My birth trauma comes from abuses and assault at the hands of my doctor's and nurses. An epidural failure causing me to feel my C-section and a nurse using her entire hand to check my cervix. There's so much more and it's been 5 years and things still pop up. Thank you for screening your patients, you're amazing.
I had such trauma after giving birth it preventing me from having more children, even tho I wanted more. I was active duty at the time and they treated me as an experiment and someone to learn from rather than a patient. I went in not wanting any intervention but because I came in with my water broke but "only 1 cm dilated" (I'm pretty sure this was wrong) they threatened to put someone on my cervix to stretch it out. Because right from the start I noticed I wasn't being listened to, I asked for an epidural so I wouldn't feel the pain I knew was coming my way. They gave me magnesium, then pitocin, my epidural ran out, no one was listening to me and wouldn't give me a bed pan, I was there for 2 days. Got an infection, they wouldn't let me eat only broth and jello, then ended up with a c section after they told me I wasn't progressing past 7 cm. I was in the hosptial 7 days...YES 7 DAYS POSTPARTUM. The nurse couldn't do a simple glucose test, they circumcised my son, vit K, and hep B without permission. I am very surprised we both survived the whole ordeal.
@@MisstressMourtisha can't. Active duty cannot sue for medical malpractice. However, great news for future patients...Trump signed into law the right for us to sue for medical malpractice, but that was in 2020, my son was born in 2013.
The military hospitals are the worst, I am lucky my son and I survived, I still feel physically ill thinking about the details. They treat pregnant moms like less than human too.
I had a premature c-section at 36 weeks and the whole experience was traumatic. I started going to therapy when I was getting ready to do IVF for my 2nd baby and it has helped so much. I’m 28 weeks with baby 2 now and I feel very confident, and I’ve learned ways to calm myself down if I’m getting worked up.
Thank you for mentioning that trauma can be things like a fast labor and hemorrhage. Because that was my experience I had a quick labor. My 1st baby was 22 hour labor. My 2nd baby was 3 hrs labor and 6 minutes pushing. I had no tears, it was a vaginal home birth. I was treated right and listened to. But i felt trauma from a fast painful labor. Then I hemorrhage and needed an ambulance hospital transfer. Retained placenta and they threatened a c section to get it out, but thankfully they got the placenta out vaginally. It came out in pieces. I fainted/blacked out 4 times at the hospital and almost died from blood loss. They gave me 2 blood transfusions. I have no scars from birth, but emotional scars and mental break downs. I'm 2 weeks postpartum and feeling better. But i dont think i want to go through birth again. ❤
I definitely had PTSD following a shoulder dystocia situation. It was my 3rd pregnancy, but 2nd labor (middle babe was sadly miscarried). 1st labor was precipitous- they were going to send me home at noon. He was born at 2:49PM. 2nd labor was induced due to PROM but active labor only lasted about 90 minutes, and transition was 9 minutes.) Doc had to sprint across the street from the clinic to get to me in time, and after a few pushes when the shoulder dystocia was detected, internal rotation and suprapubic pressure was used to deliver him. At first I was just in a fog and so thankful he was alive and healthy. But once I got home and things really started to sink in, I was obsessive about learning what could have been done differently, if it had been my fault, etc. (Thankfully babe was fine other than a broken clavicle and a BPI resulting in poor ROM in right arm until around 3 weeks old when it resolved on its own). Had trouble falling asleep, had recurring nightmares, almost all of the symptoms you listed. Was then told I should not have any more vaginal deliveries, so that was another blow to my mental health. And then at 9 weeks postpartum we were rushed by ambulance from a well-child check to the Peds ER for SVT (he was otherwise asymptomatic, so thank God it was detected that day!). After 72 hours of no sleep in the PICU, I finally had to take medication to stop the feelings of panic in order to sleep. It's wild how the mind can control the body and cause various REAL symptoms, even when you're not consciously aware of any "feelings" psychologically. Thank you for talking about this. Would love to hear your thoughts on my comment on your abortion video.
I have suffered from this for so long. Birth trauma Olympics here. 4 c sections, 3 emergent and extremely premature. I'm talking 24 weeks for the first and we both almost died. Failed anesthesia twice. 3 LONG nicu stays totalling 204 days. And the kicker, I have been a nicu nurse for 15 years and have to walk in and pretend I'm okay facing similar experiences. Breastfeeding is a huge trigger for me and I'm supposed to help women do it. I've tried all the meds, all the therapy. It's just getting worse. I lasted 5 months on the last medication, trintellix, but instead of wishing I were dead because of anxiety/depression/ptsd, the meds make me wish I was dead because of side effects like anhedonia and anorgasmia. So I've tapered off and going back into my dark hole because there really is no good solution without those side effects. I avoid public, TV shows, social media because invariably something triggers me. You are right. I definitely had ptsd with my first but it wasn't as severe. Second was more depression. Third I experienced anxiety but it went well and just the csection part was horrible but I got to take home a baby. Fourth one took me by surprise. I went 24 weeks, 31 weeks, 37 weeks and then a car accident derailed me and I had 4th at just shy of 28 weeks and had a HORRIBLE birth that i screamed through the whole thing. And it was a difficult extraction and left my body with visible evidence of the trauma. Now i have giant incisional hernias that im terrified to get fixed. This last birth broke me completely and i don't think I can be put together again. And I kept telling doctors, psychiatrists, therapists and no one believed me. Oh, you don't really feel that way. Here. Take some wellbutrin which will drive ptsd anxiety through the roof. Oh that didn't work. Have some ssri so that you feel dead inside and can't feel your vagina. That should make things so much better. My favorite was one therapist who said she didn't understand why I had ptsd if my kids all lived. Like almost dying AND almost causing the death of a couple of your kids is no big deal. Sorry for the rant. I sincerely thank you for taking up the cause that everyone pretends doesn't exist. I feel like people think as long as you get a baby in the end, that you are supposed to be grateful and that whatever you have to go through is worth it.
Here after a 2 year battle with ocd and anxiety; i suspect actually its trauma based from our birth. I was a midwife prior to my second son's birth; i had zero control, zero autonomy, was gaslighted, my baby was pretty much tortured due to gdm and their machines being faulty when drawing his blood therefore needing repeated bleedings. Horrific. Still surviving.
Such a hard topic. I’ve had my midwife neglect me during my first birth and then my second pregnancy resulted in a miscarriage. Fertility has brought me pain
Mine was super fast until it wasn't. I was already at 4cm 80% before everything and when I went into labor I was already at 8 when we got to the delivery room. The pain was so bad and hit me so fast I didn't have time to get my feet under me to cope. I really didn't want the epidural but I had seconds to decide and ended up getting it because I felt like I was going to pass out. My brain just couldn't handle it and just wanted to shut everything down. Then when it was time to push I was doing well, and we thought it was going to he done in just a few pushes, but she was sunnyside up and not turning. It ended up being almost 4 hours. I also started getting horrible heartburn everytime I came down from a push and threw up all over myself while laying down. The OB came in like 3 times and I still wasn't ready. They kept checking the clock and counting the hours . Everytime the OB came in and left I just thought "please come back" because I just wanted to be done. I was able to finally get her out because I was still going strong even though I was so tired and she was doing well the whole time. I know I should feel proud because I did it without a c section or assistance, but I can't stop feeling like I failed, especially since all of my friends did it within 20 minutes. Then I hemorrhage, and when they tried giving me oral fluids I just couldn't keep anything down. This was all after the pregnancy from hell. I had 24/7 nausea the whole way among other things.
Thank you for raising awareness. I specialize in treating women with trauma and use EMDR to treat birth trauma (as well as other traumas). This area of trauma is SO minimized by the shame factors of glorified motherhood, such as it being a time of expected JOY.
Sometimes comes from things that are completely out of their control. My team was wonderful and involved me the whole step of the way. My body and her position where what made my birth so traumatic. If it wasn't because of them my outcome could have been way worse.
My birth trauma comes from abuses and assault at the hands of my doctor's and nurses. An epidural failure causing me to feel my C-section and a nurse using her entire hand to check my cervix. There's so much more and it's been 5 years and things still pop up. Thank you for screening your patients, you're amazing.
Omg i am so sorry u went thru tht. How horrific!!
I hope you are able to heal. I'm sorry they hurt you. Hugs ❤
I had such trauma after giving birth it preventing me from having more children, even tho I wanted more. I was active duty at the time and they treated me as an experiment and someone to learn from rather than a patient. I went in not wanting any intervention but because I came in with my water broke but "only 1 cm dilated" (I'm pretty sure this was wrong) they threatened to put someone on my cervix to stretch it out. Because right from the start I noticed I wasn't being listened to, I asked for an epidural so I wouldn't feel the pain I knew was coming my way. They gave me magnesium, then pitocin, my epidural ran out, no one was listening to me and wouldn't give me a bed pan, I was there for 2 days. Got an infection, they wouldn't let me eat only broth and jello, then ended up with a c section after they told me I wasn't progressing past 7 cm. I was in the hosptial 7 days...YES 7 DAYS POSTPARTUM. The nurse couldn't do a simple glucose test, they circumcised my son, vit K, and hep B without permission. I am very surprised we both survived the whole ordeal.
i am so sorry that you had to experience such traumatic events. i hope that you and your baby are doing well🤍
What the fuck is this?!!!!
Sue tf out of them.
@@MisstressMourtisha can't. Active duty cannot sue for medical malpractice. However, great news for future patients...Trump signed into law the right for us to sue for medical malpractice, but that was in 2020, my son was born in 2013.
The military hospitals are the worst, I am lucky my son and I survived, I still feel physically ill thinking about the details. They treat pregnant moms like less than human too.
I had a premature c-section at 36 weeks and the whole experience was traumatic. I started going to therapy when I was getting ready to do IVF for my 2nd baby and it has helped so much. I’m 28 weeks with baby 2 now and I feel very confident, and I’ve learned ways to calm myself down if I’m getting worked up.
Thank you for mentioning that trauma can be things like a fast labor and hemorrhage. Because that was my experience I had a quick labor. My 1st baby was 22 hour labor. My 2nd baby was 3 hrs labor and 6 minutes pushing. I had no tears, it was a vaginal home birth. I was treated right and listened to. But i felt trauma from a fast painful labor. Then I hemorrhage and needed an ambulance hospital transfer. Retained placenta and they threatened a c section to get it out, but thankfully they got the placenta out vaginally. It came out in pieces. I fainted/blacked out 4 times at the hospital and almost died from blood loss. They gave me 2 blood transfusions. I have no scars from birth, but emotional scars and mental break downs. I'm 2 weeks postpartum and feeling better. But i dont think i want to go through birth again. ❤
I definitely had PTSD following a shoulder dystocia situation. It was my 3rd pregnancy, but 2nd labor (middle babe was sadly miscarried). 1st labor was precipitous- they were going to send me home at noon. He was born at 2:49PM. 2nd labor was induced due to PROM but active labor only lasted about 90 minutes, and transition was 9 minutes.) Doc had to sprint across the street from the clinic to get to me in time, and after a few pushes when the shoulder dystocia was detected, internal rotation and suprapubic pressure was used to deliver him. At first I was just in a fog and so thankful he was alive and healthy. But once I got home and things really started to sink in, I was obsessive about learning what could have been done differently, if it had been my fault, etc. (Thankfully babe was fine other than a broken clavicle and a BPI resulting in poor ROM in right arm until around 3 weeks old when it resolved on its own). Had trouble falling asleep, had recurring nightmares, almost all of the symptoms you listed. Was then told I should not have any more vaginal deliveries, so that was another blow to my mental health. And then at 9 weeks postpartum we were rushed by ambulance from a well-child check to the Peds ER for SVT (he was otherwise asymptomatic, so thank God it was detected that day!). After 72 hours of no sleep in the PICU, I finally had to take medication to stop the feelings of panic in order to sleep. It's wild how the mind can control the body and cause various REAL symptoms, even when you're not consciously aware of any "feelings" psychologically. Thank you for talking about this. Would love to hear your thoughts on my comment on your abortion video.
I have suffered from this for so long. Birth trauma Olympics here. 4 c sections, 3 emergent and extremely premature. I'm talking 24 weeks for the first and we both almost died. Failed anesthesia twice. 3 LONG nicu stays totalling 204 days. And the kicker, I have been a nicu nurse for 15 years and have to walk in and pretend I'm okay facing similar experiences. Breastfeeding is a huge trigger for me and I'm supposed to help women do it. I've tried all the meds, all the therapy. It's just getting worse. I lasted 5 months on the last medication, trintellix, but instead of wishing I were dead because of anxiety/depression/ptsd, the meds make me wish I was dead because of side effects like anhedonia and anorgasmia. So I've tapered off and going back into my dark hole because there really is no good solution without those side effects. I avoid public, TV shows, social media because invariably something triggers me. You are right. I definitely had ptsd with my first but it wasn't as severe. Second was more depression. Third I experienced anxiety but it went well and just the csection part was horrible but I got to take home a baby. Fourth one took me by surprise. I went 24 weeks, 31 weeks, 37 weeks and then a car accident derailed me and I had 4th at just shy of 28 weeks and had a HORRIBLE birth that i screamed through the whole thing. And it was a difficult extraction and left my body with visible evidence of the trauma. Now i have giant incisional hernias that im terrified to get fixed. This last birth broke me completely and i don't think I can be put together again. And I kept telling doctors, psychiatrists, therapists and no one believed me. Oh, you don't really feel that way. Here. Take some wellbutrin which will drive ptsd anxiety through the roof. Oh that didn't work. Have some ssri so that you feel dead inside and can't feel your vagina. That should make things so much better. My favorite was one therapist who said she didn't understand why I had ptsd if my kids all lived. Like almost dying AND almost causing the death of a couple of your kids is no big deal. Sorry for the rant. I sincerely thank you for taking up the cause that everyone pretends doesn't exist. I feel like people think as long as you get a baby in the end, that you are supposed to be grateful and that whatever you have to go through is worth it.
That's because medical professionals failed you in every single way. SMh. My only suggestion is weed. I'm sorry. That's so fjcked.
Here after a 2 year battle with ocd and anxiety; i suspect actually its trauma based from our birth. I was a midwife prior to my second son's birth; i had zero control, zero autonomy, was gaslighted, my baby was pretty much tortured due to gdm and their machines being faulty when drawing his blood therefore needing repeated bleedings. Horrific. Still surviving.
Such a hard topic. I’ve had my midwife neglect me during my first birth and then my second pregnancy resulted in a miscarriage. Fertility has brought me pain
Mine was super fast until it wasn't. I was already at 4cm 80% before everything and when I went into labor I was already at 8 when we got to the delivery room. The pain was so bad and hit me so fast I didn't have time to get my feet under me to cope. I really didn't want the epidural but I had seconds to decide and ended up getting it because I felt like I was going to pass out. My brain just couldn't handle it and just wanted to shut everything down. Then when it was time to push I was doing well, and we thought it was going to he done in just a few pushes, but she was sunnyside up and not turning. It ended up being almost 4 hours. I also started getting horrible heartburn everytime I came down from a push and threw up all over myself while laying down. The OB came in like 3 times and I still wasn't ready. They kept checking the clock and counting the hours . Everytime the OB came in and left I just thought "please come back" because I just wanted to be done. I was able to finally get her out because I was still going strong even though I was so tired and she was doing well the whole time. I know I should feel proud because I did it without a c section or assistance, but I can't stop feeling like I failed, especially since all of my friends did it within 20 minutes. Then I hemorrhage, and when they tried giving me oral fluids I just couldn't keep anything down. This was all after the pregnancy from hell. I had 24/7 nausea the whole way among other things.
Thank you for raising awareness. I specialize in treating women with trauma and use EMDR to treat birth trauma (as well as other traumas). This area of trauma is SO minimized by the shame factors of glorified motherhood, such as it being a time of expected JOY.
Any way you could cover focal/placenta accreta? This was my birth trauma and I’m having a hard time finding research on it.
If you care so much then why don’t you stop causing it and advocate for change within your profession?
She is advocating for change. And she is helping other moms who have experienced birth trauma. Her videos are so helpful. ❤
Sometimes comes from things that are completely out of their control. My team was wonderful and involved me the whole step of the way. My body and her position where what made my birth so traumatic. If it wasn't because of them my outcome could have been way worse.