. You are so brave and I’m thankful you are here to help educate people, like me, who don’t share your experience. I hope you always remember to care for yourself as well! You are amazing!
Thank you so much!
3:38 This happened when I was fronting a few times. It's so heart-breaking, it's truly just horrible to have to hear those screams while trying to reach said alter, wanting to help them but being unable to. Trying to soothe the body but this not changing anything. It really hurts.
"You can make changes and heal you just have to stick around long enough to see it" (probs quoted that horribly) BUT STAWPP IM SOBBING SO TRUE
Not knowing the term of flashbacks for so long but now knowing it is so helpful. Having “emotional leaks” and feeling intense emotion suddenly from a past memory is so terrifying and can set me back for weeks. It’s been so difficult to do it on my own but I’m so thankful for you and your system for continuing to help others with their mental health and providing all these videos as sources of information.
shoutout to the huge improvement in the editing of the recent videos! the visuals are so helpful and gorgeous! its a subtle way to lighten and make more digestible the videos with rather dark or negative topics. and special attention to the animations at 11:07 , beautiful!!
I've been watching your videos for 5 (!) years now, and everything you had to say about recovery made me really emotional. Your channel has come a long way, and I've definitely noticed your alters speaking with more and more confidence about their experiences. I have a different (arguably less severe, but still disabling) set of disorders, some diagnosed and others I'm still finding out about, and I find your progress so inspiring. We have so much left to learn about ourselves, and the human brain, and I'm really happy to say that I now find that more motivational than distressing. The quest for self-knowledge continues!!
Side note, I've noticed less and less tension between the psychiatric field and disabled communities/disability rights advocates, which is another thing I find really encouraging. Still an issue, esp. with DID, but a better world is possible.
I hope that you guys know how much of a difference you’re making. You are a massive part of the destigmatization of DID, and as you said, that destigmatization is a huge part of why people are getting diagnosed more and people are looking into it more. Don’t have any more time to type, but I just hope you guys know how much you matter.
I don’t want to sound patronizing but when you start giving encouragement at the end, I could hear your voice breaking a little & I just wanted to hug you & give you the same encouragement you give us ❤ You all are so amazing for all the hard work you do on TH-cam as well as on your own journey. Our brain has a few mental disorders as well as being a heavily private & closeted OSDD system. So your videos for a few years now have been a source of comfort as well as learning. Thank you for all you all do ❤
because of this video i realized that my little might have been experiencing internal flashbacks for 3 years before our amnesia barriers became the strongest
it's comforting for me that some pieces of our past is finally putting together
I love the hair changes pretty much epsisode ahah, all the styles look so good! Excited to see what you do with it as it grows out again ahah! -Kitt
It's not cut off, just tied back! ❤️
Thank you !!! These are so good. I've been recently dignosed with DID and these are so helpful.
Best of luck! Congratulations on getting a diagnosis too. It can be really difficult even if that is what's wrong. I didn't get a diagnosis until I turned OSDD instead of full blown DID like I was all of college
I appreciate your videos so much more than you realize. Especially when you say you want us to stick around. That hit our feels so so much today. Thank you. My life is finally making sense to me. ❤
I'm so happy to hear this ❤️ please stay
We think this is your best video yet. An amazing summary. So clear. So well done. So much heart with slight tears in your eyes and obvious introjections happening in your mind as you speak.
You are doing such amazingly positive things for the world with your content. We are incredibly grateful.
Thank you so much ❤️❤️
@@DissociaDID :D you're all very welcome
Hey you guys, we normally watch your content without interacting, but now we have to make all of you a compliment. You helped us so much with understanding who we are as a system. Throughout your videos, we started to understand DID more. For the last couple of months, we had those little flashes of traumatic experiences and we never knew what it is or why it's there. Because of the video, we now can classify it better. Thank you so much for your content, we always enjoy watching your videos
At around 11:37 when you start talking about all the things DID doesn’t mean, I really felt the old Chloe/Nin come out and it reminded me of videos you did years ago. It makes me happy knowing it’s still you, even if you’ve changed because of your integrations. ❤️ I hope that’s not insensitive to say. It just felt comforting to me. I’ve been watching your videos for so long now, it’s cool to catch little bits of mannerisms of those who have been integrated. They’re definitely not gone ❤️
Even tho you said this wasn’t a “happy video”, the way you explained everything was so pure, emotional and hopeful. It made the video absolutely great. Nice job, guys!
Yknow, I watched a LONG time ago and am glad to be back
I hope you are all doing well or as well as yall can be. Thank you all for making this much information on one of the most fascinating things humanity can have readily available from a VERY qualified source lol
Genuinely so honored to be able to peek into your worlds and lives.
And i would like to preface and say simply, thank you. Thank you for doing these I know you are probably helping many people. Even indirectly like how you say at the end with inspiring researchers and such THANK YOU for existing
Thank you so much ❤️❤️❤️
The hair is everything. Grateful for all of you having the courage to share. ❤
I JUST got my hair the way I like it, how do y’all manage to make me want your hairstyle for a different reason every video??
Y’all are amazing, lots of love❤
This explains so much and so clearly about what we feel on quite a regular basis and we couldnt put into words, so thank you for helping us understand what we feel and how to put those feelings into words a bit better❤
I cannot tell you how much your channel has helped us. We discovered you when we first discovered our system and it has been like a lifeline for us. It’s been three years since we discovered, and we’ve made leaps and bounds of progress - thanks to y’all. Just. Wanted to put that out there, I guess, because your content is genuinely so important to us. :)
Ooooh! An early upload? Thank you for the continuous knowledge and providing the community additional information to the potential questions or worries that others may have. Sending all the love and strength to everyone in the system, Soren💖.
Stay safe and hydrated always!
Thanks for the hydration notice lol I needed that 😭
Thank you for all you've done, I've been watching you guys for almost 5 years now, you've helped me to realize what dissociation and derealization is for myself during panic attacks or any other time just on their own. I'm not a system, but I sincerely enjoy educating myself on this topic, interested in nursing and psychology. Thank you for your bravery 💜
Edit: (When I say "you" I mean all of you collectively 💜)
I dont have DID but i have CPTSD and this video was so helpful bc i was going to therapy and when it got hard i quit but i want to go back and this video did that for me. Thank you Soren and system!
I knew this video was coming, after your latest reel on Insta. I hope you, Soren, and the system are doing well, that Sally, Maeri and Red are around. Much love, dear 💙💚
Been watching you since your first 2 videos and watching you transform is absolutely beautiful. You've made so much progress as a human being, your ability to communicate and fully learn yourself through and through. Sending so much love! ❤
Watching you over the years, I can see some of your growth and healing. It's beautiful to watch. Blessings to your system. Thank you for what you do, informing those without DID and giving hope to those who do have DID. What a great calling in life. ❤️
You are a blessing. Thank you for being so open and vulnerable with your experiences, I know I relate, and so many people do. Love you, take care of yourself.❤
Hello, my name is Victoria and we're called Proletariat System. We've had this diagnosis since 2014. Thank you guys so much for your videos and the work you do. 🎉
Thank you, Soren! Thank you, all of you! Thank you, Your Brain! Much love. ❤
Thank you for always explaining this to people who are individual minds & not systems. Education keeps understanding. Thank you.
I've been fascinated in your situation for years.
Since Chloe.
Your channel is something that I just happened upon some day.
The way this occurs is so utterly heartbreaking.
I've been watching this channel for 5 or 6 years now and i'm still learning so many new things! Please keep making videos and educating people for as long as it's fulfilling for you.
The hair cut is so dynamic! It really is so flexible for different alters' expression! So glad y'all are back by the way!
Thank you for this informative video. I am not a system, but i have always related most to the persecutor role if that makes sense. Ive had trauma that started at age 5 and has continued to my current age 24.
I have times where I've hurt myself, sabatogaged my own healing, taken anger out on others, and isolated myself.
Im still trying to come to terms with where im at and how to heal. It helps when i hear about the persecutor roles and why they may act that way too. Ultimately i imagine every sigular personality aims to have all the DID roles. The difference is DID causes the split roles into different personalities.
This thinking has helped me try and see how i can help support myself better. Thank you all for raising awareness. Youre helping other systems as well as people like me who have dealt with complex traumas as well
I just discovered your channel and I've found all the videos I've watched so far really insightful and incredibly fascinating! This is a world I knew absolutely nothing about, and I look forward to learning more! Kudos to you all for speaking so openly about DID and for allowing people like me who had no idea to learn! Thanks!
Thabk you soren and system for all that you do. Thank you for giving me knowledge, comfort, and hope.
Yalls hair is amazing!!! Thank you guys for continuing DissociaDID. I've been struggling recently on whether i do experience plurality and your videos have been very validating. Yall have a wonderful timezone and a wonderful tomorrow ❤️
Videos never have to be only positive - we care about ALL of your experiences as a system. Thank you once again for sharing such vulnerable parts of your existence, I'm sending love to all of you today but especially any persecutors -- you are valid in everything you feel, you are extremely important, and you are loved. ❤
Thank you Soren. I could definitely see that you were on a bit of an emotional rollercoaster for this one. So thank you for for creating this
I don't know why, but lately all of your videos have been making me so emotional. Last year I was diagnosed with depersonalization disorder, which I know isn't the same, but the information you all present, the understanding, empathy, and compassion, are so validating. That little voice in the back of my head that cries from feeling seen...I'm just really thankful for all of you, and the videos you put so much work into.
thank you so much for your work!
Thank you for the hope you spread around you, this is precious
i'm so thankful i found your channel, your story and all the things i have to learn about people with DID. i find you invredibly strong and at the same time i find it so unfair and makes me want to keep fighting and spreadong the kindness that abusive humans lack. thank you❤
Thank you for sharing your experiences with DID. It takes incredible courage to open up about something so personal. Your video is a valuable resource for those seeking to understand the condition better. Sending strength and support 🩷
This video is perfectly timed lmao I just helped my partner through a hardcore carousel switching episode with intense flashbacks last night. I just sent this video to them in hopes it helps them too. Thank you so very much for all the hard work you do!! We are all extremely grateful for you!! We look forward to more!!!
this video was extremely helpful and very relevant to recent issues ive been faced with. Just watching the video brought me comfort in knowing im not alone despite how scary and confusing things can become. thank you soren for making this video and explaining everything so well 😊
Thank you for this video! Your videos help us feel less alone in the things we experience and really help us learn and grow ❤
why did that “please don’t give up” hit so hard????? ty for saying that. it’s been a not good day and this helped a lot.
Thank you for all the work you do to destigmatize DID!
I have a question, and this can go for others in the comments who also have DID: How do you all experience the inner world? Do alters that are not fronting remain "conscious" in the inner world and have memories and experiences with other alters inside? Are the experiences in the inner world similar to how non-DID folks experience dreams? Forgive me, I have a hard time conceptualizing the idea of having multiple simultaneous consciousnesses.
It's different for every system. There can be sort of memories of things in the inner world, and yeah it is similar to dreams
We'll make an updated video for you!
The videos you post have been and continue to be very helpful to me, thank you
The new hair is amazing!! I just want to say thank you for making these videos to inform us all about DID. I recently discovered that someone in my life has DID and I've learned so much from you and your system that has helped me support them. You are doing important work, thank you ❤
The new hair looks amazing!! 🤩
The way you bring a good vibe to talks about this stuff is inspiring! You’re making a good difference on the internet :)
Heya! I REALLY adored when you mentioned how (paraphrased around 09:30) unfair it can be to be a persecutor and how difficult it can be to wrestle with how much the brain offloads onto you. There are atleast two of our members who recognise that their behaviours aren't as helpful as they intend for them to be but the mentality of "I was literally designed and built to hold everyone else's shit" has steered us into a bit of stagnation. Any tips on helping to find other ways that they can help or, for a lack of better words, is there anything we can shift our attention to in terms of purpose? It's just plain awful to see them convinced that that's their only role and be unable to offer an alternative. Anyway, thank you for your videos! You guys played an integral part in our understanding of ourselves
DissociaDID. Thank you so much for everything you do to help us
I feel very hopeless sometimes about having this disorder. Your message gives me so much hope for my future and helps me comprehend the reality of this. You are amazing
That hair looks amazing! I hope your system is happy with it! I know I was quite pleased when I chopped mine off.
OH I LOVE THE NEW HAIR YALL LOOK SO GOOD!!!!! THE WAY YOU STYLED THE SWOOP WITH THE MINT GREEN 🤩🤩🤩
Thank you for all you're doing. It's been amazing watching all of you and your systems growth. It really does give us hope for better things to come. Also oh my gosh your hair is absolutely incredible and it fits you so freaking well.
Such a beautiful and inspiring video. Fortunately I’ve never been through trauma, but I still felt inspired and empowered by this video. From a psychologist student, love the more rigorous and professional approach. Lots of love to you all!
Sundays with DID videos are marvelous.
15:41, this is exactly what I needed to hear soren. I hope you all have an amazing day!
I'm really glad you touched on your systems progress.
I've been watching since the beginning and I'm SO dang proud of you all and how far you've come!
It also never ceases to amaze me how I (someone without DID) can get something important and relevant to myself in every one of your videos.
You help so many people and I hope you never forget that ❤
"And that we at least want you to stick around." I don't know why that hit so hard but it did. Thank you
I usually don't comment on videos because I'm not really good with words, but as a person who dealed with C-PTSD and dissociation like depersonalization/derealization, I can't stress enough that it really IS possible to heal. It may feel impossible now, but please, PLEASE don't give up. I still remember being su1c1dal and some attempts of exiting life, but damn am I happy to be here today. I'd lie if I say I'm all happy now, but when is anyone always happy anyway? Ofc I still have some bad days, months even, and I fall back sometimes, I still struggle with dissociation and some flashback sometimes, and honestly as of right now I think they will always somewhat be a part of me, but I'm doing SO much better and life is... great, really! I wish you all the best and give you a big hug. If I could do it, you definitely can as well! I believe in you.
I love this channel and how beautiful it is to be able to give other systems affirmation that they're struggles are valid. Even though I personally watch to educate myself on how to understand what people are going through if I ever come to meet a system and be able to support them. Question: When the body is sleeping, do all alters go to bed or can the system still be active during resting times. Do dreams switch between alters? how does it work?
Alters can switch while sleeping and occasionally see each other's dreams yes! One might go to bed and a different Alter wake up in the morning
I’ve always had a fascination in psychology and how the brain works. Studying and becoming a psychologist or psychiatrist has been a goal of mine since I was 13. A couple of years later I found your channel a few months after Chloe started this DissociaDID project. Ever since then my goal has shifted ever so slightly so my long term goal is to specialise in DID or Schizophrenia or another stigmatised disorder so that I can diagnose and HELP people who need it and be a kind person who they know has their best interests at heart. It is because of you guys and your informative videos that have inspired me to do this. ❤️
This is amazing! Dedicating our lives to help the other creatures is what really makes any individual genuinely rich. I'm sure you'll be an amazing professional, best of luck!
Thank you so much your videos are so educational to help us navigate through our experience as a system and being recently diagnosed. It its very helppfylll
Watching this as soon as I change my name on here. Thank you for uploading I can't wait to watch
Thank you for all that you do!!❤️ The new hair looks super cool!:) I also really love the video format. It is really easy to follow!
I've been following you guys since 2019, and it has been amazing being with you through your journey. I am so proud of everything you all have accomplished, and I thank you for all of the effort you put into spreading awareness of DID. I hope you have a great day! ❤
Hair on point ❤
And important video.
I saw the insta-notification now, so I came as soon as I saw that.
Remember that you are strong, stronger than whatever happened to you.
Thank you so much for this, we really appreciate it 🫂
The hair changing so often brings me so much joy, it looks amazing!
hi , everything here felt extremelly personal in the end Sending Big hugs for u and all systems!!!
Growing up our system developed about 10 alters by age 12 or so. For some reason we did not develop switching or rather the alters would not take executive control of the body. I (the host) did have Dissociative symptoms and did have some level of amnesia but I was largely unaware of the alters unless we were blending. I have never had a gatekeeper or anyone controlling memories at all really.
You might want to look into Partial Dissociative Identity Disorder as listed in the ICD.
thank you so much for sharing this. you guys really helps. much love from Malaysia. stay safe
Wow this hits too close to home...
Also absolutely love the hair. Your guys' hair is such goals as always
I love the reasurring message at the end for all mental health issues.
But definitely DID and C-ptsd deserve some knowledge. because the diagnosis was so hard to get i had to see 4 psychologist before the believed my trauma could be a disorder. I am so proud that with everything that happend to your system and trough youtube you still spread awareness.
And sometimes it takes a good village nobody said we couldn't build it ourself with therapy and friends or chosen family.
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Y'all have such good taste when it comes to hair and makeup! I may or may not take inspiration from this new hair, very lovely.