Your channel, your content, your choice. It’s funny because sometimes I see videos pop up from you that are on topics I’m less interested in and sometimes I hesitate. But I end up watching anyway because it’s from you and I find I always, always learn something. I’ve even been going back to many of your old videos from before I was a subscriber. It’s been so interesting to see how your content has evolved and how you’ve gained so much confidence over the years. You’re one of the channels I watch every time you release something. You won’t ever please everyone so take that kind of feedback with a giant grain of salt. I’ve personally really enjoyed seeing what is interesting to you. I like that you do things differently. It’s what sets you apart.
@@moreracheloatesThere are 8 billion people in the world but only one Rachel Oates... You can't possibly satisfy them all at the same time. Go easy on yourself ❤
i totally agree with this! her last video about that football player guy made me feel exactly the same, i was not really interested but i ended up watching the whole thing and i learned tons of stuff 🤍 i’m also not interested in poetry or mushrooms but i watched all the videos of her about them and ended up loving them! so much fascinating knowledge!
I’m so sorry that you’re going through such a stressful time Rachel. And yes, “you-know-who” is an absolute bully and liar whose most recent slanderous hit-piece is just pure “guilt-by-association” fallacy! Their behavior is downright stalkerish at this point! Don’t let them get to you!
Right. We are not in control of other people's actions. We've become so quick to judge on social media, and I think it has made us more judgemental overall. Like anything else, we can choose to become aware of it and begin to change.
Don't listen to the people who complain about what content you're making or not making! The best content is always whatever the creator is most interested in:)
As someone who’s followed you since I was a freshmen in high school and is now an adult with her own apartment I want you to know you got me through the worst times in my life. Your videos fuel me with passion for life and writing and reading and there was a time when I didn’t know if I could have that again. Growing up I was expected to be a homemaker and nothing more and your content helped me break out of that. I have my life now because of you and your content. Please don’t be too hard on yourself Rachel you are the kind of woman I’ve always wanted to become and I’m sure many others feel the same way. Be kind to yourself you have many people who are in your corner and love seeing you succeed 🎉
I second this, I started watching when I was 14 and Rachel was where I got basically all of my sex ed because I skipped a grade in middle school and my parents although educated come from a very conservative society and didn't really know enough themselves to teach me. If it wasn't for her I would probably still believe so many misconceptions about female anatomy.
Gabbie Hanna never changes--she simply tries on a new costume that she thinks people will prefer. Currently she thinks moral superiority over her critics can be achieved by pivoting to Christian content. I don't know if you've heard but swearing is demonic, so Gabbie has had to give up her favorite pastime. Any time I thought she's grown or moved past something because she avoids talking about it, she slips and reveals she is incapable of seeing herself in the wrong. The other person in question is even less rational--only a psychiatrist can make sense of whatever that is. Mob mentality is prevalent online because it's filled with chronically online people who can't empathize with those they're seeing through a screen and lack the context of normal human interaction. You have to avoid the subreddits and things (that website is too ugly for me to even follow) because they're filled with people who say you've failed some purity test that they themselves couldn't pass. It seems to come with the territory of your line of work, but don't let the naysayers keep you from making what you want to. You're an educated young woman, and you could probably work in a different field if this ever becomes too overwhelming. I don't know you at all, but I sense that you'll always be successful no matter what. Lindsey Ellis made educational/media criticism content, and she moved completely over to Nebula and became a full-time author. Whatever happens, you'll always be great.
@espifreak Gabbie Hannah might be going through what i went through when i was struggling so much it was dangerous and Christians from various differnet churches convinced me that instead of actual medication and help, god will totally heal me. Christianity can be appealing when, like in my case, all you know is being yelled at and told you're bad at everything, and then Christians come over, they're nice and they say god loves you without conditions. of course, it was harmful and dangerous AF but back then, i saw no better options.
People absolutely CAN change. Unfortunately, that doesn't mean that an individual WILL change. I hope you feel better soon. You are a wonderful person and you make the world a little better just by being part of it.
honestly even when you do fundie content you still do a lot of literature review which is still book content in my opinion! that’s one of my favourite things about your content, the literature review and reading recommendations. i’m mostly a fiction reader so i don’t always go looking for non fiction recommendations, but i still feel like including that literature portion elevates you more than typical commentators (nothing wrong with typical commentary, there’s a reason it’s so popular. i just like the variety you offer!) i hope you’re able to have some time to rest, decompress, and really just take care of yourself.
People can grow and change - those particular two people are just among the group of humans who refuse to do so. Which is why one of them is deservedly getting legal action taken against them by you and I have no doubt that it will end in your favour. That person needs to learn that they can't keep treating people, especially you, like trash in this way. And Gabbie will get into her own controversies again because she just can't help herself. Maybe one of these days she'll realize that life as an off-line fitness instructor is better than all the drama she keeps creating for herself. For what it's worth, I enjoy your content no matter if it's books or fundie critique or whatever else. You always bring something valuable to the table, whether that's introducing me to things I hadn't heard of before, bringing a perspective I had not considered before, or just being a pleasant voice in my headphones while I do stuff around the house. I'm confident that you will get through this tough time and that there's better times ahead for you. It speaks volumes for your character that you're not responding as harshly to the people who attack you as those people talk about you. Hang in there. This storm will pass.
Rachel, my (parasocial) friend: as a fellow autistic, I can absolutely relate to your struggles. It can be so difficult to function and do what everyone expects of you when under attack. I've had my share of bullies in my life as well and can confidently day that the person who is doing this to you is a miserable, self-loathing, life-hating buboe who has decided to make you the victim as you represent everything that they are not and are dead-set on punishing you for it. They would LOVE to see you pack it in as it would mean they've won; don't let them. They've experienced hurt in their own life, I'm sure, but as the saying goes "hurt people hurt people." Causing you distress and inventing enemies to fight provides the illusion of fulfillment to distract from the yawning abyss that is their life. They may have once deserved (indeed, courted) pity, but one day they'll reap what they've sown... hopefully legally. They may have their troll army, but you have hundreds of thousands of us who appreciate your kindness, honesty and courage.
Your channel is of the first TH-cam channels I found shortly after becoming an atheist (I was a Fundie before...). You and others like you helped me cope with some of the "angry atheist" emotions in me at a time I was so vulnerable and alone. You've been a positive influence in my life and the lives of so many others. Whatever you're going through, at whatever time in your life, please know YOU MATTER SO MUCH, and you are a beautiful person who is loved by us all. The haters will always be there; but so will your friends. Rock on, girl, in whatever ways you need to. You got this, and we've got your back. 💙
@BermondseySteve Thank you. Yeah, it's hard because I'm from the Deep South, lol, so a lot of closed-mindedness here. It's such mixed emotions: I love the south, where I'm from, my roots; it's my home. At the same time, it's getting to feel increasingly stifling and frustrating to know I love somewhere where the "real me" isn't isn't looked on too kindly. But, we all have problems no matter where we are, right? And channels like Rachel's help with the loneliness and isolation. 🙂
@@melissabattles3196 You express yourself so well! I hope you write - in some way - for yourself, family, loved ones. I also have v close relatives in the Deep South, and I think you & I share some of the same difficulties, tho' I grew up away from them, so they & I have different politics, education, world view, religion - yet they generally accept me, as I do them, likely bc we're family - a welcome respect and loyalty which I didn't expect. The way I grew up, I didn't really have good family, so their acceptance of so much of 'big city' me is v special. Of course, there are a few things that we don't discuss much, yet, but it seems that we all feel that fam. is our most significant connection. I'd love to hear abt your experiences. Do you feel closer to your family or perhaps to your home and roots? Do you think their difficulties with the 'real' you may be insurmountable? (If this is too much for this forum, feel free to dm, etc., or simply ignore; no prob.!) And yes, Rachel is really, really amazing. I usually differ at least somewhat from most folks, but not with her - she is such a marvel - and aren't we fortunate to be able to share with & learn from her?
You are a beautiful open minded woman rachel always wish the best for you thank you for saving me more than once the world needs more open sweethearts like you
Also I'm beginning my PhD in math and I have to tell you, flipping the pluses and the minuses never stops! Vectors and calculus are cool, hope you keep enjoying it!
I hope you feel better soon. Some people just want to cause misery, and someone as wondeful as you doesn't deserve any of that. Also holy smokes, you being good at math on top of everything else (writing, poetry, research, buisness...) is so impressive! I could never.
My painting equivalent is playing piano and when I was at my worst, I realized I hadn’t even touched the keys of my piano in a month. I support taking some time for your creativity. 11:37
I'm sorry you're feeling burnt out. Thank you for reaching out and telling us. You putting on your makeup did feel like soothing self care. I've been through similar struggles (catastophising, feeling judged for every small move, legal battles, and more). I still still struggle at times. Rest for success. When you are up for it, remember ACT for anxiety: Some people like you and some don't. You are tremendously successful. You make good choices for yourself based on your values and desires. When it comes to abusive entrenched people, that is so difficult. You are doing everything you can. My last resort is to remove myself from the equation, which is doing something to give myself more distance, space, and time to process, rest, heal, etc. I know how challenging that is with legal battles. Even when I succeed with my mental health related to it, something outside of my control throws me down hard. Victories come out of the blue it seems. Wishing you well. Hugs.
i'm so sorry you feel pressurized re. your content, but for what it's worth, i think a lot of us come to you because you're intelligent and articulate and it's genuinely fun and insightful to hear the thoughts you share! honestly there's so much fundie content that i'm unaware of, but i still love watching you deep dive into it for hours, just because you're so compelling and fair in your arguments! more so, you seem kind and warm and i can tell you're a good egg! i hope you find some peace from all these bullies (i can't imagine what it must be like on such a public platform, you're a star honestly), but i'm happy you feel safe enough to share this with us. also, gabbie hanna sucks and needs to get therapy and/or a life but we all know that i guess
We love you Rachel. Your content has been so instrumental to who I've grown up to be, the way I view myself as an autistic woman, my desire to learn and understand and educate others, and engage with my creativity. I have learned so much from your content, there is nothing else that can keep my attention span for long periods of time. You talking about your experiences helped me come to terms with my own toxic relationship, and walk away from that person. I owe you so much xx
Some months really just feel like everything's weighing on us at once, but understanding our minds and talking about it helps a lot. There's lots of us who appreciate everything you put out. Hang in there Rachel 💜
I am really resonating with you right now. When people are wrong about you they invalidate your feelings which results in you doubting yourself. It sucks. I also found that talking about it makes me feel better. Feel your sadness because it is a sad part of your life. Luckily it's not the only part of your life. Your world is so much bigger. Best of luck.
I can say from experience that a person can change if and only if that person is capable of self-reflection. If you aren't prepared to be completely honest with yourself, you aren't going to change. It's work, ongoing and difficult, but the only way out is through. Sorry you're going through a rough time. Know that you're worth more as a creative and intelligent individual than two hateful people who are incapable of that self-reflection.
You aren't a machine. People need to treat you as a person. We love content that you love. Do what you are loving and we will love it too because you are invested. It's obvious how much work you put in and how much you invest. There is nothing wrong with your hyperfocus, from another ND person! If you are burnt out then rest and take time. Do whatever you need. We love you and we are here for you ❤
Hey Rachel, I'm so sorry you are going through a hard time! I just wanted to drop by and let you know that you are my favorite TH-camr of all time! I don't care which topic you cover, it is always interesting and I always learn something new. I relate to you on so many levels and I'm so grateful for your content. Thank you so much for everything you do. Hang in there!
Your feelings are completely valid and completely normal, Rachel. We all go through seasons of burnout and sometimes, the world just seems like it's crashing in on you. Plus, some folks will never be happy, but that's not on you. Their BS is not your fault. The main thing is, and always is, what makes YOU happy? What content do YOU find interesting? Your videos are so fun and when you're passionate about a subject, it shows. Their misery is their business. If they want to be assholes, that's a reflection of their garbage and not at all a reflection of you. Keep your head up, Rachel! You will get through this. You will become stronger. You will learn and grow. Forgiveness is given to someone, but ultimately, it is a gift you give yourself. It's a gift of peace.
So proud of you for your vulnerability! I'm sorry for what you are dealing with right now, you deserve rest and safety and not constant badgering. I believe that every person has the capacity to change and do better, but that many people do not make the active choice to do so, and even if everyone does have it inside them to change, some deliberately choose not to because its easier to fall into the same habits. I also struggle with black and white thinking of my own perception of self, and I too also let comments get to me even if they are untrue, its hard not to be affected by it; but please affirm your truth and what you know about yourself often. Sending love!
A life principle that I have followed since 2017 is this: Rachel posts a video, I watch it. Regardless of the topic. I’m so sorry that you have been going through so much. Harassment chips away at your mental health. The feeling of constantly being observed and scrutinized for the most mundane comments it’s traumatizing. I have learned so much from you over the last 7 years. So proud of you and your journey.
Please don't ever feel like you have to apologize for a video not being "happy enough". You're allowed to be a person. You're allowed to have low energy moments, even on camera. If you feel like you can or need to be vulnerable and honest for a minute, and that means talking about something that doesn't feel very happy, then that's ok. Your feelings are valid. And I'm sure most of the people watching here are happy to hold that emotional space for you. Needing that doesn't make you selfish, or a bad person, or a downer or whatever. You're a very kind person who deserves kindness in return.
Something that helps me to not catastrophize when someone doesn't like me (feel free to ignore or not read) is to recognize that I really don't want to be responsible for someone else's likes/dislikes. That's a tooon of pressure and way too exhausting, and also it kind of strips them of their autonomy. And I hate that. It does hurt, but it is comforting for me to look at it like "aw, look at that person exerting their autonomy and expressing themselves. I wish they'd do it more nicely but that's alright, I'll go back to being me now." It also means I can do things to make others comfortable without making it about me wanting to be likeable. If I have space to accommodate someone's comfort, I may do it, and if not, I understand I'm not a monolith who can care for everyone's needs, let own preferences. You're going through so much, I am not surprised you're exhausted. I am sending happy mushroom forest creature vibes. Sorry you're going through all this.
What I love about your content is not that you say things that I agree with, or that you say something that makes me feel better, but that you put out content that you want to post. You're showing your true authentic self, and that's very valuable.
Your feelings are valid! You're being real, nobody is always sunshine & rainbows. Also: some people are truly miserable, only getting kicks from trying to make others as miserable as them. Some ppl lack any concept that people can like & want different things. Aaaaand some are just hateful. It makes me sad that such people can make an accomplished, brilliant, lovely person feel shtty. The legal & stalking/vendetta crap *must* be exhausting. It would be for anyone, but esp with other things you're dealing with. You've been brave in putting yourself out here on YT. Because of that, many of us have learned, grown, & had interesting thoughts we wouldn't have had otherwise. Sucks that that leaves you vulnerable. I wish we could tangibly send good vibes. You are wonderful, and you are loved. (Also, the East Enders thing is UNHINGED.) Just in case you haven't heard the expression: "Never wrestle with a pig - you both get dirty and the pig likes it." Smth like that. Obv impractical sometimes & 💯 unfair to actual pigs, who are smart & misunderstood... but the point stands? IDK what the right answer is to dealing with people who only engage in bad faith. (Obv cutting them off if friend/fam, but that doesn't apply here.) Anyone who does, ideas would be awesome? *Sorry this was so rambling! And sorry if you weren't looking for any advice at all. Just empathy. We're with you. So yeah, 1000 hugs. Thanks for being you.
As a former (very long ago, I was like sixteen) fan of “you know who” I remember looking into the situation with you and being so mad because holy shit she lied about everything so maliciously and primed her viewers to feel like hating you was an expression of progressive values I hope it’s vindicating that it took like five seconds of research for me to end up talking your side; it really was basically 99.9% lies by volume Now that I’m older I’m much more aware of the horrific phenomenon of stalkers with a very specific combination of mental illness and personality disorder just obsessively shitting on someone like a one person Kiwi Farms. A lot of Nazis do this, but sometimes there’s also leftists; this is because many people into online politics are often very lonely and get so invested into internet drama that it becomes their whole world and also a metaphorical representation of every bad thing in politics.
I watch you for your authenticity, sensitivity, integrity, and amazing critical thinking. You are a wordsmith on top of that! I have no idea how your content could ever be considered “grifting” or money grubbing in any way… Your honest breakdowns of contentious topics are like a siren song to the worst possible trolls. You are strong and you inspire me.
People absolutely *can* grow and change, because they do. Growth and change, however, require some degree of self-awareness, and to acknowledge that you could do better than you have done in the past. From what I've seen, neither Gabbie nor Turd have demonstrated this awareness, being convinced of their own rightness still. Unfortunately I think all you can do with some people is write them off, and remember that 1) you're better than them and 2) so are most people in the end.
I'm a former of you know who. It took them lashing out at me directly to realize how much of a toxic abuser they are. I've tried to leave them in my past so many times now, but they keep showing up again. I lost my patience with them in the most recent controversy they've created. I want them to face who they are, to have to face all their crap.
I'm so sorry you've not been feeling to well mentally! You know I've been worried for a bit because the last few videos have you apologizing for looking and sounding tired (which I don't think you have to apologize for anyway). I hope everything wraps up as soon as possible and you will be left alone. I think everyone can grow and change, some just don't want to. Lots of love to you! I hope things will get better.
I hope everything gets better for you and I wish the people who are still spreading lies about you would leave you alone and let you live your life in peace. I'm sorry you're dealing with a lot of stuff right now, especially the legal stuff.
Keep doing you. If you're going to make content you feel compelled to make, the quality will most likely suffer. You tubers are at their best making the content they enjoy. Just like when a band changes their sound and lose fans, content creators will shift focus and lose fans. You're not failing, you're evolving. You're still just as brilliant and talented as you were when you started, despite your expanding into new subjects of interest. Stay strong!
Rachel, I’m sorry for what you’re going through. Here’s how I see it: There are good people and sadly others, who aren’t worth it. For whatever their reasons are, some people who are mean, cruel and just want to be mean. Usually, they aren’t open to reason, unfortunately. You are a kind soul and I’ll bet you have many great people who care about you. Embrace what you have with them. They are here for you… even people you may not realize it are here for you. Sorry for being so preachy, I just wanted to let you know that you’re not alone. You are a wonderful person & you make the world a better place.
Rachel, I am so sorry to hear that you are going through this crisis of confidence. Of course Autistic people like us are going to struggle with being disliked. What has it meant to us before? Being disliked has led to us being unsafe before or not having our needs met. At minimum, most people would be hurt by it. At minimum, we are traumatized by it. Maybe I am projecting, and I am so sorry if what I am saying is incorrect or saying too much. If you are a hugging sort, big imaginary hugs. If you aren’t a hugging sort, big imaginary whatever the best care would be to provide you.
I've followed you for years, and I'd say you're the strongest, bravest, and most intelligent person I've seen on YT and likely elsewhere. I've learned so very much from your remarkable take on life and lit and people and ideas - your brilliant example reassures me that there still are at least a few good and caring and thoughtful people who give so much of themselves to the betterment of others. And though the majority of us rarely comment, I know that we are all grateful for the joy, passion, sensitivity, perception, art and wisdom that you share. In your young life, you've already done a world of good. I can't thank you enough.
i just got covid for the first time ever about 2 weeks ago and its added significantly to my usual brainfog/chronic health mysteries, so i totally feel you on this month being rough. i always look forward to your videos (and the bonus videos on this channel!!). personally, i love anything you put out. i find the way your interest fluctuate very relatable, i have yearly fixations and indulge in my fav media around the same time every year. i dont know if my words make sense because its hard to keep focused on them recently but we appreciate you!!!! feel what you need to feel
For me it sometimes helps to get my experience into a more academic/unpersonal statement. So for example maybe here it could help to think about how your experience with this harassment might impact the way you learn about people you make your videos about or in general take information about people more critically? Or maybe it won't help at all lol, just an idea
I never ever comment but I just need to tell you- Rachel, you are my favourite creator and I look forward to all your content so so dearly. Whatever it may be. I love your book content, I love your fundie content, I love your random chats- I love it all. I totally get how you're feeling and the pressure you must feel as someone who shares content online, but I just need you to know that you are so loved by us. You absolutely don't deserve any hate and abuse, I know it's quite inevitable online (which is not right), but you NEVER EVER deserve it. Harassers will always target incredible people like you. l I just want you to know you are so talented, and so loved. Take as much time as you need and just have a rest
I hope things improve for you Rachel. You don't have to be happy and lighthearted all the time, it's nice to see how you're really doing rather than putting on a façade. I wish I could give some advice to help you but I'm not sure what the right step is. I really enjoy your content and always look forward to your videos.
As many of these comments have pointed out, your channel, is yours and content is always best when its something the creator is interested in. I had 0 interest in Poetry before discovering your channel, but i still end up drawn to your poetry videos because of how you explain things, and your passion for it makes it interesting! I always feel like I'm learning something or seeing a new pov. I'm not sure if all this is comforting, but just know that people watch you for you! I hope you can find some rest and inspiration soon, please take care and take breaks when needed! So happy to hear about your fav poet getting in touch with you! Oh and i also believe people can change, but sometimes it can be so baked in that it takes more than some can afford to snap out of it and reconstruct from 0. Hope in people is how the world changes! Or at least i like to hope it is😅. Best of wishes to you, Kyra and your partner. Take care 🙏🏼
I’m sorry you have to deal with such shit people who enjoy defacing you it’s disgusting! Gabbie being a obsessive bully has nothing to do with you and everything to do with her you aren’t obligated to forgive her let her tester in her own toxicity and live a life free of any thought of her
Oh, this is more about a certain stalker TH-camr that's been harassing her since 2019. Gabbie throwing passive-aggressive jabs is probably not the worst of it.
First time commenting: If you are someone with an opinion online, there will be someone willing to cr*p on you for it. It can hurt, even if you have thick skin. They don't have to maintain your conviction or level of discourse, either. Some people just sink as low as they want. Sometimes, it's projection as the reason. Other times, they want to give a rebuttal but can't without getting personal. I think people can change, but it depends on many factors... and some don't want to put in effort. Or see anything wrong in thenselves. I've been a people-pleaser most of my life. I agreed to help anyone with anything (even if it physically hurt me) in order to be the "nice lady." My momma raised me to be kind, and I thought that it was the same thing as nice. When someone would berate me over my beliefs, I thought it was not being kind enough... good enough. I tried so hard to be "good" that I wouldn't defend myself and every personal attack was one I somehow "earned." It's taken me many years to understand that certain people are just fannies (American or English version, your choice). I didn't have to become one, but I had to recognize them for what they were. It's a battle. Your content is your own. I adore your poetry content (I'm a poet, too) but love your thoughts on so many other topics. I like the connections you make and how well you explain things (I know you worry about it, but thoroughness is a dying aspect of online discourse). If you make content you're passionate about, it speaks to people in a way that going through the motions might not. And it keeps you from burning out faster. I can feel the difference in certain creators when they're taking on what they feel strongly about. I'm sorry you're depleted. I'm sorry you are dealing with outside negativity. I think your videos are cool. I'm almost housebound due to chronic pain, and finding a new video from you is like seeing a video message from a pal (not in the parasocial way) telling me about something new to distract me from the sensations. You have every right to feel sad and unsure. You have every right to take a break. But please, don't quit on yourself. No matter what.
I love the diversity of your content! I can get so many different cool things from one person who I like and who's ideas I am comfortable with! Your way of creating has inspired me to start my own channel soon because I don't have to stick to one thing. Your channel is absolutely amazing and one of my favorites! You got this
Hi Rachel, I've been around a while, don't comment very often. I hope that making this video helped you. I think you are brave to be an online creator at all, and hugely so to be so vulnerable to the world. I just want to say that whenever I see you've released a new video, I know what I'm doing that evening - regardless of what it's about! Please take the time you need to rest and get your mojo back. I know bills always have to be paid, but the vast majority of us will still be here and would rather know you are rested and enjoying your job than see a video every week/month. All the best!
I feel really exhausted at the moment as well. Sometimes everything in life is just so incredibly hard and it feels like the hardship will never end. I can empathize with that a lot. My life kinda feels like its falling apart and its very difficult to have any positive thoughts. I really hope only the best for you and that your hardships will get better soon and you will be able to rest and calm down
Oh Rachel. You have... No idea how much I relate to your entire personality, struggles, self esteem, and not internalising the one bad thing against the thousands of good things. The reason why I've just glommed onto you is because of how much I *truly* relate to you, as a person. Not a TH-camr, but the Rachel Oates who is a woman with a neurodivergent brain, a shitty past, and a love of art/animals, trying to get through life and not let the internet take her confidence down. I see a lot of myself in that and that's why I don't want to try and 'pep talk' this part but rather say: I know. I get it. You're heard, you're seen, and you're absolutely valid for how you feel despite everything. It's the real content that keeps me staying. The interesting content is always wonderful to watch but it's hard to watch you burn yourself out when what you really need is just a big ol hug :( give yourself space and time to deal with the brain fog. I wish I could have the coil, I have severe pelvic floor dysfunction that would only worsen if I tried it. Idk how legal it is in the UK, but if you evverrrrr want to consider pain relief... The spicy green leaf is what I'm trialling atm. It takes a bit to figure out your body's preferred administration level and method; some people may never find it because of side effects (paranoia being one of them, I do endure heightened anxiety.) But when I do get the right dose on the right day, oh it definitely targets what it's supposed to. To cap this long comment off, would you ever do a (post hype-train) analysis of His Dark Materials? Phillip Pullman's work just... Holds up so much even to this day, and his method of introducing large topics of deconstruction / deconversion / philosophy / puberty to teenagers just blows me away. And it's acclaimed for the way its atheism tackles the Catholic Church, in a fantasy child-friendly setting :) just an idea! Anyhoo, long comment over, sorry for how big it is LOL
I've been watching you irregularly since the times when you collaborated with CosmicSceptic and Rationality Rules. Your content isn't exactly my type of thing but I've been watching your videos bc I always know you're very intelligent and I like your world views and you're just one of those gentle and kind ppl who put the spark of light to the world so I come to watch your videos from time to time to see how you're doing and listen to your takes on different topics. Also I see a bit of myself in you in many ways. Being sensitive in this way is really hard and you being so open honest and raw is really valuable. In the beginning of this year I felt exactly like you're describing in this video and I went back to the psychiatrist. I didn't want to get back on antidepressants but she told me that there's no point in me feeling worse and worse and bc of that "failing" more and getting even more overwhelmed and depressed. Getting back to meds really helped me to go out of that awful state. I don't know if you're on any meds but if not maybe you could consider that. I'm writing this bc I know I needed someone to tell me something like this those few months ago and that really really helped. I really wish you feel better soon. You're not alone and you are definitely on the right side of things in here.
1:48 you’ve put so much emotional work into videos and are so thought-provoking. I’m sorry if I’ve ever made you feel that you’re not enough. I know I was annoying about some stuff early on. You are a treasure.
I’m so sorry you’re going through a rough mental time, and outside forces aren’t helping much to alleviate some of the pressures, but adding to it in a way. I cotastriphize (spelling that wrong) the same way, and know how hard it is to try and get yourself out of the pattern while in it, let alone work on how you talk to yourself. It’s kind of what makes working customer service so hard, especially when they have metrics that the customers give you based on how they experienced it, and that I have the most relatable experience with, my worst was doing tech support, which I love doing the work, it’s just the bad remarks that get to me and fuel the “I’m no good and rotten and not worth much” thoughts.
I come to your channel for your takes! I like both "sides" of the content and it's great for my add. Sending internet hugs, you absolutely don't deserve to be harassed and bullied! I do believe people can change, but they have to want to. Gabbi doesn't strike me as someone who wants to put in the time to change
Thank you for open up with us, I love and enjoy all your content, I look forward to listen your opinions on any topic, you don't deserve any hate , Sending my love and support❤️
I'm just a random person and one of many here, but you are pretty much one of my favourite youtubers, and at least for me, you are the aspect that makes me enjoy your videos. I like your way of presenting and delivering stuff, and if you are talking about something I wasn't interested in before, your videos can get me to be interested. I wasn't really into poetry, but I've loved your poetry videos and am now more apprechiative of poetry! I'd love to hear your thoughts and your deep dives on fundies, and if some day you really want to talk about how to correctly set up an aquarium for a certain species of fish, I'll love to watch that aswell! I'm sure I am not alone in this, and just wanted to tell you how much I and many others here apprechiate your content, what ever you want it to be about!
A good friend of mine (female, 40s) was recently diagnosed with ADHD and has been telling me about her RSD (rejection sensitive dysphoria). Could this be making everything worse for you right now? I'm sure you have developed some healthy coping strategies in your time so maybe revisit some of those? I know I easily neglect my tried and trusted strategies when everything is overwhelming. X
people like you who are smart and self aware will always have a harder time adjusting to the world beause the world sucks and everything is so unfair most of the time. but since the beginning of time it's because of people like you that we could make all of this progress, people who were not afraid to speak their minds. so i know its easy for me to say but don't let all those comments get to you and do whatever the hell you like doing. btw i also have a narcissistic stalker who has a platform with millions of followers and who will harass me whenever there's online drama about me to kick me while im down, or when something good happens to me to steal my shine. narcs will do anything and everything to get attention they desperately need because their sense of worth is so low, they constantly have to start shit to feel something just like gabbie. you've hurt her already weak ego and she literally cannot forget that so she has to bring you down whenever she gets the chance. also i have legal stuff going on as well and i know it's draining but just know, it'll all pass and eventually they're gonna be the ones who are so unfulfilled with their miserable lives while you're here with this successful youtube channel where you've built an incredible community, living your best life with your boyfriend and your cute dog. youtube would be such a hollow place without you & i've learned and i continue to learn so much from you.
Thank you for sharing your vulnerability with us, Rachel. I totally understand the anxieties and we are all here to support you and tell you that you are a person worthy of love and happiness and security. You're like the cool big sister of TH-cam and I personally have always felt calmed and relaxed and supported by the content you make. You've helped me personally way more than you'll ever realize. Please hang in there, we all care about you. Gabbie Hanna has literally nothing better to do than try to bully other people and put them down. She catastrophizes and exaggerates EVERYTHING, grasping at the thinnest of straws because she knows she will never be as successful or as good of a person as you are.
If you can they I’d say take a break from all this! And when you come back keep doing the content that makes YOU happy! I love watching all your content and I’m happy to watch old videos if you need to take some time off! 💜💜💜
Oh Rachel, I wish I could give you a hug & tell you everything will be okay. But virtual reassurance is all I have. Also, bullies suck! Just know that for every naysayer, there's 100+ more of us just here to hang out with you. We don't often comment, & our silence can make hateful voices feel much more amplified, but we are here because you are here & I think that's incredible. So today I'll add my own voice to try to drown out some of the bulls*t & tell you that regardless of what you choose to post, as long it continues to be well researched & thoughtfully done, I will continue to show up & listen❤
Some of the mental health stuff might also be because of hormones related to the coil? If nothing else, being in pain is discouraging and hard, and that can affect your brain. Your makeup looks lovely, and I hope you feel better soon 💜
You already know this but I'll say it anyway; for an artist to be authentic you must follow your heart to get in the flow of the universe from which you will receive your creative energy in return. PLEASE REMEMBER: Those who criticize you and your work are really criticizing the Singularity itself... you are simply the vessel through which it speaks. So f#ck 'em. Hope that helps. Peace and Love, B Goat
I'm so sorry you're going through such a rough patch Rachel😔At this point I'm not even sure you can call it a patch, feels more like a grain field or something...blarg. I hope on some level you know that people like shall-not-be-named (both of them) are wrong about you, and are either just truly hateful, spiteful pond-scum, or just projecting a ludicrously skewed image onto you of a demon they can't deal with in their own miserable lives. Or both... Either way, somewhere on an intellectual level, I hope you know that who they portray you as, is not who you are at all. And I know sometimes your brain farts and starts to ponder and makes you doubt yourself and it's just so shi- poopy when that happens, because it takes WAY too much energy and these douche-clowns do not deserve it! I wish you many MANY better days and SOON ♥♥♥ Because you are a wonderful, intelligent and considerate person and you deserve SO much better.
For the love of everything good, promise yourself that you won't worry about what this 'pinnacle of morality' thinks or says about you. They are very clever and know exactly how to choose and use their words. However, this doesn’t necessarily mean they are as good a person as they might seem. Focus on what your true motivations are and act according to them. Do your best, nothing more, nothing less. Never bow to a person who attacks you unless you are sure that their motives are just. I know it's easy for me to say this, but there really isn't any other way. Stay strong, and remember that there are a lot of people who appreciate you, and also your creativity.
I feel like people on the internet are MISERABLE. I look at the comments under so many videos of content creators and there are some of the meanest shit I've ever read. I don't get it. With people like Paul and Morgan and Girl Defined I get it because those people are actively hurting people. But channels like yours where your content is educational and pretty neutral don't deserve that. Gabbie Hanna sucks. She always has, always will. I also feel like people are "cancel" happy because they're bored and sad in their own lives. Don't get me wrong, some people needed to be removed from the platform (Gabby actually comes to mind 😂) but then there's the people who will look for any little thing to blow up. I know it's hard but you have a lot of people who enjoy your content. I personally look up to you a LOT as a child free content creator, as a DV and abuse survivor, as a feminist, and as a kind and intelligent person ❤
I went through a smaller scale, irl version of this kind of experience a few years ago. There is something about people relentlessly calling for your total exile that can make anybody question their worth and belonging. Especially when they frame it as defense of the vulnerable. It really, really helped me to look into leftist critiques of cancel culture and indentitarianism - it led me to see that not only were these people’s actions cruel and unkind to me and way outweighed any wrong that I could have done by accident, they were also completely antithetical to the goal of creating safety for vulnerable people, which is supposedly the point of these social justice “callouts”. You feel like shit because someone is treating you like shit. Do you honestly think there is anything, anywhere on your channel, that could reasonably make a person feel as worthless and hurt as these people have made you feel? Because this kind of mental anguish is what arises from experiencing needless cruelty. You haven’t done that to anyone, so you are holding much more than your fair share of the guilt here. Pass that guilt right back to the haters babe. Don’t hold the hot potato.
4:52 this is awful. I once told people to vote in the American elections and because I didn’t say to not vote for Trump, I was told to kill myself by three different people and was rebounded professionally so I lost support. People are hateful at times with no actual motivation and it sucks.
That is so disappointing about Gabbie, I've seen a couple of her videos pop up on my tiktok and she seemed a lot healthier and I started to enjoy her content again ://
I was pretty happy to see Gabbie doing well and theeeen she got back online and immediately she's back to her usual shtick. It's so disappointing when you see people just return to their old habits like that.
I really loved the Christmas story, I've been so invested this last 18 months! When I met my partner's gran for the first time we spent ages just having a good gossip about Eastenders together, it was such a lovely bonding experience!
Yeah, I gave up on the worldview of seeing the best in people a long time ago. You should see people for what they show you, because that’s who they really are. It’ll save you a lot of unnecessary pain.
Oh Rachel, who is telling you that you're not enough? That you're not doing enough book reviews or fundie videos? Who? We all know you. You do not deserve all that crap. You are smart, intelligent, entertaining, fun etc, and this is horrible if this is happening to you. I'm so sorry 😞 😔 xx
I am so disappointed that Gabbie Hanna is attacking you again, I really thought she was getting better :( I wholeheartedly believe that using Gabbie Hanna as your evidence for whether people can change isn't a good idea for you though haha I think there may be other examples of people in your life though I'm of course not sure!! I also think that you're a wonderful person from my interactions with your channel (although this is of course very parasocial) and people on the internet seem to always be looking for reasons to attack others. The right want to put you down for being "too woke" whilst some people in the left seem to be very angry and always attacking others... that's not a reflection on you but those individuals. You are incredible and intelligent and I hope you continue to make the content you are proud of at a pace that is comfortable and safe for you. Remember that you don't need to do everything at once, and like you said, as long as you can pay your bills, definitely think of what your mental health priorities are and try to engage with those more if you can!! Sorry for such a long comment, I hope things get better!!!
These people that are hounding you remind me of those toxic K-pop ‘fans’ that drive their idols to suicide. Next time they bug you you should hit them with the “omg why are you so obsessed with me?” And “fan behavior!” Comments because that’s what they sound like and that’s what I would do to try and change the pattern of my own thinking.
Ooft. This hit. This hit.............. Far too much. Losing Sulli and Goo Hara to public bullying not long after losing Jonghyun to depression+SAD is something I will never feel okay with. What Sulli and GH endured for being women in the spotlight was unfair.
I’m assuming you’re talking about ET when you mention your harasser of 5 years? I genuinely don’t know why they’re still going with this campaign against you but please know that we all support you and they won’t win. You haven’t done anything to them so they can’t keep up this delusion that they have about you. I hope things will get better soon and if you need a break, please take one.
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Your channel, your content, your choice.
It’s funny because sometimes I see videos pop up from you that are on topics I’m less interested in and sometimes I hesitate. But I end up watching anyway because it’s from you and I find I always, always learn something. I’ve even been going back to many of your old videos from before I was a subscriber. It’s been so interesting to see how your content has evolved and how you’ve gained so much confidence over the years.
You’re one of the channels I watch every time you release something. You won’t ever please everyone so take that kind of feedback with a giant grain of salt. I’ve personally really enjoyed seeing what is interesting to you. I like that you do things differently. It’s what sets you apart.
Thank you so much!
@@moreracheloatesThere are 8 billion people in the world but only one Rachel Oates... You can't possibly satisfy them all at the same time. Go easy on yourself ❤
Same. I agree. You said it so well.
This
i totally agree with this! her last video about that football player guy made me feel exactly the same, i was not really interested but i ended up watching the whole thing and i learned tons of stuff 🤍 i’m also not interested in poetry or mushrooms but i watched all the videos of her about them and ended up loving them! so much fascinating knowledge!
I’m so sorry that you’re going through such a stressful time Rachel. And yes, “you-know-who” is an absolute bully and liar whose most recent slanderous hit-piece is just pure “guilt-by-association” fallacy! Their behavior is downright stalkerish at this point!
Don’t let them get to you!
Right. We are not in control of other people's actions. We've become so quick to judge on social media, and I think it has made us more judgemental overall. Like anything else, we can choose to become aware of it and begin to change.
Don't listen to the people who complain about what content you're making or not making! The best content is always whatever the creator is most interested in:)
Hard agree!
Agree!
As someone who’s followed you since I was a freshmen in high school and is now an adult with her own apartment I want you to know you got me through the worst times in my life. Your videos fuel me with passion for life and writing and reading and there was a time when I didn’t know if I could have that again. Growing up I was expected to be a homemaker and nothing more and your content helped me break out of that. I have my life now because of you and your content. Please don’t be too hard on yourself Rachel you are the kind of woman I’ve always wanted to become and I’m sure many others feel the same way. Be kind to yourself you have many people who are in your corner and love seeing you succeed 🎉
I second this, I started watching when I was 14 and Rachel was where I got basically all of my sex ed because I skipped a grade in middle school and my parents although educated come from a very conservative society and didn't really know enough themselves to teach me. If it wasn't for her I would probably still believe so many misconceptions about female anatomy.
Gabbie Hanna never changes--she simply tries on a new costume that she thinks people will prefer. Currently she thinks moral superiority over her critics can be achieved by pivoting to Christian content. I don't know if you've heard but swearing is demonic, so Gabbie has had to give up her favorite pastime. Any time I thought she's grown or moved past something because she avoids talking about it, she slips and reveals she is incapable of seeing herself in the wrong. The other person in question is even less rational--only a psychiatrist can make sense of whatever that is. Mob mentality is prevalent online because it's filled with chronically online people who can't empathize with those they're seeing through a screen and lack the context of normal human interaction. You have to avoid the subreddits and things (that website is too ugly for me to even follow) because they're filled with people who say you've failed some purity test that they themselves couldn't pass. It seems to come with the territory of your line of work, but don't let the naysayers keep you from making what you want to. You're an educated young woman, and you could probably work in a different field if this ever becomes too overwhelming. I don't know you at all, but I sense that you'll always be successful no matter what. Lindsey Ellis made educational/media criticism content, and she moved completely over to Nebula and became a full-time author. Whatever happens, you'll always be great.
@espifreak Gabbie Hannah might be going through what i went through when i was struggling so much it was dangerous and Christians from various differnet churches convinced me that instead of actual medication and help, god will totally heal me. Christianity can be appealing when, like in my case, all you know is being yelled at and told you're bad at everything, and then Christians come over, they're nice and they say god loves you without conditions. of course, it was harmful and dangerous AF but back then, i saw no better options.
People absolutely CAN change. Unfortunately, that doesn't mean that an individual WILL change.
I hope you feel better soon. You are a wonderful person and you make the world a little better just by being part of it.
honestly even when you do fundie content you still do a lot of literature review which is still book content in my opinion! that’s one of my favourite things about your content, the literature review and reading recommendations. i’m mostly a fiction reader so i don’t always go looking for non fiction recommendations, but i still feel like including that literature portion elevates you more than typical commentators (nothing wrong with typical commentary, there’s a reason it’s so popular. i just like the variety you offer!)
i hope you’re able to have some time to rest, decompress, and really just take care of yourself.
People can grow and change - those particular two people are just among the group of humans who refuse to do so. Which is why one of them is deservedly getting legal action taken against them by you and I have no doubt that it will end in your favour. That person needs to learn that they can't keep treating people, especially you, like trash in this way.
And Gabbie will get into her own controversies again because she just can't help herself. Maybe one of these days she'll realize that life as an off-line fitness instructor is better than all the drama she keeps creating for herself.
For what it's worth, I enjoy your content no matter if it's books or fundie critique or whatever else. You always bring something valuable to the table, whether that's introducing me to things I hadn't heard of before, bringing a perspective I had not considered before, or just being a pleasant voice in my headphones while I do stuff around the house.
I'm confident that you will get through this tough time and that there's better times ahead for you. It speaks volumes for your character that you're not responding as harshly to the people who attack you as those people talk about you.
Hang in there. This storm will pass.
Rachel, my (parasocial) friend: as a fellow autistic, I can absolutely relate to your struggles. It can be so difficult to function and do what everyone expects of you when under attack. I've had my share of bullies in my life as well and can confidently day that the person who is doing this to you is a miserable, self-loathing, life-hating buboe who has decided to make you the victim as you represent everything that they are not and are dead-set on punishing you for it. They would LOVE to see you pack it in as it would mean they've won; don't let them. They've experienced hurt in their own life, I'm sure, but as the saying goes "hurt people hurt people." Causing you distress and inventing enemies to fight provides the illusion of fulfillment to distract from the yawning abyss that is their life. They may have once deserved (indeed, courted) pity, but one day they'll reap what they've sown... hopefully legally. They may have their troll army, but you have hundreds of thousands of us who appreciate your kindness, honesty and courage.
Your channel is of the first TH-cam channels I found shortly after becoming an atheist (I was a Fundie before...). You and others like you helped me cope with some of the "angry atheist" emotions in me at a time I was so vulnerable and alone. You've been a positive influence in my life and the lives of so many others. Whatever you're going through, at whatever time in your life, please know YOU MATTER SO MUCH, and you are a beautiful person who is loved by us all. The haters will always be there; but so will your friends. Rock on, girl, in whatever ways you need to. You got this, and we've got your back. 💙
Well said. "You matter so much" is perfect.
And good for you for having the strength to weather the social pressure against atheism.
@BermondseySteve Thank you. Yeah, it's hard because I'm from the Deep South, lol, so a lot of closed-mindedness here. It's such mixed emotions: I love the south, where I'm from, my roots; it's my home. At the same time, it's getting to feel increasingly stifling and frustrating to know I love somewhere where the "real me" isn't isn't looked on too kindly. But, we all have problems no matter where we are, right? And channels like Rachel's help with the loneliness and isolation. 🙂
@@melissabattles3196 You express yourself so well! I hope you write - in some way - for yourself, family, loved ones. I also have v close relatives in the Deep South, and I think you & I share some of the same difficulties, tho' I grew up away from them, so they & I have different politics, education, world view, religion - yet they generally accept me, as I do them, likely bc we're family - a welcome respect and loyalty which I didn't expect. The way I grew up, I didn't really have good family, so their acceptance of so much of 'big city' me is v special. Of course, there are a few things that we don't discuss much, yet, but it seems that we all feel that fam. is our most significant connection. I'd love to hear abt your experiences. Do you feel closer to your family or perhaps to your home and roots? Do you think their difficulties with the 'real' you may be insurmountable? (If this is too much for this forum, feel free to dm, etc., or simply ignore; no prob.!) And yes, Rachel is really, really amazing. I usually differ at least somewhat from most folks, but not with her - she is such a marvel - and aren't we fortunate to be able to share with & learn from her?
You are a beautiful open minded woman rachel always wish the best for you thank you for saving me more than once the world needs more open sweethearts like you
Also I'm beginning my PhD in math and I have to tell you, flipping the pluses and the minuses never stops! Vectors and calculus are cool, hope you keep enjoying it!
Thank you so much and good luck with your PhD!
@@moreracheloates your videos will definitely help me stay sane throughout it!
16:54 People can change; not everyone does. That's on them.
I hope you feel better soon. Some people just want to cause misery, and someone as wondeful as you doesn't deserve any of that. Also holy smokes, you being good at math on top of everything else (writing, poetry, research, buisness...) is so impressive! I could never.
Queen is multitasking
My painting equivalent is playing piano and when I was at my worst, I realized I hadn’t even touched the keys of my piano in a month. I support taking some time for your creativity. 11:37
I'm sorry you're feeling burnt out. Thank you for reaching out and telling us. You putting on your makeup did feel like soothing self care.
I've been through similar struggles (catastophising, feeling judged for every small move, legal battles, and more). I still still struggle at times. Rest for success. When you are up for it, remember ACT for anxiety: Some people like you and some don't. You are tremendously successful. You make good choices for yourself based on your values and desires.
When it comes to abusive entrenched people, that is so difficult. You are doing everything you can. My last resort is to remove myself from the equation, which is doing something to give myself more distance, space, and time to process, rest, heal, etc. I know how challenging that is with legal battles. Even when I succeed with my mental health related to it, something outside of my control throws me down hard. Victories come out of the blue it seems. Wishing you well. Hugs.
i'm so sorry you feel pressurized re. your content, but for what it's worth, i think a lot of us come to you because you're intelligent and articulate and it's genuinely fun and insightful to hear the thoughts you share! honestly there's so much fundie content that i'm unaware of, but i still love watching you deep dive into it for hours, just because you're so compelling and fair in your arguments! more so, you seem kind and warm and i can tell you're a good egg! i hope you find some peace from all these bullies (i can't imagine what it must be like on such a public platform, you're a star honestly), but i'm happy you feel safe enough to share this with us.
also, gabbie hanna sucks and needs to get therapy and/or a life but we all know that i guess
We love you Rachel. Your content has been so instrumental to who I've grown up to be, the way I view myself as an autistic woman, my desire to learn and understand and educate others, and engage with my creativity. I have learned so much from your content, there is nothing else that can keep my attention span for long periods of time. You talking about your experiences helped me come to terms with my own toxic relationship, and walk away from that person. I owe you so much xx
Some months really just feel like everything's weighing on us at once, but understanding our minds and talking about it helps a lot. There's lots of us who appreciate everything you put out. Hang in there Rachel 💜
I am really resonating with you right now. When people are wrong about you they invalidate your feelings which results in you doubting yourself. It sucks. I also found that talking about it makes me feel better. Feel your sadness because it is a sad part of your life. Luckily it's not the only part of your life. Your world is so much bigger. Best of luck.
I can say from experience that a person can change if and only if that person is capable of self-reflection. If you aren't prepared to be completely honest with yourself, you aren't going to change. It's work, ongoing and difficult, but the only way out is through. Sorry you're going through a rough time. Know that you're worth more as a creative and intelligent individual than two hateful people who are incapable of that self-reflection.
You aren't a machine. People need to treat you as a person.
We love content that you love. Do what you are loving and we will love it too because you are invested. It's obvious how much work you put in and how much you invest.
There is nothing wrong with your hyperfocus, from another ND person!
If you are burnt out then rest and take time. Do whatever you need.
We love you and we are here for you ❤
Hey Rachel, I'm so sorry you are going through a hard time! I just wanted to drop by and let you know that you are my favorite TH-camr of all time! I don't care which topic you cover, it is always interesting and I always learn something new. I relate to you on so many levels and I'm so grateful for your content. Thank you so much for everything you do. Hang in there!
Your feelings are completely valid and completely normal, Rachel. We all go through seasons of burnout and sometimes, the world just seems like it's crashing in on you. Plus, some folks will never be happy, but that's not on you. Their BS is not your fault.
The main thing is, and always is, what makes YOU happy? What content do YOU find interesting? Your videos are so fun and when you're passionate about a subject, it shows. Their misery is their business. If they want to be assholes, that's a reflection of their garbage and not at all a reflection of you.
Keep your head up, Rachel! You will get through this. You will become stronger. You will learn and grow.
Forgiveness is given to someone, but ultimately, it is a gift you give yourself. It's a gift of peace.
Side note: I have my bachelors degree in mathematics. I feel your pain. Remembering signs and flipping them is infuriating.
So proud of you for your vulnerability! I'm sorry for what you are dealing with right now, you deserve rest and safety and not constant badgering. I believe that every person has the capacity to change and do better, but that many people do not make the active choice to do so, and even if everyone does have it inside them to change, some deliberately choose not to because its easier to fall into the same habits.
I also struggle with black and white thinking of my own perception of self, and I too also let comments get to me even if they are untrue, its hard not to be affected by it; but please affirm your truth and what you know about yourself often.
Sending love!
A life principle that I have followed since 2017 is this: Rachel posts a video, I watch it. Regardless of the topic. I’m so sorry that you have been going through so much. Harassment chips away at your mental health. The feeling of constantly being observed and scrutinized for the most mundane comments it’s traumatizing. I have learned so much from you over the last 7 years. So proud of you and your journey.
Please don't ever feel like you have to apologize for a video not being "happy enough". You're allowed to be a person. You're allowed to have low energy moments, even on camera. If you feel like you can or need to be vulnerable and honest for a minute, and that means talking about something that doesn't feel very happy, then that's ok. Your feelings are valid. And I'm sure most of the people watching here are happy to hold that emotional space for you. Needing that doesn't make you selfish, or a bad person, or a downer or whatever. You're a very kind person who deserves kindness in return.
You're such a genuine and compassionate person. I'm sorry you have people going entirely out of their way to tear you down.
You are really sweet and I enjoy your content. Thank you for the work you do. You are very much appreciated.
Something that helps me to not catastrophize when someone doesn't like me (feel free to ignore or not read) is to recognize that I really don't want to be responsible for someone else's likes/dislikes. That's a tooon of pressure and way too exhausting, and also it kind of strips them of their autonomy. And I hate that. It does hurt, but it is comforting for me to look at it like "aw, look at that person exerting their autonomy and expressing themselves. I wish they'd do it more nicely but that's alright, I'll go back to being me now." It also means I can do things to make others comfortable without making it about me wanting to be likeable. If I have space to accommodate someone's comfort, I may do it, and if not, I understand I'm not a monolith who can care for everyone's needs, let own preferences.
You're going through so much, I am not surprised you're exhausted. I am sending happy mushroom forest creature vibes. Sorry you're going through all this.
What I love about your content is not that you say things that I agree with, or that you say something that makes me feel better, but that you put out content that you want to post. You're showing your true authentic self, and that's very valuable.
Your feelings are valid! You're being real, nobody is always sunshine & rainbows. Also: some people are truly miserable, only getting kicks from trying to make others as miserable as them. Some ppl lack any concept that people can like & want different things. Aaaaand some are just hateful.
It makes me sad that such people can make an accomplished, brilliant, lovely person feel shtty.
The legal & stalking/vendetta crap *must* be exhausting. It would be for anyone, but esp with other things you're dealing with. You've been brave in putting yourself out here on YT. Because of that, many of us have learned, grown, & had interesting thoughts we wouldn't have had otherwise. Sucks that that leaves you vulnerable. I wish we could tangibly send good vibes. You are wonderful, and you are loved.
(Also, the East Enders thing is UNHINGED.)
Just in case you haven't heard the expression: "Never wrestle with a pig - you both get dirty and the pig likes it." Smth like that. Obv impractical sometimes & 💯 unfair to actual pigs, who are smart & misunderstood... but the point stands? IDK what the right answer is to dealing with people who only engage in bad faith. (Obv cutting them off if friend/fam, but that doesn't apply here.) Anyone who does, ideas would be awesome?
*Sorry this was so rambling! And sorry if you weren't looking for any advice at all. Just empathy. We're with you.
So yeah, 1000 hugs. Thanks for being you.
Wow! Such a beautiful, well-spoken comment, among so many others, too. Rachel's followers are pretty impressive - I hadn't realized.
As a former (very long ago, I was like sixteen) fan of “you know who” I remember looking into the situation with you and being so mad because holy shit she lied about everything so maliciously and primed her viewers to feel like hating you was an expression of progressive values
I hope it’s vindicating that it took like five seconds of research for me to end up talking your side; it really was basically 99.9% lies by volume
Now that I’m older I’m much more aware of the horrific phenomenon of stalkers with a very specific combination of mental illness and personality disorder just obsessively shitting on someone like a one person Kiwi Farms. A lot of Nazis do this, but sometimes there’s also leftists; this is because many people into online politics are often very lonely and get so invested into internet drama that it becomes their whole world and also a metaphorical representation of every bad thing in politics.
I watch you for your authenticity, sensitivity, integrity, and amazing critical thinking. You are a wordsmith on top of that! I have no idea how your content could ever be considered “grifting” or money grubbing in any way… Your honest breakdowns of contentious topics are like a siren song to the worst possible trolls.
You are strong and you inspire me.
People absolutely *can* grow and change, because they do. Growth and change, however, require some degree of self-awareness, and to acknowledge that you could do better than you have done in the past. From what I've seen, neither Gabbie nor Turd have demonstrated this awareness, being convinced of their own rightness still. Unfortunately I think all you can do with some people is write them off, and remember that 1) you're better than them and 2) so are most people in the end.
I'm a former of you know who. It took them lashing out at me directly to realize how much of a toxic abuser they are. I've tried to leave them in my past so many times now, but they keep showing up again. I lost my patience with them in the most recent controversy they've created. I want them to face who they are, to have to face all their crap.
Just because people are bringing up gabbie hannah and the pronouns are confusing me a little, is 'you know who' her, or EOT?
@@Reiameino option 2 is correct.
I'm so sorry you've not been feeling to well mentally! You know I've been worried for a bit because the last few videos have you apologizing for looking and sounding tired (which I don't think you have to apologize for anyway). I hope everything wraps up as soon as possible and you will be left alone.
I think everyone can grow and change, some just don't want to.
Lots of love to you! I hope things will get better.
I hope everything gets better for you and I wish the people who are still spreading lies about you would leave you alone and let you live your life in peace. I'm sorry you're dealing with a lot of stuff right now, especially the legal stuff.
Keep doing you. If you're going to make content you feel compelled to make, the quality will most likely suffer. You tubers are at their best making the content they enjoy.
Just like when a band changes their sound and lose fans, content creators will shift focus and lose fans. You're not failing, you're evolving.
You're still just as brilliant and talented as you were when you started, despite your expanding into new subjects of interest.
Stay strong!
Rachel, I’m sorry for what you’re going through. Here’s how I see it: There are good people and sadly others, who aren’t worth it. For whatever their reasons are, some people who are mean, cruel and just want to be mean. Usually, they aren’t open to reason, unfortunately.
You are a kind soul and I’ll bet you have many great people who care about you. Embrace what you have with them. They are here for you… even people you may not realize it are here for you. Sorry for being so preachy, I just wanted to let you know that you’re not alone. You are a wonderful person & you make the world a better place.
Rachel, I am so sorry to hear that you are going through this crisis of confidence. Of course Autistic people like us are going to struggle with being disliked. What has it meant to us before? Being disliked has led to us being unsafe before or not having our needs met. At minimum, most people would be hurt by it. At minimum, we are traumatized by it. Maybe I am projecting, and I am so sorry if what I am saying is incorrect or saying too much. If you are a hugging sort, big imaginary hugs. If you aren’t a hugging sort, big imaginary whatever the best care would be to provide you.
I've followed you for years, and I'd say you're the strongest, bravest, and most intelligent person I've seen on YT and likely elsewhere. I've learned so very much from your remarkable take on life and lit and people and ideas - your brilliant example reassures me that there still are at least a few good and caring and thoughtful people who give so much of themselves to the betterment of others. And though the majority of us rarely comment, I know that we are all grateful for the joy, passion, sensitivity, perception, art and wisdom that you share. In your young life, you've already done a world of good. I can't thank you enough.
i just got covid for the first time ever about 2 weeks ago and its added significantly to my usual brainfog/chronic health mysteries, so i totally feel you on this month being rough.
i always look forward to your videos (and the bonus videos on this channel!!). personally, i love anything you put out. i find the way your interest fluctuate very relatable, i have yearly fixations and indulge in my fav media around the same time every year. i dont know if my words make sense because its hard to keep focused on them recently but we appreciate you!!!! feel what you need to feel
Really hope you're starting to feel better! :)
@@moreracheloates i hope the same for you! 💚💚
For me it sometimes helps to get my experience into a more academic/unpersonal statement. So for example maybe here it could help to think about how your experience with this harassment might impact the way you learn about people you make your videos about or in general take information about people more critically? Or maybe it won't help at all lol, just an idea
8:43 this is your space to be heard and you deserve to be heard. Well done on your school successes so far.
I never ever comment but I just need to tell you- Rachel, you are my favourite creator and I look forward to all your content so so dearly. Whatever it may be. I love your book content, I love your fundie content, I love your random chats- I love it all. I totally get how you're feeling and the pressure you must feel as someone who shares content online, but I just need you to know that you are so loved by us. You absolutely don't deserve any hate and abuse, I know it's quite inevitable online (which is not right), but you NEVER EVER deserve it. Harassers will always target incredible people like you. l I just want you to know you are so talented, and so loved.
Take as much time as you need and just have a rest
I'm sorry you're going through a rough time 😔 Sending a big hug transcontinent
I hope things improve for you Rachel. You don't have to be happy and lighthearted all the time, it's nice to see how you're really doing rather than putting on a façade. I wish I could give some advice to help you but I'm not sure what the right step is. I really enjoy your content and always look forward to your videos.
I’m always extremely impressed (and entertained) by you. These feelings are all completely understandable. Sending you all the love ❤
As many of these comments have pointed out, your channel, is yours and content is always best when its something the creator is interested in.
I had 0 interest in Poetry before discovering your channel, but i still end up drawn to your poetry videos because of how you explain things, and your passion for it makes it interesting! I always feel like I'm learning something or seeing a new pov. I'm not sure if all this is comforting, but just know that people watch you for you!
I hope you can find some rest and inspiration soon, please take care and take breaks when needed! So happy to hear about your fav poet getting in touch with you!
Oh and i also believe people can change, but sometimes it can be so baked in that it takes more than some can afford to snap out of it and reconstruct from 0. Hope in people is how the world changes! Or at least i like to hope it is😅.
Best of wishes to you, Kyra and your partner. Take care 🙏🏼
I’m sorry you have to deal with such shit people who enjoy defacing you it’s disgusting!
Gabbie being a obsessive bully has nothing to do with you and everything to do with her you aren’t obligated to forgive her let her tester in her own toxicity and live a life free of any thought of her
Oh, this is more about a certain stalker TH-camr that's been harassing her since 2019. Gabbie throwing passive-aggressive jabs is probably not the worst of it.
@espifreak I possibly already know who you're talking about
First time commenting:
If you are someone with an opinion online, there will be someone willing to cr*p on you for it. It can hurt, even if you have thick skin. They don't have to maintain your conviction or level of discourse, either. Some people just sink as low as they want. Sometimes, it's projection as the reason. Other times, they want to give a rebuttal but can't without getting personal. I think people can change, but it depends on many factors... and some don't want to put in effort. Or see anything wrong in thenselves.
I've been a people-pleaser most of my life. I agreed to help anyone with anything (even if it physically hurt me) in order to be the "nice lady." My momma raised me to be kind, and I thought that it was the same thing as nice. When someone would berate me over my beliefs, I thought it was not being kind enough... good enough. I tried so hard to be "good" that I wouldn't defend myself and every personal attack was one I somehow "earned." It's taken me many years to understand that certain people are just fannies (American or English version, your choice). I didn't have to become one, but I had to recognize them for what they were. It's a battle.
Your content is your own. I adore your poetry content (I'm a poet, too) but love your thoughts on so many other topics. I like the connections you make and how well you explain things (I know you worry about it, but thoroughness is a dying aspect of online discourse). If you make content you're passionate about, it speaks to people in a way that going through the motions might not. And it keeps you from burning out faster. I can feel the difference in certain creators when they're taking on what they feel strongly about.
I'm sorry you're depleted. I'm sorry you are dealing with outside negativity. I think your videos are cool. I'm almost housebound due to chronic pain, and finding a new video from you is like seeing a video message from a pal (not in the parasocial way) telling me about something new to distract me from the sensations.
You have every right to feel sad and unsure. You have every right to take a break. But please, don't quit on yourself. No matter what.
I love the diversity of your content! I can get so many different cool things from one person who I like and who's ideas I am comfortable with! Your way of creating has inspired me to start my own channel soon because I don't have to stick to one thing. Your channel is absolutely amazing and one of my favorites! You got this
Hi Rachel,
I've been around a while, don't comment very often.
I hope that making this video helped you. I think you are brave to be an online creator at all, and hugely so to be so vulnerable to the world.
I just want to say that whenever I see you've released a new video, I know what I'm doing that evening - regardless of what it's about!
Please take the time you need to rest and get your mojo back. I know bills always have to be paid, but the vast majority of us will still be here and would rather know you are rested and enjoying your job than see a video every week/month.
All the best!
I really appreciate your honesty and vulnerability, you are really brave.
I feel really exhausted at the moment as well. Sometimes everything in life is just so incredibly hard and it feels like the hardship will never end. I can empathize with that a lot. My life kinda feels like its falling apart and its very difficult to have any positive thoughts.
I really hope only the best for you and that your hardships will get better soon and you will be able to rest and calm down
I'm sorry you're going through it.
i hope you feel better soon
Oh Rachel. You have... No idea how much I relate to your entire personality, struggles, self esteem, and not internalising the one bad thing against the thousands of good things. The reason why I've just glommed onto you is because of how much I *truly* relate to you, as a person. Not a TH-camr, but the Rachel Oates who is a woman with a neurodivergent brain, a shitty past, and a love of art/animals, trying to get through life and not let the internet take her confidence down. I see a lot of myself in that and that's why I don't want to try and 'pep talk' this part but rather say: I know. I get it. You're heard, you're seen, and you're absolutely valid for how you feel despite everything.
It's the real content that keeps me staying. The interesting content is always wonderful to watch but it's hard to watch you burn yourself out when what you really need is just a big ol hug :( give yourself space and time to deal with the brain fog. I wish I could have the coil, I have severe pelvic floor dysfunction that would only worsen if I tried it. Idk how legal it is in the UK, but if you evverrrrr want to consider pain relief... The spicy green leaf is what I'm trialling atm. It takes a bit to figure out your body's preferred administration level and method; some people may never find it because of side effects (paranoia being one of them, I do endure heightened anxiety.) But when I do get the right dose on the right day, oh it definitely targets what it's supposed to.
To cap this long comment off, would you ever do a (post hype-train) analysis of His Dark Materials? Phillip Pullman's work just... Holds up so much even to this day, and his method of introducing large topics of deconstruction / deconversion / philosophy / puberty to teenagers just blows me away. And it's acclaimed for the way its atheism tackles the Catholic Church, in a fantasy child-friendly setting :) just an idea!
Anyhoo, long comment over, sorry for how big it is LOL
I don't believe people can change. It rarely happens most of the time they don't.
I've been watching you irregularly since the times when you collaborated with CosmicSceptic and Rationality Rules. Your content isn't exactly my type of thing but I've been watching your videos bc I always know you're very intelligent and I like your world views and you're just one of those gentle and kind ppl who put the spark of light to the world so I come to watch your videos from time to time to see how you're doing and listen to your takes on different topics. Also I see a bit of myself in you in many ways. Being sensitive in this way is really hard and you being so open honest and raw is really valuable. In the beginning of this year I felt exactly like you're describing in this video and I went back to the psychiatrist. I didn't want to get back on antidepressants but she told me that there's no point in me feeling worse and worse and bc of that "failing" more and getting even more overwhelmed and depressed. Getting back to meds really helped me to go out of that awful state. I don't know if you're on any meds but if not maybe you could consider that. I'm writing this bc I know I needed someone to tell me something like this those few months ago and that really really helped. I really wish you feel better soon. You're not alone and you are definitely on the right side of things in here.
1:48 you’ve put so much emotional work into videos and are so thought-provoking. I’m sorry if I’ve ever made you feel that you’re not enough. I know I was annoying about some stuff early on. You are a treasure.
Oh I'm sure you have nothing to apologise for, don't worry!
I'm so sorry you are going through this! I love your content!
I’m so sorry you’re going through a rough mental time, and outside forces aren’t helping much to alleviate some of the pressures, but adding to it in a way.
I cotastriphize (spelling that wrong) the same way, and know how hard it is to try and get yourself out of the pattern while in it, let alone work on how you talk to yourself.
It’s kind of what makes working customer service so hard, especially when they have metrics that the customers give you based on how they experienced it, and that I have the most relatable experience with, my worst was doing tech support, which I love doing the work, it’s just the bad remarks that get to me and fuel the “I’m no good and rotten and not worth much” thoughts.
I come to your channel for your takes! I like both "sides" of the content and it's great for my add.
Sending internet hugs, you absolutely don't deserve to be harassed and bullied! I do believe people can change, but they have to want to. Gabbi doesn't strike me as someone who wants to put in the time to change
Oh no, I missed the opportunity to chat with you. Leaving some love and a big hug anyway ❤❤❤.
Thank you for open up with us, I love and enjoy all your content, I look forward to listen your opinions on any topic, you don't deserve any hate , Sending my love and support❤️
I'm just a random person and one of many here, but you are pretty much one of my favourite youtubers, and at least for me, you are the aspect that makes me enjoy your videos. I like your way of presenting and delivering stuff, and if you are talking about something I wasn't interested in before, your videos can get me to be interested. I wasn't really into poetry, but I've loved your poetry videos and am now more apprechiative of poetry! I'd love to hear your thoughts and your deep dives on fundies, and if some day you really want to talk about how to correctly set up an aquarium for a certain species of fish, I'll love to watch that aswell!
I'm sure I am not alone in this, and just wanted to tell you how much I and many others here apprechiate your content, what ever you want it to be about!
A good friend of mine (female, 40s) was recently diagnosed with ADHD and has been telling me about her RSD (rejection sensitive dysphoria). Could this be making everything worse for you right now? I'm sure you have developed some healthy coping strategies in your time so maybe revisit some of those? I know I easily neglect my tried and trusted strategies when everything is overwhelming. X
Yeah could be because autism can cause that too
Sending you lots of love Rachel ❤️
people like you who are smart and self aware will always have a harder time adjusting to the world beause the world sucks and everything is so unfair most of the time. but since the beginning of time it's because of people like you that we could make all of this progress, people who were not afraid to speak their minds. so i know its easy for me to say but don't let all those comments get to you and do whatever the hell you like doing.
btw i also have a narcissistic stalker who has a platform with millions of followers and who will harass me whenever there's online drama about me to kick me while im down, or when something good happens to me to steal my shine. narcs will do anything and everything to get attention they desperately need because their sense of worth is so low, they constantly have to start shit to feel something just like gabbie. you've hurt her already weak ego and she literally cannot forget that so she has to bring you down whenever she gets the chance.
also i have legal stuff going on as well and i know it's draining but just know, it'll all pass and eventually they're gonna be the ones who are so unfulfilled with their miserable lives while you're here with this successful youtube channel where you've built an incredible community, living your best life with your boyfriend and your cute dog. youtube would be such a hollow place without you & i've learned and i continue to learn so much from you.
Thank you for sharing your vulnerability with us, Rachel. I totally understand the anxieties and we are all here to support you and tell you that you are a person worthy of love and happiness and security. You're like the cool big sister of TH-cam and I personally have always felt calmed and relaxed and supported by the content you make. You've helped me personally way more than you'll ever realize. Please hang in there, we all care about you.
Gabbie Hanna has literally nothing better to do than try to bully other people and put them down. She catastrophizes and exaggerates EVERYTHING, grasping at the thinnest of straws because she knows she will never be as successful or as good of a person as you are.
If you can they I’d say take a break from all this! And when you come back keep doing the content that makes YOU happy! I love watching all your content and I’m happy to watch old videos if you need to take some time off! 💜💜💜
Oh Rachel, I wish I could give you a hug & tell you everything will be okay. But virtual reassurance is all I have. Also, bullies suck!
Just know that for every naysayer, there's 100+ more of us just here to hang out with you. We don't often comment, & our silence can make hateful voices feel much more amplified, but we are here because you are here & I think that's incredible. So today I'll add my own voice to try to drown out some of the bulls*t & tell you that regardless of what you choose to post, as long it continues to be well researched & thoughtfully done, I will continue to show up & listen❤
Some of the mental health stuff might also be because of hormones related to the coil? If nothing else, being in pain is discouraging and hard, and that can affect your brain.
Your makeup looks lovely, and I hope you feel better soon 💜
You already know this but I'll say it anyway; for an artist to be authentic you must follow your heart to get in the flow of the universe from which you will receive your creative energy in return. PLEASE REMEMBER: Those who criticize you and your work are really criticizing the Singularity itself... you are simply the vessel through which it speaks. So f#ck 'em. Hope that helps. Peace and Love, B Goat
I'm so sorry you're going through such a rough patch Rachel😔At this point I'm not even sure you can call it a patch, feels more like a grain field or something...blarg.
I hope on some level you know that people like shall-not-be-named (both of them) are wrong about you, and are either just truly hateful, spiteful pond-scum, or just projecting a ludicrously skewed image onto you of a demon they can't deal with in their own miserable lives. Or both... Either way, somewhere on an intellectual level, I hope you know that who they portray you as, is not who you are at all. And I know sometimes your brain farts and starts to ponder and makes you doubt yourself and it's just so shi- poopy when that happens, because it takes WAY too much energy and these douche-clowns do not deserve it!
I wish you many MANY better days and SOON ♥♥♥
Because you are a wonderful, intelligent and considerate person and you deserve SO much better.
For the love of everything good, promise yourself that you won't worry about what this 'pinnacle of morality' thinks or says about you. They are very clever and know exactly how to choose and use their words. However, this doesn’t necessarily mean they are as good a person as they might seem. Focus on what your true motivations are and act according to them. Do your best, nothing more, nothing less. Never bow to a person who attacks you unless you are sure that their motives are just.
I know it's easy for me to say this, but there really isn't any other way. Stay strong, and remember that there are a lot of people who appreciate you, and also your creativity.
I feel like people on the internet are MISERABLE. I look at the comments under so many videos of content creators and there are some of the meanest shit I've ever read. I don't get it.
With people like Paul and Morgan and Girl Defined I get it because those people are actively hurting people. But channels like yours where your content is educational and pretty neutral don't deserve that. Gabbie Hanna sucks. She always has, always will.
I also feel like people are "cancel" happy because they're bored and sad in their own lives. Don't get me wrong, some people needed to be removed from the platform (Gabby actually comes to mind 😂) but then there's the people who will look for any little thing to blow up.
I know it's hard but you have a lot of people who enjoy your content. I personally look up to you a LOT as a child free content creator, as a DV and abuse survivor, as a feminist, and as a kind and intelligent person ❤
I went through a smaller scale, irl version of this kind of experience a few years ago. There is something about people relentlessly calling for your total exile that can make anybody question their worth and belonging. Especially when they frame it as defense of the vulnerable.
It really, really helped me to look into leftist critiques of cancel culture and indentitarianism - it led me to see that not only were these people’s actions cruel and unkind to me and way outweighed any wrong that I could have done by accident, they were also completely antithetical to the goal of creating safety for vulnerable people, which is supposedly the point of these social justice “callouts”.
You feel like shit because someone is treating you like shit. Do you honestly think there is anything, anywhere on your channel, that could reasonably make a person feel as worthless and hurt as these people have made you feel? Because this kind of mental anguish is what arises from experiencing needless cruelty. You haven’t done that to anyone, so you are holding much more than your fair share of the guilt here. Pass that guilt right back to the haters babe. Don’t hold the hot potato.
4:52 this is awful. I once told people to vote in the American elections and because I didn’t say to not vote for Trump, I was told to kill myself by three different people and was rebounded professionally so I lost support. People are hateful at times with no actual motivation and it sucks.
That is so disappointing about Gabbie, I've seen a couple of her videos pop up on my tiktok and she seemed a lot healthier and I started to enjoy her content again ://
I was pretty happy to see Gabbie doing well and theeeen she got back online and immediately she's back to her usual shtick. It's so disappointing when you see people just return to their old habits like that.
Well if watching eastenders makes you an awful person then I guess I'm a monster cos I got way too invested in the christmas storyline 😂
I really loved the Christmas story, I've been so invested this last 18 months! When I met my partner's gran for the first time we spent ages just having a good gossip about Eastenders together, it was such a lovely bonding experience!
@@moreracheloates That's so sweet, it's great to have something in common to talk about with new people
No one with anything to offer would spend their time trying to tear down someone who does
Yeah, I gave up on the worldview of seeing the best in people a long time ago. You should see people for what they show you, because that’s who they really are. It’ll save you a lot of unnecessary pain.
12:32 so sweet!
Do a dishonest and large chat next
16:39 people only change if they suffer first. Unless one pays the price, one does not change the attitude. Gabby is an petty angry middle schooler
🌀keep going.
Oh Rachel, who is telling you that you're not enough? That you're not doing enough book reviews or fundie videos? Who? We all know you. You do not deserve all that crap. You are smart, intelligent, entertaining, fun etc, and this is horrible if this is happening to you. I'm so sorry 😞 😔 xx
I am so disappointed that Gabbie Hanna is attacking you again, I really thought she was getting better :( I wholeheartedly believe that using Gabbie Hanna as your evidence for whether people can change isn't a good idea for you though haha I think there may be other examples of people in your life though I'm of course not sure!! I also think that you're a wonderful person from my interactions with your channel (although this is of course very parasocial) and people on the internet seem to always be looking for reasons to attack others. The right want to put you down for being "too woke" whilst some people in the left seem to be very angry and always attacking others... that's not a reflection on you but those individuals. You are incredible and intelligent and I hope you continue to make the content you are proud of at a pace that is comfortable and safe for you. Remember that you don't need to do everything at once, and like you said, as long as you can pay your bills, definitely think of what your mental health priorities are and try to engage with those more if you can!! Sorry for such a long comment, I hope things get better!!!
You kick ass!
I really enjoy the content of all your videos. Shame on her for starting this again.
These people that are hounding you remind me of those toxic K-pop ‘fans’ that drive their idols to suicide.
Next time they bug you you should hit them with the “omg why are you so obsessed with me?” And “fan behavior!” Comments because that’s what they sound like and that’s what I would do to try and change the pattern of my own thinking.
Ooft. This hit. This hit.............. Far too much. Losing Sulli and Goo Hara to public bullying not long after losing Jonghyun to depression+SAD is something I will never feel okay with. What Sulli and GH endured for being women in the spotlight was unfair.
You look the same without no makeup
I’m assuming you’re talking about ET when you mention your harasser of 5 years? I genuinely don’t know why they’re still going with this campaign against you but please know that we all support you and they won’t win. You haven’t done anything to them so they can’t keep up this delusion that they have about you. I hope things will get better soon and if you need a break, please take one.
They are completely insane, but it does not excuse their behaviour
@@helena_5456 ???
You need a holiday and some time away from the internet.
beautifulyoung woman I'm sure I would like
Hang in there. 🫂 For whatever it's worth, I believe you're an intelligent, creative, and truly wonderful person.