Spiritual Awakening and Depression
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 18 ต.ค. 2024
- A common part of the spiritual awakening process is a season of depression or a dark night of the soul. In this video I talk about what's really going on when depression hits after a spiritual awakening, and what you can do to get yourself out of it!
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Since my awakening I’ve only realized more and more how absolutely pointless this life is. All this suffering for the sake of suffering? As well as how ridiculous all the systems here are. Waking up every morning and having to stress about money and health and all the other stuff when you feel like it’s all absolutely pointless is torture.
I feel your pain. I'm just riding the wave of this illusion, trying to detach from the pointlessness of life and focus on my ultimate goal. It's so difficult since the ennui hits, but it can't be helped.
Did you feel social anxiety too
@@johnjones99124 I had intense social anxiety during Covid. But it’s gotten better since. I still don’t leave my house much. I could stay home 99% of my life and be fine ya know?
It’s not life itself that is pointless, it’s the engineered system we have been born into that seeks to enslave us that leave us feeling life is pointless… a system that seeks to demoralise us all under the guise of “freedom” for their pursuit of money and control!!! It’s that, that is pointless… materialism is pointless and is designed to keep us in a busy state of mind to ensure we don’t discover who or why we are really here..
None of these symptoms have anything to do with spiritually awakening. Even a person that doesn’t know anything about spiritual truth, or who they are would be sick of all the mundane stupidity and all the dumb people around.
Spiritual awakening is very depressing yet enlightening in a way
Absolutely! So many things all at once.
Yes, the void is real. I experience high's and low's since awakening. I'll be full of joy for no reason because I'm free from the beliefs that I was raised in but then I get sad for no reason. I guess because who I was my whole life up to now has been a lie. You've explained it very well, thank you. So I have to go in and do the shadow work... okay. Thanks for this video!
Sending you so much love, Nickie! 🤗🤍
@@VanessaOoms thank you so much!!
Im in the middle of the void. Family not awake and not responsive to me. Ruff going at moment.
I’m sorry you’re going through a rough time, my friend. I can feel your heart and I know what that feels like. It can seem super lonely when you’re the only one in your family who is awake. Luckily, there are many people in the community on this channel who are awake and also looking for connection 🙏🏼🤍✨ Sending you a huge internet hug!
I was there, ❤ keep going
I started my awakening with a burn out 4 years ago,. I am experiencing depressions sometimes feels like a part of me is dying, in fact it is old habits dying that i don`t need anymore and were in the way of my true natural essence/ being. Realising this makes the depression a blessing although i feel sad while the depression is going on, sometimes for days, it makes it more digestible. Afterwards i can see my lesson the depression taught me, so i can acknowledge what you're saying/ stating and want to thank you for sharing this great important information, also want to send my blessings to everyone thats going through a spiritual awakening, Keep on going you're on the right path in making yourself and via you the world a better place. Namaste.
Thank you so much for this beautiful message! 🙏🏼💜✨
@@VanessaOoms You are welcome, thank U2 and keep up the good work.💫❤
I remember my awakening. I was meditating as usual, had been for six months up until that point, then had an experience its hard to word. Let's just say I now know what one with everything means.
After that experience my life changed forever, and I remenber the next morning I woke up feeling detached, I looked in the mirror and I felt I was looking at a stranger, beyond that I looked like a wild weird animal or alien.
Afterwards I felt depressed because I felt I lost myself, so instead of giving up I decided to go deeper. I felt I had nothing to lose, I didn't want to go back to what I was, so when I kept looking inward, I found myself again, a better version of me thats forever changing.
To learn is to change, to change is to evolve, and love is the beacon that guides us all.
I'm sending love to you Vanessa, and everyone here ❤
And if any of you feel bad don't worry, you are not alone, never was alone and never will be alone.
This is all a beautiful illusion, and we are all connected.
Beautifully said, my friend. I experienced the same thing and also haven’t been the same since. 🙏🏼💕✨
when anybody said we are connected,it brings happy tears in my eyes,i get goosebumps mostly,it feels so beautiful like that thing i know for sure,heart fills filled with happy feeling and certain knowing.
had a similar experience while meditating, it lasted for several days, most beautiful and yet clear experience I ever had in my life. In this state you will know the power of presence. Words can't describe it really. 10 months since then and I just can't identify myself anymore. I don't know who I am, yet something in me fights to be something I am clearly not. There's so much resistance. It's a strange and challenging process. It's funny how deep down you know it's all a game and that fundamentally nothing is wrong, yet something in you doesn't want to let go and makes it so challenging and exhausting.
@@maltsday being alive is literally heaven. When you are everything you need nothing, when you don't remember you are everything your experience is limitless and you can continue to play this game forever. We have always been here one way or another. We think the world has gone through mass extinctions, but in truth its all a self correcting system that always balances itself out.
Alan Watts had it right, the flow is the state of allowing that you follow without resistance which feels great, the opposite would be resistance and it never feels good. Any negative emotion is rooted in fear, once you trust in your higher self you know everything will be alright.
@@higherwe343 Yes, the realization that you have everything you need is truly liberating, it's true freedom. It's what we all strive for, consciously or unconsciously. You meet your true authentic self and you realize there is no separation, everyone and everything becomes your family and you realize you have been home all the time. Resistance and attachments melt away and you see the illusions that were causing these, transforming into deep peace.
The ego still backlashes, and in my case I was questioning this experience, questioning my sanity. Got thrown into weeks of insomnia, anxiety attacks, depersonalisation and ultimately into depression, forcing me to go inside. Yet I feel that the depression was always there, mostly because of old belief systems and trauma.This inward process is the most challenging part but I'm glad I'm here. I'm rather facing it than running away from it. I feel like I have been depressed all of my life, I just didn't realized it, I always ran away from it, hence the anxiety and addiction, now I can feel so much I've surpressed. In my dreams I always ran away from things or I was searching for home, these patterns changed now.
100% what I'm going through right now. Thank youuuu. Videos of having people to relate to who understand the experience make me and I'm sure others going through this feel soo much more sane, and just such a relief to have someone to relate to.
So glad that this video is helpful!! It’s such a wild experience, and knowing that you’re not alone helps so much. Sending you so much love! We’re all here for you 🙏🏼🤍✨
Wow. You just described my life over the last 3 years. Now I just want to sleep. I don’t even know how I want to move forward. I only feel depressed of I try to move forward. When I stop and rest, just tired.
Sending lots of love your way! You don’t have to know how to move forward right now. Sounds like your body is working overtime adjusting and healing. Rest and the answers will come. 🙏🏼✨🕊
This resonates with me so much. Thank you. I feel like I’ve done a lot of shadow work already so i’m not sure what else to do. Depression is awful, and I’m going through a pretty heavy duty bout of it right now. So glad to know that I’m not alone.
You’re definitely not alone! And this year has been particularly intense. Hang in there, friend. 🙏🏼💗
After a pretty terrible psychedelic experience I had over a month ago this is how I feel. At times I feel I am slowly losing my mind, but then I also get moments where I feel everything is making sense and the purpose is simply to love. It has been pretty difficult and I reckon it will be a while before it all makes sense, but the process is exciting and I'm sure it will be worth it in the end! Sending love 🙏
Sending love back to you 🙏🏼🤍 Sometimes all we can do is take it one day at a time
what process are we talking about here?
Omg 😢 you appear when i needed it the most 🤧😭 thank you for your insights 🙏 I’ll get back to you when im done doing the shadowork and look back how far ive come 😢
Sending you tons of love, my friend! You got this 💜💜💜
detached,
(........is an excellent way to describe it...)
With much knowledge comes much sorrow
Thanks for tuning in! Some other videos along this line for you:
Lonliness During a Spiritual Awakening: th-cam.com/video/paOPp_i4Ovo/w-d-xo.html
Protect Your Energy: th-cam.com/video/u6pr8aBdD90/w-d-xo.html
How to Release Anger: th-cam.com/video/5PT-jj6SCgo/w-d-xo.html
You Are Love: th-cam.com/video/_ei9jo9RxIY/w-d-xo.html
This is so true, it hurts.
It’s such a visceral dissolution of what one thinks is real…
Have to come back to the video later :( the smiles and laughing, made me burst into tears and reaffirmed that no one understands 😭😭😭 not strong enough for that atm
Only commenting so I don’t lose the video
Nope, couldn’t come back and finish it.
Stop smiling and laughing it’s disgusting .
Hey my friend, so sorry I’m just seeing your comment now. I understand how the laughing would be painful when you’re in the thick of it. I made a different video about the dark night of the soul that might be easier to watch: th-cam.com/video/-DNUylUcCco/w-d-xo.htmlsi=c5PKODy2kMqvpYxl
Sending you so much love 💜
Big thanks for this upload! Depression is devastating but we can crush it!
Yes we can! 👊
@@VanessaOoms
Hello 👋
Gotcha!
Excellent work
The trick I think is
To stay on course
And to NEVER forget why
We cultivate our minds!
Constantly planting fresh
Flowers 🌺🌹🌹🌹
Which really are
Fresh new ways of thinking
And
How we can bring more joy INTO
OUR days/ months/& before we know it
Our # 1 reason for being
Is to
Track down what makes you & me
Happy
And to add that.
Journal your discoveries
That way you can see it
When your feeling good
&
REFER to it
I don't even use the word anymore
Because as a creative type
My wild is all about WORDS
So I took a page from
Winston Churchill's play book
& Call it
" The black or white dog is out
Today"
( I'll let you guess which is which)
-LOL HAHAHA 😀
Some folks are not as sensitive
& I totally get that
Lastly
Is my greatest discovery
And that is
Since I personally believe in
Words and THIER vibration
In my life
They're rythm
Then I stay with the highest
Vibe
Words
Thoughts
Etc
It's not perfect but it totally
Works
That no matter what happens
& Since I have
No power to effect what happens
I stay in my Lane
Since I have 100 percent
Control over me
I use that as power
After all it's a bundle of
ENERGY
And at any given moment
I simply go for the BEST
Feeling thoughts I can
Think & begin to talk myself
Into a better situation
Because
Every action
Is
Preceded
By
Our
Thought about it
Right?
Take good care 💅😘
@@marilynmoney2771 YES!! Couldn’t have said it better myself. Constantly planting fresh flowers 🌹🌷🌻 I read your message over a couple times and it feels like we’ve had parallel journeys 🤗 Thanks for sharing your light!!
This is severe, and all I pray for is to feel happiness again. 😐
Sending you so much love my friend. 🤍✨🤍 There’s a purpose for the dark periods we have to endure, and we can’t rush the process. You will feel happy again!
@@VanessaOoms thanks dear, love and light to you 🌸🌸✨
Yeah, I hope it all makes sense someday 😅
@@JaiKaalika it will 🤗💕✨ Hang in there!
In my experience, praying doesn’t help. It makes things worse. at least for me. I don’t know why. I feel like a victim when I’m praying.
It’s better to sit down and listen to your feelings, what is it that makes you feel that way? And then realizing there is nothing to Wort about x
Yes. Absolutely. You know, I go in and out of remembering who I Am. I Am. I Am Spirit. A Spiritual being having an Earthly experience. The outside images fool me, so I forget. Then I step out of peace. I fall victim to the illusion. Only for a time though. As you said, this too shall pass, and it always does. The longer I practice Spiritual principles the shorter the distance in-between times that I fall victim to the illusion. The illusion in which Ego lives. Because I Am awakened from the illusion, my Soul is happy! Then when I accept the illusion again, my Soul gets sad. Because it finally has told me and I know who it is. So it no longer allows me to be out of alignment without an indicator. An alarm. One that tells me to gently glide back into alignment of who my true identity is. The Spirit of God. Loves...
Thank you. This is one of the best, gentle and authentic explanations I’ve come across on TH-cam. Very resonant and reassuring 🙏✨
Glad to hear that this resonated for you, my friend 🙏🏼🤍 sending you a big hug
Thank you so much for sharing! I'm about 6 months in and have my ups and downs with this. This was so well explained and made me feel so much better. I definitely feel like some shadow parts of me are hanging on and I am experiencing ego deaths.. the void feels so weird and scary at times. Lonely, ungrounded and floaty for sure!! I related to so much of what you shared. It can feel like a roller coaster but thankfully, I'm learning, that there are breakthrough moments once they pass! I'm glad I discovered your channel. Much love 🙏🏼❤💕😊
I'm so glad to hear that this video helped you. Much love 🙏💜✨
Thank you for the good info. I have ups and downs and struggle. I miss the bliss of the beginning of the awakening. It’s was so beautiful. I’m trying to figure out how to get back there.
Love your backdrop. That looks like pure bliss and I picture myself in that environment 😊
Thank you for your video and the great words of wisdom…..
Thank you! It truly is bliss in the mountains 🏔️ 🤗 I was watching this video earlier and your comment reminds me of it - the ever expanding and contracting process of awakening: instagram.com/reel/CxgH4V1oRLR/?igshid=NzZhOTFlYzFmZQ==
Wishing you a beautiful day my friend 🙏🏼🤍
Miss Lady I can't express how grateful & SPOT ON U R🥺you covered all my questions & concerns. Most of all gave direction to understanding. I can't thank u enough 😩 I mean it. Thank you so much 💕💕💕 so greatful u did this video for us. Confirmed so much & so greatful it's a journey & that the exhaustion & depression part of awaking is NORMAL. Bc u cud feel like your losing it🤯. There is more to life & this world & it's terrifying once u register that you have to learn everything over & download truth, awareness & understanding. It's actually very beautiful. Thank u for the encouragement..
Ps. Do u have any videos on meditating
Hello my friend! I’m so glad to hear that this message resonated for you and gave you some encouragement! 🤗🤍✨ Yes, it can be overwhelming to realize that you have to relearn everything…relearn how to live! But the process is so, so worth it. I believe I have some videos on meditating. I’ve recorded quite a few meditations. I will find them for you.
There are some meditation videos here: th-cam.com/play/PL1cCKTGzGkfKsXNVmt6amBDtRl8gBcaTv.html
I realize I haven’t really made many videos on HOW to meditate. Would that be helpful? If there’s anything you’d like me to make a video on, please let me know.
Much love,
V
Sometimes it feels like if I just had all the money in the world everything would be wonderful and joyful but deep down inside I know the money wouldn’t truly do anything for my soul.
For reals. I’ve had the same thoughts, but my soul knows there’s so much more to life 🙏🏼💜✨
so grateful i found this video tonight, thank you so much. A few weeks ago I started feeling more drawn to spirituality and I was getting excited to learn more, do my own research, start meditating more, I even did a full moon reiki the other night. But ever since I did that reiki session I have had insomnia and today, a pretty intense panic attack that I'm still coming down from. It's like ever since I started leaning into this more, the more I've gotten scared and anxious suddenly. I never suffer from panic attacks unless I've smoked too much which has happened once or twice. This is the first time I feel like I'm paranoid and panicked while being completely sober. I know it's connected to this awakening - I even woke up from a nap the other night and heard bells ringing and read that it can be a sign of a spiritual awakening. I think my brain is just not able to comprehend yet that this is happening and now I'm extremely sensitive, nervous, and anxious and can't sleep. It has been so scary but this video helped me feel less alone
Hey, I’m glad this video helped you 🙏🏼💜 Sounds like your crown chakra opened right up during your reiki session! It can be so discombobulating when you open yourself up to all this energy. Do you have ways to ground yourself? If it gets to be too much, you can ask the energy to tone it down a bit. Also, in meditation you can close your crown chakra by visualizing a lotus flower on the top of your head and watch it close down completely. You can open it again when you want to, but you can do it when you’re in a more quiet space so that it’s not constantly open and overwhelming. Hugs 🤗
Thank you for putting this out.
Lots of love to you 🙏🏼💜✨ You got this
Thank you for taking the time to make this.
Definitely uncharted. Definitely scary. Not at all what I want for my life.
But the thing is, up until this video, I didn't have the urge to make any changes. And even that is like "wtf is my deal?"
Tomorrow might be different, but at least I know I'm not alone, and I came come back to this.
You’re definitely not alone, my friend. I know how confusing and challenging it can be. And yeah, when you look back on how you were living you can have many WTF moments. Try to be gentle with yourself. You were doing the best you could with what you knew at the time. Hugs 🤗 ✨
@@VanessaOoms I believe "ego backlash" is the culprit.
Thank you for the response. ❤️
@@VanessaOomsthank u 😢
@CreatorFrequency Sending you so much love 🙏🏼💜💜💜
Yes! Its so helpful to hear this, it resonates very well and I think for many who had a sudden awakening late in life not having much relgion or deep spritual beliefs in their lifes and dont feel like going down that path I think Vanessa points out some other ways to go about it. This video will stay with me for a long time. Thank you and your beautiful soul!
Thank you so much for your lovely message. I’m glad to hear that this resonated 🙏🏼🤍✨
Thank you for the reminder beautiful angel!! I love you 😍
I love you too Heather! 🙏🏼💕🕊✨
OMG thank you so so so much for this! I don't feel like I'm alone or going crazy! You've helped me see the next step I need to take...work with my shadows.
Sending you a huge internet hug, Nicholas! You’re definitely not along on this journey. We’re here to support you 🤗🤍✨
@@VanessaOoms Beautiful! 🙂
Thank you for sharing. I really connect with you on a soul level. I hope to get to the point you are at. I try hard everyday
Sending you tons of love, Grace 🙌💕✨ you got this, and I’m here if you ever need to chat.
@@VanessaOoms you are so special. Thank u dear 💖
Thinking of you! 🤗💕✨
@@VanessaOoms Aww sweet! ☺️ thats a blessing in itself ❤️❤️
Girl this awakening is REAL ..
Carbon copy. Amazingly me. Unbelievable. This is my currant experience. Never giving up. Thank you for pointing this out.❤🙏👍👍👍👍
@@Kevin-mz1ni much love to you. Glad this resonated. Hang in there! 🙏🏼💜✨
That’s Been going on around. 30 I’ve been awake to our family in heaven and I’ve wanted nothing but to go home so I worked and took care of my children until the last 6 years you are spot on
Sending you a huge hug, Cindy! 🤍🤍🤍
So wonderful, Vanessa, and so similar to my own voyage to self discovery. Thanks so much for following me!
And thanks for following me, Fergus! Looking forward to connecting and reading more of your lovely book reviews 🤗🤍✨
Oh my goodness this is exactly how I’m feeling you nailed it
I understand the connection between spirituality and depression...but check vitamin d3 and vitamin b12 levels in blood too
Yes! 👏 This is so important. Supplementing with B vitamins made a big difference for me in mood and energy levels
this was such an understanding warm hug
Glad to hear that 🤗✨
Thank you for this video. Beautifully explained and it deeply resonated 🙏🏻❤️
Glad to hear this resonated, sister! Appreciate your support 🙏🏼💕 and congrats on your book!
Oh good, I'm not the only mad person on this planet. I've found a soul sister!
Indeed you have!! So glad to have you here 🤗
I just came across this. Thank you!! I'm struggling so much worth the uncomfortableness of radically accepting all the ins and outs of me and others. No one told me or would be like that lol all my family thinks I'm nuts. Pretty much all my friends don't understand either. I've wondered if I was just going nuts. Oddly enough there videos to help with that too. Must be more common than I thought. How do I get the will to live again??
Hang in there, my friend! Everything is super tumultuous in the beginning, and it can be hard to find people who understand. That’s why I took to the internet and started this channel and my Facebook group Evolving on Purpose - feel free to come join us there. It’s a wild ride finding balance and acceptance after an awakening, but you are definitely not alone! 💜
Everything u say it true I'm in that stage too.
Sending lots of love your way! 🙏💜✨🕊
Love you Guru
🙏🏼🕊💕✨
Thank you for this video. It really helped me understand what I feel.
I’m so glad to hear that! Sending you a big internet hug 🤗 ✨
Hey Vanessa, Thnks for your message my dear , nicely spoken ❤, I know this, been in the dark night for 6 years now, and felt all the ascension symptoms ... now I am falling into a depression fase again, a new dark night... because my psychologist who has helped me so much through my awakening, is going to retire..and my aunt who also did help me has dementia... so feeling alone, old feelings coming up, fear, sadness, pain in my heart chakra.. .. and depression.... it's hard to be with right now Vanessa, have to keep the faith, and trust God... it also feels like I am changing into another person... maybe less dependent and moving towards my inner strength... but for know.. it sucks... just wanted to share... God bless..much love 🙏🏻❤🤗 Erik
Hey Erik, thanks for sharing. Sorry to hear about your aunt’s health declining. 😔 It’s strange how things like this will pop up in our life as we shift…and sometimes to encourage us to change. Sounds like you’ve got good awareness of why the shift with your helpers is happening at the same time…to take you into greater inner strength and closer relationship with God. Doesn’t make it any easier though. I feel your heart and understand where you’re at. Sometimes all you can do is just take things one day at a time. Focus on the positives, express your gratitude, and allow yourself to feel all the emotions that come up. It’s not easy, but it will get better. God bless you. You are never alone 🙏🏼🤍✨
@@VanessaOoms Hey Vanessa, thank you for your kind and heartfelt words... 😪🙏🏻❤, you are saying the right words...I feel them... so nice to hear someone who understands... thks for the advice... it is indeed a shift... a new awareness is rising, that also means crazy emotions, fear from the ego, pain and sadness, feeling of losing yourself, etc... I think you can relate Vanessa.. it's all for the higher good ...but it takes strength to just be with them and trust God... which I do. Tolle said it right about the painbody..it is active now.... feel and let go... it's also scary to feel this new consciousness arising somehow Vanessa...😳,.. also to be with this and let it integrate... what are your thoughts ? , your last name Ooms, sounds Dutch, is that so ? 😊👍🏻, I am also from the Netherlands.....let me know...God bless, Namaste..❤🛐🦋 Erik
@@Buddhamaster44 Hello Erik from the Netherlands 🇳🇱 🤗 My dad’s family came to Canada from Belgium in the 1920’s. I’d love to go there and visit one day!
And yes, I know what you’re talking about. I’m my experience, every level of ascension brings with it a void and an unsettled feeling. Your beliefs get rewired, and it takes a while for your system to catch up to the spiritual changes that are happening. It feels scary and uncertain…like sailing in uncharted waters…because you are. Keep God as your North Star, ask for help and guidance, and you will keep on the path. It’s true that it’s all for your good. Sometimes we have to ride out storms to get to the calm. You’ve got this!
@@VanessaOoms @VanessaOoms Hey dear Vanessa from Belgium 🇧🇪❤, you really have to visit Belgium it is a nice country, lovely chocolate and lots of different nice beers.. 🍻...they are our southern neighbours.
I understand your warm kind words Vanessa, thank you.. been in the dark night for 6 years now...we have to ride the waves indeed, being in the doldrums sometimes.... and every time when a purging cycle comes along we have to be with it... like now for me... it is heavy Vanessa, lots of pressure in my heart chakra... combination of fear and pain.. anxiety... and on top of that you feel lost... 😪🙏🏻, again.. I am doing my best to be with these energies... like so many of us, the full moon is also coming up on the 8th.... so it is more intense for me now, don't know how you are feeling ?, ...but your words support me , ❤🙏🏻,thnks so much.. . The closer to the truth the more fear comes up.......I trust God, ask for his guidance and strength... also for the rest of our awakening community..🙏🏻🛐....wishing me and you all the strength....trust...faith ...bless love Namaste Dutch Erik ❤🙏🏻
Hey Dutch Erik, 🤗🤍 I feel you! I’m going through a massive purging cycle right now and it feels very isolating and strange. The full moon accentuates it. Once again, God is showing me that things I thought were true actually aren’t, and he’s showing me people’s intentions toward me. It’s hard to accept. But accept I must. On the flip side, I’m also being shown great possibilities and opportunities, and being given instructions on how to move forward.
I watched a movie the other night about American actor Jonah Hill and his therapist. It was really beautiful! In it they said that pain, uncertainty and constant work will always be part of our lives. There’s no getting around it. Hearing this brought me comfort, and allowed me to rest in the fact that I don’t have to be striving for perfection like I’ve always believed I had to. I can just be in life with whatever comes, and know that I can handle it and get through it…even if it’s difficult. Even if it’s the exact opposite of what I want…there’s a purpose for it. I might not see the purpose for a while, but eventually I will and it will all make sense. One foot in front of the other, we walk into the kingdom. Much love to you. 🙏🏼✨
I don’t know if it’s from awakening spiritually or because as soon as it started to happen, it was like the world became my enemy. I was robbed a bunch of times and the homeless people that I was helping, robbed me when I had to go to the hospital, and I had my job broken in a fight with a bunch of gangsters. The reason is because I started to share these truths with people because I was excited to know, and therefore share it was like I was evangelist, but instead of having Jesus, I was sharing with people the truth of who they are inside. Anyway, just lead to depression and even substance abuse. I was trying to numb myself, and I even started to question if I was even on the right path. But I thought the depression that I have was because of the substance abuse that I did for a little while. It wasn’t like I was a drug addict for years. Maybe it has to do with the fact that I don’t have anything in common with anybody anymore. I basically just watch videos on TH-cam and feel like every day is exactly the same. I miss the big city where I could share with others. Over here in Ohio all people do is cut their grass
I’ve experienced depression before and after awakening. What I noticed for me personally is that I was pretty good at wearing a mask before my awakening when I used to be in such phases and kind of cover it up. Afterwards however it’s like you can’t ignore the things that bother you any longer…maybe this is what makes the depression even more difficult after awakening. Plus that you actually feel so alone and can’t relate to your friends and families anymore.
Oh 100%! I think back on the times before my awakening and no one around me knew how much I was suffering because I hid it so well. Now when I have those times (which are much fewer now), I can’t hide it, and don’t feel like hiding it. And you’re right, you can’t ignore the things that bother you anymore. You’re becoming more authentic and it’s like there’s no more space for anything that isn’t aligned…and you’re done trying to force it.
And that loneliness is exactly why I started this channel - so that others wouldn’t feel alone in this process. It’s so strange and isolating to feel like you can’t relate to the people around you anymore… in my experience, I’ve come back around to a few people and we’ve found new ways of relating. With others, however, the space between us just got larger. You’ll find your way, my friend. Sending you so much love! 🙏🏼🤍✨ You’ll find many friends in the comments section on my channel. You can also reach out via email to vanessa@ vanessaooms.com
@@VanessaOoms Hey Vanessa, thanks a lot for your words. I very much appreciate your kindness :)
I was having intense fear and worry over the last 2 months or so, but interactions with like minded people helps a lot. my awakening began at the end of last year. Ever since it’s been an up and down, but the things I found out about myself, the existence of god and the love that one experiences when in the present moment makes the struggle worth it.
Totally makes it worth the difficult times. I’m glad you landed on this page. Connecting with like minded people makes the whole journey a lot easier! Much love to you 🙏🏼🤍
i do listen
(.........i just have to hear the same message ten thousand times before i understand it...)
it just sucks that my ego death comes on the back of a hard breakup, and dealing with underlying autism, cptsd and bpd.
Sounds like you may have met your twin flame and you may have a narcissistic caretaker that raised you. My story was very similar
I feel so depressed. I feel like I'm questioning my own existence
I feel you! This comes with awakenings and the dark night of the soul. I have a video coming out about this on Sunday 💜✨ Hang in there!
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Hi Vanessa! I've read you saying somewhere in the comment section that you watched a movie in which was said that pain, uncertainty and constant work will always be part of our lives. I think I agree with the uncertainty and constant work part, but the pain part to me is kind of a different beast, as to me that part in particular seems to present itself in different ways as we progress in life. At least thats how I feel about it. To me, pain is closely linked to suffering, meaning, suffering is the perception of pain from your own perspective. Look at it from an ego's perspective and you most likely will either be hard on yourself as you will feel some form of guilt that this pain is inflicted upon you, OR look at it from a souls's perspective, and you will feel the impetus to plough through the darkness so you can transmute all of the pain into something that (on the long haul) will actually feed your soul and make you a better person. And with a better person I don't mean, someone who is superior to other human beings, but simply someone who is better aligned with the universe. And in order to surpass your ego you simply (not really simple in practice though) have to go with whatever flow the universe provides you with. If I'm being really honest with myself, I have no real difficulty now with surrendering myself to that flow. At least not to a large extend. The only caveat for me personally lies in the fact that I'm somewhat scared of what I will become solely from an ego's perspective, meaning: How will I explain to the people who are with me now (family, friends etc) the person that I'll become later. It's even so that I'm not scared of being rejected later on or frowned upon at a certain point, as my believe and resolve can't really be shaken in any way, shape or form. It's just that I don't wanna HURT anyone. Not purposefully by the way I act as I progress on my spiritual path, and not inadvertently either, as the impact it might have on them may present itself as 'collateral damage'.i In my personal opinion, being scared of integrating and 'explaining' the person you'll become is the main culprit of all the anxiety that faces us during a ego death/soul awakening - from an ego's perspective that is! All of the other uncertainties that fall upon us as our soul awakens have more to do with us not 'wanting' to entertain the notion that we are FAR more powerful and compassionate then we ever give ourselves credit for. (We simply can't see ourselves as that powerful, extremely compassionate entity, coming to terms with that notion requires a lot of soulsearching and some back-and forth play from soul to ego and vice versa). It could be that of all of the life experiences that have stuck with you, some have already put you in a disadvantaged postion. So maybe you're already scared or terrified from the get-go, scared of not fitting in, being rejected, frowned upon, not being loved for just being you, etc. In that case the awakening process will let you deal and wrestle with that first. This is hard enough already. imagine then placing a second layer on top of that as you progress towards ascension of the soul! I'm a firm believer of the fact (imo) that the ego's fear is mainly a SOCIAL fear.
As long as you believe that some people will always be there for you, and even when some leave, you will find new people that walk along with you on your way towards ascension, you will be fine. (Still a challenge though). Keep being you, Vanessa! :)
Thank you for your words, I resonate with everything you said. Can I ask you if you also offer private counselling?
Hi Daniela, I do offer 1:1 spiritual coaching sessions. You can read more and book here: www.vanessaooms.com/spiritual-coaching-with-vanessa-ooms-2/
If you have any questions, feel free to email me at vanessa@vanessaooms.com 🙏🏼💜✨
Spot on 🙌🏼
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I think you have to go with the flow I have some really deep moods and then snap out of it again but I do use grounding stones and crystals they do really help
You’re absolutely right 😊 what are you favourite grounding stones and crystals?
Or go with the tsunami 😆
Haha yes! 🙌
How can i stop feeling afraid from people and socially anxious like why do I care so much about peoples judgement or how they would percieve me 🥲
For most of us it’s a learned behaviour to care what others think. Just remember - other people’s opinions of you have nothing to do with you. They’re filtered through the other person’s conditioning, beliefs, biases, traumas, triggers, etc. Sending you a huge hug! 💜
@@VanessaOoms Thank you 🥺🩷
Your awesome! Thanks from my heart 💜 🚣🚣🚣🦋
You’re welcome from my heart! 🙌💜✨
I feel really bad because nothings going forward. I feel tired, meaningless and unloved and this huge pressure of taking responsibility for my life. But everything I’m trying something new I feel ,,defeated“ from life, like it’s saying to me ‚ don‘t. even. try.‘
Then I feel even more bad bc nothings happening and my parents complaining to me ,,when is your life starting to change?“ and I always think ,,hopefully someday without you guys“
Hey there, sorry to hear you’re going through a tough time right now. It’s so strange to be in that place where nothing seems to be working or moving forward. While nothing external is happening, a great many things are happening within you. So many things are shifting and changing inside that are hard to explain. Sometimes we have to take time to rest and allow the transformation to take place (while still taking care of our responsibilities, of course). It can feel overwhelming, but it won’t last forever. 🙏🏼💜✨
Amazing.thank you.
Much love 🙏🏼🤍✨
@@VanessaOoms ❤️ this deserves way more views🎉
Thank you 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾❤️❤️❤️🌹🌹🌹
Much love 💜✨💜✨💜
This planet and experience is truly hell and it seems it’s like it fit everyone
It’s so strange and disheartening when you see how asleep a lot of the world is. All we can do is keep planting seeds of love and conscious awareness 🙏🏼 Much love to you
Thank you.
Sending you a big hug, John 🙏🏼🤍
Thank you ♥️
Much love to you, Mike 🤗🤍✨
I experience the same. I am in this void, and I am kind of confused, lost. So much uncertainty but I am learning to lean on myself and the divine. I would love to share my experience but too exhausted to even cook. I lost my appetite and I know but don’t know what is going on. If anyone experienced the same and write me it passed or it was temporary, I’d appreciate it! 🙏🏻
I went through a similar feelings - it’s almost like the awakening happens to push us to learn to lean on ourselves and the divine. It’s a big shift, with lots of physical symptoms and isolation in the beginning. But it doesn’t last forever. It does get better over time. 💜
I've tried medication, psychologists, psychiatrists, shadow work, exercise, healthy diet, meditation, spirituality and facing the pain for 3.5 years and everyday is the same, pure mental anguish and uncontrollable thinking. This train ride sucks.
Anything that feels bad is resistance. Flow is when you allow your thoughts to run but not judge them. Acknowledge and let go.
It took me a long time to realize thoughts are automatic and don't really represent you.
The more mindful you are of your thoughts the easier it gets to not give them your energy.
The other day a guy said something mean to me and when I observed my thoughts my brain was saying "This asshole, I wanna tell him this and that etc"
I acknowledge these thoughts were there but why act on them? Should I let my thoughts fuel my emotions and lead my actions?
My answer was no, so I let the thoughts go and didn't even feel upset.
Its hard but hang in there
Couldn’t have said it better myself. Thank you! 🙏🏼💕
I feel like u read my mind and u know excatly what I'm going through. It really hard Vee .
You have to let go my friend and trust the process. The more you fight it the harder it is
Exactly. Feeling like you don’t know what the point is anymore is a common thing when you’re in the void. This happens after you go through an awakening because your ego doesn’t know how to make sense of all these new sensations. This too shall pass 🙏🏼💜✨
Thank you
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Writing this when there are 444 likes! Any advice on finding a good spiritual advisor.
Hey that’s awesome! 🙌✨444 - as far as finding a good spiritual advisor, I would say to find someone you resonate with, who you feel comfortable around and who can hold space. Also, someone who shares your spiritual outlook is good. Feel empowered to interview people to see who feels like a good fit for you.
If it resonates, I have space to walk beside one more person right now as a spiritual companion. Feel free to email me at vanessa (at) VanessaOoms.com if interested. Absolutely no pressure. 🙏🏼✨
I am in Awakening journey, i don't know what happened to me I am become loner and also i don't take call of my friends and family members, just i a home for years, studying and feel depressed
Hey my friend, this seems to happen after an awakening. It will pass 💜 sending you lots of love
@@VanessaOoms lots of love to you as well, i have two question in my mind.
1. I heavily want to be in nature, but i feel uncomfortable when too much people around so sometimes i go for a walk around 4 am when few peoples are around, so help me with this.
2. Some people say we are social being we should live in community what your take on this.
Why is this person talking to us
From a mtn top in the snow
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Thanks for your video, however, that's not what is going on with me. I am in a Kundalini wave and it has been intense the last few days...I am so uncomfortable and all at once I just fell into depression...I would like to be able to just be with what is but it becomes frightening to me....thanks for the video Vanessa...I really appreciated your comment that we awaken gradually and thus have bouts of depression as a result of a new awareness. Thanks for all you do. Namaste'
Big love to you, Carol! Hope today was a bit easier for you. Sometimes all you can do is get to the end of the day. Remember that you can ask the energy to take it easy on you 🙏🏼💜✨🪶
I am in that state. 😞! I was using alcohol to mask , 😞😞😞😞😞
I hear you! I used alcohol to mask for many, many years. When I finally quit it was the hardest thing I've ever attempted. It wasn't just losing the crutch, but aaaaalllllllll of the repressed memories and emotions that came to the surface! Some days I wondered if I could make it! May will be three years sober. I can tell you that it is worth it to go through this and learn to be strong and get through life without alcohol. If you ever want to chat, please email me at vanessa@vanessaooms.com or DM me on IG @vanooms. Much love 🤍
It's a paradoxical journey
@@mainakbhattacharyya8988 it really is 🙏🏼
It's called DPDR
exactement cela expérience de mort imminente donc plus rien n'a de sens ...merci pour t'as vidéo et t'as page qui tombe au bon moment merci L'Univers la vie l'amour infinie la maison là haut me manque mais si je suis revenu, c'est par amour pour ma femme et mes enfants.Merci pour ce partage.C'est bizard j'ai vraiment l'impression que tu me parlé en direct, un grand merci et effectivement je veux bien de ton aide.
Glad to be connected with you 🙏✨🕊
Someone help me out please 🙏 I’m not depressed or at least I don’t feel depressed, but something is happening to me that I just don’t understand and what I’m reading here resonates with me..
I feel like many, that life is pointless, not from a depressed POV but from what I believe, to be a pointless existence, by that I mean I split from my long term partner 17 months ago, I have my kids full time, work full time, the socially engineered society is squeezing everything out of me financially, I don’t care for materialistic things, I smile often, I have a laugh with people, but deep inside I kind of feel nothing is real anymore, hard to describe, I feel like I genuinely have no life purpose, I have an ambition to leave my employer work to go self employed but then I think what’s the point I’m tired of chasing the money, to be screwed over in tax’s and guess you could call them tax’s for being alive, I feel like I want to just buy land in the woods and spend my time pottering about working on myself, instead society expects me to work 60 hrs a week just to sustain a basic life for me and my kids. It all seems pointless…I look around me and everyone, literally everyone seems miserable, so I know I’m not alone, I’m not miserable but I’m not exactly happy and feel lost and maybe I haven’t articulated what I’m really trying to say as I can’t find the words, all I know is I feel lost, lonely, isolated even when surrounded by others, and I haven’t a clue what’s going on but I don’t feel depressed… just lost in space I guess you could say. No direction. Do I have to have direction. What is the true meaning and definition of spiritual awakening, what can we expect once we have fully awakened!!!
Hey Paul, thanks so much for sharing, and apologies for the late response. What you’re feeling is totally normal during a spiritual awakening, as uncomfortable as it is. It’s like in the Matrix when Neo realizes the reality of the world he was living in… it’s a lot to process and hard to wrap your mind around. You start to see all the societal systems and hierarchies for what they are, and you know you don’t want to be a part of that, but you’re not quite sure how to NOT be a part of that and still take care of yourself and the people you care about. It’s like you’re floating in a a void between the world you once knew and a world that you haven’t quite entered yet. It’s discombobulating… this is why so many people are moving to an off-grid life or at least more self-sufficient - whether it’s growing their own veggies on their condo’s patio or starting their own business to disconnect from the system… but then there are still taxes. It takes a bit to figure out how to exist in this world while knowing that you’re not of this world. I truly believe that we’re here to create new systems to live within, and we can only do that from the inside.
But for now my friend, be easy on yourself. You don’t have to figure it all out today. Just know that you’re not alone. So many of us have gone through (and are doing through) this exact thing.
Also, in my personal experience, we go through many awakenings in our lifetimes. No one can promise ultimate peace in this existence, but life does start to get easier to negate.
I'm starting to think you are permanently outside in the snow 🌨
Haha I pretty much am!
Thank you Vanessa for sharing your insights on the experience of spiritual awakening and depression. Blessings to you all. Each one of us has an inner voice calling them to seek out their spiritual journey to reconnect with the highest aspect of themselves. Your divine consciousness is waiting to be rediscovered. We were all born onto this world as a unique divine being, however much universal wisdom has been lost along the way from unconscious distractions and unintended suffering. We should always remember that each and every one of us are infinite beings capable of achieving limitless potential. Wishing everyone in your community a transformative journey . . . th-cam.com/video/xCcBjWDqrgs/w-d-xo.html
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@@VanessaOoms Always wonderful to come across positive channels such as yours. Keep creating and sharing from the heart. Let us create a better world together!
YES!!
did you feel social anxiety during that process
Very much so. Everything was so all over the place and I felt so strange inside my body that I thought everyone around me would see it. I isolated myself for a while.
how is now dear
Now is much better, thank you. Life still has its challenges, but it feels easier to navigate. 🙏🏼
using the current measure of time,
..........i am at least,
(..............one year here longer than i thought i would be...)
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.............i am grateful to be wrong....
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i think i was given additional time for being silly.
...........d., you are silly
I like being silly
@@VanessaOoms i know. that is why i tolerate you.
merriam-webster (..first definition....to allow without prohibition. hindrance, or contradiction...)
I’ve been living in this void all my life then 😂
LOLZ same!! 😂🤍✨
Same. We're not of this world, I truly believe.
@@BlakeGeometrio absolutely agree! What I find the hardest is to balance this fact that we’re only here temporarily while at the same time experiencing and living a material life required to survive in a capitalist world.
@@shirley_valente Me too. The thought of spending life here, no matter how short or long, working in this hellish system to sustain this body is very daunting. I don't know how some do it without feeling overwhelmed.
@@BlakeGeometrio I always thought that life is easier for the ones who are still unaware that there is more to it than just this life as we know it. Ignorance is a bliss sometimes haha 😂
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Love it!
i know about the birds,
.............they don't bother me ,
(............i am surrounded instead,...
............by other animals that i,
(..............choose not to understand...)
i have yet to get one single butterfly to trust me
(...........that is my greatest failure...)
There is still so much time for that though.
@@VanessaOoms similarity is a difficult concept
@@VanessaOoms it's almost as if you and i are running a race, ...you get ahead, turn around, trodding backwards as you hurl taunting adjectives in my direction.
don't get me wrong, i do see the humor in my position....(......nothing but love for ya..)
Absorbing that bitter absurdity of creations and existence is spiritual awakening?? 🙂
Part of awakening, yes 😊
Thank you
Blessings 🙏🏼🕊💕✨