living alone diaries: comforting loneliness when it arrives and late nights making lasagna soup

hey boos 🫶🏾,
lasagna soup is on the menu tonight and it's now my favorite comfort meal to make. the recipe is so simple and it just soothes my feels when i'm deep in them. if i'm being honest, this is what most of my nights look like cooking dinner and living alone. i wouldn't trade this peace for the world, but it most certainly gets lonely at times.
i'm learning to comfort those feelings of loneliness when they arrive. i understand that i am not alone, but rather lonely at times and that's absolutely valid. what are some ways you self-soothe when you find yourself experiencing feelings of loneliness?
overall, this was a pretty good past to weeks. unfortunately my camera settings were messed up and no sound was recording while i was vlogging on my birthday, so i decided to just hold those memories sacred with me. thank you for all the birthday wishes, i had a really good day!
anyways, i hope your week is going amazing! sending you big, big hugs. take care all ways, always. enjoy! xo ❣️
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camera: Sony ZV-1 & iPhone 13 Pro Max
editing software: Final Cut Pro X
music: Soundcloud & Epidemic Sounds
#livingalone #vlog #motivation

[@Ms.Robinson__]

Young woman, you are waaaay more together than I was at 27. Please continue to enjoy this time in your life and know that you are blessed.

[@Novembersongbird]

Amen..Same here..

[@kristinagerth4203]

No fr❤

[@shoo0c621]

me toooo❤️ lol

[@AmaniRakeia]

aww, thank you so so much for this sweet and gentle reminder. i truly don'y take for granted my blessings. just in search of finding and bringing out my truest and most vibrant self. we'll get there, but i feel like i'm getting really close. thank you for following along my journey. 💗

[@LaTonyaBrewer]

How true this is! I love that for them 💕

[@brixandblooms]

I'm married but one thing I can say about living alone is you don't have confirm decor with anyone else and nothing gets moved. You keep a cleaner home with less people naturally. I think women are more relaxed in their own spaces. I can imagine it gets lonely though. I started a vinyl Collection. Nothing replaces human interaction but it's definitely a fun hobby.

[@ItsWorkingTogetherForMyGood]

Yes 👍
Women can just 'be' when alone.

[@xoliswakali15]

Amani... Your videos almost give me permission to 'figure' my life out. Thank you for choosing to share your life with us. It is truly inspiring ❤️

[@AmaniRakeia]

wow, this made my heart smile. you always have the power and the option to change or re-write your story line. this is your life and no one can tell you how to live it i am rooting for you my love!

[@melissaknight3438]

I feel the same way… I’m starting out on mapping my life journey, soon to be divorced and single!
Your vlog, is giving me inspiration and motivation to do me on my next chapter.

[@liz.j6822]

Your videos are always so comforting to watch, almost therapeutic. For me enjoy living alone so much that I'm not sure I want to live with anyone ever.

[@shivon.monique]

Live your life! I moved many times. Do it, you have many years to find a space! 🤸🏿‍♀️🎵 There are no rules. Be thankful for the lessons, even the really deep/hurtful ones. Sending you love ✨️

[@kennedydigitals]

Hey girl!🤎Your vlogs are so therapeutic and inspiring🥹🫶🏾🫶🏾 have a good Sunday!

[@AmaniRakeia]

hi bookieeee! thank you so so much! happy sunday to youuuu 💗

[@dreamAngelXO]

I love love LOVE your transparency! healing inner child wounds in our late 20s, doing what's best for us mentally vs what others want for us. and most importantly talking about challenging relationships with parents.
thank you so much for shedding your light because alot of us are going through the same thing but we don't SEE/HEAR others talking about it so we isolate and feel extremely lonely.
happy belated birthday and happy holidays🥰

[@AmaniRakeia]

you're so kind! thank you so so much. these things are super tough to work through, but proud of myself for knowing what i need on my healing journey.

[@Manifesting_Secret_Sketchbook]

Thanks to your comment I will be watching this with the sound ON. As find this interesting

[@LoveLeeToyaTV]

Love your vlogs and editing skills! Continue to enjoy your alone time. Peace is better than chaos.

[@tinanoel5507]

Atlanta is my hometown and I love it and don’t ever see myself moving however I applaud you for figuring things out and you above the ability to do so at your will. Love your vlogs.

[@shoo0c621]

where are some safe/nice areas to move??

[@Allyplectura]

I really enjoy your channel girl…some of us will be moving to live on our own soon, and it’s encouraging how you do the self care and just enjoy …life! May you keep growing and prospering in all your endeavors! 🙌🏾🙏🏽

[@BrooklynCashmere]

Editing, music and quality are top tier. Love your space and the mocktail idea 💕

[@asham.5490]

Soon as the word astrocartography left your lips, I was like, "Oh, she finna move" (I'm woowoo) I really love that decor on your island, it captures the essence of the season so well and is attractive and modern

[@feyman1]

Your videos and your home are so beautifully curated. I truly anticipate your content. It’s just beautiful and honest. Please keep thriving sis.

[@LORRAIN-lz3wn]

Your apartment is stunning. Enjoy your quiet time sis.

[@Mirror_My_Ambition]

Move and groove until you feel its right. I've been moving since I was 21 and I can say its the best thing I've ever done.

[@beverlywight7158]

Wow! it’s so nice to see you enjoying your alone time. I’m loving this❤

[@annetteyadon878]

Omg you are literally one of my favorite people ever ❤ I’m soo happy your back 🎉 and I just love and appreciate everything you do and don’t get discouraged girl you will be okay you are strong trust me ❤ I been through it too and it does get better and you become the better person for it .

[@SoulDxpe]

So happy you're back! Your vlogs are so relaxing and realistic. Thank you for sharing with us 🖤

[@ts27612]

This vlog was absolutely beautiful in every way. Happy birthday girly!!! 🤍

[@brittneytionna2579]

Such an elegant and respectable young queen. Im so glad to have stumbled across this channel. Sending you lots of love and comfort this winter season my love !

[@acs12383]

You’re a whole vibe! Love your aesthetic please keep doing you ❤

[@muffymariah2889]

Yesssss sag season, I’ve been feeling down about turning 30(dec 8). I feel like I should be doing more, idk. But I am grateful to see another year and have learned boundaries with ppl that don’t wish me well. Happy Birthday gworl🎉😘

[@dot0422]

I love alone and love your channel and vibes. You look beautiful. Such an inspiration for me.

[@4bowwow18]

Love you down girl! Happy belated birthday 🩷 I need that playlist tho

[@jr9941]

Happy new year! Loved your quality content. Thank you for doing an EXCELLENT job with your product links! Super helpful and inspiring! Thanks for sharing. ❤

[@gkb757]

Honestly, I could watch your lifestyle in silence..., with the music it's calming and insightful.😍

[@ohjassmine]

I love this! Thank you for sharing those moments and inner thoughts. You are doing great ♡

[@braggz.]

We have been blessed yet again guyss, ty for this vlog amani❤

[@AmaniRakeia]

awww, so sweet!! always happy to share a little bit of me ❤

[@michaelbrooks8983]

I enjoy your videos along with other's and appreciate your spirit the most. ❤

[@shermaine7579]

Take your time, and discover what it is what you want to do. And be happy, I love the fact that you do self care, so that's a blessing.❤❤❤

[@princesswilliamsmommyof5]

Awww what a beautiful video. Happy belated birthday. I love your videos thank you for sharing stay blessed

[@TylheshaJ.]

Yes I admire everything about your vlogs editing ,style etc ❤

[@AmaniRakeia]

thank you so much my love!

[@jerrseyy1088]

First time viewing. Happy Belated my fellow Scorpio🎉.. you are allll the way together at 27, what a blessing! Keep pushing through and growing out loud. Subscribed:)

[@LyntonyaB.]

your vlogs are Top Tier ✨ from the music to the editing ✨ 🤎💕

[@garcia46j]

Sad to say I’ve been through multiple situations where men cheat and lie. My last relationship lasted 5 years and he was doing everyone and everything that moved. Truly crushing but one thing the come up after was a blessing. The healing process does take a while and is never fully done. This dating pool is a messss 😅 you will be just fine, it just takes time ❤️

[@misspurplerain]

Your vlogs are so soothing🥺💜

[@LadyQInspires]

so comforting i am a single mother of two girls and i’m learning how to be at peace and keep things clean on my own as well learning new things to cook also since i am a breast feeder too. but you give me motivation and tips. i love your content it’s so peaceful. im new here ❤

[@jr9941]

Happy new year Amani! Love your videos!!! Keep going sis! And I love that interesting outlook astro cartography!!! I love numerology n astrology too. So, please keep dropping those gems. So fascinated by the outlook and seeing it manifest!!! Oh, I'm definitely a subscriber too!!! ❤❤❤❤

[@cautneyonyema3167]

Happy Birthday GIRL!!

[@dewanajohnson6028]

Were ever you decide to move I hope you still vlog. I really enjoy watching your vlogs. I like your style, your smile, your decor. That dress orange/ burnt orange beautiful on you. Remember to continue to pray and let God be apart of your decision. Have a Happy Sunday. I got to make that soup one day.

[@AmaniRakeia]

girrrrrl, the vlogs will remain! youtube is my favorite place to be. ❤ thank you so much for your kind words. Definitely going to take my time and not rush into any place next. i just know for right now that i’ve made up my mind that this city is for *me* while others love it here, i feel indifferent and that’s ok! 😊

[@AmaniRakeia]

and yes! you will love the soup!

[@LadyAndrews1]

Period!! Travel and experience life before things really gets serious. I love the way you live and carry yourself.

[@bellabodyshop]

Good Morning I just started watching your channel and I am very impressed. Of all of the channels I'm subscribed to this is my favorite channel now. You are very intelligent and classy. I pray you achieve everything you desire in life. You are doing phenomenal!

[@theepitomeofstylez4740]

Happy Belated Birthday Love!!!!

[@patriciafultz]

I love your content and you being single living and loving life makes me feel better today, had lil argument with a friend. But were good. Also about my situation being single. Ty ❤️

[@sunnidayz2940]

My new favorite channel. Stay blessed young Ms.

[@Hernewnetwork]

I miss my apartment so much. Thank you for this inspiration!

[@Shamilllionaire]

You’re back! Missed your vlogs! Hope your time away was peaceful.

[@salston7002]

i thoroughly enjoyed starting my Sunday off w/ your vlog. enjoy the week:)

[@AmaniRakeia]

aww, this makes me smile! see you tomorrow 🥰

[@debrawilliams2781]

🎵🎵🎵🎵 I Really enjoy your content Especially the Jazz music, keep it coming it's a Wonderful selection and touch to the vlog. God Bless Sis😊😊💕💕💕🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

[@dawnmatthews9281]

You are amazing and think you have to figure it all out right now….. you are doing great. Keep up the great work. I’m here for it

[@annetteyadon878]

And Happy Birthday girl ❤🎉🎉🎉

[@adrionwalters2241]

🎉🎂🥰Happy Belated Birthday, Amani!💐🌹 You look AMAZING in your B-photoshoot!🎉🎉

[@Bl3ssingK]

So happy to see you doing better after the last video! And yes, you have all the time in the world so live your life to the fullest!
Also, where are your glasses from? Love them!

[@AmaniRakeia]

Thank you so, so much! My glasses are from Warby Parker. I will link them in the description!

[@ATL1999]

Beautiful. I like your pajamas and them back and side shots! 😊

[@msfashioncoco6457]

Hi Amani,
Am new to your channel. Am enjoying watching your video. This is the 2nd video I've watched.
Peace, light, and Blessings to you!

[@KelcyPassportbyDesign]

Yes to the lasagna soup. And then I used the extra ricotta to make citrus ricotta pancakes!

[@millena7]

I love watching your vlogs while I’m on my lunch break at work

[@AmaniRakeia]

awwww, thank you so much for allowing me to be a part of your day babes!!

[@motherof3pearls]

Lol, Happy Belated Birthday! November 17th is my birthday too! Continued blessings! 🙏 🥰

[@zinia.lashae]

Not me eating lasagna soup while you’re making lasagna soup 😋

[@AmaniRakeia]

omg twinsssss!!

[@libraladynior2249]

Hello sis no shade however, You should peel the onion first . But looks good 😊Also You have a lovely home… your Decor is Beautiful

[@monikhepera8038]

I always enjoy your vlogs. As for the astrocartography, I hope you talk about it in the next vlog. I had a mini reading done, and it confirmed what I’m currently experiencing being on my mars line, along with Chiron and other challenging placements. The place I had a feeling I would move to is positively aspected in my chart.

[@AmaniRakeia]

omg, i'm so happy to hear that you were able to receive some insights to what you were experiencing on your mars line! LA was where my Mras/IC line was, so trust me I know Mars energy can be a lot all at once!
I think it's so beautiful how our body knows where we want to go/be before the mind can catch up to it. I hope that you can move to that new place soon and experience more easeful energy. you deserve! 💗

[@anissa2361]

Yayy! Great way to wind down before bed.

[@yowindrahimperator6980]

Im so happy to see you and so so so happy you're back power woman❤😘lots of love from me (from 🇳🇱

[@newwomandouglas2959]

First time watching your vlogs. I'll keep watching thanks.

[@dwalker6868]

Happy birthday have the best one ever stay blessed

[@kimswrld5321]

Happy Birthday Amani ❤❤🎉

[@rosecampbell8624]

Amani you have one man who promise that he will never leave you or forsake you. You are doing good for yourself and you are beautiful ❤❤❤❤

[@jcs3330]

I have lived alone since 2020, after losing someone extremely close to me. But prior to that I have lived alone before for periods of time my life. For whatever reason has individuals we live alone, and what can come with that, (in the 'noise and also in the 'silent' moments) we become more resilient and choosy who we 'eventually' allow to share our special space.
Although I do get it when you board a plane for vacation, dine in a restaurant or just take a walk in the park etc, solo, that those times could be better.

[@90sflimlover]

I love your introduction to your vlogs it takes me back to a beginning of a bad ass Spike Lee film ❤❤❤❤❤

[@AmaniRakeia]

hehehe i love that!! thank you so, so much!

[@patinajadeatherton2385]

Your apartment style is absolutely impeccable. 👌🥰

[@mathilda4028]

I have never heard of lasagna soup before, I will definitely try it.

[@user-mb9jx5tx9y]

That bar looked fun and the food looked good.

[@kimswrld5321]

Girl yes you sound like me I’m not going to settle until I find my way I say go for it girl live your life take advantage of the free life girl ❤❤

[@PendletonNorth]

luv this.

[@winniejack2492]

U r young. I got married at 23 and 33 yrs later and adult kids ur age life is good. Keep doing u and that someone who deserves u and matches ur vibe and personality will show. ❤️

[@NorasNarrative]

Love your videos !

[@jaylindoxey]

Omggg bestie posted !!!!

[@Novembersongbird]

The music edit is fire. You are truly doing better than I was at your age..Enjoy this time it will all be worth it. Sometimes we have to kiss a few frogs before we run into our Prince.

[@toyaevette3155]

I love the couch! Did it come in other colors?

[@greenteamoton3274]

Happy birthday! I am going to miss going to all the places you go to here in Atlanta, I haven't tried that salad place yet. But I get it. I don't see anything wrong with moving to different places, I wish I had done that when I was younger. I didn't see that thick robe you had on at 17:50 listed. Where did you get that robe? And you love those strong matcha lattes, 😄

[@nathanbarnes2015]

I like your vibe ❤

[@TishLMack]

I love your style❤

[@BeeAelia]

The drink in the beginning looks delicious 🤤

[@AmaniRakeia]

it's my favorite thing to make almost every other night!

[@mrnatebarnes]

Thanks for sharing. Your vlogs. You are inspiring

[@lindalinda9441]

Girl, love everything about your video!
I am curious as to why you didn’t peel your 🧅 onion.. lol do you really eat the peel? ❤

[@Manifesting_Secret_Sketchbook]

Hey there your home is Lovely so WELL DONE. Not sure what country this is as viewing first time?
I think its time we had a makeover in our own home. Nice to see how other decorative theirs.
Anybody here feel like relocating to another Country?

[@luxuriemills]

Proud of you! I moved from ATL. Come to the DMV!!!

[@Nelzeastcoast]

That lasagna Soup looked DELICIOUS 🤤 Idk why when you were sitting there eating, I imagined the Helen and Charles scene 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 love you 💓💓💓

[@AmaniRakeia]

lolllll gurrrrrrrllllll i don't need that energy my way, but I am cracking up 🤣

[@Nelzeastcoast]

@@AmaniRakeia 😂😂😂😂😂😂💗

[@wahoo4uva]

i relate to you so much although i have *several* more years than you on this earthly plane. i, too, move around a lot and feel that i probably am leaving the state i moved to in may 2022 when my lease is up in july 2024. it’s OK here, i can take it or leave it. it’s also not my style. so…feeling like, leave it! it’s a huge benefit of having location independent work and lots of freedom/flexibility in my life stage.
curious to see where you land. i’m not certain where i’m moving to next but have in mind a location i wanted to return to this year. maybe things will line up for me there this time - if i don’t feel a pull to somewhere else lol.
LOVE that you spent thanksgiving with your friend and building neighbor eating lasagna soup and drinking wine! 🧡✨
you’ve inspired me to try the magnesium mocktail. off i go to get the ingredients on a sunday - a day when i rarely leave the house.😊

[@AmaniRakeia]

i am sending you so much love and hope that you find the best place for you soon! please tell me how you liked the magnesium mocktail! it's so yummy to me and soothes me!!

[@albaimussa]

Just found ur channel and I love it here it’s a vibe
New sub❤

[@jacgalant2008]

I came across this video randomly going down the rabbit hole of “living alone” diaries. I would say that you should do some more research on making the movie to Denver. I recently relocated here from the east coast, where I lived up and down in multiple major cities, and this has been the hardest transition for me.
I will say the lack of humidity is a major plus but that has really been the only positive. I do feel like it’s a tad bit cheaper on the day to day to live here as far as everyday spending goes and rent amounts compared to the east coast. Granted they don’t have as many “luxury” style apt buildings as it wasn’t really that type of area so to speak.
Denver is a few hours away from the mountains so on average you more than likely may never visit, I feel like that’s a group outing so I haven’t been yet.
There isn’t the best sense of culture here and that’s not even about being a person of color, just in general, it’s a very generic city.
You will miss being back east a lot. I’m trying to give it a chance to pull myself out of a rut but it’s hard.
I usually never even comment but after watching this vid I just had to.

[@AmaniRakeia]

thank you so much for sharing your experience with me ❤. i do hope things feeling a bit better for you there in due time. i know what it feels like to be in a new city and go through a tough transition. the culture of denver is something that definitely worries me. i’m not sure if i plan on moving there long term. but i do hope to at least visit to feel it out. most certainly not in a rush for my next move. i’ve done a lot of moving around.

[@britt_facade]

Where is your shower cap from it giving an aesthetic but also protective?

[@bethanyfja]

Hi dear friend❤ Your videos are sooooo soothing, sooooo calming, sooooo comforting......theyre perfection, just had to subscribe! Love Bethany, Amsterdam🫶🏽👊🏾🥂

[@cherb3145]

Don't feel bad about the guy Amani. Some people are just dirt. It would be nice to not meet such people throughout life but they are everywhere and sometimes lives intersect. You will be alright. You are alright.

[@DrRuthMwangi]

I love you Amani. I'm from Kenya 🇰🇪. Your content is 🔥🔥🔥🔥

[@SpirituallyAbstract]

As a spiritual girly! I whole heartedly approve your wanderlust needs! Go forth & frolick!

[@cassiemarie9900]

Amani ... You are my Sunday breath of fresh air🥰... Thank you for sharing 🧡🤩

[@AmaniRakeia]

awww, this is so so sweet! can't wait to see you tomorrow! 🥰

[@ts27612]

Honestly im moving away from GA too girl, Do it!!!!

[@LibraLife47]

First I love your content. Your videos are very soothing comfy to watch. As a seasoned woman whose oldest child is 29. YOU will be in every city you move to. That same type of man is in every city in the country. Don’t move. Instead change your discernment. There was a red flag you ignored. There was a ha moment you ignored. So if that part isn’t healed you will do the same thing in Colorado. No astrology will help. Only God. Just my opinion. Been there done that before you were even born. Don’t run stand firm. You are the Daughter of King. Just fix your Crown and Glow. 💜✨

[@Trenephviews]

Now you speaking my language sis lol astrology talk *rubs hands* I am fortunate to be blessed to be born near my Venus line (my Venus is in Scorpio lol), but I would like to see what my other lines do. You got this ! Happy belated sis 🦂♏️💕🎂 I wish you all the best and you’re absolutely right, you can always leave. One thing about Scorpios they will transform their lives if needed! I want to travel next year to the east coast but I need a reading before I go 😅