this is the first time i see a "my eating disorder story" video by someone with atypical anorexia and i feel seen. i also always felt like i was "failing" at having an eating disorder and actually hearing someone else say that makes me feel a lot less alone. i hope you are in a better place mentally by now
Thank you so much for this comment. I really am in a better place mentally. Completed my therapy 2 months ago and I feel very positive about the future in those aspects
Your 13-year-old you was sooo pretty, really (all of your child pics). I just want you to know that you're a real role model for how to deal with it for everyone who will see this video. I know you don't need and want compassion, but I love how straight-forward you are and I feel soo sorry (like it really hurts my soul to see) that you kind of missed how beautiful you were/are just because of some stupid disorder. I hope you'll go trough this as soon as possible and as stronger as ever xx
Just halfway through: that teacher.... even IF he thought you are bragging too much... would it have hurt him to just ignore it or to kindly tell you directly, that you could change your attitude? I mean... getting someone "off" their high horse is sometimes needed (if and only IF that person is really damn arrogant)... but it's not needed to crush those people down. Especially not teenagers as they still develope... I have met so so many people in my life and almost every single one of them got bullied at least once from one of their teachers. Happened to me as well... it really causes damage well until adulthood... thank you for sharing your story
I relate to this so much, i quit ballet because of ny eating disorder, body dysmorphia, anxiety and depression too. Thank you for sharing you're story. You are so strong and beautiful. Don't let the darkness stop you, you shine. Your journey is inspiring and I'm proud of you girl!!❤
This is really interesting. Our stories align a lot. I also started puberty around 11, and despised my changing body and I gained weight during that time. I would do the summer thing where I would think "this summer I'm gonna eat so healthy and exercise and lose weight" and of course, never did. I wanted to act, but the same thoughts of "I'm too ugly to ever be hired" stopped me from truly pursuing. I also danced and had acne on my back and wearing leotards was so shameful for me because of that and my perceived "fatness". The difference is, while I deal with a major anxiety disorder and still deal with low self-esteem and body image issues, I never did develop anorexia, nor body dysmorphia. It's interesting how two similar journeys lead to different outcomes. Thank you for opening up and being vulnerable. I think you'll help a lot of people
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It means a lot to know that I’m not alone in my struggles. It‘s been almost 2 years since this video and I‘ve come very far since then. I believe you can too and I‘m sending lots of love, strength and hope for your journey. We can all get better. Thank you again for your comment
I was so invested in this whole story, I cried along with you. I relate to this on such a deep level. Losing so much of my life because of a fucking eating disorder. Grieving what I couldn't have and coming to terms with it. I am 23 right now and sometimes it helps me to know that the life I still have ahead of me is so much more than my darkest years. Someday they will belong to a far past that I might barely even remember. We can always start again, re-invent our lives and embrace every part of it even if we come from a very dark place. I think going through such mental health issues have enabled me to emphasize and connect with others on levels I could not before. You lose a lot, but through all the misery, you also become a person with a much richer understanding of the world, someone who knows what it means to hold boundaries now. Maybe in the end we are more free than the ones who have no idea what it's all like ❤
wow wow wow, what an incredible video. you are so strong! i relate so much to your story and i feel so seen, thank you so much. i started ballet at 4 years old and lost touch with it at 15 and had to quit for the same reason. i never explained it to my instructor, whom i greatly liked and had the entire time i danced. she pushed me to be the best i could and gave me fun roles and i did jazz and hip hop and contemporary, but then i quit and it was all gone. i held onto all the good memories and spoke about them, but never answered why i quit when ppl would ask. before i quit i started going less and showed less enthusiasm and was losing my strength. i wish i told my instructor why i left and how amazing she was for all those years. it is very difficult to experience this but you are such an inspiration just by telling your story. i know this came out two years ago, but i personally found it at the right time. thank you for making this, i never comment on youtube videos but this deserves a big thank you.
Thank you so much for your comment and for sharing your story. It hurts so much to quite something you love. I‘m so glad you found the video at the right time for you. Sending you lots of love and strength
Seeing this makes me so sad and I'm so angry to myself that I didn't realise what was going on. I should have noticed.. I am very proud of for sharing this and I'm sure you will find your happy place again I love you❤ D
wow, I am so incredibly proud of you for sharing this. You are so brave and strong and one of the most amazing people I ever got to meet. Lots of love !!!
you have so much insight and our extremely self reflective! I have no doubt that as you become older, you’ll be able to handle whatever life throws at you. I thought I was strong but in my early 40s, I developed anorexia nervosa for the first time in my life. It took all those years of pretending I could cope.
Yes very true ! I think (I don’t quite remember since I filmed this 2 years ago) my age was in regard to my body developing earlier and more prominent than the ones of my peers. But yes you‘re totally right, 12 isn’t early for a period.
this is the first time i see a "my eating disorder story" video by someone with atypical anorexia and i feel seen. i also always felt like i was "failing" at having an eating disorder and actually hearing someone else say that makes me feel a lot less alone. i hope you are in a better place mentally by now
Thank you so much for this comment. I really am in a better place mentally. Completed my therapy 2 months ago and I feel very positive about the future in those aspects
Your 13-year-old you was sooo pretty, really (all of your child pics). I just want you to know that you're a real role model for how to deal with it for everyone who will see this video. I know you don't need and want compassion, but I love how straight-forward you are and I feel soo sorry (like it really hurts my soul to see) that you kind of missed how beautiful you were/are just because of some stupid disorder. I hope you'll go trough this as soon as possible and as stronger as ever xx
Just halfway through: that teacher.... even IF he thought you are bragging too much... would it have hurt him to just ignore it or to kindly tell you directly, that you could change your attitude? I mean... getting someone "off" their high horse is sometimes needed (if and only IF that person is really damn arrogant)... but it's not needed to crush those people down.
Especially not teenagers as they still develope...
I have met so so many people in my life and almost every single one of them got bullied at least once from one of their teachers. Happened to me as well... it really causes damage well until adulthood... thank you for sharing your story
I relate to this so much, i quit ballet because of ny eating disorder, body dysmorphia, anxiety and depression too. Thank you for sharing you're story. You are so strong and beautiful. Don't let the darkness stop you, you shine. Your journey is inspiring and I'm proud of you girl!!❤
You're soo brave for sharing your story and you really can be proud of yourself
Thank you so so much
This is really interesting. Our stories align a lot. I also started puberty around 11, and despised my changing body and I gained weight during that time. I would do the summer thing where I would think "this summer I'm gonna eat so healthy and exercise and lose weight" and of course, never did. I wanted to act, but the same thoughts of "I'm too ugly to ever be hired" stopped me from truly pursuing. I also danced and had acne on my back and wearing leotards was so shameful for me because of that and my perceived "fatness". The difference is, while I deal with a major anxiety disorder and still deal with low self-esteem and body image issues, I never did develop anorexia, nor body dysmorphia. It's interesting how two similar journeys lead to different outcomes. Thank you for opening up and being vulnerable. I think you'll help a lot of people
Thank you so much for sharing your story. It means a lot to know that I’m not alone in my struggles. It‘s been almost 2 years since this video and I‘ve come very far since then. I believe you can too and I‘m sending lots of love, strength and hope for your journey. We can all get better. Thank you again for your comment
I was so invested in this whole story, I cried along with you. I relate to this on such a deep level. Losing so much of my life because of a fucking eating disorder. Grieving what I couldn't have and coming to terms with it. I am 23 right now and sometimes it helps me to know that the life I still have ahead of me is so much more than my darkest years. Someday they will belong to a far past that I might barely even remember. We can always start again, re-invent our lives and embrace every part of it even if we come from a very dark place. I think going through such mental health issues have enabled me to emphasize and connect with others on levels I could not before. You lose a lot, but through all the misery, you also become a person with a much richer understanding of the world, someone who knows what it means to hold boundaries now. Maybe in the end we are more free than the ones who have no idea what it's all like ❤
wow wow wow, what an incredible video. you are so strong! i relate so much to your story and i feel so seen, thank you so much. i started ballet at 4 years old and lost touch with it at 15 and had to quit for the same reason. i never explained it to my instructor, whom i greatly liked and had the entire time i danced. she pushed me to be the best i could and gave me fun roles and i did jazz and hip hop and contemporary, but then i quit and it was all gone. i held onto all the good memories and spoke about them, but never answered why i quit when ppl would ask. before i quit i started going less and showed less enthusiasm and was losing my strength. i wish i told my instructor why i left and how amazing she was for all those years. it is very difficult to experience this but you are such an inspiration just by telling your story. i know this came out two years ago, but i personally found it at the right time. thank you for making this, i never comment on youtube videos but this deserves a big thank you.
Thank you so much for your comment and for sharing your story. It hurts so much to quite something you love. I‘m so glad you found the video at the right time for you. Sending you lots of love and strength
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Seeing this makes me so sad and I'm so angry to myself that I didn't realise what was going on. I should have noticed.. I am very proud of for sharing this and I'm sure you will find your happy place again
I love you❤ D
I hope you heal!! sending all good energy and praying tonight
thank u so much. I feel much better nowadays
wow, I am so incredibly proud of you for sharing this. You are so brave and strong and one of the most amazing people I ever got to meet. Lots of love !!!
you have so much insight and our extremely self reflective! I have no doubt that as you become older, you’ll be able to handle whatever life throws at you. I thought I was strong but in my early 40s, I developed anorexia nervosa for the first time in my life. It took all those years of pretending I could cope.
Thank you for sharing! Sending love to you
You're so strong!! Thank you for sharing your story, you are beautiful inside and out ❤
Thank u so much ❤️
Won me as a subscriber. I think it’s very brave of you to pour out your heart the way you did on this video 🌸🌸🌸
Im so proud of you 🥺Thank you for sharing and good luck for your journey from now on :)
So strong, thank you for sharing
Very strong to share the whole story!!
Felt it so deeply, thanks for sharing your story
That's exactly the video I needed to watch. It will change my life.
Thank you so much, Tulia ❤️
take care
That makes me so happy to hear❤️ I wish you all the strength in the world ❤️
Danke fürs teilen ✨
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12 is not early for a period
Yes very true ! I think (I don’t quite remember since I filmed this 2 years ago) my age was in regard to my body developing earlier and more prominent than the ones of my peers. But yes you‘re totally right, 12 isn’t early for a period.
Warum sprichst du englisch ohne Akzent???
She does have an accent, it’s in certain word pronunciations.
You kind of look like sofía vergara