this is the 4th time this week I am hearing of somebody losing a special person. I am very sorry for your loss and I only hope for the better for you. My condolences..
I’m so sorry for your loss. It took a lot of guts to make an extremely personal video like this, allowing everyone to see a very emotional side of yourself. Best wishes going forward.
My Daddy passed away in May 2016. I was in deep shit for about 9 months. No need for other words here, buddy. I really know that feeling... My deepest condolences to you and your family.
Glad to see you back, bud. I know life won't ever be the same for you, but I'm happy to see you determined to press forward. If you ever need anything that is in my power to give, just know that I'm just a message away. For what it is worth, I am still praying for you and your family's comfort and peace of mind.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I completely understand how you feel and what you went through (especially with hospice; that was the hardest part for me). I am so glad you are back and I'm looking forward to seeing videos from you again.
Coming from someone that lost their mother August of 2017. The pain will be there for a long time, but just live your life in a way that would make her proud. Keep your head up and keep making awesome metal videos!
If I can suggest something for your channel it would be doing more livestreams when you feel up for it. I love watching youtubers streams and it'd be fun to chat with you and your community
I'd like to, but it always turns into a shit show with idiots in the chat. Plus, I have absolutely awful internet at my house because I live in the woods and the only options are satellite internet (which is inconsistent) or DSL (which gets weaker the further away you are from the central hub) which is what I have. Its so slow, I can't watch HD videos.
We all love you CountBlagorath. I'm extremely sorry to hear about your loss. I had an Uncle who died from a tragic motorcycle accident one night on April 29 & just seeing him gone away just blows my mind emotionally. My condolences goes out to you & your family & hope you're doing alright. I know that feeling when losing someone very close to you.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I've lost an immediate member of my family and I know how you feel. You're clearly a great person and I hope the best for you.
We've all got your back man! Try Q&A livestreams, you'll be connecting with us guys, making content and it'll keep ya preoccupied. Just a suggestion chief, take it easy!
So sorry for your loss my brother. Don’t push yourself too hard, we will be happy with whatever you can give us. I hope you can have some good days whenever possible. And if you ever need anything I’m here for you
Sorry to hear about your great loss. It takes a lot of courage to let your guard down and get personal in front of so many people. Godspeed man, I hope you'll be able to move on and get back to a clear head space.
I noticed how much care and resources you put into keeping her healthy for so long because you talked about it so much during your past videos. It had to have been life-changing loss for you. Best wishes to you and your family and good luck with the future of the channel!
I'm really sorry for what you're going through, your loss, and all the emotions that come with that. I found your channel through my interest in, love, and passion for Celtic Frost. All I can do is wish you the best and thank you for the content that you make.
Sorry for your loss, i know your pain. I Lost my brother (and best friend) to cancer back in November and the First Whole month following was a blur of pain and sorrow. It gets easier but it is a slow process. I didn’t listen to music for about 2 months after he passed, it was too hard.
This video broke my heart, im so sorry for your loss count. I have a relative on hospus right now, and have lost too many people. It’s a very hard road to travel. You have so many people behind you and we all are supporting you. Stay strong count!
Hey brother I completely understand how you feel I lost my brother and know the pain that brings it will never go away you just find away to deal with it you got to do the things that make you happy it's been fifteen years since my brother died and it is harder everyday but you have to push ahead with your life I wish I had the bond that you have with your mother death is impossible to deal with & I wish you all the best keep true to yourself and represent her the best way you can I'll think about you peace brother
So sorry for your loss, Count. I really love your content, it's genuine to the core and appreciate you being strong enough to talk about personal things. Stay strong and keep doing what you love, nothing else matters. (Even though I enjoy your rant vids)
You got a lot of people that care dude and a support network thats here to listen. Take ya time soon a day will come that it feel easy to deal with the your loss. Take care man \m/
My deepest condolences to you, Count, and I'm deeply sorry for your loss. It takes real balls to post something like this, and I think I speak for everyone when I say keep pushing through.
We may just be a bunch of strangers on the internet, but we're here for you dude. If you need a shoulder to lean on, or someone to scream at the sky with, you know where to find us. If you want to make videos, do what feels right. You've always been real with us, and that's why we stick around, that's why we've got your back.
I feel your pain, Having lost my own child at a very early age things got messed up really quick. Try to stay strong and don't hold back the tears. They can be very cleansing. By doing this vid, you shared something truly powerful. I have respect for you. I like many others am here for you.
I'm so sorry Shawn. I talked to your mother on numerous occasions growing up and I adored her. My heart goes out to you, stay strong. Just be there for your dad I know it's tough and you'll want to keep your hands busy but him and Schmuck need you more than ever now.
You've been really strong through all of these tough times, and it makes me happy to see you're back on TH-cam. Don't rush man, but I hope things will get better for you soon enough. Take care.
Sorry for your loss bro! It truly shows you had a great love for her, and im pretty sure that your sadness is a reflection of your memory of her in her "strong" years, those memories are forever in your heart, keep em at all times and she will be with you your entire life. Love and respect from Sweden
My deepest sympathy, man.....really good to see + hear you again! So stay motivated....i´m sure, i´m one of many who are looking forward to your future videos.
Hey man, just wanted to give condolences. Loss of family is always life changing and difficult. Your channel has been something I always looked forward to. Small town, not a lot of metalheads so just listening to someone with similar music taste is refreshing. Stay strong man, my father's been disabled with pain for years and it sucks. Hail.
Condolences to you and you family Bro, I know it’s not easy to lose a loved one. Stay strong, take a break if you must, well be here to support you no matter what.
Really sorry for your loss man. That's got to be one of the most difficult experiences of a mans life. Keep pushing forward and listening to music even if it hurts to do it.
Sorry about your loss man; I can't imagine. I lost a great uncle and my wife lost her grandfather this past month. Stay in there man, the videos will take your mind off things a bit here and there. You're a good dude, i'm sorry to hear this.
I'm so damn sorry this happened. I lost my uncle a month ago and I miss him every day. No one will understand unless you lose some close yourself. It will shatter your world completely. So take your time brotha.
I am so sorry bro! My condolences goes out to you and your family. I understand this was the hardest thing you ever had to do especially on here. We’re all here for you Shawn.
Im very very sorry for your loss. :( keep your head up no matter what your mother is in your spirtes watching over you not in pain. Take your time as much you need man. You have amazing soul to do everything that you did for your mother man. Im so sorry 😔
Glad to see you're coming back man. Completely understandable that you're not doing well given the circumstances, and although I've already given my condolences on Instagram I'd like to give them again here. As a longtime fan all I can say is that no matter what happens, we the subscribers have your back and support you 100%. Keep going forward and stay metal my brother \m/
My condolences Count. My father passed away last month(February) 2018, he passed away in a hospice. Words will never fill that emptiness nor take away the pain immediately, just time....only time. But also look at the people who care for you(those in your family and those subscribed here). Take some time off if you must. Get your strenght. Be strong. We'll be here waiting for you.
Hey man ! I'm sorry to hear about this my heart and support hoes out to you an your family. It is not easy. Take care of yourself man. God fucking speed!
I lost my mom when I was 22. In another 13 days it'll be 7 years since and it still sucks. I'm truly sorry for your lose. March 1st was my mom's birthday, so this hit a little closer to home than usual. You do what you need, in life and on your channel.
My condolences. Stay strong, man. I know exactly what that feels like. When my mother passed away it took me years to get over those sudden pangs of pain and missing. Pain is now gone but the missing remains. Also I will never get over the fact that she never got to know my wife and our kid.
That's extremely difficult, it's hard for me to imagine what you must be going through. Through your updates about your life and your mother's health, I've always thought that you've were the best son to her. It takes a special kind of person to care for someone like that. It may seem like just the thing any decent person would do, but I think that kind of selflessness, compassion, love, is rare. Your commitment to your loved ones and strength throughout this says a lot about you. Wishing you the best! It will get better.
I don't think I'm in the minority of people here when I say that we appreciate what you do for us on this channel. You've dedicated so much time and effort into what you do for us, all without asking for anything in return. I personally was into some of the same music that you show us but you along with a very few others have broadened my music taste so much. I can not thank you enough. No one should be upset at your mild hiatus, you've deserve every bit of it to help you heal from this loss.
I'm so sorry for your loss! Stay strong, man. We understand that you're going through a hard time so you don't have to hurry yourself with making new videos. Also, if I may suggest something to make you feel better, start going to the gym. I've been dealing with depression for some time, and since I've started exercising, I've felt better and better. Just try to focus on something else, make some goals in life and try to reach them. Hope you feel better asap, cheers!
It's expected to act out of place when updating about something extremely personal such as this. We're here for you and take as much time as you need to recover and grieve. I send my condolences.
I'm sorry for your loss, my parents are both 40 years older than me and have a lot of health issues (not as bad as your mom though) so I always have some concern they're going to suddenly go. I'm definitely glad you're back to making videos, be well man.
Just Discovered your Channel Man,but i have the Feel that i should leave something here. I try to keep this short,this Year started Bad for me,from Suicide of a Person i loved to the Death of my Grandmother i had everything in the Past Months. But Change,especially that one that Hurts the Most when it Starts is always the best. The Most Important Thing at the Moment is that you look for yourself,do Things that do something good to you,take really care of yourself. You go from Day to Day due such Times,but it gets better. Wish you all the Best and the Strength to walk trough this Time. Charles Bukowski ones said ,,what matters most is how well you walk through the Fire'' and its True.
Really sorry for your loss Shawn, I hope that you have the ability to stay strong to get through this tough period. I'm glad to see you making videos again.
Lost my father at 18, can imagine what your feelings are even if nobody but you can understand them. You don’t need to force yourself to be ok, just take your time, don’t be afraid to ask for help and this will make you stronger in the future even if this is a very casual thing to say it’s true. Don’t underestimate your force. Take care of yourself Count.
So sorry for your loss. It sucks big time but it sounds like you have an amazing network of friends around you and that is the best medicine possible. They will laugh and cry with you and that is worth everything. Nice to see you back but sorry it's under these circumstances.
this is the 4th time this week I am hearing of somebody losing a special person. I am very sorry for your loss and I only hope for the better for you. My condolences..
SeptikSiren honestly, same. Except it’s the third time for me. Why is this world so rough, Liz?
Keep your head up, dude. You Are The Man.
I’m so sorry for your loss. It took a lot of guts to make an extremely personal video like this, allowing everyone to see a very emotional side of yourself. Best wishes going forward.
My Daddy passed away in May 2016. I was in deep shit for about 9 months. No need for other words here, buddy. I really know that feeling... My deepest condolences to you and your family.
So sorry to hear this news and for your loss. Looking forward to what you do next whenever you're ready. \m/
We are glad to see you back Count! Our hearts go out to you, Kat and your family. Take care!
Don't disable the comments, Count....this is the only way that we can speak with you.
If I do, it will just be for this video.
Glad to see you back, bud. I know life won't ever be the same for you, but I'm happy to see you determined to press forward. If you ever need anything that is in my power to give, just know that I'm just a message away. For what it is worth, I am still praying for you and your family's comfort and peace of mind.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I completely understand how you feel and what you went through (especially with hospice; that was the hardest part for me).
I am so glad you are back and I'm looking forward to seeing videos from you again.
Coming from someone that lost their mother August of 2017. The pain will be there for a long time, but just live your life in a way that would make her proud. Keep your head up and keep making awesome metal videos!
Sorry for your loss! My condolences to you man!
If I can suggest something for your channel it would be doing more livestreams when you feel up for it. I love watching youtubers streams and it'd be fun to chat with you and your community
I'd like to, but it always turns into a shit show with idiots in the chat. Plus, I have absolutely awful internet at my house because I live in the woods and the only options are satellite internet (which is inconsistent) or DSL (which gets weaker the further away you are from the central hub) which is what I have. Its so slow, I can't watch HD videos.
I getcha with the idiots in the chat, I can understand that. You can easily just ban them, or get moderators to do it, but still, I understand.
We all love you CountBlagorath. I'm extremely sorry to hear about your loss. I had an Uncle who died from a tragic motorcycle accident one night on April 29 & just seeing him gone away just blows my mind emotionally. My condolences goes out to you & your family & hope you're doing alright. I know that feeling when losing someone very close to you.
My condolences man. Also thank you voor sharing this very personal information with us
Sorry to hear this... my mother also has fibromyalgia such a shitty disease.😔, stay strong bro, because your strength gives me strength. PEACE
I'm so sorry for your loss. I've lost an immediate member of my family and I know how you feel. You're clearly a great person and I hope the best for you.
We've all got your back man! Try Q&A livestreams, you'll be connecting with us guys, making content and it'll keep ya preoccupied. Just a suggestion chief, take it easy!
So sorry for your loss my brother. Don’t push yourself too hard, we will be happy with whatever you can give us. I hope you can have some good days whenever possible. And if you ever need anything I’m here for you
My condolences to you and your family. Glad to see you back, stay strong dude, much love from Guam.
Sorry to hear about your great loss. It takes a lot of courage to let your guard down and get personal in front of so many people. Godspeed man, I hope you'll be able to move on and get back to a clear head space.
I noticed how much care and resources you put into keeping her healthy for so long because you talked about it so much during your past videos. It had to have been life-changing loss for you. Best wishes to you and your family and good luck with the future of the channel!
I'm really sorry for what you're going through, your loss, and all the emotions that come with that. I found your channel through my interest in, love, and passion for Celtic Frost. All I can do is wish you the best and thank you for the content that you make.
I'm sorry for your loss man stay strong, and it's great to have you back.
Sorry for your loss, i know your pain. I Lost my brother (and best friend) to cancer back in November and the First Whole month following was a blur of pain and sorrow. It gets easier but it is a slow process. I didn’t listen to music for about 2 months after he passed, it was too hard.
This video broke my heart, im so sorry for your loss count. I have a relative on hospus right now, and have lost too many people. It’s a very hard road to travel. You have so many people behind you and we all are supporting you. Stay strong count!
you maked my heart overwhelm with the emotion!! I have also loss and cope. Focus into your work and creative. I also love Cradle of Filth.
Hey brother I completely understand how you feel I lost my brother and know the pain that brings it will never go away you just find away to deal with it you got to do the things that make you happy it's been fifteen years since my brother died and it is harder everyday but you have to push ahead with your life I wish I had the bond that you have with your mother death is impossible to deal with & I wish you all the best keep true to yourself and represent her the best way you can I'll think about you peace brother
I'm sorry about your loss man. Take however long you need to get back into things
So so sorry Count. Wish I could give you a hug my metal brother. You made her proud and happy. May she rest peacefully.
So sorry for your loss, Count. I really love your content, it's genuine to the core and appreciate you being strong enough to talk about personal things. Stay strong and keep doing what you love, nothing else matters. (Even though I enjoy your rant vids)
My condolences to your family . And stay strong man!
Sorry for loss bro,we as a metal community we are here for you 🤘,take care
That’s so sad to hear. I lost my Mom 7 years ago to cancer. My condolences go out to you.
Sorry for your loss man your a great guy and dont deserve this hopfully u get through easier than most people
So sorry for your loss, man. Hope to see more videos from you in the future but also please take as much time as you need.
Sorry for you loss, man. Good to see you back!
You got a lot of people that care dude and a support network thats here to listen.
Take ya time soon a day will come that it feel easy to deal with the your loss.
Take care man \m/
My deepest condolences to you, Count, and I'm deeply sorry for your loss. It takes real balls to post something like this, and I think I speak for everyone when I say keep pushing through.
Stay strong man....! All the best wishes to you!! If you need us we will be here for ya! :)
So sorry to hear about your loss, stay strong.
We may just be a bunch of strangers on the internet, but we're here for you dude. If you need a shoulder to lean on, or someone to scream at the sky with, you know where to find us. If you want to make videos, do what feels right. You've always been real with us, and that's why we stick around, that's why we've got your back.
So sorry for your loss. Stay strong. Sending my condolences.
I feel your pain, Having lost my own child at a very early age things got messed up really quick. Try to stay strong and don't hold back the tears. They can be very cleansing. By doing this vid, you shared something truly powerful. I have respect for you. I like many others am here for you.
Welcome back man. My condolences.
I'm so sorry Shawn. I talked to your mother on numerous occasions growing up and I adored her. My heart goes out to you, stay strong. Just be there for your dad I know it's tough and you'll want to keep your hands busy but him and Schmuck need you more than ever now.
You've been really strong through all of these tough times, and it makes me happy to see you're back on TH-cam. Don't rush man, but I hope things will get better for you soon enough. Take care.
Sorry for your loss dude. Love the shirt. Keep your head up, stay positive.
I feel so bad for you... I shed a tear when you were talking man.. best of luck with your situation brother and my condolences \m/
Sorry for your loss bro! It truly shows you had a great love for her, and im pretty sure that your sadness is a reflection of your memory of her in her "strong" years, those memories are forever in your heart, keep em at all times and she will be with you your entire life.
Love and respect from Sweden
My deepest sympathy, man.....really good to see + hear you again! So stay motivated....i´m sure, i´m one of many who are looking forward to your future videos.
Sorry for your loss bud. My mom was diagnosed with cancer a few months ago. She is fighting for her life. Stay strong metal brother.
Hey man, just wanted to give condolences. Loss of family is always life changing and difficult. Your channel has been something I always looked forward to. Small town, not a lot of metalheads so just listening to someone with similar music taste is refreshing. Stay strong man, my father's been disabled with pain for years and it sucks. Hail.
Condolences to you and you family Bro, I know it’s not easy to lose a loved one. Stay strong, take a break if you must, well be here to support you no matter what.
Really sorry for your loss man. That's got to be one of the most difficult experiences of a mans life. Keep pushing forward and listening to music even if it hurts to do it.
Sorry about your loss man; I can't imagine.
I lost a great uncle and my wife lost her grandfather this past month. Stay in there man, the videos will take your mind off things a bit here and there. You're a good dude, i'm sorry to hear this.
I'm so damn sorry this happened. I lost my uncle a month ago and I miss him every day. No one will understand unless you lose some close yourself. It will shatter your world completely. So take your time brotha.
Sorry to hear that happened. Stay strong man, glad to see you back!
Stay strong CountBlagorath, carry into your heart her memory because she is with you right now.
I am so sorry bro! My condolences goes out to you and your family. I understand this was the hardest thing you ever had to do especially on here. We’re all here for you Shawn.
I wish you the best, brother. You have my condolences.
Im very very sorry for your loss. :( keep your head up no matter what your mother is in your spirtes watching over you not in pain. Take your time as much you need man. You have amazing soul to do everything that you did for your mother man. Im so sorry 😔
Sorry for your loss man, stay strong !!!
You know how metalheads are man we're all brothers and sisters. We love you and we're always gonna be here for you.
Glad to see you're coming back man. Completely understandable that you're not doing well given the circumstances, and although I've already given my condolences on Instagram I'd like to give them again here. As a longtime fan all I can say is that no matter what happens, we the subscribers have your back and support you 100%. Keep going forward and stay metal my brother \m/
My condolences Count. My father passed away last month(February) 2018, he passed away in a hospice. Words will never fill that emptiness nor take away the pain immediately, just time....only time. But also look at the people who care for you(those in your family and those subscribed here). Take some time off if you must. Get your strenght. Be strong. We'll be here waiting for you.
I'm so sorry for your loss man. Hang in there.
It’s important to keep doing the things you love. I have a lot of respect for you having made this. We’re supporting you through this tough time mate.
Sorry for your loss, brother. My condolences.
Hey man ! I'm sorry to hear about this my heart and support hoes out to you an your family. It is not easy. Take care of yourself man. God fucking speed!
I lost my mom when I was 22. In another 13 days it'll be 7 years since and it still sucks. I'm truly sorry for your lose. March 1st was my mom's birthday, so this hit a little closer to home than usual. You do what you need, in life and on your channel.
Sorry for your loss man. Thankfully we all have metal in our lives to help us cope.
My condolences. Stay strong, man. I know exactly what that feels like. When my mother passed away it took me years to get over those sudden pangs of pain and missing. Pain is now gone but the missing remains. Also I will never get over the fact that she never got to know my wife and our kid.
I'm so sorry for your loss you are a good man and a wonderful son for doing what you did if i could i would give you a big hug.
That's extremely difficult, it's hard for me to imagine what you must be going through. Through your updates about your life and your mother's health, I've always thought that you've were the best son to her. It takes a special kind of person to care for someone like that. It may seem like just the thing any decent person would do, but I think that kind of selflessness, compassion, love, is rare. Your commitment to your loved ones and strength throughout this says a lot about you.
Wishing you the best! It will get better.
Totally understand disabling comments, bro.
Im glad you're back. You've been in my thoughts. Stay strong my man.
I don't think I'm in the minority of people here when I say that we appreciate what you do for us on this channel. You've dedicated so much time and effort into what you do for us, all without asking for anything in return. I personally was into some of the same music that you show us but you along with a very few others have broadened my music taste so much. I can not thank you enough. No one should be upset at your mild hiatus, you've deserve every bit of it to help you heal from this loss.
Bless you. Your honesty is powerful, and you are being heard.
Sorry for the loss my friend!! Try to be as strong as you can, take care!!
How can 8 people dislike this ?
How disrespectful does someone need to be ?
Great to hear from you Count !!!
I'll stay here no matter what.
I'm with you no matter what happens dude and sorry for your loss
I'm so sorry for your loss! Stay strong, man. We understand that you're going through a hard time so you don't have to hurry yourself with making new videos. Also, if I may suggest something to make you feel better, start going to the gym. I've been dealing with depression for some time, and since I've started exercising, I've felt better and better. Just try to focus on something else, make some goals in life and try to reach them. Hope you feel better asap, cheers!
this video brought me to fkn tears bro, sorry for your loss it takes guts to get up n make a video so personal..
Nice to see you back dude! Sorry for your loss. I can't imagine the pain i'd feel if I lost my mom.
It's expected to act out of place when updating about something extremely personal such as this. We're here for you and take as much time as you need to recover and grieve. I send my condolences.
sorry for your loss my friend , stay strong ...my condolences from Venezuela
I'm sorry for your loss, my parents are both 40 years older than me and have a lot of health issues (not as bad as your mom though) so I always have some concern they're going to suddenly go. I'm definitely glad you're back to making videos, be well man.
Sorry for your lose man. Stay strong, I know your mom will be proud of you :)
My condolenses brother I'm very sorry for your loss
The metal will guide you to the path of enlightenment
Keep on keeping on love ya
Very sorry for your loss. Stay strong mate, I look forward to more of your videos in the future.
Awesome stuff, man. Glad you're healing.
Just Discovered your Channel Man,but i have the Feel that i should leave something here.
I try to keep this short,this Year started Bad for me,from Suicide of a Person i loved to the Death of my Grandmother i had everything in the Past Months.
But Change,especially that one that Hurts the Most when it Starts is always the best.
The Most Important Thing at the Moment is that you look for yourself,do Things that do something good to you,take really care of yourself.
You go from Day to Day due such Times,but it gets better.
Wish you all the Best and the Strength to walk trough this Time.
Charles Bukowski ones said ,,what matters most is how well you walk through the Fire'' and its True.
Really sorry for your loss Shawn, I hope that you have the ability to stay strong to get through this tough period. I'm glad to see you making videos again.
Lost my father at 18, can imagine what your feelings are even if nobody but you can understand them. You don’t need to force yourself to be ok, just take your time, don’t be afraid to ask for help and this will make you stronger in the future even if this is a very casual thing to say it’s true. Don’t underestimate your force. Take care of yourself Count.
i'm so sorry to hear about this. stay strong, we are here for you and we hope all the best to you and your family.
Sorry for your loss my condolences to you rock on bro
I'm glad you are back & I'm very sorry for your loss.
Welcome Back Bro, Stay Strong Man.
So sorry for your loss. It sucks big time but it sounds like you have an amazing network of friends around you and that is the best medicine possible. They will laugh and cry with you and that is worth everything. Nice to see you back but sorry it's under these circumstances.
We love you my dude. I've got another care package coming your way when I get back to my place. On vacation at the moment
Stay strong brother
I am so sorry for your loss and send my sincere well wishes to you and your family.