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- Altgang! what’s good, in this video we react to NF Hate Myself. Not gonna lie, this one was quite heavy but the beat did balance it out. I don’t think there’s been a track that stings (not personally) as much as this when he talks about self-confidence, doubt and insecurity.
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This is my favorite song to be depressed to :)
I can see why haha
I loved the way you said that. So true that those of us who experience depression are so familiar with it it like an old sweater. And with that sweater this song is good companion. (Like some people do have a favorite sweater that makes them think of hot cocoa with snow on the rooftop.)
@@AltSpaceNate is talking to himself in the chorus.(younger to old)( past to present or future self)(future to past)(future to present).("let u down", "Nate", "hate my self")
Lmao bruh. Paralyzed or Trauma does it for me, this is too upbeat.
@@traviswallace oh yes those 2 songs most definitely!! More than other NF songs. It's like relating so much that he's comforting you and you're not alone. So it's ok to feel that and just go with it- he got you.
The line “If this is it then I feel hopeless..” just hits so hard. The idea that if this is the best life is going to be then I have no hope for better times is something I (and probably a lot of others) can very much relate to.
That's some deep shit! What's some of your other favourite lines?
this song really means a lot to me because i can relate to it so easily, i have to be in certain mindsets to listen to it because if im in a good mood it has the power to bring me back down again but when im low it gives a feeling of comfort and reminds me that im not alone
Someone put it in words. Thank you
Definitely one of those tracks you have to be in the right mindset for. What's some of your other favourites?
@@AltSpace Only & I miss the days are masterpieces.
The way he transitions from verses into his choruses...🔥
One of my favorite lines is "Pray to God with my arms open" because it's such a powerful visualization lyric in contrast to people in churches who pray with their hands together. With the "arms open" you think of that guy in the middle of the street on his knees at night time with the rain pouring down and him looking at the sky with arms fully-outstretched screaming for help from God after everything in his life has just crumbled around him.
Are you referring to the TobyMac song/video????
I already love NF songs, but seeing you break down his songs makes me like them even more. Great reaction as allways 🔥
Nearly exactly a year ago I cried my eyes out when I went to his concert. My favourite song of his, it meant a lot to hear this one live. Also I've been dealing with suicidal thoughts for over a decade now (doing good thanks to the Pandemic actually, the Pandemic kind of saved me) and I appreciate this line about this topic so much, because this is so accurate (for me at least)
Stay strong.. I've been there myself
"If this is it then i feel hopeless" i feel that in my whole soul...
"Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me" i wish i didnt relate with this as much as i really do.
😳stay strong
“I don’t want to die, I just want to get relief.” That’s the line in the song that hits me. I’m not depressed but I was recently diagnosed with cancer and I’m going through a lot of things that just want to be relieved of. And when I’m talking about relief I’m more focused on mentally draining part about having cancer rather than just the cancer itself. The bills, the chemotherapy, wanting to be treated as normal, nobody being able to understand what you’re going through, the pity from others, having to be much more conscious of your health and mortality. “I don’t want to die, I just want to get relief.”
Hey Grey, I hope you're doing well. Keep fighting, I'm glad that his music can Inspire and connect with you. What's some of your favourite NF tracks?
@@AltSpace I Miss the Days, Lost in the Moment, and Only are probably my favorite tracks from NF. Can you hold me is also really dear to my heart. Thank you for responding! I’m really grateful to you you for reading my post. Also I’ll never stop fighting. I’m thankful I got diagnosed with cancer rather than if it were someone who is close to me. I’m tough; I’ll beat it. Also your reactions are top notch! Your thoughts are always interesting and your genuine love for NF is felt in every video.
This one hits mega different. I usually stay away from this song cuz I get really depressed lmao.
It was super heavy! Good track nonetheless
@@AltSpace I agree, its a good track, I just don't like being like depressed lol.
@@AltSpace I prefer songs like destiny or grindin or intro III that are like super hype and such. They just make me feel better or like I could do anything.
@@johnjacobs0 I understand what you mean. But when you feel down, these songs actually lift you up, at least for me. Kinda like in mathematics “- and - = +”
@@disslikedaan9532 this is true... they're really nice like relax and chill songs, with a little bit of emotion and meaning behind it. Sooooo, i do see where you're coming from.
Looking forward to the "like this" reaction
LOGIC line at the end lol. I love how you pointed out the differences between the tone of the lyrics and what he was saying with the beat and how it relates to how he feels. You always do such a through job of breaking down the lyrics and wrapping it up with a philosophical flavor. Thanks man!! Keep it goin!
Thanks Jennifer, I appreciate the support! And 50 points for noticing the logic line
By far one of my favorites by NF, and also Dax killed it
I actually like that the beat is faster with the message. It feels like how anxiety just kinda floods your mind quickly and overwhelmingly to bury you. Then you get that slow down of the depression in the chorus of being finally knocked down by that constant barrage.
I actually really love this song because it shows how mental health doesn't care about your social or economic standing. The poorest person could have the richest health. I think that is one of the many reasons why his fans are so dedicated because he is able to put into words what some of us feel every day but have a hard time describing to neurotylical people. "No, you don't understand. This has nothing to do with my life right now. My life is great. My brain just sucks."
I relate to this song SO much, when I'm sad it makes me feel like I'm not alone and it feels so good..
And btw, your reactions are the best 🙌🏼
Again directly clicked when i say the notification of a new video from you, still appreciate what you are doing. Keep the good work up you keep inspiring me!
Thank you Tim, have a good day!
This is one of my absolute favorite songs because sometimes, I'm not okay and wanna fight myself.
However, on the outside, I'm still highly functioning and able to communicate brightly with others, so the mix of the lyrical matter and the instrumental/beat makes so sense to me personally in that way.
This song just really resonates with me, right down to being teased by peace, because I know it exists, I've felt it before, and I know it's obtainable, but when I'm not okay, I just can't reach it.
There's a video of him performing this song live somewhere and in the last little "verse" or whatever you wanna call it he like starts crying and you can just hear the pain and stuff in his voice. I want to see him live after all this covid shit is over because he's my favorite artist and has helped me in so many different ways. I'm pretty sure I have OCD as well, I've never been officially diagnosed with it but I sit around and think sometime so much that it gets me into these dark depressing thoughts or extreme anxiety. Just know to keep pushing to be better every single day!
This song is deep I think we have all experienced this at least a time or two in our lives and the fact that most of us try to hide it from others because of shame, fear, pride or other reasons by him putting hisself out there rapping about this very serious problem in today's world with a slamming beat sends a positive message no matter what stay positive in those times because when we come out of those situations and look back on them 9 times out of 10 they weren't as bad as we thought they were in the moment to keep your head up and rock right through it because all things shall pass
I absolutely LOVE this song. The rapid drum beat is so cool! My 10 year old grandson has been playing drums since he was 4. He is learning this song. His drum instructor said the beat is actually very difficult to play.
Yeah, no. I agree. Sad, dark song. Harsh. One of my favorites, normally I'd be all over it. But like.. My heart has never broken quite the way it did watching Dax stare down at his donut longingly after dropping it.
F, brother.
It's hard to gauge how I would have felt about this song when I was sitting in the abyss. And while I'm not out of it entirely, (Depression isn't something people just get over. For most, it lasts a lifetime and ebbs and flows.) I do feel like this song is easy to listen to because I know what's on the other side of self-loathing. Is it sad to not be able to help him find his worth? Yes. But I know there is hope for him because there was for me. It's difficult to not be able to steer someone into happiness. But NF is always "searching" - and that means he hasn't given up hope even though he says he has. People who have given up don't put in work. They sit on their asses and do nothing.
About hope: I never really questioned why the search was for hope - to me it made perfect sense. But that's probably because of my own experience. This is how I see it; I realized that hope was the most important thing i my life when I lost it - you can live without love or happiness as long as you hope for better in the future. You can live without anything as long as you believe things will get better. When you lose that (which is pretty normal to do when you spiral into a depression), that's when shit hits the fan. That's when you start to wonder if life is even worth the effort. That's when the self-loathing and self-hatred defeats you, because you can no longer invision yourself without it. Looking for hope is the most brave thing a person can do then. Even if you fundamentelly cannot see the end of suffering, you keep hoping, even if it seems futile and stupid. One of my favorite qoutes about this is "There is hope, and if I feel like there isn't hope, my brain is lying to me." -John Green. It's so simple, but it can keep people alive. Thanks for listening to my Ted-talk lol. Hope you have a good day!
You explained that so well. The moment I had lost hope, was the moment I was sure, that I wouldn't survive another day.
@@lisarhyn3368 Thank you :) I’m happy you’re still here! Stay safe.
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It’s fair to say that NF is in a better place now with self acceptance (I say this because of a line he raps in Clouds, towards the end he says “Just who I am, and I don't regret it”) I feel like when we get this part of NF, we have to remember that it’s for a particular season in his life. With him going to therapy, his wife being big on mental and physical wellness, it’s fair to say that he’s not always in this headspace. And when he isn’t; when he’s happy and life is going well for him. He savours those moments to himself (he says “keep it to myself when I celebrate” line in The Search). I try not to make any conclusions about NF based songs like this one, I just try to keep an open mind and hope for the best.
Let’s do it!
**I’m currently putting together a playlist of Andy Mineo to send to you soon. 😀
Looking forward to it!
Andy Mineo definitely has nothing but good music as well glad you're gonna check him out too 👍
Love Andy! Idk if his music is as much of a journey as NF though. He’s a dope rapper, but his sound has changed from record to record.
Bringing Andy Mineo as well ??!! That’s great
This channel keeps getting interesting
one of the more underrated nf songs alongside lie
Too true
Bruh Lie is literally one of NFs biggest songs of all time and is played on the radio. Calm down
@@northmd lol
How tf is Lie underrated?
You are the only NF Reactor I drop everything for and CLICK when those notifications come in. Another great reaction video, my friend! Make sure to listen to The Interlude right before this track because it talks about his mental state at the time for this song. To me the upbeat track symbolizes the smiles and facades we put up to outsiders when on the inside we could me a whole mess.
Thank you so much for your support, it really means a lot! I will definitely check out interlude
@@AltSpace it’s only 50 secs but SO important for the album!
Your reactions are so incredibly insightful. It's gotten to the point that I'm never surprised.
I think the the demonic voice comes out in that line because it is the crystallization of the lie that he is telling himself in the verses: that he is horrible and will never escape. So much of the entire record album talks about him feeling trapped, that he feels controlled and beholden and oppressed.
He knows it is a lie. He is just still struggling.
No one discusses mental health like Nate does, its such an important thing hes doing, breaking through the stigma thats been created. Especially for male mental health! Enjoyed your take and analysis as always!
I really love the driving fast drum beat because it moves at the same pace as his thoughts and it translates that intense, fast-paced overthinking that he clearly is trying to describe. So relatable for me.
Some of the verses in here just resonate SO much...I view this in the same kind of way as his track Change, it's a little more upbeat than this but still some total fire concepts
And possibly 'My Stress' too, again not as hard hitting as this one but tells such a story
I really love this song! The whole overall theme and the contrast between the somber chorus and the energetic yet dark verse. Makes me feel so many different emotions with a slight uplifting tone. Plus I've always had an attachment to the "breakbeat" drum style. I use it a lot in my own music.
I really appreciate your video work. Your set is clean, and I think the soft blur of the background really adds to the visual experience. Thanks for the enjoyable reactions and the work you put into them!
Thank you Luther I appreciate the support, any other artists you'd like me to react to?
@@AltSpace Colter Wall is always worth a listen. He's a murder ballad bluesman, but it's top-notch no matter one's musical preference.
Keep up the good work you are 100% in my top 5 youtubers now
Damn that's wild son! Appreciate the support, is there anything specifically you like about the channel?
This was a really great breakdown, and I love the connection you made to searching for the map to hope 😁
Great reaction and breakdown as usual, man! One of my favorite things about this song is that NF doubles the opening line of the first two verses. "Late nights are the worst for me." "Late nights get the best of me." Such good wordplay and connectivity between the opening bars. This song is pretty dark, but it was one of two that he wrote while in some pretty intensive therapy sessions. The other is Nate. Interlude gives you a brief glimpse of one of those sessions. Keep up the great work!!!
Keep it up man! Love watching your reactions
One of my favorites because of how he switches the beat which was used for the chorus and the beat used for the verses at the end I really liked that change up
I hope you listened to the interlude before this. It connects. I like this song. Very deep.
👀👀👀👀 I have to do interlude
Interlude is a great song
@@AltSpace yeah this song came right after because it connected in a sense.
@@palisade713 😂
@@NIKKI-1979 right before
Love the reaction!
I advise you to listen to the Interlude before this song.
He wrote this song when he was in a really bad place mentally. As the Interlude says it was when he realized that everything he had dreamed of his entire life, everything he had worked on, had not made him happy. So he felt like since all of this didn't make him happy, then he could never be happy.
It was the most depressed time in his life. He was having a mental breakdown.
He was doing interviews, and then sound check, and then meet and greets, and then he was meeting people and then he was doing the show, and it was like "hey when can you do this?" "when can you do that?". He had so many people looking at the things he had created, and talking about it and giving opinions. He went from none of this to experiencing it every day. His anxiety had become terrible and he felt less passionate. He was just so hopeless that he felt he would feel better if he wasn't alive. And that's why he went to that therapy place for four days, to disconnect himself from the world, and that's where he started working on Nate. In fact, for the song Nate took inspiration from one of the exercises that made him do it in that place. For this exercise he had to imagine talking to the younger version of himself and then he had to imagine being his younger version and talking to the bigger one. And because of this that he began to see a therapist normally. And this was also the period when he was diagnosed with OCD.
So, that's the backstory of the song.
Nate said sometimes things have to get a lot worse before they can get better.
I hope the best for him! I recommend you to watch this interview. It hasn't come out in full yet, but Nate seems happier in this interview, so if you wanna check it out!
th-cam.com/video/QvSSXKEe5sM/w-d-xo.html
See you at the next video!
Keep it up
This is definitely a necessary song even tho it’s dark nice reaction as always!
Really this is one of the best breakdown channels. This and Knox Hill. You have something good going on here.
Thank you my man I appreciate the comment 🙏🏾 any artists you want me to react to?
@@AltSpace I honestly dont listen to a lot of hip hop which seems to be primarily what you do on this channel. But... since I’m given the option anything by Mad Squablz. Harsh Reality is a really good track to react to.
A couple thoughts you put into words really struck me in this reaction. Money is absolutely a tool. Yes, it is necessary to survive, but it's not everything. Make it work for you. Second, we are always being sold to in some way our another. The most effective sales pitch is the one you don't realize is happening. The last one was the idea of helping yourself first. It seems selfish to some. But, if you aren't in a good place mentally, spiritually, financially, or otherwise, then you won't be able to adequately help others.
So my (musically trained) husband pointed something out to me in reference to this song and the song Trauma, and it is that they are opposing sides of the same song/situation. I don't remember exactly how he explained it, but he started playing the tune and singing Trauma on the piano while this was playing and you could tell that they were meant to play off of each other. I found it interesting anyway and thought you might too.
best song on the search
confessions of a dangerous mind by logic "put your ego on shelf and love yourself" Love the video's man look forward to the next one
Great video mate, deep song this, gotta be top tier for me
Honestly how do you barely have any likes? All the videos you do are so good!!!!
Thanks for the reaction! Definitely listen to interlude. It was placed right before this song to give it greater context. But you’re spot on either way 😁
To get deeper meaning from this song, listen to interlude before this song on the search album. It explains his state of mind before singing this song.
This one of my favorite nf song
Very good track, what are some of your other favourites?
I was waiting for this one
This song makes me in the mood of thinking to all of my life, and this is dope and the same time very deep🔥❤️
This was my number 1 played song during a certain time in my life it was dark but this actually helped me through it a lot
I know I'm late for the party, but you deserve more subs, very underrated in my opinion. Great channel! Thanks for what you do.
This song and change are my favourite songs on this album
New subscriber ! Loved the way to analysed the song . Keep up the good work
Thank you! I appreciate the support 🙏🏾
Your my favorite TH-camr
by the way you break down these songs
Thank you dude I appreciate you
Very excited to see you get into the rest of The Search and then the mixtape when it comes out. Hopefully that will take us into a new Jon Bellion album. Can't wait to see your fresh take on some new music from Mr. Bellion.
Side note...yes, I commented three different times because the algorithm ftw! Lol...
When you said game by Lupe my mind just immediately jumped to "Don't you know that I run this place"
Oh I love the layers in that song.
Great reactions, keep em coming. Need Only and Let me Go, 2 best on the album imo
I think this song is linked to the Interlude he’s added to the album. And also, I’m quite shocked that you didn’t refer to any personification in this song. NF says that “these voices keep speaking to me” and a few other words and if you remember in intro 3, after burying fear, he said he will keep anger with him cause he will need him to “that song” and here he’s talking about not being able to find hope or peace and that could be frustrating and make him angry hence the demonic kind of voice when he says “I can’t have it” 🤷🏽♂️ just a thought I got from your reaction to the song. Never saw it that way before
I haven't listened to interlude yet, just debating whether to do this in my own time or make a video on it! Thank you for the indpeth insight, how you feeling about the upcoming mixtape?
@@AltSpace depending on you but I guess it’s best in your own time cause it’s not even a minute unless you feel like sharing what you think about what it says which might just be great! And as for the mixtape ? I’m on my toes for it! Super excited
I met NF through a girl who I loved and was going through so much and she told me his music would have helped me get to know her better and more and I’ve been attached to NF since then cause besides the « dark and sad songs » his music still hits hard and I just can’t wait! Been excited since mansion and he’s never disappointed anyone so I guess the more excited you are, the more satisfying the mixtape will be
Oddly enough this song is the one that gets me through all my self hatred.
Thanks, Great breakdown.
I love the 15 min + reactions 👏🏾. Listen to Interlude privately as well for more context
Just subbed I like your reactions very solid channel
Listen to the interlude right before this song again and it Max sense
Trauma. In my opinion, what you just listened to was trauma, or what goes on inside of the mind AND heart of someone who has gone, or is going through trauma. I know he has a song titled "Trauma" as well, but this is just a different way of basically conveying a similar message.
This could also relate to Therapy Session as he could now be talking back to the therapist about how he feels about himself? @AltSpace
Wow great observation!!
That is super interesting.
On Spotify there's also a short track called interlude. It comes right before hate myself and kind of belongs to the song so you should listen to it. It's kinda interesting as well
If you haven’t already, you should go back and listen to Interlude. It’s just before Hate Myself on the album, and it gives some additional context and significance to Hate Myself (imo).
Maybe if you hear interlude it will put you in the right context.
Think about to how many people NF helped with his music.
People feel like they are not alone when they hear him and it is OK to feel bad.
For me literally changed my life.
I will never forget him.
This NF in my veins if you ... you know the rest ;)
Great reaction bro.
Jack is a visual representation of how long alt has been working through the journey lol he's gotten so big
You're absolutely right about the 'pour a drink' being an expression cuz Bridgette (his wife) wrote in one of her stories that Nate doesn't drink.
Wouldn't he die from dehydration? We need drink at least 8 glasses of water each day
One of my favorites, it's a sad song, almost as sad as your dogs expression after dropping his donut toy :(
Awww Puppy!!!
There's no backstory to hope because he hasn't found it yet. I mean it sounds pretty straightforward, he doesn't know what hope feels like so all he can do is say he's searching and not personify it yet
I'm 501 on the like button What!! Hey Dax what up my dog good to see you again. LOL
In other words the beat is a mask he has on to hide how he’s truly feeling
Exactly.
The end line is probably from Logic's "Confession of a dangerous mind" :)
Outta the features on Nate's upcoming mixtape, are you most excited about the track 'Lost' with Hopsin, or the track 'Trust' with Tech N9ne? In the context of the two features, everyone knew that a collab with Hopsin was in the works, but I feel like Tech N9ne was so left field and unexpected. Either way, I'm looking forward to the mixtape. From the Clouds video/song, I seems as though Nate is a lot more confident and self aware of how under appreciated his talent is. Like he's more comfortable with showing some cockiness. It suits him, and so I hope we'll get more tracks like that on this mixtape
This song gives me a twenty one pilots feel
The instrumental reminds me of his track time
"Put you ego on a shelf and love yourself" pretty sure it's a logic song, something something dangerous mind lol.
Listen to “can you hold me” next, one of my favorites 👌
One of my favourite things is seeing Dax grow throughout your videos haha I’m not crazy here he is definitely growing right?
He ain't grown since '06
@@AltSpace haha okay I’m going crazy then 😂 lockdown is doing bits to my head man
Haha I'm playing, he's only 6 months, his teeth are falling out now which means he's growing out of his puppy phase 😭
bro you gotta finish the search before the mixtape arrives!!
You gotta do the interlude that leads into this.
#altgang
4th comment... Love this song and love you (not in a gay way 😂)
Keep up the great work, greatly appreciate it
Haha love you too man
Dax enters the video *automatically like the video*
Are you going to come up with your list of your favorite NF songs?
Interlude + hate myself
Dog drops doughnut
dog: 😳
😂😂😂
“Put your ego on the shelf and love yourself” Logic- Confessions of a dangerous mind
50 points to you sir 🎉
@@AltSpace haha thanks love your vids!
You kinda did the fast tracks already, since you didn’t go in order 😂. The next tracks are a bit slower and target what he,s been through. Like my Stress, Only, let me go, and trauma. But they’re great records!
I actually laughed out loud at dax dropping his toy haha
Also, Logic! Give me my 50 pointss
Should listen to the interlude on the album maybe not react because it goes with this track but it really tells you what was going on
🎵 501 Shelby drive look alive said I was patient but I lied....(drake parodies)
NF came out with a new one!!! 😆🤷 hurry back! Lol 💜😃