Escaping My Father-Rosie
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 26 ต.ค. 2023
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Rosie, a survivor of sexual abuse as a child.
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hey everyone!!! it's rosie from the video! i just wanna say thank you to mark for the opportunity & thank you for all the supportive comments. i was really nervous to tell my story, reading all the comments i finally felt seen & heard, i can't thank you guys enough for hearing my story, to all those out there who have been through similar or are currently struggling please know that you are not alone, speak your truth, i felt trapped & i believed there was no way out of my home life but there are so many resources for us survivors, there are so many people who want to help us, big shoutout to Hope of the Valley they helped me stay off the streets & provided me shelter, i hope to continue to find light in all this darkness thank you guys!!
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Rosie you are so strong. Thank you for sharing your story & I wish you all the best.
Keep your head up Rosie
You are such a brave young lady for sharing your horrific story with us all Rosie, and here you are concerned for the welfare of others in a similar predicament. From the first moment that you started to speak here, I could sense your emotional intelligence and warmth as a person. Please keep working towards recovery and building the life that you so richly deserve ❤
Hi Rosie. You are heard and seen Mama. I’m sorry you went through this abuse and for so long. You deserved to have been protected from that monster. Thank you for speaking up now. I know you wish it would have been sooner, but I hope you realize that even now, your voice is just as powerful and it’s making a big impact. Your voice not only represents your sister, but also so many kids who have dealt with their own monster. Congrats on the apartment! Sending you a big hug! ❤️ ~Daci
When a mother tells her baby never to be alone with their dad, she knows.
Exactly...😡
It’s so wrong on the mothers end too..
Why on earth would she get with a man like that or stay with him!
@@SuperSlimshady1 Exactly..
@@sexysenior8934 some people shouldn't have kids or be parents
She was right about her mother too. She was indeed a bad mother. You don't sacrifice your children for a bit of comfort. Her older sister and brother are nearly as bad. Ignoring their two sisters' repeated molestation in order to pretend there is a healthy, intact family to return to is grotesque. Rosie, you were forced to be the brave one in your own life, even as a child, and that is heartbreaking. Shed those tears; you've earned them. But don't forget that being treated so horribly has nothing to do with you and everything to do with the monster and his enablers. You preserved the kind, decent heart they treated so poorly. You can have a life full of good people like yourself, people who will treat you with the tenderness you always deserved. Be open to it. It really is waiting for you.
Undoubtedly, her mother was abused in exactly the same way! - So sick!
Rosie you have every right to speak up to family members about abuse. Even if they don't want to hear it. It's your body, and no one has a right to trespass your body! Your mother has to take responsibility for the abuse she caused you! You can love your mother, but you don't have to like her or the things she does!! I have been through abuse and learned it's not your fault. Your mother should have been so selfish!!
This comment is from Heaven. She really was preserved in innocence by God's Sovereign grace. And she needs to KNOW, Rosie, you will know... You will be who God called you to be. He brought you through this so that you could be built, and not broken, and help others who, by the free will abuse of others, have been hurt by others. You were placed here by Yeshua to encourage others to take a stand against wickedness. I am not just saying little cliches, I'm saying this with all my being!
Moses who was saved as a baby, out of hundreds of thousands of Hebrew babies, killed a man and was exiled from Egypt and stranded in the desert... All to be sent back to Egypt to help millions of Israelites out of their bondage... Joseph was thrown into a cistern by his OWN BLOOD. His brothers all wanted him gone so they devised to kill him... but he was scared by the kindest of them. But even the kindest of his brothers wanted him gone, so they sold him instead.
These people... We overlook them because they are in the Bible and seem more important but they're not... These were humans just like us, and they were treated in extremely inhumane ways. And then we have Jesus. Who has experienced every child's abuse in His very own body. Because we are all living, breathing only by God's power, so it is God Himself who feels these experiences. He feels every atom of pain, to the very same degree of hurt. He loves you... And He has a plan for you. Do not let those demons who have hurt your body tell you who you will be. Ever. Remain in Him, and He will CONTINUE what He started, you WILL be a pure, loving mother. Forever. All of eternity. And as long as you hold His precious, nail-pierced hands, your hands will protect. Your hands will bring life.
It is you, Rosie, rare and precious soul, the world is not worthy of. But you cannot let them or any ounce of hatred tell you who you are. Even though every thing in you might scream with pain to lash out. Sometimes I feel like I'm internally bleeding. One of my dogs, that unfortunately I abused by violence because of my poor upbringing when I was little, later in her life suddenly got sick with internal bleeding. She couldn't be touched, or she would bleed internally in the area in which she was touched. I was the only one in her room at the vet when she died. Everyone else was outside crying, they couldn't take the heartbreak. By the time she was sick, I was older and more forgiving and God had changed me at that point. Part of her knew I was better, not evil anymore, but she was still unsure of me... Because some wickedness remained... But overall, I was very sad at how I treated her. And I looked her and I knew she was forgiving me... She was one of the strongest, most gracious and protective dogs ever. When I was abusive, and I would hurt my little baby Chihuahua, and I say through shame and tears, she would defend her. Her name was Winter. You are like Winter, in my eyes, Rosie. You are everything I said about her character. That is you! So, again, you won't be named by your past. Keep looking to the people that inspire you. Mimic them.
I've also been abused in some ways. Nothing like you, but still... I have been. We have to honor our pains. And sometimes I feel like Winter when she died. The pain of my experiences, makes everything I go through feel like it is touching me, and I internally bleed. But I also have to tell myself that I'm like Winter. I'm like Jesus. Because I have accepted Him. And I have to let forgiveness win. And we have to remember that, though it seems so evil sometimes, there is always a light, and we have to just fully agree with the fact that everything we go through is especially and divinely placed in our lives to make us into the image of what we lost and what was taken from us, the image of our dear God.
You are forever blessed and I love you! I feel your pain! You will rise, in Jesus name!
This is exactly why I called the police on my husband. He was my best friend. But the 2 year old foster daughter of mine he hurt was more important than a grown man. He commit suicide two months later. It wasn't my fault. I did the right thing. You did the right thing, Rosie! It's only normalized if you normalize it. Stay strong! Turn that anger into love.
Her father is evil , but so is her mother for keeping her in that situation.
Her & her older sister in that situation. That’s pure evil by association
@@_blueshawty6698 Stockholm syndrome is real
Yes, the mother is evil and selfish
Everyone failed this young lady. I hope she can heal 😭.
Why women choose to be with monsters is beyond me, especially when you see attractive women who have all of the options with abusive men it makes no sense.
Rosie, I never comment on Mark's videos, but you need to hear this: You are in the middle of breaking the cycle of generations of abuse. It is hard work; it is GOOD work. You are a survivor right now, but you will thrive. Hold tight to those people who support this work, and steer wide of people who try to drag you into their own cycles of abuse (drugs, trafficking, other self-harming escapism tactics). You are worth the work. Your family is stuck in the cycle. You may forgive them in time, but your forgiveness will be for YOU, for YOUR peace, on YOUR timeline. I care so much about you, and I believe in you.
Stopping transgenerational dysfunction in our families from continuing is the most important work we can do 🙏
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This cycle is painful and terrifying to face, but getting out of it is so worth it. I refuse to live the same pain of my ancestors to spite my own self. I refuse to abuse those who show me empathy because I am envious of their ability to see good. This world was made with a spot for all of us, and I will achieve all I want and need from this life and give all that falls freely from me, to others. There is no one size fits all, there is no specific timeframe; your peace is worth the work and patience of confronting your inherited pain. ♥️
Beautiful. 😊❤️
@@doyoufeelbonita❤️👏👏👏
This is why I have to watch these videos in moderation....
This broke my heart. So beautiful. So young. So smart. I sincerely wish you the best in life.
Agreed. I watched the one with Bethany right before this one but that'll be all I can get though tonight.
Exactly
Literally these mfs will have me with a house full of people it’s the Scorpio in me😅😅😅
my mom experienced something similar. she was molested and sexually harrased by her uncle--my grandmother's brother--and *no one cared.* his funeral was a big deal, and when my mom refused to attend, my grandmother gave her so much shit for it. appalling. i hate her. the way the women of our family will bend over backwards to ignore the horrible actions of their sons, husbands, brothers, uncles. it makes me sick. it makes me sick that you had to go through this. breaking the cycle of abuse is so hard, but it's so important. you're stronger than you know, and you still have so much life ahead of you. you got this.
The ultimate betrayal is when a Mother does not protect her child. I am so sorry Rosie. No child should experience that. Stay strong girl.❤
And when a father does (or doesn't) do the same. Our children are the reason we are on this planet.
Blows my mind how women continually get blamed for the bad behavior of men. Many women are financially dependent or culturally/religiously taught to stay with the man no matter what. If she’s an Immigrant she may have limited resources and the daughter said in the video that she was getting abused herself. How about you place the blame where it should be; on the father. The ultimate betrayal is a parent choosing to sexually abuse their child. It is tragic that it was enabled by the mother however the abuser is responsible for his actions.
It’s not her fault he is an asshole
Horrible insight.@@ravenasana
Im so sorry Rosie this happened to you. God bless you. < 3 . I went through this very simular with my mom and dad they never protected me or helped me with anythimg. They just kept telling me they wish i was dead and that im nothing but a burden.
I don't understand how so many mothers lack the natural instinct to protect their children in this way. It's unbelievable
But the man is the natural leader and protector right? Why would she protect? 😂
and the father?
both parents are suppose to protect@@br00klynnative58
I think they feel powerless to speak out against it. Also, there's shame in some cultures, which they want to preserve their reputation and protect the abuser from punishment
@@br00klynnative58 yes we are in the good cases! I would die to protect my son and daughter and probably a strangers
generational trauma runs deep especially in hispanic families:’) i hate how common these stories are. my heart aches for you rosie. i am so proud of you for speaking out despite how difficult and scary it is. im so sorry for how awful their reactions were but you are breaking the cycle of abuse and silence. this will probably not be something you can fully heal from but i pray you get pretty damn close to it. you are such a strong person for surviving this and still going, i wish you a life filled with love and good people who support you. thank you for sharing your story.
Rosie you are a STRONG LADY!! I'm from a Native American community and it's rampart here!! Stay strong girl!! Don't give up!! 🥰
Rampart😬😬😬
🍃🦬🍃 Mitakuye Oyasin Mita Kola 🤶🏽✌🏾
How native are you actually? 🤔
As a male survivor that was also fed to the wolves by my mom, what pisses me off more than the perps themselves, is the spineless, cowardly non-action of those that allow it to happen. My heart hurts for you Rosie, but know that the experience can hone you as strong as chiseled steel, but can also fill you with compassion and love for others that have experienced similar trauma. How do I know? I’m now 63 and have a great life.
So true, eff the cowards that stand by perps and allow it to happen. They deserve the same disgust.
Kudos to you
I’m glad you made it out and living your best life!
Absolutely! You will have super powers. Believe it or not.
Some that stand by do so because they themselves feel powerless because they too had been victims of abuse as children. What I want to know, to all the men out there, why do you not address toxic MALENESS that permeates our society? You rape, you molest, you physically, sexually, emotionally abuse and wreck so many generations of women yet you all do nothing to figure out what to do to FIX your gender.
As a mother myself , I can’t understand how a mother can put ANYTHING above her child 😔
I felt I was ok with my abusive childhood. Then I had a child and it made me angry. I love her so much and would do anything to protect her. Why didn’t my mom feel the same?
Because you're a real mother. 💗
Happens all the time, women are weak
Lots of “mothers” out there are like this unfortunately.
@@higgaroc 60%
How can a father touch his own daughter that is sick her dad needs to get lock up wtf
Speaking as a incest survivor, i can confirm, the mother not protecting the daughter is just as traumatic as the abuse suffered at the hands of the father. Im 58 and finally stopped contact with my mother two years ago. She was still in contact with my father via facebook, like nothing had happened 😢 my heart goes out to all young girls suffering this abuse ❤️
This girl is going to be a success story. She’s got it all- she’s smart, she’s gorgeous, she’s insightful, she’s aware. Can’t wait to see what she goes on to do.
And she seems like a good soul.
After what she has been through, she's still a very sweet girl. Lots of strength of character, so I think you're right.... she'll do well.
You got a crystal ball
I concur! We are all cheering for you Rosie!
I agree ! 💜
Side note but the pandemic worried me so much because I thought of all the kids that had school to escape their unstable homes. That’s all I thought about. She was stuck there with no school no work. I’m so sorry this happened to you. What makes me more angry is her mom saying to lock her door. Wow.
SAME. 😢
I thought about that a lot too. School is some kids only esca
Same. Every day
I was a self absorbed new father who only though about my family. I never stopped to consider what you said. 💔
@@GrannySoupLadlei bet you're a liberal
Mothers who let this happen are the worst kind of abusers
and the father doing the abuse isn’t?
@@livmoon7279they’re both bad
Both her mother and father deserve to be in prison
Mark, please keep us updated with Rosie if you can. You can tell she is a good person and I really only want the best for her. Is there anyway we can set up a gofundme specifically for her? I really want to help her and I'm sure others do as well. Rosie, please keep your head up if you see this. I believe you and shame on your mother for not supporting you.
Absolutely...this Girl needs help to get Out of everything and get good Therapy....and this PIG of a Father needs to See the Police -.-
Make a donation to Hope of the valley, the place that is helping her
Abuse is a cycle, she shared her mother was abused as a child. Sometimes woman have low self esteem and are trapped. Especially if the man is a good provider. It’s easy to say what you would do but it’s not easy. When you call police the police side with the man. In the 90 s they’d say go to a hotel for the night. After all we are talking married couples and families.
@@carlitasway2477so women will put up with anything to not be accountable for themselves or their expenses? Sound right to me..
Yes please …. She deserves only the best in life ❤
Your mother is as guilty as your father and the number 1 enabler to the abuse….this so sad!! Praying for you Rosie and I’m so sorry that you are going thru this horrible experience.
As someone who comes from Arab culture, this is unfortunately common. These women are male identified. They will tell you to "cover up" as if its your fault for tempting the husband.
I blamed my mother for years but as I got older I realized when you are poor or combined with poor and uneducated you feel like you have no options to even survive if you don’t have the man in the home. It basically turns being poor into a crime all in it’s own class. The mom probably stays stressed thinking , no not thinking, but knowing you gotta watch every move made by this man to protect her girls must be exhausting on top of everything else. I’m rambling and probably not making much sense but I know there can be many sides. I would like to think any mom would go to the ends of the earth to protect their babies I just know that in reality it’s harder than some may think to do the 100% right thing sometimes for the most messed up reasons.
I hope she reports this to the police. Abusers never stop
It’s the saddest thing to see her so broken yet so strong. Thank you for sharing your story Rosie. I truly believe by you sharing helped a lot of us girls who’ve been thru a similar life story.
It's disturbing how many people go through stuff we will never know.
Thanks for stepping out.
I just donated to Hope the Valley rescue mission in Rosie's honor. I have a daughter Rosie's age and this breaks my heart. As a father, my purpose in life, the only thing that matters to me, is the well-being and happiness of my children. I'm shattered that there are parents out there who would hurt their children, or allow them to be hurt. Thanks Mark for bringing this to us, and Rosie for motivating me to help, just a little.
Thank you for being a great Father to your children.
Thank You ❤
Thank you. ❤
Hope of the Valley helped Rosie and her sister get their own apartment, which they just moved into last week. Donations in Rosie’s name to my channel’s GoFundMe will be given to her.
@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly follow-up after she’s settled, please. 💕
In our Latino culture, they say that “family comes first” or “family is everything” so when you go through this type of trauma everyone will turn on you and you will always be the outsider when you speak out against this bs behavior. I applaud anyone who is brave enough to speak out. Cut them out of your life! The titles they hold don’t mean s**t when their behavior speaks for them. Stay strong Rosie! No estas sola ❤
“Latino” means Latin and of Latin origin. Hence the term LATIN_o. Indigenous Americans and mestizo Americans etc. of south Central America and Mexico are Not ethnically Latino and never have been. HISPANIC LITERALLY MEANS SPAIN. AND THE CULTURA LATINA-THE LATIN CULTURE, THE LATIN PEOPLE, THE LATINO TRIBES (Latini), THE LATIN ETHNICITY AND THE LATIN LANGUAGE ALL COME FROM ITALY! LATINO IS THE SOLE IDENTITY OF SOUTHERN EUROPEAN LATIN MEDITERRANEAN DIASPORA WHOS ETHNICITY AND CULTURE COMES FROM THE TRUE AND REAL LATINO ANCESTORS OF ITALY. And Hispanic is literally the Latin language for Spain not the native Americans they colonized such as those Of south, Central American and Mexican origins weather you or others like you acknowledged it or not. Both Hispanic & Latin/Latino culture come from Europe that is Latin Europe. & Latin Europe was Latinized by Italy hence how Latina Italy got the historical Latin name LATINA! LATINO= SOUTHERN EUROPEAN LATIN MEDITERRANEAN DIASPORA OF THE LATINO ANCESTORS OF ITALY. Hispanic is the name the TRUE Latino people of Rome/Italy gave the Spaniards. People from south central America and Mexico are historically native Americans & now some Mestizos whom where just forced to learn Hispanic ways just like people in North America who where forced to learn English ways and it ends there. Being culturally UNROOTED due to brainwashed acculturation is why so many Americans especially North Americans don’t know their own identity Nor even care.TRUE Latin people need representation in North America as we are misrepresented all day long in this country and it’s not ok. Culturally rooted proud People native to south Central America and Mexico who embrace their true identity feel the same way with FALSE brands like Hispanic and Latino as that is Not their origin it is the origin of their conquerors. South Central Americans and Mexicans are indigenous Americans, mestizo Americans, Castizo Americans, zambos, pardos, sub Saharans etc. Not Latins, Not Latin Blood therefore Not LATIN_O. LATINOS are SOUTHERN EUROPEAN LATINS born anywhere in the world who’s roots come from the LATIN Roman Empire of the Mediterranean Race. Again HENCE HOW LATINA ITALY GOT THE HISTORICAL LATIN NAME LATINA! If those like you want to claim the Hispanic identity and origins of Spain then what ever. HOWEVER us culturally aware true Latin Mediterranean people are tired of this brainwashed American obsession with misappropriation and cultural rape of foreign Latin terms from Italy. Supporting American Brainwashed cultural theft for “gain” and “benefit” does Not magically change this. CULTURALLY REMOVED North Americans need to learn and respect their true culture that way they can stop stealing from mine. & TRUE LATINO MEN & WOMEN AKA SOUTHERN EUROPEANS HAVE ALWAYS BEEN MULTI GENETICALLY MIXED ETHNIC PEOPLE DUE TO OUR MIDDLE EASTERN, NORTH AFRICAN & ETHNIC BALKAN DNA. THIS CULTURAL RAPE TOWARDS THE TRUE LATIN PEOPLE OF ITALY EXIST BECAUSE THOSE LIKE YOU BELIEVE YOU HAVE & WILL CONTINUE TO “BENEFIT” FROM THE CULTURAL THEFT TOWARDS US TRUE LATINO MEDITERRANEANS WHO DESCEND FROM ITALY! THE TERM LATINO DERIVES FROM THE VERY FIRST LATIN TRIBE CALLED THE LATINI. LATINI IS PLURAL FOR LATINO AS LATINO IS SINGULAR FOR LATINI. THEY WERE CALLED LATINI BECAUSE IT WAS A TRIBE OF MANY PEOPLE HENCE THE PLURAL TERM FOR LATINO BEING LATINI. LATINO REFERS TO A SINGULAR FORM OF BEING LATINI AND ALL THE LATINI INFLUENCES. THE SAME WITH LATINA BEING SINGULAR AND LATINE BEING PLURAL IN THE LATIN/ITALIAN LANGUAGE. THESE ARE ALL TERMS CREATED SOLELY BY THE TRUE LATINO MEDITERRANEAN ANCESTORS OF ITALY. YOU CAN NOT BE PART OF AN ORIGIN, HISTORY AND ETHNICITY WHICH YOUR ANCESTORS FACTUALLY ARE NOT HISTORICALLY RESPONSIBLE FOR. END OF STORY. IT HAS BECOME TRENDING PROPAGANDA FOR THOSE WHO ARE NOT OF PROMINENT LATIN MEDITERRANEAN ORIGIN TO MISAPPROPRIATE LATIN EUROPEAN TERMS OF ITALY AS TRENDING PROPAGANDA TO APPEAR MORE DESIRABLE FOR SOCIAL STATUS FOR SOCIAL ADVANTAGE. AND IT NEEDS TO BE EXPOSED AND PUT TO AN END. PERIOD. there is No sono Latino/ soy Latino when you are Not of actual Mediterranean Latin diaspora, specifically of prominent Mediterranean Italian diaspora. There is No “our Latino culture” when you do Not descend from the SOLE people who are historically responsible for the Cultura Latina the Latin culture. And it is delusional to believe so.
mucho texto@@elettramia6380
@@elettramia6380 damn, you must have no life. For someone to type this out on TH-cam of all places. Ever thought about picking up a hobby?
Stay strong Rosie. Thank you for speaking up and sharing the story. Hope this will inspire more victims out there to be strong and speak up to themself! Sending you hugs and love.
@@elettramia6380 You're writing comment in colonial language and technology aka computer/phone.
"Just lock your door, nothing's gonna happen." like how tf is that comforting?
Rosie, you are so incredibly strong and you have such a beautiful soul. I’m so glad you have finally been able to start your path towards healing… and the fact that you left your abuser and are able to share your story just shows how brave you are. That bravery will carry you far in life, and you have so much of it ahead of you. I wish you all the love, happiness and success in the world, you deserve it so much 💛
As a mother myself, I can't fathom how a MOTHER could EVER allow this. 💔 I'm so sorry, Rosie.
I want to believe you but I used to hear my own mother say things JUST like that in public only to let my father and brother abuse me in private before taking her turn too.
I've never met a virtue signaler who didn't use those phrases as a mask.
@@john-ic5pz,
In your mom's case, saying those words was virtue-signaling.
Those of us who have survived the harm sexual abuse caused don't say it lightly.
Online it's impossible to tell.
The good news is that those of us who survive long-term profound depression and self-doubt become vigilant about the safety of our children, grandchildren -- all children.
The statistics reveal there are many victims of childhood abuse who commit suicide. So, it's good that you've survived.
I've learned over the decades how weak my mother was when we needed her protection. If she had not retreated into her room leaving us unsupervised with our inebriated father and friends, or if she believed us when we told her what happened...but that was typical of her: the only person she cared about was herself.
I'm in my 70s and am finding it impossible to forgive her.
She's 97 and still obsessed with herself.
Nothing is ever her fault, and she's terrified of dying.
@john-ic5pz that's exactly what I was thinking. These parents that talk like they love their kids so much and "would kill if anyone ever thought about doing that to their kid" most likely won't. It's an act. Many people don't care about their kids. They just have kids because it's what they're 'supposed to do' by a certain age.
I'm sorry yall had such worthless mothers.. 💔
@@keysnlemons7756i wouldnt go as far to say that MOST people don’t care about their kids
Im hispanic, and I've talked to my family about what my cousins did to me. Its like they dont care, I suffer every day, and they get to live life like they did nothing wrong. Im so sorry for that little girl who lost her innocence. I pray you heal and are always surrounded by good people and lots of love.
And I pray that for you too precious one. 💜🌌🦋
Very typical Hispanic life
i don’t think it has anything to do with being hispanic but being coward and terrible people. i’m sorry for what happened to you!
Or they say don’t say anything we don’t want to cause problems
Deeply sorry x happened 2 me too
Rosie- if you read this, my mother had a Very very similar situation as you. Please keep fighting for yourself - you’re so young and have a whole life to live still. And As someone who is on meds for depression/anxiety medication can really really help with motivation- it’s a WORLD of difference. You can create the life you deserve just keep putting one foot in front of the other.
Wow, you are so aware and well spoken. It saddens me to hear your story because I can hear the pain in your voice and how hard you have struggled with this. Your trust in the two people that should have been your biggest supporters has been shattered. You are a brave and lovable soul. I hope you continue to take the steps you need to get your education, stay off drugs and heal fully. You are not to blame whatsoever for any of the abuse brought on to you. I wish you great things in your life, thanks for sharing your story.
Devastating is not a strong enough word in hearing this story. As a father with all girls, I cannot begin to fathom how a man can look at his own daughters with anything less than the purest form of love. I cried for you Rosie. And always will.
Well said, Sir. I have daughters too and this breaks my heart. It’s the ultimate betrayal and sin.
Pedophile father
This makes me furious as a father mothers need to put their foot down and stop letting this happen to our kids
I’m so sorry, Rosie 💔
What about the women? Disgusting
This is deeply disturbing and genuinely heartbreaking. I cannot understand how a man can sexually abuse anyone, let alone a child, and let alone his OWN child. It makes one question how often this happens without any consequences. I pray for her and wish to send her healing energy.
Me too man it keeps me up at night it's horrifying
A lot
Most likely Dad was abused. It’s the cycle
@@dimplesp4046it could be, but not necessarily. It’s still a disgusting thing to do to a child either way
Seriously. How does anyone do this to an innocent child, it doesn't get any more depraved than that.
Thank You for having the courage to share your story! I pray for your peace as you find healing! Take the time you need to heal and know that your are being cheered on by those who hear you! I believe you! I know your truth and I am sending you prayers!
Wow. Such a moving interview. I felt her pain from her words. Rosie, you are beautiful. You did not deserve any of that. Nobody does. I wish you all the best!
Rosie's mother should be SO GRATEFUL that Rosie turned out to be this smart, wonderful young woman in spite of what she allowed her to be put through.
Some people do not deserve to have kids. Her father is disgusting but her mother is just as complicit. I really hope Rosie is able to find her healing and inner strength. She's so young and she can still be happy without those people. Thank you for sharing your story and the awareness that it creates ❤❤❤
Que triste historia yo lloré con tu testimonio pero tu eres una persona muy linda valiente y vales muchísimo deseo que encuentres el alivio para tu alma no te rindas en buscar sobre salir a todo esto
My father was abusive, physically and mentally. My mother also could not leave for over 30 years. She is Asian and grew up being taught that your husband is God for you. You cannot ever leave. This codependency was so deeply ingrained in her, she couldn't act. She was terrified of being alone. I blamed her for a long, long time, and even now I bring it up during fights. Deep down, though, I know that it was not her fault. This is a systematic, deep, deep opression of women, carefully cultivated for centuries, in many strongly patriarchal countries. It destroyed the lives of both my sister and I. My father just passed away last week, not having improved himself at all, never admitting anything. I feel sorry for him. The girl in the video can hold her head up high, know she is a good human being. At least she always has that.
Everyone who sees this video who knows this girl and her parents, will know what her parents did.
Rosie you are beautiful. You are articulate and intelligent. I hope you get through your trauma and life starts to treat you kinder.
came from a clip on TikTok immediately searched up on utube..
Was left speechless & heartbroken
Ill never understand her parents mindset💔
Rosie idk how you are doing it but Keep On Going ! 💪🏽
Ik You've prolly heard this way tm but
Truly Im So Proud Of You !
You're So Strong & Brave
You spoke up at the right time
Left at the right Time
Bc of that u r where u r today !
Ik Something Good Is Coming For You
Keep Your Head UP
Keep Walking Forward
Stay Protected!! ❤️🩹🫂
Dear Rosie, I am sorry for the pain that you had suffered at the hands of your parents. No child should ever feel unsafe with the very people that are supposed to protect them. I wish I could give you a hug and tell you that you are such a beautiful person. Keep up that fighting spirit and know that you are so loved.
Rosie I was sexually abused by several step father's step grandpas my biological grandfather and step uncles. My mother knew everything!!!! I was more angry with her than my abusers also. I feel a connection with you and your story. Im so proud of you for sticking up for yourself. I spoke up All the time and my mom would just turn the other cheek. Absolutely sickening im 46 now and haven't spoken to any of ny biological family since I was 14. My grandma aunt and all the family shunned me for speaking up and reporting my last step father best thing ive ever done. It was hard supporting myself at such a young age. I went through hell trying to deal with my emotions but truthfully I will always struggle it never goes away. But at least today im not suffocating from my trauma it doesn't go away but t gets somewhat better. Keep your head up and always remember that you are a survivor!!! Thoughts and prayers sent your way ❤️
They should be publicly shamed. Not protected!
Sick evil perverts,so sorry.
Im so proud of you! I was abused for almost 10 years growing up. Age 4(maybe even earlier)-11 or 12. My mom’s dad was the perpetrator. He’s dead since 2004. Even when he was bed ridden he tried to grab my hand and force me to to let him touch me. The worst horror of my life. I cried of relief the day he died. 35 years old now and thank god for a few years of therapy to get me passed my immense amount of anger I felt towards my mom, my grandma and that family. I told my mom when I was 7 years old she denied he would touch us. We drove to my grandparents house every weekend from Los Angeles to Rancho Cucamonga. It didn’t stop for another 4-5 years. Thank god got therapy.
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rosie, im really glad you did this. growing up in a machismo household is hard enough and i cant imagine the pain of other things you went through that came along with that. i feel very heard and seen through your words and emotions, and i realized im not alone. echale ganas rosie you’re worth the world and more, and i know the grass is so much greener on the other side. thank you for your story❤️
Thank you for sharing, as someone who has been through something similar, it’s very empowering to hear your voice, too see your tears.
It’s hard not to cry along with this young lady. Her pain is so heavy.
Nice fake story, "i just need a job" WTF Have you been doing for 20 years lazy bum. Stop crying and pull yourself up by your bootstraps. Your fake story isn't going to get you money from me.
I cried too. Rosie deserves so much better. I’m proud of her too.
Yeah I clicked on this expecting an intense game of hide and go seek but instead I got detailed trauma
The fact that she didn’t even know what happened made it a lot less sad for me.
fucking incel that is called trauma your mind will block the bad memories@@Seargent_Scraps
She is a remarkable, beautiful, brave soul. She is so much stronger than she thinks. My heart goes out to her and her sister.
She is a real survivor, she accepts what her parents really are, she does not sugar-coat. She is is destined for good things.
wishing you all the best. I'm so proud of you.
Sweet and fragile heart, you are loved by strangers more than you know. Thank you for your courage in telling your story. May God bless you and keep you in his hands for a peaceful and happy life from here on forward. Thank you, Mark.
Couldn't make it past a few minutes but I appreciate you sharing your story Rosie! Glad you're better enough to share your story,I know how it is with this type of abuse to say the least,thank you for still being here,God loves you.
What a beautiful young lady, articulate, intelligent both academically and emotionally who has suffered her whole childhood from the worst kind of abuse, sexual abuse from her father and unprotected, unloved, neglected and dismissed by her mother. Wishing you a good strong recovery Rosie, you will make it and from that recovery will be able to help others suffering in a similar way.
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Rosie your insight and wisdom will take you far. Use your time now to heal...and then set your childhood aside. Let the dysfunction of your parents be your catalyst for a better future. Someday you will be a great mother!!❤
She lying.
@@ST8OFCONFINE2552go away, troll!
@ST8OFCONFINE2552 Thanks for clearing that up. So glad you're here to share your insight and experience, it really adds a lot
I’m looking forward to a 6 month follow up with Rosie. She is a warrior in the middle of the hardest battle of her life. We stand with you Rosie.
We believe you.
she's a warrior? what's that mean?
warriors have training, tools, and the support and admiration of their societies.
Rosie and everyone like her are just regular people with survival instincts.
calling her a warrior is like calling her dad a monster... no, that glorifies what is an every day reality of human nature and the human condition for large percentages of the population.
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existential warrior
When you have to fight to survive and overcome major adversity while also possibly caretaking or defending others.
I hear you ❤
Oh Rosie, you're such a brave young woman!! Thank you for sharing your story, by doing so you've helped many who were or going through a similar situation. My heart goes out to you and your sister, stay strong and positive! Thank you again!!
Oh, Rosie. My heart and prayers go out to you. I cried along with you in this, you are so strong for sharing such a deep wound. As a survivor of my own father, I can tell you that things do get better. I hope you can find the strength to keep going, keep loving yourself. Thank you for showing me that we are never truly alone!
Rosie was not only heard, but just gave a voice to those of people who can’t speak up
“I’m uncomfortable with myself now” was such a powerful line for me. Your pain radiates through the screen, but so does your strength. Thank you for speaking out, giving a voice to those who haven’t found theirs yet. ❤️
Hey rosie, youre story actually made me very confident to share about what happend to me, i was 1-3 years old when i went trough it. I got placed in another family afterwards. But it also makes me sad and also a bit mad i cant remember the entire story. In my first 2 years i did not remember anything but when i grew i understood what happend. I’m 5 years in therapy now. I love youre confidence. Youre a realy role models and i wish u the best. We will get trough this.
I’m so proud of you! None of this was your fault you did what you had to do to survive at the time. I was also assaulted at a young age and I can’t remember all the details and it bothers me too. I also peed the bed for years after my abuse stopped. I didn’t realize it was from my trauma until I listened to your video and it makes sense now looking back. My predator was my foster brother so there was no escape. Stay strong and keep pushing forward!
This is sad, disgusting, moving, specially for anyone who went through the same situation as her. Never be ashamed Rosie, we are survivors.
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Your amazing!! Thank you for sharing your story, what a testimony!! Love & blessings 🩷✨
Only one person hated more than an abuser- a truth teller . My heart goes out to this person :(
Damn, that is to the bone truth.
She is lovely wishing her the best
God rosie, ur story really hurt my heart… I can’t imagine how stressful ur experience has been. The important thing is that u survived to tell ur story. God bless u
Also , this is so amazing you had the courage to speak about all this and be so articulate at such an early age and so close to the trauma , I was shocked when you said you were just 20 ! This just happend! So you are making huge strides towards healing . Your going places I know it
Dear Rosie- When Mark asked about your regret, you said you wished you said something sooner. I hear you. What you feel is real and valid. Having said that, I’d like to gently shed a little light on your regret. Please try to see that you DID speak up over and over and over, from such a young age. You spoke up in the limited ways a child is able to speak up. You spent years searching, waiting for someone to hear your cries- especially your mom who should’ve been a reliable protector. As a trauma survivor who has wrestled with very similar regrets, I have a gentle challenge for you: Is it possible that you could reassign that regret to your parents? THEY BOTH are the rightful owners of that extremely heavy burden you carry. You did the absolute best with what your growing mind/brain could possibly handle throughout the years. You are resilient with a strength beyond your years. As you seek to leave your trauma in the past, you will develop your own tribe; a true family who supports you in healing with love and grace. Please keep up with therapy- the work is worth it. Each day, and especially on the dark days, I humbly request that you give yourself the gift of self-care. You are worthy and you are loved. My hope in writing this is that you could somehow feel the strength of a fellow woman-warrior who can tell you, without a doubt, that there is light and love to be experienced as you emerge from your past life that was full of trauma. Your voice is not only worthy to be heard and acknowledged, but your story will bring hope to countless others for many, many years to come. May your soul be filled with peace, may everyday bring a new reason to smile, and may you see yourself as the mighty warrior you are. ❤️🩹 There are countless brighter days ahead for you, dear one. Hugs. -e
I love this post very very much thank you. And thank you Rosie
I hope she hears these words. They resonate with me. The guilt I held has been similar to you and Rosie. Mine Guilt was for getting under the cover, but it’s not mine to hold, being a child and speaking up over and over in many ways. You are right Erica, she did speak up sooner! Amazing note. I’ll say lastly, I believe in us Rosie. :)
Perhaps what she really means is that she wished she had DONE something about it sooner. Either way, you are right about reassigning the regret to her parents, and the only genuine way to do this is by taking actions against her parents. The only way to properly reassign the regret to her parents is by making them regret what they did. She needs to seek retribution not only for her own peace of mind, but also to warn any abusive parents out there that their victims won't stay as victims forever...
This woman is so beautiful and well-spoken. Her pain is palpable. I hope she finishes her education, stays clean, and creates a safe and nurturing life for herself. Her mother, and father are both the abusers. They are both weak and pathetic.
No mames dont insult her mother
@@raulchaidez2946Her mother is a fucking hypocrite, she allowed Rosie to be abused and tormented by her father. Knowing 2 of her daughters were being abused she still allowed that man back into their home. while also saying “I don’t know why they are inviting my abuser to our family gathering”. Her mother is clearly in the wrong as well.
@raulchaidez2946 her mother is just as complicit as her father. Her mother allowed her father to continue abusing Rosie.
It doesn't take away from Rosies love for her.
Just like many paedophiles. Some were once assaulted too. They just grew up to become the perpetrators. Just like Rosie's mum being a victim and being aware. Yet choosing to live a fantasy instead of reality. She knows and she chose to allow it to continue.
Thw word for what they are is - evil.
@@raulchaidez2946 wtf!? Did i misunderstand you? You being sarcastic?
Thanks for this, Rosie. It helped me so much. I have such a similar story from my childhood. You expressing this and being such a courageous bad ass with sharing this story, totally is making a difference for me and the choices I’m making now. I wish you so much success and happiness into the future… You are awesome and totally rock.
ROSIE, you are a true survivor and brave as heck. You are breaking 💔 the cycle of abuse
I'm a 48 year old man and a father of 2 girls and a boy and I want to wish Rosie all the best this world has to offer God knows she has suffered plenty.. Cried throughout listening to her telling her story..
It’s horrific to hear how many mothers allow their children to be abused- which obviously is abuse in its own right.
Sending prayers that Rosie goes on to have a wonderful, healthy life full of people who value her.
It’s very hard to believe that there are good men who have no wish to SA children.. so thank you for being good. It helps a lot.
Being Mexican and around the Mexican culture I know how hush hush things can become and it’s heartbreaking how many victims and stories go unknown and you became a voice for many of those. Being vulnerable is the strongest thing a person can do and I hope nothing but healing and prosperity for you girl
Dirty Peps
Same in black communities unfortunately.
@@tywilliams3891 🐒 that's why
@@tywilliams3891 So true. 😔
@@lyndenmanning what's up with the monkey?
So incredibly strong, brave and beautiful. My heart aches for the amount of pain you’ve experienced. Stay strong, you deserve nothing but peace and love in your life. ❤
The courage in this girl is beyond inspiring. Wow bless you girl. Bless your family. 🙏🙏
As an American of Mexican descent, I can tell you in our culture sexual abuse within the family is common, and it is kept silent. Because of this, the cycles continue. I’m a survivor and didn’t even realize I had a severe traumatic childhood until my therapist told me. Thank you for bringing awareness to the forefront.
I was about to say this is such a mexican cultural thing. (i too am mexican america) It’s sickening
Why, though? My boyfriend is Mexican and his oldest brother is a pedo and almost all the family protects him. What is this? Why is this a cultural thing? The fvck??
Absolutely true. Bad hombres.
SAchica: I had heard this from a friend who was from same group. Did not want to mention it so, Thank you. The more we understand,the better. Tee
I also come from a Mexican family and it happened across several generations. My cousin was abused my multiple family members. My Grandfather molested neighbor children ( he died before I was born) My uncle tried to do it to me and there are others. I never thought of it as a cultural thing
Her mother told her never to be left in the same room with their father, but Rosie’s first memory of him sexually abusing her was when her mother left her in the room with him after speaking with him. She knowingly fed her daughter to the wolves that day & every day after that..😢😢😢😢
This actually makes me want to bawl this girl is so beautifully soft and sweet and she NEVER deserved this but I couldn’t picture a better person to come out of it all 🖤 (as a fellow girl who’s been hurt)
Rosie thank you for sharing your story. I am so sorry you had to go through this. I appreciate you taking the time to share. You have no idea how much of an impact it has on people. Keep shining you have a good head on your shoulders. You got this beautiful! Blessings upon blessings ❤
Rosie you have not giving up on yourself, and that is so amazing. You deserve compassion towards yourself. Try and give yourself a break. You will feel good one day because you are a healer and can heal yourself then others too.
The culture of silence is breaking because of these brave souls who are speaking up for themselves and for all victims.
I am Mexican/American and this happened to me. Sexually abused by 2 uncles that lived with us. Now I'm 30 years old and i refuse to have children. Thankfully I found my amazing husband who understands and even got a vasectomy.
Speak up about this 💔, I'm sorry you went through this. It's not your fault.
Don't change your life because of what some garbage humans decide to do. Bad things don't have to happen to your kids. As a parent, you're the protector.
@@the.marinatorDon't be so inconsiderate
@@Ashley-mc5bi Huh how was I inconsiderate? I just said she shouldn't let others limit her life's potential. If she doesn't want to have kids, then that's her prerogative.
@@the.marinator They're not "letting" garbage humans control their life. Until you've experienced that trauma you won't know that you don't have a choice in how it affects your mind and personal views long term.
What an incrediblely courageous person you are to tell your story. I relate to the way you feel about your family and it made me cry. I wish for all good things to come your way. You more than deserve it 💛
Very touched by your story , I am so sorry for what happened to you and what your mother allowed to be done to you- I pray you heal from your traumas and live a healthy blessed life
“ I just want to be heard” oh honey, I hear you. So proud of you for getting out. You should be proud of what you did telling your story. 😢
Yep you’re right,
so definitely xx
This poor girl. You can hear the pain in her voice as she tells her story. I would be 100% down for getting some sort of go fund me set up for her to help this girl get on her feet and have a shot at life. ❤
Mark stated in another comment that if you donate to his gofundme and specifically note that you would like it to go to Rosie, that money will be given to her.
@jewelsbarbie thank you!
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Rosie-your story is so sad but so moving ! What a strong person you are ! It took everything you had I’m sure to come & tell your story ! You are breaking that cycle of abuse ! Stay in therapy ..surround yourself with good & honest people ! And do not deny yourself one day to have a child …you will be an amazing mom ❤. Don’t let fear or anger stand in the way of your dreams , goals & happiness because you absolutely deserve the best & life is too short to spend anymore time seeking affirmation from your mom or other family . They are very sick & you will probably never get that. Forgive them & move on …because forgiveness is for YOU. 💕 you’re beautiful!
Heart goes out to you girl 💓 I’m so sorry you experienced this type of trauma 😓 praying for your healing journey 🙏🏼
Omg, you can hear it in her voice that she’s still so hurt & traumatized about this situation. Mom genuinely betrayed her daughters.
Medical person here: Rosie, Know that you are an honest, very kind & really intelligent and beautiful person, who has the strength to know right from wrong and Chooses to be with Healthy people. You are Definitely Not Lazy, you are appropriately grieving your trauma right now.
Just give yourself a bit of time and know that All that you are doing with therapy and being with the right people who support you, will totally empower you and ALL YOUR MOTIVATION will come back and you will make your dreams come true!! ❤from Montreal
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I’m so so happy you have finally felt heard & seen Rosie, I don’t underestimate how terrifying it must have been to open up such horrific trauma to the world but I hope you don’t underestimate how many people this video will help and even save, you did great girl!! There’s a book you should read called The Body Keeps the Score - Mind, Brain and body in the Transformation of Trauma by Bessel Van Der Kolk, it could change your life. Much love and strength ❤
I’ve heard many stories about pedophiles raping many women men, but this story really made me cry. I can tell by the sound of voice she is so hurt. I was also a victim of my stepdad. That’s why I was always cautious with my four boys.
Wow! I’m so sorry you had a mother that didn’t put her children first. It breaks my heart when I hear of mothers like that. You’re beautiful, brave, and a remarkable young lady.
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But you’re not sorry she had a father who put her through that and was an evil person? Yall are sick people. Im sure thats the last thing she wants to see over “im sorry your father did that to you”
Rosie... my heart goes out to you. My mom forced me out of her house when I was 13. A homeless girl in the city. God rescued me... I went to medical school. There is hope for your life. Ditch the drugs...get your education... pray. I am praying for you. Rosie, you are so intelligent, articulate, and beautiful. Oh, I excelled after I left my toxic family. I went from homeless abused girl, got myGED, went to college, and now stand on my two feet. Work through the depression. Your child Will come back to you from heaven one day.
Do NOT ditch any drugs until you are emotionally stable...self-medicating is part of your healing process.
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@@5DNRGabsolutely incorrect. Self-medicating with recreational drugs is the surest path to failure. Therapy, school, a job, and building credit. That's what she needs to do. And keeps surrounding herself with stable safe sane people. No contact with abusers and betrayers.
Please do not go around on the internet telling people that self-medication is healing. The healing process does not include unmonitored drug use
I am sorry you had to go through that...heartbreaking! Your Mum let you all down. You are a warrior! Talking about this will give others strength to speak up too!
The lack of memory is a trauma response. I have had the same with my trauma. She's a brave woman for telling her story and I am happy she is in therapy. As soon as she started crying it broke my heart ... Rosie you are a beautiful, smart young woman and I wish all the best for you x
Rosie,
I know nothing can replace a parent’s love and protection, but I hope these comments show you how deserving you are of that and much more.
We believe in you.
Rosie you're so strong and i know you are an amazing person. Tough times dont last but tough people do. Stay safe and never give up. You are loved even from strangers like me. I hope you peace and happiness.
Hey Rosie,
You are such an incredible, brilliant young woman. I’m sorry for what you went through. Sending positive, healing vibes.
My grandpa did similar things to my mother and me. My grandma also looked the other way. I want to commend you on confronting this and addressing your trauma. My mother never would confront it and it caused her to drink herself into an early grave. You’re a beautiful and intelligent young woman. You are an advocate for all CSA victims and all children. You have a bright future ahead of you. Focus on your health. You deserve it. Much love and prayers to you ❤
Also you’re not lazy. Your nervous system needs to recover. I recommend Pete Walkers book on CPTSD and the body keeps the score.
People that look the other way are just as bad as the molesters.
The same to you girl. You stay strong and heal ❤
Someone please give this girl a career opportunity she deserves you are one brave beautiful young lady love u Rosie ❤
She's only young she will be able to figure it out on her own, she seems like a very capable lady.
Suggestion for you….rent a room, go to a trade school for something like Medical Assisting. If you like it, climb the ladder to nursing. I think you’d do great with your compassion, grit and determination. A lot of schools may only be 6months and help with job placement. Good luck! You’re a champion!
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Who are you talking too@@hollyegee2199 ?
This is completely and utterly heart wrenching …. My heart goes out to you❤
She's so sweet. Im so sorry she ever had to go through that. I wish her all the happiness she could ever ask for.
She is so brave, not only to speak up and stand her ground with her mom, but to get into therapy and take the steps to work through her trauma. I’m heartbroken she went through everything she did. It isn’t fair and is something no one should ever have to go through. And it’s a shame her dad is still around and not behind bars.
I have a similar story to Rosie's. Still hate my mother to this day for not stepping in earlier. She didn't do anything about it for almost 12 years. Feared for my life and felt alone. It's a terrible thing to have the one that birthed you knowingly allow the abuse all due to the fear of the loss of a money source. Don't know if you'll see this comment but I feel for you Rosie. I hope you find happiness.
Nice fake story, "i just need a job" WTF Have you been doing for 20 years lazy bum. Stop crying and pull yourself up by your bootstraps. Your fake story isn't going to get you money from me.
i hope you find happiness in the world as well, there is good in life , rosie is my long time friend and i was looking through the comments to see all the nice comments and it touches my heart that she has alot of love and support even from strangers . You are strong and a wonderful person and never give up . I feel everyones pain even my friends coming from a home of abusive parents . I wish you the best
I@silfd2567 I feel for you also. No child should have to suffer abuse of any kind, especially sexual. I wish you good luck on your journey to healing.❤
The stupid mom is complicit and should have called the police. Don’t expect a small child to be careful or somehow aware you horrible dullard. I’m disgusted by these “people.” I’m supposed to have pity on the mom? She’s a full grown adult and she knew what was going on. POS
@silfd2567 please heal take your time I’m sorry
You know my family is the same way, a family member abused my cousin and we used to gather during holidays and stuff. Now that I’m older I refuse to be around that person family gathering or not idk why family’s find it easier to brush it under the rug. You are strong and bold and beautiful keep spreading your testimony baby girl I wish you all the best on your journey.
Rosie!! You are soooo strong. You’re breaking the cycle. Speaking about it takes some weight off of your shoulders. I know how it feels to be around your abuser. Well for me I’ve had to be around mine my whole life. It happened when I was young, but it was never addressed. You’re way stronger than me. Stay strong honey. We are rooting for you. You’re smart beautiful and kind I can tell. Keep telling your story.
This was the hardest video I've ever watched of yours. My heart was crushed listening to the beautiful young woman talk about this monster. This man needs to be in jail. You're a strong woman with your whole life ahead of you. I wish nothing but the best for you moving forward in life x
I haven't watched videos from this channel in well over a year but I'm watching it after the one with Bethany. I've literally watched well over 1,000 homicide documentaries over the years, possibly a few, but these were tougher to get through than a lot of those. The First 48 does a good job of showing the horrific impact of homicides on the survivors, albeit not as much as Mark can with this format. Heartrending stuff.
I hate that she keeps apologizing for crying ☹️ Rosie, it’s okay to feel, to grieve, to process. This is really hard stuff that isn’t normal or okay for a child to endure. You’re so strong for sharing your story, please please don’t apologize! Every feeling you feel is valid and heard ❤