I'M DOWN TO 2MG OF VALIUM, THIS PAST 2 WEEKS HAVE BEEN HELL, PANIC ATTACKS AND THE BULLSHIT THAT COMES WITH WITHDRAWAL, I'M ON TRACK 2 BE OFF THIS SHIT ON OCTOBER 15TH 2023. THANK GOD, I WANT MY BRAIN BACK AND MY CAREGIVER CAREER. BEST WISHES TO YOU ALL, I'VE BEEN ON THIS SHIT 12 YEARS...🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 LORD HELP US ALL ❤❤❤
Just wanted to say, healing is possible. I went through it. Hardest few months of my life and I've been through an ab***** relationship and alcohol withdrawal. Stay hydrated. Force yourself to get outside if you can. Practice breathing exercises. Fish oil and B vitamins. Meditation. Don't drink alcohol. Watch uplifting videos and avoid watching shock value/scary/negative stuff. Keep telling your brain that you got this, you ARE going to heal, and youre in this together. ❤
But be aware, if you take the high dose B Vitamins,with vitamin B1, which is Thiamine, it greatly increases appetite! It's what they use for people with anorexia to make them eat! FACT. So take maybe the formula like CVS B Vitamins with only 25mg of Thiamine. It helps.
I just cherish the minutes right before I dose off to sleep because I don’t suffer in that place. When I wake up in the morning it’s like waking up and realizing I’m gonna get my ass kicked today
Thx you so much!!!! I fight the fight of my life! But fighting sometimes in withdrawal is the wrong way! I need to get healed, there is such a good life waiting for me.... deep in myself i feel that i m not mentally ill, and this is all withdrawal!
Dude I just battled benzo and sub withdrawal and just found out I have Epstein Barr Virus. I’ve been so useless, the simplest of tasks have been like doing boot camp. People don’t understand why I’m so moody and lethargic, and I can see what I must look like on the outside (A Giant Loser). I know I’m not, but I am fu!!kin struggling
Hi Dan i can totally relate to what are you talking about in this video. I was a complete mess addicted to alchol, cocaine, weed and benzos and there wouldn’t be any chance that i would abstain from drugs or alcohol more than few weeks if i wouldn’t overcome the hell of benzo withdrawal. It was the toughest thing i have ever experienced in my whole life having more than 100 symptoms including halucinations, seizures,akathisia nostop terror and agony. Today I am year and a half free from alcohol and drugs 10 months from benzos and 6 months from other psychmeds like antipsychotics and antivonvulsants. I am totally substance free now and even if Iam not 100 percent healed yet my life is better than has ever been in my adult life. In the end of the day i am grateful that i have experienced this hell because it made me stronger and better version of myslef. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and the light may be brighter than you think.Stay strong everyone.you can do it.❤❤❤
@@tinalapoint9294And so are you, Tina. ❤Sending you strength and hugs and hope. ❤️🩹You are so brave and strong, T. Keep the faith, Sis. Keep going, wow, you’ve come so far; you’re almost Free.😊🙏🏻 We. Got this, Sis. 🌬️
That is such a a great title. Nothing to fear in this world if you have endured that living hell! Those Bastards who did this to us!(I Never, until now, used that word. I felt I had to get it out).
I’m under the pressure right now being cooked alive tapering my Effexor. Your videos always give me that glimmer of hope that I need. Your doing great work man, I appreciate you.
Hey, thanks! Sorry to hear you’re going through it right now. There’s always hope of healing. I know the SNRI’s can be awful to come off of too. Keep going, my friend.
I’m at month 22. Been bedbound 95 percent of the time. I’m starting a business in my room. It’s tough because I think now if I was healthy and had energy I would kill it. But some days I’m just lying in bed staring at the ceiling. Tears rolling down my face. Lambasting myself to get out of bed to drag myself to my laptop to make one more step forward with the business but unable to. I’m 35 years old man living back with my parents. I completely relate to your story. You know the hell that I’m going through. I’m glad that you made this video because I hope that when I’m better I’ll. e strong. I beat myself up all the time for being lazy. But when I push myself too far I end up in bed for weeks. I have found Jesus during this time. I have been avidly consuming the bible and it has helped. Anyway im rambling as my brain is pure fog currently. But thanks. I also want to ask did you lose much fitness in your withdrawal. I used to be able to run 70 miles a week. Sun 2hr 55 marathons. Sub 17 min 5k. Now I can’t jog more than a hundred yards. How long did it take for your fitness to get back. I’m fat now and it kills me how my body has been destroyed. Thanks again.
Congratulations for what you’re achieving despite the damage! You’re doing amazing whether you know it, or not. Yes, I lost muscle mass, energy, and overall fitness level was poor for a long time. It took me a year to gain a pound of muscle
I understand your frustration with fitness, I used to weigh 170 at 6'0 tall. But now I'm 204, and loss alot of muscle mass. Sending you love and light ❤ 💛. You will get there. I have 2mg left to taper off of, it's been a long journey but worth it..I miss my former self 😕. It's ok God's got us.
Lambasting ourselves…yes, been There-still visit that Place on occasion even at almost 5 years free from Benzo Prison and all its atrocities-but I don’t stay There long. Berating ourselves, the “What If’s” and “If Only’s” would have taken me down and out if I had given in to that Voice in my head. Ignore it. It’s a liar. It’s not Us. We are doing This, friend. 💪🏻🙏🏻❤️
Right on time. I’ve been struggling SO much today. Was heading towards the abyss & then this video popped up. (I really do suspect that you’re an undercover Angel.)
Dunno if you're religious but I'm Muslim and reading more about Islam as I've gone through withdrawal. Never really looked into religion before the damage was done at all. The diamond analogy has cropped up again and again. It says its God's way of strengthening a believer and instilling gratefulness. Only the strongest people of the highest level of endurance and faith are tested this way.
What a great analogy. Going through withdrawal also led me to look into many religious and spiritual texts for meaning and answers. I hope your journey leads you to some hope, healing, and answers too. 🙏🏻✌🏻
I am starting to see this and completely understand what you are saying. I always thought I was weak etc. because of my own issues/trauma and not being able to cope with things properly. I don't know how to explain it, but I would build things up and then not have the mental capacity to handle what I created and eventually it would crumble, and I firmly believe it was benzo withdrawal that happened to me when I was in my early 20s. I currently have a job offer but it is not something I want to do but the money is pretty good. It will be too physical for me I believe right now but I am also getting that feeling that I am messing up a good thing again like in the past but this time I am learning about myself and what I want to do. Deep down I want to change careers, and this is scary to most people on its own but recovering from this is downright frightening at times. Scary is an understatement. I am so proud of myself for coming this far and while this is great news it is really ramping my nervous system up. I am not sure I am ready to enter into that kind of job yet or am I just being naturally unsure. The funny thing is I understand deep down how strong I am to survive what I have been through when hardly anyone understands what trauma I have been through on top of benzo withdrawal other that Dan & Donna. Both are deeply painful and hidden unlike physical abuse. It is tough to explain but you understand me Dan/Donna. I am scared right now out of my mind and not really sure why. I am having trouble functioning right now. I have been through worse than this so I will be ok I just am not 100% if I am making the right decision. This is my time to heal and my journey to find myself etc. but is scary as shit when I never did. I always did things for other people and not myself. In summary I understand that I can't keep saying it's damage from benzos that's holding me back. This one is difficult for me to understand and explain and I will eventually turn on myself and beat myself up. I used to be and still am way too hard on myself. I am not sure I can handle entering into the world yet and potentially doing a job that I don't like. I am grateful for the opportunity, but I am just fortunate enough to really have the time to heal and truly figure out myself and what I want to do with the rest of my life. Much Love BOb
@@bobbobarino6213 Hey, buddy! Aw, B, it’s been a little while now that I’ve heard from our J, but she’s strong. Like us. 💪🏻 She is finding her Way. Like us. She never leaves us and vice-versa; she is part of the Foundation of this sacred Space. 🙏🏻 I know it feels scary and overwhelming; this new job situation, is it for you, all it will entail…the whole of It, brother. It’s a LOT. And all of This can feel exhausting and frustrating at times; I get it, Bob. We are healing in every single moment. I am here and am sending you strength and love this morning. ❤️
@@bobbobarino6213Mr. Bob B. Awesome, how is my dear friend? It’s me, your great friend, Donna Awesome.😌Of course, my heart hopes you are out living and loving and feeling your Life! Working too, B? 🤔 Thinking of you with a big smile on my face and also one in my heart. ❤
I love this, I have often wondered the boot camp thing too. I would think that had I gone through something like military training when I was younger maybe I’d be stronger today and have less anxiety and more confidence. But it’s good to know that benzo boot camp can strengthen you and I sure hope that’ll be the case for me. Thank you Dan, hope all is well.
Awesome job! I hope the ER staff treated you kindly. Wondering if you explained the benzo withdrawal to them and their reaction? I also hope you didn’t cold turkey off the Ativan like I did, like the doctors made me, and told me I should be feeling myself again in a few days! It has been close to 3 1/2 years and I am starting to feel “normal”. Best wishes to you!
@@kellyjofrey4192 I didn’t go into my benzo story with them. I just told them that I was highly allergic to benzos. I didn’t cold turkey…it took me 13 months to taper 1 mg of Ativan. I’m 5 months off and having issues but I’m better than I was a few months ago. I’m glad that you are feeling better.
Isn’t refreshing to know that it’s all anxiety. Just thoughts which can be controlled. I’m not saying it’s easy by any means I’m only a few days into withdrawals right now and it sucks ass but I actually feel good. A lot of times the overwhelming feelings of just feeling everything can be mistaken for fear, but it’s not.
Makes perfect sense Dan. It’s very encouraging to hear your message. So looking forwards to getting on the other side - where you are now. I’ve heard it so many times - that nothing ever seems to faze people again after Benzo withdrawal . All you have described, I fully believe but haven’t experienced it as yet. ( .Nearly 34 months off now) .❤😊
Dan have you ever thought you literally lost who you were and scared you were never gonna find yourself again ? Also did your personality come back . Good emotions and everything that makes life great ? Like being happy and feeling love ? I’m scared of that . I’m alot better today but still got awhile to go
💯 had those same fears and felt like I had no idea who I was anymore, but yes, it all came back. Not sure I’m as quick witted as I once was, but I can accept that.
@@GoldenGoose70 I’m still in that process, and much better than I used to be. It’s been a very long and gradual healing process. I’d say I was able to live a “normal” life around a year off.
Hi just come across your channel really enjoying and related a lot im currently on Sertraline and Ariprosol do they come under benzos i dont want to be taking them anymore ive been clean from drink and drugs a year i always try to come off antipessents but always go back to them thanks 🙏
I'M DOWN TO 2MG OF VALIUM, THIS PAST 2 WEEKS HAVE BEEN HELL, PANIC ATTACKS AND THE BULLSHIT THAT COMES WITH WITHDRAWAL, I'M ON TRACK 2 BE OFF THIS SHIT ON OCTOBER 15TH 2023. THANK GOD, I WANT MY BRAIN BACK AND MY CAREGIVER CAREER. BEST WISHES TO YOU ALL, I'VE BEEN ON THIS SHIT 12 YEARS...🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉 LORD HELP US ALL ❤❤❤
You’re doing it Tina! You’re always making consistent progress.
Thanks Dan never give up this channel your doing a great job. Thank you. Bless you 🙏 ♥
@@tinalapoint9294Tina ❤️🙏🏻
Just wanted to say, healing is possible. I went through it. Hardest few months of my life and I've been through an ab***** relationship and alcohol withdrawal. Stay hydrated. Force yourself to get outside if you can. Practice breathing exercises. Fish oil and B vitamins. Meditation. Don't drink alcohol. Watch uplifting videos and avoid watching shock value/scary/negative stuff. Keep telling your brain that you got this, you ARE going to heal, and youre in this together. ❤
I’m so happy for you!
@@philosophicalfishing860 days off still broken sleep 6 7 hours energy is improving
Drink a lot of water. It makes a difference.It's hard to drink "too much" water.
But be aware, if you take the high dose B Vitamins,with vitamin B1, which is Thiamine, it greatly increases appetite! It's what they use for people with anorexia to make them eat! FACT. So take maybe the formula like CVS B Vitamins with only 25mg of Thiamine. It helps.
I just cherish the minutes right before I dose off to sleep because I don’t suffer in that place. When I wake up in the morning it’s like waking up and realizing I’m gonna get my ass kicked today
I know that feeling. The mornings were always the worst with the cortisol rushes.
Hi, Robert. “Cherish…” What a lovely and perfect word; 👌🏻me too, and I’m with you. ❤
Yeah mornings suck.
Make those shirts.. I'll buy one!
Haha, love it! Let’s do it. ❤️🩹🎣🙏🏻
Thx you so much!!!! I fight the fight of my life! But fighting sometimes in withdrawal is the wrong way! I need to get healed, there is such a good life waiting for me.... deep in myself i feel that i m not mentally ill, and this is all withdrawal!
Dude I just battled benzo and sub withdrawal and just found out I have Epstein Barr Virus. I’ve been so useless, the simplest of tasks have been like doing boot camp. People don’t understand why I’m so moody and lethargic, and I can see what I must look like on the outside (A Giant Loser). I know I’m not, but I am fu!!kin struggling
Hi Dan i can totally relate to what are you talking about in this video. I was a complete mess addicted to alchol, cocaine, weed and benzos and there wouldn’t be any chance that i would abstain from drugs or alcohol more than few weeks if i wouldn’t overcome the hell of benzo withdrawal. It was the toughest thing i have ever experienced in my whole life having more than 100 symptoms including halucinations, seizures,akathisia nostop terror and agony. Today I am year and a half free from alcohol and drugs 10 months from benzos and 6 months from other psychmeds like antipsychotics and antivonvulsants. I am totally substance free now and even if Iam not 100 percent healed yet my life is better than has ever been in my adult life. In the end of the day i am grateful that i have experienced this hell because it made me stronger and better version of myslef. There is a light at the end of the tunnel and the light may be brighter than you think.Stay strong everyone.you can do it.❤❤❤
Beautifully put, my friend. Love it. Love to you, and your new life. 🙏🏻💪🏻
Really inspiring
@@tinalapoint9294And so are you, Tina. ❤Sending you strength and hugs and hope. ❤️🩹You are so brave and strong, T.
Keep the faith, Sis. Keep going, wow, you’ve come so far; you’re almost Free.😊🙏🏻
We. Got this, Sis. 🌬️
That is such a a great title. Nothing to fear in this world if you have endured that living hell! Those Bastards who did this to us!(I Never, until now, used that word. I felt I had to get it out).
Yeah, everything used to feel like a drag. No more. I’m only a few days in and I have to say thank you you are currently getting me through the night.
I’m so glad to hear that!
I’m under the pressure right now being cooked alive tapering my Effexor. Your videos always give me that glimmer of hope that I need. Your doing great work man, I appreciate you.
Hey, thanks! Sorry to hear you’re going through it right now. There’s always hope of healing. I know the SNRI’s can be awful to come off of too. Keep going, my friend.
I’m at month 22. Been bedbound 95 percent of the time. I’m starting a business in my room. It’s tough because I think now if I was healthy and had energy I would kill it. But some days I’m just lying in bed staring at the ceiling. Tears rolling down my face. Lambasting myself to get out of bed to drag myself to my laptop to make one more step forward with the business but unable to. I’m 35 years old man living back with my parents. I completely relate to your story. You know the hell that I’m going through. I’m glad that you made this video because I hope that when I’m better I’ll. e strong. I beat myself up all the time for being lazy. But when I push myself too far I end up in bed for weeks. I have found Jesus during this time. I have been avidly consuming the bible and it has helped. Anyway im rambling as my brain is pure fog currently. But thanks. I also want to ask did you lose much fitness in your withdrawal. I used to be able to run 70 miles a week. Sun 2hr 55 marathons. Sub 17 min 5k. Now I can’t jog more than a hundred yards. How long did it take for your fitness to get back. I’m fat now and it kills me how my body has been destroyed. Thanks again.
Congratulations for what you’re achieving despite the damage! You’re doing amazing whether you know it, or not. Yes, I lost muscle mass, energy, and overall fitness level was poor for a long time. It took me a year to gain a pound of muscle
I understand your frustration with fitness, I used to weigh 170 at 6'0 tall. But now I'm 204, and loss alot of muscle mass. Sending you love and light ❤ 💛. You will get there. I have 2mg left to taper off of, it's been a long journey but worth it..I miss my former self 😕. It's ok God's got us.
God bless u 🙏 ❤ 💖
Lambasting ourselves…yes, been There-still visit that Place on occasion even at almost 5 years free from Benzo Prison and all its atrocities-but I don’t stay There long.
Berating ourselves, the “What If’s” and “If Only’s” would have taken me down and out if I had given in to that Voice in my head.
Ignore it.
It’s a liar. It’s not Us. We are doing This, friend. 💪🏻🙏🏻❤️
I'm a fellow Christian as well. I wouldn't want to go through this without the lord.
Right on time. I’ve been struggling SO much today. Was heading towards the abyss & then this video popped up. (I really do suspect that you’re an undercover Angel.)
Glad I uploaded it then!😀
God help you through this, sending you 🙏 and love , your going to be ok. I'm in the same boat. Weaning off valium after 12 years.
Stay strong everybody!!!
Thank you. You too! ❤
A benzo kick ass-er ! DAN !
💪🏻
Thank you, Donna 🎉
Dunno if you're religious but I'm Muslim and reading more about Islam as I've gone through withdrawal. Never really looked into religion before the damage was done at all. The diamond analogy has cropped up again and again. It says its God's way of strengthening a believer and instilling gratefulness. Only the strongest people of the highest level of endurance and faith are tested this way.
What a great analogy. Going through withdrawal also led me to look into many religious and spiritual texts for meaning and answers. I hope your journey leads you to some hope, healing, and answers too. 🙏🏻✌🏻
You are Not Lazy!
❤❤❤
I am starting to see this and completely understand what you are saying. I always thought I was weak etc. because of my own issues/trauma and not being able to cope with things properly. I don't know how to explain it, but I would build things up and then not have the mental capacity to handle what I created and eventually it would crumble, and I firmly believe it was benzo withdrawal that happened to me when I was in my early 20s. I currently have a job offer but it is not something I want to do but the money is pretty good. It will be too physical for me I believe right now but I am also getting that feeling that I am messing up a good thing again like in the past but this time I am learning about myself and what I want to do. Deep down I want to change careers, and this is scary to most people on its own but recovering from this is downright frightening at times. Scary is an understatement.
I am so proud of myself for coming this far and while this is great news it is really ramping my nervous system up. I am not sure I am ready to enter into that kind of job yet or am I just being naturally unsure.
The funny thing is I understand deep down how strong I am to survive what I have been through when hardly anyone understands what trauma I have been through on top of benzo withdrawal other that Dan & Donna. Both are deeply painful and hidden unlike physical abuse. It is tough to explain but you understand me Dan/Donna.
I am scared right now out of my mind and not really sure why. I am having trouble functioning right now.
I have been through worse than this so I will be ok I just am not 100% if I am making the right decision. This is my time to heal and my journey to find myself etc. but is scary as shit when I never did. I always did things for other people and not myself.
In summary I understand that I can't keep saying it's damage from benzos that's holding me back. This one is difficult for me to understand and explain and I will eventually turn on myself and beat myself up. I used to be and still am way too hard on myself.
I am not sure I can handle entering into the world yet and potentially doing a job that I don't like. I am grateful for the opportunity, but I am just fortunate enough to really have the time to heal and truly figure out myself and what I want to do with the rest of my life.
Much Love
BOb
💯. Yes, we do understand, and so does Jaclyn, 🙏🏻, our awesome and ✨for-always✨ brother.
I’m Here, B. ❤
@@donna6165 Jaclyn of course my other awesome friend. How is she doing?
@@bobbobarino6213 Hey, buddy! Aw, B, it’s been a little while now that I’ve heard from our J, but she’s strong. Like us. 💪🏻 She is finding her Way. Like us. She never leaves us and vice-versa; she is part of the Foundation of this sacred Space. 🙏🏻 I know it feels scary and overwhelming; this new job situation, is it for you, all it will entail…the whole of It, brother. It’s a LOT. And all of This can feel exhausting and frustrating at times; I get it, Bob. We are healing in every single moment. I am here and am sending you strength and love this morning. ❤️
@@bobbobarino6213Mr. Bob B. Awesome, how is my dear friend? It’s me, your great friend, Donna Awesome.😌Of course, my heart hopes you are out living and loving and feeling your Life! Working too, B? 🤔 Thinking of you with a big smile on my face and also one in my heart. ❤
It makes perfect sense
Doesn’t it though, Brother? 🙏🏻❤️ Stay strong; we’ve got this! 💪🏻
I love this, I have often wondered the boot camp thing too. I would think that had I gone through something like military training when I was younger maybe I’d be stronger today and have less anxiety and more confidence. But it’s good to know that benzo boot camp can strengthen you and I sure hope that’ll be the case for me. Thank you Dan, hope all is well.
Always great to hear from you, Paul! Thanks, and hope you’re doing ok today too.
Hi, Paulie. 🤗 Benzo Boot Camp when we were younger…if only, lol 🤔
Thinking of you today and sending you strength and love, my PF friend. 🎣
Today marks the fifth month off of Ativan and I just got home from the er. Heart palpitations and extreme dizziness…all tests were negative. 🤷🏻♀️
I’m sorry that must have been scary for you but hopefully reassuring to know that you’re healthy. ❤️
Awesome job! I hope the ER staff treated you kindly. Wondering if you explained the benzo withdrawal to them and their reaction? I also hope you didn’t cold turkey off the Ativan like I did, like the doctors made me, and told me I should be feeling myself again in a few days! It has been close to 3 1/2 years and I am starting to feel “normal”. Best wishes to you!
@@kellyjofrey4192 I didn’t go into my benzo story with them. I just told them that I was highly allergic to benzos. I didn’t cold turkey…it took me 13 months to taper 1 mg of Ativan. I’m 5 months off and having issues but I’m better than I was a few months ago. I’m glad that you are feeling better.
Isn’t refreshing to know that it’s all anxiety. Just thoughts which can be controlled. I’m not saying it’s easy by any means I’m only a few days into withdrawals right now and it sucks ass but I actually feel good. A lot of times the overwhelming feelings of just feeling everything can be mistaken for fear, but it’s not.
That's causs the test that the ers do womt catch benzo damage. It's gotta be a punch biopsy or a lumbar puncture.
Makes perfect sense Dan. It’s very encouraging to hear your message. So looking forwards to getting on the other side - where you are now. I’ve heard it so many times - that nothing ever seems to faze people again after Benzo withdrawal . All you have described, I fully believe but haven’t experienced it as yet. ( .Nearly 34 months off now) .❤😊
It’s definitely changed my life in many ways.
Sometimes i think God knows how hard headed some of us are. So he allows us to go threw hell fir awhile to humble us so we repent.
Dan have you ever thought you literally lost who you were and scared you were never gonna find yourself again ? Also did your personality come back . Good emotions and everything that makes life great ? Like being happy and feeling love ? I’m scared of that . I’m alot better today but still got awhile to go
💯 had those same fears and felt like I had no idea who I was anymore, but yes, it all came back. Not sure I’m as quick witted as I once was, but I can accept that.
@@philosophicalfishing
How many years did it take to heal?
@@GoldenGoose70 I’m still in that process, and much better than I used to be. It’s been a very long and gradual healing process. I’d say I was able to live a “normal” life around a year off.
Hi just come across your channel really enjoying and related a lot im currently on Sertraline and Ariprosol do they come under benzos i dont want to be taking them anymore ive been clean from drink and drugs a year i always try to come off antipessents but always go back to them thanks 🙏
Hi! I too took antidepressants for many years on and off. They are in a separate class from benzos.